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The Sandman clip/ tiktok audio of "you came" "you called" just screams ex boyfriend/husband TF141 when you call them late at night because some creep is following you home or you're in trouble
WAIT YES YOU ARE RIGHT
Itâs almost an instinct to call him first before anyone else, even after breaking up/divorcing. You tell yourself you canât be blamed- he is a military man and despite all the hurdles that left your relationship in shambles, he was dependable when it came to safety.
And right now, walking slowly to your home with a fan following you- that man had to be kicked out of your workplace, you can remember him- you need his safety.
Something in your heart twinges when he accepts your call on the first ring. Some things truly never change, do they?
âHe- hey,â you whisper immediately, and now that someone is here to hear you, the fearful tears build up in your eyes and you are sure he can hear the shakiness in your voice. You donât give him a chance to say anything for now, though. âI- I know that we- we are not together anymore but⊠god, Iâm so sorry, someone is following me and I didnât know who else to call, Iâm so sorry-â
âWhere are you?â
You tell him where you are right now, steps carefully slow but not too slow so your stalker doesnât know that you are aware of him.
âStay on the phone for me, yeah?â
âOkay,â you are still whispering, gulping. âOkay. Thank you. Iâm so sorry again-â
âStop apologizing.â His voice is softer now, compared to before. âI donât mind. Never will. Iâll be right with you in a minute, alright?â
And true to his words, he does come to you soon, throwing his arm over your shoulder and glaring right at your stalker. You canât see his face, but you know his glare has always made him look so scary. But once the stalker is gone, and you two are left alone while he leads you home, you canât help but break the silence.
ââŠyou came.â
He looks at you, the glare softening immediately. So many things unsaid, so much that had gone wrong and right in your relationshipâŠ
âYou called.â Is all he says in reply, still holding you right against him.
No other words are needed at this moment. Though your heart, traitorous thing it is, wonders if itâs not too late to try again. Your mind vehemently disagrees and states he likely holds no feelings for you anymore.
His arm remains wrapped around you and he even covers you in his jacket.
âŠperhaps it doesnât have to end this way.
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The House Of Piastri : ÌÌâ Oscar Piastri
summary: the one where you and oscar move into a place that you can finally call your own
âWelcome to the house of Piastri!â Oscar chimed, turning the key and opening up the place that was finally yours. âOur very first home,â Oscar grinned, throwing his arm across your shoulders, pulling you in.Â
It was far from perfect, there were moving boxes everywhere, little decoration, and many of the rooms were uncoordinated, but it was your place. Just for you and Oscar. There was no one else around, nothing to interrupt you both anymore.Â
âWhere do we begin?â You laughed, pressing your fingers to your temple. âWhat have we signed ourselves up for?â You asked Oscar, glancing across at him. His smile was wide, a lot more optimistic than you were at the adventure that you had ahead of you.Â
When Oscar suggested the two of you think about finding your own place after moving to Monaco, you jumped at the chance. It was a big deal for you both, having only ever lived separately before, but after leaving home in order to support Oscar, you knew you couldnât be alone.Â
âDoesnât it just feel right though?â Oscar whispered, pressing a kiss to the top of your head. âI can already see how amazing itâs going to look, even if it doesnât look that way right now.âÂ
Your head nodded in agreement with Oscar, no doubt that it was a place youâd feel happy calling your home. You and Oscar had so many plans, youâd spent hours awake at night talking through your ideas, searching online for some inspiration of what youâd like.Â
âThe view is beautiful too,â you hummed, taking a few steps forward across the room to where your balcony was. âI donât think Iâll tire of looking out here, itâs beautiful.âÂ
âAlmost as beautiful as you,â Oscar chimed, watching as your eyes rolled. âWhat? Iâm only being honest; it doesnât quite compare to you.âÂ
Oscar took your hand again, leading you across to where the sofa was just beside the balcony. You sat against his side, back pressed against his chest as Oscar rested his head on top of yours. It was about the only piece of furniture that you had built and ready to go, having taken most of the day to get it delivered and set up, but it left you both excited for all the hard work that was to come. Â
It felt like a dream as you looked around the apartment, neither you or Oscar could quite believe that you were finally there, after months of planning and waiting around.Â
âImagine how beautiful this is going to be soon,â Oscar whispered into your ear, âI can see us spending forever here, growing old, maybe even raising a family too.âÂ
Your eyes widened as Oscar spoke, not quite knowing what to say. He felt your body tense up, worried that maybe heâd said the wrong thing, got too ahead of himself in amongst all of the excitement of moving in.Â
Oscar mumbled an apology across to you. âI didnât mean to say that, itâs just a maybe one day kind of thing. I guess Iâm just excited for the future now that weâre finally here.âÂ
It wasnât that you were scared, but youâd never really heard Oscar talk about your future plans before. You were both so young, and had so much time ahead of you, although you knew most of your time now was going to be spent building, decorating, and trying to get your home look a little more homely. Â
âDonât be sorry,â you smiled up at Oscar, âthereâs no need to be sorry. I like that youâre thinking about these sorts of things. Forever is a long time though; we donât know where the future is going to take us.âÂ
âIâd live anywhere as long as I had you with me,â Oscar mused, âIâd live in a rubbish bin as long as you were there, even if you would end up smelling a bit.âÂ
âMoving in has really got you thinking about things, hasnât it?âÂ
Oscar nodded, kissing against the top of your head. âI guess moving in with you has made me so happy, Iâm just excited now for whatâs going to come next.âÂ
âIâll give you a clue...a heck of a lot of painting,â you teased.Â
It was going to take many hours to get the apartment as you wanted it, but you and Oscar knew that together youâd get it done. You didnât want the easy option when it came to finding your home, but even this was a harder challenge than either of you could imagine.Â
âThink about all the memories that weâre going to make here,â Oscar spoke, âweâll be able to have friends over, family can stay when they visit, and just stay here together too.âÂ
It was a big move, not only had you found a new city, but youâd found a new country too. Luckily for you, many of the other drivers who were already out there had been more than willing to help you out, offering their services whenever you needed them.Â
âI think once weâre unpacked and decorated, Iâll feel happier, your mum would be mortified if she knew we were living here with the state of this place right now,â you replied.Â
âShe canât wait to visit,â Oscar laughed, âI think she might be more excited than us about this.âÂ
Everyone around you couldnât wait to see you move in together, you were inseparable at the best of times and it was only a matter of time. Your parents, and Oscarâs, especially had pushed you to move in, desperate to see you in a place you could call your own.Â
âItâs going to be crazy, but thereâs no one else Iâd like to move in with and decorate my first home alongside.âÂ
Your head nodded in agreement with Oscar, as terrifying as it was, you were beyond excited too. Your vision was clear, and one thing you were absolutely confident of was the fact that you were absolutely going to love living there, especially with Oscar there too.Â
âYou know, when all of this is done, weâll be able to sit here and think about how lucky we are.âÂ
Your head tilted back to look up at Oscar, âI already feel lucky enough as it is. Youâre here, and weâre in Monaco, what could be better than that?âÂ
âI really do appreciate you moving all the way out here to support me,â Oscar whispered, ânot many people would move across the world for their partner. Itâs a huge sacrifice to make, I just hope that itâs worthwhile being here for you.âÂ
âItâs worth it, wherever you go, I go,â you replied, reminding him of the promise that you made to each other. âAnyway, Monaco is definitely the place that feels like home now too.âÂ
Oscar glanced down with a smile, âthereâs nowhere else Iâd rather be than here with you right now. I think I could get used to living here, with you.âÂ
âI agree, this is beyond anything that I could have ever dreamed of.âÂ
âItâs not just an apartment anymore, itâs our home,â Oscar said, âa place we can finally call our own.âÂ
âThe house of Piastri, itâs perfect.âÂ
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let's talk about shoes (stick with me here for a sec)
beetleboots beetleboots beetleboots.
what's up with the three of them wearing combat boots? they go well with each of their character designs so it's not like they look out of place with the rest of their outfits, but knowing this is tim burton and colleen atwood, these things are not mere coincidence.
(spoilers for Beetlejuice Beetlejuice below)
a common complaint i've seen people mention about Beetlejuice Beetlejuice is that "there's too many villains," but today i'm here to talk about why each of them matter in the narrative tim wanted to present here. yes the boots are related we'll get to that in a minute
delores, rory and jeremy all have one thing in common: the use of romantic betrayal in order to achieve their own selfish goals, destroying their victims in the process.
this, in turn, makes beetlejuice, lydia and astrid have another thing in common: they were the victims of these romantic betrayals.
you may think "okay but why is that necessary?"
this sequel made the interesting choice of nudging beetlejuice out of the villain role. he's now just a weird ally/deuteragonist...or perhaps even...a protagonist? but that's not enough! why should we as an audience care about him or sympathize with him?
that's where delores comes in. delores is less of a character and more of a plot device. her purpose (besides serving cunt) is to give beetlejuice backstory and be to beetlejuice what beetlejuice was to lydia, only worse. i talked a bit more about it in this post. thanks to her, we now learn that beetlejuice was a victim. not just that, she's also the looming threat beetlejuice needs to justify his marriage to lydia (he seems to be under the impression that this would help him escape delores more easily, but personally i'm not so sure, i think she's more powerful than that.) her return in combination with lydia's return to winter river is what sets his plan in motion.
rory is a pretty self-explanatory villain so i don't think we have to go into that. he wasn't out to kill lydia...but he's a golddigger, so i don't doubt he would've set something up to lead her into having a fatal accident and claim insurance benefits.
jeremy's role in the plot was to make astrid realize that she was wrong about the supernatural, as well as put her in danger in the afterlife, which is the drive lydia needs to turn to beetlejuice for help.
the role of an antagonist is to oppose or be an obstacle to the protagonist's goal. these three are the three obstacles beetlejuice needs to overcome in order to marry lydia.
first, he needs to save astrid as part of the deal with lydia. so he gets rid of jeremy to give astrid her life back. he knows exactly what it's like to be romanced into a death trap. you can tell this was satisfying for him. later, fucker.
then, he needs her fiancé rory out of the picture if he intends to marry lydia. since he knows this guy is a total piece of shit and is lying to her to lead her into the same trap he himself fell into with delores, he simply gives lydia the tools she needs to kick his ass herself. teamwork!
third comes delores. he just needs to survive delores, basically. he tries to pair her off with rory to try and kill two birds with one stone, but the stone that ends up killing them both is the sandworm that astrid summoned, which beetlejuice then guided straight to them. teamwork once again! (beetlejuice and astrid got rid of each other's problems, that's kind of cool)
these three things being taken care of means that beetlejuice can finally marry lydia.............
............except he doesn't. why? because he helped lydia. by bringing her into the afterlife to look for her daughter, he violated code 699. and he did it immediately after signing that contract. hoist by his own petard, this dumbass.
sorry i got sidetracked again. we were talking about boots, right? right right.
beetlejuice, lydia and astrid all walked in each other's shoes.
everything in this movie comes in threes. names, villains, victims, obstacles and pairs of combat boots.
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together II Ewa Pajor x Lewandowski!Reader
masterlist I word count: 2924
a/n: dear readers, this is an angstier oneshot, so only read it when you're in the right headspace for a heavier story, take care. Little reminder that your feedback is always appreciated. đ«¶đ» đ«¶đ»
warnings: swearing, hints to an abusive relationship in reader's past
âY/n? Is the dinner done? I donât smell anything. Y/n?! You useless piece of shit.â
His curses and insults echoed around your flat in Warsaw. In a city that had to be almost completely rebuilt after the end of the Second World War, including the historic city centre, his world collapsed.Â
Your husband was horrified to discover that all your things were gone except for your wedding ring and a farewell letter, including the divorce papers, which you had left for him on the dining table.
With hands shaking with anger, he read what you had written.
Like your hometown, you would put your heart, which had shattered into many fragmented pieces, back together again and hopefully become happier than you were now. You had had enough of him, his unruliness and his violence, the man who convinced you that you weren't good enough, even though you had always been enough.
It was just a lie to keep you down, but that was over now.
It almost felt unreal for you to sit many kilometres away from your former husband in the guestroom of your brotherâs grand house in Barcelona in front of a huge mirror.
In the reflection you could see said sibling stomp impatiently his feet. âCan you hurry up now?! I donât have all night.â
âJust a second.â, you chuckled, applying your lipstick only fuelling the older manâs impatience.
âUgh.â, Robert rolled his eyes.
âNow we can go, idiot.â, you told him smirking.
âExcuse me? You wouldnât even be going without this impatient idiot.â, he protested, shaking his head in disbelief.
âYes, and you wouldnât even have a female plus one at your side because all your girls are sick.â, you reminded him, playfully hitting his upper arm with your purse.
âIâd rather not have that plus one be my own sister.â, the striker teased, rubbing the place you had hit before softly, pretending it hurt.
âRude. I can stay here if you prefer that.â, you offered.
âNo.â, the dark-haired man stated firmly.
âLetâs get it over with, shall we?â, you linked arms with your brother.
âPlease.â, Robert sighed.
At the event which the Catalan club has initiated you were stunned by the amount of people attended it. Especially when your sibling had claimed that this was only the men and womenâs football team.
âWow, there are a lot of people here.â, you observed.
âSurprise?â, Robert smiled amusedly.
 âWell, itâs a bit intimidating.â, you admitted nervously.
âDonât pee yourself.â, he joked.
âShut it. My husband is scarier than this.â, you replied, a cold shiver ran down your spine at the thought of him.
âDonât bring him up right now.â, the striker begged. He planned the evening to be a distraction for you.
Catching the sight of something you changed the topic quickly. âCome on, time to see what the buffet has to offer.â Â
You dragged your bother along with you towards the food. While you studied all the different dishes, you completely missed that someone had approached your brother in the meantime.
âOh hi.â, you heard a female voice say which caused you to look up immediately.
âHi Ewa, great to see you again. Anything that caught your eye?â, your brother asked politely.
You frowned as you silently followed the conversation.
âThe paella looks nice but oh man do I miss homemade pierogi.â, the woman smiled.
You might have been wrong but you were sure there was a slight sadness in her smile.
âOh me too. But luckily my sister is here.â, Robert laughed, pointing towards you.
Your eyes widened, surprised that he pulled you into this conversation when all you wanted to do was grab some food.
âThat gorgeous woman next to you is your sister?â, the woman that Robert introduced as Ewa exclaimed. She immediately blushed, seemingly shocked that the words had actually left her mouth.
Robert grimaced: âYes?â
âWow.â
You chuckled. It wasnât everyday that people reacted that way upon meeting you. âJust to clarify, I can do more than cook pierogi and look pretty.â
âThatâs impressive.â, Ewa laughed.
Robert interrupted the two of you: âPlease, youâre quite impressive yourself, Ewa. I heard youâre already making a name for yourself at Barca femeni.â
She shyly tucked a lose strand of hair behind her ear: âWell, I did score a few goals.â
âYou did? Thatâs amazing.â, you commented, suddenly intrigued.
âUhm yes.â
âDid you find it easy to settle in Barcelona?â, you asked.
Another smile flashed across her face: âActually yes. With the help of my team mates.â
âSounds like a perfect start.â
âIt was.â
âMy sister is new here too, you know.â, Robert said suddenly and you could tell from the look on his face that he was planning something.
Ewas face turned to him with curiosity: âShe isnât just here to visit?â
âNo, sheâll stay here for a while actually.â, he confirmed, clearly suppressing a smirk.
âOh great. I could show you some coffee shops. Thatâs what my teammates did too when I moved here.â, she suggested.
You tilted your head at her, studying her face: âYou would?â
She nodded: âSure, if youâre interested.â
âYes, I love coffee.â
âMe too.â
There was a second of silence, just the two of you smiling at each other. Robert and the food faded into the background.
âMaybe we should exchange numbers so you can text me when youâre free?â, you suggested once your brain was no longer preoccupied with staring at her.
âSure.â She quickly pulled her phone from her pocket and offered it to you to type in your number. Right in time because she was quickly surrounded by her own teammates while your brother pulled you along to introduce you to too many people.
You had already forgotten their names when you got into the cab taking you back to your brothers house.
âEwa and youâŠâ, Robert said into the silence of the car.
You blinked at him innocently, playing dumb: âWhat about us?â
âYou got a along well.â, he noted.
âEwaâs very nice.â, you tried to brush his observation off.
âNice?â, your brother raised an eyebrow.
âYeah?â, you replied, trying to hide your blushed cheek with one hand, so Robert couldnât see it. For your sibling you always have been an open book. Even in your darkest time when you tried to conceal how you really felt he saw right through your emotionless façade.
âI see.â, the striker smirked knowingly.
âYou see what?â, you wanted to know in a curious tone.
âOh nothing.â, your brother waved it off.
âRobert.â
âNo.â After a pause the football player added smiling. âBut sheâs nice.â
âYes, and she called me gorgeous.â, you remembered fondly.
âOf course you liked that.â, Robert said.
âI havenât been called that for a while so yes it felt nice.â, you admitted. Unpleasant pictures you wish you could erase from your memory came back to the surface.
âYou know what I think about your husband.â, your sibling hissed, his jaw tightened while he parked the car in front of the unlit house.
 âI left him this time.. Iâm not going back.â, you assured him. With a heavy heart you revealed the fading bruise around your neck to him.
When you closed your eyes, it brought you straight to the moment he did it, the second you thought you wouldnât make it out here alive, luckily, he had to leave for his job and a good friend of yours helped you out of this situation. Bitterly you thought to yourself that not everyone had as much luck as you.
âHe did it again?â, Robert asked, feeling the hot anger rise in him whilst he spoke. Â
âYes.â, you confirmed quietly. Suddenly you were very tired from the day you experienced.
âAnd of course youâre not going back. I warned him the first time.â, he went on.
Once you stood in front of the guestroom door you turned your head around to face your brother. âGood night, Robbie.â
âTry to get some sleep.â, the footballer answered gently.
âYou should too.â, you wore a sad smile on your lips before entering the generous bedroom where the scent of freshly washed linen filled up your nose and immediately calmed you down for the night.
A childish hope in you sparked that this might keep the bad nightmares at bay. Although you knew better than that.
You escaped the danger in person of your former husband and yet it would take some time to release the fear which has crept into your everyday life. Like your nieces when they were younger you would take baby steps to get your old confident self-back.
The nightstand lamp was on as you replayed the conversation with Ewa in your mind. You loved the way her catlike eyes lit up with excitement as she talked about the club, her teammates, the city and her love for the polish dish. It was the last thing you saw behind your eyes before you fell asleep.
Ewa was about to leave the Barcelona training grounds the next day, freshly showered and in clothes that took her hours to pick out.
With her bag in one hand, she waved goodbye to her teammates: âSorry girls, I got to go. Iâm meeting up with someone.â
Kika stopped walking next to her with a frown: âWhat? With who?â
âWith a beautiful woman.â, Ewa admitted quietly, blushing slightly. Her skin prickled as if she had said something forbidden.
Ellie smiled at her with genuine happiness: âA date?â
âUhm⊠well, I donât know⊠Lewy might kill me if Iâd ask her on a date.â
âLewy?â, Kika echoed.
âLewy as in Robert Lewandowski. Heâs her brother.â, Ewa explained.
A quiet âOhâŠâ escaped Kikas lips.
Ewa nodded in agreement to whatever was going through Kikas head: âYes, exactly.â
âI think itâs worth a try.â, Ellie shrugged.
âYou think so? Oh shit, I really got to go now. Otherwise I will be late.â, Ewa realized with a look at the clock on her phone screen. She hadnât noticed how long they were standing in front of the gate talking.
She waved one last time and left.
âHave fun!â, Ellie called after her.
You were already waiting in front of the small café when Ewa arrived. She was three minutes late but smiling brightly as she caught sight of you.
âEwa, hi.â, you greeted her and pulled her in for a quick hug.
âHi.â
âGreat to see you again.â, you said as you took her in. She looked cute in her jeans and a little cardigan. Her hair was still lightly wet and smelled like roses.
âGood to see you too.â
With all pleasantries exchanged, you walked inside the coffeeshop and straight towards the counter. Turning towards Ewa, you asked: âWhat coffee can I get for you?â
âA cappuccino please.â, she replied politely, appearing positively surprised by the fact that you wanted to order for her.
