#so it will be up tomorrow prolly bc right now i am too tired

[nerves-nebula]

Hiii just wanted to say ur designs for the turtles are genuinely my favorite out of any tmnt thing ever. It always bothered me how they basically all looked the same with rotmnt being the exception but the neglected au ones are the fucking best ones imo.

Leo's all sharp and triangular making him look agile and skilled, Raphs spiky mouth and eyebrows make him look older and more tired, Donnie's glasses and snout make him look so fragile and sad, and Mikey's cute little pacman mouth and black eyes make him look both innocent and unsettling.

Also also the way you said you draw your comics without worrying too much about every single perfectionist detail inspires me bc they're so expressive, pretty and fun to read!!

HAAUGHHGHG <<33 HIIIII hiii anon hii hellooo anon!!! i am (platonically) kissing u on the mouth. you've got it allll down baby, i love love LOVE when my designs convey the characters properly and people pick up on it ! that makes me SOO happy aughaugh.

Mikey being both innocent and unsettling is especially fun to me since he's like, my darling little ball of RAGE haha.

I've read and drawn a lot of comics over the years and i've gotten to a point where I really just gotta do what I gotta do, cause I dont have the energy to be particular about things when I have HOMEWORK DUE TOMORROW!!

anyway, right now, I'm personally am very inspired by @/pinetreevillain's comics and the way he does his colors. you've prolly seen some of his stuff around cause it's GORGEOUS but yea FUCK !!

analysis of my art,,, ough,,, ppl out here THINKING about what I POST. im going to go insane do y'all want anything?

[messedupessy]

HERE THEY ARE AT LAST, MY UNDERLUST BROS AKA VELVET AND BIN YEEHAAW (͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) ❤

Ahhh I finally finished them holy shit kefjkjffwfjk this took a bit longer than I expected but also at the same time went really, really fast xD So yeah, once again I have ended up making my own take on an au so hard that it like barely even resembles the original, because that’s the way I roll! 

And ya all got @insanelyadd to frikking blame because they are the cause for me suddenly getting ideas for this, like I been kind of wanting to try doing my own take on it for awhile because I got no self control but still, Goaty has been nothing but an enabling little sheit ever since this began last week so go send them some love ok UwU ❤

Anyway to the bros a quick little rundown on their personalities, and then a short summary on my take on the au, will post a longer summary with way more details later but going to put it up on ao3 so ya all can more easily read it etc, and will put it in a reblog of this post later when I do.

I also want to mention that similarly like I did with MessedUpTale, so have I tried to keep like allot of original UT personalities etc in my takes on these boys and the rest of the characters in UL, while still making them their own people, but yeah here goes gonna put both the summary and the personalities under a cut bc this post is way too long already

Also suggest ya all open the two ref pics in a different tab so to be able to read what things says properly etc, and also don’t tag this as ship bc this aien’t no shipping here even tho I know this be UL but I don’t ship it so don’t tag it as such thank u UwU ❤

And warning for very suggestive content etc below, and there might also be some triggering stuff maybe so watch urself ye

Ok so here are them personalities ye:

UL Pap aka Velvet:

He is very vain, pretty attention whorish he really, really wants attention and to be popular, which he is since he has gotten pretty famous for making naughty vids on the net with the energy of a youtube let’s player, but yet he is pretty insecure if people like him for him or just like him appearance wise and what he do in them vids, he loves what he do but he still got them insecurities. 

Don’t like the fact that his pupils are different sizes, and he is very keen to please like he is a very big people pleaser while still been confident he is a bit split, as he is confident but yet such a people pleaser who worries if he acts properly like himself he won’t be liked etc.

He is a switch but with a more dom side, but since he is so eager to please so does he not mind at all to take a more subbier role when doing the do. 

UL Snas aka Bin:

A total gremlin, but in the good way, really chill and relaxed, a total prankster and jokester who pretty much never take or do anything seriously, will constantly try to con people for fun for like kisses/hugs and naughtier stuff just to see how far they will let him go with it. He is not depressed and is actually pretty happy overall, only thing in his life he got a little bit problem with is the fact literally no one, except his bro, takes him seriously, which is kind of his own fault but what can he do. 

