#sorry i went on a little mini rant here oops

[wen-kexing-apologist]

The point of Heart's character is that people don't understand him, and Li Ming is the only one that takes the time to learn. To not translate the signs is a very intentional move to have the audience understand the isolation of Heart's life without people who have learned the language. When you don't know sign language and need to know what he is saying, you know what he is saying. When his deafness and everyone else's relationship to it is getting in the way of him being able to communicate with others, and what he wants to say and has been saying falls on (haha, sarcastic laugh) deaf ears, you do not get a translation. That is the point. That's the whole point. If you are complaining about the fact they don't subtitle what Heart is saying when he signs, now you know the struggles of deaf people operating in a hearing world. How many videos do you come across a day that do not have captions or subtitles? How well can you read lips and comprehend what is being said when someone isn't speaking? If you are upset or complaining about the fact that Heart's sign language is not subtitled, if you feel like you are missing out on something important because Heart's sign language is not subtitled. Good, you are experiencing the very emotion that Heart is probably also feeling, not having people communicate with him in his language.

the comments on the lack of subtitles for sign language in the same episode of heart's argument with his mom about her not learning sign language to communicate with him is so outstanding to me. like hey. the deaf & hoh community do not owe you anything.

[pwarkluv]

❝ slow dancing in the dark ❞ - psj

park jisung x reader | angst, fluff | 1.5k words

WARNINGS | lowercase is intended, angst because duhh, fluffy ending because it’s jisung and i don’t think i could take a sad ending with him, friends to lovers au (my fav as you can tell), high school au, non-idol au, not a lot of dialogue in the first half oops, maybe like one curse word(??), this is gonna be trash so uh skrrt skrrt

SUMMARY | when they’ve both been in love with each other for years, but are too dense to realize it (aka your typical f2l’s trope).

AUTHOR’S NOTE | inspired by “slow dancing in the dark” by joji as you can tell by the title of this oneshot hehe :P anyways another favorite song of mine! i wanted a happy ending jisung because i see so many sad ending with him fhakldjfh also (i tried to be) super angsty because teenage love and overthinking always gets me in my feels~

you’ve never failed to make jisung’s heart race, even as a kid.

before he met you, jisung was your typical seven year old boy who avoided girls because he thought they had the cooties. he had that weird bowl cut every asian dude had growing up with slinky arms and a skinny frame. 

but you? you were beyond ordinary. 

your pigtails were held up by hello kitty hair ties, the charms dingling whenever you moved. you had a few front teeth missing, but that didn’t stop you from smiling ear to ear when you first met jisung. the colorful pastel colors you wore all the more attracted him to you. 

never has he ever seen such a bright and bubbly girl. all the other girls in the area were like him, avoiding the boys because of their “cooties”. they were stuck up and always thought they were better than him. 

but from the moment you two met, you became an exception. the only girl jisung liked being around. 

now that you two are seventeen, things have changed a bit. jisung wasn’t up to your ears anymore and he sure as hell doesn’t have a bowl cut. you outgrew your pigtails and have teeth in the front of your mouth. but the biggest change? jisung was in love with you.

well sure he’s always loved you. he loved the way your charms in your hair would jingle whenever you two played hopscotch, he loved how you always tried to put his hair up into a bun with your special hair ties, and he loved just being around you.

but this kind of love? the one he’s feeling now? it was like anything and everything you did made his heart race and his smile come out. so of course hearing you rant about this “really cute guy” who suddenly started talking to you in school made his heart hurt.

you were laying on jisung’s chest, him playing with your hair as the movie in front of you two played in his room. you didn’t know how but you were thankful the boy you were laying on couldn’t hear how fast your heart was beating. 

you’ve always been in love with jisung. from the moment you two met you were drawn to his aura, how he lowkey hated you and thought you had a disease. you’ve watched him grow (literally) and become such an amazing person. just the thought of it made your heart swell.

but you knew he didn’t like you. there was no way. not when he seemed so comfortable with the girl that sits in front of him in science. 

so you’ve decided you were gonna try and move on from him and look at other boys. you realized how cliche it was, falling in love with your best friend. there was no way it was gonna work anyways, not if jisung didn’t like you back. so you went for one of his friends, sungchan. he’s tall, kinda, charming, and everything you could ever want. but he’s not jisung.

❝ give me reasons we should be complete ❞

jisung didn’t know how to respond when you first mentioned sungchan. he should be happy for you right? you two were just friends and in no way did he have any claim towards you. if you liked him you should go for him, right?

wrong. his hand faltered a bit as he continued to stroke his fingers through your hair, his heart feeling heavy in his chest. suddenly he felt like he wanted to cry, not noticing how half-hearted you sound talking about the boy. 

❝ you should be with him, i can’t complete ❞

suddenly his mind went to more sadder things. jisung thought about the height difference between sungchan and him, wishing he was just a little bit taller for you. how cool and handsome sungchan was, no wonder you were falling for him. he’s more athletic and that’s probably why you liked that boy and not him. 

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prom night. your second to last prom before you and jisung finished high school. you two decided to go together “as friends”, the thoughts of him not wanting to actually be your date dampening your mood at times. but you were here to have fun, whether jisung saw you like that or not.

the two of you were partying, dancing along to the songs being played on the speakers.

���y/n?” a voice called out, causing the both of you to turn. jisung frowned looking at the boy in front of him. there he was, the boy he’s hated for the past two months.

you froze, not knowing why sungchan was in front of you.

“um, hi sungchannie.” you shyly smiled, a little awkward at the random intrusion. jisung knew you felt a little awkward and protectively wrapped an arm around your shoulder.

“hey.” jisung replied, trying to act cool. you stifled a laugh at jisung’s sudden mood change before clearing your throat.

“can i talk to you for a bit?” sungchan asked, and jisung could have cried then and there. 

❝ you looked at me like I was someone else, oh well ❞

“you like jisung don’t you?” sungchan said, watching as your eyes strayed to the tall brown haired boy you came with. you flushed, getting caught.

“n-no i don’t know what you’re talking about.” you stuttered, denying the obvious. the boy laughed, ruffling your hair a bit.

“don’t stress about it y/n, you don’t look at anyone else the same way you look at jisung. it’s kinda cute.” he smiled, making you a little less tense. 

“but he doesn’t like me.” you replied, looking down at the floor as an attempt to not cry. sungchan laughed, not believing what you’ve just said.

“you’re an oblivious one aren’t you?” sungchan muttered under his breath before holding you close, keeping an eye out for the boy watching him like a hawk. “confess to him, i promise you it won’t be bad.” he whispered before pushing you towards jisung.

❝ can’t you see ❞

“so what’d he say?” jisung asked, suddenly becoming serious. he saw the way sungchan pulled you close and his fists tightened in anger. he was the only one who could do that to you. but then he realized, he’s really not. 

jisung once again realized that you weren’t his and probably never will be. 

“o-or well you don’t have to tell me.” he stuttered aftering noticing how possessive his tone was. she’s not yours she’s not yours, jisung chanted to himself, watching as your face flickered to one of unsureness. 

goddammit why can’t you see i’m in love with you, the both of you thought in unison, jisung waiting for your response. 

“dance with me.” you said, pulling jisung away to a secluded area knowing what you should do. though you didn’t answer him, who was he to decline such a beautiful lady.

❝ i don’t wanna slow dance, in the dark ❞

it was like that ending scene from twilight, a mini deck covered in fairy lights and flowers. the lights were dimmed down a bit as a soft tune played, your head on jisung’s shoulder as the two of you slowly danced to the song. 

you realized that if you told him you loved him, it could ruin everything you two had. but you knew you couldn’t keep it a secret, you knew you couldn’t keep your emotions in the dark.

“what’s on your mind princess?” jisung asked, breaking the silence. he knew how tense you were just from the way you walked back to him after sungchan. and when you didn’t answer his question, well of course jisung was a little worried. 

your heart raced at the nickname. he started calling you that after the two of you played kingdom, him being your knight in shining armor while you were his princess. it stuck, jisung liking the way it felt calling you that. 

“i don’t wanna pretend anymore, sung.” you sighed, picking your head up from his shoulders. you pushed yourself away slightly, a small space between the two of you as you prepared for heartbreak. the boy gave you a confused look, not understanding what you were trying to get at. 

❝ dark ❞

“i’ve always loved you, as a kid and even until now.” you confessed, eyes trained onto the floor. jisung froze.

there was no way you actually felt the same, did you?

“w-well i know you don’t like me back and i know this changes things so much and i’m so sorry-”

jisung’s lips on yours was what shut you up. his hand snaked behind your waist, the other on the nape of your neck to deepen the kiss.

“shut up will you?” he mumbled into the kiss, finally relishing the feeling of your softness of his. your cherry lip balm was addicting and he couldn’t wait to taste it again.  

you had no clue what was going on at all, his lips on yours making your mind go hazy. as you two pulled away to catch your breaths you whispered into the air.

“so does this mean you love me too?”

“are you dumb or do i need to kiss you senseless again?”

“i mean that last option seems good.”

[jaefluenza]

hi can i request a angst where jaehyun and his s/o is an architect will live korea to pursue their dreams while also jaehyun focuses on his idol career

5. “i will support you even though i’m far away”

2. “i cant let us fade away” + “you’re the best part of my life”

Hi! Thank you for requesting! This idea is brilliant that I immediately write them down 💚 Ooh and this will be 85% fluff and 15% angst I’m sorry 🥺

(Angst)

5. “I will support you even though I’m far away.”

2. “I can’t let us fade away.”

(Fluff)

1. “You’re the best part of my life.”

word count: 1,2k words

You looked down at the envelope in your hand. The things written on the paper will change your life forever. You weren’t ready to open it, but not gonna lie, you really waited long enough to know the result of your hard work.

You open the lid nervously, taking out the white official paper inside before unfolding the paper to see what’s written on it.

‘Dear Ms. Y/l/n,

I am delighted to inform you that the Committee on Admission has admitted you to the class of 2021.’

You squeals in happiness when you finished reading the first sentence of the letter. “Mom! I’m admitted!!!” You run out of your room to your mom who’s cooking in the kitchen.

After a mini celebration with your family, you went back to your room, looking back at the letter, feeling proud. Sketching buildings and houses have been something you’re good at, and one of the reasons why is because of your desire to build a dream house for your family to live in. You want your family to live comfortably and happy, with your own design.

While you daydream about what’s going to happen in your upcoming life chapters, a notification pops up from your phone. You peeked into it to see who texted you and you smiled. It’s him.

Jaehyun <3: Hey, are you free for a date night?

You: “Hey baby! Yes, I’m free and I have something to tell you ~

Jaehyun <3: I’m excited! I’ll pick you up at 11, love. See you later ~

“I miss you so much!” Jaehyun hugged you so tight that you have to hold your breath with a smile drawn on your face. “Stop, I can’t breath!”

“Oops, sorry. I can’t help it.” He puts his hands back on the steering wheel and you leaned forward to give him a kiss. After all, you both can only date in his car to avoid getting caught by paparazzi and being careful not to hurt his fans.

Now that his car is parked in the middle of the park, he leaned closer to you while playing with your hand, squeezing it a little bit and your cheeks

“So, what is the thing you want to tell me, hm?” He asked.

You sighed. You were actually afraid that this might not end well because pursuing your dream job means leaving him and that you will be miles away from him without being able to come back home often.

“Well, the thing is... this.” You take out the letter you brought along to show him nervously, a small smile drawn on your face while expecting his reaction.

“Hm?” Jaehyun opened the letter you passed to him and a minute after he read the first paragraph, his eyes lit up in happiness. “Baby, you got admitted!” Before you got to reply he engulfed you in a hug again, slightly moving your body along with him in excitement. “Y-you’re happy?” You asked, voice muffled by being pressed to the crook of his neck.

“Of course! I know this means a lot to you. Going to this university is a dream and now you’re going for it! I’m so happy for you.”

For a moment, you feel like all the worries you have been thinking of were useless. Of course, he would be supporting and happy for you and stuff, but the fact that you both are going to be far away from each other still bothers your mind.

“Thank you for kindly supporting me, hon, but this means I’m going to be far far away from you.” You uttered sadly and he quickly sighed.

“I know. Remember when you first told me that you’re applying and I whined and told you I’m gonna be so sad if you got admitted? I am now. I feel like, you’re already going even though you’re still here with me and your departure will be in like two months?”

You can’t help but feel sad at what he said. A drop of tears slip out of your eye and you quickly wiped it off your cheeks and he immediately panicked. “Oh no, I made you cry! I’m sorry! This waas supposed to be a happy moment for you but I ruined it! Shit, I’m a terrible boyfriend,” he ranted.

“No, Jae. You’re the best part of my life. You’re not a terrible boyfriend. I love you, a lot.”

His look soften when you confessed just like that. He pats your back lovingly while you try to wipe the wetness on your cheeks. “It’s okay, we shall make sure that we will cherish every moment left to make up all the time we’ll be away from each other.”

He runs his fingers through your hair, brushing them against your hair to feel your beauty longer than he usually does. You smiled while keeping the eye contact before speaking out to him, “I will support you even though I’m far away. I will always be your number one fan, Jae.”

“I know it, I know for sure. We’ll keep in touch, right?”

You nod, and when you both hug it makes you sadder than it was already been that you cried on his hoodie that night, feeling sad and happy all mixed together, with him by your side.

The last two months ended with you two spending time more often than usual. His manager made it possible and he was being considerate enough to make his schedule worked for both of you to hang out. He meets you after his drama filming and often offers you to help you preparing your things before you move. Everything was going well and for a short moment, it made you forget that you’ll actually be leaving your family and loved one in a few hours.

Jaehyun stayed by your side before you have to check-in. He waited next to your family while you talked to your other family and friends, him being covered in a mask and a hat. He promised himself not to cry on the day when he would send you to the airport, but he thinks he’s going to fail. And he’s right.

“Aw, look at him, he’s already crying!” One of your family points up at him and he immediately wiped out the tears, embarrassed that your family gets to see him cry.

You smile bitterly as you approach him to give him a tight hug. He hugs you tighter, inhaling your scent before he’s going to miss your presence in the time beings. “I’m going to miss you, for real.” He mumbled against your hair, feeling a little bit relieved when your family left you both to give more privacy.

“Believe me, I’m going to miss you too, more than what you can imagine. Promise me to always work hard and achieve what you dream of, Jaehyun. We’re going to support each other, right?”

He nodded, as he rubs his hands against your back lovingly, before the announcement played on the background, reminding you of how little time you got before actually leaving the country to pursue your big dream.

“I can’t believe you already have to leave,” he sniffles. You laugh in tears, “Yes, I have to, by now. Stay healthy, baby. I’ll call you when I arrive.”

“Goodbye, love.” You waved to him as you drag your carrier with heavy steps, entering the other side while making sure you still see his figure through the transparent automatic slide door until he vanished completely out of your sight.

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[elvish-sky]

Temptation of Regality Part 5: Home Director's Commentary

look at me actually doing this forever later!! i’m sorry this took so long. i decided to do this for the last part because it’s the one that i’m the second-most proud of for this series but doing You’re Here wouldn’t be that exciting cause it was mostly just a crack chapter (that i will defend with my whole soul. anyhoo

In reference to this ask from @bitter-sweet-farmgirl !!!

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The next morning, you blinked open eyes heavy with sleep. Your head was resting on something firm, and you could hear someone else’s breathing. You rolled to the side, noticing that you were fully on a bed even though you couldn’t remember falling asleep the night before. You sat up and glanced to your other side.

i think the biggest thing for me here was a debate on whether or not it should start from the end of part 4. because i love writing fluff and humor and this was the funniest opportunity, i did!

“Thorin?!”

The dwarf lying next to you shot up at your yell.

“Y/N? What are you doing- Why are we in the same bed?!” His look of alarm was rather amusing, but you were too busy thinking back over the previous night to remember it.

i just have a mental picture of a bed-head, tousled haired, sleepy thorin.

“We didn’t do anything. You got drunk and I brought you up and put you to bed, and I must have fallen asleep next to you.”

“I got drunk?” He looked worried.

i can’t drink and so i don’t know what it’s actually like to be drunk or have a hangover. so this is just my take on it.

“You didn’t do anything embarrassing. You just thought everyone was trying to murder you and hid under a table for a few hours.”

i laughed a lot while writing part 4 and this opening, if you can’t tell.

He still looked embarrassed.

“Seriously, Thorin, that wasn’t the worst thing anyone did last night.” You proceeded to recount Bilbo’s entire handkerchief-related rant, leaving both you and the king crying from laughter.

fair. that was absolutely hilarious. i’m considering writing the whole rant as a a little extra for people. thoughts?

Fili and Kili burst into the room to see you and their uncle falling on top of each other in laughter. Frozen in the doorway at the sight, Fili finally spoke.

oop

“I see things went a little further than expected last night,” he observed with an eyebrow raised.

You quickly leaped off the bed. “I fell asleep here last night, that’s all. Anyways, where were you two all night?”

“We slept in Bilbo’s room.”

