#soul divorcing my body rn

[bleps-fixation]

Wot?!?!?!

fellow and gidel’s localized names

You heard it here first, folks!

In Twst EN, Fellow Honest will be Ernesto Foulworth and Gidel will be Gino. They’re ultra Italian now—

You can read more about the EN news here.

[b4kuch1n]

the legends speak of it as a kind of enthrallment: the life ended by the tiger is tied to the tiger. in this way there is a line of souls following the beast, for no reason except to show that they were killed. that they could be saved - if only the beast would die [...] in the dark of the wood you see it walk, shadow to shadow, followed by loss after loss after loss, a tail trailing seemingly into the deep death of night [...]

[withlove-xixi]

— THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN MISSING YOU AND WANTING YOU BACK: chilchuck x reader

ᥫ cw: angst, break up/divorce ᥫ wc: 820 ★ we are back baby!! oh and if it's written weird, then its just because this a sort of vent i guess ? im fine really, i just want a way to verbalize my emotions rn and there just so happens to be a conveniently placed divorcee in front of me (‾̀◡‾́ ๑) cross posted on ao3

— MORE THAN ANYTHING, CHILCHUCK CRAVED WARMTH

[♡]: chilchuck isn’t the best when it comes to his emotions. at most he can tell what he’s feeling, he knows he’s angry when he comes across particularly annoying people, he knows he’s happy when he has a nice drink of something expensive and delicious, and he knows he’s sad when he’s missing you.

CHILCHUCK WISHES, with every atom in his body, with every bit of his soul, with every ounce of his heart, that he could be selfish.

There’s this part of him that’s missing, some part he had a feeling he would lose, one way or the other; that part was you. As ashamed as he is to admit, the thought has passed his mind more than he’d like, as if he had already counted how many steps there were left until you walked another path, how much more grains of sand were left until you grew tired of him. Chilchuck can’t blame you— He could never bring himself to do that. Not when, in the depths of his sorrow-laden heart, he knew it was his fault.

He wants to say the signs were there, because if he had looked back at the final moments of his life with you, they were there; all the telltale symptoms of a dying love. It was the way you gradually stopped coming by the door to greet him when he came home, the way your eyes had slowly grown sullen with worry and exhaustion, the way you eventually he’d come home to find you already asleep. 

It had all happened gradually, not enough to have been particularly slow, but enough that the half-foot should’ve noticed from a mile away.

So, Chilchuck wishes he were selfish. This loud, angered part of him wishes he hated you. He wishes he hated the way your eyes shone when you looked at him, the way you smiled when he kissed you, the way you’d whisper a syrup-coated “I love you” before bed. With every fiber of his being, Chilchuck wanted to hate you. He’s convinced it would be easier that way, it’s easier to strike down your enemy, it’s easier to kill a stranger. But it was you, sweet, kind-hearted you. The same you that had tucked Chilchuck into bed when he got sick and was too stubborn to rest, the same you that had bought him an expensive bottle of ale on a random weekday just because, the same you that he had danced with in the rain the first time he asked you out, the same you that blew him kisses when he left, the same you that leaned against him when you were tired.

Chilchuck’s eyes hesitantly dart around the house, now more empty than ever, and only then does he realize the scar you had carved into it. He sees the window where you’d have stood waiting for him to come home, the couch where you two would come napping together, the kitchen where you made sure he was loved with a warm meal, the hallway littered with little notes and letters you two had given each other over the years. If he closed his eyes, he was still there; the smell of warm roast from the kitchen and fresh flowers in the living room

The house was well-loved, scorched with the memories you had together, every nook and cranny a different moment of tenderness and love. And more than the house, Chilchuck was well-loved.

His hands hold the kisses you pressed into his scars, the warmth of your cheeks, the weight of your body. His tongue brands the sweet way you taste, the motion of your name spilling from his lips. His heart beats with every ounce of love he still carries for you, and with it, every infinite moment you might never share.

It’s why Chilchuck wishes he was selfish. He wishes, truly, that he could simply pin the blame on you, trash his well-loved house, still neat and tidy like you had left it, like you always kept it, and tell everyone that knew you of how you so suddenly up and left without so much as a note or a goodbye or a kiss or a “I’ll see you again, someday.” But instead Chilchuck is left to wallow in some strange sort of illness, a terrible mix of grief and guilt and indifference.

It’s this gloom in his heart that he doesn’t like, the same feeling he had been recklessly burying beneath work, what are his plans next week, what should he eat for dinner. He can’t really tell what exactly he’s feeling, mainly because he doesn’t want to. It was as if his whole being had been shrouded in darkness, not enough to consume him just yet, but enough for him to notice from a mile away, enough to cast a permanent shadow on his life.

He needs to be selfish, put himself above you, above how he hurt you. Chilchuck needs to parade around town waving a flag of victory on how you had so tragically left him. He needed to be selfish, to find a way to absolve himself of this heavy guilt that nearly crushing is poor body.

More than to be selfish, Chilchuck needs a drink.

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

HIIII MACKINTOSH goob morning,,, pd episode 11 update ASHE MOMENT hi. hi oh my god. everyone HAS to be obsessed with him right?? he has to be like a fandom favorite guy HES GOT A CURSED GRIMOIRE!!! awsome. awesome sick i love him.

REALLY chewing on all the dakota & william stuff this episode... what will said about his wisp form being kind of terrifying because he never knows if he'll really be able to return to his body... ohh man thats so good. kid who's soul is just kind of held in by a thread rattlin around in there... + also this ep was great re: the trivia point u mentioned last night ab dakota & will clashing morality!! bc yeah!!! wild that wiwi's hesitance to Torture People wasn't because of the Torturing People part but just bc he's afraid of himself... dakota just having to Leave partway through... aughh. vyncent also holy shit!! all of these guys are having such a bad time.

I LOVE ASHE oh my godd. such a specific type of alt kid i love him. type of guy i would befriend like a shy stray cat at orchestra camp after complimenting his red jumpsuit apparatus hoodie. also there HAS to be insane amounts of discourse re: wavelength (holy shit. mark. mark. shrieked at that. i feel like i cant call him that its too weirddddd) parenting methods?? there HAS to be people who r like well i can excuse the murders but i draw the line at homeschooling ur bound-to-a-demonic-book kid. yeah youre right he & tide r so divorced 2 me. single dad & single mom. why is he so intent on getting tide back hmm??!!

anyway... hghghbk. good episode i won't make this even longer & start talking ab the spirit world stuff (!!!???!!!?!!?!!) BUT i hope u r having a good dayyyyy <3333

FUCK YEAAAAAH IM SO EXCITED YOUVE FINALLY MET ASHE I LOVE HIM SOOOOO MUCH. I LOVE HIM SO VERYMUCH . AUAGHGHHH. ashe winters my boy forever... i KNEW u would like him i could feel it in my BONES. hell yes. love love love a grimoire guy :]

I CANT WAIT 2 SEND U THE TRIVIA FOR THIS EP i started writing it out at the beginning of my shift this morning and then had to go to like a billion meetings so you dont get it until i get home. but theres some TASTY behind the scenes characterization discussion. ohhh thays my favorite. esp irt dakota this ep :] i love him so much . i love all of them so much

ANYWAY. william ashamed of his powers mkment!!!! my boy he is made of catholic guilt. anyway. i fucking loved how he ghost shaped his spirit form for intimidation instead of actually using it. hes so smart hes so cool hes everything to me if i start thinking about william wisp for too long ill go fucking bonkers crazy.

MARK. MAAAAAAARK. DUDE IM SO FUCKING GLAD YOUVE FINALLY LEARNED HIS NAME BC IVE ALMOST CALLED HIM MARK IN UR NOTES SO MANY TIMES AND IVE HAD TO CORRECT MYSELF. wavelength who. this is my deadbeat dad best friend mark winters. HES NOT A DEADBEAT DAD. IM SORRY. ok ok ok. i cannot say much irt him rn but there IS a reason hes like this hes not just shitty for the sake of it. he does care very much hes just bad at it. uhhhhhhghdgdgdgggdgdrrrghg i love him. a lot . #1 mark winters apologist blog right here. im not even sorry. luckily..luckily i have not seen the discorse about him yet but i know its out there somewhwre. sigh.

u know whats funny. youll hear this a little bit but its mostly in the bts stuff. grizzly fucking HATES mark. and that bleeds into how he plays dakota which makes sense but its SO FUNNY in the rolleds just how much he gets mad at mark. which !!! understandable he sucks hes terrible. but im built different i love him.

AND TIIIIIIIIDE. hey. hey remember when william was interrogating mark the first time. in the holding cell. and he tried to use a ghost shaped tide at first but mark called bullshit right away because "tide's never spoken to me like that before" hey . fellas.

[cowboyfoxy]

ayo!!! tell me abt ur timeline/rewrite!!

walks up. so scared. okay so. things are STILL changing ofc. ill try to simplify stuff..m and make it make sense (alot.of it is STUCK in my head. havent writtenijt down yet] and im COMPLETELY rewriting it. AGAIN.

basically the (New) timeline goes like this game wise

fredbears / fnaf 4 (83)

fnaf 2 (charlies death)

sister location (lizzies death)

pre-witherd animatronics (5 kids)

fnaf 2 (87, and another murder)

fnaf 1 (wills death)

sister location (mikes death)

fnaf 3

nightmare springtrap (PERSONAL IDEA)

pizza sim (death 2 all)

fnaf VR (glitchtrap & vanny)

Fnaf SB

RUIN

^ once i get everything written out i will discuss this more but i love talking abt it. so much.

