#sorry this is js me rambling about nothing again

[kr-starz]

Actually never gonna stop thinking about the cut out scene where Jinx and Ekko where they’re fucking painting on each other and then Ekko tells Jinx about the alt universe,

Like I genuinely can’t stop thinking about who marked who first, this was probably Jinx deciding that everything on that air ship needed some decoration, and that included her and Ekko.

Just imagining how Jinx probably marked Ekko first with her blue and Ekko retaliated, turning into a whole thing, just imagining the brush trailing down to her waist and she’s never been ticklish but it feels stupid to let someone get so close to her, but he’s so enamored with getting the strokes of paint right; he doesn’t look anything more than an artist fawning over the blank canvas he could create just about anything with.

Holy shit the fact Ekko’s wearing a crop 😞😞

The X’s on their chest were definitely them js marking their territory im so sorry, they really wanted to show people that they were together, either in a partner in crime, or friendship or romantic sense they wanted to show that they had the other in one way or another and I can just imagine the little details. Jinx smearing an X on Ekko’s chest, and he draws out a big X on her chest in return. They giggle, and the paint gets smudged. But that’s just all the more color.

I also can imagine just how the marking each other in the other’s colors would go, Ekko would talk about how even if she doesn’t think she is, she’s one of Ekko’s people now, which means he has to do everything to protect her; and they both kind if just settle into the fact that they’re something worth fighting for, their community and what the other stands for is worth fighting for. Ekko smears his signature green on her, and he says it’s to show that she’s just as much as his as he is her partner in this getaway.

Not to mention Ekko pierces his ears, after Ekko manages to slide in how he knew Jinx in another universe, a girl who was happy and content with what she had, she was beautiful and smart, and kind. And she wasn’t any more Powder, or Jinx than the girl in front of him right then an there.

And then the conversation shifts, after Jinx probably realizes that she’s capable of being kind, she had Isha, she knows how kind and caring she can be. He might mention how they were together in that universe, how so beautiful it was to simply love something. And Jinx probably grins, asking why in the world would she be with him. And he snickers, shaking his head not knowing why either, but he goes on to mention the little details like the way his ears are pierced, the way his hair was done differently, the way he was an inventor.

Jinx pops her head up, leaning in close and Ekko feels his breath leave his lungs. She says that he would look good with piercings. He tilts his head, asks if she’s just trying to flatter him. She’s not one to give compliments so she grins and tells him if she was trying to flatter him she’d already have him at that point. They both chuckle, and Jinx mentions how she could pierce his ears for him. Nervous, Ekko isn’t sure if that’s the safest option, yet he nods anyway.

He squirms like a little kid getting a shot, squeezing his eyes shut as he feels a pinch on his left, then another on his right, and before he knew it, there were pretty gems on both his ears. Jinx cheers, asking if he likes it, leaning on the back of the chair he’s sitting in, her grinning face peeking in through Ekko’s reflection and he feels himself smiling. He loves it.

[atebyflowers]

— dbf abby x reader

thinking about showing up unannounced to dbf!abby's house in the middle of the night, you're a mess — nearly drunk yet apologetic from the moment she opens the door. "i'm sorry, i know you're probably super busy i didn't know where else to go" you rambled out as she pulled you inside, caressing your hair, wet from the rain, her eyes filled with nothing but concern. "shh.. sweetheart it's okay..." she whispers, "don't tell my dad i'm here please, he thinks i'm with a friend" you plead with her walking deeper into her dimly lit home, abby leading you towards her bedroom "i won't darling, hey..." she turned to meet your eyes, noticing the tears forming — she left out a sympathetic sigh, "don't worry okay... no need to cry" she cooed while caressing from your hair down to your damp cheeks. "js... tired" you hiccuped out, abby knodding as you attempted to speak. "let's get you in some dry clothes, yea? then you can sleep baby" she instructed, walking over to her closet and pulling out a pair of her clothes for you to change into. following her instructions, you did just that.

your wet clothes now in her laundry hamper, the dry clothes she lended you barely fitting — though comfortable considering how big they were. walking out of the bathroom, you sit down next to abby on her bed, muttering out small apologies again as you toyed with the you shirt you were wearing. "do you want me to know?" she questioned, your eyes on your fiddling hands as she spoke watching your movement. shaking your head, she let out a sigh before standing up. "that's okay, it doesn't matter than .... lets get you to sleep then hm?" she spoke, and you looked up at her — her body practically towering over yours sending shivers across your body. Facing her wide eyed, you shook your head again before standing up, abby walking towards the bed and fixing the pillows for you — motioning for you to come over when she was finished.

"there you go love, get some rest now" she spoke gently, her hand on your back, guiding you into bed. "abby...." you whispered out as she patted your head before turning to walk away. stopped in her tracks, "hm?" she answered in response. "can you stay?" you questioned, now cuddled up on the right side of the bed. abby didn't say a word in response. instead, she followed your request — climbing in on the left side before reaching under the blanket, pulling your body into hers. "goodnight sweetheart" she whispered, her mouth the closest it has ever been to your body before. Almost paralyzed by her touch, you hesitated a bit with your eyes closed. "goodnight.... and thank you" you responded, reaching up your free hand to hold the one abby had draped over your body. slightly turning throughout the next hour, you had unknowingly managed to fall asleep with your head on her chest. abby's arm wrapped around you as you let out soft breathes throughout the night — safer than ever.

[fallen-w1ngs]

'' flower shop of new feelings ,,

[ 05 : run ]

|| pairing : james "bucky" barnes x florist!reader

|| warning : nothing ! jealous bucky makes a brief entrance 🔥

|| wc : 2.1k

|| btw, if any of ya'll wanna be apart of the taglist, js comment :3 or dm idc <3

The Avengers Tower’s atmosphere was awkward. Like, a weird tense awkwardness. Clint, Wanda, Sam and Bruce got back from their mission which.. Did not go according to plan, and were already bummed out with that, despite there being a backup plan. Tony had a fight with Pepper, yet again, which let’s be real, no one’s surprised about. And last but certainly not least, Peter had seen Bucky leave your apartment the previous night.

I would love to say that Bucky did a graceful job at covering for himself and explaining it.. But that’d be a lie. The second Peter uttered the words “Mr. Barnes?” Bucky ignored him and sped walk outta there. But being an Avenger, and having Peter practically live in the Tower made it virtually impossible NOT to run into him at least once.

“It’s not that big a deal, James, I promise.” You said, your phone pressed against your ear and shoulder. Currently, you were out checking on your shop and running a few errands. That’s when Bucky called and told you the whole ordeal after you shut the door. “I really don’t see how it’s such a big deal. Just explain to Peter that we’re friends.”

But I don’t want to. He thought, I want you as my secret. As strange as it is, you were one of the only things he felt he had that wasn’t poisoned by Hydra or the Avengers. He loved the Avengers (.. sorta) but he needed to have something that was his.

“Yeah, okay. Okay. Just- the team can be.. Unbearable with gossip.” He groaned and ran a hand through his hair. “Sorry for calling you ‘bout this”

“Hey, no, I get that. You don’t gotta explain why you freaked out about Peter,” Your voice was full of understanding. Oh, god, Bucky absolutely loves- no. No, no no. “Oh, and never apologize for talking to me, I love talking to you”

“Oh,” He felt his cheeks warm up. “I like talking to you too.”

A small laugh could be heard from your end of the line, god, he could melt with how warm your laugh was.

“Hey, I gotta head off, I’m meeting up with my brother and his wife for a small get together, but I’ll talk to you later, ‘kay?”

“Your brother?”

“Yeah, I thought I told you ‘bout him! His name’s Silas? He’s a pretentious fuck. Love him to bits, but I don’t like him, y’know?” This made Bucky let out a small chuckle. He had remembered a past conversation of yours where you rambled on about how your older brother was the golden child in your family.

“Good luck with him, [Name]”

“Thanks, James, I’ll call you later”

“Bye” He tried to hide his disappointment in his voice before hanging up. Man, what were you doing to him? He’s a lone wolf, never likes anyone, always grumpy, and rarely smiles. But with you? Seemed like he was the jolliest guy on Earth.

Ah, but he can sort out his feelings later. Right now he needed to talk with a certain Peter Parker.

–

“D-Did you need something, Mr. Barnes?”

Bucky was quick to find the spiderling, he was up in the lab with Bruce. Tinkering away at some sort of more protective type of suit, trying to replicate vibranium without using vibranium. He made up some bullshit excuse for why he needed to talk with Peter, even if Bruce knew it was a lie, he didn’t fight it.