Kili nodded. “We wanted to give you two some privacy.”

Thorin threw a pillow at him, and while he scolded his nephews you washed up, emerging several minutes later in your freshly laundered clothes.

“I’m going to go see if Oin will take a look at my leg before we leave.” Seeing the concerned reactions of the three dwarves, you hurried to clarify.

the hurt leg was a tough decision, but i chose it because in part 4 they needed an excuse to go to the inn, because i desperately wanted to write that scene. i knew that Thorin wouldn’t let you go to a town unless it was an absolute emergency and he cares about you and that was really the only way. but i did have to go back and remind myself about the hurt leg, i was constantly forgetting and then writing scenes that definitely wouldn’t have been possible.

“It’s not hurting very much, I just want him to make sure it looks good.”

Three heads nodded in understanding, and you left with a wave.

Weeks later, the fact that your leg was healed was just about the only good thing. After narrowly escaping the goblins, and even more narrowly escaping the orcs, everyone was just about exhausted. Now, on the Carrock breathing in a sigh of relief, you reflected on the last few weeks.

After the night at the inn, Thorin had been colder towards you. You didn’t know why, but it hurt. On the mountain, he had saved Bilbo, and you had watched inside the cave as he checked on every member of the company. Except you.

ok. so i needed to have angst in here but at this point i’d built the relationship up to a certain point where i felt like Thorin couldn’t do anything, and wouldn’t do anything, like insult you or other stuff. which is why i just kinda glossed over a whole lot. maybe someday i’ll go back and write a mini-series exploring that bit more.

He had protected you in goblin-town, but then they all had. It was just his duty to do so. And while the wargs were attacking he hadn’t even spared you a glance, but that you couldn’t exactly blame him for. Still, you had saved several of the company members by boosting them into trees, you would have thought he might have acknowledged you for that.

yeah, Thorin, some acknowledgement would be nice. but in all seriousness, the ignorance was decided on by me thinking about things that would hurt me more than words. and being ignored hurts, and it’s something Thorin would do after being as vulnerable as he was with you at the end of Part 4

And now, watching him hug Bilbo on the Carrock you were jealous. Yes, the hobbit had done amazing things, had saved Thorin, but you wanted Thorin to be hugging you like that. Not to barely acknowledge your presence.

To tell the truth, deep down you wanted him to love you the same way you did him. But if how he had treated you these past weeks was any indication, that would never happen. But you were mad, and the anger clouded your judgment, so you waited until he had finished congratulating the hobbit and stepped forward.

“Y/N-” You cut Dwalin off when he tried to talk as you strode up to the leader.

“Thorin Oakenshield, of all the stupid, reckless, idiotic things to do that was the stupidest, most reckless, most idiotic thing ever.”

and there we go. i was soooo nervous about this confrontation scene that i actually acted it out with myself just to see how my emotions played into it, so that’s how this came to be. i still don’t love the end result, but it’s better than it was.

Everyone looked dumbstruck.

The king looked shocked that anyone was speaking to him that way, and fired back with anger brimming in his eyes. “Y/N, why do you care?”

“You almost died, Thorin! And I love you and the fact that you’ve been so distant lately is tearing me apart, and yet I cannot do anything about it, cannot leave because I care. I was tempted, and I succumbed, and here we are. But I’m just done. If you don’t care then so be it. I can’t go on like this.”

this was so fun to write. i really enjoyed getting to add ‘tempted’ in there, and for me this is a piece of dialogue that i’m so proud of

You strode over to a small rock and sat, head in your hands as you cried. A shuffling sound came close, like footsteps, and you lifted your head to see Thorin standing in front of you. He looked nervous.

“Y/N, I-”

He started speaking and then stopped. It looked as if he was mulling something over in his brain, and you watched as something sparked in his eyes

he needed to have a ‘click’ moment, which took a while for me to come up with but this is it and it think it’s a good one.

He leaned forward, cupping your chin in his hand as he tilted your head up to look him in the eyes.

“If you don’t want me to do this, tell me.”

You stayed silent, gazing up at him, kissing you gently for all of two seconds before suddenly deepening the kiss.

It felt like fireworks.

You tangled your hands through his hair, trying to pull him closer even though there was barely an inch of space between you.

Wolf whistles sounded out around you and you broke apart, flushed, to see the entire company beaming at the two of you from behind Thorin’s back. Except for his nephews, who had their hands over their eyes and were fake gagging.

yesssss Fíli and Kíli always have the appropriate response.

But you only had eyes for one person.

“You love me?” You asked him, hoping beyond hope for the answer he gave.

“Yes. And I’m sorry I’ve been distant. I didn’t want to give you false hope. We’re on a quest, we could die at any moment, but I see now that it’s more important for us to take what time we have.”

You smiled at him. “I love you, Thorin.”

“I love you too, Y/N.”

You stood, and he entwined his fingers with yours as you walked back to the group. You noticed him catch sight of something in the distance, and you walked to the edge of the rock together.

“Erebor.”

this had to end at the Carrock for several reasons. firstly, i wanted room to write a second series continuing this. not sure if i will but at least i have the groundwork. and secondly, because it was important for Thorin to still have a goal, for you to have to continue this quest as a couple and for this story to end with the horizon ahead, for symbolism reasons!

You sucked in a breath as you realized what you were looking at.

“The Lonely Mountain. The last of the great dwarven kingdoms of Middle-Earth,” Gandalf said.

“Our home.” Thorin glanced up at you, squeezing your hand in encouragement.

Looking out into the distance, gazing at your future, you smiled.

“Our home.”

and yay! i was so unsure of how to end this but i still think that’s perfect.

this was a really fun thing to do, i hope it’s what you were asking for and i’m sorry it took so long!

[pastthevaulteddoors]

My brain fogs usually end with me babbling.

This morning @delicatelygloriousphoenix allowed me to babble to them about a thought I had.

And then... It just kept going.

I’m still tired. Here’s a cut version of that conversation.

I had a thought before bed last night 'cause I'm finishing up the extras to SVSSS.

What if someone was reborn into Mo Dao Zu Shi and had to save everyone?

What if Jiang Cheng was the person they were born into? I can't remember the scene properly from the novel, but right before WWX interrupts the summit meeting on Koi/Carp tower, drinks LWJ's booze and accuses Jin Zixun of his labor camp is when this person becomes the new Jiang Cheng. He himself interrupts WWX's rant that nearly falls into a fight and demands that he/Lotus Pier are allowed to keep the rest of the Wens because they burned the place to the ground and therefore have a right to them to rebuild the place.

The argument is quick, and JC is like "I'm taking them" and drags WWX out in surprise. But he turns to LWJ and is like "You comin'?" so of course LWJ comes when he's actually invited to do so. They run off to the camp. JC tries to hurry to get there before Wen Ning is stabbed. They do get there earlier than in the show/novel, but WN is already stabbed (but not dead).

They drag the Wens and an unconscious WN out of the camp. WWX doesn’t go nuts because WN isn’t dead yet and JC is there to lay down some tsundere harshness in his stead.

They have to stop at a village before they get there where Wen Qing can work on her brother and the Wens can rest. JC buys them all rando threadbare robes so they don't stand out as Wens anymore.

Lan Xichen shows up at some point to see if he can't... not so much help as his position won't allow him to take sides on this, but there to 'check on his brother.’ When he gets there, he’s pushed to the inn room where he sees JC focused at WN’s side. He’s giving him spiritual energy while WQ rests nearby. That's LXC’s first little spark of  "Ah, JC is nicer than he first appears."

The Wens are supposed to be 'laborers' to help rebuild Lotus Pier, but JC's really just wanting to make sure that WWX isn't forced off to Burial Mounds and becomes an icon of hatred like the show/novel. And he doesn't have to remove him from the sect entirely.

However, he tells a distracted WWX that he obviously has ideas with his new powers and gives him leave to seclude himself to practice/create/invent but in a safe environment. Jiang Yanli is happy that her brothers are not alone yet able to pursue their separate interests/areas of need.

LXC suggests Gusu taking the Wens as well as 'laborers' since Cloud Recesses was also burned down by the Wens. In reality, they have more safe space for the Wens, it's harder to ambush the 'labor camp' when it's on a mountain peak.

This is where the ALIVE yet healing Wen Ning and Wen Qing ask the Lans to take care of A-Yuan as they are not in the best situation to take care of a child at their camp. This is where LWJ and the frequently visiting WWX basically adopt him.

I mean, if the Wens aren't in danger, WWX has no reason to go back to the burial mounds so of course he’d come to check up on the Wens a lot. Which just means hanging out with A-Yuan and the bunnies often. If LWJ happens to be there with him all the time... well... who’s to say what that means?!

Meanwhile, JC is trying to handle his sect with only a bit of help from WWX here and there, although Wen Qing shows up a lot, as does LXC as a gesture of goodwill and to help the young new sect leader.

JC enjoys being a leader and the System provided him with knowledge and ability to train his new sect. He used to be a salaryman when he was alive, this is far more exciting and much more stimulating.

JC is pretty oblivious that both WQ and LXC are absently crushing on this confident and warmly grumpy JC. He just thinks they like visiting him to talk sect leader stuff or night hunt or... maybe he even thinks they’re his friends.

BUT JC knows his mission is not done, as the System keeps reminding him.

He needs to make sure Jin Guangyao doesn't marry his sister but he can't break OOC or share his knowledge of knowing that JGY and Qin Su are siblings... so he subtly courts Qin Su instead to basically cock block JGY.

Which surprises all but whatever. JC has changed since becoming sect leader, or so they say (really, JC is a different person entirely but ya know).

JC is okay with it, saying Qin Su is a decent woman and pretty enough. He'd be okay if they'd end up marrying, although he's very aware that JGY might try to murder him for taking the girl he likes but he's got his defenses up.

The courting goes on for awhile and JC keeps blocking JGY’s advances where he can but doesn’t go further with his own.

A few years later, JC hosts a birthday party of four year old Jin Ling, with little Lan Sizhui, Lan Jingyi, Ouyang Zizhen among others... so it's a mini sect leader party, too. All of this without going OOC, he's still a grumpy sect leader but he's less feared (like, in the novel, JC was a friggen murderer! He tortured and killed anyone he thought was using WWX's methods or was his incarnation!). People actually seem to like him!

Late night at the party WWX, JC, LWJ, and LXC were hanging out. They suggest going on a boat together because a lot of lanterns were going to be let off in the lakes for JL’s birthday.

JC 'accidentally' spills tea on LXC's robes so he has to excuse himself to change. The others wait by the boat and JC is like "Oop, I changed my mind. I'm going to do something else" and kicks the boat off with LWJ and WWX in it and walks away. He chills in a pavilion a little bit later, watching the lanterns on the water and a few boats out there when LXC comes back. He doesn't even ask when happened and joins him, watching the boat that their brothers are in. LXC and JC haven't talked about it, but they both low key ship LWJ and WWX so they're of agreement.

This event triggers the Wangxian relationship quest. JC is pretty happy that they don’t have to wait 13-16 years before they get to enjoy each other’s company.

And that's when JC himself starts to admire LXC. Not that he hadn't before, they had become friends of sorts from both rebuilding their sects, passing advice to each other, and generally get to complain to each other as young sect leaders. JC kept distance though, knowing LXC’s sworn brothers are his confidants but now and again LXC even lets on a bit of that drama (realizing how much NMJ and JGY are at odds) when JC mentions "they just gotta fuck and get it out of their system"

But yeah, it's during that conversation that JC is like "LXC is actually really attractive and fun to talk to..." crush style.

Then a new mission starts! JC has to team up with LXC to get JGY and NMJ together. All the while JC is loosely courting Qin Su still. Wen Qing has since moved on with her affections (WQ is fast realizing that everyone is gay and instead goes to make out with Mianmian because yes lesbians!).

So LXC realizes that he likes JC but doesn't think he'd be interested because of Qin Su and Wen Qing.

Meanwhile, JC is like "The author said the only gay couple in this novel was WWX and LWJ but!!!?!?!?!??!?!? everyone is gay!?”

At WWX and LWJ's wedding, LXC and JC spy on JGY and NMJ who end up kissing behind a tree. They're tipsy but success! JC gives LXC a high five which amuses LXC because 'wtf is a high five? that's so cute, what a grumpy dork'

JC outright stops courting Qin Su then, which pisses off her sect, that is in close ties with the Jins, which turn their anger towards the Jiang sect. So JC has to fight with the Jins in a political battle, and his sister is preggers with her third kid so she can't help much.

But it's finally JGY that stands up to his father to stop bulling smaller sects. No hard feelings for stealing Qin Su then dumping her, apparently.

It's about this time when Mo Xuanyu shows up and is like "you're my daddy" Lady Jin already hates her husband's illegitimate children but now she's furious, especially after her friend tells her that Jin Guangshan raped her and Qin Su is ALSO an illegitimate child (another reason JGY decides he doesn’t hate JC for cock blocking him).

All this combined, Jin Guangshan is shamed off his throne. Jin ZiXuan takes up a lead and JGY (now renamed Jin Ziyao as is the proper generational name) decides he's happy with not being an asshole (since he's getting good dickings with his boyfriend NMJ and Lady Jin has finally stopped bullying him) and decides that he'd be content, even happy, being his brother's advisor rather than dethroning him for sect leadership.

But of course there's gotta be drama. Shi Su and Jin Zixun are not the smartest of people but they've teamed up with Xue Yang who has a bit of the Iron. Together, they start to plot against the sects to overrule them, because they're dumb idiots with a semblance of power.

That's about as far as my brain went when I fell asleep and then this morning when the brain fog focused on that instead of on work while I was waking up.

Just something about 13 years later, JC and LXC are pretty close but not lovers yet, when something-something adventure and JC and LXC become a thing in a similar manner that WWX and LWJ did in the novel. RANDOM CONFESSION TIME that other people have to point out to them!

The following is related conversation but I don’t want to put my friend’s part so... it’s disjointed. Sorry not sorry I’m tired.

Continued conversation about wangxian being together:

because JC already knew they'd be together from the show/novel, and LXC shipped them, so they teamed up to get them to confess

That's what I meant when JC forced them onto a romantic boat ride together.

They weren't parted from the Wen fight stuff so instead of fighting at Nightless City, they had time to realize their feelings and not die instead of confess. ;p

Conversation... conversation...

So for so long JC doesn't know he's into guys (LXC in particular, kinda like SQQ in SVSSS) but just like JC in the novel, he gets himself blacklisted from the matchmakers. Meanwhile, this whole time his very close friend, LXC (they're really close now since JGY and NMJ are a couple so he doesn't like to third wheel it and instead spend his time with JC) things that JC is straight and lowkey crushes on him for 13-16 years before WWX and LWJ have to spell it out to them.

but Lan have a-yuan as adopted heir

He'd (JC) probably ask Jinli if one of her kids could be heir

What if Jin Zixun tries to take the sect leader throne or something. He'd be next in line if jin Zixuan didn't die and JGY didn't step up.

[bokutokoutarou]

alex babe congrats on hitting 1k!!!!! u r on ur way to becoming the greatest showman with this litttt circus 🤪im rLY excited for ur match-up!!!so i’m here requesting one for myself if that’s aite 🥺 im 5’8 (giaNT), i play ultimate frisbee & netball. i change my hair colour tOO frequently and currently it’s purple 💜 big dick energy bcos of my height & im quite independent and alpha but actually im an emotional softie on the inside that cries at every lil thing 😩 (-con’t in pt2!) - 🥞anon

(con’t from pt1 of 🥞) -pronoun: she/her -mbti: fluctuates between enfp and infj (im always ~ 50/50 E/I) -always clowning myself (throwing away my cash, embarrassing drunk stories, getting my nose punched during moshing, shattering my phone screen bcos a volleyball landed on it....) even tho i look unapproachable with my rbf 🤡 -im majoring in political science right now so tbh i like to analyze every little thing and im a nerd for history 🥺 tq so much for doing this!!!!i luuuuv u💛💛 -🥞 ((((omg im so sorry but can i ramble a little bit more🥺🥺))) -i’ve been getting tattoos every yr since 18 and now i have 6 over 3 years (my attitude towards it changed from “it must be meaningful” to “whateverz it’s just cute” HHAHHAH) -i do tarot cards!! im quite an intuitive person and it’s a good practice that allows me to reflect -so yeap im a mess of everything, a typical aquarius HAHAHHA astrohoe -🥞 anon who is v sorry for being an annoying lil shit who spammed u with 3 paragraphs 😭😭

omg u are such a clown and ILYSM for it 🥞 anon!!! i’m so glad ur apart of my circus🤡🎪

your first mini matchup is...

