#so he’s squirrelly and disatisfied but he doesn’t know why because he can’t let himself admit to why

[tennessoui]

each time you share something about the cheating au (even the tiniest snippet or a sentence) i inhale it like i’m a starving man, it’s sooooooooooo good you don’t understand

I can’t wait for anakin to pull out the typical “happy people don’t cheat” and Padmé to yell back “yes and I didn’t!!!”

and anakin just collapses back into his chair and sort of shrugs wordlessly because she didn’t MEAN to but she did find the crux of the issue itself which is that she may have been happy and fulfilled by their relationship (or forcing herself to think she was) until the moment she found out anakin was having an affair, but anakin stopped being really actually happy before Padmé dragged him to the party where he met obi-wan.

that’s the way his love works—he wouldn’t have actually looked at obi-wan twice if he’d been fully committed to his relationship with his wife. He thought he was, but he was chafing at the edges of being her husband. Not that it was her fault, but that they turned out to be a bad match. Or not that they turned out to be a bad match, but that the timing was wrong.

and the timing with obi-wan was perfect

[dream-about-dancing]

#by that last bit I mean o think in a few snippets it’s alluded to how much anakin doesn’t enjoy really being a politicians spouse#not being married to Padmé or anything#but how busy she is and how much her job is about appearances and how much he has to appear perfect like she does so effortlessly#and he doesn’t like having to fight for her attention even if he would never admit that (even just to himself)#so he’s squirrelly and disatisfied but he doesn’t know why because he can’t let himself admit to why#because the love should be enough#but then obi-wan comes in#and pursues him#Wants HIS attention#has the same job as his wife#but actively seeks him out and puts things on hold to see him#and it’s timing really: it’s not that obi-wan instantly loves anakin more or better than Padmé#it’s that he’s been more established in his career for far longer—decades.#he knows what he can get away with#what he can delegate#he knows he doesn’t have to be adored by everyone#which all just means that he can take time away from his job—it’s more allowed than for up and coming politician Padmé#and I think on some level anakin understands that:#but I think the understanding eventually is crowded out by the feeling—of being first again and being doted on and being given attention#and then the love comes genuinely and all consumingly because of the timing and obi-wan’s interest and that part of him that was unhappy b4 (via @tennessoui​)

each time you share something about the cheating au (even the tiniest snippet or a sentence) i inhale it like i’m a starving man, it’s sooooooooooo good you don’t understand

I can’t wait for anakin to pull out the typical “happy people don’t cheat” and Padmé to yell back “yes and I didn’t!!!”

and anakin just collapses back into his chair and sort of shrugs wordlessly because she didn’t MEAN to but she did find the crux of the issue itself which is that she may have been happy and fulfilled by their relationship (or forcing herself to think she was) until the moment she found out anakin was having an affair, but anakin stopped being really actually happy before Padmé dragged him to the party where he met obi-wan.

that’s the way his love works—he wouldn’t have actually looked at obi-wan twice if he’d been fully committed to his relationship with his wife. He thought he was, but he was chafing at the edges of being her husband. Not that it was her fault, but that they turned out to be a bad match. Or not that they turned out to be a bad match, but that the timing was wrong.

and the timing with obi-wan was perfect