#sorrryyy i’m ranting again but this is just so. what’s going on

[cockworkangels]

sometimes talking to people is akin to hitting your head to a wall repeatedly

[jimimn]

It's literally the middle of the night here and I'm thinking about how Jimin is THE emotional support in the group. He was this ever-present person in their lives, who was always ready to help them in any way he could, he always supported them through their bad and good days even if he thought he was lacking or wasn't feeling good that day. I think it's very admirable how selflessly he puts everyone else before him and how he's always ready to be there for someone.

And the best thing is that the tannies are also act as an emotional support for him. They support, encourage, comfort him when he needs it, praise him to the moon and back because they know he likes it and needs to hear it. One of them are always there if he cries, if he feels down. And these are just the things we've seen. I can't even imagine the amount of support they got from each other behind the cameras for over 10 years. Take Hobi for example, he talked about how Taehyung, Yoongi and Seokjin supported him through Lollapalooza and we wouldn't have even known if he chose not to tell us. I often wonder how much Jimin gave behind the scenes and how much he received in return. I'm not sure if I fully believe in destiny or not, but I do think it was destiny that brought them together. And it was them and their immense love for each other that kept them together. I wish everyone finds people in their lives who will love them just as much as the boys love each other.

Anyway sorry for the rant, I really need to be sleeping right now and here I am pouring my sad thoughts out about Jimin lol Shivi I hope you find people who stick by your side for a long time and love you and support you to the moon and back 💜 -🦋

oh my god i completely agree with whatever you said anon :( i really believe that jimin is the synonym of love :( he’s just always there for the people he loves, even if it is with the tiniest of actions. He’s so tender with his love. Even his little reminders like don’t catch a cold, dress up warm, don’t skip meals.. even these are the purest kind of love and support. He holds so so much love and kindness in his heart it really makes me cry sometimes lol. Like, we don't know him personally, but to hear the same things from people who meet him even once, that he’s a very good and kind person just warms my heart through and through. and that’s exactly why he gets such immense love in return :( i’m so happy that he has people who support him and care for him and love him as much as he does. and you’re so right omg what we know is just the things we get to see.. there must be SO MUCH more behind the camera. So much support so much love so many words of affirmation. You’re so right about destiny though. Tannies themselves believe that its destiny that brought them together :(((( random and its making me cry again but just.. hobi saying he’s gonna be the first to go whenever jimin has his concert and jimin saying he’ll go to alaska or north pole and hobi saying “anywhere”... they sound like simple words but these hold SO much weight 😭😭😭 wherever in the world may it be, hobi will be there for him 😭😭😭😭 and i know the others will be there for him too :( it may not be physically but they will be there for him and support him a lot :(( and don’t be sorrryyy you can always rant in my inbox <3 and thank you anon please you’re so sweet to say that :( i hope you find those people too! 💖💖

[manchesterau]

my thoughts after reading my policeman: SPOILERSS of course!! (ignore spelling or grammar mistakes) (this is very ramble-y and not as in depth as it could have been sorrryyy lol, if you want specifics send me an ask after reading this)

okay...so i read the book in 3 days....which....im very proud of myself bc it takes me so long to finish books but that’s not why you are reading this.

im not going to lie to you...i liked the book. i love angst, and this had plenty of it and i liked it. if you like books such as: harry potter, six of crows, red queen, red white and royal blue you will not like this book. i know many people found it boring, which yeah i can see that, but i didn't find it boring at all. but mostly because i love boring books but that's beside the point. 

the book flowed easily, there isn't a bunch of raunchy sex scenes that ive seen people say it has (i...the things ive read idk what book they even read????) and Tom does has backward views on marriage and what it means to be a wife. but he is not overtly sexist or misogynist or abusive, or subvertly those things either. to be frank he's a scared gay man in the 50s trying to not get caught and thrown in jail. that's literally it. (ill go more into detail on him later). but if you want to read this book i recommend you go in knowing that there will be homophobia (the word queer is used as a slur....3 times or 4 but no more than 5), expect outing, expect not supportive characters, and remember to have some compassion (more on this later).

next i want to go into characters: starting with tom, then Marion, then Patrick, and then the other characters. so if you are planning on reading this book or just dont want to be spoiled them....don't read the next bit.