“What you saw last night–”

“You leaving [Name]’s apartment last night?”

Bucky’s eyebrow twitched, god the way he said it felt like he was caught in an affair. “Yes. That. It was nothing.”

“With all due respect, Mr. Barnes, but if it was nothing, why’d you run away?”

“I didn’t run away,” He crossed his arms over his chest and glared at the teenager. “It was.. A strategic retreat.”

Peter deadpanned. “Mr. Barnes, I don’t care if you’re dating-”

“We’re not dating.”

“Oh.” Peter sighed and snapped his fingers. “I owe Aunt May 20 bucks now.”

“Maybe you deserve it.” Bucky sighed and tapped his finger against his arm. “Look, just.. Don’t tell anyone I’m friends with [Name].”

Now.. This is where Bucky lost Peter. Why? What?? It was a strange request. A doable one! But a real strange one. “W.. Why?”

“Because Sam’ll bring it up non-stop and I’ll get teased.” It wasn't a lie, but again, not the full reason he wanted to hide you away from the team.

Peter’s puzzled look turned into a more sinister one. “I won’t tell anyone.. But I want you to give me 20 bucks every week I gotta keep your secret”

“Wha- fine. Yeah sure.” Wasn’t like Bucky had anything to spend it on. “If you tell anyone, I’m ripping your arms off.” He said with a small glare before turning away and walking off.

“.. Arms plural? Wait! Mr. Barnes! Arms plural??”

–

With that small confrontation over, Bucky was able to rest easy. Sure, he’d lose a couple of bucks, but really it was Tony who was throwing his money around. I mean, let’s think about it. So many people live in one tower, with electricity running practically everything. The electricity, water and heating bill must be skyrocketed. Ah, but that wasn’t our dear Bucky’s problem.

No, Bucky had to sort through his feelings and try to label your friendship. So he did the one thing that allowed him to feel.. Better, run.

Leaving the Tower was easy enough, being the “Winter Soldier” made it so everyone was automatically scared of him. Slipping away was easy, what was a problem was where he wanted to run. He let his legs take him.

The wind in his hair, the small burn in his legs as he ran farther and farther. His heart rate beating every time he was able to run longer and faster due since there weren’t many people around or stops. Bucky loved to run. He would run all day if he could, it felt like freedom to him. Something he wouldn’t let anyone take from him.

Bucky ran around a few blocks multiple times, by the end of it his face was damp, but not as sweaty as the normal person would be. Again, Super Soldier. Barely got tired. But, he still wanted to get something to hydrate himself. He sped walked over to that one Cafe that was across from your shop, your friend Finn ran it? At least, that’s what you told him. Maybe he could visit you af–

“James?”

Or now. It seemed you were taking your lunch break or something, ‘cause you were standing at the counter. Leaning against the solid surface, talking with Finn. And for some reason, that made a pit form in Bucky’s stomach. But, like many things, he ignored it and walked over to you, giving a small wave to you and.. Finn.

“Hey man, you want anything?” Finn had a charming smile on his face, he seemed.. Boyish. Certainly younger than Bucky, I mean, he looked like he was in his mid-twenties, younger than you.

“Black coffee.”

You snorted and tilted your head up at him. “No cream or sugar? Pegged you for a sweet guy”

The corners of Bucky’s lips perked up for a moment and he just huffed. “Got used to it.” He did, as a young adult and the war happening, everyone had to ration. That meant when he had coffee, it had to be black. None of the fancy sweeteners.

“Boring,” You hit your hip against his in a playful manner.

In a matter of seconds, Finn came back with Bucky’s drink. Some shitty ass black coffee that was overpriced. Ah, love New York. Though, it was fine. What wasn’t fine was how Finn just kept smiling and practically flirting with you.

“We should definitely go together, it’d be really fun, hell I could pay for your ticket too.”

“Finn, you shouldn’t, I’d be able to!” You giggled behind your palm. “But, I’m not opposed to that”

“We could get dinner, hangout beforehand too?”

Smooth. “I’ll definitely think about it, Finn”

Stealing a quick glance at Bucky, you realized his confusion. “Ah, me and Finn were talking about watching a musical together!”

“Which one?”

“The Guy Who Didn’t Like Musicals!”

“That’s a thing?”

“It’s definitely a thing.” You crossed your arms with a wide smile. “It’s really good! I should show it to you, there’s a recorded version of it up on Youtube.”

He hummed in reply and gave a lazy shrug. “You’ll have to send me a link to it.”

With a small check of your watch you took in a sharp inhale. “Shit, sorry guys, my breaks almost over, Bye Finn! Bye James!”

“I’ll walk you t’your shop.”

Now this you wouldn’t pass up on. You turned back and gave a small wave to Finn as you and James walked out. The second you felt a wave of fresh air roll on you, Bucky put his arm around your shoulder. A small smile tugged on your face as our eyebrow raised. “What’cha thinkin, big guy?”

“.. There’s a lotta cars.” He muttered. The both of you were standing side by side, he was walking on the outer edge of the sidewalk while you walked on the inner. Something you didn’t even realize.

“Such a gentleman, ey, James?”

He glanced over to you, a small smile tugging at his lips as he held you close. You didn’t mind it, didn’t mind that he was warm, didn’t mind when his grip on you tightened when crossing the street, didn’t mind the momentary lingering he had before pulling away from you when you got to the shop.

“Thanks for walking me!” You pushed open the door and grabbed your apron as Bucky stood in the doorframe. He wanted to stay longer, but he didn’t want to distract you as you worked.

He nodded to your thanks and looked around the shop. It still smelled like a garden, everything still felt humid. Everything was still the same. The flowers were in neat rows but they still perfectly transitioned into one another, the small rotating seed holder was still fully stocked. You talked about how people would grab the seeds and buy them, bunches at a time, but you never let it look like that. Always wanted it to be full, just in case.

“On the house.” Shit, he didn’t even realize you were behind him. What great assassin skills guys, real good. You had a hydrangea in your hand. “It’s blue, like your eyes.”

A few beats of silence settled between you two. Bucky just stared at you as your face got increasingly hot.

“T-That was stupid! I dunno why I did that, uh- it’s just what I like to do with friends, give ‘em flowers on the house I-” He cut you off by taking the flower from your hand, all gently and he quietly examined it.

“It’s real pretty.” He muttered and held it close to his chest. “Thanks, [Name].”

“You’re welcome! I-”

Again, you were cut off, not by Bucky, but by his phone. He muttered a small curse and a “sorry” before walking a few feet away. As much as you’d love not to eavesdrop.. IT WAS SO EASY. Not like you had much to work with.

“Mhm… No, I’m out right now,went on a run.. No, I didn’t see Sam… You can tell him to suck it up. I’m not–” He groaned and stayed quiet as the other person on the line kept speaking. “I’m not- just ‘cause they screwed up shouldn’t mean-.. Ugh. Fine, you’re the captain, punk.. Yeah yeah, I’ll be back soon.”

With that he hung up the phone, glaring at it as if it just cursed everyone in his family line.

“Sorry for that, doll, it was work. Turns out next time Sam and the idiots go out, I have to go with them ‘cause they can’t do shit.” He ran a hand through his hair and took a deep breath, calming himself before he spoke up again. “I gotta go, but I’ll text you.”

“Goodluck with uh, Sam and the idiots.” It wasn’t funny, Bucky was genuinely ticked off, but you couldn’t help but giggle. Thankfully, that seemed to ease some of his tension. His shoulders dropped as he walked over to the door, shooting a small wave to you before leaving.

