#so many great cosplay didn't get enough photos!

[every1sno1fangirl]

Happy Hifuumo Friday: Touhoufest 2024 Mega Edition everyone!

I want to start this off by simply saying that I had a fucking blast on my trip. I didn't think I'd have as much fun as I did, but as it turns out, I might just be a con/cert goer, who would have thought?

A year ago I would have died just thinking about going on a trip like this. And here I am now, looking back on it fondly and already looking forward to getting next year.

Was I still kind of anxious the whole time? Certainly. But it was manageable!

I arrived a day early to get my bearings. The group I was with happened to have plans that day too, so me and the people I was with (Hi @sennypls & @DeviousPulsar on The Social Media Platform Formerly Known as Twitter💖) decided to hang out. We went to a cat cafe and then to Little Tokyo.

I thought I'd be a lot more scared of that than I actually was, which is great!

The trip to Little Tokyo was also really fun. Where I live doesn't have anything like it, so it was a nice change of pace. After that we went to the observatory and watched the sunset.

But enough about that! It's time to dive into the real subject; Touhoufest itself!

I had a /fantastic/ time there, doing pretty much everything. I attended a few panels, wandered around artist alley, just took pictures and hung out in my cosplay, it was great!

There was also a really cool garden that I spent a lot of time in. I took a photo with my friend @phanatma's (Also on The Social Media Platform Formerly Known as Twitter) Eirin fumo.

And we even met Miku!

The fumo meetup was also really nice. They had to do it in waves because of how many people came to participate in that!

I also got to meet @lyricalive & @lori-hime, and got this nice picture of them with my fumos!

And I got recognized by two fanfic authors too. They are @comfybutter and @cookiethebirdthing here on Tumblr! It was really shocking to me, and we took this picture together!

At the end of the first day, a concert was held at the venue. 'Toho Eurobeat Extravaganza' it had a lot of artists and it was /really/ cool. They even got A-ONE all the way from Japan!

Next time, I'll remember to bring earplugs. Though I had a great time regardless!

When Touhoufest actually closed on the second day we went and had hotpot together at a friend's Airbnb (Though I couldn't eat any of it because of my Crohn's sadly) before making our way to Round1, which took awhile.

I had a lot of fun watching everyone play the games!

Sadly, it had to end. I've already decided I'm going to go again next year at least. AND I'm going to learn how to sew so I can make a better cosplay.

Finally, here's a picture of my haul.

I love you all, and I hope you have a good day/night!

[sarcasmismydefaultmode]

My MCM London Experience

So my Comic-Con experience certainly had its ups and downs...somehow, I always seem to end up catching a bug like COVID a few weeks before an event I've been looking forward to for months, and then I'm left with a chronic cough and feeling like death even once I stop testing positive. I had so many plans to meet up with friends and catch up over drinks, and I ended up going to bed in my hotel room by 6pm...

But........

There were certainly some highs. Meeting and chatting with @wifeofsyril & @karnpuffs in the queue for the photo ops with Denise on Saturday, talking all things Star Wars, Andor, and Dedra (which frankly I don't get to do enough of, it's criminal)...

Meeting up and getting to play with my old saber training group, Silver Sabres, and spend half the day surrounded by fellow saber nerds...

The utter chaos that was the Witcher 3 panel. It felt a little...strange, like it was vaguely linked to it being ten years since the Witcher 3 came out, but it all felt quite loosely connected to the fact. It was more fun watching Denise slowly lose her mind over having to draw anything 😄 (I felt that, Denise. As a fellow artistically-challenged-person, I felt that. Pictionary is my idea of hell) and the conversations the cast were having about their characters. An interesting snippet from Denise was about her decision to pitch Yennefer a little lower than her natural speaking voice, to project authority and power, and I felt you can hear that in Dedra's voice too.

The lighting wasn't great so this was pretty the only picture I took during the panel which didn't turn weird...

Nearly had a heart attack when they started mentioning fanfiction. Admittedly, it was Witcher fanfiction, not Star Wars or Andor, but now I can't get the image of Denise scrolling the Dedra Meero tag on Ao3 out of my head 🤣🤣. Denise and Doug, the guy she's sat next to who voiced Geralt, and some of the other cast, also spoke about the importance of fandom and the escape it offers as they've been told by fans over the years, which I fully concur with. Fantasy has always been my escape when the world gets a little too much.

And finally, what probably had to be the highlight of the weekend:

I debated about covering my face but I'm posting this on the clock app too since I post cosplay shit over there. You should've seen the way Denise's eyes lit up when I offered her the lightsaber. Don't get me wrong, I love that Andor doesn't rely on the Sith-Jedi-lightsaber stuff at all beyond occasional references to ol' Palpy, but I think it should be written into every Star Wars actor's contract that they get to play with a lightsaber at least once. This is also my Inquisitor Dedra cosplay's debut, got some really great comments walking around MCM, and when I took the photo for Denise to autograph, she basically said she wants a black uniform like mine. Now, to work on my photoshoot skills so next time, you can actually see more than just my cloak, one boot, and one gauntleted arm 🤣😅

[the-enzyme]

Got myself a GDToys The Son Of The Tooth King - Dog Demon Swordman GD97005, 1:6 action figure. Also known as Sesshomaru in a more realistic stylization (cosplay, perhaps?). Lol! I have been tempted by GDToys figures in the past, but they seem to make mostly females, and I kind of don't actively look to collect female figures, unless I want to hybrid their heads on male bodies. I've also seen their paint apps to be extremely hit-or-miss, so I knew this Sesshomaru fig was going to probably not be as perfect as their prototype. However, in hand, he doesn't look as terrible as in my extreme close up of his face.

