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goldenpinof · 5 years ago

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so basically here’s a script of “Basically I’m gay” by Daniel Howell, if someone needs it

link to a google doc

Hello Internet.

«Sex! Secrecy! And a whole lot of internal screaming. Starring Daniel Howell. One of the greatest mysteries of our generation. What is Dan’s sexuality?»

Spoiler alert. I’m not straight. Sex, the foundation of life and the only thing we’re really supposed to do. Everyone’s obsessed with it. You bunch of degenerates. In the list of things that identify a person, one of the most important for other people to know is their sexuality. For, if sex is the primal force propelling all of these humans forward by their hips, they have to know. Are we gonna fuck? Or like could we? Or are you, ‘cause I’m just wondering. Now, we live in a heteronormative world, which is a long scary word that makes people feel attacked for some reason. Shh it’s okay.

What it means is people are presumed to be straight. If you’re not, then at some point, you have to “come out”, which is a whole thing. Or people might just try and guess based on something you do or the way you act, because yay stereotypes. So this is something you have to be clear on, because if you’re not, how are all these other people that aren’t you going to cope? But I’m pretty sure no one that knows me thinks I’m straight. So I don’t really need to come out as much as just clarify what the hell is going on. As here I am at age 27 and my sexual preference is seemingly still a vague, debatable, confusing, impenetrable mystery. But why? And what is it? Well, those are some big questions. Are you sure you wanna know my answers?

[YES]

Okay, well, if you say so 'cause this is a complicated and sensitive issue and when it comes to me, boy, there is a lot to unpack here and it is a total clusterfuck. So strap yourselves in and let me tell you a queer little story about a boy named Dan.

Chapter 1 – The Word

♪ When I was a young boy ♪

♪ My father ♪

Didn’t have much time for me because my conception was clearly an accident and he was a narcissistic proud man suddenly inconvenienced in the prime of his life and this emotional neglect gave me lasting problems.

Sorry that’s not all relevant right now.

I was an only child for seven years and with working parents. This meant I had to make my own fun so I was imaginative and loud which is something that my teachers used to say quite a lot followed by, “However.” Here I am age five. Look at me. Cute, poised, sassy, turning out this photo shoot like sorry, Grandma, I stunted on this set. Are you seeing this? In almost every way, I literally peaked age five. I loved being the center of attention. People said I had an infectious happiness, that my beaming smile brought them hope and joy. People that know me are laughing right now. But a boy, in the '90s being happy and generally polite acting? Sounds kinda GAY if you ask me. Literally, masculinity was so fragile, people were so proud and scared and society so aggressive that a boy smiling!?.. appearing to be empathetic or in any way emoting was seen as a threat. How dare they laugh and feel comfortable? They must be soft and weak and girly and GAY. So basically thanks, Grandma, for raising me to be a nice child, you dick. Just kidding. That’s a joke and I told you not to watch this video because it would be rude so if you send me a disappointed text telling me you’re offended, I don’t know what to tell you. Although, now I think about it, you did make me go to church for 10 years, which in hindsight probably also didn’t help ♪ Hallelujah ♪ the issue here so. But then it was time for little Dan to go to school and this is when it

♪ All went wrong ♪

'Cause it turns out most children, evil pieces of shit. Doesn’t matter if you try to raise a happy innocent child, throw that kid into school, aka, a literal Mad Max Battle Royale with the feral offspring of your local community. Yeah, that crap’ll be undone in about two weeks. I was six years old running around the playground pretending to be Sonic the Hedgehog or something when two brothers come up to me aged seven and eight with an unexplained aggressive look in their eye. And the younger one pushes me to the ground, kicks me in the stomach, and just says, “GAY.”

This was the first time I ever heard that word. Well, I don’t know what the heck gay means but apparently it means people kick you on the floor so that ain’t good. I didn’t know this child or give them any cause to have an opinion on me. And, actually, I never directly interacted with them again. What epic clustershit of failed parenting and general culture brought this tiny child to get angry and attack someone, then call them gay for looking like they were having fun outside. Are you okay, 1990s? And so my relationship with sexuality began.

I wasn’t looking to define myself as a child indiscriminately playing doctors and nurses with various friends until once somebody’s mum walked into a room to find three fully naked children sat on a bed sticking sellotape to each other’s butts. Yep, which I don’t recommend. Also, Jesus Christ, the poor woman that saw that. Then you get to the magic age around 10 or 11 where everybody suddenly wants to pretend they’re totally a “cool teenager” who’s doing all the drugs and the sex and the fights, totally. Boy, gay was a really popular word back then.

[[Boy] Uh, homework is gay. [Girl] Uh, my mum’s so gay. [Boy] Uh, you touched a girl, gay.]

This one little shit who I won’t name was one of the school bullies and he loved the word gay. He had it in for me and I have no idea why. You know me, Mr. Winnie the Pooh Meets Slender Man. Well, when I was 10 just Winnie the Pooh. I didn’t do nothin’ to no one ever and yet this guy used my pacifism as a punching bag where any group situation was an excuse to single me out call me gay for some reason and then make everyone else exclude me because they were scared of him. I had a girlfriend. We dated for six whole weeks. We kissed in a game of spin the bottle once by literally sucking on each other’s faces. Then she ended dumping me over speakerphone at a birthday party that everyone in my class but me was invited to but, hey. I don’t know what I was doing wrong, but at this age, I understood one thing. Being gay, whatever that meant, was clearly the worst thing you could be. On a Darwinian level, I was being told, okay bitch, “Survival Code”. Don’t be this apparently. Evolution. Plot twist, this bully I think he was a bit gay because once he asked me to have a sleepover at his house and I thought was me finally getting socially accepted only for him in the middle of the night to come up and ask me, “So who’s going to be the boy and the girl?” I was an innocent smol bean who didn’t really understand what he meant because, to be honest, I didn’t actually understand get how babies were made yet. But needless to say I think he was disappointed. Wow, closeted child turns into homophobic bully. Thanks again society. But this whole primary school journey was really just an amuse-bouche for the full six-course tasting menu of suffering that would be secondary school.

I went to an all-boys school. It was a literal hellscape. I thought it was hard making it through a school of 200 kids with two or three bullies. Try over a thousand where a clean 800 are fully psychopathic gorillas fueled by testosterone, Red Bull, and Eminem albums. Making sure that the word f- no longer means an innocent bundle of sticks or a cigarette anymore in the British lexicon. Nope, now it was a cool homophobic slur along with gay, gaylord, gayboy, puff, pufter, ponce, batty, batty boy, bum-boy, bender. Shit, this is so long. People have a lot of words for something they don’t wanna think about. Look at me in this stupid blazer. Oh, “you’ll grow into it at some point in the next four years”. Thanks, Mum. Day one, kid in form class, some stupid hedgehog-looking motherfucker side eyes me and says, “What you lookin at, puff?” First interaction at a new school. Great! My entire existence on a daily basis then becomes navigating this school like I’m in the bloody “Maze Runner” trying to avoid aggressive pricks with chode ties. And you know being verbally abused for being a nerd or a Greebo at least felt relevant to me at the time. Greebo, definitely one of my faves there and I’m sure that Korn and Slipknot would have been proud to have 12-year-old me as a fan. I kinda knew who I was in the hierarchy at that point. I was essentially a theater kid who spent all of his free time playing Runescape on the AOL browser on his mum’s PC instead of football. I accepted it. But at least I wasn’t actually this “gay thing” people kept throwing around because by now I understood a gay is a boy who fancies other boys. And to be honest I don’t really feel like I’ve ever fancied anyone before.

Then puberty happened.

Oh yeah, this is fun, tingly feelings, I smell bad. It was quite fun dribbling on this girl’s face playing Truth or Dare, maybe later we’ll go behind that bike sheds and, there I was sat in English class, my friend next to me. I watched as he delicately removes a pencil from its case. We briefly make eye contact as he flutters his long black eyelashes with a blink before staring forward. His eyes are so bright and beautiful yet they seem so sad and deep with emotion. I wish I could just understand. Oh fuck, I think I’m a bit gay. You’re telling me this whole time I actually have been the bad thing that people keep calling me? Shit!