Hydrangea still in hand.. It was pretty. Like you.

|| the title of this chapter makes this part seem real scary 😭😭 its not, its cutsie. also, i wanted to just show small bits of jealous bucky cz i love jealous bucky. jealous bucky WILL be getting a full part of his own later down the line.

taglist : @iyskgd , @highhopes1008

[memesandmusicalss]

hi i cant properly articulate this right now im. so sososo so tired but. h!bobbys like. stingyness ?? i dont think thats the right word but you get it . when it comes to money (which js reinforced during the podcast ad well they say they tried to add it to his character on purpose because. the actual guy yes. abyways) and then his immediate no hesitation towards the end in that one scene to give the people in the group who are leaving all kf the savings. like. i just rewatched that part and there is. no hesiyation he doesnt even think about it and. hmmmbgdghbgf it makes me so insane it always has it . hrhshfjf his whole character generally like. HE CARES ABOUT THEM im going to throw up again like. throughout the whole show he seems just a little detached and like. hes trying not to care or show that he cares but HE DOES. im goikg so insane he.s my favorite character yes. hes my guy you guys cant have him..sorry if this spiraled a bit into incomprehensibleness but. yknow who eveen cares. anyways yes do you guys see it too or am i rambling about nothing. bye

[hannyoontify]

lessen your burden - choi seungcheol

member | seungcheol x gn!reader

genre | angst, js hurt no comfort, breakup!au (i apologize in advance)

word count | 1.2k

synopsis | seungcheol loved you more than anything, but when he learns that you no longer feel the same way, he's still a little reluctant to let you go.

warnings | cursing, seungcheol is extremely emotionally codependent/unstable, reader is a bit of a dick (i think), arguing, reader loses their shit

notes | i... have no words

''i'm sorry. i'm sorry that i'm such a shitty boyfriend and i'm sorry that i keep having these bad thoughts about us and-'

'seungcheol, what are you saying right now?' you asked, a hint of sleep still laced in your voice. it's only been 3 minutes since you woke up and your boyfriend was sitting in bed next to you with tears in his eyes as he apologized profusely for absolutely nothing. you wondered if this was his fourth or fifth time crying to you this week.

'i'm sorry, i'm so sorry. i don't know what else to say, i feel like i should be apologizing right now, but i don't know. i'm sorry. i'm stressed and today just isn't a good day' he rambled on, tears threatening to spill from his eyes.

'seungcheol, what the fuck are you talking about? it's only been 5 minutes since we woke up, what do you mean it's not a good day' you said. you would be lying if you said that you weren't slightly agitated by this whole situation because this wasn't what you wanted to hear first thing in the morning.

you noticed seungcheol flinch at your choice of words and you ran a hand against your tired face. 'sorry, i didn't mean to curse'

to say that you and seungcheol's relationship had been tense recently would be an understatement. with your upcoming performance test and potential promotion at work, you were stressed and under a lot of pressure to do well. seungcheol was also job hunting after he was let go from his previous company that was financially struggling. every day, he sat at his computer as he sent out resume after resume and only left your apartment to drink with his friends or for interviews which never ended well.

the two of you had been getting into more arguments as well. it first started out small; bickering when you found a miscellaneous sock on the floor when you got home that soon transitioned to screaming matches every other night. but now, you were both too tired for that as well. you knew, eventually, that you two would break up. it was inevitable.

it wasn't that seungcheol was a bad person or a bad partner, you were simply incompatible with him. that, and you also fell out of love with him at some point and grew tired of your relationship with him. it seemed like all you ever did was give, but you received almost nothing.

'can you please hold me?' seungcheol asked in a quiet voice. a small, exasperated sigh left your lips before you could register what you were doing. once you did, you tried to cover it up by rustling the duvet loudly and motioned for your upset boyfriend to come closer to you.

but seungcheol noticed. he always did. he noticed the way you slightly rolled your eyes whenever he came up to you on the verge of tears. he noticed that every night, you seemed to inch further and further away from him until you were on the edge of the bed, threatening to fall off the mattress. he always tried to brush it off, making up lame excuses for your distant behavior, but now, it was getting harder for him to think of excuses.

pressing his head against your chest, seungcheol listened to your soft heartbeat as you absentmindedly ran your fingers through his hair.

'cheol, we should break up' you quietly said. seungcheol pulled away from your embrace and looked straight ahead. he couldn't look at you. he wouldn't.

'why?' oh he knew why. seungcheol knew why but he still wanted to hear it coming from your mouth–

'i don't love you anymore'

–he takes it back. he takes it all back. he never wants to hear those words coming out of your mouth ever again, it felt like a punch to his gut. seungcheol suddenly couldn't breathe.

'[name], you don't- you don't mean that. please. i need you to comfort me right now, tell me that everything is going to be okay. you can't leave me, not when i'm at my lowest point like this'

you silently slid out of your bed and put on your bathrobe, facing your back towards him. 'i'm sorry, seungcheol. i don't know if i can do this anymore. i'm tired. doesn't my lack of effort make you feel unloved? like you deserve better?'

your boyfriend–almost ex–shook his head profusely. 'no, you're perfect for me. please don't leave me [name]'

'begging isn't gonna get you anywhere, choi seungcheol'

hearing his full name coming from your lips made seungcheol's blood run cold. you only called him by his full name when you were on the verge of lashing out at him and against his better judgement, he apologized again. 'i'm sorry, [name]. if you tell me what i did wrong, i'll fix it and-'

you whipped around. for the first time that day, seungcheol saw your eyes though now he wishes he never had. your usual shining eyes were void of any love and joy that used to be there. instead, they were dark and stormy. full of anger and scorn.

'when is the last time you've comforted me, seungcheol? you go on and on about how you need me and you need to be comforted by me. think about it. when's the last time, you've held me in your arms and told me those 5 words that you want to hear all the time?' once the floodgates had opened, there was no turning back.

seungcheol sat there, stunned as you continued to berate him. what you were saying wasn't wrong. he had been so focused on trying to make himself feel better, he never bothered asking you what was on your mind. he wondered how often your words 'it's going to be okay' were actually meant for you instead of him.

'when i wasn't chosen for the promotion last month, where were you? you were out, drinking with your friends until 2 in the fucking morning'

'i don't understand why you're so obsessed with the promotion, you're still young and you have plenty of time-'

'I DID IT FOR YOU, SEUNGCHEOL. I DID IT FOR US' in the end, you had exploded. 'EVERYONE'S ON MY ASS 24/7 ASKING ME WHEN I'M GONNA GET MARRIED. HOW CAN I GET MARRIED WHEN MY BOYFRIEND IS UNEMPLOYED AND MY PAYCHECK CAN BARELY SUPPORT US BOTH?!'

you took a deep breath, not realizing until now that you were crying. there were tears streaming down your cheeks, similar to seungcheol. taking a moment to collect yourself, you rubbed at your eyes, trying to stop your flowing tears.

'everyday, i get yelled at and scolded by my seniors. i'm currently doing the workload of two people, do you remember me telling you that?'

seungcheol felt a pang of guilt in his chest. he did remember and watching you breakdown like this left him in horror–

'and then i come home, to my apartment that i pay for. and the dishes are still in the sink. the laundry isn't folded. did you expect me to do all the housework as well?'

–was he really this much of a burden to you?–

'i'm tired of this, seungcheol. please. i'm tired of giving and not receiving anything in return' although you stopped crying, your eyes were glistening with tears as you looked at him desperately.

–if that's what you really wanted, he would give it to you–

'i'll be out of here by the end of this week'

–because he still loved you.

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[sukunas-shrine]

RAMBLE, YOU DONT NEED 2 READ. THIS IS A VENT.

so sorry for dumping this on u, but idk where else 2 turn 2.

I feel sick. I hate this feeling of being stressed. I feel like no matter what I do ill always be suffering. I can't stop being like this. I'm 2 young 2 be this scared of noting. I'm 2 young 2 be worrying about not being a good human being. School is so stressful even on break. I feel like I'm a failure and I'll always amount 2 nothing in the end. No matter what I do ill never be strong enough. No matter how much I talk I'll never be smart enough. No matter how much I'll work I'll never work hard enough. What if I can't make ends meet when I'm forced into life? Is that it? Am I just gonna live paycheck 2 paycheck?? Idk man. Ik I'm usually happy and silly but I've felt like shit for so long. My main issue is that I can make anything anymore. I don't feel creative anymore. I can't even breath right without being stressed. It's not an option for me 2

I can't even fucling focus bc even if it's new yrs my parents argue all the time. I wanna move out. I wanna transition. I wanna be a man. I need 2 be one. I can't stand living like this. I don't have any friends and I can't move on from my old ones. My sister says I attract alot of bad people in my life. I don't want 2 do that anymore. My most recent friend was awful. They made me drink underage through pure pressure, I've never drank at all before that. I was a good kid. I'm trying w be a good kid. I lied 2 my sister about being buzzed bc of it. 2 shots of 95% vodka. That's what it was. I've never ever drank before that. My ex friend tried 2 kill herself in school...IN SCHOOL. OD IN SCHOOL. I can't stop thinking about it. She was awful and used me as rebound after her bf moved out of our school. It was a whole thing.