BOKUTO KOUTAROU

AHSHSHHSHS THIS IS LEGIT THE BIGGEST COMPLIMENT EVER I LOVE THIS MAN SO MUCH

bokuto’s so forward and outgoing that the fact that u have a rbf does not deter him at all from trying to befriend u

it legit didn’t take long for u two to get together bc u guys are a clown match made in heaven and that’s a fact

u two both look tough on the outside but are emotional softies deep down, so when one of u goes into an emo mode, the other one does too and it’s a MESS

r.i.p akaashi bc u two are a whole circus and his life is gonna get a hell of a lot harder oops

bokuto would totally be ur partner in crime, and u would both clown urselves TOGETHER

just imagine the crackheadedness, the complete clownery of ur two braincells combined...i stg u and bokuto would be a combined disaster and I ENVY IT

okay so pls PLS play frisbee with him bc he’d love it so much!!

he’d kinda be trash at it tho bc he’d get too hyper when the frisbee would get close to him (but don’t tell him that or he’ll go into emo mode lmao)

he’d highkey think ur tattoos look so cool, and he’d be inspired to get some bc of u (u’d have to recommend the place to him tho bc he went to one once w/o telling u and he had to get a coverup bc it was a mess oops)

since u dye ur hair frequently, u’d totally try to mimic his hairstyle by dying ur hair all black and having it fade to a nice silver, but u’d clown urself bc the hairdresser would mess it up and make u look like a skunk agbzhshsh

but hey, that’s another story to tell. and expect many more bc with bokuto, there’s always something disasterous and fun waiting to happen

ur second mini matchup is...

LEV HAIBA

an ICONIC TALL COUPLE

okay but fr fr, even if i didn’t see ur height i still would have put u with him because the clownery in this relationship is a whole VIBE

lev would lowkey highkey be intimidated by ur rbf at first, but one day he straight up approached u and started a convo about how cool ur hair was

babie was SHOCKED when he found out that u were a clown just like him, so definitely expect some more clownery now that he’s in ur life

you’d highkey dare him to try and get into a baby swing and he’d actually fit bc he’s so skinny, but he wouldn’t be able to get out so you’d have to call emergency services to help him ahsjsjsjsjsj

ngl, he’d actually be really good at ultimate frisbee bc his arms are long af and he’d be able to reach it in the air easily, and he’d totally drag u to the park to play it with him

kenma wouldn’t be intimidated by ur rbf at all, so he’d totally diss lev by saying:

“congrats — ur better at ur girlfriend’s sport than ur own”

also, everyone in the school refers to u both as the “tall couple” even though ur not even remotely as tall as him

if u ever rant to lev about political science or history, he won’t understand a single word ur saying bc he has zero braincells left, but he’ll just nod along and listen to u bc he thinks it’s adorable when u ramble about it

pls give him a tarot reading omg! he’d highkey be so into it and u’d totally get him into astrology

don’t make him give u a reading tho. i stg he’d clown it up so badly and predict some whack end of the world shit lmaooo

u two would be so fun and chaotic, but also so soft for each other and it’d be cutest thing ever aaah!

sidenote: i saw ur third ask late so i added hcs about them now!

[erunapendleton]

AU of non-serial killer!Kira meeting Shinobu as college freshmen and he obsesses over how soft and lovely her hands are and just wants to... kiss them every night...

I just wanted to say i’m extremely giddy that this was sent to me i follow a lot of other fic writers that get prompts sent to them and for one to be sent to me is exciting! thank you!

“Pathetic…” the words were grounded out from his teeth. “Absolutely pathetic.”

Yoshikage Kira laid there in his singlet bed under the darkness of a Friday evening. He was thinking of her again. Shinobu Kondo, the gorgeous girl with even more gorgeous hands who lived just two doors down from his own dorm room.  

If she could just hold my face. Caress my cheek with the back of her hand, he thought as he palmed the thin layer of his pajama pants. Or if I could just hold her hand. Once… He could imagine how they would look if they were wrapped around him right now. Skin milky, fingers thin and nails manicured a deep, flirty red.

Fuck, she’s just my type.

He’s stroking himself now furiously, too. The sound of her voice whispers in his ear and she asks sweetly like a kiss, “Yoshikage, do I really make you feel this way?”

And with that he finishes into his own imperfect hand.

He sits up and slaps the on switch of his desk light. The Beach Boys’ “Wouldn’t It Be Nice” still plays softly as he looks at what he’s spilled into his palm.

“And we could be married,” the song plays on. “And we could be happy.”

Kira wipes his hand with a tissue. “It would be nice.”

LAST WEEK

“Leave it to Shinobu to be late as usual,” Ayane mumbled. She rolled her pencil under her hand as if she were thinning out pizza dough on the library table.

“She’ll be here,” Tsurugi said while making notes in her planner. “I told her 12 at the library.”

“You sure she knows you meant 12 in the afternoon? Maybe the dummy thought you meant midnight.”

“Ayane,” Tsurugi said with a fleeting laugh.

“Or maybe she’s stuck making out with her too cool for school boyfriend she’s always dangling in front of her faces.”

“You know she doesn’t do that.”

Ayane scoffed. “Whatever, sympathizer. You can say whatever you want, but we both know he’s out of her league.”

In the table adjacent to theirs, Yoshikage Kira glanced over. The girl with the loud mouth ranted on as she wagged her hand.

Broken and uneven nails. Green acrylics at that, he thought. The frailty of her nails were obvious. Ugly nails for an ugly-hearted girl.

He shut his book and left the table. This only drew more whispers from girls from the table over. As he opened the double doors, a girl slammed directly into his chest knocking the book he was carrying out of his hands as well the ones she held. Like snow fall, papers floated down to floor around them.

“I’m so sorry,” she said from the floor. She appeared dazed with her hand over her forehead. “I didn’t even see you…”

“It’s fine,” he huffed. The daily irritations kept mounting. He knelt down to her with a hand extended. “Can you stand?”

She looked up at him. The fatigue covered her sallow face like makeup, but she still smiled at him. “I should help you pick up your stuff before I get up, though. Right?”

“Sure,” he said.

She shifted to her knees and the two began gathering and scooping their flittering papers together. Her hand landed on his as he reached for his textbook. The florescence of the lights above made the red of her nails dazzle him, nearly putting stars in his eyes. Plush, silk, even velour none of these words could bring any semblance of justice to describing what exactly her hands felt like.

He was struck by what he could only discern was Cupid’s proverbial arrow.

“Do you study art history?”

What?

“Art history?” she asked again.

“Oh, no, I just admire Da Vinci’s works,” he muttered and took the book into his hands. They both stood.

“So, you study him for fun?”

“Yes, it’s a bit of a hobby of mine, I suppose.” He thought that was one way of putting it. A lot simpler than explaining his affections toward the hands of the Mona Lisa.

“That’s pretty cool,” she beamed. “Wait,” she squinted at him. “I know you! You live in my dorm, don’t you? Yoshihiro Kira?”

“Yoshikage,” he corrected her. “That’s actually my father’s name.”

“Oh, oops.” She saw around him her friends waving to her and then peered back to him. “Oh, well, my name’s Shinobu. It was nice to meet you, Yoshikage.”

“Likewise, Shinobu…”  He watched as her pastel orange hair fluttered from her ponytail like a ribbon as she left him.

“Made us wait long enough,” Ayane said as Shinobu takes her seat.

“Ah, I’m sorry. I don’t know what’s going on with my body,” Shinobu said. “My head was pounding when I got up and when I made it to the bathroom it was over. I blew chunks everywhere.”

“You’re sick?” Tsurugi asked.

“I guess? I’ve been waking up nauseous for days now,” Shinobu said.

“Maybe you gotta lay off the booze, party girl,” Ayane teased.

Shinobu rolled her eyes. “Keep calling me that and I’ll puke on you next.”

Giggles broke out among the girls only for them to be shushed by the nearby librarian.

FRIDAY

“You Still Believe in Me” starts to play as Kira is bathed in darkness. He feels almost stupid being this consumed by the idea of a girl and even stupider at the idea of her surrounded in perfumed hearts.

“She’s normal, average and most of all human like every other girl—”

And as he utters lies about his unrequited darling, he hears the sound of muffled, but unmistakable crying beyond the door from the hallway. Possessed by a force with inhibitions abandoned, Kira opens the door and he sees her, the girl with the lovely hands.

But, she’s the source of the crying and she’s fumbling with her keys in front of her room. He shuts the door behind him as he approaches her, seemingly running on auto-pilot himself.

“Shinobu,” he says softly, but still manages to scare her as she drops her keys.

“Oh, it’s you, Yoshikage,” she sniffs and then flashes him a quick smile. “You caught me off guard there.” He ducks down to pick up her keys.

“I didn’t mean to startle you. I apologize,” he says before placing the keys in her hand and linger there for a little too long. But she doesn’t say anything and he’s thankful to God or whoever for that.

“I know you didn’t. Don’t be silly,” she says. “Did you, um, need something by the way?”

Her heart begins to settle as well as her breathing and she is just about relieved to have stopped crying. She looks up at him to see him intently watching her. A look of interest in her. A rare occurrence she didn’t care to admit. Something about those purple eyes of his are catlike and glow lightly toward her.

“I heard something. Crying, I thought,” he says. “But, it seems I imagined it. I should leave you be. It’s late—”

“No!” She lunges, grabbing his arm. “I… I really don’t want to be alone right now…”

He follows in behind her and she plugs in a lamp that only gives off a dim candescence. The room is mostly organized save for her bed that has a tangled blanket strewn across it. She joins him on the cot after she hands him a soda from the mini fridge.

“How are you feeling?” he asks after she takes a long uninterrupted chug of ginger ale.

“Fine… why wouldn’t I be?”

“Shinobu,” he said, giving her a look baked in concern.

“I thought I’d be able to escape my problems talking to you, Yoshi,” she says after blowing a raspberry. She sets her drink down on her desk and then lays her head in his lap. This action nearly sets him on fire, but he tries to extinguish himself with the idea of dying children. It’s not working.

He places his free hand on her cheek. “What would you like to talk about then?”

“Um… what do you want out of life?” she asks and then places her hands over her stomach.

Kira rests his head onto the wall. He can see their shadows blurred together and inseparable. “I’ve only ever dreamed to live a life of quiet. Nothing too grand, but just quiet and peaceful until I die.”

Shinobu lips slip open. “Nothing too grand?”

“I have no desire of being rich or famous… it seems that’s important to a lot of people our age. Life can be so simple.”

“Where would you live? The countryside?”

“A beachside town more like,” he says as he curls his fingers in her hair. “Somewhere I can have a picnic during the days and evenings.”

“That sounds lovely…” she closes her eyes and suddenly she can see the waves crashing near a lighthouse’s cliff and a yellow sky.

“Yes, it would be,” he says and drifts his hand down to over hers on her stomach.

“What would our house look like?”

“Our?” he asks.

Shinobu flushes. “I meant your house.”

Kira frowns. “Shinobu, don’t you… have a boyfriend?”

“No, not anymore,” she practically mouths and instead of vocalizing as her eyes become flooded by tears again. She shrivels like a flower in winter and he holds her when she sits up in his lap.

“What happened tonight?” he asks after a long while of just holding her.

“I figured out what’s been making me sick.” Her voice wobbled, but she spoke anyway. “I’m pregnant.”

His heart rockets down into his feet, but he holds her closely. “And?”

“And… Kosaku told me to handle it. I’m nearly a month along and he wants me to handle it,” she says with a voice laced in horror. “I went in there and I couldn’t take it. H-he broke up with me on the spot because I couldn’t do it.”

“Terrible…”

“I-I never thought I’d have a baby this way, but I’ve accepted it… and I’m,” she smiles bittersweetly. “Excited.”

“You are?”

“In another life, I might have been angry at my circumstances… forced to put my life on hold or never achieve any of my dreams of grandeur, but,” she pauses to cup his face in her hands nearly making him burst. “You opened my eyes. I’m going to have a baby that I can love unconditionally. I don’t need anything more than that. Just a quiet little life.”

She kisses his cheek and it almost feels like a goodbye.

“Shinobu,” he says. The twin jars of honey in her eyes can be seen again glittering like stardust. “Would there be any space for me in your little life?”

“I think there is,” she murmurs against his lips.

[whatcouldgowrong-ohthat]

What do YOU know about love?

Alright, here’s the second Song-fic! I’ve learned that some of these are going to be mini series things within the overall world. I’m thinking Steve’s will have two more parts and this one will definitely be a three parter. I already have songs for Tony, Loki, and Bucky around the corner so keep a look out for those! And the sequels to this and Steve’s. :)

Summary: Various Avenger x Reader one-shots with songs from musicals. In this one — Sam is in utter disbelief at the hope you have in your blind date, but in the end is it really his place to say otherwise? Sam X Reader (eventually), OC X Reader (<- that part ain’t gonna last long, just be patient!) (Song is “What do you know about love” from the Frozen Soundtrack.)

Warnings: Bit of fluff and teasing from our beloved Sammy boy, lotta arguing because you, the reader, are stubborn as shit, and there’s cussing. Sam really does love being right and proving you wrong.

Word Count: 4275 words

Please don’t post my work anywhere without my permission. :)

Never would he ever listen to Barton about working with a new partner. New partners required adjusting, patience, and Bucky had taught him that those particular traits were something he personally lacked in. That was okay. Eventually their rivalry developed a level of trust and respect that he could work with. Not every one was Steve Rogers.

But then Clint went and requested that he partner with someone else for a mission. Her. She made working with Bucky feel like a ride in the park. He’d gladly lose a thousand steering wheels to the Winter Soldier if it meant never having to go on another mission with this agent. She was stubborn, rarely listened to his instructions, hotheaded, so focused that she sometimes focused on the wrong thing — And oh yeah.

She was a fucking badass.

That detail just made it more infuriating because she had earned her arrogance. Back in the day, she would reprogram Tony’s suits for the hell of it and even helped with Rhodey’s design after the accident. She’d been on missions with Clint and Natasha. She’d been one of those to survive the snap and during that time she had spent time keeping Clint alive while he was blinded by his rage. Since Thanos was defeated, she’d spent most of her time on vacation in Wakanda, saying she’d earned it.

Until Clint called her in. She’d always answer Clint. They had some weird bond he couldn’t understand. Maybe it was some brother/sister thing? Because he really didn’t like the idea of it being more.  

Not that he was thinking about you in relationships or liking anyone or anything.

“Are you even listening, Wilson?”

He looked up, finally focusing on Y/N who had been rambling on about the mission. Oh yeah, that’s what had gotten him on that whole rant in his head. She was telling him about details of the mission that he already knew. Why did she have to treat him like an idiot? Why did she always insist on calling him by his last name? Why was he the only one she called by his last name? 

“I know the mission, Y/N. Had it memorized long before Clint asked you to help me out.”

You snorted, smirking as you tucked your gun into the strap on your thigh. “Well, sorry, but staring off into space with googley eyes doesn’t exactly scream confidence in regards to a mission.”

“I did not have,” he grimaced. “Googley eyes.”

“Sure you didn’t.” You glanced at him out of the corner of your eyes, the corner of your lips tugged into that knowing smile that he really wanted to wipe off. What was it with the people he kept meeting and their arrogance? Why couldn’t he be working with Bucky? “Look, you don’t have to like working with me. Bucky will be back from Wakanda before you know it.”

“I never thought I’d see the day I missed working with that pain in the ass.”

You laughed and, though he hated to admit it, he liked that he got that reaction out of you. When you relaxed like that, your eyes sparkled. You seemed at ease and those lines on your face, holding years of stress, actually vanished. “No one ever expects to warm up to people like Clint and Bucky. We just kinda do.” 

He chuckled, adjusting the straps to his wings. “Ain’t that right?”

You watched as the hangar to the jet opened, parachute securely strapped to your back. You tightened your grip on the plane as your hair whipped around your face. He stepped just behind you, the building, their target, looking extremely small from their spot in the air. “Now, come on,” you told him, stepping forward. “I got a hot date tonight.” 

He tensed as you ran off the plane, practically doing a swan dive just to show off while he gaped at your form. You had a what?

—

When they finally breached the building, slipping inside undetected, the questions started. He tried telling himself he was looking out for you. Clint would want that and, speaking of, did the arrow-shooting Avenger even know about your date? Was a background check done? What if the guy was HYDRA? What if they were some villain taking advantage and trying to gain access to records that SHIELD hadn’t lost during Natasha’s public release? What if —

What if the guy wasn’t good enough for you?

“Are you seriously going to keep badgering me with these questions?” The clear annoyance in your voice was enough to make him smirk. He liked that he got under your skin. It meant he had some sort of effect on you. Albeit, a little less positive than he would like.

Make that a couple thousand steering wheels lost to the Winter Soldier.

He wasn’t entirely sure why he had to ask all these questions. You were attractive, he admitted that. Your H/C made your E/C stand out all the more, fathomless with emotions and secrets he wouldn’t mind spending a few decades figuring out. Your skillset and determination to finish a mission had earned his respect. It wasn’t just that you were attractive. You were interesting.

“Come on, humor me,” he said as you took quick strides to the computer. He glanced back at the door, playing lookout while you stole and wiped information from their target’s computers. It was a personal request from Fury.

“He’s not a stranger. My friend just wanted to set me up on a blind date. He promised the guy was hot and who was I to turn down a meal and a decent conversation?”

“You, an agent, are going on a blind date?” He smirked. That was rich. “So what’s his last name?”