âOkay.â You gave her a nod and turned back to the barista while she took a seat at a table close to the window.
You took the spot across from her, with two coffees in hand and slid one over to her: âHere you go.â
âThank you.â, she smiled at you gratefully and took a sip.
âYouâre welcome.â
You both sat there in silence for a moment, just enjoying your coffee and a little unsure about what to do next.
âSo? Howâs Barcelona?â, Ewa asked suddenly.
âI love it so far.â, you answered truthfully. Even though your brother was always busy, he had taken some time out of his day to show you around and you immediately understood why he never wanted to leave again.
Ewa nodded understandingly: âItâs pretty nice, right?â
âYes, the weather is perfect.â, you replied.
âYeah, I like that the most too.â, the forward admitted with a huge smile on her lips.
âBesides the football I guess.â, you mused.
âThatâs pretty nice too.â, she admitted, one hand placed to her heated cheek.
âMaybe I should see you play at some point.â, you thought out loud, realizing her blush only intensified under your gaze. Â
âYouâre always welcome at our games.â, Ewa remarked happily.
âThatâs sweet of you.â, you muttered immensely grateful for her kindness and open-mindedness.
âI mean it. Weâre always glad to have some spectators.â, she added beaming.
âIâll be coming. Promise.â, you assured her.
âBut you donât have to.â, the striker ran nervously a hand through her now fully dried hair.
âI want to go though.â, you stated.
âOkay, of course.â, she cleared her throat.
âOf course? You still sound surprised.â, you lifted an eyebrow.
âNo, I uhm⊠I just canât wait for you to come and watch us.â, Ewa confessed.
âWhenâs your next home game?â, you asked.
âSaturday. I can get you a ticket if youâd like.â, the football player offered.
âYes, please.â, you affirmed delighted.
âIâm taking care of it.â, she hummed.
âThank you.â
 âNo, thank you for wanting to come.â, the Polish womenâs national team captain waved it off.
Agreeing to this almost felt forbidden, the glances you had exchanged with her during the coffee shop felt unholy.
Back in your home country you rarely saw this intimacy between two women, even if it was only in their eyes.
Here in Barcelona, you noticed that female couples were holding hands as they walked by like they werenât afraid of other people seeing that. You admired their bravery.
Maybe Ewa was a bit shy, still the striker made clear that she very much wanted to see you again.
 On Saturday the banter was on a high in the teamâs changing room.
âSo, sheâs coming to our game today?â, Kika wiggled her dark eyebrows.
âSheâs.â, Ewa confirmed.
âAnd you both like each other.â, Ellie observed smirking.
âMaybe we do.â A nervous laughter came from the Polish strikerâs mouth.
You had seen enough football games in your lifetime to recognize that Ewa was a fantastic player. Amazed, you watched the woman and her team play.
After the match was officially over, she immediately went to find you in the stands, still a little out of breath she turned up in front of you.
âEwa, fantastic came.â, you congratulated her.
âThank you.â, Ewa grinned.
âI loved watching it.â, you couldnât contain your excitement.
The football players eyes softened slightly: âYou did?â
âYes⊠also on your free day Iâve my brothers home to myself so you could come over to try my pierogi.â, you suggested, trying to sound as casual as possible and not like you persuaded your brother to help with your plan.
âYou will make us pierogi?â, Ewa asked excitedly.
âJep.â, you confirmed with a single nod which caused the football player to beam at you.
You could get used to that face.
A few days later, you welcomed Ewa into your brothers luxurious house. With your clothes already covered in flour, you led her to the unnecessarily huge kitchen where you had already started preparing the polish dumplings.
Once the first serving was done, you turned to Ewa who watched with careful eyes as you filled and closed the edges of the dough: âDo you want to try them?â
She nodded: âYes please.â
You plated a few with melted butter and a dab of sour cream on the side and pushed the plate towards Ewa.
She took a bite, chewing with her eyes closed.
âAnd? What do you think of them?â, you asked curiously.
âWow. Theyâre so good. They almost taste like the ones at home.â, the football player confirmed.
You blushed slightly. You knew everyone made theirs a bit differently so to hear they tasted like home was one of the biggest compliments you could get.
âTheyâre amazing.â
âJust like you.â You paused, horrified. You didnât know why you had said that. âShit, I meanâŠâ
âYou mean?â, Ewa repeated, trying to coax you into explaining.
âPlease forget it⊠I never said that to a woman. Maybe I only thought it back in Poland.â
An icy shiver ran down your spine, thinking about the situation back at home where even the thought felt forbidden.
You suddenly felt Ewas hand on yours, her thumb gently rubbing over the back of your hand: âHey, you can say that here. I feel the same way about you.â
âBut you donât know me⊠not fully yet. My hus-⊠ex-husband, the thought I was worthless.â
Your eyes met across the table. Neither of you pulled her hand back.
âI donât have to know what he thought about you. I only care about what I know about you.â, Ewa said, her voice was soft and quiet but she sounded sure about it.
âAnd what do you know?â
The corners of her mouth quirked up slightly: âThat youâre very sweet and I like you lot.â
Biting your lip, you admitted: âI think the same about you to be honestâŠâ
âSee, we want the same thing.â
âLooks like we do.â
âWould it be okay if IâŠ?â
âYes.â, you replied before she even finished her question but from the way her gaze lowered towards your lips, you knew what she was about to ask.
âYes?â
âSorry, I didnât want to interrupt you.â
She frowned: âYou didnât even know what I wanted to say.â
âPlease, go on.â
âWould it be okay if I kissed you right now?â, Ewa finally finished her question.
You nodded with a smile: âVery okay.â
She leaned over the counter to you and kissed you. It was gentle, warm and comforting like the pierogi that lay forgotten in front of you. It had been a long time since anything had felt so right.
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âJust Breatheâ
Yoongi x Reader
Summary: You're nervous about meeting Yoongi's parents for the first time
Warnings: angst/comfort, brief mentions of toxic family life, not proofread
A/N: Thanks to @vicky-chaos for this request! I hope you like it!
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The late afternoon sun warmed your back as you walked down the street hand in hand with Yoongi, the familiar hum of street noise around you a welcome soundtrack that you hoped would distract from the anxious thoughts that had been filtering through your mind all day.
Normally you loved going on errand runs like these with Yoongi, finding comfort in the mundane routine, but today you had found yourself unable to relax fully and enjoy yourself, even now fidgeting with the handles of the shopping bags in your free hand.
Yoongiâs parents were coming to visit for the weekend, and he had asked if you wanted to help him cook dinner on the first night so that you could meet them. You had been touched that he wanted to introduce you to them at all and had agreed to the plan eagerly enough at first, but inside, there had been a growing tinge of âwhat if?â.
If this evening didnât go well, you worried how it would affect you and Yoongiâs relationship going forward.
Yoongi had noticed your growing nerves and had tried to reassure you that things would be fine, even giving you a crash course on his parents' personalities and interests to help make you feel more confident and give you something to talk to them about.
â-And Dad likes reading, so just keep conversation focused around that if you canât think of anything else.â He finished as you were headed back towards where he had parked the car.
âRightâŠâ You replied distantly, chewing on your lip.
âItâll be fine, donât worry.â He assured you, squeezing your hand gently.
You nodded, but you couldnât stop your heart still anxiously skittering around your ribcage, seeking out escape.
âHey,â His tone was much softer now, drawing your attention back to him with a gentle touch on your cheek, letting his fingers just brush over your skin in the same way that he did as you fell asleep at night. âJust breathe, okay? Everything will be fine. Theyâre gonna love you.â
You hesitated for the briefest moment.
âWhat if they donât?â Your asked quietly, breaking his heart at how small you sounded.
He knew his parents werenât the easiest to get along with, especially his father, but he had faith that they would see what a beautiful and remarkable person you were. He couldnât imagine anyone meeting you and not immediately falling for your warm heart and infectious personality.
But no matter how many times Yoongi tried to encourage and reassure you, your anxieties over what could possibly go wrong persisted.
He knew your fears werenât entirely unfounded; it was no secret to him that the relationship between you and your own parents was difficult to say the least, leaving you with more than a few emotional scars that you were slowly trying to heal. But he was not so secretly hoping that this might be the start of a better relationship with parental figures for you, that you might start to view his family as your own. He just needed you to believe.
âIf they donât like you, then thatâs their problem and theyâll have to get over it.â He told you matter-of-factly.
âYoongi-â You started, but he stopped you.
âI mean it, if they know me and care about me at all, then theyâll make the effort to get along with the person I love.â
Your eyes shot up to meet his in shock, making him realize his accidental admission.
âYou love me?â You asked.
âYeah, of course I do.â He said, trying to ignore the creeping redness that he could feel coloring his face.
âItâs just-, youâve never said that before.â You pointed out, still staring at him.
âIâve felt it for a while, Iâd just been trying to find the right time to say something.â He replied quietly, suddenly finding the pavement very interesting as he scratched at the back of his neck self-consciously. âAnd itâs no big deal, you donât have to say anything ba-â
âI love you too.â You cut him off.
His head snapped back up, his dark eyes filled with cautious hope.
âReally?âÂ
You nodded. âI always have.â
Before you could blink, Yoongi closed the gap between you, crushing you to his chest in a hug that nearly knocked the wind out of you.
âI love you.â He mumbled into your hair. âI love you so fucking much, and nothing anyone says can ever change that. Not my parents, not anyone.â
Your eyes stung at his words, trying to fight back the sudden wave of emotions that threatened to overtake you.
âI love you too.â You managed, blinking away the wetness in your eyes.
It was moments like this that reminded you of just how thankful you were to have Yoongi in your life, always willing to make room for you, to protect you, to fight for you.
After a long moment, he pulled away enough to meet your eye again.
âWe got this, yeah?â He asked. âWeâll be okay.â
You nodded, a small, genuine smile creeping across your face for the first time today.
âLets go home.â He said, catching your hand in his again and giving it a slight squeeze.
The two of you walked on together in comfortable silence, savoring the feel of the shared warmth of your joined hands, keeping away the autumn chill that tried to chill your fingers.
Everything would be okay. So long as you had each other to hold onto, you could face anything.
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"Joy Spence, 21, said she visited emergency departments at two hospitals in St. John's over the course of nearly two weeks this May.
What began as weakness and abdominal pain on her right side quickly deteriorated into blacking out from the agony in her torso.
But no matter how dire her symptoms got, doctors kept sending her home.
"They would just tell me, 'Your bloodwork's normal, there's nothing we can do.' They would send me home, then same thing again," she said. "I would go back again. They would get me to do the bloodwork, say everything's normal."
Ultrasound and CT scans apparently turned up nothing, but Spence, in such severe pain, says she had no option but to keep returning to the hospital, where she says she was eventually left screaming in a waiting room, ignored by hospital staff.
"If somebody doesn't help me, I'm going to die," she recalls wailing, watching doctors and nurses pass her by.
At one point, she was dismissed outright by a walk-in clinic nurse, she adds.
"Somebody said to me, 'I don't know what you expect me to do,'" she said. "'You're a healthy 21-year-old young female.'"
One night, she says, her boyfriend had to help her into an ambulance. Spence was in so much pain she couldn't stay conscious and stand on her own.
"I remember the man in the ambulance telling me ⊠how often he sees other young women going into the hospital and seeing them be misdiagnosed and not taken seriously," she said, speaking through tears.
"He said that he would do his best to ⊠get things going for me."
Spence says she went to an ER at the Health Sciences Centre or St. Clare's Mercy Hospital about 10 times over a 12-day period, beginning on May 21. She also visited her family doctor, who could do little except tell her to speak directly to the surgeon at Health Sciences Centre, she said.
Each time she saw a doctor, she says, she was sent home and told to dance around her living room or do yoga to cure what physicians believed was anxiety or sluggish bowels.
"I had so many laxatives," Spence recalls. "I would tell them ⊠nothing's even coming out anymore. It's not just this, I don't think. But no, they were dead set on the constipation and only constipation. Like, it can only be that."
...
Spence says doctors only began to take her seriously once she began vomiting in a Health Sciences Centre hallway. The contents of her stomach were green and black.
An older doctor walking past her happened to notice, stopping in his tracks. Spence says he immediately identified the issue as appendicitis.
At that doctor's urging, Spence was finally wheeled into an operating room, where she says her burst appendix â now gangrenous â was removed.
"I think when I walked into the room and they seen a 21-year-old young girl, they immediately dismissed me and thought that there couldn't be anything wrong with me," Spence said.
"I was not on their minds and not on their radar. And if they didn't have that preconceived idea of me, those thoughts wouldn't have been formed and maybe I would have gotten the proper care that I should have."
...
Spence is still struggling to recover from her ordeal. Physically, she's now fine: her appendix was removed and her stitches have healed.
But she's lost an alarming amount of weight, she says, wakes up gasping in the middle of the night and can't stop herself from crying whenever she remembers the hospital.
"I've been losing a lot of hair," she said. "Mentally, it's just been a struggle."
Spence only received an apology from the health authority after CBC News requested comment and confirmed that Spence had done an interview â a move she says felt hollow and frustrating, since the manager who called her didn't give her an explanation about why she was repeatedly ignored while waiting to be admitted.
The ripple effect from her illness, and how she says she was treated when seeking care, has uprooted her life. She's taken a year off her studies in Memorial University's social work program and has lost her job. She's looking for trauma therapy, but now doesn't have the money to pay for it, she says.
"I think as young women we're always told what we're supposed to do, how we're supposed to think, and not to trust our instincts," she said.
"But most of the time ⊠the gut instinct is right. I knew I was sick. I knew what was happening wasn't right, and I could have died if I didn't keep going back to the hospital.
"If I had listened to those doctors and went back home â what could have really happened?""
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While I'm not totally on board with OPs presentation of the topic (I think there's a bit of connective tissue missing as to why the hostility of men specifically in blue collar jobs has relevance to a discussion of right-wing men in general), this post says things that I've been trying to articulate for a while.
To draw a somewhat absurd comparison, I think the people OP is criticizing seem to internalize a view of conservative ideas akin to sappy Hollywood films like "My Big Fat Greek Wedding", where the intolerant people simply "come around" and warm up to the idea of a intercultural wedding (or some other new state of affairs) because there was demand for them to change their minds. Nothing wrong with stories simplifying the world like that, but the realities of changing minds are more complex than "everyone clapped".
To me, one of the most under-discussed factors holding back feminist movements is that our society hasn't yet solved creating a financially safe environment for men leaving the workforce to enter traditionally feminine-coded domains like housework. This is true for blue-collar workers who if they try to re-enter the work force suddenly have big gaps on their resume and its true for white-collar workers: a lawyer would have to go to law school again for several years to re-enter the field (ditto for a doctor, etc.). This doesn't necessarily affect how society thinks about transgressive gender expression or sexual orientation or about trans people, for example, but in an economy where businesses try to cut corners and pay as few people as possible it is a factor that means that many men will view the destruction of the patriarchy as a huge risk of their personal, individual ability to financially survive. Some feminists might tell these men to suck it up and become house-husbands, but that position comes with far less prestige, far less voice in society, far less autonomy, far less social mobility and requires ingenuity (taking on smaller jobs) in order to survive. It generates a dependency on another individual: this is why women's magazines so often revolve around what men want, what men like, what pleases men and how to make men happy while men's magazines revolve around male hobbies.
What OP is criticizing has to be viewed in that context: not only is OP correct that male peer groups make personal status and respect conditional on edgyness at best and often on outright bigotry... but if our society doesn't figure out the financial escape route for male independence then they will continue to intuitively think of genders as naturally polar opposites, some subsets of men will automatically oppose women entering the workforce (or men leaving it), maintaining fragile masculinity and emasculation will continue to be (in a certain bounded rationality sense where we don't consider broader and more radical alternatives) valid concerns.
Like: are conservative parents who let their sons bring girls home but don't let their daughters bring boys home not effectively showing concern about the future prospects of their children in a proportionate way? Men who fool around and disappoint or challenge their partners with a broader pool of sexual or romantic encounters can continue to have a nice life if their financial subsistence comes not from their current main partner but from their job. If the wife is unhappy with her married husband, he can receive a pay raise from the boss tomorrow because the boss is probably not the wife and the wife's wants and needs are totally unrelated to the employers wants and needs. If the husband is unhappy with his married wife, he can dump her...and now she has to scramble to figure out if she can receive alimony, how to receive alimony or whether she can survive with her relatives for a while. I agree that most conservatives are probably not thinking this deep into it, but their value systems allow for a kind of bounded rationality where if society operates like this, placing an unfair double standard on your children gives those children the maximum autonomy that that society grants without getting those kids into risk of serious trouble.
If we can solve this problem then presumably convincing conservatives to raise their kids different will be significantly easier -- it will be comparable to the kind of progress women made in the 1920s when wearing pants and earning money from a "man's job" often went together and enabled women to pay their own bills and do what they wanted without social punishment. And if the kids are raised different, they will have different priorities. These male spaces where men prove themselves by socially reinforcing loyalty to the hierarchies of society and glorifying the power they have over others...they will stop making as much sense to a younger generation. There will be respected and well-known men in society who are not conforming in any way to male norms. The male chauvinism will become less important to those groups which previously seemed to be fueled by it. In such a world, patriarchal attitudes will just be opinions, not a form of bounded rationality. Nothing important will hinge on these opinions, people will be far more able to give up these opinions...especially future generations.
If your vision for the deradicalization of right-wing men begins and ends with "other men telling them that that's gross and to stop it" then I'm sorry, you do not understand how masculinity works.
"Men who hold patriarchal status" and "men who are feminists" are two groups who overlap less than you want them to. I'm sorry. That's not solely because men are so happy with patriarchal status that they don't want to risk it by policing misogyny/queerphobia/racism, It's because being misogynistic, queerphobic, and racist, end expressing other forms of toxic masculinity(and often abusively so) are part of how people establish and maintain patriarchal status. The men who have the ability to stop this via nothing but peer pressure are the very people who are doing it. That's by design. And engaging in feminist intervention is, in and of itself, usually the abrupt end of that status and its associated power to persuade misogynistic men.
Like, I have worked in blue collar jobs as a notably queer person. It was pretty much a constant deluge of verbal abuse. In my experience, most blue collar work environments are exploitative, abusive, and bigoted, and very gleefully so. On the occasions I have spoken up about someone saying something that was super fucking out of line (asking me which of the girls walking by was hottest. We were installing a portable classroom at a middle school), believe it or not, they completely failed to be shamed! Because nobody else on the crew gave a fuck. *I* was the weird one. They ghosted me. A full blown company ghosted me. I suddenly didn't have a job anymore because they just straightforwardly stopped telling me where the next job site was.
Like, this doesn't mean that it's your job to do it, but this vision you have of these big groups of men where everyone is on the fence and there is precisely one shit stirrer who can be shut down by a brave feminist man who can single handedly set the example for all these other guys...you are high. You are describing an "everybody clapped" level absurd scenario. Most of these truly virulent misogynistic guys either have zero friends, because, you know, our society is atomized to fuck, or they are in a group where the feminist guy is actually the weirdo who can be shut down and ostracized much, much easier than the misogynists, because there is no such thing as a man misogynists respect who stands up for women.
You might be saying "well, we're talking about longstanding personal relationships, actually. Like, they need to have to want to spend time with you and then, as a side effect, you can mind control them out of being a threat to us."
Problem with that being:
1: Many feminist men also have no friends, see the atomized society above.
2: Feminist men already stopped hanging out with men who make rape jokes because why the fuck would we want to spend time with them.
3: That isn't just because we respect women so hard. We are in many cases talking about men who are also deeply queerphobic, heirarchical, violent and abusive to other men. What initially drew me to feminism and women was a lack of heirarchical squabbling and constant bullying, and the ability to be openly queer. A lot of men who came to feminism did so because they knew that the patriarchy was not a place they would find success or acceptance. These are not the men who are gonna be able to change right wing minds.
4. Men do not view themselves as a monolith. There is no universal brotherhood of men. The actual meaning of the term "Fragile masculinity" is that men are constantly expected to prove that they are deserving of the status of being a member of their own gender. There are large swathes of men--including most of the men who you'd look to as examples of good, feminist men who you want to undertake this project--who are considered failed men, sissies, f****ts, soyboys, ect. They are. Not. Going. To. Convince. These. Men. Of. Jack. Shit. Much less successfully *shame* them. Jesus.
