#sorry about the essay in the tags but im not good enough at expressing it to put it in the post

[heathcliffgirl1847]

frodo with elanor!!! part 2 of fellowship with the babby!!!!

part 1

[adhd-merlin]

2023 WRITING REVIEW

I really don't write much but it's the second time @eeverlark tags me in a writing meme (I think) soooo alright lys I'll do it. for you 🫶🏻

1. number of stories posted to ao3: 4, and yes I'm counting the fic I updated in early January because 7 out of 8 chapters were written in 2023

2. number of words posted last year: 49k

3. fandoms i wrote for: only Merlin I'm monogamous 💛

4. pairings: Merwenthur; Merwaine; background Arwen in an Arthur & Merlin fic if that counts

5. stories with the most:

KUDOS || BOOKMARKS: Call It Anything We Want (281 | 48)

COMMENT THREADS: my merwenthur vignettes have 31 threads (excluding the chapter posted in January 2024). makes sense given every chapter is basically a self-contained ficlet

6. work i'm most proud of (and why): every fic I write is simultaneously the best and the worst I've ever written and it remains so until I post a new one.

Honestly though every fic(let) has some things I like and some I think I could've done better.

Having said that, Call It Anything We Want is the first fic I posted on ao3 after a long writing hiatus so. I'm proud of that and of the amount of time I've put into this story as a whole.

7. work i'm least proud of (and why): hmmm see previous answer.

there's a ficlet called The Hunting Trip that I think I could have done better – mainly the conversation Arthur and Merlin have about Uther – but I just wanted to get it done tbh. I do like how it starts though. And Cavall the dog :)

8. share or describe a favorite review you received: I absolutely love any time someone says they liked my characterisation. for example:

your characterization is insane i am so obsessed. its so so good. like. idk how to describe it you just write relationships meshing so well together and not in like. an unrealistically flawless way but in a warm and familiar way. im in awe.

or

I love this story, your writing, this relationship, this dynamic, your details, your characterization, your everything and I’ve been meaning to tell you for a very long time. I’m sorry for not expressing this earlier. Your continuation of the original story was incredibly, believably, wondrously fantastic.

Comments like these give me life 🥺

9. a time when writing was really, really hard: 99% of the time if I'm being honest

10. a scene or character you wrote that surprised you: I wrote a ficlet that was supposed to be magically genderbent!Merlin x Arthur smut but it ended up being fem!Merlin x Gwen instead because Arthur wasn't cooperating

11. a favorite excerpt of your writing:

“Ah, the court sorcerer himself!” Gwaine exclaims, spreading his arms wide, and some wine sloshes out of his goblet and spills on the floor. He claps one hand on Merlin's shoulder. “Congratulations, Master Merlin.” “I told you to stop calling me that.” Gwaine just looks at him. Head to toe, with a grin that does nothing to hide what he's thinking, and must therefore come across as incredibly lewd. “You look good in green,” is all he says. Merlin raises an eyebrow. “You think I look good in anything.” Gwaine leans closer; close enough to purr in Merlin’s ear: “And even better in nothing at all.” Mainly for the pleasure of watching the tips of Merlin’s ears flush pink. — UNWAVERING

12. how did you grow as a writer last year: well I actually wrote something which is a good starting point

13. how do you hope to grow this year: I'd love to write a multi-chapter fic with an actual plot someday. also get better at titling things

14. who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer, beta, cheerleader, etc.): I think all the lovely people that left me some feedback made me push myself a tiny bit harder to keep writing and posting. a special shout-out to @castelled-away for writing whole essays about my merwenthur ficlets, I've loved every single comment 💛

15. anything from your real life show up in your writing last year: nothing apart from my desire to kiss Colin Morgan on the mouth

16. any new wisdom you can share with other writers: sometimes done is better than perfect. just get it done and move on it's fine if it's not a masterpiece. at least that's what I often have to tell myself but also I suspect I have adhd

17. any projects you're looking to starting (or finishing) this year: I would like to finish my Sefa-centric WIP, I wrote like 8k words but I'm not sure where it's going

[sharpmarble76]

I posted 5,185 times in 2022

That's 5,185 more posts than 2021!

94 posts created (2%)

5,091 posts reblogged (98%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@calcium-cat

@moonliched

@lovelymoonmagic

@robinette-green

I tagged 5,157 of my posts in 2022

Only 1% of my posts had no tags

#fnaf - 2,787 posts

#undertale - 1,745 posts

#mutuals - 343 posts

#random - 325 posts

#utmv - 307 posts

#long post - 138 posts

#dream sans - 84 posts

#dreamtale - 81 posts

#sun and moon show - 80 posts

#asks - 64 posts

Longest Tag: 133 characters

#thank you for saying this and your sweet comments on that one post because i really needed to hear this and so many others do as well

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Another of my beginner art pieces. Sorry if you're from my other fandom with Sun and Moon. My mutual told me that I should post more art so yeah. Anyways, imma bury this in reblogs

36 notes - Posted October 11, 2022

#4

Here's a slightly old piece of art that I finished. I must say, I hate his pants. Why stripes? They're so hard to draw 😭 I'm sure I'll get less wobbly someday...

37 notes - Posted October 11, 2022

#3

Posting this before I go to bed because I'm a coward.

67 notes - Posted October 28, 2022

#2

I don't know if people really understand the effect simple things have on others. As a fanfiction author, yes I write my weird little stories for myself, but once you get a comment or a kudos or a vote or whatever it may be, everything sort of shifts.

It gains a sense of responsibility yes, but it also gains a new excitement. For example, we've all been that little kid scribbling away with a crayon. We're going to do other similar crayon drawings, but nothing feels as good as showing that little picture to your parent, guardian, or whoever else. I and the other authors/artists are that little kid with the crayon drawing.

If you leave a comment, I will always remember that. Even if it's just 'good chapter.' or 'im about to commit murder 😃🔪' or '❤️❤️❤️'. Authors and artists remember these things!! If you are one of the people who leave essay comments, I have to sit down and take a minute to calm down enough to have a coherent reply. You dear friend, are wonderful.

If you keep coming back or leave multiple comments, I REMEMBER YOU!! I may even consider you a fandom friend or in Tumblr language, a mutual! I see you!!!!!

If you make art, or a story of your own, or make a translation,,,,,, I would die for you. I save the art. I look at it. I downloaded it to my camera roll and favorite it. I read your fic. I comment on it as well. I recommend your translation in the authors note because that may be more convenient for people to read.

I try to express just how much it means to me that you did any of the above things especially the things in the last paragraph. The words don't word. I end up going, "I absolutely love it!!!!!!!!" And "jteaykrsktrsotaptd" and it doesn't work. Well, not entirely. That may send the message across mostly. You see that on your side of the screen and on my side, you would see me pacing, talking to myself about how wow that is amazing and so sweet and oh my heck I would die for you, and doing a weird jazz hands thing and putting my hand over my heart, and sitting down because I need a minute-, and I never forget.

It makes me want to do so much more. It makes me love my weird little creation that much more and grants motivation. I ALWAYS remember. And I think about it all the time. And when I post more I think, 'oh, I hope this meets their expectations and I hope they like it!!' And 'wow I'm getting better at this, I wonder if they noticed?' And 'wow I love and appreciate you so much!'

Even if it's a little thing, it means the world to us little crayon drawing people.

