#so you know that bit after the sigumen tea party when llh is trying to cheer fdb up with food & wine but the food is lotus root

[skalidris]

thinking abt llh's wish to exist as part of fdb himself on this fine morning, as part of what sustains him, and (in a critical difference) permanently and inextricably becomes part of fdb who is thus a composite identity that's not derived from llh but containing him??