#sorry sorry this is very self congratulatory but like. i am actually so fucking proud of this

[chainsawworld]

She is literally so pretty who gave her the right

[megabadbunny]

Hi! I love your art and your stories. You are a gift to your fandoms. I was wondering what are your favorites of your own work? Art and stories, which ones do YOU love the most? (Is this like making you pick between your children?) Thanks!

Hey sweet nonny! I’m sorry I haven’t responded sooner--I have actually attempted to answer this several times, but each time, I am overcome with the sweetness of this message, and it renders me totally verklempt. So first of all, thank you for such a kind message. I really appreciate it!!!!

Let’s start with my favorites of my fics. Which sounds like a weirdly self-congratulatory thing to say. But I’m gonna own it. Because I’m allowed to like my own stuff. Right? Right. Here we go!

In no particular ranking (I’m just going through the fic timeline, so to speak), we have:

Taking the Lead She can’t always trust her instincts. She can—and does—trust the Doctor.  This lemony Rose x Nine fic is one of my favorite things I’ve ever written because it feels, to me, quite evocative and personal. It has very little dialogue--in fact, I think Rose only speaks one word aloud during the whole thing--and, I don’t know. It has a different feel from a lot of my other stuff and I just really like it.

A Rose by Any Other Martha The day Rose Tyler reappears in her original universe is an interesting day for Martha Jones. An enemies-to-friends tale. Listen I love each of the RTD-era companions with the passion of a thousand thousand suns; I love their compassion, their integrity, their selflessness, their special spark. I also fucking loved bringing out Martha and Rose’s petty sides. It was just really entertaining to write!

Paint by Numbers “Wait, so you’re telling me the love of your life is in there—right there, right now—and instead of marching in there and taking care of her, you’re sitting out here, bloody brooding?” I enjoy this semi-Doomsday/JE-fixit partially because I really like the characterization of everyone involved, but also because it gave me a really good chance to explore the fallout of the disappearing stars in Pete’s World. It was a platform for some interesting world-building. And writing Donna is always a joy. And I also enjoy writing romantic tension between two characters with different/clashing but equally understandable and important priorities (i.e., Rose and the Doctor).

In Lovers’ Meeting (WIP) He wondered if she felt it, too, that uncomfortable quiet, the strange battling senses of loss and simultaneous gain, the impression that everything was hurtling and stopping and freezing and burning all at once. (A suffocating freedom, he thought, brimming with a terrifying potential energy.)  The new and improved rewrite of my fic Hitchhiker’s Map, updated for style and Big Finish canon. I just love these two dumb idiots and want them to be happy together. But it might take a minute (and an alien attack, natch). :D

if we let go (WIP) Immediately after the events of Journey’s End, Rose gets a choice, even if she has to carve it out for herself. Because sometimes you just wanna wallow in angst and smut, amirite??? Yes. Yes, I am right.

Demi-Gods and Would-be Gods Rose, the metacrisis Doctor, and a dose of religion. Quite possibly sacrilegious. A somewhat melancholy but hopeful (and also lemony) Rose x Tentoo fic; also see above, re: romantic tension between characters with conflicting priorities. This was also one of the earliest stories where I really started to find and refine my writing voice. I have a huge soft spot for it.

That would be my top favorite 10% of my fics. That seems like a good number, right...? Right. Glad we all agree. :D

For favorite arts, we have:

genuinely one of my favorite, favorite things I’ve ever drawn. a redraw of a redraw. i’m so pleased with my style shining through, and the colors, and the texture, and the lighting. this just came together y’all. even if the sheer amount of eye-fucking happening here is nothing short of obscene. :D

another of my favorite favorites. an absolute joy to draw. look how fucking pretty they are! and their dresses! and they’re so pretty together!!! and they’re so very gay!!! ::cries::

still love this one. i feel like it captured martha’s soft side nicely. and freema agyeman is so very lovely!

another day, another redraw, another excuse to draw a pretty formal dress? yes, please. <3

and last, but in no way least, More Gay Stuff. i just really like them together, okay? ::sobs::

Thank you again, nonny, for your sweet message, and thank you for your patience while I responded!