Chapter 2 – Feelings

Oh do you hear it that faint hum, something coming from a deep, dark place too powerful to control? It’s the self-hatred. She is here and she’s only getting started. Short version, I fall hopelessly in love with a friend of mine who doesn’t feel the same way which crushes me into a million tiny pieces and years later actually it turns out he was gay the whole time. He just really specifically didn’t like me. [Double kill.] Here I am, 13, crying to evanescence alone in my bedroom feeling like there’s no point in really being alive as I’m clearly a faulty outcast person that has no place in the world. I stopped going to church with my grandma because I felt like I wasn’t really supposed to be there. Also, by this age, the whole Christianity thing didn’t really make much sense to me. And the adult services were dry AF compared to coloring in a picture of Jesus’s face at Sunday school. So other than the free tea and biscuits they gave away after the sermon, religion didn’t really have much to offer me. Damn, there was some good biscuits though. I miss that. But wait! All is not lost yet. Do you see that? A triumphant, rallying cry of guitars, stripey hoodies, and black hair dye. Emo had arrived! I swear to God, emo is one of the best things that happened to pop culture in the last 20 years. As well as inventing eyeliner and skinny jeans, a new word hit the theater, nerd, goth, band, kid corner that would change my world forever.

Bisexual. You can be normal and gay at the same time and some people think it’s cool? Well, slap a long fingerless glove on my arm and sign me up to Myspace 'cause Mum, I’m bi. It was a good term 'cause it was a catchall for anyone who felt sexually confused or curious that didn’t want to commit to something stronger which is very me. Big commitment issues. Thanks, fam. To be clear, regardless of whatever the 2006 teenagers thoughts and feelings were, being bi is valid and should not be excused away or erased by anyone. Thank you.

From this moment, I was a loud and proud raving bi to my close friends and the strangers on the internet who saw my clearly-labeled sexual preference on my Myspace page. And the emo friends I made at this time were awesome. We just used to hang and make out with each other and listen to music and drink bottles of Smirnoff Ice until we were sick on each other with no judgment. The judgment came several years later looking back at the photos that you can’t delete. So I didn’t need to tell my family or people at school anything. But the thing is with a Myspace page, anyone with an internet connection can read it. And so the rumors started spreading through my neighborhood that Dan Howell was in fact a bisexual. I had a friend in French class who one day, totally unprompted, just turned to me and said, “Hmm, yeah, I thought so. You give off a bi-vibe.” A bi-vi-, what the fuck is a bi-vibe? Great, yeah, nothing to make a 15-year-old feel self-conscious about his behavior like being told he emanates a bisexual aura. What am I supposed to do with that? Sorry that I give off mixed signals. I’m versatile. Turns out it was actually a social upgrade from being called gay all the time 'cause bisexual was a new word that only referred to sexuality so people actually had to decide how they felt about the fact I was attracted to boys. As opposed to gay which as we all understand is synonymous with bad and also implies a general threat, plague, curse/evil force that simply must be destroyed. People at school were actually almost nice to me with curiosity about it and a few of the boys that previously loved to just generically call me gay while throwing a compasses at me or something, now started to low-key flirt with me and some stuff happened. Go figure.

But then I entered the dark ages and no I’m not talking about my hair because I was never actually cool enough to commit to dying it black. As quickly as they arrived into my life, my emo friend group vanished into the night. Like the tip of an eyeliner pencil snapping or the HTML on your intricately-crafted MySpace page falling apart when the host websites of your embedded gifs die, so, too, did my social life. One had to suddenly focus on school, another moved town, two of them just fell out with each other and started hanging out with their old friends again. Well, we don’t all have back up friend groups, Lindsey! I went all in on the emos! You’re telling me I have to go back to sitting in my kitchen playing Runescape now! Thanks a lot. So for a year I literally had no friends. And this is when the bullying at school really stepped its pussy up. The things people used to say offhand to me in a corridor were now said loudly in classrooms where everybody would laugh. People used to sing songs about me being gay on the bus while my fellow nerds sat around me just stared awkwardly out of the window not wanting to get involved. People shouted things out during GCSE exams in front of the whole school and the low key pushing became punches. People used to wait for me after school just to throw things at me. Once a guy put his hand around my throat and pushed my head against a coat peg in the locker room while everyone was watching and just slapped me for five minutes. But I never reacted. I never cried or got angry or fought back 'cause then I’d be giving them what they wanted and I refused to play along. But this way of dealing with things definitely had an impact on my relationship with emotion going into life. I became a total outcast. No one wanted to come near me out of fear that they’d get targeted, too. So no one ever stood up for me. And, you know, I don’t blame them. I just resent them even to this day. No, I’m kidding, I don’t really. I do. No, I don’t. I, hmm. Teachers at the time obviously did nothing. In fact, one of them saw this happening to me and laughed 'cause you know, boys will be boys especially the gay ones that get killed by the other ones, am I right? Ah, classic lad banter. And home. See, keeping this on the topic of sexuality and not economic class, violence, addiction, and health issues, let’s just say some shit was goin’ down. I didn’t think I could ask my family for help or share my feelings about this, mainly due to my dad. Funny guy, kind of a woke hippie who did and said a lot of things I did respect but at the same time used to walk around the house saying how he hoped someone he had a problem with at work would *clears throat* “die of bum cancer.” Yep, so picked the one area to be a bigot that would further traumatize your child. Nice! This experience coming from a childhood hearing the word gay meaninglessly thrown around as an insult at home and school, in music, on TV, to then realizing I am actually kinda gay, to then very specifically being attacked for it was traumatic. The world was clearly telling me if I ever wanted to be accepted by anyone or, in my particular environment, survive, I couldn’t be gay. I was afraid of it, literally homophobic of myself. I am talking Pavlov, sunken place, North Korea-level mind alteration that made me terrified of and repulsed by this part of me. This is called internalized oppression. It’s a real thing and it’s some real shit.

Chapter 3 – Internalized Oppression

From this moment I was no longer advertising myself as bi. No, BRB deleting that Myspace real quick, xD lemme get on that Bebo. “My Chemical Romance”? No, I’m listen to what’s this, N-Dubz? Jesus Christ. I go away for the summer break and come back to school quiet and serious and fully straight. *coughs* I needed me some new friends that were a bit higher up the social ladder, you know what I’m sayin’ for security so I go ahead and join “The Inbetweeners”. Literally this group of friends, the exact middle ground between nerds and desperately wanting to be cool. And oh how desperate we were. The great thing about these friends was they knew loads of girls. So firstly, instant cool points. Secondly, if I date a girl *scoffs* super not gay. The problem with that was it’s not like everyone just forgot everything that’s been said about me and this group of friends, casually homophobic pretty much all the time and also they hung out in places near some even more aggressive and super homophobic peeps. Just full-time Runescape would have been a better in hindsight. I find myself going through the same shit at school but now voluntarily going through it at the weekends from the people that are supposed to be my friends thinking I’m doing the right thing whilst constantly telling myself I’m now totally heterosexual. So I did what many people choose to do at that point and I got a girlfriend. But this is pretty messed up because I really liked this girl. In fact, I loved her as a friend and I was genuinely attracted to her but I was so afraid of sexuality I didn’t even wanna do anything straight in case I had some weird gay panic that I was totally frigid and I led her on. And when she got pissed at me, understandably, for being a terrible boyfriend, I just felt even worse. This was someone who I liked that I was hurting and lying to but I couldn’t leave as then I’d have no armor. Beautiful irony here is having a girlfriend didn’t in any way stop the abuse 'cause remember, gay is a great all-purpose general insult. (Call someone gay today and we’ll throw in a free set of steak knives.) And when these neighborhood teens started heavy drinking and getting into drugs, things suddenly got quite scary as people joked about setting fire to a tent as I slept in it at Reading Festival. Or saying, “You know that notoriously unstable guy? Yeah, he said he’s gonna kill you next Saturday.” Awkward.

This was definitely the lowest point in my life. I just felt totally alone, confused and I deeply hated myself. I used to ask God, in case he was there, to please, just make me straight and everyone stop. But I saw no end, no escape, no way to change the world or who I was. So one evening I thought fuck it and I attempted suicide.

I say attempted, because just before it was too late I thought

“oh shit oh shit oh shit oh shit what have i done what have i done fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck?”

