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your top 15 favourite tv shows can say a lot about your personality
Tagged by @kuhakukage
Let's go besties :
1. Courage the Cowardly Dog
2. Danny Phantom
3. Teen Titans
4. Teen Wolf
5. Inuyasha
7. Tokyo Ghoul
8. Shen He Ling/Word of Honor
9. Australia's next top model
10. Brooklyn 99
11. How to get away with murder
No tags all the besties can come list their favourite shows so i can get some good tv show recs thank yew.
#bear with me it'll take me some more years to reach 15 tv shows probably#cz im a hater i like watching shows just to analyze and criticise the hell out of them until they disintegrate inside my brain#so u can imagine the kind of stress i am under when i try to list shows I like when i cant even remember what i watched#these are the shows that I'd actually rewatch#i don't usually like to rewatch stuff because i feel like my head will explode if im not seeing new things#ok but now that i think about it what DOES it say about my personality#only 2 of the shows on this list are from my adult life lmao#fried braincell things#for HTGAWM i love Annalise Keating. viola Davis is IT she's the icon she IS the moment i love her.#amd also my girl Michaela pratt got me through college i am her she is me (academically)#b99 is beautiful perfect amazing i love it#on that note Andre braugher we miss you thank you for all that you did#i also love Gina and was annoyed asf when she was taken out of the show#currently im watching the vampire diaries and shit is not hitting im gonna be honest#I'm currently watching 3 series and reading 2 books at once so u can imagine why my brain is fried
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god just got reminded that i have to write a term paper that's going to decide my entire future literally from next week to the end of september... i feel sick again...
#if u want to stop seeing the posts about my linguistic term paper that might be ruining my life pls mute#uni tag#:)#jana.txt#godd i feel so sick just in anticipation of having to write it#this is like if the thing you were most horrible at in the entire world decided your entire future#so u can imagine the kind of stress i am under :)))
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u order a yotes mystery puck for 50 usd and fedex fucks up and delivers someone's 8 dollar shein lingerie to u instead, wyd
#the one time I actually want someone to answer the phone when I call and they won't girl HELP#trying not to have a meltdown about this but today is my only day off in between 12 days of work#so u can imagine the kind of stress that I am under rn#text post
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decided to try and go through with the small tattoo i want, but i now have to face the first end boss: writing an email.
#alex yells at the void#thank u anna for the validation and telling me it is indeed a good idea#my mother hates tattoos#which is one of the reasons why i wanna do it#but even thinking about writing an email#gives me the heartrate of someone being hunted for sport#so you can imagine the kind of stress i am under
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i wam. merch. :(
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i am once again spiralling into the idea that i may never find a good job and simply work in retail for the rest of my life
#sighh#god i hate this job i just want smthn better#but unfortunately. there's fucking Nothing!#i am just the only person left in my family who isnt actually doing something with their life#and also has no clue what they Want to do with their life#and so u can imagine the kind of stress i am under#after i begged my mum into believing that going to uni was a great idea and id come out knowing exactly what i wanted to do#and here i am working for a stupid fucking retail store#god i am so tired#and i wish i knew what i wanted to do with my fucking life#found an entry level publishing job this morning but! can i find the energy or time to apply? remains to be seen#incoherent rambling#ignore me
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↳ Chapter 1 of WHITE NIGHTS has dropped!
(Read here on ao3)
Porsche frowns. “You know, you could say thank you.” Before Porsche can wonder why he said that, the stranger looks up. He has a sharp face, coal-black eyes, and a look that makes Porsche take two steps back. The silence sharpens, and Porsche becomes finely aware of how alone they are in the alley, and how nobody would think to find him there. But then the stranger says, “Thank you.” His voice is quiet, precise, lonesome. Porsche takes a deep breath, making him realize that he’s been holding it. “You’re welcome.”
Summary:
The gangs of Bangkok have always described themselves as ‘God-fearing people.’
They should have been worried about someone else.
Kinn is the young leader of the main crime family in 1990’s Bangkok, hunted by rival gangs after the death of his father, the Chao Pho. Chao Pho left a ‘key to the city’ that will supposedly grant the owner full control of all gang syndicates, but not even Kinn knows where or what it is.
Meanwhile, Porsche is an idealistic police cadet seeking revenge on the mob for his father's death, despite his vow of never taking a life. When he unknowingly saves the Phrai Ngu, the revered Ghost Serpent, and the man he has sworn to capture, the mob boss takes a liking to him and requests him to be the liaison between the syndicate and the police.
As the Chief Superintendent orders Porsche to gain Kinn’s trust to double-cross him, Porsche sets his plans of revenge in motion. But as Porsche’s secret meetings with Kinn occur over the months, they unexpectedly find solace in each other’s company, and the lines of honour begin to blur.
