#sorry this is so long JFHDBJBGHGHHB...... i just had a rly long talk w my dad abt it and he was HEATED so i wanted 2 see if anyone else

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hm ive been thinking a lot abt this thing that happened in my humanities class the other day n like...... idk if it’s just me but i think it was kinda shitty n im wondering if other ppl would like Agree w that so.... heres the Sitch under this fancy readmore! im probably gonna rly regret postin this so i’ll take it down afte. A few days but i just like wanna make sure im not Delusional u kno

so uh... 4 some Backgroud im in a Program @ my school for ppl who r interested in the humanities n stuff. out of this year’s group (15 of us i think!) im the only one who lives off campus and im uhhh Socially Very Weak i guess bc im not rly close w any of them like they’re all rly connected n ive always been rly nice 2 them but idk i hardly know them n it’s just awkward bc they’re all best friends n shit n im just tagging along n im lowkey afraid they secretl. n so for our first year in the program we all have 2 take a seminar class together n this semester the seminar has been on surveillance n i... lowkey Hate it but Anyways........ we’re doin our final project presentations rn which r basically on any aspect of surveillance we haven’t talked abt in class n shit. so uh.... there’s kinda. A Clique i guess in our group of all these girls who r lowkey kinda fake n sorta Exclusive 2 me i guess? and ALWAYS volunteer in class n shit djbwjfjrks. n 2 of the girls in it were partners 4 the project n they asked if they could present first on tuesday when we got the assignment n so they were All Set For That i guess

so on Tuesday we all came 2 class as usual and like... everyone usually shows up a lil early even the professors but they were kinda running late. and the 2 girls came in and started talking abt their presentation and one of them said “o yeah we actually just ripped ours from the Internet bc it doesn’t even matter anymore lol it’s fine” n some ppl were lkke.... What Do U Mean That’s Plagarism But they totally blew it off n everyone was like......... ok u do u i guess? like i kinda was Incredulous bc they always volunteer n the professors adore both of them but idk they’ve always seemed sorta shady 2 me so i believed it. n then the professors came in and started class n whatever.

n Then the 2 girls started doing their presentation and it was abt the “what would u do” show thing where ppl do these crazy extreme situations just 2 see how other ppl will react and..,.. it was actually rly well done but the whole time they were doing it i was Big Mad bc it was Fake and they basically stole the entire presentation when EVERYONE else had 2 bust ass on theirs? but ya it was whatever.

then @ the end they started doing discussion questions n one of the girls asked the first one n then Another girl from the same clique (her ROOMMATE!!!!) raised her hand and basically snitched them out???? she was like “uhhhh yeah they stole this whole thing and that’s rly unfair 2 everyone who worked so hard on it” n anther girl in the clique jumped in n said she felt the same way n..... the room got SUPER tense and i started getting rly anxious????? and the professors got rly mad and started asking if it was serious n saying they were so disappointed in the 2 girls who cheated and also everyone else in the class bc we Knew n didn’t have he integrity 2 tell them and..... i was DEADASS on the verge of tears bc @ my school u can get in huge trouble if u know someone is cheating but don’t report it and i thought my career was Soiled... but then the 2 girls started laughing??? and it was Revealed that the WHOLE entire thing was a fucking setup and their project was this big giant meta experiment 2 see how we would react 2 their honor code violation n shit n everyone started SCREAMING and it was... wild.

but Here’s The Thing. that made me feel even worse??????? bc the professors were in on it and so were the girls who called out the presenters n shit like Everyone was in on it and had it scripted n planned oht and they basically elaborately tricked tha rest of us 4 their project. which yea was Super fucking clever and i hated them so much 4 it but Also... i felt kinda.... used? and disoriented? n just rly fuckin manipulated by that entire thing? and like honor code violations are Serious and i already have SO many trust issues w the girls in that clique n my group as a whole bc i don’t feel connected 2 them at All and i was still reeling from it for the rest of the class like............. idk. it was kinda funny a few hrs after i guess but now that ive spent a day or 2 reflecting on it im just............ rly mad abt it and still kinda Floundering bc i feel like if i couldn’t feel comfortable in that group before i Especially can’t now u kno!!?!!

So YEA that’s the story sorry 4 rambling but i just..... am still pissed abt this. and it’s not worth doing anything bc we only have 1 more class session on Tuesday and then i never have /2 see Any of them again i guess kdbdsfjsjkdf but im still kinda Bitter abt it n lkke.... Yeag