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peace-favor-your-sword · 5 years ago

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I would love a Kix and Jesse brotherly love and fluff. All the death is getting to Kix one day, and he's stressed. Another clone lets Jesse know that something’s wrong and then when Jesse gets there Kix is sitting at his desk. he has a migraine and feels really dizzy. Jesse helps him by trying to find some medicine but Kix ends up feeling nauseous, and Jesse moves him to the bathroom where he promptly throws up.

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Hello!! In honor of the new episode that came out this Friday, I’m going to have Jesse rocking his new ARC trooper outfit. We are so proud of you Jesse!!! Also, sorry ahead of time for the bit of Fives and Hardcase angst. I still haven’t gotten over it if you couldn’t tell.

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Jesse made his way down the hall, his kama swinging solidly against his hips. He was proud that he was able to fill that place and role among his fellow troopers and be of help to them when it came time for missions, and it made him think of another ARC trooper he had become fast friends with.

Even after all this time, it was hard for Fives to be gone. He had been such a large part of the 501st, that it felt like there was part of them missing. But you did what you had to in war, with your brothers. You honored them the best you could and moved on to fight another day.

He continued to the med bay, to see one of his closest friends. It seemed since Five’s death, Jesse could rely more and more on Kix, and they had become closer and closer which he believed, gave them both a deep sense of relief. At least they had each other. As he approached the door, another brother exited. It was hard to miss this one, with the bright red stripe in his hair. His name was Codes, and he was one of the best when it came to tech issues on a mission.

“Hey vod, what’s going on?” He asked, and Codes sent him his signature bright smile.

“Oh, not much Jesse. Captain just wanted us to go in and get a check-up before this next mission. Last one left us all a little shaken I think.”

His company had suffered severe losses, and the rest had been wounded, so it was good to see him back up on his feet.

“You might want to check on Kix though while you’re in there. I think something’s wrong, but I’m not sure. He wont really tell me anything.” Codes’ eyebrows were drawn down in concern and Jesse put a hand on his shoulder with a smile.

“Hey, don’t worry about him. I’ll go make sure he’s ok. He’s a tough one. I think we both know that.”

Codes lifted a shoulder and snorted. “Yeah, I guess you’re right on that one. I hear they still use stories about him back on Kamino to make sure that our brothers listen to their medics.”

Kix was notorious for ignoring command in favor of protecting or saving his men. He would throw himself into a firefight just to drag out that one, because they were that important to him. It was their lives before his. He was their medic, and that was his job. And if anyone tried to fight him, they learned very quickly what it was like to argue with a medic. Without fail, the clone who had argued would completely back down and accept what Kix deemed necessity.

Jesse shoved his shoulder a little before the both of them got too far into thought. “You look hungry. Head to the mess and maybe I’ll see you at the training room tonight. I could use a few rounds on the weights myself. See you there?” He asked, and Codes nodded, while halfheartedly trying, to no avail to get back at Jesse.

“Alright. I’ll see you then.” He said agreeably and headed back down the hall with a lighter spring in his step. Jesse shook his head in a mix of amusement and awe. Some brothers were just like that. They maintained that excitement they had all felt as boys, as cadets, which many brothers lost as the war progressed. A particular brother came to mind, with a trigger happy attitude and a wicked sense of humor. He shoved that memory out of his mind for the time being. It was still too painful to spend too long dwelling on.

His boots made a solid click against the floor as he looked into the med bay, which was nearly empty from what he could see.

“Hey, Kix. You in here brother? I could use a fresh cup of caf. Want to come with?” He called, and when there was no answer he started looking into rooms. After looking in over a dozen curtained areas, and finding most of them empty, he wound up in one of the back rooms, and that’s when he found him.

Kix laid with both arms on the desk and his head laying on top. His shoulders were hunched in what Jesse could immediately recognize as pain. After spending your entire fighting career together, it was hard not to pick up on your brother’s tells.

“Hey, Kix. What’s up? You don’t look too good.” Jesse said quietly and Kix groaned and mumbled something.

Jesse came and crouched right next to him, putting a hand on his shoulder. “Sorry, vod. Didn’t catch that. You ok?”

Kix had his eyes shut tight and he made a noise Jesse could only describe as a non verbal “no”.

“My head.” He whispered, and Jesse’s eyebrows lowered slightly as he realized his brother was suffering from a migraine again.

The first time it had happened was after Umbara, after Kix had verified too many brother’s deaths and it had taken a steep toll on him. That migraine had kept him down for two entire days, but due to all the intense action and losing battles on Anaxes, it wasn’t a surprise that another had popped up.

“You have some medicine for that right?” Jesse asked, being sure to keep his voice level. “Tell me where it is and I’ll grab it. We’ll get you fixed up and you’ll be feeling better in no time.” He said, remembering to keep his voice slightly quieter than normal.

“Across the room, third cabinet in. Middle shelf. Purple hypo.” Kix said and Jesse walked over trying to keep his steps quiet as well. It was amazing when you were required to be silent how much of your actions made noise. He found the correct cabinet and looked through the middle shelf and he finally saw the hypo, when he heard the sound of Kix dry heaving, the breaths stuttering and shallow. Jesse grabbed the hypo in one hand and quickly crossed the room, grabbing Kix’s arms and throwing it over his shoulder with a practiced ease.

“Hey, let’s go.” He said quickly and started them towards a bathroom. “You aren’t throwing up all over your stuff, you’d never forgive yourself.” He joked, and they made it to the bathroom just in time for Kix to stumble to the toilet and empty what seemed to be his entire stomach into the bowl.

