#sorry if this is rambly etc as i said im talkative tonight apparently

[czng]

i haven't seen much support but as an ace person i'm SO glad you can feel that, i always think about how lonely we are in a community that should be celebrating? or rather accepting others for their sexulity/gender, but we are changing that

honestly, i get what you mean. it was such a surprise to see a good amount of ppl I follow reblogging posts saying “ace ppl are lgbt+ and if you disagree unfollow me” precisely because I don’t usually feel that sentiment online.

I think a lot of it is unintentional. like, people will reblog things thinking they’re lighthearted jokes, not spotting things that we do because we can recognise and be more hyperaware of the specific ways in which people devalue aces (including, ironically, making even us recognising and worrying about those things into a meme)

I spend more time on twitter than tumblr these days and exclusionism definitely still feels rife there, sadly.. I have 1000+ people blocked, without the help of a blocklist lmao. and i still feel it, so I get you.

i would say, for anyone who feels this way too:

don’t be shy with the block button!! for random users, i used to try give ppl the benefit of the doubt if they made an iffy tweet/post, give second or third chances. nope! no more. don’t even give them the chance to ruin your mood again. they’ll survive, often not even notice or realise, and your space just got that little bit safer.

unfortunately there are people who don’t bother to read or will just straight up ignore about/byf pages, but it’s always worth clearly stating u don’t want exclusionists to interact with/follow u. many ppl will look and listen, as it works for them too.

with friends, don’t be afraid to approach or talk to them about it. as i say above, some of it is just other ppl genuinely just don’t spot the aphobe/ace exclusionist dog-whistles we do.

when an online friend does say or reblog/retweet something exclusionary, i usually approach (privately in dms, ppl can get defensive if they feel confronted publicly) with something along the lines of “hey, this post you made/retweeted made me uncomfortable. i can explain more if you wanna hear it, but if you actually feel that way about aces i’m not comfortable being mutuals, so i hope we can just break the mutual on good terms”. this has a few possible outcomes: they maintain their point and break the mutual but do so at least respectfully and without a fuss, OR, you might just get them to hear you out! the latter has happened more with me than the former. ofc there is a chance they’ll be rude, but given you’re being calm/polite, they’d only be showing themselves to be the ass - and you don’t need “friends” like that anyway.

when ur tired and hurt and fed up of seeing exclusionism, talk to ur trusted friends about it! it really does make you feel so alienated from the community and lonely, so talking to my other ace & otherwise lgbt friends about it and having their support and love is the best thing and helps more than anything else, for me.

i know im not the most active ever, but im here if you ever wanna shoot me an ask or message to talk. you specifically, anon, or anyone else here. i promise you the support is there, it’s just sometimes the loud hate can drown it out, especially when ur already tired and hurting. but we’ll get there!!

[shijiujun]

IM ABSOLUTELY ACCEPTING YOUR DONGFENG HEADCANONS AS CANON. DO YOU HAVE ANY MORE?!?!? X

HAHAHA YAY!! HMM NOT MANY BUT I SUPPOSE, not in any order and i’m sorry i’m just rambling:

okay i think bai gungun alternates between being really reserved and obedient but under that he’s DEFINITELY gotten the genes for wreaking havoc from his mom, and whenever he gets into trouble probably feng jiu gets a little embarrassed like hehe oops sorry and was i this naughty when i was younger? and donghua is probably all, hmm, let him do whatever he wants, it’s good that he’s so lively

everyone likes to head to tai chen gong (donghua’s palace) during meal times to see if they can sneak a meal or two in, or steal some pastries away - donghua finds a new hobby stealing away pastries from these thieves when they’re not looking

every single elder in jiu chong tian is familiar with babysitting bai gungun because whenever there’s a festival or something in the mortal world or anywhere, it’s date night for donghua and feng jiu!! feng jiu of course would like to bring bai gungun along but donghua is like he’ll be fine with a li or si ming or cheng yu, let’s go, we haven’t been on a date in ages (they just were on a date two days ago)

i’d like to think that everyone adores bai gungun? he’s like a splitting image of donghua and so much cuter too