#this is gonna be a wild ride#im finally back to this fandom omgg#it’s already 12000 words so u can imagine the kind of stress that I am under#this is gonna be a SLOW burn but eventual smut/romance ofc#plus u know I got the soundtrack too#kinnporsche#kinn x porsche#kinnporsche fic#kp fics#mileapo#perfumes ao3#white nights#mine#kinn theerapanyakul#porsche kittisawasd#kpts#kinnporsche the series#kp fic
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new theme n new icon = i will do 1 singular reply before i go back 2 capitalism
#forgive me. im literally jst a girl#whts the mulaney quote#i hav had a very long day. i am very small. and i have no money. so u can imagine the kind of stress tht i am under#ooc: drop yr buffs!
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yeah sorry for being awol during the speak now tv release i was having a panic attack during electric touch
#literally my 2 worlds colliding so u can imagine the kind of stress i am under#reesetalk#sntv#fob#taylor swift
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Homicipher incorrect quotes
Mc: speaking of surprises, Crawly
Crawling: yea?
Mc: i've got something up my sleeve
Crawling: is it... A banana?
Mc: nO! It's an automated gun torrent! :D
Crawling: we're going to a candy store!?
Silvair: what? No! Candy stores are closed!
Gap: WE'RE GONNA ROB A CANDY STORE!? :D
Chopped: omagod u so tall you look like a giraffe :D
Scarletella: that's why you dead built like a baked bean
Chopped: a ba- A BAKED BEAN!? *bites his foot* BAKE BEAN THAT. BEAK BEAN THAT!
Mc: you're under arrest! Scarletella! Scar-face! Scar-poopy-poopy-butt!
Scarletella: you may be the- dont you ever fucking call me that again
Mc: what would you do if i was kidnapped?
Crawling: obviously come find yo-
Hood: nothing
Silvair: wait 20 minutes until they let you go voluntarily
Machete: i killed your entire family
Mc: huh? But i live alone-
Machete: huh? Then who were these people in your house-
Mc: there's people in my house!?
Machete: well not anymore! Dumb bitch! You could've died! You're welcome!
Mc: Crawly am i ugly?
Crawling: nonsense, you're the most beautiful girl in the world, i see you right now!
Hooded Child: Hood am i ugly :D
Hood: very much.
Mc: hold on, the phone's calling. Hello?
Telephone Guy: how do you say uh corn in cantonese?
Mc: sok mai?
Telephone Guy: HAHA SOK MAI NUTS *hangs up*
Mc: ... Well they're not my friend anymore.
Scarletella to MC: so i send u a lil smiley face
So you send back a lil smiley face
So i write hey
And you write back hey
And i say hey what
And you say you said hey first?
And then i say okay
Crossaint emoji
Fuck u
Chopped: smile :D
Bride: sweet :D
Nurse: sister :D
Silvair: sadistic :D
Gap: surprise :D
Crawling: service :D
Stitch: CRAWLING IS A BITCHASS MOTHERFUCKER
*cue music*
Mc: name a country that starts with V!
Silvair: venezuela!
Machete: FINLAND! FINLAND
Silvair: OH MY DAYS. LOW IT. YOU SAID WHAT???
Machete: finland?
Silvair: DON'T CHAT TO ME. YOU'RE JOKING
Silvair: SHE SAID F MAN
Machete: what did u say
Mc: V?
Silvair: v.
Machete: VENUS
Silvair: ARGHHH
Mc: you wanna take things up to the bedroom?
Human: sure. ...what's up there?
Mc: btw did you bring protection
Human: WHY WHATS UP THERE!?
Chopped: i am very small. And i have no money. So you can imagine the kind of stress that i am under.
Scarletella: and without looking up at me Hood said "You have the moral backbone of a chocolate eclair"
Machete: am i boring? Sure. Social skills? None. But i'm loyal if you feed me and i will never leave you because, well, i need the food.
Crawling: i wouldnt wish that on my worst enemy-
Hood: i would. I would wish it on my worst enemy and then a whole list of other people that dont even qualify as my worst enemy. I'm not "above things" and at this point i'm existing out of spite
Gap: Your uber instincts cant handle my uber autism. Observe.
[insert him being in the fucking textbox an yoinking mc through it, escaping scar]
MC: You enter the dungeon, and on the far end of the room, you see... a door!
Masque: Can I seduce the door?
MC: No you cannot.
Stitch: Can I seduce the door?
MC: ALSO NO.
Crawling: Can I punch Stitch?
MC: ... Uh Stitch you take 4 damage
Stitch: Well I transform into a beaver.
MC: You... do that.
Stitch: Now can I seduce the door?
MC: STILL, NO
Crawling: I punch Stitch again.
MC: 3 more damage.