It was hardly the first time Jesse had seen a brother throw up so it didn’t even cross his mind to be bothered. He knelt by him and soothingly rubbed his neck and back of his head, the new hair growth greeting his fingers. “Hey, it’s ok. Deep breaths Kix. Deep breaths. You got it. Get a breath in.”

Kix sucked in a breath, and coughed, and seemed to shudder before breaking down into tears. He hiccuped a few times before leaning over the bowl again, and again a third time, yet this time next to nothing came out, so Jesse figured he was done. He, as gently as he could, injected the hypo into Kix’s neck and threw it in the trash. He got up and got a wet towel before coming over and wiping the back of Kix’s neck and his mouth, before throwing that away as well. He went to the lights and turned them down halfway before siting with his back against the toilet bowl.

“Kix. What’s going on?” He asked, and Kix hung his head, and tears flowed in a steady stream.

“I…I dont know if I can do this for much longer, Jesse. I keep losing them. I keep losing brothers, and I want to save them, but I can’t.” He said, his voice small.

It was common for medics, Jesse knew, to share that same feeling. They did their best but there was never a way to save all the troopers that went down in a fight, but the squads never blamed them. How could they when your medic rushed into the heat of battle ahead of you to pull unarmed, injured brothers out?

“I know brother. I know. But you do the best you can.” He said quietly and Kix lifted his head, his cheeks flushed as he cried, and his eyes filled with tears.

“We’re losing almost every battle we have, Jesse. I mean, look at the captain. That man’s sleeping on his feet, he’s exhausted. Every time we fight, I feel like we lose more men that we come back with and..” He shuddered and pushed back from the toilet a little. “I just don’t know what to do anymore.”

Jesse scooted forward so he could look Kix directly in the eye, and he stared him down.

“Kix. You do your best. You know you do. You always told me, save who you can, and be there for the living. None of us every blame you, or any medic for the brothers we lose. I know you’re doing your best. And I know it’s going to turn around soon. It always does. Always. So let’s get you up, get you to your bunk and you can tackle tomorrow when you feel better. Deal?” He asked, and Kix stared back at him, two pairs of identical eyes searching each other, one for any hint of hope and the other steely determination.

Kix knew his brother would never lie to him. He knew he could count on Jesse, and that he could trust him with his life, which he did every day. He nodded slowly, feeling the sharp sting of the headache recede to a dull tightness.

“Yeah. Ok. I guess I can do that.” He said quietly and Jesse hauled him up again with a smile. As they took him to his bunk, he gave a small smile of relief.

That was the nice thing about brothers. Every time you fell down, you knew without a shadow of a doubt there was going to be someone to pick you back up again.

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fairycosmos · 6 years ago

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I left my country for a few months to do a nanny job, now I’m back home and the anxiety, depression, no sense of purpose, no sense of self-worth are coming back. Same things on my shoulders before I left home, now they’re back and I feel like a huge burden. I don’t have a job right now, and even the nanny job isn’t really that considered a real job so I’ve been jobless for like a couple years now and I’m on the verge of not caring anymore. I have nothing, so I’m nothing. Nothing anymore to lose

hey my love. i’m really sorry to hear that. it must be so difficult for you at the moment. like i cant imagine the emotional turmoil you must be in. i know it’s hard to take words seriously when you’re feeling so utterly hopeless, i get it. but i also genuinely believe that where you’re at right now, isn’t where you’ll always be. not having a job, and struggling a little, doesn’t mean that you’re nothing. when you’re depressed, your mind will force you to believe intense, overgeneralized statements like that because it wants you to blame yourself for things that are out of your control. in reality, you have an inherent worth and it hasn’t suddenly vanished just because you feel lost at the moment. i know that’s pretty much impossible to believe right now, but it’s the truth. you’re not just here on this earth to get an awesome job or to make a shit ton of money. you’re here to experience all faucets of existence, and you’re doing that, therefore you’re doing a lot better than you think you are. look, it’s really fucking common to go through periods of feeling directionless, of not knowing where to turn or what to do. i dont know anyone who hasn’t felt that way at one point or another. you’re honestly not alone. no matter how much it seems like you are, no matter how easy it is to believe that you having nothing to lose, i swear that that’s not the case.

i think your perception is being twisted by those things you listed - anxiety, depression, having no sense of purpose. it’s hard to let any light in, or to see any way forward, when you’re trapped in a cycle of being cruel to yourself, you know? your mindset is being manipulated and skewed by all of these underlying mental issues, and i seriously think you need to confront them first and foremost before you worry about a job or anything like that. because even if you got a job, you’d still be feeling shitty and keeping it all bottled up inside. if you don’t at least try to seek some form of help, then the way you see things isn’t going to change. it’s not that you’re stuck, it’s just that you’re convinced you are. and you need to look at the situation, look at yourself, and try to figure out how to actively begin to manage your anxiety/depression. make your mental health the most important priority. i know it’s not what you want to hear. i know it’s overwhelming. and i’m not saying you have to like, immediately go and seek intensive treatment. i’m just saying that maybe talking to your doctor about what’s going on is a good place to start, if you haven’t done so already and if that’s an option. there may also be support groups in your area, or hotlines you can call to gather additional info. please dont just write the idea off. your mental health is just as important as your physical health, and sometimes it needs genuine treatment, just like any physical ailment. talking to a professional about what’s going on, facing up to your deeply rooted issues, examining why you feel the way you feel, learning about positive coping mechanisms, creating a care plan for yourself in order to work out how to self soothe so that you’re able to manage easier in the future - all of those are good, solid options and they’re available to you. they will spur you onward, they will prove that you’re not as trapped as you think you are. it all just starts with talking about what’s happening in your head, just like you told me. even beginning with your parents or a friend or a family member is something to be proud of. again, i’m not saying you have to want to do it. i’m just asking you to consider it despite your apprehension.