71 notes - Posted November 29, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Hello Sun and Moon artists! I would like to inform you of 2 accounts on Pinterest who are reposting your art without credit! One is OoO and the other is ☆•🍮 Minko 24 🏳️‍⚧️•☆

OoO: https://www.pinterest.com/NoicesOfChaos/

☆●🍮 Minko 24 🏳️‍⚧️●☆: https://www.pinterest.com/phrnphsbutrach/

Some of these artists who have been stolen from are:

@shandzii @oobbbear @pillowspace @miwachan2 @bamsara @lovelymoonmagic @bluwithoutane @fluffffpillow and there are many others! I would tag more but there's a lot and I can't remember it all from the top of my head

Sorry about that everyone, the accounts are now linked.

378 notes - Posted November 19, 2022

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[phoenixfangs]

(to preface, for this post im going to use trans rep as my primary discussion example but i think this line of thought could be applied to basically any marginalized group)

honestly regarding that last reblog and the essay i left in the tags, i dont want to hear anyone praising anything for ‘good representation’ or condemning anything for ‘bad representation’ ever again i think.

firstly because people are so braindead that they cant meaningfully identify either good or bad representation. everything that i like is good and everything that i dont is bad. anything created by any trans person is good and anything created by any cis person is bad. everything that is kind and saccharine is good and everything that is angry and miserable is bad.

(seriously if i have to see one more take thats like ‘media that centers around trans suffering is bad and harmful because i dont like it and it makes me uncomfortable it turns trans suffering into a profitable spectacle, and besides being trans can be a good thing actually its not all about pain’, im going to bite somebody. im sorry that a) u dont understand that sometimes the intent of the media or stories like that is to hurt u and make u uncomfortable, b) u dont understand that someone expressing the pain they felt Because they are trans, and that they wouldnt have felt if they werent trans, is a valid form of art and self expression, and u have no right to condemn them because u dont personally connect with it, c) u dont understand that media doing the bare minimum of including a trans character who isnt hatecrimed against isnt ‘celebrating transness’ and can absolutely also be turning trans pride into a profitable spectacle, and d) that ur making all of this my fucking problem. it is not bad or morally incorrect to connect with and represent pain, especially at the hands of bigotry. my god.)

secondly because arguably it will never fucking matter anyway until society at large comes to terms with and moves past whatever -phobia or -ism we decide to center the discussion on that week.

‘good’ trans rep is never going to change a bigots mind or heart because their problem isnt that they just havent learned the error of their ways: their problem is that they hate an entire group of people on the basis that this group of people threatens their status as majority, moral correctness/worthiness, controller, group in power, whatever—whether this is materially true or a paranoid delusion. likewise, ‘good’ trans rep is never going to be enough for trans people to feel validated because of the way society has been marginalizing and oppressing trans people for longer than most of us here have even been alive, and continues to do so. it will feel nice in the moment, to see that people outside of urself and maybe even outside of ur marginalized group dont think of u as subhuman waste, but that feeling will not last forever as long as hate crimes and bigoted policy keep getting real life trans people hurt, jailed, and/or killed. idk about anyone else but nowadays its incredibly difficult for me to feel anything but contempt, dread, numbness, looking at ‘good’ trans rep while all that stuff is still happening on the daily in real life. its like a pathetic consolation prize for putting up with the horrors of existing, ‘thank u for buying our product despite what feels like most people wishing u were dead, heres this cool sticker to acknowledge ur existence and ur status as one of the ones who doesnt Deserve to be dead because ur buying our product’.

‘bad’ trans rep is never going to push an indecisive person over the fence into blatant transphobia because, to a bigot, ANY trans rep in ANYTHING for ANY REASON is ‘bad rep’. childrens books with the softest, cleanest language possible to describe trans experiences are treated like manifestos written to radicalize our good pure innocent children into horrible sexually depraved monsters. drag queens and trans people interacting with children AT ALL are demonized and called pedophiles just for existing in the same space as children. hospitals that provide safe and necessary treatment to trans people as ONE of the services they provide are issued bomb threats for daring to care about peoples health. the HINT of anything to do with being trans is a call for outrage. yeah, that transphobic caricature in that tv show really sucks to see, but its not turning people into transphobes: it is broadcasting the already material reality that transphobes think of us as subhuman waste, deserving of ridicule At Best and total extinction At Worst. a person who becomes a vocal bigot after being exposed to ‘bad’ rep wasnt an ally before that changed their mind, they were just quiet. what is the point of ‘educating’ people how to spot ‘bad’ rep and call it out if all it does is reaffirm to us that we know how to spot it and condemn? how many transphobes have said ‘i thought trans people were demons and pedophiles for the longest time, but then a random tumblr user wrote a scathing review of this random trans character and how they were a totally unrealistic and nasty depiction of a trans person, and it just opened my eyes to the fact that trans people are actually people, turns out’? when that number is larger than the number of transphobes who have said ‘i didnt really know what to think of trans people before tucker carlson and matt walsh told me they were molesting our childrens minds, but now i know theyre a threat to society’, get back with me.

like. im so fucking tired at this point. im obviously very angry and passionate about this, but im tired too. im tired of people constantly trying to say that society is getting better, trans people are becoming more welcomed in society, because of the handful of trans characters in media and the pride shirts and mugs and shit that u can buy in chain stores, while literal atrocities happen every. fucking. day. i cant be okay or happy with ‘good’ trans rep anymore because it matters so little in the context of how people on the whole view trans people, and i cant be upset with ‘bad’ trans rep anymore because its a symptom of hate and ignorance, not the cause.

i reiterate.

society and corporations are selling us pride through hollow ‘representation’ in media and slogans on mugs for the express purpose of keeping us from fighting to FEEL pride. and all the glorious spotless squeaky morally clean rep in the world will not account for the absolute loathing i have felt from every other direction for years, and the loathing everyone else has felt for decades, and the loathing were all gonna continue feeling for god knows how much longer until people and politicians stop actively trying to criminalize and kill us.

[synthwayve]

Thanks for the tag, Anna!

Disclaimer: I am not really a fanfic writer in the slightest, and my writing is not good. But it’s definitely fun to explore other creative options!

-I’ve jokingly roleplayed with @unbloomingblossom before, as one of their ocs! Please check out their work, they’re fantastic!

-I’m not sure what counts as beta-reading, but I have had someone proofread a script for me before(thank you blossom), and I’ve read works that are open to readers for beta-reading.

-I have written one(1) self indulgent BB fic, and I’m currently writing others/writing out my headcanons and fan theories. They probably will not see the light of day though x,D I consider it violating the 8th amendment to make people read my work.

-I will vomit absolute essays at authors whom I feel are down-to-earth enough to not be off put by my incessant chatter, as @karnaca78 and @wikipedianna know(though I usually have an abundance of thoughts about all the fan work I read, I’m just usually too shy to express it.) When the next chapters of your works come out? You will not hear the end of it. This is a threat/lh

-I love angst more but I’ll never turn down fluff

-I’ve written some OC fan fictions, but only one BB fic. Im not sure if that counts as 2 fandoms or not, so I left that one as a “?”

-My form of “research” is interrogating Blossom about OC and story details so I can incorporate it accurately in whatever im writing, and I love it. BB has made me SWEAT trying to research for writing, because im no historian nor am I particularly versed in the more serious/intelligent levels of the game. Im sure it would enhance my writing if I was, but I mostly just research to make sure im not explicitly destroying canon with my headcanons.

