#so yeah going to target on thursday one hit KO-d me for two days but now I can point and say FIBRO!!

[halogalopaghost]

So I got diagnosed with fibromyalgia.

Don't offer condolences or anything, I'm really not upset about it. I'm just happy to have the word and explanation for all of it. I've already mourned my health. Of course I had hopes that it would come around, and it still might! but I've already dealt with months, honestly more than a year, of pain and fatigue and barely scraping by, just being in survival mode.

Honestly I think my body is still trying to heal from the long, busy hours I pulled over the holiday season. When I tried to go back, just to sit at a desk and input data, it reacted swiftly and violently to tell me It Does Not Like That.

In my mind, last week I was just a person who can't deal, who's got some vague symptoms that come and go like the freakin wind, and some people don't believe. And I let the people who didn't believe me really get to me sometimes--I asked myself OFTEN (and still do, this is going to take some unlearning) if I was really sick, or just exaggerating symptoms/being a baby, whatever.

Now I can honestly say "I have fibromyalgia" and a lot of people aren't going to believe that either. I know fibro is not a popular diagnosis, and yes I do think there's a deeper cause behind it that we don't understand yet, but oh boy does it absolutely exist. And now when anyone doubts me, I can tell them to fuck right off <3