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sanji taking a mental health break mid battle is still one of my favourite things in the wano arc
#one piece#sanji#go king go take a little break to do some introspection and reevaluate your relationship with your bio dad#mans got royal daddy issues (haha)#genuinely i adore this so much#like the stakes were so high#and yet he was like wait. what if i become what my father (derogatory) wants me to be? not on my watch#i love you little man#so stupid and so mentally ill#protect your peace king#elle rewatches wano arc#one piece spoilers
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rook: *obvious flirting* emmrich: 😲😲😲🤯🤯🤯😳😳😳??????????
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#veilguard spoilers#da4 spoilers#dragon age veilguard spoilers#da veilguard spoilers#dragon age veilguard#dragon age 4#emmrich volkarin#emmrich x rook#emmrook#rookrich#dragon age#da4edit#da4gifs#dragon age edit#dragon age gifs#video games#my gifs#UH OH UH OH GUESS WHO HAS BRAIN WORMS#me??? falling in love with a fictional old man??? who couldve seen this coming#my rook is dumb small gay and stupid. he wants that old man BAD#which makes it so funny when emmrich is constantly reacting like THIS whenever rook flirts with him#im already on my third veilguard playthrough....theres something wrong with me#love getting absolutely obsessed with a piece of media in a mentally ill way to escape from my problems <3
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hey btw if you're in the USA at 2:20 p.m. ET on Wednesday, Oct. 4, they're testing the emergency broadcast system. your phone is probably going to make a really loud noise, even if it's on silent. there's a backup date on the 11th if they need to postpone it.
if you're not in a safe situation and have an extra phone, you should turn that phone completely off beforehand.
additionally, if you're like me, and are easily startled; i recommend treating it like a party. have a countdown or something. be surrounded by your loved ones. take the actions you personally need to take to make yourself safe.
i have already seen mockery towards any person who feels nervous about this. for the record, it completely, completely valid to have "emergency broadcast sounds" be an anxiety trigger. do not let other people make fun of you for that. emergency sounds are legitimately engineered to make us take action; those of us with high levels of anxiety and/or neurodivergence are already pre-disposed to have a Bad Time. sometimes it is best to acknowledge that the situation will be triggering for some, and to prepare for that; rather than just saying "well that's stupid, it's just a test."
"loud scary sound time" isn't like, my favorite thing, but we can at least try to prevent some additional anxiety by preparing for it. maybe get yourself a cake? noise cancelling headphones? the new hozier album? whatever helps. love u, hope you're okay. we are gonna ride it out together.
#watching ppl go from being like ''support neurodivergent ppl~~!"#to being like ''if this is going to give u a panic attack ur fuckken stupid''#like..... gets me#yeah man. i know im going to be triggered by it . in the old fashioned term. it is GOING to give me a panic attack. it's pretty much certai#and i shouldn't have to tell u about what i have survived for you to be okay with that.#you can just trust that i ALSO don't want me to react to it. i'm not gonna be having a FUN time.#dismissing that bc you think it's stupid.... like is the whole problem.#these sounds are workshopped by entire teams of people to get you to pay attention and move quickly.#they arent meant to be fun and exciting.#OBVIOUSLY it's gonna set ppl off.#but yeah there's something so fuckken demeaning about ppl being like. well that trigger isn't valid bc u haven't undergone X#dude i have ptsd bc i was abused as a child. like plain and simple. the fact im 30 and afraid of the dark tells you how bad it was.#i shouldn't have to ask u for permission to be mentally ill.#the reason it's a fucking disorder and not a fucking choice is that I DO NOT CONTROL IT.#like how is it any different from when ppl are like ''oh public speaking isn't that scary'' like FOR YOU#for YOU this isn't scary. now if i could fucking eat my own amygdala...
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☆ even the gods bleed [ pt 2 ]
{☆} characters furina, neuvillette {☆} notes cult au, imposter au, multi-chapter, gender neutral reader {☆} warnings none {☆} word count 1.9k {☆} previous [ 1 ]
This had to be a punishment of some sort – some kind of divine punishment.
She was bored out of her mind just watching the sleeping body – she hadn't blinked once in the past five hours, her eyes were really starting to hurt. Yet they still hadn't moved so much as an inch since she sequestered them away to the only place she had known to be safe.
But it'd been almost a week since then.
The only solace she found was that Teyvat had seemed much less hellbent on collapsing in on itself like a dying star.
That counted for something.
Not much, but something!
..Even if their position was no better then it was a week ago.
