#so it didn't feel like i was being propelled into space lol) but i was abe to get a much better view of them this time around!

[la-cocotte-de-paris]

i saw the moon up close for the first time tonight with my astro binoculars (was finally clear enough here) and my kneejerk reaction was to whisper 'jaaaaaysus' to myself and then run back into the house because i got scared 💀

[biscuits-of-bagend]

DnDoc, Space Band #8 - Rogue the Rockstar

Part 1 Part 7

Previous story: DnDoc, Coming Home

Almost forgot to post this because I was watching like five different tennis matches lol. Go Alfie! Go Carlos!

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The ball. The last person who'd made him perform in some way was the Doctor at the Chuldurs' ball. The whole point had been to attract attention, and Rogue had been a bit preoccupied to worry about it, but there had been a lot of eyes on him as he tried to perform a dance he barely knew. But the audience had utterly melted away. There was only darkness around them as the Doctor followed the dance and Rogue followed the Doctor. How could there have been anything else when they were the only two people in the universe? It was an utterly transcendent experience.

   Surely he could do it again. Yes, he wasn't trying to capture murderous space aliens, so he was a little out of his comfort zone, but the crowd wasn't going to go too hard on him if it was him or nothing. Besides, the greatest band in the universe needed his help. He glanced down at the notebook by George's feet to see what the next song was.

   "Yeah, I know that one," he said.

   "Okay, great," said George. Rogue hadn't realised how nervous George was until he saw the tension now flood out of him.

   "I've got this, I promise," said Rogue.

   A smile grew on George's face, slowly spreading into a grin. "Hell yeah."

   As the song started up, Rogue focused his whole attention on the Doctor. A little on Ruby so as not to be rude, but, for the most part, he held the Doctor's gaze like he was clinging to a rope alongside a wobbly wooden bridge. He imagined that if someone were to cast true sight, or see invisibility or some such, they'd be able to see a sparkling blue and pink bolt of electricity connecting their eyes. It was just like how he'd pictured the sonic connecting their two spaceships.

      Rogue's favourite thing about live music was the feeling of the soundwaves shaking your bones. It was similar, actually, to that feeling of being connected by electricity to the Doctor. Maybe if you could have seen the soundwaves with your eyes, it would look like thousands of forks of lightning flying out from the amplifiers and each fork hooking into one of the audience members. It turned out that when you could actually feel the origins of the sounds just beneath your fingers it was like you were right at the centre of the storm. The crowd screamed, cheered and clapped just as Rogue had done moments ago.

   At one point he caught sight of his rockstar visage on one of the screens set up for people further back in the crowd. His make-up, the battered old t-shirt, his swooping hair, his wristbands. For a moment he felt like he was looking at some sort of broken mirror, like the person looking back at him was someone else entirely. No wonder the crowd were happy - as far as they knew a spare rockstar had appeared. Suddenly their smiles no longer felt like they were going to propel him into space - they weren't even really for him.

   But then he looked to his left at George, who always wore his spacesuit costume on stage. The Earthlings all did. And they had been giving their whole selves to the world since they were kids. Maybe, as long as whatever you did came from the centre of yourself, it didn't matter who people thought they were getting. The Doctor had met a brooding, nineteenth-century nobleman after all, and he still seemed able to see surprisingly far into the depths of Rogue's soul.

   During one of the slow songs, the Doctor held up the sonic screwdriver with the cloud inside it, letting it bask in the swirling energy. Rogue took a moment to look around at the smiles below. Some people cupped their hands around their mouths to sing and cheer, others hugged each other, or danced. There was so much movement, so many bright eyes, so much energy flying out of the speakers - so much life! And here he was, part of it! Whether he recognised himself or not it was him up here doing this.

   Rogue did a high kick with his left leg and whooped into the night air. He remembered lying tired and stiff on the futon, looking forward to running around with the Doctor and Ruby and having adventures. Maybe there hadn't been any octopi this time but, in a small sense, he had saved the day, like a proper member of the team. He watched the Doctor and Ruby absolutely rocking out together as they started playing a faster song again. He smiled, shaking his head, riding the high of the moment like a living C-chord.