and when fan yin gu opens every half a year, sometimes donghua brings feng jiu and bai gungun with him - it doesn’t hurt for bai gungun to learn some new ice combat skills early and donghua and feng jiu sometimes think about shen ye and alanruo and how lucky the both of them are to have their happy ending when the other two did not

feng jiu is also naughty in nature and loves getting into fights so she definitely gets into some trouble herself, and whenever the other gods or anyone goes to tianjun and donghua to complain, tianjun has to sneak a look at donghua because EVEN tianjun doesn’t dare to cross that line when it comes to the dijun and donghua is all, oh no worries, i’ll punish her when she gets home, and who else dares to say anything to that?! but when he does get home AHEM i think they’re thinking about different kinds of punishment hmm

donghua spends a lot of time at the pagoda area and sometimes feng jiu is there in her fox form and gosh can donghua love feng jiu any more? 

and i think donghua and feng jiu enjoy practicing their fighting skills together too and donghua still teaches feng jiu altho sometimes you can’t tell if it’s practice or like flirting but hey, whatever floats their boat 

BUT GET THIS WHEN THERE ACTUALLY IS A FIGHT, donghua and feng jiu jump into it without much thought and the way they work around each other is ABSOLUTELY PERFECT like everyone probably is whoa is that the usual dihou who makes pastries for everyone and sometimes sets things on fire in the palace? and donghua is like she’s my wifey what did you expect and everyone is like DIJUN PLS FOR THE LOVE OF GOD STOP TALKING WE KNOW YOU LOVE HER AND THAT SHE’S YOUR WIFE

and then if somehow donghua gets really, really jealous or angry at feng jiu for some reason (unlikely, he did say that because he loves her so much and also because he owes her so much that he’ll never really be angry at her but just in case) he sulks and goes out somewhere to walk in the rain and feng jiu is all ‘if you want to sleep in separate beds tonight sure i dare you to go walk in the rain again’ and donghua pauses at the door and then turns back, goes to their bed and wraps himself up in a blanket and starts to pout at feng jiu instead

and okay since concubines apparently are a thing in jiu chong tian as well, can you imagine all the women who dare to throw themselves at donghua after he marries feng jiu? they always thought he was not interested in women or anyone in general cuz he’s so old but was never involved in a scandal or an affair BUT IT TURNS OUT THAT HEY HE DOES LIKE WOMEN AFTER ALL so they try their luck - and i think some of the women are definitely chased away by bai gungun, then some of them are chased away by cheng yu if she happens upon them - if anyone gets close i’d like to think feng jiu is confident enough in donghua’s love for her that she’s like ‘oh? u think u can move him? go ahead and try. you know what i had to do? i was first a pet for him, he locked me away for some other woman at that time, and i was gravely injured by said woman’s other pet, and then i went home dejectedly with so many injuries on me, AND THEN i had to go to the mortal world, tried to save him and got injured AGAIN, then had to pretend to be the love of his life, and then because he HAD TO finish his mortal life by losing the love of his life, aka me, i had to jump off a cliff and die, and just when i was finally ready to give him up, he starts teasing me and reminded me that i was yearning for something that i never can have, BUT HE KEEPS HANGING AROUND, and i fall more in love with him, but then the same woman whose pet almost murdered me the first time emerges again and- hey? where are you going? i’m not done yet?!’

ooooh feng jiu also maybe has a side job of creating like really cool weapons as well cuz she’s so good at it

and feng jiu loves falling asleep half on donghua, whether it’s against his waist, on his arm etc., but no matter how uncomfortable donghua gets he never moves away because he loves his xiao bai like that

oooh i also wonder if like everyone in the bai fox tribe gets the shudders whenever donghua calls feng jiu xiao bai because… technically… the rest of them can all answer to the term ‘xiao bai’ and bai qian is all i cannot stand these two dumbasses let’s go

okay one last one, if feng jiu gets hurt or ill, donghua is definitely sitting at her bedside 24/7 and his heart totally breaks when she starts crying in the haze of her fever or whatever and arghhh cries

[sasspotatodoesthings]

Killing Book

Aka, the Death Note movie released this year. Now, I like Death Note (the anime of course). I watched it when I was like 12 or something and it introduced to the world of gory anime. So as you can expect, I was upset at seeing this movie, seeing the wrong things in the trailer and knowing it would be even more wrong in the movie. I was interested though, as one would be interested in watching a kid harmlessly fall so you can snicker at them. I avoided the movie even if I wanted to see the train wreck it was. But tonight, at somewhere around nine pm I decided NO MORE! I shall watch the movie and tell my friend how bad it was. We’ll be calling her Friend. I skype messaged her (i know who uses skype anymore? i do. because im lazy and dont want to change to discord) while watching it. Sadly she left early because she sleeps waaaaay earlier than I do. So at some point I’m just talking to myself. Just to let you know. Enjoy my ramblings.