He's definitely not as perfect as the prototype, but I never expected him to be. I just thought this would be a good enough customizable figure, with great potential, based on one of my most favorite characters of all time (that isn't Sephiroth, but pretty close). I don't own that many figures based on him, because there are just not that many. The head sculpt in particular was what sold me to get this, I knew the paint apps weren't going to be anywhere near the prototype, but it's rare to see beautiful male anime-ish head sculpts in the 1:6 world. That are actually male, and not hybrid from dolls or females, etc. So, I had to have him, as a Christmas gift to myself (because I don't gift myself enough things all year round!). I also managed to get one with its own brown shipper! Yay!

I am still uncertain that I will be repainting him, but I knew that if he didn't look anything decent IRL, I could just attempt repainting him but still end up with all the other stuff to create my own Sessho custom figure. I did try a million years ago with a Noir De Rome Japanese fashion doll head sculpt, and a Volks Neo EB go body, but I never got far enough. I feel this one will be a close enough one for me. I'll definitely need to restyle the bangs, the hair is probably not the same as the prototype but it's certainly not as fluffy, and that's not just the styling. I'll take more "decent" than just flash photos of him, once I attempt restyling his bangs, to be closer to the prototype, because these are definitely not even an attempt on GDToy's part. DX

[agentnorthdakota]

4, 7, 8, 14, 17, 22, 24, 26, 31, 33, 34, 44? :3

Thanks Spencer!! uwu ilu <3

Answers under read more b/c long lol

4. how often are you on tumblr? Way too often lol. I check it many times a day, most of which are out of boredom :p

7. can you swim? I can! No, like, 'proper' styles or super well or anything, but I can swim! The last time was like 2 years ago tho and it's way harder than I remembered lol, I think it was easier when I was a kid and much lighter :p

8. have you had water today? uhhhhhh. I. can't recall. the last time I had just normal water. I've never really like the 'taste' of it, and still don't. p much the only time I drink it is if it's summer and I was exercising and am Super thirsty, in which case cold water is great. Otherwise I'm drinking something else, iced tea or juice primarily, I do still try and stay hydrated.

14. do you admire the clouds and color of the sky? Very much!!! Clouds are so pretty and there's so many variations, I absolutely love them. I'm admiring the clouds and/or sky at least once a day.

17. an earliest obsession you remember? Hmmm I mean I'd probably say Pokemon honestly. I had so much Pokemon merch as a kid (and still own much of it in storage boxes), and I'm p sure I had a Pokemon themed birthday one year (probably 2001? 'cause we went to see Pokemon: The Movie 3 in theatres, which would've made me 7).

22. do you have a collection of cool rocks? Heck yeah I do! Primarily ones I've bought from mineral shops. I used to also just have some cool river rocks I found, but I don't think I have any of them anymore.

24. what have you learned about yourself? Gosh this is such a broad question. I love bonding with friends over the same creative hobbies (cosplay, DnD, etc), I love fashion and eccentric clothes and shoes and heels now, especially after top surgery as I get to actually enjoy how they fit me! I'm a slut in theory but not in practice u.u I'm not 100% settled on a sexuality label, but I also don't have to be, sexuality and romantic orientation are fluid and also a spectrum. I have some poor behaviours I picked up from my parents that I'm not proud of. I've definitely improved some quite a bit, but I'm also still wary there's more that I haven't realized or had pointed out.

26. do you believe in aliens? I think the universe is far too unbelievably vast for other life to not exist out there. So in that sense, yes! Same goes for sentient life. But do I believe they've visited Earth, or even our solar system? Nada.

31. have you gotten bit by a dog? Depends on how you'd define 'bit' I suppose? There's only ever been one (or two?) cases in which it was enough to draw blood. Which was shortly after I got Rowan, and I was giving him a chicken treat before leaving for work, and I looked away and he snatched it out of my hand, and accidentally bit my pinky as well as the treat. He defs didn't mean to, and I wouldn't really consider it a bite, myself.

33. a song that gets stuck in your head? Oh boy this varies all the time. Like, daily or multiple times a day. Often I wake up with a song stuck in my head. It's usually just a song I like and have been listening to recently.

34. when you hear “ peace ” what do you think of? I mean, if this were one of those 'answer with your first thought/off the top of you head' things, it would just be the peace sign ☮ Or the two-finger peace sign. More philosophically though, just a beautiful nature view, a river or mountains or something, on a nice day that's not too hot. Beautiful scenery and relaxation.

44. do you collect anything? Yes!! The aforementioned rocks/minerals, and also feathers that I happen to find. And shed antlers that we've found out hunting (tho now that I don't go any more I haven't added to them in years), and some animal skulls and bones~ Oh and dice. As I ponder this question and look up to see my shelves full of Chessex dice lol (I thought I had photos handy but uh. apparently I don't. and my phone's storage is too full to take some whoops)

[ask-dr-knockout]

Some fun Photos from Saturday PHX Comic Fest!

[hornyf0ckers]

Obey me as Dads

//Disclaimer//

THIS IS MY PERSONAL OPINION OF THE CHARACTERS THAT I SEE FIT. I'VE SEEN MANY VERSIONS OF THIS WHICH I THINK AREN'T REALISTIC SO I MADE MY OWN VERSION.

LUCIFER

The unaffectionate, cold strict Dad

Overprotective of you, no one gets to mess with you and he will go great lengths to ensure that

He wouldn't be able to spend time with you due to paperwork, so you two don't get to bond that often

He has strict rules so stuff like eating candy before dinner or being awake after bed time is a no go.

He's really stressed and a busy man but he still tries to be a good dad towards you

You're the only one who he's soft to

Would spoil you with gifts to make up for the time he couldn't spend with you

Would do things as rocking you to sleep when he's on a call or let's you play wirh toys on his lap while he finishes paperwork

If you have a tantrum he would not have it. He wont hesitate to give you a time out but will afterwards talk it out with you and find a solution that fits both of you

If you ignore his flaws he's actually a good dad

7/10

MAMMON

the "imma go ahead and buy some milk" kind of dad (atleast at first)

would hate to pay child support so he accepts his fate

at first he didn't like you nor did he know how to take care of you.