   As they played the final song, 'Space Band,' Rogue felt his spirit drifting back down to the ground. It was a soft, slow descent though, nice and easy. Rogue looked down at the Doctor, relaxing into his gaze, letting the song wash over him.

We are the Space Band,

Rocking through the stars,

Lightyears across the universe,

A million miles from Mars

We are the Space Band,

Touring the unknown.

We don't need a star map,

'Cause the music guides us home!

⭐⭐⭐

The band were very happy to let Rogue bring both Ruby and the Doctor through to the after-party, where Neila sat on a couch wrapped up in a blanket with a nice cup of tea. The others played a game of ping-pong to get the energy out of their systems, and had glasses of SECC signature cocktails. They swapped contact details with the band, ones that would function intergalactically, and the band also made Rogue promise to keep playing his music.

   When it was finally time to head back to the TARDIS, the Doctor linked arms with Rogue and Ruby, one on each side, and led them through the streets of the SECC. Ruby headed to bed for the night, leaving Rogue and the Doctor standing in the middle of the parking space, between the TARDIS and Rogue's ship.

   "Ah, um, what do we do now?" said the Doctor.

   Rogue was surprised by his hesitancy, but he supposed in a way this was the end of a date. Who wasn't awkward at the end of a date?

   "Well, I wasn't planning on dressing like a rockstar tomorrow," said Rogue, closing the distance between them. "So if you want to make the most of this…"

   The Doctor pressed up against him and kissed him harder than he had at any point so far. Rogue supposed that meant he wasn't worried about snapping him in two anymore, which was probably a good sign.

   "Come on then, your place," the Doctor mumbled, pushing them both towards Rogue's ship. "You live in a total grungefest, seems fitting."

   Rogue laughed as the Doctor dragged him inside. "The Earthlings aren't exactly grunge."

   "Shut the fuck up," muttered the Doctor, slamming the door.

   Rogue grinned and did as he said. He had a brief stab of remembrance as he brought the Doctor back to the sleeping quarters, where he and his partner had laughed, dozed and kissed the night away. But he pictured his partner watching how his life had unfolded since that day, and knew they'd rather have as much life as possible filling up this ship. He and the Doctor crashed down into his haphazardly made bed, and didn't stop moving until they'd exhausted every last scrap of blue and pink lightning bolt energy that sparked around them.

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Thanks for reading this story! I'm trying to follow a regular season's pattern so I'm off to the past for the next story :) (again let me know if you have any requests for places the Doctor, Rogue and Ruby could go)

Next story: DnDoc, A Man's a Man

@off-traveling-in-the-stars @casavanse @monster-donut @letsargueacrossthestars (let me know at any point if you no longer wish to be tagged in each post)

[delladuck]

tw// discussion of postpartum depression and depression in general… this is a long post of random Della thoughts

Okay, so I've been thinking about that post I just reblogged a lot because I really the concept of Theory 4 (I know it's sad but it feels so real). I just have minor adjustments in my head. For instance, I personally don't see Della caring about the triplets father at all. Like, my guy was definitely not involved. I really see Della as a free spirit, and I can’t really see her ever wanting to be in a committed relationship… Wow, I'm sorry, I make everything about her sad. In my brain/headcanon world, every relationship she has had always crashes and burns because she doesn't like feeling tied down. She’s always running…. Anyway, about the postpartum depression, I feel like she suffered so badly from it— only not in the way where she wanted to hurt them lol. She just didn't feel bonded or connected and became depressed from that. That's why she was avoidant and would seem at times (to her family) like she wasn't being "responsible". Along with the depression, they also served as a reminder that everything is going to change. So what does she do? She runs.