I know all of this sucks. I know it would be cool to be able to just point at a group and have them be responsible for the work. But nah. It's gonna have to be a societal project, one that will probably outlast all of us. Sorry. The thing you want these men to do is, absolutely, the morally correct thing to do. But presuming that it would be effective is, and once again I am so sorry about this, just ignorance of how these social groups function.
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I LOVED YOU FIRST PT3 | FC43
part one | part two |
an: this is the most requested part three. i fell asleep so many times writing this but iâm waiting for tateâs new song so it gave me something to do. not proof read.
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It was nearly dawn when Franco turned off the engine, but the silence felt hollow. He sat motionless in the cockpit of his car, his hands still gripping the wheel even though he had finished his lap over an hour ago. The empty track stretched before him, a stark grey line splitting the waking sky, and for a fleeting moment, he considered taking off down it one more time, just for the noise.
That had been the only reason he'd even bothered coming out this morning. Noise. Anything loud enough to cut through the thick numbness that had settled over his life the last two years. Even racingâhis childhood dream, his only real thrillâfelt distant, just another repetition in an endless loop of things he used to care about.
He let go of the wheel, his fingers stiff and aching, and slumped back into his seat. The inside of the car still smelled new, though heâd driven this car all season. But everything in his life felt new in the wrong way, like he was breaking in someone else's skin.
Franco closed his eyes, but there was no escape there either. As much as he tried to avoid it, the image still came easily: two years ago, his wedding day. The hushed gasp of the guests as he had walked back down the aisle alone, the weight of his father-in-lawâs hand on his shoulder. And her eyesâhis childhood best friend, his first love, his confession to her still raw in his throat. He'd bared his heart, thought he was finally doing the right thing, only to watch her turn him down, her gaze steady and unwavering.
It was strange how clearly he could remember it. She had moved on. He was too late.
And yet here he was, two years later, sitting in the emptiness his choices had carved out. His marriage was the result of the aftermathâinevitable, unstoppable, once her father had coerced him into making it right. Heâd been a fool to think he could live with it, that he could somehow build a life out of that hollowed-out choice. But every day he woke up, and every day it was the same. A stranger beside him, a public charade. He was trapped in a marriage more binding than he had ever imagined, one that had closed off any other life he might have had.
A tap on the side of the car startled him out of his thoughts. His agent, Eddie, looked at him expectantly, his face creased with concern. Franco forced himself to meet his gaze, pulling on a blank expression heâd perfected over the last two years.
"You good, man?" Eddie's voice sounded so distant for some reason.
Franco forced a nod. âJust getting in some practice.â
Eddie raised an eyebrow. "You finished over an hour ago."
Franco shrugged, not offering any other excuse. What could he say? That he no longer felt the rush, that even the raw thrill of racing at 200 miles per hour left him feeling nothing? It would be admitting too much. He wasnât sure he could handle what Eddie would say if he knew.
As he finally climbed out of the car, his gaze drifted toward the track, that endless stretch of asphalt, and for just a second, he felt a flicker of what it used to mean to him. Freedom, purpose, maybe even love. But that had been before herâbefore he had thrown it all away, thinking he could have her back. And now all he was left with was this: the shadow of a life he hadnât chosen, the memory of a love that had been real once, and a future he couldnât bring himself to face.
Franco shook his head, stuffing the thought away. "Letâs just get through today" he muttered to himself, the words a quiet vow.
Tomorrow, heâd put on the act again.
The house was silent when Franco walked in. He closed the door softly, slipping off his shoes out of habit rather than any real desire to keep the peace. She was there, sitting in the dimly lit living room, curled on one end of the couch with her legs tucked under her. A book lay open on her lap, though her eyes werenât moving over the words.
They hadnât spoken much in days, maybe even weeks, except for the occasional small-talk exchange over morning coffee or at some public event. When they were alone, it was as if they were two strangers whoâd agreed on a routine. She looked up as he walked in, and he wondered if she was waiting for him to speak first.
But he didnât. He simply nodded, moving past her as if it were just another evening in this quiet, loveless house. He heard her shift, a quick intake of breath, and he paused, feeling her eyes on his back.
âI cheated,â she said, her voice flat, almost as if it were a statement sheâd practised a thousand times, something she needed to let out before it grew stale.
Franco slowly turned to face her, letting the words settle, though he didnât feel anything sharp or raw. Instead, there was just the dull, familiar weight of something like resignation. He studied her face, waiting for the anger or betrayal to come, but there was nothing. Just the same emptiness that had been there for two years.
âOkay,â he said, his voice calm, resigned.
She blinked, her expression faltering. âOkay?â she repeated, as if she hadnât expected that response. Her brow furrowed, and she set her book aside, sitting up straighter. âThatâs it? Just⊠okay?â
He shrugged, slipping his hands into his pockets. âWhat do you want me to do about it? Youâve already done it.â
She searched his face, a flicker of frustration and hurt sparking in her eyes. âWhy arenât you angry, Franco?â Her voice was louder now, cracking slightly. âWhy donât you care? Why donât you⊠love me? What did I do wrong?â
For the first time that evening, he felt something stir. Not anger, exactly, but a kind of distant ache. He looked at herâreally looked at herâand saw the exhaustion in her face, the years of pretending, of building a life on a foundation that had never been real. And he knew, somehow, that she felt as trapped as he did.
âThis isnât about what you did wrong,â he said quietly. âI just⊠I donât have it in me to love you, not in the way you want.â
She shook her head, her eyes brimming with frustration. âBut we were supposed to be in this together. My father⊠Your team. The whole world expects it. I have tried, Franco. Iâve done everything I could to make this work. I just wanted you to see me, to tryâŠâ
He sighed, looking away. âWeâve been pretending for two years. Itâs not that I havenât seen youâI just donât think we were ever meant to see each other this way.â
Her shoulders slumped, the fight draining out of her. She stared at her hands, twisted together in her lap. âSo what now? We just keep living like this, sharing the same house, putting on a show for everyone?â
Franco didnât have an answer for her. He didnât know what they were supposed to do, what the next step would even look like. They were bound together by more than their vowsâby the expectations, the pressure, the image of a life neither of them had chosen. He knew she deserved better than this emptiness, the hollow echo of what might have been.
After a moment, he sat down across from her, resting his elbows on his knees, his voice barely more than a whisper. âWhat do you want from me?â
She looked away, biting her lip, and for the first time he saw the loneliness in her eyes. "I donât know," she murmured, her voice quiet. "I donât know if I ever knew."
She looked down, fidgeting with the hem of her sweater, and then let out a long, quiet breath. "Iâll speak to my father," she said, her voice steady. âWeâll break it off. Thereâs⊠someone else. For me, I mean.â
Franco nodded, feeling only a strange sort of relief. âOkay.â
She gave a small, sad smile, as if sheâd expected moreâanger, maybe, or regret. âIâll make sure he keeps the sponsors on your team,â she added, her voice softening. âItâs the least I can do.â
Franco shook his head. âHe doesnât have to. I donât want you worrying about that.â
For a moment, she looked at him with something almost like sympathy. âFranco⊠itâs not your fault,â she said.
He frowned slightly, unsure what she meant. âWhat isnât?â
She looked away, gathering her thoughts, and then back at him, her gaze unwavering. âItâs not your fault you still love her after all these years. Some things⊠they just donât go away.â
His throat tightened, and he couldnât find the words to respond. Her words hung between them, exposing something heâd tried to bury, something he hadnât even admitted to himself. His silence was answer enough.
âShe was a very lovely woman when I met her,â she continued, her voice softer, almost wistful. âIâm sure she hasnât changed. Iâm sure you two would be perfect together.â
He looked down, swallowing the ache in his chest. For all their distance, sheâd seen more of him than heâd realised, even if they had never truly belonged to each other. Maybe sheâd known all along. Maybe thatâs why theyâd been drifting from the beginning, like two people playing their parts, waiting for the script to finally run out.
He stood up, running a hand over the back of his neck, his voice low. âIâll sleep in the guest room tonight.â
She nodded, her eyes full of an understanding that somehow made this harder. âOkay. Goodnight, Franco.â
He gave her a brief nod, then turned and headed down the hall, his footsteps soft against the hardwood. The walls of the house felt like a cage, closing in with every step, but he knew that maybe, for the first time, there was a way outâfor both of them.
Franco closed the door to the guest room, feeling the weight of everything settling over him. He felt like a visitor in his own life, just as he had every day for the past two years. He slipped off his watch, set it on the nightstand, and reached for his phone to set an alarm.
Just as he did, his motherâs name lit up the screen. She called him every night, their routine barely wavering since heâd left home all those years ago to chase his dream. He answered, feeling a bit of the tension ease from his shoulders.
âHey, Mama.â
âOh, finally, you picked up! I thought Iâd missed you tonight, hijo.â she said, her voice bright and warm, filling the room with a bit of comfort he hadnât known he needed.
âSorry. Itâs been⊠a long day,â he replied, not sure where to start even if heâd wanted to.
âOh, mi amor, Iâm sorry to hear that,â she said, sympathy lacing her voice. She paused, her tone shifting to something lighter. âWell, youâll never guess who I ran into today.â
He smiled slightly, settling back against the pillows. âKnowing you, mama, it could be anyone.â
âYou flatter me,â she laughed. âBut no, this one youâll want to hear. I ran into your chiquita's mama at the market this morning.â
At the mention of his childhood best friend, Francoâs heart gave a small, involuntary jolt. He kept his voice casual, though he could feel his pulse quicken. âOh yeah?â
âGuess whoâs moving back home?â she said, her voice bright with excitement. âSheâs coming back without that boyfriend of hersâwhat was his name, Angelo or something? Anyway, I donât know what happened there, but her mama didnât say much, just that sheâll be moving back in soon.â
Franco fell silent, her words sinking in. She was moving back. Back to the same town, back to where theyâd both grown up. It was strange hearing it now, after all this timeâespecially tonight. He tried to imagine her there, close by, after years of being nothing more than a memory, a lingering ache. She hadnât been in touch since his wedding. They hadnât spoken, not really, since that day heâd confessed everything.
âFranco?â his mother asked, her voice pulling him back. âYou still there?â
âYeah,â he murmured. âYeah, Iâm here. Just⊠surprised, I guess.â
âWell, I thought youâd be pleased to know,â she said gently. âI donât know why sheâs moving back, and I suppose itâs none of my business, but I hope sheâs doing alright. I always liked that girl.â
âMe too,â he said, his voice barely more than a whisper.
He wondered what could have happened to bring her back. Sheâd seemed happy, at least in the few times heâd seen her in the public eye over the last two yearsâsmiling, vibrant, that spark still in her. Whatever had drawn her back, he doubted it was anything good.
âAnyway, I just thought Iâd tell you,â his mother went on, a hint of cheer in her voice. âIâm sure youâll see her around when sheâs back. Goodness knows you two could catch up. Iâll let you get some sleep, though. You sound tired, love.â
âI am,â he said honestly. âThanks, mama.â
âGoodnight, mi amor,â she said softly. âTry not to worry so much. Things have a way of working out.â
He hung up, setting the phone down on the nightstand, but his mind kept circling back to her, the unanswered questions piling up. Why was she moving home? Why now, after everything?
He lay back, staring at the ceiling, feeling the quiet gnaw at him. For the first time in a long while, he felt something stirring beneath the emptinessâsomething that he hadnât let himself feel since that day two years ago. A flicker of hope, of curiosity. And maybe, just maybe, the faintest hint of longing.
Franco woke up to an unsettling silence the following morning. The kind that felt thick, heavy, and somehow different from the usual quiet heâd grown accustomed to in this house. He rubbed his eyes, groggy, his mind still tangled in the remnants of last nightâs conversation with his mother. She was moving back home. The thought had settled somewhere deep, like a stone sinking to the bottom of his chest, and he hadnât stopped wondering why sheâd come back.
He rose slowly, crossing the hall toward the master bedroom to grab his things, but as he reached the door, he noticed it was open just a crack. There was an odd stillness inside, an emptiness. Pushing the door open fully, he froze.
The wardrobes were wide open, their shelves bare, nothing left but empty hangers. He scanned the room, taking in the strange absence of her things: the jewellery stand, her perfumes, even the photos from the dresserâall gone.
On the bed, her wedding band glinted in the morning light, sitting atop a folded sheet of paper. Heart pounding, Franco walked over and picked up the note, her familiar handwriting scrawled across the page in clean, deliberate strokes.
"Go live a life youâll enjoy. Go get the girl."
He read the words over and over, the reality slowly sinking in. She had really left. It was over, finallyâno more strained conversations, no more pretences, no more empty rooms they shared out of duty. She had made the choice for both of them, letting him go in a way neither of them had been able to until now.
He let out a slow, deep breath, feeling a strange mixture of relief and regret. She had given him a way out, but he felt a twinge of sadness for the life theyâd tried and failed to build, and for the woman whoâd known him well enough to let him go.
After a moment, he picked up his phone and scrolled to his agentâs number. It rang twice before Eddie answered, his voice thick with sleep.
âFranco? Itâs barely morning. You okay?â
Franco ran a hand through his hair, still processing everything. âYeah. Listen, Eddie, I need you to book me a flight.â
âA flight? Where are you going?â
âHome. To Argentina.â He paused, and for the first time in two years, the words felt right. âI just need to go home.â
Eddie hesitated on the other end. âYou sure about this?â
âYes. Iâll figure everything out when I get there,â Franco replied, feeling a resolve he hadnât felt in years.
Eddie sighed, but there was something like approval in his voice. âAlright, Iâll get it sorted. Youâll be on a plane by tonight.â
âThank you, Eddie.â Franco hung up, glancing around the room one last time. He pocketed her note, her words still echoing in his mind.
True to Eddie's word, Franco was on a flight six hours later. The journey was a blur of cramped seats, stale air, and the faint taste of regret that clung to the back of his throat. The turbulence was relentless, like some cosmic joke, as if the universe itself wanted to remind him that nothing had ever been easy. He tried to sleep, but the aching pull of everything heâd left behind in that houseâhis marriage, his choices, his dreamsâkept him awake, staring out at the dark sky, thinking of all the roads that had led him here.
By the time he landed in Buenos Aires and caught a car for the long drive north to his family's old village, the exhaustion had crept under his skin, weighing him down like a thousand unspoken words. But the quiet beauty of the countrysideâthe sun setting over fields that stretched on foreverâstarted to soothe him, even if just a little.
The car ride seemed endless, every minute dragging with the weight of his thoughts. But when the familiar sight of his familyâs village finally came into viewâcobblestone streets, thatched roofs, the scent of freshly baked bread hanging in the airâsomething inside Franco began to shift. The city felt miles away, the noise, the crowds, the weight of his past life all falling away as he crossed into the place that had always felt like home.
The moment he stepped through the door of his childhood house, all of that exhaustion seemed to vanish. The house was exactly as he remembered itâwarm, full of life, and alive with the kind of energy he hadn't felt in so long. His motherâs soft humming from the kitchen filled the air, the scent of her cooking familiar and comforting in a way nothing else ever had been.
âMama?â he called, stepping into the kitchen.
She looked up from the stove, a warm smile spreading across her face as she caught sight of him. It was like the years had slipped away in an instant, and before he could even move, she was across the room, enveloping him in her arms.
âOh, hijo,â she said, pulling him in tight. âYouâre home. Youâre really home.â
Franco closed his eyes for a moment, inhaling the comforting smells of garlic and simmering stew. It was the same as it had always been. His motherâs embrace felt like a balm, her steady, familiar presence filling up the spaces in his chest that had been empty for so long. He let himself relax into the hug, feeling like he could finally breathe again.
âYeah, mama,â he murmured, his voice thick with emotion. âIâm home.â
She pulled back, looking at him with concern now, her gaze soft but knowing. âYou look like youâve been through a storm. What happened, Franco?â
He shook his head, a slight smile tugging at his lips. âItâs⊠been a hot minute.â
She stepped back, eyes still lingering on him as she turned toward the counter, gesturing for him to sit. "Come, sit. You must be starving."
As he slid into the chair at the table, his motherâs eyes flickered to his left hand, where the ring had once sat. The absence of it didnât go unnoticed.
"Franco," she said softly, her voice delicate but insistent, âWhereâs your wedding ring?â
He froze, his fingers absentmindedly tracing the spot where the band had once been. The question hit him harder than he expected, like a weight on his chest.
He took a deep breath, his words coming out slow, almost reluctant. "I⊠I never loved her, Mama. Not like I shouldâve. Not like I shouldâve loved the person I married."
His mother didnât flinch, didnât offer a shocked look or try to comfort him with false reassurances. Instead, she simply nodded, as if she had known all along. The silence between them was calm, understanding.
"I knew," she said, her voice gentle but firm. "I knew from the start, Franco. I could see it. You were never... you were never right with her."
He exhaled, a small weight lifting from his chest. His mother didnât judge him. She hadnât expected him to make some fairy tale of a marriage. She had always known him better than anyone.
"Why didnât you say something?" he asked, the question slipping out before he could stop it.
She smiled softly, her hand brushing his cheek. "You had to learn it on your own, cariño. I couldnât take that from you."
He sat back in his chair, letting her words sink in. This was home. The quiet understanding, the unconditional love. The very things he had been running from for so long. And now, in this moment, he felt like he was finally allowed to come back to it.
His mother leaned in, brushing the hair from his forehead as if he were still that little boy who had left for the big city years ago. "Youâll be alright, Franco. I know you will. You always find your way back."
He smiled, his heart full, and reached across the table to squeeze her hand. "Thanks, Mama," he said, his voice thick with emotion. "I think Iâm ready to find it now."
His mother studied him for a moment, as if weighing whether to say more. The comfortable silence stretched between them before she finally spoke, her voice casual, but with a slight undercurrent of something he couldnât quite place.
âYou know, she moved back this morning,â she said, a soft note of curiosity in her tone.
Franco looked up sharply, his stomach tightening at the mention of her. âShe did?â
His mother nodded, stirring a pot on the stove. He shifted in his seat, trying to steady the flutter of emotions that were beginning to rise in his chest. She was back. The thought of her living just next door made his heart ache in ways he wasnât prepared for, especially after everything that had happened. It felt like a sign, but it also felt like a questionâone he didnât know if he was ready to answer.
âI donât know whatâs happened,â he said, the words coming out quieter than he intended. âBut Iâm sure itâs for the best. Sheâs probably just trying to figure things out.â
His mother gave him a thoughtful look before turning back to the stove. "Itâs not easy, you know. Coming back here after all those years. Maybe she just needs some time. Things haven't been easy for her, either."
Franco nodded absently, his mind already racing, a thousand thoughts flooding his mind. Heâd always wondered what it would be like if they were close againâif the years between them could just vanish, and they could pick up where they left off. But that was before everything had changed.
Before heâd made a mess of everything.
âIâll give her space,â he said after a long pause. âShe clearly needs it if sheâs come back home. I donât want to crowd her, not like this.â
His mother looked at him for a long moment, her gaze soft and full of the kind of love only a mother could offer. She didnât press, but Franco could tell she was seeing more in him than he was letting on. She always had that way of reading him, even when he didnât want to be read.
âI think thatâs wise, Franco,â she said quietly. âBut donât wait too long. Sometimes, the right thingsâpeopleâcan slip away if we donât take the chance when we can.â She gave him a small smile, her eyes gentle but full of a motherâs wisdom. âDonât make the same mistake twice.â
He swallowed hard, looking down at his hands. The right things... people. Was she talking about her?
He wasnât sure. What he was sure of was that he had already lost so muchâlost the girl he had once called his best friend. His true love. That much was clear.
But he couldnât make the same mistake again. Not with her. Not now.
âYeah,â he said, his voice hoarse. âI wonât. Iâll give her the time she needs⊠and then, Iâll figure out what comes next.â He forced a small smile, looking back up at her. âBut first, I think I need to settle in here, Mama. Just for a bit.â
She smiled warmly at him, nodding as she moved to set the table. âTake your time, cariño. Youâve earned it.â Then she added softly, almost to herself, âAnd when youâre ready, you know where she is.â
Franco nodded, the weight of her words hanging in the air like a promise he wasnât sure he was ready to make. He had to sort through the years of distance, the pain, the confusion, and the mess he had made before he could even think of approaching her again.
