#sorry this is short i just can't think of anything that has a similar vibe tbh

[splatsvilles-fashionista]

Ranking the promotional inklings/octolings by how much I like their outfits: Splatoon 1

Kaori:

Studio Headphones / White Tee / Pink Trainers

A simple black/white t-shirt + headphones combo alongside some aggressively pink shoes

The neutral colors of the top half of the outfit work really well to let the shoes and hair pop, which is important given that she was our first introductions to the inklings as character designs.

The only thing I can dock this outfit points for is being pretty basic, but that's also kind of the point. I'd personally prefer something with a bit more pop, but it's kind of unassailable.

4/5. She's iconic for a reason.

John:

Pilot Goggles / Zink Layered LS / Purple Hi-Horses

Similar to Kaori this is primarily a neutral outfit that puts the emphasis on the colorful shoes.

That said I like this one less than Kaori's. It's a little bit busier and the shoes don't pop as much given their darker purple tone.

Also I just don't like the Hi-Horses very much, sorry.

3/5. I can't be too harsh on him because the fit is meant to be basic, but I don't think it comes together as anything more than just Kaori's outfit but worse.

Mizuho:

Bobble Hat / Green Zip Hoodie / Moto Boots

Nice natural colors give this 'fit am active, outdoorsy look.

I like the big boots on a sniper's outfit. It makes her feel grounded and stable.

The big bobble hat is also a slightly disarming feature, it makes a bit cute, and given that she's a sniper I think she'd read as a much more serious person if she wore something more self-serious like sunglasses.

4/5. I just think this one is really good.

Rui:

Retro Specs / Baby-Jelly Shirt / Blue Slip-Ons

This 'fit flips the script the promotional characters have followed so far, really drawing your eyes to the polka dot shirt compared to the glasses and the single-color shoes.

The combination of the patterned button-down, the big boxy glasses, and the shorts (not that you had any other legwear choices in Splatoon 1) gives the outfit a vibe that to me feels straight-laced and whimsical all at once.

He has the energy of a stoic office worker with some very eccentric fashion choices.

3/5. I don't think it's very cohesive, but I can't bring myself to dislike it. It's got a lot of charm.

Laura:

Takoroka Mesh / Black Squideye / White Kicks

Another really simple fit, just a cap, a t-shirt, and a pair of shoes.

The cap gives this outfit major tomboy energy to me, and I really quite enjoy that.

The little bits of red and pink on the otherwise solid white and black of the shoes and shirt actually do a lot of lifting here, providing the whole outfit a disproportionate amount of energy.

5/5. This one is really simple but I really think it has a ton of character.

Pit:

Paintball Mask / Gray College Sweat / Orange Arrows

Another primarily neutral outfit, though this time with a pretty ostentatious piece of headwear.

I actually kind of like the shirt and shoes together, but that's about it. I really feel like the mask clashes with the rest of the outfit here.

There is nothing intrinsically wrong with the mask, of course, but I simply don't think it does anything with the other clothing here.

2/5. It's honestly not all that bad, but it simply doesn't grab me very much. I don't get any sense of personality here, and that's one of the things I really look for in an outfit.

[toxycodone]

genital headcannons for :

Falin

Laios

Chilchuck

Toshiro

Namari

Venery

Thistle

Falin definitely has a penis, I think hers is probably the biggest out of Laios' party? Namari definitely packs, I would let her peg me for hours omg..... she could ruin me. Ermmm.. Chilchuck probably has a big cock for a halfling, he's fucking TALL !!!! bro has to be packing something. Also shaved or not shaved... Namari body hair everywhere OMG I need her to shove my face into her bush I need to smell her. Sorry I'm being a little too straight (? I am a man but this feels gay idk) ... anyway chil, Namari, and Falin are unshaved, full bush down there. I feel like Toshiro at his best keeps everything trimmed !! but when he can't even shave his face when he's at his lowest... bro wouldn't have the energy to take care of it. Hmm and then Laios could be either way..?? We know he shaves his face and keeps his hair short bc he doesn't wanna look like his dad, but would he even think of shaving his pubes????? Idk. Wait is this a weird thing to think about? Oh wait do elves grow body hair??? I feel like thistle would have some body hair if it's possible, I feel like they can't... unless my DND 5e knowledge is getting mixed with uhmmm. What is it called... DUNGEON MESHI I think I'm starting to dissociate I'm going to stop typing lmfao

FALIN - GIRLCOCK. Whether you are a trans!Falin fan or what, in my eyes after the red dragon thing. She gets girl cock. I can see this as either like, a penis or like T-dick. Whatever you decide. But whatever it is her situation is definitely unique. Also she got a bush frfr

Laios - COCK. (I am also a trans!Laios fan so like. He can have anything in his pants it don’t matter imma eat it but usually when I write him it’s cock). His dick is as painfully average as he is. Not crazy length wise but he got some girth to it. I’m thinking like. 5 inches frfr. Maybe 6 but that’s generous imo. No manscaping just vibes he’s full bush down there. And body hair on his chest/legs/arms and around his groin

Chilchuck - OKAY. His dick is probably like more similar to an average tallman penis. Which is remarkable considering he’s like half their size. I’m gonna give him four inches and he’s breaking other halflings in half with it but with other races. He’s learned how to use it. Chilchuck is a real one. Light on body hair, but would keep it tidy when he’s not in the dungeon (I think he likes to manscape and like. Appreciate himself in the mirror lol)

Toshiro - He is ALL length and so embarrassed about it. (Def afraid he’s gonna hurt you.) He could learn to love it with a supportive partner though. I think for a while he’s rocking bush because like, yknow. That stuff isn’t really talked about…but he figured it out for himself that when he takes his time and shaves and stuff after a anything or whatever he’ll do some trimming down there because he likes the neatness. I like to think he grows body hair but it’s not super dark for some reason (besides on his face people get jealous at the beard he can grow)

Namari - SHE IS JUST LIKE ME I GET HER VIBE SO WHAT IM SAYING HERE IS CANON: SHE HAS CRAZY PUSS BUT IS ALWAYS ROCKING THE STRAP. Namari doesn’t let anyone fuck her hole unless they’re in a committed relationship (she does not play about that either if you insert anything in her sex is over). Insane with the strap too. She’s someone I can genuinely see breaking the bed with her strokes. Also she’s got body hair for days. Like other Dwarf women she can grow a beard too but she usually shaves. (Namari with stubble…I’m bout to go feral.)

Venery - Started off with a human vagina. Now it’s some weird mix between that + hyena + dragon cock. I think he’s canonically intersex due to the ancient magic. But he’s happy about it. Also UHHHHHH…..HE LAYS EGGS. JS.

Thistle - Okay Thistle is so trans to me I think he gives himself top surgery when he’s getting older with ancient magic. He leaves the downstairs area alone because he’s fine with just presenting masc that’s good enough for him. Very low body hair he just sits in the middle of gender ambiguous for REAL.

[indigosabyss]

Ok, so this question comes from someone who hasn't read far into the manga yet, but I am immune to spoilers, so I've already heard and seen a lot. Yes, including THAT. And I apologize if such questions/theories have been sent in before.

What do you think about the theory of Uno being possibly related to the film director who kidnapped and groomed Tsukumo? Especially considering his backstory has not been revealed in detail yet (at least I haven't seen anyone talk about it anywhere).

There's quite some similarities and "coincidences", I refuse to believe she's supposed to be just a one-time background character, esp since we don't even have an actual name for her as of now.

- Most obviously, they have similar hair colouring.

- Depending on what the sequel reveals regarding the "how" and "why" behind Jyugo's murder and the genuity of his friendships with cell 13, Uno might have shown he inherited the talent to manipulate people from her. Like mother, like son. Although at the same time he's been established to be very skilled at reading and seeing through people, so in a way he might also represent an opposing force to her... who knows.

- Uno is implied to have been raised by a single father (at least in that short flashback background in the anime, where we see a younger him being ignored by his dad). So an absent bio mom might already be a possibility, which would fit right in with the theory.

- In S1 E7 Tsukumo said he's been lied to for 18 years. And guess who is also 18 years old at the time he said that? What if the lie about her supposedly losing her son in an accident was actually somewhat based in truth? (or maybe something less dramatic happened)

Also, a different thing I've noticed, which might foreshadow a possible connection or future encounter to come:

Uno's name actually means "One", but his inmate number is 11... which is also the number Elf's name is based on...

Aight, sorry for my yappery, feel free to correct me if I got anything wrong, those questions just have been bothering me for very long and it'd be nice to hear someone else's thoughts.

(PS: if this doesn't arrive under anon, please don't post. Thank you🙏)

Never heard this theory before, but honestly vibing.

Yeah, Uno's backstory is almost strikingly blank. We get people from Nico and Rock's past coming into the picture, but I cannot tell you a single thing about Uno.

This would make a lot of sense for his backstory!