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this is the OLD one. most things here will stay the same but. im. im like [shaking] im so hyper rn u dont knoe whay younjust did to my brain.

im like half awake rn so i just... copy and based what i have barebones. sorry. im. aaa. ah. ah.

William Afton (1944)

Michelle Afton (1945)

Parents 25&24y/o 1st born ; Michael Afton (born 1969)

6-7 years later

Parents 31&30y/o 2nd born ; Elizabeth Afton (born 1975)

Parents 32&31y/o 3rd born ; Eddie Afton  (born 1976)

Henry Emily (1945)

Mrs. Emily (1944)

parents are 26&25y/o Charlie Emily (born 1970)

parents are 36&35y/o Sammy Emily (born 1970)

Charlie and sammy are twins

Susie Campbell

Gabriel palmer

Fritz dover

Jeremy J. Jones

Cassidy Fitzgerald

Jeremy Fitzgerald

Michael looks a lot like his mother, Michelle. While Elizabeth looks a lot like her father, William.

Eddie looks like them both.

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FREDBEARS FAMILY DINNER 19??-1983

William Afton

Melissa Afton

Michael Afton

Elizabeth Afton

Eddie Afton

Henry Emily

Mrs. Emily

Charlie Emily

Sammy Emily

Eddie(7) died 1st in 1983 due to Michael putting his head into the mouth of Gerald Fazbear (Golden freddy), 

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1984 - early 1986 (FNAF2 PRT1)

William Afton

Charlie emily

Henry emily

puppet

golden bonnie

golden freddy

ennard

but a year after Eddies death(in 1994), Charlie Emily(14) was found dead in a back alley with the puppet animatronic.

Ms. Emily (now divorced) took Sammy with her after Charlies death, Henry isnt able to contact sammy

ennard is moved to Circus world

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1985 FNAFCW (during FNAF1)

William Afton

Michael Afton

Elizabeth Afton

Melissa Afton

Elizabeth(10) died a couple years after in 1985 thanks to Circus baby, which the 'circus' animatronics got scrapped and turned into the Toy animatronics

Mrs. Afton left state to pursue her dreams, staying in Utah broke her down, Michael pushed his mother to leave with the promise of finding her when he grew older. (She died in 1987, but she starred in a soap opera called the immortal and the restless which ran from 1985-1986)

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late 1983- early 1986 FNAF1

William Afton

Henry Emily

Phoneguy

Chica Chicken

Gerald "Golden" Fazbear

Bonnie Bunnie

Freddy Fazbear

Foxy "The Pirate" Foxx

During the same years 1983-1986, the fazbear killings (missing children) happened [mid 1984, Charlie, early 1984 susie, late 1984 Cassidy & Jeremy late 1985 Gabriel & Fritz] and the bodies were never found.

in early 1986, William afton sought-after each animatronic, tearing them apart which in turn released the trapped souls of the missing children

Susie > Chica Chicken

Cassidy > Gerald "Golden" Fazbear

Jeremy > Bonnie jr. Bunnie

Gabriel > Freddy Fazbear

Fritz > Foxy "The Pirate" Foxx

Which chased him around the establishment until he crawled inside a golden bonnie suit, and set off the springlocks due to the moisture in the air and hasty movements, "Killing" him instantly.

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mid 86- late 87 FNAF2

Jeremy Fitzgerald - 19, born in 1967

Michael Afton - 17

Toy Theodore fazbear

Toy Chelly Chicken

Toy Foxie Foxx

Toy Benjamin Bunnie

Puppet

After FNAF1 closed in 86, the 'orginals' where used to fix up the toys, since the left over circus animatronics (only being baby, and a scrapped endo skeleton wired mesh [ennard]) have been relocated to a new, refurbished Sister Location. Which renamed them as the Funtime animatronics.

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2000 FNAFSL

Michael afton - 31

Ennard

Clementine Circus "Baby"

Funtime Frederick Fazbear

Funtime Bonbon & Bonnet

Funtime Foximir Foxx

Circus Foxy (Lolbit)

Funtime Ballora Ballerina

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2023 FNAF3

Michael Afton - '54' died at 31 in 2000s

William Afton / Springtrap - '79' died at 45 in 86'

Henry Emily - 78

Phone dude - 26 (born in 1997)

2023 , fazbear frights opens up, using SPRINGTRAP as the main attraction, along with the puppet. (the puppet still being possessed by Charlie Emily

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2029(?) FNAFPS

Henry Emily - 84

Michael Afton - '60'

Rockstar Leon "Lefty" / Puppet / Charlie

Elizabeth / scrapbaby

Molten

Scraptrap

Rockstar Richard Fazbear

Rockstar Chica-dee

Rockstar Foxworth foxx

Rockstar Bon Bunnie

Im sorry to interrupt you, Elizabeth,[airhorn sfx] if you still even remember that name [vine boom sfx]

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2035 FNAFVR

Jeremy Fitzgerald

Vanessa A.

other playtesters

glitchtrap virus

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2038 FNAFSB

Phone dude

Vanessa A.

Vanny

Gregory

Burnttrap / Glitchtrap / mimic whatever tf

Molten / blob

Freddie Fazbear

Montgomery Gator

Roxanne Wolf

Chicalynn Chicken

Foxxer " the Pirate" Foxx

Sun

Moon

8 more kids killed

GREGORY freed himself from the tomb of the game by himself, but leaving with no recollection with what he had done when he was controlled by glitchtrap.  used to lure kids with games and laughter and something cool to show them! SIKE! twas a lady in a bunny costume

Ruin DLC ... maybe 2039 ...? [W.I.P UNTIL IT COMES OUT]

cassie

Gregory

Sun & moon & eclipse

Freddie

Chicalynn

Monty

Roxy

Bonathan Bunnie

MXES

tangle / blob

mimic..???? WHATEVER THE FUCK

[harmonictechnicality]

HARMONY! HARMONY!!!! I ran out of tags trying to describe how much I loved this last update to Memory Logs I am having an out of body experience rn I didn’t even get to describe my favorite part!! THE WAY!!! YOU DESCRIBE THE FEELING OF BRAND NEW FINALLY REALIZED AND REQUITED LOVE!!!!! AAAAAAA literally how do you see and write on the human experience so clearly, you are some kind of wizard, *you’ve got mail voice* ms. 152 insights into my soul… “you thought I was mocking you??” vs actually teasing him about the !!!below deck!!! club (which lmao the existence of) but Steve just being so hyped that Eddie’s into him that it all comes out in this wash of bubbly feelings (“dear god stop this madness”), and “wants to stock up on chapstick and water so they can make out all night” OK SO I SWOONED, SHOW ME SOMEONE WHO WOULDNT, Steve giVeS EDdIE hiS RIIINNNNGGGG, “IT WOULD BE A PLEASURE TO RESTART WITH YOU”, the FOREHEAD KISS!!!! I don’t know how you do this, but if I ever lost my memory, rereading all of your fics again for the first time would be such a pleasure. Rereading them after a week is a pleasure. Rereading them right after finishing reading to note down every favorite line is a pleasure!! You get my drift haha… anyway thank you for being such a queen and sharing your incredible writing with us for free. I am wishing you many dark chocolate pudding cups, and much fan art to delight you, and a very generous rest for your wrists on the other side of all this typing, and a very marvelous week 💕💕

OMG your tags were giving my LIFEEE how rude that they would ever cut you off like that! I need to speak to the internet manager asap!! 😂😂

HAHA the wizard line is *extra* perfect because Steve would *also* blame such sorcery on a wizard (he definitely called Vecna a wizard that is obsessed with clocks and I will never let that go lol).

There hassss to be unreleased footage in the ST vault of all the divorced moms and Eddie just waiting for Steve to turn around and scoop in the back ice cream counters, like PLEASE tell me the footage exists and I didn't just make it up 😭

AGH the ring and forehead kiss goodbye are maybe my favorite parts ❣️❣️ like Steve knows there's nothing else he can do but give a little piece of himself and then hope that there's magic-memory powers in his expert kissing abilities - it's very naive and endearing and heartbreaking all at once and I just want to give him the biggest hug for trying so hard.

Sweet deerling, that is SO incredibly kind omgggg my tender heart cannot take such kindness!! If someone ever made fan art for this I would *weep,* even if they just thought about it, I'd still be teary! I don't have dark chocolate pudding but I dooooo have dark chocolate raisins, which is definitely a win. I'm sending you all the good vibes for the rest of the week/weekend ✨✨ Thank you so much for always being so supportive of the little stories I write.

Have a spectacular day!! Watch all the Meg Ryan films your heart desires!! ❤️🥰❤️

[secretaccountlol]

MASSSSTERRLIST!!

I only write for Spider-Man rn!

Requests/Asks are: close!

Come chat with me!

Most pieces are 18+ with smut, unless stated otherwise so no minors thx!

I seriously mean that don’t fucking follow me or interact with my shit, respect my boundaries

holy fuck, how is that so hard to understand!??

Snacks

You’re killing me, peter

Meals

Sex pollen? Nah sex gas, er liquid?(afab! Reader)

How could you, Spider-Man?

