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konckalicious · 1 year ago

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i'm not gonna lie i'm currently just listening to fallen down from undertale and crying like a baby

#there's just so much bothering me all the time that there's no way the horrors will end that quickly #so much in life just isnt for me i think #i'm not built for any of this #i dont know what will even make me whole #nothing i think #it feels like im going to be this way forever and it feels so crushing #ive hoped so many times #so many people ive told that ill be fine #im sorry #thats a lie #i dont know what will happen to me #its scary #i dont feel like im ever gonna get better #ive never actually felt like this before #walking into the lab and immediately bursting into tears #not being able to stop crying for a half hour before inevitably just going home #staying up until 3 #4 or even 5 #just to get numb enough to not feel the fear or the sadness anymore #bursting into tears literally fucking anywhere #waiting for the train #on the train #in the middle of a party #now that i think about it this has been going on for even longer than i thought #i dont want it anymore #please #if this is some sort of punishment please let itr fucking end #ive felt enough pain already #make it stop #this is torture

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juniemunie · 8 months ago

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[Abandoned by the Lightners, his heart became cracked with hatred.]

Hitting a lil' too close to home?

#junie art post #ink sans #error sans #utmv #errorink #implied. but yea not the focus #this has been turning around in my mind for quite some time. im glad to finish it lmao idk if my ramblings make sense even.#so like listen. do you ever think about how similar the function of the utmv is to the dark worlds in deltarune.#in a meta narrative to fandom sense? idk the word #we are making exaggerated expanded worlds of the ordinary tools and entertainment of the real world and make it into something more #isnt that very very interesting?#and we explore every sort of possibility in that creation. both good and bad #and when all is said and done. every possibility found and the entertainment and secrets has all run out #we put it away. abandon and leave it behind #what is left? what happens to the world and characters we have created? can it sustain without us?#what of the ones left in the dark?#idk if yall saw me a few months ago but i reblogged comyet's old post of ink begging us not to leave him alone and to keep creating #yea that never left me #and seeing exactly THAT SCENARIO in deltarune made my brain iTCH #imagine an ink in King's position.... wait isnt that just underverse #mmmmmmm. darkner ink.....#also error is here too. not just for errorink or that i can't separate these two to save my life #but error is also one of the few people to be able to GET IT?? he can hear the creators too. ink cant #but hes pretty much programmed himself to avoid having a mental break down to this via reboot memory loss.#and ink has his own internal coping mechanism (hooray for short term memory loss)#these two idiots will do anything but confront truths lmfao #ahhh my favorite idiots. never change #mmmmm #deltarune

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rookeryyy · 6 months ago

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i adore this disaster cat :) so much. YAHOO! absol be upon ye

#pokemon #pokemon fanart #absol #art #fanart #hello pokemon community #i was gonna post this like months ago but i didnt because i was gonna draw another mon but i just didnt have the energy to SDFDSF whoops.#enjoy #i love drawing so much #image id #as always if u think theres any way the id can be improved let me know <3 #tumblr for the LIFE of it isnt letting me post this transparent so we all just gotta live with the white background HFBGFBDBSN........

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ranna-alga · 9 months ago

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"Do the Evolution" - Pearl Jam

#this specific lyric of the song reminded me soooo much of dutch/john and hosea/arthur #obviously john is very different from dutch but i think there is a reason why he was considered to be dutch's favourite son #john seems closer to dutch in a similar way arthur is with hosea but in a different manner i think. there is obviously a tension present #dutch is observant but only when he wants to be (otherwise i think he would have kicked micah out of the gang a long time ago)#john is just observant. he saw first-hand what happened in blackwater and is sus of dutch throughout the rest of the game #he isnt as dumb or slow as he calls himself #i read a meta about it and it explains it 1000x better than i can #as for hosea/arthur the parallels are already obvious enough #also i am quite a fan of pearl jam so teehee i had to make the selfish parallel #might make more like this idk #rdr #rdr2 #red dead redemption #red dead redemption 2 #arthur morgan #rdr2 arthur morgan #dutch van der linde #rdr2 dutch van der linde #john marston #rdr2 john marston #hosea matthews #rdr2 hosea matthews #outlaws for life #pearl jam #ranna song quotes

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deoidesign · 3 months ago

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when your main characters start dating after years of writing so they finally get to be like this