Hair colour means next to nothing in Nanbaka (Yamato's daughter has purple hair somehow), but Hattori has the same color of hair and he was implied to be the director's soon too, so there's something to it. He's older than Tsukumo tho so can't be the one she lost eighteen years ago.

Also in regards to Elf (the German word for Eleven) I have nothing to say to that except yeah it is a strange coincidence.

Adding on, the German word for twelve, which is Zwolf, should definitely be the name of an edgy dog-hybrid character.

Keep yappering, it's fine! I like hearing theories!!

[imaginativeworks]

Hi! I recently just followed you for your OTP posts, and I love them a lot!! <3

I was wondering if you have any OTP dialogue with one of them comforting the other one? Like, one of them finds something unpleasant and tries to forget it but they can't, so their partner decides to cheer them up with something! It would be a cute scene, I think. If you already have a post or more about this, I'm so sorry to bug you with this! 😅 Let me know about that ^^

I'm hoping to do some drawing from your prompts, but time and motivation are rather rare! :C So, a little sad thing happened and I found out that there is this one thing I enjoyed in a fandom. I found out that it's one of those hated ones... I'm surprised that it's the most disliked in most of the fandoms. In my opinion, it's cute... But I guess it's not everyone's cup of tea... :')

Anyway, I hope you feel better soon! 💕 May you have a good day and week! ✨

Sorry if my English isn't so good...

Aww, thank you so very much, you’re so very kind and sweet! And don’t worry you could never bug me with asks and you wrote perfectly. 💕🥰

Also I’m so happy to read that even any of the prompts I wrote inspired you to draw them!

As for the asks I have written some prompts of the like but I will also add a new one so I hope you like it!

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Person B has noticed for a while now but something has been troubling Person A as of late. They would never want to make them feel they have to tell when they aren’t ready but they want to do something, anything to help them with it. After all Person A should never have to shoulder any of their burdens alone. When an idea came to mind…

As Person A is sitting on the couch trying to process the newest of their troubles. It feels as if a new storm was overtaking them, when they begin to hear a faint music in the air. Drawing them out of their haze they lift their hands from their face and sit up to see Person B move away from the music player.

They stand in front of them with a slight bow and hold out their hand for their beloved to take, asking. “Would you do me the kind honour of joining me in a dance, my love?” Person A’s eyes switch from looking at Person B’s kind, hopeful smile and their outstretched hand and take it. As they begin a light sway to their dance Person B starts going more loose and having more fun with it, bringing a soft smile to Person A’s face and even a few laughs out of them. Only causing Person B to perk up even more.

As the dance slowly settles back into its original pace they bring Person A closer and gently tell them. “You know you can always rely on me whenever you feel troubled. Even if you aren’t ready to talk about it, I want you to know that I’ll always be here for you…” they pause and look into their eyes “So please, don’t feel like you have to carry your troubles alone.”

Person A stared back at Person B when their eyes begin to water, in a quick worried panic from Person B steps away to give them a bit of space and looks over them like a stressed mother hen. Person A lets out a light chuckle for them to see that their tears were not of sadness but happy ones. Person A puts their hand over one of Person B’s that rest on their upper arms and replies “Just knowing that I have you’re here with me, supporting me. No matter what storm comes, even if the feeling doesn’t immediately go away, means the world to me, just having you at my side.”

Person B lightly moves their arms away from Person A to hold them out for a hug. To which Person A gladly walks into, as their arms enclose around them. Making them feel safe, that it’s going to be okay. They smile when Person B says “I love you~”

“I love you too.”

————— Here are a few previously shorter prompts of a similar vibe:

01, 02 , 03 , 04

Also sorry if this new prompt is too long, in the process became something more akin to a snippet. It just flowed out and I felt to bad to cut it too short.

[liesmyth]

hi, i've been following you for a while now because it seems we have similar taste in media (especially thematically). an agonizing event occurred last week that's left me somewhat selectively mute and unable to work. i can't find joy or interest or love for anything. the locked tomb has always been there for me during my lowest points (me and harrow are like this 🤞) but i'm in such a horrible place that not even muir is helping. i love reading your TLT metas and trust your judgement based on those, so i was wondering if you had any recommendations for books/media that deals with grief and loss in fantastical settings. or just big, messy, taboo feelings in general. i'm looking for anything at this point.

Hi anon, sorry to hear this and I really hope you feel better soon. I'm sending you a big hug if you want it and I'm thinking of you very fondly. I'm not sure I can recommend exactly what you're asking for but I dearly hope some of these can distract you a bit. Please let me know if you want further content warnings + if anyone else has recs, feel free to chime in!

The Screwfly Solution by James Tiptree Jr. — This is a short story that I reread about once a year when I really want something that'll hit and fuck me up. You can find it in full here. It's an apocalyptic short story, very haunting, and the last line hits like a punch in the gut. CW for gendered violence all over the place if that's something you'd rather avoid.

The House of the Spirits by Isabel Allende — This is a generational saga set in 20th century Cile. It isn't sff, although it does have some magical realism elements, so I'm chetaing and putting it in here anyway. The first time I read it, it made me cry, and it remains my favourite Allende novel.

The Last Man Alive by A.S. Neill — A middle grade speculative fiction written in 1930s Britain, which is ostensibly for kids but, in the tradition of British children's literature, gets pretty fucking dark and creepy. It's about a group of schoolchildren and their teacher who survived a poisonous cloud that turned everyone else into stone, and by everyone else I mean the entire world. It gets pretty dark at times, and I remember being sucked-punched finishing the book and reading in the afterword what happened to each of the children who were the inspiration for the characters in the book. It's a very weird little novel, but also interesting in that "vintage scifi" vibe.

Cuckoo Song by Frances Hardinge — This is another middle grade novel and probably the lightest read of this entire fic; [spoilers ahead] it's about a changeling who doesn't have a memory of being made, and at first thinks she is the human girl she was meant to replace, and only slowly realises that something is wrong. It's ultimately a feel-good story but I found it bittersweet all around, and I think the themes of identity and self growth + the creepy fairytale vibes make it worth a rec in case you think it could help right now.

Tender is the Flesh by Agustina Bazterrica — This is a book about the mundane day-to-day happenings in a dystopia where cannibalism has been legitimised as a form of population control, and large swats of people are regarded as subhuman and eaten. It's very bleak and more plot driven than character-driven, so I'm hesitant to rec it if your usual go-to is TLT; but I think the story does very good things with the tight narrator POV + there are themes of alienations from family, eldercare and anticipation of grief. It's definitely a story that fucked me up a bit.

+ not sff in the least, but I finished this book very recently and it's still on my mind: I recently read The Manicurist's Daughter, a memoir that's primarily about dealing with grief from the loss of a parent, and how grief can destroy a family + trying to reconnect despite that. It's not exactly engrossing in parts, and I'm not sure I should rec it here because I found it too slow-paced to count as a real "cathartic read" but there was something about the numbness after suffering a loss and the ugly side of it that really spoke to me.

+ not a book and I haven't watched it in years but I think you might enjoy Revolutionary Girl Utena if you haven't seen it already. It spoke to me in the same way some parts of TLT do (and it's very gay)

[littlemissaddict]

Hi don’t know if I ever sent in this request in but a Luke from Julie and the phantoms x reader were the reader is getting physically hit by carrie because Carrie wants the reader to steal her one of Luke’s songs seeing how successful the reader and Julie’s band is doing but the reader refuses like finds out and tries to give Carrie the song but the reader won’t let him

Hi, so I've just written one very similar to this that I don't know if you sent or someone else did and while I don't really write for jatp anymore I written a little something for you anyway. I apologise for it only being short but I hope you enjoy it anyway.

You recognised the voice immediately, the calling of your name from down the empty hallways, how could you not when you had been friends since you were tiny or you had been up until a year ago when she cut you all off when you stuck by Julie after her mom passed. Closing your locker you briefly braced yourself for the onslaught that you were about to endure before turning to greet her as civil as you could.

"Carrie" you acknowledged her as she came to a stop in front of you.

"I need you to do something for me" she spoke, skipping over the pleasantries and getting straight to the point, "I need you to steal me one of your boyfriends songs"

"Excuse me" you blinked at her, surely you had heard her wrong.

"Listen it's no secret that since you added those holograms" she added air quotes to them which gave you the impression that she had somehow worked out the boys secret but that seemed impossible, "to your little group that it has gained you all some traction in the music world so I," she pointed to herself as if it wasn't already obvious who she was speaking about, "need you to steal me a song befitting the vibe that Dirty Candi brings that will propel us to stardom"

"Listen Carrie you may think nothing of stealing from a friend but I would never do something like that so I'm sorry but you'll have to try something else to help propel you to stardom" you replied, repeating her own words back to her in hopes of her seeing how ridiculous she was being.

"Oh I'm sure you can be persuaded to help an old friend out" she smiled sweetly, trying her best as if you couldn't see right through that fake smile of hers.

"No Carrie I really can't be now please don't ask again" you told her, watching as the smile fell from her face only to be replaced with what you could only describe as rage for not getting her own way.

