#soft hours with heidi ♡

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alright look….…..i know that jay is often nicknamed jaycaprio for his resemblance to 90s leo…….but in MY opinion, he’s giving 90s shahrukh khan vibes waayyy more. and NO im nawt just saying this coz im desi 😭💀 any desi engenes here?🥺👉🏼👈🏼 but genuinely coz he’s soooo similar to him in many ways???!?!?? 🥺

jay is soooo srk-coded!???? 😭 it’s insane. he has the dark, elegant, sexy mysteriousness srk exudes. they’re both known for their immense intelligence, humbleness, and their 4d sense of humor. they’re both known for their duality of being fun mood makers…but also quiet, reflective individuals.

and im not even gonna lie when I say i lowkey see some of srk’s characters in him too 💀 rahul in k3g, raj in ddlj……LMAO!! and some of his villainous roles too ngl🙈

also…..i probs sound SUPER unhinged for saying this but I also think he simultaneously looks like both srk AND aryan…. and it’s killing me. 😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣

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sitarist jay (drabble)

genre: fluff

pairing: jay x gn south asian!reader

word count: 610

warnings: none

A/N: in honor of all the holidays coming up (holi, vaisakhi, ramadan/eid, etc.), AND also my srk x jay post that sparked desi enha discourse, this one goes out to all my desi engenes!!!! 🫶🏼 happy holi!!!! happy vaisakhi a month in advance. and a ramadan mubarak to those who celebrate.

soft desi engene hours. could u just IMAGINE sitarist!jay and dholi!you!?!??? 🥺

jay is grateful to have a lover who hails from such a gorgeous, rich culture that spans millennia. and as any connoisseur of culture would say - music isn’t just part of culture….it is culture. he’s been playing guitar for many years now. and he wants to venture out into other stringed instruments. and what better way than learning the sitar?

jay enjoys the calming, soulful, and twangy sound of the sitar. it sends him into a trance and he feels completely immersed in a different world. despite it being “different” from what he’s done before, he believes that the language of music is universal - one felt within the heart first and foremost.

he holds a deep reverence for south asian music. be it nusrat fateh ali khan, kishore kumar, mohammed rafi, noor jehan, or asha bhosle, he feels the timeless, evergreen spirit of such compositions pulse within his soul.

watching him learn the sitar is an endearing sight. ethereal even! seeing the level of dedication he has towards mastering such an art form warms your heart. he wants to learn bhajans, shabads, and ghazals for you. all he wants in life is to express his love for you through music. just chillin’ in his kurtas with the sleeves rolled up and his sitar by his side, showing you the ravi shankar songs he’s learned so far.

on the other hand, he too admires you for your passion for percussion. jay loves your appreciation towards the different types of dhol. he fawns over the euphoric feeling you get when hitting every thappi and tiparu and the way you chant your DHAs and DHINs while doing so. jay also appreciates the way you treat your dagga and tilli sticks like they’re your babies. he loves the swingy sound of dhol beats and the swagger you exude while you play.

jay sometimes gets annoyed when you pester him with the sound of your loud ass dhol while he’s peacefully and calmly practicing his sitar. but he knows it’s out of love and good fun. it’s the desi equivalent of the percussionist kids in band disrupting the ones who play the wind and brass instruments. antics aside, jay appreciates the lively spirit and camaraderie that comes with these musical clashes, cherishing the shared moments of cultural exchange and musical banter.

in the end, these musical escapades become cherished memories, shaping jay’s musical journey with a touch of spontaneity and joy. the blend of dhol and sitar, once seemingly contrasting, transforms into a celebration of diversity within your shared love for music. as the two of you continue your artistic pursuits, jay realizes that the moments of lighthearted banter and cultural exchange have added a special rhythm to the soundtrack of your relationship - one of seismic adoration.

with each note played and every shared laugh echoing in the air, jay acknowledges that your artistic pursuits have not only strengthened your musical connection with each other, but have also deepened your bond with him. the rhythm of seismic adoration encompasses the highs and lows, much like the crescendos and decrescendos in your collaborative performances. through the language of music, your relationship thrives, creating a symphony of understanding, support, and shared passion that resonates far beyond the notes of your instruments.

