#so i projected onto my bbg atsumu

[goth1c-pinki3-pi3]

“what has life come to..” he thinks, “What life am i living, where i have become ashamed of what i love..?” He unknowingly has stopped talking as much as he used to. Stopped picking petty fights with his twin, stoped responding in a falsely angry tone to teases.

He just took them at face value. Didn’t dignify them with a response. Didn’t stop to think about what they said and just responded with a small “okay”, as if that answered for everything. He even stopped with the nicknames for his friends. Or, what he thought were his friends. He could never gauge who liked him and who didn’t.

Not like it mattered anymore. He’s decided to stop trying. Stop talking about his interests unless he’s asked directly, stopped talking unless he was talked to.

He didn’t think it was all too important.

His volleyball skills held up despite his change, he was still able to communicate to his teammates about what he was doing, and how he was playing, but he stopped smiling. He stopped forcing his emotions to show. He stopped trying to be normal. It never changed anything, so why bother?

He didn’t know it, but this sudden change unnerved his teammates. But they didn’t know how to help him. Or even if he wanted help. No one knew anything, not Osamu, not Suna, not even Sakusa. No one knew anything.

And they never asked him head on.