#sounds fucking stupid on paper

[skiitter]

Cannot bring myself to start the latest Dungeon Crawler Carl book because lowkey this series is propping me up like i'm soggy cardboard and the next one isn't out until fucking July and I just don't know what I'm gonna do without these idiots until then.

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✷ Archmage Tethry Ikos ✷

[cdroloisms]

forgive me my demons but i see this take so much and it drives me a little crazy . c!Sam is stupid, obviously. He has no self-awareness, he somehow completely misses on the fact that his actions have social ramifications, he has a sense of entitlement a mile high and thinks that everyone automatically should fall in line and agree with his authority just because he decides that he has it. he navigates conversations with the grace of a wrecking ball because he assumes that everyone will agree with him being In The Right and therefore doesn't actually go for much more convincing half the time than "do what i say or you'll end up locked up in an inescapable prison." his moral compass is a roulette wheel and his justifications incomprehensible.

but at the same time, c!Sam is far from unintelligent. like, not just anyone was going to CREATE and then RUN pandora's fucking vault. he made a world eater ?? if there's like anyone on the server that could reasonably create shit to cause mass destruction across the server other than like the literal fucking nukes, then yeah it'd be him, see the world eater again. sure, he makes the craziest fucking assumptions off the fact that he's Right And Justified And The Ultimate Authority And Everyone Should Agree With That, but he's also able to lie and manipulate and gaslight and coerce and threaten pretty much without breaking a sweat if he ever deems doing so necessary for his own goals, and it's not like the methods by which he does so are like, all that clumsy either. like people absolutely bought his whole deal early on in the prison arc, believing him to be a well-meaning, burdened Warden doing Whatever It Takes for the good of the server, which did in large part have to do with how his character talked about the prison to others and such, etc. just because c!sam is crazy bonkers and expects his ex to forgive him chopping their arm off doesn't mean that he's completely incapable of being pretty damn convincing at some points.

and like, even more importantly, his being dumb really didn't make him ANY less intimidating. i'd argue that it made him A LOT WORSE, honestly! just because his moral bullshit is twisted up in knots doesn't mean that he's any less dangerous for it. c!sam is, honestly, from the top of my head, one of the most casual about being violent on the server, purely because he believes he has a Right to it. he believes that people owe him obedience by virtue of who he is. he threw several people into pandora's vault WITHOUT LIKE, ANYONE KNOWING just because he decided that they deserved to be put in prison. he kidnaps a toddler??? c!Sam really doesn't bend himself in half trying to justify things according to someone else's moral system; as he literally does in that one scene with c!Bad during the stream where they investigated Sam Bucket, he literally just. is the epitome of the guy that lets himself do shit because he has a self-written permit that says i do what i want. the only thing getting in the way of c!sam's bullshit is c!sam, and i think that people honestly chronically overestimate how much he holds himself back from horrific violence. he stabbed a teenager to Make A Point about his authority? he repeatedly threatens hannah, one of his own employees, because of things she did while being mind controlled--and then like, uses this to excuse himself of? workplace harassment? in the stream after techno escapes with dream, he literally MAKES UP A REASON to be really fucking angry at dream and then threatens TO TORTURE HIM over it. when new people joined the server he would threaten them with a sword for asking questions about the prison in a way that seemed too 'dream sympathetic.' and he regularly tells people that he would commit all the atrocities again, including ponk, because he's entirely 100% convinced that everything he does is justified?

and a lot of the stuff people hold against him, like. sure, his plan to contain technoblade didnt work, but it SURE DID WORK BETTER THAN ANYONE ELSE THAT TRIED, DIDNT IT? like techno would've been decently screwed if he didn't have a statis chamber set up. and well, the situation with dream speaks for itself--he was stuck in there for ten months. a lot of what people attribute to c!Sam's stupidity really does very little if anything to make him less scary--less effective, maybe, but for every time his moral bullshit gets in the way of him getting something that he wants there's probably a few other times you can find where his ability to justify himself out of anything makes him do something fucking ridiculous . anyway i dont even have a point to all of this except c!sam is scary as fuck bro

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[ronanlynchbf]

and then an overwhelming sense of dread apear.

[tibby]

truly exhausted of “”feminist”” films that don’t even really say anything revolutionary or even explore basic issues in depth and instead rely on 2013 tumblr esque dialogue to make a movie that feels hollow and removed from any subtlety or nuance because it’s too busy throwing basic statements at you like a hand grenade and almost play into these ideas of strawmen and make characters feel less like people and more like caricatures. but then because the film is so heavily based on this idea of being “”feminist”” any criticism is written off as just “hating women” because apparently film criticism dies whenever the movie is supposedly some feminist piece of art. a movie being by women and about women doesn’t inherently make it good and if all you’re doing is providing a more sanitised version of a movie that was made ten, twenty, fifty years ago then your stories are not only bland but also unoriginal.

[kaisollisto]

smashing the bottle on the floor because what do you mean I have to start over, i'm in rehabilitation for a limb I didn't even lose,

[girlthativealwaysbeen]

so tired of being a shitty bandaid for my parents' loneliness. like have u ever considered you passed your curse to me and some days i feel so lonely it's like i can't breathe around the emptiness in my chest????