“what will your grandma think don’t do this to her she tried her best and she loves you”

“your family aren’t total dicks and this will fuck them up can’t you just get over it surely”

“you’re gonna get to the last year of school and give up now really what was the point”

“I heard this is one of the most painful ways to die so not a great choice if I’m being blunt”

Felt kinda bad for a few days otherwise I pretended it never happened and I didn’t tell anyone, until now, literally. Hmm, I know pretty dark right, but hey spoiler things kinda worked out. I mean still gotta lot of issues but here I am. I’m so glad I failed for so many reasons, for the people in my life, for the future I would’ve wasted. The most important being that I thought I was trapped in a situation forever when in reality, the entire world I lived in and my life changed completely. I thought it was hopeless when in reality there was so much to hope for and that’s it. Time changes everything. With the lives that we have, we can try anything we’ve dreamed of. I want anyone that’s ever felt like this to realize you are never trapped. There is always hope. You just need to believe in yourself and get to the other side. So yeah school age 6 to 18, I’m gonna give that a bad Google review. The thing is I did stand out. I’ve always been a loudmouth, class clown, annoying shit. Since graduating, it turns out half the people I knew were fuckin’ gay. That group of friends I had, all lovely people now. Five of them were gay, five gays! That is statistically irregular. Oh but they flew under the radar. All I’m saying is I wish people just hated me for being annoying and immature. Leave the gays alone!

My light at the end of the tunnel was university. I was gonna get my A levels move to a new town and ghost these bitches. But I took a gap year first to earn some money which was very boring sitting at home and working at ASDA where I was not happy to help. My shift started at 5 a.m. on a Saturday. Signed up for a Twitter account to run my mouth off and then bam. “So my name is [Dan].” My YouTube story begins, a new chapter of my life to redefine. So you know what I do? Get a Formspring because nothing gives you that attention feeling like one of those anonymous question and answer websites that are inherently toxic and no one should use. And straight out of the bat bisexual Dan returns. 'Cause hey, just like Myspace, I’m only telling a few people on the internet right now. It’s not like one day I’m gonna get so many followers that random strangers and my family might see it. Wow, I had a lot fun with many different kinds of people in 2009. Let’s just say I got a lot out of my system. Got a couple of things in my system, too. Sorry.

And this is when, through the magic of the internet, I met Phil. And obviously we were more than friends but it was more than just romantic. This is someone that genuinely liked me. I trusted them. And for the first time since I was a tiny child, I actually felt safe. And the relationship we formed at that point was something that I needed in my life. We are real best friends, companions through life, like actual soulmates, not that souls are a real thing that exist. It’s so lucky to just find someone you can be that compatible with and especially to anyone that has experienced the kind of self-hatred that I have dealt with, one person accepting you can make all the difference. And I bet so many people wanna know so much more about that which, honestly, I take as a compliment. But here’s the thing. I’m somebody that wants to keep the details of my personal life private. So is Phil. I know lots of people these days, thanks to social media, want to share and monetize every aspect of their life and then as soon as something changes suddenly it’s this huge drama because everybody got invested in the story of your life like it’s a soap opera. I don’t want that. I wanna do certain things without an audience. I wanna be spontaneous. I don’t wanna feel afraid to take risks. I want to enjoy totally fucking something up and not have to post a statement about it. And if anyone thinks people really have to share these things about their life, you need to rethink your position. And look, I understand that sex is a fun and interesting thing to talk about. I get it. I am also a disgusting pervert. But the specific minutiae of who I be fuckin’, when, why, where, how long, how, uhh, I mean? Sexuality is a general fact that it can be very useful to know about a person for several reasons, but we can’t force people to disclose that either. We don’t know this person’s life story, what they’ve been through, if they haven’t told people, if they’ll lose their job, if they’re in danger. There are so many reasons someone might not be open about it. We can preach the message that being out is good, but aggressively speculating or trying to out someone is really bad. They might not be gay, in which case we’re just harassing someone and probably stereotyping. And if they are there’s gonna be a reason why they haven’t talked about it. So I don’t wanna see any responses to me finally talking about this like no one is surprised. “Dan we been knew.” Wow, you huge galaxy brain genius. What’s it like walking around with all those brain cells in there working overtime? What, you got like three in there? Don’t lose your balance, mastermind. I haven’t exactly been subtle have I? I’m an awkward, sexually ambiguous nerd. “What the fuck even is your sexuality?” That’s not the point. I’m already dead inside so it doesn’t matter here, but to me if someone’s reaction to a person coming out is just, “yeah, I knew”, they’re showing no empathy towards the issue or that person. They’re just making it about themselves like it was a fun piece of gossip they already knew. All we have to do is listen and be accepting.

So anyway back to the tale. Whilst things were looking up for Dan aged 18, things quickly got messy again. Wow, that beats the emo streak of temporary self-acceptance by like six months, nice. There was a point around 2011 where the relationship with my audience shifted from what felt like direct communication between me and individuals that just saw me as a comedy creator to communities of people that formed to talk about me when I wasn’t there. Which is fine, but for some people it was about getting generally invested in me and my real life which I thought was a bit strange 'cause inevitably like anyone who puts themself out there, some people started to really dig into my private life to find out information about me that I wasn’t ready to share. And this was around the same time that YouTubers finally started to get mainstream recognition in the British press. We had the BBC knocking at our door trying to offer Dan and Phil a radio show. From that, Dan and Phil became this entertainment duo that we could have a creative career with. And we love working together, so when all these opportunities came for Dan and Phil, we were really excited but I was also scared as people clearly knew I wasn’t straight and I hadn’t told my family that. None of my old friends knew about this, and what me and Phil had was ours and personal and yet some people were trying to get access to it for their own satisfaction. It was no longer a few people on the internet, no big deal. So I just shut down. It felt like I was back at school again, surrounded by threatening people trying to expose me for their entertainment. Most I’m sure just wanted what was best for me and I feel such genuine sadness and am sorry that I couldn’t be closer to and more truthful with the people in my life that were just trying to be nice but I wasn’t ready to deal with it at this time so I had to do something to contain it. I definitely sent some mixed messages. Some were just joking around, others were super defensive that in my panic came across like “I’m now telling everyone I’m totally straight” when all I really meant was “please fuck off and don’t invade my privacy, you creepy stalkers, thank you”. But this experience seriously triggered some PTSD in me and I was back in the dark place. I didn’t want to just disappear from the internet to escape it and throw away this creative hobby that actually started paying rent. Thanks. So I just decided to put anything to do with my sexuality in a box to come back to later as I was still processing my past and I wanted to understand my identity on my own terms and timeline and not just have it hijacked as fuel for people’s sexual fantasies or some headline in an article. And whilst we’re not exactly living in a utopia yet here on YouTube, the general internet culture only five or six years ago was a much less wholesome, progressive place as this little bubble is now. Sure, a lot of people probably would have been supportive, but there was just as much open bigotry and general toxicity 'cause people felt less accountable and it was okay to say certain things 'cause it’s just on the internet and I couldn’t handle that at the time. And, generally, I can handle a lot. I have big hands with a very wide reach for playing piano, you fucking.. get your mind out of the gutter. We can’t ask people to just put their lives on hold to address their sexuality first. If a kid dreams of being a footballer and age 18 gets signed to a club and all their dreams come true but they’re scared to come out because of the insane homophobia in that community, they shouldn’t turn it down. Yes, it’s so important to be truthful about who you are and open and proud in front of the world but it’s our society’s fault that these people are scared to say who they are. So let’s all focus on making it a welcoming place and people will come out when they are ready. So when was I ready? Well, it’s always been on my mind that I need to talk about this at some point. I couldn’t just keep going forward in my life ignoring it, not only just so I can be authentic, which is very important for general existing, but also just letting people know what kind of sexual attention I want from the world. All of it from everyone. God I’m so thirsty. And if anything motivated me, it’s the idea that I can help someone else 'cause that’s basically my whole career, isn’t it, admitting to shit that I’ve been through so you will feel better about yourselves. There we go, you’re welcome. I have a platform and a following of millions of people, many of whom I know have been through exactly what I have. And if I tell my story as painful and flip floppy and flawed as it is, I know it will mean something to someone as every time someone speaks openly about sexuality, it saves lives. I’d never met a single out gay person until I was 18. And if I had, or even just seen better representation in the media, I wouldn’t have felt so totally alone. I wouldn’t even be saying this to you now if it wasn’t for TV shows, musicians, and public figures in the last couple years reinforcing this to me. It doesn’t matter if I was living the life privately as there was still so much confusion about my feelings and fear. But things are better now, on the internet, on TV, in my real life. It’s not perfect but it feels safe enough in this space right now for me to feel confident. So thank you, sincerely, to all the brave people that came before me and to any of you that made this world seem welcoming for me. And instead of procrastinating from this by focusing on work, which was a way for me to insure my own independence and survival in case I was rejected, or just doing things for other people to take my mind off it instead of asserting my own needs, which my therapist keeps telling me is one of my biggest problems. Here I am with a fresh void of time in front of me to fuck up however I want. Now look, we all have different experiences in life. Some of us are lucky, some of us not. It just so happened that the first 18 years of my life were horrendously shit. It failed me. But we get dealt cards from the start, too. If you look at my life, I was born into this world as an able-bodied, white, cis-man in Britain which immediately gives me so much privilege in this current world and I am fully aware of how much harder making it to today could have been for me, which is why we all need to stand up for equality and social justice even if it doesn’t apply to us. No one stood up for me when it mattered the most and that almost cost me everything. So if you see a woman being harassed, a gay being threatened, someone muttering something racist, say something, do something because if you’re still or silent, the victim will just think that you are against them, too. We all have a responsibility.