Machete: Can I fight the door?
MC: No!
Wheelchair: I also would like to fight the door!
MC: NO ONE CAN FIGHT THE DOOR.
Machete: I FIGHT. THE DOOR.
MC: You lose!
Machete: I fight you.
MC: Machete, take a walk!
Scarletella: Is the door dead or alive?
MC: ITS A DOOR?
Scarletella: Can I enslave its soul?
MC: How would you- No!
Chopped: Can I build a better door?
MC: ... Do you want to build a better door?
Chopped: I acquire lumber from the surrounding forest!
MC: Okay you do that.
Silvair: ... Is the door locked?
MC: No it isnt!
Silvair: I open the door.
MC: You do so! Inside is one small treasure chest!
Masque: I seduce the treaure chest~
MC: NO.
#homicipher#homicipher incorrect quotes#Homicipher mr chopped#Homicipher mr crawling#Homicipher mr silvair#Homicipher mr hood#Homicipher mr scarletella#Homicipher mr gap#Homicipher mr human#Homicipher mr wheelchair#Homicipher mr stitch#Homicipher mr masque#Homicipher ms bride#Homicipher mr machete#Homicipher ms nurse#Homicipher telephone#Homicipher hooded child#Oh my god that's so many characters
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- dennis reynolds: nsfw alphabet.
a/n: heyyyy guys..... did u miss me.... it's only been 160 days LMFAOOOO. sorry for my absence, college is wild. not sure what my uploading will be like from here on, i have a ton of requests to sort through but nandor is on my radar !!!! got alot of nandor requests so expect fic soon.
thought id ease in with my fav lil bastard man. ive been meaning to do an nsfw alphabet with dennis for so long that it came really easily for me to write, but this isnt like my usually fics, very relaxed and lazy writing style. love u all as always and thank you for all the concerned messages I AM ALIVE!!!! just busy
cw: dennis shenanigans, some disrespect to woman ofc, smut smut smut cannot stress that enough, fem reader, not proofread, very casual writing style, 1.3k words, lowercase.
smut under the cut!!!
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A = aftercare (what they’re like after sex)
very lazy. will flip over, give you a kiss on the head, and then go to sleep.
B = body part (their favourite body part of theirs and also their partners)
on partner: boobs. there's so much evidence to support this. he's so a titty man. he's constantly trying to get his hands on them when fucking which is why he favours positions like cowgirl or missionary.
on himself: his dick. he's very gifted and very proud of it, cocky bastard (pun intended)
C = cum (anything to do with cum, basically)
dennis is a dick. he hates to get cum on himself but would happily see you ruined in it. he tries to convince you to let him cum on your face when you give him a blowjob. would love to cum inside you. not for the purposes of reproduction, but in a very predatory way of claiming you.
D = dirty secret (pretty self-explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
i think he'd love to watch one of his tapes with you. fucking you while he fucks some other girl in the background is very hot to him. he doubts you would be into it however. he knows its unappealing for you to imagine him with someone else.
E = experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)
say it with me: WWWWWWHOOOOOOOORRREEEE.
dennis is not shy about the fact he has had many, many sexual intercounters. he prides himself on how many women he's been with and uses that knowledge to get you and him off.
F = favorite position (this goes without saying)
like i said before, i think he'd been into missionary or cowgirl so he can grab your tits. although i think he'd opt more often for missionary and its plain and easy.
G = goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)
dennis would definitely try to be super serious and sexy to a humorous extent. he would try to be all suave, but it would come off as just plain stupid. he'd try to incorporate music and a little dance into his foreplay and you would giggle, and he would get super offended. like "no take this seriously!" as two of hearts by stacey q plays.
H = hair (how well-groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)
very well maintained. dennis definitely prides himself on his dick and spends effort making it look the best it can.
I = intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect.)
if this is a one night stand, he will try to fake some kind of deep romance into it, but truly it is not there. it is a one and done situation.
however, if this is an established relationship, i think he'd lose himself in the moment. he'd be more sappy than he realises, caressing your skin as he thursts or letting out a few "i love you"s that he would never admit to later as he cums.
J = jack off (masturbation headcanon)
i think dennis would believe masterbating is just something teenagers do and if he's horny he will just fuck. but occasionally if you are away from home and he's lonely he'll have to rub one out to that tape of you he has.
K = kink (one or more of their kinks)
bondage. obviously. love love loves the idea of you being restained and fully at his mercy. however, he doesn't just introduce this kink to anyone. you would have to be together long term before he brings out his "bondage shit." that's because it comes with him hiding the more insane parts of himself.
L = location (favorite places to do the do)
pretty vanilla and will usually want to do it in his bedroom. he feels most comfortable there, and mac knows not to come in. also, maybe because of the cameras he has in there. maybe.
M = motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)
dennis is a simple man. short skirts and low-cut tops usually do the trick.
less traditionally, you telling him off can also get him going. either he's filled with the need to 'discipline' you or he wants you to take your anger out on him and ride him till the sun comes up, baby!!
N = no (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)
there's nothing he wouldn't do to you. truly. anything is on the table. for himself, however, i don't think he'd like to get hurt. he's a big ole baby, and it would bruise his ego :(
O = oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
definitely prefers receiving because he is a selfish bastard man. he's rough with it, too, grabbing your head and using you like his personal fleshlight.
and of course, he's shit at giving. you'll have to teach him how to properly eat pussy.
P = pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)
starts off painfully slow and ends hard and rough. he makes an ordeal out of foreplay. he will tease and test you before finally entering you, and even then he's going slow. when he actually starts fucking you though he's unapologetically fast. he's chasing his own high and you'll probably cum along the way.
Q = quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)
he prefers to take his time during sex so i doubt hed be down for full penatration quickies. however quick blowjobs? he loves. especially if there's a chance you could get caught, like taking you to the office and having you suck his dick under the desk before going back out to serve again.
R = risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)
definitely prefers to fuck properly at home, however, like said in 'Q' up to take some risks.
S = stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)
one and done, im going to be so real. he will come then turn over and go to sleep.
T = toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)
so many. so. vibrators, ball gags, rope. you name it, he probably has it. but only for his partner. he doesn't like the idea that he would need a toy to get himself off.
U = Unfair (How much they like to tease)
like mentioned in 'P', he likes to drag sex out, making a performance. he likes to degrade you by making you wait, dennis is solely focused on his own pleasure usually.
V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)
dennis likes to pretend he isn't a whiny bitch. he lets out swallowed groans and grunts as he grinds against you, but pathetic little whines and occasionally even whimpers will slip out. this will only happen in a relationship and usually when your being aggressive towards him, like pulling his hair and clawing his back with ever growing need.
W = Wild Card (A random headcanon for the character)
i think with enough persuasion, you could peg dennis reynolds. if you somehow frame it in a way that caters to his hypermasculine view, he'll be begging for it.
X = X-ray (Let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)
dude, he's huge. as seen in "mac and charlie die" (ifykyk). it almost makes up for his huge ego, almost. i imagine he's around 9 inches hard.
Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)
dennis acts as though he is constantly seducing women and bringing them back to his place, this is not true. when not in a relationship, he usually only brings like 1 or 2 girls home a month. there's so much rigmarole to using his stupid D.E.N.N.I.S system that it's usually not worth the effort.
when he's in a relationship however, this drive rises. when you are around all the time suddenly he's always eager to fuck. most nights, infact.
Z = Zzz (How quickly they fall asleep)
like mentioned in 'A', he falls asleep pretty quickly. he'll give you a lazy kiss and drape his arm across you as a sort of 'thank you'. an appreciation.
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#x reader#iasip x reader#its always sunny in philidelphia x reader#dennis reynolds x reader#fanfiction#its always sunny x reader#dennis reynolds
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you saying you’d write an au for stardew is the equivalent of getting a rabbits foot and multiple prismatic shards in one day omg. even if u don’t do it the idea popping in ur head is already fantastic! i’m so happy you love the game i think it’s the perfect distraction for life !!! if only we could all just pack our things and move to our inherited farms and become the richest in town… it’s nepotism at work lol
please tae, i literally daydream about someone giving me a deed to a farm or a plot of land somewhere. 😭 and the thing is!!! like!!! farming’s not an easy job, it’s so dependant on the earth/weather, and even before climate change was a tangible threat it was a hard, hard living. 🥺 i get stressed out with my video game, lmao, 10pm and im still out in the fields hoeing or planting seeds, like. 💀 imagining doing that for like, 40+ plus to make a living……. you’d have to have a good team around you. 😩 farmhands, or family. a good spouse LOL. even a little hobby farm would be stressful………. and yet i still want that life. 😔 an orchard by the sea. 🥹 still stressful, but maybe slightly more manageable lmao.