i get that trying is the last thing on earth you want to do right now. i get that you’re tired. and it all feels pointless. but i’m of the opinion that basically everything is, and life only matters because it matters to us. initially that sounds depressing, but it also means that our existence is essentially an open ended sandbox. we can create what we want out of it. we don’t have to just be ‘one thing’, we don’t have to have all of the answers and we certainly don’t have to have the future all figured out. take a breath. it’s inevitable to be overwhelmed by your own emotions sometimes. but when you can, try to look at your circumstances from an objective perspective. life ebbs and flows naturally. things progress, they change, and in the midst of that change there is a great deal of confusion and even pain. that’s alright. you have to stumble around in the dark a bit before you find your footing. because where you’re at right now is just a stepping stone between two positive places, that’s all. you will find your rhythm again. it’s a matter of time, and choosing to help yourself out of a hole. even when it’s difficult. and you won’t be successful at it every day. some days you’ll be depressed, anxious, and pissed off at yourself/the world. but those negative thoughts/feelings are fleeting instances that you can learn how to coerce and control, to an extent. they won’t always feel as intense as they do at the moment. but you have to give yourself a fair shot at opening up in order to make that happen. at the end of the day, you’re so much more than you think you are. maybe you don’t have a clear view of yourself due to the anxiety and the depression and stuff, but just the fact that you’re here and that you’re trying and that you want to strive for more, speaks volumes about the strength of your character. you are worth the world, you deserve a happy and fulfilled life and one is waiting for you. i really think that. maybe it sounds like bullshit, but yeah. it’s true. you can’t see it, but it’s there. and i really hope you can find it in your heart to start believing me, or to at least consider what i’ve said on a serious level, because i’m rooting for you a lot. and i know you’re capable of doing the right thing for yourself. let me know if you need a friend or if you want to discuss this properly, okay? i’ll be here.

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letspanicatthedisco-imagine-blog · 7 years ago

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Request: Hi! Can you do a Brendon Urie imagine where they are secretly dating and they get caught making out by the rest of the band?

“You guys ready to go?”

You, Dan, Nicole, Kenny, Brendon, and Zack have plans to go out for drinks after the show. It is mid way through the tour, which has flown by. You have been on tour selling merch at the shows and handling merchandising and advertising demands on the road. Little did you know how close you would get to everyone- I mean I guess you should have assumed spending 24 hrs a day with these people it would be inevitable. What took you for a complete surprise was how close you and Brendon had grown. You guys had an instant connection and it grew from there. He became one of your best friends like the rest of the guys, but he grew into so much more. It's not that you don’t think the guys would be upset or irritated about yours and Brendon’s relationship, but you both agreed to keep your relationship under wraps. For starters you, the rest of the band, and Zack had such a dynamic and you didn't want to ruin that. What if it made everyone uncomfortable? Could you hang out with just the guys and not be the annoying girlfriend who tags along? Would Nicole feel ostracized- you were the closest to her and you hated not being able to tell her. Dan and Kenny wouldn't be able to see you as just one of the guys if they knew, could they? You raked your brain as you imagined the possibilities of being completely transparent with your relationship and it is terrifying. You wouldn’t forgive yourself if you fucked up anything about this tour, this band, and the crazy time you all had- any of it. So you and Brendon decided to keep your relationship under wraps until the tour ended- when things were settled. But that didn't keep you from Brendon- it couldn't even if you tried. Something between you was electric. You guys would find excuses to sneak off and be together- late night chats outside the bus, quickies in the dressing room, and on the off weeks of tour you would split going to your place and his.

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“Yeah, its really cold though- anyone have a jacket I can steal?”

“Yeah!” Brendon answered, way to quickly “It’s on the bus, we can just run and grab it and we’ll meet you guys there.”

“Cool” Dan said as he finished gathering his belongings “ Y/N just text me when you guys get there”. Everyone aside from you and Brendon started walking to the bar while you two went over to the tour bus.

“You can steal my denim jacket- I think it’s over on the top of my bunk”

You nodded, walked over to the bunk and threw on his jacket. It fit Brendon loose so you basically swam in it, but you loved that jacket. He basically lived in the jacket- it was incredibly worn with loose threads and tears all along the bottom edge and sleeves and the elbows were so worn out and faded. It smelt strongly of pot and after shave as you wrapped it around your body.

“Damn” Brendon exclaims, leaning against the sofa running the walls of the bus.

“What?” you asked walking over to him. You stand facing him, in between his legs. He bites his bottom lip and grabs the edges of the jacket.

