#sorry lennie

[mikelogan]

LAW & ORDER SEASON 2

Mike Logan: Smirky Edition (Part 1)

[abovesn4kes]

Totally forgot to post the rest of these designs here! More to follow soon :-)

Doodles below!

[blanche-elizabeth-devereaux]

[comfortstars]

I LOVE MY TRANS STREAMERS RAAAHH🏳️‍⚧️🦅‼️‼️‼️

[matthewrhys]

You paid attention. To you? Always.

[eldhuug]

Undescribable joy and pride in the Matthews-Van Der Linde household this morning

[arthursfuckinghat]

The worst part about playing rdr2 again is knowing who's going to die, how they're going to die, when they're going to die, and not be able to do a single thing about it

[necrobratz]

guys i have more charthur baby but now shes got AUNTIE SADIE AND UNCLE LENNY!!!!! also shez based off @manzanitapost ‘s fic series as always🤞

[toppamplemousse]

it's been quiet at work so.... have some charles doodles!

and extra chummy under the cut <3

[omgwhatchloe]

but what if i ask really nicely for more into on brain injury sean au

then i suppose…IF YOU INSIST…i might be compelled…

-first things first in this au sean has to change where EXACTLY he was walking on the ground on rhodes to alter where the bullet goes. one tiny half-step to the right when he turns, along with the shooter aiming just that tiny bit higher, and he gets shot through the skull, but survives.

now im not going to go into a lot of detail about where the bullet is in the brain and why he is reacting like this etc etc because even after research i dont know the ins and outs of it, so we’ll focus a lot more on his behaviour.

-so after the position of the shot is altered, they all expect him to be dead. miraculously, he is still alive on the floor of rhodes, but heavily unconscious. he is unconscious for two and a half weeks after they try their best to heal him. poor leopold strauss was NOT about to do any brain surgery and the bullet had to be left there. when he actually woke up, everyone was relieved and crowding him. however, he didnt say a word, he barely looked at them. he just laid where he was, staring, until they started to help him up and try to speak to him. within a few days, he had healed to his limit, meaning he could walk and start to move very uncoordinated.

-sean mumbles a lot unintelligibly to no one in particular. he doesnt speak intelligibly or respond when he’s spoken too, he doesnt even know someone is speaking to him. he opens his mouth when they try to feed him but wont make a single effort to feed himself as if he doesnt know how too. sometimes he can refuse to chew if he doesnt like the texture or taste, which is very often. he chews and swallows to fast, and it causes worry he will choke himself. he can technically walk but will not unless someone is actively moving him from one spot to another, so he has no urges to take care of himself and would spend all his time staring and mumbling if alone. he does sometimes reach his arms up to push at the people around him (not hard at all) but this pretty much means nothing, it doesnt mean he wants them to leave or is showing any sort of affection. when he gets angry suddenly, which can be often, he yells and hits (not very well) the people around him trying to calm him down. he can be calmed by having his face stroked, interestingly he doesnt care who does it. he cries too, when his mouth is being burnt by the food or he is just uncomfortable, like after an accident in which no one has tried to help him. when he cries, it can either be just completely silent tears like he doesnt know hes crying, or it can be accompanied by wailing.

-he also clenches his fists, pushes things in front of him around, pulls his own or others hair, kicks the dirt under him and chews when theres nothing in his mouth absentmindedly.

-of course, the gang are not caregivers. theyre murderers, outlaws or just very uneducated people. they try their best to take care of him for the first week after he wakes up, but sean has multiple accidents because no one tries to help him with ‘using the bathroom’ (well not really using a bathroom because theyre in the woods but yk what i mean). they have things they need to do and a lot of their plates are full even without sean, no one particularly WANTS to care for him, as awful as it may seem. they become easily frustrated at the complete lack of cooperation from him, even if it isnt his fault. they also become angry at each other around the whole situation.

-when sean gets upset or ignored in someone elses care, they rush to blame and berate each other about it. but the big elephant in the room is they do not want to be his caregiver, no one does. karen tried her best, but got quickly frustrated and angry at him, causing him to cry when yelled at (this was because it was a loud noise close to him, absolutely nothing to do with what she was saying). lenny got angry at her, and took over, only for find himself incredibly tired and frustrated within a few hours. despite being his partners/ex-partners, they feel helpless with him. they dont know why hes upset or what he wants most of the time, which means they cant help him. after a few days of lenny trying to help sean, prevent accidents, watch over him, cleaning him up, he actually walked out of camp. he spent a few days alone in the quiet because he genuinely couldn’t stand the camp or caring for sean anymore.

-he loved sean so much, but he couldnt stand the mumbling and the whining and the constant taps and hits. it was overwhelming, and he realised he couldnt do it. he couldn’t be his caregiver, he knew karen couldnt, he knew the women of the camp couldnt because they simply didnt know how too and got frustrated too. the men of the camp would never…so who? thats when he started to realise, along with everyone else, sean could not stay with them like this.

-so where would he go? that was the conversation, with many different arguments. only a few argued they could keep sean, but they were easily persuaded to change their minds. there was unfair suggestions, like dumping him on the side of the road. that was from micah, and he had the support of john, uncle and bill. eventually they decided he needed to be taken to an asylum or left at a state hospital, as sending him somewhere he’d be actually looked after was expensive and not guaranteed. micah had also suggested putting him down but was thankfully denied.