Before that another "friend" doxxed me. I got doxxed bc I befriend some incel on discord. I js thought "Hey they js need a friend!!" Never ever again. I wanted 2 save them. I wanted 2 see the best. They made my life he'll no matter how hard I tried. I can't change people. I'll die before I stop trying 2 sacrifice myself 2 make someone feel better. I'm so tired. I need new friends. I'm so lonely and exhausted.

Any time my joke freaky comments gets sent 2 u or smth I freak out bc I have such bad ptsd of some past shit. Call out posts and drama with ss... people calling me awful things.. I was called so many things over the lamest reasons. My whole life suddenly became a vacuum for awful people who I decided 2 give a chance. Maybe I'm an angel with clipped wings. My kindness will be the death of me. Maybe I should stop being nice. I can't even have a moment 2 process half the awful shit all my friendships were.

I won't lie, I hated myself. Esspecially when I think about past me. I was so so so so fucking disgusting. I did so much awful shit bc of desperation. I wanted friends more than anything. I wanted a community more than my own family. I was brainwashed into being a complete monster. I'm out of it, but even now I still have issues. I'm so so fucking done with being scared of myself.

What if I sent an ask and all the sudden it turns out it comes off as me being a pedo?? What if I sent a sweet msg 2 someone and I end up sending some awful slur??? I can't live like this. Ik it's impossible but after what I went through I can't stop being scared. Idk if I'll even send this with an emoji. My shit is so heavy.

I don't even know where 2 begin. I js feel like a failure who can't move on from anything. I hate my dad for being an ass but the I can't blame him bc now he's a changed man. What kind of son would I be if I hated him? He's trying so hard 2.

I hate my mom for making me this insecure. Ik she was js raised like that and was going though alot while rasing me, but I don't know how 2 not think about how ashamed I am of myself.

Nothing bad is happening anymore, but I can't live normally when all this bulshit from last yr looms over me. "New yr new me"?? Yeah right. I just want a real friend. Is that something hard 2 ask for? Maybe God hates me. Maybe I'm being punished. I'm not religious, I can't be. I'm really not. But if not religion, then why must I suffer?? Maybe it's stupid. This might be dumb but I'm still telling u anyways. Maybe none of this makes sense.

I love u all so much. I love u all so dearly. I want this place 2 be happy and a wonderful community. I hope one day I won't be so scared of myself. Please take care everyone. ♥️♥️♥️♥️

-🌬

Admin here 🫶: hey. gonna get a lil personal with this one. there’s a lot of stuff here i know i can’t relate to, but the stuff at the beginning, the stuff about transitioning and living paycheque to paycheque and having awful friends but needing them around, or having no friends at all— that was me too. it took me a hell of a long time, but i can say with confidence that it gets better. i went through transitioning with no support, had to figure it all out by myself. went through terrible, terrible times mentally that i wouldn’t wish upon anyone.

but i survived n i’m so glad i did. i found friends— true, beautiful friends, got the care i needed, have an amazing job, and i know it’s possible. even though it seems anything but at the time. i couldn’t picture myself making it here, but i did.

keep going, hun, and your time will come. it doesn’t sound or feel like it, but life gets better at the most unexpected moments, and you’re not the only one who had to tread that path. you will move out, you will find your people, you are a man & you’ll find people who know that and people who can help you get other people to see that too.

you’re always welcome here and i hope you find the support you need— it’s out there somewhere, and you’ll find it at the right time.

i believe in you and you are loved.

[aureatchi]

hello reverie!! tis i, ⭐️ anon again! i've been sooo busy with my work that i forgot to stop by (i think i might have said that in my last ask too oops) but how are you? i hope you've been doing well, making sure to take care of yourself, drinking water, etc. etc.

me, i've been so preoccupied with school that i haven't really worked on much writing myself (i'm in my final year of school so i have exams, followed by exams, followed by more exams...) but i have been thinking so much about just soft moments with dazai..... i think he would love just laying with his head in his lover's lap at the end of the day, just gazing up at them with stars in his eyes...... and if they dipped down to press a kiss to his forehead, he would just melt.

oh, oh, i am also eagerly awaiting tdwda chapter 2 though!!! (ABSOLUTELY no rush though, take as much time as you need to finish it, i will be waiting here patiently) i loved chapter 1, and i will most likely be back with all of my ramblings on the next one if you don't mind (๑>ᴗ<๑)

aaahhh i don't want to make this too long!! i'm going to go make food, but you enjoy the rest of your day and night!!

- the brightest ⭐️ in the sky <3

MY STAR ⭐️ !! :< no worries about stopping by, i totally understand & i’m js as busy too, but i’m SO SO HAPPY to see you again <3 i’m doing well thank you !! the weather is finally getting a bit colder so i’m rly happy about tht :’)

AHH I’M WISHING THE BEST OF LUCK W/ YOUR EXAMS, you got this nonnie !! ( ◡̀_◡́)ᕤ ugh this makes me feel so cozy 🥹 i want to give him sm forehead kisses too…in the moment, all is serene, no worries of chaos in the back of your head. js you two under the blanket of the night, mesmerized by how the soft light rests on each other’s faces. omg i js realized this is perfect for you hehe bcz UR THE STAR !!

thank you so so much (╥‸╥) i’m sorry i’ve delayed the 2nd chapter for so long :< i rly thought starting college early would b a breeze LMAOO BUT I FEAR it’s putting up the best fight against me…i’m SO GRATEFUL for all the love + patience on it though, i love u & i hope you enjoy the next part when i can finally get it out !!

nothing is too long for me ml !! but pls take care of yourself as well & I HOPE YOU HAD THE BEST MEAL >:) !! i cherish you to the stars & back (hehe), have the loveliest day/night too <3

[your-queer-dad]

hi dad

i relapsed smoking a lil ago and got a lung infection

then i stopped for 3 days and started again

i have a lung infection again.

i know this has nothing to do w being queer i js need someone to rant to cause im pissed off. sorry/

finch rambles btw

Hey kiddo! Thank you for telling me, and I'm always here to listen about anything not just being queer. Addiction can be really tough, but I'm proud of you for getting through three days. Please take care of yourself, I'm really proud of you.

- dad x

[emmyllou]

I request SOX RN 👏 (for the ask game~)

Okay here are some sox rn🧦:3

S - Show us an example of your personal headcanon (prompts optional but encouraged)

Necessary context: Jim Butcher, author of Dresden Files, is a noted fanboy of novelist/poet Roger Zelazny and in particular the series Chronicles of Amber. In Amber the book series and also Amber the location there is a short stone stairway that, when bathed in moonlight on certain nights, becomes a full staircase made of moonlight that leads to a Shadow (sort of like an imperfect reflection/alternate dimension) of Amber in the sky called Tir-na Nog'th. In Dresden Files, there is a short stone stairway that, when bathed in moonlight on certain nights, becomes a full staircase made of moonlight that leads to a reflection of Chicago in the sky called Chicago-over-Chicago. Headcanon: Dresden Files takes place within the Chronicles of Amber universe, and the stairs to Chicago-over-Chicago are a Shadow of the stairs to Tir-na Nog'th.

O - Choose a song at random. Which ship or character does it remind you of?

I am opening Spotify and looking at my giant playlist of all the songs I like. I am closing my eyes and scrolling randomly. I am opening my eyes and reading the song. It is Breakfast in America by Supertramp. This is useless; this is nothing. I mean it's a good song and all but I don't have any characters or ships whose defining characteristic is wanting to eat kippers for breakfast. I am closing my eyes and scrolling again. The song is Wildflowers by Dolly Parton. Oooh, now this I can work with! There's a few characters I could associate with this song, but I'm going to say that this is a Calamir song =) Growing up in a place where he doesn't feel right, being 'set free' by that place as opposed to just escaping or leaving it because the place is getting rid of him just as much as he is getting rid of the place, the line 'Just a wild rambling rose seeking mysteries untold' - I mean, Rose is in his name!

X - A trope which you are almost certain to love in any fandom.

I have answered this here! (sorry this is already getting a bit long)

R - Which friendship/platonic relationship is your favorite in fandom?

Don't do this to me. Don't make me choose. Okay fine. In terms of "how many words have I written about them", John Segundus/John Childermass and John Segundus/Tom Levy (from Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell) are neck and neck. Right now though I'm not so into Segundus/Childermass, meanwhile Segundus/Levy is a continuous delight. In terms of our d&d games: AUGH I'm still devastated we didn't get to play more of Tiril and Vivendel's sibling relationship! I think we were starting to get into a really interesting rapport and I had a lot of fun playing that character <3

N - Name three things you wish you saw more or in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice)

Oh no this is so difficult.

