#sorry for lovejoy it will happen again

[thesituationroom]

@basementg tagged me to shuffle my most listened to music .. i used the on repeat playlist too it seemed easiest. who up wanting to get better .

i will tag @swanvariation @astriiformes @thelivingend @alonewildbird @werewolfheart2009 @thereexists no pressure as always !

[hollenka99]

Listening to 30/90 reminds that this time last year, I suspected I was about to be kicked out of uni and I knew 23 was going to be pivotal year for me. Well, I was right, I did drop out of university last September after failing to get the grades.

But I got a part time job in my local library which I enjoy. I might even move on to a full time one if the position I interviewed for this week gets back to me with an offer to join them. A part of me mourned the fact I wouldn’t be graduating this summer but let’s be honest, it was going to come close to killing me if I somehow stayed. While there’s still no partner to speak of, I have finally settled into my asexuality and fully embraced it after years of being on the fence about what my identity actually is. Some great movies and shows came out in the past 11 months, along with my interest in reading physical books gradually returning. I discovered new fandoms like Epic/The Odyssey and The Dragon Prince too. Man, the chaos of September 8th, she has that to look forward to as well.

There’s still 3 weeks to go but 23 hasn’t been as bad as July 2022 me was envisioning. I wish I could reassure her by telling her that.

[sytoran]

𝐓𝐀𝐔𝐍𝐓.

completely and entirely based on 'taunt' by lovejoy.

──── ☕ pairing. wanda maximoff x gn!reader

──── ☕ cont. high school/college!au, gn!reader, angst, hurt no comfort, implied sexual references, homophobia, "best friends", unrequited love, vision's an ass, you deserve better, but i had to do it, wanda's nose-scrunch is a recurring theme, look me in the eyes and tell me i'm wrong for that.

──── ☕ note. my angst brainrot with wanda maximoff. she's kinda-but-not-realy-but-yea homophobic (???) i'm so sorry, for once i capitalize my words but only this time for uniformity

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The first time you see Wanda Maximoff, you think she’s taunting you.

She's always asking, "Am I alright?"

As if auspicious or in my pint

She stares at you from across the classroom. Iridescent, mischievous, calculating. You blink slowly. What do you want? Your eyes ask. Hers don’t answer.

I'll find the answer or a good night

Thank God the time is short

The moment ends before your brain can wrap itself around the situation. Those eyes flicker away. You swear you’re hallucinating, but it was the Wanda Maximoff that just stared at you for a moment too long, right?

Popular but in a cool way, dark but humorous, casual but breathtaking — that Wanda Maximoff, right?

And, yes, you always do that one thing

When you wrinkle up the nose bridge

The next time you see Wanda Maximoff, she’s not standing that far away at all. Instead, right up next to you. Almost delving into your personal space.

She’s just curious. That’s all, you tell yourself. It was a coincidence that she sat there, a matter of circumstance.

Her books have crossed that line of boundaries, chair a little too close. Her elbow is merely an inch from yours. It’s really nothing.

You shrug it off, because Wanda hasn’t said a single word to you.

The redhead’s response comes in nothing more than a nose-scrunch.

I'm trying to figure out what that meant

Wrinkling her nose bridge, eyes narrowed in a bitten-back chortle, glimmering with amusement. You follow her line of vision in silent contemplation.

You freeze when you see her fingers tracing the pride sticker on your file.

Fingertips, scratching the already fading sticker. The nose-scrunch doesn’t seem that friendly anymore.

A rainbow becomes a sea of black. A coldness washes over you.

I took it as a taunt

After that incident, the two of you never did speak for nearly five months. High school graduation happened soon after, and then Wanda Maximoff tasted like a distant memory.

Remember way back then in school?

It’s less history, and more present. Truth or dare, college classes.

You never thought you’d see her again, to be honest, but life swung by however it pleased. Apparently, life swung towards inexplicably alluring women.

Of course, Wanda being Wanda, had taken the dare for nearly every single round.

Oh, did anybody ever say no to you? Woah

A drinking challenge, with Steve Rogers, who tapped out three rounds before her. Done.

Did anybody ever say no to you? Woah

A tattoo, from the shitty parlor down the street. Done.

And I don't think I have a clue

The word ‘kiss’ falls from Valkyrie’s lips before you can help it, because it’s Wanda’s turn again and you’re a hopeless fool.

Wanda’s been dared to kiss you.

'Cause, well, did anybody ever say no to you?

‘Levitating’ by Dua Lipa has never felt heavier. The music is ringing in your ears. Cheers turn into wolf-whistles, turn into chants. Your skin prickles.

Oh, did anybody ever say no to you? Woah

You couldn’t say no to her.

Before Wanda can brush off with a charming smile that no, you’re not comfortable with it, or before her eyes can bring up bitter memories from three years ago — you pull her into a kiss.

A hand resting on her annoyingly soft cheek. Your thumb finds the divine urge to run over her flushed cheeks and sharp cheekbones, but restraint pushes you back.

When you break from the kiss, your eyes are unsettled, because why did that feel good? You ignore the hoots from your friends, instead send a slow smile to the flustered mess that was Wanda.

You could taunt her as well.

You're always trying to leave the table

Phone calls, toilet breaks, unstable

Wanda Maximoff is not fine.

She has not been, since she started dating Jarvis. You don’t care, you really don’t.

But when he drops her hand and brushes her off mid-speech, you think you might find the strength in you to break a neck.

I’m fine, Wanda insists. I’m happy, so you can leave me alone. For once. Just ‘cause you’re gay doesn’t mean everyone is, alright?

Swallowing down a lump in your throat, you walk away with defiant eyes and a trembling bottom lip.

Wanda’s a good liar.

And don't you think that we can all tell?

You're insecure, you're insecure

Wanda Maximoff, to you, is shitty diners, and expired bubblegum, and late night car drives to quiet lakes.

Under the prerequisite of friends, that is.

I guess I always do that one thing

When I get too drunk and jump in

You don’t mean it, you really don’t, when your fist flies and happens to knock into Jarvis’ nose on a hot Wednesday night.

He’s just been such a bitch to Wanda, and she’s just your best friend, you know, but there’s a line — there’s a line that you have every right to cross when he forgets her birthday, and she starts crying, and he gets mad.

To figure out what makes your brain tick

You don’t hold yourself back from spitting a snarl of foul words when Jarvis shoves past you. Wanda’s yelling at you, but you’re too tired to care.

Even Tony, so obstinate and so proud, gives you a sympathetic smile.

You’ve never hit a harder rock bottom.

I'm a listener, I'm a listener

When Wanda breaks down into your arms later that night, body wracking with heavy sobs and gasps for air, you listen.

You let her punch your shoulder, then you stroke her back, and whisper sweet nothings into her ear. It was all you’d ever be.

Until she pushed you down onto that rackety bed, meeting your lips along the way. Iridescent, mischievous, miscalculated.

Forget the number for the cab call

As you're dashing out the front door

The next morning is a rush, with Wanda grabbing this after that, saying that she was sorry, and she’d make it up to you. She also calls you a reliable friend, and you want to sink into the depths of darkholds.

She was halfway out the door before you opened your eyes.

You claim to try to dodge the catcalls

Exactly one week later, when you see Jarvis pushing Wanda up against the wall, your heart collapses in on itself.

She was your first love, and you were her little taunt.

Thank God the time is short

Weeks fly by, but it feels strangely quick. You’ve grown numb to the sights of Wanda and her stupidly pretty boyfriend.

And, yes, you always do that one thing

An informal college graduation party, at the same shitty diner with the same shitty pop music.

You don’t really know what you’re doing when you pull a pretty girl into a kiss, after about five minutes of flirting and fifty minutes of alcohol.

'Cause when you throw and drench me under your drink

Cranberry juice stains your white shirt in a few moments. You break away from the kiss, hardly surprised to see Wanda Maximoff with her face redder than her flaming hair, a now-emptied glass about to snap in her hands.

I'm trying to figure out what that means

You can’t feel, not when she was everything to you but you were nothing more than a friend.

“What’s the big issue?” you had drawled, eyes narrowed as you surveyed Wanda with a painfully indifferent expression. “Friends can kiss each other, right?”