Tom:

I'm going to get this out of the way.........Tom (who we never get to know outside of the two-point of views we are presented with, and who is being played by Harry) is a police officer in the 50s UK. to be frank when the rumors first went around I was mad like a lot of people were, which is funny because when we got those pictures of harry reading the book before all the speculation we were....happy, that he was reading a book about a gay man. now...I don't care honestly. I could call out the hypocrites (i won't) and honestly I'm hypocritical myself. I use to watch shows like svu (if you were to turn it on right now I wouldn't turn it off) and I enjoyed watching svu. I know and have seen a lot of mutuals, people on my dash enjoy cop shows like b99, or who like actors who have played the character of police before. so it would be hypocritical of me to be mad at him (this is just my single black opinion) and then go and turn on svu (which I don't do anymore). 

I'm not saying that no one can be mad, I'm not saying that the anger people have at him playing this role is bad or not needed or valid. all I'm saying is.....is that I don't care. I got angry over this months ago, and all that anger I felt I don't have anymore, and I can't tell you why. Harry is playing an abusive demented husband who traps his wife in a simulation, and then he will play a gay policeman trying not to face persecution..........and that's that. nothing I can say will reach him, he's playing these roles and there is nothing I can do. will I watch them (pirating of course) yes.

anyways let's get back to tom's character (do not use my opinion to silence other black people I will find you....don't do that shit weirdo): tom is......tom?? like I literally was expecting the worst when I read this because of what other people had to say. but as I'm reading him through the eyes of Marion (his wife) and through the eyes of Patrick (his...true love, fuck the 50s I hate the 50s) one word came to mind constantly: scared. Tom is very scared that he will be found out and his life will be ruined. His family knows about him, which is why I think his father (more on him later) pushed him to be in the national service (where he was a cook, which disappointed him). you don't realize his family knows and then his sister says something and then you go 'wait....THEY KNEW???' and then you will go 'oh so that's why-' 

tom does have old fashion views that you would expect of any man at that time (gay or not it's the 50s and gay men are still capable of saying sexist shit). when asked by Patrick if women should still work after having a kid he said no it's the men's job to provide, Marion said she would like to keep working, he said no when they do have a baby (they literally never did, and idk why he thought he could be intimate with her for that long to produce a baby lol). that's....the most sexist thing he said in the whole book (there maybe some small things im forgetting but nothing that really stood out). that's it. I know it's not small and that was a legitimate issue in the 50s but yeah. Just in case you were apprehensive about Tom's character being a raging woman-hater, no,....he just wasn't a true feminist yet (???? I don't know that's like..the most this book says about an issue women were facing at this time). It's still bad what he said (you'll see how Marion justifies it in the book and both Patrick and her don't agree and try and challenge him on his view).

i dont want to go too in depth but it is very obvious from the beginning he has no and i mean ZEROOOO interest in her at all (you can tell when it hits him that he needs a wife and he starts to act a littleee different but it's not romantic at alll). 

i feel like my review on tom is shit but like!! we don't really get to know him without bias from Patrick and Marion. I think Harry will play a wonderful Tom (even tho he doesn't not fit the description for Tom...at all....like at alllll).

To summarize Tom: very scared gay man from the 50s who is trying to do everything he can to not be found out. his family knows, even he knew at a young age, and yes he does quit being a police officer but it doesn't happen as soon as id like but then again he wasn't one for that long if you pay attention to the years.

Marion:

😑 

i just...if yall could see the notes i made on her.....

