#so that being like? betrayed? broken? rly rly freaked me out
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Visit Tumblr Blog
Explore Tumblr blogs with no restrictions, modern design and the best experience.
Last Seen Tumblr Blogs
Fun Fact
Tumblr has been banned in Indonesia for providing people with access to pornographic content.
Text
god im still freaked out bc one of my new co-workers looks exactly like someone else i know (and... dislike) and when he greeted me i thought it was him bc he had the same mannerisms and everything and djfjwjjd he's probably a very nice person and all but being in the same room as him gave me the creeps bc ... the resemblance was Literally uncanny
#i think he saw me turn around and go 😬😬😬 snjskaks oops#funny bc i was sure someone else i hated worked there .. joys of a small town huh#:( fr tho he genuinely unsettled me and i feel bad abt it bc he seemed nice! he greeted me as tho we knew each other#which was scary bc of the circumstances but hes probably friendly!#but. he looks like someone who scares the shitttt out of me and who i wld not wanna be in a kitchen with#😔 the logical thing to do is be friends w him and realise he looks nothing like him#but the mannerisms.. like it wasnt just his face it was EVERYTHING#and this comes frm someone who is amazing w faces. like i cant do names but i have a weird photographic face memory#i once saw someone i went to primary with and recognised her instantly bc i can just do that#so that being like? betrayed? broken? rly rly freaked me out#and if it was like a normal person or a friend i wldve been fine w it but... no it was a total creep sjkskskksjsj#like. how did a man who ****** ** ** ***** and ****** *** ** get a job ajdkakdkakk 😬😬😬 turns out he didnt! whew!#not to mention he ******* ** ****** dksksksk...... but apparently now hes ********* **** * *** ***** which sounds harmless BUT#that's what he did before and look how that turned out . 😔 *** ** *********** .....#andjajdksdjs wow i love being vague abt ppl who nobody gives a shit abt 😌😌but ykno doxxing and u never know#maybe ** ** ***** ******* ** **** even now 😬 we just cant be sure lads!#tbh there was a point where it was like. well hes ******* ** ****** and he ***** ***** * ****... yeah i started double locking the door#anyway. enough vaguing 😬 nobody will ever decifer any of that#tho i wld like to reiterate: ** ****** ** ** *****!!!!!!! and its funny yeah sure its a funny thing but um. ******* *******... so.. yeah..#we dont have time to unpack ALL that! but . whatever.#um.txt
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
un popular opinion. you know in lis ep 1 when there’s all the options with the fight with david and taking the blame or blaming chloe or stepping in or hiding etc. and like......................... everyone absolutely hates the ‘blame chloe’ option outside of the closet bc like, chloe threw max under the bus, and then gets hit and gets mad at max, and is like ‘i wish i never even SAW you i’m out of here’.
I ...........’m With Her. y’all could’ve guessed bc i’m crazy chloe stan #1 or whatever but like. seriously ???????????? she’s fucking terrified of david. she tells max to hide. because she’s scared of what her step dad will say abt her simply having A Friend. because he won’t trust her. because he victimizes her. becoz he gets mad at her for anything. she was just enjoying herself w a friend for the first time in like 6 months and she hasn’t even conversed w david yet but is suddenly freaking out simply at her stepdad coming home. her step dad who abuses her. then max doesnt hide. and things go to shit. david’s found her weed. he’s getting angry. she is a terrified teenage girl. used to being given SHIT by this ex veteran. she thinks in a split second. fuck. maybe he wont get so mad if its not mine?? he wont hit max?? max can maybe do me a favour here after all we used to be best friends and we used to lean on each other as kids and i’ll make it up to her and FUCK my step dad looks like he’s gonna kill me??????? and max. is like. nah its not my weed. now chloe is Un Stable and Broken so shes just thinking like: max who left chloe for years and didnt contact her once and broke her heart and betrayed her and didnt even tell her why. again. doesnt step in. doesnt care about her. isn’t the same as when they were kids. and BOOM she gets slapped. so when david leavs the room and max reaches out to her like -- are u ok? she’s like FUCK this. this is fake. you dont care abt me rly. u didnt even ask if i was ok all those years bc u didnt care abt me. YKNO CHLOE’S LIKE....... IN THAT HEADSPACE TO THINK THT SHIT YKNO she’s messed up and plain mean and yeah anyway
i think her reaction was????? not really that extreme when u think abt it all and take it in. like do i condone that????? would i personally throw my friend under the bus and then get mad when they dont like it??? no i wouldnt. but i KNOW why chloe would. and i understand and forgive her for it (JUST LIKE MAX WOULD)
and.... like..................... chloe drops it after a while too like. they still chat away in the next scene and end up holdin hands and shit, she’s just subdued at the start bc she’s been fuckin assaulted and not backed up by her ex best friend. like.... they still fuckin fall in love and chloe still does so much for max .... she just gets heated up in the moment ykno.... those paranoid selfworth thoughts mixed with the god dang FEAR of her step father she hides behind her aggression. she’s temperamental n stuff ykno but she always drops the shit or apologises afterwards (kate, ep3 breakdown) and i undersTAND it.
so this ramble was basically me ... talking through the Event that people often think is chloe being the WORST of the Worstcunts,, the manipulative evil bitch of all time,,,,,,,,, and bein like. Well actually.............................. i dont give a shit if she was mean to maxie yknow why not bc SHE’S HURT AND SCARED AND ABANDONED AND ALONE so there .