The silence is loud.

Wanda’s nose scrunches, a painful imprintment into your godforsaken memory, and a dagger is stabbed into your gut because this time, because you know she's trying not to cry.

Her nose is scrunching, not because she's taunting you, but because she's blinking back tears, and her bottom lip is trembling so much. So, so much.

It’s stupid, the way you’re holding back tears yourself — you want to shout, and scream, because what did you fucking do to deserve the way she treated you.

But you join in with your friends on the cruel laughter, because you don’t know what else to do. Because she was never yours.

The last time you see Wanda Maximoff, you know she’s not taunting you, but you so desperately want to believe she is.

I took it as a taunt

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i was not fine when i wrote this. i'm going through my depressed arc because i'll never be truly accepted by my parents (bawls)

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[sirgogington]

My Word Vomit Response on the Shelby Situation

Main Situation: Last week Wilbur Soot from Lovejoy was accused of having been abusive towards his ex girlfriend Shelby. Shelby is a live streamer and last week she did a livestream about the signs of knowing if you are in an abusive relationship. She never stated his name, but from details given people started assuming it was about Wilbur Soot. A few days later Wilbur confirmed that it was him in an apology tweet on his Twitter account. The abuse had to do with painful biting, and manipulation. 

    I want to start off by saying I do believe Shelby's story. I don't think Wilbur is innocent, but I do believe this situation isn't as black and white as people are claiming it to be. 

    Former fans after hearing the story started unfollowing Wilbur and Lovejoy and saying what a terrible man that Wilbur is, and vowing to never listen to or view any of his content ever again. He's not just a terrible man, he has to be evil too. I may be optimistic but I do think most people can change for the better if they truly want to. There are exceptions, but I truly believe that Wilbur can. The internet wants to just label him as evil and not give him any room to do that. The new thing is "guilty until proven innocent" and that's super harmful as I will go into in a different post. The way people are spreading hate in a us/them mentality is not a mature way of viewing/handling this situation and does more harm than good. Especially when it comes to death threats and doxing which have been received by both sides.

   Wilbur is someone who had a hard upbringing, and has brought up at different times his struggles with mental health. On screen or on stage you would never know this about him, because he has this mask of being confident, well spoken, and joyful. Through these details Wilbur has shared we know that touring took a lot out of him mentally and put him in a bad place, but that he was seeking therapy and is probably currently still seeing a therapist to try and get better. He's shared in the past that when he first blew up on the internet he used alcohol to cope because of how overwhelming it was that so many people were consuming his content. From Shelby's stream we also learned that his living space was dirty and unhygienic and that he would make excuses for it. The details for me paint the picture of a guy struggling badly with mental illness and having a hard time caring for himself and his home. Someone who can hardly take care of themselves should not have been in a relationship. This puts a lot on the other person.  It's different if he were stable and then then his mental health crashed in the middle of a longer relationship, but not if your too mentally ill to begin with. I do deeply feel sorry that Shelby had to experience that, as it truly shouldn't have happened. 

   I went to school for psychology and know quite a bit about different types of mental illnesses. I am by no means diagnosing Wilbur, but I do think he shows signs of someone with Boderline Personality Disorder. Borderline Personality Disorder is an emotional disregulation disorder characterized by unstable mood, behavior, and relationships. People with BPD self sabotage and will frequently end up pushing people away because they don't think they're good enough for them. (In this case maybe he wanted to act so bad so she would leave him, which is very unhealthy). People with BPD also go through depressive episodes and can act impulsively. Without therapy it is extremely hard to cope with this condition but with therapy you can make great strides in changing. I think like most mental illnesses you are aware of the fact you don't like the way you're acting you just have a hard time controlling it. For instance for me growing up with anxiety I knew most of my fears were completely irrational but that didn't stop them from overtaking my life and still feeling anxious. Wilbur has written some really deep lyrics on his new solo album Mammalian Sighing Reflex and I feel like it reflects that he doesn't like the way he is and feels guilty about those he's harmed through it. Maybe I'm giving this man too much credit, but like I said I do believe most people are capable of changing for the better. 

   Shelby stated she did the livestream as a way to help protect other victims of domestic violence and Wilbur Soot himself. He might still be dangerous to the public, it's really hard to know. I know after my own situation with being manipulated I was worried about the guy going after other younger women like he had with me. I didn't want anyone else have to be in that situation so I understand where Shelby is coming from. I also know that if the guy in my life had ever posted an apology, no matter how good it was, that I still wouldn't believe him and have a hard time forgiving him. Bold take but I think his apology was at least decent. Could it have been better, yeah, but could it have been a lot worse, also yes. In his apology he admits to being the person Shelby was talking about. He states that her feelings are valid, and that he wants people to hold him to higher accountability, and that he was sorry for any hurt he caused. Maybe he isnt, but it's hard to know. Wilbur stated in a livestream from last October 2023 that he was going to therapy the next day, because of this we can assume that Wilbur has been going to therapy at minimum since October. In that same livestream he states that he showers once a day when he's in his "big sad", and that he has rented places all over Brighton. He is at least hygienic in this regard, maybe moreso than he was before. It could be a red flag that Wilbur has lived all over Brighton due to possible evictions whether that be negligence or noise complaints from doing livestreams.

   We'll never know how other content creators truly feel about him except for the ones that made it obvious. Of course most content creators are going to jump on the bandwagon and agree that he's an evil man. If they don't then they'll lose their platform because of all the hate they'd get. I do believe some content creators will still hang out with Wilbur secretly or still even remain his friend. But we'll never know. 

   For the people who are posting different video evidences of Wilbur supposedly showing signs of being abusive in the past this is what is called confirmation bias. If you believe someone is abusive suddenly you can find details in the littlest things to confirm your thought process. A lot of the clips I've been seeing have been of normal everyday behavior or confirmed bits. I've seen people say that Wilbur must have bit down really hard to leave bruises. In some cases people bruise more easily than others. I know I have random bruises on my body from nothing. We can tell that what Wilbur did however was pretty painful due to have to use a safe word. Getting bitten usually hurts. I've been bitten by a 5 year old at work and can't imagine how it would feel to be bitten by a grown man who intentionally bit down hard.

This could be confirmation bias as well, but when looking at the lyrics in Mammalian Sighing Reflex and at the album art it seems to tell the story of a man (Wilbur) who really messed up in a relationship and is feeling the pain from that, and has a lot of regret due to knowing he was the cause of her pain. He poured so much of himself into the album it's like he's bleeding out in front of the audience with the amount of vulnerability.

Analyzing lyrics because why not, using lyrics from "Mammalian Sighing Reflex"

"I get so drunk I can barely see." If this album is related to his relationship with Shelby, which I think it probably is, then maybe he tried to cope with the relationship failing by using alcohol, or sabotaged the relationship through drinking.

"A lot of friends have left my life, escaping my tractor beam of woe" Having a mental illness can make it hard to maintain friendships. This could be because it makes you so self-focused on your problems, or that people get tired of hearing about your problems. If you constantly talk about how sad you are, some people are going to have a hard time dealing with that, or get burnt out from having to keep on cheering you up.

"Fuck my life, you cared when I was sick, no one ever gave a shit.....you fought this war one-sided and asked me what am I doing this for." These lyrics seem to speak about how in a past relationship (probably meaning with Shelby), that she cared that he was mentally ill/in a low point and wanted to help him get better. The fight to help him get better was one-sided due to Wilbur not helping to get himself better. If he would have helped her then they "could of stitched my mind together."

"Never been the one for romance, never thought that I'd get married. Never been the kind to give a shared life a second glance, selfish prose." In Shelby's livestream she talked about how her and Wilbur talked about the possibility of getting married and having kids until he backtracked and said that he wasn't that way and changed his mind.

