#sorry for the tag rant this is just something thats always bothered me for. obvious reasons

[redrobemerle]

begging people to stop normalizing abuse just because it happens between siblings ::)

[outofcontextsimsmachinima]

I truly think you should reconsider featuring Youth so much on this blog. The series has featured blackface and other racist imagery before, it's really not a good look for the Sims fandom to promote this stuff, especially seeing how racist EA themselves have been in the past.

Hello, thank you for approaching me with your concerns. I in no way want to promote racism. You have every right to feel how you do and leave my blog to not see her posts (all tagged under #1998sims and #youth, which you can blacklist) and not watch her content. Its not my place to apologise on anyones behalf. However, although this may be an out of context blog, I think its unfair to make a statement as such without the context of the episode. This opinion may come from this post I uploaded a while back, or from breifly seeing her episode. Or even watching it all the way and either not understanding the message OR simply put, being offended by the imagery (which you have every right to feel offended by) 1998sims is a very close friend of mine. However, what I say is not as a friend as I will, and have, quite easily dropped anyone who is racist, homophobic, a pedophile, etc. I’m not afraid to lose friends or family over morals. That being said, I also want to mention that if you’ve met 1998sims and properly got to know her, you’d also know she has a no bullshit attitude and she herself cannot stand those actions. Shes always trying to keep up to date on human rights movements, sending me updates on the currently BLM protests, complaining about racists and homophobes and wishing people wouldnt support the racist billionares and companies (EA included) of the world. I also want to mention before i start jumping into this unbiased, that as 1998sims’ friend, I see a lot of a specific group of people trying to attack her every month or so. She’s used to it and doesn’t let it bother her, often tells us not to say anything on her behalf (which is interesting considering how many times people say she’s going to get her “groupies” to defend her. Not once have we defended her because we respect her wishes for us to not get involved.) and that she can fight her own fights. Its upsetting watching her put up with people nitpicking her in the most toxic community out tbh, the shit that could be said about the people who ?? I actually dont know what their goal is tbh, take her down?? idk its really weird. Like, I think people who try to come at her do a lot worse than her and often times are trying to come back at her after she openly stated her opinions about the community (usually its her asking that creators had more representation in their series. Which I can agree with, the sims community is flooded with stories of straight white couples). The sims community is shit, I wont deny. So, with this context in mind, I do struggle to take the rare posts I see about her as seriously as I would if they were about anyone else. I talk to her on a daily, I know the thoughts she puts into her work, into her daily life, into her friendships, past and present. Her opinions and goals and the things she puts up with. I know that the specific group of people against her would try to warp my words around and say she controlling or manipulating me but honestly, one, those people claiming something like that in itself is a manipulation tactic and two, you dont know fuck about me and my past and what I’ve experienced to understand who to trust and who to drop. I don’t put up with that sort of shit. Over her time on youtube she has very openly showed her support to the black lives movement and tried to bring light to it in her works. She has always been very aware of making sure her cast represents real people, that includes the struggles they face. Its rare to find poc and lgbtq media, especially in the sims community and especially without characters following harmful stereotypes or being the token black or gay character. 1998sims has always shown care for these communities in multiple series for multiple years, taking every opportunity she can to make a PSA. The blackface episode was no exception. I dont want to speak on her behalf and have stayed quiet about what people have said about her because of her wishes, and I will message her about this issue. But in the end, its my blog that has recieved the asks and thus, my response is what will be made. This will be long (if its not already) and its up to you to skip or read this, your mental health is what should come first. Nothing can excuse racist imagery or jokes about race. I never want to tell someone they’re in the wrong or that their feelings do not matter, your feelings and opinions matter. What 1998sims choses to do from here onward is up to her. But as I said, you approached me and I will take that as invitation to share my opinion. In the episode ‘Blakkkface’ of YOUTH, the title alone already explaining the episodes intention to be around the black lives matter movement, racism and mention of blackface and the KKK. Its halloween, 2 racist background characters walk in dressed in blackface and as a member of the KKK. Instantly the main cast is disgusted. This scene is not intended as humour or a joke, rather the main cast showing disgust in a background character’s actions. Lucas responding with a “what the fuck?” and Jo, a black character, also the only one not dressed up, stating that costumes like that are why she hates halloween. I believe here its intended to mention how during holidays, people think its okay to wear costumes like that. be it blackface, KKK members, indiginous costumes, chinese etc. Peoples race and culture arent a costume and 1998sims attempted to show how costumes like that happen often irl and how hurtful and racist they are. Next scene. I’m Not Racist by Joyner Lucas plays in the background. Teacher rants about inappropriate costumes. Cut to a close up of Jo’s face obvious waiting for the issue to be addressed. Teacher mentions girls wearing costumes that are inappropriate, too tight or short, makes no mention of racist costumes or issues with it. Clearly Jo and her classmate, Trey (also a black cast member, wearing a shirt that states “not your costume” as a protest to the racist costumes during halloween), aren’t happy and chose to silently protest by sitting while the class pledges alleigence to the flag. The teacher gets mad at the two who are quite calmly explaining their rights, which starts a debate. The blackface and KKK costumes are brought up, Jo calls out racism and the two take advantage of their priveledge, claiming its just paint telling Jo not to be offended and that shes being sensitive. This is a clear case of racists making excuses, trying to victimize themselves and using their privelege against Jo. Teacher, unable to respond to Jo’s retort then takes it out on Trey, Saying his shirt is inappropriate and promotes violence (does that sound familiar to the black likes matter movement at the moment?), that he needs to go to the office. Trey questions if the teacher himself is racist, calls everyone disgusting for their actions. Teacher sends both students to go to the office and as Jo walks past, the racist students call her a monkey which is the final straw and she punches them. She regrets it later knowing the outcome will be terrible on her behalf as a black girl. Trey beside her, tries to validate her and she mentions how shes the one whos going to be suspended but the person whos actually in the wrong will play victim as their actions will be forgotten about. she says “I played into the narrative he wanted me to play into.” saying she doesnt want to be the stereotypical black person that solves issues through violence. Trey once again tries to validate her actions, telling her that she had the right to defend herself. “dont let them make you feel bad for their crappy actions.” What 1998sims shows here is the real life struggle that black people face. Them being seen as a costume, their history being a joke to racists. That people of privelege and power can manipulate situations and try to paint themsleves as victims and black people as violent, often gaslighting until, in some cases (like Jo’s) the real victim takes actions in their own hands since the system cant protect them and they need to protect themself. This is a serious and real topic and yes, understandably it can be triggering to some people who have experienced these things themselves. I dont think 1998sims’ goal is to hurt people though. Rather show a character you care about or relate to going through something thats very real and make her viewers aware of said issues, use empathy to make people mad or upset and maybe stand up to make a change to stop these things from continuing to happen in the real world. Once again, I apologise for posting any content that has been hurtful to you. But morally I felt the need to at least add some context on why this episode and scenes were intended to, from the perspective of someone whos against racism, someone who wants equality, someone who wants to share a message. 1998sims’ series is raw in the sense its real and inspired by reality. Some people like that sort of representation in the media they consume, some dont. And if you dont, thats up to you to not watch her content. If you prefer media that escapes reality, her series isnt for you and thats okay. And I just need to say this once again. I’m not defending her or the episopde because shes my friend. If I find out her or anyone I know has made content thats intended to be hurtful to anyone, I will drop them. I have no intention ever in my life to be associated with people like that. I’m sorry that you can no longer feel safe on my blog though, its sad that has to be the case but I hope at least with the context of the episode brought up, maybe you can see things in a different way. If not, I hope you find safety somewhere else. Its what you deserve after all, don’t put yourself through any more harm, you should always come first.