50% of marriages end in divorce, Peter Parker!

Peter is a teasing man. (Virgin!Cocky!reader)

Kiss me thru the phone!(sub!Peter)

Mission accomplished (sub!peter)

Photos to the soul (insecure!reader)

Love and bonnets (Black!Reader)

Full course meals

Food days. (2/?)

Spinach Pasta and Pecan Pie

Charcuterie board and Ramen

Occasionally we have to skip dinner.

Requests:

Always(Mcu!peter Parker) SFW.

Double date! (MCU!Peter Parker) SFW

Date crasher, smut, exs to lovers.

“Lets have another” smut, Dad!hubby! Peter.

“Rawdoggin life and pussy” - Peter Parker

Author’s note feel free to skip <3 :

I wanted to say ALL my x reader are made in mind for all races, bodies, etc, unless stated. which is why I do kinda avoid talking about hair, face, skin, body (or I keep it vague)

I just wanna be inclusive because growing up readers were always long straight hair, blue eyes, skinny, and blonde (which is nothing wrong with!<3)! but for the people who didn't fit the bill, I write for them <3

[ultimatelyunassuming]

I like homestuck :)

Main: @kit-is-gr8

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Personal tag: [uu] is online

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Au tags:

Homestuck dnd au: yea. The characters all play dnd together at the same hobby store. This is primarily focused on the humans campaign with dirk as their dm.

Ar dad au: i saw this one picture of ar holding baby dirk and my brain was rewired to care about dirk through that image. This au is about ar being a father to dirk and raising him.

Davekat soulmate au: im not much of a fan soulmate aus. This is a reflection of my qualms about it. First of all soulmatea are not romantic in this it just indicates someone special in their life so dont be alarmed if i go "june and jade are soulmates". Its a silly "theres a mark on your body where if you touch your soulmate its now rainbow" type of soulmate au where dave was born without a soul mark and karkats soul mark is his blood (with his soulmate being his adopted dad, spades slick). The story is about "finding" karkats soulmate (since the pair think its one of karkats 11 childhood friends and karkats like "oh my dad who i love so so much? Nahhh hes not my soulmate my soulmate has to be a romantic one"). Its not too fleshed out rn but it is a idea so yeah

Reverse stabdad: okay yall know stabdad right? Its the kida and adults switching ages so now the carapacians are the kids. Ive had this au in my head for a while and im probably never gonna write a fic for it but I love it so so much

Jake leader of the felt: so hs2 is happening because of lord english and ult dirks breakup. Ult dirk gets the felt in the divorce and just randomly places them on earth. Jake stumbles upon them, becomes their leader, then decides to use their time travel powers to go through time to try and make earth c better.

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Fairytalestuck: i connected pages to peter pan and hic/nanna/jane (not a ship) to a queendom and it spiraled into a au. The cherub twins are fairy royalty with jake as their jester, jane is fighting with her sisters (meenah and feferi) to be heir to hic's throne, and anything else that falls under the umbrella of "the weird harleybert family tree" and the cherubs being decidedly Not Mortal

Roxycallie Orpheus au: hehe roxycallie retelling of orpheus :)

I have so many hs ideas but im too busy with dnd :(. Ask me about them please please please.

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Heads up! Eventually this blog (if i ever stop being interested in hs) will change with my interests and with that the theme and personal tag!

[strvngcrs]

『 adam brody. forty. cis male. he/him. 』 oh heavens, is that DANIEL ABRAMS from FAIR LANE i see roaming around mapleview? minnie may’s always calling them -BROODING & -EVASIVE. i happen to think they’re not that bad! they’re a pretty cool HORROR AUTHOR and every time i’ve seen them, they’ve always been +DEBONAIR & +ELOQUENT. i hope i see them around again! 

classically rolls in ridiculously late bc i forgot i had to work last night & then proceeded to sleep in today wooo !!  good afternoon ghouls, it’s ya girl maia, finally here to deliver the definition of hot mess with good intentions.

GENERAL

FULL NAME.    daniel elijah abrams.

NICKNAMES.    dan, danny.

AGE & BIRTHDATE.    40 years old ; may 4, 1980.

GENDER & PRONOUNS.    cis male ; he/him.

ORIENTATION.    heterosexual.

MARITAL STATUS.    estranged.

RELIGION.    jewish ( non-practicing ).

OCCUPATION.    horror author.

INSPIRATION.     bill denbrough ( it ), donnie darko ( donnie darko ), lucas scott ( one tree hill ), stephen king.

PHYSICAL

HAIR COLOUR.    black.

EYE COLOUR.    dark brown.

BUILD.    athletic.

MARKS.     freckles scarcely spread across his entire body.

TATTOOS.    none.

PIERCINGS.    none.

HEIGHT.    5'11".

FACECLAIM.    adam brody.

PERSONALITY

ZODIAC.    taurus.

ALIGNMENT.    chaotic neutral.

HOGWARTS.    ravenclaw.

LABEL.    the arcane.

POSITIVE TRAITS.    cheeky, debonair, driven, eloquent, resilient, solicitous.

NEGATIVE TRAITS.    brooding, evasive, inquisitive, sarcastic, stoic, stubborn.

HOBBIES.    smokes like a chimney while writing until he forgets what day of the week it is, dabbles in hunting & fishing (thanks @ his dad), labels all crime / thriller genres as ‘predictable’ but continues to watch them, obsesses over & relentlessly criticizes his own work, drinks heavily & passionately plays moonlight sonata or fur elise as if he’s betoven’s disciple.

BACKGROUND

PLACE OF BIRTH.    california.

CURRENT RESIDENCE.    mapleview, north carolina.

NATIONALITY.    american.

ETHNICITY.    ashkenazi jewish.

PARENTS.   judith miller & mr abrams.

SIBLINGS.    mia miller.

BIRTH ORDER.    eldest.

CHILDREN.    penelope abrams.

EDUCATION.     university of california, los angeles; bachelor of arts in english.

LANGUAGES.    english, some spanish & french.

HISTORY

EARLY LIFE.    born to THE judith miller and some newspaper editor, daniel was raised by the latter and notoriously abandoned by the former. well, not completely abandoned - there’s an old shoebox containing a few letters as proof - but that was the only source of communication in their otherwise absent relationship. while little danny boy didn’t fully understand why he couldn’t see his mother, he sought out an alternative solution by watching her movies. his father wasn’t aware, at first, and dan created this extravagant fantasy of the person he thought she was based on the roles she played. however, once papa abrams found out his son was watching these movies (which were probably not fit for children in the first place lmao oop), he begrudgingly revealed the bitter truth. being forced to come to terms with the fact that his own mother willingly abandoned him with his father, daniel didn’t fully understand what it meant; he couldn’t properly process why. the hurt of absent mother was expressed more out of anger, feeling as though there must have been something wrong with him. there were fewer and fewer letters sent to judith until he gave up altogether and thus, dan’s out of control behavior was born.

TEENAGE FEVER.    SUICIDE MENTION TW.  he struggled in school. his emotions betrayed him. instead of relishing a happy childhood, daniel found himself pushing everyone away, getting into fights, sneaking out late at night to run around the city streets with his friends and get into all sorts of trouble with them. he couldn’t count on his hands how many times the police picked him up and brought him to his dad’s doorstep. it only got worse once one of his best friends was found dead, written off as a suicide, though it didn’t add up in dan’s eyes and seemed so much more sinister. the young man was nearly deemed to be a lost cause, until he discovered his passion for writing. 

                                  language arts or literature was the last thing anyone would ever think to group with daniel abrams. but his english teacher noticed how well he could articulate his thoughts and feelings on paper, and submitted one of his pieces to a writing contest, which earned dan the win and a cash prize. bewildered by a talent he hadn’t even realized was in him, daniel embraced it. he started writing in a journal ( which he kept safely tucked away beneath the mattress of his bed ), documenting every feeling and thought as a way to express his emotions in a more productive manner. this talent earned him a full ride scholarship to ucla with a major in literature and plans of diving into some sort or creative writing career or perhaps becoming an english teacher, to follow in the footsteps of his high school teacher who he came to idolize.

                                  mere days into his freshman year, however, his high school sweetheart showed up in the middle of the night at his dorm with a positive pregnancy test. it was then the chaotic world as he knew it turned a new leaf, revealing a silver lining in the form of their daughter, penelope, who daniel hadn’t a clue, just yet, would save him. and so a shotgun wedding was quickly planned around the pair, both families either completely supportive or in utter disbelief. it was quick, it was cheap(ish), and it was stressful as all heck. but they were young, and in love, and were looking forward to starting a family together, despite it being a little earlier than initially planned.

“ADULT”HOOD.    fast forward five years, and they’re signing divorce papers. fortunately, it wasn’t messy. the two had simply grown apart as they matured in their respective ways, and remaining together was only causing a rift to develop between the two. the last thing they wanted, for the sake of their daughter, was built up resentment to tear the little family apart. his wife, who daniel initially thought to be the love of his life, blossomed into an absolute goddess; she was ambitious and knew exactly what she wanted. daniel, on the other hand, was still somewhat caught up in his ‘bad boy’ habits of drinking excessively and his career was still pretty up in the air. the two just didn’t compliment each others’ lifestyles anymore.