-My OC’s story outline is on version 8.3 (8 as in general story/plot rewrite, 3 as in third attempt to outline it start-finish) and I literally began version 9.0 last night.

-I think I’ve only received full-fledged “feedback” on my OC writing(both fan work and my own) but it sends my blood pressure skyrocketing. Sharing my writing has always been a challenge for me because I started out in spaces where I used to share writing semi-proudly, and then it would either get utterly torn apart/ignored entirely so I just gave up. It’s left me unable to share unless I am very directly told someone WILLINGLY wants to read what I’ve written(“I’ll read it if you wanna share!/feel comfortable sharing!” Will never ever get me to share. I need to be grabbed firmly by the shoulders and told “LISTEN YOU LITTLE WORM. I KNOW YOU’RE HIDING SOMETHING” to actually think “oh okay so they ARE interested and aren’t just trying to be kind/polite and I will not in fact inconvenience/agonize them if I share my writing”), which is difficult for the other party if I don’t talk about the writing existing in the first place! So sorry about that x,D Getting back into it has been insanely difficult and I still get very anxious after I share writing, but luckily blossom is very sweet and their reactions are always heartfelt. Thank you blossom for not obliterating me when I make your ocs cry.

-I have multiple unfinished stories, but hopefully my main OC’s story(TERMINAL LUCIDITY) will be the first to be finished. I’ve scripted out a 1st episode(I write more in the context of art/storyboards/screenwriting for my own ocs than I do in standard novel format), but may have to revise it with V.9.0

-I am the bane of every liberal art degree owner’s existence. I do big block writing(start-finish, no indenting, no breaks) and then move it from notes to docs to portion it out. Anyone who is professional about writing will die if they look at my notes app. I am sorry.

-12 current story ideas going, with TERMINAL LUCIDITY being the most developed.

-I am suffering from a terrible tea addiction. Do not send help

Everyone I wanted to tag has been tagged already I think ;0; so I will risk re-tagging them. Sorry if there are duplicates, if you aren’t comfortable with me tagging you, or if you don’t write fanfiction;0; @mrslittletall @galaxirin @fareehaandspaniards @ofsilentthings @katyspersonal @trustflowerrrblogs @fantomette22 @heraldofcrow

Thanks to @revewrites for the tag! :D

• I ADORE screaming in fics' comments. That's something I love about fanfic: you can actually talk to the authors fairly easily! I find the whole social aspect of fanfic very interesting and I've met amazing people through comments.

• Researching is kind of a double-edged sword but I genuinely enjoy it. The research in itself is what I love most, just like in academia: reading through documents on a very specific topic just to add a few lines in a fic is actually a source of fun. And sometimes you end up not using any of it. That's life.

• Advanced HTML formatting functions are the bane of my existence. I have read through several guides on inserting footnotes and somehow it never worked.

• I received fic-related fanart twice and spontaneously combusted. Twice. (huh is that why I feel like I'm a roasting chicken right now)

• Well. I do want to write professionally someday, I guess.

Tagging fellow writer friends @a-simple-kazoo @rapturezoo @wikipedianna and anyone else who feels like joining!

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[pumpkinpaix]

老师好！Thank you for writing! i found you through your MDZS story and i really adore your insightful writings about the show. In my opinion, i even think the show is better than the novel in their presentation of WX relationship ~ ! it feels more natural and less pandering. Another essay suggestion for you if you want to write --- In the show, who do you think fell in love first in WX? When were the "turning points" when they realized?

sldjfslikl first of all anon, it’s WILD that anyone would address me as 老师 and i’m simultaneously flattered and gobsmacked. (i’m really really really not qualified to be called 老师 friend—thank you, like, a lot?? but yeah, i gotta say i’m not that cool) thank you for reading my fic and liking it and apparently my one meta enough to come talk to me!! also, SORRY this took approximately a million years i’ve been working on it on/off for like. two weeks. (@the other anon who also requested meta—pls forgive me im really doing my best apparently these take a lot out of me)

confession: I wrote a WHOLE ADDITIONAL essay in response to your opinion about show vs. novel that i ultimately decided to cut because it flies a little too close to the discourse sun and you didn’t ask for that hahaha. if it turns out you are interested in it, feel free to hmu and i can post it (though i’ll probably try to keep it out of the tags for my own mental health’s sake im not cut out for this lmao)

that all being said, who do I think fell in love first? it was definitely lan wangji, and it was right here:

[id: screenshot of lan wangji watching wei wuxian making a wish to “protect the weak and curb the strong, with a clear conscience for all my life” from episode 7 of the untamed drama. wei wuxian’s eyes are closed, his hands clasped. lan wangji looks on with a surprised tenderness. /end id]

I think it’s safe to say that he already finds wei wuxian attractive/intriguing (see: his reaction to wei wuxian drawing his portrait, tying the lan ribbon around their wrists, the PEAK gay panic in his voice when wei wuxian trips and falls on top of him), but this is the first moment he’s really moved by him. up until this point, wei wuxian has been teasing, immature, A Nuisance™, too clever for his own good, troublemaker energy personified etc but he hasn’t ever revealed his deeper moral values in front of lan wangji—and he does it like this, without pretension, without irony. He doesn’t spend his wish on something frivolous or material: he wishes to be able to do good for all his life, to be righteous, to be kind. it’s the wish he makes for both of them. “the promise we made together all those years ago,” as he says, half a lifetime later.

like just. imagine, for a moment, being lan wangji, whose whole world is being constantly challenged and needled by this unfairly attractive, chaotic bastard and then he just comes out of left field with this. I think this is where lan wangji first recognizes himself in wei wuxian—that at their core, they share their most important values.

look what i’m saying is this is where I fell in love with wei wuxian.

(sidenote: I really think a lot of the tragedy of mdzs/the untamed is stems from this moment. wei wuxian fails, over and over and over, even when his wish never changes, even when all he ever wanted was to do good without fear.)

i had to think for a really long time to try and decide which moments i wanted to talk about on wei wuxian’s part, because i don’t think he’s nearly as easy to pinpoint. lan wangji falls in love like a lightning strike, but wei wuxian’s love is something that grows so slowly, i don’t think he realizes what it is until pretty late in the game.

so let’s begin with this moment on phoenix mountain:

[id: screenshot of lan wangji and wei wuxian facing each other on phoenix mountain from episode 25 of the untamed drama. lan wangji is waiting expectantly for an answer, having just asked, “what am i to you?”, hand behind his back. wei wuxian is holding his flute, expression complicated and uncertain. /end id]

this is the first time i think wei wuxian is asked directly to label his feelings about lan wangji, and he says, “i once thought of you as a lifelong, intimate friend.” and when lan wangji presses, “and now?”, he doesn’t respond.

two episodes later, when wei wuxian is taking the wen refugees out of their prison camp and lan wangji appears before him, I think he has some kind of answer to lan wangji’s question:

[id: screenshot from episode 27 of the untamed drama. wei wuxian holds out chenqing before him in challenge to lan wangji, who is offscreen. he is smiling, just slightly, resigned and fond and terribly sad. /end id]

“if there really must be a battle between me and them, then I would rather fight to the death with you. if i must die, then at least i would like to die by hanguang-jun’s hand. it wouldn’t be an injustice.”

if that isn’t some kind of confession, I don’t really know what is.

but it’s too late—he’s now a defector in the eyes of the four sects. lan wangji lets him go and wei wuxian rides away. the remainder of his first life, that’s how things stand. even through everything with a’yuan, the final massacre at the nightless city—even though there’s something really meaningful there between them, it’s all tinged with a sense of impossibility, you know? there’s no outcome where they can resolve it happily. wei wuxian has gone too far down that single-plank bridge.

the first moment i think wei wuxian has to confront the unresolved and unsaid things between him and lan wangji comes when lan wangji gets drunk that one night and tells him, “i have regret.”