This tale was just some of the stuff relating to sexuality. We all have a whole sob story if we wanna tell it but I just wanted to explain the journey of how I got to this point and overcame the obstacles that tried to block this path. And now I’ve arrived.

Chapter 4 – Labels

Okay cool story, bro, it’s answer time. What’s your answer. Whaddayalikedafuk? Here’s the thing, you want me to talk candidly about sexuality as if it’s something that I understand? I don’t know what it is, why it is. Turns out no one knows. I’ve been sitting here for years waiting for scientists to just work it out like bleep bloop. [Oh this is why and exactly how it’s different for people. There we go.] Thinking I shouldn’t run off my mouth on the internet in case my theories and opinions on varying gayness get debunked next week. Well, I waited long enough and it didn’t happen. Science, ya fucked up, you let me down. And I fully expect to have to delete this video in two weeks when you find out all the answers suddenly. Thanks a bunch. What makes someone gay or straight or all the things in between? What the ever loving fuck is gender about? This is a mess. Yet people want you to give them a word because that’s how humans communicate with words that have meanings. Which is why our disgusting species is impatient, stupid, and obsessed with labels. And this applies to everything, sexuality, gender, political identity, what obscure genre of synthwave you listen to. People just want a label that represents something they understand so they already know how to feel about you and don’t have to bother thinking. [Oh you’re a feminist well I don’t need to know anything more. Oh you’re a leftist. Oh you’re a K-pop fan but but but but.] If people just want to find a way to disagree with you or dislike you, they can refer to the label and turn off their brains. Hey, what does my label say? Huh. The issue is, especially when we start talking about the writhing mass of confusion and suffering that is sexual and gender identity, the limits of language and specific terminology become a big problem. What does being gay mean? You never thought about a boob once? What does being a man mean? You wanna be an emotionless rock rubbing raw steaks against your biceps? It’s not like humanity is all in agreement right now. I don’t like the stereotypes and drama that come with all this terminology so I’m just not gonna use it. Thing is gender identity isn’t my issue. I feel comfortable with the identity that I’ve had my whole life. Dan, a tol boy from England. But being a man means nothing to me. I wouldn’t feel uncomfortable wearing makeup or a sickening pair of heels, though I can’t even draw in a straight line so that would be a disaster. Also is anyone really comfortable wearing heels? Hmm. Icons of masculinity aren’t really a big part of my life. Might as well call me a fucking formless blob that sounds more relatable. Shout out to all my formless blobs out there, rise up. I don’t have to do anything or be anything and I personally wouldn’t feel offended if I wasn’t referred to as a he. Well, she’s feeling hungry today. Stop fucking judging me, Susan. I’m sad and I’m gonna eat this whole damn cake whether you like it or not. But anyone that has this don’t really care attitude about their gender identity is in a way privileged 'cause some people, especially trans, care a lot about their gender identity and using the correct pronouns which other people should respect. Likewise with sexuality, whilst to me the endlessly increasing list of tribes and flags being flown is a bit daunting and confusing and personally stresses me out 'cause I almost find it constrictive, some people like it. Because if you’re feelings are confusing and then you look at a word that represents something and go, “wow, that me”, it can help you realize you’re valid and find a community and that’s great. There is so much controversy around this issue and others but if we all just calm down, respect each other’s experiences and try to just be nice, reasonable people, which is a lot to ask, let’s be real, it’s quite simple. If you wanna use language to express your honest feelings and identity, that’s great and other people should respect what you say. Likewise, if you hate labels and you just wanna be a formless blob, that’s fine, too. No one should force you. The only thing that isn’t cool is telling other people what they should or should not identify as 'cause that ain’t your problem or your business, bye. This was one of the things that held me back from talking about this for years. Shit’s confusing, man. Let’s just go back to cellular reproduction by mitosis so I don’t really have to be specific. Two people that I really look up to and respect, Harry Styles and Janelle Monae, both famously say that they don’t feel the need to label it which, to be honest, is how I feel and is perfectly okay. But I get it, for me, you want a word. Oh, that’s hard, though. I’m an annoying guy. I feel uncertain specifying my sexuality in the same way I wouldn’t say I am an atheist. Who the fuck am I to say whether God does or doesn’t exist? I don’t know shit 'bout shit and neither does anyone else. I mean I think it’s unlikely in the same way I know I like DICK. But I’m not gonna pretend to have a definite answer here. Looking at my public statements is inconsistent and confusing. Looking at my personal track record through life is super confusing. And looking at the void inside my soul threatening to crush the entire universe with the force of its event horizon of misery and melodrama, well, fuck let’s close that shit up. One thing’s for sure whatever heterosexual is, I ain’t it. Really if you ask me, I don’t think anyone’s totally straight. I think there’s a lot of social and emotional issues getting in the way of yet to be understood feelings of attraction that can be very flexible. And trust me, I’ve known a lot of straight guys until a couple of drinks, some deep conversation, and lingering eye contact, and suddenly they just start leaning in. What does that make them? And am I totally gay? No. Am I slightly more gay or is it just easier for gays to hook up with each other because of societal norms. It’s not like the signs for male and female bathrooms are what I’m attracted to. I don’t care what flesh organ you have between your legs, what your hair’s like, if you’re covered in it or a fuckin’ beluga whale. I’m gonna be honest, I’m not picky. I’m easy. So am I bi or pan or poly? Well, now we’re just in a clusterfuck of defining language and I’m confused and sad and horny. This is why I personally love the word queer. I understand that some people don’t as it is a slur but as someone that’s been the target of it several times throughout my life I’m up for some reclamation. It’s like recycling. The definition makes sense because until society is equal with all sexual and gender identifies, it is literally strange from a conventional viewpoint plus it’s better than a super long acronym, it’s inclusive of everyone and therefore great for formless blobs. There we go, an identity I feel comfortable with. A highly-strung, depressed queer praying for a giant meteor to hurry up and finally eradicate humanity. LMAO, yeet!

But to come full circle, I know that even today, deep in my heart the word gay scares me because that’s how I’ve been conditioned my whole life. So, you know what? Fuck the literal definition and the scientific definition and what everyone thinks. I finally have to just confront and accept this.

I’m gay.

Oh look, didn’t spontaneously fucking combust. Well, there we go, that was a lot of stress about nothing, wasn’t it? Bloody hell. So yup, I’m here, I’m queer, and don’t worry I’m still filled with existential fear.

WE’RE HERE, WE’RE QUEER WE’RE FILLED WITH EXISTENTIAL FEAR.

Chapter 5 – Fear

Even though I’m at this current place, there is still so much I’m afraid of and this has taken months to make because of that. Telling my family was a big fear. I have problems connecting with them emotionally because reasons. So I only came out to them this month and if it didn’t go well, as I’m now the independent adult that I fought so hard to be, I was ready to cut them off like the bottom of a sweater turning into a seasonal crop. But I didn’t have to, love you. I didn’t think they’d reject me these days but coming out is still a surprise. It changes things. And I’m a pretty awkward person generally but the idea of just dropping this in conversation in front of them all terrified me. And I tried several times this year to do it but I just couldn’t. So you know how I finally came out to my family? E-mail. Yep, I literally just sent them an e-mail saying and I quote,

“Hello gang. I’ve been meaning to talk to you all for a while, something quite important that should be disclosed at some point. I thought I would around Christmas, then Mum’s birthday, then last Easter Sunday, etc., but every time I meant to, I either felt like I would ruin the mood of the day or I just felt awkward and didn’t want to. So I decided just to email you all instead which is really inappropriate and just weird but that somehow seems appropriate for me and at least I’ll just finally say it.