                                   daniel moved out but remained in california, settling for a bachelor’s apartment where he was able to have penelope every weekend. during this time, he finally cracked down and worked on finishing a novel he’d started years prior. within a year, he found a publisher who took interest in his grotesque works, and by the time daniel was twenty seven, his first bestseller hit the shelves, changing his life for the better with the ability to provide for his daughter without stress of landing another odd job ever again.

                                   as his fame increased, so did his desire to slink back into the shadows away from the limelight. at first, he enjoyed the wholesome book signings by day and grungy celebratory benders by night. but it grew old pretty fast and he certainly didn’t want to end up as another washed up shmuck. so, on a whim, daniel decided to move out of california completely, removing himself from the toxic lifestyle he’d grown accustomed to and shacking up on a beautiful piece of land in the rocky mountains of north carolina. the serenity and scenery certainly aided in his inspiration, as well as his unacknowledged lowkey addictions slowly being rehabilitated from his bloodstream.

OLD YELLER.    now, in his utmost prime at forty years old, he’s written numerous cult classics, a few of which have successful movie adaptations. he was lucky enough to land himself in a second marriage, though.... that one is now deteriorating as well because he literally doesn’t know how to maintain a healthy relationship. he received full custody of his daughter when she was sixteen, under the unfortunate circumstance of her mother’s untimely death. although they’d been separated for nearly twenty years, daniel was still very much affected by the loss, more so empathetically for penelope. he’s still hooked on the drink, though he’s definitely calmed down quite a bit from when he was a young buck. basically a messy, depressy old soul who uses sarcasm to deflect his true feelings.

CONNECTIONS

ESTRANGED WIFE.    first marriage was a bust, and the second is turning out to be no better. they haven’t hit rock bottom just yet, in his opinion (which would be finalizing a divorce lmao), and he’s unsure if they should work things out or not but also really.......doesn’t wanna go through the process of another divorce. plus he likes her and deep down adores their bickering. the reason(s) why things started falling apart between them can be discussed of course. lowkey debating on whippin this up as a big official wc but.... if anybody already here would like to snag it, i would 100% mclove it.

COLLABORATORS.    literally anyone he’s worked with over the years, whether they be fellow authors, publishers/publicists, journalists, screenplay writers, etc. yeehooo the possibilities are endless !!

FOLLOWERS.    anyone hooked on his books, whether devout fans from his early beginnings or people who newly discovered his fictional writings.

FORMER CLASSMATES.    could be from high school or university, but he was in california for the better part of his life aka not a mapleview native. former friends to foes & anything in between. dan’s that one kid who spiked the punch bowl at all the dances and years later probably snuck in party favors to snort off the bathroom sink during their high school reunion lmao whew !!

ANYTHING.    literally anything. i’m my groggy state of mind on my lack of creativity rn so please, i’m beggin. if daniel can enrich your characters’ lives in any way, shape, or form, hit me up and we’ll hatch a plan.

[thewritingstar]

Ah well were all at home better ask all 200 questions g, don't really know much about u

200 QUESTIONS???? ALRIGHT HERE YA GO. 

hope you enjoy me spending an hour answering all of these :) 

200: My crush’s name is: N/A 199: I was born in: 2000 198: I am really: nice 197: My cellphone company is: idk 196: My eye color is: Hazel, can turn dark brown or light green sometimes 195: My shoe size is: 8 194: My ring size is: 7 I think 193: My height is: 5′3 192: I am allergic to: penicillin  191: My 1st car was: Toyota  190: My 1st job was: Baskin Robbins  189: Last book you read: Suicide Notes (highly recommend)  188: My bed is: galaxy bedding and is currently on the floor in my bed fram cause my friends broke it... 187: My pet: Black cockapoo and a white cockapoo named Abby and Molly 186: My best friend: is a hoe 185: My favorite shampoo is: herbal essence color me happy  184: Xbox or ps3: I perfer Wii, Wii U or Nintendo switch  183: Piggy banks are: cute, Mine is a ducktales cup  182: In my pockets: nothing rn 181: On my calendar: nothing rn 180: Marriage is: a good thing but not a necessity for a happy life 179: Spongebob can: get it  178: My mom: is a queen  177: The last three songs I bought were? i only buy cds for my car so: Lover, Hozier, Blink 182 176: Last YouTube video watched: The Office deleted scenes 175: How many cousins do you have? 8 but I only see four of them and two of them are adults with kids so i consider them more of aunt and uncle figures 174: Do you have any siblings? One older sister  173: Are your parents divorced? Nope  172: Are you taller than your mom? Nope 171: Do you play an instrument? Nope 170: What did you do yesterday? Sat on ass and watched youtube 

[ I Believe In ] 169: Love at first sight: ye why not 168: Luck: yes  167: Fate: yes 166: Yourself: kinda 165: Aliens: yes 164: Heaven: mmmm yes i guess 163: Hell: yes 162: God: uhhhhh yes and no, kinda indifferent 161: Horoscopes: yep 160: Soul mates: yesss 159: Ghosts: ye 158: Gay Marriage: WHO THE FUCK DOESNT BELIEVE IN THISS?? ITS REAL  157: War: think it does more harm than good 156: Orbs: ye 155: Magic: ye i wanna be a wizard 

[ This or That ] 154: Hugs or Kisses: hugs 153: Drunk or High: drunk, i dont do drugs and i dont drink yet but ill prob get drunk  152: Phone or Online: oo i use both but Online i guess 151: Red heads or Black haired: Black hair 150: Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes 149: Hot or cold: HOT 148: Summer or winter: Summer 147: Autumn or Spring: Both 146: Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla  145: Night or Day: Day 144: Oranges or Apples: Oranges 143: Curly or Straight hair: I have straight hair but curly hair is also beautiful 142: McDonalds or Burger King: BURGER KING..I HATE MCDONALDS 141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: MILK 140: Mac or PC: Pc 139: Flip flops or high heals:...High heels prob 138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: SWEET AND POOR, IM ALREADY UGLY 137: Coke or Pepsi: NEITHER 136: Hillary or Obama: obama  135: Burried or cremated: cremated 134: Singing or Dancing: love both but maybe dancing rn 133: Coach or Chanel: Coach  132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: idk who they are 131: Small town or Big city: Big city, i grew up in a small town 130: Wal-Mart or Target: TARGET 129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Adam 128: Manicure or Pedicure: Mani 127: East Coast or West Coast: West Coast 126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Christmas  125: Chocolate or Flowers: Chocolate 124: Disney or Six Flags: DISNEY  123: Yankees or Red Sox: eww sports 

[ Here’s What I Think About ] 122: War:....does more harm than good  121: George Bush:....dont know enough to say but im pretty sure he was an awful human  120: Gay Marriage: It should just be called marriage, just because you’re gay doesnt make it any less or any more, its equal to other marriages  119: The presidential election: 118: Abortion: Pro Choice, no one has the right to tell someone what to do with their body 117: MySpace: i never used it cause i was too young but i bet it was lit 116: Reality TV: its funny af  115: Parents: are nice if they care about their child but if they are abusive or horrible then they dont deserve respect  114: Back stabbers: should be stabbed  113: Ebay: its nice  112: Facebook: full of idiots and boomers  111: Work: a scam  110: My Neighbors: they fine 109: Gas Prices: A SCAM 108: Designer Clothes: a nice but really $200 for socks, no mama 107: College: SHOULD BE FREE 106: Sports: fun but no one needs to make that much money for throwing a ball 105: My family: i like them 104: The future: is wild and idk at this point 

[ Last time I ] 103: Hugged someone: my mom like a few days ago 102: Last time you ate: at 11 today! 101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile:  100: Cried in front of someone: my mom after i yelled at her 99: Went to a movie theater: i saw Onward when we were allowed outside 98: Took a vacation: went to disneyland last October  97: Swam in a pool: like almost two years sadly  96: Changed a diaper: when i was like 8  95: Got my nails done: never got them done because my mom wouldnt take me cause i was a ‘tom boy’  94: Went to a wedding: never  93: Broke a bone: when i was three, my big toe 92: Got a piercing: my nose in January  91: Broke the law: i guess i sped the other day  90: Texted: literally as im doing this 

[ MISC ] 89: Who makes you laugh the most: my friend 88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: the silence of being alone 87: The last movie I saw: Princess and the Frog 86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: Moving for college 85: The thing im not looking forward to:  84: People call me: Deanna (real name), Dean, Star (what yall call me) ton of others 83: The most difficult thing to do is: idk  82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: never 81: My zodiac sign is: Aries 80: The first person i talked to today was:  79: First time you had a crush: Ive had  78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: my best friends 77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: my friends over ft  76: Right now I am talking to: no one 75: What are you going to do when you grow up: hopefully being an animator  74: I have/will get a job: at disney  73: Tomorrow: doing nothing 72: Today: doing nothing  71: Next Summer: hopefully not on quarantine  70: Next Weekend: nothing special  69: I have these pets: 2 doggos 68: The worst sound in the world: ICE SCRAPING OR MOUTH BREATHING 67: The person that makes me cry the most is:  66: People that make you happy: my friends 65: Last time I cried: few days ago  64: My friends are: my world 63: My computer is: a Dell  62: My School: is a community college  61: My Car: it goes 60: I lose all respect for people who: are bigots, dehumanize people, republicans  59: The movie I cried at was: Onward had me sobbing  58: Your hair color is: Brown rn 57: TV shows you watch: theres too many 56: Favorite web site: tumblr or youtube 55: Your dream vacation: every disney park  54: The worst pain I was ever in was: i think when i cut my finger or when i went to the hospital for my chest  53: How do you like your steak cooked: Medium rare  52: My room is: disney themed and my safe zone 51: My favorite celebrity is: Tara Strong  50: Where would you like to be: Disneyland 49: Do you want children: ehh maybe  48: Ever been in love: nope 47: Who’s your best friend: my neighbor that ive known since i was 4 46: More guy friends or girl friends: more girl 45: One thing that makes you feel great is: making cake  44: One person that you wish you could see right now: my cousin 43: Do you have a 5 year plan: not really  42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: ye 41: Have you pre-named your children: kinda 40: Last person I got mad at: my mom 39: I would like to move to: La 38: I wish I was a professional: animator