The song "I Don't Think It Will Ever End" is how his mind seems to work in cycles. He'll be sad, because he feels sad he hides away for a bit, but then he feels silly for hiding himself so he forces himself to interact with people. But then when forcing himself to interact again he feels sad, which he says is not a good feeling when you're supposedly in a good phase. He says as self-sabotage he gets silly. Wilbur is known for telling a lot of jokes, and maybe this is a way he masks his true feelings. Also for Mammalian Sighing Reflex it says the songs were written by William Gold (his legal name) and performed by Wilbur Soot (his stage name). Wilbur is who the internet/fans see him as and William Gold is who he really is. Meaning the way we see him online is the extroverted, charismatic, likeable guy we know him as whereas William Gold is introverted, self-sabotaging, nerdy, and a deep thinker.

     The internet gives us way too much information. We're constantly bombarded with more and more information. Before the internet and even in the earlier internet days you did not have this. People were not being as closely viewed and known as they are now. You have to be careful about every little thing you say, because God forbid you say the wrong thing and get canceled. It didn't used to be this way. The only reason you'd ever know anything bad about a celebrity is if they were in the news. I think most of the media we consume whether TV shows, movies, etc. have the potential to have us supporting "bad people". It would be overwhelming to look up every single person we had ever consumed media from and sift through what are lies and what are not about each actor, singer, etc. I get that people don't want to give a platform to people doing bad things, but it's almost impossible to know and to remove every single bad person from the content you consume.  Being a celebrity in general is hard. It's easy to become addicted to drugs, and experience toxicity especially celebrities that live in Los Angeles. Most become people they regret, but some change for the better too. I'm not saying people who do serious crimes should get out of jail because they can become better people. People in jail should remain in jail for serious crimes. Time will tell what becomes of him. If more about him is released or if he's able to actually make strides in his health like he said he would. We will wait and see. I really hope he can heal and get better. Even the most unlikely ones can change their lives. You can both support Shubble and hope that Wilbur gets better.

[sammy-halpert]

"That's just cute now"

Author note: I just haven't seen a new fanfic for ages, so here you go!

Warnings: some cursing, rest is pure fluff <3

You and Wilbur are friends since around four years and have moved in together a year ago. It was very common for Wilbur to be either by his computer all day or with his band, but he still uses every break he has to spend it with you, but obviously he doesn't tell you that and makes you belive he has some breaks alone.

You've had a crush on him the day you saw him. His tlal figure towering over you, his soft presence, his little dirty jokes and the British accent were really something for you. The crush had become so big, you noitice everything. You noitice if he has a new piece of clothing, if there is a new picture in his phone case, even if he gets the smallest paper cut you find out.

But again it felt like he just sees you as a close friend. One time you and him had been watching a movie and he had held you, cuddling you. Of course, he was tired and everything. The next few days it felt like he was ignoring you, avoiding eye contact... blushing?

Wilbur left to record a new sorry boys video, till 7pm, currently it's 6:21pm. Cuddled up in your bed, wearing a t-shirt as you are scrolling on your phone, back faced to the bedroom door. Lovejoy is playing in your headphones and the sound of some videos as you scroll by.

After a little but you come across an edit of a certain someone... (I'll add the video you saw because I am very fucking delusional and I need as much detail in everything possible :D)

'Oh fuck' You thought. Being attracted to him and then seeing these videos made you want to kick your legs and giggle like a high-school girl. You really love this man more than you thought. The next thing you know, you find yourself on a rabbit hole on Tik tok and watching the edits of him, saving them one by one and putting them into an photo album of him.

You've been collecting pictures of him since years, taking some yourself and others from the Internet. It feels to weird have so many pictures of your best friend and admiring them every time you couldn't sleep, but you couldn't help it.

After a while of collecting the videos you take your time and start to look at every single video or photo in the album, zoning out a couple times to think of how to confess to him. You know it's the best thing to just tell him straight up, but you had five worries.

What if he says that he doesn't like you back ? That will be the most awkward friendship ever.

Courage. You don't have it when it comes to Wilbur and confessing.

The 'Oh no I'm gonna fuck this up so bad' feeling the second you try to talk to him about it.

He misunderstands you. What if he thinks you said something else? You already had mustered up all your courage and he didn't understand it. No thank you, another time.

What if he immediately ends the friendship? What if he doesn't want to live with someone who has a huge crush on him? Yeah no, not taking that risk.

You are so lost in a trance you don't hear the front door open. The pictures of him just make you feel like you're on a cloud and turn your eyes into hearts. You are indeed hear over heels for him.

"(Name) I'm back!" Wilbur shouted from the front door as he take soft his shoes and jaket. He stops as you don't answer. "(Name)?" He shouted and looked into the direction of your room. He frowns as worry swarms over him. Did something bad happen to you. He hurries and throws his shoes into the corner instead of carefully putting them there.

Headphones still in use and you are still lost in the pictures. You can't get enough of his looks. The pictures really had something and you didn't noitice his steps or shouts of your name.

Wilbur opens your bedroom door without even knocking, too worried. "(Name)?" He sees you on the bed and mentally sighs relifed. You haven't noiticed him yet, and he knows. An idea gets into his mind and he silently sneaks to your bed, your bsck still facing him and the door. He was about to give you a tickle attack before he saw what you are doing. You are... Looking at images of him, and edits? He watches you swipe in the galleries and they never seemed to stop.

A smile creeps up on his face. You like him back?! He couldn't belive it. He was glad he doesn't have to isolate himself anymore after they cuddle because he needs to recharge the act of not liking you that way. But he won't need the act anymore.

Instead of tickling you, he lays down by your side and spoons you, arms wrapping around your waist and a face nuzzled into your neck, a familiar scent entering your nose.

You quickly turn your phone off in hopes he didn't see anything and take off your headphones. "Oh- hi Will. I didn't hear you" You mumble, blushing. Usually you never cuddle expect for when watching movies. "Mmh... I know" He hummed into your neck.

Spooning isn't your favourite cuddling position so you turn around and nuzzle onto him, head resting on his chest. He pulls you closer and caresses your hair.

What is going on? He is never that affectionate. Like never. Not even while watching movies. Did something happen?

"I see you've spent your time missing me?" You could hear the smile in his voice as clear as day, his hand now resting on your arm, thumb strocking you. "What?" It came out of your mouth without thinking any further and a chuckle moves his chest.

"I mean, you must have missed me a lot that you didn't even hear me come home, because you were too busy staring at my photos." HE SAW THAT?! Now that's where embarrassment becomes cringing. Oh please just make him think you are playing a prank on him, but he knows you're not that big of a prankster. The furthest you go is make him say 'Ben Dover.'

"I was cleaning up my gallery" You mumble and bury your face into his chest. This is so embarrassing. It seems he's catching into that crush of yours, but he seems very cool with it.

"That's just cute now" He mumbles under his breath with a soft chuckle. "(Name). I know that if you have more than eighr pictures of the same guy in a row in your gallery, you are simpinggg" He says in a teasing tone but he was dead serious. "You wanna say I have a crush on you?" You scoff, trying your best to make it seem like you find it funny that he's apperantly so wrong.

Wilbur sighs. "You won't say it so I will." A soft hand comes up from your arm and gently pushes you s bit away so you can look at him without breaking your neck and then comes to your chin, tilting it up to look at him. Then he comes up close, his nose only an inch from you." I love you. Not bestie way. The romantic way." He leans in but centimeters befor your lips he stops. Puppy eyes look into yours and you feel his breath again your lips as he asks in a whisper. "May I? Please"

You know Wilbur is a huge gentle man, so it wasn't a big suprise he asked for concent and to be honest, you liked it a lot. A nod from you was all it took and his lips are now pressed against yours. The hand on your chin moves up to your cheek as the other tone is tucked under you and on your back.

Butterflies fill both of your stomach's as your lips move rhythmically against each other. After a moment or two he pulls away and looks at you with this familiar look in his eyes. Before this you always saw those eyes as his normal rest look, but now you realise, it was a look of love. He had looked at you so many times with this look you thought it was his rest look, but his actual resting face was around his other friends. Around you, he's the softest softie you'll ever know.

An adorable smile curls his lips and you couldn't help but smile back. He holds you close and you wrap your ams around him aswell, cuddling onto his warm and soft presence.