What happened next, you definitely did not see happening and from the shock on Carrie's face afterwards neither did she, which told you the slap you received across the face was a spur of the moment reaction that she hadn't fully thought through. Though despite it not being premeditated didn't mean that it didn't sting and Carrie didn't stick around for much longer after that so you couldn't have done much even if you had wanted to. Not that you did, you were one to let go which is what you did with what had just happened because something told you that she wouldn't be back anytime soon asking for a song.

The stinging had subsided by the time you had reached the studio but to your surprise it was empty apart from Luke whose face lit up when he saw you. Placing his guitar to the side and jumping up from the couch to come greet you but he comes to a sudden stop just before you.

"What happened to your face? Why does it look like a handprint? Did someone hit you?" You sigh realising that while your face may not sting anymore it didn't mean that the mark had gone down if Luke's quick fire questions were anything to go by.

"Carrie" was all you got out before Luke interrupted.

"Carrie? Why would she hit you?" Luke wondered out loud as he gently brought a hand up to your face, running his fingers across the marked skin all the while his eyes never leaving your face to gauge your reaction as he didn't want to hurt you anymore than you'd already been.

"She wanted one of your songs for Dirty Candi, I refused to steal one for her" you replied with a shrug, preparing yourself for the worst as you knew how protective Luke was over his songs.

"All this over a song?" he asked in disbelief, "if she's gonna hurt you over something as silly as this she can have one, she can have them all I don't care but I do care about you" he revealed. You warmed at his confession, even though you knew he cared but to hear that he cared more about you than his songs was definitely something but you still stood by your earlier statement that Carrie was not getting one of his songs.

You shook your head as you spoke, "Don't even think about giving her one, she's not taking credit for something you have worked so hard on" you told him sternly, "if she wants to get ahead in the music world then she needs to work for it and not expect it to be a given right because nothing in this world is" you finished only to find Luke staring at you with a weird look on his face.

"I love it when you get so passionate about something"

"Yeah well you better listen and not give her what she wanted" you narrowed your eyes at him knowing that he like to distract to get you off a topic then go and do exactly what you'd asked him not to.

"I did, no songs for Carrie" he confirmed, though he would talk to Julie about getting her to watch whenever she was around because he couldn't have you getting hurt again.

"Good, now lets go find everyone" you say with a tug on his hand as if you didn't know that you'd find them in the Molina's kitchen.

[rin-and-jade]

Okay, so we've tried several times to write an ask, and each time we just..stop ?? So this time instead of explaining in detail n shit and saying how much we're sorry if this isn't appropriate to ask, I'm just gonna write :/

So, we're kind of stuck, in the sense that idk if I'm/we're(both pronouns feel wrong lol) a system anymore and,wdk what to do about it.

Because basically 5-6 years ago, when we were around 10(i think, but at this point i only know the story through the "telephone" of our retellings) our brain tried to just.. get rid of most of the DID. I'm not even ducking kidding, i think it tried to lower barriers and smush most of us together, to the best of it's ability. From what I've gathered, it planned on shoving all our trauma deep down in the innerworlds, and hiding them from the main kid. Like, getting rid of thousands of fragments, banking them in little crevices of our brain etc.

That procedure was supposed to make it so the main kid could have more of their life for them- without access or even knowledge of the sheer size of the abyss and pain in background, and thus being less affected by it till they were old enough to deal with it. Idk how to explain really, especially since i myself barely understand.

In any case, it went wrong. I don't know why much, as our memory has increasingly deteriorated since to the point i have nearly no knowledge left. I'm not sure even all that ever happened, because maybe I'm just inventing stuff and creating a story were there is none, and I'm scared that what i know isn't real and just my imagination or smth

And what's left is..me i guess. I kinda feel like a fragment in the sense that i have limited consciousness and just..person-space(if that makes sense ?) I'm not sure if I'm several people, one person, an eldritch entity of kinda seperate kinda not glued together entities.

Idek what i want to be. I want to be a full person, that's for sure, but other than that ? Idk. I'm lost, I'm a mix of tons of different opinions and vague, weak, feelings, and flashes of blurry memories and desires that don't belong to me.

So.. i know you probably can't help, but do you have.. any idea on what I could do ? Or if others have been in similar situations and if it got better ?

This is a very long ask x knows, and it's desperate, and you aren't our/my psychs so I shouldn't just dump this and hope you have answers, and I'm so sorry if this isn't appropriate to ask, but yeah.

I'm sorry.

Dissociative disorders do the job, but not perfectly, what you're explaining from the words of "nearly no knowledge left" sounds like retrograde amnesia, where it is near to impossible to remember anything from the past.

I also get a bit on what you mean with not knowing who you are,, that is usually close to a blurry moment? Because everything feels jumbled, its not clear, it is hard to discern wether there's multiple or not, etc. That could sound like it;

Have you been exposed to stress? Especially long term? Has anything awful been happening? Many factors can affect memory and recognizing who you are that can stem from basic needs that are neglected like sleep or rest if you're working for long periods, or deficiencies on vitamins/minerals/nutrition because they also play a part on fending off brain fog which can cause many issues like memory recall or trouble focusing,, or it can be to even deeper issues like stress as i said before, or if it is related to trauma, or any sustained physical injuries but it could be anything really.

Im guessing this is something that didn't happen in such a short time, but i do can give you some stuffs to do for starters:

Write down everything you can notice those feelings, those lingering sense of identity, or vibes, or thoughts, they are truly jumbled and it helps you organize and recognize your situation better if you have a physical record of what you're experiencing

Find the cause of problem If you can, try digging up anything you can find that could be the culprit, maybe before things get too foggy to remember that could serve as clues, and by checking with your current health (physically and mentally and emotionally) and see what could be fixed.

For sense of fulfillment It is overwhelming to know which or where you have to start from if you want to learn more of yourself, while you can do number 1 to jot down things you don't align with, this also gives you some ideas on what could be yours. Start somewhere small, like, how you like your daily morning, or preference in eating food, or the colors you think it looks cool.

It would also be great if you can leave out the tiniest bit of context next time, so my answers for now are rather vague and less pinpointed/specific. Though atleast still can suffice as a starting point to tackle your issues.

You can contact me anytime via ask box or DMs, let's see how things go for you okay?

- j

[mlobsters]

supernatural s14e1 stranger in a strange land (w. andrew dabb)

pre-ep recap being ac/dc shot down in flames much better fit than metallica's nothing else matters from 13x01 vibe-wise and matching the pace of the clips. good job, guys. and smooth segue to it being on in the car

s14e1 / the matrix

wtf jackles, what is this speaking voice/cadence. reminds me of keanu reeves?? usually when i make really out there sound associations, i'm a little high. but that is not the case today. he's acting more like an agent than neo, but getting the keanu vibes :p i can't think of what movie specifically i'm thinking of. the devil's advocate and constantine are the other two keanu movies i've seen a bunch, but i dunno

never good when i'm pulling a clip in the first few minutes 🥴 gonna be a 2-3 day watch i'm guessing.

also don't really understand the styling choices. i get that it helps make a big visual difference between michael and dean, but like. dude wasn't dressing like this old timey fancy man with a flat cap in the au world. is this 20s-ish? never seen peaky blinders but this seems kinda similar? reading about collar pins and bars now. lol

is this the grief beard i've heard about. well maintained, if so

MARY Sam, we’re gonna find him. Ketch is working that thing in London. Castiel is in Detroit. I know it’s been three weeks since Dean… Something will break. It has to. SAM Yeah. Yeah, you keep saying that.

so like why does sam need to be in charge and involved in this vampire thing with this bunker full of people? they were fully self organized and fighting before they came here. even if sam is de facto leader for whatever reason; delegate, my guy. no help to anyone if you're not sleeping. call jody in, i bet she could talk some sense into him. also vaguely funny that we're all Team Family Go! but the family i connect with the most for them is jody and her girls

CASTIEL Does any demon know where Dean Winchester is? KIPLING I’m sorry, did you just say you lost a Winchester? Because, one -- that’s… interesting. And, two, how is that you lost Dean? I thought the two of you were joined at the… [Kipling glances down in a suggestive way.] …you know, everything.

in a way i wish i could have watched this without any knowledge of fandom because my knee jerk response is, ew. because i just don't see anything between dean and cas, i have a hard time grasping they're even close, i've just tried to accept it because the show tells us all the time. but maybe i could have come around to it more if i didn't know about the screaming zeitgeist that is destiel. or maybe i'd have the same reaction, i don't know. but anyway perpetually disgruntled knowing that my reaction is always colored somewhat due to fandom. i try to watch objectively but i know my feelings on things outside the show color my feelings of stuff inside the show

oh, cas. what have you gotten yourself into this time.

mmmk

SISTER JO Why would he say “yes” to you? MICHAEL Love.

short and sweet

man i know jackles is trying to do something different but i do not enjoy the way he's speaking as michael. ok now i'm getting umm. brad pitt in interview with the vampire?? like when he's talking to what's his face. for the interview. lol. christian slater! kind of slow, flat fairly emotionless narration.

um. how in the world is nick's soul in his vessel? didn't crowley remake it or whatever? or did he not die at any point in the ... 7 years intervening between lucifer dumping him in s5 and getting popped back in during s12

from 12x13 CROWLEY I managed to pervert that spell. So your essence wasn't sent back to the cage, but instead, we found your discarded vessel a few years ago… repaired it, improved it, making it a fitting final home for the real you.

whatever, man. nothing makes sense to me anymore. also thinking about jimmy novak called being possessed by castiel like "being chained to a comet" - for all those years

NICK Ow. I don't get it. I don't understand how Lucifer could die and I could live. SAM Yeah, um… I think that maybe it's because the archangel blades were made to kill the archangel inside a-and not the person they, uh -- NICK Possesses and uses to almost end the world twice?

sure. SURE. that makes sense. not at all how anything else ever works on this show, but sure! i mean, i love mark pellegrino too but come on, guys.

