#so i thought letz post it

[msbhagirathi]

A Tribute To ARRTI (FF by meera30) Part 1

Link to the OG story

You remember that scene from part 3 where both Khushi and AV were staying over NK's house at the weekend? The morning when Khushi woke up in a happy mood and subconsciously made two cups of tea? We were robbed off the many things that the author could have given us. Let's create something in that line. Aao. :)

“Stop.” She whispered as the moment froze and silently melted into her veins. Why? Why had she said the word? She didn’t want him to stop. She…Her throat clenched as she blinked and shifted from her place.

She scrunched up her eyes shut. Already frustrated of trying to avoid what she wanted so bad. She felt heat surrounding her senses and a warm breath fanning her face. He came closer to her if that was still possible.

He inched up his hands slowly towards her back and placed them on her back ever so lightly. He knew her state. He knew she was feeling conflicted. She was trying to fight the 'potential betrayal' that she could face again if she so happened to trust him again. But, the attraction was becoming as strong as powerful gusty winds, difficult to resist by each passing day.

He understood her turmoil because he too was in the same turmoil. Trying to figure out what exactly was going on with his heart nowadays.

He saw her eyes relaxing but remained closed. Her lips trembling ever so slightly. She looked so kissable at that moment. He could literally kill to kiss her at that moment. But she had whispered him to stop.

He had given her the options. And she had chosen to stop.

He closed his eyes, took off his glasses and placed his lips softly on her forehead.

I love you Khushi.

He gingerly pulled back a little to gauge her reaction. She looked so calm and peaceful.

He felt his eyes welling up with the intensity of emotions running inside him. He felt guilty for running away and never contacting her back ever again. He felt angry on himself. He felt pitiful for himself.

He could literally go down on his knees and join his hands to beg for her forgiveness.

And even then she would reject me and my apology.

He slipped in his glasses and slowly peeled himself out of her space and left the kitchen.

Khushi opened her eyes only to feel cold chilly air surrounding her devoid of the heat that had enveloped a few moments ago.

She instantly missed his presence.

His gaze.

On her.

The warmth.

She turned to the counter behind her only to find two mugs of tea innocently sitting on it, waiting to be sipped. Already in the brink of going down the room temperature.

She quickly picked up the mugs and went off towards the attic where he had spent the night.

She went up the staircase. Her steps slow and tentative. Confused as she was, by the un-seen part of Nishant Sir's beautiful house.

She knocked the door but no one answered. So she walked in.

The interiors were as beautifully furnished as the rest of the house had been.

Two single beds occupying the two extreme sides of the attic, covered with plush silk bed covers. Sets of three pillows arranged neatly on it. A miniature sized rocking chair placed somewhere in the middle of the room. A window being the highlight, the central part of the room, sunlight running in through it, with full galore. The roof above, bent to the sides, giving it a somewhat triangular shape. A carry bag resting on one of the beds indicating it's owner.

"Wow."

The only word she could manage to whisper out.

Someone behind her cleared their throat. She came back from the trance, she had slipped into. She started without a preamble.

"Hi. Listen I accidently made an extra cup of tea so I thought I could give it to my.. AV sir so please let him know when he comes back."

She quickly went up to the window and placed the cup securely at its edge.

When she turned back to leave, she saw her AV sir smiling back at her with his smile that had the potential to make her nervous and jittery irrespective of what age she was or had been; today or a decade back.

"I didn't know I was yours Khushi." he exclaimed.

"You never told me that you have such a strong sense of possessiveness towards me." he whispered walking towards her with that slow predative pace. His voice barely a rasp.

He was again standing as close to her as he had been a few moments ago in the kitchen.

At this point, Khushi was fighting tooth and nail to avoid looking at his lips.

Hey shivji why did it have to be him out of all the people in this whole damn house? Why do you hate me so much?

Clearing her throat, she averted her gaze and mumbled, "I was going to say my boss but then I thought it was better not to, so I said AV sir instead."

I so wish I could acknowledge the possessiveness I feel for you dammit. Fuck.

But Arnav Varun was on cloud nine. Even if it had been a moment of confusion and yet the universe had conspired for him to hear the words right from his lady-love say out loud to him.

He started walking towards her with some unknown kind of hunger. The desire still thrumming through his veins were yet to subside when universe once again conspired to throw him in front of her.

He kept taking ~oh-so-slow~ steps with that fixating gaze.

His gaze was making her nervous she started stepping back. One step at a time. Until there was no space left to step back. She was trying to avoid looking directly at him. At his eyes. Those honey brown sunrise-irises cutting through the invisible but ever-present lens of his rim-less glasses. Few strands of his hair falling down on his forehead from the side, making her want to run her fingers through them.

She was trying so hard to suppress the urge to do something. Anything.

Running her fingers through his soft and silky tresses.

Running away and out of this room, and perhaps out of Detroit itself.

Pull out his glasses and hold his face with both her hands.

Pushing him away from her and giving him an earful for violating her space twice in a row this morning.

Yank him out his t-shirt and run her fingers through the entire expanse of his torso and the angry gash that ran about the length of his arm.

Hey shivji! Yeh hum kya-

He looked at her face, eyes scrunched up shut, glasses slightly displaced upwards, lips trembling chanting something incoherent.

He swallowed on his own saliva. At that exact moment, he stood so close to her. He could see each and every fiber of her being at a microscopic accuracy.

Her scrunched up eyes and nose, her li-

I need to step away.

I need to stop.

Khushi has told me to stop.

Arnav, rukh jao.

He closed his eyes and commanded himself to step away-

Bas ek baar..

Jyada nahi kuch...

He opened his eyes only to find her looking at him with an ardent curiosity and something else he didn't want to name yet.

He bent down towards her slowly.

But she might have gotten some other idea as she again closed her eyes shut. A strange sense of anticipation overtook her whole being.

He slowly extended his arm to grab the mug that she had earlier placed. The tea having already become as cold as a chilled glass of water.

Koi baat nahi hum isse garam karke pilenge.

Isse kaise chhor sakte hain..

Yeh humare liye Khushi ne banaya tha.

Nevertheless, he picked up the mug and stepped back and walked away, having already understood the idea that she might have gotten when she saw him bending towards her.

Kamaal hai khud mana karne ke baad khud hi ekdum ready ho gayi.

Khushi aapne hume maar dalne ka faisla kar hi liya hai shayad.

A wistful smile appearing on his lips, he walked away with a heavy heart.

Khushi breathed a sigh of relief and disappointment.

SHIVJI! Hum aapse baat karna hi chhor denge. Aap humesha hume uss-

Stomping her feet on the floor, she humphf-ed and left the room to get ready for their departure.

When she came out of her room into the main hall she could hear music flowing out from the den. Toweling her still dripping hair she went down the staircase only to come face to face with the man who she could kill to avoid.

He was showered and dressed up in a beige turtle-neck, sleeves rolled up to his forearms (HEY SHIVJI.) dark blue jeans, with a pair of woolen flip-flops on either foot. Hair washed and gelled back neatly to perfection. The frame of his rimless glasses matching the color of his turtleneck.