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ITS SOUTHEAST ASIAN ANON here

this is why he’s southeast asian coded:

a) his naturally sexy tanned almost olive toned skin it’s like he lives in the tropics okay !!

b) every time he comes to SEA, most recently jakarta/singapore/philippines he’s just been a total and complete hottie and suits the vibe

c) his facial features are asian but they’re not east asian ??/!: i can’t explain it like even his baby photos

ooooh that’s really interesting! yaaaasssss i totes agree with u on a and b!!! 🥰 he looks like a living, walking exotic vacation ☺️☺️ I love his gorgeous, glowing, dusky skin soooo much and always get AGGRAVATED whenever it gets whitewashed by k-fansites and press. but that’s a story for another day daaahhhlliinggss….😴

and yea i def get u on c!!!! 🤣 his features translate well into many diff races LOL! we stan a mixed race ICON!!!! his beauty transcends borders…..

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random soft rambling

you know…….🧐……i think i have a type when it comes to my biases…………jay is such a prime example of this.

i often think about how people say he resembles got7’s jb (who just so happens to be my got7 bias AND a former ult of mine during my ahgase days). and i TOTALLY see it omg……….

and as a diehard nu’est stan, i always thought he reminded me of minhyun. the soft, elegant gentleman vibes & the nerdiness. they’re both known for their regal presence and make headlines for their effortless chic vibes no matter what they wear. both of them are highly intelligent and have an insatiable thirst for knowledge. they both love to cook, clean and do all the house chores. they both have the tendency to be seen as calm, cool and collected at first impression, only to later be unearthed as the cutest, dorkiest goofballs ever. 🥹

jay has the modest, traditional elegance of minhyun paired with the dark, sexy edginess of jb. and that really drives me crraaazzyyy 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

and the one thing all three share in common???? their paternal/grandpa tendencies 🥺 they’re all known for being reliable, sweet, warm, caring, and kindhearted gentlemen who adore their fellow members with all their heart and look after them 🥺 they’re also known for being reserved and domestic 🥺 and all three of them are such sunshine protectors of their fellow sunshine members 🥺 SOFT HOURS……………………………………

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i LOVE how i summoned all the desi engenes out from the woodwork like moths to a flame with my jay x srk post 🤣 it’s so comforting and heartwarming to see so many of us and would love to be moots with yall! 🥹🥰

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I AM GOING TO SCREAM!!!!!! CUTE BUTCH GURLIE FROM ENHA/TXT TEXTED ME THIS MORNING ASKING ME HOW THE PARADE WAS.

“how was the parade? im sure you performed really well💗”

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you know…..as a diehard lambily (mariah carey stan), i’ve been toying with the idea of doing an enhyungline as mariah carey songs post….perhaps maybe even going as far to make oneshots for each of them 👀 idk whether to opt for the smut or fluff route tho cuz i could go either way 🤷🏻‍♀️

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ATTENTION DAAAHHHLLIIIINNGGGSSS!!!!!!!

i’d like to wish a happy birthday to the prolific @minhosimthings!!!! happy birthday to my honorary punjabi kudi🤪 mona!!! 🥹💗 mona behenji

it’s a special day for my fellow staygene buddy! 💅🏼 not only are your works such immaculate pieces of art, but your warm spirit can immediately be felt by everyone the moment you pop on my tl. 💗 i applaud your work ethic, your intelligence, your sense of humor, your bubbly welcoming presence, and the creativity you bring to this space. you deserve all the best in life! wishing you an amazing day rife with kaju kotlis and badam burfis! 💖

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it’s 1 in the morning and i’m currently having delusional thoughts about the cute butch i met at enhypen/txt. she’s so cute i adore her. why must she live 4 hours away……

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y’know……being gay is a blessing tbh. it’s honestly crazy how much power butch women have over me…..natural mood boosters for me.

