#sorry kinda busy with acads

[in-kaeya-we-thrust]

I wasn't expecting a flashback about Iruma and Opera's relationship throughout the series but here we are 🥹

Extra: Cutesy Opera-san moments

[xx-justsomeguy-xx]

HELLO IAH sorry if this is weird but u were in my dream last nite!

On it we were uni classmates that didn't really talk but got put together for a wood etching assignment (?) & so after that class we walked to my place so we could work on it there.

You surprised me bc you seemed intimidating in class but actually talked a lot and were rly chill and funny... It was autumn & as we walked down the streets the sun was starting to fall a little bit and our surroundings started to get progressively more unsettling in a nightvale-esque way? I.e the lights from inside the houses were really creepy for some reason, we watched smth black ooze from under a door, so on and so forth. Then you got a call from your mom? aunt? and had to leave quick so we never even got to do our assignment and i was alone in the nightvale version of my neighborhood shdjdn ✌💀

Also! In the dream u looked like a perfect balance between ur icon and dola?? (Your hair was longer like hers? U were crazy pretty and i was literally >3< awestruck, whoever faceclaimed(?) u in my dreams...hmu... You had a really cool leather backpack wit a white bear charm? as well and i now want one :(

sorry this is v outta nowhere and so long winded but i had to let u know & also wrote it v fast this mornin so as to not forget it 😔🖤

sobs now i can never show my actual face… how can i live up to the dream version of me ;w; wtf a balance between my icon and dola… what a dream indeed ahdjshs

sorry it took a bit to get to this but i had to deal with some horrors and needed to keep my mood as stable as possible which… somehow seems to only happen when i’m playing sdv?? anyway anyway my gosh!! what an honor to be in your dream, even tho i apparently had to run off to do something and leave you alone to suffer with acads >.< the acads seem fun though… i’d love to do some actual wood etching and i always did fairly well whenever the class was a more hands-on one

it seems a little accurate to my current situation tbh? i feel like i’ve been busy and having to deal with a bunch of calls and communications between family (somewhat against my will too >.>)

so happy btw that it seems like the me in your dream was chill and funny ;w; i’m kinda thinking about how things wouldve gone if we met in uni somehow, like if we went the same one… it seems pretty accurate to how stuff usually went for me in uni tbh, save for the way the world around us slowly turned into nightvale >.<

(semi-prophetic dreams in terms of symbolism perhaps? <-are u into this kinda thing >.<)

i hope you’ve been doing well!! ;w; sorry if this whole reply seems like a mess ajdjshs i kinda feel like one

[tohokuu]

i'm now emotionally and physically OK to read fics again (too busy with exams and documents) so am i going to reply to my previous asks again? yes. so warning: kinda long

i forgot what the pics were and where they're from (reposts from ig) so uh yeah sorry 😔

also the ru okay from the other post AHAAAA i forgot the desc for that too

also hows your vacay in pakistan???

that anon 14 yo is literally me in the past but actually didn't interact w the community in general 😭 but like damn they're also dragging their racist ass persona to the mix so that's embarrassing

when i was 14 i was REALLY being quiet since i really didn't like sharing w people that i have a history on reading anything to do w smut

also kinda sad that i really had to go through that very horny phase

anywayssss guess whos already almost going to a nice campus with weeks away from a new acad year after 2 months and sold her soul 🙈

god i miss fanfics i'll probably read one tomorrow

playlist!

put my hands on you - dean, anderson .paak

future love - katie

toroka - christian kuria

y - fanxy child

a sign ~ anonymous - billlie

vibin out - (((O))), FKJ

- ☀️

i do not remember anything regarding your first two bullet points so i’ll move on to the next ones ! sorry :(

my vacay is okay i guess ! i love my cousins and it’s a great break from the US and stuff but i’m also excited to get back to my regular life 😭

and yeah- the anon is just the stupidest person ! i give up on them tho. they’ve got a pea sized brain (maybe smaller)

you sold your soul- what-

and which one do you plan on reading ? :D

and i’ll check your recs out in a minute !!

[iskastudiies]

seeing that it’s almost the new year, i kinda felt like doing this. here are some things that i am thankful for this year.

1. getting into my dream university i still cannot fully digest the fact that i am now studying in my dream uni. remembering all of those sleepless night, mental breakdowns, and countless doubts i had when i was preparing for my CETS makes me even more thankful for where i am now. now that i’m here tho, i can attest that getting in is a lot easier than surviving and getting out ahhdjahaah (but that’s another conversation).

2. senior high school

ok so basically, i used to study in a science high school during junior high. academically, i was doing well. however, it came at the cost of everything else. i just wasn’t happy, and i wasn’t growing in that environment. so, i decided to switch schools for my last two years, and switch tracks from STEM to ABM (business). and wow, it was one of the best decisions i’ve made. i made so many good memories and good friends. i was truly enjoying and growing. there was still pressure and stress, but it wasn’t the kind that suffocated me. i was happy, and i will always be grateful for those two years there. big bonus is that i graduated with the highest honors despite my tardiness many absences (dont judge me ok hahdjsha i became lazy at the end of the yr)

3. college friends guys :—-( i have friends!! in college!! idk for someone who struggles with socializing, it’s a big achievement for me. before entering college, i thought i would be spending the year alone and sad. and tbh i’ve got a lot more to work on. there are still times when i feel like retreating back to my shell. however, i’m thankful for the people i’ve met and the people i will be meeting in the future (yes im claiming it!! here’s to a better social life, 2020!!)