You rolled your eyes, fingers lying along the keys before you plugged in your flash-drive. “None of your business.” You were struggling not to take the bait. After all, you two hadn’t known each other outside a few rocky missions and Thanos.

His smirk turned into a grin as he leaned against the wall. “That’s not a last name.”

Huffing, you spun around and placed a hand on your hip. That fire in your eyes was back. “You have opinions on my life and my relations, but let me tell you what —“

“Okay.” He shrugged. “Enlighten me.” You faltered, biting your tongue. How could you tell the Sam Wilson, the Falcon, an Avenger and  ex-partner of Captain America that you believed in fairytales? Mockingly, he asked, “Love is the one thing that has zero complications?”

Your frustration immediately molded itself into a glare. “And I can trust my gut.”

Sam outright laughed, holding up his hands. “Okay, you frighten me.”

You took a slow breath, trying to visibly relax as you turned your attention back to the computer. “Some people know their hearts the minute true love starts.”

“Some people read a lot of books,” he mocked, pushing himself off the wall. You seemed dead set on having faith that this date would turn out better than okay.

“I like books.” Running a hand through your hair, you added, “Some people simply know when true love says hello.” Wasn’t that what happened with Clint and his girl? Wasn’t that at least a possibility for you? Just some random bit of happiness? 

Sam walked towards you, amused because he never would have expected you to like fairytales. He never would have thought you hoped for that. Not with your line of work. “Some folks are taken in by curly locks and princely looks,” he reminded, tugging on a strand of your hair. 

You swatted his hand away, straightening and turning to face him. You wanted to make a dig, tell him something that would actually put him in his place. “He does have princely looks! We agree on that one.”

He snorted, twirling your hair around his finger as he asked, “Didn’t you say it was a blind date?”

Oops. You clenched your fist, not wanting to back down from his arrogance. “So I did a bit of digging. Doesn’t matter.”

“By the way,” he asked as you turned back to the computer. He leaned forward, his breath brushing the back of your neck and ear as he asked, “What color eyes does he have?”

You glanced up, gaze shifting just above the computer and to the wall of windows revealing the snowy mountains just outside. You jerked your elbow back, colliding with a couple ribs. He grunted, finally taking a step back as you smirked. One word. “Dreamy.”

“All I’m saying is when you go to climb a mountain, you don’t just jump to the top.” His voice was winded, weak as he tried to dull the ache in his gut. You had a pointy elbow.

“If it’s true love you can.”

Great. His partner wasn’t just hopeful. You were delusional. “There’s scalin’ and scramblin’ and too many steps for countin’. And the work doesn’t stop.” He was right. You both knew it. Eventually the honeymoon phase ended and everything in a relationship required work to last. You weren’t in denial about that detail, but with everything else in your life requiring so much work, it was nice to at least hope that a relationship might not be so chaotic.

Plus, you really just wanted to prove him wrong. “Maybe for you. Aren’t you the guy whose partners were and are the Steve Rogers and Bucky Barnes? You have your own chaos and work to focus on. Stay out of mine.” 

“Love’s not an easy climb, Y/N. You have to take your time.” Was that concern you heard? From Wilson of all people?

“We get a whole life.” You unplugged the flash-drive, pocketing it before getting to work on completely wiping the system. “That’s the plan.”

“That’s not a plan!” He laughed, partially from disbelief and partially because he hoped you couldn’t be completely serious. You really couldn’t be, right? “Love’s not a thing you get. It’s work and tears and sweat.”

“So says a sweaty, smelly, Avenger…man.”

“Nice insult.” He smirked before asking, “What do you know about love?”

“What do you know about love,” you snapped right back. He wasn’t just under your skin. He was burying himself, making a new home in your nerves. “Have you even kissed a girl?” He opened his mouth to answer and you smirked, looking at him as you added, “I mean a human girl.”

“Ouch.”

“Done.” The computer glitched, flashing once before becoming a blank screen of nothing. Success. “What do you know about anything?”

“Anything?” Voices down the hall made you both look behind you. Someone was coming. Your lookout had gotten a little too distracted. 

“Come on.” He grabbed your arm, leading you to another door. Opening it, a gust of wind and flurry of snow collided with you both. Instantly your nose turned red and you sniffled. You hated the cold. “Anyone with half a brain would have worn some winter gear.” 

You glanced back, the sound of incoming footsteps making you tense. Pushing him out the door, you followed and slammed the door shut. In front of you was a long bridge of sorts, thin railing caging you in that did next to nothing to protect from the steep drop on either side. Perhaps a quarter of a mile to your left was a similar set up, the two sides connecting with towers and bridges that seemed to create a medieval sort of square. Just inside? Soldiers training. From this height? There was no way they could see you. Not with the snow. “Anyone with half a life would have one friend who’s not a super.”

“I do!” His voice was indignant, carried by the wind as you pushed him towards the opposite side. A tall tower that gave them the opportunity to scale down and get to safety. That was their destination. That was their escape. Looking over your shoulder, he pulled out his gun and aimed it behind as you aimed it across the way. Both of you had each others backs as you crept along. “Any fool who jumps headlong is gonna bang their head,” he told you, smirking at the idea of one of those idiots trying to attack them. 

But there was always one idiot.

From across the way, it seemed you had been spotted. The person had to have been enhanced. Both of you were in camouflage that would have kept you hidden from the naked eye. A siren flooded your ears, causing you to wince as you spotted them. You took your shot, your own abilities making it possible to see the snitch. 

One bullet.

You pulled the trigger, your silencer muting the weapon before hearing the familiar sound of blunt force against metal. You barely had time to register that your aim was perfect. The Enhanced fell. Looking at the door you two had escaped from, you knew they were trying to get through. The problem was, their alarms had sent a trigger to bolt the door shut. It was supposed to keep Sam and you within the confines of the room. 

But even the enemy’s plans could backfire.

“Any fool who doesn’t jump right now is gonna probably end up dead,” you warned, looking over the edge. Sam’s wings would be enough. At least to get to safety. 

“Are you serious? You’re asking me to fly in this weather?” he asked, reading your mind.

“Not asking. Telling.” You grabbed his arm, flipping him over the rail and away from those who saw you as a target.

“Agent!” His voice was angry, indignant. Fine, lecture you later. You knew what you were doing.  You leaned back against the railing, shooting the door twice. You heard metal slide, reinforcing the door because the computers thought you were attempting to escape from the inside. Sometimes tech simply couldn’t substitute for the real thing, the real eye. A person wouldn’t make that mistake.

“Time to go,” you murmur, leaning back and flipping over the icy metal. It was only a brief moment of cold air rushing against your skin before you felt a pair of hands wrap around you, catching you and pulling you into a warm chest. 

Sam. 

For once you were grateful for the soldier, knowing fully well that if it had been Bucky, your whole body would be freezing because of his arm. Natasha? You’d have to use a grappling hook. Same with Clint. Tony’s idea would be to have you contained in a metal suit of armor. No, Sam Wilson was, for once, a much better option than any of the other Avengers.

Well, maybe not for once.

“You okay there?” he asked, voice muffled against the wind. Or was it because your ear was pinned against his chest and his voice was more of a rumble than a muffle? He flew up and out, gaining distance. 

Icy needles seemed to poke at your skin from the rush of wind and you found yourself burying your face in his chest. Not seeking his warmth, but rather protection from the elements. “I’ve been better.”

He chuckled, but you felt it more so than actually hearing it. “Don’t worry, I’ve got you.”

“Told you to listen to me.” You looked up at him, cocky smirk in place. Oh, how he wished he could wipe that smirk off your face. “I know danger when I see it. Just like I know love when I see — Whoa!”

Sam grunted as something tore through his right wing. He jerked forward, arms slipping from around you as you fell from his grip. “Y/N!” His voice was lost in the wind as you fell, faster and faster as the wind flew around you, ramming into and knocking the wind out of you. There was no way you could avoid frostbite in conditions like this. Looking down, you squeezed your eyes shut and waited to collide with the icy rocks beneath you.

But it never came.

Instead Sam dove, flying underneath and catching you bridal style. The wind was knocked out of both of you as the force of the collision knocked you two into the snow. Sam broke your fall. Groaning, he shifted underneath you, your stomach stretched across his and his wings buried in the fluffy abomination that was the cause of your chill. Yup, snow sucked. “That’s not quite how I thought we’d end up,” you murmured, arrogance gone as you rolled off of him.

He chuckled, running a hand over his face and tearing his goggles off. “You’ve got to think things through in life.” He blinked wearily and it was then you saw how the snow had caused a sort of burn around the goggles. It must have been from the reflection coming from the sun. Everything, but the portion of his eyes that had been protected was a few shades darker. “And love.”

You laughed, moving to sit up. That was fair. You deserved that. “Touche.” You turned to face him, helping dig his wings out of the snow before you were actually able to pull him up. “Think you can fly?”

Glancing at the wings, the look on his face showed he wasn’t entirely sure. Whether you two should risk it or call for backup, he didn’t know. If they took out one wing, it was safe to say that you were stranded. After all, he couldn’t carry the both of you on a barely functioning jet pack. But you didn’t want him to feel guilty. He did his best and it was your reckless idea that had gotten his suit damaged. And he went out of his way to… 

You shook your head, standing up. He followed suit and you looked around. He had managed to fly you out a couple miles before they clipped his wings. The building, similar to something like a castle, loomed through the mountains and it wouldn’t be too long before they sent scouts out looking for you. “Come on. We need to find shelter.”

“In this weather?”

“I don’t think we have a choice.”

“What about your date?”

You smiled. “I’ll reschedule.”

Walking through the snow wasn’t easy. You two had spent years in New York City, but the snow there wasn’t exactly thigh high and in the middle of a mountain. It was different, a terrain that neither of you had been entirely accustomed to. If it weren’t for Tony’s updating his jet pack, you were pretty sure it would have frozen in the temperature. Even beyond the grave that ridiculous man managed to make a difference. He was the reason you and Sam weren’t prisoners. Yet.

“Hey, we’ll get out of here,” he told you, as if hearing your thoughts.

“I know. Just a matter of actually getting help here in time.”

He followed a couple steps behind, knowing better than to argue with the concerns roaming around in your head. It was something you were positive Clint had warned him about. Sam was too much of an infuriating chatterbox to just let you deal. Your concerns were what led to solutions. You thought of possible outcomes, the good and the bad, and eventually it led to a plan that had little margin for error. All you had to do was think, allow yourself to worry and be concerned, and the plan would lay itself out for you.

After a couple hours of roaming the mountainside, you finally found a cave. Some place to rest and hopefully send out a signal for the agent flying your ride to come find you. Sam seemed to have the same idea because he ran ahead, clicking the straps of his jetpack as the two of you stepped into the damp dwelling. It was dark, a stark contrast to the overwhelming white behind you two, but neither of you complained. It allowed your eyes to rest, readjust and simple take a much needed break. Snow was too blinding, too overwhelming. Slipping the heavy contraption off his back, he  set it against the wall while you shook the snow out of your hair and off your arms. Some of it had taken the time to ice over and the same went for Sam. Time had to be taken to warm both of you up or you wouldn’t last the night.

Kicking the excess snow off your shoes and knocking them against the rocky wall, you let out a small huff. You needed food, water, and a fire. This was supposed to be an in and out mission. Not something that required such necessities. Looking at the opening of the cavern, your haven of the night, you wondered how the both of you could warm up without a fire. You didn’t need the smoke.

“I’d like to point out that we’ve come a good long way here,” he told you, cutting through the wind and your thoughts. He was right. You two barely knew each other and yet here you had infiltrated the enemy with ease, not fully aware of each other’s weaknesses and strengths, survived the possibility of death, and had managed to find somewhere to at least rest for the time being.

You chuckled, telling him, “And you’re…wow, you’re really strong. It surprised me that you caught me both times.”

Feigning surprise, he clutched his chest. “And see? You’re nice.” When you rolled your eyes, he smiled. Same old Wilson. No, you caught yourself, corrected yourself, same old Sam. “That jump was really brave,” he added, surprising you. He was actually complimenting your suicidal dive? 

Joking, you told him, “Your catch was quite a save.”

“Oh, I know.” Again, he was as cocky as you. Silence fell as you two stood back to back, trying to figure out your next step. He shook the snow off his boots and shoulders, wanting to keep talking. It wasn’t an argument and it wasn’t a mission. It was something else and it felt easy. “You’ve got some guts.”

You looked surprised. Another compliment? Did the snow get to his head? Did he have a concussion or something? “Thanks. You’ve got some…” What could she tell him? Lamely, she finally muttered, “Brains.”

He laughed, nodding because he understood it was weird for you. It was just as weird for him. No one liked learning about their partner on the go. “Come on, we’re soaked. Get out of the jacket before you freeze to death.” You didn’t really get to argue because he was already following his own instructions. As he did, he took long, slow strides to the back of the cave. The farther from the wind, the warmer it got. It was never actually anything other than cold, but it was better than the chilling wind that kissed the entrance of the cave over and over again.

So, you decided he might have a good idea this time around. Taking off the jacket, you unzipped one of the many pockets it had and pulled out a small blanket. Now that it wasn’t in a confined space, the nanotech within the fabric allowed the creation to expand. It wasn’t thick, but it was something dry and usable. He was already sitting at the very back, leaning against the wall. You crouched next to him and he instinctively raised a hand, wrapping it around your shoulders as you laid the material over four shivering legs. Nothing about this screamed sexual or romantic, but rather a need to rely on each other’s body warmth. You curled into his side, resting your head on his chest, just above his heartbeat while he absentmindedly traced your arm. Goosebumps followed in his wake, but you weren’t cold. It was actually relaxing instead. 

“With miles and miles to go,” he murmured, resting his chin on the top of your head. You could hear it in his voice, he was tired. He was trying to find the words before sleep took over. “I guess it’s nice to know —“

You seemed to read his mind, voicing with him, “That I can trust you.”

He chuckled, liking that you understood him so well. “Though the question still remains.” Oh, here it comes. Another insult cooked up in that wild imagination of his. “What do you know about love?” You laughed, shaking your head as he shifted so that his cheek was resting on your head. It was more comfortable for both of you. Like your elbow, his chin was rather bony. “Just be careful on that date.”

You snorted, crossing your legs over his as your eyes slowly closed. “Have a little faith, hm?” Voice soft, barely above a murmur, “At least we know one thing.”

He nudged you with the arm that seemed to provide a blanket for your shoulders. “What’s that?” Whether he was actually able to listen or not, you didn’t know. He sounded more asleep than awake, but interest still peaked his voice. 

“This trip was interesting.”

Silence. No chuckle, no nudge, and you found yourself worried. That is, until you heard the snore that rumbled through his chest and out his nose. Biting your lip to stifle a laugh, you shook your head. It was definitely interesting indeed. Leaning back, you allowed your aching limbs to relax against him. Both of you needed to sleep and the confines of the cave proved safe enough. When you woke again, then you’d focus on help, but for know? Just one thought drifted through your mind as sleep tugged at your subconscious. 

What do you really know about love?

[disposedserenity]

BTS in Singapore #LoveYourselfSG

I don’t know who would even wanna read about a concert that happened A MONTH AGO. But if you are still keen, hey ho.

*I’m gonna recount the entire day in great detail, so please feel free to skip any details if you don’t care about it.*

disclaimer: all pics & videos are not mine unless stated, credit goes to bts/bighit/fansites/fans

For reference, I was at yellow 1 (left side of the extended stage)

On the night before the concert, it still felt unreal. I was surprisingly calm and I was even watching 聲林之王 with glenn (who stayed over) 😂 I thought I wouldn’t be able to sleep but I ended up falling asleep at around 3 am.

19 January, 6.00am: My eyes opened and I was sooooo effing tired LOL. I swear I was in a daze all the way till the actual concert. We got ready and proceeded to leave the house at 8 am. Once I arrived at the stadium, there were fans everywhere. The group of us (carol, mingyou, glenn and I) decided to grab a cup of tea/coffee to wake ourselves up and I don’t know how, but it was already past 9 am by the time we bought our drinks. Glenn and I went to collect the various fansupport items (a cool thing about kpop concerts is the amount of free stuff given out by fans) and we went to find glenn’s roommate who had been queuing for merch since 6am.

At 10.30 am, glenn and I went to register for soundcheck. The place we were at (outdoor area outside astons) had various dance cover groups, which was actually a pretty good form of entertainment to pass the time. After we were done with registration, glenn had to pick up an item she had ordered from a fansite, which we had a hell of a difficult time trying to find because the stadium is so freaking big. We had to speed walk to queue for soundcheck right after, as we were already late (queueing started at 12.30pm and it was almost 1pm)

SOUNDCHECK:

That was basically my reaction when BTS walked out.

Even though they were in casual clothes and had no makeup on, (Jhope even tweeted about it!!!), in my mind they looked like this as they were walking over to us HAHAHA:

They performed three songs in total: mic drop, dna and run. I went in assuming they would each be rehearsing their solos, so I wasn’t expecting those three songs to be chosen. But, it makes total sense because these are the more hype songs. My memory is slowly fading so I’ll let drake illustrate how I felt during the soundcheck.