I love the explanations for Donald and Scrooge under Theory 4. Head-on-the-nail for their thought process and feelings. But yeah, she finally thinks of the SOS and for the first time in months, feels something other than the nagging continuous depression. She thinks that if she can go the distance, do something as extraordinary as space travel, that it will prove things can still be the same and even potentially propel her out of her depressed state. She won't have to "settle down" as she’s constantly being reminded. I don't think it was to get away from her responsibility, I think she was completely overwhelmed and conflicted because of the effects of postpartum.

Being on the moon brings her entirely new traumas. Instead of getting help and speaking out when she was on earth, she’s now literally trapped. Her isolation is, obviously, no longer in her head. Queen, I'm so sorry (as if I'm talking to her LOL). Damn, she really was stranded on the moon by herself for a decade! Her untreated depression worsens into something entirely new (PTSD...!).

She obviously loves the triplets. I think that, relatively quickly, her time on the moon, when things went from bad to worse, her idea worked in a way? It certainly was something to knock her out of her “funk” (postpartummm). The kids are her motivation to keep fighting. She would take care of them. She would make it all up. She was committed, but how the duck was she supposed to think that anything could go wrong when Scrooge McDuck built this for her? Encouraged her to go for it? He always kept her safe and so on and on and on. She tried to free herself following his example and lost everything in her search for how things used to be (insert that Frank post about Scrooge betting it all and willing to rebuild from scratch if he looses everything).

It just seems like she was dealing with a lot— especially internally. So much was happening at once. My girl got so mentally ill. Like, being alive is so complicated… Deyla… I feel like she had a lot of highs and lows, but the lows were more often, common, and longer. One day she would feel like, “This is awesome. My kids are going to be the coolest and I can't wait to show them everything,” then the following week is unending flow of, “There’s too much to do and so many ways to screw up. Why is there so much that goes into taking care of them? They can’t really expect me to stay in the mansion for months on end right? I want to take care of them. I can’t take care of them. Donald thinks he knows everything. I'm a failure. They’re just eggs. What am I supposed to do with that? Yep, I feel soooo bonded... I’m a bad mom. Why don’t I feel the way that I should?” But of course, she’s stubborn and doesn’t tell anyone. So Donald labels her as irresponsible, and Scrooge don’t really gaf tbh because he thinks it will all smooth over and be fine as soon as they hatch. Troll goes ahead and builds SOS and the rest is history. I’m not really sure where I meant to go with this. I drew fanart the other night thinking about this, rediscovered that post I reblogged, and now here I am typing the thought process of a duck that I headcanon to have had postpartum depression. This is all just random and just what I think. I'm sure there are other posts like this but I just spent all this time typing this out so I figure, why not post? Goodnight.

[just-orbiting-you]

I’m so so glad you’re being honest and transparent about AYS and jikook’s dynamics change. I felt really weird after I finished watching the show and when i came to X and tumblr most jikookers were focusing on the skinship moments but no body is talking about how off everything felt between them. I think you summed it up pretty nicely so I won’t repeat what was said but watching how jk acted when jm was sick made my heart sink. I felt so so bad for jm i was praying that there’s someone from staff at least taking care of him. There was zero worry or compassion from jk which shocked me a lot. I think this is where I realized that they’re definitely not together and I’m ok with that. Kinda relieved tbh, i feel like i finally have a clear answer. Now regarding tae being in the next episode, i saw the clip and JK was being his usual passive aggressive self lol, that’s just how he is with tae and now with jimin too apparently. I have to admit, now that I’m seeing jkk in a whole different light I’m not worried about how different jk is gonna treat vmin, none of them is in a relationship so I don’t care if he’s nicer to v. I just hope jimin had a great time and enjoyed himself (tae and jk too) i hope they all had a good time. I only wish jimin wouldn’t receive hate after the episode no matter how it turns out.

hey anon, im responding but with intention that im hoping you’ll see the response :). i don’t really want other anons in my inbox criticizing your words. from someone who thought like you, i hope we can enjoy the show and engage with it critically instead of just writing it off as a "be careful what you wish for."