27 notes
·
View notes
Text
Dudes and Dudines
This is gonna get rly rly personal
Today was my last obligatory day at school.
It has been 4224 days since my first day at school and since some hours it is over.
It is just over.
And I am sitting here as a melancholic, nostalgic bit of something almost crying when remembering everything that happened within this time
I need some space to put all of my thoughts down idc if u r interested it just needs to be written down bc I am almost going crazy
Disclaimer: Not in chronological Order
Throughout these 12 years I...
... made awesome friends
... got betrayed three times
... betrayed once
... fell in love so often
... kissed a lot of boys
... kissed some girls
... cried while watching The fault in our stars and cured it with pizza
... had a BBQ party I trace all my summer 2015 back to just because I get goosebumps by remembering the feeling of running on the streets at midnight with my best friends and taking photos
... had bonfires
... had the most awkward swimming pool date ever
... found true love after three failed attempts
... made chocolate fondue in a mug
... visited festivals and concerts
... got covered in Neon paint
... had the most painful yet sweet lovestory and therefore lost an awesome friend who still ignores me now and it hurted
... Took Photos in photo boxes
... got wasted
... danced through the night streets of Prague
... drove in a boat and sang out loudly with the boy mentioned 4 lines up next to me and it was weird
... cried til my head ached
... laughed til my belly hurted
...loved too hard
... played the piano
... did freaky photoshoots
... made the most diabetic hot cocoa ever
... almost kissed my best friend (and yes it was weird again)
... changed my school which was the best decision of my life
... played spin the bottle when I was like 12 and told my nowaday’s boyfriend that he was the prettiest guy in the room (back then it freaked him out)
... had awkwardly cute birthday parties (like the first with boys. omg we were young)
... played spin the bottle again and got excited about silly questions
... fell in love with bandanas
... spent an evening on the riverside drinking and making a cool friend who I took care of later bc he had to much :D
... danced barefoot at midnight to an unknown rockband
... chalk-painted a whole street with rap-quotes to take revenge from the boy that hurt me
... spread take-away unicorns
... spent nights drinking and in the discos
... organized a theatre play
... wrote poems
... started two blogs (none of them still running sadly)
... experienced what it means to talk too much
... experienced how badly you can get attached to someone that out of a sudden likes you
... drove a motorboat myself
... learned to drive a motorbike
... bought a motorbike
... had two minor accidents
... started to learn how to let go
... drove around on bikes with the music loud and hands away from handlebars
... took night trips over the skyline
... danced with my friends so often and felt happy
... did not care about anything
... cared too much
... learned a lot about myself (not going into detail here)
... visited 9 countries
... had two of the most awesome exchanges <3
... discovered I am bisexual
... ate pancakes on a rooftop at night
... committed myself to music
... discovered a plateau which became my number one spot to run away from the world
... went skiing with school and threw everyone out of the ski lift
... had a snowballfight with three dudes that turned to be out really good friends some years later
... experienced how awesome it is to have the right group of friends around (thanks to J,N,R,A,N,F,A)
... experienced how much it hurts when this group breaks up
... watched the stars while comforting a friend that just got heartbroken
... broke hearts
... had my heart broken more than once
... got picked with a scooter and had my first kiss with the driver
... ran through the neighbourhood in my pajamas to play video games when I was supposed to sleep
... regretted being too tightened up
... regretted being too loose
... quoted the 10 Things I Hate About You poem and put it in the pocket of someone bc I was sorry
... put a song and a note in the same pocket hoping for a last chance
... wasted the last chance
... experienced how it feels to be left alone when it gets hard twice
... grew stronger by that
... shared a bedroll
... randomly slept on meadows
... cooked food over a bonfire
... had a NYE party at my house which was awesome but the start of the most painful love experience up to now
... was jealous
... forgave too easily
... painted a boy’s nails
... got attached to the smell of some boys while sleeping in their arms
... spray painted the hair of everyone in school (sorryyyy)
... flirted via chat (omg. yes I was young don’t judge me)
... had huge downs regretting everything
... in the end regret nothing.
The songs that guided me and meant a lot (or too much):
Teenage Dirtbag -Wheatus
Someone Kill the DJ - Greenday
California - The Offspring
Bleeding Out - Imagine Dragons
Immer für dich da - Majoe
Wish you were here - Pink Floyd
All the Small things - Blink 182
Zombie - The Cranberries
Enjoy the Silence - Depeche Mode
Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol
Well what am I gonna say
I am sitting here listening to “It’s time” by Imagine dragons and well..
It is time to begin isn’t it?
I am afraid
I am glad
But overall I just started crying 3 times while remembering all that happened.. I am so cheesy n melancholic I know but whatever the time was good, bad, meaningful, painful, lovely, funny and taught me a lot. I thank every single one who was part of this years. Over now.
Good night
0 notes