#rare WIP preview from me #this is in like. 10 episodes. lmfao #its been really hard working this far ahead #my editor isnt giving me any feedback and my friends are very busy so it's felt quite lonely #which is fine! for my friends I mean. but its my editors job to give me feedback...#but the webtoon editors are extremely extremely extremely overworked and my series is set to end so I understand its low priority #its not her fault its webtoons fault. however. its still demotivating...#oh well l m a o #I should be much further ahead ngl LMFAO I want like 12 done but I come back in 2 weeks.#we'll see #when I get really stressed out I go full gamer mode #and usually I'll sink like 60 hours (like 5 days) into a game and then I'm good and move on #but this recent game that grabbed me is. its too much actually #bit uncontrollable ngl I think its an ADHD thing I mostly have just quit playing videogames at all #cause its like yeah being stressed cause theres too much work to do is not going to be helped by losing a week and a half to a game...#and yet.#anyways the game is satisfactory #my friend bought it for me and we've been playing together #and our shared file has. 100 hours on it. and we still havent beaten the game #we're close to beating it and it's not like we're rushing or anything #cause its fun to fuck around and zap eachother or whatever #but it's got me doing math. the exact kind of math I love to do. optimization #and its reminding me yeah in another life id have been an engineer #I'm glad I'm an artist but its always weird like yeah this is easily a path I could have gone down #'artists hate math' speak for yourself doing math calms me down! I love math!#I love math and I love business. I'm almost the perfect artist but I hate advertising so. we can't have it all #anyways theyre so fucking cute its sickening. I love them so much. I could cry #WIP #lineart #time and time again

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evelynpr · 4 months ago

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Progenitor AU suddenly getting more fanart thanks to Terrarium Kaveh. Truly, no one does it like him.

#Progenitor giving me so much content n fuel yall #genuinely invested in this au omg #kinda sad KIERU isnt here this hoyofair tho...#where did they go :((#I think theyre busy doing other life things right now which. im proud of them just. I just rlly like their work man #ANYWAYS GO WATCH THIS SHOW!!! How often does an au get fully animated like this with several eps #for albedo raiden mona kokomi n scara fans #yae miko n kaveh are the new additions yippeee #Subject 2 my beloved as well #evelynpr genshin #genshin #genshin impact #kaveh

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reineydraws · 2 years ago

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so there's this post that talks about how people call jason's curved knife a kris but it's not a kris 'cuz why would he have a southeast asian knife? and op's tags say if you're gonna give him an 'exotic' weapon at least make him malay or something. a later reblog adds a filipino kris as an example, and then i was like, 'omg, jason in a barong tho.' SO i tried designing a bat-barong inspired by his hood logo, for a filipino jason haha. and now here we are! 😊✨️🇵🇭

#jason todd #red hood #batfamily #batfamily fanart #dc #dc fanart #i love barongs SO MUCH i used to think they were just a boy thing but my mom and i found a barong dress for me to wear for graduation ✨️✨️#i was so happy lol #i am posting a lot of lil doodles rn cuz i finished some big involved pieces for the zines im in and this is all the energy i have left rn #anyways i made him white-passing bc comics but like.#it should track that he looks a lil asian too cuz he thinks lady shiva might be his mom right??? so he could feasibly be half... 🤷🏻‍♀️#i like thinking he's a lil filipino but only cuz im all the way filipino (except for all the ways im not hashtag immigrant kid life)#I DIGRESS #here's another extremely niche jason todd post from yours truly 😌✌️✨️#sorry if the knife isnt to scale it's only occuring to me now that i just *assumed* it'd be longer than a man's forearm oops #ugh barongs are so pretty. idve tried designing more if i had the patience to do the detail work rn 🥲 mb in the future who knows #he's wearing a sando underneath!!!!

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iknowicanbutwhy · 7 months ago

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too eepy after work to have a life, stardust? smh

#in fast and food #loop isat #siffrin isat #in stars and time #isat #kitscribbles #oddly my comfort au and vent au wrapped into one #dear whoever said that there isnt much i can do with this au. yeah youre not wrong #lmao what's Sif gonna do #wish to keep his friends in the capitalistic pit of death of never moving out of town to chase their dreams because they cant afford to?#smh you dont need timeloops for that #therefore no loop u_u or at least not conventionally #could someone help me find that art someone made of Sif having a doll loop and i think that doll coming to life #if i ever go that direction id like to credit them #that there is my inspiration #art #fanart #tfw you cant think of a personality for your stuffie so you just overlay a personality over your own and give them that #have you ever tried to cut sharp points into felt. let me tell you it does not like to remain sharp