-seriously he's as immature as a 10 year old boy

would ask his brothers for advice and help

tried to sell you once but got scolded at lucifer

but after a while he eventually grows fond of you and takes you everywhere.

he's proud of you and spoils the shit outta ya.

brags to everyone how you are his child and how cool of a dad he is

would forget to feed you at times so others have to step in

but if it comes to having fun he's the best dad to have.

he will give you the greatest time and would definitely take you to his photo shoots

probably took you once and shot a photo with you which gained him a lot of money so it became a regular thing

probably tries to sell photos of you too

would teach you to play cards and everything you need to know about gambling (lucifer scolded him afterwards, especially if he tried taking you gambling with him)

7/10

LEVIATHAN

do you know those gamer dads? yeah he's one of them

would have you sit in his lap while he plays games or even teach you some if you're old enough

you would be constantly with him playing games

he's not good at taking care of your health tho(he doesn't even take care of himself)

you would he anti social as he's not going outside with you to interact with others as often as he should

since he plays all day and night only eating junk food you would probably do the same

he would have the others taking you outside if he doesn't fel like sociolazing

the others forcefully had to drag you out with him to take care yourselves (asmo would probably help you with that)

he's really insecure and you would have to comfort him with that

his insecurities may rub off on you

would question if he's even a good father and worthy of being your dad

but if there's a new anime convention he would take you there and buy you everything you want

Cosplaying together is a regular thing between you two

you two probably hate mammon

would be the typ of dad to also have fun with you, like a best friend

8/10

SATAN

The type of dad that would try to teach you everything in this world

You would probably end up being the smartest kid in all the three realms

You are anger issues 2.0

even tho he has anger issues, he never directed them towards you. you gave him a purpose and

even with his anger out bursts you still love him.

would read books to you all the time

you end up joining the anti lucifer league

pranking lucifer with satan & belphie becomes a regular thing

he's actually quite chill bit if someone dares to hurt you he will do 100% worse to them

actually knows how to take care of you due to all the books he has read

probably be suffocating you with knowledge tho

would want you to be smart and well mannered which may pressure you

if you both get into a fight it will not end well

probably ends up traumatising you with his anger

would totally make up for it tho

visits cat cafes with you

you both are cat lovers

8/10

ASMODEUS

oh boy

you were probably the result of a random hookup but he still loves you

in his eyes you are his child and because of that you are the best and as such you deserve the best

would dress you up and make you the most beautiful child out of the three realms -takes you to modelling shoots

playing in the mutt or making a mess while playing is a no go though

would not let you get dirty or ruin your skin so you wouldn't get creative freedom every child needs

your sleep schedule and diet is perfectly planned

his narcissism would rub off on you

tho he would try to keep you pure, as it makes you cuter (no cuss words or sexual things near you)

you would need to be well mannered

narcissistic parents most likely will have an impact to the child so you may need professional help in the future (would never do anything bad to you on purpose

would take you shopping and do skin routines with you tho

would not allow anyone to spread rumors about your or hurt you

7/10(if you ignore the narcissism problem)

BEELZEBUB

the supportive kind dad

also the kind of dad that you would watch a football match with

would definitely be happy that you came into his life -would gladly play with you and spend time with you in general

tho he would over feed you which will lead to general health issues

you are the only one who he'll share his food with

can't get angry at you when you eat his custard but will give you a talk on why you shouldn't do that anymore

probably the sweetest dad of the brothers

would lift you up and throw you in the air to catch you

he sometimes may be to rough with you and hurt you accidentally

would apologise and bring you your favourite food -you and belphegor cuddle alot

you three are almost all the time together

he would definitely try to teach you sport doesn't know how fragile you are tho and sometimes overdo it

You two make food together and eat all the time

8/10

BELPHEGOR

oh boy 2.0

to lazy and sleepy to take care of you properly -

would sleep with you all the time and get annoyed if you wake him up at 3 am(may not even wake up)

instead of feeding or bathing you, he sleeps

your sleep cycle and feeding schedule is fucked up( will cause health problems later on) -tho beel helps him taking care of you so it's not that bad tho

you may bond more with beel than with belphie because of that

but cuddling with him(and sometimes beel) is like heaven

when he's actually awake he's funny to be around

you probably joined the anti lucifer league and do pranks on lucifer

satan may take care of you too when beel and belphie are busy

he may be to lazy to do many activities with you but when he does it's actually quite fun

tho waking him up when you need something is a problem

you can't really rely on him due to his sin so u turn to the others

that kinda makes him sad tho so he tries to stay awake (sometimes succeeds and sometimes not)

you probably hate lucifer and you're sarcastic

6/10

DIAVOLO

the overly cheerfull irresponsible dad

he would definitely take you to town to have fun with him

you two will be like best friends

it's very fun to be around him but he's not good at taking care of you

will not give you any rules so eating candy all day and being awake past your bed time is allowed

will also not punish you (if it's something drastic he will ask lucifer or barbatos for help)

because of that barbatos does most of the parenting

your probably see diavolo as an older brother or best friend and barbatos as a father instead

diavolo may unintentionally manipulate you into obeying him( like he does to everyone)

will have a lot of work to do so he can't always spend time with you

because barbatos is also very busy you often spend your time in purgatory hall or with the brothers (not that you mind ofcourse)

lucifer will be your dad 2.0(or a mother in that matter-)

you took after your dad so you're a cheerful child

but since you are also quite the trouble maker you get on lucifers nerves

you also named the little d's, which diavolo seemed to find funny (little d 2's name is jonny-)