while i think this point could get us backed into a corner a little bit, i've had a few anons, including this one write about how they could be omitting the truth for the sake of the show, to fit a narrative. if we turn to speculation instead of looking at what they show us head on, it can be hard to fully believe. what we do know is they had to see each other to plan the show, they saw each other at yoongi's concert, at hobi's enlistment (and maybe drinking that night before who knows). i think face era was a hindrance to their friendship, but as the year went on things got better. i think about that tiny clip from jimin's production diary livestream and jimin was so excited to see jungkook, jungkook was all smiles like nothing changed.

i think, even the people we love most, we don't see often or even don't try to make an effort to see based in individual circumstances. and we don't know their circumstances outside of bts and solo schedules. with bts going on group hiatus, things were already going to change. relationships change naturally and i think giving jikook that grace is okay. i don't think their relationship has turned into one of vitriol or negativity. they still very much care about each other and i think if this was how the year started off, the distance from each other probably propelled them into deciding to enlist (distance makes the heart grow fonder and such). also i think you can see them start to fall into their ways as the trip carries on. i felt a dramatic shift in tone after their boat ride and once jungkook cooks for them, it feels like we are at the jikook we know. so i hope this show was able to help them reconnect.

I felt so so bad for jm i was praying that there’s someone from staff at least taking care of him. There was zero worry or compassion from jk which shocked me a lot.

this anon and a few other posts in the jikook tag were talking about this and i think i have changed my opinion on this. jungkook has known jimin for years, he probably knows when jimin needs in stressful situations and that might just be a little space and some jokes to get him laughing. jungkook didn't bother him when he rested, he let him be. i think jungkook did what a friend would do in this instance, and try to go about their day making the most of it while conscious of jimin's state. possibly the camera involved maybe could have escalated the level of jokes around jimin's misfortune. but from what was on camera, jimin started feeling better after the boat and they ended the trip on a good note.

i don't even want to speak on the tae stuff, because that will open a big can of worms. i appreciate you coming forward as well to talk about it as well. definitely rewatch the show too i think a second watch could change how you're viewing it.

[otakween]

0-Man - Volume 3

I can't really tell what's going on on this cover. Is Ricky shirtless and if so, does that mean he has a stripe on his back? (I guess that could just be his shirt). Also...he still has his tail? Did they do that to avoid spoiling things?

Ch. 26

Okay wtf I don't remember Ricky's spear being THAT OP. It's like absurdly OP all of the sudden. Stops dozens of bullets instantly, melts metal, propels the gang out of any dangerous situation. That really messes with the stakes.

I was very confused by the space of this chapter. The characters kinda seemed to teleport from scene to scene without a smooth transition/explanation.

The creative use of speech bubbles was on point again. At one point the bad dude (Lamp? Ranpu?) starts shooting his gun out of rage and instead of words his speech bubble just has bullet holes.

I spotted the little Tezuka cameo. Super cute. He's like Where's Waldo lol

Ch. 27

Dang, it feels like we're entering a new arc rn. Lamp died (presumably). The humans blasted off into space (except for professor Royal) and the 0 men stayed behind on Earth. The humans are trying to find a livable planet and the remnants are planning on fighting the 0 men, turning off the ice machine, and saving the Earth. There are only 18 chapters left and honestly that plot line could take up all of that. Let's see where this goes...

Why'd I feel kinda bad for Lamp when he was dying? It doesn't matter how evil a character is, if they get all desperate and plead for their lives I still kinda feel a lil bit of pity every time.

Ch. 28

So Ricky does end up getting a prosthetic tail (as I accidentally predicted in a previous post). Kinda just feels as if he didn't lose his tail at all now, but it looks cute, so I'm okay with it.

I have no idea what to call Ricky's female 0 man friend. Her name in katakana is リーズ (obviously a play on the Japanese word for squirrel) which my brain is interpreting as "Liz" but it could also be "Lise" I guess? Either way, she's really cute :)

I had no idea what was going on for half this chapter. I understand that Professor Royal is trying (and failing) to negotiate with the 0 men but why is there suddenly an "Earth army?" (Complete with a Native American soldier named Geronimo). I totally thought everyone evacuated but the 0 men and Professor Royal, but I guess not.