When they all stood in one line right in front of me:

When I heard the opening note of mic drop:

KIM NAMJOON, KIM SEOKJIN, MIN YOONGI, JUNG HOSEOK, PARK JIMIN, KIM TAEHYUNG, JEON JUNGKOOK, BTS!!!!!!!

**when I heard the whistling in DNA**

*run plays* me: YAAAAAAAAS BICTH

me realising midway that bts is real and I’m actually seeing them like wtaf-

armys after the soundcheck:

I don’t know how I ever got so lucky winning soundcheck passes, but I wanna thank all the lords and the universe for awarding BOTH glenn and I this opportunity. Soundcheck is truly such an intimate experience because you get to experience bts in all their natural glory. Even though this was just a rehearsal, it felt like a mini concert and I even told glenn that I’d be fine if I didn’t go for their concert and I can die happy lmaoooo.

Brief soundcheck tidbits (you can read the rest here):

1) Jin looks THE best without makeup, he has such good skin and I swear this man is really really handsome in person. I’ll admit I never bought into the worldwide handsome hype before, but I’m a convert now.

2) Jin kept looking at glenn and I several times and he was FULL ON staring. It wasn’t even a brief glance, it was as if I owed him money and he was waiting for me to return it to him (yes jin i owe u my money and life). I kept wondering if I was delusional (aren’t we all, tbh). To be fair, I think jin was also looking at the barricades behind us and/or staring into space, but this man definitely looked me straight in the eye. How did I survive? I didn’t, I’m typing from my grave

3) hobi glows in person, and he’s really not called the sun for nothing. He was the first one to walk out on stage and he had the biggest smile plastered on his face the entire time. Sunshine radiates from this man with every move he makes. Alongside joon, he was the one speaking the most and leading the members.

Ok, so storytime. There were supposed to be 1000 soundcheck winners but when we entered, there was NO way that there were 1000 of us. Our area had probably around 100 - 150 people max and the same goes for the other side. During the concert ment time,  jungkook mentioned that there were only 200++ fans at soundcheck. The moment he said that, glenn and I turned to each other and went “HUH?” and we clowned him because we thought he couldn’t math... (sorry jk bro for doubting you oops). As it turns out, about 800 soundcheck passes were cancelled because they were obtained through special means and connections. AND, the reason they looked really tired/sad at soundcheck was because they were expecting 1000 fans and they probably thought they couldn’t even fill up that amount. :( fuck you scalpers, fuck you snakes staff, but I’m glad bighit decided to cancel all those tickets because those fools dont deserve it and also more space for us soundcheck winners muahahaha.

Before I delve into the concert experience, I need to vent about my stupidity and anger at myself. **CAUTION: RANT AHEAD** So, the standing ticket holders were let in to the venue from 4 pm onwards, and we happily found a spot to settle in and chill. (it was definitely NOT chill in our pit, but that’s another story) At around 6.30pm, everyone decided to stand up officially. Fast forward 15 minutes, I went into full panic mode because I needed to pee. Usually, I’ll just hold it in but my stomach was feeling quite queasy (I’ve been having a lot of stomach issues since november). I also didn’t wanna watch the entire concert with the constant urge to pee because that’s so fun, right? It just SO happened that mingyou and carol were talking about going to the back to watch the concert so I said fuck it, I’ll just go to the toilet and stand at the back too. Went to the toilet to pee and ta-da, ONLY TWO FREAKING DROPS OF PEE CAME OUT. I was so pissed at myself (my body really) because it made me leave my front spot for nothing. But, what’s done was done. I told myself that hey, at least you can finally breathe now (while internally cursing). **RANT OVER**

CONCERT:

Even though I’ve watched so many fancams from their concert, NOTHING will ever beat the experience of watching it in person. I got GOOSEBUMPS when the first note of idol played and they all rose from the platform. Till this day, I STILL get goosebumps rewatching any idol fancams because of that exact moment.

me watching the IDOL opening stage for the 94919994th time:

I was watching IDOL from the back with carol and mingyou, and I was truly thankful that I had the space to dance and go wild. But, that feeling lasted briefly because I realised I was so damn far from the stage. BTS was performing most of their choreographed songs at the purple main stage so even if I was at my original spot, I still wouldn’t be able to see them. The huge led screens existed for that very reason, but my stubborn ass was adamant on watching them on the stage instead of seeing them through a screen.

me deciding to squeeze my way back in again:

After IDOL, it was time for their intro ment (introducing themselves, saying a few comments the usual stuff). Immediately after, they performed save me/I’m fine. I don’t know why my idiotic ass thought this was a good time to squeeze my way in when I should have been FOCUSED on my boys. I was basically half watching them, half saying sorry excuse me to strangers. *bows head deeply and slaps self*

Ok moving on.... I really freaking love how they created the transition from save me to I’m fine. The part where tae gets up into a bridge position was b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l. For some reason, he looked particularly breathtaking doing this move at this very concert. The beauty of live performances, indeed.

Personally, tae stood out in save me/I’m fine the most.

Magic Shop was next, which surprised me because I forgot that it was so early in the setlist. Hence, I was NOT ready for the incoming wave of emotions.

“so show me, I’ll show you” will forever remain one of the most iconic lines in the fandom 😭😭😭 I think I would have cried if this song was played towards the end of the concert. 

As per tradition, a subunit vcr is played before each members solos. So the order goes hopekook, minjoon, tae and yoonjin (yoonjin was too!! much!! to handle because it was 2 separate screens and I didn’t know where to look at???)

Jungkook: Euphoria

(aiyooo look at them cheeks *pinch*)

I love how this has now become our official fanchant (for context). Euphoria is one of my fave intros after seesaw and my ears were in for a treat that night. (It was also at this point I decided to just stay in my current spot instead of trying to find glenn). Jungkook sounds amazing live and this made me realise that wow, he really deserves the main vocalist title.

As most fans would have known, Jungkook was so exhausted at the seoul music awards, which was a mere few days before the concert. Naturally, I was worried that kook would push himself too much in sg. I could tell he was definitely a little worn out, but he still gave it his all (bcos its jungkook) and delivered an impressive performance. I’m truly happy I’ve witnessed euphoria live 😍

J-Hope: Just Dance

JUNG HO SEOK, YOU GOOD??? J-hope showed me what the term bias wrecker really meant that night. I think EVERYONE left the stadium that night rethinking their bias list (if you didn’t, you’re lying). His stage presence and charisma is out of this world. Everyone knows he’s a good dancer, but seeing him executing those moves in person is REALLY something else. 

my face during the entire performance

when he walked over to the extended stage, I was like

WHO IS HE? HE’S J-HOOOOOOOOPE! LOUDER!

I Need U + Run

I honestly don’t remember much from this except for THE vmon moment because they were kinda all over the place. They started at the main stage, then came over to the extended stage and were just dancing their hearts out freely. The members were all splashing water (Idk how they do it so nicely, I’ll probably just hit someone’s head with the bottle) and there was a water cannon. The water cannon was SOOOO strong, I and the people around me were caught off guard (rip my hair & makeup). Bighit probably knew mosh pit fans were sweaty as hell so they wanted us to take a bath. How nice of them.

I loooooveee the outfits they wore here. I’m not a fan of all white ensembles but on bts, I’ll make an exception. They look like ethereal angels who've descended down to earth for one day to grace us with their presence. I’M HERE FOR IT.

look at all da sparkles (and jimin’s messy hair uwu)

Jimin: Serendipity

Till this day, jimin remains my favourite performer in bts. Whenever I watch a bts performance, my eyes automatically go straight to jimin. As a contemp dancer trained in ballet, you can see how that has shaped his performances. Fluidity is the term I would use to describe his style, because he moves like he’s gliding through water. I often find myself rewatching his fancams the most because he has so much adaptibility, its crazy. He knows when to go hard and when to reel it back in. Jimin has such pretty dance lines as well. He stands out because he really pays attention to the little details (the turn of a foot, the hand placement, arch of a back)

Out of all the solos, serendipity is really the prettiest. The combination of jimin’s glitter shirt + pastel hair + bubbles really was a feast for the eyes 😍

See what I mean? Jimin looks so picturesque even in motion.

Trivia: Love

As glenn pointed out, Joon looks so much softer in person (he’s a real life koya 😭). In person, his features are much softer and ‘rounder’. While he may have soft features (how many times can I use the word soft), his stage presence is a huge contrast. I’ve often noticed that out of everyone, joon is the most focused member during performances. While the others will interact with fans/try to incorporate some kind of fan service, rm concentrates solely on carrying out what he’s supposed to do. I can respect that.

Ugh!!! This man!!! Honestly, I was a little worried joon wouldn’t get the hype and cheers he rightfully deserves but Singapore impressed me. Well done, my fellow countrymen (and foreign fans). There was a girl beside me who screamed super loud and kept yelling “KIM NAMJOON!!!!!” so I was like HELLLL YEAH OKAY FINALLY SOMEONE AS HYPED AS ME LEGGO. Jungkook making a heart at the end with namjoon was so cute uwu. Everyone collectively lost their shit when joon slid his jacket off over one shoulder. King of giving the people what they want, I see you.

**another thing to note is how he always looks SOOO happy performing love. You can see the genuine happiness radiating off this man. It makes me happy too 🤗

DNA

The main talking point of this performance was that jimin fell. I actually missed it, because I could only see their side view and jimin was blocked from my pov. By the time I looked at the screen, jimin was already on the floor (still smiling bcos he’s jimin) and I was like oh nooooooo. Apparently after that, they coordinated among themselves mid song to tell each other not to do the ending choreo. A PLUS TEAMWORK, RIGHT THERE! tae even went to wipe the floor after the performance, bless his precious soul.

sidenote: I love love their dna outfits, especially the jackets!! They had different ones for the america and europe concerts, but I do love the asia tour ones just a little more.

Medley

The other highlight of the concert happened here because I was reunited with glenn!!!!!!! I found her just when they launched into fire and we were like OOOOOMMMMGGGG YAS. I actually gave up on ever finding her, but I suddenly saw her blouse from the corner of my eye (THANK YOU GLENN FOR WEARING A PINK DAISY TOP). During the medley, everyone kept following wherever the boys went because the boys were on the moving stage. I felt like I was at a wave pool getting pushed without even moving. They were right at the back at the small diamond stage, so I couldn’t really see much. I had no choice but to watch from the screen. 

funny moments: tae doing pubg dances LOOOL , rm’s legendary hip thrust (you’re welcome)

Airplane Pt. 2

I.. actually forgot that this song was on the setlist. It felt really anti climatic and I wish they would have arranged this to be after DNA or something. 

*airplane pt 2 comes on me:

Jokes aside, I do love this song. It was even one of my top songs in 2018 according to spotify.

V: Singularity

For the first and only time during the concert, this made me speechless. Normally, I’d be cheering and singing along to all of the songs. BUT man oh man, I couldn’t tear my eyes away from tae. While jimin is my favourite performer to watch, I believe that tae is the most expressive performer in bts. Whenever I watch him, I realise that wow that’s really a celebrity right there. Its easy to dress up and put on a show, but not everyone can really perform. What separates a regular person from a star is the x factor, and taehyung is the perfect embodiment of that.

Look

at

that

duality

Fake Love

First off, how did I not notice jhope was wearing leather gloves???? Fake love is still that bitch, no matter what anyone says. It gave us goth bangtan and that’s all I could ever ask for.

I wasn’t expecting them to perform the rock version, and I LOVE IT. I’ve probably watched all of their fake love performances, but seeing it live just solidified it as my fave title track from the love yourself series. Funny anecdote: jungkook didn’t lift his shirt up like he usually does and I swear the people around me were disappointed. They didn’t outrightly say anything, but I could feel the sadness 😂

Suga: Seesaw

ALRIGHT, SHE DROPPED THE CHEESECAKE TIME. Seesaw is my fave solo so you bet your sweet ass this bitch was excited AF!

Singapore did good for the seesaw fanchants, I’m so proud of us *wipes away tear* yoongi definitely noticed our efforts and smiled so freaking wide when he heard us (he absolutely has THE cutest gummy smile).

I remember the entire fandom (me included) got shookt to the core when yoongi first debuted the seesaw performance. We were like ‘suga dancing??’ Seesaw as a song itself was already a pretty unconventional fit for yoongi. We were all used to his hard hitting rap songs (agust d says hi) so we were really surprised. But, you can see how much fun yoongi always has whenever he’s performing seesaw and I’m thankful that he reversed our expectations with this song.

Jin: Epiphany

THIS MAN, yes I am suing. His name is Kim Seok Jin. How dare he make me feel all of the feels when I specifically told him not to? Hearing 50,000 people singing “I’m the one I should love in this world” together was truly a historical moment (just hear how it sounds from OUTSIDE the stadium). Seeing Jin channel all of his emotions into this song was heartbreaking, yet cathartic at the same itme. I would have full on ugly cried but all the screaming probably killed the mood.

the gaze of a man who knows the power he holds, ugh I stan

Epiphany is such a perfect song, 10/10. I don’t know what else to say because nothing I ever say will compare to the experience of actually watching it live. I love you, jin (no hetero)

The Truth Untold

v, jimin, jungkook, jin are the nation’s vocalists thank you for coming to my ted talk

I could barely hear tae at the start because of his mic, which was a shame :( Aside from that, everyone sounded really great. TTU is a song that can strain your voice if not done properly. There were definitely some concerts where some of them struggled to reach the high notes or the correct key. One thing’s for sure though - Jin has CONSISTENTLY been singing in perfect pitch and ALWAYS delivers a fantastic performance. Jin’s singing is so stable, it deserves more recognition. I love tae’s ad lib here and how he made everyone lose their marbles after.

Outro: Tear

HANDS DOWN, FAVE PERFORMANCE OF THE NIGHT!!!!! I walked out of the concert still thinking about tear, because it was THAT powerful. I’m glad glenn was beside me for this because she’s the only other tear enthusiast I know (TEAM SENN ✊🏼). BTS individually have amazing stage charisma, but put the three rappers together and you get AN UNDENIABLE FORCE. I’ll always stan rap line till the day I die. The three of them have such different rapping styles, yet nothing sounds out of place when they work together.

yoongi in headbands is so hot, no one fight me on this

Mic Drop

Second fave performance of the night! (okay I might be slightly biased, since it was right after tear) Even though this was nearing the end of the concert, I was actually way more energetic than I was at the start. It was like I was saving all my energy stores for this very moment. When joon mentioned it was their last song, I was like NOOOOOOOOO WAIT WHAT YOU CAN’T LEAVE YET. Then, I remembered that there was an encore segment and the world was all right again.

I see you stylists with the second white ensemble of the night, and I raise you one. Mic drop is the song that can get anyone hyped up anywhere. I feel like this is the song that you can play at clubs / festivals and it wont feel out of place. Fun story: the dj at dpr live’s show played mic drop and everyone was lowkey jamming to it (also shout out to all the armys there)

Please watch jhope’s fancam!!! I’ve always felt that mic drop is one of the few songs that allows him to really shine as a dancer. As a hip hop dancer, he doesn’t get many opportunities to showcase it because he has to ‘tone down’ for bts choreos. If you have the time, do check out all of his hopeonthestreet videos to really see dancer hoseok in his element!

mandatory iconic yoongi mic drop

Encore Stage (So What & Anpanman)

All of the cutest and funniest interactions took place right here!!! Before the concert, I was going back and forth between getting purple or yellow tickets but I definitely do NOT regret getting yellow tickets! The extended stage is where you can see their goofy selves come out to play.

joon + jimin’s cheeks: an untold love story

p.s. joon was casually applying lip balm before this moment, lol

me whenever minjoon minjoons

this is peak joon at his final form

jimin got to start anpanman this time!!

cosmo and wanda (I mean vmin) being the absolute cutest

chaotic duo taejin back at it again

vmon was being very very cute during anpanman & so what!! There were so many vmon moments throughout the concert, THANK YOU UNIVERSE for blessing me with the most underrated ship.

noteworthy moments during the encore stage:

-sope freaking looked at glenn and I, and we almost combusted right there. Both of them came over to our side at one point, and stepped down onto this black box platform just below (no wonder they felt so close). Almost everyone else were on their phones, so naturally they noticed us because we were the only two crazy bitches cheering by ourselves. I MADE EYE CONTACT AND THAT’S ALL THAT MATTERS. suga smiled so hard when he saw us going all out, and that’s when I knew: I was yoongi’s bitch for life. jhope was looking at us with a sort of approval *stands at attention* YES SIR ARMY REPORTING FOR DUTY

-jungkook came over to our side of the stage and was just in right front of me. I took this time to really look at his face (HAHA) because I felt like I didn’t see him enough during the concert. He was doing body rolls (looked a little something like this) and everyone around me was busy trying to get his attention. Upon closer ‘inspection’ of jungkook, I have concluded that he is a 5 year old trapped in a 20 year old ripped body. His body proportions are reeeealllyy crazily good - with his tiny waist and long legs (and veiny arms). I can see why people lose their mind over him, but he’ll always remain an adorable bunny to me.