7/10

BARBATOS

the calm and kind father

would teach you manners and how to cook

will teach you everything you need to know about chores and stuff

he's always calm and never raises his voice at you

but doesn't have much time for you due to his duties -either you spend the time at purgatory hall or with the brothers or help him out (is not found of you helping him tho-)

the brothers (cough cough mammon-) would probably treat you like a servant so you spend more time at purgatory hall

you probably end up being diavolo's servant too

if you're serving diavolo you will not get as many hours of work as the others since you are a child (a child of barbatos on top of that)

diavolo totally favours you (of all the other servants)

tho you don't get to play as much as an average child which may make you sad

forced to grow up way to early->you may end up try to take care of everybody else, are a people-pleaser, have self-esteem issues, constantly trying to do more than you are physically capable of, having standards to high standards for yourself

much like your father you end up being calm, kind and responsible

You bake sweets with luke and are probably best friends

7.5/10

SOLOMON

the teasing cool father

he loves to trade you so be ready to deal with that

will teach you magic, spells and to read books -probably uses your for his experiments

he loves to cook for you(please don't eat it) -because of his good cooking skills simeon insisted on cooking for you

to everyone's surprise you actually like his cooking (must be in the genes)

you probably are a bad cook too

you and solomon both tease luke together -the brothers find you shady as hell

you may or may not even be more of a demon that them themselves (solomon too)

if you're lucky you may manage to make a pact with barbatos and asmodeus

you will probably make a lot of pacts with demons in the future

solomon had to stop you once from selling your soul for a 9 chicken macnugget (vegan nuggies if you're vegan)

surprisingly he would know how to take care of you

would put you in dangerous situations tho( experiments and such)

7/10

SIMEON

the loving and sweet father

100% experienced in taking care of children (cough cough luke-)

would teach you how to cook and bake with you (+luke)

you and luke are like siblings

literally the best dad of them all

sometimes be may tease you like he does with luke

he will always treat you like a child which sometimes will get very annoying

wouldn't leave you with the brothers tho (maybe except with lucifer)

no cussing in the house

will protect you from all the evil in this world

won't leave you with solomon either (to afraid he will cook for you)

you sometimes hang around raphael and lucifer when he's busy

you are probably a sweet and well behaved child

lucifer finds you pleasant to be around

you love to bake and you are probably good at it too

he will teach you to write poems

leviathan would adore you(spoilers? idk)

10/10

LUKE (as an older sibling)

scenario: simeon became your legal guardian (you are younger than luke)

luke would 100% adore you

he's happy to not be the youngest and shortest anymore

would be a protective big brother -doesn't let anyone tease you (would even stand up to lucifer if he must)

you two bake all the time

you two love pushies and beg simeon to buy you ones

tea parties and sleepovers will be a regular thing

lucifer and the others see you as chihuahua 2.0

mammon sees you as fiddo 2.0

luke would probably tell you bad things about demons so you may hate demons just like him

you two are always seen together

one of you gets teased the other one stand up for the other

you two once stood up to lucifers once by you standing on lukes shoulders (simeon holding you ofcourse)

you like barbatos and you three bake occasionally

much like luke you see yourself as a grown-up and hate when others treat you as a child

10/10

[kvrlsefni]

-`, — WHEN IN COSPLAY !! ꒱ ↷

♤ tears of themis: luke, vyn, marius, artem.

♤ info: the tot characters w a gf who likes to cosplay as a hobby >:))

✧.* 𝐥𝐮𝐤𝐞

— honestly though, despite y’all knowing each other for like, a really long time and the fact he’s already aware of most of the fandoms ur into, he'd still be a little surprised. but more of the "i'm home what do you wanna get for dinner- oh mY GOD YOU LOOK GREAT!" kind of way

— he loves ur cosplays sm n would take so many pics of u n he'd become ur personal photographer ! he'd help u pose n w the lighting and bro believe me when i say, it makes him so proud n happy <33 he'd probably pull a "my gf cosplayed (this character) & she looks amazing" !!

— BUT if you asked him to cos with u, he'd start to malfucntion 26JSjswu!@$$

— couple cosplays make him so <33 or even if y'all aren't even specifically like a couple, he'd still love to regardless! he knows that cosplaying makes you happy, so he's happy that he gets to do smthn u love w u !!

— would volunteer in helping u make props if ur character had props ^^ would also help u find stuff u need, so there might ber andom texts throughout the day where he goes like "omg guess what i just found" "that wig u needed !! and it's CHEAPER than online CAN U BELIEVE THA T"

✧.* 𝐯𝐲𝐧

— tbh he wasn't that surprised?? he knew about the fandoms you were into and he knew it was only a matter of time before you caved and started cosplaying as someone from there.

— idk if u could ever rope him into cosplaying if it's not for an event like halloween or smthn. maybe u could get him to cosplay w u for a con if u bugged him enough times and get him to swear to go with you dressed up. it's not bc he thinks it's silly or stupid, but it's mostly because he thinks ur much better suited for it

— fr fr he thinks ur so perfect for it like bro istg he like worships u n he ?? wants the spotlight to be on u bc he thinks u deserve it sm

— tbh he would actually fsr ?? like it if he was the guy following you around carrying your stuff while people asked for pictures with you TvT he likes supporting you from the side BUT if you ever did want him to be there with you like NEXT to you, he won't hesitate to walk over there B)

— would also take pics for you !! he wouldn't be the best at it tho T—T but he's trying his best !! istg just see jksdjksd late at night when he thinks ur asleep but u like open ur eyes just a bit to see him looking up cosplay photos and photos in general to see how people angle that stuff and take good pics so he can do the same for u ;D

✧.* 𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐮𝐬

— marius would fund ur cosplays regardless but he’d be so excited n happy if u cosplayed sum of his fave characters n he’d also offer to

— omg bro he'd radiate luke energy but not on the same wavelength

— he'd be like eRM "oH you're (this character) from (this fandom). why didn't you tell me??" because he accidentally walked in on you putting on your wig

— would immediately know who ur going as KDJKSJ he thinks u look so good too!! he'd ask if you need help with fixing the wig or putting on the cosplay itself or the props (esp if it's of character with complicated attires)