“what regret?”

“that at the nightless city, I did not stand beside you.”

[id: screenshot of wei wuxian looking at lan wangji (offscreen) with tears in his eyes as the full realization of what lan wangji just drunkenly confessed hits him from episode 36 of the untamed drama. /end id]

“so all this time, you’ve been searching for me?”

earlier i said can you imagine being lan wangji for a sec, and i’m gonna say it again except god. can you. IMAGINE being wei wuxian in this moment. finding out that this person that you maybe suspected you had deeper feelings for but never acted on has spent the entire sixteen years of your death searching for you, regretting that he didn’t stand with you before you died? a regret that he’s been carrying in secret, alone, for sixteen years?? that’s A Lot to unpack.

however, I don’t think wei wuxian really, fully understands and accepts how he feels and how lan wangji feels in return, how far they’re both willing to go until episode 42, at the confrontation at jinlingtai.

[id: two screenshots from episode 42 of the untamed drama, right after lan wangji takes a stand beside wei wuxian against the four sects. image 1 is lan wangji smiling at wei wuxian: he is gentle and sure. image 2 is wei wuxian smiling back at him, eyes red-rimmed and wet. /end id]

even though lan wangji has been walking with him since dafan shan, he’s been doing it with a plausible deniability. and here, when wei wuxian is trying to give him an out, lan wangji puts everything he has on the line so that he can clearly stand with wei wuxian, without dissembling, without hesitation. “the feeling of of walking on a single-plank bridge into the dark truly is no worse.”

lan wangji is finished with regrets.

“it’s just funny, that’s all,” wei wuxian says, “back when the whole world flattered me with praise, you were the only one who would scold me. but now that everyone is calling for my death, all hating and condemning me, you’re nevertheless the only one standing by my side.”

i think after that, for all the remaining episodes, there’s an unspoken commitment between the two of them that underpins the rest of their interactions, which I think I can say without reservation that I like more than how it played out in the novel. EDIT 16 APR 2020: I changed my mind a while ago, ahaha. Turns out, I don’t prefer CQL over MDZS. I love them both so much. ;A; there’s something really profound about it, the trust in their unlabelled relationship. it really feels like the inexorable culmination of two adults in their mid-thirties coming together after falling in love for almost twenty years. there’s a maturity to it that isn’t present in the way the novel does the confession (which does have its own disaster energy™ charm) that I think highlights the fact that they love each other, not just because they admire each other, not just because they’re attracted to one another, but because they understand each other—because when they look at each other, they also see themselves.

[01jk]

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🧸 do you have any pet peeves? hnhggh rude people !!!!! also people that make fun of others LITERALLY where are ur manners why are u so mean (bonus people that are very impatient to an annoying and rude degree u know what I'm talking about)

🧸 what's your favourite "dere" type? hdjwkd idk man

🧸 rate your life 1-10, 1 being the crappiest and 10 the best you could ever be uhhhhhhh a solid 6 ig prolly less idk

🧸 what's your main blog? this one!!! I am gguks bby on main lmaodjwk

🧸 list your sideblogs and what they are used for @kokotual is my jk sideblog in which I express my undying love for mr jaykay and @truth-untolds is my aes/personal/whatever blog

🧸 is there anything you think people need to know before being friends with you? I'm very shy and I dont rlly initiate interactions but !!! I really love talking to people and making friends so even if I dont text first just know I still appreciate u!! also i get very self conscious when talking to people so if uve ever been nice to me I'll prolly remeber and think of u as my friend jfwkkdq

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tagging: @nctentastic, @yyooodream, @kookiesjoonies, @pinkjxckson, @sketchguk, @cherriigguk and @utopiajeon!!! no pressure ofc and sorry if uve done this before ahh 💘💘

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answer the questions given to you by the one who tagged you!

give 11 questions

tag 11 people

i was tagged by @isakvdhflorenzi, ty miss lorena <3 1. Is the social media presence of the characters important to how you view the quality of the remake/show?

hm well skam nl is my favorite and their social media game is trash LMAOOO so generally No but i do feel like remakes who DO have such a good presence kind of elevate the show and i think it’s pretty heartwarmin to see some remakes go sm farther than skam with social media and puttin out educational and IN CHARA resources like skames does this so well and i feel like in that way, the team is really really spreadin skam’s spirit via these resources (like joana’s billion bpd awareness ig accounts and lucas rubio’s yt channel)

2. Least favourite clip of the show? Why?

tbh there are definitely some duds but probably one of the clips with sana gettin herself into a hole in s4 just bc some were hard to watch cus cringey or yikes .... idk i cant think of others LMAO

3. Which character did you feel the most connected to and why?

ijeoiqjiwoij even tho even is my all time fave skam chara, i have to say isak for all of these reasons 

4. Your least favourite part of every season?

season 1 - tbh even though i really enjoyed this season, it does take a while for it to build up like i rmr at first not being that interested until ep6 maybe ?? which is hard when you’re trying to get your friends to watch but they have to wait until ep6 before shit starts RLLY buildin up and gettin wild

season 2 - hm ig noora chasin after william ??

season 3 - bro NOTHINGGG call me a purist but its such a refined masterpiece like the pacing is good the characterization is so good ugh i deadass cant think of anythin

season 4 - i always felt a little ??? w noora being sana’s bff ig bc from s1-s3 it didn’t Feel like they were that close like even in noora’s pov, sana wasn’t really a part of it that much ?? like eva was more of noora’s bff ?? so i feel like it would have made more sense if maybe sana spoke more with chris or vilde bc sana and vilde eventually seemed to get closer esp with kosegruppa and chris has always been by sana’s side ?? idk that always confused me

5. What is your opinion on the cast’s participation on social media? Do you prefer it when the cast aren’t that involved like the Skam cast, or do you like a lot of content like the Fr cast do?

tbh i don’t care much abt the casts LMAOOO if anythin it kind of brings more harm as seen with the harassment axel and maxence get and also can bring more controversy like with irene (which honestly is p sad considerin how much i love skames bc now i feel super :/ watchin it like she shouldve just had private accts at this point)

6. Favourite song you found from Skam or the remakes?

OMFGGG love this question .... def doorman by slowthai and mura masa bc its one of my fave songs now and i got it from skam nl <3 ugh taste

7. If you could decide which characters from Skam got a season, who would you choose?

OOOHHH ugh torn bc i like isak’s pov but also i want even’s so might have to forfeit isak season for even season ....... hm so probs vilde, sana, even, noora (maybe not w william tho) and honestly maybe jonas too ??