To summarize Marion: SHE IS LIVING IN LALA LAND, TOM LITERALLY SHOWS HER NO ROMANTIC INTEREST AT ALLL, AND WHEN SHE METS PATRICK FOR THE FIRST TIME SHE FREAKING NOTICES THAT HE'S ALL BLUSH-Y AND SHIT LIKE...GIRL.....

this is a note i wrote that sums up her and tom's relationship (which is more like friends then anything romantic i mean god their honeymoon was horrible and he proposed to her....nvm 😑)

listen...i can't lie and say i didn't feel sorry for her up until the end when she (spoilers: she outs patrick to his employer which ends up with him getting arrested). after that...ive never hated a character more in my fucking LIFEEEE like oh my god i was pissed

all she does is have fantasies about him being romantic with her (holding hands, hugging, etc) and none of them come true...BECAUSE HES GAYYYYYY i really....the author could have done a better job because there were so many damn red flags.

she's fucking annoying and whiny and yeah it sucked to be a woman in the 50s but you literally outed someone your husband was in love with and thought that you could just go back to being married like he's not devastated and instead of telling what you did you stayed unhappy and made your husband thing that at any point they were coming for him too.......*****

Patrick:

PATRICKKKKK

Patrick and tom deserved a fighting fucking chance i hate the fuck 50s fuck you 50s!!!! I absolutely LOVEDDD his pov and seeing Tom through his pov like it was just so damn refreshing seeing the world through his eyes and how he navigates his queerness in the society they live in. (the dichotomy between a proud gay man and a scared maybe proud but fear overrules that (talking about Tom here) gay man).

There was a lot more to say on how gay men were being persecuted at this time than how women were treated in this particular book. There were some little things here and there about what was expected of Marion as a wife and of a girl/woman at that time but it wasn't the focus.

I loved seeing the way Patrick navigated through his world of art and creativity. And how Tom seemed to fit right in with him.

I hate the things the author made Patrick go through (outed, sent to prison, stripped of his job, and later on in the present day he has had 2 strokes in his 70s). it felt a bit much but it's not too distracting (Patricks pov takes place in the past as he writes in his journal). 

Patrick and Julia (more on her later) are my two favorites in the whole book (Tom is third bc he's a very multi-facted character, Marion is not even on the list) and I wish we got a lot more of Patrick's pov.

Other characters!! (speed round bc this is wayyy too long):

Syvlie (Tom's sister): SYVLIEEE IM MAD AT YOUU I WAS ROOTING FOR YOU WHYY WHYYY

Julia: JULIAAAAA QUEEENNN (you'll see why i love her at the end) 

Tom's parents: his father is abusive point-blank. or at least i think he's abusive (verbally). as im writing this i am now realizing that the way Tom's mom reacts to him (sometimes crying) is bc they knew he was gay omg wow.

tom's dad is very much a man's man guy?? Picture a sexist man from the 50s....now picture him with a gay son.....yeah, I'm not surprised Tom went into national service then to the police force. you can tell he didn't want anyone to find out about Tom so he pushed him to do what he thought best and Tom went with it, scared. 

overall: please do not go into this book expected things to be all flowers and rainbows...this is a book about two gay men in the 50s yall.....

there is something to be said about the tragedy that is in a lot of queer stories, I'm more interested in how white these stories are (that's a rant for another time). but I don't mind my policeman, and i think stories like this should be told. because this actually happened (here is a link to em forster's story where the author takes inspiration from, he really had an affair with a policeman!!! who had a wife!!!).

the ending is bittersweet, and i couldn't help but curse for what could have been. Marion could have not outed Patrick (which she instantly regretted), she could have gotten a divorce (she even contemplated it), they could have been more secretive, Julia could have not said what she said. I think Patrick and Tom were sadly doomed from the start, I just wish they had more time together because I loved seeing their love (the little glimpse we got) bloom into something bigger than them.

thank you for reading!! here are random screenshots of my notes as i read this lol enjoy!!

can’t*

[writers-worst-nightmare]

Match up request:

TV show preference: My Hero Academia.

