#sometimes at random times of the day I will think about pran (and pat)

[dropthedemiurge]

Writing Pattern challenge!

Rules: Post the line(s) from your last 10 posted fics and see if there's a pattern^^

Tagged by @ullvide, thank you, it was fun to pay attention to it xD

1. Yeowoon is still seeing random notifications popping up in front of his face but they don't appear too often. [Mission: Make Tae Myungha happy.] (Calculating Tae Myungha's Happiness... Love for Love's Sake, Myungha/Yeowoon)

2. Yok was prepared for many surprises in his life, but Black willingly appearing in his home wasn't one of them. (Be my (stubborn) canvas, Not Me, Yok/| Black)

3. Colored as lavender, cotton candy melted in his mouth and squeaked on his teeth, which in turn made his joy so cheerful and sincere. (Dream Wrapped in Gold, Last Twilight Mhok/Day)

4. Their bar looked lively today, despite the shitty mood Korn was in. He stared down at the glass – precisely, at the shards of the glass that had scattered around the floor, – and wanted to break something more. Or break down himself. (Magnetic Hearts, Bad Buddy, Pat/Pran/Korn/Wai)

5. White and black pixels ran through the surface of the dark-mint colored wall and disappeared in the window crack in the matter of a blink. Yok tapped the augmented reality glasses – sitting on his nose and putting a heavy weight onto his ears – in frustration. (Augmented, Not Me, Yok, Gram, Todd, Black)

6. Boston sees snow for the first time in his life. And feels too fucking cold. (Free Spirit, Only Friends, Boston/Nick/Dan)

7. Being called Ray fucking sucks. He doesn't feel like a ray of sunshine. He doesn't feel like he resembles the sun at all. No one revolves or stays around him, everybody eventually leaves despite his desperate attempts to make the gravity work. (Name of a Dying Star, Only Friends, Sand/Ray)

8. Nick runs up the stairs and swings the door to his apartment open, keys joyfully clanking in his fingers. He doesn't want to waste a minute of this wonderful evening, but he needs to stop by their house and grab some– Their apartment is eerily quiet. (Capturing the sight of a broken soul, Only Friends, Nick & Sand, Boston & Sand)

9. I will hold you while you mourn your broken heart until you feel alive again. "So… Ray and Mew, huh?" (Hold the sand with care so it won't fall apart, Only Friends, Nick/Sand)

10. Sky didn't like to feel so tense. Sometimes the ongoing days just had to be like this – burdensome, itchy, looming over Sky's head for no reason. (Icy droplets peltering against the skin, Love in the Air, Sky/Rain)

I'm not sure if there are certain patterns: I jumped in the middle of action/description sometiems, also dropped the very metaphor of the fic right in the beginning a couple of times... I guess I'm just trying to make them not boring - because they used to be, and I think most of my latest examples are quite successful. At least, by my low standards xD

(and also I had to skip like 3-4 last fics and find another for #10 because writing so many missed scenes and aus about only friends and niche pairings was getting embarrassing lol)

I still want to learn how to make great openings. Because I think I'm better with impactful endings instead, but that's a theme for another challenge :D

If you wonder who I'm tagging to do the same - I'm tagging YOU. I know tou want to do it, yes, go ahead!

[dribs-and-drabbles]

Pran ‘the warrior’ Parakul OUR beloved

#ASK ME HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM #i want to go all meta abt this nickname bc to me it's so much more than he can hold his own in a fight (though we know he can) #he's bold #he holds himself together on his own #he's confrontational #he's built a wall around his mind and his heart #he goes after what he wants #and wai LISTENS to him when he's told to back off (even when he doesn't want to) #he stands his ground #despite his fear despite the unknowns despite what he's been through #pran is a fighter through and through - @casualavocados

#he's so young but so brave 🥺🥺 #ive said this before already #but pat is just fearless and bold #he doesn't know fear not the way pran does #pran having seen it all still pushes forward #thinking of him in ep 11 makes my chest ache so so fucking much #how guilty he must feel about abandoning his mother after what he said and later heard #how terrified he must be to think of what'll happen when he returns #but for pat just for pat he bottles it all up and braves thru #for pat he pushes his anxieties aside quiets his mind #for pat he climbs above his fears #and then in the last scene pat's crying #pat's crying and pran who's faced the consequences of daring to reach out to pat before stands there smiling for him #like pat held himself together in the prev ep for pran #pran pulls himself together to give pat that same comfort #when it must have been so so much harder standing right in front of where it all started #im sorry about ranting in the tags this just invokes so much. emotion. in me - @transpat