Ch. 29

Not much to say about this one. Liz's plan to use a clone of her dad to end the war flops but the main gang's plan to use Liz as a hostage to get negotiations going seemingly works.

Ch. 30

Another action packed chapter! I've been reading the 1960s Iron Man comics and I guess the vibe of that era was just to make every chapter/issue contain an entire movie plot basically. Every chapter has a huge conflict/fight that gets resolved by the end. Each one feels more like a self contained experience than a small part of a whole, slow burn story. This isn't necessarily a bad thing, but it's a lot more tiring for me to read. Cyborg 009 was like this too.

Another thing about this manga being older is that the hero often uses violence as the answer lol. In this chapter Ricky solves his problems by threatening to shoot the bad guy in the butt. I guess since it's just a threat it's okay for kids?

Ch. 31

So the story gets split between characters once more. Plot A is Ricky being thrown into a pit for attacking the grand priest and being rescued by another pit prisoner Mormo (Molmo?) Mormo looks a little more feral than the other 0 men, probably due to living in a pit for awhile lol.

Plot B is the humans being attack by the 0 men in their rocket and crash landing to escape being killed by a device that causes humans to bump heads to death (one of the weirdest weapons to come out of this manga lol). Professor Royal is about to accept his death when he realizes the effects of the ice age seem to be going in reverse as the ice is melting rapidly. The fate of the humans other than professor Royal is left vague, so they're probably fine.

I kinda thought Mormo was Ricky's dad at first. He has darker fur than him but I thought maybe he was disguised or something. Cool to see another 0 man on the good guys' side.

Ch. 32

Meanwhile, while Ricky's in the pit. His dad saves Liz from being executed by the Grand Priest's men. Liz looked pretty badass when she thought she was going to die. She faced it with dignity.

Now that the ice machine has stopped will the humans in space turn around and come back? How will they know that it stopped? (Maybe you can just tell by looking at the planet lol Edit: yes, that's exactly what happens).

Ch. 33

I feel like 50 different things happened in this chapter including the introduction of more random 0 men characters who may or may not be important later. More importantly tho, Ricky reunites with his dad and Liz. (Only for her to run away like two seconds later. These characters just can't stay together!)

So apparently the Earth's temperature is just going back to normal naturally? How the heck does that work? Is the sun just more powerful than the 0 man ice machine? Also, is no one concerned that the temperature will go too far in the opposite direction (too hot)?

Suddenly there's an uprising in the 0 man country. Maybe the manga will end with Ricky becoming the new ruler lol

Ch. 34

Annnd yet again, Ricky is separated from the group. Every time! I'm getting sick of reunions at this point lol.

This chapter ended with Ricky on Mars which means that 0 men apparently have the ability to survive in outer space. What are they water bears!?

What ever happened to Ricky's spear? Is that just gone for good now?

Ch. 35

The humans land in Venus and find the "missing link" between squirrels and 0 men. In other words, squirrel people that are way more anthro lol. Apparently 0 men were originally from Venus and when they came to Earth they evolved to be more like humans. I guess this explains why Ricky can breath on Mars?

I'm glad they came to the conclusion that they probably shouldn't be colonists and take over Venus. Pretty progressive of them honestly.

;-; seriously? Ending the volume with Ricky dying of thirst on Mars? Brutal. Okay, he doesn't actually die, but he's struggling.

[catboytwelve]

Ok, rambling about S14 let's gooooo

At the end of the day i really had fun with this season of Doctor Who and think that they got the most important thing (the doctor) right and that's what matters But.

Overall, I think the season is kinda undercooked, specifically in regards to what I hold as my primary focus for the show, which is the Doctor-Companion dynamic

15 is a delight, but his dynamic with Ruby is way too straightforward and without conflict; if you think back to ten and donna, yeah they would bicker like friends but she would also push back against him if he was doing something she thought was wrong, what propells them to an iconic Doctor-Companion duo is not their lovely friendship but them challenging each other to be better. The Donna and the Tenth Doctor that we see at the beginning of S4 are not the same Donna and Doctor that we see at the end of S4 and that. Just doesn't happen to Ruby and Fifteen. And you could argue that not every dynamic has to be like that, if not for the fact that they said it was like that.