Age range preference: Class 1A.

Sexuality (if comfortable): Bisexual.

Pronouns (if comfortable): She/Her.

Name (if comfortable): I prefer to be called Stitched.

Appearance (detailed): I am mixed raced, brown eyes and dark brown hair. My hair is naturally curly but I straighten it often, I also often dye the lower half dark green. I’m quite short (5’2). I like to wear dark clothes and dark make up (black ripped jeans, black converses and lots of eyeliner). If I’m not wearing black, I’m wearing green.

Positive Personality Traits: Adventurous, Bravery, Honesty, Loyalty, Resilience, Strong

Negative Personality Traits: Blunt, Cold, Passive aggressive, Pickyness, Insecurity, Jealously

Neutral Personality Traits (if any): I’m very ambitious and an ambivalent.

Like(s): Netflix, Anime, Cats, Makeup, Green

Dislike(s): Chocolate, Dogs (plz don’t hate me 🙏)

Perfect First Date: Going to see a movie or a theatre play.

Talent(s): I can flip my eyes all the way back for awhile.

True or False:

I am very confident: True.

I am very insecure: True.

I like to watch TV: True.

I like to read books: False.

I would be more comfortable if my partner confessed to me first: False.

I would be more comfortable if I confessed to my partner first: True.

I make a lot of oc’s: True.

I don’t make a lot of oc’s: False.

I don’t know what a oc is: False.

Which one:

Fiction or fantasy? - Fiction.

Anime or manga? - Anime.

Rock, paper, or scissors? - Scissors.

Real life or fiction? - Fiction.

Real people/girls/boys or fiction people/girls/boys? - Real people.

Play or watch? - Watch.

Learn from hearing it or learn from experiencing it? - Hearing it.

Extra information: 

Fun fact(s): I’m from London, I listen to a lot of Metric (they’re a band from Canada), I also listen to Paramore...also I’m an insomniac?

Mental disorder(s): Anxiety?

Additional information that may have not been included 

Writing prompt (if you want to since I am going to make a little blurb thing for you): Maybe something both I am and my matchup are passionate about? (feel free to not use this - I don’t mind!)

Thank you!

Sorry if this is a little late I am at vacation with some family and I want to spend more time with them! 

Congrats! You got Asui! :) 

Appearance: she doesn’t mind your appearance except for the fact that she is a short 4′11 and can’t reach like ANYTHING (I mean it’s not by a lot between you and her but still) she also has more of a soft girl aesthetic and you are well…you…honestly she is afraid of you sometimes when you pull out like platform heels and go to Hot Topic. But that is besides the point! With your green hair she honesty loves it, like she will literally play with it all the time and test different hairstyles. 

Positive personality: honestly she looks up to you in so many ways, you push her to be well…her…since she is shy and mostly introverted she likes that you push her out of her comfort zone. She also loves showing you places to hike or swim at. 

Negative personality: she is a little iffy on this, I mean she tells you to tell somebody something (because she is too shy to ask/tell them) and you just rant to them or get into a fight with them and Asui is over here like. “Noooooo” but she likes your stubborn personality and how you are afraid to not pick up a fight.

Neutral personality: being somebody who doesn’t really strive for a goal she admires your ambitious personality and the fact that you find a goal and stick to it all the dang time

Likes: 

-Netflix:

She likes watching Netflix as well (but please for the love of God don’t make her watch a horror show/movie) when you stay up late at night watching a show/movie she is the first one to get you water and food.  -Anime: 

GOD SHE IS SO SUPPORTIVE!! I feel like she doesn’t really like watching anime since it isn’t realistic but she will watch it for you! She just looks at your goofy smile and MELTS

-Cats: 

She doesn’t really get the whole dogs vs cats thing going on but I feel like she has a lot of pets if her own. Since she is a frog she might have that scenes that animals have feelings as well. One time she got you a frog (like one of those cute one’s) and a cat. Your heart just melted…poor girl is trying her best…

-Makeup: 

Doesn’t really get the whole makeup thing but she tried her best. She isn’t seen wearing a lot of makeup (or any) but she does like watching you doing your makeup. And since she is so supportive she might even ask the dekusquad for advice on makeup a den five you some for your birthday. 