If anyone else out there wants to fluff their own feathers a little, and self-promote with their favorite selfmade fic or art, do it! Do it, I dare ya. I’d love to see y’all love on yourselves! You can say I tagged you! I will specifically tag @goingtothetardis @davinasgirlfriend @wordsintimeandspace @jemsauce @lvslie @suolasirotin @smallblueandloud @pellaaearien @elialys @helplesslynerdy @abadplanwellexecuted Doesn’t have to be Doctor Who fandom or any one fandom at all--if you made it and you’re super proud of it, I wanna know!

Stay safe, healthy, and happy, everybunny! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

[noccalula-writes]

Can you give us your detailed thoughts on Avengers: Endgame?

SPOILERY THOUGHTS ARE COMING.

The basis of most of my gripes are: if Age of Ultron hadn’t been so shittily written, a lot of this could have been avoided. Not all of it, but a lot of it. But I’ll go line item by line item outside of that thought.

First off, Steve. Y'all already know I’m a Stucky shipper, but even outside of the context of the ship - and I fully support people who feel their relationship is platonic but very intimate as long as they have been supportive of how emotional their story is, let’s do that more with male friendships please - you have to admit that there has been no greater, longer standing or fucking emotional relationship arc through the entire goddamn MCU than Steve and Bucky. Platonic, nonplatonic, whatever. We literally watch Steve tear down a branch of the goddamn government to get Bucky back, and since the first movie, Bucky has been his emotional touchstone. Steve’s singular dedication to rescuing and protecting Bucky has driven him to the heights of recklessness and has made him nearly sacrifice himself a dozen times.

But he ditches out on him, after he’s been dead for five years no less, to go back to the fucking fifties and derail Peggy’s entire well-lived life.

I don’t buy it. I think this was purposeful diversion to avoid appearing “too gay”, and it fucking infuriates me. There is an article on The Daily Dot that explores this better than I even thought to and you should definitely read it.

The idea of Steve getting to live a full life and be happy? Wonderful. But the way this was executed felt cold, clinical. We’ve spent more time developing emotional bonds with Steve than any other character in the MCU except maybe Tony, and yet we the audience were completely shut out of his feelings for the entire last half of the very last film. It felt like a door had been closed on us. There was none of the warmth of Steve, only the resolve of Captain America, and a very rash decision that felt so poorly planned after he said barely two things to the man who has been the axis of most of his decisions in this entire series.

Sam is absolutely the right choice for Captain America, though. That was what I was hoping for, and he deserves the mantel.

Tony Stark, love of my life, was set up to make the martyr play from the very first Avengers film. This is where it was always meant to go, and I have spent every movie since AoU waiting for it to happen. Honestly, I feel like Tony’s arc was the one arena where everything was done right (except, I’ll be honest, I don’t know how I feel about him having had a kid - I’m not mad at it, though). If you follow me you know I don’t think he and Pepper had real staying power no matter how much they love each other, but I also never anticipated that he’d be with anyone else, so this wasn’t a disappointment (I love Pepper, to be clear). I was proud of him. I was sorry he wouldn’t get to see Morgan grow up, but I was proud of my man saving the world.

I love him with all my heart. He’s made dumb decisions but when the metaphorical knife was against his throat, he came correct with absolute resolution.

Wanda might as well have been a cardboard cutout, which on one hand was fine because she had way more screen time in Infinity War than she’s had anywhere else since AoU (shudder), but she’s been reduced to this background character who got shipped off with Vision just so she’d have something to do (and yes, I know it’s comic canon, but it was so out of left field in the MCU that there was no way this wasn’t a factor in). Wanda is a wealth of possibility for a storyteller - think about the grief this character has endured (consider my consider, Wanda Maximoff diatribe from yesterday) and how she’s learned to use her power. Think about the evolution of going from a volunteer for a program to literally become a mutant to fight the Avengers and then becoming one and losing your fucking twin brother, the only constant in your life. Think about having to kill the only person you could try to put a life together with. Think about all of that and tell me she hasn’t been wasted in the background.