8. Are there any moments that you liked in the show that everyone else seems to hate?

IJXDWQOIJJ yes .... remakes-wise, people hate skam nl s2’s last half but i enjoyed it for the most part ... i think the pacing was off for the last ep but personally, clip 50 made up for it and is p god tier imo ..... and also don’t think the first half of ep10 is enough to discredit the entire season bc i rlly loved seeing liv’s pov and have sm fave moments from the season 

but skam wise, omg might get a lil controversial w this one IM SORRY !!! im bein honest and its Just my opinion ok 

personally s2 got me more invested than s1 and i don’t think its a super bad season like i didnt really say many problems wrong with it until i got on tumblr wiejioqjoiqjq i was sort of interested in the questions that the noora/william dynamic brought up which is, as expressed in william’s war speech to noora, that nothing is ever black/white which i feel was a huge message and feeds into the ‘you never know what ppl are going through’ theme of the season ... like i like the idea of someone like noora, who can have a black/white mentality (as seen in the first clip of s2 when she tells vilde that they can’t have the tannin company as their sponsor bc they objectify women or smth but misses the context and what it could mean for the bus monetarily bc shes caught up in bein ‘woke’) having to break out of that and see more than one side ... and i think remakes like skam austin expanded on this idea well like when zoya was like ‘must be so nice being right all the time’ which i Do feel like is an important for youth to know today .... bc i think its so easy to get caught up in the idea of being so objectively right and morally superior that people lose sight of the more nuanced characteristics to life ... (omg long ramble BUT)

also LMAOOOOO this one might be more controversial as it pertains to bench scene s4 ok oops again doNT GOTTA AGREE !! ........ but i feel like the scene had a lot of good intentions ... i was def kind of cringing a bit tho bc i understand the subject’s sensitivity and how these topics are hard to talk about but i genuinely feel like they both made Some points and should listen to each other .... like as Hard and as maybe ‘unwoke’ it is to admit, unfortunately you sort of do have to answer the tough questions bc that way we learn from each other .... and i perfectly understand why some ppl wouldn’t want to do this and i certainly am tired abt havin to answer shit abt my sexuality or stupid male questions abt women but if u dont answer them, people do go lookin for answers still and the internet is such a shitty place that its pretty easy (esp with youtube’s algorithm) to lead you to ignorant ppl and perhaps radicalization .... questions help us to better understand our community and sometimes they can have good intentions too but we have to ask and answer them or else people will make up answers (which ive literally seen and its honestly worse to see fake as shit and UNINFORMED answers bc ppl did not want to ask you or ppl of ur identity, esp when they’re already startin from a place of hate .... but i rather have ppl ask me patronizing questions than have them spread false info bc that can do much more harm in the long run) however i DO think that isak should also consider sana’s side and i sort of wish we saw him conceding more bc they both have smth to learn from one another, like sana shouldn’t just be learnin from isak, isak needs to learn from sana too

PHEW SORRY QWIOJQWIO girl i just got opinions on some things this is when my desc rlly comes in handy .... oqjdwqioj

9. What did you learn from the show?

omg honestly too much to write here tbh ..... but if it says anythin im (very slowly) in the works of a three part skam essay about basically how skam teaches us to be better humans and how to better treat the people we care about diowjqioj essentially the three biggest themes of the show: you never know what someone is going through so always be kind, always communicate with your friends, and no person is ever alone and i feel like these are definitely rlly good messages to live by (also livet er nå BITCH !!!)

10. What is your favourite headcanon about your favourite characters?

omg tbh i could not tell u at all how the skam charas are doing except i hope even is okay thats all im thinkin of ok .... OIWXIOJX omg remakes wise tho ..... honestly im so bad at this girl IDK !!!!! LMAO i have to really think i have a bit of vdh and dutch even but thats bc we know like Zero abt them so its easier oijwiojqio idk liv and noah bein cute as shit ..... OH WAIT personally i feel like janna got a bunch of pansexual energy so my BIGGG hc is that she’s pan also bc she’s one of my all time fave charas and my fkn url so itd be dope if she was pan ok boom

11. What is your opinion on fanfiction in the fandom?

tbh i don’t read skam fanfiction but i don’t mind reading some from the remakes (tho still its rare) ... eiojeioqw i just don’t trust anyone but julie to write skam charas bc i think that’s how precious the show is to me LMAO like idk everything ive seen of skam fanfiction and ficlets and one shots, i could never get into bc the tone is just so out of character or there will be lines that just take me out of the fic bc im like this !!!! is not !!! how the chara acts !!!! so yeah idk not rlly a fan bc of my purist ass but i dont mind others reading it

Questions:

1. Favorite quote of the show?

2. Which country would you like to see have the next remake? Do you have any headcanons?

3. Which season would you rewrite and how would you rewrite it?

4. What clips do you personally like or don’t mind, but others hate?

5. Which songs do you think SKAM or the remakes should have included? For which moments?

6. Who would you give SKAM season five to and what topics and themes would it cover?

7. What moment spoke to you or touched you from SKAM the most?

8. How did you find SKAM? How did you feel about it right after watching?

9. Have you shared SKAM with any friends in real life? What did they think of it?

10. Of the remakes, which characters are your favorite of their SKAM counterparts? (Ex. who is the best Vilde remake? Eva? etc.)

11. How do you feel about the SKAM (and remakes) tumblr fandom?

I tag: @smileykeijser @whatadaze @queenofpurgatoryx @itlukey @skamyeets @shaykeijser @megeliz01 @isakcijser @wackpainterkid @axelauriantblot @kar-d-momme

(omg ik some of yall have been tagged so just ignore if u dont want to do it ok im srry it was in the RULES!)

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Tagged

tagged by @localsadsoul

Thank you for tagging me! These things are so fun to do! rules are answer the questions and then tag some friends.

1. do you have a good relationship with your parents?

-  I’d say so. It’s just that my family’s not very affectionate nor expressive with their feelings

2. who did you last say “i love you” to?

- My best friend, it’s friday today so we won’t see each other till monday lol 

3. do you regret anything?

- I joke about regretting a lot of things, but to be honest the only thing I’ve regretted are times I never tell my old friends how grateful I was that they were somehow part of my life, even if it was just a short while. 

4. are you insecure?

- lol yes but i’m slowly getting better, I tell myself that I need how to learn to love myself first before loving someone else

5. what is your relationship status?

- i’m single and not ready (and don’t want to) mingle

6. how do you want to die?

- i don’t think about it really 

7. what did you last eat?

- I had a croque madame and an iced cafe latte 

8. played any sports?

- I played volleyball until Year 8 (Grade 7) and netball. I plan on joining the netball team again this school year. 

9. do you bite your nails?

- no, never and tbh, i don’t really understand why people do it ...

10. when was your last physical fight?

- i’ve never been in one

11. do you like someone? 

- nope

12. have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

- i would be dead by now

13. do you hate anyone at the moment?

- not to that extent, i just dislike some people

14. do you miss anyone? 

- not really 

15. have any pets?

- i wish 

16. how exactly are you feeling at the moment?

- a little tired 

17. ever made out in the bathroom? 

- i’ve never ever kissed another human being on the lips before 

18. are you scared of spiders?

- nope i actually like insects, especially beetles and dragonflies 

19. would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 

- i think i’m ok

20. where was the last place you snogged someone? 

- refer to question 17 pls

21. what are your plans for the weekend?

- finishing my essay that I had 2 months to do but chose to procrastinate instead

22. do you want to have kids? how many?

- i think i tell everybody this, but i dont really want children

23. do you have piercings? how many? 

- I have 3. both my ears have the standard lobe piercing and my left ear has my helix pierced. i did have my upper left lobe pierced, but it closed up :( 

24. what is/are/were your best subject(s)?

