#sorry im just still pissed off

[dragoninahumancostume]

So you might know that I went to the kinesiologist the other day (I don't remember if I said it but I think I did).

He told me to do an exercise that required a wall to strengthen my ankles. I told him that I didn't have walls because one had my bed and window, the other had my desk and some more furniture, the other had my bed and my library shelf which is like a meter and a half at least and my mirror, and the last one had the door and the wardrobe which isn't a furniture, it's basically a "hole" in the wall. He asked me if I had a smaller furniture to hold on for the exercise instead of a wall. I told him that I had one but I couldn't use it because it had things. He asked me if I could use my desk. I told him that it was right in front of my bed and i didn't fit.

You know what my grandma did? She made me shut up. She told him to ignore me because i was looking for excuses to not do exercise. She ignored me. Unsurprising, yet infuriating. She's done this before, I don't know why I thought she'd actually let me talk freely.

I WANT to exercise, I WANT to do sports. I can't, i hate sports and I have not enough energy to exist half the time and much less exercise. I have work to do before I can actually do it, I haven't been able to form any habits at all and I'm working on it. That's the only reasons I don't work out at all lately.

She thought I was trying to excuse myself from exercise. She thought I was joking. She thought I was trying to be annoying. She thought I was just trying to be funny.

All I wanted was a different version of that exercise that I can do comfortably. All I wanted was to work out happily.

And the worst of all, I CAN'T do things when I'm told to do it. I do them when I feel like I should. She keeps telling me to do it as if it's gonna help at all, but it won't, it's just gonna make me hate it much more than I already do. It's just gonna make me uspet. I'm not even gonna try to do it because it doesn't feel like I do it for me, it doesn't feel like I choose to do it for myself; it feels like I'm being forced into it, it feels like I'm doing it to please someone else, it feels like I'm the worst person ever for not trying as hard as I'm supposed to be trying.

I WANT to exercise. I love exercise, I love working out, and I'd love to play sports if I could see without glasses and I'd love to play sports if I didn't feel uncomfortable about being seen. On top of that, I can't get the energy to exercise if I'm told to do it constantly, I get the energy and motivation when I get the energy and motivation, and being scolded for not doing it doesn't make anything better.

"Listening to your elders" is absolute bullshit when the elders don't even bother to listen to you, and if they do listen, they don't pay attention or they immediately try to argue and prove you wrong.

Adults are not to be trusted, old people are not to be trusted, no one who has any power over me is to be trusted. They're not here for me and for who I am, they're here because they really have no other option. No matter how much they care, it's not that they care about what I want for me, they care about what they think I need and what they think it's best for me.

[inkskinned]

the thing about some men is that they want you to remember, at all times, that you are underneath them. that with one word or look or "joke", you will stay beneath them. that even "exceptions" to the rule are not true exceptions - the commonly cited statistic that one in eight men believe they could win against serena williams.

women's gymnastics is often not seen as real gymnastics. whatever the fuck non-euclidian horrors rhythmic gymnasts are capable of, it's often tamped down as being not a sport. some of the most dominant athletes in the world are women. nobody watches women's soccer. despite years of dancing and being built like a fucking brick, men always assume they're faster and stronger than i am. you wouldn't like what happens when they are incorrect. once while drunk at a guy's house i won a held-plank challenge by a solid minute. the party was over after that - he became exceedingly violent.

what i mean is that you can be perfect, and they still think you're ... lacking, somehow. i hope you understand i'm trying to express a neutral statement when i say: taylor swift was the possibly the most patriarchy-palatable, straight-down-the-line woman we could churn out. she is white, conventionally attractive, usually pretty mild in personality. say what you will about her (and you should, she's a billionaire, she can handle it), but a few things seem to be true about her: 1. she can write a damn catchy song, and 2. the eras tour truly was a massive commercial success and was also genuinely an impressive feat of human athleticism and performance.

i don't know if she deserves the title of "woman of the year," i'm not debating that in this post. what i am saying is that she was named Woman of The Year, and then an untalented man got onstage at the golden globes and made fun of her for attending her boyfriend's football games. what i am saying is that this woman altered local economies - and her dating life is still being made into a "harmless" punchline. the camera panned, greedy, over to her downing a full glass of champagne. congratulations taylor! you are woman of the year! but you are a woman. even her.

fuck, man. write better material.