"You're mine now, (Name)"

"Gladly"

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[give-grian-rights]

Hi, so I'm very late but I saw a post about pride which led me to Ranboo now using he/they (!! which is so cool) and that led to the mcyt tag and apparently there was a Dream-GNF-Wilbur situation?? I don't have other socials and a lot of what I am finding gets Tumblr Vacuumed :tm:

I have no idea what's happened and I guess it happened long ago enough that there isn't new things or explanations?

Sorry if this isn't clear, but you're really good at explaining things and I'm very confused

im not trying to be mean anon but i cannot believe that this is a message i am getting in june of 2024 ? like. jaw dropping. ok. Ranboo has used he/they for like.. a year and a half? i think. anyway

Dream is just... generally annoying honestly. he can disprove his grooming allegations as much as he want but he still has said really weird stuff to teenagers and im still not convinced he wouldn't fuck his fans. he has too many allegations to even process.

GNF "joked" during a charity stream of a Techno memorial charity event about how he all the money they are RAISING FOR CANCER should go to him instead. He also got an under-aged girl (18) drunk and proceeded to grope her, claiming he did not realize she didn't consent. when again, she was underage, drunk, and never verbally gave permission, which she COULDNT DO because she was intoxicated. source

Wilbur, who i prefer to call William Gold or "abusive asshole" is an abuser who admitted to being an abuser and who's only defense is that he thought she consented. he was too much of a coward to even say her fucking name. Shubble hadn't named him out of fear, but he came forward shortly after with a horrid fucking statement.

several people confirmed Shelby's story of abuse, and everyone from SBI to people who formerly worked with Lovejoy have confirmed him to be a manipulative shithead.

i'm glad you think i'm good at explaining things but all of this stuff is SOO old. here's some good resources, and i'd recommend looking up "(name) situation" for further insight or looking up the discourse tag on my blog. i am so over all these fucking assholes

[arisdaughter]

hi so i gave in and have decided to make this post

this is my take on the... stuff. thats been happening. iykyk

i think that yes, what he did was wrong, and he shouldnt have switched the perpetrator and the victim's roles, especially since by doing so he also ended up affecting others. he shouldnt have reacted so brashly to the anons. he shouldnt have gotten someone else to help him with his apology(but its not necessarily that someone's fault either.)

but at the same time, at the end of the day, he made a mistake. everyone makes mistakes. not to mention, many of us in this community are minors. that most likely includes him. im not saying we should all forgive him instantly. but honestly, he screwed up. thats the gist of it. everyone screws up, though.

i think that everyone has valid points of this, but honestly this couldve been handled more calmly. i dont know whether fred/freddie is real and i dont know whats going on with him right now. but i know hes probably hurting. i know many of us might be after this incident. that's fair. but again, were all human. humans make mistakes. they screw up.

im not gonna talk about what shouldve and shouldnt have been done, but i am going to say this.

i dont hate him. i disapprove of his actions, but i dont hate him. i dont hate people who hate him either, though. i really hope everyone can move on from this eventually, and things start looking up for everyone.

aside from that, id like to just say, if youre planning on making a similar post like this, please stop tagging me on this account and on @demeters-daughter-is-done. id rather just stay out of this as much as possible, sorry.

sorry for the tags, im gonna tag his taglist-

@zariahthewitch @thegroovydaughterofhestia @if-chaos-was-a-boy @the-gods-strange-children

@silena-daughterofaphrodite @fabulousdaughterofhecate @weakest-son-of-sun

@chaos-pers0nified @neoptolemus-achilles-son @bast-the-best26

@goddess-of-bubblegum @gaygirldoodles @luck-is-crucial @reyna4ever

@vicious-daughter-of-zeus @feral-hermes-child @discriminating @unfortunate-daughter-of-hestia

@that-girl-cupid @ariathemortal @love-lightning-forethought @emdabitchass @kaiaalwayswins

@champion-of-revenge @i-was-never-sane @clown-energy-skyrocketing @zoe-aura-of-d3ath @itsyourboyezra

@lunar-eklipso-r @pink-koi-lovejoy @that-daughter-of-athena @sleepy-as-a-song @smileyalater

@gellyhelio @daughter-ofthe-moontitan @demeters-daughter-is-done @the-smart-and-the-dumb-one

@trinket-snatcher @southerndaughterofeos @creature-under-ur-bed @burnt-out-bitxhes

[lmanbergtubbo]

really sweet post from ur fave guy ever who disappeared for two years ⬇️

the thing is. i will never be cody 2020-2022 again. and that sucks cause id honestly love to experience everything from those 2 years again (expect for the shit parts) but i can't. and cody (20-22) isn't me anymore cause surprisingly u change a lot in 2 years like some very impactful life events happened such as: completing my gcses and leaving high school. my nana dying (1yr anniversaryin 5 days). applying to university and getting all my offers. etc. my interests have all obviously changed a bit like i *liked* tl/oz but now i *love* tl/oz. i got really into tl-ou and yellow-jackets etc etc

im not perfectly content w who i am now that's just not a thing in my blood. i am generally a person who is never happy w themselves and ive always thought that there's ways for me to change and be different and more palatable for other people (important life event: im assessed for autism). i am a guy who is generally stuck in the past while also looking to the future and hoping its better and i have to live with that (im starting to accept it). im also generally embarrassed that people can see and interact with me and can form their own interpretation on me. and i am slowly learning i cannot control that cause not being me is BAD. and it makes me feel BAD. and it's okay that i have cringey interests so whatttt who fucking cares cringe culture is officially dead cause i say so.

the d/smp is incredibly important to me. it's insane that they decanonised the nuke ending n that me n ctom are generally on the same path of 'Getting there' r.e being happy. and i don't want to give that up anymore. so what that 1 of my fave characters of all time is ctub. im allowed that no one's going to kill me for it. and if they do im sure it'll have been motivated by something else. (quite literally had an au/still have an au based upon mostly c!b w the lovely grape t_hq but that was all disc. based and we also made a bunch of ocs so it was less an au more of an ocverse that we stole the characters from - all that to say I DID STILL LIKE THE CHARACTERS. I WAS JUST SCARED AND DID IT IN PRIVATE AND TRIED TO DENY IT TO MYSELF x)

i also js thought it'd be sweet to like. revisit this blog (i was planning to revive an old blog but not this 1) cause im doing a full rewatch im on day 5/6(tubs pov) which were days i wasn't actually around for i joined abt a month later lol. but idk. yeah. i am Getting There it's hard work and im not actually very good at it but id like to not worry abt what other people think of me. which is difficult while im still trying to figure shit out vis a vi my general identity. but i know i miss lmanberg like a mf

(general extra disclaimers: i don't support abusers i don't like ccwil or support lovejoy or drm but if u thought i liked that green fuck then wth :( askme abt my au if u feel inclined i am gonna post abt anything that takes my fancy which actually doesn't change much now that i think abt it and if uve read all of this um here's some pictures of my kitty to make up for all the rambling YESmychristmas tree is up. sorry i think it's been up since setempber)

[lesbeanies-stuff]

another thing is all the wilbur soot stuff

im so sad about it tho because he was one of my fav youtubers and streamers and my fav band is/was lovejoy.

this is disgusting what he has done.

as much as i love/loved his work this is just unacceptable and i don't know how people can support him.

im so sorry for all of the pain and trauma that all of the victims have suffered through.

well done to all the people speaking out about it and not defending him.

its so sad and i genuinely can believe this has happened. i wish none of it happened in the first place for anyone's sake.

im not going to go into details but like its just horrible and why would you ever do this or even want to do this to people.

Wilbur's apology was shit and im glad shubble/shelby didnt accept it.

i hope all victims are at least in a safe space physically and mentally.

he is an abuser and deserves legal action against him

(side note: this is the second like serious post i have made in the past few hours jesus. the world has really gone to shit. well obviously but still)

i hope everyone gets justice

(once again im sorry if i have gotten any of my facts wrong. i dont know if victims are the right words but it's the only thing i can think of. if i did get anything wrong please let me know)

[bonesandthebees]

I just rounded off my period so a massive L to all of you I suppose /lhj

I'm in so much pain about the Wilbur situation in general and have so many mixed feelings. Like I've only just got a chance to sit down and read his 'apology' and all of the replies from content creators and (ex)fans alike. I was so close to throwing up that I had to close the tab /gen.