SAM Stop saying that, please. MARY What? SAM “It's gonna be fine,” that everything's gonna be fine, we're gonna find Dean, and -- MARY We are. SAM You don't know that. Dean's gone, and we have no idea where he is or -- or if he's even still alive. You know, Michael could have… burned him out or… worse, and… MARY I know. I know he's out there, scared and alone. I know. I know he might never come back. Never think I don't know that. But -- I can't -- I have to think about the good, Sam, because, if I don't, I will drown in the bad. For Dean's sake, I can't do that. We can't do that.

that's fine and reasonable but it's also reasonable that sam doesn't want to hear a baseless placation.

jack getting a grandpa bobby now too apparently

completely zoning out on this demon monologuing. why did they bring the girl along who isn't a hunter. what happened to the devil's trap bullets? and couldn't they make the bullets made out of the angel blades they had on the au world? because with all the dead angels they surely must have a stockpile. wouldn't get this several minute action sequence with fake tension though so

SAM Enough! There will be no new King of Hell. Not today. Not ever. And if anybody wants the job, you can come through me. Understood? (breathing heavily) So, what's it gonna be?

lol okay

SAM It's the -- It's the magic egg that kicked Lucifer out of the President. I thought we could use it on Michael, but -- Ketch can't find it. So, that's another dead end, which is just awesome.

i'm glad the show remembered because i completely forgot about that thing. thanks for preemptively ruling it out

CASTIEL Sam, are you all right? SAM Yeah, I've been better. I've been worse. You? CASTIEL I'm -- I'm just sorry. I should never have gone to those demons. SAM Cass, I -- No, I-I-I don't blame you. I… Honestly, I-I wish I'd have thought of it first. If it meant finding Dean, I-I'd work with -- I'd do anything.

❤️ take what i can get. (still need to sleep, sammy)

MICHAEL Now, you -- you know exactly what you want. You don't pretend to want to help people or save the world. Your want is pure and simple and clean. And that's why you are worth saving. That's why we are going to work so well together. Because you -- you just want to eat.

LOL what. michael loves vampires!

!! omg lol i just reread my 13x23 with my whole "can't kill michael now that he's wearing dean" is that the whole reason we get pellegrino back as nick, so we can find out that archangel blades don't kill the vessel?? 😂

[silvercrane14]

Kaguya-Sama: Love Is War - two students are in love with eachother but refuse to "lose" and admit their feelings. Instead, they have increasingly convoluted plans to get the other to confess.

Okay I will admit. this Is a romance and also ive only seen the anime. So actually this would fall more under anime recs bcs the english dub voice acting is AMAZING. Anyway tho its a comedy that I really enjoy. Its about romance but like. Idk I dont read/watch romance often so I cant say "its not like the standard romance plot". But its less about them Falling In Love and more about them Overthinking Everything And Being Silly. ALSO !! tho it takes a bit, it does go into the characters a lot. Very centred on the characters relationships !! Not just romantically between the main two, but in general.

Why I think you would like it: similar in "vibe" to nozaki-kun. Funny!! But it has its moments of seriousness and it understands its characters well.

Mushishi - Eye Have Not Read This im sorry 🙏 i havent even seen the anime so I dont actually know much about it but ive been recced it so many times I figure I should pass it to you.

If u like Natsume's Book of Friends you'll enjoy this. Genuinely I think this is my strongest rec for you on this list even tho I've never seen it. I really do think u wld enjoy 👍

Insomniacs After School - IM REALLY SORRY I HAVENT READ THIS ONE EITHER. I HAVE IT KN GOOD AUTHORITY U WOULD LIKE IT I JUST CANT GUVE ANY DETAILS. BCS IDK REALLY.

"Two young teens who can't sleep find companionship with each other. They must learn to overcome any challenges and figure out what's important to them."

Why I think you would like it: Ive heard its similar to Skip to Loafer in a way!!

Girls Last Tour - Two young girls explore a post-apocolyptic wasteland. They go through abandoned buildings and old towns in their journey, battling solitude eith only eachother

This one is a little sad. More likeeee. Meloncholy, yk? I dont have much to say about it. Very good manga.

Why I think you would like it: The character relationship between the two girls seems like something you would enjoy.

Look Back - to be super honest its been over a year since I read this I dont fully remember what happens. Theres this girl wjo draws comics for her elementary school newsletter. Shes funny so every1 really likes her and her comics. at some point another comic appears, but its actually just four panels of background art. Its so beautifully drawn that the other students begin to fawn over it. Angry kver her loss of attention, the first girl goes to meet the girl making these new comics (The background girl doesnt go to school, she works at home). Thr end up becoming friends and the story shows how their friendship develops and changes, growing closer and growing further apart.

The manga is p short for. a manga but its actually just a Really Long oneshot. Its rlly good. not much else to say.

Why I think you would like it: Very similar to Blue Period. About art and how it reflects people. Also very strongly driven by the relationship between the two girls.

The Girl From The Other Side - ive been typing so much i really cant give a whole review on this. Similar to WHA. kinda. beautiful art. read it u will enjoy it

Kaguya-sama I watched the first two seasons of! Maybe I should read the manga too, I did think it was fun

Mushishi I watched maybe the first episode of, but I should definitely try again,,, I don't remember anything about it lol

I've read Insomniacs After School!!! I'm definitely not caught up though, and I've been planning on watching the anime,,,

Girls Last Tour I,,, might have seen? At least part of it a long time ago. I'll have to rewatch/read the manga

Look Back sounds really interesting,,, I'll check that one out!!!

I'm actually reading The Girl from the Other Side in Portuguese rn lol I have volumes 1-5 on my shelf

[im-a-matt-girl]

girlfriend tag with matt on his personal channel

"Girlfriend"

"Alrighty, then," you say to the camera. "It's time for another thrilling video on my personal channel.

"As you can see by the title, yes, I do have a girlfriend. But, she will not be joining me today. She's a bit camera-shy, but she did want me to do this video, and I wanted to do this video, so… we're gonna do this video.

"I'm gonna do the girlfriend tag. So, I know everyone has their own version of the girlfriend tag, but these ones are the questions that I'm comfortable answering, and she's comfortable with answering… or, with me answering? Yeah.

"Anyway, here is the first question: 'Where or how did you guys meet?'

"So, we met a while back, before I was super popular, but she recognized me from one of our old, old videos, and she approached me and said 'hi.' I thought she was cool, we exchanged socials, and then we became friends. So… yeah. That's how we met.

"Next question: 'How long have you been dating?'

"Um… this one's kinda hard to answer, because we were friends for so long, and now she's like… basically part of our family, so it's kinda like… we went from being friends, to best friends, to now I guess we're a couple, but there was no real like… defining moment in our relationship where we were like 'Oh, yeah, now we're officially dating,' it just kind of happened like… organically, I think is the word.

"Alright, next question: 'How did you ask her to be your girlfriend?'

"Like I said, there wasn't really a defining moment or anything, it was just like… 'Okay, I like you, you like me, this is more than a friendship now, it's like… a true partnership.' So, yeah.

"'Have you ever made each other cry?'

"… Does cry-laughing count?"

"'Do you remember who first said "I love you"?'

"... No, I actually don't. Wait. Was it…? No, sorry, I forget. She's gonna kill me. Just kidding, she's actually really sweet. But I'm gonna have to confirm with her later, because I genuinely forgot, and I don't wanna say the wrong thing and look stupid.

"'Have you ever tried to kiss each other in awkward situations?'

"No, I don't like to kiss in public or make things awkward. I like to keep my private life private. And… yeah, that's all I have to say about that.

"'What is her favorite, coffee or tea?'

"Uh, so she can't have coffee, so the answer is tea.

"'Does she prefer watching movies or reading books?'

"She actually likes reading, a lot. Like, she's so smart, and it's one of the reasons I love her. Even though I don't read too much, it's just her thing and… yeah. Reading.