That night the house was quiet as Franco prepared for bed, the kind of quiet that settled deep into the bones. The weight of the dayâs emotions, of the journeyâof everythingâpressed on him like a physical force, but he couldnât quite shake the feeling that something was still missing.
He stood in front of the mirror, his eyes scanning the reflectionâa man who hadnât truly looked at himself in a long time. His face was a little more worn, the years of racing and the strain of the past two had carved lines into his features. And yet, there was a boy in those eyes tooâthe one who used to laugh freely, who used to dream of more than just what life had given him.
He sighed, running a hand through his hair, the quiet ache of the past two years swirling in his chest again. Where did it all go wrong? Heâd asked himself this so many times, but the answer had never been clear. His life had seemed like it was on track, until it suddenly wasnât. Until it all came crashing down, leaving him here, in his childhood home, looking at a version of himself he didnât recognise.
Where did it all go to shit?
He turned away from the mirror, needing a moment of peace, a change of scenery. The night air felt crisp as he stepped out onto the balcony, the soft night breeze brushing against his skin. The village was quiet, the distant sound of crickets filling the silence. The stars above him were impossibly bright, as if they had been waiting for him to step out into this space to show themselves.
For a moment, he just stood there, taking it all in. The vast sky, the deep silence, the comfort of being home, of being away from all the chaos of the life heâd left behind. He closed his eyes for a beat, letting himself breathe.
Then, he froze.
From across the yard, on the roof of the house next door, a figure was sittingâher silhouette outlined by the soft glow of the stars.
Franco didnât know how long sheâd been sitting there. The sight of herâafter all these yearsâwas like a jolt to the chest, a flood of old memories and emotions crashing over him.
At first, he considered turning back into the house, pretending he hadnât seen her, pretending the universe wasnât trying to push him into a conversation he wasnât ready for. But his feet stayed rooted to the ground, his eyes locked on her figure, so familiar, so her. He hadnât expected to see her tonight, especially not like this. Not sitting on the roof, in the same place they used to sit together as kids, watching the stars and talking about everything and nothing.
He had no idea how to approach her.
Before he could make up his mind, she spoke, her voice drifting through the night air, quiet but unmistakable. âStaringâs rude, you know.â
Francoâs breath caught in his throat, his chest tightening at the sound of her voice. It had been so long since heâd heard it, and yet it felt like no time had passed at all.
He stayed where he was, still unsure, a little frozen by the way his heart was racing. âI didnât think youâd notice,â he finally said, his voice coming out quieter than he intended.
She tilted her head slightly, but didnât look directly at him. âI always notice,â she replied, a faint smile playing on her lips, though her tone was more playful than anything else.
He let out a small laugh, a bit surprised by her nonchalance. It was just like her to act so casual, even in the middle of something heavy.
âI wasnât planning to interrupt,â he added, his hands shoved deep into his pockets. "Just thought I'd leave you to it."
She didnât respond right away, but he could see the way her gaze flickered toward him, though she didnât move. After a beat, she spoke again, her voice quieter now. âYou came home.â
âI did,â he said, his heart racing as he stood there, not knowing where to go from here. âTook me a while, but Iâm here.â
She nodded, the soft rustle of her hair catching the starlight. "Good. I didnât think you would."
Franco swallowed, the weight of the unspoken words hanging thick between them. "I... didnât think I would either."
There was another pause, but it wasnât uncomfortable. Just... heavy, in a way that felt like they were both waiting for something. Waiting for the moment when they could go back to being what they once were. But Franco knew, deep down, that it wasnât going to be that simple. Too much had happened between them, too many years spent apart.
Her voice broke the quiet, her words soft but inviting. âThereâs space next to me. You should come up here.â
Franco hesitated for a second longer, unsure, but something in her tone, a subtle pull, urged him forward. He glanced around briefly before deciding to take a chance.
Carefully, he climbed over the small stone wall dividing their balconies, his fingers finding familiar purchase as he pulled himself over. The moment his feet hit the roof, the memories of their childhood came rushing backâsitting on the very same roof, talking about everything and nothing, watching the stars as if they were the only two people in the world.
It felt surreal, like no time had passed at all, even though everything between them had changed.
She was already sitting cross-legged, her back turned slightly toward him, but she patted the spot next to her, silently urging him to join her. He moved toward her, then sat down, the cool roof beneath him grounding him in a way he hadnât expected.
When he finally reached the top, she shifted to make room, and before he even fully settled beside her, she was resting her head on his shoulder. It was as natural as breathing, a comfort he hadnât realised heâd been starved for.
The night seemed to stretch on forever as they sat together, not speaking, just sharing the same space, the same memories that lingered between them like a soft, delicate thread. It was as though the silence held all the things they couldnât say out loud.
Finally, it was her who broke the quiet, her voice low and tinged with regret. âSorry I never replied to your letter.â
Francoâs heart stuttered in his chest at the mention of the letter. He hadnât expected her to bring it up, not after everything that had happened. Slowly, he turned his head to look at her, his voice barely a whisper. âYou... you received it?â
She nodded slowly, lifting her head from his shoulder but not fully pulling away. She stared up at the stars, her fingers absentmindedly tracing shapes in the air. âFour days ago,â she said, her voice soft and distant, as though the words were hard to say.
Four days ago.
The words hit him like a punch to the gut. The letter. The letter heâd written years ago, before everything spiralled out of control, before the wedding, before he called it all off. The letter where he had laid bare his feelings for herâtelling her everything heâd never had the courage to say before. Telling her that he loved her. That heâd leave his fiancĂ© for her. That he wanted to be with her.
The letter had been the final step, the desperate confession that he couldnât hold inside any longer.
âI⊠I didnât know,â Franco muttered, his throat tight. âI sent it because I thought you needed to know. I thought you needed to hear it.â He paused, looking down at his hands. âI didnât expect you to justâignore it.â
Her breath hitched slightly, and she looked over at him, her eyes meeting his with an intensity that made him ache. âI didnât ignore it,â she said softly. âI didnât know about it. Angelo hid it from me.â
Franco froze. Angelo. The same guy sheâd been with all those years, the one who had kept the letter from her. The weight of it hit him hard, a cold knot in his stomach. âHe hid it?â His voice barely came out above a whisper.
She nodded, her eyes not leaving his. âI only found it four days ago when I was packing.â She paused, as though weighing whether or not to say more, then sighed. âHe kept it from me, Franco. Told me it was nothing, just some silly thing from the past. But it wasnât nothing. It was you. It was everything you were trying to say. And I didnât even know until hours before your wedding.â
Franco could feel his chest tighten, the words he had written, the words that had been locked inside of him for so long, echoing in the space between them. He had no idea sheâd never received it. No idea she had been living in that oblivion, thinking that nothing had changed when, in reality, everything had been laid out for her years ago.
Franco closed his eyes, the weight of her words settling over him. His entire life had been built around the lies heâd told himself, and in the end, he had only hurt the one person who had always been there for him.
When he opened his eyes again, he was staring at the sky, the stars so far away. âI never stopped loving you,â he said quietly, the confession falling from his lips before he could stop it. âI never stopped thinking about you, even when I thought I should. Even when I tried to move on, I always... always thought about you. About Monza.â
Her voice was soft but steady, a quiet confession in the night air. âI shouldnât have come to that wedding,â she said, her words hanging in the space between them like a breath held too long.
Franco blinked, his heart stuttering slightly in his chest as he turned to look at her. âWhy?â
She sighed, her eyes focused on the distant horizon, her expression unreadable in the soft glow of the moon. âBecause I thought I was over you, Franco. I really did. I thought that seeing you get married to someone else, someone who wasnât me, would help me move on. But when I watched you declare your love for me in front of everyone... it hit me all at once. I felt like I was coasting through a lie with Angelo for two years.â
Francoâs chest tightened at the mention of Angelo again, but he didnât interrupt. He knew this was something that had been simmering beneath the surface for a long time, something they had never really spoken about. She took a slow breath, her fingers playing with the hem of her shirt as she spoke again.
âI couldnât give him all of me,â she continued, her voice wavering for the first time, just the slightest crack in her calm demeanour. âWhen you still had half my heart.â
Franco felt a lump form in his throat at her words. She still loved him. Despite everything, despite the time apart, despite the man she had been with, a part of her had never truly moved on.
He didnât know what to say. He couldnât find the right words to express the swirl of emotions inside him. The guilt, the confusion, the longing. All he could do was listen, his heart aching with each word she spoke.
âAmorâŠâ His voice faltered, and he cleared his throat, trying to find his grounding. âShe cheated on me. My wife.â He added as though she needed clarification.
Her head jerked up, her eyes wide with surprise, but she said nothing. She waited for him to continue, her breath catching in her throat.
Franco stared out at the stars, his voice barely more than a whisper. âI didnât feel much at first. I think I expected it. In some way, I always did. Iâd been living in a marriage where I wasnât really present for a long time.â He paused, his eyes distant as he recalled the feeling of his world unravelling. âBut... when I found out, I couldnât feel anything. It was like I had already shut myself off from it all.â
She studied him, her gaze soft but piercing. âReally? You didnât feel... anything?â
Francoâs heart twisted, âI felt guilty,â he admitted, his voice low. "I didnât feel hurt or anger. I just felt... guilty."
She frowned, the confusion and concern evident in her eyes. âGuilty? Why? You didnât cheat. You werenât the one betraying her.â
Franco chuckled bitterly, a hollow sound that felt foreign to him. âNo, I didnât cheat. But Iâve been mentally cheating on her for years now.â His voice cracked slightly, the admission slipping out before he could stop it. âWith you. Iâve been thinking about you. Wanting you. Wondering... what could have been.â
Her breath caught in her throat, and she stared at him for a long moment, the weight of his confession hanging between them like an invisible force. The air was thick, heavy with the things they hadnât said, the things they had both buried for too long.
For a moment, neither of them spoke. The only sound was the distant rustle of the trees, the wind whispering through the leaves. Then, she shifted slightly, her fingers brushing against his, tentative, like she wasnât sure if it was okay to reach out. But Franco didnât pull away. He let her fingers weave through his, and for a moment, they were back to the way they used to beâclose, without words, just a connection that had never truly faded.
âIâm sorry,â she whispered, her voice breaking the silence again. âI didnât mean to make things more complicated for you. I never wanted you to feel guilty.â
Franco shook his head, his fingers tightening around hers. âYou didnât. Itâs my fault. I shouldâve been honest with myself. With you. With everyone.â
Her hand found his, her grip soft but reassuring. âWe canât undo the past, Franco. But maybe... maybe we can stop running from it.â She looked up at him, her eyes searching his face for somethingâmaybe a sign that they were on the same page, that this wasnât just a momentary lapse, but the beginning of something else.
Francoâs heart skipped a beat. The ache inside himâthis pull, this longingâfelt more real now than it ever had before. But he couldnât let himself get lost in it. Not yet. Not before he figured out what came next.
âMaybe,â he whispered, his voice thick with emotion. âMaybe we can.â
But for now, they stayed there, hand in hand, watching the stars as the night stretched onâtogether, but not quite ready to bridge the distance between them. The future was uncertain, but in that moment, with her close to him again, it felt like the possibility of a new beginning was still there.
And maybe that was enough.
She shifted slightly, pulling her knees closer to her chest as she stared up at the night sky, the stars scattered above them like little pieces of a puzzle they couldnât quite put together. Her voice broke the quiet again, this time more introspective, tinged with a kind of sadness that Franco couldnât shake. âWhy are we like this?â she asked softly, the question hanging in the air between them. âWhy canât we ever get it right? Why does it feel like we keep missing each other?â
Franco felt a lump form in his throat as he turned his head to look at her. He had no answer. No easy explanation for the years of missed opportunities, the broken promises, the things left unsaid. All he could do was let the silence stretch for a moment before he spoke, his voice thick with regret.
âI donât deserve you,â he said, his words barely audible, but full of the weight of everything he had kept buried for so long.
Her hand tightened around his, her fingers warm and steady against his skin. She didnât look at him immediately. She just stared at the stars, letting the night take them both in. But when she did speak, her voice was clear, almost a little too sharp, as if she were trying to distance herself from the ache inside.
âI know,â she said, her words simple, yet filled with the unspoken truth between them.
Franco exhaled slowly, his chest tight with the unrelenting guilt that seemed to follow him wherever he went. âI really donât,â he added, his tone heavier this time, the words more raw, like they were scraping against his very soul.
She turned her head slightly, her eyes soft but steady as she met his gaze. âBut youâll always have me anyway,â she said, her voice gentle, almost a whisper, but strong in its promise. âAll of me. Even if you think you donât deserve it, even if you feel like youâve lost me, Iâm still here. I always will be.â
Franco closed his eyes, his heart pounding in his chest. He wanted to believe her. He wanted to reach out and pull her into him, to hold on to the promise she was offering, but he knew that he had to fix everything first. He had to prove to himself, to her, that he was worthy.
After a long moment, his mind shifted, a question bubbling up to the surface, something that had been nagging at him for a while now. âWhat happened to Angelo?â he asked, his voice quiet, but urgent with curiosity.
Her gaze flickered away, her expression becoming unreadable for a brief second. She didnât speak at first, but then, she sighed, her voice small as she turned her head back toward the night sky.
âHe proposed,â she said softly, her words hitting Franco like a punch to the gut. âHe got down on one knee, right there in the middle of a restaurant, and asked me to marry him.â
Francoâs heart sank. He had imagined the two of them together, but hearing her speak those words, hearing the finality in her tone, made something inside him shift. His breath caught in his throat.
âAnd you didnât say yes,â he whispered, the realisation washing over him slowly, painfully.
She shook her head, her fingers grazing the edge of her sleeve as she gathered her thoughts. âI couldnât bring myself to say yes,â she murmured, her voice distant, like the memory still held weight over her. âI couldnât lie to him, and I couldnât lie to myself anymore. Not after everything. I just... I couldnât. And when I looked at him, I knew something wasnât right. I knew that the whole time, I had been lying to both of us, pretending that he was enough when I wasnât even sure of myself.â
Franco felt his chest tighten, his heart aching with understanding. âIâm sorry,â he said, the words tumbling out before he could stop them. He wasnât sure if he was apologising for Angelo, for her, or for himself, but it felt like the right thing to say. âIâm sorry for everything.â
She didnât respond right away. She just sat there beside him, her head back on his shoulder, her fingers still twined with his. The night stretched on, both of them lost in their own thoughts, but there was something in the air that felt different now. It wasnât just the weight of their shared history or the unsaid words that hovered between them. There was something else.
Something that, for the first time, felt like the beginning of something new.
After a while, she spoke again, her voice barely audible. âI never wanted to hurt him. But I couldnât pretend anymore. Not when youâre still here, not when youâve always been here, Franco.â
Franco closed his eyes, his fingers tracing the curve of her hand. âI understand,â he whispered, though he wasnât sure if he did. He wasnât sure of anything right now except that he needed to make it rightâwhatever that looked like.
They stayed like that for what felt like hours, the quiet stretching between them, neither of them in a rush to break the stillness. The night air was cool against their skin, and the stars above seemed to twinkle with the same quiet understanding that hung in the air. For the first time in years, it felt like they were both exactly where they were meant to beâtogether.
But slowly, the rhythm of her breathing changed, softening, slowing. Franco felt it before he saw it, the gentle shift in the weight on his shoulder. He glanced down, his heart softening at the sight of herâher lashes fluttering closed, her face serene and peaceful in sleep. She was completely relaxed, as if the weight of everything had been lifted, even if just for a moment.
He didnât move, didnât want to disturb the quiet that had settled between them. But as minutes ticked by, he knew it was time to move her. Carefully, he slipped his arm beneath her, lifting her gently, cradling her close. Her head rested on his chest as he stood, her body instinctively curling against him. She felt weightless in his arms, and for a second, he couldnât believe how natural it all felt.
As he carried her through the door to her room, the familiar smell of her childhood home wrapped around himâthe scent of lavender and old wood, a place both foreign and intimately familiar. The room was just as he remembered, simple and cosy, with little traces of her scattered throughout. He looked down at the floor he used to sleep on when they were young The soft, pale light of the moon filtered through the window, casting everything in a gentle glow.
He placed her gently in the bed, tucking the covers around her small frame. For a moment, he just stood there, watching her, his chest heavy with emotion. Everything about this felt so right, so painfully wrong at the same time. He should have been here years ago. He should have never let things get so far. But now, he was here. And he wasnât going anywhere.
He leaned down, brushing a strand of hair away from her face before pressing a gentle kiss to her forehead. His lips lingered there for a second longer than he meant to, his heart aching with all the things he never said.
Just as he turned to leave, to head back to his own house, her voice stopped him.
âDonât.â
Franco froze. His hand rested on the window frame , his heart stalling in his chest. He turned slowly, not sure if he had heard her correctly.
âWhat?â he asked, his voice quiet, almost unsure.
She looked up at him, her eyes still heavy with sleep, but there was something in her gazeâvulnerable, raw, but full of longing. âDonât go,â she whispered, her voice thick with emotion. âI canât watch you walk away again. Please donât.â
For a moment, Franco stood there, his chest tight as he processed her words. Donât go. It was all he needed to hear. She didnât want him to leave. After everything that had happened, after all the distance between them, she still wanted him here.
He walked back toward the bed, his movements slow and deliberate. He didnât need to say anything; the weight of the moment, the look in her eyes, said it all. He carefully slid under the covers, settling beside her, the warmth of her body so familiar yet so new.
Without a word, she shifted, curling into him, her head finding its place on his chest, her hand resting gently against his side. Franco wrapped his arm around her, pulling her close, and for the first time in a long time, he felt at peace. It wasnât a perfect moment, but it was real. And it was theirs.
They stayed there, the rhythm of their breathing slowly syncing, the quiet of the night wrapping around them. No more words were needed. No more distance. Just the two of them, together, holding on to each other like they were afraid to let go.
And as they drifted off to sleep, tangled together beneath the covers, Franco realised that this momentâthis feeling of being homeâwas everything he had been searching for.
Home.
Her.
It was all synonymous.
She was his home.
the end.
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nnn: rin
NNN: RI
Rin: Okay... What's with this... intervention?
Rin: And, more importantly, why am I tied to a chair?!
Pyrrha: Rin... You know we love you...
Nora: And, that we care for you...
Rin: Thank you...?
Pyrrha: And, we know you've been having a hard time...
Nora: And, that this is usually a guy thing...
Pyrrha: But, because of your recent interests...
Rin: W-What interests?
Nora: You porn tags...
Rin: Wait, what?!
Pyrrha: We thought it best to hold an intervention...
Rin: Nora! Did you hack my phone again?!
Nora: We're doing this for your own good...
Rin: Doing what?!
Pyrrha: As of right now, November 1... You, Lian Rin are here by doing the, No Nut November challenge!
Rin: What?! Why do I have to do that?!
Nora: Cause you're thirsty girl!
Rin: What?
Pyrrha: You're lusting for our team leader has gotten out of hand.
Nora: Seriously girl, you got issues.
Pyrrha: And, we understand, we all are in love with, Jaune...
Nora: And, really want to bang him!
Pyrrha: Massively so! But, you... you have issue girl...
Rin: What issues?
Pyrrha: Nora... the evidence...
Nora: The EVIDENCE!
Rin: Oh no... the evidence...
Nora: Exhibit A: The Porn Tags!
Rin: Oh no! The evidence?!
Nora: Ahem! We have the following tags: Male on Female. Straight. Asian. White. Human. Blond. Brunette. Cumshot. Creampie. Breeding...
Rin: Oh gods...
Nora: There are more, many more tags that can be mentioned, but those just display how she wants, Jaune to take her.
Rin: H-How do you know it's about, Jaune it could be about any blond?
Pyrrha: Nora...
Nora: Exhibit B! The Photos~!
Rin: W-What...?!
Pyrrha: She has photos of, Jaune?
Nora: A lot of photos... Ohhh~!
Pyrrha: What's, ohh? Oh! Ohhh~!
Nora: Oh, Jaune looks good when wet~!
Pyrrha: Ohh~! Look at those glistening abbs~!
Nora: Oh mommy liky~!