[ My Favorites ] 37: Candy: Kitkat 36: Vehicle: Cars 35: President: 34: State visited: California, Nevada, Texas, Hawaii,  33: Cellphone provider: 32: Athlete: n/a 31: Actor: Colin O'Donoghue 30: Actress: Lana Parrilla 29: Singer: Joe Jonas, Taylor Swift  28: Band: Big Time Rush 27: Clothing store: Hot topic, Ross,  26: Grocery store: Safeway  25: TV show: Once Upon A Time or PPG  24: Movie: Princess and the Frog and Ratatouille  23: Website: tumblr  22: Animal: elephant  21: Theme park: disneyland  20: Holiday: Halloween  19: Sport to watch: hockey  18: Sport to play:..i do not play  17: Magazine: i dont read mags  16: Book: Kingdom Keepers  15: Day of the week: Friday  14: Beach: one i went to in Hawaii  13: Concert attended: Jonas Brothers  12: Thing to cook: chowmein and strawberry shortcake  11: Food: Chowmein  10: Restaurant: my fav Chinese restaurant  9: Radio station: I don’t listen to the radio  8: Yankee candle scent: Vanilla  7: Perfume: Vanilla  6: Flower: Rose or Larkspur  5: Color: Black or blue  4: Talk show host: umm i dont watch many but i guess Jimmy Fallon  3: Comedian: Jaboukie Young-White or John Mulaney  2: Dog breed: Pomeranian  1: Did you answer all these truthfully? ye 

[punkscowardschampions]

Carly & Ali

Carly: 😢💔 Carly: treats not tricks Ali: Baby Ali: You can't say seeing Drew shit himself was anything but a 🍬 Carly: ha Carly: hide & seek? Carly: goldie's gonna b too sad to play unless ur sister steps up her comforting tho Ali: fun Ali: or manhunt Ali: and not a fate I'd wish on anyone, that Ali: he can be on our team, stop him pouting too hard Carly: let him hunt u & he couldn't be happier Carly: even if i offered to take off clothes each time i got found Carly: but you want his boy bestie to find you yea Ali: so telling Ali: Lene would have a field-day Ali: ain't no one's prey, baby Carly: nah hes urs Carly: sweet enough to eat Ali: nah Ali: no one's sweeter than you 🍓🍯 Carly: aw Carly: 🐅💙 Ali: I mean it Ali: you be captain, you pick Carly: cos u havent tasted him yet Carly: u pick & then tell me whos sweetest after Ali: do you want me to or don't you Carly: u wanna Carly: he does Ali: I'm asking what you want, though Carly: i want you to have fun Ali: I am Ali: with you Ali: you don't need to worry Carly: its k & so am i Ali: promise? Carly: ur cute & u dont need to worry Carly: hes just a lad Ali: I know he is Ali: like I knew he'd be a good fit for this trip, that's all Carly: idc if u wanna fuck him on this trip or when we get back is what i mean Carly: u can like him if you don't like him as much as me Ali: I don't like anyone as much as I like you, Carls Carly: is that a truth or a dare? Ali: it's the truth Ali: I don't need to be dared into nothing Ali: I want you Carly: u wanna make me cry i reckon Carly: being 👼 Ali: not even Ali: like you said, if either of us wanted to go there with anyone else, it's a bridge we'd cross as and when Ali: I'm not gonna do anything behind your back, trust me Carly: u don't have to Carly: u can do anything u want Carly: not ur ex Carly: cute as she is its v intense Carly: im letting ur wings stay open Ali: you don't have to be the anti-her, you know Ali: just be you Ali: I care about you, what you want and what you think, just tell me that always Carly: ha what would the anti her b? Carly: ur sister mayb Carly: or drews Ali: either way Ali: not what I'm after Ali: 😬 Carly: idk drews sister is cute Carly: & hed b so mad about it Ali: world's most confusing boner, you mean Carly: 😂 Ali: not looking to blow either of their minds Ali: again, in his case, of course Carly: he's the cutest when he don't know what's happening Carly: like a baby 🐕 Ali: if I was being a bitch I'd say that was always Ali: but I've already wounded his ego too much today Ali: bless him Carly: ha Carly: never heard a boy scream w out being touched Carly: learning things this trip Ali: 😂 Ali: stick with me, babe Carly: 🏫 Ali: not 'til Monday Ali: 👎 Carly: im not gonna go Carly: say it was 👽 Carly: snatched for being this sexy soz Ali: good thinkin' Ali: if they're too squeamish to ask about sickness and diarrhoea, they ain't gonna deepdive into probing, like Carly: or 👻have taken over my body Carly: brb after the exorcism 😈 Ali: shame we ain't kicking it catholic Ali: they'd do it for the fun of, beats a normal day of Carly: @ my gma Carly: shes 😢💔 i dont want jesus inside me Carly: he's too nice like Carly: not my type Ali: could always go for Judas Ali: #hotfriend Carly: o true Ali: plus Iscariot is an amazing last name so Carly: baby we gotta get divorced rn Ali: 💔 Carly: dont b sad Carly: ill b back w a great name u can take Ali: hold you to that, girl 💍⛓ Carly: u can Carly: i love u more than any biblical figures Ali: even Mary Magdalene? 😍😍😍 Carly: dont tell her Ali: keep it between you and me Carly: 💙👼 Ali: you're so cute Carly: you're cuter Ali: nope Ali: I 👑 you the cutest Carly: aw Carly: if it goes to a vote youll win tho Ali: nah Carly: yea Carly: ur sister & ex dont like me Carly: the boys like u more Ali: they ain't got the good taste I do Carly: thats putting yourself down! Carly: they all love u Ali: but I love you Carly: i love u Ali: let's go be alone Carly: yea Carly: shoo the 👻s away for us baby Ali: 🔫🔫🔫 Carly: my hero Ali: you know it Ali: not to be my ex about it either Carly: she did rescue me too first night ever Carly: & shes not that bad Ali: 😒 why don't you marry her Ali: 😉 Carly: too straight Ali: 😂 Ali: we'll show her how straight you are Carly: she invited now? k then Ali: maybe not SEE then Ali: hear Carly: if she hears they all will Carly: sure u want that? Ali: let's deliberate Carly: what does that mean? Ali: that we're gonna start and then I'll see how I'm feeling Carly: o Carly: thats a dare isnt it Ali: if you're up to it, baby Carly: u kno i am Carly: & i can make u be louder than me Carly: if u wanna double dare it Ali: you know I do Carly: yea Carly: i can 👀 Carly: ur eyes r really blue & ur cute face is really pink Ali: it's the 🔥 Carly: nah its me Carly: hotter Ali: not gonna disagree Carly: not what i want u to say Ali: go on then, you 👀 Ali: what do you wanna 👂 Carly: more fun to make it happen Carly: if i tell u course youll say it to be sweet to me Ali: okay, let's play then Carly: where? Ali: don't think we'll be able to stop Marlene coming through if we desecrate her car so Carly: so cute Carly: take our chances w the dead then Ali: you aren't scared anymore, are you? Carly: ive got u to protect me y would i b Ali: and I swear, all treats Ali: or you know, the fun kind of tricks only Carly: ive missed u so much Carly: ur here i kno but scooby gang r too Carly: & yea drews the 🐕 Ali: 😂 omg too real 'cos Caleb is clearly Shaggy Ali: you can be Daphne, babe, I'll allow it Ali: but we can be alone all day Monday, yeah, I promise Carly: which 1 is the hot nerd cuz if its ur sister thats awks boo Carly: soz she loves me if she's the scarf wearing fashionista still tho Carly: ur ex coulda got away w it if it weren't for us pesky kids 😠 Ali: we'll let Meena and her duke it out who wants to be who Ali: I'll have to be Scrappy and I'm not even mad tbh Carly: aw ur that cute Ali: 🥊 Carly: thats y id go anywhere w you even ur exs car Carly: so safe w my baby Ali: always boo Ali: I've got you Carly: hold my hand not cuz im scared Carly: dont let go til u have to Ali: that's a challenge isn't it Carly: if it feels like 1 ill have to b that bitch & throw ur 💍 @ u Ali: 😂 Ali: you know how holdable you are Carly: dont leave me yet k Carly: its so loud in my 🧠 & 💙 how much i dont want u too Ali: I'm not leaving you ever Carly: im not saying u gotta promise me so hard Ali: but I am Ali: 'cos I'm not Ali: I love you now, no matter what Ali: I'm gonna be here for you Carly: i kno u mean it Carly: ur 👼 energy is always around me now Carly: but he's a nice lad who likes u thats not coming around much so don't forget Ali: I'll try not to take that personally, babe 😜 Ali: but I know what you mean Carly: do u cuz being w u is like its still summer @ a party where pretty girls keep telling u ur pretty & the lads who r rides wanna get u drinks & u kno every song thats playing Carly: like being high but w out chasing it or any of the shit u have to do to get 💊 Carly: & it lasts the comedown dont get u Carly: idk its hard to explain cept ive never met anyone like u cuz there isnt Carly: but theres girls & lads same as me everywhere Ali: baby Ali: that isn't true and you've given the proof right there Ali: you've got a poet's soul Ali: you're so special and you don't even know it Ali: that makes you more Carly: ur really magic Carly: im sorry Carly: dont b mad at me Carly: or sad Ali: I'm not Ali: why would I be Ali: like ever Ali: but especially right now Carly: idk Carly: i wasn't ur go to girl for pranking every1 Ali: not because you did something wrong Ali: not because of anything Ali: if I thought about it at all I was just trying to involve everyone, you know Ali: make sure everyone's having a good time Carly: jk 👼 baby i kno ur intentions r pure 💙 Carly: y ur 👑 leader Ali: okay you got me back then Ali: 💚 Carly: ha im full of tricks & treats Ali: 😏 come show me Carly: k