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claitea · 4 months ago

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i've had these scenarios written down since volo's debut in pokemon masters and i just really wanted to scribble them down and finally release them

#pokemon #volo #pokemon volo #pokemon jacq #n harmonia #pokemon rei #trainer rei #clai's art #trying to write n's specific brand of being mean is hard to me for some reason #in the initial idea i had him outright call volo stupid but i didnt know if that was too far so i just took it out BJFBFJF #but anyway volo being a historian who had to have studied many walks of life but has still come to the conclusion that the world is hopeless #jacq being someone who's very positive and sees the best in people even if they are very much not great to him (see: raifort)#finally realizing someone he knows is like. inexcusably horrible #n's situation wasn't even that different from volo's. both saw injustice in society and sought to change it #but even n. who hated humanity for what he thought they were all responsible for. didnt want humans to Die for what they did!!#and rei. rei was a scared kid who saw the very worst of volo firsthand. rei needed friends and one of them despised him in the end #isnt it soooo funny how volo thinks he's alone yet keeps pushing away all the people who want to connect with him :) i hate pla so much :)))#as another note too. perhaps the rei thing could end in two ways #satisfying good ending where it kicks off volo's realization that hey maybe people do trust me unconditionally #or no good bad ending where volo takes this as another betrayal. rei only liked him for his facade like everyone else so why does it matter #volo almost makes me feel as ill as n does. hate this stupid guy i shouldnt have bought pla for my birthday i should have gotten. p/kmin idk

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dukeofthomas · 4 months ago

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I can't find it now but there's a post about suspension of disbelief and how it's broken when the story starts trying to excuse it. "character gets knocked unconscious for hours but there's no further issues from this" okay 👍 "and actually this makes perfect sense because of this and that" um no it doesn't why are you lying to me. like i am willing to ignore the holes and the discrepancies!! all you need to do is let me and not bring unnecessary attention to it!!!

and all that is my issue with the whole robin child soldier argument. like i am willing to ignore it i am willing to engage with the fantasy literally all you need to do is NOT try to convince me that Actually It's Fine Because They Want To Do It or whatever. like literally just shut up about it and i can engage with the fantasy!!

#my dc posting #dc #robin #batman #like. if you want to tell a story and not worry abt the child endangerement thing just DONT BRING IT UP ???#all you're doing when you bring it up is telling me this is something i'm allowed to think abt when it comes to the story #and then you tell me Um Actually It's Fine ?? no! what the fuck are you talking about!!#i am tryinggggg to just have fun n read fics your lil “isnt that child endangerement and kinda fucked up?” “no actually they wouldve done i #anyways bla bla bla batman couldnt have stopped them bla bla bla''#is COUNTERPRODUCTIVEEE #dick grayson #jason todd #tim drake #damian wayne #<- tagging the robins sorry #sorry this just. this topic annoys me so much #...also ''batman couldnt have stopped them/they wouldve done it with or without him'' are literally #just factually incorrect in jason's case. he did not in fact start on his own and the only thing batman wouldve #needed to do to stop him is literally just NOT make him robin BUT- at this point im just beating a dead horse on that topic #w how many times i bring it up lmao #like. in real life you cant just knock a person unconscious for hours with no consequences on them.#but i dont care when it happens in fiction despite being not realistic!! bc its fiction!!!#unless of course the characters out of nowhere do a lil sidequest PSA abt how actually doing that is fine #and completely safe with no risks #yknow??#like if that happened id be annoyed and like no its fucking not fine why are you trying to convince me. just move on and dont bring it up #and I wont bring it up #anyway. yeah these are just some thoughts im having rn sorry its not more coherent and put-together i cant be assed rn lmao

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chonnysinferno · 9 months ago

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the going thru it guy

also somewthing that i cant explain. yea like only one person could get what this is referencing

#chonny jash #cccc #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cj mind #cj heart #yeag....#kind of made this because.. im going thru it rn #alos i project onto heart a lot. uhmmm!#also also this isnt me like. making him the crying sad guy or qwtv i just think he handlkes breakdowns like me (refer to prev tag) and uhhm #just fucking curls upinto a ball #mind wont touch it cause he knows heart needs the space but will sometimes try to like. pat him?????#as a way to signal a kind of “im here for you if you need anything btw but i wont forceyou to talk tome if youre not ready”#(thats why theres a cord there ilike mind having a cord tail thingie hes patting heart 2with that cord thingie)#anywyas need more mind comforting heartin my life. isw that so much toask for /j #sorry for the long rant i just like talkingf about this stuff