i am trying so, so hard not to give into the temptation (not yet) to fulfil this wish via a fic LMAO. 🥹🙏🏽 i’m trying to feed it by doing like, small things: naming it (from the valley), making a playlist for it. god, i’ve gotten to the stage where i actively pause the game to write down little notes (things in our backpack: pink cake. a orange poppy flower. goat’s cheese. four cups of banana pudding. a totem with a weathered, deeply carved face. the pock-marked head of a mushroom). i am fighting for my life!!! the only thing that’s actually, properly stopping me from the follow through is that i don’t have a romantic end-game in mind. because in my head i’ve already given Reader three potential boyfies: izuku, katsuki, and maybe shouto (maybe shinsou instead). like, i can picture how friendships/relationships would form among them (izuku the kind, helpful guy. katsuki in the background, wary. shouto the son of the man who founded the company we worked for, back in the city; our work husband, who we joked to about following us out to the valley and who does). the one thing i’d want to do is have Reader find their way to Skull Caverns, and realise that all the magic they thought was whispering to just them has been whispering to other people, too—Izuku, sword in hand, staring at us in horror when he finds us cradling a large, spotted egg. Katsuki, rounding the corner after him, swearing black and blue about ghosts—sdhjfgklsdjflsfgkjsflkgj. i wanna write it so badly, just to get to that moment, LMAO. the mutual horror when all three of you are face-to-face in this giant, deadly, underground maze. the boys making you swear to secrecy; Izuku tearing into you for being so stupid, how did you even find this place, how did you know, do you understand what could’ve happened? you should’ve told them, you should’ve told him. your relief in finally having someone to talk to about all the weird shit you keep stumbling across. the way this would give Izuku an excuse to drop in to you, on the farm. Katsuki turning up to help with the tilling or seasonal planting, the harvest. i want to write about it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! all of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! being on the dock in the middle of winter as the snow is falling, all those festive, jewel-like boats bobbing gently before you, waiting with their… winter star trees, or their paintings. the sea salt and the charred warmth of coffee beans. the mermaid show with all it’s tawdry secrecy…… the worn carpet under your feet, the mismatched planks that hold steady despite the creaking. i just think!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it would be neat to do. 🥹 i just!! it’s such a good world to play in LMAO. and if i could come up with a ending for it—a true, stops-me-in-my-tracks kind of ending—not even my attempts at nail-digging self-discipline would stop me from writing it.
for now tho it’s just my yapping, lmao. my yapping and my threats. 🥹
#ofmermaidstories-asks#i hope you’re having a good week tae 🥹🌷 your message made my afternoon when i saw it!#here’s to somehow getting those inherited farms together lmaooo#the stardew tag
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that feeling when you realise that you're a protagonist (doomed to be in a Situation at all times)
anyway hi this is clemont uriel my son (they/he/spark). i gave him all my stress about mundane things and made it Worse.
often wears a blindfold because permanently glowing red eyes from human experimentation are a pretty identifiable trait. this gets more visible further into the story (eventually just entirely red eyes with no whites with rhombus/diamond shaped pupils faintly visible) so blindfold becomes a basically permanent feature. eyes get at least mildly fucked up because of this.
has freckles basically everywhere, not just the face. some of them changed shape after they got light magic from awakening. (shape in question is light magic's icon) light part of hair is naturally like that, hair there is thinner and overall less of it grows in the same amount of head area compared to the darker hair. (fact: repeated hair pulling can cause hair loss)
most inaccurate outfit ever btw. overall a weird combination of multiple half formed design ideas. imagine a significantly more wizard looking outfit. and those fuckass metal claws only on one hand, dagger in the other. (more damage vs precise attacks. also vague parallel w Peacekeeper wearing one of Theos' armour gauntlets after AA). undecided on what long range weapon i should give him. hair is shorter,, like top of to mid ear length and not shoulder length. however this is the most accurate hair i could find.
u think ur fighting a mage? nah get hit the luminous beast instinct.
long sleeve grey turtleneck + matching gloves (right hand with shiny grey claws) + very specific jacket i am still making into roblox clothes + shiny grey pauldrons that cover shoulders, armpits and slight part of upper arms and connected cape with some kind of space design on the inside + matching the cape, big fucking wizard hat + shiny grey dagger in left hand. lots of dangling and/or draping parts in the outfit compared to solstice's outfit being lots of somewhat tight layers. (both get alternate outfits for warmer/colder weather but one version is always their main design). most of the armor stuff is hidden under the clothes or just part of the clothes via hand waving explanation of enchanted fabric bc armour is HEAVY!! (solstice is the one who gets a fuckton of visible armour) unsure on the shoes but i might make them steel-toed for more grey details.
colour placement is something i always get weirdly focused on when it comes to ocs. abnormally so.. esp w characters who come in a set like thse two. i am a sucker for parallels.
solstice gets a lot more grey in her design but clemont gets a lot more of the space motif in his. (also might change the accessory gradient in solstice's design to be dark purple -> magenta -> light pink instead of green -> blue -> purple -> pink, silly cauldron/potion bag gets ominous orange glow emanating from the inside. clemont will probably have mostly green with some teal and yellow. might make orange their 'shared colour' as is tradition for me to give all my ocs who form into a duo whether by design or by forcing me)
spell names are all music themed!!! unsure on what instrument to make him play tho...