They outright say that the Doctor was changed bc of Ruby in... how he talks about family? Which happened when? He literally witnessed a family coming together and be happy and he locks himself in the tardis and doesn't even say hi to Ruby's biological mother,,,, How is that him being changed? Was he lying?

Even Ruby herself I think is just kinda there sadly, Millie Gibson is a pleasure on screen and she clearly gave her 200% in her performance plus her chemistry with Gatwa is really good but who is Ruby beyond her mysterious normal mother? A really caring and lovely girl and that's it? No flaws no dreams or objectives in life outside her mother's identity? I feel like the best we got was when she played the piano in the devil's chord but outside of that I don't see much more (which is so strange bc we have a whole episode with her alone and... we don't get to know her more?)

Also, I love the hugs (and 15's tears!!!), it's refreshing to see the Doctor being so open towards acts of affection again but while that's lovely to see, there's not much more to it than a really healthy friendship.

I realise this could very well be a Me problem, given I am a conflict enjoyer, but I keep thinking that if 15ruby went through moments where they doubted each other or fought over doing or not doing something, their acts of affection would make me care for them so much more, which is a shame. :c

As for the episodes alone, it really does feel like RTD1 again lol

The opening ep is kinda meh but not horrible, the finale is uninspired but with nice scenes here and there, the highlight of the season are the eps not written by him (which this time around are way too few...) and the others are ok but nothing incredible. This is a huge improvement over flux, which is my least favourite chibnall season, but it's not a stellar season of dw, which is fine (again, I still had fun with it) and maybe my opinion on it will change with time!!!

if I had to rank the eps I'd go:

Boom

Rogue

73 yards

The devil's chord

Dot and Bubble

Empire of the dead

Space babies

The legend of Ruby Sunday

On a closing note this season also proved that we really, really need someone new to run the show. I know finding someone to take on a show this huge is really difficult (even chibnall had to be persuaded to take the job, and he had written tons of eps and even run torchwood for a while....) but I do feel like it's that or the show will stagnate, and that's the worst case scenario for dw.

Sorry if I was a little bit too negative here sjcjsjxj I may be influenced by the finale, which I didn't like lmao, but this Is what I wanted to get out of my system. Just to say something positive, my thoughts on gatwa and 15 haven't changed in the slightest I LOVE HIM AND I THINK HE'S FANTASTIC <33333

[twig-tea]

Honestlyyyyyy. I think @lurkingshan made such a good point about that fight. It was so close to being about the right thing--I keep comparing this scene to the "you didn't believe in my forever" moment in We Best Love 2 in my mind and whew the emotional impact is such a chasm apart--and Shin was right to be mad that Minato didn't try to build a new relationship with him, and @bengiyo is right that the health scare could have moved the plot forward without being so unrealistic as to be dangerously misinformative about how head injuries work.

But the part that really bothers me is that in this version of events, Minato gets the magical reassurance that every version of Shin, even ones where Shin doesn't remember him, he loves Minato. And it's that that propels Minato to apologize and buy back into their relationship (literally, with the matching crockery). He requires magical realism to believe in Shin's forever. And this is a disappointment for a show that has been building towards this character's belief in the feelings his partner has for him over two seasons. It undermines the entire character arc, just like we've been discussing for the last few episodes. And it honestly just makes the relationship feel more fragile instead of more stable, because they didn't get there on their own. They were so close, with Minato agreeing to allow Shin to live with him permanently, it seemed like Minato was in fact starting to believe they would last.

I actually also dislike that they didn't give Minato a chance to have a mini panic attack after his first time having sex with Shin, because sex doesn't fix intimacy issues folks! Post-sex can be sooooo awkward. Just because you've had sex once doesn't mean you suddenly aren't nervous about having it again?! Yeah we saw him turn around but I'm talking full on regression, not being able to say I love you and kiss in the street (as much as I really enjoyed that moment).