a guy gets onstage at a college graduation and despite the fact like half the crowd is made up of women, he spends a significant proportion of it warning these people - who spent possibly hundreds of thousands of dollars on their education - that they were lied to. that the "real" meaning of femininity is motherhood. that they shouldn't rest on the laurels of that education-they-paid-for but instead throw it away to kneel at a man's heel. imagine that. sweating in your godawful polyester gown (that you also had to pay for!), fresh out of 4 years of pushing yourself ever-harder: and some guy you've never met - who knows nothing about you - he reminds you this "win" is a pyrrhic one at best. you really shouldn't consider yourself that extraordinary. you're still a woman, even after years of study.

god forbid you are not a pretty woman, but if you are pretty, you must be dumb. god forbid you are not ablebodied or white or cis or straight or good at swallowing. you must be beneath a man, or else they are not a man. the equation for masculinity seems to just be: that which is not a woman or womanly (god forbid). anything "feminine" is thereby anathema. to engage in "feminine" things such as therapy, getting a hug from a friend, or crying - it is giving up ones manhood. therefore women need to be put in their place to ensure that masculinity is protected.

this is something i have struggled to explain to terfs - they are not doing the work of feminism, but rather the patriarchy. by asserting that women and men must be (on some secret level) oppositional and in conflict, they also assume that being a woman is akin to being another species. but bigotry does not stem from observational truths or clarity - that is what makes it bigotry. there was nothing in my childhood that made me fundamentally different from my brother. we are treated differently nonetheless. to assert there is some biological drive that enforces my gender role is to assert that women have a gendered role. men do not see women as equal to them not because of biological reality - but instead because the core tenant of the patriarchy is that women aren't full, realized people.

we are told from a very young age to excuse misbehavior as a single man's choice - not all men. it is not all men, just that one guy. all women are gold-digging bitches who belong in the kitchen - but if a man is mean, bigoted, or violent to you, it's just that particular guy, and that means nothing about men-as-a-whole. it is only one guy who got mad when you gently rejected him. it is only one guy who warns her this trophy is heavy, are you sure you can hold it? it is only one guy who smashes her face into the cake. it is only one guy talking into a mic about hating our bodily autonomy.

i have just found that they often wait until the moment we actually seem to be upstaging them. you sit in a meeting where you're presenting your own findings and he says get me a coffee? or you run to the end of the marathon and are about to finish first and he pushes your kids out in front of you. you win the chess game and they make some comment akin to well, you're ugly away. we can be the billionaire and get the dream life and finally fucking do it and yet! still! they have this strange, visceral urge to say well actually, if you think you're so great -

it's not one just one guy. it's one in eight.

[altruistic-meme]

Okay. Genuinely seriously here is your reminder that there are people in the south. There are a lot of queer people down here, there is a very large POC population down here, there are disabled people, and poor people, and people who's rights are getting stolen during this election just as much as yours are. We're fucking devastated. We're terrified. Possibly even more than the "good pure blue states" because our governments already hate us too. We didn't vote for Trump, we do not control every other person in our states, and honest to FUCK if I see people posting things like "let's just leave the southern states and save the blue states" or whatever just because of this, I will block you on sight. My sister was so upset she was scared to drive to get me from the airport. My DAD is so upset that he texted me to let me know that he and my mom were still there for me. I'm so upset I haven't even fully processed anything at all. It feels like a fucking fever dream.

We're going to be so much more vulnerable than you, with our governments, the number of people in our communities who would choose to do this to us, the people we all know irl who would see us dead.

[biblically-accurate-dca]

moon n ballora

[moldy-flowers]

The interesting experience of being pro Sasuke, anti konoha, pro tobirama, anti Naruto ending, pro Sasusaku, anti Itachi, pro Sakura, anti SasuNaru, pro Tobirama×Izuna, anti Madara, pro karin, anti Orochimaru, pro Uchiha and anti Hashirama. And also as much as I hate the guy danzo was kind of hot when he was younger...

[celestial-letters]

obey me! as things my friends have said (pt. 7)

mammon: your jordans are fake

levi: theyre not jordans theyre skechers

[absolutelyzoned]

i fucking HATE how so much of literally EVERYTHING is centered around relationships. fuck your boyfriend fuck your girlfriend ITS NOT THAT BIG OF A FUCKING DEAL!!! ROMANCE IS ICKY GROSS. STOP. !!!!!!!

[bb-fennelposting]

tbh i can't help but to find the frostpaw dream sequence so harrowing.

frostpaw finally, finally gets to make a decision for herself regarding how she wants to move forward. eternal peace or resuming life to help her clan. and yet, for obvious reasons, the narrative is pushing her to prioritize her clan over the peace she's always wanted.

y'know, the same clan who willingly believed the little shitty lie from a guy who practically admitted to grooming her over her. the same clan who was happy to exile her because they couldn't trust her over a probable murderer. the same clan that was happy to blame a victim of grooming. the same clan who dropped their burdens onto a young cat, ridiculed her when she admitted she can't help them, and then turned their backs on her when she needed support the most.

frostpaw is supposed to prioritize these fucking assholes over herself because she's the only one and also a few cats there love her i guess. fuck giving her any agency, she has to save riverclan!!

fuck this book i hate this so much

[roxtron]

I swear to God I can't go longer than a couple of months without finding new youtubers that seem cool only to find a video where they use the r slur later.