— he'd ALSO omg omg he'd fund ur cosplays !!! esp omg if ur cosplaying someone from his favourite fandom (or his fave character from there) he'd ask you what you needed and if you don't tell him, idk how but he'll find out one way or another what it is you DO need and he'll get it for you so u kinda just go home one day n see it on ur bed n ur like >:0

— btu you know, regardless of whether ur his fave character or not, he'd still happily do all that stuff anyway! oh and also best believe he'd hire professional photographers to help take photos of you ;D like it ends up being a full blown photoshoot omg

✧.* 𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐦

— artem would be okay w the idea but he didnt know u were actually going to go thru w it then he comes home earlier than u tot n ur filming tiktoks on ur phone and he kinda just walks in and u both stare at each other but he starts to smile n hes like ur rlly pretty n offers to take pics for u

— i imagine artem would come home earlier than you expected and when he opens the door to the bedroom you both share, he certainly did not expect to see you standing there in full cosplay in front of the mirror with your phone in your hand

— it'd be so funny PLS DIJSDK his hand would still be on the door and he wouldn't say anything at first and u thought he didn't like it until he put his case down and LEGIT went "why r u taking pictures there? the lighting's bad. do you want to go to the balcony?? i'll take the pictures for you"

— JHDJSH he actually was just shocked from coming home and momentarily thinking someone 2d had broken into his house djksadj but fr he's so supportive of ur hobby !!!

—like luke, he'd become ur personal photographer and he'd also be the one who randomly sits down next to you with his laptop in hand and be like "hey isn't this the set for (this character ur planning to cosplay)" and u'll be like "yeah but i haven't saved up enough to buy it yet-" then he literally orders it on the spot 😵‍💫😵‍💫

a/n: unedited n kinda did this on the spot so erm HWJDJ

[samshogwarts]

My review of 2020

Or: I say thank you.

First of all, sorry for the long post 😅. You guys know I don'tike long posts without a "read more under the line". But I nade the post with my mobile phone.... Aaaaaaaanyway. Also sorry for all the tags. I hope I don't annoyed someone with it <~<. So let's continue:

I think this year has been a particularly difficult year for everyone. As 2020 is drawing to a close, I mentally let the year pass again.

The bottom line is that I have to say that 2020 was turbulent for me, but not necessarily bad. Much good, but also bad, has happened. And I want to start with the bad things right away.

At the beginning of the year, my depression and eating disorder relapsed. I've always had trouble talking about it because I know my friends can't handle this issue. I felt pressured because they wanted to do things with me, but I couldn't. So I withdrew completely, hiding my emotions and wearing a mask.

At that time I created this blog. At first I didn't want to create my own content, just follow the content of @ladycibia, @hogwartsmystory and @kyril-hphm. Incidentally, that is also the reason why I call these 3 blogs the Big Three. So it's their fault that I'm here. Lol.

And then the first Hyops message came at the end of March. A very good friend of mine got Corvid-19 and lost the battle against the disease a few days later. I still remember how the news pulled the floor from under my feet. It feels like I completely lost faith in everything and I started to realize how dangerous this year could be. 

But life goes on and so I visited a friend and her family in early July. It was the anniversary of her husband's death, who was also a very good friend of mine. He died of cancer last year and I couldn't go to his funeral. So I wanted to stop by on the day he died. I actually thought I could do it. But when you read a friend's name on a tombstone for the first time.. Guys, that's a punch in the stomach like no other and I can't really describe how it feels. I had made up my mind not to cry in front of his wife or children because it was hard enough for them. Didn't work.

And of course this year meant to go one better.

Another friend of mine died of the virus in mid-August, leaving behind a wife and a child. Again, I was unable to attend the funeral. And to be honest, it still bothers me way more I want to admit. In two years I lost three wonderful people who meant a lot to me and I couldn't say goodbye to any of them. When I see the three of them again after my death, you can be sure I'll kick their butts for it.

But August was the worst month for me in many ways. In addition to the death of my buddy, my father's family also volunteered. And that means only one thing - trouble.  And properly. I haven't had contact with this family for over 12 years for good reason. Now one person from this family has passed away. And first of all, I don't really care if anyone of them would die. I don't even know the person who passed away. But I wasn't told either by my grandmother or my father. So my deadline to cancel the inheritance has expired. Of course it was debts. You have to know that the inheritance rights of my country are very complicated. The reason my father or grandmother didn't tell me about it was because they didn't want to bother with the paperwork. They always had the opportunity to contact me via Facebook or my half-sister. But that would mean work for them. And while I was walking from lawyer to lawyer to court to court, I was allowed to hear sayings from my grandmother that I apparently have achieved nothing in my life. Nice to know that some people never change. I'm still struggling with this matter to this day and will probably not be able to fully clarify this until the beginning of 2021.

At the end of October everything seemed to be taking its revenge and I passed out at a friend's house. Nobody knows exactly what happened until today, but my friend took me to the hospital where I had to stay one night. That was Halloween. And I'm such a big fan of hospitals hahahaha hahahaha. After that I was allowed to wear an ECG for 2 weeks and it turned out that my heart values ​​had deteriorated. Why not. Let's just take everything with us this year!

Rounding out the negatives this year was my (as a teenager) best friend's suicide. I have to say that I haven't had any contact with this person for 9 years. However, it is the one who cut herself in her youth and then called me afterwards because she didn't know what to do. It was also the one I tried to get into therapy for 2 years. But her mother was always against it. And it was exactly this mother who was standing in my mother's shop, telling her about her daughter's suicide and that I was probably in the farewell letter. I don't know exactly what it said, but the mother now blames me for her daughter's suicide. And do you know what's craziest about the whole thing? I agreed with her! I really thought it was my fault because I knew how sick my former friend was. Yet I was the one who ended the friendship (for many reasons that had nothing to do with her depression). And I still wonder what would have happened if I had acted differently.