Rin: Hey! Give those back! Or, at least let me see them too...
PN: NO!
Rin: Nawww...
Pyrrha: Ahem!
Pyrrha: Because of this... and, your overall desire to sleep with, Jaune, to do... certain things that we will not attempt until at least we graduate, Beacon!
Nora: We?
Rin: We~?
Pyrrha: We are forcing you to do, NNN! And, if you fail you will not be allowed to have sex with, Jaune a month to the day you failed!
Rin: What, no?!
Pyrrha: But, if you succeed you can... can...?
Nora: You play out your number one fantasy with, Jaune!
Rin: REALLY?!
Pyrrha: But, on the pill! You're too young for that missy!
Rin: Oh... okay...
Pyrrha: Good! Nora, release the prisoner!
Nora: Was it too tight, Rinny?
Rin: A little... I don't understand how, Ruby could be into that...
Nora: Ruby's into what now?
Jaune: Uhh girls...?
NPR: Yes, Jaune~?
Jaune: Uhhh... I need some help... n-n-now please...
Pyrrha: What's wrong?
Jaune: Someone spiked the punch bowl at Ruby's birthday party... probably, Yang all things considering... But, uhhh... it... it wasn't with alcohol...
Nora: What does that mean?
Jaune: It... It means...
NPR: ...?
Jaune: It means this...
Nora: Oh...
Pyrrha: My...
Rin: Gods...!
Jaune: Uhh... a little help...?
NPR: ...
Pyrrha: Rin?
Rin: Y-Yes...?
Pyrrha: The challenge starts tomorrow.
Rin: Fuck ya! Come here you!
Jaune: Whoa hey?!
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"Always, Sweetheart."
âââââââ · · A Black Ops 6 FanFic
Pairing: Russell Adler x Fem!Handler!Reader
â · · SUMMARY: You were a handler of operators out in the field and Russell Adlers was your best and yet the biggest pain in your side with his constant flirting and desire to get under your skin. Yet as soon as someone else tries to annoy you or heaven forbid- flirt with you, it gets shutdown right away.
â · · TAGS: men being dicks, female pronouns, no use of (y/n), protective!Russell, jealous!Russell, mutual pining, enemies (strong annoyance) to lovers, confessions, pet names, suggestive themes, hurt/comfort.
â · · MASTERLIST | TAGLIST REQUEST | WORDCOUNT: 2,477
â · · A/N: I was going crazy looking at all the fan art. Don't think I will be coming fully back to COD like I was before, but I had to write something for this character. Hope you all enjoy!
âââââââ · ·
"Officer Adler!" you yell, bursting through the heavy oak doors and into the office space. Fellow agents, officers, and handlers all look towards you and then back at Adler frozen in time and space.
Adler takes a drag of his cigarette before waving his hand in a silent command for everyone to leave you both. Hands quickly pick up their belongings and feet scatter out before the doors enclose you both.
The man in question makes no further movement simply leaning against the corner of a desk, a smirk setting upon his features as his glasses slip down his face to watch as you near, hands gripping a manila folder.
"What's wrong, sweetheart?" he says in an even tone, observing the curves of your face that have fallen into a serious frown. "We have already gone over this before, agent. You cannot call me such, such-"
"Such what, honey?" He teases further, cigarette sitting between his lips as he leans closer and into your space. You take a half step back, pinching your brows together before letting out a breath. "The pet names, Adler. They have to stop, we are both professionals."
Adler hums out in contemplation, taking one last drag from his cigarette before putting it out in the nearest ashtray. He nods his head in direction to the folder in your hand. "No. Before this," you wave the folder around to further prove your point, "we are sorting this thing out. I need to hear you say you won't do it any longer. It causes way to many issues."
"Issues about what? If someone is bothering you, you'll let me know right?" Adlers face drops, hands forming into fists, his stare already demanding names.
"Yes of course! But it makes me appear less assertive in my role, Adler. I have other operators I have to account for since you left and I can't have the newer ones thinking they can disrespect me in any way!" you try and explain, a hand gripping your hair as you stress.
Adler stands, gently taking your elbow before his fingers trail up your arm and towards your hand and head where he eases your grip from your roots. Before he can go to fix your hair you shake his touch off with a huff. "This is what I mean, officer," you say, throwing the document on the now bare desk.
"Well then maybe you should drop your other agents, (last/name)," Russell counters, arms now crossed against his wide chest. A few buttons to his navy shirt undone as you do you best to not look at the skin showing underneath.
"See you would have been my only operator as you have demanded in the past but as soon as you left, you failed to see that I still need to put food on the table so what little choice did I have but to be given new recruits?" you retort, falling into the nearby swivel chair as you stare at the door.
Adler crouches down, blocking your view. His hand twitching to pick up your chin to see your eyes once more. "Hey, look sweeth-(last/name). I can't apologize for my reasons for leaving but I will apologize for leaving you with no other options."
You nod your head before meeting his eyes once more, "So no more petnames?"
"No promises," is all Adler can say before leaning over you to reach for the documents you threw earlier. You lean back into your chair, hands gripping the arms, "You know you could have just asked me to get those for you?"
"Yeah but I got them anyways." You roll your eyes, "Hey- none of that now," Adler shushes you before looking back down at the files. You watch as his large hands grip the corners of the page, careful not to bend them before flipping it to the other side, a series of photos close to falling out as he tips the folder towards you to stop them. "I'm not a child in need of reprimanding, save that for the field workers."
"Never said you were but seeing you leaning back in that chair while doing that plants some images in a man's head," Adler's familiar smirk haunts you once again in the daylight. "Fucking hell," you swear underneath your breath.
"So, why am I being shown these? I already completed this objective..." Adler closes the folder, placing it gently back on the desk.
"Yeah, thats the issue. You see, Adler, we needed more information on those guys. Not for you to shoot them and the information with them!" you yell, swearing that your voice rippled the coffee in a nearby cold cup.
"Well, I'm going to let you in on a little secret off the books."
"And what secret would that be out of your many?" You lean forwards, playing with a ring on your finger. Adler stares at the movement before turning his back to you.
"I already knew all that information years ago, just had to make sure nobody else got to it."
âââââââ · ·
You thought that after that whole fiasco with your officer Adler, thing would have cleared up since then but it seemed that life had thought differently.
You were in a board meeting with your fellow operators, their handlers, and council members. One of your officers, Roger was sitting beside you, a notebook shared between the two of you as you both passed notes back and forth on the meeting that was dragging on into your lunch break.
"Well if they are planning biological warfare we have to meet metal with metal! If we are acting as moderates or even submissive what the hell room does that leave the enemy to operate in! They need to be neutralized long before those chemicals get out of the port, fuck the rest of them!" A board member yells from the top of the table as you lean back gaining a headache from it all.
Roger places a hand on your shoulder, his head tilting down to your ear, "You holding up alright?" he asks politely, turning his head for you to whisper your answer. "Yeah, just need this meeting to be over or at least to be paused. We are getting nowhere with all this shouting and violence."
The officer nods to your answer. "Yes, we have been circling over the same-"
"Oi! Do you to have something to share? Or are you both gonna keep whispering sweet little nothing into each others ears? Should I tell Adlers' that your cheatin' on em'?" Another handler chimes in, sending a toothy-white smile in your direction.
The other men around the table laugh as you lean on the table, threatening to stand. Roger makes no sudden movement in his chair, face set in a glare directed to the senior member at the unprofessional comment. Sighing you pick up your notes and crack your neck before reading your own radiant smile, eyes holding daggers picturing to stab through his eye-sockets.
"That will not be necessary, Paul," you spit out his name, "Nor is any of this discussion. We have all made no process since eleven! If we display strength with the military we risk our agents already operating within the operation and civilians. If we sit back and let it happen, we also risk a potential nuclear war. Our best option, which none of you men have brought forward and is embarrassing for our field is that we don't ship ourselves alongside the weapon, that way we can determine who has it, where it is meant to go, and where we want it to go."
You are nearly out of breath by the end of your speech as you stand and begin to walk towards the doors, Roger's hot on your tail as nods his head before all the members on behalf of you both, leaving the room in silence.
As soon as the door closes behind you both, you lean against it. "At times, I wish I had a dick like the rest of them but then I remember it's what makes them this way," you explain before picking yourself back up and continuing down the hall.
Rogers laughs, his eyes crinkling as he bumps your shoulder. You look up, casting him a smile as well. "You have a way of saying things, sweetheart. Would leave to see more of that mouth outside of work," Rogers says causing you to stand still in the hall as people walk around you both.
Turning to face your agent, your smile has turned into a glare once more. "Get back to work, Rogers. I expect a full report from last week still that I have yet to receive. Your co-worker has already sent theirs in with misinformation, I hope to not see the same things on yours. And please remember this, I. am. not. your sweetheart."
Turning back on your heels you continue further down the hall, Rogers left with your words before a whistle has you nearly breaking a heel by how much you want to throw it in his face. Russell. fucking. Adler. Standing there with that smirk yet again as he leans up against the break rooms entrance.
He holds out a hand, shaking it in a silent ask to carry your belongings. You shove them into his hand while using your other to press against his chest and to move him out of your way.
He does not budge, simply looking down at your lingering touch with a softening smile. "I am not in the mood, Adler. Please let me through," you use an overly sweet tone, you can feel him tense from underneath you.
"Hey, though I do love that tone when seeing you in a good mood. I do love viewing your rage. Lay it on, whats on your mind?" Adler asks, hand now resting atop your own.
"Move first and we'll sit and talk," you counter to his nod. Adler drops your touch, arm moving to welcome you into the empty space as everyone had already cleared back for work.
Coffee in hand, sandwich in the other, you took to your seat. "I'm so sick of men constantly stepping all over me when I worked just as hard- no. Fucking harder for this position and I still get treated like a little girl in their fathers suit and it does not help when after three hours of men shoving their dicks on the table a younger one then gets the audacity to be asking to see my mouth while calling me Sweetheart," you complain, downing the rest of your coffee before slamming the cup against the saucer.
Adler appears even more tense then you, his hands grips into fists allowing the veins across his forearms to appear most prominent. "Give me a name."
"Pardon?" you ask, embarrassed that you had became so easily distracted.
"Give. me. a. name, please," Alder asks once more, his eye staring deeply into your own. "Hey, whats wrong, sharing is a mutual affair," you reach across the table to grasp one of his hands, surprised when he pulls away. He's never done that before...
"Nobody gets to say that shit to you, not when I'm here. I'm sorry that you had to hear that, sweetheart." And for some reason you don't feel disgust except an overwhelming feeling of comfort as the word dances through your ears. You try and fake annoyance but Adler only takes that as further fuel against whatever man had wronged you so.
"Theres no need to apologize, Adler. I already told Rogers off-" you should not have said that, already regretting your words and Adlers chair screeches against the tiled floors, the door being slammed behind him as he storms off to find Rogers.
âââââââ · ·
The next time you are working with Rogers, he does not even look at you unless you command him to. He does well to hide his face to the best of his ability but it is hard not to notice the black eye or scarring underneath his chin. Tisking to yourself, you tell the agent his next meeting point in the south Mediterranean sea before setting off on your next mission, to find Adler.
It did not take long as he was already waiting in your office. First aid it open and displayed across the documents on your desk. He did not hiss or move as he poured the anti-bacterial fluid over his wounds, his teeth gripping a bandage in wait as he had yet to acknowledge your presence.
"Alder," you scolded like a tired mother before taking the wraps from his teeth and standing between his legs, gently wrapping his hand before pressing a kiss to your work that had both of you chuckling.
"You didn't have to do that, you know. Could have gotten you suspended-"
"You really think they would suspend me, honey?" you blush, shaking your head and taking a step away yet Adler catches your elbow, standing, chests touching as he leans down to get a better look of your face.
"All I'm saying is that you have to take better care of yourself, officer," you retort, eyes quickly casting to his lips before holding his gaze.
Alder smiles, hand now cupping your cheek as you allow yourself to lean into his touch. "Are you sayin' you care about me, (last/name)?" he teases, eyes already knowing the answer by the way in which they crinkle, mirroring your own.
"I care for all of my operatives, Russell Adler."
"But am I really just an operator to you, sweetheart?" his words now nearly a whisper upon your lips that part in wait.
"Well there's only one way to find out-" and his lips were on yours. His hand now holding the back of your head, nudging it upwards as you curved into his touch, hands gripping his shirt and around to his waist. Russell's other hand moved to grip your waist, thumb rubbing circles into your side as you felt his smile upon your lips.
Pulling away, lips puffy and eyes starry as you panted for air, Adler barely gave you anytime to breathe before he was kissing you again. Any papers on your desk were thrown to the floor before Russell was picking you up by the back of your thighs and placing you on the desk, legs spreading to keep you both close.
Standing back to full height, Adler looked at you sprawled out before him, hands morning their way up from the ankles that kept him locked into to place, up to your calves and towards your thighs and lower torso. Your breath gasped as his hands teased at the skin between your waist and shirt, skin tingling, his touch lingering with shared desire.
"Kiss me again," you pleaded.
"Always, Sweetheart."
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â · · A/N: If this is recieved well may make another one... đ€·
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again, mentioning my security job, but do you know how many people of all ages justify their stupid, shitty behaviour by saying, "everyone else lets me do this", "other security guards don't have a problem with it", "nobody's told me not to before", "I've been doing this my whole life", "You're the only one who's said anything about it", "the other guy only gave me a warning", "you're not going to go easy on me because I'm a kid/old/have a disability?"
If I'm willing to risk my job kicking you out of a place, then the thing you did is serious, and warnings didn't sway you. It's persistet or particularly heinous problem, and likely a danger to yourself, other people, or the location or equipment you are using. If I'm going to let you come back another day, I need to know that you know that your actions may impact you.
Because you have proven that you lack common sense or courtesy, or that you cannot understand why your choices are bad ones, we are making this simpler: Will X action make Us wreck Your day? Regardless if you think it makes sense or not? Yes? Then hopefully you will not do it.
Some other person gave you a warning and it was fine after that? Then what I'm hearing is, "I was explicitly told not to do this, and I'm doing it anyway."
Having a disability does not grant you the right to park your car in the way of an emergency door. Being a kid does not allow you permission to shove a screwdriver into the coin slot of a vending machine.
And if you did do those things, and something bad happened, the universe is not going to absolve you of responsibility just because you thought it was too harsh.
So I will do my best to protect you from that, and if you ignore me, then I will find a less dangerous solution. Like, maybe, escorting you from the premises.
You are, from an early age as a child, taught the difference between right or wrong.
Once you know the theory, you may begin making educated choices.
If those educated choices result in bad things, then congratulations!
You have, through the scientific process, learned how to verify a fact.
Next time you will remember what you now know to be true:
Don't do that thing.
"How am I supposed to learn if there are consequences?"
You will learn from the consequences. Hope this helps
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On Taash
I think one reason people keep pretending that Taash's character is badly-written is because they remind them of what they were like as a young adult: blunt, convinced that they were always right (and everyone else was stupid), and flailing around for an identity that didn't hurt. That often makes for an unpleasant person to be around, and someone who at times is even unlikable. But we never see the beam in our own eye while discussing the splinter in someone else's, so I think there's a certain degree of "well I certainly wouldn't yell at my mom like that!" (You would, honey. You would.)
IMO, Taash is one of the best-written companions in Veilguard precisely because they are thoughtless and callous and blow up at people for no reason at times. They're trying to figure their shit out! They got voluntold to work with the Veilguard without any warning, under a leader who's a complete stranger and alongside people she's never met and often has fundamental conflicts with. They've got an extraordinarily complicated relationship with their mom, who gave up her entire life and culture and place in the world out of love for them, but who withholds approval in a way that so many of us can relate to. They're confronting the wrongness of their old gender expression (woman), then embracing a new one (nonbinary) almost as soon as they learn about itâwhich is how a LOT of identity works, remember? Remember learning the term "trans" or "bisexual" or "genderfluid" and thinking oh shit that's me? It's relatable, but it's still uncomfortable as hell. Considering all that Taash has on their plate, including hiding a fundamental aspect of who they are (their dragonbreath), it's a wonder they're as stable as they are.
As for the conversations about their identity that people are claiming are "cringe" or "unrealistic"âmy babies, I have listened to more people talk through their gender and sexuality journeys than you've had hot dinners, and let me tell you they often sound a LOT like Taash. That's not a bad thing! But it's like learning a new languageâor heck, joining a new fandomâwhere you use the unfamiliar terms in clumsy ways and want to talk about it all the time, even to people who aren't fluent. (Taash talks about other shit too; yes, a lot of their quests touch on their gender, but a lot of them don't and frankly expecting someone who's only just figured themselves out to not talk about it is...kind of cruel. Of course Taash isn't a real person, but man I hope you people complaining about how often you have to "deal with" Taash's gender conversations don't have any friends who have trusted you with those conversations.)
Taash is extraordinary in so many waysâthe way they talk to Spite directly like a kid who needs firm boundaries; the possible romance they have with [spoiler]; the nuanced and emotional way they talk about dragons; the way they care for birds and refugees and anyone else in their orbit, if they're allowed to. They are one of my favorite companions (although right now it's kind of a seven-way race between all of them), and I have snort-laughed at more of their lines than any other companion by a country mile.
It's just a shame that so many people saw a reflection of the more grating parts of their own personality and so decided that Taash is badly-written, instead of considering the possibility that they are simply badly-heard.
#dragon age: the veilguard#veilguard#taash#I have a whole other rant about how Taash's fear and loathing of Emmrich at first isn't hypocritical at all#and while they're not very nice about it I don't think it's an example of poor writing#so much as it's an example of wanting women and AFABs to be nice all the time#even when they're seven feet tall and breathe fire#but that's a rant for another day
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Silent But Friendly
A what-if story about what would happen if Oliver met borrower James wayyyy before they actually did
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They are in silence; though not the uncomfortable stuffy kind, rather a very peaceful quietness that surrounded the dinner table. His uncle worked late most weekends, and so that left Oliver and his aunt to eat alone on that Saturday afternoon.
It was macaroni and cheese tonightâ one of Oliver's favourites. He even helped in the kitchen to chop the tomatoes and grate the cheese; aunt Charlie was 7 months pregnant after all and he wanted to do his best to help out.
As he finished his portion he placed his knife and fork together on the table before making eye contact with his aunt. She was eating slowly, mostly picking at the food. Her appetite seemed all over the place during the pregnancy; sometimes Oliver saw her eating lots of snacks, and other times he saw her throwing up from the tiniest bite.
He could see in her face that she was full, though she looked determined to finish the remaining bites. Catching his eye contact, she looked up and smiled tiredly. It was a warm and kind smile; like drinking a hot chocolate in front of the fireplace in the winter. Oliver soaked in that warmth whenever it was available, and right now was no different.
âThanks for your help in the kitchen, love. It tastes brilliant.â She praised, before sighing as she finally set her fork down. She offered a sheepish grin in his direction. âI don't think I can fit any more... Dâja think you could go put the plates in the kitchen, poppet?â
A simple task really. Oliver didn't mind doing any of his chores or extra for his aunt and uncleâ not after they had taken him in and been so kind to him. And sure, he missed his parents sometimes, but it felt much more gratifying to complete a task and receive praise rather than constantly fearing punishment as he had before.
Even if he looked at his mum wrongâŠhe could just remember the look on her eyes. It was cold and distant; like being stranded out in a snowstorm, alone and lost. Resentful.
NoâŠhe much preferred living with his aunt and uncle, no matter how many times he woke up clutching his pillow and missing the way things used to be.
Oliver nodded silently, standing up and moving all the cutlery onto her plate before stacking her plate onto his own and lifting them both. He brought them closer to his centre so they'd be easier to carry and began walking towards the kitchen only to pause as his aunt spoke up again.
âOhâ and love? Just while you're up, dâja think you could grab me a drink of water too?â
He turned back towards her, scanning her expression for a moment and seeing that once again there was nothing but geniality in her gaze. He offered a small smile in return and nodded again. She beamed, leaning on her hand as she looked up at him.
âYou are a little sweetheart, you know that?â She praised once more. Oliver averted his eyes, though internally he was very pleased by the praise. He once again only nodded in return before entering the kitchen to go put the plates by the sink.