She kept ogling at him until someone in the room cleared their throat. She looked away and found Nishant sir and Divya ma'am smiling at her sheepishly. The rest of the gang busy in setting up the instruments. She smiled back at them feigning innocence and settled herself on the couch.

Out of the corner of her eyes suddenly she saw AV moving around the den and picking up his guitar. He settled himself on the his favorite bar-stool and put his guitar on his lap gently.

Within a few seconds, the room was filled with music again and everyone else listened to it. The den earlier springing with music and chatter, surprisingly became as quiet as an examination hall.

"Chhupana bhi nahin aata

Chhupana bhi nahin aata

Jatana bhi nahin aata..

Hume tumse mohabbat hai

Batana bhi nahi aata

Chhupana bhi nahin aata

Jatana bhi nahin aata..

Hume tumse mohabbat hai

Batana bhi, nahi aata

Chhupana, bhi, nahin aata

Jatana, bhi, nahin aata..."

To say Khushi was shocked would be an understatement. Not because of the choice he had made but because he had sung the lines looking directly at her. With an un-flinching, un-wavering and un-disturbed gaze trained on her. Just her.

"Hatheli par tumhara naam,

Likhte hai, mitate hai,

Tumhi se pyaar, karte hai,

Tumhi se, hi kyon chupate hai

Tumhi se, hi kyon chupate hai

Juban pe baat hain lekin

Sunana hi nahin aata

Hume tumse

mohabbat hai

Batana bhi, nahi aata

Chhupana, bhi, nahin aata

Jatana, bhi, nahin aata.."

She saw a sad smile pass his face when he broke the eye-contact he was meticulously maintaining a few lines ago. As if he really had done..

No Khushi. Stop day dreaming. Aisa kuch nahi hai..

He is just singing a song. Bas. That's it.

His voice flinched a little this time. He kept looking somewhere down while singing.

"Chori chori

chupke chupke

Tumko dekha karte hai

Hey..Chori chori

chupke chupke

Tumko dekha karte hai

Haale dil sunane se

Na jane kyon darte hain

Na jane kyon darte hain

Kitna pagal dil hai mera

Manana bhi nahi aata

Hume tumse mohabbat hai

Batana bhi nahi aata

Chhupana, bhi nahin aata

Jatana, bhi, nahin aata

Chhupana bhi nahin aata

Jatana bhi nahin aata

Hume tumse mohabbat hai

Batana bhi nahi aata.."

As the next stanza came about a new energy singed through his stance. Slowly and gradually she realized that his cheeks were turning into a tint of pink.

She couldn't quite understand this set of incidents. Was he really in lo-

Did he really loved her?

Suddenly her phone's ringtone tore through the beautiful tranquility that the room had been surrounded with. She turned out its volume and quietly excused herself out of the den, unknown to a longing gaze by a certain someone as the song came to an end.

[Psst...psst idhar aao @arshifiesta this is my latest submission along with this whole damn blog that is, lol.]

[valentine-writes]

hypotheticals

[ tws + notes: no tws at all... crack. fluff. silly. reader is oh so so silly. i am not taking thingz 2 srsly i REFUSE (*/ω＼*) ]

↳ ft. diluc, itto, kaeya

「 gn! reader, romantic relationship <3 」

author's note: WOOO.. feb 14 posting (LATE SO LATE SO SO LATE) but anyways.... i am allowed to be silly. for funzies :3 (I THINK THIS IS MILDLY FUNNY PLEASE I AM SORRY IF U WANTED SOMETHING SERIOUS) (〃∀〃)ゞ anyways. letz get 2 tha hcs ^_^ also... soz 4 cutting out A Lot of characterz i do not have any motivation 2 write much :[

you've been with him for a while now. and the both of you became close in your relationship, finding comfort in each other's presence– and yet still a question lingered in the back of your mind.

it was only a matter of time before you asked him. after all, the very existence of your relationship and it's longevity relied on this single question alone.

hesitating for a moment, you clear your throat to grab his attention. you part your lips, mustering up the courage to ask him the all-important question:

"would you still love me if i was a worm?"

▸ "what...?" DILUC blinks at you about several times, as he tries to figure out whether he had just imagined those words, or if they had actually came out of your mouth.

"would you still love me if i was a worm?" you repeat, more slowly this time, ensuring he hears you loud and clear.

the look on his face is hard to discern. whether he's disappointed in you for asking the question, himself for not having an answer, or even genuinely debating in what he would do if you were turned into a worm is beyond you. it takes him a few second to figure out a response.

he looks up at you, furrowing his brow. "why would you be turned into a worm in the first place?"

"that's not important!"

"i'd say it is, actually. possibly one of the main questions to ask if you were turned into a worm."

you glance at him– and you catch a tiny grin forming on his face. a small laugh escapes your lips, nudging him with your elbow as you press on.

"i don't care what questions you'd wanna ask worm me. i wouldn't be able to respond– so, would you still love me?"

diluc sighs, a small chuckle escaping his lips. "i love you now. and i would ensure, that if you were somehow turned into a worm– no harm would come upon you."

▸ "that's a good question..." ITTO mumbles, rubbing his chin. he's in deep thought for a solid minute– before quickly zoning back into reality, with a snap of his fingers.

"I GOT IT!" he proclaims, stumbling upon a revelation that he is clearly excited to share with you.

he clears his throat, preparing for this mind blowing solution to your hypothetical worm situation.

"we'd just be insect buddies! i could be like– a cool, strong onikabuto! you wouldn't have to worry your cute little worm head about being loved at all! we'd go everywhere together, hang out all the time, do whatever insects do–"

"i'd like to point out that worms aren't insects." you say, cutting him off mid ramble.

"bug buddies then?" he suggests, raising an eyebrow.

"that's a synonym for insect." still, it's hard to hide your smile growing as you think of his response. "...you'd turn yourself into a bug for worm me?"

he pats you on the head, grinning brightly. "i'd do anything for you– and you don't gotta be a worm for that."

▸ KAEYA laughs, before looking you in the eye.

"probably not."

you practically feel your heart collapse over itself, under the weight of his words. pressing a hand to your chest, you feign insult as long as you can before caving in and asking,

"...really?" your eyes search his face for an answer, wondering if he's being serious or not.

he notices the softness in your voice. the way your lips pout slightly, as you await a response.

kaeya treads carefully now– too scared to actually hurt you over what he might say. "well, would you love me if you were a worm?"

your brows furrow as you think. "after your response, i'm not so sure. i can't live a worm life of unrequited worm love."

he chuckles. there's a genuine warmth to it this time, not mocking or teasing you at all.

"then you won't have to. i'll just have to love you no matter what shape you take," he gently places his hand over yours, "i couldn't break your little worm heart."

you can't help but laugh at the last part, snickering softly. he barely conceals his own grin.

"how cruel of you to laugh at me– i really am trying to be earnest." he smiles. the glimmer in his eyes betrays him.