WARNING: Obviously lots of death is mentioned. Also, if you liked the anime of Death Note, do NOT watched this movie. It’s horrible.

So this was taken directly from skype, with VERY little editing (just small things like personal stuff etc.) and it is rude, crude and not pleasant to look at. I tend to message a lot, in segments and that is was what made this so long. You have been warned.

Me: so I'm finally watching the death note movie Me: and I might rant at you a bit Me: first, its set in Washington in seattle Me: and lights fuckin blond frosted highlights Me: why

Friend: so Friend: 10/10

Me: its the best start a movie could ever have Me: so light is bullied and does homework for other classmates Me: who is this man? this isn't the light I know

Friend: maybe Friend: maybe Friend: just maybe Friend: someone kidnapped him

Me: god and now he likes this fark haired girl Me: dark Me: light loves no one Me: his heart is too icy to love Me: if only he was kidnapped Me: then at least he would break out and kill the person impersonating him

Friend: does he have the death note?

Me: yeah Me: its so different Me: its not the same at all Me: its like they just took the concept and fucked it Me: so the death note looks used even tho I pretty sure it was blank in the anime

Friend: it's for the money

Me: shit dude ryuk is in the house

Friend: is ryuk still cool thougj

Me: and light just fell over and is now running away Me: idk we'll see

Friend: does he still freak out over apples

Me: maybe Me: didn't ryuk show himself in lights room? Me: cause right now he's in school at detention Me: oh ryuk ate the apple

Friend: they met in his room

Me: welp here they met at detention

Friend: also it's to soon for light to know ryuk's obsession with apples

Me: its waaay too soon Me: I'm 10 minutes in Me: light didn't know ryuk for awhile Me: not almost immediately after getting the death note Me: also ryuk is persuading light into using it Me: anime light did not hesitate to kill a motherfuker Me: didn't need a demon to tell him what to do

Friend: wait Friend: what about the chip scene

Me: oh Me: what] Me: the Me: FUCK Me: they've ruined it

Friend: THE CHIP SCENE!?

Me: wasn't it a rule that if you put someone name without a death, theyd die of a heart attack like an hour later Me: well Me: fuck that rule Me: doesn't exist Me: they die by random bullshit means

Friend: WHAT?!?!!?

Me: also Me: no chip scene Me: yet Me: I'm waiting Me: anime light waited until he got home to kill a guy Me: but movie light was still at school and watched him die Me: heres what happened that absolutely gets rid of the heart attack rule Me: so a couple of kids had a basketball and dropped it when a woman's bags of groceries ripped Me: the kid chased after the ball into the street, where a car swerved to miss him Me: another car coming the opposite way swerved to miss the car and hit a parked car Me: a ladder on top of the crashed car got loose and decapitated the guy whose name was written Me: instantly after his name was written Me: wtf happened man

Friend: -.-

Me: also Me: apparently there are rules to the book Me: lemme get to the scene where he looked at them Me: but I know one of them was the holder of the death note can only hold it for 7 days Me: wtf?? Me: in the anime anyone could have for eternity if they wanted Friend: for as long as they lived or until they gave it up Me: atleast his dad is still a cop Me: but his mom is dead??