Theoretical plot I would have preferred for the last quarter of the sequel:

They build to a first time, and then afterwards Minato has a panic about it and avoids Shin. Maybe he misunderstands Shin (maybe Shin is being distracted by his memories or trying to give Minato space or just gets busy at school or sth) as Shin having got what he wanted, or Minato not being good enough in bed, or Shin thinking the first time wasn't perfect

Shin expresses his frustration because he thought they were done with this now (let him embody the audience lol) and gets upset that Minato still doesn't trust in his feelings

Minato sits with the possibility of being alone, realizes Shin is worth fighting to keep in his life, gives Shin the letter

Shin advocates exposure therapy (read: alot more sex) but ultimately agrees to remain patient in the face of Minato's clear and demonstrated effort to be better about communication. Maybe they have sex again pls thank u.

THEN Minato agrees to live together.

This is just one of many plots I would have liked better (also really would have preferred Shan or Ben's suggestions above!).

Anyway if anyone does write fanfic for this show tag me lol

The fight between Minato and Shin was the best scene in the finale, but thanks to the amnesia plot, they were fighting about the wrong thing. The more I think about it, the more frustrated I get.

If I could get a do over on these last four weeks, I would:

Have Minato be less perfect on Shin’s bday (that felt unearned and sudden and now we know why) and do more of a two steps forward one stop back thing like usual

Have Shin grow increasingly frustrated with Minato’s inability to be all the way in on this relationship and use his words, a more natural conflict to grow from the previous nine weeks

Put that fight scene in the penultimate episode and have it be about their real conflict instead of about Shin’s memory loss

Have Shin discover the letter and run to Minato in the finale, and have Minato finally say he loves him out loud and have sex as a culmination of them finally getting on the same page

That would have been so much more satisfying than what we got. I’m gonna stay mad about it!

[jynzandtonic]

OMG YOU DO REMEMBER ME

You're so sweet and it's making me all warm and fuzzy on a monday - which is much appreciated <3

I'm doing REALLY well actually. The only thing that I'm having the most difficulty with is math bc it's just another level of advanced I don't really understand a lot of, but everyone I talk to says they don't understand anything either, so that's reassuring lol

But I gotta say, even tho some of the stuff is really hard and I have to work a lot to understand, it doesn't *feel* like a lot. I'm just so invested in technology and how things work, that learning about it - and at some point understand something - gives me a lot of joy and feels so rewarding. In hs, I felt so drained bc a lot of the curriculum didn't interest me or felt useful. But now, even when the workload is heavy, I'm just so excited by the material I learn that I don't even feel overworked. It's like studying engineering is quenching my curiosity of the world, and it feels amazing.

Point being, I truly believe that there is something for everyone that is so rewarding to them that it barely feels like a task - do what you love, and if you don't love anything - find something, explore!

This has been my TED talk on self-discovery thank you

ANYWAYS

YES A DOPPELGANGER IT'S WILD. I'm at this faculty nearly everyday and I'm always looking for him while I'm walking around, waiting for the next time I'll see him. Maybe I can *accidently* run into him with all of my books and blank sheets of paper, then drop it on the floor like they do in romcoms. Nice way to break the ice

honestly it would be so weird bc we study in this huge hall and there's a lot of space to *not* run into people, but you know, destiny has it's ways ;)

- engineering anon (love this <3)

Okay, I am SO sorry for the mega-late response, but holy fucking shit I am just OVERJOYED for you. It's so amazing how passion and curiosity can come together to propel you through challenging work; I am so, so fucking happy you have that type of intellectual and creative stimulation in your life. YOU'RE GONNA DO SO GREAT SWEETIE I'M SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!

Also, yeah. Math can get real scary real fast. I remember fumbling through multivariate calc thinking okay yeah I can kinda handle this, then making it to linear algebra and being like wAIT WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON MAKE IT STOP *wheeze* That said, have no doubt that you're busting your ass and doing an awesome job of rising to the challenge!

