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mars-ipan · 18 days ago

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see kelper here’s the thing: you can tell priest au!hajime to run all you want but… run??? from Father Komaeda??? if he runs from the house of God will he not simply be running into the arms of the devil? Father Komaeda is going to Fix him, he swore he would. he’s leading him to the light, he’s going to free him from his sin. hajime just has to try harder, but Father Komaeda believes in him. he can’t disappoint the only person who’s ever seen him for the vile thing he is and forgiven him. what would he do without him? he can’t absolve himself of sin on his own, he needs Father Komaeda to assist him in resisting temptation. after years of running from his shame, he’s finally brave enough to face it head on, to see the light of God and be washed of his impurities. don’t you see? God is good. this is good.

yeah he’s um. not leaving that church anytime soon

i am sat here in horror and fear and i am deeply scared of you my brother in christ this IS the spooky mormon hell dream

#priest au #you see i came up with this after i got a confession on thirst actually #an anon who is now one of my mutuals mentioned corruption/gay conversion (christianity flavor)#and my beautiful genius brain (<- miu moment) went ‘!!! priest au . kmda priest hajime sinner. yeassssss’#so the manipulation is kinda. baked in. sorry hajime!!! get in the torment nexus :]#what if you. were an incredibly self-hating gay man. and you chose to confess to a priest in the town you just moved into #and he said. ‘i’ll save you :)’#and then he methodically manipulated you into falling head over heels for him. and you were unaware and blamed yourself for your desires #anywho. i’m not a fanfic author (if anyone wrote a priest au fic i’d shake and cry and throw up (positive))#but i DO enjoy making concept art. and hoo boy do i have Ideas :]#as for how the details come to my mind.#i like the Themes of catholicism and guilt and repression and power. and mmm biblical allusion yummy #so i dig around in those and see what i think would go good with what i already have #one of the first things i did when doing research for this au (baptised lutheran and stopped going to church at age 5 lol)#was look up bible verses about false prophets #it was mostly to find a good caption for Tha Art but it also helped with inspo a bit #i like symbolism and parallels and manipulation and something dark masquerading as something bright #and as a gay person i like the themes of repression and guilt. no matter how comfy one gets in their identity #we are societally conditioned to feel ashamed about it #so it’s kinda satisfying to make art that centers that yanno. even if. hajime never really unlearns his guilt #if i can’t fix the problem i can at least make it hot amen ^-^

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