I've never really watched Shubble content, nor have I had a chance to watch her full vod on the issue, so my first instinct was to be a good little media sieve and try to be open-minded before making an opinion. I won't lie, I was trying very hard to convince myself that it wasn't Wilbur and everyone was jumping to conclusions (though the more I read made that less and less likely).

I was worried for Wilbur's group (tommy, phil, charlie etc) because there was no way they could stream without being harassed by it, and worried partially for Wilbur as well because of various mental health problems that he's admitted to in the past.

Now that he's responded, though, everything's so much worse. As someone who struggled with being on the victim side of abuse for a while, I feel awful for Shelby and everything that happened to her.

Charlie, Ranboo, Tubbo etc have all responded (most very passionately so I have no doubt where they stand), so that's good for them, but tommy and phil have yet to. I can't help but wonder if Techno knew, if it had even started by then or if Wilbur didn't tell him.

I've seen people making reasonable assumptions about signs in past content that may have pointed to Wilbur's abuse, but there are some people making reaches that don't even make sense and now I can barely consume content or even remember videos that i used to be fond of without worrying that it was just Wilbur manipulating people.

Also, as far as I'm aware, none of lovejoy have replied to the situation (apart from the ex trumpeter), so ash, mark and joe are getting hate when they haven't done anything (though I may have just not seen it yet).

Some part of my brain is convinced this is all some horrible nightmare and I'll wake up able to laugh and joke about SBI content with my friends, even if I know that'll likely never happen again.

If there's one thing for certain, it's that his response was not an apology. I do believe that he thought long and hard about it (even if it was just for superficial PR reasons) and maybe ran it by people he trusted, but it was not what he should have said in response to Shelby coming forward about his abuse. All he's done is dig a bigger hole and now thousands of his (ex)supporters have to live with the consequences of his actions.

Honestly, I just feel sad. Sad that it happened, sad that Wilbur isn't who I thought he was and sad that my life will be drastically different from here on out.

Sorry that that was so heavy. I just feel really confused and there's a pit in my stomach that's churning horribly.

-🌺 <3

oh of course SOMEONE just had to finish their period right when the rest of us get it smh /lh

yeah, this is such a horrible situation overall. for me at least his response made the situation somewhat more tolerable because it felt like a closure moment. it made me realize, oh, he was really awful the entire time and this shit apology proves it. however, I'm sure in a few days the reality will hit me and I'll feel awful again. it's not fun realizing someone you admired and were a fan of for so long was a completely different kind of person than the guy he presented himself as.

I don't know where you heard that charlie responded, because as far as I'm aware he has not said anything anywhere about this situation yet.

I also don't think it's very worthwhile for people to be combing through old vods and videos for 'questionable moments' they can point at and be like "look he was abusive the whole time!" because we don't know what's going on in cc's personal lives. more than anything that should be the take away here. we don't know these people, we don't know their personal relationships, we shouldn't be trying to pinpoint every questionable moment and prove something with it because we're not in these personal relationships with wilbur. the other cc's are. basically, don't overthink what you see in old vods or old videos. it's not going to help whatsoever and it's none of our business.

I've also had the thought that this feels like a nightmare I could wake up from. I've had that thought every day since shelby's stream first happened. but unfortunately that's not the case, and we need to focus instead on supporting the victims here

I'm sorry there's not much I can say to help. just try to take care of yourself. give yourself time. it'll get a bit easier with each passing day.

[maarriiii]

Simp (Part 2) | Wilbur Soot

A/N: Oh wow, thank you so much for all the love for the first chapter!!! It means a lot. Also, i have another fic called Happy (Sad) New Year if you’re interested in seeing. And another thing is that I might update this series weekly.

Summary: You might have a crush on Tommy’s cute tall friend with the glasses.

Pairing(s): CC!Wilbur Soot x gender neutral!reader, CC!Wilbur Soot x actor!reader.

Warning(s): None.

italics: streams

my masterlist :))

~~

After your Twitter interaction with TommyInnit, The same thing happened again, funnily enough, was with a friend of Tommy’s and fellow streamer. You recognized him from the first vlog you’ve watched of Tommy’s, the cute tall one with the glasses. Wilbur Soot was his name or at least that was what people called him. Again, your fans tagged you in various posts, moments caught from his stream. In one of those clips, he jokingly banged his fist on his desk.

“That was suppose to be me, chat! I like them first! It’s not fair. Tommy keeps rubbing it on my face.”

There was another one where he talked about when he first liked you.

“I found this soundtrack, right, chat. And it was from this movie. I searched it up, watched it and just immediately it became one of my favourite films. They played one of the characters in it and I found out they wrote a song from the soundtrack that coincidentally is my favourite.”

The thing that got you though was when he complimented your singing and writing in the song that you wrote. You remembered being scared shitless for that particular role for two reasons. One, you never sang in front of that many people before and it made you nervous. Two, although you loved writing songs—you have a journal filled with unfinished songs—you didn’t think you had the ability to write one that was vital to your character’s arc.

“They have a very good voice in my opinion, no, a great voice actually. And that specific song was quite relatable for me—I’m pouring my heart out here, chat, and here you are calling me a simp. Fine, go ahead, call me a simp. I don’t care. Maybe I am a simp. What about it, chat?”

You thought it was really sweet how he thinks of you and you couldn’t help the slight fluttering in your heart and the butterflies in your stomach when his fans tell him that he has a crush. Also his cute smile didn’t help at all with the sensation growing inside you. Honestly, you could just watch a video of him smiling over and over again.

For days, you keep thinking about him which was frustrating and exciting in some way. You felt like a teenager again, crushing on a boy that smiled at you in passing. You haven’t told anyone about it, knowing that everyone was going to tease you if they knew and would try to convince you to reach out to him. You wanted to, badly even, but life in the spotlight has its ups and downs. You don’t want the paparazzi to be crowding and violating this man’s private life just for the sole reason of trying to find out who you might be dating next.

You were scrolling down YouTube again, filling the time as you sat down in the hair and makeup trailer, when you came across a band. From experience, artists you found on YouTube most of the time was your cup of tea so you clicked on the video titled ‘Taunt’ by Lovejoy. The already enjoyable song got more enjoyable when you saw the familiar face that had been invading your mind. You eyes grew wide, your head no longer bopping, and finally that feeling in your heart returned.

“Don’t smile too much. I’m doing your powder.” One of the makeup artist spoke, moving a brush across your cheeks.

“Oh shit, sorry Sloane.” Yet, you smiled again as the video plays out.

Sloane smirked, looking at your phone screen. “Know one of ‘em? Is that why you’re smiling all of the sudden?”

“I know that tone.” You glared at the older woman beside you. “And yes, I do know one of them if you must know.”

“Which one?”

“The one with the glasses and the hat. The tall one.”

Sloane leaned closer. “He’s cute.”

“You think so?”

“Yeah, I can see why you’re into him.”

“I did not say that I like him.”

“You didn’t have to.” Sloane pointed the brush she was holding at your face. “Your smile already did.”

~~

When you realized Wilbur Soot have a band, the obvious choice was to go on a rabbit hole of listening to their entire discography. It took a few listens but their songs grew on you and eventually made their way into your various playlists—some grew annoyed listening to you repeating their songs. Now that you found a perfect opportunity to try and talk to Wilbur, the only thing that’s left was the execution. You didn’t want to make it too obvious that you’re trying to reach this guy. You could only imagine the article they would write about and you didn’t need to be ask about “a mystery guy” when doing press junkets later on.

“What are you scared of? You’re just posting about this band that you like. You’ve done it a million times.” You said, trying to calm yourself.

With one last inhale and exhale, you began typing. Your heart beating vigorously with each letter that you pressed. It was incredibly ridiculous how nervous you were. You kind of wished someone was there to give you some emotional support but alas you were alone in your trailer.

“Okay, that’s good enough, I think. Not too long, not too short. All that’s left to do is post it.”

