#so yknow what. maybe its neocities time.

[bbeelzemon]

im looking at the neocities activity page and GOD i wanna work on mine so bad now. The Inspiration

[soulsilvers]

srry if you got asked beforehand (or your welcome since you love the kantrio alot as is) but what's your overall thoughts on how pokemas portrays leaf and her dynamic with the Homosexuals (said lovingly) feel to you if you've tried to see how it goes? personally i'm alright with it (i have a bias towards how you do her easily bc you just understand as someone who was nuts abt these three for literally 10+ years) and find it kinda amusing that they even try to get her role dealing with them gameplay wise aka red is always the hard hitter of things bc battle autism go brrr, blue is often put as support while meanwhile leaf is like "wow you mfers focus on one thing okay i'm going to have hard attacks but be able to heal and attempt some buffs" while in the background just gushing about how much she loves her eevee and how its the cutest; so she doesn't stand out alot but i have a still huge appreciation of her easily just wish there was y'know more without the other two being there 65% of the time

on my still unfinished but pretty lengthy already neocities shines i try to gather together EVERYTHING that kantrio canonically is and is implied to be, from all media thats gameverse. comes with some speculation bc once you get really invested youre gonna be SO pissed at how much unanswered questions there are lol. so thats one thing i direct people to.

i like that shes an all-around character as you pointed out! i had not paid attention to that cause yknow. i dont actually play pokemas bc its gacha brain poison, only seek all dialogue on the internet and all videos from absol-utely.

the protags regardless of gender, aside maybe from red, in pokemas are pretty much intentionally written to have these very "safe" unrisky personalities that couldnt possibly offend anyone with unique ideas for what theyre like. but id say pokemas leaf isnt ENTIRELY devoid of sauce as i was able to say a lot about her on the shrine. i like that while her friendship with red is sweet, she and green on the other hand are constantly beefing.

but yeah, im not necessarily opposed to leaf gushing over cute pokemon (i literally go crazy over certain breeds of little dogs myself) but it shouldnt be the only thing going on for her sooooo well.. tpc may or may not approve of my garbage-eating leaf who teaches children that anything is legal when cops arent around but hey that just makes her funnier and ill do it anyway #feminism

and make her less of a satellite that orbits around red and green. let her go on her own adventure with some other character (misty perhaps?) for once at least!

[clulessmess]

ohhhhhh my fucking god.

I need to get around to making that neocities.

EDIT: um. Ok. Accidentally Posted a vent mid typing

I dont feel like retyping any of that so ill just edit this in the morning since its getting late

So yeah here i go free write venting sawry <3

Just gettin them (unfinished) feelings out

fyi recently decided to check out what neocities is abt after hearing friends gushing abt it n after scrolling around sites I got hyped n decided to make my own neocities after I realized this could possibly solve all my problems sdhkhkfgd

first of all,

............. not to bring this up for the 7848234th time but. yeah Im still having spiraling thoughts abt my girl + the AU. Yes, as I said earlier the intensity of those spirals have died down significantly. but unfortunately its still there, at the back of my mind. and uh oh!!!!!!!!!! unfortunately theres days where it spikes!!!! and frankly brothers i cant take these thoughts anymore,, i need a place to get the fuck away from social media 

I honestly feel thats the reason why I have these thoughts. I haaaate having to fucking overthink posting anything that could be percieved as cringe on my own fucking accounts to prevent the possibility that it could be the post could have me marked as a sort of “lolcow” or laughing stalk known to the internet. I haaaaate that when I have to talk to ppl, fuck even my own online friends, i haveta be walking eggshells via the irony mask and hide shit bc if i feel if i do i have justify my stance to not be seen as cringe!!!!!! I haaaaaaaaaate this fucking terminally online paranoia!!!!!!!!

and I know me saying “I need to get away from social media, im growing paralyzingly sick from my chronically online brainrot” and proceeding to still do this in an another online public space instead of just simply just stop posting abt Her + the AU and maybe even mass delete anything abt them if theyre doing nothing but causing me stress is a weird decision.... but ok.. hear me out

as a creative, the alternative (just mass deleting + stop posting)  is just.....feels so alienating? Like we all crave..an audience??? idk how to fucking explain it but we all like the idea of at least a few ppl liking our stuff? And despite all this headache,,, i still care her 🥺

the thought that this thing I care abt, that I made with my own two hands, that I cannot ever show that to anyone.... thats devestating

I think the reason I keep spiraling is that I feel there is no safe space for me to post abt this. Perhaps specifically fear of the wrong type of ppl catching wind of it.

The current online landscape is fucking hell. Irony poisoned n the standards are so high, ppl will not put up with mediocrity or cringe and they will be LOUD and clear about that.

Not even tumblr is safe.

Neocities though, from what ive seen its the fucking safe haven for self indulgence. Its not uncommon for ppl to have these things called "shrines", a small subwebsite within a website commonly used to just like. Infodump abt whatever thing they like, often obscure and maybe a little "cringe" (i dont mean this to insult them but like. Yknow what i mean right)

Additionally, I wont have to worry about the Wrong People" finding out abt me and My Bullshit. Or most anyone discovering me and My Bullshit. Being into neocities is kinda a "niche", most ppl dont know anything abt neocities asides from programming nerds rlly nostalgic for the old days of the internet!

If anyone for whatever reads this made it this far... Yep. I finally actually went through with the decision of deleting any trace of her off both my tumblrs. I will no longer be talking about her on tumblr unless until this game releases.

Its the perfect place to hide her for now....

Besides, ive been let go of the only job my incompetent ass could ever do but probably still fucked up anyways.  Think I need a fucking hobby that could maybe double as a skill so. Why not dust off what little programming stuff I know and expand upon in it in case my moms right and I cant rlly get my art career to pop off

Though... I guess the one downside for this is that while I hopefully wont be able to directly recieve hate about the AU...I dont think I will be able to recieve any possible love for it either.

As much as i hate to sound like some attentionwhore, and as much as i had a crippling fear of being found out by the Wrong People... there is a small inkling hope and..curiosity for people that might like it

Again, neocities isnt well known. The one upside to me posting my GLITCHED shit on tumblr is that this is prrobably? The only place where GLITCHED has an actual fanbase on tumblr, so i could like get engagement (ugh.... Hate phrasing it like that. Like im sort of numbers obsessed influencer. But i cant think of what else to call it. The possibility of the fans + the rare outsider interacting n being able to read nice or funny little notes), so I highly doubt anyone is going to think to click on the link to my Gina shrine since GLITCHED isnt well known either once I finish my neocities. Even if someone was curious enough to find my website + the shrine n wanted to express that they liked it, Neocities doesnt have a built in system where people can send messages to the creator.

I am going to post the link to my neocities, since well. I know that there is a small few who did like her (or just appreciated the passion i had).