Basically I’m gay.”

Yup. It was just getting ridiculous so I thought screw it and hey, it worked. Turns out my remaining family, pretty chill bunch of people. Even my Christian grandma said this,

“We love you for being you. It must be a great relief to finally acknowledge who you are. Popsie and I just want you to be happy. People are born as they are and have no say in it. I hope that now you will feel free to live your life as you want with no pretense.”

Aw.

“Don’t forget the iPad.”

Yes, I said I’d give her my old iPad. She mainly cares about that I thing. Wasn’t so sure when I was 17 but it went well now and I know that makes me lucky but, hey, it shows that times change. As for the other people in my life, obviously all the friends I have now are cool. If anyone in my life I’ve ever known isn’t cool with it then I don’t care. And sure here online there might be a few incredibly lost bigots following me or just some classic trolls who I think should get fucked. No, like literally, I think you should try it. You’ll probably enjoy it and you might learn something about yourself. Inevitably some of you watching this might have a weird reaction if you just feel like it was a shock or you feel hurt that I kept it from you. But I feel like I explained myself reasonably here and going forward I can’t have any space for that, sorry. I’ve come to terms with who I am and now you have to, too, ha. Funnily enough straight up homophobia is probably the one thing I’m not that afraid of, because I just don’t agree so it doesn’t hold much emotional power over me but you bet I’m opening myself up to all new kinds of in real life and international discrimination now which is fun. But one of the other big fears holding me back was, honestly, that I wouldn’t be accepted by the community. I know that it’s a big pride flag covering a lot of ground and even the idea of it and certainly most of it is amazing. But there is a lot of drama within it right now especially on the internet. You’ve got Grindr gays arguing about how manly gays should be, bi’s getting ignored, trans people, especially of color, not being historically appreciated, acephobia, fucking SWERFs and TERFs. No thank you. So even though they are my people, I know some of them will have problems with something. And even then, just seeing such a loud and proud, strong and opinionated group of people celebrating something just intimidates a smol introvert such as myself. And in my mind if these people don’t accept me because I’m not being definitive enough or I took too long then I almost feel like I’ll be alone all over again, and this is a fear that a lot of people have honestly. But I’m a nice guy and I’m trying my best so you better be welcoming, you bunch of fuckin’ queers. And obviously with the topic of sexuality, it doesn’t matter where we are or how far you think we’ve come, by merely mentioning it, I will be opening up a primordial box of bullshit which will include every single stupid argument and question since the dawn of time. [It’s not natural.] There’s gay animals. [Adam and Steve.] That’s based on a story and the protagonist that arrives later probably doesn’t agree with you. [Why can’t we have straight pride?] I could spend 10 hours on all the classic crap and people would still be asking the same things. This being posted on the internet, my hopes are so incredibly low, lower than my self-esteem. Wow, that is unhealthy. I need to stop doing that. This video is about internalized oppression and the problems of language. I’m not here to pontificate on every topic tangentially related to the entire concept of gayness. *ASMR voice*: Pontificate on every topic tangentially related to the concept of gayness.

There’s other humans and all the time in the world left for that. The time in the world coincidentally being not much longer. Climate change LMAO. But I had to tell my story so people would understand me and these things. Why coming out is still a big deal because queer people are often invisible and suffering until they have to do it. Some people grow up in supportive environments and it’s a positive experience. But more likely, especially around the world outside of the big cities, it isn’t. This is not a fight that is anywhere near over. Even in Britain today people are debating whether children should be taught to be accepting of sexual and gender identity in school.

Queer people exist. Choosing not to accept them is not an option.

To anyone watching this that isn’t out, it’s okay. You’re okay. You were born this way, it’s right, and anyone that has a problem with it is wrong. Based on your circumstance, you might not feel ready to tell people yet or that it’s safe and that’s fine, too. Just know that living your truth, with pride, is the way to be happy. You are valid. It gets so much better. And the future is clear. It’s pretty queer.

So there we go. Now I can proceed authentically in my life with full disclosure. Cute mutuals know to slide into the DMs. And you can all fuck off and leave me alone.

Bye.

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Thurston Moore’s seventh solo album reconvenes the ensemble that made Spirit Counsel and nudges them Sonic Youth-ward. His core band of Deb Googe, Jon Leidecker, James Sedwards is back, with alternating drummers Steve Shelley and Jem Doulton, but this time instead of diving into prolonged, instrumental free-for-all, the music coalesces around songs. Most of the elements that made Sonic Youth compelling — the alternate tunings, the preternatural guitar clarity, the dada-ish lyrics, the crunch and roar of rock — are in place here. There’s no Kim, obviously, which tips the music a bit further from art punk into testosterone-fueled guitar-dom (check the Hendrix-y solo in monster-rocking “Cantaloupe”), but considering how far afield Moore’s solo records have drifted, this one is remarkably Sonic Youth-like.

“Cantaloupe” is the album’s sludge-y highlight, its distorted guitar/bass chug powering through it like a disconsolate beast, its elliptical poetry abstract and sexual and, hoo boy, that guitar solo. “Siren” trends more towards the luminous clarity of late-SY, its piercing guitar tones laid in lush, lyrical layers atop the hard thump of drums. It’s a long sprawling jam, rolling out in gentle modulations, with a mid-cut freak-out dividing the instrumental first half from a gentler, folk-sung second half. It’s like hearing “The Diamond Sea” lead into a cut from Demolished Thoughts, but it works.

The disc’s longest cut is “Locomotives,” a drone and a jangle anchored by pounding, primitive drums. It’s the sort of piece that comes at you in waves, building and receding, swelling and subsiding, with big space rock climaxes that are full of mysterious electronic sounds (that’s Leidecker, I assume). The cut has a wonderful head-trippy aura, the percussion like a stone age ritual, the mesh of guitar and synthetic sounds glistening with futurism.

There’s quite a lot of music here, some tracks abstract and open-end, others more conventionally song structured, all of it rather good. “They Believe in Love (When They Look at You)” splits the difference nicely, with an extended motorik vamp, a slanting rain of oddly-tuned guitar tones, a visceral gut-check that goes straight to your head, and then, all of the sudden, there’s Moore singing, cool and dispassionate, and what has been anything but a straight-ahead rock song turns into one, just like that.

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One more earlier stage prospect to lately begin the radar is Amgen's AMG 745; although no trials seem ongoing at present the company provides it as a phase I candidate. The medication prevents myostatin, a growth hormonal agent that itself inhibits muscular tissue development. Vicus' VT-122 is an oral mix of propranolol, a non-selective beta adrenergic receptor blocker, and etodolac, a COX2 careful enzyme inhibitor. The firm believes by synergistically targeting multiple paths, cancer-induced systemic swelling can be attentuated and, with any luck, cachexia turned around. A stage II research was begun last December in advanced liver cancer cells patients being treated with Nexavar. The 80-patient research will certainly determine pain, efficiency status as well as lean body mass.

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The body, for that reason, functions as if it is in hunger setting and with this, there is a drastic reduction in the body fat. While lots of steroids in the marketplace might cause bone wastefulness or loss, SARMs will certainly not. They are very selective in their action consequently not most likely to hurt your other tissues.You most likely would not wish to damage your body cells just because you desire others to increase in dimension. That's the reason many individuals that want to boost their performance choose making use of SARMs since they will only alter the tissues that bring about growth in the dimension of bones and muscular tissues. Ostarine or MK-2866 (CAS #) is a research chemical established initially by Merck Inc. and now owned by GTx Inc

LGD-4033is a careful androgen receptor modulator, as well as an unique non-steroidal dental SARM that binds to Androgen Receptors with high affinity and also selectivity. It's in a course ofandrogen receptor ligands that is cells discerning, established to treat muscle wasting connected with cancer, severe as well as persistent illness as well as age-related muscular tissue loss. It is clear to you that all of the above-described activities need significant funds, yet additionally a lot of time as well as job. Low marketing rates are insufficient for producers to return the financial investment.