"'Pizza or burgers?'

"So, I like burgers, she likes pizza.

"'What was she wearing on your first date?'

"Um… I think the first time I took her out to dinner, just me and her, she wore a simple black dress, nothing too fancy, but it was really cute, and it looked good on her, so… yeah.

"'Does she prefer rap music or pop music?'

"Rap, and I think if it was pop, I… well, I don't know if I'd be dating her, to be honest. Not that that's a make-or-break for me, just… you know, we vibe to the same kind of music, and it's nice.

"'Have you ever hidden something from her?'

"No, and I never will. The moment you start doing that shit to each other, the relationship's over. You gotta have honesty. That's key.

"'Dogs or cats?'

"We both love dogs and cats, but I like dogs more, and I think… she likes cats more? Yeah, I think she likes cats more.

"'What does she like most about your siblings?'

"Um, if I had to guess, she would probably like… Well, she gets along with Nick because they're both like, similar in personality. I think she really admires Nick for how brave he is, actually. Because, you know, she's kinda shy, so she wants to be brave like Nick. As for Chris, he makes her laugh, like, a lot - probably more than me, actually. So she probably likes that Chris is funny.

"'Do you love each other?'

"Yes. Very much.

"Alright, thank you guys for watching this video. Sorry it's so short, but it was basically like a Q&A, so… yeah.

"If you have any more video ideas, let me know, just please don't ask my girlfriend to come on camera, she doesn't want to, yet. But if that ever changes, she'll let me know, and I'll let you guys know, or she'll just… show up one day, I don't know.

"Anyway, thanks for joining me today. I love you guys, that will never change. And, I'll see you in the next video."

[kimtaegis]

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I agree, you feel bad when you want to love something, but it's okay because it's just simply not your taste.

And for my opinion... Unfortunately I lowkey hate this album 😭 which sucks and I'm really sad about it because I love Jimin and was hoping I would love MUSE and we literally talked about this.. 😭 For me it was a let down. I'm listening to it right now again as I write this ask but on the first listen I kind of hated it. I don't want to say I absolutely hated it but... Almost. 😭

My biggest problem with this album is that everything is so repetitive. I think it might come from the fact that most of the lyrics are in English? And English songs tend to be full of repetitive lyrics? Not all songs of course, but when you make them for the charts and especially for tiktok rn, they just have to have a catchy short verse. But my problem is not even that it's in English. They could be singing in Italian for all I care, if the song itself is good 😭

It >feels< like he only has 1 verse he's just repeating in most of the b-sides. Rebirth was fine, I don't love it but I don't hate it either, it's just in between I guess. His voice is really pretty, I love the high notes. Interlude was just an interlude, I can't really say anything about it? :D At first listen Slow dance honestly felt like it was a Sofia Carson ft. Jimin song 😭 it >feels< like she has more lines than him because he's repeating most of the lines, but if you break the lyrics down %-wise, I guess he has more lines? Sofia has a nice voice, and the song was okay.

I think Be Mine is my favorite out of all of the songs. I really like the beat, it has Filter vibes but also not? :D It feels similar to Filter but in a different sexy way? Anyway, I liked it. His voice is gorgeous, and the repetitive lyrics didn't annoy me as much.

I have the most beef with WHO. 😭 The autotune absolutely RUINS this song for me. It's horrible... I watched the MV, and that was amazing, he looks gorgeous and the dance was great too but I was already hating the song itself. And then I listened to it again with the whole album and yep, it's just horrible. The song itself wouldn't be bad, but the autotune just completely destroys it for me. I don't know why they made the choice to slap this much autotune on it but personally I hated it. He literally doesn't need it, he's literally singing high notes in the b-sides without autotune and they sound beautiful so I don't understand why the fuck they needed to pump this song full with it 😭 I'm listening to the album again right now, but it's still bad... I don't think Who will ever grow on me. 😭

I think my biggest problem with this album(aside from the autotune) is that it's just so damn repetitive?? I'm pretty sure there are like 10 more bts songs that are also repetitive as fuck, but it annoyed me so much regarding MUSE. I feel like after FACE I placed the bar way too high, and I didn't consider that MUSE will be something completely different and I shouldn't necessarily compare it to FACE in every way.. But yeah. Unfortunately this album is just not it for me 😭 and now I will go and cry about it 😭 I said in the prev ask that SGMB was also just a cute song but nothing crazy, but now I have to say I like that the most from the album 😭😭

One thing I want to mention though: so we know that the albums were made at the same time, right? Or at least some songs were made the same time as FACE? It's really interesting and amazing that he was able to work on face, which was all about his feelings during the pandemic, feeling lost and depressed etc. but then at the same time he was working on MUSE which I would say is more romantic and upbeat? Not as pop as GOLDEN, but it's a lighter album. And he was writing lyrics and producing/composing for both at the same time!! That's crazy.

(sorry for the long ask) How did you like it? I saw you mention that you loved it? :)

ohhh honey this sucks I really wanted you to love it, it’s a shame 😕 and you know what I totally get what bothers you about it. it really is quite repetitive, it’s true. I think that makes it more memorable maybe? I’m not sure if that was an intentional choice, though. maybe that just happened and no one minded since it’s really rather a light, happy, easy-listen album. if they really worked on it simultaneously with FACE, I imagine that it was a a great “balance”; it shows again how multi-faceted jimin is as both an artist but also a human being and that he doesn’t shy away from showing all of his sides, and that music really is his tool to get both negativity and positivity out 🤍

I personally don’t mind the autotune in Who too much, but it was also the same with Set Me Free Pt.2, you either like it or don’t, both valid! I’d say I pretty much like all songs equally, with Intro Rebirth being a little higher than the rest; I’m so obsessed with the instrumentals, but they did really well with those throughout imo. I’m with you on Sofia Carson seemingly singing more than jimin in Slow Dance 😭 I just don’t care for that woman or her voice (I find it very generic), but the song is still very sweet. and I got soooo surprised by Be Mine, the teaser was a whole ass mislead, it’s so much better than I imagined!!! one big thing I don’t like at all about the album is that (yet another) interlude track… why do we need these random sounds in between songs, I already didn’t get it in FACE, and now we got another one 😭 but apart from that I do really enjoy MUSE, it’s such a season-fitting album that makes me smile, makes me sing along in my car, makes my feet move and of course makes me miss jimin so, so much ❤️‍🩹

[annabtg]

I was fine with my best friend's girl because jily wasn't together... but dude my heart broke for James in this one. She's not only physically cheating on him but emotionally also. I didn't feel bad for Lily or Sirius, but cried I for James. He was clearly uncomfortable with the way he was fidgeting with his tumblr, but loved her too much to deny her cheating on him. I know you want to convince us he's okay with it, but I just couldn't see it in my pov. It was hard to read a fic where James loved her more than she loved him, and reminded me of unfaithful by rihanna... and Sirius doing that to someone who took him in when his family kicked him out... like mate why would you do that?

I'm sorry I just hate cheating, and I can't ever justify it 😭😭😭

Hi, anon! Thank you for giving my story a shot! :)

First, let's clarify a couple of things from the text:

James wasn't fidgeting because of Lily and Sirius. This happens before he hears anything about it - unless we assume that just because they're in the kitchen together, he imagines something is happening? But he literally has no reason to do that - the narration makes it clear that this hasn't happened before, that Sirius is their best man etc.. So no, that's not it.

James is fidgeting because that's what he does - Sirius's POV explains us that a sign of half-drunk James is that he doesn't fidget, so then when he decides to sober up and go home, he's back to his usual habit.

In fact, the whole scene before Sirius and Lily interact is supposed to give out the whole bleak mood of war and hopelessness that leads to Sirius wallowing in misery and coming back to thoughts about Lily that he normally does an excellent job of banishing.

Sirius knows that James is okay with it, and even points it out in his POV that if James wasn't okay with it, Lily wouldn't do it. Lily prioritizes James always. She feels comfortable with Sirius, she loves him and cares about him, but she's not going to give up James for him. And the fact that she does this whole thing with Sirius is for his benefit, and what hurts her isn't that she can't have her cake and eat it too, it's that she wishes this could be enough for Sirius because that's all she can give and she's sad that it can't make him happy.

That said, a few more things:

I think it's well-established by now that I am one of the staunchest proponents for soulmates, never-had-eyes-for-anyone-else Jily. Most of my Jily is super fluffy, it's first kisses, it's James falling for her the first time he lays eyes on her, it's Lily noticing James throughout the years and discovering just how wonderful he is, and honestly sometimes it pains me to read stories where they date other people or they're not each other's first etc.. I have to exercise caution when I read that sort of fic - it's usually stuff by people whose writing I love and trust, or short oneshots where I know everything will be over soon and I don't have to dwell on it too long. Or, you know, sometimes I just appreciate the heartbreak. It can be cathartic.

