#sorry I know my writing has really bad sentence level structure and syntax

[paintbrushnebula]

Ghostflower headcanon: Whenever Gwen gets injuries, big or small, Miles always kisses them, not caring about whether they're bloody injuries and getting his lips stained with her blood, because his mother would always do that to him as a child.

Gwen doesn't do the same with him (she feels too weird about doing it herself lol) but whenever Miles cries, she plants a lingering kiss on each teary eye of his. The kisses always manage to clean most of the tears and yeah now her mouth tastes all salty but she doesn't care. His eye lids are warm and his long lashes are soft and damp. She just hates seeing him cry, y'know?

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(Sorry for the poor quality of the wording/weird sentence structure of these analysises, I'm not very good at explaining my thoughts heh)

[kittensjonsa]

I'm writing my first Jonsa fic and its my 6 month long brain child. I have bleed and sweat for this thing. but I'm really afraid of posting it because of the possible reaction. this isn't a "they know they're cousins" fic. how worried should I be and what should I expect?

Hi Anon and I am so sorry for the late reply, I have been writing and deleting my reply to you countlessly because I want to make sure I say the right things… 

Of course perhaps by now  I am sure you have already posted that fic and if you did, thank the heavens for your lovely contribution - made with love, blood, sweat and even tears maybe. I for one, know that creativity doesn’t always come on butterfly wings or smell like a bunch of roses or like a sweet smelling breeze on a perfect sunny day. No. Sometimes they are harsh and dark with visions and flashbacks from the past, your hidden memories of a time you wished didn’t exist or it may even cause you actual physcial pain and heartache while writing it. So whatever form your inspiration or creativity came in writing the JonSa fic, personal or not, I applaud you for your courage in sharing it with the world. Because mainly, writing, to me, has always been very catharthic and sometimes even stress-relieving and it’s one way for me to escape when things get a little too much. 

Sorry if this gets a bit long and sappy/highly personal but I want to give you a heartfelt answer Anon because you’ve asked me a heartfelt question. How long have you been writing? Since young? Great. Just started? Still good. I have been journaling since I was quite young and when things happened to me, it was one way for me to deal with the trauma of it all. And then throughout my therapy, it sort of became second nature. Before I knew it, if I had a bad day, I’ll write down in my journal. Good day? Write that good shit down too. It helped immensely. 

But that was my personal diary and only for my eyes to read. Not for others. It’s a whole different level and ball game when you’re writing and showing for others to see. You feel things, you think too much, you get insecure and then lastly you shut down and you don’t feel like writing anymore. And hoo boy, don’t I know about them ‘insecurities’! Being a non-native speaker (that’s me) ups that by 1000% because you get so hung up on your grammar and sentence-structure, syntax, semantics and vocabulary etc and sometimes even a simple synonym for a word escapes you and you just cringe at using the same word over and over. And don’t get me started on spell check.. sigh.

To share with you and to wrap this up ( I do have a point to make I promise), I have been a low -key JonSa shipper since I read the books, which was not too long ago in 2012. There were so many parallels between Jon and Sansa and their narratives and the references they make (or how George had written them) were as if they seem they were made to be the (low-key) main couple in the books - subtle but it was there, I felt it even then. Then of course, S6 came and I was blown away by it all, like my dreams and prayers were answered and then the feels got a little too much so I ended up on Tumblr to seek out like minds and by God, there were so many! And they were nice too! Later on, I was introduced to AO3 and the amazing talents that make up the JonSa fandom. Can you imagine my glee, knowing that I wasn’t the only one who shipped JonSa and meeting others who did, who also happened to be super nice and supportive ppl? 

And so, thanks to a certain Valentine’s Day challenge earlier this year, I decided, ok I will take part and do some writing. But Anon, it wasn’t easy for me to start either, I still have the countless drafts of those fics stored in my writing app still and I was terribly insecure about my writing (and I still am)that I had one or two sleepless nights mulling over whether I should post or not. I mean, I’m basically showing to the world how mediocre I am and yes, I expected to be ignored or even deleted. But it wasn’t the case in the end. And yes, the attention motivated and encouraged me to write some more and I began to really like it because ultimately, I realised that I love my OTP (JonSa) so much that they opened up this well of creativity and inspiration inside of me I didn’t know I had. So now, I still write, whether insecure, bad grammar or not, mediocre or not - because of my love and dedication to JonSa, not so much for the world or the fandom now, but if I ever write anything this time it usually is for me, first. I mean thats what fanfiction means right? You write because you love this show/movie/tv couple so much.

So to answer your question on what to expect - What do you want the reaction to be? If you wrote it for yourself, then I say don’t worry about the reaction from the fandom. I personally have not read a fic I didn’t like - maybe not my cup of tea but it was still well written and there were many others who liked it. If my experience is any indication, and if we’re in the same JonSa fandom 😉 then you can expect a lot of love, support and kind words as well as reblogging on tumblr! There are so many amazing JonSa blogs here in the tumblr community who will gladly share your contribution with other JonSa fans. I know one - @jonsa-creatives and they are great fans of Jonsa and dedicated supporters of the artists and writers in the Jonsa fandom 😉 Sure there may be some anon hate mail here and there but ignore them. In fact, anon hate for posting your fic is one way to say ‘well, looks like you’ve made it’ because somehow you got some attention AND good or bad publicity is still publicity. Though I would suggest you to enable ‘moderating comments’ when posting on AO3. 

So Anon, I hope this super long sappy reply has allayed your fears and insecurities a little and gave you a pat on the back or a nudge in the right direction. I hope to read your fic soon! Sounds absolutely lush!