There was, after all, still the issue of what to do about the false Creator – the actual imposter – and the Archons following them like blind lambs. The other Archons wouldn't listen if she tried to reason with them, and it would only risk the life of Divine One if she spoke of their location to anyone else.
She also was pretty fond of having her head still attached to her shoulders.
So she avoided them all together. Partially because she wasn't sure she wouldn't have a breakdown at the sight of them..she'd never been a fighter, and fighting an Archon? Easy pass.
Instead she was forced to babysit the sleeping Divine until they woke up while Neuvillette handled taking care of the nation and dealing with the other Archons – and by extension the false Creator.
Really though, she would almost think them dead if not for the subtle rise and fall of their chest.
Though..this also left her with a lot of time to herself. A lot of time to think.
She really didn't like it.
There wasn't a lot to occupy her mind and what little there was only distracted her for a scant few moments before her eyes drifted back to the Divine like she was locked in their orbit, unable to escape.
She closed the same book for the twelfth time – she kept count – and returned it to it's meticulously designed place within her bookcase. A low, barely audible huff of frustration escaped her lips before she could bite it down, her stare boring a hole into the body of the Divine One with a sharp intensity she rarely showed.
She was tired, bored and constantly on edge, fearing that at any moment someone would find out about their presence here.
That, at the drop of a hat, she would be powerless to stop the greatest tragedy of her time play out before her eyes.
Neuvillette would have scolded her for being so petulant, especially around the Divine One, if he were here.
But he wasn't.
He was out running her nation, instead.
And what was she doing? Nothing!
She grit her teeth, nails digging harshly into the palm of her hands as she took a deep breath – now was not the time to think about that. She had..much more pressing matters. Sulking and letting her thoughts spiral helped no one, least of all herself.
Yet her attention was caught by a harsh inhale, the rustle of fabric – were they finally waking up? She was exhausted, but it all vanished at the sudden drop of life within the otherwise deathly still body of the Divine.
Her eyes followed the subtle twitch of their fingers, watching as their brow furrowed and their features twisted in something almost like..pain.
..She wasn't ready.
What was she supposed to say?
Should she even say anything? Would that be considered impolite? Does she wait for them to speak first? Should she kneel? Bow?
She doesn't get much time to find her own answer before their lashes flutter, chest heaving with every strangled breath. Every single thought vanishes from her mind the moment she meets their eyes.
For a long, silent moment she thinks that her heart must have stopped.
Their eyes glow like the cresting of the sun over the horizon, painting the world in hues of gold – yet it also reminded her of the dipping of the moon below the waves, casting the briefest, most gentle of lights upon the world engulfed in darkness. In the depths of their eyes was the birth and death of stars in the infinite cosmos – glittering stars in a sea of empty, blank space that left her feeling lightheaded and breathless.
Beneath the splendor is a spark of recognition in their eyes so vibrant it was like a shooting star piercing through the dark night sky, leaving nothing but the wonder in the eyes of the observer as the only proof it ever existed – brilliant in it's beauty, however brief.
It is the most beautiful thing she has ever seen.
"Focalors?"
The lilt of their voice nearly made her knees buckle beneath her – euphoria so consuming it left her feeling she was starving swallowed her whole, her mind blanking in a moment of utter bliss. It was..an indescribable feeling that she doubted she could ever hope to put into words – not in a way that could properly express it, try as she might.
She swallowed the words that threatened to spill from her lips – she couldn't make a fool of herself. Not in front of them of all people. She'd never forgive herself.
"Divine One," She rasps, clearing her throat and covering her mouth with a hand to mask both her nervousness and the small smile that creeps across her face. She quickly regains her composure, hand resting on her hip as she puffs out her chest with every bit of pride she can manage. "I am sure you must be confused, but worry not– your most loyal acolyte has seen the truth!"
The silence is deafening.
She opens one eye, peaking at the bewildered and almost distraught expression of the Divine.
"What the hell are you talking about?"
That..she was not prepared for. Surely they knew who they were! Surely they knew. They had to– she's been praying to them for as long as she's breathed, she's dedicated every hour of her life to living up to their ideals, they can't just–!
"Lady Furina?"
Neuvillette, thankfully, spares her the embarrassment of having a meltdown in front of the Divine, the gentle rap of his knuckles against the door making her and the Divine pause, the soft lull of his voice soothing her nerves and yet setting her on edge at the same time.