I'd love to see more wild and wacky crossovers. This applies to Every Fandom. Maybe it's because I love Spelljammer as a concept, or maybe I just love putting Characters in Situations. I really like weird AUs and I'd love to read more of them.

I want more John Segundus/Tom Levy fics. This is a purely selfish instinct (because I love them) and I'm doing my part to create the content I crave.

I don't have a third thing. I'm sorry. I love everyone in the JS&MN fandom and I love all your art and fics! <3

[rinis-reflection]

i want to become friends with this jp strong boy in my science and geography class

lots of rambling utc

today is the last guaranteed day i sit next to him (call him: Aoi) in science, then the rest of the week is exams and then next week we change seats

we choose who we want to sit with for the 4th quarter APPARENTLY

but he has his bestie bro in this class so he's not gonna choose me if thats the case

but i want to be friends with aoi, he's lowk funny

probably nothing more than a study buddy if i ever get to choose that far with him.

i have his number and we text mainly about science, he's an oldman as in that he takes a minimum of 5 minutes to 6hours of reply time if he doesnt reply in the first minute of me sending the text

last night i stayed up until 0:45, i ended the convo since he was reading my texts "sorry for texting you so late, gn"

he said it was ok, and today he told me he slept at 2AM (he wasn't sleepy)

he's apparently very freaky so uhm

but yk what, im friends with freaky ppl, and i get the english-japanese easy pass, so he doesn't really bully me like he apparently does to others

just playful shit here and there, fun banter ig

but now we switch seats, so he isn't forced to interact with me, which lowk sucks cause im gonna miss him- he is good at science/math/jp- WHILE IM NOT HAHAHAHAH

he's laidback and doesn't worry that much about grades, "its 9th grade, so lets have fun", he told me when i was fussing over my B

today i was asking him some questions for the thing we were doing together, and at one point bro was like: just think it bro and was being like that

and i dont appreciate that so i js shut up and tried to do it on my own, SILENCE.. then i ask him again, which became normal atmosphere again

and after not getting it, i gave him this look (:l prolly) after he said to just try again vaguely again, and he js took my computer and did it for me

IM SORRY AOI JS DONT GET MAD AT ME....

yeah but he usually just takes my computer and does it for me rather than explaining even tho if he explained that'd mean i wouldnt have to ask him everytime </3

did it yesterday too when everyone was stressing for making graphs

and this happened:

the reason why i remember is because ppl i feel like usually don't come back to me unless they're teachers/made it obvious/actually started to speak my sentence.

another apparently: he's shy to girls- i dont know how much of that i believe

another slightly more prove apparently: a lot of girls in my grade had a phase of liking him before winter break

see in the past, in middle school, i always ate with my guy friends, we were one bigger group- i don't have that luxury here

i don't HAVE to sit with aoi for meals, i don't think i can take it

i js want to be in a position where i can talk to him abt to school/casual without having to be IN school- yk?

ugh, he pmo

[hitomisuzuya]

hi suzu. idw to overload your requests so u don't have to answer this if you don't have time, but for these past 2 days i've been feeling down, upset, and mostly disappointed by myself bcos i feel as if im a liability of sorts. i studied hard last sem for nothing only to not gain a merit-based scholarship that could have helped my family financially. it's not fair that my mom can't earn atm due to her being on sabbatical leave and backing off for a while due to her mental health and my dad shouldering all the finances... 😪like, i js feel so useless atm. i still can't work part-time due to immigration laws in the country i live in and bcos the country im studying abroad for uni requires me to be proficient in the language first. my parents have told me that they aren't disappointed at me at all and that i shouldn't feel responsible, but i am naturally an overthinker so... if it's not too much for you, could i request for a SFW shot/drabble wherein Kazuha comforts and assures reader who feels helpless and frustrated at themselves for not doing the "bare minimum" for their family? i fear i am in (desperate) need of the Kazulove and affection bcos my mood hasn't been improving 😭 it really sucks...

-indigo anon

p.s.: sorry if i said too much or if it felt like a ramble 😞😞 i hope this didn't ruin ur day or anyth. you can ignore this ask if u need to.

Kazuha x reader. Kazuha comforts the reader when they are insecure and feel helpless and reassures them. SFW.

a/n: indigo anon, I want to say one quick thing to you. And I am giving you virtual headpets while you read. I am a constant overthinker. Call it a result of my own unfortunate circumstances, but I won't get into that. Being an overthinker sucks. It hurts, and sometimes it makes you feel so heavy that you can't sleep. I'm having insomnia because of it. Even now I feel like I am doing the bare minimum for you. But this isn't about me, it's about you. Please listen to me and your parents. This isn't your fault. It never will be. Please, lean on me or my writing anytime. I'm here for you.

You were crying again. The second he saw you burst into tears, he held you against his chest, petting your head and giving you words of reassurance.

Kazuha would always tell you that you are never useless. Not to him. Not to anyone. You always did your best, it didn't matter who it was in the name of. You heart is always in the right place. And he loves you for that.

You never let him or anyone down. Not even once.

Kazuha would tell you these things as many times as it took. He would stand there and hold you all night until you stopped crying.

You were the love of his life. The center of his world. You were his reason for fighting, loving and existing.

And he would make sure you that. Every day. Every minute he would show you how true his words to you are. He would spend the rest of his life proving it to you.

[aktosage]

Ahh I’m happy you’re happy!! Sending virtual hugs :D

AND YOUR DOODLES ARE SUPER CUTE!! Your elita in the tfp style one was super pretty omg

Question! For your adding more characters to tfp au (does it count as an au?) where do you think characters like Pharma and First Aid would fit into this? I reckon the whole Delphi fiasco would be different in some ways, or maybe it didn’t happen at all!

I think that Pharma is a super interesting character, and there’s a lot of potential for world building centred around him, if that makes sense? Like he was able to make a plague that was originally transmitted via sound and only activated when the host transformed, and for a darker setting like the tfp continuity I think he would be able to fit right in!

I’m so sorry for rambling I just think he’s a really interesting character!! I hope you’re having a good day, and thank you for taking the time to read this :D

*hugs*

AAAA THANK YOU!!! She’s one of my fav characters omg it hurts how little there is of her in canon. And I’ll do more doodles in 2022! I’ll try to do more with this

Oooooh I’m two steps ahead of you, I have the Delphi, Red Rust, DJD and all that alll ready for you👀 I’ll first write briefly what I think happened, then I’ll throw in some headcanons about Pharma and FirstAid like I do for others :p

Pharma was one of the leading medic’s back on Cybertron and took many apprentices. Him and Ratchet were close like in the idw, they worked together, opened a clinic for the lower class as well (which wasn’t legal off course, but hey you can’t punish your greatest medics especially if they don’t drag attention to themselves and if their cause actually HELPS calm down the situation) and repaired what they could.

The difference between the two, is once again one follows the humane limits the other one does not. Eventually the two broke apart because of that with some hard feelings ofc but overall nothing serious. It still affected both mental and created rivalry —> the better medic would be better known —> if Pharma js better he will surely break the limits and harm someone.

Ratchet wasn’t as nearly as skilled at Pharma because Pharma had a lot of experience and a natural “thing” for being a medic. Ratchet was all brains, passion and a L O T hard work, nothing fell from the sky right into his palms. (This is important trust me)

So.

Pharma kept doing his experiments, Firstaid staying with him because it was a secret between the two. Ratchet did NOT want FirstAid to loose a chance of learning from the best, so he stayed quiet and said that he’s leaving for business. Eventually, Pharma mutated the old Cybertronian plague because his plan was to eradicate those who he considered harmful for the society👀 (Ratchet had a soft spot for ‘the harmful’ ones and for Pharma, Pharma did not. Thus in TFP Ratchet lost his soft spot in a way to not let a mistake happen again.)

^^adding the DJD. Pharma also did it to keep himself safe later in his research. He was found very quickly by one of Megatron’s men, and while his plan was to harm ONLY the ‘harmful’ ones he had to form an alliance. His virus was to be spread fast but it also ought to be fairly easy to stop or avoid for those who knew about it. He worked with Shockwave on a proper cure, and the files were transferred to Megatron (so Pharma only had a batch of it for himself and maybe FirstAid to stop him from overproducing it) Also the usual supplying the djd with parts and such.