Your thumb hovered over the button, still contemplating whether or not this was the right choice. Maybe you should’ve chosen the lowkey route. Just slide into his DM’s like many of your friends did. What if he doesn’t see it? What if he doesn’t interact with it the way his friend Tommy did? What if he turns out to be an absolute dick? The possibilities were endless.

When the waiting and the doing absolutely nothing began eating you out, you decided it’s now or never.

“Fuck it.” You closed your eyes, pressed the button and the deed was done.

[sootwilb]

When do you think Wilbur is going to make another statement or response? Because I'm not expecting anything for another year or two or at least till all their tours end. (But that depends on whether he plans to make another response at all.)

I heard that Wilbur usually waits until things calm down before addressing them and if that's the case then we’re probably going to be waiting awhile. Also, if it's true, then is it possible that it could be something Shelby knows about him? Is it possible she could be trying to drag this situation onward?

I mean with that recent stream announcement she did on Twitter/X “Stream my stream instead”, going off the presumption that her stream announcement was referring or a referencing towards Lovejoy fans saying to stream ILGWIS. It would mean that she has been paying attention to Lovejoy and their fans and is reminding people about her while simultaneously targeting Wilbur/Lovejoy's comeback.

Which is not healthy for her if she wants to move on and heal.

Honestly, if Wilbur was to just leave social media entirely and never touch upon this situation again, I would not blame him. I wouldn't want to come back to this shitshow either.

Sorry for the somewhat long post, I hope that it made sense. Anyways, I hope you have a lovely day!

I think he will make another response to the situation because on his post he said “it’s all he wants to say FOR NOW” which indicates there’s going to be more he has to say but i don’t think that will happen for a while. I think it could happen early next year but more than likely it could happen even later than that. if there’s evidence and if there’s lawyers involved these things take time to fully form into a response.

Shelby is definitely keeping tracks on him. She was still following the lovejoy band account on twitter up until last month and i think she only unfollowed because a bunch of wss called her out. she also seems to be lurking in wss spaces which is very much not healthy.

[joviepog]

The Longer I’m Gone

Where you and Wilbur meet at a Cafe and you guys become good friends. But Wilbur goes in tour without you even knowing he has a band. Later your friends invite you to a Lovejoy concert and you see Wil and he sees you.

—/—/—/—/—

Warnings: Nothing (maybe a little cringe again idk? 🤷🏻‍♀️)

Pronouns: Usage of She/They

Word Count: 2,647 words

Tag list: @fruityfrog505

Anything else: I was literally on an airplane at 3:00 AM and i couldn’t sleep the whole flight. So what i did was write this crap. I apologize in advance 😭.

You sat at your table quietly, typing away to your homework. Every once and a while you would tale a sip of your drink, a soft sigh escaping your lips every time you would finish a sip. The café was silent besides the occasional order. Your AirPods where in your ears playing your favorite music. Every once and a while you would double check to make sure that your AirPods weren’t loud enough for other people to hear. It was a rainy day and the clouds made it seem like the day would never end. The pitter patter in the windows calmed you. Your jacket was hanging on your chair and so did your backpack. The turtle neck kept your neck warm and your beanie did the same for your head. This moment felt absolutely perfect, you were just waiting for one thing.

Any time the little bell on the top of the doorway your head would shoot up. But almost every time, it was just another basic customer. Sometimes, you would make eye contact and awkwardly smile, which only made you feel worse about yourself. After some time of waiting, you finally decided that there’s no point in waiting. You looked back at your laptop and started typing again. You sigh and wished you didn’t waste the money on another coffee when he wasn’t even going to come.

Suddenly the door bell rang again. You looked up to see the tall man with goofy brown hair that you had been waiting for. He opened the door quickly then looked around, once he saw you he smiled before jumbling over a bunch of tables. He would bump into one, then another, then he would bump into another person; apologizing all the way. His eyebrows were scrunched up and he had a worried look on his face. But once he got to you? He stopped for a moment composing himself before walk to you calmly. He sat down in front of you and gave you a soft smile, taking off his jacket and putting it around his chair as well.

“Sorry i’m late I was busy…” he paused, lost in thought for a moment as you gave him a considering look. He shook his head suddenly as if to get a thought out if his head.“…busy packing.”

You tilt your head at him and smirk with one eyebrow up. Your nose was scrunched and you had a concerned look on your face. “You? Packing? Your joking right? You never travel anywhere!”

He gives you a soft smile, “I know. But its going to happen often now.” He sighs. You look dumbfounded. Not that you where ever going to admit it you loved Wilbur’s company. He made you feel like someone did appreciate you in life. He made you feel loved. He was the reason you kept going. If he leaves, what is there to look forward to?

He smiled at you softly before a wide grin grew on his face.

“So, did you get me my coffee?”he grabbed the cup of coffee in front of you and closed his eyes to smell it, making sure it was his. He was trying to change the topic.

“Wilbur. Why are you packing? Where are you going? Is it only going to be a couple days? Wilbur why didn’t you tell me beforehand?!?” You were bursting out millions of questions.

You see, you and Wilbur first met about 6 years ago. Right before covid started. You had been coming to this Café for a while. And you noticed that someone would also come here at the exact same time and the exact same days as you. At first you thought he was stalking you or something but really he just came at the same time as you. Its not like you didn’t take notice to him as well. Soon you found out his name -William- and you found out his favorite drink. He liked a Caramel Macchiato every time with extra Caramel. You also took into consideration onto how he looks. He has Brown Fluffy hair that covered your face sometimes if you didn’t get a haircut. And when he did get a haircut, he would look like a whole new person. Any time this occurred you laughed a bit. He would walk in looking like a new person all proud, but once you looked at him you chuckled. Sometimes he would look at you and laugh at well. His eyes were a nice brown that looked like honey in the sun. He usually wore comfy close but sometimes he would dress up. When that happened you assumed he had a date or some important meeting. Finally you noticed his smile. The ways his ear would go up a tad but when he did, the way his nose would scrunch up, or how his eyelids would come up to his eyes to make it seem like he was squinting a bit; you noticed everything. Of course you would never admit to that. In fact, most of the time you would just smile at him.

At first you two would only smile at each other. Then you two started making small talk. And finally you two ended up meeting up every Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday.

Your friends started to tease you about the relationship. Saying that you two were “meant to be”. Back then you didn’t know how to respond. Wilbur and you? Meant to be? Ha! No way! But now? Now that’s all you think about at night. The fact that maybe, just maybe, your little Café crush could be the one. And the fact that he’s going to be leaving, even if its just for a few days makes your anxiety rise.

“Darling.” The nick-name made you shiver but you brushed it off, even though your face was still showing a red hue which obviously made Wilbur proud. “I’ll be fine. I’m going on t-“ he paused, looking at you with sad eyes. “I’m going on a family trip.” He sighed. Your eyebrows were scrunched and you were inspecting him closely.

“I don’t believe you Soot.”

*Wilbur POV*

I was late. Really really late. Usually i’m there right on time. But this time I couldn’t do anything about it! I had to pack for my tour wether I liked it or not. ‘I could blame it on the rain and traffic? But she already knows that I live close by. Darn it why do I tell her everything?’I thought. “Its fine! I’ll just tell her the truth. I’m packing.’ I said to myself as I ran up to the café. I quickly opened the door and paused. ‘Where was she? Oh! There she is!’ I smile at her and quickly go to her. She smiling at me. I know that I smile all too well. But as i’ve stared I started stumbling onto tables, sometimes I would bump into people! I blushed a bit at the fact that I had been staring. I jumble out a couple of sorry’s before finally getting to the table that she was in. As I approached her I started to walk more calmly. As I sat down I gave her a soft smile and scan her outfit. She had a black turtleneck with a tan trench coat hanging on her chair. She had some Black Doc Martins and a black skirt. Accompanied with some black tights and a beanie.

I stared at her fir a second more before starting, “Sorry i’m late I was busy…” I paused and thought about telling her. I’m tired of lying to her. “… busy packing.” I continued.

When I looked at her she was confused. Her nose was all scrunched up and her head was tilted and yet there was a playful smirk on her face. “You? Packing? Your joking right? You never travel anywhere!” She said shocked. She seemed mad. I felt like a little kid getting scolded by my parents.”I know. But its going to be happening often now.” I sigh. I was looking down at the table, avoiding any eye contact. I was going to miss her. I really was. But its official. I’m going on tour.