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. MK-2688 belongs to a class of chemicals known as SARMs or discerning androgen receptor modulators. Contrasted to testosterone, the sex hormonal agent, the benefit of SARMs such as MK-2688 is that they do not have androgenic activity in non-skeletal-muscle cells. MK-2866 is undergoing scientific trials for and might eventually be clinically indicated as well as accepted for prevention of cachexia, atrophy, and also sarcopenia primarily in the elderly as well as unwell populace.

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On issues adverse effects, it is excellent to keep in mind that SARMs come with side effects similar to various other drugs. The SARMs side effects are mild and also will hardly ever affect your day to day activities. To avoid on your own from suffering from extreme side effects ensure that you take the suggested dose with the correct time frame. Among the very best natural supplements that can be made use of together with any kind of SARM to boost gains and recovery is Creatine.

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I would recommend that anabolics aren't detectable for months though, several will certainly have a very comparable time program to ostarine, relying on the dose and also approach of administration. This does highlight the requirement for many years round out of competition screening. Evaluating techniques have actually been developed and reported for these medications, with several professional athletes having actually examined favorable for Andarine. S.A.R.Ms, or selective androgen receptor modulators, are an unique class of molecules that are being established to deal with conditions that are presently being treated with AAS (anabolic-androgenic steroids). Make certain you are completely knowledgeable about what any kind of SARM you prepare to utilize can fully supply. Pay attention to the recommended dosage as well as the timeframe to use it. Begin with the lowest possible dosage, and afterwards slowly raise it if needed.

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Overall survival is expected to be consisted of as a second endpoint, but will likely not be powered or called for to show analytical relevance. " It's not really just putting on weight that you desire, the objective is to include lean muscle mass, and also you additionally need improvements in muscle mass feature. That's the quandary," claims Julian Gilbert, president of Acacia Pharma, which has a product in phase II testing. Presently, only the progesterone treatment Megestrol is removed by regulators to deal with cachexia, when related to HIV.

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Stacking is the procedure where you take numerous kinds of SARMs at the same time to quicken the procedure of bulking, cutting and recovery. SARMs are extremely versatile since you can either choose to utilize them on their own or as part of a stack. along with exercise caused a 50% mitochondrial growth in the muscular tissues, and consequently, the tissues had the ability to produce even more power therefore decreasing exhaustion.

Another earlier stage prospect to just recently come on the radar is Amgen's AMG 745; although no tests appear to be recurring today the company lists it as a phase I candidate. The medicine inhibits myostatin, a development hormonal agent that itself prevents muscle development. Vicus' VT-122 is a dental mix of propranolol, a non-selective beta adrenergic receptor blocker, as well as etodolac, a COX2 selective enzyme prevention. The company believes by synergistically targeting several pathways, cancer-induced systemic swelling can be attentuated and also, ideally, cachexia turned around. A phase II research was started last December in sophisticated liver cancer cells people being treated with Nexavar. The 80-patient study will measure pain, performance status and also lean body mass.

Can Consuming Collagen Quit Skin Ageing?

The body, for that reason, features as if it is in malnourishment setting as well as via this, there is a radical decrease in the body fat. While many steroids in the marketplace may bring about bone wastefulness or loss, SARMs will certainly not. They are really discerning in their action therefore not most likely to hurt your various other tissues.You possibly would not wish to damage your body tissues even if you want others to enhance in dimension. That's the reason many individuals that intend to enhance their performance prefer utilizing SARMs since they will only alter the tissues that result in growth in the size of bones and muscles. Ostarine or MK-2866 (CAS #) is a study chemical developed originally by Merck Inc. and also currently possessed by GTx Inc

LGD-4033is a careful androgen receptor modulator, and also a novel non-steroidal oral SARM that binds to Androgen Receptors with high fondness and also selectivity. It remains in a course ofandrogen receptor ligands that is cells careful, created to treat muscular tissue squandering connected with cancer, severe as well as persistent illness and also age-related muscle loss. It is clear to you that every one of the above-described actions require considerable funds, yet also a lot of time and also job. Reduced selling prices are insufficient for suppliers to return the financial investment.

If Shop Uk alcohol swab continues as visible particles, sonication might prove of help as it boosts the price of dissolution.

Crucially it likewise offers the chance to uncover previously hard to reach biosuperiors.

As a whole, attempt to dissolve peptides in sterile pure water or sterilized water down acetic acid (0.1%) remedy to offer a stock service at a greater concentration than that needed for subsequent usage.

Never ever be without your preferred Boots products with our international delivery options.

If, after sonication, the 'solution' has actually gelled, has a persistent haziness, or has a scum drifting externally, the peptide has most likely not dissolved however is merely finely suspended.

The worldwide peptide therapeutics market is expected to be worth $24 billion by 2020.

In both techniques, the main goal is to protect as much muscle mass as feasible. MK-2866 will certainly aid shield your gains because it is a moderate SARM and also functions well when there is a calorie shortage.

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Just picture what could take place if you went full-bore and were a perfectionist? The only thing I can not do is contrast this to roids - they perhaps better but fuck understands that from as well as what their variation will certainly do! , however I have a regular order with JW Supps due to the fact that, me being human as well as vulnerable to life, these guys aid me with some initiative in the gym, get where I need to be.

It isan excellent medicine for reducing fat and also stay healthy as an athlete. Its everyday use is normally around 10mg for simple recovery from serious ailments or pains. This kind of pure SARMs prevents testosterone that has a lot more anabolic attributes than testosterone itself. People using this pure SARMs has a tendency to dose twice a day, however it is not suggested for the initial users due to the fact that excess usage might establish side effect. In no question, pure SARMs are splendidly made, and the item has been validated by medical professionals to reduce muscle mass or bone pain, mind problems, aggressiveness, and also even cancers. Do not be surprised that various systems can point out a range of functions that this approach provides. This is because; the significance and also benefits to the body system can not be overemphasized.

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As the name suggests, SARMs have the capability to pick the particular receptors they are going to bind to. This is a substantial impact when it pertains to remaining healthy and balanced and feeling your ideal while taking such products. You do not have to accept turmoil and negative thoughts within the mind and body so as to get the advantages you desire. The 2nd significant benefit is they do not featured a long listing of dangerous negative effects. It is motivating when you can obtain benefits for your body as well as your mind with SARMs, as well as not have to be excessively worried regarding the damaging components. Peptides function by making changes to the human endocrine system, which includes the pancreas, ovaries, testes, thyroid as well as various other hormone producing glands. Modifications to this system can have extremely serious results in relation to human development, growth as well as reproductive systems.

This is utilized off-label in cancer individuals, as well as works by enhancing cravings. Steroids are likewise utilized, to develop muscular tissue, yet neither of these therapies promotes reliable development of well operating muscle-- a large obstacle for any treatment. The loss of muscle mass as well as fat can damage an individual to such an extent that the cachexia is the cause of death in several cancer individuals-- up to 20% according to some quotes. It likewise leaves patients less able to eliminate the underlying disease and endure chemotherapy, or various other cancer killing representatives, along with increasingly obstructing day-to-day activities. With PMag the beginning of crazy pumps is fairly fast but no such thing was experienced with LGD. I got approx 5kg mass (fat+ muscle mass) on Pmag as well as have actually not discovered any kind of such body make-up distinction with LGD.

I started taking these and also I might see gains being made after the initial week. I have actually attempted afew sarms currently and also saw the best gains on these for certain. I do not typically create evaluations and this website does not seem to reward when you do, not an issue, however I have found these reviews helpful to for my very own ends so wished to share the love. Gents, go down the representatives, up the weight and keep the rest periods traditional yet sincere.

. MK-2688 belongs to a class of chemicals called SARMs or selective androgen receptor modulators. Compared to testosterone, the sex hormone, the advantage of SARMs such as MK-2688 is that they do not have androgenic task in non-skeletal-muscle cells. MK-2866 is going through medical tests for and might become medically shown and also accepted for avoidance of cachexia, degeneration, and also sarcopenia primarily in the elderly and also ill populace.

Do humans have antimicrobial peptides?

On issues negative effects, it is good to note that SARMs featured side effects much like various other medications. The SARMs negative effects are light and will hardly ever influence your daily activities. To stop on your own from dealing with serious side effects ensure that you take the advised dosage with the correct time frame. Among the most effective all-natural supplements that can be used along with any kind of SARM to increase gains and recovery is Creatine.

