#so if you wanna talk about autistic shit feel free to send asks or whatever

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got the fucking anxiety… gonna work on autistic gifs or something today to calm myself down

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! INCOMING TRANSMISSION FROM THE GROX EMPIRE !

Hello, Welcome to my blog! My name is Calypso, But I also go by Espoir, Grox, Or whatever nickname you'd like to call me! This is a place where I post whatever the hell I want. Lore tidbits, Art, Shower thoughts, You name it!

I go by They/Xe pronouns, Sometimes It/Its if I feel like it. People I know well can use She/Her for me!

I'm a bit shy so I may be a bit slow to respond to asks, But feel free to send me them, I don't bite!

I'm currently working on a webcomic called daybreak, A hard sci-fi spin on the game Spore!

I'm autistic!! Please talk with me about my interests they make me so happy

SPEAKING OF, HERE'S MY INTERESTS! Bold = Current special interest / Hyperfixiaton

I AM CRITICAL OF ALL MY INTERESTS AND THEIR CREATORS! If something I like is irredeemable PLEASE for the love of god LET ME KNOW and DESCRIBE IN DETAIL WHY IT'S BAD!

Spore (Specifically the grox! I will reblog all grox art)

Daybreak (My webcomic/Headworld!)

Speculative Biology

Aliens

Space

Bugsnax

No Man's Sky

Edmund Mcmillen games (Mostly The Binding of Isaac and The End is Nigh)

ENA

All Tomorrows

A-Life games (Mostly the creatures franchise)

Dinosaurs

Animals in general

Minecraft

Terraria

The Owl House

Rain World

Computer Malware

Art

Internet History

ARGs / Analog Horror

Puella Magi Madoka Magica (Please talk to me about Charlotte)

Undertale/Deltarune

Warrior cats

Object Shows

I don't have a very strict DNI, But other than that DNI if:

You fit general DNI criteria. If I catch you doing homophobic/racist/transphobic/ableist shit I will block you.

You consume media uncritically

You're a Pedophile/MAP, Zoophile, Proshipper, Or otherwise support any of those things. Get away from me, You're gross. If I find out that you support any of these things you are getting blocked.

You are an NSFW account or a kink account. If you keep that on a private account it's fine, Just don't interact with me on NSFW accounts. I am under 18 and generally uncomfortable with those topics.

Genshin and DSMP fans are on thin ice.

Ace-exclusionists, I'm asexual and do not want you interacting with me.

Other than that, I tend to just block anyone who makes me uncomfortable.

The #daybreakposting tag is for my spore-based worldbuilding project, Daybreak! It's about a young Grox named Celeste who wishes to escape the empire, And eventually starts a rebellion to earn her freedom! There isn't a single cishet character and basically, the entire main cast is autistic so I'd appreciate it if you'd check it out! PLEASE talk to me about it or its characters it makes me so happy when people ask me about it (Also the protagonist is autistic)

@cosmikazie drew the lovely art you can see at the top of the post!

Here's my sona's ref if you wanna draw her, She's a grox btw!!

Other places you can find me!

https://twitter.com/CalypsoGrox https://artfight.net/~Grox

https://toyhou.se/Groxx

http://www.spore.com/view/myspore/EspiGrox

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Not "autistic anon," but also autistic, (being called maybe ableist made me want to put this out there before go to bed) i thought Zane was depicted that way purposefully by the writers. He has stereotypical traits like taking things literally, and has an actual humor switch. The writers have done things with Zane before like have him lose bodily autonomy (during that one Wu's teas short) and did something with his voice be it making him unable to be understood or talking too loud and the forced pirate voice by Jay. (what you're doing isn't too different from that, right?) I thought it was just a little iffy to distort his body and memory bc that could be interpreted as something not that I'm sure what exactly, it's some kind of disability. I dunno. I'm not good with putting this to words. I hope this makes sense.

Sorry I went to bed but now I’m awake 😭

Also I ended up totally spilling all my thoughts here rather than only specifically replying to you please forgive me context: my scary zane concept design, & my ninjago rewrite i refer to a lot 

Im a little confused but I think I get what you're saying? You're saying the Ninjago writers absolutely DON'T write Zane well (you listed examples of this) and you don't want me to fall into the same trap?

I had the opposite logic earlier. I thought: If Ninjago writers made Zane have stereotypical autisitic traits while also being a dehumanized robot, I may as well embrace it, say he is autistic blatantly, while also making him do funny/cool non-human robot things, so its clear as possible the two aspects of his character are literal and separate and not a metaphor for each other. But you're right! I do have a choice and I dont have to embrace things! :)

Like there were a couple ways I was gonna reject the original, for example, I never wanted Zane to have a funny switch, and I hated how other characters could fuck with Zane and he didn't even care 😬. I want to change that stuff. So youre right, if I am changing shit like that, it would be counterproductive for ME to GIVE him MORE traits along that theme. 😬😬😬 I should try to feel less obligated to portray Zane like he originally is. I still like the concept of "scary zane" (for reasons i explain below the cut) but I might tone it down a bit like with the claws and weird proportions and shit. I’d def make him look more skeletal and undead. That was my original intention, but i didnt execute it as good as I could have.... idk if anyone could tell thats what he was supposed to be like...my bad! But rn I dont wanna redesign him I wanna draw other stuff like normal alive Zane. Sorry LMAO 😳. Like I said in some earlier asks I think, I think Im gonna focus rn on how I should portray season 1 normal not dead Zane so thank you and feel free to share any other Zane thoughts ^_^ SOME OTHER THOUGHTS:

Also I Wanna Argue Some Stuff But I Understand its a Weak Argument Since All of This Context was Just In My Brain (so don't take this as an argument, just as me rambling): I don't want messed up things to happen to Zane and for it to just be ignored. I think if Zane is going to have fucked up things happen to him, as all characters must, its best for it to happen during a season where he actually addresses his feelings about being a robot (learning to accept that he will always be himself, regardless if hes "human" or the "original" or whatever. (thats how I always interpreted his emotions)). But I wouldn't have the other Ninja be very phased by Zane's looks because the whole point is they already love who he is (seasons 1-3 were about getting to know Zane) and now Zane himself just has to learn the physical, robot part of him is okay. Its about person-hood rather than humanity. Because the season focuses around Zane's soul, and because he lost his original body, I feel like I could mess around with his current, temporary body and have fun and make it scary. Because that body should be irrelevant. I understand it possibly being upsetting for an autistic character to be designed like this, but other people I talked to see it the opposite way. They find it comforting for him to look so different but still be himself and be so loved. SO IM ABSOLUTELY NOT saying its wrong to be bothered or to hate it or to feel any way. Just that I personally think it would be cool for Zane to be portrayed with a little spice lol, so thats why I like scary Zane for season 4.

Another Thing I Wannna Say But Is REALLY Hypocritical: (this isnt directed at anyone I just REALLY want to say this) I know I say "this is Zane but scary, he looks like fnaf" so he's obviously dehumanized, but I always felt like "scary" is more of an objective fact. Its an instinct. But what's "not human" is subjective. I think there is a problem with saying anything different from "average" human is dehumanized because that could extend to real people. Lol I know its bad for me to compare FNAF-ass Zane to real people, but I mean he could be real. People can have exposed teeth, and people can be shaped weird. And when someone first sees a person who looks like that they'll probably think "woah those features are scary" by instinct. And that surprise doesn't make someone ableist obviously. But bring that person’s humanity into question is NOT an instinct, and is fucked to shit. This is kinda a bad point for me to make since its about the fictional FNAF Zane I drew, and I am NOT implying ANYONE was thinking like this. [especially not the original asker anon who I am totally forgetting about at this point OOPS]. But I just thought it was an opinion of mine I couldn't go without mentioning when talking about dehumanization and disabilities.

^^^ I think you (anon) understand what I mean and might’ve said the exact same thing as me if you were writing a long ass response? I think this because you started to bring physical disabilities up and you said it was "a little iffy." ^_^ So we agree, but I don't see Zane's relation to real life disabilities as "a little iffy" I see it more like "complicated"? IF THAT DIFFERENCE EVEN MAKES ANY SENSE?????? I feel like a lot of things about Zane are really just complicated and need the right context, rather than the concepts necessarily being wrong -- NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT! THATS THE WHOLE REASON I DO THIS STUPID REWRITE! XD thats why a lot of my rewrite SO FAR has been the same concepts and plot beats, but different dialogue n specifics and such. I like a lot of concepts in Ninjago but I dont think they were presented correctly.....! :( So I guess all we can do is wait and see if I make Zane offensive or not....???

Also something about the memory part - yeah i agree i was surprised no one thought that was weird to make jokes out of his memory issues..... BUT I am like 100% firm on making his memory take longer to come back because I think its stupid how quick Zane was able to recover from literally dying. Like its just dumb to me. Hate it. (also bc memory & soul mechanics is ummm kinda important in my rewrite.... for reasons). Another memory thing btw, I was going to make his original amnesia come from hitting his head in an attack against the Skulkin when they stole his dads corpse, rather than his dad fucking choosing to make him forget. (its a sweet & iconic scene, but Um, WHY?!!!?!?!?!?) He has to follow data recovery instructions he finds in his dads diary. I think in that context it makes moments of memory loss somewhat different for Zane's character? Instead of loss of autonomy associated with disability, its a literal violent loss of autonomy associated with being traumatized by physical force. Idk how to phrase it exactly but I think that makes some vibes different?

Sorry, I think I got really distracted, and I don't know if I responded well to your points. Because uhhhh I think I agree with your stance actually? If I understand correctly? Fuck Ninjago writers for making the robot lose autonomy (a stereotypical robot theme) while also making him seem clearly autistic (NOT A HAPPY THEME FOR AUTISTIC PEOPLE) and not addressing it. And also auuugh Zane with a weird body is a difficult topic - kinda sussy pretty iffy.

Lol anyway idk if this made any sense and I REALLY rambled on you. but this was nice 👉👈 more Zane criticism pls love you and i love zane. i hope u dont feel mad at me because then it would be weird that im saying that lol. if you do feel mad at me tho you can send another ask (ILL TRY TO JUST LISTEN NOT RAMBLE NEXT TIME) but assuming ur chill rn, love you thnx

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