"Neuvillette." She clears her throat again, her steps hurried as she marches to the door and pries it open none too gently, a forced smile pulling at her lips. She wastes no time tugging the man into the room, shutting the door behind him with a short huff. The silence is, somehow, even worse then before as the three of them stare at each other in absolute exasperation.
Neuvillette, for his part, manages to get his act together with a sharp clearing of his throat, bowing so low even she looks unnerved. She steals a brief glance at the Divine, and she's taken aback by the uncomfortability twisting their features into a grimace.
Their expression is schooled back into one of empty apathy when he stands back to his full height, but she saw it – she knows she did! Did they not like their worship? Were they not respectful enough? For a moment, she feared the Divine would smite Neuvillette down on the spot..but they just stared at him like he was a ghost.
"Why aren't you killing me?"
The defeated, resigned tone combined with the way their voice cracks makes her heart ache in her chest – it feels as though her entire world is crumbling down at her feet, and she cannot explain why she feels such emotions so strongly, but it is suffocating. It is almost as if Teyvat itself is weeping, bearing down upon her shoulders like a heavy weight.
She feels the urge to weep herself, but she powers through, gritting her teeth long enough for Neuvillette to take his place at the side of her – though it feels more like their – bed, kneeling like he was going to pray.
"Divine One," He offers a hand with a quiet rumble of his voice, the words slipping off his tongue like honey. It's like trying to soothe a stray cat..though she'd never voice such comparisons of the most Divine out loud. "I..we mean you no harm. I swear on my authority as the Iudex of Fontaine and Chief Justice that you are safe with us."
The skepticism she expected, but the reverence in which Neuvillette must convince them – or perhaps they are simply so tired that they simply did not care any longer if it was all some ploy to drive a knife between their ribs. She didn't expect them to actually place their hand in Neuvillette's.
He didn't either, judging by the way he visibly brightened – not that they'd notice, but she did.
..Not that she could really blame him, her heels clicking against the floorboards as she shifted her weight to the other foot with a nervous energy that was practically bursting at the seams, more then a little jealous of the attention he was receiving. She was the one who found them, she was the one who stayed with them the entire time..but he gets all the attention?
How unfair.
"O-of course! We would never lay a hand on our creator," She adds, her voice a little higher pitched then she would have liked as she placed her hands on her hips, puffing out her chest and brushing off the sting of jealousy. "Least of all I– your most loyal, most devout acolyte!"
She felt baffled when she heard the sound of their laughter, her shoulders hunching and her cheeks flushing on mere instinct – she was expecting mockery, but the look in their eyes, still dulled by a pain she cannot even begin to imagine, made her hesitate.
..It was, perhaps, the most genuine thing she'd heard from them ever since before the hunt began.
She wasn't sure why her heart hurt at such an idea, but it was enthralling to see the beginnings of a half hearted smile on their lips.
For a moment, her mask of theatrics was forgotten as she stared at them in a mixture of awe and adoration– and though she didn't look at Neuvillette, she could imagine he must've shared such an expression.
Had she any doubts that they were her Creator, that they alone were the most Divine..they would wiped clean now. There was no mistaking the way the world itself seemed to grow clearer as they glanced up at her like she was worth something.
For a moment, she realized how cold the false Creators gaze had been now that she has felt warmth so gentle it almost made her knees buckle beneath her. It felt like a pale imitation, now.
Nothing could compare to the warmth that spread through her body at the mere semblance of a smile upon their lips. She didn't even mind if it was her they were laughing at anymore, she just wanted to hear them laugh again.
She'd make a fool of herself, if she had to.
She'd never felt so..ravenous for such a thing, but just the briefest glimpse was addictive.
She simply couldn't help herself from striding across the room and clasping their free hand in her own, her smile wide enough to unnerve as she leaned her weight onto the bed. For a moment, she considered pulling away at the way they startled, but her mind was made up by then – there was no going back.
"Again."