-I got blessed by yoongi’s holy water during so what. I didn’t think I was gonna be close enough to get the water but I GUESS NOT! I’ve never been happier getting splashed with water in my life. I swear, yoongi was so cute bouncing around and just smiling the whole time (I can’t stop talking about yoongi, SO SUE ME)

this is what jungkook looks like in person, can you believe? Fansite pictures are always heavily edited (especially jungkook’s for some reason) so sometimes they can come across as quite ‘fake looking’ when you look at images. Lemme tell you, they look a thousand times better in person. The melanin, the glow, the messy hair, their natural skin - can we get a hallelujah

Final Ment

Their final ment before we parted ways :((( I do enjoy hearing them speak even if its in korean, because you get to listen to their thoughts and feelings. I also really appreciate their attempt in speaking english, because it shows that they care. They might have memorised what to say, but effort goes a long way!

- tae saying we are part of his story, memory and scenery 😭😭😭 who knew it would be a teaser for his song! that sly kid. give it a listen over here, you won’t regret it.

- jungkook saying that the fans at soundcheck (*raises hands* YES IT ME) cheered crazily good. yasss thank you kook for acknowledging us and trust me, you could have just ten armys and we’ll still cheer like 10,000 people!

yoongi was being so freaking cute and for what?? that little pout before he launched into his speech.... HERE TAKE MY HEART

the best part was yoongi correcting the translator (not good night, GREAT night) man’s fluent in english but never shows it off, I approve of this slytherin move. yoongi even mentioned that he thought there was a day 2 concert. live nation, what are you doing??? I was so looking forward to a day 2 concert too. Is minstradamus predicting a 2 day concert in Singapore in the future??  👀

jin is a sagittarius in every sense of the word. the way he waited for his close up before slowly removing his shades.....I’m honestly not surprised anymore. I’m too used to having so many sagittarius in my life LOL. he even attempted to speak singlish not once, but twice. I sincerely applaud the effort, though my greedy self wished every member tried too (I’m still waiting for jimin to say ‘ zuo mo ni jiang bad de’)

speaking of jimin, he sang promise!! for the first time!! live!! singapore was truly blessed :)))))

thank you God for spending a little more time on this fine specimen, jung hoseok. hoseok is fine, but with his forehead exposed? FINE FINE. *cue me singing I’m fine* everyone was chanting “J Hope! J Hope! J Hope!’ even before he spoke and he was like oooooh, me? while pointing at himself like pls hobi ITS ALL FOR YOU BBY.

yes, you have stolen my heart jung hoseok

I can’t believe this man even bothered to count the days and meals for his speech..... (I like how bts pretends music bank didnt exist LMAO) this man can honestly sell you a trash bag with how eloquent he is. english is his second/third language yet he can construct better sentences in english than I ever will. in Jeon Jungkook’s words “Kim Namjoon, you dangerous man”

Answer: Love Myself (aka THE END CRIES)

At last, the final song dawned upon us. This is it, the moment reality hits you. That we’re all gonna return to our sad little lives after the concert. I was expecting myself to cry, but I actually felt... at peace? Hearing them sing “I should love myself” also served as a final reminder that that is also the title of their world tour, and the key message to take away from the love yourself series. At the end of the day, bts are also 7 young men in their 20s struggling alongside the rest of us. They have their own battles to fight too, but at least we’re all in this together. BTS may be there to provide us with happiness and love, but we must never forget to look inward first. 💜

Welcome, first time experiencing singapore’s humidity?

Singapore air’s just that powerful huh

I got chills, they’re multiplying!

Ngl, Singapore really impressed me. Every member’s solo got the same deserving amount of screams and we even got seesaw’s part down! (yoongi was really happy huhu) I don’t think they nor us fans expected such an enthusiastic response, but I hope this lifted their spirits up. Touring non stop for months is no easy feat, and I hope our passion made them less weary for one night. I still feel extremely blessed that I got to see them so quickly after I became a full-fledged fan. Hope to see you boys real soon! 😁😁😁

p.s. I recommend reading glenn’s experience here, because it is MUCH more detailed and well articulated

p.p.s link to jimin fancams, link to j-hope fancams, link to rm tear fancam

To end off, here are some random/cute pics for your enjoyment ~

me shaking off all the sweat, filth and water out of my hair after the concert

grandpa over flowers

hello glenn, this is for you

LOOK at jungkook’s forearms.... he can literally kill us all

The cameraman was WHIPPED for tae that night, it kept focusing on tae for a good chunk of time (I can’t blame him/her, we were all in awe too)

Singapore is officially J-hope land now. Can he run for president next?

Thank you for giving me a night I will never forget 190119 will forever be etched in my memory 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

[team-free-squiggle]

Young and Menace  (Virgil’s Fantasia ~ Pt. 2)

Ok So I can’t believe how many people have liked my writings and just ahh, you are all so kind??? I love this fandom so much, honestly, and you guys are just too awesome. Please keep being yourselves, you’re all too good for this world.

Anygay, mini rant aside, enjoy the next installment of this fic!

Pt. 1 is here

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Fandom: Thomas Sanders/Sanders Sides

Type: Chaptered series 

Summary: Virgil discovers FOB’s latest album and falls in love with it. The others are confused but glad that he’s happy. And then they want to know why he listens to it so much and want to see how much he loves it.

Characters: Virgil Sanders, Patton Sanders, Logan Sanders, Roman Sanders. mentions of Deceit (abstractly~ish)

Pairing: LAMP/polysanders

Warnings: nothing, tho I will be using lyrics to some of the songs

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Virgil had no idea what would happen when his boyfriends had asked to see what music made him feel. He didn’t know how to express it, if pictures could succeed where words failed. And what if it worked? What if they saw something that made them all hate Virgil?

‘Breathe, in and out.’ Virgil did his best to ignore the swirling thoughts, smiling softly as Patton laid a hand on his shoulder as they moved towards Thomas’ Imagination. It helped to ground him, and he realized that he himself was curious. 

Feelings can be complex, and it would be interesting (albeit maybe embarrassing) to see how his own emotions would be represented through music and seemingly random images. They eventually found the Imagination, Virgil walking through and shaping it to how he wanted before letting the others in. 

Roman smiled - Virgil had used his theater and put a screen on it to show the images that would appear on it for him. Patton was ready to interpret images into feelings, hopping into a seat excitedly as Roman sat down beside him. Logan grabbed their other boyfriend, gently pulling him into the other seat by Patton. Logan sat down, and thus their mini movie began.

The screen faded quickly from black to purple with the opening notes of the song. Virgil shut his eyes, relishing in the feeling that those few notes alone gave him. Logan, Roman, and Patton felt a shiver run through their spines as they sat up a little straighter, Virgil’s eyes opening right when the lyrics began.

We’ve gone way too fast for way too long

And we were never supposed to make it half this far

Virgil smiled as the purple overlay stayed on the screen, but turned into a lone car on a long, winding highway. The sky shimmered with stars at midnight, and the color faded a little, giving everything the feel of an old photograph or a long lost memory. A time that Virgil wished he could remember, the small time before the things he wished to forget. 

And I’ve lived so much life, lived so much life

that I think God just gonna have to kill me twice

Kill me twice like my name was Nikki Sixx

The screen continued to fade, but this time the purple too. What was once purple was slowly becoming black, what was once a highway dissolving into mere dust. The black began to swirl into storm clouds, Patton holding onto Virgil’s hand as he saw what exactly the Anxious side was reminded of when he heard this song.

I woke up in my shoes again, but somewhere you exist

singing oops I, did it again I, forgot what I was losing my mind about.

The black was suddenly blinded by yellow, all sides cringing. Black and yellow smoke encircled the storm clouds, like a snake. Not harming anything, but steadfastly preventing anything from getting better. Virgil held Patton’s hand a little tighter, the four boyfriends waiting with bated breath to see what would come next.

I only wrote this down to make you press rewind 

and send a message

I was young, and a menace

Here, the purple storm clouds broke free of the black and yellow smoke. Bits of paper came floating down through the sky as a bolt of lightning flashed through the screen. The black and yellow blew away, the storm finally stronger than them. But at what cost?

Young and menace was a phrase booming through the room as the storm calmed down a little, letting a few rays of sunshine into the picture as the song continued.

We woke up on the wrong side of reality

and this madness that’s just coursing right through me

The storm let the sun stay, but some lightning was still crackling, as though the fight wasn’t yet over. Virgil knew that it wasn’t, and the others did too. The fight that Virgil still feels, the fight in him that he is reminded of when he hears this song.

And as far as the time

far as the time

not sure I’m there yet ‘but I’m certain I’ve arrived

yeah  

The images danced wildly, wind pushing the storm towards another, even bigger fight. Storms could not last forever, and Virgil’s emotions worked the same way. Eventually, something would break. But he would fight it with all he has, because he has several reasons to stay alive. And that’s why the next scene is what it is. 

 oops I, did it again I, forgot what I was losing my mind about.

I only wrote this down to make you press rewind

and send a message

I was young, and a menace

The storm clouds looked on as night settled over them, unable to do anything to stop it. And as the song continued, it realized that maybe it wasn’t always going to be a fight. 

Virgil was strong. His boyfriends knew it, and he was starting to recognize it himself. And even as yellow and orange and green* swirled around his clouds on the screen, he stayed relatively calm.

If I’m off the deep end

I’m just here to become the best yet

I’m just here for the psych assessment.

I’m just here for the - for the - for!

He didn’t have to face the storm, he was the storm. Nothing could stop him from being who he is, from loving who he loves. Virgil realized, for the first time, that in a way this song almost represented his own freedom. 

Young and menace continued, the others noticing the change in Virgil’s emotions. Because where some saw a storm, a source of power - they saw the person beneath. They knew Virgil, not Anxiety anymore. 

We’ve gone way too fast for way too long... 

And the night faded, the clouds not dispersing, but becoming more gentle. Still had a few rough edges, and nothing was perfect, but now they could see the sunshine and the world below and the sky the clouds were in. 

And they were happy, all completely ready to move onto the next song.

Champion.

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*the yellow orange and green thing - If you haven’t seen it, there’s a couple posts on Tumblr talking about colours of the sides. Like how Virgil and Deceit would be opposites because of the colour wheel, where purple is opposite yellow. Orange and green are opposite blue and red (Logan and Patton were combined for this) and so I just went with it because I absolutely love this idea. All credit to the people who made those posts (even though I can’t find your blogs I’m so sorry)

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Also I want to apologize to those on my tag list, because apparently it doesn’t tag automatically, so it hasn’t been tagging. Apologies, but that should be fixed now. Just fyi. 

Tag List

(Sanders Sides)

@astraastro

@madly-handsome

@amber1594

@lie-lie-birdy

@thebaagelboy

@justanotherpurplebutterfly

@ravenclawunicorn1

@ako1209

@funsizedgremlin

@princessbelix

@water13girl

@romanasanders

@deathshadowrules

@virgils-jacket

@fandomsofrandom

@cochroachkappa-blog

@zoeyheys

@chipminkle

@6tick6tock6

@maizieandbirds

(All)

@birdybabybird

@awesomelissawho

[rqs902]

bias explanation tag

ok so @banana-jiayou tagged me to do this about one month ago and me being the forgetful person that i am, am just getting around to it now!!!

nini actually tagged me to talk about either my banana or my mr-x bias, but because i still consider myself as “developing” my bias order in mr-x (altho anyone can probably tell im leaning towards luo zheng) i’ll go with banana kids!! 

you may know already, my banana bias is Lu Dinghao 🌞🌞

(i dug deep into my #ludinghao tag to try to piece together what i can remember of what happened hahahha)

the rest will go under the cut bc i think this is gonna get kinda long....

Idol Producer Era

you may have seen me rant about this in my tags before, but I really did not plan on watching Idol Producer... at all. I watched p101s2 and it wasn’t the greatest experience for me (kenta and youngmin were my favs ;;;) and so I wasn’t too keen on starting another extremely similar show, because I had little hopes that the kids I’d like would make it to the end, so I thought the show would just end in disappointment for me again.  

but! *drumroll please* cue chen linong! (i promise, im getting to dinghao, itll all make sense eventually LOL)

so I forget why, but maybe when I was just on the internet, I heard a LOT about chen linong. (even my friends who don’t watch ip who are just normal taiwanese kids HAVE HEARD OF chen linong. he’s honestly THAT popular in taiwan that regular people who dont care about ip know his name - its crazy!) so i heard he was taiwanese and I heard he was super popular and tons of people loved him. so what did i do? I went and looked up his audition video bc i was like wtf why is this kid so popular?? whats so special about him??

so one audition video, one intro video, one upward!trainee video, and a couple of douyins later, i was officially committed to watching idol producer for chen linong. 

the next step, what do I do? go to wikipedia (LOL) and search up what other taiwanese boys are on the show. i immediately notice 3 of them are from banana ent and banana ent actually also has a malaysian child. (which was super interesting to me too bc i have a lot of friends who are southeast asian and southeast asian representation is super cool!!) and so i watched all of the 5 other taiwanese kids’ intro videos and upward!trainee videos. I’ll be honest, at the time none of them stood out to me as strongly as linong (I just love love love smiley guys, and linong’s personality was so strongly taiwanese and so down-to-earth in his audition video, i just couldn’t resist!) but from there, bc 3 of the 6 taiwanese kids were in banana, I knew to look out for the banana kids. 

fast forward to episode 2, I watch the banana audition perf and dinghao sort of stands out to me because i usually go for the “happy/ mood-maker” member in kpop groups, so when he introduced himself as “小太陽陸定昊” i was like oo who’s this? also im soft for boys with the curved lip smile thing heheh and so in my curiosity to find out who he is, i look him up and find his instagram! (i didnt have weibo yet) and I start seeing pictures like these and I’m like oh my goodness he’s beautiful :o 

but i think julie (@qinfour) was one of the first people i talked to about this, but one of the reasons why i usually like “happy/ mood-maker” members is because I feel like I can relate to them (ie: dinghao) bc I feel similar to them. In high school i was seen as the crazy hyper happy one and people actually thought that i was constantly happy.... all the time... which is impossible. so it was hard for me at times bc when i wasn’t feeling happy, people would discredit my feelings, or as soon as I stopped smiling, people would be like omg whats wrong with you?? so to me, seeing idols who are like that, having a happy, fun exterior but are actually insecure / experiences hardships inside, makes me feel like i can relate to them. 

so anyway, so after ep 2 im already like kinda interested in dinghao (but also still interested in linong and the other banana trainees, but he’s on my radar) and so ep 3 rolls around and this HISTORIC xinfan ep from Feb. 2nd comes with it: 

(in the original video, the banana part starts around 8:36) and from watching this and dyING of laughter at zhangjing being adorable and sassy and dinghao being HILARIOUS, i was like ok i like them, they’re my fav banana children!! (even tho neither of them are taiwanese and i only became interested in banana in the first place bc they had taiwanese people LOOL) and you may be wondering, what about yanjun?? he was really funny in that video too?? but actually yanjun didn’t stand out to me until around “ai ni” bc he was in the same group as dinghao maybe bc i just didnt get his humor as much??? HAHAHHAHA like zhangjing and dinghao were like SO FUNNY to me but yanjun i was likeee okayyy (i love him and his humor so much now, but idk i just didnt get it back then?? LOL oops sorry yanjun) but yea, it wasn’t until “ai ni” that i started noticing him and then gradually it snowballed into i was MADLY VOTING FOR YANJUN by the the final ep and SUPER EMOTIONAL when he made it into the final 9, like my body was shakinggg, i was so happy !!! (i was MUCH happier with the result than i was with p101s2!) 

but anyway, back to the point, I think around this time was when i found out about the “rock the show” mv (it was actually released beforehand, on 1/29 and the dance version 2/6??), and I think i freaked out to violet (@zhu-xingjie) like !!!! wtf is this ?!?? its so good omgomg (something along those lines, at least ;;;) and then after watching the mv i was like ok im def gonna be a banana stan wow they make good music, so talent, super funny members, much visual wow

(tumblr only lets me embed youtube videos, but you can find the official video in HD!! here and the dance version here. id highly recommend watching both if you havent already!!!!!!! the dance version has more closeups???? and i felt even more attacked than i thought was possible after watching the official video???)

and so basically from there, I became a banana stan, focusing on lu dinghao and you zhangjing. and ofc i love zhangjing to bits and he’s so warm-hearted and adorable, but I think I’ll always feel the most connected to dinghao, which is why he became my bias.

some other moments that led me to love him:

his mini chinese lesson because i also struggle with “zhei” but also since then, ive discussed with nini on multiple occasions how weird dinghao’s chinese is?? hahahahahha its like hard to understand sometimes??