[to-my-better-half]

this is my rant about random shit feel free to ignore or something. Honestly idk if ill even post this, ill probably just let it rot in my drafts. But @dragonsareradguys and @demidork84 did these sorta random rants and i sorta wanted to get some stuff out there. (im not actually tagging them because i dont want them to be cursed by this) But anyway its just me trying to decipher my feelings and put them into words. (btw this will be fucking long i can sense it aka i ramble a lot)

one of my favorite lyrics goes “they can’t steal the love you’re born to find” i love it a lot because i love.. uh.. love. And that sounds cheesy but its true and i strongly believe everyone is born with the right to be loved and i dont think that can be taken way. I think everyone deserves love. Yeah people say things like “what about racists or this or that” and i get that. People get lost and confused. People are wrong and do bad stuff and sometimes they need to learn how to earn love again but i think everyone is born with the right to be loved. 

Speaking of love. I love love. Did i say that? Ima say it again then. Because im like a plant and love is my sun. I need it to survive. And yes i know im needy and i get love from my friends (who i love dearly) but it never seems like enough. And i feel so guilty for saying that but it never does. I love trees, animals, music, and so many things but its never enough. It never lasts long enough. I spend a lot of time being sad and lonely. 

I’ve been told im not expressive enough, i dont smile enough, i dont offer physical contact enough but i have so much love and i want it to go to someone but ive never had that and that hurts. Because i know im not the greatest and i have issues that hold me back and i dont blame people for not returning feelings or being interested but i know i can be loyal, i know i will try my damndest to make someone happy, and i just know that ill try. And maybe thats not enough but its more than ive seen in a lot of relationships. But thats not me trying to convince people its that i want to do those things. I want to spend my life making someone happy, and being loyal, and trying for them. Living for them. And that i cant do this makes me hurt but i hope that i get some patience. 

Music is a conduit for me. Yes, it connects me to people, connects me to the earth and nature, but more importantly, it connects me to myself. Music makes me feel alive and full when i feel the most hollow. And sometimes it breaks me when im at my highest. Music affects me a lot and that scares me- Actually no- Words affect me a lot and that scares me.

I hate my father. 

I’m not particularly good at anything. And i know people would disagree or try to cheer me up buts its true. I’m just not. And at the things people say i am good at, i disagree, and i know that seems obvious but if i dont agree whats the point. Becuase although i care what other people think, thats not why i hate being bad at stuff, its me thats the problem. Anyways though, I’m not good at anything. But ill be damned if i dont try to get better. I am good at that. I’m good at trying at attempting to get better. And maybe thats useless as i rarely make progress or still find myself not being proud or satisfied with my progress. But least i can say that im good at that. 

Gender has always been confusing for me. Like i dont know how that works for me really. Becuase i knew i was pan easily because the feelings were just there but the thing with gender is its never really mattered to me. It doesn’t matter whether im referred to as he or she or they or whatever. It doesnt matter to me whether i indulge society’s teachings of gender and wear dresses and makeup. I like makeup sometimes. Some dresses are cute. The color pink is okay. Yeah, I played with barbies as a child (also dragons and dinos and cars tho so stfu society and your gender teachings). But none of that makes me feel more like a girl. I just am what i am and a pronoun doesnt change my interests or beliefs or who i am. 

I’m so tired of people saying things like “oh you and your husband will-” “your prince charming-” “once you meet a cute boy-” and i know a lot of people who tell me this dont know im out (some do and its tiring) but like still?? it annoys me that they just assume im straight. (And more importantly, a lot of my family thinks im ace because for a couple years i thought i was and i told them that much.) (turns out i just didn’t like anyone because i just wanted to be friends and not bother with feelings.)

anyways, hopefully yall didnt read this and suffer. If you did im sorry uwu