-Green: 

What drew her in was your green hair, not a lot of people have that beautiful green coloring and she LOVES it. She buy’s you a lot of green stuff and is so happy whenever you wear like a green shirt she bought you that one time.  Dislikes: 

-chocolate: 

She likes chocolate but doesn’t really mind that you don’t, I mean you guy’s have this whole “opposites attract” thing going on so she is use to having differences. Sometimes she will sneak some chocolate and bring you some candy that you do like, it is the least she can do when everyone else is over chocolate and you are just sitting there like. “F**k”

-dogs: 

Like I said I feel like she has a lot of dogs at her house. So whenever you come over she makes sure to either keep you in her room or keep the dog’s in their crate so they won’t bother you as much. 

First Date: 

You guy’s went to a beach and played with sand castles. Then went to the movie theaters late at night and watched a movie. 

Talents; 

NO NO NO don’t do this on best girl. She will just look at you and worry fills her eyes. Then Todoroki is looking at you all like ““do that again” and Asui is like ““don’t do that again” it is honestly the most chaotic thing ever and you love it. 

Blurb: 

Asui locked up the two dogs that she had as you started to go up the stairs to her room. ““WAIT UP STITCHED!” Asui yelled, cupping her hands around her mouth so her soft voice could be heard from up the stairs. You turned around and smiled brightly at the teenager.  “Sorrryyy.” You apologized as you patted the female’s head. Asui beamed slightly before jumping on her bed and opening Netflix.  “Wanna watch Stranger Things?” Asui suggested as she cocked her head and stared into your beautiful eyes.  “Obviously.” You rolled your eyes as Asui let out a small giggle.

[thirdhostage]

Okay (Tom x FemReader) Fluff

(( Gif not mine - dang he cute tho ))

(A/n): So so so so I changed the request a bit so that the reader and Tom aren’t actually dating yet but it’s okay because I think it turned out fine

Request:  Greetings my dear, I'm wondering if you have time that is if I could send in a request? Tom Holland x reader, where reader and Tom are dating but reader is younger like 18 or 19. And Tom sometimes feeling that he's too old for her and just some reassuring fluff please :)

Warnings: Swearing ??? Fluff dude

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“So but like, are you gunna’ do anything about it, kid?” Robert pondered.

“I don’t know!” Tom cried, throwing his arms up. He was now second guessing harbouring his secret in the Robert Downey, for all the wrong reasons.

The young brunette sighed in frustration and collapsed his gaze to the floor. “I kinda’ don’t want to do anything about it..” he mumbled.

Robert laughed and formed an ‘O’ with his mouth. He strut over to Tom so he could pat his back. “Well son, you came to the right place.” he grinned “Uncle Rob has got you covered.”

The brit’s face twisted in misunderstanding, lifting his head to show it to Robert.

“I don’t know, boy, I don’t know.” Rob sighed and stood straight “So, um, why aren’t you just telling her straight forward again?” he asked and began to pace around Tom.

Tom couldn’t help but let a sound of anguish slip his lips. Even he didn’t know what he was thinking, but he was stubborn.

“I’m like twenty and she’s what? Just turned eighteen?”

Rob choked on a laugh “So?” he turned towards Tommy and snickered quaintly “That’s like, what? Two years?”

“Exactly! It���s weirdddd. Why do I have to like her?”

Robert’s eyes looked intently at Tom’s form sitting on a prop box.

The cast was on break, most of the cast, because you were filming a scene with Anthony right now. Tommy found this to be a perfect time to ask Robert about his little (big) crush on you and how he should act on it.