[thundaclap]

Numbers 200 to 150 answer all the questions u lil dumb bitch

200: My crush’s name is: I DONT GOT A CRUSH RN well i probably do but eh199: I was born in: Wales198: I am really: gay197: My cellphone company is: Tesco?? gimme my phone back u hags196: My eye color is: Blueish-green idk195: My shoe size is: 9194: My ring size is: fuck knows!!!193: My height is: 5′9″ last i checked192: I am allergic to: NOTHING my body is IMMUNE to DEATH191: My 1st car was: a hot wheels lmao190: My 1st job was: i never worked!!!189: Last book you read: techincally Mirror, Mirror from the Twisted Disney tales but i’m currently reading Children of Blood and Bone which is REALLY good188: My bed is: comfortable187: My pet: CUTE!!! she is a cat and her name is kairi and i love her186: My best friend: IS YOU!!!!185: My favorite shampoo is: dunno i use whatever’s available tbh184: Xbox or ps3: both ngl i have a lot of games on both consoles183: Piggy banks are: very cute, vintage, would recommend 10/10182: In my pockets: blood bags for my drainage from surgery LMAO181: On my calendar: i don’t use a calendar180: Marriage is: debatable! sometimes i like it sometimes i dont179: Spongebob can: eat my ass like no other man can178: My mom: does so much for me and i want to repay her in any way i can177: The last three songs I bought were: ppl still buy songs?? grow up.176: Last YouTube video watched: Tryin Troom Troom’s Awful Crafts 3 by danny gonzales175: How many cousins do you have?: throw a bag of rice on the ground and count how many there are and there’s your answer174: Do you have any siblings?: i have two sisters and a half brother and probably more siblings somewhere thanks dad!!173: Are your parents divorced?: yep!172: Are you taller than your mom?: YEP SHE SHORT171: Do you play an instrument?: i used to play a lot of piano and guitar but still on amateur level170: What did you do yesterday?: played minecraft[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: not really, i think love is born and grows through knowing the other person168: Luck: oh yeah i believe in luck167: Fate: not sure tbh???166: Yourself: NOPE165: Aliens: oh for real!164: Heaven: mmmm i do believe in some sort of afterlife but i wouldn’t call it heaven163: Hell: hewwo?? owo162: God: im god.161: Horoscopes: YES i love horoscopes160: Soul mates: mmmm no? not really159: Ghosts: GHOSTS ARE REAL I SAW ONE IT SUCKED MY DICK BEHIND A MCDONALDS158: Gay Marriage: sdhfdshjshdjhf157: War: do i believe in war? i believe it hurts and does no good156: Orbs: im an orb155: Magic: IM MAGIC[ This or That ]154: Hugs or Kisses: both i love both153: Drunk or High: BOTH I LOVE BOTH152: Phone or Online: online dumbass151: Red heads or Black haired: ooh... this is p tough.... both....150: Blondes or Brunettes: hhhhhh BOTH

[sonofadeanwinchester]

Not A Dream (Finale)

Part One | Part Two | Part Three | Part Four | Part Five | Part Six | Part Seven | Part Eight | Part Nine

Summary: You keep hearing voices from people who are not there.

Words: 1651

Sebastian Stan x Reader

Warnings: Swearing && sadness

A/N: WE MADE IT TO THE END GUYS what a journey

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I sat on the couch, leaning into Sebastian's side as he flicked through the channels. I had been a nervous wreck for almost a week now after hearing the car in my head. The flash of light that came at me was terrifying, so realistic. I could've sworn that I was standing in the middle of the street but when I dropped to the floor, I was safe in my apartment.

"Hey love, wanna watch friends?"

I shrug. "Whatever you want."

I felt him shift in position so that most of myself was on his lap. "Baby, what's going on?"

I shrug, again, not sure what he meant. "What do you mean?"

He scoffs. "Since last week when you saw the bright light, it's like you're not the same person. Somethings wrong."

I nod, moving so I am facing him now. "Fucking right something's wrong. Sebastian, I saw a car driving at me inside our apartment. I heard tires squeal in my brain. I heard you talking to a doctor when you were go-"

Darling, I'm back. I just went to grab some coffee.

"What did you say?"

He furrowed his brow. "Uh, nothing. I was listening to you talk."

Remember that time when you got so nervous around Chris the first time that you spilled an entire cup of coffee on my crotch?

My heart jolted and I felt tears prick my eyes.

I really wish you would wake up, baby. I miss you so much.

I stood, running my hands through my tangled hair. "Jesus. I-I can't do this anymore."

Sebastian stood, slinking to my height and kissing my nose. "Baby, what's going on?"

I close my eyes. "The voice, it's in my head again."

"The doctor or mine?"

"Uh, yours."

Sucking his bottom lip between his teeth, his smiled painfully. "Baby, you gotta know that I'm not talking. There is no doctor here."

I shot a anger glare in his direction. "I fucking know that! Jesus, you think I'm insane."

He shook his head a little too quickly. "I don't." When I rolled my eyes, his voice dropped to nearly a whisper. "I don't think you're insane."

Mr Stan. The doctors voice spoke now, fainter than his. It's been nearly three months.

"Three months?"

Sebastian's eyes looked confused, his lip curling. "Three months since what?"

"Shh." I closed my eyes trying to narrow in on the voice but they were gone. "Fuck." I focused in on Sebastian's face, watching his expressions change. My eyes went weird and he started to go fuzzy. I rubbed them but it didn't help. "Sebastian." My voice came out panicked and scared.

"What's wrong?"

"Sebastian, I can't see you. I-" then everything went black.

The only feeling I could comprehend was choking. I tried to breath but something was in the way, something blocking my throat. I tried to talk but my throat felt like sandpaper. Help me! Someone! No matter how much I yelled, nothing came out and no one came to my rescue. I mustered up all the breath I could and coughed, feeling the air spring around something cylinder like a tube. "(Y/N)?" Sebastian was at my side in two seconds flat. "NURSE! Jesus Christ, I need a nurse in here!"

I opened my eyes, his panicked blue ones staring down at me. The next thing I know, someone with brown hair is holding my down as I struggle to sit up while a petite blonde man starts pulling at the tube in my throat. I felt myself gagging, bile threatening to come up. When the tube was gone, I sucked in a breath of air as if my lungs had never been exposed to oxygen. My panting was long and deep, like a dog in the summertime. "Seb-" it came out as a hoarse whisper. 

He poured some water, placing his hand on the back of my neck, helping me swallowing the refreshing liquid. "It's okay, baby girl. I'm here."

I swallowed a few gulps and fell back against the pillow. "What's going on? Where am I?"

Sympathy fell on his face like a blanket and he kissed my forehead. "Baby, you're in the hospital."

I shook my head, but something was holding my neck still. "What's wrong with my neck?" Bringing a shaky hand to my neck, I felt a brace holding it in place. "Oh my god. Why is this here?" Tears swamped my eyes and streams traveled my cheeks. "Sebastian! Answer me."

He closed his eyes, focusing on his breathing. He grasped my hand and kissed my palm. Just then, a familiar voice came in the room. "Mr Stan, it seems your wife as woken up."

Doctor? 

Sebastian's voice dropped to a whisper. "She doesn't remember the accident."

He shrugged. "It's to be expected in trauma patients." He stepped closer to me and smiled. "Mrs Stan, my name is Dr Crow." I tried to smile but my whole body shot suddenly with pain. "Mrs Stan, do you remember anything?"

I cleared my throat, speaking quietly. "I, uh. I remember waking up in my apartment but I-I, uh, didn't know who Seb-sebastian was." My head was fuzzy, pounding from the lack of oxygen. He nodded slowly, writing things down on a clipboard. "I didn't know anything or anyone."

Sebastian came close to me, kissing just above my eyebrow. "Honey, none of that happened."

