#so we'll have to be /awake/

[carnage-cathedral]

did all of the things we needed to do. besides all the regular stuff like showering and bedrotting and binge drinking

[spareasterisks]

So, remember this from the Circe Saga?

EURYLOCHUS:

Captain, I have something that I must confess

Something that I must get off my chest

Until it is said, I cannot rest

Captain?

ODYSSEUS:

There's only so much left we can endure

Whatever you need to say can wait some more

Of that, I'm sure

Well the wait finally ended in the Thunder Saga.

EURYLOCHUS:

I've got a secret I can no longer keep

I opened the wind bag while you were asleep

I'm so sorry

Forgive me

[good-beanswrites]

es should go through the blender but my finger is tired of holding down the button. so i shall pass the blender to you (with an es nui in it). do whatever you wish with them.

Oh why thank you :) I will take the blender gladly :) *Tosses some T2 angst into the blender* *adds a little bit of funky structure/style* *gives it a little pinch of headcanons* *and another pinch of random angst I got from ace attorney at 14 and never forgot* :) BBBBBBRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Caretaker Log J.16.7.2

Summary – The Warden’s condition continues to worsen since last entry. All decline remains self-inflicted. 

J.16.7.2-M – Sleep deprivation has resulted in mood swings and irritability. Though denied by the Warden, extreme distress, melancholy, and laughter have been noted. They lash out verbally and physically toward the prisoners (1) only to apologize at a later time. Observations (2) result in speculation that hallucinations are another symptom. 

J.16.7.2-B – The Warden's obsession with notetaking remains steady, though most pages of planning are merely rewritten versions of earlier notes. Their nightly ritual has grown more rigorous: four cups of coffee ingested in the time between dinner and the kitchen’s closing. A fifth cup is brought back to the courtroom, where the Warden will once again sleep on the ground. (Refer to J.5.5.2.B for initial detail.) 

J.16.7.2-P – Sleep deprivation and/or caffeine intake has caused shakiness and overall weakness. They show severe eyebags and have not changed into nightclothes in several days. Though they wash themself and fresh civilian clothes have been provided, they insist on returning to the uniform. Motor skills (3) and computation abilities have suffered.

J.16.7.2-S – The Warden spends their days around the prisoners, but avoids participating in all necessary conversations and activities regardless of invitation (4). They limit speech to the Caretaker only about their denied request (5), though they can be coaxed into conversation when fatigue overtakes them.

(1) After 005 offered the Warden something to help with their sleep, they threw the pills to the ground and shouldered past with force; 008 attempted to read the Warden’s notes, and they slapped her hand away.

(2) Flinched away from 003 even when standing still; shocked expression at 004's face despite nothing out of the ordinary; looked nauseous and refused to eat fresh fruit from the dining hall; interrupted a conversation with 010 to listen to silence.

(3) Handwriting has grown nearly intelligible; dropped one of their coffee cups and nearly panicked at the subsequent breakage and spill.

(4) Left the room when 002 began setting up a game; ignored 001's encouragement to join him for a meal; refused to answer personal questions from 006; snapped at 007 when trying to begin a lighthearted conversation.

(5) Request submitted on 30.8.2 for padlocks to fit supply closet and cell doors.

Appendix. Subjective caretaker commentary – Poor kid. I’m glad it’ll all be over soon. 

[antique-forvalaka]

I just want the real world to stop for a moment

[smalltimidbean]

I am sick

[quietlyblooms]

are you chiyo's buddy?

[sunflowercider]

??????!??!?? Aro representation in Jump???

[racke7]

Took a nap mid-day bcs I was tired.

Went to bed at 1am, like a responsible adult.

Unable to fall asleep, I started thinking about trying to min-max the Waifu-Catalog with as many leveling-systems as possible.

Kept being unable to sleep. Crawled out of bed at 3am, bcs fuck it. My brain demands a spreadsheet for min-maxing.

Made a list of various games with leveling-system, and how they're different from each other. Then went searching through the rule-system about how the "Auto-connect"-intensity modifier works.