#roblox#oc#arcane odyssey oc#clemont uriel#please go do all that shit you've been putting off#because of your Situation#go get a haircut go steal ur old shit from the navy#go gets ur eyes checked go talk with someone PLEASE#when ur so burnt out it feels like something that will always be a part of you#biggest introvert of today is forced to handle enough social interaction to make anyone explode because people just straight up#ignore solstice because she can't talk out loud much at all#and prefers to use that chance for Important moments instead of#generic fetch quest number 57#they get a break eventually#circumstances are unpleasant tho.
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i literally forgor what it felt like to be under so much stress. the cold sweats, the extreme panic, the throwing up, gagging if i put foood in my mouth. like it’s been good for so long, even before i met him i was doing so good. i was so healthy and so happy. now i feel i have to restart again. “that’s what life is about” but i truly don’t think so. i think it’s so wicked. like a bad dream. a weird nightmare. ever since i went to nashville, ever since i stepped in the waiting room at the cancer center, pure pain and shock. pure shock. it hit me all over again. i see the bald children on dialysis and im in udder shock, pain, fatigue, i want to cry. but i look stupid. i see their bloated faces. i’m scared. they tell me it’s fine. but i read those test results. they call me and want to do further testing. they will do another bone marrow biopsy. i can feel it. called it. i just sit in shock and also so fuckin funny dude. “u gunna leave me when shit gets hard” and it’s like yeah absolutely ! what kind of world . i am so so so so so sick. all i can think is, i want my son to be healthy. why is that so wrong. i am so sick. you’d never know either. i am so good at making sure it’s going to be okay. god has always had me. thru everything. i can’t lose my son tho. i cannot lose my son. they tell me “he’s developmentally delayed. just be with him 100% of the time” that’s fine. i already am. bht i don’t think he’s delayed. i think it’s traumatizing going to the doctor for him. so what if he can’t feed himself because he can’t see? so what i HAVE to be a helicopter mom and watch him so he doesn’t run into walls, poles, doors, whatever. or fall off a ledge. i wish i told them how well he hikes. he loves hiking. he says “i wanna walk by myself” and climbs rocks. the walking stick helps so much, it’s like a giant pointer finger and sound maker for him to see a REALLY big step. don’t care if im rambling. he wants me next to him while he sleeps, he can tell when i get up. even to go pee. he’s always coslept with me. even as a newborn. well actually, he slept on my chest 99% of the time. he slept on his own for abt 10 minutes as a newborn. like at a time. he also. has never really spent time away from me. i’ve never had a night away from him. i’ve never been too far from him. i’m always around him 100% and i don’t mind this actually i prefer this. i love to watch him grow. i love teaching him and being his mom. today we did tracing and he drew a nice big circle. he wants to help me do everything. he is a big helper. i love him more than life itself. he’s so wonderful. his favorite color is red. i wonder what he’ll make me crack up abt tomorrow. i wonder if he’ll wanna do tracing again. every morning, we do the calendar and white board. we have a velcro calendar that we change and we go thru the day, date, month, year, season, and current weather. on his white board i ask him…. how do you feel today??? he usually says “good!:)” with a big smile. i ask him, what do you wanna do today??? and i write down all the things he wants to do. i ask him, what do you want to eat today? so we are both prepared??? we go thru breakfast, lunch, snacks, dinner. then i write anything else he wants to add. it’s fun and builds a great schedule, routine of the sorts. then we go on to do everything he wants to do. i also started adding what i wanted to do. so he knows i have time to myself as well. today was “i wanna do some projects” and he honored that, respected it and gave me some space while he “read” all by himself. he was making up stories and flipping thru his books. his imagination is wild and beautiful. he’s very funny.
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hi rom
i am in the DEPTHS of my grieving okay? i have lost not only my husband but also my son. but there is still chance that gege will jump out and say he was kidding so im still like 🤧 anyway
today i only wanna talk abt geto lets talk abt geto
i saw a tiktok abt how gentle geto is with like things. like there were clips of him putting down the cup he drank from in that ep where they save amanai and like i was having thoughts abt how gentle he would be with his gf??? like fuck that man is so 10/10 like...
okay wait im having nsfw thots let me flush them out. satoru (god his name never stops coming outta my mouth) is deffo the type to rip apart ur panties and now ik many ppl find this hot but i personally dont but like i imagine scolding satoru when he does he's like why notttt i can buy u moreeee
but with suguru i feel like he'd be the type to like hook his fingers under them and pull em down like JEKFORODKKEOFOF i just know he'd bring them down sooooo slowly like it makes ur pussy throb when he does it bc it seems like he's unwrapping his gift everytime he does it and ODKDKDKOFOF KICKS FEET IN THE AIR
okay sfw now heheheh
ok wait i know this man will give u bomb massages like imagine u have a headache and u head straight for suguru's lap when that happens bc this man massages u soo gently but also with enough pressure that it doesnt pull ur hair and also relieve ur pain (this idea comes bc i sometimes ask my dad to massage my head he LITERALLY PULLS MY HSIR EVEN IF HE JUST TOUCHES IT IDK HOW HE MANAGES TO DO THAT) and yeahhh his fingers are very delicate im having so many thots
Who does nsfw before sfw😭
(Dw Megumi and gojo are alive and well and idk buying Halloween costumes baby)
Smut undercut guys!!