4/9 banana boys discussing getting rid of fans at the airport !!!! this is actually one of my favorite videos because LU DINGHAO IS HILARIOUS!!! SO EXTRA WOW

the entire banter with yanjun during the “ai ni” era bc he finally got more screen time!! and also he showed how good of a friend he was to keep voting for yanjun until he just really couldnt anymore

nursery coloring class with chaoze bc dinghao is ridiculous?? 

during the hot pot ep, just watch for any clips of dinghao and he’s probs doing something ridiculous

the banana family scene from the “boom boom boom” era where dinghao shows his insecurity, bc it was a moment where i felt i could really connect to him, as a flawed and normal human who isn’t happy all the time

fun fact: I think this banana boys post was one of the first i ever translated, probs bc beibei was leaving and im soft for that boy too and bonus you can see in my tags that im already dinghao trash at that point bc i freaking had 芝麻糊 for the first time (and bought it with my own money!!) bc of freaking Lu Dinghao !!! (about two weeks later, i bought a whole pack of it at the grocery store....) 

but anyway, so “that’s how the story goes” (gotta include a zzt reference heheh) of how dinghao became my bias... i tried to keep it as relevant to dinghao as i could? lol and i also could be remembering things wrong LOL but basically post-ip, all that’s changed is that i’ve realized dinghao is even weirder than i first realized HAHAH BUT I STILL LOVE HIM. 

some additional fun moments: 

this interview where he describes roasts all the other banana trainees

watch “sawadika banana” if you havent already and you’ll get some GOLD dinghao moments like this crazy mess and other hilarious shenanigans

idk if its been subbed yet, but this bazaar interview is one of my fav dinghao / yanjun / zhangjing videos bc theyre so funny!!! i was literally laughing the whole time, its so fun to watch c: 

im not gonna tag anyone else to do this, because it does take quite a while (3 hrs for me LOL) but its fun if you have the time to reflect back and if anyone wants to do it, id love to read your story as well!! 

[eggutamaplz]

Operation Klance Con: Day 2

I said I would upload it here later today, so here it is!

This chapter was written by me.

The Ao3 chapter link is here.

Enjoy!

Chapter 2: Day 2

It is very early in the morning when Pidge stirs from her sleep, the entire room lit up by a singular Netflix message flashed over the end credits of Big Hero 6 on the TV: “Are you still watching?”

The room is filled with only the noises of soft breathing (or in Hunk’s case, soft snoring) and the air conditioner. Pidge gropes around to find her glasses and her phone, and groans as she turns on the display to check the time, the brightness burning into her eyes. 5:18 A.M., she thinks. Oh well, I can’t go back to sleep now otherwise I’ll just oversleep again.

Careful to not step on her teammates and friends, Pidge maneuvers around their bodies and creeps onto the balcony the hotel room had, providing a view of the convention center and the luminescence of the city. The sky slowly starts gaining an indigo color to signify the birth of another day, slowly consuming the twinkling stars, nebulas, galaxies, and other heavenly bodies in its wake. The moon, however, appears to be untouched.

Quiznak, to think that I’ve been to those same star systems above me, light-years away… and spent years amongst them...

Green sends a nudge in Pidge’s mind.

She chuckles. Of course, you were with me the entire time, girl. Well, after a boat ride with Shiro and a sloth creature, and after a brief separation a little trip to a garbage galaxy. We’ve been through alot together, huh?

Her lion purrs in agreement and a hint of pride.

Pidge stays on the balcony for a little while after grabbing a drink from (*insert names of people who are in charge of the room*)’s mini-fridge, watching the sky’s portrait continue being painted with colors. Not too long after getting her drink, the horizon slowly gains a streak of gold as the sun is reborn from the earth, the wispy clouds a strange yet beautiful silhouette against the canvas.

She heard movement behind her, from where she’s perched herself on a chair. She turns her head to see Hunk, rubbing the sleep out of his eyes, shuffling over to her.

“Mornin’, big man,” Pidge says, shooting a two-fingered wave to her groggy newcomer.

“Good-” Hunk yawns. “-morning.” He stretches his arms and back, facing the sun. “Y’know, I really missed seeing the sunrise from Earth. Though we’ve witnessed many different sunrises on many different planets, home’s is-” Another yawn, as he ties his trademark bandana under his bangs and ties the knot on the back of his head. “- still the prettiest to look at.”

“Ditto, both on missing the sunrise and witnessing others,” Pidge replied, giving a yawn of her own shortly after. “Aw great, you’re gonna make me sleepy again from your yawning alone.”

“Oops?” Hunk shrugs while turning around and walking back into the room, passing their roommates for that night. “I might as well start cooki… okay now that’s just adorable.”

He starts grinning and motions with his hands for Pidge to come back into the room. She quirks an eyebrow, but leaves her roosting spot on the chair to look at Hunk is smiling about.

What she sees is pure blackmail material seeing the way her fellow paladins act.

Shiro and Allura are asleep sitting upright at the foot of one of the beds, the Altean Princess resting her head on the Black Paladin’s shoulder, he himself laying his own head on top of her’s. Pidge catches Allura nuzzling into Shiro’s neck, the side of his mouth quirking upward for a second in response. Their fingers are woven together between their sleeping bodies.

The Green Paladin snickers softly as she starts snapping pictures of the scene. “Ohoho, I see Space Mom and Dad have seemed to make advancements other than in battle strategies and technology for once.”

“That’s not the end of it. Look to the right,” Hunk says, gesturing to a place on the floor. He then proceeds to take a box of breakfast sausages out of his bag.

Pidge follows his gesture to be met with Keith and Lance. Asleep side by side, and quite close in proximity that is, their chests basically touching. Not only that, their legs are tangled together, and Keith’s arm is loosely wrapped around Lance’s sleeping figure, as if he was actually trying to snuggle with Lance.

Pidge continues to take pictures. “oh my god, this is too good. Lance and Keith are gonna flip out when they find themselves like this,” she whisper-shouts towards Hunk. “I mean seriously, Keith is like…” She crosses her arm and tilts her head downwards. “‘My name is Keith. I’m so emo, and I’m thirsty for Lance but I don't and will not want to admit it yet and I’m always jealous about him flirting with Allura!!’”

Hunk muffled a snicker behind his hand. “Don’t get me started on Lance about Keith. He’s always ranting about him but honestly it’s more like lowkey whining about how Keith is hot, and I’m pretty sure he means more than just hot-headed. Send me those pictures you took by the way,” he says as he continues preparing breakfast for the team.

The shorter hums in response. “I would continue this conversation, but it’s 6 A.M, and the drive to the con building is pretty far away.”

Pidge produces a wireless speaker from her bag, turns it on, and connects her phone to it. She then goes on YouTube, searches something up, and then clicks on a video.

“Hunk?” Pidge says.

“Yeah?” Hunk yells over his shoulder.

“Brace your eardrums for this and enjoy the show.”

And she turns the volume up to max.

The very start wakes everyone up with a jolt.

Everyone that was woken up let out startled screams and discontented groans, however their sounds were drowned out by the ear rape and Pidge’s hysterical laughter.

The first thing Keith noticed about his position is that oh my god. I slept right next to Lance. There is a blanket. Over our legs. We slept under the same blanket. He then remembers the final minutes before he went to sleep, where Lance laid his head on his shoulder, and very sleepily and stupidly let him be this way, and fell asleep snuggling with him.

Oh my quiznaking god I snuggled with him… lord take me now.

“PIDGE, WHAT THE QUIZNAK?!” Lance screams, now immediately up and on his knees. He, like the others, UCKare severely triggered. “YOU WAKE US UP WITH EAR RAPE AND RICKROLL?! YOU LITTLE SHIT I WON’T HESITA-”

The Green Paladin pauses the ear rape video. “Okay okay, Ocean Man,” Pidge says, raising her arms up in surrender, however a mischievous look plastered upon her face. “However before you kill me, I wanna know why you were sleeping next to Keith all…” She wriggles her eyebrows. “... couple-like.”

Lance quirks an eyebrow, confused. “Huh?” He then looks to his right, and sees Keith, slightly groggy yet wide-eyed, running his fingers through his bed-head mullet (oh god why is that so hot- wait what?), avoiding eye contact with him. Keith was also very close in proximity, and the blanket covering both boys’ legs only contributed to the fact.

Keith had already seemed to notice this and was very red.

Lance himself ended up doing the same.

Oh god oh god oh god Pidge why are you like this does he remember last night? What he did? D- Keith thought, but his racing thoughts were abruptly cut off by a pillow slamming into his face.

When he grabbed the pillow and pulled it off his face, he was met with Pidge and the others, trying not to explode from laughter, save for Hunk as he was already in the buffet. In addition to the laughter, Lance gave a shit-eating grin, but was also seemingly blushing out of embarrassment.

“Oops?” Lance said. “I was just trying to match how much you wanna tap male ass in the form of the force of a pillow hitting you in the face.”

Keith blinked, then in a flash pinned down Lance with a firm push from his palm to the other boy’s chest, that hand slamming on the floor next to Lance’s face once he hit the floor.

Lance, internally, was a fucking mess.

Here he was, pinned down by the Red Paladin after slight teasing, in front of his teammates, who were probably laughing and/or staring at the scene that unfolded in front of their eyes.

Keith, hovering over Lance now, gave a smirk. In a low, slightly flirtatious voice, he said, “Like that?”, which honestly, was doing a number of things to him mentally, and hopefully-not-but-probably physically. He was pretty sure his face was as red as the Red Lion’s body.

The Red Paladin, however, was freaking out. Did I say it like I did that one time in the snowball asteroid field?!

Lance was about to probably combust because of this rare, handsome, really fucking hot (okay whoa there buddy) Keith on top of him, but then he was met with a pillow full force to the face.

The thoughts subsided, replaced with the flame of battle.

“OKAY, IT’S FUCKING ON MULLET. ARE YOU READY TO SURRENDE-” Lance was forcefully hit again with Keith’s pillow.

He flopped on the floor with an abundance of dramatics. “Shiro, I’ve been hit,” Lance wails. “Avenge me, you beautiful 5-year-old!” He then makes choking noises to imitate death. Keith snickers while smothering Lance’s face with his feathery weapon and repeatedly smacking him with it.

Shiro laughs, slowly scooching away hugging his own pillow. “Nope, sorry Lance. I pick and choose battles, and it seems like a personal situation. Sorry!”

Pidge is observing the situation, obviously loving it. “Ha, truly number one in the `Top 10 Anime Betrayals’.”

“Well, we’re technically not an anime, our animation is owned by Dreamworks and Studio Mir, so we’re more like anime-inspired. Actual anime is animation straight from Japan,” mumbles Coran, watching from the sidelines.

Allura hears Coran mumbling and turns to him. “Hm? Coran, did you say something?”

“Ah, nothing important,” Coran replies.

Meanwhile, Shiro continues on. “I don’t know, you guys seem really occupied over there,” he says in a slight teasing tone.

“Yeah, probably, while you’re probably thinking, ‘wow, Allura is the most beautiful being in the universe, and I know this because I’ve been across the entire universe!’” Lance retaliates.

“I’m with Lance on this one, sorry Shiro,” Keith adds, still trying to lowkey suffocate Lance under him. “You guys fell asleep holding hands and looking quite content at that. C’mon guys.”

Shiro then turns a shade of red. He turns to Allura, who is also blushing. Their eyes meet, have some sort of understanding. Somewhat along the lines of, hey, you're embarrassed, I’m embarrassed, they’re responsible for this, let’s kick their asses. They nod in confirmation.

Then they hurl their pillows at Keith and Lance together in tandem.

This sparks the start of a pillow war, pillows being thrown between the Red, Blue and Black Paladins and the Princess. Pidge, Hunk, Coran, and Shay all witness the intense thwipping of pillows flying through the air and hitting each other in the face, along with a long stream of comments.

Eventually, everyone joins in the fight for the fun of it, except for Hunk, who was smiling to himself, looking over his friends every now and then as he eats the food he got from the buffet.

After 15 minutes, Hunk calls everyone to breakfast down at the buffet, and the paladins and their companions get their food- while still giddy from their pillow battle- and get back to their respective hotel rooms to get ready for Day 2.

Everyone shortly meets up after that, and in no time they’re back in the line for Day 2 of AX at 8 A.M. However, since they got their badges yesterday, they didn’t have to wait in line. But as they were in the car Lance notices Pidge typing something into her phone.

A minute later, his phone buzzes with two text notifications.

Keith also receives a text shortly after.

The texts both of them receive are a short message and a YouTube link from Pidge.

Pidgeon Molt(ing)/Pidge

Have some music I found today, I think it’d suit you, ya dense fucker ‘,;P

https://youtu.be/AzpHVQTlbdU

Well, it doesn't look like the rickroll link at least, Lance thinks, as he clicks, and plugs in his headphones.

Keith simply reads the message and clicks on the link.

The link sends them to a video with a song from a musical, Be More Chill. Lance has heard about, but never watched or listened to himself, while Keith on the other hand has listened to this song once or twice.

Another notification pops up in front of them as the instrumental starts.

Lance’s says this:

Pidgeon Molt(ing)

After listening to this, I want you to honestly tell me and Hunk how you feel about quote unquote “Mr. Mullet Man” later in person or through text

Lance frowns at this. Why Keith? Sure, I’ve been in compromising situations with him, but… He shakes his head to cut off his thoughts, and listens to the song and the lyrics.

Pidge’s message to Keith however, says:

Pidge

Just listen to it I already know how much you like this song so eh I sent it to a few other people?? Besides you honestly could be Christine or Jeremy… or both???

Keith lets out a sigh through his nose, smiling. He lets the music play and starts losing himself in the song.

“You’re used to thinking about him in a certain way

From the persona that he displays

Then one day it changes

And he changes…

From a guy that you’d never be into

Into a guy that you’d kinda be into

From a guy that I’d never be into

Into a guy that I’d kinda be into

Is he worth it?”

If Lance was the guy who this girl was talk/singing to, he’d definitely say “yes”. He knows himself that you can’t control when you gain crushes or fall in love-

Wait. Pidge said to think about Keith… Lance thought.

He looks over to the boy in question, who is nodding his head to his own music, eyes closed with a smile on his face. His hair falls repeatedly over his eyes, but he seems to not notice or care.

He looks so… carefree. He so stony and hotheaded at most times, even after we defeated Zarkon and Lotor, but yet sometimes… those moments when he genuinely smiles and has fun…

I like it. I really want to see more of it.

Meanwhile, Hunk, walking next to him, was observing Lance and Keith listening to the song.

He got a text notification.

Katie Holt (Pidge)

Is Lance listening to it

I know Keith is he’s bouncing his head

Hunkie Chunkie

Yeah, he is. And he is looking very contemplative. And he’s also staring at Keith like an ethereal being.

Katie Holt (Pidge)

Good phase 1 of Operation Klance Con is a go

Hunkie Chunkie

Wait, we had a name AND a plan for a thing we merely discussed before 6 A.M in the morning?

Katie Holt (Pidge)

Nah

Actually it sounds cool you wanna keep the name

Hunkie Chunkie

Sure. We’ll discuss the plan later…

Lance continued listening to the song, watching Keith bop his head to whatever music he was listening to.

The music drew to an end, and he laughed when Christine anticlimactically sang out “yeah, that guy that I’d kinda be into is… Jake.”

He put the song back on repeat to listen to it again and think about the lyrics and his own feelings.

Then came the verse again.

“Say there’s this person that you never knew that well

You thought that you had him pegged but now you can tell he’s gone

From a guy that you’d never be into

Into a guy that you’d kinda be into

From a guy that I’d never be into

Into a guy that I’d kinda be into

Is he worth it?”

In this verse, Lance could relate, in regards to Keith.

Way back when at the Garrison, he was all of a sudden plucked out of the cargo pilot class straight into fighter class, apparently because Keith Kogane, top pilot in the class, had temper issues and was kicked out.

The general consistently reminded him of that, for every single slip-up he made.

He always saw Keith as this talented, impulsive hothead who apparently does not have a sense for trends, proof cited in his mullet. That’s how most people saw him.

Months after when he saw Keith again along with Hunk and Pidge, he just had to follow him, to find Shiro, only to find out that he doesn’t even remember him. His replacement as a fighter pilot, Lance’s self-proclaimed rival.

And then they found Blue, flew to Arus, met Allura and Coran, and suddenly became part of Voltron.

Despite the entire change in scenery, Lance only continued to him as the guy at the Garrison and a rival, and it kept him from cooperating with him. And it seemed that Keith had the same mutual feelings.

And then the fight with Zendak happened.

After he recovered, he denied he remembered anything, but… he did. He remembered Keith giving him his hand, and instead of pulling him up, kneeling down to where he was sitting, all bruised up and slipping in and out of consciousness. Him telling Keith they were a good team while giving a weak smile. Keith reciprocating the smile before he fell unconscious again.

Then waking up for a minute while Keith was carrying him over to a healing pod, then passing out yet again.

From that event on, their dynamic… changed in a way. They still did bicker, sure, but they worked together much more easily and willingly. They gradually learnt more and more about one another, along with the whole team.

And then when Shiro disappeared… Keith trusted him with Red. A lion as impulsive as him, whose trust and respect had to be earned. He also helped him cope with the temporary loss of Shiro, talking with and comforting Keith as necessary.