I fucking hate every dipshit in this world that made people think that word was ever okay to use in the first place. I'm genuinely sick of this happening all the time, it's fucking 2024. At this point I highly doubt people like that are ignorant, they're just assholes.

That comment next to "normal people OR neurodivergent people" certainly isn't a good look.

[xxcherrycherixx]

That ending was kind of shit...

[bosspigeon]

i know rivalmance with a mage Hawke and Fenris is easier but i always ran friendmance bc i think it's really funny to imagine Fenris trying so hard to hate this dude bc he's a mage but also he's a big goofy puppy of a man who tries too damn hard so it's literally impossible and Fenris is just so mad about it

[thedisablednaturalist]

Yea I admit it, I am extremely jealous of rich people, especially those who were born rich. Who are able to follow their passions and not worry about money because their parents bought them a car and a penthouse apartment in LA and they can stream on twitch and get thousands of followers cause they have top of the line equipment and studio set up and the TIME that is essential to creating and keeping a community engaged. It's very rare that a person who makes enough money to support themselves on twitch started out poor. I'm not saying it doesn't happen, but being able to stay home and stream all day and afford expensive equipment (including a gaming pc or laptop that can handle streaming video, let alone streaming both video and a graphics heavy game) will always have a HUGE advantage over someone who has to work all day for a living. And don't get me started on vtubers who drop 5k+ on a model and branding kit and instantly get hundreds of thousands of followers.

I wish I could stream more and do more streams oriented towards environmental science and conservation but my pc keeps breaking and most of my spoons go towards my job. I don't even really want to be a huge streamer? I just want enough people to hang out with so I'm not lonely while playing farming games

[hauntingblue]

ARCANE EPISODE 7!!!!

MY GOD I WASNT READY FOR ANY OF THIS!!! WHAT WAS THAT!!!

Also ekko wallpaper I got with my fries lmao

[fadewalking]

Bellara lowkey pissing me off with all this feeling guilty bs

[hearts401]

i dont care how you view rhinedottir but some of you are weird when you try to justify how she treated her kids or act like its not that bad because she's a "complex" character

[blazethecheeto]

if they don't want us to see frost and mark's 'relationship' (it's in air quotes because whatever the fuck they have i refuse to call a relationship) as a joke, then they need to stop treating it like a joke in canon.

the time skips are appalling, genuinely, like how did we go from frost not giving a shit about this man to her crawling head over heels and crying over him and NO in between. there was never an in-between checkpoint for their storyline, it was all or nothing and i have no idea what's going on anymore, it's the INCONSISTENCY for me. i'm on 8x07 rn and the last time we saw mark, he made her vulnerable and believed this could be real, almost kissed her, then jumped out a fucking window.

she was mad for literally half a season.

let's just say i was a huge "frostblaine" fan. the last time i saw them was in 7x15 where they had their only serious moment in their whole story, only for it to be a lie. now, maybe i would want to see one episode where they AT LEAST reconcile and apologize?? instead of hearing about it after the fact?? nope, the next time we see them they're skydiving and singing karaoke and making out like their kiss wasn't a huge build-up for nothing. i'm so with caitlin on how quickly and weirdly their relationship progressed.

honestly, maybe i would be less hateful about this ship if they even TRIED to give them a good love story. it's clear the writers forget about mark (like they forget about frost and caitlin) until they realize, oh yeah, frost has no plot this season so we need to make her only lines per episode about her boyfriend who ditched her! it makes me mad that they reduced her character to that in s8. she can provide so much more than just the edgy 'teenager' that talks about her boyfriend all the time.

i haven't watched the rest of the season and i heard it does get better for her plot wise, but i also know she fucking dies so ofc they would do that.

there has been no serious moment in this whole 'on-again off again' bullshit. it's literally 'oh mark has abs!!!!! guys i have such a silly girly crush on him haha oh he's evil i'm gonna be pouty for half a season- oh wait he's back!!!' they've been treated as the comic relief couple. even in armageddon, caitlin wasn't even there at the fucking party but oh! right, we forgot frost! she's...oh yeah, she's having sex with mark in the bathroom bc that suits her character and the only thing we care about :333

they treat them like a joke, so how do they expect us not to see it as just that?