[marvus-xoloto]

idk if you've talked about this but what do you think it would take to get marvus real and truly angry? like the kind of anger that turns his eyes the same color as the base of his horns. that pure rage. how would he react to that situation? what would it take to bring him down afterward? sorry this is such a specific prompt but im curious about your thoughts on it.

I may have spoken about this before, idk! I don't mind repeating hcs because it's fun to revisit old opinions and see how they've changed :o) PLUS i am like DESPERATE for hiveswap meta/analysis content and I'm happy to make more with people <3

Anyway. I had to sit on this one for a while; really had to think about it. (Frankly, my mind is feeling unorganized so it took a little longer than I wanted haha.) My opinion isn't super formed yet, so I'm open to discussion about this one (and. everything. i like to discuss).

My gut instinct says: nothing that he'll likely experience, but let's dive deep, shall we ;o)

First off, let's talk about Marvus and emotions in general to get a baseline.

Marvus is ice cool COLD. He's very easy going, only lashing out when things that are important to him are going to shit (and even then its's not a terribly strong reaction, see: his bad end when all the clowns are fighting. "Man wtf is going on" or something like that. Marvus enjoys performing for his crowd; more on that in some other post). That being said, he recovers quickly and will generally just Not Get His Hands Dirty (come on troll nostradamus letz skeet skoot).

He is in control of himself. He has to be.

In my opinion, this indicates that he has a very high emotional IQ. He has to have a high emotional IQ as both an artist and a manipulator (some might say these two things are one and the same for him). Not much shocks him, nothing can really get to him.

This does mean that while he is generally friendly, it's not easy to actually get close to him unless it's his idea. That's not relevant here, though, haha.

Here's another part of Marvus that explains his anger response: he always has a plan. The gears in his head are always turning; he's very intelligent. For him, anger doesn't solve any of his problems or bring him closer to his goals: he needs to be approachable (see: with Joey, how he manipulates her [don't get me started on their clown and kid friendship it fucks me up sooo bad]), and he needs to appear only as threatening as he needs to. He's quick to improvise (see how he protects Joey in the purple car at the end of act 3).

So. What gets to him!

In my opinion, the only two things that have the potential to get him this angry are:

-> Lack of privacy

Marvus needs to keep his secrets in order to, well, do what he does. This leads him to the instinct to keep his personal life and secrets VERY well hidden. Even if it's not a big deal on the surface, something like the name of his matesprit dropping or tracks leaking (that he didn't stategically leak himself) might frustrate him more than the average person. Something like explicit pictures of him, or something that someone could use as a metaphorical thread to follow towards his motivations or his ego; these might make him actually pissed.

That being said, though, I genuinely can't see him getting red-eyed angry about this. Generally, I do see him as someone who enjoys getting out of trouble, even if he's not thrilled about it at first. Like playing a puzzle! I'll leave it open as a possibility, however. What I really think could get to him is...

-> Knowing that he is, for whatever reason, not free or otherwise helpless

This is more esoteric and, frankly, extremely rare in his life.

Marvus really does not like the idea of having no freedom. We can infer from his general dislike of seadwellers combined with his ideas to "shake up" the hemospectrum (emphais on "shake up," notice that he never mentions improving it) that it's less about inequality and more about inconvenience. He dislikes that anyone might have percieved power over him (notice during his diatribe that he does view purple blooded trolls as unquestionably stronger and more influential than the caste above, and how he doesn't do this for say, bluebloods, who are a caste below but still in a position of relative power).

But having a plan is pretty much the core of Marvus's id. Not having that? Losing that sense of himself? Failing? I can see this genuinely making him rage-y angry.

Calming him down is simple: find him a solution. He's timeboud, thus goal based. He needs to have a focus point, something to reach for.

Anyway! Hope that made sense!

[sweet-little-dude]

JUST A DUMBASS THOUGHT BUT

crack theory letz go

watch out for spoilers!!

OKAY so i was reading a post talking abt how sanzu looks like hez mocking draken by pointing to his temple while calling toman gen 2 losers and all that memory shit BUT, BUT BUT BUT, the way i interpreted it is that hez mocking mitsuya instead of draken.

reason being is that we see sanzu pointing to the right side of his head, where draken’s tattoo isn’t inked onto, but where mitsuya’s is, as hinted in this official art and shown in many other panels

to me, sanzu was laughing at mitsuya. as draken is now dead and mitsuya is the left behind twin dragon, i thought of it as sanzu looking down at him for not being careful with his “other half” unlike himself, who is still by mikey’s side.

[scourge-sympathiser]

@absolutely-flabbergasted

AH i do hav her deisgned but tht sketch is locked behind my old laptop at my parentz house- oopz best i got is here um. her

ive only mentioned thm occasionally! hez got 2 momz! thundersong of course & stonewing! whoz actually the deputy of sunclan :3 now realizing tht half the thingz i thought i posted r actually just somwhere in my 660+ draftz whoopz....

in any case! thy r quite smitten w/ eachothr- though there is a tension tht comez aftr most of their first litter died, largely sprouting from thundersongz guilt & stonewingz frustration w/ the fact tht thundersong wont listen to her whn she sayz it wasnt her fault!! aftr yewheart is revealed thy take a not on purpose break- thundersong too filled with rage to do much of anything but stalk around the forest hunting & stonewing too devastated n just barely pulling thru her dutyz numbly before just going to laydown..

eventually thy come to realize thy can find support in eachothr n r able to rekindle the relationship... thy probz hav a second litter eventually- somthing beartheart is.. spilt abt. on 1 hand hez happy 4 his momz n lovz his little sibz. on the othr he cant help but be terribly bitter abt the fact tht. thy hav wht waz Taken from him. thy live how he waz Supposed to be able too

personality wize thundersong is pretty strightforward, shez usually smiling n Seemz warm but shez a lot more frank n harsh thn many expect- itz not like shez Mean she just doesnt put up w/ shit. part of why stonewing is so shocked by how much she letz herself take the blame for her kitz death, nyanywayz thundersong is also pretty active- most catz w/ her coat type end up shade warriorz but she cannot stand staying still for too long so shez year round

stonewing is like. a very good at her job manager who evry1 respectz but still managez to be approachable well not overly friendly? ive got more written but i cant find it rn n dont wanna contridict myself later haha

also their namez n the namez of their three kitz [owlkit wolfkit & bearheart] were chosen in reference 2 the wolvez of the beyond seriez. Because

[papabigtoes]

letz foite bruv

day 11 i chose FIGHTIN’

(doodles are under keep reading, warning of blud and spoilers)

When this episode ended i legit gasped i thought charles really wouldn’t come back i was SHOOK. I realize MMA says “The pain” but i thot “my pain” would be deeper for numbnut purposes

and now le scraps

The band should have a little spray bottle to spritz toki when he gets angry 

i love how his face scrunches up in the show and wanted to draw a lil pile of angry fightin toki faces

what if in s5/post requiem seth and pickles didn’t at all become like close, but like. made up and accepted the dickiness they had against eachother for the good of the world not being controlled by salacia or smth idk

they are wearing shades so they don't have to see each other’s eyes leaking and the lil 2 lb bell is to weigh down the chip log