- English, History, Spanish 

25. do you miss anyone from your past?

- nope do i even have emotions omg

26. what are you craving right now?

- nothing really

27. have you ever broken someone’s heart?

- not that i know of 

28. have you ever been cheated on?

- no but i hate cheaters and i dont think i’ll give them a second chance

29. have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 

- never been in a relationship

30. what’s irritating you right now?

- there’s some slight beef going on with some people in my grade and i refuse to be in the middle of their fight

31. does somebody love you?

- my parents ? my friends ? 

32. what is your favorite colour?

- first off, i’m sorry i needed to correct the spelling of colour. second, i love light blue and red 

33. do you have trust issues?

- :)))))) yes. 

34. who/what was your last dream about?

- i dont remember i dont dream often

35. who was the last person you cried in front of? 

- my best friend

36. do you give second chances too easily?

- i did, but i kinda learnt my lesson and now i dont really unless i think they deserve it 

37. is it easier to forgive or forget

- i do neither, i’m the type to hold grudges 

38. is this the best year of your life? 

- loooool no bro 

39. how old were you when you had your first kiss?

- refer to q17 

40. have you ever walked outside completely naked?

-  no, who the fuck do you think i. am why the fuck would i do that

41. favourite food?

- omfg cheeseburgers and carbonara and miso ramen

42. do you believe everything happens for a reason?

- for some things yes 

43. what is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

- yo i always read fanfics looool

44. is cheating ever okay?

- nONONONONONONONONONONONO never is, never was and never will be

45. are you mean?

- sometimes i think i am 

46. how many people have you fist fought?

- zero like my love life

47. do you believe in true love?

- i was talking about love with my friend today and i told her, i kinda lean towards the side where people think love is just a chemical reaction in your brain ... 

48. favourite weather? 

- i love rainy days. not so sunny, not so cloudy and windy days are great too 

49. do you like the snow? 

- i’ve never seen snow before irl :(((( 

50. do you want to get married?

- possibly

51. is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 

- boiiiii this makes me cringe so much but i call my friends beb, bab or bby (pronounced bibi) a lot. but in a relationship pls dont ever call me baby or babe juST PLEASE DON’T 

52. what makes you happy?

- the fact i that i’ve finally found friends who understand me 

53. would you change your name?

- no, never even thought about it 

54. would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 

- QUESTION 17 PLEASE

55. your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 

- oh god im the worst at confronting feelings boiiiiii i think talking about it to them would help ??? idk man but i hope that wont change things between us ;-; i suck at things like these 

56. do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you can act your complete self around? 

- lol no the boys at my school arent the best 

-57. who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

- a classmate

58. who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? 

- my best friend

59. do you believe in soulmates?

- boiiiii no 

60. is there anyone you would die for?

- ummmmm i mean... idk.... god im a horrible person but i mean i care about the people around me ya know 

I tag-

@blvckpanthers @oppasite i dont have enough friends on tumblr lmaoooo

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wow can you believe i finally did it sajfnkjf i went off as expected so it’s under read more i love you so much kathi im so so sorry i took so much time to do this im the worst🤧❤💓💝💞💕💖💌 