Fear and threats got to Pharma and he eventually turned mad because he realized how bad it had gotten. He wanted to be a medic to save people and teach younger bots his work, the younger bots who were dying under his servos.

He was doing all this right when the war was about to start, around the time when Orion became Optimus. But it transmitted TOO well and too fast, but Pharma wasn’t scared because “less people, less problems, less mouth to feed, less poor, people would eventually start getting more careful and focus on finding a cure rather than startinfg a war”.

Pharma eventually fled the planet to ‘organize a refugee center’ on one of Cybertron’s abandoned colonies (cold weather like in Delphi, rather hard to reach…)

To the battle at Tyger Pax. We all know that Ratchet blames himself for Bumblebee’s loss of speech, or rather for not being able to FIX it. Pharma could’ve. Pharma could’ve.

So when Optimus got the plague back on earth from that ship, it hit Ratchet especially hard👀 It was yet another mistake he had to fix but couldn’t. And that’s why he INSTANTLY knew what it was back there, he knew everything about it but the cure.

I just realized how much I wrote oh god, so if you’d like headcanons on the three medics pls do say😭

I HOPE YOU LIKED THIS! I really try to intertwine canon from both to fit into TFP unuverse (which is very messy? The alligned is practically just flecks of content scattered around but there are multiple posibilities? Okay)

Anyone is welcome to ask more, seriously this is phenomenal for me I get so excited when I can share whatever this is :D

I have 3 (I think) more asks to do BUT.

I’m going on a trip tomorrow and will be traveling for a long time so I could use some asks👀 or even fanfic requests (I write this is my AO3 heh https://archiveofourown.org/users/Aktosage/pseuds/Aktosage ) I especially like my OpLita fic but it is kinda sad I think 💀

Oneshots are a-okay!

Fanfic promts as well

Nsfw ONLY. O N L Y 18+ and will be posted only there for now IF I do it :p

Any universe seriously

OCs are eeeeh okay? I just don’t know how well I’d be able to tackle a character I couldn’t research first hand :p

Headcanons are mwah perfect

Human x [insert fella] are also okay!

[dellinah]

The fact that Animals by Maroon 5 started playing when I was drawing this with my phone on shuffle was the most glitch in the Matrix moment in my entire life and I feel like nothing like that will ever happen again

Cuz yknow. Drawing a wolf with a song that goes Awoooo in the bg. It’s pretty fitting. Js. It was also funny in a way

But hum hey look. It’s Odin. Bc he’s a very dear friend, and I appreciate him a lot, and he a cute wewf. And who doesn’t like a cute handsome wolfman every once in a while. I do. and if you don’t, why you even following me at this point

I FORGOT THE MUZZLE FRECKLES I KNEW SOMETHING WOULD BOTHER ME WHEN I WAS DONE SDFGHJK FUCK i made most of this after midnight till like 4am so that’s on me sorry but im so happy to be done with it

But hey odin I hope you like this. i was like SO SUBTLE just suddenly asking about what colors you liked wasnt i ha i bet you never saw this coming i am so sneaky. anyway i love you and appreciate you and also i just felt like trying some poses and like why not turn one of those poses into odin while we’re at it since i love odin and you get it i hope

none of my rambles ever make sense but the bottom is yo- i mean the bottom line is that Odin is great and I appreciate you and you’re a dear friend and that’s how I show it. Hope you’re good and that you like thiss

also like how funny would be if I just didn’t tag you and let the tumblr gods decide when you see this

yeah that’s what ima do get PRANKED wish i could see your face when this shows up randomly on your feed

still it’s detectiveashcroft here on tumblr and yall should check him out regardless

[lvejae]

hi!! can u write some thing with getting caught in the act with dream ?? js can be something like suggestive / fluffy! thank uu <33

of course!!! i love this idea so much!!

mark!!! you guys were actually home alone at the dorm for once. this was rare, as he had 23 members and three different schedules to keep up with. you were originally watching a movie, until mark had gotten too touchy. one kiss turned into a make out session, causing you to sit on your boyfriends lap. “m-mark baby i don’t think this is a good idea, w-what if the boys come home” you stuttered as he sucked little hickeys onto your neck. he pulled away, “babe, calm down we’ve got so much time left”, he brought his lips to yours. you both were lost in the feeling, only for the moment to be broken by a few screaming boys.“OH MY GOD!” taeyong screamed. “MARK LEE I SWEAR IF YOU ARE HAVING SEX ON OUR COUCH ILL KILL YOU!” jungwoo yelled. your faces went bright red. you immediately hid yourself in marks shoulder. “we were ONLY kissing” mark tried to clear the air. “more like making babies” yuta replied. mark apologized, and quickly took you to his room. making sure to LOCK the door. “anyways, where were we…”

renjun!!! you and renjun were in the kitchen making some pastries. your job was making the cake batter, while renjun made the icing. you were almost done whisking it all together when he wiped some icing on your face, more specifically your lip and jaw. “renjunnnnn!!!!” you gasped as he laughed at you. “why would you rub icing on my face?” you started to argue, putting down the bowl and whisk in your hand. “so i could do this” he kissed your lips, eventually getting the icing off. “smooth” you giggled at him. he moved down to your jaw, determined to get the icing off. just that moment, mark walked in. “oh my god oh my god MY EYES” he screeched, turning himself around and speed walking out of the room. you both blushed before finishing what you started.

jeno!!! you and jeno were in the practice room, alone. you were just watching him dance while eating an orange. he looked so good with the sweat dripping down his neck, you couldn’t fight the urge to kiss him right then and there. once the music stopped you immediately went up to him, not expecting the kiss to become heated so quickly. the rest of the dreamies walk in, making gagging noises, “ewwww why can’t you two get a room” renjun rolls his eyes. you and jeno end up breaking the kiss due to your giggles, “you just ruined the moment dude”.

jaemin!!! you and jaemin weren’t exactly having sex, let’s call it making out on his bed while in your underwear. it started out as cuddling, until he got too flirty. who could blame you? jaemin has been both very busy and hot lately. you had hardly any alone time together, so you were just trying to work with what you had. jaemin is just about to whisper in your ear when the door opened, only to reveal jisung. he quickly pulled the covers up, covering your body specifically. it takes jisung a few seconds to realize what he just walked in on, “...holy sh…. HYUNG IM JUST GRABBING MY PHONE CHARGER I PROMISE I WILL BE QUICK IM SO SORRY” he rambles on as he races in and out of the room. once he shuts the door, you and jaemin begin cracking up, “sung is so cute,” he starts “but not as cute as you” kissing you softly again.

haechan!!! you were in the car driving home from one of his schedules, when haechan decided that he was bored and that this stupid car ride was too long. he put his hand on your thigh, slowly moving it up higher. haechan and you sat in the back of the car, so he figured no one would really notice what was happening. once you caught onto what he was doing, you grabbed his hand and whisper yelled in his ear, “hyuck?! what are you doing? we are in the car with the rest of your bandmates!”. he chuckles lowly and whispers back, “cmon baby, just give in. i promise you they won’t find out” he winks. you keep your grip strong on his perverted hand, letting him know that you REALLY think it’s a bad idea. he catches your eyes and pulls you into him for a kiss. a cute little kiss becomes a heated, which you could of gotten away with if he didn’t MOAN INTO IT. jaemin turns around and glares at haechan, only to pull out his phone and text him, “dude, if youre gonna fuck your girlfriend, at least wait until we are HOME. ya nasty”. hyuck shows you the texts and you shoot him an i told you so look.

chenle!!! you were sitting on chenles lap doing his makeup. this time he actually ASKED you to do it. usually you would have to beg him for it, and only half the time he would let you. when he asked you, you sprinted to your bag and grabbed a bunch of your favorite makeup. he found you so cute. you came back to the couch and sat on him, rummaging through your bag, “what do you want me to do baby?” you asked. “anything! i don’t care, just make me pretty like you” he flirted. you flushed and started to draw a tiny wing with your favorite blue eyeliner. it was so hard to focus with him staring at you, so you had to do both sides a few times. as you were examining your work, renjun and haechan burst through the door: “CHENLE-YA!!! Y/N!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!?”haechan screams. you laugh awkwardly and start fidgeting in your boyfriend’s lap. chenle looks at the boys and rolls his eyes, “i’m just letting y/n do my makeup. nothing more than that you PERVERTS!” he yells.

jisung!!! you guys were laying on the couch. he was playing one of his many video games and you were reading a book. somehow, jisung convinced you to give him a kiss for every kill he got. once his 3rd round ended, he looked for you and said, “y/n!! i got 28 kills, where are my 28 kisses”. you put down your book and complained, “havent you gotten enough kisses yet?”. “nope!” he pulled you onto him, and you started landing kisses on every inch of his face. as soon as you got to your 10th kiss, which just happened to be on his lips, chenle and jeno walked in. “EW JISUNG AND Y/N ARE MAKING OUT!” chenle shouts. you and your boyfriend sat up and dusted yourself off quickly. “n-no we weren’t. we were just kissing!” jisung stutters as both of your faces start to turn red. “don’t worry about it ji, have fun!” jeno winks as he pulls chenle back out of the house.