[ridleycraft]

the scene in which ozai crownz himself the phoenix king revealz so much abt azulaz character n i needed 2 gather my thoughtz on it so here yall go

azula blaming the palanquin bearerz 4 her late arrival already showz so much abt her az a person. it cant be her fault, bc if it iz, she knowz shell receive punishment, therefore it must b some1 elsez fault.

when ozai revealz that azula will no longer b coming w/ him 2 burn the earth kingdom 2 the ground, you can tell how hurt she iz. itz 1 of the 1st timez that we, az an audience, see azula in a genuinely frantic state. the pain in her voice when she sayz "but...i thought we were going 2 do this 2gether" iz rlly what getz 2 me the most.

thatz when she beginz 2 lash out. "u cant treat me like zuko!" just...sayz so much abt how shez distanced herself from her older brother. all her life shez desperately kept herself up 2 her fatherz standardz, alwayz tried to keep hiz approval n honor...n even then, ozai still brushez her off like the dust on hiz armor. n it hurtz her.

not 2 mention that u can tell that azula knowz shez in deep shit when ozai raizez hiz voice @ her in return

in the end, tho, azula letz herself b manipulated. when ozai christenz her the title of firelord, you can see how she genuinely believez shell have control. despite that, tho, all it rlly waz waz a title, something 2 pacify her w/, bc then ozai crownz himself the supreme ruler of the entire world.

so, what all can we gather from this?

azula haz major abandonment issuez, something thatz also displayed during the betrayal scene. whenever she feelz az if shez being abandoned, she lashez out bc she doeznt want 2 experience that pain again, like she did when her mother left her when she waz only like. 9 yearz old or something

azula both trustz n fearz her own father

azula iz so incredibly desperate 4 ozaiz approval @ all timez bc itz the closest thing shez ever had 2 love in her life, even tho itz far from actual love

ozai fucking suckz

i could go on abt this scene 4 hourz, but 2bh i rlly dont want this post 2 turn in2 me rambling abt y azula iz such a great character n y i would drop kick ozai 4 a single corn chip so

[phvsphene]

eyyo this is my hella selfish chara dia like this post if you wanna plot and i’ll hyu!!

full name: dia paik

age: 25

godly grandparents: hecate & psyche

ability: soul manipulation & butterfly wing manifestation

orientation: pansexual & pan romantic

occupation: socialite 

bio

born in france

raised in france and nyc 

soul manipulation 

soul: reason, character, feeling, consciousness, memory, perception, thinking, etc. 

 in order for her powers to fully work she needs a dna sample of the person who's effecting hair/skin particles/saliva/etc

naturally she's a touchy person so it helps when she tries getting some Samps 

if she's desperate she can use the skin particles in the air to control someone 

but usually it doesn't last as long and it drains her since there are numerous particles in the air that are from an unknown number of ppl that she has to manipulate 

has a bag that she always wears that has everyone's dna since she needs to be near the samples 

it's enchanted so she can put as many things in it as she'd like without it growing larger/heavier

as a child she could always see how much someone liked her or not and that rlly messed her up growing up 

so, once she learned how to fully use her powers she took advantage of it right away

she always controls the people who she has samples of so their like-meter doesn't go lower than a certain point 

this is what it looks like as well as the level she always keeps it at gslkdfjt

she doesn't use her powers on ppl she trusts but that list is rlly small

eventually she ended up shutting off her love which makes her act incredibly reckless and often times selfish 

she did this bc when she was still in nl she was in a long term relationship with someone who she thought she would spend the rest of her life with 

that was until she noticed their love her her start to lower 

of course, they didn't know this was happening yet but she knew. 

she knew they would break up with her eventually and she was so scared, even if she still loved them, she broke it off abruptly without much of an explanation 

then she turned it off so she wouldn't have to feel that heartache ever again

now she just does whatever she wants without feeling any guilt which is freeing but always causes the worst effects 

like before she turned it off she used to be rlly responsible and stuff. like she would make sure all the members got home safe after a party but now she j wildiN and doesn’t care abt basically anyone

now

the past 5 yrs she's been traveling with daphne, mainly in europe

has lots of monies bc of all the rich, old hwhite men she manipulated in europe lsdkhgsd

when daphne got the call from her mom making her go back to nl, dia immediately came back as well

currently holds the title for most missions successfully completed she never goes on monster missions but has retrieved a lot of items for deities she uses her power to manipulate the ppl who has the items to willingly give them to her

currently in charge of events will probs hold a single's event bc she's That person

plots

since she left 5 years ago i can only plot old stuff w members who have been at nl for 5+ yrs ghskdjf

if anyone wants to plot out her ex that made her block her love that could be fun and chaotiq

regular exes

friends who she kept in contact with while she was in europe, possibly flew them out to hang out uwu

neighbors in nl

someone(s) who knew dia before she changed, you can decide how they act @ her

down to plot new things tho! but like psa dia is Wild and will flirt w anyone she finds attractive i'm soz :/  hskldf like she onli wears dresses bc those are the easiest to get off and i hate her for that HGLAJSKDF

this is all i can think of atM but letz plot and stuff uwu

[pip-the-enby]

So, I posted this on Instagram yesterday and tagged Joe Letz, who’s currently hanging out with Rammstein for this tour, and I wake up this morning to see the following:

Then I see something one of my fave cosplayers retweet something on twitter

So I thought I’d add a little contribution, and log an behold:

Erm... week made already I suppose!

[blossomjisung]

boyfriend!hyunjin

masterlist

felix / changbin / bang chan / jisung / woojin / jeongin / seungmin / minho

first date:

i’ll probably die in the process

even if Hyunjin isn’t your bias, he is your bias

okay letz get it

im sorry

school was finally over

and summer just started

but obviously, all of your friends were on holiday

you had to find new hobbies, you didn’t want to spend the whole summer watching movies in your bedroom

you wanted to try something new, go out, go for a walk

enjoy your summer basically

but you had literally no idea what to do

“you love movies, why don’t you go to the movie theatre?” your mom suggested

“alone? it’s so sad”

“it’s also really sad watching movies while eating snacks in the dark”

well, she had a point

so that evening, you decided to go

the films that day were not,, your style

but you decided to give it a try anyway and opted for a sentimental movie

the room was almost empty

there were just some couples 

but you also noticed a boy sitting in the opposite side of the row

you thought that maybe he was waiting for his girlfriend

but he wasn’t, he was there alone

at least, you weren’t the only one

you ended up going to the movie theatre more often than expected

at first, it was for the movies

but then you realised you went there just to see him

he was always there

you always chose the same movie 

but you never talked to him, or even got closer to him

it was too embarrassing 

you just looked at him sometimes and smiled when your eyes met his

that day, it was going to be different

you were buying your tickets when you saw him approaching

your hands started sweating and you thought you lost your ability of speech

“can i get another ticket for this movie? i’ll pay for both”

you didn’t really know what to say, you didn’t even refused or thanked him

and your legs didn’t move, if you tried, you would probably fall

“you want popcorns?”