Which is why I understand that you might have been expecting something similar from a new story of mine and been surprised and even upset it wasn't it. I admit that the snippet and summary don't give you an explicit setup for the story, which was a stylistic choice, if I'm honest. It's a story about deep feelings, and it would be weird to have the summary be like "Sirius is feeling lonely, so Lily, who is married to James, decides to spend the night with him." I mean, technically it's what happened, but you'll agree it doesn't quite convey the vibe, does it?

I did write in the post that the story is Sirius/Lily and rated E, though. And the AO3 entry contains tags such as "Married James/Lily", "Ex Sex", "Sirius Black/Lily Evans smut" (I guess it's technically Lily Potter but I've used the tag like this before so I just recycled it), "not infidelity not open relationship but a secret third thing" so I think, going in, people know more or less what to expect. If it's not for them, it's not for them and that's fine. I appreciate SO MUCH the readers who stick with me no matter where the Muse takes me, but not everyone can do that and they shouldn't feel forced to.

You might wonder, of course - if this is how I feel about Jily, why did I write this story? I've talked before about why Lilypad intrigues me, but there's one more thing to remember - life doesn't always go the way we want it. And while romantic, fluffy Jily fic is wish fulfilment and makes me feel good, sometimes one wants to explore grittier situations and messier feelings. As far as I'm concerned, this story would never work as a Jily fic - have Lily sleep with James while she's married to someone else, knowing that she won't leave her husband for him? Oh hell no. That's not how I see Jily. And instead of trying to shoehorn James and Lily's characters into a situation that doesn't fit them, I think it's better practice to instead choose the characters this situation could work with. Admittedly, one of my greatest challenges with this story (as @jamesunderwater can confirm) was getting the characterizations right and making sure everything made sense in context. I didn't set out to write angsty smut for the sake of it (it just so happens that the story turned out much smuttier than I originally intended, lol) but I wanted to write all the feelings that went with it. The conflict of getting between two people, of missing someone you can't have, of wanting different things, of different kinds of love - I think all that can make for a beautiful story. (I don't know if what I wrote is, indeed, a beautiful story, but I tried.)

You're well within your right to hate cheating, and you're well within your right to consider what happened in this story cheating. (In my opinion, it's not. It's a messy situation but the term 'cheating' doesn't do it justice, because no one is being dishonest.) I have a feeling you're young, because I could never justify cheating when I was young either. Growing up and going through a few relationships taught me that things aren't always clear-cut, however. I wish I'd had a relationship like the one I envision for my ideal Jily - meet young, only face some high school drama, get married, be together till death do us part. The flipside is that I matured in a way that perhaps I wouldn't have if this had happened to me, and I learned to see different POVs and appreciate different situations. And I think all of this enriches my writing more than it hinders it. :)

Again, thank you for reading (or making the effort!) and I appreciate you reaching out! Hopefully you'll like one of my future fics better. ❤

[yuukei-yikes]

WAIT i was the vacation dream kanoshin anon but i just remembered an actual one i thought of myself not my subconcious but i somehow forgot about it-

in my delusions a route similar to the novel route is what gives us str (not mekakucity actors shh- canon isn't real if it's from mca), meaning Kano has his weird ass traumadumping session with ene and whatnot and ends up having to spill the beans to the rest of the dan INCLUDING shintaro not just shintaro casually vanishing-

anyways so this ends up with the same vibe as novel-route kano and shintaro which is like. i mean. kano literally describes shintaro as looking at him the same way he looked at ayano and that kano "can't win against him" like. 🤨

Yada yada everything w/ clearing eyes, similar fight to mca ish ( i like the idea of marry draining her friends of their life to save their lives it's interesting to me-) and wahoo ayano. hi. she exists now (with ofc haruka and hiyori too-) and obviously everyone's like HOLY SHIT. especially the mekutrio. and ESPECIALLY kano.

Like I imagine Kano has a much harder time wrapping his head around the fact Ayano's back since while the other two just saw her death as suicide, he knew what caused it / all the clearing eyes stuff so he couldn't really accept her death and move on, while the others (obviously heartbroken over it though) were able to accept it and grow, yea?

Well we get those feelings of "holy shit my sister is alive" but also mixed with these feelings of "oh fuck. i (very unfortunately) might have a thing for my sister's crush." and IMMEDITELY backs the fuck off from both of them. He doesn't ignore ayano obviously but he doesn't seek her out, and he just actively avoids shintaro. ayano's concerned but meanwhile shintaro's just kinda like. what the fuck did i do to you???

Anyways dunno how that gets resolved i never thought past just the idea that kano can barely handle these two facts alone (ayano is alive now and he might maybe like shintaro a little bit (ew)) but together? Fuck. He is Not thinking on that he is backing Way the fuck up. Nope. Not his circus not his monkeys (he is actually just the entire circus).

Anyways long story short when Ayano comes back and everything is resolved kano's unresolved grief over her death but also the budding crush he's developing on shintaro hit him with the force of a truck (haha) and he does Not know how to handle that so he just Doesn't

DUDE. YOU AND I. SAME BRAIN. LIKE THIS IS SO SPECTACULARLY ALL MY SAME FEELINGS RIGHT FROM DELUSIONALLY IMAGINING NOVEL ROUTE WITH A GOOD END AS MY IDEAL ROUTE AND MARY TAKING THE SNAKES HERSELF AND ALMOST KILLING EVERYONE AND KANO LIKING SHINTARO AND BEING SO FREAKED OUT HE BACKS OUT LEAVING SHINTARO CONFUSED BECAUSE HE THOUGHT THEY HAD WORKED EVERYTHING OUT IN THAT CONVO WHERE KANO COMES CLEAN TO KIDO AND HIM(AND TAKANE HERE TOO) sorry for yelling. i just get excited when i get same brain with someone. like exactly. EXAAAACTLY.

but for ayano i think kano is super close with her and he's constantly trying to go back the same relationship they had where ayano relied so heavily on him, especially bc kano wants to distract himself FROM himself so he wants to focus on how she's doing but ayano isn't gonna do what she did. she realised just how messed up it was putting kano through all that and she feels so responsible. ayano and kano are on this weird YOU CAN COUNT ON ME. NO U CAN COUNT ON ME. NO NOT ME COUNTING ON YOU, YOU COUNTING ON ME!!! constantly... imagine kano sitting through ayano go on and on about shintaro bc ayano can see kano wants her to rely on him so she's like well it doesnt hurt anyone if i just talk abt my crush. like its a thing she can stand talking abt and from her perspective kano will be satisfied just hearing her talk about anything she doesnt talk to anyone else. and kano sits through it like 😁😁😁(wants to explode into a million pieces)

also god the bit u mentioned abt kano saying shintaro smiled at him like how he used to smile at ayano. sorry like allow me to attach the whole thing because

☝️☝️☝️⁉️⁉️⁉️like what the fuck is this. WHAT WAS JIN THINKING WHEN HE WROTE THIS LIKE THIS IS SOOOO. homo. kano is so insanely homosexual for shintaro in the seventh novel like there are several examples it's amazing. anyways the "he's invincible" line i am particularly obsessed with and it's why i always insist kano has this weird thing where he's constantly trying to have the upper hand with shintaro while shintaro unknowingly and effortlessly outsmarts him just by being himself.

kano's feelings for shintaro are so complicated and full of resentment and he always wanted shintaro to be entirely horrible just to justify how he feels, but shintaro keeps proving he's a good person and kano keeps being unable to deny not only that but also that he LIKES him and even admires him. and it drives him so crazy.

meanwhile shintaro's feelings for kano are complicated bc 1. wtf does he hate me or not. 2. augh he's a guy im not gay. 3. my girlfriend(?)'s brother. like shintaro hating kano's guts back is funny but it's not the move like it's not true. shintaro wants nothing more than to get along with kano!!! everyone gets on shintaro's nerves and kano gets on everyone's nerves, so bc of this i understand the common misconception of shintaro hating kano back.

anyways shintaro is so clueless bc he thought they were ok?? they talked it out so it's fine?? he can't ever figure out kano's inconsistent behaviour. he decides that it's probably bc he's protective of ayano but he knows that's not all of it.

ugh ugh ugh. KANOSHIN FIRST KISS WHERE SHINTARO'S LIKE genuinely sad and confused and finally confronts kano like seriously what's the matter?? i thought we were cool already?? and kano's super dismissive like whaaa nothing omg of course we're best friends❤️ but shintaro isn't letting it go and kano is getting rly fed up bc his patience is SO short when it comes to shintaro which also pisses him off like why is he making me feel so out of my element like the best i do is LIE why does he drive me SO CRAZY. and then shintaro's like i just wanna know what can i do to make things ok!!!!! and its so genuine and he is just so earnest and pathetic looking kano kisses him impulsively.

anyways. kanoshin.

[rillils]

RILLLLLSSSSSSSSS

ITS BEEN SO LONG HOW R U

YOUNG ROYALS.