The doctor pulled him aside. "Mr Stan, it's crucial we ease her into reality. It seems as if maybe your wife was experiencing a very vivid dream while unconscious." He smiled again, leaning against my bed. "Continue, please."

"He kept telling me that he was my husband but I didn't remember him. I didn't know why I was in New York or- something about my parents living away."

Sebastian licked his lips. "Doc, her parents have been dead for almost two years."

I felt a sob grow in my chest. "My parents are dead?" 

The doctor politely asked Sebastian to keep comments to either himself or quiet until I was finished. "Did you ever get your memories back?"

I nodded, best I could with the brace holding my neck in place. "Three days after I woke up, or whatever, I was getting really bad migraines. I kept waking up throughout the night, my head pounding until the final time I woke up, I remembered everything. The miscarriage, the cheating."

"Cheating? Miscarriage?" Sebastian's face shot back. "What?"

"You cheated on me."

He shook his head, worry filling his eyes. "Baby, I've never even looked at another woman."

I sighed, relief filling my soul. Your mind made that up, (Y/N). Your worse fear playing, bouncing around your silly little mind.

I asked Sebastian to help me sit up properly, drinking cold water through a straw. "Our marriage was falling apart. We were two ships just passing in the night." Sebastian kissed my hair and cocked his head to the side, listening. "It seemed to real."

The doctor nodded. "Mrs Stan. (Y/N), if I may. Three months ago, you were involved in a hit and run just outside of Brooklyn. You have suffered from a broken femur and fibula on the right leg. A broke tibia on the left leg, also a dislocation of the kneecap. Your clavicle has been shattered into four pieces, the humerus bone on the left arm is broken in two spots. When your body hit the ground, your cranium smashed on the pavement causing the comatose state. The mandible is fractured and the temporal bone is dented."

"Oh my god."

"All things considered, you've healed quite well."

"I was in a coma for three whole months?" I sighed, the sound shaky. "Sebastian. I heard you talking to me. Not at first but after a while, I heard you."

He smiled, a tear sliding down his cheek. "God, I missed you so much."

"I heard you asking, begging me to wake up." 

He kissed my forehead. "I'm so glad you woke up, (Y/N). I was going out of mind waiting for you."

"Doc, how long till a full recovery?"

He shifted his weight between feet. "That's a bit more ... complicated. You see, we didn't expect you to wake up, let alone this soon. Most patients with the kind of damage to their skeleton with a comatose state, very rarely regain consciousness left alone be able to remember their experiences and speak fluently."

"What do you mean remember their experiences?"

He nodded. "There has been cases where people in a coma, have experienced slight life changes. For instance, a woman roughly your age, went into a coma and was asleep for one full year. When she woke up, she explained to her husband, that she had met someone and married them in her 'dream'. She was very devastated when she woke up and realized that she wasn't, in fact, married to this man. Six months after she went home, she filed for divorce."

"Jesus." Sebastian cussed under his breath. "Did you marry another man?"

I shook my head. "No, I didn't. We were still married but our marriage was on the rocks. Things were not good. We had a miscarriage, you turned to another woman and I threw myself into my work. I honestly, think that neither of us were truly happy." He closed his eyes, running a hand over his tired face. "It was so realistic that I can't tell what was fake was what is real. The way I feel right now, laying in this bed, feeling your hand on mine. The doctor speaking clearly to me, it seems to real but-"

"The dreams you may have experienced while in your state are going to feel very real. It will be difficult for you to determine what is real and what is dream for a while."

Sebastian looked down at me. "Baby, this is not a dream."

[yeoldontknow]

97! Fluff! and mannnn, I gotta pick a bias?! You know my current struggles rn. They both start with J, you can pick whichever one you think fits the story best!

my love

Prompt: 97: Are you trying to flirt? Because you’re embarrassing yourself. (part of the 1K followers drabble game)Pairing: Jackson x Reader (oc; female)Genre: fluff; angstSummary: On a lazy, rainy sunday with Jackson, you think about how you got to where you are; you think about how love growsRating: GWord Count: 655

You call the house a garden, if only because you think it is in this space that your love for Jackson grows.

Sweat from the bed drips, you think, like dew, down and into the floorboards to give birth to vines. They grow wild and tall, unyielding in their devotion to your skin, and wrap around your bodies, twining you together, binding you for always. The bathroom is a jungle, humid and born only beyond mist, clouded with passion and drenched in lust; love pools in the tub, and in this you soak until you are saturated and swollen with the felling.

Here, now, the couch is a canopy, and it’s on this that you nestle into Jackson’s chest, humming as he idly strokes your hair. Outside, it is raining, a calm and steady summer storm - the last of the season, you think, before the autumn turns the drops into something cold. The Earth drinks the rain, bathes in it as new foliage starts to take root much the same way you drink in the feeling of Jackson’s fingers against your temples. In your blood, a new sort of love begins bloom, taking root first in your soul and blossoming into your rips, wrapping around the bone.

‘These sweatpants are so sexy.’

His words break the comfortable silence, linger for a while in the thickness of the damp air, wet and moist and unable to dissipate. There’s something proud about the way he says the words, about the way he presses a kiss to the crown of your head as though rewarding you for this moment of relaxation. Your heart swells, but still you laugh.

‘Are you trying to flirt?’ you tease, quiet and playful. ‘Because you’re embarrassing yourself.’

The sweatpants in question are his, though you call them yours. In college, you stole them, took them with you for the brief walk back to your apartment, hungover and hungry and wholly distracted by the man who woke up beside you. Your mind clutches to this memory, ensures it stays fresh and vivid even though it’s been so long now you cannot remember the name of your residence hall or how you wound up with him at all. You’re glad you did, though. It lead you to today.

Today, the sweatpants are worn, the black of the fabric now grey and three holes have been patched with mismatched flannel cuttings. They don’t fit properly, never have, but now the hem at the leg openings are torn, ripped on one side, and awkward in the way they move against your body. Still, though, they are comfortable. Still, though, they are perfect.

‘Nope,’ he hums into your hair. ‘Just being honest.’

Against your back, you feel his heartbeat against his sternum and you allow it to pull your eyelids closed.

‘Yeah, okay.’ You try to continue the game, but your yawn gives you away.

Jackson laughs. ‘Go to sleep, baby. I’ll wake you in twenty.’

Nodding, you let yourself drift, calmed by the caress of his fingers in your hair and soothed by the adoring comfort in his voice.

‘Ma’am?’

The gruff voice at your side makes you start, jumping slightly as you tear your eyes away from the couch.

‘Sorry?’ Your voice is distant, drifting - drifting back in time and back to when things were fine.

‘The sofa,’ he clarifies, gesturing to the couch. ‘Do you want to take the sofa?’

Looking back at the couch, you see his indent on the left side, the last remaining piece of his body you will have before this is over. Your heartbeat falters in its rhythm, shattered and broken, much the same as the flow of your blood. In your hands, you clutch the divorce papers like a cross, hoping the fresh ink of your signature smears into an unrecognizable shape.

‘No,’ you say, empty. ‘He can keep it.’

It’s fine, you think. You only want the sweatpants.

[alwaysmercy]

Traveling Mercies: Through the Back Door

I am finding my way home through the back door of poverty, disease, despair and sorrow.  These are places where the darkness is pierced by a small window of the noonday sun, or dimly lit at night with a flame from a tiny tin of paraffin.

I’ve been invited in through narrow doorways made of ill hung plywood or thin curtains covering entrances to the corrugated tin shacks in the slums of Nairobi--hundreds of thousands of them stacked side by side, haphazardly like neglected books on a shelf in the back of a junk store.

I’ve ducked my head through openings in mud huts after driving for hours on dirt roads to reach a village.  I’ve tiptoed into hospital rooms where patients lie in narrow beds positioned in long rows.

I’ve been allowed to enter into the sacred spaces of the poor, the weak, the vulnerable.  These people have given me a glimpse of holiness.  Their openness and expansive generosity have given me room to see my own poverty.  My poverty of pride, self-righteousness, judgement and fear.  And they have gently—and sometimes abruptly—taken my poverty and mingled it with their own, showing me the beauty of our lives together.

Today my mama would have been 89 years old.  And she too opened doors for me, gently pushing me over the thresholds into worlds of mercy and compassion. She, with her own wounds and brokenness post-divorce, entered into the poverty of others by becoming a hospice volunteer and an RN.  I watched her. Listened. Absorbed. (And yes, sometimes rebelled. She was ever so patient).

Doors continue to open. The spaces are beginning to take shape, even if only in my imagination.

I can see it. A place where the hillside hugs the Atemo River.  A sacred space, yet unveiled, where doorways beckon the poor, the sick, the dying. This is no ordinary place. No. It is a place where the rooms breathe with light and beauty, and the musical sounds of the river.  A place where care is rendered with tender hands to smooth a wrinkled sheet, soothe a fevered brow. A place where laughter pulls up a chair next to sorrow. Kindness kisses anger and fear. And mercy? Well, Mercy spreads herself out as deep and wide as the river to drench parched hearts with compassion, lead bodies and souls, weary from their long journey, home.

Always Mercy,

Pamela

Gratitude spills over for you generous donors (you know who you are!).  Thanks to you, we are moving forward with land and geological surveys, which will enable the architect to move forward with the initial renderings!