As I look back at her she seems as if she had seen a ghost. Her face was white and her eyes were wide.

“So, did you get me my coffee?”I grabbed the cup of coffee in front of her and closed my eyes. I smiled a bit smelling the coffee that I knew all too well. It was my way to make sure that yes, she still knew what my favorite drink was. I was trying to change the topic as much as possible but she still persisted, “Wilbur. Why are you packing? Where are you going? Is it only going to be a couple days? Wilbur why didn’t you tell me beforehand?!?” She spurted out. Looking absolutely confused.

It was the same look she gave me when I first say with her. It was a bold move but I managed. Here’s what happened…

I sat down in front of her, smiling a bit as I sat. I didn’t even look at her, I pulled out my phone and started scrolling through twitter. I held in my laugh, already knowing the confused look on her face. The one she makes when she is thinking about what to order. I smile softly to myself as I imagine her face.

“I-“ she paused as I continued to look at my phone, I looked up for a second, looking around to see if it was a prank which made me smile. “Can I help you Wilbur?”

I looked up with an eyebrow raised, teasing her as I spoke in a playful tone, “You know my name?” A red hue hit her face as I spoke. “I- I uhh???” She stumbled over her words. She huffed, muttering curses to herself. My leaned on my hand, looking at her with watchful eyes. Her actions made me smirk.

“Its okay…” I paused, smirking at her. “YN.”

She looked up at me, her yes widened. She laughed a hit, her smile lighting up the room. “Okay, okay,” she choked out, wiping away tears from all the laughter. “Lets start over. My name is YN! And you?” She said, a playful tone attached.

“Wilbur.” I said, taking out my hand for her to shake. She stared at it for a moment plainly before finally shaking it. “Nice to meet you!” She chirped out. I smiled.

“Sorry for the sudden interruption.” I started, finally explaining my actions, “It just seemed like it was finally time that we properly met.” I chuckled a bit. “But I thought I would tease you a bit to see your reaction.” She smiled widely and laughed. Her laughter filler the room and I remember a fuzzy feeling. Like I had found the one for me.

——

She continued asking questions. One after the other came along not even letting me speak. I sighed and softly spoke, “Darling.” I said before even thinking, “I’ll be fine! I’m going on t-“ I paused, “I’m going on a family trip.” I said slowly.

——

You see, Wilbur would never admit it, but he really liked YN. Like, a lot. He didn’t want to loose her. And he thought, that if she knew about the babd, she would think it was weird and stop talking to him. Or that she would become some obsessive fan and he would have to stop talking to her. He was scraed. He really truly was.

——

“I don’t believe you soot.”

I looked at her absolutely flabbergasted. “w-what?”

“I don’t believe you.” She scoffed. “Wilbur you’ e been acting differently and your not owning up to whats going on. You act like I don’t know you.” She paused, looking into my eyes, “Wilbur tell me what’s going on. Please.” She said softly, a pleading look in her eye.

“I-“ I looked at her, “I can’t.”

She stared at me for a moment before sighing, “I’ll see you later.”

My eyes widened as I saw her garb her things. She put the jacked over her and grabbed her backpack.

“What?! Where are you going?” I turned around in my seat as she walked away, “YN please I-“ she walked out, the door closing behind her. I was left alone. The workers looked at me and so fid the couple across the café. I sighed, deciding that I should head out too. I picked up my stuff and and oaused fir a moment. I looked at the coffee. Her name written in cursive by a worker. “I’ll see you in two months YN…”

“Ugh why can’t you get over him?? You guys weren’t even dating!” One if your friends whined. You where on a trip with them over in California and they where not having it with you. It had been at least two months since you fell out with Wilbur. You thought that you might have been too harsh on him but you were being honest! He’s been hiding something from you and you didn’t like it. You didn’t like how much he lied. But it hurt. Badly when you stopped talking to him. You hadn’t even gotten his phone number. 6 years and you still hadn’t gotten his phone number.

Its not like you didn’t try to apologize. You looked for him. Everywhere. You asked everyone about him and nobody knew. Your heart was broken. You wanted to take everything back. You felt like an idiot. All you wanted to do was see him and tell him how much you loved him.

“That doesn’t matter. I lost a good friend.”

“But you have me! And if you tell me who this mystery guy is I could help you find him!”

Yeah you hadn’t told anyone about Wilbur. Well, that’s a lie. He was all you talked about. But you never said exactly who he is. You didn’t want them to cause something and get all up in your life. “Sorry but no.” I tease.

Your friend huffs before smiling again. Okay well, we have to go before we are late for the concert.

“Who are we seeing?” You ask unknowingly, “Livejoy?”

Your friend laughs, “No Lovejoy!”

“Yeah okay. We are going to see Livejoy.” You said laughing, a wide grin on your face.

“Ugh YN!” They said teasingly.

Once you got there you saw your friends face grinning widely. They were happy so you where happy. Anything to make them happy you thought. Soon enough, someone announced “Welcome Lovejoy!” Over the speakers. Everyone started cheering and screaming peoples names. And one of them stood out to you, “Wilbur!” Somebody yelled out. Why couldn’t you stop thinking about him!

Suddenly a tall man with curly hair approached the stage. You swore that your heart stopped for a second. It was him. Wilbur Soot. Your Wilbur Soot. Was thins what he was hiding? God how you just wanted to crawl into a rock and die. The worst part was that you were right in the front. You stared. Just stared. He was wearing a racer jacket and black pants. His smile was wide and you couldn’t help but smile. You where so proud of him. Why would he try to hide this?!? The person you admired the most had his own band. And its not a little band. He had thousands of fans!

You smiled widely as you stared at him. He said hi and did his intro before starting the first song, call me what you like. Mid way through the song you made eye contact with him. And it wast a one second eye contact thing. It was for a hot minute. You could tell he was shocked. As he stared at you he started to mutter some if the words.

You where in love. So in love. You smiled the whole show. Once it ended, you where asked to go backstage. And once got there you found Wilbur. Your Wilbur.

“Listen Yn i’m sorry-“ But you didn’t let him finish, you hugged him tightly, jumping on him making him catch you. You buried your nose into his neck and smiled. “God I missed you.”

You heard a small gasp before he spoke softly, with you still in his arms. You could practically hear his love for you.

“The longer I’m gone the more I realize how much I love you.” He whispered in your ear lovingly.

P.S I FIXED SO MUCH BECAUSE AT FIRST I WROTE IT AT LIKE 1 AM AND IT WAS HORRIBLE. THIS TOOK ME FOREVERRRRR. ANYWAY- Hope you enjoyed! :D

[mygreatadventurehasbegun]

Noirvember

My goal this month was to watch as many film noirs as possible...it's a bit of an underrepresented genre for me, and I wanted to try and watch some that I'd never seen before.

Here are the new-to-me noir movies I watched this month:

The Hitchhiker

Directed by Ida Lupino, this film follows two men who are taken hostage by a hitchhiker who happens to be wanted for multiple murders. Even though they are doing everything he says: crossing the border into Mexico, keeping a low profile...it is very clear that he plans to kill them as soon as they are no longer of use to him. We watch as these two men (played by Edmund O'Brien and Frank Lovejoy) slowly fall into despair, while also trying to find a way to escape the killer.

An enjoyable film with good performances all around, though at only 71 minutes, it still felt a little long to me. It honestly could have been trimmed down and would have made a really intense short film. But I do love that this was directed by a woman.

He Ran all the Way

John Garfield's final film, and it was a really good one! Garfield plays Nick Robey, a man who is coerced into robbing a payroll office, which results in a couple of deaths. While on the run, he meets Shelly Winters' Peggy, and goes back with her to her apartment. From there, it turns into a tense hostage situation, where he holds her and her family in the apartment, to keep them from telling the police who he is.

The film almost feels like a play, as the last two acts take place almost exclusively in the apartment...and as the hours and days drag on, the claustrophobia increases...along with Nick's paranoia. And John Garfield gives an excellent performance...really making you sad at how short his career was.