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I FINISHED WATCHING BARBIE LAST NIGHT AND I’M UNDERGOING SEVERE BARBIE BRAINROT RN!!!! 🥺😵‍💫MARGOT ROBBIE IS SO GORGEOUS AND WAS THEEEEE ABSOLUTE PERFECT CHOICE FOR THE ROLE. I LOVE HER SO MUCH I’M TRYING NOT TO GO DELULU…..😔

also, the film was STUNNING. it was absolutely HILARIOUS and I laughed every 5 minutes….I’m not even joking. It’s such an absurdist masterpiece that tickles my neurodivergent brain so well.

nonetheless, there’s something so endearing and enlightening about so many people collectively coming together and wearing pink in honor of barbie. it made my heart so soft experiencing that. I have never witnessed or experienced that at any prior movie I’ve seen and it’s a testament to the strong, devoted subculture barbie attracts - girly, pink lovers who are not afraid to show their camp side and be unapologetically them. I could go on and on about this topic honestly!

not just that but lemme just say….it really struck a chord within me because i grew up loving barbie dolls. and some parts, as absurd as they were, made me super emotional……..and dare I say…..RELATABLE!? 🫣🤨 oh yes…..

I REALLYYYYYYY WANNA TALK ABOUT SOME OF THE PARTS THAT STOOD OUT TO ME MOST BUT I DONT WANNA ACCIDENTALLY GIVE AWAY ANY SPOILERS 😭

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enha tacoma pcd……..

MANNNNNNN what an eventful week it’s been! I had LOADS of fun at the enha concert and made tons of new friends. My outfit was inspired by 231117 heeseung. the iconic denim cowboy fit constantly lives in my mind rent free and I think about it once a day. I had a pink bikini top on underneath and a pretty butterfly necklace cuz I wanted to add a pink n’ girly twist to it 🥰 unfortunately I had to keep it buttoned up most of the time because it was FUCKING COOOOLLLLDDDD my god….

also……... I met this REEEAALLLLYYY GORGEOUS butch girl in line. I felt so blessed that day. gosh. I even got her discord yall!!!!!😌💅🏼 she was so cute and her outfit was inspired by bite me 🤤 tried soooooo hard not to drool when i looked at her 🥵 good lawd what a WOMAN! luckily I’ll be meeting her again for txt in a couple weeks!!!😚

I had two posters - one that said “i 💗 heeriah leerey” and the second that said “welcome back jay”. they were both made with glow in the dark glue. unfortunately I ruined my jay one cuz I realized it wasn’t fully dried 😭 WELP! did I still hold it up tho? u bet I did.

speaking of posters, I saw some pretty amazing ones. I laughed my ass off at whomever held up the “daddy’s home” poster. heck, I even saw one that said “love from india!!!” which….a round of applause to whomever that was🤌🏼

I also got to watch them throw first pitch at the mariners game and AAAAAAAA OMGGGG they’re literally the cutest!!! 🥺 I swear omg I gasped audibly when seeing their beauty so close. absolute devastation. to experience auburn haired heeseung in person is an honor and a privilege. they’re genuinely so ethereal irl. like wow…THEYRE REAL!?!????? and seeing jay so happy to be back home made me emotional 😢 he looked elated to finally be back home! he spoke of his love for the seattle cherries, his memories in the tacoma area, and the sentimentality he felt as he finally made his way back home. 🥺

I felt so much softness and love in my heart. the vibes were immaculate this week. it honestly felt….rejuvenating. THAT’S the impact their presence has on me. it felt like one big hug. kinda sad that it’s over but i know they’ll be back in the future…… so that’s that! 🥹💗

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it JUST hit me that I’m seeing enha in 5 days……

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txt tacoma pcd…

YALL OMGGGG I SAW TXT AND HAD A BLAST!!!!!! I also had two posters (shown below in both light and dark. used my glow in the dark glue) and I GOT NOTICED YALL!!!! YEONJUN NOTICED MY POSTER AND GAVE ME A HEART!!! but it doesn't end there…because near the end of the concert, he pointed at my section and said "you guys were the best". and OMFGGG the collective SCREAMS our section let out were insane. this man effortlessly feeding our delusions honestly. i dont think I got noticed by soobie since he didn't walk by our section as much 😭 but it's fine cuz just his presence is enough to bring a smile to my face. PERIODT!