“sorry?”

“do you want popcorns? the queue is pretty long. i’m Hyunjin, by the way”

“h-hi, i’m y/n”

you were a tiny little bit confused

why did he pay for your ticket? and your popcorns?

“is everything okay?”

“yeah i’m just- why?”

he laughed and your cheeks turned pink

“i was tired of looking at you from the other side of the room, so here i am”

“so is this..”

“a date? yes”

fortunately, the room was empty except for the two of you

because you spent the whole time talking about all the movies you watched

“can you stop stealing my popcorns?”

“well, i paid for them”

you also ate hamburgers after the movie

you really couldn’t understand how he could be hungry after eating his popcorns

and yours

this boy looked so happy while eating

and eventually, he would ask for your number

after lending you his jacket

skinship:

Hyunjin is clingy but not too clingy

definitely not like Chan

he likes skinship 

he really likes holding your hand and hug you

even in front of the others

he doesn’t really think before hugging you or kissing you in front of the others, he just does it

probably never thought there would be something to be embarrassed for

he’s used to hugging his friends too

and sometimes they joke about it

“y/n aren’t you jealous? he’s hugging Woojin and not you”

when you’re alone, he likes to place his head on your shoulder

and wrap his arms around your waist

and plant kisses on your cheek or on your neck

he does that all the time, especially when you’re cooking

kisses:

i think Hyunjin would be very passionate

not just when it comes to kisses, very passionate in anything he does

in public, he just gives you pecks

although it happens sometimes that the others see you,, making out 

“gross”

“can you get a room please?”

“you can’t do this in front of my children” yes that’s Chan

his kisses are slow and romantic 

and random 

how can you even say no when he wants to kiss you

like, he’s sitting on the couch   

you just pass in front of him

he wraps his fingers around your wrist and makes you sit on his lap

he puts his hands on your waist and brushes his lips against yours

teasing you a bit

and then connecting them

when he pulls away after ten hours he looks into your eyes

and smiles

arguments:

Hyunjin looks pretty chill to me

definitely not someone that gets mad easily 

so you hardly ever argue

if not never

when you do, you make up after a couple of minutes

it’s usually about something really stupid

and probably because he’s tired and stressed because of the comeback

he apologises right after he realises he said something mean

“i’m sorry, y/n. i didn’t mean it, i’m just really stressed”

to make up, he takes you to a nice restaurant 

but you know he does it because he loves food

texts:

sweet texts

a lot of sweet texts

usually texts you that he misses you

and keeps you updated on his day

“i saw this and it reminded me of you”

he also takes a lot

a lot

of selfies

basically the stray kids instagram is Hyunjin’s instagram

and he sends you all of them

asking you which one you prefer, which one he should post

he likes texting, but prefers videocalls

whenever he has the opportunity, he calls you

and you talk for hours

he spends most of the time looking at himself 

and adjusting his hair

he likes listening to you more than talking

he asks you a lot of questions about your day

late night texts are something

he usually practises until late, like really late

when he gets angry because he doesn’t get the choreo right, he texts you

you’re the only one who is able to calm him

you would answer even at three in the morning

because you know he needs you

[sapphicstonerexic]

hi :D

hihiii everyone, this is gonna be my lil anon account. i try not to use most social media so i'm going for more of a blog aspect of this siteeeee! letz be friends? about me: i'm 18, lesbian, they/them, stoner, and i have an ed. uhmmm i'll post more abt myself when i can think more but i rlly just am wanting a place to speaketh my thoughts. fellow mentally ill and lgbtqia+ ppls letz be friends!!

[catastrothicc]

when will i learn to write an intro post

hello friens my name is kit im 19 and i use them/they pronouns. i love the color GREEN as u can tell and im a cancer ..... i literally don’t kno who i am besides that so ! ey letz gO  .... oh yea my timezone is mdt .  bu ckle . ... .. . u p

fiRST we have rocky whomst some of  u kNO bc he was That guy in paracosms anD created by the m ost crea tive  admins iv’e ever seEN i got blessedt 2 play him and to play him agAIN in literally the most mentally straining au for any character .... paracosms verse ! x 

i previously made an intro post for him here so i’m just gonna link it and walk away .. .. .... also his stats page still lives here !!! keeping in mind that he is no longer a drug ring leader ..... he recently discovered that his wHOLE LIFE is a LIE and that he’s a helpless robot stuck in hell with a bunch of other robots who want 2 murder him and every(robot)body he loves 

find his pinterest board here , someday a whole ass playlist too

neXT we have minjae ... he’s my oldest character in this batch but that doesn’t mean i especially love him .... just means i’ve made him suffer the longest .... . . . tw: child abuse ( pinterest board , playlist 1 , playlist 2 )

minjae is in the main verse ! find him bullshitting through college and b-boying in the camden streets 

he’s twenty-one and a virgo , born in busan , south korea 

he found his way to london when his parents sent him away to study abroad highkey because that’s a big fancy thing in korea they can brag about and lowkey to get rid of him for as long as they can 

his relationship with his family is ..... interestingly strained . his parents WON’T admit that he’s tiring as hell to deal with and how much stress he causes because they try their best to be supporting/loving parents but honestly minjae KNOWS how much they just wISH he was fucking gONE from their lives ( okay maybe not THAT intense but things rlly blow up in his head ) but he doesn’t even worry about it he just deals with the fact that he’s a terrible son

he was diagnosed with odd when he was eight years old, after his mom got tired and increasingly concerned with his disruptive and violent behavior

a few years prior , minjae’s biological dad left them and his mom kind of took it upon herself to try and make it up to him . that meant she was always careful around him and treated him as if he was fragile because minjae felt some blame that his dad left . 

his biological dad did Not have any patience for his kid’s mental health , meaning he and minjae would fight often to the point of getting physical . basically minjae endured a lot of getting locked up in the bathroom kicking and screaming until his voice grew hoarse and the occasional ..... bad beatings .

he went to therapy with his mom for two years before entering middle school , around the time his mom remarried a nice guy who had the patience of a saint when it came to minjae , even after he repeatedly rejected him as a part of their life . eventually minjae managed to warm up to him ..... he just didn’t wanna admit he was afraid he’d abandon them like his bio dad . 

despite the therapy he was still unstable and got into frequent fights . he was smart but he didn’t put it into any good use because he would rather fool around and disrupt the classroom at any slight chance . teachers .... hated this fuckass 

theN high school !! A Whole Mess ..... he got worse and worse , and it wasn’t until he got expelled from his Second high school that he went back to therapy for anger management . 