“Well that’s simple,” Rob said and smiled; beginning to pace circles around the young brit “because she’s very smart. Her brains are unmatchable. She has really, almost glowing eyes. A beautifully perfect fit for her face, if I say so. (Y/n) is also really fucking funny and honestl--”

“Alright, I got it!” Tom sneered, glaring at Robert. Jealousy. “So what?”

“Once she gets done, in twenty two seconds, tell her.” Robert smirked, stopping in place. He was quite sure of himself.

“Hell no--” 

“Hey Tom! Rob~” you waved.

“Holy shit...” Tom muttered.

“More like,” Robert snickered “Ah shit!” he exclaimed as he stumbled a bit toward Tom, knocked him off his box and into a standing position “Sorrryyy Tommy! Didn’t actually see you there, ha ha. I’ll have to go now, I hear, like, god calling; I need to pray. Adios!!”

And then Rob left the room.

“Idiot.” you laughed and walked a bit toward Tom. “What’s up with him?”

“O-Oh like he said. Needs to pray.” Tommy laughed quietly “Pray that I don’t kill him and everything he loves.”

“Hm?” you hummed and tilted your head up to look into his chocolate eyes.

“Oh nothing~” the brunette said.

“You kinda’ look like you have something to say...” you laughed.

Tom took one deep breath and you prepared yourself to listen; smiling to yourself kindly.

“That you are really really fucking pretty and nice and kind and I like your acting style and the way you do your hair and that you are almost sassy but also considerate and that you can help people without even saying anything and really just that--”

You couldn’t help you eyes widening in internal shock as the brit ranted on; smile faltering. Apparently Tom saw that as a sigh you thought he was insanely stupid for feeling the way he was.

“Oh my-- I’m really sorry. I know I’m like twenty and you just turned eighteen but... but like, I have this like.... I’m sorry..” his look fell to the floor, eyes misty.

A hearty laugh bellowed from your throat before you noticed he was going to cry.

“Oh my god, Tom!” your hands flew to his cheeks, panicky. You drew his head to look at your face. “No, no don’t cry! You’re okay, this is fine, you aren’t weird for this.” you explained softly.

Tom sniffed a bit. “Really...?”

“Yes, it isn’t weird that you are twenty and I’m eighteen. Two years could mean jack shit to me.” you went to pepper his face with small kisses, landing one softly on his lips.

“This is okay.”

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(A/N): This seems short to me lmao I think this is okay

[hermits-that-craft]

(I’m going to preface this with I’m sorry if this comes off as aggressive or mean, I don’t mean it to be, just sometimes people getting Irish folklore wrong rlly frustrates meee, so now I’m going to aggressively educate you.)

(You didn’t even get too much wrong I’m sorrryyy)

The first two things are just names, like it’s the salmon of knowledge (not the salmon of wisdom) and his name is Fionn, not Finn (Finn is the anglocised version of fionn, but like it’s an Irish legend, teach people the Irish names ;-;)

And I’m just gonna leave out the whole first bit of the legend, because it’s not relevant, but Fionn didn’t even eat the salmon! The old man who he was with left Fionn to watch it while it cooked, and Fionn popped a blister with his thumb and then put it in his mouth because he got burned. The only thing that mattered was that Fionn got the first taste of the salmon, so he got all the knowledge.

I think this one depends on what version of the story you hear, but I’m pretty sure that he also only has all the knowledge when he puts his thumb in his mouth, because idk magic

Again sorry if this came off as mean! I’m just Irish and it frustrated me when people get our folklore wrongggg

it's all good

I do want to say though: im australian. ive never been to ireland, ive only ever left the country to go to italy for a student exchange.

So, although I knew that the last name wasn't 'mccool' and i knew it was 'mac cumhail' it didn't mean that i knew that his first name (which is more of a nickname in his stories to begin with - he's only called it because he wouldn't tell people his name so they called him blondie) was spelt wrong.

should i have researched it? probably.

did that give you a reason to rant in my inbox? no.

rant in tags. if it comes off as agressive, thats because this was what i woke up to.