It was discovered by Yuichito Kanno, as well as it is one of the very best SARMs since it is very helpful in weight loss and also obtaining muscle mass without dealing with severe negative effects like liver damages or high blood pressure. Minimize body fat-If you aim at shedding body fat, then SARMs will certainly assist you to burn it in various means. These products boost the body to break down the fat cells with the aim of producing energy.

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favorite thing about them: His personality. I am always amused by his post-teen testosterone fueled attitude that is really a mask for his emo ‘lets save the humans’ angst. (personality, for me, enhances sex appeal so thats why i didn’t say the obvious answer which would be his abs. Abs have to be attacked to someone cool. Saitama has abs and I rarely take interest in him)

least favorite thing about them: Sorry, but his horn hair. I’m not into the super saiyan look anymore. Quietly hoping when his monster form is shattered he really will have shorter hair.

favorite line: “You’re tellin’ me to grow a pair of horns, or somethin’?” Because it’s a nod for people who read the webcomic.

brOTP: Saitama. The way things appeared during their fight, it seemed a little like Saitama could end up being sort of a mentor to Garou at some point. Saitama called him sweet and didn’t sense any evil in him, and probably knew he was just misguided. And maybe he could take an interest in Garou’s “monster hobby” being like his hero hobby. They seem like the two main characters (or Garou being the secondary main) and Garou had no choice but to submit to Saitama’s vast superiority, so a vendetta wouldn’t be necessary. Although Garou might not care for Saitama’s interest in being a hero for fun rather than saving the world for justice and might not think he deserves that power.

OTP: Fubuki/Garou. Even though this is similar to Badd/Garou (see below) in that they haven’t interacted besides some violent and frightening encounters during the MA, we know both of them pretty well, and I think they could connect based on their similarities. I have no idea in the slightest how Garou is around women, but I have a feeling based on how he is with kids that he wouldn’t be aggressive. A lot of garouxreader fics out there that think differently, but w/e. Fubuki, although beautiful and perfect and popular, is a weak psychic, and I think that matters to her more than her popularity status. She does flaunt it around, but probably because she wants others to see that instead of her weakness. She is second best, no matter how hard she tries, and that’s basically Garou all over. Garou has just recently found out he’s not going to ever get his dream of being the highest being, so now he could understand Fubuki’s lifetime perspective. They’re stuck just below the alphas. And I’ll just say this, from my personal opinion, out of all the characters, male or female, she’d look the hottest draped all over him. Next closest is Sonic. That’s not true for everyone but this is my ask so I can say what I want.

nOTP: Badd/Garou. Sorry I get that it’s popular but I don’t know why, and that’s mostly why I don’t like it. It’s just kind of annoying, like that shocked pikachu meme. They don’t know each other, we’ve barely seen any of Badd’s backstory or how he could connect with Garou emotionally, their only interaction was a battle to establish a growth in Garou’s power, and all Batrou fan content is out of character and way too fluffy. It just doesn’t make sense to me and also I see so much of it in the Garou tag. When you see a ship you’re indifferent to constantly being zapped into your eyes, at some point it becomes psychological torture (not that I’m bothered enough by it that I’d leave the Garou tag, there’s some damn fine content in there). Tbh it almost feels like it’s just a fantasy ship where they’re only slapped together because of age similarity or something 🤔 That’s just my feelings on the matter anyway.

random headcanon: His mom died, possibly recently, and his dad is a drunk who beats him. I'm sorry but I never imagined him having a stable home life.

unpopular opinion: I sometimes think Saitama might end up a villain somehow and Garou could be the one to stop him. Maybe not physically but he just seems like too significant a character and kind of an opposite to Saitama that it would make more sense for Saitama to be weakened in another way by him. I don’t know how, it’s just a headcanon that is very unpopular.

song i associate with them: Korn - “Thoughtless″. I don’t care that it’s not 2003 anymore.

favorite picture of them:

I know I’m not alone here.

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Title: “Ford v Ferrari”

Release date: Nov. 15, 2019

Starring: Matt Damon, Christian Bale, Jon Bernthal, Caitriona Balfe, Tracy Letts, Josh Lucas, Noah Jupe, Remo Girone, Ray McKinnon, J.J. Feild

Directed by: James Mangold

Run time: 2 hours, 32 minutes

Rated: PG-13

What it’s about: Based on a true story, car builder Carroll Shelby and driver Ken Miles get the backing of Ford to challenge the auto racing dominance of Ferrari in the 1960s.

How I saw it: “Ford v Ferrari,” a big, testosterone-fueled, engrossing and fun drama that seems a bit of a throwback to a different Hollywood era, has more than one “v” in it.

Yes, it is about “Ford v Ferrari.” In the 1960s, Enzo Ferrari’s cars were setting records and dominating races like the 24 Hours of Le Mans. Ford, which was in a market-share battle with GM in the U.S. and churning out largely unexciting vehicles, wanted to merge with Ferrari and have the final say-so on his racing program. When that offer did not go over well and Ferrari insulted Henry Ford II and his cars, the automaker enlisted the help of Texan-turned-Californian car designer Carroll Shelby (Matt Damon) and his favorite driver/mechanical mastermind, British-born Ken Miles (Christian Bale). The goal: Beat Ferrari at its own game. And they did.

But the film also is about “Renegade Car Guys v Corporate Suits.” Shelby was a shrewd businessman first and foremost, a man with a way with words, and an independent sportscar builder. He also was all about being the best and could be as abrasive as he was relentless. Miles was gifted in the ways of the automobile, but he was even more off-putting than Shelby, was too honest for his own good and, of the most concern to Ford, not a team player or people person. Ford (Tracy Letts) and his yes men were more concerned with Ford’s image and bottom line, and the car builder sought most of the credit for whatever Shelby and Miles accomplished. Shelby and Miles often locked horns with Ford executives, especially Leo Beebe (Josh Lucas), who is the heavy here, and they did so right to the end, the final laps of Ford’s conquering of Le Mans.

As Miles, Bale spends much of the movie inside the Ford-powered cars, and with much of the focus on him, “Ford v Ferrari” becomes “Miles v the World” and “Miles v Himself.” Miles was a brilliant driver, one that Shelby fought hard for when Ford wanted to replace him with more marketable men (Ford won out for a while, until Shelby made a bet with Ford that hinged on Miles winning the 24 Hours of Daytona). But Miles could not get along with anyone (he rubbed Beebe the wrong way the moment they met), and that hurt him as a businessman (the IRS seizes his auto repair shop) and nearly cost him his opportunity with Shelby. Then, in the climactic scene as the finish is nearing at Le Mans, Miles realizes he has vanquished the competition, but that he can’t vanquish himself. One of the best moments in “Ford v Ferrari” is when Miles is in his racecar and must decide between being stubborn and selfish in the name of personal victory or proving he can be part of a winning team and share in the credit. He was an unhappy man who thought victory would bring him happiness, but it didn’t, at least not right away.

“Ford v. Ferrari” also can be viewed as “Men in the 1960s v Men Today.” The film is unabashedly a throwback story about men, the friendship between two men (Shelby and Miles), men and their love of machines, men and competition (on the track and in corporate boardrooms), and men and money (Ford has a lot of it but obviously wants more). The only significant woman in “Ford v Ferrari” is Miles’ wife, Mollie (Caitriona Balfe), and though her relationship with her husband is the best side story of the movie, she is typical of wives in the 1960s – supportive, understanding, remarkably patient and mostly in the background. Young viewers might not recognize the old-fashioned kind of masculinity on display in “Ford v Ferrari,” and if they do, they might not like it. This is men being men, or at least men being men the way men used to be men.

Bale is, of course, outstanding as Miles, though the film probably could have used a few less in-car shots of him and his running dialogue with himself (“Ford v Ferrari” checks in at just over 2-1/2 hours). He and Damon make for a good team even when their characters are clashing. Ray McKinnon stands out among the supporting cast as Phil Remington, an engineer who worked for Shelby. Balfe and Noah Jupe as the Miles’ young son provide nice breathers from all the machismo. Director James Mangold (“Walk the Line,” “Logan,” “Girl, Interrupted”) keeps the action and drama moving, and the racing scenes are high-impact visually and sonically.