SEASON 3 IS DONE 💞💞💞💞💞

SEASON 3 IS DONE 💔💔💔💔💔

ALSO THE NEW SEB PICS??????? BEEFY BUCKY WITH THE LONG HAIR 😍😍😍

ive been watching the last season if merlin 15 minutes at a time because i am not about to lose me sweethearts rn oh my lord

OMG SO MUCH TO UNPACK HERE GJDHDK

Okay, first things first, HELLO MY BABY 💕💖💕💖💕💖💕💖 I've missed you a lot around here, honey!! I'm doing alright, just the usual amount of stress - but let's be real, that's my default state of mind xD I hope you're doing well, my dear 🥰🥰🥰 Hopefully school is over (or will soon be over) so you can rest and enjoy your vacation 💕💕💕

NOW: HOLY PATCHOULI RAGU AND RAVIOLI, I JUST SAW THE ANNOUNCEMENT AND EDVIN AND OMAR'S VIDEO MESSAGE AND AHDJAGDKSLDJK *SCREECHES* I'm getting a bit emotional here ngl 🥺🥺🥺 I can't believe that the show is actually over now, even though it's probably gonna be a while before we can watch s3, since they just finished shooting 😭😭😭 I'm hoping with all my heart that s3 will give us what we desperately need!! A happy ending for the boys pls!!!! 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

As for one Sebastian Mcfreakin' Stan, I simply can't look at those pics and videos without WEEPING, HONEY, LIKE I'M TALKING LEAKING FAUCET, OPEN BAR, LEMME CRY IN YOUR COCKTAIL REAL QUICK KIND OF WEEPING HERE

he looks. so good. my brain cannot comprehend it. I look back and then back again and the little lightbulb in my skull keeps flickering on and off because?? Is this a real human??? Does anything remotely similar to This Man truly exist??????? With those arms that look like they could engulf you so sweetly and protect you from all harm, and those boobs- sorry I mean tits- sorry I mean chESt, that CHEST that looks like it was only made for your cheek to lie upon it, and be the firmest pillow you ever slept on? and the hair??? The stubble?? The high-waisted pants?? I've seen people slander those pants, right, but as far as I'm concerned they just enhance his whole I'm Too Hot, Hot Damn™ vibe these days. make the tiny waist look even tinier and the broad shoulders look even broader and omg I can't think about this for too long or I will spontaneously combust 🔥🔥🔥

Should I also mention that white tank tops never really did anything for me until this man came along?? AND THE RINGS. THE MUMMERFUCKING RINGS. It's like. Every now and then Mr Stan-Lookin-Good-There-Man decides to accentuate his long, nimble fingers with pretty glinting metal and my brain fucking short-circuits like "NOPE - WHAT DIS - CANNOT COPE"

I feel he has awakened a monster in me *flies into the sun*

As for Merlin, oh babe, I feel ya 🥺🥺 Take your time with it, honey, I'm sure your heart will thank you for it 💖💖💖 I love you very much bby 💕💕💕 I hope you have a super nice day 😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘

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A Walk Through My Lives

A topic I wanted to explore: the chronological order of my lives (and how they relate to each other, this one included).

I've thought about this and the nature of my incarnations in general off and on since my awakening. Originally, the "big question" for me was whether or not there was a purpose to these lives, and what that hypothetical purpose was. Since coming apart from a headmate that I was misidentifying as myself, I think I've gotten a lot clearer look at what the overall theme of my lives is.

Also featured in this post:

How exactly my fictotypes affect my identity

My relationship with humanity (and why it's a big part of my "alterhuman" identity)

(This is over 2,000 words, I'm sorry)

My Nightmare/n Life

I consider my life as a Nightmare/n to be my original incarnation. I suppose part of that is the idea that I was created by Wi/zeman; in the games, Wi/zeman is a Dreamer (literally, a human visiting the world of dreams) who basically made himself a god and created various creatures (called Nightmare/n) to take over the dimension. While the lore of the games isn't true to my personal canon, I'm inclined to believe that Wi/zeman still played a role in our existence and the existence of our world.

I view being Nightmare/n as my absolute basal self. Whether I'm consciously aware of it or not, there's a quality of "Nightmare/n-ness" that I believe persists in whatever form I take. The magic and whimsy of my experiences as So/ra I feel, while possibly unrelated, is not coincidentally similar to the magical experiences of being a Nightmare/n.

As far as how my subsequent lives came to be, that's somewhat shrouded in mystery. I suppose that if my Nightmare/n incarnation really is my first ever lifetime, it makes sense that I might not have the clearest recollection of events. I have Vibes to go on more than anything. Notably, I only have simple memories of a peaceful life in idyllic places, yet my personal attempts with divination consistent came up with the idea that I served a much greater purpose. I've toyed with the idea of being an AU NiGHTS rather than a non-canon Nightmare/n, but the idea never gripped me, and I don't feel there's enough to support the idea.

In the vein of being NiGHTS, however, I came to an idea that did strike a chord in me: maybe I did somehow have some sort of illicit involvement with humans, as NiGHTS did in the games. And maybe that's why I couldn't keep being a Nightmare/n.

That "Not-A-Kintype Past Life"

I might have alluded to this ages ago. This is probably a subject that's better explored in another post, because I think the subject deserves the spotlight, but the short of it is this:

When I first discovered fictionkin in 2016, I believed this was a fictotype. I firmly believed it was a past life that affects my current one, but I struggled with the idea of actually identifying as this apparent fictotype, and came to the conclusion it's "just" a past life in 2018. More accurately, it's what we'd now call a kardiatype: a past life that's not quite a kintype, yet still has a profound effect on your current self.

I hesitate to talk about the source out loud for personal reasons, but in a nutshell, it was a horrifying life that was nigh endless suffering. It hurts to think about a lot of it. It's also a life where I wouldn't change a thing. I mean, for one, there's no point in trying trying to rewrite memories to be more pleasant; what happened happened. You can't change the past.

But I also believe it's why I turned out like this. Not to "trauma made me a better person" or anything, but in the grand scheme of the whole reincarnation thing, I see it as a necessary lesson. There's this underlying instinct that makes me want to say it was a punishment, but I truly can't see it as that.

Where it ties into my theory of becoming involved with humans is the fact that, despite how sure I feel of that life not being a punishment, the instinct still lingers, and it asserts itself in a way that I recognize as a signal that something's incomplete here. Subconsciously recognizing something, but being able to connect it to the conscious mind.

The theory is that this life was intended as a punishment. A very "if you love humans so much, then try living with them" thing. See if I come crying back to Night/opia when it turns out humans are vicious and insufferable.

But seeing the worst of humanity also let me see the best of it. I saw humans change in profound ways. I was given a second chance when I was certain I didn't deserve it.

For that reason, one of my longest theories about the order of my lives placed this one as one of the oldest. It's why I've felt so strongly about second chances and people's capacity for change across the rest of my lives. I want to help people to pay forward the extraordinary kindness I was shown then.

The Miscellany

I haven't exactly pursued the knowledge of every single past life I have ever conceivably lived, so if nothing jumps out at me, I'm probably liable to shrug about it. Hence, there's not a lot that goes between the kardiatype and So/ra.

Something I've debated being a past life, which after years is less of a debate and more of a "yeah, probably" is…a non-canon member of a certain fictional clan. Or rather, I'd like to say "technically canon", because logically someone had to have existed between the characters I feel are my father my son, but there's not a lot that goes on in the centuries between Important Events.

It's not exactly something I think about a lot, nor do I notice much influence on my current life—hence, it's just a past life. There are some things that grabbed me when I was questioning this being a fictotype, and they're things that still pull at my heart no matter how much time has passed. I think it's a matter of needing closure, but that's largely besides the point.

Have I had other lives? Possibly. Probably. I figure that, if I need to learn about them, I will. For now, I'm content with what I know and believe so far.

So/ra and Now

I've believed for good long while (quickly going through my journals doesn't tell me when, exactly) that my life as So/ra immediately precedes this current life. There's a certain qualitative difference I've come to realize over the years. My Nightmare/n self remains in me, it's an identity that comes to me easily, and it's embedded in all of my identities, past and present. But…

There's this idea I have of what I've been tentatively calling the throughline. Obviously, things carry over between lives. But a lot of things simply stay in the past; that's why not every single past life is going to be a present part of your identity.

The metaphor I reached (imperfect as it is) is something like all my lives being different standalone books by a single author. Familiar tropes and devices will appear across several books. There may be similar themes explored in each book, there may be a book that builds on a theme of another book, and maybe, occasionally, settings and characters will overlap. All those books are distinct from each other, though; they can stand on their own.

For reasons that I suspect is largely due to psychological factors and potentially partially to past life ones, this "story"—the life I'm currently living—cannot stand alone. It feels less like a standalone novel and more of a direct sequel, a second chapter, to the previous work. Or in less metaphorical terms: I have no one to be but So/ra—the culmination of all the experiences that led me there, then to here. That's the throughline: the direct continuation of the last life into this one.