Next, he grabbed a glass from out of the cabinet and opened the tap, first testing it with his finger to make sure it was cold before holding the glass underneath. Once it was sufficiently full he turned the tap off and returned to the table, setting the glass down in front of his aunt.
She watched him enter with a fond gaze.
âThanks, love.â
Picking up the glass she raised it to her lips and took a few sips before coughing. Oliver's expression turned to one of worry, his lips mouthing the question he wanted to ask although no sound came out. His hands moved too, signing alongside him.
âAre you okay?â
She saw the gesture and waved a hand dismissively, nodding a few times, though she looked a bit pale still.
âI'm fine⊠I'm just gonna head to the bathroom, you stay down here, okay?â She stood up slowly, and Oliver could tell just by the slight winced in her expression that she was having a bout of nausea. He shuffled closer to help her up but she gently waved off his help.
âI'm okay, I promise. Why don't you get your comfies on and I'll come in to you later to read the next chapter of Magic Tree House, hm?â
Although more hesitantly than before, Oliver nodded slowly and watched as his aunt walked up the stairs. Once she had disappeared from view he glanced back towards the kitchen.
I don't think she'll be well enough to wash up⊠I can do it. I'll just leave things to dry since I can't reach the cupboards.
With that thought in mind he re-entered the kitchen and approached the sink, putting some dish liquid in the washing up bowl and starting to fill it up with warm water only to jolt when a sound caught his attention.
It was faint, he hardly heard it thanks to the sound of water on water, but he still heard it. A cry. Oliver turned the tap back off, glancing around and listening for it again.
Nothing.
As he looked around for any sign of what could have made the noiseâ or god knows it would bother him for the entire eveningâ he then noticed that the cylindrical tub of oats that sat beside the other cereal wasâŠopen. The lid wasn't off all the way, laying balanced and slightly ajar.
Oliver watched it silently for a few moments, wondering how exactly it had ended up that way. He had used the oats last when he ate porridge earlier in the week, so he knew that he had closed it once he was done using it. He even remembered looking at it this morning and never noticed anything off about the lid.
Unable to come up with a plausible theory, he sought to find answers as he approached the countertop the tub of oats was on, tilting his head ever so slightly.
Is itâŠa mouse..? Unafraid and full of curiosity his hands gripped the base of the tub and he tilted it towards himself to peer in through the opening, the lid clattering onto the counter as he did so. He expected justâŠoats. Maybe a mouse or a rat.
What he didn't expect was a pair of brown eyes staring up at him through a mop of messy long black hair. There, sprawled out and covered in oat dust, was a tiny boy.
Oliver stared silentlyâ even if he wanted to speak he was at a loss for words, simply gazing down at the boy through his glasses, his mind blanching. He tilted the tub down more just so he could get a better look, listening to the little yelp that escaped the boy as more oats rolled over him.
The walls are much too highâŠhe must have fallen in. He could be hurt.
With that in mind, Oliver smiled reassuringly, holding one of his hands out placatingly as a gesture of goodwill before using that same hand to reach into the tub, his vision now obscured as he blindly grabbed around for the tiny boy. He had held mice beforeâ he imagined it was the same.
His fingers closed around a squirming form and he couldn't help but wince as they didâ it was a weird feeling, to hold something so small that was undoubtedly alive. Once he was sure he was holding the boy securely he lifted his hand out of the tub and let it sit upright again as he brought the squirming rescuee to his eye level.
He realised that he had carried some oats with him and saw that the raven haired boy was still struggling away, kicking and fighting and losing energy by the second. Oliver noticed that one of his legs wasn't kicking very well, but it wasn't bleeding. He opened his mouth to ask, only for the words to catch in his throat again.
He knew he could speak, but he didn't like it. Whenever he did speak it was forced and he hated the way his voice made his head and ears feel. His aunt and uncle had promised him that he didn't need to force himself to speak and were teaching him British Sign LanguageâŠbut he highly doubted this random boy knew it.
None of the kids at school did. None of the teachers. They all got frustrated with him and now Oliver made sure to keep to himself, as much as he wanted to raise his hand more.
Oliver lowered his hand slightly, offering another reassuring smile that was half a grimace at the same time. He waved slowly with his free hand, trying to get the boy to stop panicking so he could attempt communication.
As his other hand raised he caught how the tiny boy's gaze immediately focused on it, going stiff and staring up at him like he was a monster. Oliver didn't let that phase him; so long as he was able to communicate his intentions, he was sure they would calm down.
He kept a gentle smile on his face, moving slowly once he noticed how easily startled they were by his movements. He mouthed his question alongside his gestures, pointing at their leg and then tilting his head as he mouthed âis your leg hurt'?
They continued to stare owlishly up at him, trembling. Oliver's smile faltered slightly, concern in his eyes as he repeated the movements and mouthed his question again more emphatically.
âW-why aren't you talking..?â
The tiny boy's voice definitely held fear, but it was also slightly accusatory. Oliver was used to that second partâ where people thought he was weird or creepy for not speaking. He was so used to it by now that it wasn't really upsetting, though it was hard to explain without words.
Oliver shrugged and mouthed âI don't like talkingâ. The boy squinted up at him, seemingly trying to figure out what he was trying to communicate.
âYouâŠdon't like talking? O-okayâŠâ Oliver was surprised they didn't laugh or call him weird or just ignore him as many others did. That made him smile again as he repeated his previous gestures, still trying to ask about their leg.
âO-ohâŠmy leg..? It's fine..! SoâŠso you can just put me down and I'll go home, yeah?â Oliver heard the hint of uncertainty in their voice and he couldn't help but frown at the thought that they didn't think he would do that in the first place. He quickly realised that his frown could be taken the wrong way though and opted for a more neutral expression.
He lowered his hand again, this time so that it was flat against the counter, nodding his head in one direction as if he was shooing the boy off of his hand with his head alone. âGo on. I won't keep youâ. He offered another smile for good measure.
The boy didn't move for a few moments, looking around at his fingers warily as if they would snap closed on him like a bear trap. Oliver simply held still, patiently waiting, despite his many questions.
Slowly they began to scoot towards the edge of his palm, and Oliver tried his best not to react to the ticklish sensation. He watched as they fully climbed off his hand and stood up before meeting his gaze again with trepidation.
âYouâŠyou're actually letting me go..?â
Oliver nodded, smiling again as he slowly moved his hand away and turned it back over so the palm was facing downwards. He placed his free hand over his heart to indicate sincerity.
They seemed to hesitate still, but took a cautious step back. As they put weight onto one of their ankles though they let out a hiss of pain, losing their balance as they suddenly pulled their weight off of that leg. Instinctively, Oliver's hand reached towards them, cupping as he caught them, looking down at them with concern.
âYou are hurtâŠâ He mouthed, although it was unreadable due to the way he was practically mumbling. Regardless, the boy wasn't looking at his mouth, instead they had wide eyes and were swivelling their head around to focus on Oliver's hand. He frowned worriedly, not wanting to scare them more than they clearly already were, but also not wanting to ignore someone who was injured.
He raised his other hand from the counter again and held out his palm, splaying his fingers out in a placating gesture and biting his lip when the boy flinched away from his handâs shadow. He repeated the gesture again, trying to show that he meant no harm. All the while, his left hand remained cupped behind them, although it wasn't caging them in.
It took about five or six times of Oliver calmly repeating the same motion for the boy to calm down and notice that his fingers weren't closing in, and his right hand wasn't moving any closer. They looked up at Oliver, looking so small and vulnerable from this vantage point⊠I just want to help.
âYour legâŠâ He slowly pointed to the tiny leg again, then pointed towards himself, his hand instinctively flattening to sign help, only to remember his leading hand was currently cupped behind the boy. He rested his hand on the counter again instead.
âI can help you.â He mouthed. When the boy didn't seem to read his lips, Oliver simply repeated the most important word. âHelp. I can help.â
There was a hint of understanding in the boy's gaze, but he was still clearly very frightened. Oliver tried to imagine seeing the world from his perspective, but it was hard to imagineâŠregardless, he thought he would be more curious when coming face to face with a giant unless he had reason to believe they meant him harm.
His green gaze danced around the counter in search of something else he could offer as a sign of good will. His gaze landed on the macaroni and cheese his aunt had leftâ and although it wasn't super hot anymore he could warm it up. Most of it was untouched after all, and he found the boy in the oats, so he was probably looking for food or something similar.
âWait.â He held his hand out again, slowly moving his hand from behind the boy so that he was no longer supporting his weight. He then picked up his aunt's plate and walked to the microwave, covering it with a lid and putting it in for thirty seconds. He watched the timer go down, intending to stop it just before it would start beeping.
At one second he opened it, turning off the timer and pulling out the plate before carrying it back over to where he had left the boy. He was pleasantly surprised to see that they were still there, watching him with warinessâŠbut also a hint of curiosity as Oliver set the plate down nearby.
Sliding it in the boy's direction he smiled, gesturing towards the plate.
âForâŠfor me?â They asked, shocked by the offering of food. Oliver nodded. He watched as they limped closer to the plate and very nearly toppled over whilst climbing onto it. They crawled closer then sniffed at the food, before finally taking a piece of the warm macaroni into their hands.
Oliver winced at the mess but made no moves to stop the tiny boy, simply leaning on his hand as he watched the display.
They ate ravenously, making it clear how hungry they were as they only paused to announce how good it tasted; expressing shock over the fact that the food was warm. Eventually the boy grew full and he looked up at Oliver again, cheese covering his hands and face. Oliver couldn't help but let out a breathy chuckle, hushed and soft but no less amused.
The boy frowned up at him, little eyebrows contorted in frustration.
âH-hey! Nothing funny to see here..!â He protested. Oliver covered his mouth with his hand to stifle the laughter, cutting it off with a small cough as he was worried he might actually upset the tiny boy. That would be badâŠhe was trying to help him after all.
They continued to stare up at him, looking him up and down with a scrutinising chocolate brown gaze, seemingly debating something internally. Oliver was silent as usual, removing his hand that was covering his mouth and making his expression neutral againâ though he couldn't hide the curious spark in his eyes.
âMy name is JamesâŠâ The boy murmured, but Oliver heard it.
He perked up, his hands already moving to spell his own name, mouthing âOliverâ alongside it. His aunt and uncle just used the sign of an acorn as a nickname for him, but he didn't really introduce himself like that.
âOliverâŠyeah I know.â James responded as if it was obvious, but Oliver tilted his head questioningly nonetheless.
âYou did?â
James hadn't read his lips but seemed to understand that he had let something slip he shouldn't have as he began to backtrack immediately, fear visible in his expression.
âI-I meanâŠit's notâ I-I'm sorryâŠâ He was back to trembling, shoulders hunched and posture stiff. Oliver's expression saddened and he leaned down slightly so he was more at eye level, offering a small reassuring smile and shaking his head lightly, hands gesturing alongside his lips moving.
âItâs okay. It's okay. I'm not angry.â He shook his head again to emphasise that fact. âYou don't have to answer if you don't want to. I'll ask something else⊠likeâŠâ He thought for a few moments before levelling with James again. âHow old are you?â
There were a few beats of silence as the tiny boy continued to stay silent, but Oliver remained patient. Eventually he spoke up, albeit shakily.
âI-I'm umâŠI'm thirteen.â He answered, averting eye contact every now and then. Oliver knew that he was prone to staring or giving way too much eye contact so he looked away again for a moment, only looking back when he responded back.
âIâm ten.â He held up his hands, palms facing himself and fingers close together with his thumbs sticking out, before turning them around and splaying his fingers out. People usually understood the second gesture much more when Oliver tried to sign numbers.
âTen?â The tiny boy clarified, and he nodded in turn. That seemed to make James perk up a bit himself, as if age was a matter of pride. âSoâŠI-I'm older than you? You're justâŠso big. Itâs weirdâŠâ
It's weird. Not I'm weird.
Oliver smiled.
âI am big.â He agreed, his hands continuing to sign as much as he knew his constant hand movements probably only confused James. Wanting to focus on more important matters again, Oliver pointed towards his leg. âCan I help fix your leg? It's hurt.â
âOh, right⊠u-um⊠nothing is broken, I think I just landed weird. The pain is starting to go away a bit⊠But I can't stay out hereâ my dadâll kill me if he catches me talking to you..!â He exclaimed, glancing around as if his dad might pop up from anywhere. Oliver couldn't help but glance around too, worry etching across his features.
âYour dad would really do that? Is he mean to you?â He signed quickly, his mind instantly flashing back to the many threats he had heard when he was younger from his own parents. Mostly his mother, but his father never stopped her.
James didn't seem able to read his lips that time thanks to how sporadic it was, but he could tell that Oliver was worried.
âN-not actually! I justâŠI'm exaggerating. He.. he will be worried about me, is all. He and my mumâŠâ He corrected, confusion in his gaze as he looked up at him. Oliver let out a small sigh of relief and relaxed, calming down little by little.
An exaggeration. Right.
He nodded to show he understood, although he couldn't help the jittery feelings that remained buzzing under the surface, his hands withdrawing closer to his chest as he looked down at the tiny boy. âOkay⊠Do you want to clean yourself before you go, then?â
He reached over the counter and picked up a napkin before offering it forwards for James to use. The boy's face lit up in realisation and he glanced down at his cheese covered hands sheepishly before nodding and reaching out to take a corner.
âThanksâŠâ He spoke out as he wiped off his hands. He let go of the napkin and gave Oliver a confused look when he didn't withdraw. Letting out an amused exhale from his nose Oliver pointed at James then gestured to his face.
âYour face is messy too.â
The boy's face went red with embarrassment and he took a clean part of the napkin to wipe the cheese from his face too. Once finished he let go again and held out his hands as if to say ta da, then shakily pushed himself to a stand.
At first it seemed like he might fall again, and Oliver's fingers twitched in anticipationâŠbut it seemed the boy had been telling the truth that the injury was nothing serious and the pain was fading, as he was able to put more weight on it than before. Satisfied, he put the napkin in the bin before looking down at James again.
âIt was nice to meet you, James.â He smiled, waving down at them. He waved back up at him, climbing off of the plate and walking backwards towards theâŠwall..? Oliver watched with confusion and interest, then awe as the tiny boy opened a hidden doorway into the wall. His eyes sparkled with wonder, although he only watched.
âI-it was nice to meet you too, surprisingly. Thanks again for not um..for not killing me.â The secret door then closed and left Oliver alone in the kitchen once more. He tilted his head, brows furrowing.
What an odd thing to say⊠Oh well. I hope his parents don't get angry at him because of me.
With that in mind, he stood up straight again and turned the tap back on to resume his washing up, playing the interaction in his head over and over again.
I hope we can be friends.
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Little Precious.
Hey lovelies!!! Here's a cute little fic, just getting back into the groove now so for the ones waiting on requests, thank you so so much for waiting, I will get to them very soonđđ«
The song in the fic:
Characters: Early!70s X innocent!reader
Warnings/triggers: scolding, crying, slight name calling, mostly fluff though :)
Tags: @atleastpleasetelephone @theelvisprincess @i-r-i-n-a-a @thelonelyheart @polksaladava @hooked-on-elvis
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Sniffling quietly, a trembling hand wiping under your nose and gripping at the fabric of your dress. You hiccup out a little sob.
You've upset Elvis, the man you love, the man who cares for you, the man who said to not go out of Gracelandâs grounds without him and the man who scolded you for doing just that.
You just wanted to buy him a gift, a pretty ring that was displayed in a shop's window. Just wanted to bring a smile to his face but you being mobbed by fans only brought a furious frown.
Jerry was there, you weren't alone. You thought that would be enough protection but clearly you thought wrong and Elvis had to make sure that sunk into your skull.
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âHow many times have I told ya?â He growled.
âDidn't wanna listen to me, huh?â
âDon't need me ta keep you safe anymore. Go out there and be taken away by god knows who.â His anger filled eyes piercing through your poor little heart making it tremble.
âSilly damn girl.â
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You know he was trying to make you realise that he's right, he's always right, you were scared when those fans swarmed you.
You didn't know any better.
And now, you're crying, alone in his bedroom.
Pitifully crying on the edge of the huge bed. Hitching and hiccuping hurting your sore throat, your wilting heart pitter patters in your chest. You try your best to wipe away the tears blurring your vision but it's no use, your terrifying thoughts have taken over your brain.
âBabyâŠâ
What if he's leaving you?
âDarlin'.â
What if he doesn't love you anymore? What if he's kicking you out?
âHoney.â
What if he-
âSweetheart.â Your gaze rushes up to the sound, kneeling in front of you on the floor. Blue eyes that were once filled with daggers now watch you with softness as little whimpers and cries leave your parted lips, the sight of his small smile growing on his face makes you suddenly burst into a waterfall of tears.
Your heart just can't take all of this all at once.
âOh honeyâŠâ His large hands gently reach up to touch your face, prying your hands away to hold them when you try to hide and his thumbs stroke your knuckles, in a gentle, loving way. A way that he knows you love.
âI-I-Iâm so s-sorry, E-Elvis. I-I didnt mean- I-â Your words come out muddled, your cracking little voice, not knowing what to do with itself. Youâre overwhelmed.
He scolded you butâŠ
âAw my little angelâŠâ He coos, brushing a strand of hair behind your ear as your body jolts with hiccups and sniffles.
âŠnow comforting you.
âCâmere.â Pulling your frame into his strong embrace, Elvis sits himself up on the bed with you, rubbing his hand on the side of your waist and pushing your legs in to wrap around and be pressed against his body as much as possible as you sit in his lap, his other hand goes to hold your head, guiding it to rest on his shoulder.
You grip onto his shirt, hiding the rest of your head with a raised shoulder wanting to be protected from all the bad things of this world, your poor racing heart hammering in your chest as your eyes close, feeling his warmth surround you.
âI should be the one apologising⊠That wasnât right fer me to yell at ya, aye?â He says in a low rumble. Pressing his lips to the top of your head as another small hiccup emits. âAh jusâ got worried. Didnât want ta see my baby get hurt. Iâm sorry.â
âM-MhmâŠâ You respond quietly, playing with the collar of his low cut shirt you can feel your cheeks warm from him moving a little to get a better look at you. Delicately holding your chin up with his thumb and fingers.
âYouâre still my good little girl?â He smiles hopefully, eyes admiring yours lovingly as his other arm tightens around your figure. Wiping the last of your tears with his thumb whilst you nod and take a deep breath.
Giving you a kiss on the forehead followed with a hum and tiny squeeze, he murmurs into your ear, his deep honey voice sending you up into the clouds. âThatâs good.â
âWouldn't know what to do if I didn't have my little princessâŠShe fills my life with love and so much happinessâŠâ He hums.
âShe turned my life into pink.â Making you giggle knowing your favourite colour is pink. âThere's my baby.â
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When you press me to your heart
I'm in a world apart
A world where roses bloom
And when you speak angels sing from above
Everyday words seem to turn into love songs
Give your heart and soul to me
And life will always be
"La vie en rose"
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"Little Precious..."
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Morocco part 2
summary: Rafe says goodbye to Sofia and leaves her in outer banks while he goes to Morocco, where you are also and the danger that happens there rekindles the spark both of you thought had lost
warnings: mention of death, weapons, cheating, pregnancy, kidnapping, etc. only things of s4
word counter: 8530
author's note: spoilers of s4, many things have been changed but there are still spoilers, english is not my first language, this is long so get ready to read
The heavy silence of the room enveloped you as you sat there, sitting on the bed, staring at your hands as if you could erase what had happened. He had killed someone. You still felt it on your skin, the tension of that moment, the fear, the adrenaline, and in the end, the inevitability of the action. You knew you had done it in self-defense, that there was no other option. The guy was going to kill you or someone else, and you didnât let yourself let that happen. But still, the feeling of having taken a life crushed you.Â
Rafe had stayed close, always by your side, as if he knew what you were feeling without you having to say it. He had been there, watching, but he hadnât said anything about it. None of the Pogues had said anything. In a world where survival was the only thing that mattered, everyone knew that the lines between right and wrong could become blurred. It had been an extreme situation, and in the end, only the weight of what had been done remained.Â
You laid back on the bed, staring at the ceiling feeling like you were trapped in your own thoughts, in a tangle of doubts you couldnât untangle. Rafe was beside you, silent, but his presence was comforting. His words hadnât come yet, but that didnât matter. You knew you didnât need him to tell you anything; not at that moment. What you needed was to be there, with someone who wouldnât judge you, who understood that sometimes decisions werenât so simple.Â
âYou did it because you had to,â Rafe said, finally breaking the silence, his voice low, but firm. As if he had read your thoughts, as if he had felt everything that was going through your head. He approached you, placing a hand on your right hand, giving you the feeling that, despite everything you had done, you werenât alone. âI know you didnât want to, but there was no other way out.â
You looked at him, searching for something else in his eyes. A word, a comfort, a way to make the weight lighten, even if just a little. But as you looked at him, instead of finding judgment or disapproval, you found something unexpected: understanding. Rafe understood what had happened, even without having to explain it.