Is a total pillow princess who prefers to do absolutely nothing, so during boning as long as he don’t really have to do anything he’s game.

Now for the short au summary:

Hundreds of years ago there was a country of wizards, who came up with this great idea of making literal living sex dolls which were called monsters because why the fuck not.

Then shit happened because the people in the country the birth rate began to go down af because everyone just wanted to bang monsters instead of fellow humans, and some humans wanted to give them all proper rights etc since technically monsters were alive etc, tension grew until it just frikking exploded as one wizard did the impossible and made two monsters been able to reproduce which wasn’t supposed to be able to even happen.

So civil war broke out, the resistance for pro monsters were allot smaller and losing af so they sent the still living monsters to a far off island where they locked them up to keep them safe using a magic machine which hides them from humanity. This was not meant to be temporary but since the whole country then went and got razed to the ground af by another country and got completely destroyed so are the monsters now stuck on the island.

3000 years then passes with the monsters making a life on the island where they be evolving and becoming more sentient and actual people and not just dolls, but something strange happens one day where two humans ends up shipwrecked on the island, something that should be impossible etc.

And that’s the quick and short af sunmary of it, keep an eye out for the longer one ye

[coolpolarbear123]

Band Camp Day 2

it's 1:38am on the 17th, I just got back from the bar, and it's time to type

August 16th (I'm turning 21 today!)

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Stayed up until 2 am last night:

The good thing about Monday is that we don't start at 8:30am yet. The dorm people move in today, so us off-campus people get to vibe.

Or in my case, get my birthday starbucks

among other birthday beverages

aka there's another coffee shop that also does free birthday drinks

librarians had to be in at 10am doing music, so that's when my day personally started (band camp wise, anyway)

I should mention that this is the official first day of band camp

music went fine. We checked every folder individually for mistakes and stuff. There was a little upset with who didn't go on my birthday coffee run and who did, which I understand, but it's such a small thing in the grand scheme of things

I do feel bad, though

check in started at 12:30 and went until 1:30, so we managed to get there around 1:15. However, the drumline instructor decided that that was the time to tell us he needed the entire score, which is the Worst time to tell us

and it's my band director's fault, to put it simply. Not even his

but we had to check in, so that became an issue for later

we checked in, which was simple and easy, and I got to see the piccs I haven't seen in forever, they managed to find our one freshman, which was super cool bc that was my first official time meeting her

I also got to see all of my other-section friends, which was awesome

then the Meeting began

before the meeting, all of band council and staff had to wait outside the room so we could run in like we're special or somethin

we are. Our shirts didn't come in on time, but we have bright yellow bandanas to wear all week so that people know who to ask for help

the whole "wearing it all week" thing was revealed to us WHILE our band director was saying it to the entire band

oh, and to set the scene, we're all standing behind him, facing the band

it's just all the normal introductory stuff. That was the most I've ever faked being happy bc I have to

he introduced us. Mispronounced my name. I thought it was really funny and so did the entire band, so at least we're all in on it

he explained how we get free meals until Wednesday, but then he talked about how the meal cards charge by meal? So then he was like "don't go to the dining hall for a minor meal, just eat in your dorm" which like

cool, now there's gonna be a starving freshman who was guilt tripped into eating a poptart in their dorm

like wtf. Charge the school as much as you want, kids, you're paying to be here.

halfway through, the drumline section leader left, and that's when ML2 realized we needed copies of that score now so it was really awkward watching her dart across the stage and do all that and get keys and stuff

she goes on a bit of a power trip so she prolly had a blast being center of attention in an indirect way

Once the meeting was over, we started auditions. I don't have to do that bc I'm a drill instructor, so theoretically I should have been doing librarian stuff, right?

right?