But enough of the negative things! A lot of nice things happened this year too. Among other things, I have found a new job within my group, earn more money and have pleasant working hours. I've renovated my apartment and I've started saving money on a new one. My two nieces are now going to school and I am a proud aunt. My male best friend and his girlfriend (my best harry potter friend) are pregnant and are expecting their first child soon and my mother's health is better.

But one of the best things that happened to me this year is this blog.

I already mentioned that I actually only created this blog to stalk the Big Three. I didn't want my own content at all. But I discovered more and more blogs and these incredibly great MCs that I thought I wanted to do whole too. And so Samantha O'Connell was born.

I received so much great support and encouragement on this platform. I don't think many people even realize how much that means to me. Especially this year.

I have also found great and lovable people here, some of whom I also call my friends. Even if we come from other countries, speak other languages ​​and may never see each other in real life, you are my friends and I am grateful to know you.

@annabelle-tanaka-official : I'll start with you of course! XD on tumblr you are just my best friend. I don't write as much with anyone as I do with you. You are such an incredibly talented person and so warm hearted! Over the year we have invented so many insiders that soon nobody will know what we mean.  Be it the monster hug, or that my cats are your spies or our many RP scenarios, which I really enjoy and which always make me laugh. I thank you for that!! I love you so much and I am so glad that we are friends! *minster hug*

@lunasilvermorny / @lunasilvermore : you are next to you !!! XD the next person I write to almost every day. What started with a little conversation about among us has turned into a friendship. I can't tell you how much I'm looking forward to streaming with you next year (and this year)!!! You are such a good listener that strengthens me. Your support is so nice of you too! Just the fact that you have subscribed to my YouTube channel xD (because of the language I even have an idea). I'm looking forward to the next year with you! Thank you so much for dealing with my craziness and still likes me! 

@kyril-hphm : muahahahaha. You can't escape me !!! Yes, what should I say? One of my big three even made friends with me. One of my Senpais noticed me! And then it's a lovely fluffy marshmallow! I still think it's funny  that we have such similar circuits and hearts! Nevertheless you are an incredibly honest, loving and talented person. I've never told you before, but sometimes I stare (for 20 minutes +) at your drawings to improve my style (just not working so far). You are an honest person and I am happy every time we talk, or when you react to my content. I would like to say thank you for that too! You are great and you can trust yourself more.

@carewyncromwell : my Chinese fireball, my Disney princess. Yes, for me you exude the aura of a Disney princess and nothing can change my mind. So! You were one of the first friends I made here on tumblr and one of the first to write with me! I still remember how proud and nervous I was back then! Just when I was in the hospital on Halloween and couldn't sleep that night, you kept texting me and distracting me from my fear. That means a lot to me. You are such a creative and lovable person too. Ah, that's just amazing. Your comments or hashtags always make me grin or laugh. Thank you for all your support and help!

@catohphm : my fluffier Ravenclaw brother!!! Of course you can't be missing either. I also write with you almost every day and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for all your kind words and your support. I just love the energy between Samantha and Cato. And it's always fun to write RP with you!  Thank you for being such a lovely and kind person!

@mira-shard : MIRAAAAAAA! It's kind of funny how long we've basically walked next to each other without talking to each other. And now I don't want to miss you anymore! You are such a fun and happy person. Writing with you is just fun! I also love your cosplay photos. Someday I'll come to visit you, and then we'll do cosplay shootings together until the camera bleeds! I would also like to thank you for your support and your kindness. 

@sirfluffig : ha. I hope you didn't think you were escaping me! Where should I start with you? Maybe that you were one of the first to give me such lovely feedback on Samantha? Or this super funny stream and that you helped me to stream in English? Or just like that, when we talk about our MCs or pen and paper. It's definitely always fun. I want to thank you for that and I'm looking forward to playing together again soon (get Among us)

@nightrhea-hphm : * run into you in slowmotion * Night! My wonderful supportive Gremlin! I've grown very fond of them over the years. And your support and feedback are just amazing. I also love the friendship between Night and Samantha. I think it's very similar to ours, right? You are also such an incredibly creative and lovable person. You make you feel like it's ok to be who you are. Thank you!

Of course there are many, many more like @rosievixen, @wangxianforever000 , @mollydarling-hphm , @morningstarinwinter , @hogwarts9, @hphm-brooke , @raymondhope-writer , @nikyiscreepy , @immagrosscandy , @mizutoyama , @ariparri-hphm and many many more.

I want to thank you all for your encouragement, support and feedback. You are the reasons why I am adding more and more details to this blog, why I dared to start with the fan comic and many more. 

It's still so amazing for me to meet so many talented, creative, kind and funny people. 

This year showed me again that life isn't just black or white. Life is Grey. Good things and bad things happen. Sometimes one side more than the other side. But as long we are taking the next step, life wl continues. Just keep in mind, as like you support me, I want to support you. So if you ever wanna talk, no matter what, remember you guys can always contact me. 

I'm really looking forward to next year and already have so many plans. I can not wait any longer. Enjoy the last days of the year, stay safe and most important: they the way you are guys! 

Love you all so much. 

[justfuckthegarbagedisposal]

Tokyo in Tulsa Master Post

Okay! I went to Tokyo in Tulsa this year and I am happy to say, I will be going next year!! This was my first time, but people told me that the way they had it set up was unusual.

-Below are somethings that happened-

They had different buildings for different things. I personally didn't like this. They had a shuttle that you could travel on for free, but I am not good with directions. Good thing my friend was. Any time we looked around I was right behind him!

Friday

I didn't dress up in my full cosplay There weren't many panels I was interested in and I wanted a good look around. I cosplayed as Uraraka and it was really fun! It's great to see so many people in the same fandom as you.

Friday, I was really nervous and to scared to take photos with people. I did however want a photo with at least one Toga. My wish was granted when this cute bean popped into my line of sight.