Friend: dfhnasjkfahdjkasdhf Friend: what

Me: by getting hit by a car by the guy he killed earlier Me: wtffffff Me: okay Me: okay Me: tell me what you get from this, its rule 65 of the book Me: "each page of the note contains the power of the whole note" Me: wtf does that mean?? Me: ooh Me: oooooooh Me: wait Me: is that the thing where you could tear a page out and it would still work? Me: wtf you gotta word it like that man

Friend: it's as bad as tests

Me: okay I got a previous rule wrong Me: it was rule 95 Me: anyone can write names in the note but only the keeper can have it longer than 7 days

Friend: -.- that's still stupid

Me: it is yeah Me: I'm pretty sure a death note was supposed to have one owner Me: I mean once you touched the paper, you were stuck with the powers until you died or gave it up Me: also Me: previous apparently wrote warning ramblings in the book for light to see Me: "don't trust ryuk"

Friend: -.- Friend: no

Me: he also said ryuk weird Me: I say ree-yook Me: he said rye-uhk

Friend: i'm sad Friend: i'm pissed

Me: and that's barely 20 mins in

Friend: need bleach?

Me: still another hour and a half left Me: god Me: 90 more mintes Me: ryuk is creepin in lights closet Me: light is offering an apple Me: ryuk is happy Me: ooh thank god Me: ryuk told light how to pronounce his name Me: I don't think I could live with light always saying his name wrong Me: ryuk looks gross Me: haven't seen him clearly yet tho Me: always in shadows

Friend: ryuk is cool

Me: movie ryuk is pretty chill Me: light has killed again Me: this time the gfather of the guy he killed ealier

Friend: is

Me: oky

Friend: is light killing innocent people

Me: heres how he died because I'm pretty sure light didn't right a death Me: not yet Me: so a couple knocked a salt shaker of a table at a restuarant Me: a waiter trips on it and bumps into the dude who will die Me: the father get knocked forward and stabs himself in the neck with a knife that he had been holding upwarrd Me: he sprays blood all over his guests and dies

Friend: why are the deaths so convoluted

Me: ryuk cackles in the background Me: I have no idea Me: wow steak sounds good right now Me: even tho I guy just died because of some Me: a Me: oops heres dark haired pretty girll in the bakground Me: she talked to light Me: wtf Me: who is this chick Me: she elooks like the next bella swan Me: turner Me: light turner Me: and her name is mia Me: what was the name of the blond girl who loved light?

Friend: yeah

Me: mia was her name? really? Me: she has no idea what a death note is Me: and light is showing it to her

Friend: fucking moron

Me: anime light would never do that Me: mia is laughing at hime Me: shit her name in the anime was misa Me: not mia Me: noe light is killing in front of mia Me: but at least hes using the news like anime light did Me: this movie is horrible

Friend: I wonder how they will ruin L Friend: i might cry at that part

Me: and I will tel you every wrong thing they do Me: so light and mia teamed up

Friend: i know you will

Me: even tho mia doesn't have a death note like anime misa did Me: and light want to kiss her Me: help Me: help Me: oh n Me: they Me: making out Me: I don't want to put skype down Me: hep Me: me

Friend: GET Friend: THE Friend: BLEACH!!!!!!!!!

Me: theyre done Me: no[e Me: not done Me: shit Me: okay Me: wait Me: stop' Me: they keep kissing Me: and its inbwteen scenes Me: so it surpried Me: me

Friend: life has no meaning

Me: okay hang on Me: how did light start getting called kira in the anime Me: didn't the public start calling that?

Friend: yea

Me: well light chose it in the movie Me: hes like Me: I want to be kalled kira Me: and now somehow the whole world knows Me: agh Me: nudity

Friend: >=c

Me: brief, dead women nudity Me: L is helping kira? Me: L informed kira of a club full of baddies

Friend: are you sure that's L

Me: yep Me: subtitles label him as L Me: here lemme send a screen shot Me: there it is Me: proven by the subtitles Me: L is originally from England right? Me: I cant tell if movie L is sitting like anime L

Friend: L is an orphan from England yes

Me: no accent Me: move L is american

Friend: i'm sorry japan

Me: gotta apologise to the mangaka who wrote death note

Friend: who

Me: idk their name

Friend: who the hell made the decision to make them..

Me: I have no idea Me: eath note was done and over years before they made this movie Me: why did they make it now?