“You just look really sexy in my jacket.” He pulls the jacket toward him pulling you along with it. His kisses you softly on the lips, still gripping the worn edges of his jacket. Your kiss gets more passionate quickly as he pulls one of his hands under the jacket to your lower back. You softly bite the bottom of his lip (which you know always turns him on). He pulls back slightly and with a mischievous smile walks toward you as you backup- until your butt is pressed against the counter on the opposing wall. He grabs your waist and lifts you onto the counter. You stretch your hands around his neck and wrap your legs around his waist. His hands find their way under the jacket, which had now fallen revealing your shoulder. Your kisses are passionate and his hands graze further under your loose tank top. You let out a soft moan as he moves from your mouth to your neck and collarbone and

“OH SHIT… uhhh… I”

There at the top of the stairs of the bus was Kenny, wide eyed and probably wishing he was anywhere but there. And in that moment, so did you.

“I just uhhh forgot my wallet sooo Im gooing to … uh… yeah … I’ll see you guys there.” He tripped over his words, avoiding any eye contact with you or Brendon. You couldn't even look at him you were so mortified- you just looked down at your shoes, wishing you could melt into the jacket. Kenny grabs his wallet off the table by the front of the bus and heads back outside. You hear the doors of the bus close shut.

“Shit.” you mutter under your breath and jump off the counter

“Babe, its fine, he probably didnt see anything..”

“Bren.” “Ok so he definitely did…”

You push past Brendon and start pacing the bus. Bredon sits on the sofa, hands in between his legs, hunched over as he watches you pace back and forth. “Y/N” its fine babe, relax. So what- I mean I told you since day one I think it's fine if the guys know.”

You groan and walk over the the counter across from Brendon and lean against it- facing him. “I just… I don't want things to change. If we fucked things up…” “Y/N” He motions you to come over to him as you comply. He grabs your hands in his.

“They were going to find out in a few months anyways, and honestly I'm surprised they don't already know. I mean it was only a matter of time before I lost all restraint and jumped you in the middle of a show or something”

You softly kick his foot as he laughs. His goofy, wide grin makes you chuckle

“It's going to be weird, right?” You ask him, looking in his eyes seeking some sort of assurance or comfort, even though you already knew the answer.

“Absolutely” he answered honestly. He strokes your arm as his other hand squeezes yours. “Everything is fucked?”

“God damn near apocalyptic.”

“Ugh” you pull him up from the sofa “Alright let's go”

-------------------------------------- You walk over to the bar and spot the guys at a table through the window. The staff brings you over to the private room and you throw your phone and wallet on the table.

“Hey- sorry we’re late”. You waited for the jokes, the remarks, and having that very uncomfortable conversation where you had to answer why you tried to hide it, how you guys started dating, blah blah blah- but it was almost unnerving how ordinary the night went. No one said anything about you and Bren- no weird smiles, hinting comments- nothing. The weirdest thing to happen was Kenny talking about the duck he almost fought on the walk to the bar, but at this point in the tour even that seemed pretty normal. At some point someone had to say something? You guys were too close for no one to

“So Kenny did you like the show?”

say something. Brendon sat there with a wide smile, winking at Kenny as he took another sip of his beer. Of course it was Brendon- just couldn't resist the impulse to bring it up. You nudge Brendon hard in the arm which only makes him laugh as he nearly spits out his beer. “I mean very subpar- very subpar” Kenny says in a pompous tone as his begins to swirl the whisky in his glass “The plot line- very predictable. And the male lead, not even good looking. Kind of a prick” He continues to joke with such extravagance “ Too predictable of an ending- solid 7/10.” Everyone laughed and the night went on as you all chat and drank. At one point you and Nicole went to get drinks at the bar “Sooo you didn't tell me Brendon were a thing?” “Ugh I know, I’m sorry. I just.. Didn't want to fuck things up- you know?” You took a sip of your drink “We were going to just wait until after tour but I guess that didn't happen”

Nicole nodded and grabbed her drink from the bartender. “Did you know?” You ask her directly. She was being so nonchalant about the whole thing. “You guys are so chill. I mean it's not like I expected a big hoopla about it or anything but a reaction at least?”

“I mean we didn't know you guys were actually together, but no shit we knew something was going on- we do have eyes”

You laughed as Nicole nudged you, almost knocking you off the bar stool. “Haha no for real though, we all figured something was going on between you two. Just being around you guys- anyone can sense it. I assumed you guys at least talked about it with each other or something- at least I hoped so. And honestly, I am so happy for you guys. When you are around Brendon he is just so much happier- not so... all over the place. I think you really center him.”

You smiled in relief as Nicole continued “Thank god you guys are actually dating- or Zack was about to meddle in haha!”

The remainder of the night was wonderfully ordinary, as you were so grateful it was. You all went back to the bus and spent the remainder of the night writing jokes of songs, making dumb snapchat videos, impersonating each other- you had a particularly good Zach impression if you do say so yourself. As the night progressed everyone trickled to their bunks leaving just you and Bren on the sofa. You sat with your legs bent over his as he played with the rips on the knee of your jeans.

“You know” Brendon looks at you, pushing your hair behind your ear “I'm going to miss the secret dating thing.”

“You know that is your fault. You are the one who offered me your jacket” You smiled at him as he grabbed the collar of his jacket that you hadn't taken off all night.