-lenny debating leaving with sean, becoming his caregiver, and he was really going to do it, until he actually cared for sean again for the next day and could barely leave him for a second. when he finally napped, lenny realised he himself had barely eaten, he hadnt touched his books, done his hair, or had any time for himself since he’d disappeared. god he wanted to care for sean but he just couldnt. the vision of their cottage he made up, where he cared for sean happily…while actually being happy…was unrealistic he realised. he’d always be angry and bored, and couldnt trust himself not to run away. he loved sean, he really did, he still wanted to cup his face and hold him close, but he couldn’t. a vital part of their previous relationship was dead with seans condition, and the rest was dying. sean didnt even recognise lenny, or any of them. he knew that for a fact because micah had bothered sean to get under his skin, sitting near him and trying to get his attention, and sean didnt react.

-the day before arthur was going to take him to a state hospital, their attitudes towards him changed. they had less frustration, more motivation, because they knew it was the last time theyd see and care for him. it made them feel a little uneasy when they thought of where he’d end up, with lenny feeling the worst about it. he still debated taking him and leaving the gang, but he knew he couldnt. he knew it would be the end of his life, his freedom, if he tried to care for him alone. but god the whole thing was killing him.

-they fed sean peaches, which he actually almost seemed to enjoy. he didnt spit anything out, though still lightly hit whoever was feeding him. he had no accidents that day, and napped mostly. he sat with the girls while they tidied him up, and spoke to him (with no response back). lenny read to him, even if he showed absolutely no interest and stared away from him. that night, they had a goodbye party and all actually paid attention to him, yes, dealing with him was easy that day, but that was because he was their main focus when normally he is not.

-ok lets end on a fluffy note where he sits with arthur and ‘watches’ his sketch. he enjoys the sound of the pencil against the pages, and seems to be almost smiling. they think he likes the sound of javier’s guitar, as he plays him a song. bill tries to give him whisky but is told no, but they do laugh when he tries too. lenny puts his arm around him and shifts his position so sean is cuddling into him. he falls asleep like that.

-he wakes the next day being kissed goodbye on the forehead by the girls as hes placed into the wagon. lenny sits in the back with him, holding him close. karen could barely bring herself to say goodbye. hosea and arthur drive, with hosea telling stories about sean when he first joined, especially his favourite, where sean got caught cheating at cards and stormed off to his bedroll. they had to lure him out and convince him to play again, and they promised to actually teach him how to play (as arthur had lied multiple times to him about the rules so he could win, poor sean didnt even know he was cheating.)

-they then arrive at the hospital, in ‘desperate need of aid as their friend has a bullet trapped in his head’.

[sillystringsimpsons]

random doodles

[bourbonificould]

A night with the Deputy Callahan and the gang 🥳

+ Dutch

[purgatorygrl]

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[carduelism]

Been playing horsies :)

[piastrinorris]

RJ'S SPOTIFY WRAPPED GIF MEME 2023 → 51 + leonard bast: consequences by lovejoy

[theresawritesstuff]

"Any ideas for our next date?" "Oh, so many, we have to do this a lot more often."

Lenny smirked, glancing out the window at the ongoing blizzard as they prepared to leave the restaurant.

“Maybe we should skip the police raid next time though.”

“You mean running through the frigid snow without a coat wasn't your idea of an exciting evening?” Midge teased.

He shrugged. “I'm just glad I didn't fall on my ass in the process.”

“And you weren't even in heels.”

She eyed him thoughtfully as he smiled and reached for his wallet to leave a tip for their server. 

Where would she be now without his impeccable timing? 

She'd been feeling so vulnerable, so raw after the last few days. Longer if she was really being honest. Everything she had come to depend on felt like it was crumbling away. And then to top it all off the safe haven she'd carved out for herself got raided. She should have been terrified. 

She had been terrified. For a moment.

And then he took her hand and all of that fear melted away.

Despite the fact that they were running from the police, despite the wind and snow blowing right through her, she felt safe. 

Of all the people in her life, somehow Lenny Bruce had become the one she could most depend on when she needed someone by her side.

Someone who understood.

Because he paid attention. Always…

“Thank you for the rescue by the way,” she murmured.

He gave her a wolfish smirk. “Any time.”

Tempting offer…

Turning towards the door, he commented, “Cabs are still looking pretty spotty out there. Sure you don't want to seek shelter a little while longer?”

She bit her lip, ducking her head to hide a smile.

“As wonderful as this night has been, I really should try to get back,” she replied reluctantly. 

Her family was still shellshocked from Moishe’s heart attack and the only one she knew she could count on to remember to feed the kids was Zelda. As much as she needed the escape, she couldn't be away too long.

He nodded, understanding. “Alright. We'll see if we can call you a ride from the lobby.”

“Maybe next time,” she offered.

“Next time,” he repeated softly.

“Yes.”

He considered her words a moment, shedding his jacket as he looked at her with those dark, warm eyes.

“How about this?” he propositioned. “Tomorrow night. Carnegie.”

“I have heard of it.”

“Come to my show. Could be fun.”

She smiled, quirking a brow. “Are there any tickets left?”

“I know a guy.” He draped his jacket over her shoulders, enveloping her. “Besides, I might need someone to rescue me if the boys in blue decide to crash things again.”

“They'll probably know to look for you at the hotel,” she countered coyly.

“Then I suppose I will have to behave myself for a little while.”

She met his gaze, shifting a little further into his jacket, enjoying the comfort. 

“Alright. But I'm not carrying you.”

Lenny barked a laugh.

“Fair enough,” he conceded.

“It's a date.”

“Guess so.”

He offered her his arm, leading her out back into the night.

She shivered as a blast of wind greeted them, huddling closer.

“Do you think the hotel bar has hot chocolate?”

He smiled down at her, wrapping a protective arm around her shoulder.

“We can find out.”