#sagau#genshin sagau#self aware genshin#genshin impact sagau#self aware genshin impact#fic tag#neuvillette#focalors#furina#dont ask what happened here idk#this was. also supposed 2 be neuvi focused and then i.#dont talk 2 me abt focalors i wont ever shut up#got a 300k word essay on hand abt how i feel abt her character/how i interpret her personality and her story#focalors jsut like me fr fr (cries at the slightest inconvenience or the slightest mean comment)#shes so pathetic girlfail im gonna chew on her#what happens when reader gets stuck with two emotionally repressed french bastards?? hell#neuvi is the ��emotionless” flavor of emotionally repressed in that hes HORRIBLE at showing emotions at all#ask him to smile and its incredibly unnerving and theres too many teeth but hes trying his best please call him pretty or he will cry :(#furina is the flavor of emotionally repressed where she makes it up by having Too Many emotions#using theatrics and masks to show everyone what they want to see but inside this girl is a MESS#constant anxiety and panic 24/7#will do random shit and look at you and if u dont compliment her she will think u hate her and cry#compliment her and she'll do even stupider shit to try and impress you more#i love my scrunkly little babies they r so stupid and mentally ill someone get these bitches some THERAPY#i want 2 put them under a microscope#watch this be ooc fr furina when more of her lore drops if shes not girlfail im leaving#anyway see u in a week im going on a trip ill get back 2 u in 6-7 business days
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“nobody understands me” but not in the “edgy suffering from teenager syndrome mad at mom” kind of way, but the “lonely isolating young adult realization that the specific combination of mental illnesses and past experiences i’ve had have resulted in a pattern of behaviors that are often misinterpreted and misconstrued by others” type of way
#maybe it’s the mental illness but boy howdy do i feel like an outsider#as a teenager it’s usually the feeling that everybody else is a stick in the mud and stupider than you kind of stuff#now i’m feeling like everybody else is a real person while i’m only partially a person#like there’s so much of myself missing and i can’t seem to relate with anybody else#it’s lonely feeling like nobody would understand how my brain works even if i tried to explain it to them#idk how to tag this but i hope anybody else can relate#actually neurodivergent#actually neurodiverse#adhd#actually adhd#ocd#mental illness#mentally ill#neurodivergent#👁🗨#🌀
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why is their name siffrin when you siff in the cold food and siff out hot eat the food
#While im posting this the wxs nyansei 2dmv got annoynced. needless to say WHY ARE YOU KKITY. WHY SO KITTY. WHY SO KITTY.#fitting for while my isat brainrot hits (siffrin often known to kitty)#isat#in stars and time#siffrin#I love playing games super late. im crazy btw#devastating for me to spend ~40 hours eating every piece of flavor text and hear theres a secret boss and go OMG THERES MORE HEHEEE#only to see that i just happened to fulfill the requirements for the secret boss on my own and already did it. so#steam achievement hunting vy interacting with every single pillar can fill the star shaped hole isat has left. (lol) (lol) (lol)#odile i think they are going to put me in a mental hospital#i have another drawing i did but its edgy so now im looking down on it. which is stupid. but well.#sigh ill post it kicks a rock and it ricochts off the wall and hits me right in the head like a brick
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"Depression isn't an excuse to not shower-"
YES IT FUCKING IS
For the love of god, be happy this person is trying their best to stay alive instead of critiquing their hygiene
This person is currently going through a lot, BE KIND FFS
Tell them if they are doing ok, ask if they need help, link them some tips for hygiene care with depression if you're close
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY
DO NOT JUDGE
Nobody who is fine mentally ACTIVELY CHOOSES to stay dirty and smelly
It can be a call for help, it can be due to financial issues, it can be because they have sh scars that burn when met with water, they might have OCD or other mental disorder that prevents them from washing and so many more
AND YOU'RE SHAMING THEM
If you really care for this person
HELP THEM, NO QUESTIONS ASKED
Everybody deserves help, regardless of the fact if they smell bad
PERIOD
#Can you tell this is personal experience#Omg people are so fucking stupid#jiraiblr#jirai girl#jirai kei#jiraiblogging#landmineblr#landmine girl#landmineblogging#landmine kei#jirai onna#depression#tw depression#tw depressive#mental health#mental illness#actually mentally ill#menhera#pien kei
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....I just wanted to draw gators :T at this point these 2 are more 'a representation of my last 2 brain cells' then they are actual characters 😅
#im living vicariously through the cartoon guys#because i want to A. pick up gator (strong man style)#and B. ..pick up gator (hug)#ok but so i recently found out an area where i take stupid little walks for my stupid little mental health#has! GATORS!! (potentially. theres signs.)#and this is great cause seeing gators would def heal me as a person#but ok so when i look for hiking places i always look north cause the terrains more hilly#but now im lookin south more cause turns out i AM in fact far enough south to see gators!!#and yeah looks like theres a handful of nature reserves w hiking trails the same distance away as the little mountain trails i go to#its flatter and the trails are less extensive so ill hafta see if i think its worth it#but then too theres a really big black water swamp that.. further away then i wanna drive..#but also i drove 5 hrs once just to go to mammoth cave as a day trip so.. we'll see..#my friend says he wont go w me tho :T he'll just report me missing#this has been a tag ramble about my sudden outset intrest in seeing a gator#my bullshit#lol barely but still#also- i told myself not to over do it drawin the scales or coloring it#and as you can see i dont listen to myself ever#lol they look outta place but idc i got to draw 2 of my favorite characters and also ALLIGATORS :U#living the dream rn
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Out of every ship i have been invested in, which isn't a whole lot but still, I think that narumitsu is the most justified in being the most painfully slow burn to ever have burned. Like, it's obvious to literally everyone around them that there is something between them but it still takes twenty years to do anything about it. Not because they're stupid but they're both just specific types of fucked up that make getting into a relationship kind of impossible.