I may have been shy to talk to people, but they weren't shy to me. I got many people who said they loved my Uraraka and wanted a photo. This made me really happy! This was my first time cosplaying and it really boost my confidence!!! I gladly took photos with them, I just wish that I had enough guys at the time to ask them for a photo.

Saturday

I dressed in her full uniform! Many people showed up that day. I went to many panels and took several photos.

(The last image has a Bakugou who owns a TicToc I'll put their username at the bottom)

The first panel we went to was My Hero Academia: The Forbidden Episode that was hosted by WhateverGoes. I personally loved their Shigaraki. Their hand was attached to the wig where they could just flip the hand over their face by shaking their head. They had a short game where you could 'date' them, sadly I was still to shy. I didn't get a photo with them either.

The next panel we went to was Bakugou vs Deku UA Games hosted by SquareOneCosplay they actually have a YouTube channel! You should really check it out!!! This was my friend's favorite panel! They had games and prizes, and even included the audience as a whole. At the end of the panel they said that they had extra prizes and that they would love some photos with us. My friend headed to the prizes, but I went straight to their Bakugou with a plan in mind. I got up to them and shook their hand. I made eye contact and somehow was able to say "These prizes are great, but I would like to take you home." They didn't know what to say, but their Uraraka stepped in and told me that they were with them. I took a photo with that Bakugou, but my hand was shaking after realizing what I said. The photo is a little blurry.

I also wanted to ask what makeup they used, but was to nervous and ran back to my friend. He handed the prize he grabbed and it was a card with Bakugou on it.

We went to the Manga Library for a bit and I read The Seven Deadly Sins. I realized that I need to catch up on the anime!!!

We then went to a panel called A hero's trip to the 80's hosted by Asher. Sadly we had to leave that one early as we were hungry and would miss the next panel.

After we ate we realized that we were a little late to the panel You Can Be A Hero Too hosted by Midnight Party Owls. The plan was to just sneak in and sit in the back, but when we got there we say a Bakugou and Deku talking right outside the door. One told the other that they were to pretend that they were late and to stay in character. All while this was happening my small brain was starting to piece together what was happening. They then slammed open the door and I heard a "Bakugou? Deku? You're late!" My friend and knew that if we were to sneak in right after their show of being late, all eyes would be on us. So we didn't go.

We just walked around bought a few things. My friend bought a necklace he didn't want because the vendor had an aggressive marketing strategy and he collapsed under peer pressure. He now has a 40$ dice necklace.

Sunday

I had a plan and we were running late. I couldn't find any ring pops in the store or any vendors.

We went the panel My Hero Academia hosted by Dawn Bennett, Chritopher Wehkamp, and Had Saxton

At first I thought this was going to be like the other panels, but I was pleased to find out I was wrong. The Dub voice actor (season two and onwards) for Aizawa was there! He was really chill and stated that he booked many cons this summer! I was going to get an auto from him, but someone said that they will also be signing things in another open room later. Noticing that we might run out of time we decided to get an autograph later. We never did. I couldn't find them in any rooms.

The last panel we went to was Doki Doki Dating Panel hosted by SquareOneCosplay

I wasn't actually going to this panel until after their amazing BNHA panel. The Bakugou from before was cosplaying Yuri. I told my friend that I was going to propose using the kinder Joy egg I bought. He laughed at me and said that I won't win. We got in the room and when it was Yuri's turn my hand shot up like a bullet. All shyness went out the window. I got chosen and took the third seat. After a few questions I was chosen as the successful blind 'date'. I pulled out my egg and apologized for not having a ring pop. I then proposed to them with a Kinder Joy "because they are the Joy of my life." I sat down after they took the egg and all of the DDLC members took a turn, they went another round. Realising I might loose them to a Toga that won the second round I stood up from the audience and said, " My love do not forsake me. For I have another Kinder egg!" I then handed them my second Kinder Joy. After the panel they went outside to take photos with everyone. I got a group photo!

I then got a photo with Yuri and they got an egg out of their bag to take a photo with me.

Now that all of the panels were done, we couldn't find the voice actor, and with nothing else to do, we did the unspeakable. We went to one of the other buildings. We were going to go to the PO Center, but my friend told me that the artists are actually at an abandoned Hobby Lobby. We went to the Hobby Lobby instead. We both came here with one thing we wanted to buy, and with little to no money left it seemed impossible. My friend found a weapon and got really happy. I wanted either a Bakugou cardboard cutout or action figure. After finding a 45 dollar action figure we wanted to take a look around to see if we could find a cheaper one (I was 5 short). We found someone selling cardboard cutouts, but no Bakugou. While looking around we realized that the things that we bought were actually a lot cheaper here. I found a Bakugou action figure for only 40 dollars. And we went home happy and broke.

This is the account I saw the Bakugou on that I mentioned before.

@ghostboijasper on TicToc

Many other things happened like an Inko being surrounded by BNHA children and things that I heard while fixing my makeup in the bathroom. These are the main things.

[thestagthatlovedthewolf]

This last weekend (+Thurday and Friday) was Comic Con Portugal, and I have things to share!!! This was the first time in Lisbon (better said, Oeiras, as they kept repeating because the “mayor” wanted some points), which to me worked much better because I do not have to spend money in hotels or long distance trains... The space was huge and outside, so it was very good they changed it to September :) But in terms of the organization, they really need to decide better who they put interviewing people, there was one guy that was just really bad, and I know Joe Reitman can’t do them all (but his with Dolph Lundgren was so great - he was just so happy and excited), but can’t you bring in Mário Augusto to do some of them (not just the Disney panels).

First of all to the Americans, there will be this short movie making some festivals in the US, called Sleepwalk by Filipe Melo, and I want to tell you if you have the chance, check it out!! It’s a beautiful story inspired by a comic I read either last week of 2017 or first one of 2018, I had gotten it for my Dad as a Christmas present; I’m not sure if the comic has been translated, but the movie is fully in English and the story is very related to America.