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ghostofsnails · 10 days ago

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so did you guys know theres this character called tristan vik disventure camp and

#disventure camp #disventure camp fanart #tristan vik #disventure camp tristan #ghostofsnails #my art #It would be SO tedious to post all of these separately but to be honest ive been dead for so long that i think its just funnier like this #like. yeah. just in case you guys have been wondering what i've been up to.#I have like 2 more i think but i'll give them their own post so i can explain them #ive never hyperfixated on a character like this in my entire life. usually a character hyperfix is super intense and lasts like 2ish weeks.#GUYS ITS BEEN 2+ MONTHS. AND I STILL CANT THINK ABOUT ANYTHING EXCEPT FOR CARTOON GOTH NONBINARY SILLY PERSON #actually fuck you can i write an essay in tags about why i love them. this is tumblr. and whose even gonna read this anyways. fukit we ball #i followed dc kinda casually as a guilty pleasure for a while but i was instantly drawn to tristan when the designs for the s4 cast dropped #i was like You're telling me there's a GOTH who is UPBEAT and isnt designed like a flawless elf TWINK and is NONBINARY? ME FR????#LIKE OHH THE GOTH NB GETS TO LOOK A LITTLE WEIRD. THEY GET TO BE UNCONVENTIONAL. my aesthetic attraction to them goes crazy. vampire style.#i remember when they got revealed people redesigned them to look more generically pretty & it PAINED ME bc it missed the point SO. BADLY.#ik some people find them boring also & even tho i disagree i can see it if u dont rlly care abt alt stuff. but for me the fact theyre so #kind & upbeat & extroverted WHILE being a SUBCULTURAL GOTH is the draw bc while i do get a kick out of the exaggerated depressed goth #stereotype - its not exactly true to life and so seeing a character that looks and acts like me and real goths makes feel so seen and happy #they also capture my desire to have goth friends SO BADLY im projecting on them SO HARD. They are such top tier friend material you guys...#AND THEYRE A FASHION DESIGNER WHICH FEELS SO IN THEME WITH BEING GOTH THAT IT MAKES ME SO JOYOUS AND CRAZY.#its all so funny because im 100x more excited about getting good goth rep than nonbinary rep LMFAOOO but them being nb is SO important too #Not to mention their voice actor is FANTASTIC and elevates them SOOO MUCH. Also the amount the va is obsessed with them fed my obsession -#sooo insanely you guys.... i feed off of other peoples emotional attachments. AND THEIR ACTING FOR TRIS ADDS SO MUCH DEPTH TO THEIR #CHARACTER IF YOU LOOK FOR IT. I COULD LITERALLY WRITE ESSAYS ABOUT TRISTAN YOU GUYS. IM NOT INSANE.#god you guys this is the first time ive ever had a genuine “i feel seen” feeling from a fictional character I KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE NOW.#i LOVE NONBINARY PEOPLE EXPRESSING THEMSELVES. I LOVE HOW QUEERNESS AND GOTH CULTURE INTERSECTS AND HOW THATS REPRESENTED IN TRISTAN #THEY MEAN SO MUCH TO ME. AND I KNOW THEY MEAN SO MUCH TO SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE. WHICH JUST MAKES THEM MEAN EVEN MORE TO ME. I LOVE LIFE.#its an endless feedback loop i fear. im trapped in it & loving every second. i will be drawing them until i am in my grave & maybe after.

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forever-a-lake-effect-kid · 2 months ago

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maine is the first state to see the sun in the continental us (dawnland baby!) and i think that should translate into maine being one of those ridiculously early risers who everyone else hates send post

#wttt #wttt maine #me #sonder's posts #everyone else is like MAINE we have artificial light for a REASON we are trying to SAVOR the blessing of not having to wake up at dawn #and maine is like Im Doing Great. Im Doing Fine. I Love The Beautiful Sunrise So Much. Ive Never Heard of Sleep Deprivation In My Life.#This Morning I Raked The Yard Scared Off Two Deer And Fed The Cats And Then Drove An Hour To Go Watch The Sunrise Again #im reading a book on early american settlers cultures right now so expect some posts from me based on that maybe #this isnt one of them to be clear but its making me Think #mostly just 'damn the puritans were losers LMAO'