also…when yeonjun said “make some fucking noise” ……🥵😮‍💨

I had theeee night of my life! I went absolutely mental when they performed back for more, new rules, gbgb, loser lover, the killa, tinnitus, growing pain, see u there tomorrow, AND cat&dog. i was elated to see the killa and tinnitus live coz those are my absolute FAAAAV b-sides from them. and thank goodness they added cat&dog to the US wing or else it would feel incomplete. 😭💀 i genuinely can’t imagine a txt tour w/o it… I also ugly sobbed when they performed quarter life cuz that song accurately describes my life right now. to hear them singing it live felt like they were speaking to me honestly……….but that’s a tangent for another day daahhlliingggss

my outfit was inspired by gbgb and it was a slay. I loved it. thank goodness it wasn’t cold or pouring rain like it was for enhypen.

also…remember that cute butch girl I met at enhypen? I MET UP WITH HER AGAINNNNN!!!! god she’s so hot. 🥵 her outfit looked DROP DEAD GORGEOUS!!!!! it was inspired by the deja vu comeback showcase. it also showed a bit of her back too 👀🤤 tried so hard not to visibly show any thirst but deep down I was feelin like a victorian reacting to ankles hunny!!! 😮‍💨

she’s so cute 🥺 after the concert ended, she texted me asking if I made it back safely 🥹💗 we’re always chatting on discord and will meet up with her again for itzy next month!!! 🥰 and fun fact!!! we’re both yeonjun biased with soobie as our wreckers 🥹💗

all in all, I had such an amazing night and I ADORED their bright, positive energy so much 🥹💗 they’re 10x more endearing in person.

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learning dojaejung’s songs on the drums sounds easy but it’s actually SOOOO hard because I constantly have to resist the urge to sing along because their album is FULL of earworms and then my brain gets confused over whether I should jam along and sing the lyrics at the top of my lungs OR follow the beat and actually stay on track so I don’t mess up….💀

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itzy pcd.

i meant to post this last week but I’ve been SUUUPER busy and tired lately😪🤧

gosh. what an amazing concert it was! i’m so glad I finally got the chance to see itzy live. I’ve been wanting to see em for a loooong long time now. I got so teary eyed when they played the fan project video commemorating their 5 year anniversary. as someone who casually admired chaeryeong since sixteen and ryujin since mix nine, it makes me so proud to see how far they’ve come since then. goodness. time really flies. it feels like yesterday when they debuted….. im actually quite emotional thinking about it. god I feel so old…I can’t believe it’s been NINE YEARS since sixteen🥴🤢

there were also several lia clips that popped up during the 5th anniversary fan project video and the audience cheered every time a clip of her was shown. that made my heart real soft. I hope she’s doing okay and I certainly hope she is aware of all the love and unwavering support for her even in her absence. 🥹💗

chaeryeong got so shy when everyone wished her a happy birthday. and her reaction was soooo freaking adorable 🥺 I wanted to run up to the stage and give her a hug AAAA OMG!!! I love chaereyeongie so much and I’m so proud of how far she’s come since sixteen. 🤧 it feels like I not only watched her grow but also grew up with her???? like I’m not even chae biased but I hold such a soft spot for her in my heart cuz of sixteen. I had to hold back my tears cuz I was getting so emotional when they wished her a happy birthday……..

the concert was fucking amazing. the seat next to me was empty which meant extra room for me to dance 😊🫰🏼I literally had THEE time of my life. I went fucking MENTAL when they performed kidding me, sneakers, loco, untouchable, wannabe, not shy, escalator, dynamite, as well as ryujin and yeji’s solos. good fucking god. i went absolutely insane for both of their solos. they’re so hot. 🤧 what an immaculate setlist. I just wished mitm and ting x3 were on there too.

and lemme just say……… crown on my head inspires me. the lyrics actually do move me. I was feeling depressed the other day and when I started playing crown on my head, I shed a couple of tears and felt better. the cherry on top is that I was also wearing a tiara as part of my concert outfit 🤣 ahaha……

also….I gotta mention….. one thing about jyp concerts is that they NEVERRRR disappoint!!! 💅🏼 the members and their stage presence is one thing. but the live band takes the performances to another level! having seen skz and twice live, I can attest that i fucking adore attending jyp concerts because of how epic the live bands are. JYP CONCERTS ARE 100% WORTH THE MONEY!!!