You’re my:my actual soulmate👭 my r&b/bachata/reggaeton loving partner!!! i’m always just so amazed by how alike are our music tastes and everything else in general sdjknakjf like, it’s just so hard to find someone who loves and enjoys the same music/artists i do and that i can scream and go off about them without being judged!! one of my best friends💖, one of the people i love and cherish the most in this world and i would die for, actual jimin’s angel👼, one of the most gold hearted, loving and caring persons i’ve ever had the privilege to meet!! like you truly are an angel kathi i’m not even being dramatic how are you even real🤧 the one w whom i go off the most sjanjdfn like we really cant shut up even once right bub?? we always go off about the most simple things anjasnf that’s why it’s always so hard for us to keep up w our conversations bc we never can talk w just some sentences or some words but we always write the biggest paragraphs ever djskanf i love us!! my extra-dramatic-long-tags and studio ghibli loving partner👭, also you’re my club partner even if we haven’t been on a club together dsjanjf but i know you would be and we would have the time of our lives so!! the one w whom i share almost all of my biases sajknd and im really so happy it’s you!!💗 you’re honestly everything kathi you’re like family to me i love you so much💗❤💓💝   How I met you:omg it was such a long time ago we’ve been mutuals for a long time now back when you were pjmsboo and i was chimchimshi sajndjk i don’t remember who followed who first tbh but everything started by us tagging each other specially on jimin’s posts (which i’ve been lacking so much lately asjkdkf i’m sorry) and i’m just so grateful to jimin and bts bc thanks to them i got to know such an beautiful person🌈💝🌻 but idk why we never really talked to each other in private like what was wrong w us?? tbh in my case was bc i thought you were too cool to talk to me sajdnf your blog was so aesthetic and you interacted w a lot of ppl so i was too shy to talk to you!! but sarah got the amazing idea of creating a jimin gc and now here we are, closer than ever👩‍❤️‍👩💞💕💖💌      Why I follow you: ok but WHY I WOULDN’T BE FOLLOWING YOU??? honestly any jimin stan/army/aesthetic blog/human being should be following you right now so if anyone isn’t following kathi what are you doing w your life?? you and your blog are always so full of love, good vibes and happiness you’re always so caring and giving so much love to your followers and mutuals and always tagging us in the things we love the most and even if you sometimes think it’s annoying trust me IT ISN’T LIKE THAT AT ALL!!! you make us so so happy and smile all the time, tbh if every blogger were like you tumblr would be such a better place bc you’re always so thoughtful and caring radiating so much love it makes me so so soft!!! your selfies saved my life a hundred times already you’re an actual goddess!!💘 and also please any jimin stan would agree that you’re truly THE QUEEN OF LONG POETIC TAGS AND EXPRESSING YOUR LOVE FOR JIMIN!!!💘💓💗 your love for him is so wholesome and pure and i’m just so happy i decided to hit that follow bottom like i really can imagine not following you, you make me so happy🤧💗💞🍒Your blog is: the only blog that matters?? one of my absolute faves!!! as i said you and your blog are so full of softness and love i’m always so happy when i go to your blog and even if you keep telling me i’m the queen of tags YOU’RE TRULY THE QUEEN HERE!! you always write actual essays and novels about your love for jimin (and jeon…😈) and you just love and cherish every single detail about him it’s the cutest thing ever!! and there aren’t just normal tags but you really use such poetic words like sjadnjsf sometimes i don’t even understand some words and im like this girl is really so extra i love it sm!! tbh you would be such an amazing novel writer kathi!! i’m so so happy jimin has someone who loves him as much as you do he truly deserves someone like you and he’s so so lucky bc he has you i’m the biggest kamin shipper!!💘 and obviously your aesthetic is absolutely flawless i’ve seen you care so much about it asnjdfn like it’s so funny bc you’re even extra about your aesthetic and if something doesn’t fit well w it you feel bad sjasdj you’re so cute🤧💗 Your URL is: the most accurate thing in the world like!! i’m not the only one who says this but everyone can agree w me that you’re truly jimin’s angel?? it just makes so much sense he’s your bias bc you’re as angelic and loving as he is💓 y’all would really be that couple who’s always radiating so much love, warmth and supporting each other as well as your loved ones giving all of you even if y’all aren’t completely ok🤧💖 tbh there isn’t another url that could fits you the best kathi, this url was truly made for you and describes you so well and im glad that you’re the one who has it bc you truly are an angel for jimin, me and everyone who’s lucky to have you in their lives🍯💓💗 Your icon is: my girlfriend🤧 asjkndkjaf one of the most beautiful girls i’ve ever seen in my entire life like!! i’m really so weak for her ajsnjfnj honestly every single blackpink member is such a bias wrecker for me and i bias them all but jennie is really coming for me and i’m all here for it!!😣❤ she’s so so gorgeous and talented and just!! look at her in your icon sakjnsfj she looks so so cute and soft w her chin on her hands and that plain white tshirt and her flawless long hair!! when will i ever?? god i really can’t wait for their comeback and i’m so excited to see what they’ve prepared for us!! and just by seeing her teaser pic sdjkanjkfnjf i swear i had 284182491275 heart attacks she’s absolutely stunning!!!! i love this baby girl so much i would die for her😣💕❤A random fact I know about you: omg idk which one to say out of all of them sjakdnjsa ok but you’re so passionate about so many things it always amazes me?? even if you think you’re not talented enough for some of them trust me you HAVE ALL THE TALENT IN THE WORLD TO BE ABLE TO DO EVERYTHING YOU WANT TO DO!!!! you love dancing and theater and i just cant believe once again how much in common we have jdnsjaf and baby for real i think that even if you only do it as a hobby you could get really far doing it i really thing you have the talent!!💖 also you love r&b so much and it just makes me so happy to have someone which whom i can scream and go off about one of the music genres i grew up too and like?? we even have the same fave r&b artists and the same opinions and i just LOVE sharing opinions w you so so so much kathi it always makes me so happy and i learn about so much things w you💓💗 also we always have the same faves in every group or solo artists?? like it’s so funny we have the same taste and as i said if i have to share my babies w anyone i couldn’t be more grateful that you’re the one!! honestly they’re all so lucky to have you🌈 i also know you’re gonna look ABSOLUTELY BOMB at your brother’s weeding like bitch i still can’t get over how absolutely stunning and breathtaking you look w that red dress asnjfknjkasf you truly look like a greek goddess pls take lots of photos!!!💗💞💕❤ and obviously i know your weak for jeon but you don’t want to accept it sajdnjf even if we all already know you’re completely whipped for that boy and you’re not 100% loyal to jimin as you always lie omg sorry say!!😘General opinion: your friendship is without a doubt one of the best things that has ever happened to me and i will forever grateful you chose me as your friend like, you’re truly an angel kathi i’m honestly not worthy of your friendship at all🤧💘💞💝❣️💋 i’m truly so lucky to have you in my life and you’re such an amazing, caring, loving, and loyal friend and it’s so rare to find a friend like that these days! you’re always worrying and looking after me, you’re always there for me and you’re so mature i always look after your advice and your words! and you’re always so sweet to me like sometimes i even feel like i don’t deserve the things you say to me or think about me sakjnjkf you have so much love to give and i’m so thankful you chose me as one of the ppl you want to give it! i always enjoy talking to you so much even if sometimes we don’t talk for days and i miss you, i know it’s because we’re busy but when we get to talk it’s just so amazing how i can talk w you about everything or anything and you never judge me! like tbh every time we talk it’s the most amazing experience we always go off about everything (we even go off about studio ghibli movies or songs/albums/movies we’re looking forward like?? djkansjkfn i love us!!) anyways anyone who gets to interact or be w you every day irl is truly the luckiest people in the world can’t relate🤧 i hope our friendship lasts for a long long long loooong time and we get to meet and go have the time of our lives dancing in a club 👭💓💗💞 i truly love and cherish you incredebly much kathi and i know you’re really insecure about yourself and about people around you but never forget i really love you and you’re really important to me, and i’m not the only one who thinks that way. you know you can talk w me about anything, in the good times but specially in the hard times, i’m always here for you bub!✨ tbh even if this is so long (and i took 387483298748 years to do this sdjknaf i’m really so sorry i don’t know how don’t you hate me bc of it) all of these would never sufise to describe what you mean to me, you’re like a sister to me and i love you so so much, i wish you nothing else but happiness and i hope my friendship makes you as happy as you make me w yours, i love you sm kathi 🤧💗💓💕💖💫⭐💘💞💝❣️💌💋💛💙💜💚❤️️👼✨💐👭👩‍❤️‍👩🌸🌷🍀🌹🌻🌺🌼🌈☀️🌙🌟🍒🍇🍉🍓🍑🍌🍍🍫🍦🍬🍭🍯 A random thought I have: when are you going to accept your love for jeon like��🔍 i’m waiting here it’s already so obvious😈 come to the dark side!! even if we’re starving here sjknajf but we love our boy a lot🤧💓💗🍒🍯 askjnakdn i love you kathi!!!💓💗💞

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Exclusive: Bestselling author E. Lockhart to publish a new YA novel

Image: delacorte press

Bestselling author E. Lockhart has a new YA novel hitting shelves this fall.

SEE ALSO: Read an exclusive excerpt of Jeff Zentner’s upcoming ��Goodbye Days’

Announced today, Lockhart’s Genuine Fraud will be released Sept. 5 by Delacorte Press, and imprint of Random House Children’s Books.

Edgy and inventive, Genuine Fraud is an instantly memorable story of love, betrayal and entangled relationships that are not what they seem. Lockhart introduces readers to the story of Imogen and JuleImogen, a runaway heiress, an orphan, a cook and a cheat; Jule, a fighter, a social chameleon and an athlete. This is a novel about intense friendship, a disappearance, murder, bad romance, a girl who refuses to give people what they want from her and a girl who refuses to be the person she once was. Who is genuine? And who is a fraud? You be the judge.

Lockhart is a staple in the YA world, and she’s perhaps best known for her haunting We Were Liars, a deluxe edition of which will be published this May.

MashReads spoke to Lockhart about Genuine Fraud, her career, and her advice for 2017. Then read on for an exclusive excerpt of her upcoming novel.

When did you first know you wanted to be a writer?

I read Joan Aikens The Wolves of Willoughby Chase in third or fourth grade and immediately began writing novels about Victorian orphanages, windswept landscapes and cool uniforms.

What draws you to writing YA books?

In young adulthood, people separate from the values and embraces of their families of origin and begin to define themselves as individuals. That process of separation and self-reinvention is extremely interesting to me. Genuine Fraud is very much a YA novel, even though it doesnt take place in high school.

Is your writing process different depending on the genre youre writing?

Genuine Fraud is a psychological thriller, and the only other such book I have written is We Were Liars. All my other books are comedies! The thrillers have intricate plots that require more planning.

Genuine Fraud sounds a bit like an oxymoron. Do you have a favorite oxymoron?

Film producer Samuel Goldwyn is often quoted as saying, I never liked you, and I always will. My new novel is in something of the same spirit.

Genuine Fraud is another suspense novel, like your emotional bestseller We Were Liars. Can you give a hint as to the emotions readers are likely to have?

Both books have twisty plots, but with Genuine Fraud youre unlikely to need a tissue. Rather, I recommend Rolaids and seltzeryoull want a strong stomach.

Youre known for writing incredibly strong and complex female characters, particularly Frankie Landau-Banks, who is seen by many as a feminist icon. The women in Genuine Fraud seem to be in a similar vein. Do you feel you have a responsibility as a YA writer?