Keith was still the same boy from the Garrison, his rival… but as time went on Lance found much more behind the prejudicial wall he had built around Keith, way back when. As impulsive as he is, he cares about others, so much to even rescue a being from the enemy. He isn’t as stony as people make him to be. He doesn’t really get jokes, he cries, he has fears, he has good days and bad days. It’s part of him, it’s part of who he is, Keith’s human.

Well, he’s technically half human, half Galra… living being??? Ah, whatever.

So in that way… he can relate to Christine, in thinking you had a person pegged. But being into him?...

…

“Absolutely,” sings out Jeremy and his Squip, and Lance agrees on his end.

Hunkie Chunkie

Lance has been staring at Keith for more than a minute. I can hear him thinking.

And it looks like we’ve hit realization.

Katie Holt (Pidge)

It seems my purpose for this song has been fulfilled thank you BMC

Lance decides to listen to the rest of the musical from the beginning to pass the time in the line.

By the time he finishes “Michael in the Bathroom” (poor Michael… sounds like a bad panic attack, Lance thinks), they are back inside the convention center. Shay, Rax, and Matt met up with them at the entrance with matching cosplays.

“Alright, paladins, day two of Anime Expo. What’s the plan?” Coran asked, twiddling with his mustache, as well as donning a simple green Scouting Legion Jacket, while Allura wears a Military Police version of the jacket. The rest of Team Voltron wear full Scouting Legion uniform cosplay, except for Pidge, wearing a Garrison jacket.

“Are you wearing that thing ironically?” Lance asked, seeing as the paladins were… well… students themselves in the Garrison. “Wait, how did you and Allura even get those jackets?!”

“Bought the badges and sewed them onto jackets. You just don’t really think about it cuz most of the time it’s always Scouting Legion people want. All versions of the jackets are generally the same price on the Internet, if you want to buy it off of eBay or something,” Pidge replies with a shrug.

“Jackets apart,” Keith said, checking his outfit, “I think we look pretty quiznaking awesome.” He sneaks a glance at Lance, who notices, and returns a smile.

“I totally second that, and I’m totally loving it, cuz I’m totally the best looking one,” Lance says, posing and changing his soft smile into a sarcastic grin. His replies from the team were a mix of laughing and groaning. Keith covered his mouth with a hand, but Lance could tell by the crinkles at the side of his eyes that he was hiding a smile.

“I know you’re smiling Keith,” Lance sings. “Come on, you know you’re allowed to exhibit enjoyment and let loose here. We’re not fighting aliens, we’re back home, it’s an expo!”

Keith drops his hand, however confused by Lance’s statement. The boy in question pokes the Red Paladin in the side, making him laugh and cover his eyes with a hand by habit.

“C’mon, Keef, lemme see it!” Lance coaxes, taking Keith’s hand covering his hand in his own.

Keith finally gives up trying to hide his smile and looks at Lance, laughing so carefree. Once he calms down, he looks at the Blue Paladin, giving him that smile that he longed to see. Lance feels his face heating up.

“Y’know Lance, at some points you never change,” Keith says in almost a whisper, the tenderness in his eyes unshielded. Lance lets out a soft laugh, returning the smile.

Meanwhile, Pidge, Hunk, Shay, Shiro, Allura, and Coran look at the intimate display between the two boys.

“Is it just me and Pidge, or are Keith and Lance probably going to follow the ‘red and blue characters are in love’ trope from a lot of books and TV shows?” Hunk asked the group while the two in question were having their moment.

They all looked at each other then back at Pidge. Their faces were blank as they nodded.

“Honestly, I could tell even before the space mice filled me in,” Allura said. “Their courtship rituals are… blatantly obvious.” Coran simply nods in agreement.

“Yeah,” Shiro agreed. “Keith always talks to me in our free time, and since he’s like my little brother, well… I know him pretty well and I can read him like a book. Besides, he trusts me with secrets, but honestly this-” the Black Paladin gestures to Lance and Keith. “- doesn’t look like a secret, or at least trying to keep it.”

Everyone expectantly turns to Shay, who just shrugs. “I do not know of other Skylings’ courtship rituals, so I simply did not look into it. However as this seems like one according to the rest of you, I believe they are doing that… how did you say it again Pidge?” She turns to the shortest of the group.

“Pining?” Pidge suggests.

“Ah yes, ‘pining’. They are pining,” Shay says.

Everyone else agreed and waited for Lance and Keith to notice that they were staring at them. It admittedly took a while, and it was only because Pidge ended up playing “Careless Whisper” from her endless library of audio memes.

“You gonna have a bonding moment you finally remember, Lance?” Pidge snickered, and Lance groaned.

“Pidge, please stop.”

“The Pidgeon makes no promises~” she sings while walking off towards Artists Alley.

From there, the team follows her, and for the next couple hours they spend their time wandering around Artist Alley, buying fan merchandise and taking pictures with other cosplayers, and attending panels.

-

“Oh my god, they have a pin that says ‘Space Dad’,” Keith chokes out while laughing. “Lance, should we get it?”

“Already way ahead of you, Keith.” He says as she holds out her hand, revealing a copy of that pin, as well as an assortment of other space-related buttons.

-

“Katie, you are not buying us hats that say ‘problematic’,” Matt says.

“Says my brother who bought like, half of the Kanan merch here in this entire area,” Pidge replies.

“SHE IS MY BEST GIRL AND OSHIMEN I SACRIFICED FUCKING 3 OF MY DREAM URS OF OTHER GIRLS JUST TO CONTINUE THE OSHIMEN CHALLENGE. I. AM. DEDICATED.”

“Yup, getting the hat set.”

-

“Wait, so Shiro, are you kinda like Marco because you lost your right arm?”

“Lance. No. Marco lost like almost all his right half of his body and died. I only lost my right arm, which is now a pretty badass prosthetic, and I’m alive. I think… wait, what if I’m still floating out in space?”

“Shiro, calm down,” Hunk says.

“What if I’m still in cryosleep and all of you are figments of my imagination?”

“Shiro. You’re fine.”

“What if this is the afterlife and I’m actually dea-”

“Okay, that’s enough existential crisis for Space Dad,” Lance says, and pats Shiro’s back, who would basically have a dark shadow masking his eyes and have squiggly lines over his head if he was an anime character right now.

-

“Is that a… dancing hot dog?” Allura says as she squints her eyes at a t-shirt display.

“Seems quite so, Princess,” Coran says. “Apparently this is what humans call a ‘meme’, as well as many more photographs, like this adorable specimen!” He points at a picture of Doge.

“Human culture is weird,” the Altean princess decides.

-

Before the gang could even notice, the sun has traveled to the western part of the sky, and they walk out of the convention center, caps emblazoned with the word “problematic”. Matt’s is decorated with Kanan buttons, and Shiro’s cap has a pin that says “Space Dad”.

The plaza in front of the place is still relatively crowded, but less hectic than inside the building. Many people are seen taking group pictures and chilling outside. A performer duo finishes a piece on the sidewalk, and passerby applaud.

Team Voltron starts walking back to their van after saying goodbye to Shay, Matt and Rax when the music playing from a speaker changes, and suddenly both Keith and Shiro stop abruptly in their tracks, catching the attention of the rest of them.

Lance, who has a pin on his Survey Corps. jacket that says “uranus is out of this world”, turns around, confused. “Uh, guys? You okay?”

Shiro smiles. “Yeah, definitely. Something Keith and I remember from a while back came up, right?” He looks over at Keith, who is donning a nostalgic, yet energetic smile.

“Definitely. Do you still remember our choreography Shiro?!” He asks.

“It’s been a while, so I might be a bit rusty. But hell yeah, I still remember.”

Keith’s eyes grow brighter. “Wanna do it for old times’ sake?”

“I thought you’d ask that, and the answer is definitely yes,” Shiro replies, then walks with Keith to a more open spot on the pavement.

Lance, Pidge, Hunk, and Shay at first are confused, when Allura suddenly says, “Oh, so this is what the mice told me about!”

“Wait,” Matt asks, “You know about Keith and Shiro’s dance?”

“Dance?!” The Blue, Green and Yellow Paladins echo, bewildered. Shay is still quite confused. Then Pidge straightens.

“Oh yeah, now I remember! It’s their song playing right now!” She says, and nudges Lance’s arm. “You might want to prepare your bisexual pining heart for this. Allura looks full-on ready. It’s gonna be fucking amazing.”

“Pidge, what do you mean? And how have I not heard of th-” Lance starts, but then shuts himself up when he sees Keith and Shiro in position, then moving in sync, mirroring each other’s movements to the beat of a BTS song.

However, as Lance starts to notice, the choreography both boys are dancing isn’t simply a copy of the original dance for the song, cut down for two people.

(And he knows this, because he has watched BTS’s MVs, thank you very much.)

No, this was a dance made from just the two of them, Brogane trademarked and choreographed.

An audience started building up around their display, some taking their phones out and recording, many cheering.

Keith then did a certain move where he ran his hands up his body, through his mullet, then turned to Lance, and smirked.

And then he winked.

He quiznaking winked.

This sent another fresh wave of cheers through the crowd, Team Voltron’s louder than the rest (although admittedly Allura’s cheers could be heard as the loudest of the group). However, Lance was only semi-aware of this, as he was currently occupied on pondering why he hasn’t melted into a puddle on the floor yet by the sheer heat of the Broganes’ dance and the fire in his cheeks.

Oh god, when did Keith and Shiro MAKE this dance?! This is way too seductive for my own good, quiznak! Lance thought, watching the rest of the performance.

A minute later, Keith and Shiro drew to their final pose, the music ending and their chests heaving out of exertion. Their audience clapped and cheered enthusiastically, multiple wolf whistles being heard as well. The Black and Red Paladins bowed, then walked back over to the group.

“It’s just as I remember it,” Matt says, still applauding the two as he hands the two boys water bottles. “You couldn't even tell that they hadn't danced this together in a few years!”

“That. Was. Amazing! I didn’t know you guys could dance like that!” Hunk took the Broganes into a tight hug then let them go.

“I agree. The dance was quite enjoyable to experience!” Shay adds on as she walks and stands next to Hunk.

Allura and Lance both exploded with the same question. “WHERE AND WHEN DID YOU LEARN THAT DANCE?!”

Keith blinked, smiled, and replied first. “Well, it was around a year before Shiro and Matt left for the the Kerberos mission. Me and him were really close and loved the same music, and we randomly decided one day to make our own choreography to one of our favorite BTS songs.”

“At first it was a little thing we did on a whim,” Shiro continued, “but eventually the dance ended up being our thing, and it stuck with us. We made tweaks and practiced it like we were actually going to perform it for a huge audience. We danced it for Matt and Katie one time, and that’s how they know about it!”

Lance was impressed. “I never really thought of you guys dancing together, K-pop at that. But seriously, you guys were amazing!”

“Wait, what’s K-pop?” Allura asked, eyebrows scrunched up in confusion. “Is it a genre?”

“Right you are, Princess,” Coran answers. “According to Keith, ‘tis a type of music that is popular in a country called Korea, hence the ‘K’ in ‘K-pop’, as well as here in America.”

“Anyways, let’s head back to the hotel now, it’s already 7 P.M. and we still have 2 more days left of AX,” Shiro says. “And this time, no staying up late!”

On the way back, Pidge and Hunk notice Lance staring aimlessly ahead, looking contemplative again.

They nodded to each other, and Pidge took out her phone and texted something to Lance. Seconds later, Lance opened his phone.

Pidgeon Molt(ing)

So do you have your answer ^^

Lance looked up at Keith in front of him, who was happily ranting about a Mothman cosplayer he met at the con today with Shiro and Allura.

Hunk and Pidge saw him smile fondly at the scene, and looked back at them while texting his response.

Ocean Man

Oh yeah

His “best ass in the galaxy” pin is spot on ;;;)))))

Pidgeon Molt(ing)

ha, ha. -_-

Pidge however then looked up to see Lance smiling awkwardly at her and Hunk.

Team Voltron continued their walk back to the van, facing the setting sun, the Garrison trio satisfied with Lance’s real answer as it reflected in that smile and his eyes.

Okay, fine. I like Keith.

[nkghoast]

Oops! I read ur op as saying GoT wasn’t misogynistic because it has other great female characters!! My bad. Sorry bout that. I read it too fast and then focused mostly on the following reblogs. But yes! You have a valid point in that people shouldn’t call GoT misogynistic because Dany went dark but also hypocritically belittle other great female characters like Sansa (I love Sansa!!). Totally agree! However, here’s why I think Dany turning dark is pretty misogynistic; the how and why they did this.

How they did it was pretty poorly executed. While yes, it technically has been foreshadowed and there are moments of it through the seasons, there are equally more scenes and dialogue of Dany resisting the madness that runs in her family. It’s sorta what @gorgondrifter said: this was always a possibility, but there was hope in Dany fans that season 8 Dany has grown from season 1 Dany. This is where it’s just bad writing and a waste of our time, years of character development disappearing. Even if you don’t agree with this and believe they built Mad Dany up pretty well, you have to at least admit the way they did it was pretty rushed (one episode she’s about saving innocents and the next she’s burning them all) so even if it’s not bad writing, it’s lazy writing which is arguably bad writing. Hmm, that isn’t really misogynistic, just bad writing, haha. Sorry bout that a mini rant. But an example of how it was misogynistic, can be found in the build up of Mad Dany in small snippets like the dialogue between Varys and Tyrion. Varys kept insisting Jon was a better fit for the throne just because of his gender alone (Varys had little interest in Ned Stark’s bastard up until this point lbvh). Which is fine if said alone, but then the writers actively support this by having Dany burn the city and purposely refusing to show us why she went mad (the analysis between @lionpaintedblack and I). Emilia Clarke did a splendid job of displaying Danny’s anguish and wrath during the clip, but the rest of the episode, writers had the audience focused on the devastation of what Dany was doing. They did this to bring out emotional responses. Which leads us to the why.

Why they did this emotional build up (and I’m pretty sure this is why) is to ensure that no one feels bad when Jon/etc kill Dany to put Jon/etc on the throne (and trust me it will be a man). She was this character who had this weight on her shoulder: a darkness and a madness that ran deeper than just her, something insidious. But she did good anyways. She was good. She loved and was loved. She wasn’t a villain. She was a flawed character with a dream to become queen. But then she came to the Seven Kingdoms and within two episodes, she’s suddenly a murderous Queen. Tbh I don’t blame Dany for burning down King’s Landing, especially after the analysis about what it truly means to sit on the Iron Throne (that thing is cursed, I tell you!) and when you put it into context of, “You literally shot down my child from the sky and laughed at my offer of mercy to only just surrender when you are losing? I fucking tried to warn you and ur response was to behead my best friend!” I would have totally burned that city down too tbh... but anyways, I don’t think Dany burned it because she’s the Mad Queen. That title belongs to Cersei after all the horrible stuff she’s done. She burned the city in a moment of pain and blind rage. Of realizing that she even when she has won, she has lost. As lionpaintedblack mentioned, it goes beyond madness. Madness was Cersei sipping on wine thinking she was winning even as Dany burned her city. But I’m pretty sure the writers are going to spin this as just another Mad Targaryen to justify their male protagonist (conflicted and pained ofc) killing the woman he loves turned villain/murderous queen and be forced to become a king that everyone deserves because a just queen doesn’t exist, not in GoT fiction at least (and a bunch of others).

Basically, they could have written and developed Dany’s character arc wayyyyy better. There was so much potential for better conflict and resolution than just another Medusa/Hamlet/Shakespearen Greek tragedy. It’s misogynistic in that they decide to kill another woman (figuratively and maybe literally) to further the character of male protagonist. I’m overall disappointed that GoT is going to be another typical “humble man who doesn’t want to become king must become king because no one else can do it” but with the side trope of “said humble man falling in love with a female character who we turn into said protagonist’s angst and tragedy” by turning her mad and letting our protagonist watch as she burn thousands alive so in the end, he will be able to kill her and no one can say she didn’t deserve it. It would have been a better story if Dany overcame everything, her darkness, her tragedy and her pain, resisted the madness, showed mercy to King’s Landing, come to realize she needed support to resist said madness so she announces Jon’s parentage so he can rule with her as her heir and so forth. Now that... would have been a better non-misogynistic way to develop Dany’s character arc than turning her into just another ‘mad’ woman who thought she could rule. But this is all just my opinion. Maybe I’m just reading this all wrong. I’ve read too much fanfic. It’s ruined GoT for me.

Moral of the story: “The pursuit of power takes things away from you.” And women shouldn’t be in power as shown from GoT because all the queens in GoT are crazy and murderous.

REPEAT AFTER ME

Daenerys Targaryen going darkside is not misogyny. Accusing the show of being sexist because your favorite didn’t end up being a glowing hero is a disservice to the other female characters on the show who didn’t burn an entire city to the ground.

Say it again, but slower:

DAENERYS TARGARYEN IS NOT THE ONLY FEMALE CHARACTER ON THIS SHOW.