They're both seemingly very reluctant to get into any sort of romantic relationships in the first place, one due to general disinterest and a truly incredible amount of emotional constipation, and the other due to his last (and only known) relationship being so fucked up that he kind of gave up on the concept entirely. Them being excruciatingly in denial about being in love for decades is just so in character because they're just Like That.
Their history is also complicated enough to warrant waiting around for each other forever, there's so much baggage and trauma and hurt between them that it's just crazy. They've saved each other and they've hurt each other and they push each other away, they owe each other their lives and their jobs and their hopes. They would do anything for each other but are still pretty justified in being afraid to take the last step into making their relationship not just platonic.
idk it feels like a lot of other ships fall into the infuriatingly slow romance because the characters are too stupid to take a hint and it's just kind of painful after a while but these are the most hilariously repressed characters I have ever seen and while they might be stupid about their own feelings, it's usually stemming from trauma which is far more interesting for me personally lol.
#my pet peeve in fics is when they admit to being stupid after pining for so long like NO YOURE TRAUMATIZED#THEY'RE JUST MENTALLY ILL#also they are some of the most non explicitly aroace characters I feel like I've come across#also its so funny to think about how gradual their attraction towards each other could have been#they start out pretty strong but are constantly toeing the line between platonic and romantic while thinking its all platonic#everyone thinks theyre married but they haven't even kissed yet#narumitsu#wrightworth#pheonix wright#miles edgeworth#ace attorney#sorry for rambling again
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Another thing that makes kaladin so painfully relatable is how much his mental illness hides his personality, because between depressive episodes and trauma he's this sarcastic little shit that smiles a lot at his friends and then the depression gets to him and all that disappears
#I'm dreading book 4 so much#my depression got worse while reading it the first time 😭#also I don't remember exactly what but multiple times he says stuff that i think too often and having a fictional character say that l#ridiculous stuff caused by mental illness made me feel even worse#it helped! because it hit me how stupid it is and that i should avoid that type of thinking at all costs! but didn't i feel like shit for a#while#now i almost finished book 1 and book 2 has Shallan's past 😬😬😬😬😬#can't wait to read again about her horrible childhood locked home with a violent father that take out his rage at her on others#that won't make me feel horrible at all!#it's not like i wasn't almost crying just at her getting an anxiety attack at the beginning#....these books feels awfully aimed at me fjskdks#the stormlight archive#cosmere
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clearpilled and mentally sane
hey there ;)
#creepypasta#ticci toby#toby erin rogers#slender proxy#shitpost#art#my art#crp#old fandom#creepypasta fanart#toby creepypasta#trying to get a diagnosis for a cluster b personality disorder but the traits overlap so much i dont know where to start ARGH#i know toby is bipolar in canon i just.. wanted some cluster b rep too lol#little rant but there's so little like accurate rep of people with mental illnesses in the crp fandom#like they headcanon some to have aspd then procede to say that people with aspd can't experience love or general nonsense like that#it is stupid#and it makes me mad#i am a hater but i am not targetting anyone this time it's just a general thing i see
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Saw an american on twitter say the midnight release isn't that bad because Americans have had to watch Doctor Who drop at 2pm for years.
And i'm sorry but I cannot comprehend not understanding the difference between 2pm on a saturday and 12am on a saturday. One of those is lunch time. A very normal time to be watching a TV show. The other is a time when the majority of people should be alseep
I'm sure waiting for BBC America to air it, while spoilers ran rampant online, must have sucked. But it wouldn't have to anymore, if Disney just dropped the episodes at 2pm simultaneously with the TV release??