Want to be a part of this?  You can send checks, earmarked for Kenya Hospice to Holy Cross Lutheran Church, 4701 Grove St. Rocklin, CA 95677. 

[r0rorowurboat]

All of them!

200: My crush’s name is: n/a lmao199: I was born in: naples, fl198: I am really: gay?? idk197: My cellphone company is: t mobile196: My eye color is: green/blue/gray/idk man195: My shoe size is: 7 1/2 8 sometimes194: My ring size is: um i think that was 7 too but i dont remember193: My height is: 5′4″192: I am allergic to:pineapples and penicillin191: My 1st car was: a v old red saturn190: My 1st job was: a waitress189: Last book you read: um i think it was uhhhhhh shit uhhhh god fuck it was the warrior cats book but!!! it was bc i was stuck at my sister house with nothing but bibles or that series to read188: My bed is: an air mattress atm187: My pet: is perfect and i love her her name is luna and shes a little black cat who loves cuddles and kisses186: My best friend:is wonderful and i love him185: My favorite shampoo is: uhm. error i hardly ever use shampoo bc i have v dry curly hair and it makes it horrible184: Xbox or ps3: pc boi183: Piggy banks are: cure182: In my pockets: they dont make pockets in womens fashion wtf are you on. but uh. usually my phone, wallet, and keys181: On my calendar: i.. dont.. have one. 180: Marriage is: alright i guess. tax benefits179: Spongebob can: do that annoying laugh 178: My mom: tries v hard177: The last three songs I bought were? *squints* i think... it was keshas new album?176: Last YouTube video watched: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CQuR8LVKhUE175: How many cousins do you have? 2174: Do you have any siblings? yes i have 3 older sisters173: Are your parents divorced? yeup172: Are you taller than your mom? nope171: Do you play an instrument? not anymore but i used to play clarinet170: What did you do yesterday? uhm spent the day at home as usual[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: nah man168: Luck: to an extent i guess?167: Fate: i dont think so. 166: Yourself: sometimes165: Aliens: yes164: Heaven: nah163: Hell: nah162: God: nah161: Horoscopes: yes160: Soul mates: nah159: Ghosts: hmmm probably158: Gay Marriage: yes!157: War: no156: Orbs: orbs?? what are those?? like in ghost hunter shows? bc if so then no155: Magic: hm. what type? i think theres stuff we dont know about but idk if id call it magic. I think certain things have more power than we give credit. idk its hard to explain.[ This or That ]154: Hugs or Kisses: hugs153: Drunk or High: drunk152: Phone or Online: online151: Red heads or Black haired: redheadsredheadsredheads150: Blondes or Brunettes: hmmmm blondes i guess?149: Hot or cold: cold148: Summer or winter: winter147: Autumn or Spring: autumn146: Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate145: Night or Day: night144: Oranges or Apples: hmmm oranges143: Curly or Straight hair: curly 142: McDonalds or Burger King: mcdonalds141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: milk chocolate140: Mac or PC: pc139: Flip flops or high heals: usually sneakers tbh but uhhh i own more heels then flip flops138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: hm i mean i guess sweet and poor? im already poor so137: Coke or Pepsi: i dont drink soda, water. or coffee136: Hillary or Obama: obama135: Burried or cremated: cremated134: Singing or Dancing: singing133: Coach or Chanel: um. walmart? 132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: who or who?131: Small town or Big city: hm idk. probably city? 130: Wal-Mart or Target: target129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: neither pls128: Manicure or Pedicure: hmmm manicure probs.127: East Coast or West Coast: i live on the east coast but idk west coast is home to a lot of friends so hmmmm126: Your Birthday or Christmas: its like a week apart there isnt much difference125: Chocolate or Flowers: chocolate124: Disney or Six Flags: disney123: Yankees or Red Sox: i dont sports[ Here’s What I Think About ]122: War: icky121: George Bush: memes?120: Gay Marriage: im gay119: The presidential election: my vote didnt matter!118: Abortion: its your body your choice117: MySpace: never had one116: Reality TV: i mean, its fake? entertaining tho115: Parents: eh. 114: Back stabbers: icky113: Ebay: cheap stuff112: Facebook: only for family tbh111: Work: pays the bills110: My Neighbors: dont know them109: Gas Prices: expensive108: Designer Clothes: overpriced107: College: wish i could afford it!106: Sports: nah105: My family: haha104: The future: haha[ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone: my grandma a few days ago102: Last time you ate: pizza a few hours ago101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: moving day seeing my extended family again100: Cried in front of someone: the other night with my mom or uhhh in call with kina today actually99: Went to a movie theater: wow uh pretty long time ago i dont actually remember98: Took a vacation: haha idk man97: Swam in a pool: wow uh idk96: Changed a diaper: hm last time i was with the twins. not sure how long its been. maybe 2 or 3 months?95: Got my nails done: when did my sister get married? years ago idk94: Went to a wedding: ^^93: Broke a bone: never have92: Got a peircing: about a year ago91: Broke the law: heh uh 90: Texted: a few hours ago[ MISC ]89: Who makes you laugh the most: probably kina or riley rn88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: my mom tbh. the kids. wyatt. 87: The last movie I saw: the orphan86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: hm idk getting a job i guess85: The thing im not looking forward to: getting a job lmao84: People call me: by my name. but i have nicknames now!! Ray, rachi, babe, ray baby... its very nice and makes me feel warm and fuzzy and loved83: The most difficult thing to do is: hmmm clean? be honest about things that are bothering me? idk82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: never81: My zodiac sign is: capricorn sun aquarius moon80: The first person i talked to today was: the gc i think?79: First time you had a crush: i was v young and they had freckles and red hair and i died78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: um i try not to hide things in general! but someone who will call me out recently is raiken and archie lmao77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: riley lmao tho i beat her to it 

76: Right now I am talking to: riley75: What are you going to do when you grow up: i am grown up technically. uh. hopefully be an animator74: I have/will get a job: as a cashier probably73: Tomorrow: i have a job interview and then im gonna get coffee72: Today: was a long day71: Next Summer: hmmm idk70: Next Weekend: IDK GOD69: I have these pets: a cat!! who i love!!! and already gushed about but shes laying on my lap and purring rn and its so soothing68: The worst sound in the world: scratching against those uhhhh holographic things???? god i hate it67: The person that makes me cry the most is: hmnn my dad haha66: People that make you happy: my friends!!! Kina, Ali, Archie, Riley, Leo, Raiken, Mimi...... all of them good pals the squad my faves i love them65: Last time I cried: today rip64: My friends are: GOOD AND AMAZING I LOVE THEM63: My computer is: big! and i like it62: My School: none61: My Car: ded from the hurricane rip me60: I lose all respect for people who: are shitty? idk. 59: The movie I cried at was: hmmmm idk movies dont usually make me cry58: Your hair color is: uhm it was really dark blue but as the color has faded it kind of looks black/brown now57: TV shows you watch: a lot of them56: Favorite web site: uh i guess tumblr55: Your dream vacation: not being here!! probably just going around visiting everyone and hanging out having a good time54: The worst pain I was ever in was: tearing a ligament in my knee it hurt a lot53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium 52: My room is: messy51: My favorite celebrity is: ummm idk50: Where would you like to be: home tbh49: Do you want children: idk48: Ever been in love: ye47: Who’s your best friend: hhhhhhhhhhhh raiken46: More guy friends or girl friends: girls and nb babes45: One thing that makes you feel great is: just hanging out with people tbh44: One person that you wish you could see right now: i guess that would be my mom haha43: Do you have a 5 year plan: i did once. idk what happened to it haha i guess things never really go according to plan and it just hurts more to make one. just set goals, not plans.42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: i did once but i dont think i have the same values as i did when i made that41: Have you pre-named your children: i used to but idk if i want kids anymore40: Last person I got mad at: ummmm hmm 39: I would like to move to: hmm somewhere with 4 seasons not just summer and less hot summer38: I wish I was a professional: artist[ My Favorites ]37: Candy: kit-kats36: Vehicle: um idk small ones i guess35: President: obama? idk34: State visited: ooohhh michigan33: Cellphone provider: ive only ever had the one so idk32: Athlete: uh31: Actor: uh30: Actress: uh29: Singer: hmmmmmmmm rn i would have to say Bea Miller but check back with me in a week28: Band: The Silent Comedy27: Clothing store: hmmmm cotton on has really comfy clothes26: Grocery store: target or publix25: TV show: rn? bnha24: Movie: hhhhhh um idk uhhhhh moulin rouge i guess? it used to be my fav but idk anymore23: Website: tumblr22: Animal: elephants21: Theme park: epcot20: Holiday: halloween19: Sport to watch: none18: Sport to play: none17: Magazine: none16: Book: hmmmmm A Monster Calls15: Day of the week: none14: Beach: hh13: Concert attended: never been12: Thing to cook: uh i guess eggs11: Food: sushi10: Restaurant: its a really good sushi place with bubble tea and thai donuts that i dont remember the name of9: Radio station: hhh idk8: Yankee candle scent: idk7: Perfume: i dont really like perfume it gives me headaches6: Flower: ooooh gardenia5: Color: blue/green teal4: Talk show host: john oliver3: Comedian: hh2: Dog breed: hmmm husky? also labradors and uhhh all dogs tbh ohhh pitbulls and rottweilers i love dogs good yes1: Did you answer all these truthfully? ye mostly