“Dont regret that” He pulled you in close and with a raspy, tired voice whispered in your ear “You look sexy in my jacket”

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rapturedtoxicity · 8 years ago

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Friend: if it doesnt then who cares Friend: you do you for you Friend: it would just be good obv if the flower gets it without any assist Me: yeah Me: for sure Me: i think Me: if we end up hanging out again and shit Me: i'm pretty sure i'm still just gonna Me: want to ask her to go out for a walk and do shit and all that Me: because i feel that desire now Me: even if i'm making cuts on my arms and drinking like a maniac Me: like i still feel like im making progress Me: even if my current ways of coping with the pain are fucking retarded Me: and im very aware of that Me: i kinda feel like i can maybe learn from being a fucking moron for a little bit though Me: understand a bit better how that is, how the perspective switches you know Friend: yeh Me: notes to be had Me: dont advertise change Me: it gives the wrong impression Me: might make her think its superficial Me: uhhhHHh Me: stop being retarded at some point obviously Friend: tbh a big thing of being in your head too much Friend: is if you're not actually busy Friend: so try and do mre Friend: in the day Friend: tire yourself out Friend: budget your time bette Friend: r Friend: dont yolo days Me: i feel like being a moron and behaving irresponsibly for a bit is ok because this is the most painful shit ive gone through ever pretty much Friend: cus then you just think about shit you dont need to Friend: cus you've nothing better to do Me: yeh Me: plan shit Me: do things Me: make plans in advance etc etc Friend: that might help Me: i feel like Me: idk if im wrong abt this Me: but Me: i think it's okay to be a moron for a bit Friend: personally Friend: i mean it makes sense Me: obviously you're the fuckin logic sensei and all that Friend: but think of dota shitters who are like Friend: im 2k so i dont need to get dust Friend: cus at that point its ignorance after the fact Me: and, again: i'm actively referring to myself as a fuckin moron so i understand that this shit is just retarded Friend: like choosing the ignorance Friend: thats cool Me: but atm it feels like it's aight Friend: but like how i avoid saying sorry Friend: if you keep calling yourself a moron Friend: that word wont mean shit Me: it'll lose meaning yeh Friend: cus your brain will just go Me: i'll just say sth else lol Friend: ive called myself that for weeks Friend: /months Me: yeh Me: i get you Me: stops meaning anything Me: idk. maybe im just not ready to like Me: take the leap Friend: yeh see thats legit to accept Friend: things like that take some time Friend: some wisdom Me: yeah Friend: so you make the call when you think you're ready Friend: some people never are ready Friend: and need the push Friend: but give yourself a chance Friend: to figure it out yourself Me: i think i will know soon enough Friend: before you get pushed Me: yeah Me: i definitely needed the push Me: the breakup was a big push tbh Me: really shoved me in the deep of it Me: like i said Me: made me understand what i value and all that Friend: yeh thats something that sucks Friend: but its kinda nice to Friend: too* Me: yeh Me: bittersweet Friend: you def feel growth once you realise what you had Friend: after you loseit Friend: yeh Friend: you'll see things a little differently now Me: yeah Me: if things take off again with her Me: i'll understand better what i want and what she wants Me: the growth is a nice feeling despite all the shittiness Me: it's some what relieving i guess Me: to understand myself a little better Me: man my coworkers were constantly telling me to cover up the cuts today Me: felt kinda bad tbh Friend: it should Me: cause im not ashamed of them really Friend: you showing other people makes it their problem Friend: because you would rightfully say Friend: hey if you're a good person Friend: and you see someone in troble Friend: you'd help Friend: so you openly showing something wrong Friend: doesnt make it just a hraug problem Me: i guess that's true Friend: so its fine not to be ashamed Friend: but do it for the others around you Me: yeah Me: that's fair Me: i feel like its kind of important that Me: like Me: im not trying to show anything Me: does that make sense like Me: im not pulling up my sleeves as a cry for help im just trying to not get them dirty while i work Me: but i obviously understnad that people seeing that shit is gonna have some effect on them one way or another Me: im just kinda like Me: obviously its not as simple as saying "it's none of your business" but that's kind of how i feel anyways Me: cuz its not something that im trying to show Me: its not something i think people should worry about Me: because i dont worry about it Me: but maybe im just being ignorant Me: or sth Me: idk Friend: yeh you are Friend: just get some bandages and perma keep em on Friend: but again its just normal sadness that you're feeling its no different to a normal breakup, you should try for a week to not to cut or stuff Friend: cus its not a smart way to deal with sadness in general Friend: especially when its nowhere near as bad as just out right being rejected due to failure or anything else Me: thats true i guess Me: idk though. i feel like that argument just goes back to like Me: children in africa and all that shit Friend: yeh dw about that just think he this is how i feel in this situation Friend: so just try and understand why you're feeling the way you're feeling Friend: that'll help you tackle how you feel Friend: and in the future it will make sense Friend: you;ll see the same signs Friend: etc etc Me: yeah Me: i suppose Me: that is true. Me: dude im so drunk lmfao i was actually considering asking you if you wanted to see my cuts Me: lmfoashdjgk Me: complete retard over here Me: god damn Me: ugh Me: i think i need to sleep maybe Friend: lol well i understand why you'd say it Friend: it wont phase me Friend: but i wont condone it Me: nah Me: i get that Friend: yeh that's smart Me: im the same w that w other people Me: condoning is not good Me: but theres a difference between condoning and like Me: accepting Me: i guess? Friend: yeh Friend: but cutting is a last resort in my head Friend: so im surprised you jumped str8 there Friend: but again we're all diferent Friend: ff* Me: i Me: tried it at first Me: because i was kinda curious Me: wondered it if it'd do anything for me Me: cause i know some people that have done it and said it helped them cope Friend: yeh it def helps nodoubt Me: and i was curious cause i havent really found anything to cope Friend: but again Friend: in my head its a last resort Me: havent had any desire to play any games in the last week Me: which is my usual coping method Me: yeh Friend: i see Me: but we're all different Me: like you said Me: i gotta stop drinking Me: rofl Friend: hah Friend: ive heard that a trillion times Friend: its shameful Me: feels bad Me: feels kinda good Me: but it feels bad Friend: lol Friend: welcome to the drunk life Me: hahahha Me: yeh Me: im learning to drink through this actually Me: learning how to pace myself Friend: absinth was a tricky one for me Friend: hate the taste Me: never had it afaik Me: did my first tequila shot tonight Friend: you'll know when you taste it Friend: you cant taste anythign Me: shit was nasty Friend: but that Friend: you could lick a hobos ass Friend: and not taste anything Friend: but absinth Me: shit Me: is it as agressive as gin? Me: gin is fucking nasty Me: like eating the bark of an orange Friend: its like Friend: gin Friend: super saiyan steroids Friend: +10 Me: ugh Me: nvm then Friend: you gta try it Friend: if you do it Friend: have like a single shot Friend: as a first drink Me: how strong is it? Friend: so you can taste it and shit Me: yeh Friend: its the strongest there is i think Friend: like 60% Friend: something stupid Me: ohhh bitch Me: that is nasty Me: aight well Me: im gonna fucking Me: sleep Me: cheers for the chat dude Me: always a pleasure Friend: likewise Friend: nn dude