[tauforged]

every day is a battle to not beat myself up over every mistake and assume that everyone looks down on me cuz i’m new to this job. i’m getting there but oh my god is it a struggle

[spacepunksupreme]

Just watched the Spanish 1931 Dracula this morning and it really did hold up a lot better than the English version?

I don’t know that you could call either one “better”, but I think it was just a lot more cinematic than the English version is theatrical. Like the characters spend so much time in English one monologuing about scenes we don’t see, from head-on camera angles. But the Spanish one just had more scenes with more set changes and camera work. Just kinda interesting how that made it more compelling where the English one really drags on despite being 20 minutes shorter lol

[rodrickheffley]

honestly funny the sheer amount of posts ive seen making fun of the tortured poets department as a title by people are operating under the assumption that taylor herself is being 100% serious with it like if you even just listen to the title track you'd know she means to be tongue in cheek about it. i don't think "we're modern idiots" is a good line* but it does very clearly speak to her self-critique regarding the way she finds comfort in viewing herself especially at that tumultuous time in her personal life.

of course it's not 100% ironic either, it is true to how she felt/feels but i don't think that negates any of the self awareness re her romantic relationships and certain coping mechanisms.

contextually it makes a lot of sense, not even taking into account the ways in which her celebrity fits into it which i know can be annoying to hear her (and others) talk about which i do understand lol. but i do think its disingenuous to act like the complexities of what comes with her level of fame is something that is like. not meaningful at all to discuss even though her self awareness of her own privilege can be extremely frustrating. it would be strange if it never came up and i think people would be mad about it if it didn't

*it actually it kinda annoys me beyond it sounding bad but thats another topic re the contrast between her romanticization of the chelsea motel/that era and her effort to de-mythologize her own life to herself but yeah whole different post and also idk if my thoughts on it are accurate to what she's trying to convey/actually felt. still would be a bad line either way but yeah

[demonicimagery]

i’m not yet fully sure how to annunciate this but satine kyrze in clone wars is written in such a way that the writers misogyny is inextricable from her character for me and it’s very hard to like her or hate her or really cohere what she could have been. like the relationship that damara has to hussie’s racism in homestuck but without the handmaid. maybe it’s my own thing but all portrayal of her positive or negative falls flat to me bc it’s so removed from what her character is or it’s too fucking sexist to stomach

[fingertipsmp3]

Swear to god if I was actually a proper reddit user I’d be posting the stupidest AITA posts

[wabblebees]

how the actual FUCK do u write a ~research question~ and a ~hypothesis~ when yr entire thought process consisted of "i like corvids and i wanted to study how they interact with humans ((bc i want them to be my friends))" and then u spent months just collecting articles and scientific research papers bc they made u go "heehee hoohoo funnie birdie so smart so silly"

i have a presentation Tomorrow and the paper is due this friday and i am FUCKED

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[bim-bubby]

hi! psychology student here!

TL;DR: adhd isnt real, its the goddamn phones. /j (While the "adhd" brain might have memory issues, these symptoms have much more to do with the enviroment in the current year than having adhd /srs)

disclaimer: This is from the top of my head, using common language to refer to academic topics, and not properly sourced and researched, so i encourage further readings on the topic! dont just trust stuff you read online!

i don't think adhd really has that much to do with these symptoms.

While, sure, the structure of the brain we typically associate with what we call "adhd" might have a higher chance of having short-term memory difficulties, it is massively exacerbated by the enviroment (including people, geographical location, things, habits, objects, sounds, etc) around you! sad to say guys, it is the damn phones.

Well, not just the damn phones, but theyre big on it. Usually, """"neurodiverse"""" brains have a higher (or lower, but im focusing on the higher) perception of stimuli, like when autistic people have trouble with sounds/smells/touch/etc/all of the above... So how the fuck do you expect us to survive and be normal in current year? Go outside, there are thousands of things happening, very loud things! cars! billboards! people! And thats a small part of it!

we are all fucking stressed all the goddamn time. Capitalism. The current state of things. And stress eats away at your brain, the more stressed someone is, i assure you, the dumber they act.

and about the fucking phones, theyre made to train you to use it, we're literally pavloved to click our lives away on these things. The colors, the constant pouring of content where you only scroll, its stealing your autonomy and preventing brain activity. If you want to gain muscle, you need to train it, you have to use it enough until it grows, and we dont use our brains, simple as that. We are made to not use our brains, its designed that way.

Also, brain and body are linked- and by linked i mean dont fuckin separate them, our consciousness doesnt live in our brains, we are our bodies, our whole existance is defined by the body we are. Humans explore the world through our senses, we need to exercise the ones we have to have a full experience. And guess what senses being online uses... touch and vision, usually. You dont feel anything besides plastic and glass, dont smell anything besides whats around you (even if you do, notice how your senses are dulled while on the phone?).

So that "brain fog" is probably not the adhd. careful not to explain yourself through a label a pharmaceutical company put on you to sell drugs.

aaand im going to go back to doomscroling... still havent got to the part of the course where they teach you to fix it lol ( But like. Exercise, not using short-form, eating nutrients you need and mindfullness (away from your phone) really really reeeaally do help. )

the curse of adhd:

i will remember with absolute clarity, when the thought strikes me that i have a text to send someone, that this is the fourth time in three days i've attempted to send this specific text

i will forget, in the time it takes me to pick up my phone, that i picked it up intending to send a text