Realized that it's possible to Buy a character, connect to its leveling-system, and then immediately Sell that character back (meaning that they only cost 20% of their listed price).

There are a lot of characters from worlds with a leveling-system who cost 10-credit or less. Including Disgaea, Overlord, SAO, Skyrim, Bloodborne, and FF14.

Which translates into: For the price of like... fuck-all, you can get Skyrim's Alchemy, Disgaea's Reincarnation, ALO's flight, and Bloodborne's Insight.

BUT, it would mean min-maxing things in a way that probably wouldn't make it a good story, in no small part because there'd be way too much shit to keep track of.

(Not to mention the regular "The Gamer"-problem of how EXP generally incentivizes you into becoming a murder-hobo. Or how the "lore" of WC is explicitly about entertainment-value, which sounds like "we'll let you cheese the rules only for as long as you don't bore us", after which they're just as likely to insta-kill you for being obnoxious.)

Disclaimer:

Is Waifu-Catalog a good setting? No. It's an incredibly ham-fisted way to let you write sex-scenes between all of your favorite "sexy characters" in a way that "totally makes sense, promise". And it's also a carte-blanche for behaving "however evil as you'd like to" because the setting makes Warhammer40k sound optimistic.

However, I keep coming back to poke at it, because I really like min-maxing shit and there's an unfortunate amount of overlap with that hobby and WC's "designed to make you a god"-builds. And they have a surprisingly well-designed web-page for keeping track of things, which is convenient.

[altruistic-meme]

some highlights from all 3 books, including the first and final touches in the series 🧡

tomorrow i'm going to work on copying them all to my computer so i can count and sort through them all! then we get to really see how everything looks and im so excited already by what i've seen :)

[chosesun]

hello, it's me. i'm sleep deprived and have lost my ability to write for the time being. i'm exhausted. i slept like three hours and spent the majority of my day on my ocs. that being said, i will be here tomorrow to start knocking out drafts. all i ask is your patience as i try to regain my motivation. actually, i'm motivated right now, but i'm just exhausted so hopefully i'll still feel motivated when i'm back online tomorrow.

[possum-tooth]

god i cant wait until my keurig and toaster and blankets and pillows are over here

[kowaindar0u]

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i know i got one more reply but i got it still in a tab to do tomorrow, i'm like FRAZZLED i think i had too much too caffeeine too late. poor decision cause i got no brains now. actually i just realized it's almost 5am lol ANYWAY . i'm going to lay down now and hopefully sleep soon, but we shall see

[sunshinegat0r]

I went to a Fall Out Boy concert last night! It was so much fun, I haven't been to many concerts and their set designs blew my mind. They're one of my favorite bands and everyone there had such fun outfits and styles, it was just a blast.

My friend did my makeup and hair and tbh it was stunning, so uh I guess face reveal below the cut? And also a clip of my favorite set piece/one of my favorite songs ♥

We went for a "galaxy punk" look and it was SO ✨sparkly✨ Hell yeah sword necklace and space earrings ⚔ iiiii normally wear exactly Zero makeup, so this was a lot for me.

Maybe mid-way through the show, they had this Giant Dog Head that could bob around and open its mouth, and it was SO COOL, and the eyes glowed 👀 The song is "This Ain't a Scene, It's an Arms Race," please excuse the exuberant camera motions, I was fist-pumping with my other hand, lol.

[fidgetspringer]

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[thethingything]

had to lay down. woke up at nearly 7am. got overwhelmed by our sleep schedule once again being fucked because yesterday we actually went to bed at roughly the right time and thought "oh this is great we've fixed it". decided that we're just gonna deal with it and it'll be fine. and then our brain decided that no actually we're gonna have a combination of emotions that's maybe gonna give me another breakdown if I can't figure out how to deal with them but I have no fucking clue what to do with them

[running-in-the-dark]

the tiny bit of consistency that I had in my sleep schedule has disappeared entirely. I sleep when I sleep. I never know what day it is. I've lost all sense of time. when does a new day start? no idea. it's 3 pm and it feels like it's the middle of the night.