Continuing on what I got to watch, I watch The Passage!!! Probably my favorite thing of the all Comic Con, I’ve been hearing about it since the episode “Red Queen” of The 100, and then all the press Henry Ian Cusick has been doing for it - I was very curious and I was blown away... The show did not look like something I would like, I just wanted to look at Ian (and I must say seeing him in a big screen is pretty awesome), and his performance was great, but then the story is really interesting and they leave open so many questions in the pilot, that I’m intrigued. But the best thing was the girl’s performance, Saniyya Sidney was adorable and so funny in all the interviews I had seen, but she was great in the show - she was fun and sweet, she could also really hold herself in moments of emotional pain... Really looking forward to January and the rest of season 1 (and still hoping that this show does not mean the dead of Marcus Kane, because it’s not good enough to forgive that).

Also watched the pilot of Outpost and Siren, which I know has been out in the US, they were okay, but did not intrigued me to continue watching. Also watched the movie The House with a Clock in Its Walls and it was not great - the story was not that good... and the acting from the kid was not excellent, and Jack Black was not a funny character... so I would only advise if you’re in love with Cate Blanchett - she was very good!!

This part is over and I want to talk a bit about the panels. Dan Folger (Jacob from Fantastic Beast) is one of the funniest people ever, he just couldn’t stand still and he would get up and yell at nothing, and tell jokes - he has a podcast and he’s going to put both panels he did in there, so check it out :) It probably won’t be as funny as with the visual, but still pretty good.

Then my favorite Dichen Lachman (Anya from The 100 and in the picture above), she was so sweet and nice, and I was really close to the front, so I could really see her!! And I really love the way she talks about Anya, it seems to be a character she really enjoyed playing, and she really wished that there could have been more, she feels that it’s a character with a lot of unfinished business and she would like a “Grounders” prequel. She also talked a lot about Reileen from Altered Carbon, so I’m starting the show now!!

Nicholas Hoult (the Beast from X-Men), he was so sweet!! He hugged a girl and she hadn’t asked, she was just wearing one of those free hugs signs and he just offered and it was the best thing - the girl was just so shocked!! And he talked about Skins a lot, because that show was huge here!! And I think he said one of his favorite scenes to film was when they stole Chris’ body and drove across the town - they did not close the streets, so they saw funny reactions to driving with a coffin through the streets

Then Dolph Lundgren (Ivan Drago from Rocky IV), he was just so awesome!! His stories about Rocky were just so excellent!! And him sharing stories about his own life was just so good - did you know he has a degree in chemical engineering? I’m super excited for Creed 2!!

Finally, Elyes Gabel (Rakharo from Game of Thrones), but sadly there was only one Game of Thrones related question, everything else was Scorpion talk, which I know nothing about...

These were the actor panels, which I feel that are the ones that people would want to talk about. If you have any questions about one of them or want more details, send me an ask!!

I also cosplayed this year, only in the weekend (the other two days just used fandom shirts - The 100 and Star Wars), I went with Drusilla Blackthorn from The Shadowhunter Chronicles, specifically from The Dark Artifices - she’s my favorite character of that particular series, and overall in the entire Shadowhunter world, she’s the one I most identify with, the way she talks about her body rings so true and it’s not something I normally see in media, especially fantasy. And then on Sunday, Clarisse La Rue from Percy Jackson and she’s my favorite - I LOVE HER!!! And these two girls, dressed in Hogwarts uniforms, actually asked to take a photo with me!!!

And to end this very long post, here are some of the things I bought!!! First the tote bags (Indiana Jones and Star Wars) were free, being given out by the channel “Hollywood” during their awesome concert of movie music (also a Mission Impossible tote bag, but I gave that one to my dad)

Saga (Volume 8) by Brian K Vaughan and Fiona Staples, it finally came out here!!! I’m so excited to read it!!!

I actually got some fanart this year, this “Leia and Han” one is so beautiful and I regretted not buying it last year :) And it’s by an artist going by Little Black Spot - they have a website, www.littleblackspot.com!!!

Then these two beautiful stickers - Leia and Poison Ivy - by Inês Barros (inesbarrosillustration in instagram). If you follow me, you’re probably a asoiaf fan, and if you like Sansa Stark and/or Daenerys Targaryen, check her out, because she has these beautiful prints of them!! (I really wished she had some of Arya - I found no prints of Arya at Comic Con...)

Two Daredevil comics and they were 6 euros each!!! 6 euros, guys!!! 12 total!!! That’s was so cheap.... they are in Brazilian, which I do not love, because it’s confusing at time, but I’ll take it for the price. Also they have Elektra and Medusa!!!

Three mugs - they are not all for me... I saw the Battlestar Galactica and I had to get it for my brother (BSG has so little merch...), and then they had a deal of three for 20 euros (one is 8 euros) and I was taken... The Winterfell one is obviously for me - it’s so beautiful!!!, and the Batman and Superman one is for my dad

Then I wanted some Lost merch, because I’ve just been deep into the show lately. There wasn’t much, actually two POPs - cheaper than usual - Kate and Jacob, but I only get POPs for characters I really love, and while I have a few favorites in Lost, the only one I would consider buying is if they ever make a Penny one, because I LOVE her so much!!! But I got this Dharma pin with all the stations!! It was between this one and a Dharma beer pin...

And then a Martell pin, because I lost the one I got last year... and my Stark one was feeling alone. I need everyone to know where my allegiances lie :)

Also got a lot of Japanese food for my brother, but by now he has eaten everything!! (And one of the drinks, he didn't even remember to let me take a sip...)

This post is actually done now, to conclude this it was an AMAZING for days, and my favorite was definitely Friday!!! Not too many people, or too little, Saga came out, I watched The Passage and I had the panels with Dan Folger, Nicholas Hoult and Dichen Lachman!!!