#i love pran so much hes my comfort character and im so happy to see this gifset #he’s a fighter and a lover and i didnt know i could love him any more than i already do #hes so brave #hes quiet but explosive at the same time if that makes any sense #he doesn’t need to take up all the space in the room to make his feelings known when he wants it to be known #he picks and chooses when he wants to assert himself #his tiny braveries mean everything to me bc im the same way i think #he just feels very close to my heart :( #hes my lil bub - @gemxvi

#look how he swags up on the love of his life to say 'you asshole' #that's my whole son right there #good lord #i just got hit w such a wave of missing him 🥺🥺 - @icouldhyperfixatehim

#I love this person so much ;___; my dearest pran #wish he was real so I could give him a hug and tell him how brave he's been bc I know how hard it must've been for him to #conquer his fears and anxiety and go against his parents' wishes and choose himself and his love for pat - @soulmates7

#fourth gif is such an underrated pran moment for me #bc hes been so soft over pat and feels guilt towards everyone he SHOULD fight like wai and his mom #bc they have emotional baggage over him #but its the one time we get to see a glimpse of how pran could easily lose his temper for pat if he wasnt constantly controlling himself #i love that moment #its also the only fallout we have for the pat's feelings are hurt scene :( - @miscellar

#king behavior - @socoolpran

#a warrior in every sense of the word #he’s so brave and strong and fierce #and he isn’t afraid to stand up for himself and others #i just…love him a lot - @pranpats

#this set perfectly encapsulates one of my favorite things about him #i love him so much i want to eat glass - @pranparakul

#'is it my job to be responsible for your feelings' was the absolute emotional culmination in bad buddy for me #the turning point of their relationship #both pat and pran's relationship and pran and his mom's #the moment when pran truly chose to fight for what he wanted #personal favorites - @jazaa

#ahhhh #this is making me feel so much #my precious darling #he made the choice to fight for what he believes and what he wants at the right time #you deserve all the happiness - @yiling-recesses

#thats my boy #💕💕💕💕 - @noxclara

[jemmo]

it's not an ask but some idea or observation that i want to see if you noticed too. it's about the wife/husband scene in the hospital with pran and pat talking about the terms. when i was first watching i really felt like it was long coming and when pat said he was confused and it was not serious for him i believed that too no question. it was that scene at episode 3,,my beloved,, at the bus stop that really shows you both of their sides but on a more lighter level. at the time it was airing lots of viewers were questioning why would p'aof use these terms and others were pointing to the way pat switched the terms over and even said we're two boyfriends. at the time and with the two few other times it'd come up i felt like this all was building up towards something and that the series still didn't deliver its point. it was so beautiful to see not only the discussion but that it already had foot in the story and you did see both of their povs from the very beginning. how pran didn't like this really and how also you totally believe pat didn't see past the fun or playing around of it. just appreciating the craft behind writing pat and pran.

thank you so much dear anon for pointing this out to me bc thinking about it now, i too also really appreciate how this specific point was built up to through the whole series. also sorry it took me a while to respond but i have some tuff i do wanna say about this bc it brought to light some things i hadn't thought about before. bc the thing is, while yes this was poking a bit of fun at the kinda tired out husband and wife trope in bl and also raising it as a topic for discussion, it didn't at all feel preachy to me.

(editing jess (yes im editing this) just to say this became something else, i discuss some stuff about society and media and go on many tangents hence the read more bc i feel like some ppl dont care about this stuff. and this is all just me ranting, my thoughts, im no professional, and dont know shit so take from it what you want)

i dont want to get too deep with this bc i am in no way the kind of person to have the final say on these things, but i watch way too many video essayist on youtube while knitting for hours talking about the kinda 'state of play' of this whole internet culture we're in, and i find it interesting to look at. bc i think there's this thing with what i'll lovingly term 'wokeism' that it provides a sense of superiority. ppl online or even when talking person to person in these kinds of spaces can often make themselves feel better than others, wiser, more aware and understanding bc they were able to pint out 'well actually that thing is problematic' or 'actually you cant say something like that' or 'that isnt socially acceptable anymore'. and that can be fine, bc at the end of the day you are making other people more aware, but you can't lie that it sometimes makes you feel good to know i'm better than all these other people who haven't fixed their problematic views. and this is one of the things that contribute to leftist spaces being demonised bc they jump on everything every word every term, they all have to be politically correct. you know the classic 'you cant say anything these days bc some randomer on twitter might come from nowhere and attack you for saying the wrong thing'. and thats the thing i wanna focus on. it comes from nowhere. and applying that to media, thats why some of these shows that claim progressive ideals can feel performative bc a statement that basically boils down to 'feminism is cool' or 'trans ppl are ok' just seems to come from left field. bc then ppl that are more closed minded watching that media are less likely to be receptive to those ideas, bc they're just being chucked at them.