Choosing 12am over 2pm AND having an entirely seperate release for TV is the worst of all worlds. Its a baffling choice
#and i alseep? no because im mentally ill but my family is and most viewers will be#i will keep making posts about this because it baffles me so#its such a weird decision obviously based entirely on disney money and stupid metrics#doctor who#dw#doctor who news
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Also i need you guys to understand that out of NOWHERE Agent 1 has become my favorite helluva boss character and if you have any fanart of him ill kill for it HAHAHAHAHAH
#idk im mentally ill or something i like how pathetic he is#he just has so much charm#hes sleepy and stupid and useless but hes soooo motivated i wanna see him try and fail so bad#helluva fanart#helluva boss#hellaverse#helluva boss fanart#agent 1#agent one#agent 1 helluva boss#my art
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I know we're ignoring canon right now, but can. Can we just talk about Dabi's ending for a second? Because like. What the fuck? This guy's been suffering his entire life. From being abused by his father, to being kidnapped and experimented on while he's in a coma, just to escape and go home to find out his worst fears have come true, his family abandoned him, they never really cared. Then, he spends the next 8 years homeless, where he damages his body so much to the point he's being held together by staples? How painful was his daily life?? No wonder he wanted to die. His life was hell. And now, he spends his last days alive trapped in a fucking fish tank, in excruciating agony (you cannot tell me he isn't in any pain. He has no fucking skin left, along with his other injuries. Not to mention the emotional and psychological trauma once again inflicted on him). He doesn't get to choose whether or not he wants to keep living through this nightmare. He doesn't get to choose whether or not he wants Endeavor to visit him every day. No one asks him his opinion on any of this. They decide for him, and he doesn't have the strength left to protest. He can't move, can't talk, can't do anything. All he can do is sit there, watching on helplessly, with the knowledge that after his death, his family will once again leave him behind and forget all about him. He'll never see the League again, the only people in the world who actually loved him unconditionally and never saw him as a problem or a mistake. He has to die with the knowledge that he failed. His family won't ever truly see him as a person, and he never, not once in his life, got to be happy.
#is this stupid and incoherent? probably. im just so pissed.#the brutality of dabi's narrative is horrifying and uncomfortable#he never had a chance and the narrative blames him for it#even at the end he gets no relief. Only a horrific painful death.#oh well. maybe if he was born with a better quirk his life wouldn't have been an absolute nightmare from the moment he opened his eyes :(#sucks to be him right? anyway lets go look at the heroes smiling again :D#so disgusting that the disabled and mentally ill character ends up like this#while his abuser continues to be celebrated and supported by literally everyone#as a fellow disabled and mentally ill person: bbygrl you deserved so much better#bnha#mha#my hero academia#bnha spoilers#bnha manga spoilers#league of villains#todoroki touya#bnha dabi#bnha critical#bnha rant#anti endeavor
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i realize i will most likely never be loved the way i love and that i have always come second, third or fourth even tho i always make time to put people i care about first because i want the people in my life to feel loved in the same way that i so desperately want to be loved. just came to the realization that i will probably never ever get the love i truly want :,)
#actually bpd#actually mentally ill#bpd fp#bpd#actually borderline#bpd vent#bpd shitposting#bpd mood#bpd problems#bpd favorite person#i just want someone to be so in love with me that they couldn’t bare to have me put second#i want to be someone’s first priority.. especially his since he’s mine#but that’ll most likely never happen so :’)#i’m just putting my wishes into the internet because i have no one else to talk to about it.. he’s the only person i regularly talk to#at this point i’ve pushed away so many people that it would be stupid of me to try to renter their life knowing i’ll probably just ghost#again anyways#so if i ghosted you i’m sorry but i most likely won’t come back#just because you don’t deserve what i put people through
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maybe i thought about him too hard, but Two-Bit, who tries his best to be funny because even if just for a moment, he gets attention from his friends and everyone else who can’t help but at least smirk at the boy’s charming humor.
Two-Bit, who drinks alone every night he gets a chance, because he doesn’t have a best friend like the rest of the gang does.
who takes care of Pony whenever he gets the chance, because he doesn’t have anyone else to be with and he wants his friends to know he cares about them. even if he’s just the silly one, he’s got more of a brain than the other boys think he does, and he’s almost begging for them to realize.
the one who doesn’t have a girlfriend and is nearly failing school, but he still likes to go because he can charm his peers with his humor.
the one who still acts childish even though he wants his friends to realize he has a brain, because he gets attention out of it and he can’t stand feeling lonely or unseen.
#i’m mentally ill#the outsiders#the outsiders 1983#two bit mathews#the outsiders two bit#keith mathews#this is probably so stupid#i’m sorry
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