and of course the part you’ve all been waiting for - cute butch gurlie!!!!! If ya know ya know…..(see my enha and txt concert posts). THIS IS OUR THIRD CONCERT TOGETHER!!!!!🥹💗at this rate…might as well call these concerts DATES…..and how fitting is it that it’s on pride month!?!?? slay. goodness fucking gracious she is soooo fine. as usual, I tried not to drool when I looked at her. her outfit was gorgeous and was inspired by yeji’s butterfly outfit in the swipe mv 🤤 mine was inspired by the checkmate concept photos because yall know how much of a pink loving princess I am. I even wore a tiara too 💅🏼 I wore a pink shimmery eyeshadow look to match the outfit and tightlined/smudged kohl to add that sexy desi twist to it 🥰 if the eyes are the window to the soul, then I sure as heck hope she saw the window to my pink n’ sparkly, yet dark and hypnotic soul…🤪🫰🏼 lmao.

we were gonna have food together but my dumb ass decided to take too long to get ready 🤦🏻‍♀️and I really didn’t want her to wait so long to eat. so I just told her to go get food at her own pace if she wants. I FUCKED UP THERE YALL!!! 😭 I PROMISE ILL GET UP EARLIER AND GET READY FASTER THE NEXT TIME SHE AND I MEET. but fear not….everything else went well. 😊👍🏼

I also had a poster that said ‘yeji addractive’ (in reference to this iconic moment) cuz y’know…..yeji herself is addractive. LOL anyways, I showed my poster to cbg and she giggled. she said it was so cute 🥹 she took pics of me and everything. 🥹 d’aawwwweee gosh im so soft for her.

the venue was SO nice! it was my first time there and her second time there cuz she saw the rose there before. it had such a cozy vibe to it. once were inside the venue, we were actually quite early!!!! we had coffee together and talked for an hour straight about various topics and I enjoyed every second of it. she asked me about my dhol hobby and how the parade went and I showed her pics 🥹 she loved them and said she wished she was there 🥹

I also showed her pictures of myself from the night before that parade where I was at a volunteer event for my dhol troupe’s org and I was wearing an all green outfit - bright green jumpsuit + trench coat and my green jhumkas. and she was WOWed. she said i look really good and green and she loved my jhumkas 🥺🥺🥺🥺 and to top it all off, of COURSE I showed her pictures of the volunteer award I received from my dhol troupe’s org as a flex 💅🏼 as expected, she was impressed 🥰

also…..WE SAT IN THE SAME SECTION!!!! I didn’t even know this until the day of the concert. 😳holy fucking shit. it’s as if we just VIBE on the same wavelength or smth…..😔🫰🏼we sat in diff rows but it still felt nice that we were at least in the same section ahaha.

and to end things off, we even uber’d back to our places together 🥺 wished we could spend more time 2gether that night iykwim👇🏼😔👇🏼🤭 HAHA JKJKJKJK…..unless????😬 and she said that she’ll go to sleep once I text her that I’m home safely 🥺 we love a caring, chivalrous queenie 🥺💕

I’m just so happy this was our third concert together 🥹 im so glad we spontaneously met through those chaotic lines at enha. im glad we clicked. it feels like ….. destiny!?!??? god that sounds corny af to say but even on a friendship level I just really enjoy her personality and her presence!???

she’s not going to ateez but she IS going to g-idle so uhhh…..ima make sure I show up to that concert looking as ✨ethnic hip✨ as possible in my jhumkas, kohl liner, and MAYBE my faded mehndi (depends how long it stays on after my cousin’s wedding) as a homage to our ethnic queenie soyeon! 🤪💗💕💗💕💗💗 and maybe then, cbg will see me in my fullest desi form. 👀👌🏼 lmao.

pics below!!!! not exactly a face reveal but moreso a body/outfit reveal????? haha peep the skz pc in my phone case too👀👌🏼

I also realized I didn’t take as much pics but took a crap ton of videos but y’all don’t need to see me screaming out the lyrics to sneakers or wannabe cuz HUNNY I sound like a screamo singer 😭💀