I, uh, think you probably just need a good study buddy. Specifically an Adam-look-alike study buddy. I cannot tell you how hard I am rooting for your personal university AU. HUNT HIM DOWN, BABE!!!

[thespectralfool]

Thoughts while in bed//

As of late, I'd been telling myself I wanted to do more things by myself and get out of my comfort zone. Yesterday I went to this premiere for one of my favorite shows on Netflix and they showcased a a few sneak peeks at new episode for the third season. I didnt tell a soul because I didnt want anyone to be like WOW THATS DOPE, CAN I COME?! I went and it was kind of awkward and I loved it. The showing was phenomenal as I knew it would be. The last episode was absolutely phenomenal and it shook me so hardcore because as I watched it it made me think "This is what this show is about! This particular artist feels like the leader of this series, when I think of this show I think of his style" 

I left the theater wanting to be on his team somehow and I thought about it on the ride home and i was so happy. I saw this event that was a social networking event in brooklyn and it was free so yesterday I told myself I'd go to it today, I didnt and i felt kind of bad about it. I slept and I woke up like "You're nobody special bro" and for some reason this thought didn't spiral me, it did however make me think.

I'm sort of in this space of taking in so much and putting out so much that I'm like where am I aiming? What am I doing? Why am I trying so hard to prove what/who i am? So im not a great photographer who can make money if i dont go to social networking events? I'm not a great photographer if I don't have a billboard or a billion people looking at my stuff? All of this marketing and "hey look at me" is so try hard sometimes. The thought I led with is "Who says this is the way?" Nobody is making me do this and I think it's the thought of me being older looking back saying  "I used to make art but it never went anywhere that I'm not willing to even accept as a possibility." I suppose my situation currently puts a strain on my vision because of the dirt im picking up, yet I also think there will always be dirt. SO at the end of the day its a game of trust and being yourself that propels you forward, not the constant self masturbatory reminder of the gifts you possess but actually being the gift. The gift isn't outside of ourselves. In a way , there is no camera, there is no pencil or paintbrush when i get to be those things and more so I AM those things.

Lol Here I go doing this Libra shit. I get to typing and everything makes sense all of sudden. 

[athanatosora]

Lol I didn't think the heel topic would expand. Glad to know I'm not the only one who thinks it's a bit ridiculous. I was honestly preparing myself in case I had opened a can of worms! But yeah, I just remember seeing Ochako's outfit and being like oh, that's kinda cute. then I see the back of her "space boots" and was like. "Aw man, more heels." Though at least they aren't needles on platforms.

i do sort of want to defend her shoes, since there’s a whole diagram on how they work........ 

but i do have to agree, i just. i don’t, see the necessity of the heel?? i feel like the spring would actually be more of a detriment than anything; she could end up landing weird and accidentally bouncing off when the spring recoils. also it’s not really situated at the heel, it’s behind the heel, which as a whole just seems like it’d add a new awkwardness to walking and maneuverability. run too low to the ground/make a misstep and there’s the risk of scraping the heel against the ground - which coincidentally also runs the risk of propelling you in the opposite direction b/c, spring, and redistribution of force

i don’t see why the shock absorption cushion couldn’t just encompass the entire flat of her foot. like moon shoes. or, shit, like official astronaut boots

i do think it may be a bid for balancing her zero-grav ability and earth gravity physics though. if she’s trying to leap up to higher areas, the spring could help give her an extra push to accompany her quirk’s usage? Actual Official astronaut boots are clunky and weighted (not that.... her’s..... aren’t clunky....) and not designed for earth travel, so design may be in lieu of that

in general i’m a lot more forgiving on this because horikoshi at least tries to give explanation for why, and the explanation can be argued for. while it’s also likely b/c “heels are pretty,” it’s not the worst i’ve seen

(..... plus, i actually do like her boots. a little. every practical fiber of my being Hates This Fact but i do, i like her aesthetic.......... bias)