(Also - how in the fuck is Steve gonna tell his black best friend Sam that he preferred the fifties? Really? )

This brings me to what I think is easily the most egregious of all the fuck-ups in this movie - Clint and Natasha. This is where we can draw a direct line back to the problem in AoU, when Joss “Feminist Icon” Whedon decided that dropping a house, wife and 2.5 cardboard-ass kids we got zero development time on was a better answer than, oh, actually developing Clint as a character. Partially this was to promote Brucetasha, which as we all know went so fucking well through the rest of the movies, but subverting what he felt was the “obvious” ship for Nat (the irony of this being he said something along the lines of “well, Bruce and Nat made so much more sense to me” and pulled some lame ass Beauty and The Beast allegory out during an Entertainment Weekly interview about AoU and it’s ended up becoming one of the most hated creative decisions in the MCU as of yet.

Listen, if you want Clint and Natasha’s deep and intimate and formative relationship to be platonic-only, I’m cool with that. I ship ‘em but I also love male-female friendships that mean the entire world to the involved characters and are not romantic. But we were given a decision in AoU that was eliminated so many future possibilities and put us on the path we’re on now.

If you know Clint as a character, you know that he’s a loveable fuckup. THat’s kind of his schtick. I have no idea how they plan to make that work in the supposedly-happening Hawkeye series based on Matt Fraction’s run given that now we’ve got Clint married with kids and Natasha dead, but okay. Endgame takes Clint’s grief and weaponizes it, but naturally, we only ever see him killing people of color (they mention he killed a Mexican cartel, we see him going after Yakuza) ((if you couple this with the shaved haircut and the shitty Japanese-inspired sleeve, you start venturing dangerously close to white supremacist territory)).

Clint is dark and broken, and Natasha saves him - just like how Natasha was dark and broken, and Clint saved her. By not dying. So. I mean.

As I’ve said in another ask, here’s the thing: I would have been okay with Natasha making the sacrifice play if there had been no Bartons to bring back. I still would have been furious if they hadn’t loophole’d her ass back - What happens when Steve returns the soul stone? Do you get back what you paid for it? - but the idea that we had to trade the original female member of the team - the closest thing to diversity they had being a white woman is terrible but here we are - for one of the shittiest, most sloppily written things that Joss Whedon plunked down on a page? My blood boils.

It’s been like 4 days and I am still just beside myself angry about Natasha Romanoff. Furious. I love her and Clint and I don’t undersell the strength of their relationship but at the end of the day, she died so a man could go back to his family, because nuclear families are more important and Natasha has no one. I guess. I don’t know. I’m so fucking mad.

That pandering-ass “we’re doin’ us a feminism” scene of all the women fighting together, even though it made zero logistical battlefield sense and most of them didn’t even know each other, felt even more gross and cheesy and self-congratulatory considering what had just been done to one of the most important women in the series. But hey. We got a shot of a lot of women fighting. Hashtag feminism.

Thor’s ending was okay. Thor’s arc was pretty good. The fat jokes were shit but I loved the idea of Thor still being worthy even when he’s not who he used to be. I nearly came when Cap caught Mjolnir. Conceding New Asgard to Valkyrie was super smart, and I like that he’s going to go figure himself out with the Guardians.

Speaking of, Gamora’s whole story has made me feel gross. As the daughter of an abusive stepfather who also loved me a lot when he wasn’t being a monster, it def made me squirm. But the reality is I don’t give enough of a shit about any of the Guardians to care about what happens to them other than Thor, so. Chris Pratt can eat my entire ass.

The things it got right - pacing an insane amount of action in a way that never stalled, executing a beautifully woven and inlaid sacrifice arc for Tony, Paul Rudd in general - are so much smaller than the things that were just… gapingly terrible.

Did Bruce even get an ending? Did anyone remember what the hell he said he was gonna do? He got lost somewhere in the shuffle and I legit have no idea what his ending was.

Ugh. I need some ibuprofen and a nap. I’m gonna go back to writing my Natasha sex-shop au in which SHE WILL NEVER EVER EVER DIE FOR CLINT’S STORY DEVELOPMENT and wish I still drank.