[moonlightkitkat]

Felix Reactions

Did Gabriel paint Emilies nails?? They’re so pink

Also... why does he want the whole family together again? It’s obvious he doesn’t really like his son(considering last episode)

Aww Natalie’s smile and wave for Adrien

Yeesss Natalie try to help Adrien and stuff

AWW NOO THE KITTY SONG AGAIN

Wow... Gabriel sitting down on the ground with his son? I’m surprised! Is he actually gonna tell Adrien the truth though???

AWWW SUPPORTIVE SON

AW HE LOVES NATALIE

Oh god... Gabriel you jerk. Your son gives you his blessing, just wanting you to be happy, and you just scold him and stomp off! Like jeez

Aww poor Adrien..

Aww Luka’s little smile as he watches Marinette pace worriedly

Nino is wholesome with his little “Hey my dude!”

wow he’s crying??? Poor baby...

I’m sorry... Amelie? Emilie and Amelie. That’s so dumb

AHHH HE LOOKS SO DUMB 😂

Grande de vanille? That’s such a cool name oh my god

“We Kwami live forever!”

Wow Tikkis so fed up with her and her drama lol

Her grumpy little “promise!” Is so adorable

okay so Felix is good at sports.. *writes down notes for Restart and Not Alone Anymore*

He didn’t go to his dads funeral? Oh that’s harsh.. of course it’s Gabriel’s fault.

Wow it happened in th span of the year?

Plagg‘s furious little reaction to the cheese. Also wow he’s not pointing out that he stole the phone

Awww Plagg’s little apology, he felt so bad

Why do they both hide in the shower fully clothes? He could just... not be in the shower

“Of course he has a crush on a superhero” that’s a mood

Oh my god Nino’s video

“Bros are there blah blah blah,” woooww

“Chloe, just a annoying as usual,” THAT WAS A REALLY SWEET MESSAGE GIVE CHLOE A BREAK

Like seriously pause for a sec. Chloe didn’t have her mom in her life, her mom didn’t even remember her NAME. But she got her back, and her mom is trying and now they’re closer, and she knows exactly how Adrien feels about wanting his mom back. She looks so guilty when she says that she got her mom back, and her voice got so soft when she says he can count on her, and honestly I love Chloe so much for stuff like this

AHHH IM CRINGING

NO THE VIDEO JS DELETED

NOOOOOOOOOO

WHY DOES HE HAVE MATCHING CLOTHES

also wow.. Luka really didn’t send a message ad that’s so funny to me. Like he was watching the whole time, but nothing. Also??? Kim is there??? Was he always there???

Marinette is so cute omg

OH MY GOD HIS FOND SMILE AS SHE JUST BARGES INTO HIS ROOM AND STARTS RAMBLING ABOUT HER CRUSH

THATS SO CUTE AND IM SQUEALING AHHH LUKA

“I’ll be really happy for you and Adrien if it works out” HAVE I MENTIONED THAT I LOVE LUKA??? Also... maybe I’ll add Luka to the next chapter. Some Luka might help me get back on track

“And if it doesn’t.. I’ll be here for you” THE GREATEST MAN ON EARTH

HES SO SWEET

Like it’s not even a “there’s always me,” it’s “I’ll be here for you.” Whether as a friend, a shoulder to cry on, or maybe as a partner, he’ll always be there for her, no strings attached, and I love him for that

Oh my god Chloe’s amusement brings me joy to no end.

OH NOOOOO

Luka’s little 😬face as Marinette runs off totally means that he’s rethinking whether or not they would be good as a pair

“Felix.” Wow can’t fool the evil butterfly man

But also I’m glad because it means Adrien won’t get anything bad from that

NATALIE YOU SNAKE

“Hey so I know you’re feeling sad because today’s the day your wife went into a magic induced coma, so here’s some hurt and angry teenagers for you to manipulate and terrorize with to cheer up!” “Natalie you know me so well,” *proceeds to Nyoom to the butterfly lair*

I totally thought he said fat souls and I was so confused

Wait, he can make multiple akumas at once?

WHY ARE YOU SENDING THEM AFTER YOUR SON HES SO SAD AND HURT RIGHT NOW NOOO

I love how all of the boys just kind of step back

Oh please tell me that Luka sees her transform

KIM CANT SING IM CRYING

Okay at least he’s making sure that Adrien doesn’t get hurt

FELIX STANDING THERE LIKE THAT KERMIT MEME IM CRYING

ADRIEN WHAT THE-awww he’s trying to protect his cousin even though he set him up

NATALIE REALLY THREW HIM

OMG NATALIES FOT THE MOVES

GO NARALIE

JULEKA KICKED ROSE THATS SO FUNNY

Aww Alya’s little “but...”

Was that.. is it just me or was that interaction sexual?

HOW DID HE DODGE ALL OF THOSE

WHAT THE HECK

*chants* Chat noir chat noir chat noir

Ha Felix got kidnapped

WHAT THE HECK FELIX

oh th music got all creepy like

LADYBUG TEACHING CONSENT YOU GO GIRL

THAT YELL OH MY GOD

SHE REALLY PUNCHED HIM YES

Was Chat... just watching Ladybug get sexually harassed? He wasn’t landing.. on my god

*boos* Chat noir.. Chat noir.. chat noir..

Oh wow, Felix’s little shameful look to the side.. this boy is lonely... *writes that down*

Okay Reflekta’s voice... I love.. so much.

IM SORRY FELIX HAS A IDEA THING LIKE LADYBUG???

quick on his feet.. athletic.. gymnast... not afraid to go against a supervillain.. *writes down frantically*

“What makes you think I want it to be over” WOW

“Were punished” *thinks back to the naughty boy an girl part*

HA PUNK

Wow though Felix was really gonna work with Hawkmoth

“Favorite cousin” THERES MORE???

Awww genuine hug

“Felix is evil and irredeemable” LIES ASTRUC

HE STOLE THE RING HE STOLE THE RING

Adrien... there’s a recently deleted tab you know..

KIM WHY IS YOUR OHONE LYING ABOVE A CRACK ON A BRIDGE THATS DANGEROUS AND MAKES ME NERVOUS

also wow Marinette.. but also mood

Wow he really didn’t realize that the ring was gone

Aww... he just wanted to make his mom happy

Felix is a mamas boy *jots it down*

I hope we get to see Felix again soon

HE STOLE THE RING FROM HIS COMATOSE WIFE

Okay so closing thoughts.. I really liked Felix. Like the whole episode. I loved Amelie, I loved how much of a Brat Felix was. I also loved how we really got to see his mindset through all of this though. He lost his dad, and he’s rebelling in his grief, all while trying to make his mother happy. He’s like a “What if Adrien was mean and was willing to go down the dark side” AU, and I really liked it! Adrien’s VA did a really good job with voicing him. Even when they’re pretending to be each other, Adrien’s voice is still higher when pretending to be Felix, and Felix sound like he kind of just has a stuffy nose when he pretends to be Adrien.

I liked seeing Marinette dare to even record herself confessing to Adrien, and I loved Tikki finally pushing her to do what she was afraid to do, even if the day really wasn’t the right day to confess and Marinette was right on that one. I loved the Lukanette moment we got, it was so cute and wholesome and just!!! Like he really moved to sit right next to her and comfort her and reassure her that she isn’t alone.

I loved seeing Ladybug punch Felix. Seeing her punch “Adrien” was so therapeutic. But also, like, Marinette knows that no one can push her boundaries. She may have a hard time saying no, but she isn’t afraid to say it when she isn’t comfortable. Chat though.. he really just stood there and watched. He didn’t just get there, he probably got there just a few seconds before she punched Felix. When she said no and nearly got kissed against her wishes. Like, I know that Ladybug can handle herself, but that doesn’t mean to just stand back and watch her! Honestly though, he’s watching his look alike try and kiss her, he probably was wishing it was actually him.