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lunarharp · 13 days ago

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fwee top 5 things i had fun with this year :-)

#*begins talking to myself in my tags like a freak*#since reikoumi retired i have thought about zuka less than ever before in my zuka-knowing life. i used to think about REAL women EVERY day #i miss being in love with reiko. being loopy about a REAL person......damn...what was that even like...so distant (happy birthday to her)#my zuka obsession wanes & waxes through the years. it's fine. peaks were 2014 (first saw it live) 2019 (lived there) 2022 (reikoumi reign)#fields of mistria is really cute and fun....i love it a lot more than stardew. i love my crush....i love baking..feeding my golden rabbits.#i've played it for like 70 hours and it's not even out of early access....PLEASE UPDATE IT!!! I NEED MORE FISH TO CATCH! NOW!#edgeworth game was lovely. i actually was thinking of narumitsu as much as orufrey for a while. Whoa. but i never drew those ideas...#VEILGUARD....WAS STUPID FUN FOR ME. my personal and romantic little adventure :)#falling in love in a game isnt the same as when you already know you'll love a character. it's UNEXPECTED. keeps you young.#orufrey.........ya know the deal. They are my life.#the only thing that distracts me seriously from orufrey is when i think not of their love but MY love.....in video games.#runners up were dragon age 2 where i also fell in love. i immediately spat out so much art about da2 and veilguard LOL #i discovered various media that wasnt included here too..read some good manga..etc #i made several personal comics this year (the wha oc one and the Wolf one) and a lot of.. semi-personal art like my veilguard oc #i'm slowly learning to express myself artistically in ways that arent orufrey...... next year..i want to achieve various things....#i don't know what i can really manage any more. but i'll try a bit harder. just in CASE life can still be good..#OH AND I DID BG3 HONOUR MODE...bg3 was a 2023 thing but the first half of this year i was also just soulfully playing bg3. saved me #the second half of the year was actually better even though i got sick. Weird. anywayyyy *ceases talking to myself*#i pray for health and safety and peace for everyone and for my dreams to come true.

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beyondthislifetime · 8 months ago

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People who truly dislike Edwina Sharma are wild. Heaven forbid an 18 year old be charmed after being almost relentlessly pursued by an older man. Three married women, including her mother, are for the match. THE QUEEN is for the match. The only person saying he isn't right for her is her sister and like I'm sorry but my sister could swear that a man wasn't that into me and I would not listen if he BOUGHT ME A HORSE!???!!?!!

#having a s2 rewatch and truly. that is a teenager who has never been courted before. that's a girl with no experience with this at all.#she's being pursued by a nearly 30 year old man who we know will chase off a young lady's suitors (see The Daphne Debacle)#also we have no clue what kates love life was like or what she may have revealed to edwina so does eddy think #“my sister who has never entertained men or had a serious relationship is giving me courting advice”#and is that supposed to mean more than their mother's blessing and support?#fair enough mary is supposed to be complacent to an unbelievable level in this show but had kate said “mama he truly isnt right for eddy”#would mary just have handwaved it off? is that the deal the show was going for?#people online loooove to talk about how much you wanna hit your sibling for no reason but an acerbic “half-sister” is too far?#if my maid of honour wanted to fuck my future husband i'd hand the priest my earrings tell him to meet me in the confessional and go to tow #i think edwinas explanation of this anger was not well thought out but she was entirely right to be angry.#anyways. eddy darling i will live you until my dying days.#edwina sharma #bridgerton

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lovebvffys · 3 months ago

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Cordelia Chase + Pink Pony Club - Chappell Roan

#LITERALLY THE BEST GIRL IN THE ENTIRE FUCKING WORLD #CORDELIA CHASE YOU MEAN SO MUCH TO ME #SHES SO #GOD I FUCKING HATE JOSS WHEDON FOR WHAT HE DID TO HER #ill never get over her i fear #anywhoooooo #ik this song is abt queer culture. but i was listening to it nd i just had a vision #nd now heres this <3 #cordelia chase #ats #btvs #charisma carpenter #mygif #this isnt her entire character arc. but after this point is when it gets blurry and strange #i didnt like the ascention stuff nd everything after that was soo so rough #(except your welcome) but i didnt wanna skip all of s4 for just one ep #plus the lyrics i picked (i think) perfectly surround the earlier parts of cordys life #ughhhh my girl #my fabulous fabulous girl

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