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Got Blocked... Went on a Rant.

I got blocked today. After weeks of debate with him about varying topics such as: trans pronouns, running protestors over, and this time, the existence of privilege. He shared a post about how getting ahead through hard work and there not being such a thing as privilege. Another of his friends was debating him about how his LACK of police encounters was due to white privilege and he wasn’t having it.. he started by sidestepping anything his friend was saying by mocking her lack of punctuation and claiming he couldn’t be bothers to try and decipher her nonsense... then his point became that the post wasn’t talking about police but simply putting in hard work to get ahead... to which I said something which pushed him to block me. I pointed out that his current job was given to him by his family member.. but I said it in less words. I used the word nepotism... And I’m posting this mostly to say that it was quick and off the cuff and I’m sorry there couldn’t be more of a conversation about it... it was blunt and admittedly I don’t know the whole story... but it always bothers me to some extent when I get blocked, not that it happens often. It obviously crossed a line with this person and they just decided they were better off without those kind of comments in their life.

And I start to ponder on that. The control of what gets said to you, who can talk to you. Being able to filter your bubble. On one hand I can’t be against it completely, but I think it’s the WAY you do it online that bugs me... For instance, lets look at the universe... if, like the internet, all points were accessible from all other points with equal distance/“load time” between them... and in places such as social media where you have overlap from hundreds to millions of other places all at once... then you’d have a tremendous amount of commotion.. there’d be so much noise, you couldn’t hear anything.. the universe, unlike the internet, sorts everything by location... remember before the internet? information was local. information was word of mouth. not to say it was better.. it’s incredible to be able to find out information from anywhere in the world... but in the universe.. you hear what’s within processing range.. and if you dont want to hear from something, you run away from it (im imagining caveman times, precivilization) But cavemen even lived together.. and what happened back then if you didn’t want to hear the worldview shattering/rudely put insulting grunts of another caveman, i guess you just beat them up or killed them.. so that’s not so good.. but maybe the thing to take away is the immediate resolution.. its over and done with... one of those viewpoints is eliminated and the other persists.. there’s an elegance to it, BUT the obvious downside being the deciding factor be violence rather than “correctness”.. which leads back to modern social media... it’s not violence, it’s blocking, it’s filtering away the stuff you don’t like.. again, not to say that isn’t better.. but it loses that immediate resolution. It propagates and reinforces everyone’s bubbles... and as your bubble’s walls become almost solid, you’re left sorted into a life of same ole same ole... nothing new happens... no progress is made...

From my perspective, yeah, this guy is an asshole who I disagree with and I’m glad that he’s gone.. But what if, aside from our differences about certain topics, he had some great info about something else that could have helped me out? gone. What if I had the same for him? gone. Sometimes I wish people wouldn’t throw in the towel ever. But then sometimes, I can see where certain people just shouldn’t be allowed to converse... I just wish that problems could be rendered quickly.. that there was an algorithm that could process the correct answer or explanation for every debate and every argument and every miscommunication and every confusion.. I think that sometimes the best thing for you sometimes is the hardest thing to hear and it just sucks that some people might be allowed to block themselves from hearing it... or even block others from hearing it from you....

Subtopic: But that ends up boiling down to the fact that a civilization can only support so many different views. you can’t boil down some arguments because it simply comes down to different priorities...which are both “allowed”... democrats and republicans.. which, personally seems like it’s just greed vs sharing.. selfish vs selfless.... and also personally, i think you need a balance.. but instead of trying to balance every person, they just let people shift from side to side like a teeter totter.. allowing each side a time to shine... almost like if good and evil both wanted to swing.. and in the interest of “being fair”, evil was allowed an equal turn.. even though being fair is inherently a good thing...