Ok so—I agree. Like suguru doesn’t like “wasting” things yk? I mean, he may do it when jealous or angry but when in mood to tease you? He will be more gentle than usual (smn like the calm before the storm). Personally, I feel like geto is the type to initially make you cum with your panties on—like the perfect pressure or maybe like tease yku through it a lot and then taunt you about it. I def think suguru is the kind to like punish a lot- turns him on knowing the power he holds and the authority, so like he’d be the kind to bend you over and pull your panties down to your knees and tell you to keep them just there—and then he’d pound into you, exactky in a way that will make you buck your knees and before you know it, he’s grinning and talking about another punishment (he’s mean like that <3)
And yes—he’s just like perfect for comfort purposes. Like his body is always so warm? And so ready to hold you—his hugs aren’t uncomfortable either, just like perfect in the way holds you. Some times, most times, suguru wouldn’t say anything—just quietly serve you as he leads you to a good sleep and if you do end up dozing off, he will (very gently) carry you to his bed and cuddle you. And I’d you don’t fall asleep? Well that’s alright too, because now he will talk about your day and whatever has you stressed
#gojo kink analysis#☼࿐ 𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐄.𝐁𝐑𝐈𝐆���𝐓 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓#☼࿐𝐈𝐧𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠→#from.jaaneman#jjk x reader#jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu kaisen x reader#geto x reader#geto suguru#jjk#suguru geto x reader#jujutsu kaisen suguru#suguru smut#geto smut#suguru geto smut
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Hi Snaily! How have you been? Im here for a pretty serious ask.
My boyfriend has been drawing for a while, I honestly think he's doing real good. But recently he's been feeling down about his art, he doesn't know why he should bother improving his art if his style is *basic* to some people, and it hurts a lot for him. He knows he should be drawing for fun and not force improvement to stress him out, but there's only so much I can do as his loving partner who doesn't draw at all.
So... what was it like for you, Snaily? When you started drawing many years back, how did you not feel like shit looking at how it could be better but you don't know how? What advice can you give to a beginner artist?
(You can answer this privately if you want btw, and ask me for his art if you need to see them. Much love <3)
hi peng!! always nice to hear from u! I'm gonna reply to this publicly because to be honest i can't resist to give this kind of advice to any and all beginner artists (but i am putting it under a readmore because as you know i love to ramble and this will get LOOONNNGGG and will Truly be The Ramblings of a Mad Man (gender neutral))
firstly, since I hear that he feels hurt by the idea that people out there might find his style "basic". That's a rookie mistake (that literally everyone makes when they start getting Serious about Art). The mistake being Caring Profoundly About an Outside Audience that's Ever Watching and Judging.
Which I literally cannot blame him or anyone for it, ESPECIALLY in this modern social media landscape where newer artists feel like they gotta get GOOD at the VIRAL RAT RACE so you gotta get that sweet, sweet validation in the form of likes, reblogs, retweets etc etc.
So that's my first tip I suppose: don't fall for the entrapment of being obsessed with getting any and all sorts of SWEET VALIDATION during your art process. This is hard to condition yourself to! I myself fall prone to it! It's actually kind of natural. Even if the validation you seek isn't online, surely you're expecting it from your peers or teachers or family members or whoever gets to look at your sketchbook (or you know, your medium of choice).
You want people to notice your art and all the effort you put into it. It's okay! DO welcome those who do!! But never NEVERRRRRR NEVERRRRRR commit the mistake of placing the value of your art on how much praise it gets from others. That's a one trip road on having an Absolute Bad Time. THE ONLY PERSON you should be looking to make happy with your art is YOURSELF first and foremost!!! Always!!! This is the Golden Rule!!!
So people (imagined or otherwise) think his style is """Basic""". Okay! That's literally not a crime anyone can arrest you for!! So what if you're LITERALLY starting and your art looks """basic"""!!!!!!! WHAT IS THE CRIME HERE!!!! CAN'T MY MAN JUST CREATE IN PEACE!!!! LET HIM COOK!!!!!