after months of sessions w/ his therapist he was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder , which honestly explained Everything about his life . it explained his massive issues with interpersonal relationships , massive abandonment fear , massive moodiness , massive personality contradictions .... everythin g

he started b-boying because it was a way to push himself and let go of the anger without picking a fight with someone else ( altho he StilL picked the occasional fight .... highkey still does ) but he loved the control that came with dancing and how it hurt to push his body 

he managed to graduate despite what everyone thought ..... and even a bigger surprise is that he went to college majoring in math ..... and an evEN BIGGER SURPRISE is that he went overseas to study which is like ..... quite a difficult and impressive thing to do ..... tho minjae just finds math the easiest out of academic studies bc “all u need to do is understand and follow a formula” 

anYWAYS so his personality is generally very contradictory . he just has no fucking idea who he even is . thESE are from an old intro that i’m just putting here bc still tru:

being delusional w/ infatuation/love to the point of a fault vs running away when things actually start to go right with someone because of his fear of being abandoned by them

being so afraid of abandonment that he can’t stand being alone, always needs to be communicating with someone vs pushing people away when he feels like he’s getting attached because he’s afraid of abandonment 

swinging between being horny all the time and being sex repulsed

intense mood swings !!! having the time of his life one hour and wishing he was dead the next

thinks he’s the best vs loathes his entire being

wants everyone to love him vs thinking he deserves being alone

incredibly charming and talkative vs distant and moody

loving/cuddly/goofy vs jealous/purposely mean/bossy 

also never tell him its ok to text u bc he’ll give u notifications from Hell

dhwani mishra !!! honestly Bae . i’ve had her in my head for mONTHs and this is only the second time i play her rip . anyways say hello to this Hot Mom. tw: abuse , brief abortion mention 

dhwani is from chicago , she’s 36 and a leo .... literally The Whole SUN

she grew up w/ a generally large family . two parents , three sisters and a brother . it was a full house that often became suffocating but she managed to survive her childhood and teenhood . 

she’s extremely close with all her fam except her dad , bc they have always disagreed in almost everything and it’s just ..... awkward to be around him ?? she honestly doesn’t respect him much , even if she would never show him/tell him that . her dad had an abusive past w/ her mom , and dhwani still feels a lot of resentment that he would ever lay his hands on her in a violent way and mistreat her despite being the mother of his children . when she was a teenager , she would tell her mom to just divorce him but her mom was in a very toxic/old mentality and believed she would ruin her family and her children’s life if she did that . 

probably nobody cared about this as much as dhwani .... she promised herself she’d NEVER allow someone to do what her dad did to her mom and was honestly so defensive with guys . little did she kno it was the lesbian raging inside her . 

so because she had no idea what a lesbian was or that it was a possibility bc her household was not the type to really go into the topic of sex at all , she eventually got into a relationship with a guy in high school that she could actually put up with .... and got really disappointed when she was finally ‘ in love ’ because of how underwhelming it all was . her dreams about finding ‘ the one ’ were absolutely gone . she was like wtf why are people making such a big deal out of love when it feels like ...... kind of nothing ?? 

she became pregnant with his child which was completely unplanned and was such a huge turn in her life that she never ever expected . all this time she had been driven to start a career in chemistry and family would come way wayyy later , however she did Not want to give up her child ..... she was so torn about it but now she thinks not getting an abortion was the best decision of her life bc her little boy , one of her two little suns was brought into the world . 

she paused her career to raise him w/ her now husband when she was 29 , and three years later became pregnant again , this time w/ her second sun , an adorable lil baby girl . things were already going downhill in her marriage before she got pregnant again , though , and she stupidly thought that maybe another child would help them but ... wrong ! her husband , the man she thought she loved , was turning out to be exactly like her father . she put up w/ him for as long as she could .... but it did just not work out . when her daughter was two and her son five , she divorced him and someway or another managed to pick up her career again . 

she moved out with her kids into a small apartment , struggling with money and having to ask her parents for aid which wasn’t rlly good for her pride , despite that she and her mom were like best friends .

sHE made it to london by pure will after juggling her two children and working as a high school teacher , though when she got an offer to teach as a professor in a university w/ heR OWN LAB AND RESEARCH TEAM she could Not pass it up . the only problem was tht this job was across the ocean , and away from her family and everything she and her children knew . 

still , she saw a brighter future , not only for herself but especially for her kids , so she packed up and said goodbye to the states . 

she’s been teaching in soho for two years now and she still hasn’t really adjusted . it’s obviously a very different life than the one she had in chicago , but she’s very determined to make it work . also she’s recently discovering her repressed inner lesbian so hmu for plots !!! ;))) 

shE’S a chemistry professor so ... @ any student connections hmu ... also any students whomst want 2 be on her research team A++ 

pERSONALity wise .... she’s a mess . she’s very lively and warm and inviting , but she is also extremely stubborn and unrestrained . you don’t agree w/ something she does ? Suck It . you have a stupid opinion ? Time to let u kno how absolutely wrong u are . she is NOT afraid of a fight . also she’s v scatterbrained .... there is so much on her schedule that she can barely keep up w/ so she’s never like ... calm . always going somewhere , always pacing places , chugging her coffee , carrying 789479 folders and books everywhere . 

hER class is pretty much this vine 

probably one of the least chill professors on campus in the best way possible . she’s so excited about chemistry and teaching her students . altho she is lenient and understanding she can also b strict af and doesn’t allow her kindness to b taken advantage of . rlly good at drawing lines . 

also her children are her whole world and she loves to brag about them ... since she doesn’t get enough time w/ them at home she sometimes takes them to her lab on campus or they’re there being a mess during her office hours and stressing her out but she’s 2 fond of them to leave them w/ their babysitter . 

oK so here is her v incomplete pinterest board ... expect a playlist Soon 

lAST BUT NOT LEAST is santana !!! he is ... a solid trip . this is my first time playing him so i’m puMPED and expecting the worst of him fhuidshfiusdhg. tw: drug use , abuse , alcoholism 

he is 23 , a Cancer , n from LA california like that red hot chili peppers song(s)

his childhood wasn’t chill at all . he grew up with four sisters and three brothers , so his parents never really had time for all of them individually . they were always kind of lumped together despite the differences in age . santana was one of the middle children so he got evEN LESS attention . 

he honestly does not understand what his parents were thinking when they had EIGHT whole kids , because they were poor as shit . they lived in a tiny house with three bedrooms and two bathrooms , where all the girls would be in 1 room , the boys in the other , and their parents in th third one . you could Not catch a moment of peace in this household . they basically lived on top of each other .

his older siblings were very bad influences , and so were his parents . it was all tough love , so he barely received any kindness or special treatment and had 2 go to school even if he was dying w/ the flu and got hit Bad when he acted out even a little bit bc his parents were Not about to deal w/ any disrespect . he actually pretty much got hit for just existing bc his parents didn’t want dumb kids and santana was failing in Everything at school so his dad especially tried to beat it into him but really he wasn’t dumb he had dyslexia and no one knew or cared enough to find out .

still , they didn’t really respect their children enough to demand their respect . they would cuss all of them tf out and allow them little to no privacy so they all became rEALLY GOOD liars , and all of them learned to have each other’s backs but rlly this only lasted during their childhoods/teenhoods . 