Thank you. I am a feminist, most certainly, but my responsibility as a novelist is not to provide role models. My responsibility is to try to write something that feels true to me on some emotional and intellectual level. I write to make a piece of narrative art that represents the inside of my head. I hope that if I have done so well enough, people will respond to it.

As its a new year, what is your advice for your readers for 2017, both for life and for aspiring writers?

Raise your voice. Its an everyday practice. As a writer, as an activist, as a friend and colleague, student or teacherraise your voice in protest, in apology, in curiosity, in praise, in self-expression.

What were some of your favorite books of 2016?

I read a lot of travel stories and novels written in the nineteenth century. I read cookbooks and middle-grade fiction and comic essays. But Genuine Fraud is a complicated portrait of an extremely difficult person, and a twisty thriller as welland here are two 2016 books I read while I was revising it that fit that same description and are incredibly juicy: Girls on Fire by Robin Wasserman is an adult novel about young women behaving more than badly, raw and gorgeous. My Sister Rosa by Justine Larbalestier is a YA novel about a boy whose younger sister is a psychopathchilling and thought-provoking.

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It was a bloody great hotel.

The minibar in Jules room stocked potato chips and four different chocolate bars. The bathtub had bubble jets. There was an endless supply of fat towels and liquid gardenia soap. In the lobby, an elderly gentleman played Gershwin on a grand piano at four each afternoon. You could get hot clay skin treatments, if you didnt mind strangers touching you. Jules skin smelled like chlorine all day.

The Playa Grande Resort in Baja had white curtains, white tile, white carpets, and explosions of lush white flowers. The staff members were nurselike in their white cotton garments. Jule had been alone at the hotel for nearly four weeks now. She was eighteen years old.

This morning, she was running in the Playa Grande gym. She wore custom sea-green shoes with navy laces. She ran without music. She had been doing intervals for nearly an hour when a woman stepped onto the treadmill next to her.

This woman was younger than thirty. Her black hair was in a tight ponytail, slicked with hair spray. She had big arms and a solid torso, light brown skin, and a dusting of powdery blush on her cheeks. Her shoes were down at the heels and spattered with old mud.

No one else was in the gym.

Jule slowed to a walk, figuring to leave in a minute. She liked privacy, and she was pretty much done, anyway.

You training? the woman asked. She gestured at Jules digital readout. Like, for a marathon or something? The accent was Mexican American. She was probably a New Yorker raised in a Spanish-speaking neighborhood.

I ran track in secondary school. Thats all. Jules own speech was clipped, what the British call BBC English.

The woman gave her a penetrating look. I like your accent, she said. Where you from?

London. St. Johns Wood.

New York. The woman pointed to herself.

Jule stepped off the treadmill to stretch her quads.

Im here alone, the woman confided after a moment. Got in last night. I booked this hotel at the last minute. You been here long?

Its never long enough, said Jule, at a place like this. So what do you recommend? At the Playa Grande? Jule didnt often talk to other hotel guests, but she saw no harm in answering. Go on the snorkel tour, she said. I saw a bloody huge moray eel.

No kidding. An eel?

The guide tempted it with fish guts he had in a plastic milk jug. The eel swam out from the rocks. She must have been eight feet long. Bright green.

The woman shivered. I dont like eels.

You could skip it. If you scare easy.

The woman laughed. Hows the food? I didnt eat yet.

Get the chocolate cake.

For breakfast?

Oh, yeah. Theyll bring it to you special, if you ask.

Good to know. You traveling alone?

Listen, Im gonna jet, said Jule, feeling the conversation had turned personal. Cheerio. She headed for the door.

My dads crazy sick, the woman said, talking to Jules back. Ive been looking after him for a long time. A stab of sympathy. Jule stopped and turned.

Every morning and every night after work, Im with him, the woman went on. Now hes finally stable, and I wanted to get away so badly I didnt think about the price tag. Im blowing a lot of cash here I shouldnt blow.

Whats your father got?

MS, said the woman. Multiple sclerosis? And dementia. He used to be the head of our family. Very macho. Strong in all his opinions. Now hes a twisted body in a bed. He doesnt even know where he is half the time. Hes, like, asking me if Im the waitress.

Damn.

Im scared Im gonna lose him and I hate being with him, both at the same time. And when hes dead and Im an orphan, I know Im going to be sorry I took this trip away from him, dyou know? The woman stopped running and put her feet on either side of the treadmill. She wiped her eyes with the back of her hand. Sorry. Too much information.

Sokay.

You go on. Go shower or whatever. Maybe Ill see you around later.

The woman pushed up the arms of her long-sleeved shirt and turned to the digital readout of her treadmill. A scar wound down her right forearm, jagged, like from a knife, not clean like from an operation. There was a story there.

Listen, do you like to play trivia? Jule asked, against her better judgment.

A smile. White but crooked teeth. Im excellent at trivia, actually.

They run it every other night in the lounge downstairs, said Jule. Its pretty much rubbish. You wanna go?

What kind of rubbish?

Good rubbish. Silly and loud.

Okay. Yeah, all right.

Good, said Jule. Well kill it. Youll be glad you took a vacation. Im strong on superheroes, spy movies, YouTubers, fitness, money, makeup, and Victorian writers. What about you?

Victorian writers? Like Dickens?

Yeah, whatever. Jule felt her face flush. It suddenly seemed an odd set of things to be interested in.

I love Dickens.

Get out.

I do. The woman smiled again. Im good on Dickens, cooking, current events, politics… lets see, oh, and cats.

All right, then, said Jule. It starts at eight oclock in that lounge off the main lobby. The bar with sofas.

Eight oclock. Youre on. The woman walked over and extended her hand. Whats your name again? Im Noa.

Jule shook it. I didnt tell you my name, she said. But its Imogen.

Jule West Williams was nice-enough-looking. She hardly ever got labeled ugly, nor was she commonly labeled hot. She was short, only five foot one, and carried herself with an up-tilted chin. Her hair was in a gamine cut, streaked blond in a salon and currently showing dark roots. Green eyes, white skin, light freckles. In most of her clothes, you couldnt see the strength of her frame. Jule had muscles that puffed off her bones in powerful arcslike shed been drawn by a comic book artist, especially in the legs. There was a hard panel of abdominal muscle under a layer of fat in her midsection. She liked to eat meat and salt and chocolate and grease.

Jule believed that the more you sweat in practice, the less you bleed in battle.

She believed that the best way to avoid having your heart broken was to pretend you dont have one.

She believed that the way you speak is often more important than anything you have to say.

She also believed in action movies, weight training, the power of makeup, memorization, equal rights, and the idea that YouTube videos can teach you a million things you wont learn in college.

If she trusted you, Jule would tell you she went to Stanford for a year on a track-and-field scholarship. I got recruited, she explained to people she liked. Stanford is Division One. The school gave me money for tuition, books, all that.

What happened?

Jule might shrug. I wanted to study Victorian literature and sociology, but the head coach was a perv, shed say. Touching all the girls. When he got around to me, I kicked him where it counts and told everybody who would listen. Professors, students, the Stanford Daily. I shouted it to the top of the stupid ivory tower, but you know what happens to athletes who tell tales on their coaches.

Excerpt copyright 2017 by E. Lockhart. Published by Delacorte Press, an imprint of Random House Childrens Books, a division of Penguin Random House LLC, New York.

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