This has been an off the rails rants about a bunch of shit

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[2/27/2015 9:48:23 AM] Evan: sup [2/27/2015 11:23:51 AM] YV??~: (So I was not ignoring this i just only ever wake up around 12 and i never change my status because i dont plan when i go to sleep. just felt like i needed to explain i was not ignoring this) [2/27/2015 3:28:38 PM] Evan: I kinda figured. heh [2/27/2015 3:29:23 PM] YV??~: so you wanted something? [2/27/2015 3:30:49 PM] Evan: Haha not particularly. It's going to sound pretty random, but I actually wanted to ask you a question. [2/27/2015 3:31:01 PM] YV??~: Ok [2/27/2015 3:32:21 PM] Evan: Cause I'm curious, and I can't remember if I ever asked. [2/27/2015 3:32:30 PM] Evan: Heh. Sorry if this is too personal, but [2/27/2015 3:32:45 PM] Evan: Why do you consider yourself a terrible person? [2/27/2015 3:42:39 PM] YV??~: Oh. Well you are in luck because i accidentally did a lot of terribly depression introspection earlier this week and have just the answer for that. From what i can put together from my somewhat incoprehansible whining. I've gotten through a lot of my life manipulating people through lying and gaining their pity all for my own gain...and probably will continue to. I tend to not do ANYTHING in every situation that would be optimal for working. I am able to somehow make people angry just by expressing emotion. and even when i find things i could fix i never try to change anything. [2/27/2015 3:42:54 PM] YV??~: just a short list of some of the things [2/27/2015 3:43:57 PM] Evan: I see. [2/27/2015 3:44:13 PM] Evan: It sounds to me like you're a human. [2/27/2015 3:46:21 PM] YV??~: Ehhh. I mean im not gonna tell people what they can think but i dont have to share anyone opinion [2/27/2015 3:47:23 PM] Evan: Haha, fair enough. I'll spare you the optimistic bullshit. [2/27/2015 3:47:28 PM] Evan: Why don't you change anything? [2/27/2015 3:48:51 PM] YV??~: That takes time. and effort im too lazy to put out. Ive tried to fix some things but i forget like a week later and stop trying [2/27/2015 3:49:40 PM] Evan: Do you not actually want to? [2/27/2015 3:52:05 PM] YV??~: Honestly, hell if I care anymore. I'm trash and thats that, Im not really worth the time or effort. [2/27/2015 3:52:29 PM] Evan: Not even your own? [2/27/2015 3:54:23 PM] YV??~: Im not really worth pretty much anything for anyone. Even thinking deeper about myself makes me feel like that was just a waste of time. [2/27/2015 3:54:49 PM] Evan: What do you do, then? [2/27/2015 3:55:50 PM] YV??~: Weh, theres a reason I have so many OCs and roughly 12 titles to my name with 6 running congruently at various stages of development. [2/27/2015 3:56:27 PM] Evan: Why do you make art and tell stories? [2/27/2015 4:01:07 PM] YV??~: I dont really have any other people around, and I dont really move from one spot like 22+ hours of the day so I gotta have somewhere to go, and someone to be. Even before I ended up like i am now barely leaving the house, I didnt have more than like 1 friend ever so those were my friends. I ended up picking up drawing from my sister seeing her do it because i thought itd be a good way to be able to really see these characters [2/27/2015 4:03:03 PM] Evan: Why do you animate them? [2/27/2015 4:06:56 PM] YV??~: Ive always been able to make up stories but when i create them i dont think of it as words, as a story would be if i wrote it down, I actually see the story's progression moving. When I create a story and characters I see them move and create the story themselves with small things i put in, and I hear them actually say what they have to say. out of all mediums of visual story-telling, animation is the closest to the original "being" of the story. [2/27/2015 4:07:38 PM] Evan: Why do you share them? [2/27/2015 4:10:20 PM] YV??~: I do that with pretty much any work i finish. Like "here i made this, heres proof it exists." Basically so i have something to show for myself, that i do have the ability to make things. [2/27/2015 4:12:29 PM] Evan: Does it make you proud? [2/27/2015 4:15:32 PM] YV??~: euuhhh...Proud? No. Satisfied with actually being able to have a finished product of some kind, even if its less than the original plan, is a little more like it. Even if I hate it later because there are things that could have been done better if given the time, its still better than nothing. And even then usually the ones i hate the most give other people the most enjoyment. [2/27/2015 4:17:22 PM] Evan: Do you make things that you hate? [2/27/2015 4:20:59 PM] YV??~: Oh yeah. Serious things that just went wrong early on and i was unable to fix, and joke things that ive put too much effort into that got too big compared to real work. I usually dont hate projects though. Even when I feel like theyre going no where and i retire the idea completely i dont usually hate those. Mostly art and animations, actual stories are different. [2/27/2015 4:28:05 PM] Evan: Does art make you happy? [2/27/2015 4:32:56 PM] YV??~: Not usually while im in the process of making it, im mostly just mind set on what it SHOULD look like. But stepping back to look at everything come together and finally become something finished usually is satisfying at the least. Some i never look at after that final moment of its creation, but some im really happy with the way it came out and end up looking at it over and over. So I suppose once the peice is made it does, in a way. [2/27/2015 4:34:34 PM] Evan: Are you proud when your art makes others happy? [2/27/2015 4:36:44 PM] YV??~: Well, i mean, i guess its nice when other people can find enjoyment out of something ive done. [2/27/2015 4:37:13 PM] Evan: Do you like making people happy? [2/27/2015 4:39:21 PM] YV??~: depends, usually i try not to sacrifice too much for other people, but sometimes i can be generous with somethings. really it depends on how I feel pretty much. [2/27/2015 4:41:55 PM] Evan: What makes you happy? [2/27/2015 4:47:07 PM] YV??