I’m really curious about the tale of the twin rings, and why it’s so important to Felix. I love how he just stole it from Gabriel though lol

All in all, I really did love this episode, and I wouldn’t mind watching it again ^^

[chocolatemillkk]

Super Close (JS)

Request: Ok would you be able to do an imagine thats after the one your did with joe and the song Super Far but its like a year later or something right and hes finally moving on and he likes a new girl but he has a hard time trusting her cuz he had bad experiences but the girl teaches him to trust in love again. i know its weird cuz both girls are y/n lol but pretty please do this? love your writing btw!

A/N: so. I know you sent this like a looong time ago but I just had it on hold for a while. It would be weird considering both love interests are supposed to be the reader but the part about healing from a toxic relationship intrigued me! So I've written something up for it, I hope it's to your liking. Everyone heals differently I just wrote it this way for a quick imagine. Sorry for the wait!

I met Y/N a couple weeks ago when Caspar convinced me to go on a blind date. It was almost approaching nine months since I'd had my last relationship-if you could call it that. It was an unhealthy relationship, I see that now in retrospect. We weren't right for each other and it took me months to come out from that. And I have it to thank for all the confusing issues and insecurities it's left me with. That was why I'd said no to Caspar. But he brought it up every time he saw me until I said yes.

That evening I put in the effort to wear a clean shirt and style my hair from the usual bedhead it's gotten into-I needed a haircut. I was ten minutes early so I found a corner table to wait and scanned the menu to pass the time, thinking about the video I was planning on editing when I got home.

She arrived right on time, I caught sight of her as the waiter led her to the table and I suddenly felt like an idiot. I had thought Caspar was the one not taking this seriously and just setting me up with a rebound girl. But I was the idiot not taking it seriously enough because my date stopped me dead in my seat.

"Here's your table miss," the waiter says, nodding at me before heading back.

"Hey-hi," I scramble from my chair when my legs finally work again. "Joe."

"Hey, Y/N." She leans into my hug and she smells like what I imagine the beach to smell like. "Caspar has spoken nothing but praise for you. He's honestly been talking about you since I met up with him a few weeks ago."

I feel flushed as I sit back down. "He was probably exaggerating. I'm just an average-well...Joe."

I want to pinch myself and I wait for her to roll her eyes but she laughs at my joke instead. She laughs despite the dad factor of the joke and it spark wamrth in my chest towards her.

"I feel a little guilty for doing it so I want to just come outright and say I looked your channel up and watched a few of your latest video. Blame Caspar though-he was going on about you."

Her eyes crinkle as she pretends to cringe at what she's said but I'm surprised to hear that she'd done it and actually admitted to it-my last girlfriend didn't watch any of my videos.

"So then you know I can be an idiot-I don't have to lie until our third date," I say.

"Babe, don't lie on my account. I'll confess I can be an idiot too. The other day I was trying to tap my Sephora card on the underground and I was nearly in tears when it wouldn't work until I turned the little slip around and saw it was the wrong card." She laughs at herself as she opens the menu up and I do too-feeling the nerves shake off. I feel brave enough that I share an embarassing story of my own from taking an Uber here.

When the waiter comes by I take the few moments to watch her decide from the menu. She tucks her hair behind her ears and her eyes are so expressive as she listens to what the waiter recommends.

"Any drinks?" He asks us. Y/N looks at me and we both know the answer-we could already feel the familiarity between us so we could tell it would be a long night.

"Maybe a bottle?" I say and she bites her lip to keep from laughing.

We'd polished the bottle and gone back to my place after and talked until 3 in the morning. That was when she remembered she had work at 8 and left in a rush. Since we were both busy, we hadn't spent as much time as we wanted to together. But every moment with her was gentle and therapeutic but exciting. I looked forward to each moment.

Tonight was a Friday night and I planned on surprising her.

Y/N worked in the financial district and I wait in the lobby of her building. The women are dressed so similarily that I almost miss her but it's like she radiated a warmth I just couldn't miss.

"Y/N," I shout, forgetting this was where she worked. She turns and sidesteps a man who brushes past her with a scowl. I wave my arm and she spots me, her face morphing into delight as she hurries forward.

"Joe! What are you doing here?" She gives me a hug.

"I thought I'd surprise you, I wanted to see you." I say, suddenly feeling self-conscious as her mouth hangs open and she glances back. "Are you busy? Sorry I should have asked first...if you've got some other plans we can just hang out on Saturday? It's alright-"

"It's not that," she puts her hand on my arm which shuts my rambling off. She turns around again, "I just had to run an errand after work but I'm free otherwise! I just...don't know if you wanted to come with me for a manicure?"

"A manicure?" I ask. "You're getting your nails done? I don't mind. I have a sister remember? I've actually had to help her glue glitter onto her nails when I was younger." I feel a humongous sense of relief that she wasn't angry and that I wouldn't be hanging out on my own tonight.

"Really?" She laughs, gripping my arm. "Okay, you're literally my favourite person right now! I tried to convince my coworker to come with me but she hates that kind of thing. You might have to wait a bit but I've got an appointment so not too long..."

I go along as she chatters on and then ask her about her day. It's a short walk to the salon and once inside I pull up a chair beside where she gets her nails done and tell her about what I was up to.

"So what did you have planned?" She asks once we step out.

Shit, I realise I hadn't actually planned anything and I feel my anxiety spike. "What were you in the mood for?" I risk asking.

"I don't mind anything really," she says casually. "I've had a long day so I'm alright with even just going somewhere chill."

"Want to go back to mine?"

"That sounds perfect," she agrees and I'm surprised again with how easy it was with her. If I suggested a night in to my last girlfriend she would have pouted until I agreed to go to a club or a pub or wherever there was music and booze and other men. Y/N seemed to just be happy to spend time with me, just like I was with her.

"Shit you're probably hungry," I say once we reach my flat.

"Sort of," she admits. "But don't feel bad!"

"Did you want to get takeaway?" I suggest.

"I might raid your fridge first," she squeezes past me and into the kitchen. I watch her pull out a few ingredients.

"What are you up to?" I ask.

"Dinner," she looks through my cupboard. "We may as well if you've got all these ingredients."

"I can do that," I move towards where she stands. "Just grab a drink and relax or something."

"I'm alright!" Y/N insists. She takes the garlic from my hands and places it back on the counter. "I'm going to make you dinner."

"At my house? There's no need," I try to reach for the cutting board but she slips it away. "Really Y/N let me make dinner if-"

"Joe," she places a hand on my chest. "I want to make you dinner."

I feel slightly embarassed at the fact that her hand on my chest can feel my heart which beats erratically. The last time I tried to do this for a girl, it resulted in the ingredients for pizza splattered on the floor and many tears. My old girlfriend would never offer to cook for me and never acknowledged it when I took the time to cook for her. The one time she did was to prove a point to me which led to the argument when I found out she was only doing it because she was going to break some bad news to me.

But as I look into Y/N's concerned face, I realise that I need to leave the past where it belongs. Y/N wasn't my past but a bright future and a perfect present.

"Sorry," I apologise for the fuss I was making. I hold the hand against my chest. "I forget-it's hard for me to remember that I can trust people and there's no double meaning to things. That...you just want to cook me dinner because you want to cook me dinner."

Y/N closes the distance between us, "I've...put pieces together from the bits you've told me and Casp has mention. I'm sorry you had to go through something that changed you that way Joe." Tears gather on her lash line and she blinks them away. Looking at her, feeling for me and being concerned for me, I realise that all hope-and love-was not truly lost. Somehow Y/N was helping me restore my faith that I could find love again. That I could be loved again. But to test it...

I brush Y/N's cheek and lean to kiss her. I can feel the softness of her lips, the curve of them as they smile and kiss mine back. I pull away and she sighs as I move to her neck and she runs her fingers through my hair as I kiss her pulse. I can feel the blood pumping through it but the love too. I lean back and hold her face in my hands and when she looks at me her eyes shine with the same love. I reel with how much she had to give me when we hadn't even dated for long. Just because she had that kind of soul.

One person might have convinced me that no girl was ever worth it again, that putting your love and trust in a person was never worth it. But this one person standing right in front of me squashed that notion and tossed it in the trash.

I pull her to me, super close to my heart, and kiss her forhead. Whatever I had been through, if it had just led me to her love, it had been worth it.