If he's starting out, i think it's pretty expected of him to just have a "basic" style you know? He shouldn't be ashamed of it! The best chef in the entire world right now didn't start making The Most Delicious Food To Ever Grace Anyone's Plate on DAY 1. They probably started with a goshdang sandwich. Many of them maybe. Until they could make the Perfect Sandwich even in their Sleep and only until then they felt ready enough to explore Further Possibilities In The Kitchen.
(Is this metaphor working? I sure hope it is!)
Anyway.
"How did you not feel like shit looking at how it could be better but you don't know how?"
Well that's a fun question because to this day I get extremely frustrated whenever I realize my Art Level isn't up to my standards. But THAT'S OKAY- even in my case!
If you're Serious About Art (as in, you LOVE making art) you'll constantly feel like you're having to catch up to artists that are doing MILES better than you. Which happens to everyone. Truly it's only the curse of having A Good Taste In Art (so you automatically Set Standards For Yourself based on what you personally consider Great Art).
So again, something to not be ashamed of. But also something to Learn To Live with. I get it!! I truly do!! You see some guy online who apparently is only 14 and they're already making compositions with complex perspectives and an amazing sense of color theory and you'll want to bite off your hands!!!! But you can't let that stop you!!
You're just gonna have to learn to Fail, Constantly. Failing Gracefully! Sucking At Art Again and Again!
You might think this conflicts with the Golden Rule (i mean, if you're not happy with your own art- then what's the point yeah?)
But it's all about Love babey. Loving the process of failing constantly, because deep down you REALIZE you're learning how not to suck little by little.
It's also an exercise in letting Spite guide you. So what if you're bad!!!!!! What if you've somehow committed the crime of being A Bad Artist!!!!!! The cops will never catch me fucker!!!!! SEE HOW I DESECRATE THE HOLY ACT OF "CREATING GOOD ART" AHAHAHAHA!!!! LITERALLY NOBODY CAN STOP ME!!!!! <- the attitude to Have. Yes you gotta be prepared to be Unhinged and to have active Disdain towards 4th Plane Entities that are probably judging your art quality. (Unless my experiences aren't universal and nobody else feels a salacious self-satisfaction whenever they draw something that looks like an affront to The Universe, knowing they can just Try Again).
Anyway those are the benefits of sprinkling a little Spite alongside all the Love for the process of Making Art.
At the start you might feel like you're only making bad art. So! Own it! unironically my life philosophy is that everyone should make more BAD ART!!! ARTISTS OF THE WORLD UNITE TO MAKE MORE BAD ART, YOU HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE BUT YOUR CHAINS!
that's for the mental approach at least.
So, what about the technical side? How do you actually take all those feelings of inadequacy and wrangle them into something productive that will help YOU get better at the art you want to make?
with the warning that i am a self taught artist so i might not the the perfect person to ask, but truly the most IMPORTANT skill you want to hone is OBSERVATION and COPYING WHAT YOU OBSERVE.
Basically you're gonna study the artists you like! You're gonna stare REAL HARD at the details in the art they make! And THEN. You're gonna try to copy THAT! Hell, you might even want to TRACE what they do at first** (**THIS ADVICE IS FOR PRACTICING. DO NOT TRACE AND THEN POST ONLINE FOR OTHERS TO GO "hey man wtf this is just you tracing X Artist" DO NOT!!! DO THAT!!!) just so you get a feel for what they have in their art that You Don't and learning how to slowly replicate that.
That's how I learned the ropes at least. Literally printing manga panels and then tracing over them during my Peak Weeb Years. Ah little snaily, how time flies. Another thing i liked to do was watch speedpaints of artists i liked but at like -2x speed. So it was a slowpaint and i could STEAL THEIR SECRETS <- another valuable art skill
Anyway, that's what I think it's the most important (to observe!)
...but also you might want to either take art classes OR watch a buuuuunch of tutorials on youtube for The Basics (basic anatomy! shading! values! color theory! perspective! gesture drawing!!!)
You feel like shit about your art? Fine! Then realize your life is your own and you have the absolute power to change that directly!! GO ON YOUTUBE AND LEARN THOSE BASICS!!!!!! don't be like me and struggle this much with perspective after years of making art!!!! (Though in all fairness, even those good at it struggle with it lol)
So! I am all out of advice for a newer artist.
TL,DR: YOU WILL SUCK A LOT AT FIRST BUT THE MORE YOU PRACTICE AND LEARN ABOUT YOUR FAILURES, THE MORE YOU'LL LOVE TO SEE YOUR IMPROVEMENT AND EVENTUALLY YOU'LL BE ABLE TO DO THE ART YOU WANT TO MAKE.
Peng if you could forward this to your bf i would be very grateful. Good luck to you two!!! Thank you for reaching out!! And remember!! Never give up!!!!!
#ask box#pengdaw2nd#*rips off shirt to reveal shirt underneath that says I LOVE ART AND ALL IT ENTAILS*
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