Is “Ford v Ferrari” a bit of a formulaic underdog story? Yes. Is it difficult to embrace the lead characters, Shelby and Miles? Yes. Does it go on a little too long? Yes.

Is it an outstanding film, one that many different types of moviegoers will find entertaining and at times cheer-worthy and moving? An emphatic yes.

My score: 91 out of 100

Should you see it? Yes. Even those who are not car buffs should enjoy the drama and action.

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I am writing this letter to you to request your cooperation regarding the recovery of the Southern Resident Killer Whales. As of September 2017, this population has dropped to a dangerous low of just 77 individuals and they show very few signs of recovery at this point in time.

On September 13, 2017, aerial images captured under NMFS permit #19091 showed a 2-year old juvenile male - J52 “Sonic” - displaying what is known as “peanut head”, a condition resulting from severely diminished fat deposits behind the head, indicative of advanced starvation. Prior to J52 returning to the Salish Sea in such poor condition, several other individuals have disappeared or been found dead in similar condition. In 2016, seven whales were declared to be deceased - including the iconic J2 “Granny”, as well as adult female J28 “Polaris”, and her 10-month old calf, J54 “Dipper”.

Their main prey, chinook salmon, have also been struggling to maintain their numbers for well over 20 years. The Columbia River Inter-Tribal Fish Commission states, historically, the Columbia River basin once produced between 10 to 16 million salmon annually, with more than 13,000 miles of habitat at their disposal. Both their habitat, as well as the number of salmon, have decreased significantly within the past 120 years between 1890 and 2011.

As of 2010, just over 485,000 chinook salmon were reported to be in the Salish Sea by the Pacific Salmon Commission. This is a 60% reduction in the abundance of chinook salmon since the Pacific Salmon Commission began tracking salmon data in 1984. While there has been a 30% increase in the number of spawning salmon since 1999, for species such as the Southern Residents - whose diet consists of at least 78% chinook salmon - the low return of fish to the Salish Sea is not good news for them or their long-term survival.

Research and scale samples indicate that the Southern Residents are especially reliant on early spring runs, as well as winter runs of chinook that stem from the Upper Columbia & Snake River. NOAA Fisheries has stated that the decrease in salmon stocks in the Columbia-Snake River basin has been one of the single greatest changes in food availability for the whales since the late 1800s.

Not only can prey depletion lead to poor body condition or even death caused by starvation; it can also be attributed to the low number of births, as well as the high mortality rates among neonate calves. A report put together by the SeaDoc Society explored this subject, concluding that poor body condition in Southern Residents is associated with the loss of fetuses, calves, and adults. They note that the causes of this are complex, but food availability is one of the major contributing stressors in the decline of this population.

Part of this report included results from aerial photogrammetry studies, which provides valuable data regarding the body condition of individual animals. Measuring the width of the head as an indicator of head fatness (Eye Patch Ratio, EPR) sets a starting point for researchers to more closely monitor the health of an individual, based on whether they experience increases or decreases in EPR over time. From September 2015 to May 2016, five of six animals had declines in EPR. From May to September 2016, three animals experienced increases in EPR over the summer, while three experienced decreases. All three animals that experienced continued declines in the summer of 2016 died. A multi-year study from 2007 to 2014 - conducted by researchers from the Center for Conservation Biology at the University of Washington, along with partners from the National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration's Northwest Fisheries Science Center, and the Center for Whale Research - also concluded that prey depletion is the most immediate threat to the survival and subsequent growth of the Southern Residents.

Fecal samples collected from the whales allowed researchers to study the levels of different hormones that play key roles in physiological stress responses, including glucocorticoid and thyroid hormones. The levels of both hormones allowed researchers to differentiate between stress due to poor nutrition and stress due to external responses, such as boat traffic. Levels of progesterone and testosterone were also used to determine the reproductive state of females. They were even able to determine whether a pregnant female was in the early or later stages of pregnancy. Using this data and the date of collection, along with calf sightings, they were able to determine whether each pregnancy was successful.

The hormone data was able to detect 35 unique pregnancies among Southern Resident females between 2007 and 2014. In total, only 11 females gave birth and were later seen with a calf. In the remaining 24 cases (69% of total pregnancies), no live calf was subsequently seen, indicating that the pregnancies had failed. While most cases likely ended in spontaneous abortion during the first half of gestation, hormone levels indicated that in one-third of pregnancies the calf was lost in the latter half of pregnancy, or moments after birth. These are times at which the mother has already invested significant resources and is at a higher risk of infection or complications when the pregnancy fails. It was also noted that these females showed signs of nutritional stress, with ratios of thyroid hormone relative to glucocorticoid hormone nearly seven times lower than females who successfully gave birth.

When the team compared their hormone data to records of salmon runs in the Columbia and Fraser Rivers, they saw that large runs at these watersheds coincided with lower nutritional stress, while poor runs at either site showed signs of elevated nutritional stress.

While it would not immediately bring salmon numbers back up, removing the Ice Harbor Dam, Lower Monumental Dam, Little Goose Dam, and Lower Granite dam would provide a critical boost to salmon species - such as providing access to over 140 miles of high-quality habitat and spawning grounds. Evidence of how quickly a river can recover and begin to thrive from the removal of man-made obstacles, such as dams, is not hard to find.

On September 17, 2011, the removal of the Elwha Dam began and in six months, it was gone. In 2014, the Glines Canyon Dam was removed, making the Elwha a free flowing river once again. After being absent for nearly a century, salmon species have already returned to the river. Chinook, coho, and chum salmon have seen a spike in their numbers, as have bull trout and steelhead. This can likely be attributed to the removal of the dams opening up access to over 70 miles of mainstream and tributary habitat, as well as the speed at which the water moves. Dams create slow-moving lakelike habitats in the impounded section of the river that significantly alters the species composition of the river. Species that are well-adapted to lakes may begin to flourish and thrive in the river, which often results in the displacement of riverine species. The Snake River is an example of this, as the slow pace of the river has encouraged salmonoid predators to increase in density. Slower moving waters also become warmer, which results in increased mortality of species that prefer colder temperatures.

Not only do dams cause harm to the river and its inhabitants, the Snake River Dams [specifically] are outdated and provide little benefit to the northwest in terms of energy production. The Northwest Power and Conservation Council has stated that the northwest has an electrical generation surplus, and can meet expected increases in demand possibly through 2030. A study commissioned by Idaho Rivers United concludes that the Pacific Northwest only runs at approximately 84% capacity with 4,600 annual megawatts of surplus energy. The Snake River Dams only bring in approximately 1,000 aMW’s.

In addition, the use of the lower Snake River to transport goods by barge has decreased by approximately 70% since 2000; and container shipments from the Port of Lewiston had dropped by 82% by early April 2015 - and 100% by late April 2015. Instead, freight shipments are increasingly being transported by rail due to bridge improvements, better fuel efficiency, as well as construction projects such as a unit train loader at the Port of Lewiston.

The cost to maintain these dams continues to rise as the dams age, with estimates reaching as high as $312.9 million per year as of 2015 (estimates from DamSense). In addition, more than $15 billion has been spent on salmon recovery projects - though none of the endangered salmon species have recovered; in fact, their numbers continue to decline. Contrasting the astronomical costs of maintaining the dams and failed salmon recovery projects, the San Juan Islands Visitors Bureau states that in 2014, tourism in San Juan County brought in over $189 million. The whale watch industry in Washington also brings in between $60 to $75 million per year; an industry that relies heavily upon the Southern Resident Orcas.

As previously stated, the breaching of the dams will not immediately restore salmon runs to historical numbers, though it will provide a critical boost needed to begin their recovery. The Southern Residents face other threats to their survival, but prey depletion has been the most immediate threat to them for many years. If the recovery of critical prey species is not taken more seriously, we could lose the Southern Residents, and many other species, forever.

Sincerely, [name of sender]

P.S. During the time it took to gather information, formulate this letter, and send it, the Center for Whale Research officially declared J52 “Sonic” to be deceased as of September 24, 2017 after he had not been seen with his familial pod since September 19th; approximately six days after his return to the Salish Sea in emaciated condition. The Southern Residents now number just 76 individuals, and the fact remains that their numbers will continue to drop unless immediate action is taken to improve their quality of life and ensure their survival. This beloved and iconic population is out of time and can not wait on us any longer.

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