âI know,â you whispered, feeling a lump in your throat. âI did it because I had to. But I didnât want to. I donât want it to haunt me.â
He nodded, his gaze locked with yours. âSometimes you donât have a choice. And I know that if you had stopped, if you hadnât, youâd be worse off now. But that doesnât make you any less⊠human.â
The words werenât what you expected to hear, but they carried a different weight. In that moment, you felt like maybe, just maybe, the guilt wasnât so absolute.
You felt him close to you, and before you could react, he sat next to you on the bed, his arm around you with a comfort you hadnât expected. There was something about the way he held you that made you relax, if only for a moment. âWeâre the survivors, you know?â he said softly. âWhat weâve done, what weâve seen, what weâve had to do to get here⊠all of that makes us who we are. And if you ever ask yourself the question of whether you did the right thing, I want you to remember that it was always about surviving.â
Your eyes filled with tears, not from weakness, but from the intensity of everything you felt. The weight of the decisions, the inevitability of the circumstances, and the fact that sometimes, the only thing left to do was to keep going, even if the burden was heavy.
âThank you,â you said quietly, barely a whisper. You didnât know what else to say.
The Pogues hadnât weighed in, nor had you asked them to. They had seen what you did, they knew. The truth was that at that moment, no one dared to judge, because everyone knew that in those kinds of situations, life or death wasnât always in your hands. You had done what was necessary, what instinct told you to do to protect yourself, but still, you couldnât escape what had happened.
Rafe lay down beside you, his presence giving you the space to breathe, to rest, to not think so much about how irreversible it had been. âItâs done,â he said, unhurriedly, without pressure. âNow, all thatâs left is to move on.â
Little by little, you felt the weight lighten, although it didnât disappear completely.
After that, you had recovered quickly. The guilt, confusion, and restlessness you felt after what had happened slowly faded away. It wasnât easy, but you knew you couldnât stay stuck in that moment. Time was still ticking, and you had to move on.Â
What really helped you recover so quickly was the conversation with your father. Even though things between you hadnât always been easy, hearing his voice on the other end of the line gave you the calm you needed. You told him what had happened, what you had had to do to defend yourself. You didnât go into all the details, but you did tell him the gist. The silence on the other end of the line lasted a few seconds before you heard his voice, firm and calm.
âIâm proud of you,â he told you, and those words resonated with you more than you imagined. âYou did what you had to do. There are no regrets that are going to change what happened. Youâre my daughter, and I will always be your biggest support.â
Something in his voice, in those simple yet powerful words, made you feel like everything you had done was, in some way, justified. You had done the right thing, even if it wasnât easy to accept. What you needed most at that moment was his support, and hearing those words from him gave you the strength to let go of the guilt. You reminded yourself that you had acted in self-defense, that you had done it to survive. It helped you regain control of your thoughts, to not get caught up in what had happened.
âThank you, Dad,â you said, the words coming out with a calmness you didnât know you had. âI really needed to hear that.â
When you hung up, you felt different. You knew the weight of what had happened wouldnât go away completely, but something inside you had changed. Your fatherâs approval, his pride in what you had done, gave you a push to keep going without looking back. You didnât want to stay stuck in guilt.
When Rafe saw you calmer, more focused, he asked if everything was okay. âIt seems like something has changed,â he said, watching intently.
âYeah,â you answered, a small smile creeping onto your face. âMy father talked to me, I feel⊠good. More at peace, I guess.â
Rafe looked at you for a moment before nodding, as if he understood what that meant to you. He didnât say anything else, knowing you didnât need any more words at that moment. Your fatherâs had been enough. Now, you could move on.
In one of those calls with your father, which Rafe knew nothing about, you learned something that left you paralyzed. Sofia had betrayed Rafe. The news hit you like a blow, every word from your father reverberating in your mind.
Your father, as always, recounted the events with a calm that only he could maintain. He didn't go into unnecessary details, but he made the essentials clear: Sofia had betrayed Rafe. This was more than just disloyalty; it was an act that put not only Rafe at risk, but you and everyone else's as well.
The knowledge hit you hard, a mix of fury and pain that you tried to hold back. You couldn't help but feel protective of Rafe, despite how complicated their relationship had been in the past and still was. Watching him go through another betrayal, especially one this deep, made you question whether you should tell him or keep quiet for a while longer.
You decided not to tell him. Sofia's betrayal was a bomb that could make him explode and you didn't need that now. That night, Rafe was sitting on the edge of the bed, his profile silhouetted against the dim light of the room. His eyes settled on you with a softness you didn't see often.
âAre you okay?â His voice broke the silence, direct but with a hint of concern that he rarely showed. âYouâve been tense all night.â
Your heart raced a little, but you tried to stay calm. You had rehearsed in your mind over and over how to evade his questions without raising suspicion. You gave him a tired smile, one that you hoped was convincing enough.
âIâm just tired,â you replied, and though it sounded almost believable, you noticed his blue eyes narrowed slightly, as if he were trying to read past your words. Rafe was observant, and the thought that he could tell the lie made your throat go dry.
There was a moment of tense silence, where neither of you said anything. Finally, he relaxed a little and stood up to approach you. âLetâs rest then,â he murmured, placing a gentle hand on your back and guiding you towards the bed. You let yourself be led, relieved that he didnât press any further.
You kicked off your shoes and slipped under the sheets, feeling the coolness of the fabric against your tired skin. Rafe did the same, moving beside you with familiar movements. The bed, though not the most comfortable, was a refuge at the moment.
When he turned off the lamp, the room was plunged into darkness, and the sounds of the night in the Moroccan city remained as a soft backdrop. You felt his body close to yours, the warmth emanating from it comforting.
You turned slightly, turning your back to him as you tried to calm your breathing and quiet the whirlwind of thoughts in your mind. However, Rafe, in his silent and protective way, noticed your uneasiness and moved closer. His arm went around your waist and pulled you towards him, pressing your back against his chest. The contact, so natural and comforting, made your worries fade away for a moment. You felt his warm breath against your hair, and a barely audible whisper escaped his lips.
âWhatever youâre worried about, weâll take care of it,â he murmured sleepily, as if the words were an involuntary reflection of his thoughts.
You closed your eyes and swallowed the lump in your throat. You didn't know how long you could keep the secret, but that night, at least, you decided to hold on to the feeling of being safe in his arms. You responded to the hug, settling in a little more and allowing yourself a moment of peace.
Slowly, tiredness overcame anxiety, and you both fell asleep.
It wasnât long before the truth came out. Rafe was cunning, too cunning, and even though you had done your best to keep it a secret, the built-up tension and the little clues you missed had him starting to put two and two together.
It was one afternoon, as the two of you were going over some notes at a makeshift table, when everything exploded. Rafe was focused on the papers in front of him, his brow furrowed and his jaw clenched. There was something about his posture that made you feel a twinge of unease. Without looking up, he murmured, âIs there something you want to tell me?â
The seemingly casual question made you stop dead in your tracks. You knew he could read the subtleties, the changes in your behavior, and you understood in that instant that he already suspected something. You tried to keep your composure, keeping your expression from giving you away.
âWhat do you mean?â You asked, your tone trying to sound carefree, but the slight hesitation in your voice made him raise his head. His blue eyes caught you, cold and calculating, searching for answers.
âYou know, right?â His voice was low, controlled, but charged with an intensity that made the room seem smaller. âAbout Sofia.â
The silence that followed was deafening. You didnât need to answer; he already knew. The tension in his body turned into suppressed fury, and he slammed a fist on the table, causing papers to fly and some objects to fall to the floor.
âSince when?â he exclaimed, taking a step towards you. There was no physical aggression in his gesture, but the energy he emanated was enough to make you back off. âSince when did you know and decide not to tell me?â
âRafe, I⊠I did it for you.â The words came out in a rush, clumsy and full of guilt. âI didnât want to ruin what little you had. I thought it wasnât the timeâŠâ
âThe time?â His laugh was dry, humorless. âAll this time Iâve been struggling, trusting someone who betrayed me, and you knew it! What kind of support is that?â
The hurt in his words was evident. You knew his trust, something so fragile and complicated, had been shattered once again, and this time, you were part of the reason. You tried to get closer, reach out to touch his arm, but he pulled away, as if your touch burned.
âRafe, it wasnât easy for me. I wanted to protect you.â
âYou donât need to protect me. I need you to be honest with me. I need you to tell me if you know something that affects me. How am I supposed to trust you now?â
The question cut through you like a blade. The pain in his voice, mixed with rage and disappointment, left you speechless. There was no justification enough to calm him down. All you could do was watch as the distance between you grew larger, deeper.
Finally, Rafe stepped back, putting a hand to his head and sighing in frustration. âThis isnât going to work,â he muttered, his voice barely a whisper. He looked at you one last time, his eyes filled with a mix of emotions you couldnât quite decipher, and before you could stop him, he turned and walked out the door.Â
You knew Rafe better than anyone. You knew that when things got tough, he tended to walk away, to hide from everyone. You set off, visiting several places. But in all those places, the answer was the same: nothing.Â
The heat of Morocco stifled you, sweat running down your forehead, and anxiety made the air feel thicker. Still, you didnât stop. You asked around in shops and at street vendors, and though a few curious glances and vague answers tried to calm your search, nothing was enough.Â
You decided to go check on the boys. If anyone might know something, they would have at least a lead. When you arrived, you found them gathered in a corner of a coffee shop with the windows fogged up from the heat. The atmosphere of the room, normally filled with humor, felt different when you entered. John B was the first to notice you, and his expression hardened at the sight of your countenance.
âWhatâs wrong?â he asked, his brows furrowed in concern.
âHave you seen Rafe?â The question came out in a tone you couldnât soften. Your voice, cracked with urgency, had everyone exchanging quick glances.
Sarah, who was sitting next to Kiara, looked away, uncomfortable with the subject. âNo, I havenât seen him since⊠since yesterday,â she admitted, her voice barely a murmur.
Pope, who had been quiet, nodded. âNo oneâs seen him. I thought he was with you.â
There was no sign of him, not a trace, not a word. You left the café before anyone could say anything else, frustration and worry fighting for control of your thoughts.
You were so focused on finding Rafe that concern for your own safety took a backseat. The city, with its narrow streets and maze of passages, had become a space where every shadow seemed to lengthen, and every sound multiplied into echoes. But you were so absorbed in your thoughts, so consumed by guilt and the need to find him, that you didn't notice what was happening around you.
The murmur of voices, the soft creaking of footsteps behind you, began so subtly that you barely noticed. The night was thick, the heat and sweat clinging to your skin, making you feel more tired than you were. As you walked down a dimly lit street, the streetlights cast your shadow against the walls of the buildings, a long, lonely silhouette.
It was only when you turned a corner into a darker alley that a cold sensation ran down your spine. A sixth sense warned you that something wasn't right. You paused for a moment, listening to the silence that seemed to breathe around you. You weren't alone. Confirmation came the instant you took a step back and felt a hand grab you tightly by the arm.Â
You tried to get away, your first instinct was to fight, but you didn't have time to react. Another hand landed on your mouth, stifling the scream that choked in your throat. Three men surrounded you, their faces barely visible under the shadows of their hoods. One of them spoke to you in a low, threatening tone, in a language you barely recognized, but the message was clear: you weren't to resist.Â
They pushed you forward, forcing you to walk as your senses went to full blast. Adrenaline pumped through your veins, making you tremble with rage and fear at the same time. You tried to observe, to memorize details, anything that might help you escape later: the tattoo on the neck of the man holding you, the smell of tobacco and sweat, the way they clenched their fists. But they were experts; there was no room for error.
The ride was short, but it felt like an eternity. Finally, they bundled you into a car, dark and dusty, and tied your hands with rough rope that bit into your skin. You felt the engine roar and the car jerk as it started, taking you away from familiar streets, away from any chance of help. You tried to stay calm, to control your breathing and not let fear paralyze you.
In the dim light of the car, one of the men spoke to the driver in a low tone, while another watched you closely, his piercing gaze searching for any sign of defiance. The city lights faded, and the landscape grew more arid, more lonely, with each passing mile. The idea that you were being taken to an unknown place, with no one knowing where you were, hit you with the force of a wave.Â
What followed after that car ride was even more disconcerting. You were taken to an abandoned building, with weathered stone walls and broken windows that let in the dry night air. You were pushed inside, your feet stumbling over the threshold, and you fell to your knees on the dusty floor. You tried to get up, but one of the men's rough hands pushed you back down.
The space was large and dark, lit only by a dim light filtering in from a hanging lamp in the center. The men began talking to each other, their deep, rapid voices filling the room, but you couldnât understand what they were saying. The language barrier made you feel even more vulnerable, like you were in a tunnel you couldnât get out of. You tried to catch some word you recognized, something that would give you a clue as to their intent, but it was in vain. Desperation began to set in, digging into your chest like a thorn.Â
As they argued, you took a moment to assess your situation. The ropes binding your hands were strong, but if you could find a weak spot, maybe you could break free. You watched the menâs faces carefully, trying to remember details: the eye patch on one, the scar on anotherâs cheek, the golden ring glinting on the thirdâs finger. But they showed no sign of empathy or doubt. Their cold, calculating gazes were diverted from you as if you were just an object, a pawn in their unknown game.
Far away from there, Rafe had returned to the place where they both stayed. The air in the room still smelled of you, a persistent memory that he tried to ignore as he moved through the space with firm steps. The rage and pain from the previous fight still burned inside him, and he repeated over and over what he had said, what you had said. However, not seeing you when he arrived, a subtle echo of worry tried to make its way into his mind. He dismissed it at first, convinced that, like him, you had only gone for a walk.
Rafe let himself fall into bed, closing his eyes as the night progressed. Dawn arrived, and with it a restlessness that he could no longer ignore. When he got up, he noticed that your side of the bed was still empty. He searched the small house for you, checking the kitchen, the makeshift living room, even the terrace where you sometimes sat to think. Nothing.
The initial annoyance turned into a shadow of fear that led him to look for the others. He headed to the place where the Pogues usually met, and found them having breakfast with tired and sleepy faces. John B looked up and saw Rafe approaching, his eyes reflecting the surprise of seeing him there so early.
âHave you seen Y/n?â Rafe asked, without preamble. His tone was firm, but there was a crack of anxiety that he couldnât hide.
The othersâ gazes met for a second before Pope answered, frowning. âNo, not since last night, when she came to ask us if we had seen you.â
Rafeâs heart beat faster. Worry became a tangible weight, and he felt guilt begin to sink into him. You had been looking for him, and he, blinded by his anger, had done nothing for you. He ran a hand through his hair, breathing deeply as he tried to remain calm.
âWhat happened, Rafe?â Sarah asked, her eyes searching his face for answers.
Rafe gritted his teeth, his jaw set with tension. âI donât know⊠but I have to find her.â
Back at the place where they had you held, the men had begun to lose patience. One of them approached you, his gaze icy as he examined you from head to toe. You tried to remain calm, even as the man crouched down to your level and issued a threat in broken, rough English. His words were fragmented, but you understood enough to know he was trying to intimidate you.
âDonât move. Donât⊠scream,â he said, his accent thick. âIf you do, it will be worse for you.â
You tried to keep a neutral expression, but you couldnât stop your hands from shaking, still bound tightly behind you. You tried not to make eye contact, knowing that any show of fear could only make the situation worse. However, he seemed to be enjoying your discomfort, a crooked, cocky grin on his face.
Just when you thought the situation couldnât get any worse, another man entered the room. There was something about his bearing, the way the others looked at him, that suggested he was in charge. His clothes were neater, his posture more relaxed, but his eyes held a coldness that made your skin crawl.
He approached slowly, and as he stopped in front of you, you noticed that he spoke much clearer and more fluent English.
âForgive my men,â he said in a calm but firm voice. âThey donât usually deal with foreigners, especially not a woman who butts into matters that donât concern her.â
You tried to compose your expression, looking at the man firmly, although inside you felt how each word of his intensified the weight of your situation.
âWhat⊠what do they want?â you asked, your voice barely a whisper, but clear enough to show that you still had some control left.
He smiled, a smile that didnât reach his eyes. âThatâs up to you,â he replied, lacing their fingers together calmly. âWeâre looking for something, and we think you might be able to help us find it⊠or at least lead us to the people who could.â
Your mind began to work quickly, trying to connect the pieces. You knew that your arrival in Morocco with Rafe and the search for the Blue Crown hadnât gone unnoticed, but still, the speed with which youâd been found, threatened, and now interrogated caught you completely off guard.
âLook, I donât know what youâre talking about,â you tried to say, but your voice betrayed a slight hesitation, and he noticed it.
âDonât play naive. We know what youâre looking for⊠we know what you want. So, Iâm going to make it easy for you,â he said as he leaned a little closer, his eyes locked on yours with an intensity that made your skin crawl. âYou give us what we want, or youâll see how things can get worse.â
You felt a knot in your stomach, each second growing more terrifying. You knew your only option was to hold on and buy time.
You took a deep breath, trying to calm the frantic drumming of your heart as the man in front of you watched you with unsettling patience. You tried to keep your composure and buy time, knowing that each passing second increased the chances of someone, somehow, finding out where you were.
âWhat theyâre looking for isnât so easy to find,â you said, keeping your voice as steady as possible. âEven weâve had trouble following the right leads.â
The man cocked his head, evaluating your words. His eyes narrowed slightly, as if he was trying to read between the lines. âWeâll see about that. I hope you have more to say when we speak again.â
As he retreated, leaving you alone for a moment, you tried to move subtly, searching for any hint that you could loosen the ropes holding you prisoner. Your wrists were sore, but you ignored the pain, focusing on the simple act of resisting.
Far away, Rafe was in a constant state of agitation. He had spent the morning searching for clues, moving quickly between contacts and temporary allies who might be able to offer him some information. Every second that passed without seeing you increased his worry, and though he tried not to let guilt take over, his mind kept replaying the moment he realized you had disappeared.
âDid you see her last night?â he asked for the umpteenth time to one of the contacts he had managed to track down. The man, a local merchant with connections in the underworld, shook his head, his eyes watching Rafe with measured interest.
âI heard there was some activity in the old part of town,â he finally answered after a pause. âSomeone brought a girl, but I donât know who they are or what theyâre looking for.â
Rafe clenched his jaw, feeling a mix of frustration and renewed hope. It wasnât enough information, but it was a start. With a quick âThank you,â he walked away, his mind already calculating the next move, thinking about how to get to that part of town without raising suspicion.
Rafe didnât stop until he found more answers. He had navigated through dark alleys, bustling markets, and bars where curious eyes followed his every move all day long. The night in Morocco brought with it a thick air, and Rafe knew how to play in that environment.
With a handful of bills and a steady gaze, he approached a group of men moving like shadows on a dimly lit corner. After a few words of exchange and the handing over of money, one of them, a young man with scars on his face, finally spoke.
âThe girl was taken to a warehouse near the old part of town, where the houses are crowded together and the streets are like a maze,â he said, his accent thick. âI donât know much else, but those who have her arenât known for being kind.â
Rafe nodded, absorbing the information and processing it quickly. The gears in his mind were working tirelessly, calculating routes and strategies. He now knew who had taken you, and most importantly, where you were. Getting to you wouldnât be easy, but for him, it would be a piece of cake compared to the idea of ââlosing you.
Rafe just nodded before turning away, already focused on what would come next. He knew he needed to act quickly and precisely. He imagined you in that moment, alone and scared, and the fire inside him grew more alive.