santana started doing really stupid shit during high school and once he got caught stealing wine from a grocery store w/ all his dumb little high school friends whomst were in possession of weed and ended up in juvenile prison for two years until he turned 18 . thEN while he was on parole he didn’t learn his fucking lesson and his parents/family were not supportive At All honestly it’s like they didn’t give 2 shits that he was in juvie they were just like ‘that’s what happens when you’re a goddamn moron’ so santana went out and did it aGAIN bc fuck parental guidance anyways

this time he got caught stealing a whole fucking car and in possession of not only weed but cocaine so he got locked up for 4 long ass years . honestly thought that he wouldn’t make it out but he rlly learned a lot in prison and he was used to getting no privacy anyways and just kinda dealt . the prison system he was stuck in Sucked so bad though like the guards were the Worst and he’d try to stay out of fights but Some Fucker would piss him off and BOOM he’d end up in the hole for a whole week . 

hOWEVER if it wasn’t for being there he would’ve never discovered his passion of art and drawing . he got Really Fucking good bc he had nothing else to do but sit around and try to find anything to pour all of his pent up energy into and drawing happened to be his greatest outlet . would just sit for as long as they let him and draw his time away . 

when he got out he went back to his fam but they were pretty much all split up . shit went Down while he was locked up and somehow his parents ended up w/ a giant grudge on their children and some of his siblings wanted to kill each other while others had just completely moved away to different parts of the states and had absolutely no communication w/ each other . 

santana decided to fuck it and pursue his dreams of being a tattoo artist far from LA and just decided to move to a different country entirely . 

Now u can find him giving tattoos in his apartment bc he doesn’t have enough $$$ to get a studio and while he Is training under a professional he’s not getting paid by them so he needs to make money somehow . it’s a secret that he’s tattooing when he’s not supposed to tho . Fuck the law . 

personality !!!! he’s basically .... very chill .... perhaps 2 chill .... 

even tho drugs got him some bad time in prison he hasn’t left them . still very 420 friendly and occasionally does the hard stuff . also loves 2 drink and party . 

he’s irresponsible !!!! he feels like he lost a lot of his life in prison so he’s trying to make up for it and while he’s being more careful ..... he still loves 2 fuck shit up .

he gets way too comfortable around people way too easily . he thinks this is a trait he picked up in jail bc he rlly had no other option but to shower with a bunch of dudes and shit out in the open , so he’s very comfortable with his body and being in the nude in general . also a touchy guy , likes cuddles and appreciates hugs . random meaningless touches are a Habit . 

he loves to hang and do whatever so if ur his friend chances are tht he’s hitting u up 24/7 to go do something . biggest extrovert there is . does not get tired of being in public / around people . also p flirty and gay as hell . 

sO find his pinterest board here and i’m also in the process of finishing a playlist for him hopefully soon 

thAT WOULD BE ALL FOR NOW !!! hmu and feel free to add me on discord ( a whole silly boy#2690 , kít (catastrothicc) in the group chat ) for plots and such !!! 

[sebuntease]

HAYY LOVES!! it's the vernon girl again :^)) what are ur thoughts on svt's upcoming comeback?? they're releasing the album on my bday i feel Blessed!!

GUUURRL. I AM READY TO DIE. HAVE YOU SEEN THE POSTS OF THE FANSITES THAT WENT TO THE SPECIAL RECORDING FOR MNET?? DAYUUUM THEY SAID THAT WE SHOULD GET READY AND IT IS PERFECT. I CANNOT WAIT AND OMG WHAT A NICE BIRTHDAY GIFT FOR YOU. I REMEMBER THEY WON 1ST ON IDK WHAT PROGRAM ON MY BDAY AS WELK AND IT WAS WONDERFUL ITS LIKE CELEBRATING FOR TWO REASONS. SO YEAH ADVANCE HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND LETZ ALL WAIT AND GET READY FOR THE COMEBACK. Ps. I apologize for the caps lock i am just so hyped rn for the comeback. -Ciara

[eunhae-code]

I haven't been keeping up with suju since 2010 when I graduated school, omg help?

I am trying to very logically sum up 7 years and I’ll admit, I totally cheated on some parts. And I won’t list every solo activity, that would take days to write.

2010: I knew of SuJu. I just didn’t know them. Siwon was in a Kdrama called “Oh! My Lady” so when I researched him, Super Junior came out. And I was like ???? they’re all handsome??? halp???

2011: A magical year. All the boys personalities start shining, they’re more confident and they’re grown men, literally look at siwons abs bruh. The album: Mr. Simple sells a shitload. Best songs for me? Opera and Superman. SKIP BEAT! DONGHAE HELLUUUUR MAY I SAY MORE. HIS OUTFITS GORGEOUS, HAIR TO DYE (yes i spelt it like that on purpose) FOR. FLAWLESS. (i am biased) SUPER JUNIOR M: TAIWANMEI. high five eunhae in the back! (10 points to slytherin if you can spot it in the video! and by slytherin, I mean me bcuz i’m slytherin)

2011- continued: EunHae duo exists. Awesome singles. Seriously. These two are like milk and cookies. Eunhyuk is smooth like milk and Donghae is so cute and heartwarming like chocolate chip cookies.

2012: A difficult year leading into 2013. Kangin returns (he left in the first place because of the scandals surrounding him) and his voice is widely missed truly it made some of the songs for me. But Heechul and Leeteuk go for military service. Amazing album, gorgeous posters (flower boys) I legit cried over the poster in HS. Endless EunHae marriage comments. It was beautiful. also panda and hedehog, awkward kisses on hae’s part (like srsly bro u ever kiss before?? letz not forget them hickiessss. I mean that happens in 2013 but srsly…srsly) Listen to “Spy” for fingers and suits. Listen to “Sexy, Free and Single” to feel awesome about yourself. Listen to “Gulliver” cause Eunhyuk wrote it by hisself. Listen to “From U” which is “For ELF” and the Eunhae action we got in the live show oh yeah hae chest, KRY vocals ON POINT.

End of 2012: Bad. Very Bad. Big scandal of IU and Eunhyuk. It was terrible like legitimately terrible. It almost caused Eunhyuk to quit everything. Everyone turned on him, even some so-called fans. He was so depressed and even Donghae suspiciously posted lyrics to a song implying someone being deceitful. It was odd and I believe he deleted it. Eunhyuk went low-key for months. It was that bad.

2013: Hero. Its a Japanese song, but done very wonderfully. It’s really cute. Blue world is about ELF again, but the video is a little too blue. EunHae again: Listen to “Still You” and sob at that elevator scene where they’re supposed to pretend to be in the elevator at different times but instead gaze into each others eyes. great acting 100%. SUPER JUNIOR M RETURNS WITH AN ACTUAL ALBUM: Listen to “Breakdown” everyone’s outfits and hair on point. cue donghae exercising too much and ripping his jacket like a pack of skittles. (see if you can spot it in the video!) Yesung enlists and we all sob.