Friend: money

Me: fuck the money Me: at least follow the god damn plot

Friend: yeah

Me: they used the right logo for L Me: that's nice Me: to see somethingsimilar Me: ugh Me: L is such a pig in the movie Me: hes got candy everywhere and is eating it messily Me: anime L was careful and deliberate

Friend: yeah

Me: ugh Me: they say "fuck" is this movie too much

Friend: i'm going to bed. you can keep ranting and i will respond tomorrow

After this point, it’s just me ranting so there will be no more Me: going on. Just a series of messages one after the other.

kay okay wait this was funny the movie did a funny so lights dad is meeting L in L's big fancy hideout and lights dad has his hand held out and and ice cream is just silently put in his hand with no information about it no one says a word about it he just holds the ice cream now L is speaking to a million reporters in broad daylight outside and movie L doesn't sit exactly the same as anime L hes in the same pose as anime L but movie L sits on his butt instead of sitting/squatting on his feet in the chair if that makes any sense L is calling out kira on the news ryuk likes L so apparently to kill using the book, you need a name AND a face but I'm pretty sure in the anime you only needed a name and now L isn't even sitting right hes lounging LOUNGING also mia cant see ryuk even tho shes touched the note book all the rules have been tossed out the window mia stole the book and is killing all the investigating agents oh siiit mia didn't do it ryuk did ryuk killed 13 people and now hes telling light to let the note go anime ryuk didn't do this he wanted light to have the note mia wants to kill lights dad so light and L have met in public and they fightin and light is being sooo suspicious they've got the weather in this movie right tho its constantly rainging shit mia told light she loved him and they making out now so if you write a name and burn the page before the person dies, theyre spared. but you can only do this once so many dumb rules  what I don't understand is why they changed misa's name to mia but didn't changed light's misa is a way more normal name than light why change it?? okay now movie L is sitting like in the anime lights dad is beating L down L is threatening light and light is acting as innocent as possible ryuk is meddling in lights plans lemme tell you those plans light write the name of L' assistant, having him find L's name and then tell light but ryuk is there to screw things up oh shit ryuk took the page with L's assisatants name on it so mia betrayed light light wanted to save watari watari is L's assitant but mia and ryuk messed that up ooooh shiiiiit mia did kill all those agents she killed 13 people not ryuk oooh L is angry that watari is dead and mia is trying to kill light hope he kills her instead L is gonna hunt light down L is driving angrily through the streets just rmapgaing dude rampaging now L is chasing light on foot 20 mins left no chip scene (note: really sad there wasn’t any chip scene) L is confrtoning light but light is saved by one of his many admirerers mia is trying to take the book and theyre fighting at the top of a ferris wheel light put mias name in the book she dead the ferris wheel deatached so now its slowly falling ryuk is manipulating the ferris wheel mia is hanging out of the pod thing light dropped her light fell mia died in an explosion of flowers light landed in water the book did too now L' there the page containg lights name is burning and L saw the page buring some old guy just picked up the washed up death note this new guy is carrying on kira's duty while light is in a coma now he's returning the book back to light oh light woke up L knows that mia was involvev involved lights dad knows he knows now light is gonna tell his dad how it works okay wait some exposition is going down and you need to know what is up so mia wrote that light's heart would stop at midnight so to fix that light chose a rapist who had connections to a hospital to save light when he fell in the water, give him cpr and keep light in a medically induced coma hospital guy commits suicide then light writes a pedophile mailman gets the note book on the shore, writes criminals names to keep up the act while light is in a coma, gives the death note back and commits suicide then he writes when mia takes the note book from light, she falls, tears the page with lights name on it that then the page is burned, light lands safely in water and mia dies instantly when she hits the ground L found the page with watari's name and all the agent's names L angry at light hes laughing crazily L looked like he was gonna write light's name but then the credits are going ooh that was interesting they showed behind the scenes stuff while playing the credits but it was done in a way I hadn't seen before they were like flashing it on screen inbetween credits, only a few seconds at a time got to see how they did ryuk which was cool god damnit they never showed if L wrote light's name or not I'm guessing not I waited through 5 mins of creits for thi why so light didn't kill any innocent people huh but mia sure did so my rating is 0/10 this wasn't death note this was like like some knock off version called'killing book' hope your happy that L is alive tho didn't have to kill himself like anime L did unless that was what the end implied hang on imma see if movie L killed himself too well Wikipedia doesn't say anything but we all know how reliable Wikipedia is that was a real joy ride hope you enjoyed my ramblings even thought half of them prob don't make sense