Touch of Evil

A great film directed by Orson Welles! The movie is well-known for its long opening shot, and it definitely was an impressive moment, especially for the time. The story is very engrossing...thought I admit, I got confused for a bit because I must've been distracted by something and missed an important piece of information. I really liked Janet Leigh's performance as Susie, though it was too bad that such a strong character ended up being a bit of a prop for the last act. Though that scene in the hotel room was really intense...

The only real 'ding' against the movie is the fact that Charleton Heston is playing a man of Mexican descent. Though, it was kind of funny that Spanish-speaking characters were insisting on speaking English with him...I guess Heston's Spanish wasn't very convincing.

Niagara

Man. I really wanted to like this one. As a Marilyn fan who is trying to see more of her films, this one was a big disappointment. Marilyn was the one real shining light in an otherwise dull movie. Despite her limited screen-time (she was top-billed, but she's maybe only in about a third of the film), she manages to take her sexy, charming onscreen persona and turn it into a devious femme fatale.

I really wish she was in this movie more, because the two actual leads are soooo boring...and I found the actor playing the husband to be pretty insufferable.

And what a waste of Joseph Cotton.

Sunset BLVD

OK, so I had technically seen this movie before watching it this month...but I saw it once back in high school and I actually haven't watched the entire movie since!

I admit, when I first watched it as a teenager, I didn't fully get it...I didn't understand what Joe and Norma's relationship really was, and being so young, I didn't fully understand Norma's struggles. But watching it again, I have to agree with most people that this movie is a masterpiece.

Gloria Swanson's performance is nothing short of astounding, and if I were a voting member of the academy in 1950, I would have voted for her (sorry Bette Davis).

Angel Face

I didn't think I was going to be able to watch this one, but I actually found the full movie on Facebook, of all places! I wanted to check this one out because it stars two very talented and underrated actors: Jean Simmons and Robert Mitchum. The story revolves around Diane, a young, wealthy woman who starts up a relationship with Frank, an ambulance driver who eventually becomes her chauffer. She is devoted to her father (played by Herbert Marshall) and isn't a huge fan of her stepmother (played by Barbara O'Neil)...so you can kind of guess where the story might be headed.

I found the first half of the film to be more interesting than the second half, but I will say that there were moments throughout the film where I didn't know where the story was headed...and I was genuinely surprised with how they ended it. But it's a nice little melodrama/noir that really is carried by its two leads...I think in the hands of less talented actors, this movie would not have worked. Jean Simmons especially gives the character so much depth and mystery...you can understand why Mitchum's Frank is so drawn to her.

And a little side note about the production of this film: apparently, producer Howard Hughes and director Otto Preminger intensely disliked Simmons...and during a scene where Frank has to slap Diane, Robert Mitchum was "pulling his punches" and Preminger told him to slap her harder. Mitchum turned around, slapped Preminger in the face and asked him if that was hard enough. *applause*

Phantom Lady

A man comes home after a night out with a woman he's never met before, only to find police in his home and his wife dead. And because he never learned the woman's name and she is nowhere to be found, he is arrested and convicted for his wife's murder. The rest of the film follows his devoted secretary, played by Ella Raines, as she tries to clear his name and find the titular Phantom Lady. This movie has a really interesting premise and is also the rare film noir where the protagonist is a woman. The character of "Kansas", as she's called by her boss, is determined to find out the truth, risking her own safety to save him from execution. Franchot Tone also appears as the condemned man's best friend and Elisha Cook, Jr. has a small role as a drummer that knows a key piece of information. The movie looks great...there is one sequence where our lead is following someone, and the lighting and cinematography are pure film noir.

Gun Crazy

Another cool movie that I came across on TCM...wasn't even looking for it and I found out it was available for free, so I decided to give it a shot! A gun aficionado named Bart (John Dall) meets a sharpshooter named Laurie (Peggy Cummins) at a traveling fair. They are quickly married and end up going on a crime spree in order to make money. If you're thinking: "that sounds like Bonnie and Clyde", you're right. They were the inspiration for the movie, and it turned out to be a really good one. The chemistry between our two leads is fantastic, and I have to say there were a couple moments that kept me guessing...I was waiting for Laurie to run off with the money and leave Bart, but it never happened. And the final sequence is very intense...you absolutely believe how exhausted the actors are when they collapse after evading police...and the scene in the fog really builds up the tension.

Plus, you get to see a tiny, young Russ Tamblyn! He was probably only 13 or 14 when this movie was made...at first, I thought maybe he was going to be in the fair scenes, using his acrobatic skills...but he actually plays the younger version of John Dall's character. And it was nice seeing John Dall in another role...I had only seen him in Hitchcock's Rope as a sociopathic villain...but he has a bit more of a nice-guy earnestness to him in this movie (despite the robberies). He was actually giving me some James Stewart vibes at times! And Peggy Cummins was amazing as Laurie...I love how hard-edged she was...there was a darkness in her that was really fascinating to watch.

And in addition to all the new movies I checked out, I also watched some old favorites:

~Double Indemnity

~Notorious

~Shadow of a Doubt

~Strangers on a Train

~Sweet Smell of Success (or I will be...I'm going to watch that one tomorrow, lol)

But of the new-to-me noir movies I've watched this month, I'd say may favorites were Sunset BLVD, He Ran all the Way and Gun Crazy. Those are movies I would absolutely revisit again! Though I think all of them are worth checking out...although with Niagara, you really only need to watch the scene with Marilyn, IMO.

Happy Noirvember!!!

[t-rexomboi]

Im done

I just found out about everything and I am no longer supporting wilbur or any lovejoy content. This is so confusing and angering to me. Please stay safe and take care of yourself because everyone probably just kinda needs to process this. I definitely do. I legit am just so shocked that this whole thing happened and Im so sorry to shelby and anyone else who was hurt by wilburs actions. This is not the way I expected this to go but I think this is a reminder to me not to idolize people too much because you never really know what they are like. Again please take care of yourselves and take the time you need to process what just happened

[rockstar-pinkbug]

Sorry Boys AU one-shot idea. (Zombie apocalypse) (kinda mixing Sorry Boys with their CC selves but still)

(I can't write for shit so have these little ideas. You can write something with either of these ideas, I won't ask for credit. Though I would like to see what you do with them.)

(Sorry if this is terrible)

Tommy and Ranboo have been surviving in this apocalypse for so long. It hurts, and their tired. Today is Wilbur's birthday... grief is overwhelming.

So, Tommy and Ranboo go to an area that is mostly zombie proof and hop on a stage plug their phones into the speakers and begin blasting all of Lovejoy songs as well as Wilbur Soot's sole songs.

(Version 1 sad ending)

Zombur walks around in a horde and then hears the music. The rest of the zombies just ignore it and continue going. But Zombur stops walking. He's entranced by the music. He doesn't remember it. He doesn't remember anything, really. He doesn't even recognize that's his own voice singing. He's just standing there. He's crying. He doesn't know why, but the music makes him feel something. He feels sad, yet he doesn't know why. He'll forget this moment happened when the music stops playing, but for now, he listens in silence. In mourning, yet he doesn't even know why he's mourning.

(Version 2 happy ending)

(In this version, there is a sort of cure for the virus, yet it isn't known. When a zombie sees or hears something(something, it can't be someone) familiar, they slowly gain their memories back, and their brain fights off the virus, turning them into half-zombies in a way. Their body is still that of a zombie, but their mind is that of a human. I came up with this on the spot cause I wanted to make a happier version.)

Zombur walks around in a horde and then hears the music. The rest of the zombies just ignore it and continue going. But Zombur stops walking. He's entranced by the music. He's slowly beginning to remember himself before all of this. The more music that plays, the more he remembers about himself. He snaps out of it once the music stops. He's himself again! He's Wilbur! He runs away from the horde.

Eventually, Zombur reunites with Ranboo and Tommy, who, at first, try to kill him and then are shocked to see he's suddenly no longer trying to attack them. And that he can talk again. Like the virus has no effect on him anymore. It's currently an interesting reunion, but it's a welcome one.