4. academics despite my acads life in high school, i knew college would be different! i entered it with 0% confidence. i was already intimidated by the subjects that i thought would be impossible to conquer and the many people that i could not measure up to. so, i didn’t really exert that much effort from the start because i thought whatever i did wouldn’t make a difference. i didn’t want to try, only to be disappointed in the end. yes kids, this is a very toxic way of thinking, but i just wanna be honest and say that i struggled so much with this — aaaa the perfectionist in me :——( but somehow, i pulled through! it took a long time istg, maybe it was halfway through the sem when i woke up and realized i’ve got to move and try harder!! i’ve got to condition my mindset!! it was hard tryna catch up, but ya gurl is running for dean’s list, my gpa made it!!!! (im sorry im not bragging ok im just so proud of myself)

5. discovered more about myself for those who don’t know, i live in a dorm with my best friend. it’s my first time living away from my family, and let me tell you ok, it’s hard! however, it made me discover myself more since i had no one to rely on but myself. meeting a diverse group of people in college also made me think more about my identity and such. with the challenges thrown at me, i got to know myself more and i got to explore my potential more. acceptance played a big part of that. i’ve grown to accept myself as an introvert, a perfectionist, and most importantly — a work in progress.

6. studyblr ok so i have been wanting to make an account for the longest time! i just hesitated because i was shy and conscious hajdksjaja. but can i just say that it really helped a lot!!! it gave me inspiration on the days i really needed it. seeing all these posts pushed me to be more productive and to be a better me! more than the pretty notes and cute stationery, i began to realize the value of studyblr more. when i’m super unmotivated or dead tired, i just look back at my previous posts and it makes me feel better. i hope i become better at tumblr next yr tho bc im such a bad studyblr ajmdkaj,,, ya gurl doesn’t know how to tumblr lmao.

with that, i just wanna wish everyone a happy new year! thank you for being part of my 2019 :—( here’s to more growth and better health for 2020 ♡

[dovechim]

dearest addie!! i'm sorry it took me so long to return to your inbox ... uni life has been busy, though i'm sure you know! aaa i really do adore you, if i (and other) anons can make you feel better on days then i'm really thankful! i'm sure we think of you time to time during whatever we're doing and send good thoughts. isn't it sad we can't feel those good thoughts? anyways! i didn't go for hall camp nor fac camp, but i did go for psych camp and i don't regret. :) thank you for the tip, — 🍙

Anonymous said: i'll try that! how did you know, though? did you take intro to psy, too? :o japanese is actually going well!! you know what's fucking me up?? ACAD COMMS ... AND ECONOMICS (my ger-pe)!!! fml HAHAHA sigh. i saw you released some writing today, i'm going to read it after i study as a little present, i'll be sure to message you when i have. thank you as always for gifting us with your writing. :D how are you, dearest addie? — 🍙

yessss i took intro to psych and kinda regretted it so much! i loved the content but hated the exam. i ended up SUing it. im not sure who the lecturer is now but when i took it he was so awful. but anyway im really comforted by the fact that you send me good thoughts every now and then. even if i can't feel them, i’ll PSYCHO myself into feeling them hahahah 

oh dude econs is so hard!! its actually the whole of JC econs (2years syllabus) crammed into 13 weeks. even i, a person who took JC econs, was terrified when i saw the course outline. is it going good? D: 

u are so sweet :-( i saw u sent more asks so i’ll respond to those hehe

[staysuki]

helloooo.... 🥺 sorry I didn't wrote you earlier, uni is taking up so much of my time again, and I have to deal with some upcoming tests and stuff, so I wasn't able to come here much 😭 I've read slc but because I'm kinda busy I wasn't able to sit down and think about some theory, my brain is fried and I can't seem to thing logically and connect the dots and I feel kinda dumb atm 🤥 so I was just lurking in the shadows here because I don't have anything valuable to say 😅 but as always thank you for your hard work 💕 also how is your weekend going? -🦄

no it’s okay!!! i hope ur doing well <3 work and acads are always top priority 😤 go do well in school uni anon. don’t strain yourself in having to theorize all the time 🙈 the chapters are definitely slow going and there really isn’t much content in SLC for now (which i hope to change soon). don’t worry about taking breaks, i’ll still be here once you guys get back and with more content than ever 🎉🎀.

my weekend went great, thank u for asking. it’s the first weekend in a while that i didn’t have much tasks that i needed to do so i was able to focus on writing plus catch up with some friends ♥️. what about you? hope you’re taking care of yourself well~

[flavostella02]

Hello tumblr frens! How are you?

Sorry if I went MIA for the past few days. I kinda got busy with acads and at the same time, my mental breakdown eps are got kinda worse.

Mahirap ang sitwasyon ko. Lisod kaayo, mura ko'g mabuang.

But yeah, don't worry guys! I'll be okay. I'll support y'all in every post y'all gonna create. You guys make me happy. Mahal ko kayo! 我爱你!

[behindthewayfarer]

Short Ramblings: Acad Before Accads

I honestly don’t know how to start the story of today, particularly this afternoon, but I’m writing this anyway because I want to remember that I was running around the campus during a heavy downpour with soaked shoes and the risk of fever come morning with my ever supportive friend.

I’m just gonna say it, it’s almost a year since I’ve met this person but I still am not over it. I’m such a loser and I’m embarrassed for myself but it is the truth. It’s funny how something so fleeting could mess me up for months.

There I was, minding my own business in the library when I received the text that started what I would call one of the craziest, most memorable afternoons in my life— chasing that so called TOTGA, damn you Katy Perry!

But it IS over, MY fault, I’m sorry. I’m sorry to you. And I’m sorry to myself. No matter how much I wish the universe would bring us together, it just won’t listen. It heard me for sure, because why would it let me see you again (well logistically it’s a small town, and we kinda followed you... whatever).

I wish I could turn back time, but I can’t. I wish I did what I wanted to do but didn’t. There’s a lot of ‘I wishes’... but this was a perfect day, a perfect day to finally realize that my delusions of you and me, together, again, are no longer.