My understanding of this identity is less "parts of a previous identity carried into my current identity" and more "my 'previous identity' never left me and parts of it simply developed over time like any normal person would experience in their lifetime". Except that "lifetime" is technically two lifetimes.

I don't feel like it's accurate to say that So/ra is any more important than being a Nightmare/n to me; I'm still Nightmare/n, and I still do want to be perceived as a Nightmare/n. But there's a certain sense of immediacy to being So/ra that pushes my experiences from that world to the forefront. That's what I'm trying to get at.

The Purpose of Reincarnation

Along the same vein as questioning as questioning the chronological order of my lives, there's also the question of why I'm experiencing the lives that I am. Namely, I wondered about the possibility of some higher power guiding me across my lives for a specific purpose.

The idea I quickly settled on was that my lives were self-guided and my only "goal" was to experience everything possible. I wanted to experience as many forms and life experiences as I could. This, of course, was back when Son/ic and I were entangled, and nonhumanity was a much bigger focus for "me". But having disentangled from him, I don't think the logic itself is wrong as much as it was just too broad.

If—big if—there was a higher power behind any of my reincarnations, then that might have been Wi/zeman, as I said before. I believe that everything after that has been fueled by my own desire. I see value in humanity, in being around humans and being human. Ironically, it's a very Nightmare/n feeling; I'm human because I'm nonhuman. I choose to be human over and over again because they're so wonderful and multifaceted to my alien eyes.

And that's the goal, I think: not to experience just any lives, but to experience as many forms of humanity as possible. Even if that human has nonhuman lineage. Even if that human has otherworldly features and qualities that the humans of this world lack. They're all humans, and I revel in how varied and diverse the human experience is.

Figuring It Out

It's occurred to me that people might not be on the same page as me here, so I want to get into the question of "how do you figure any of this out?"

The answer to that is…that there's a reason I'm using very vague and noncommittal language!

More specifically, I think everything else I wrote shows my process for figuring stuff out, but to be explicitly clear: I don't know any of this for a fact. It comes down to speculation and deduction, identifying patterns or trends, and listening to my gut on what feels wrong and what feels right.

That doesn't mean you can just divine the one true answer by thinking about it real hard. It does mean coming to terms with the fact that this has no basis in observable reality and you're probably going to be wrong about something, because you're not going to have proof one way or the other.

I know that my kardiatype feels like a purposeful lesson. I know that I have strong (positive) feelings about humans, and that I have been human several times. I know that it'd be strange to have a nonhuman life thrown in between those lives. And if I place them in this order, I can see an arc that makes sense and feels right to me.

And Some Other Questions

This blog post has been on my to-write list for a while, but I was inspired to focus on this because of a post by saccharine-fiction. This post doesn't really answer any of their questions directly (besides "what order did they happen in?"), though, so to address some of those:

Did you remember your life as X when you were Y?

I have no memories of…uh…having memories. As I said before, I feel there's an essence of "Nightmare/n-ness" that persists across all my lives, but that's not exactly the same as remembering being a Nightmare/n, or actively identifying as one.

I don't see this as being particularly surprising; after all, in this life, I never thought twice about most experiences I had before I discovered the fictionkin community. And that my past lives are fictional works probably play a role in getting as many memories as I have, honestly! Not to mention having a relatively uneventful and peaceful life, free from being isekai'd into Bullshitville at a young age or having the world end while the universe conspires to terrorize me into oblivion.

Did you have any spiritual experiences before this life that you feel you still carry with you?

Hmmmmm maybe? Depends on what’s meant by "spiritual experiences", I guess. Generally speaking, I think a lot of experiences of being So/ra carried over into now—if not literally, because "the laws of physics" and "humans don't work like that, that's biologically impossible" and so on, then in whatever closest equivalent my brain can muster up.

I'm still stewing on that topic though, so maybe that's better left for another time.

If your spiritual kintype isn’t an animal/human/similar, such as an AI or an object or a concept, how does that thing having a “soul” shape your worldview?

This question isn't technically applicable to my fictotypes—although it does have me thinking about the logic of being Some Guy's dream construct. Is he just capable of creating something with a soul? Or did I…like…develop a soul or something? That would be in line with how Hearts work, now that I think about it.

But I have been thinking about that lately, between Son/ic's canon (Rob/ians and A.I. friends abound—although, them having souls remains to be seen?), a certain A.I./android ghost that's haunting me, and that aforementioned Hearts thing.

I don't know what it is, personally, but "things" that are intelligent and autonomous seem to develop souls (or Hearts) as a general rule. I guess that's why it's not hard for me to accept the idea that artificial lifeforms and ordinary objects are capable of having a spirit.

Am I an animist? IDK, maybe.

The rest of the questions are N/A, and I can't think of anything else to add, so I'll leave things here. The other questions are really interesting though, so I'd like to encourage any spiritual otherkin or fictionkin to check out the original post for themselves! Even if you're too shy to publicize your answers, they still make interesting journaling topics.

I think that's the gist of it! This got out of hand way faster than I thought it would, but I suppose eight years of pent-up Thoughts and Feelings will turn a simple idea (what orders did my lives happen in?) into a whole dissertation on all the related parts I never got to talk about before.

Hopefully this post makes enough sense.

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Venting about Ishimiko (Kaguya-sama)

You know, I was writing this as a reply in reddit then I realized that they don't want to read this. I don't think anyone wants to read this (sorry for using the tag, but I also don't want to be yelling at an empty abyss either). As I was writing the reddit reply, I realized I finally put into words how I feel about Ishimiko in the Kaguya-sama love is war manga. And I literally have nowhere to share it, so I recreated my tumblr account.

Warning because there are massive Kaguya-sama spoilers and this is also not going to be a positive post at all. So if you read it and don't like it, you have only yourself to blame for reading it. -- I don't know.

If there's something I've learned from the short story and the new werewolf game novel, it's that I don't really want more Ishimiko. I don't want to see more explanations of what they think. I don't want to learn more about them. Frankly, I know more than enough. Sometimes I wonder if I know more about it than Aka.

I seriously just wanted them to close lips. Heck, hold hands or something. I just want some damn closure. He had a chance to do something like that with the time skip. Instead he wasted that flash forward in 276 by making the most incredibly ambiguous and frustrating flash forward chapter on existence.

And that's the greatest problem right now. 276 and 278. The Light Novel couldn't solve anything about Ishimiko , because it happens before 278, meaning that no matter what, 278 is going to Thanos snap whatever 'progress' was made during it. And 276 causes a similar problem, cause If he made a college Ishimiko continuation, it would have to be after 276. Because otherwise we still still ahve 276 smearing itself all over whatever we see from college Ishimiko before that point.

But on the other side of the coin. Having the interesting parts of the Ishimiko romance happen after college Ishimiko after 276 has the slight problem that it would be incredibly depressing. It's kinda funny and cute to see these characters wasting time for a couple of years. But 6+ years (high school + all the pre-276 college) would be so sad and honestly, really mean with the characters? Not even the rent a girlfriend guy is going to wait 6 whole years like that.

I guess my biases are showing here though. Because nowadays I am really feeling like I don't actually like College Ishimiko? I know it's fun in theory. But it's not really what I signed for. Maybe I would feel different if I going through 276 was worth it and it led to some form of closure. But nah, of course not. Because it would have been so hard for Aka Akasaka to give us even one speck of breadcrumb so near the end of the manga. I can't read Aka's mind so I don't know what he was thinking when writing 276, but I get such the vibe that it was just mean-spirited*.

And I think that's the problem I have overall. After 137, the manga + Short Story are so full of stuff that makes the ship more annoying and/or painful but there's never a reward that makes all those annoyances and pain worth it. I mean oh, how cool Ishigami almost killed himself and Miko broke her arm, but it's all worth it cause 226 chapters and a short story later we get to learn that Ishigami is transphobic. yay.

And the question is, after all of that, do I really want more of it? Probably not. This is probably why, the second I heard about that new light novel I automatically got defensive about it. I can only go through the annoyance -> pain -> no real reward cycle so many times before it's just tiresome. That's the best word I would use to describe Akasaka's writing overall. Tiresome.

*I know people really love 276. Specially HayaFuji shippers. But I think this chapter is the one that really broke me. And as a HayaFuji shipper, I can't help but notice that even the big win that 276 is supposed to be, Fuji looks like she's hating every single moment of it. And surely, that's not what's really going on. But it's an example of just how Aka forced himself to be as ambiguous and annoying and honestly cruel as possible in this chapter. The least-ambiguous thing about it is the Wedding rings, but it had to be so covert and stealthy that most people don't even notice. I've seen plenty of people tell others to go read Oshi No Ko chapter 90.1 for confirmation that Guya got married, because for some reason Aka couldn't be clear-enough about Kaguprez' status in their own manga. Again, it's just tiresome.

"Show don't tell" has its limits. Sometimes you really just have to show something. Anything at all. Unless exhausting your audience is part of your goals, I guess.