no, wrong, ML2 was doing it, even though she needed to audition. And now, we learned that the entire drumline doesn't have music at all, so we need to get them music

like that would have been nice to know

she did eventually audition, and speaking of auditions, my section leader from freshman year was the person helping our new section leader out, and it was so fun seeing her again

that's my mom

she goes "you're all so grown up" and then half an hour later "you guys are exactly the same"

ofc that was after we discussed doing some chicken slapping 7-mile spanking style for section bonding on thursday

so, this is sorta when ML2 comes back, done with doing librarian stuff, and just,,, leads us back to the building where we're doing full band rehearsal

this sounds fine, but she did it in a "duh, follow me" kinda way where she didn't slow down and was Fully Leading the section as if we didn't have a section leader who was supposed to be doing that

and no one was ready to move. None of us had all our things together

and we had a lot of time before we had to get there, so why the rush

she wanted to be in charge, that's why

now we're in the building where we're gonna have full band rehearsal, and we have time to kill, so we make our group chats, get to know our one first year, and just have normal convo

now fast forward to that rehearsal, where we're really gonna test how well we did our librarian jobs. All 130 folders we prepared, 20 songs each, handed out.

honestly? not too bad. We needed to make an extra cymbals folder and an extra tenor folder, and that was it.

well, we also had to recopy a clarinet 1 part, which was weird, bc I said that, and then ML2 talked to that clarinet, and she came back and said "she needs clarinet 1"

yeah

i said that

it was a little more complicated than that but that's the gist

oh! and this is also when we learned chair placements. I didn't audition (co-DI rights), and I asked for 2nd, which my section leader said "yeah who else would get it"

so i went from 5th my freshman year, 3rd two years in a row, to second!

[it's 2am, i'm continuing this tomorrow when I get home from day 3]

[hi hello it's 11:38 pm on day 3, let's continue, shall we? I have a lot to type tonight]

so anyway, ML2 and I do librarian things and miss most of that band rehearsal. I got back just in time to play Al, which is practically our second fight song

after that we had dinner, where our band director?? decided to sit with us??? for some godforsaken reason???

we don't like him, he doesn't care for piccs, it was really weird

we didn't?? tone down our personality for him, either, which is,,,, bad

we are a v inappropriate section, and we all love it, but maybe not in front of him

he also goes?? "hey where do I get pasta? should I ask for it [DI]-style? with extra meat"

SIR WHAT THE FUCK

we've been,,, losing our minds about that one

After dinner, we were back down at the field to learn more fundamentals

honestly I don't think anything terribly crazy happened? I've now had to stand in front of the band to demonstrate things?? with the other DI's, which is sorta wild

the band sang happy birthday to me!! which technically I asked for bc I wanted the attention but!!! it was really nice!!!!! and then the seniors got together to plan our first prank

and we did the singing and stuff where we had two years of people not quite know what was going on (thanks, covid)

ML2 is,,, very judgy about me being DI and it's been getting worse as we go on, but more on that tomorrow. We had some Facial Expressions today

we didn't do the after-band activity bc we were tired and planning on going to the bar for ML2's 21st bday

my dm do be texting me about how salty ML2 is tho. It's making me very anxious

sorry this is a day late! I got 4 hours of sleep last night

[internationalcunt]

My birthday is literally tomorrow. I really didnt want to post more depressing things bc ya'll prollythink im annoying. But i do not want to celebrate of my being twenty years here. I been alive that long. Im really done feeling my heart beat and just breathing regularly. Point is im tired of being alive. Its probably not always okay for me to be alone too much but i am going to fix that. Im not gonna say try im going to and its going to scare the fuck out of me and its going to be so hard Im so scared dealin with people. I think about them thinking of me that i am just some dumb gay kid. Or that i am just boring and annoying. My mind is literally thinking about everything all the time and its fucked up that im able to think someone is having an opinion of me beinf dumb. But like that may not be the case. They can just like me or idk i cant even finish that sentence. HOW AM I TOLERABLE. I hate that i have too much to fucking say. Why is it necessary that i am thinking too much of what people are thinking of me? I feel like for some reason i dont know why is just people do not like me. I think i have adapted to actuallly caring what people say about me. (No fuckin shit!) i almost cried really hard at my work because my manager was saying how life is so amazing or somethin like that and just like right fucking now i was basically crying in front of her. Im crying in my car right now bc i remember how that exactly felt because i said in my head how i just wanted my life to end and she said how life is wonderful and just how i cannot kill myself. I feel like my life is not so shitty, but it does suck just because of my insecurities and depression. Im scared for a lot of things. And the fact that certain people are going to see this are prolly going to think its hard to read bc im just dumb and sad! :*