~: I dont know, I tend to spend most of the day in a neutral 'emotionless' state, and most of the time any emotions I do have are very miniscule that I dont usually remember them. Though I enjoy being in the presence of other people, even without participating, people tend to ignore me 90% of the time. Thats a question that im not sure has a real answer [2/27/2015 4:50:26 PM] Evan: Do you have a dream? [2/27/2015 4:53:07 PM] YV??~: I try not to make solid plans more than 3 years in advance, so im not really sure. There's not a whole lot, at this point, that I could really accomplish by 2018, who can even say I'll still be alive by then. [2/27/2015 4:54:04 PM] Evan: But is there something you would want to do? [2/27/2015 4:58:05 PM] YV??~: Usually I just put goals on my characters, and I just exist to help them get there. I dont really see it so much as my life and things I want to do. Really the only thing id regret in dying is not that im stuck nowhere and im not going anywhere, but my characters not fufilling their roles and reaching THEIR closure. [2/27/2015 4:59:23 PM] Evan: Is there anything else that you do? [2/27/2015 5:02:50 PM] YV??~: All of my hobbies relate with art and story-telling in someway. Voice acting, singing, creating costumes and clothing. pretty much all of it is art and in some way has a story behind it. [2/27/2015 5:06:28 PM] Evan: What do you want to be better at? [2/27/2015 5:09:51 PM] YV??~: wehh..I dont know, theres a lot of things i could be better at and somethings i should be, but...im not really sure. [2/27/2015 5:22:15 PM] Evan: What do you think you're best at? [2/27/2015 5:28:41 PM] YV??~: Ive practiced various methods of drawing for years but, even though i just picked up sewing as a craft 3 years ago im better at that than i was with drawing early on. Everything else has taken since around middle school to get to a good level where i can still do it comparatively quickly, where sewing only took a year to get to that point. Overall for me it went from a beginner level to at least moderately experienced much faster than everything else. [2/27/2015 5:38:07 PM] Evan: What's your favorite thing to do? [2/27/2015 5:41:19 PM] YV??~: I dont know. Usually if im bored, and not too fed up with holding a pencil, i end up idly drawing....Its really like the only thing I do. [2/27/2015 5:50:40 PM] Evan: What inspires you? [2/27/2015 5:53:13 PM] YV??~: Usually things just pop into mind on their own. Sometimes they happen while im listening to, or watching something. [2/27/2015 5:53:40 PM] Evan: What sorts of things do you watch and listen to? [2/27/2015 5:57:06 PM] YV??~: Usually I put on miscellaneous gameplay footage or lets plays, and i pretty much switch between that and music. [2/27/2015 5:57:49 PM] Evan: What kind of music? [2/27/2015 6:00:23 PM] YV??~: It usually depends what i feel like. somedays its lighter faster stuff, somedays its heavier stuff. Somedays a combination of both, sometimes i just let my music shuffle and play in whatever order. [2/27/2015 6:02:12 PM] Evan: Is music important to you? [2/27/2015 6:05:52 PM] YV??~: I guess....I mean some ideas wouldnt have happened without certain songs, and some projects probably wouldnt exist. [2/27/2015 6:07:53 PM] Evan: What's your favorite project? [2/27/2015 6:10:21 PM] YV??~: Honestly, there isnt a lot of public information on Mahito but ive been working with it for 2 years, and it was actually the first thing I envisioned myself actually animating. [2/27/2015 6:11:00 PM] Evan: What's Mahito? [2/27/2015 6:22:17 PM] YV??~: Its something I came up with one day, I guess the best way to describe its themes in short would be Madoka-esque even though i came up with the basics including designs before i even watched it. I guess one could say its very "magical girl" though it is not a straight female cast. It follows a team of 6 highschool students, their leader being a socially withdrawn, sucidal girl whos only real support are her brother and his best friend. These 6 people are given powers and forced into a battle thats been going on for centuries, for supremacy within a group of supernatural beings known to the humans involved as "gods." Many of these gods have no regard for the people they force to fight so long as they are able to take surpremacy in someway, since they are unable to kill each other or be killed. The team has to fight both other human fighters and "monsters", that are the remains of humans who tried to rebel against their "god", which live beyond a barrier and can threaten to destroy inncent human life. At first they look at it as their chance to help people, but eventually their powers become a burden. [2/27/2015 6:24:26 PM] Evan: That sounds really interesting. How much have you done with it? [2/27/2015 6:29:45 PM] YV??~: So far I have designs and short biographies for the main cast. As well as designs for a few of the mosters they will face, and bios for a few minor characters that still have some influence on a part of the plot. A lot of what i have written besides characters is mostly world building, information on the roles and powers each member of a 6 man team can have. Descriptions of the basic behaviors of monsters on different intelligence levels. I plan to have all the designs done at the end of this year, and the timeline for the plot fully written in detail at the end of 2016. [2/27/2015 6:33:31 PM] Evan: Cool. O: I assume it's also going to be an animation? When do you think you'll start making it? [2/27/2015 6:38:45 PM] YV??~: Ive been saying since around last year or so itll come out in 2018. It was the first thing I considered animating seriously, things before that where like that would be cool, or this scene could be animated. But this, i decided, this was going to be fully animated, i tried to start it out in a static format just to get things laid out to be adapted into an animation, but it never worked. While 2018 may be a little too ambitious, this is going to be nothing but animated [2/27/2015 6:44:46 PM] Evan: I see. [2/27/2015 6:46:57 PM] YV??~: yeh

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