In your dark corner, the minutes passed with unbearable slowness. The distant sound of footsteps and murmurs kept you alert, your mind working on every possible way to resist and endure.
In the two days you were held, time became an endless torture. You were given nothing but a few drops of water, and hunger made you feel weak, almost ghostly. Your thoughts were intertwined between worry for your safety and the persistent question of whether Rafe and the others were looking for you. The blindfold kept you in constant darkness, increasing the fear and feeling of isolation. Every noise around you was a reminder that you were not alone, but neither were you in good hands.
The voices of your captors echoed through the space like menacing echoes, their words in a language you did not understand. You tried to stay conscious, clinging to hope and the idea that this would end soon, somehow. Your body was exhausted, every muscle shaking from the effort of staying alert, every breath weaker than the last.
As night fell on the third day, the air was filled with a distinct murmur, a whisper that slowly turned into screams and the rumble of combat. The sound of doors breaking, banging, and gunshots made you turn around in desperation, even with the blindfold tight over your eyes. Your breathing quickened, and a cold fear ran through your body.
Time seemed to stop as everything fell silent. You could hear the frantic beat of your heart as you waited, vulnerable and alone in the darkness. Suddenly, you felt firm, familiar hands on your shoulders, and the pressure of the blindfold loosened. The cloth fell from your eyes, and the light, though dim, made you squint. In front of you, Rafe looked at you with a mix of relief and desperation, his blue eyes shining brightly.
âRafe...â you whispered, a weak smile forming on your lips. He wasted no time; He quickly untied your wrists, and before you could make any move, he lifted you into his arms, not asking if you had the strength to walk.
You looked around as he carried you out of the place, and your eyes landed on one of the men lying on the ground, motionless. Blood pooled around him, and the question left your mouth before you could stop it. âDid you kill him?â
Rafe didnât stop looking at you as he answered, his voice low and full of a certainty that chilled your blood and made you feel safe at the same time. âIâll do anything for you, do you understand?â His tone left no room for doubt, and although his words were harsh, something in them made you feel protected, as if, despite everything, you were safe in his arms.
The world began to spin around you, the strength finally leaving your body after days of suffering. The last image you saw was Rafe's face, a mix of determination and fear in his eyes, before darkness enveloped you and everything faded away.
Hours later, the first thing you felt was the soft rustle of the sheets. Your eyelids were heavy as if you had slept for days, but you finally managed to open your eyes and see the ceiling of an unfamiliar room, illuminated by the morning rays. Turning your head, you saw him: Rafe, sitting in a chair next to the bed, his face covered by a mixture of tiredness and relief.Â
As soon as he noticed that you had woken up, his eyes lit up and he quickly stood up, approaching you. His fingers brushed your cheek, as if he wanted to make sure that you were really there, awake and alive. âI worried about you,â he murmured, his voice hoarse and sincere. There was something in his words that carried all the weight of the last few days, of anguish and guilt.Â
The silence that followed was heavy, but you couldnât help it. âRafe, Iâm sorry⊠about Sofia.â Your words were a whisper. His expression changed slightly, his eyes darkening momentarily before he shook his head.
âI donât want to talk about it right now,â he replied, a slight smile trying to ease the tension. The seriousness faded a bit when, with a soft laugh, he added, âYou need to take a bath. You seem⊠well, youâve been through a lot.â
You let out a weak laugh, agreeing with him with a look. âYeah, I donât think Iâve ever been worse in my life.â Your body felt heavy, muscles still sore from the lack of food and water, but you knew you needed to get up. âHelp me, please. I need to get to the water.â
Rafe nodded without hesitation and put an arm around your waist, helping you stand carefully. Your legs shook at first, but with his support, you managed to stay upright. He slowly carried you to the other side of the room, where a tub of hot, steaming water awaited.
âYou can go if you want,â you whispered, not looking at him directly, feeling the heat rising to your cheeks. But he shook his head, a lopsided smile appearing on his face.
âNo, Iâm staying,â he replied, and without adding anything else, he began to help you undress. His hands moved carefully, as if he were afraid of hurting you. When you finally submerged yourself in the water, a sigh escaped your lips as you felt the relief of the heat enveloping your battered body.
Rafe knelt at the edge of the tub and, with a damp cloth, began to gently run the water over your arms and shoulders. You couldnât help but look at him, the attention and delicacy in his movements contrasting with the intensity of his gaze. Suddenly, he made a comment that made you smile, a joke about how no one would believe it if they knew he was taking care of someone this way. You laughed, even if it was weakly, and responded with something equally sarcastic.
His eyes met yours, more serious this time. âYouâre beautiful,â he murmured, not looking away. The air grew thick between you, and you felt the warmth of the water mix with the blush on your skin. âI told you once not to say it,â you said quietly, looking away.
âWhy not?â he asked, and before you could answer, he took your hand, the same one he had been cleaning, and pulled you close to him, carefully encircling you. He leaned in and kissed you, a gesture that was gentle at first, almost a test, but soon became deeper, as if he wanted to make sure you felt what he felt.
You stood there, letting yourself be carried away by the warmth of his lips and the safety of his arms. For a moment, everything that had happened, all the hurts, faded away, leaving only the certainty that, in the midst of so much chaos, you had each other.
Once the bath was over and you felt clean for the first time in days, the tiredness seemed to fade a little, giving way to a sense of calm that you had almost forgotten existed. You put on a light white linen dress, which softly caressed your skin and made you feel freer and lighter. Rafe had left the room for a moment to give you space, but he returned shortly after, his eyes scanning your figure with a mix of concern and something deeper, something you recognized instantly.Â
You settled on a chaise longue by the window, letting the soft evening breeze come in and caress your face. Rafe sat beside you, his presence comforting despite everything that had happened between you. For a moment, neither of you spoke; you simply stayed silent, sharing a breath of peace that you both needed.
âHow are you feeling?â he asked, breaking the calm with a low voice that was almost lost in the sound of the wind. There was a note of anxiety in his words, as if he feared the answer.
âBetter,â you said with a soft smile, tilting your head towards him. âThanks to you.â You didnât add anything else, because you knew he understood everything those words meant. What he had done for you, what he had risked, was something you would never forget.
Rafe nodded, a shadow of a smile appearing on his lips before he reached out and gently caressed your cheek. âYou donât have to thank me,â he murmured. His eyes were a sea of ââconflicting emotions: relief, remorse, affection.
He laid down beside you, and without thinking too much, you rested your head on his shoulder, letting a sigh escape your lips.
The silence in the room stretched on for a while longer, only broken by the soft whisper of the wind. You stared at the shadows cast by the sunset on the walls, trying to process everything that had happened in the past few days. Finally, you broke the silence with a question that had been burning on your tongue since you woke up.
âWhat happened to the men?â His words were slow in coming, as if he was carefully choosing what he was going to tell you.
âI took care of them,â Rafe said, his voice deep and firm. There was no room for doubt in his tone, but no trace of remorse either. âYour father⊠helped make any problems they might represent disappear.â There was a glint in his eyes at the mention of it.
You nodded slowly, letting the information settle in your mind. You knew what it meant when your father got involved; there were no loose ends, no mistakes.
Rafe seemed to pick up on your silence and let the words trail off, not forcing the conversation.
Rafe took care of you in a way you hadnât expected. He made sure that every meal arrived to you on time, insisting that you eat and drink enough to regain your strength. Although you sometimes gently argued that you could get up and help in the search, he always answered you with the same firmness: âLeave it to me. I promise you that everything will be fine.â
The determination in his eyes and the conviction in his voice were enough to make you believe him. So, for the first time in a long time, you decided to let yourself go and do what he asked of you. You ate every dish he brought you, even if the appetite was not always present, and little by little you began to notice how your body regained its lost strength. Now you needed to eat more than before.
Meanwhile, Rafe moved around the house and the town like a ghost, always searching, always planning. Although you knew that the situation was much more complicated than he told you, you believed him. His confident and protective gaze left no room for doubt.
Your mind, which had been stuck in a constant state of alert, finally allowed itself a respite.
That same night everything was quiet, with a starry sky stretching out over the outskirts where everyone had gathered. The lights of the lanterns hanging in the trees and the crackling of the campfire provided a comforting warmth amidst the cool of the night. It was rare to find a moment of peace, and everyone appreciated it in their own way, laughing and sharing stories around the fire.
You were sitting next to Rafe, your gaze lost in the dancing and crackling flames. The boys were talking amongst themselves; JJ was dramatically telling an anecdote about one of his recent escapades, causing Kie to laugh and throw him a twig in mockery. John B, who was a little further away, was watching Sarah with an expression of complicity and tenderness.
Sarah stood up and ran a hand through her hair, a mix of nervousness and determination. Her eyes met yours, and for a moment, you wondered what she was going to say.Â
âGuys, thereâs something I need to tell you,â she began, and immediately the attention was drawn to her. The conversation died down, leaving only the sound of sparks from the campfire and crickets in the distance. Kie and John B exchanged a look, knowing what was coming, while JJ and Pope seemed surprised by Sarahâs serious tone.Â
âIâm pregnant,â she finally said, her voice barely shaking, but firm enough to be heard by everyone. There was a moment of complete silence, and then JJ let out a low whistle as a smile appeared on his face. Pope blinked a few times, processing the news, and then smiled widely.Â
You stood up and walked over to Sarah. Although your relationship with her hadnât always been easy, at that moment you only felt sincerity in your words. âEven though we never got along as well as weâd like, Iâm happy for you,â you said, looking into her eyes. âYouâre going to be a good mother, I know it.â
Sarah looked at you with a mix of surprise and suppressed excitement before nodding and giving you a small hug. âThank you,â she whispered, her smile reflecting both gratitude and relief.
Rafe, who had been silently watching the scene from where he stood, merely smiled sideways and nodded slowly, in a sort of silent approval that Sarah immediately picked up on. Their eyes met, and in that gaze they shared an understanding that only siblings could have. Sarah seemed to understand him and smiled back, softer, more sincere.
The night continued with a different energy. JJ joked about how they were going to teach the baby to sail before he could walk, which caused general laughter. Kie offered to make her a small seashell pendant for when she was born, and Pope said he would teach her to solve puzzles and understand ancient maps.
Rafe came up to you and put his arm around your back. âThis is going to be interesting,â he murmured, a barely perceptible smile on his lips. You smiled back, feeling the warmth of his touch.
Several hours had passed since Sarahâs announcement. The atmosphere was still light, with a calm that was rarely present among everyone. Laughter and stories continued as the flames of the fire slowly dwindled. You and Rafe, feeling the need to be alone, decided to retire before the others. Night enveloped the outskirts in a blanket of tranquility, and the walk back was silent, accompanied by the crunch of grass underfoot.
The next morning, the heat was overwhelming, and every movement seemed to require double the effort. You got up to find Rafe sitting near the window, lost in his thoughts. Her jaw was set, her eyes fixed on the horizon as if searching for answers in the distance. You knew she had been dealing with something since your kidnapping, something she hadnât wanted to share, and you couldnât help but feel the awkwardness hanging in the air.
That same day, when everyone gathered under the shade to escape the scorching sun, Sarah suddenly paled and swayed a little. John B quickly grabbed her, concern evident on his face.
âIâm fine, just a little dizzy,â she murmured, but everyone knew she needed more than fresh air.
JJ rummaged through the backpack and pulled out a half-beaten apple. âItâs the only thing there is, but itâs better than nothing,â he said, offering it to her. Sarah accepted it with a weak smile, biting slowly as John B looked at her with a mix of love and concern.Â
Rafe watched the scene with the same distant expression, his thoughts clearly elsewhere. JJ, unable to contain his annoyance, uttered an acidic comment: âWhatâs the point of all your money if you canât even help your sister with some decent food?â The tension cut like a knife, and Rafe, without a word, abruptly stood up and began to walk away.Â
You looked at Sarah, who was avoiding her brotherâs gaze. Driven by an instinct you didnât even fully understand, you approached her and pulled a wad of bills from your bag. You placed it in her hands with a gentle gesture. âItâs for you to buy food, Sarah. You need to feed yourself well in your condition,â you said in a low but firm voice. John B looked at you, surprised and grateful in equal parts.
âThanks,â he murmured, as Sarah gave you a genuine smile. âSeriously, thanks.â
Without saying anything else, you walked away in the direction where Rafe had gone. You found him at a makeshift market, where a few local vendors had gathered. He was standing in front of a stall, buying a basic-looking cell phone and other necessary items. You watched as he held the phone out, dialing a number and bringing it to his ear with a grim expression.
âIs it true?â he said, his voice filled with suppressed fury. âAfter everything I did for you⊠you betrayed me? Is it true?â There was a pause, with only the bustle of the market and your labored breathing to be heard. Then, in an icy tone of voice, he added, âGet your stuff out of my damn house. Weâre done.â
He cut the call and stood still, tension drawn in every line of his body. You hesitated for a moment, but eventually approached. Just when it seemed like he was going to reject you, you noticed how his gaze softened at the sight of you. His lips moved, wanting to say something, but he only managed to murmur, âWe have things to do.â
You had lost track of time since you had left that market following in Rafeâs footsteps. The hot afternoon breeze hit your face as you tried to keep up with him, not really knowing where he was taking you. One problem more or one less, you thought, it didnât matter anymore. They walked through labyrinthine streets and narrow alleys, the echo of their footsteps resonating between the adobe walls. There was a latent tension in the air, something that made you lock your gaze on Rafeâs back, watching the stiffness of his shoulders and the way his hands clenched into fists.
Without warning, a group of men stepped out of the shadows. You recognized one of them, someone Rafe had had problems with before. It all happened so fast, the exchange of words was brief before the fists started flying. Rafe fiercely fought as if his life depended on it. You, without thinking, took a few steps back, your heart pounding, searching for something to defend yourself with in case it was necessary.Â
The noise of the fight filled the narrow street, screams, the thud of fists, the sound of a body hitting a wall. Rafe won, as always. He never lost. When the last man fell to the ground, panting and cursing in his native tongue, Rafe turned to you, his face and knuckles marked by cuts and bruises.
Without saying a word, you took his arm and led him to a more secluded corner, your hands already shaking as you searched for a clean tissue in your bag. âLet me help you,â you said, your voice barely a whisper as you gently pressed a wound on his eyebrow. Blood dripped from it, tracing a trail down his cheek.Â
He watched you in silence for what seemed like an eternity. Finally, he broke the silence, âYou know, I should have known from the beginning. I should have chosen you⊠you never betrayed me.â His words, laden with a sincerity he rarely showed, made your hands freeze for a moment.Â
You sighed, removing the tissue and looking at him with a mix of sadness and resignation. âItâs too late, Rafe. There are bigger things at stake now than choices of partner.â
He shook his head, a hint of desperation flashing in his eyes. âItâs not too late. I can choose you⊠if you let me.â
You felt your heart pounding against your ribs. You looked up at him, searching for any hint of doubt in his expression, but all you saw was determination. âOnly if you get Sofia out of your life for good,â you warned, your tone more serious than you had planned. âOr I will kill her myself.â
A dark smile curved his lips, and he nodded, moving closer to you. âI know you would,â he whispered, before pulling your body into his. His lips sought yours, and the kiss was everything you had held back for so long. It was intense, passionate, a silent promise of all that could be and all that had been.
When he pulled back just a little, he tilted his head and whispered in your ear, âFuture Mrs. Cameron.â
A shiver ran down your spine. Because, even though everything had been chaos, even though the decisions had been erratic and the wounds were still fresh, deep down in your heart, you hoped to be that: the future Mrs. Cameron. Because after all, you were expecting his child, and he, although he didn't know it yet, was already part of that future that you had begun to secretly imagine.
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SUMMARY |Â it was hard watching jeno struggle with his relationship, but it was even harder when he ran to you for comfort every time. especially when you, his long-time best friend, have been in love with him for the longest time. but when jeno starts lying about where heâs going and who heâs with, you realize the biggest lie might be the one youâre telling yourselfâthat heâll ever choose you. or girls will cry, and girls will lie, and girls will lose their goddamn minds for you.
PAIRING |Â nonidol!jeno x afab!reader
CONTENT |Â university au, angst, best friends to ?, aespa members included, cheating, swearing, drinking, smut (not everything is included in the teaser yet but just so you know whats in store)
WORDS | 855 (just this teaser)
A/N | sneak peek of what im working on! im planning on making this a looong one but i was too excited so i decided to share without spoiling too much. let me know if you like it! total wc is still unknown and the release date will hopefully be before november ends. also its my birthday today so heres my gift to you :D
âhey.â jeno greeted you, standing at your front door, which only meant one thing. they fought again.
you pushed the door wider, letting him inside. he looked like a mess, his shoulders slumped, dark bags around his eyes, hair disheveled. even from afar, you could tell he was going through something. his phone was in his hand, checking for notifications, but he let out a huge sigh when the home screen was empty.
âdo i even want to know?â you prodded, eyes watching him as he plopped down on the couch. his head tilting back on the headrest, head filled with thoughts.
âyou know how she is.â jeno mumbled, rubbing his face with his hands. âsaid she needed some space.â
unfortunately, i do know how she is. jenoâs girlfriend, karina. theyâve been together since first year of college when jeno met her at some random party. they were the kind of couple on campus that, at first glance, seemed perfect, but you knew all too well what kind of chaos haunted them in private. you were too familiar with how she behaved with jeno; most of the time, you couldnât help but feel sorry for him.
jeno didnât even have to say anything when you saw him at your front door. you have grown accustomed to this pattern: the same heartache, apologies, and cycle of hope and disappointment. and every time it occurred, jeno ended up hereâat your door, at your couch, sulking.
you wanted nothing more than to scold jeno for letting himself get run over by her, but you kept your lips sealed. deciding that giving him comfort and support was probably what he needed right now.
âagain, huh?â you sat down on the opposite side of him, tucking your legs beneath you.
âi donât even know what that means, y/n.â jeno sighed, running his hand through his hair. he lifted his head to face you, gaze soft as he held eye contact with you. âone minute, everythingâs perfect, and weâre fine, but suddenly, iâve apparently done something wrong, and she won't even tell me.â his voice cracked, hopelessness evident in his tone. it pained you to see him like this. how many times is he going to let her do this to him?
âwell, did you do something wrong?â you asked, but you knew jeno too well, he wouldnât do anything to sabotage his relationship. sure, he has made mistakes in the past, but he was a good person, a good friend, and a good lover, you suppose.
jeno stayed silent for a moment, recalling if he had done something to make his girlfriend upset. âiâno, at least i donât think so.â he shook his head, âiâve just been busy with classes, but i always make time for her. and everything weâre together, i always try to make it special. you know?â
you nodded along to his words, resisting the urge to roll your eyes. you have heard this story countless times, so you could probably recite it to him. it wasnât unusual for karina to act like this; sheâd get upset over something vague, and then jeno would beat himself up for it, but heâd still bend over backward to get her back.
âmaybe sheâs just going through something?â you said, trying to think of what to say to ease his mind.
you and karina were acquaintances at best. itâs not like you didnât try to be her friend, but something about her attitude just seems so off-putting to you. you werenât entirely sure if karina was fond of you either. of course, you never told jeno any of these. you knew he wouldnât listen, not when it comes to her. he loves her. heâd return to her every time, like a moth to a flame. and youâd be there, picking up the pieces when he got burned.
âi wish sheâd just tell me whatâs on her mind instead of leaving me wondering what i did wrong.â his face twisted into frustration with a mix of confusion.
âjen, you know i canât help you if you donât tell her what youâre feeling.â this time, you couldnât hold back. âyouâre supposed to tell her these, not me.â
jeno flinched at your words, somehow unsatisfied with your advice. âyeah⊠youâre right.â
you watched his expression, his eyebrows furrowed while he was deep in thought. âiâm sorry if itâs not what you wanted to hear.â you hesitated, knowing you were treading dangerous waters. âi just think⊠you deserve someone who actually appreciates you.â
jeno stayed silent, processing your words as if he hadnât told himself that a million times. but for some stupid reason, he couldnât keep it in his head. he looked down at his phone, tapping the screen once more, but to his disappointment, there was still nothing. âi know youâre just looking out for me, y/n. but⊠i just canât give up on her. not yet.â
and just like that, you could feel him slipping away, back into her orbit, leaving you alone with all the things you couldnât say, wondering when he would run back to you again.
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