2014: SUPER JUNIOR M AGAIN with a single “SWING” watch the beautiful Henry say “uno dos tres” like a pro, the on-point dances, the office attire, sexy mustachio of siwon making its fierce apperance and most of all suspenders.on.donghae. you will drool, i drooled, we all cried and sobbed. Super Junior: MAMACITA. Heechul and Leeteuk return. The album was pretty much flawless and the best from these lovely boys since Mr. Simple. Listen to “Mamacita” for quirkiness, “Shirt” for Donghae’s songwriting skills, and  “Evanesce” for feels. SUNGMIN IS MARRIED. Everyone flipped out. A ton of ELF felt betrayed and I will admit, I honestly thought it was a shotgun wedding. I didn’t mean to disrespect Sungmin, it legit happened that fast. Again, I apologize to Sungmin for being selfish.

2015: EunHae’s The Beat Goes On. I own this album. I own the poster. I own my feels. Listen to “Growing Pains” for Donghae’s amazing songwriting skills, srsly let my boy write everything and “Sweater and Jeans” for Eunhyuk’s growing vocal skills (vintage sweater and jeans Sungmin and Shindong enlist. Super Junior’s Devil drops with the return of Yesung, his beautiful voice was greatly missed. MY BOYS WENT TO THE MILITARY. Donghae left on his birthday and I cried like a bitch cause Eunhyuk went two days before him so they could get out together. Siwon enlists a month after in November.

2016: Yesung drops a single “Here I am” and Ryeowook drops an album “Little Prince”. Ryeowook enlists.

2017: EunHae will return July 12th and July 14th, respectively. And Siwon will return August 18th. Kyuhyun decides to enlist so everyone will pretty much fully unite by 2019.

This took me approximately 3 hours to respond to. I tried to sum up everything in short paragraphs! HOPE THIS HELPS~~ XOXO- AyaniELF

[tranzdiary]

hello.. welcome 2 m blog. here ill be tracking my progress and development  in uhm m experiencez n bein tranz

first letz get u (probably me) updated w how thingz r currently. im 13. my birthday was only a few dayz ago. as of writing dis itz 23/8/19 at 22:58

my sibling iz nb. their name iz soul. theyre obviously 17 right now.

my brother iz cis. he iz mean. he iz 10. hez walking down a bad path dat i cant tear him from :(  he has said slurz, ‘ree’ (ableist) n done othr bad thingz. yesterday i explained to him y m sibling isnt *deadname* n basically explained what it meant 2 be nonbinary 2 him.. m brothr knows m nt str8 but he mayve thought i wasnt joking

my mom and othrz constantly deadname my sibling and use da wrong pronounz 4 thm  they hav dysphoria, so do i. my sibling is out. my family doesnt mean to be mean they jus 4got.. soul doesnt hav a binder, had their haircut or anything itz bad :(.

-also. m bi, ive used a few different labelz but currently m usin bi. my brother knows that im not straight and thatz it. i was outed at school a year ago n dat sucked but i think everyone forgot. i found out i wasnt straight in abt march 2017 and not cis in about  july 2018 but didnt formally change my label to nb until january 2019.

also m a tucute. future me, if youre truscum i fucking hate what youve become. that about wraps up our intro post here. the next 1z shouldnt seem az down beat. currently m experiencing immense dysphoria due 2 da shirt m wearing.. th only shirt dat doesnt giv m dysphoria i had been wearin 4 2 weekz at least n m mom wanted m 2 change out ov it....

also update on my mental health n stuff. my sleep schedule right now iz normal but it wont last long, it still changez a lot frequently. also m autistic (self diagnosed but m gettin there w da professional 1) also mayb adhd but i dunno. also mayb psychosis..  anyway th hallucinationz r still kinda prevalent it suckz  n m still very afraid of spiders. oh and therez my depression n anxiety...

also my interestz r probably da same az when me from da future iz reading dis.., bnha, danganronpa, mp100 and hermitcraft, thank u 4 yr tiem, me!

also if it wasnt obvious im very much closeted.

[yes-orangesunshine-me-blog]

Mastery Journal - Digital Marketing

I just finish reading all my post and the most impactful journey was my first month.  I was struggling, this was my first time back to school in years and I was clueless to what the online experience would be.  To say the least it was a epic failure.  I was truly struggling, trying to balance work, family and school and not being use to online was my biggest challenge.  However, I wiped my tears and begin just one day at a time.  I knew that this program was something that I wanted to be a part of.  I have always had great ideas but just didn't have the skillset, or so I thought. I just didn't know how to  bring an idea to paper.  

One of my main goals was to not give up and begin to learn as much as I could.  I wanted to gain experience in what it took to be in the business entertainment world and create something from beginning to end that was my creation.  For me, all I wanted was to be able to learn and understand how current technology and marketing can help me be successful and show me what I needed to make my dream of Lets Konnect become a reality.  

My goals where to make sure that I brought my simple idea to light.  Every single class was so important to my growth, it allowed me to gain knowledge in how to effectively use certain tools.  I had no idea that there were so many resourceful tools, applications, software and useful information to start my branding of Letz Konnect.  To be honest,  I truly did not know how important branding was or really what branding really meant.  It wasn't until I started learning more about me through the Mastery courses that I was able to begin to see the person I was the Business Storytelling and Branding class was the start.  

I kept my goal  and tried to stay on task with my business concept of Letz Konnect andI had some challenges but tried my best to not to give up.  There were times when I felt very overwhelmed because of everything that was required with branding.  From blogging, create an website, to using all these new applications.  I sometimes would say to myself, why didn't I just pick something that was easy to do.  But, I kept on pushing, which included so much research, at times I just needed to take five.  One of the best things that I can share is the fact these courses allow you to go step by step and you get to see your work and how it progresses.

The Digital Marketing class was the most rewarding and challenging because it made me move through so many required pieces that helped create and define how I was going to market my  business idea.  I think this is the most I had to write and create in one class.  There were a lot of late nights throughout this process.  Yet, seeing my business concept flow through my business modeling was incredible.  Learning about my competitors was very much needed and helped me have a better understanding of defining why my business is unique and has more to offer then the current online dating scene.  I will tell you that I definitely grown in understanding how effective campaigns have to be and even more importantly was learning about the current technologies  and trends with mobile apps and all of these current personality testing and traits that study people behaviors and how that information is used to help increase the business success.

When it comes to understanding how important is to successfully have a digital marketing plan, I had no idea.  But, I have learned that it can make or break a business if not done correctly.  With advertising and social media you constantly have to be engaging to keep your clients.  One thing that really stood out to me was keeping your customers engaged and making it fun.  It is so important to have dialog and creative selling techniques that include things like contest,winnings, creative advertising and feedback.  

I enjoyed the mock ups, it was nice to see the possibility of what your campaign and advertising might look like.  It was a way for me to see the possibilities of my future business and success.  Thank you for pushing me, and providing so much feedback.  It allowed me to get better and learn more.  I enjoyed this class and even though I said it was the hardest so far, it has also been the most rewarding.