what bad buddy does with this whole husband and wife thing, and on a larger scale with the whole feud being a perfect metaphor for queer experience, is they integrate their messages so so so well into the story so that its much more invisible when they're being made, and yet they're so much easier to take in, so much more digestible for the audience bc they aren't outright, one time only messages. they're part of the story, they're woven throughout, they're in the theming. and when the show makes you care about its characters and plot then weaves in these ideas, you kinda take to them without a second thought. like when i watched that hospital scene of pran saying he doesn't care for the label, i was just like 'lol yeah that is kinda dumb why should they have to use those words'. what i did not think was 'wtf where has this come from why is there suddenly this psa on the husband and wide labels in my fluffy hospital scene???'. you see??? and thats bc little nuggets of this message had been placed throughout the story. think ep 3 our beloved. the scene is playful and yet we still get a clear message pran doesn't want he's not comfortable with feminine labels. and its not some big song and dance, the word 'PROGRESSIVE' isnt written in lights behind them. its just a dude making his preference known, and thats totally cool. also in this scene we get one of countless displays of green flag pat being comfortable 'playing a woman'. and again, we dont need the words 'fuck toxic masculinity' to be tattooed across pat's forehead. bc its not purely about pat being that way to combat that issue. yes there's an element of pat being that way to go against toxic masculinity, but again its not performative. its just pat. its the way he is, its part of his character, its developed naturally from his personality. it fits. it isn't a psa being stuffed where it doesn't fit. this isnt trying to fit the triangle into the round hole. its a triangle already being in the triangle hole.

and i could go on and on, about this thing and that thing that is handled in a similar way. i could be like yeah the mention the wife thing at the start of ep5 and in ep9 in pran's room. but we all know that. what i do wanna still say is that i love that its such a non issue. its a non issue as in pran has dismissed this before but not felt the need to raise it any further bc its not like he despises it and more so he knows pat doesn't have any real ill intention behind it. as we hear later, he's saying it just bc he thought it was the thing to say. he thinks i wanna be closer to pran and i already call him my boyfriend, so what else can i say to show we're closer than that. but when pat's said it a couple of times, pran takes the opportunity to just be like btw im not really cool with that its not my vibe so yeah. and he doesn't bring it up with any heat, he's not attacking pat. he's not even outright saying the words 'i dont like this label. pls stop'. and still you can read all that even when he starts the conversation with a jokey vibe and uses their established dynamic of teasing each other to make pat understand why he doesn't like it. and then they both laugh, bc at the end of the day it was just dumb. they were trying to do this thing that society told them was the thing to do in relationships but it wasn't working so they don't need it. they don't need dumb, kinda outdated and gendered words just to prove to the world they're close. they know how close they are, and thats enough for them. and at the end of the day, isn't that what queer people have always been doing?? saying fuck what society wants me to do, i'm gonna live my life according to my own terms. i don't need your meaningless milestones routed in heterosexual relationships to validate my relationships. as long as me and my partner are on the same page and happy with that, i dont need anything else.

and let me end with saying that if ppl like these terms or ppl like seeing couples in bl use these terms, that doesn't make them dumb, or behind the times or problematic. some ppl just like stuff. and let me also state that the husband and wife labels do not have to be any comment on tops or bottoms. first of all, those terms are similarly tired out but also fine to use if you vibe with them. but a wife does not equal a bottom. and a wife does not equal the feminine one, or the one that does traditionally feminine things. and i would so love to see bl tackle this. bc a top can be a big strong man but also want to be called a wife, just as a bottom can do the cooking but also want to be called a husband. and switching does exist. and i so get switch vibes from like everyone in bad buddy bc thats what ppl are like. they can change what they like to do, dont put them in a box. and i love this kinda meeting place between these two kinds of labels. bc a rejection of husband and wife demands you to acknowledge that this is two men in this relationship (and it also kinda goes against this whole self-insertion thing that bl started out with as a female written and focused thing where you had a defined wife/bottom character that you could replace yourself with), and a lack of any outright top and bottom coding takes you away from this fascination ppl have with sexual positions. bc at the end of the day, why does it fucking matter?? if you like it one way or the other thats cool, but thats not something we should have to broadcast to the world. and nor should it be what you fixate on for characters. if theyre gonna be intimate, care more about the emotions and connection, nots what being put where. intimacy isn't a matter of someone giving and someone recieving, its coming together. and thats not to say it has to always be so emo, sometimes you just wanna do stuff. but even then, what goes where, it aint all that important.

basically tl;dr labels can be cool or not, its all up to personal preference and thats every individuals right. bad buddy knows how to share its messages without slapping you across your face with their 'wokeness' and then patting themselves on the back for ticking off something on their representation list. awesome writing. awesome messages. they're actually fostering nuanced discussion of these things. p'aof i love you.