#so happy that I went back to PS 2020

[elliott-forgott]

Style points through the roof vs. ‘He Would Be So Dead’

[g0ldenbritney]

TODD ANDERSON HEADCANONS (+blurbs) ༄

a/n: it’s officially fall in my town, that means its time to be fixated on dead poets society so be ready ;3 (ps. Anything I write is usually for all genders💕)

DATING HEADCANONS (50s-60s)

- actually so sweet

- big on words of affirmation, mostly when you say it to him. But I feel like everyone says thats “so him” so im gonna be different and say he loves gift giving. Not talking about him spoiling or anything but it would be cute if you made you bracelets all the time <33!!

- his love language might be gift giving but DO NOT. Give him gifts. (You will anyways.) because he doesn’t know how to react when he gets them. He gives off that energy who awkwardly opens birthday presents and doesn’t know whether to say thank you or not.

Todd has been making you so many things lately, poems, bracelets, flowers he made with paper. Really anything he could craft, you knew you had to get him something to just to be nice.

So you went into town and bought a sweater you thought would fit him nicely and waited until after school and he was studying in his dorm room to give it to him. You swing open the door without knocking

“Ohh Todd~” you say in a somewhat sing-song voice.

He looks up from his notebook, you can see that little nervous smile appear on his lips, even more so when he sees a box in your hand

“Whats that?”

You hand the box to him and immediately he looks nervous, he looks up at you, then the box, then at you, then finally opens it and pulls out the sweater

“Uhh..”

“Do you like it?” You ask.

“Uhm, ah, yeah. I-I do. I really do I just..how do I prove to you that I like it?”

- boy is definitely a cuddler, maybe not so much when hes awake but as soon as he falls asleep he is clinging onto you like he will fall off a cliff if he lets go.

- if you have younger siblings you would be more than happy to watch them for you, well, if they’re toddlers or babies. He would never babysit someone over the age of 10..worried they’ll be mean or something!

- give him a stuffed animal, he deserves it.

You walk into his dorm room holding onto your older stuffed animal, you dont even say anything you just hand it to him

“Whats thi-“ you cut him off

“I have to go on a field trip this week so you better take care of him!”

Todd nods quickly

“Trust me I will.”

HEADCANONS (modern au)

- read somewhere that he would totally play animal crossing and havent thought of anything else since

(taking you back to 2020 for this, so sorry😔)

Todd sat in your office chair, all curled up with his knees to his chin. He was holding his switch in his hands that you unsurprisingly got him for his birthday.

“What are ya doin?” You ask, leaning on his shoulder

“Animal Crossing.” He mumbles, almost like he was talking to himself. Damn that boy was FOCUSED.

- definitely had an “art ho” phase in 2018 dont come at me

- All these like headcanons say he would listen to really cool music but I feel like he would want to but doesn’t know how find cool artists (so me) so he would have to ask around😔

- definitely has a letterboxd

- I see him as a gossiper, dont come for me but if someone was caught vaping in the bathrooms he would definitely be the one to spread the info around (with the help of Neil because he told Neil first)

- WEARS CLAW CLIPS. Dont play w me rn. If it was a modern au i imagine his hair to be just a little longer, maybe surfacing to a wolf cut but just a lot shorter. Long enough where you could put half up in a claw clip (JUST IMAGINE IT)

- was a victim of the 2021 ed Sheeran jokes

[chiyeko-kurea]

Us, and everything in between

-Story of a friendship that no longer is.

Ps: Disjointed story transmitted through the notes I wrote in my phone.

The dates do not correspond to the exact event but to the moment when I wrote the note.

[PART 1/2]

01/12/2020

I cut our friendship bracelet. Maybe because that’s what it represented.

27/09/2022

It was nice while it lasted, right?

It was nice while it lasted.

It was just the four of us. 8th grade :(

27/09/2022

We were skating in that parking lot. We found that one spot to take Instagram pictures and sworn to each other we would come back here to take selfies in our coolest outfits. Actually, we never did. Tho, we did take pics of our foot on our skates, together. Then you took selfies of me fooling around, dancing around a highway sign. I looked so happy, but I hated how my nose and my smile looked, so i asked you to delete it. I think you never did. But I like it actually, the fact that maybe one day you will find that picture of me again and remember that moment. Remember us.

27/09/2022

We skated along the bikeway until the crossroads, and went in the supermarket. We bought juice and that energy drink you wanted to try. You hated it so bad, and that made me laugh. Then we did the trip back, but none of us wanted to go back home. So we skated in the small alley near our houses. It started raining, and soon, we got caught in that huge downpour. We danced to the sound of thunder, not giving a fuck if we were going to catch a cold. Our clothes soaked, we just laid down on the concrete, next to each other, and it felt amazing. The cold rain on my skin. Being next to you. Just the two of us. Like nothing else mattered.

We went at your place and got changed, you lent me ur clothes and I secretly really loved wearing them. We played minecraft, creating our own world where day could be endless, and we travelled together, building our home wherever we felt like.

We dreamed of doing that for real. Travelling together and settle wherever we want, as long as we’re together.

A part of me still wishes it could happen.

But i know it can’t.

I hope in an other reality we builded our own little world.

You were my world.

27/09/2022

We were at your house, doing a sleepover with our two other best friends. In the middle of the night, when everyone was asleep, you got up silently and left the attic. But I heard you, and waited for you to come back. When I realized you weren’t coming back, I got up to look for you. Your bedroom’s door was slightly open, so I pushed it, and found you, sat on your roof at your window. I didn’t know if I could join you, I hesitated, but I ended up doing it. I sat next to you, each of us headphones in, listening to music. It was so peaceful. It started raining. I got up and started to dance on your rooftop in the night rain, and you followed me. We were both thinking of a world we wanted to be in, and it wasn’t this one. We both didn’t wanted to be in this reality, so we just cried because we knew nothing could ever change that.

I never want to forget that night.

I hope you’ll remember it forever, too.

27/09/2022

You deserve to be happy. You deserve to move on. Move on from me. You deserve to get better. You deserve the world I couldn’t give you.

You deserve to heal yourself, after I broke you in pieces.

If I can’t be close to you for your own happiness, then I will watch you fade away from my life and become a memory. You deserve it, you deserve good friends who aren’t toxic like I was to you.

I wanted you to know that i will never forget you.

« Should the day ever come that we are not together, you will continue to shine like gold, in my memories. »

-quote from a character from our favorite game

27/09/2022

Thank you. I have lived a life I never even hoped I could live. You offered me the best unforgettable moments I could ever dream of. Thank you for that. Should your life be full of moments like that again. Not with me, with someone else that you will care about. An other me. A better me.

I really hope you’ll be happy. That’s everything I’ll always wish for.

28/07/2022

Why are you so distant. You only live a street away from my house. We could see each other every weekend. Hang after school. Go for a walk. Play video games just for an hour and then just go back home. Just a minute with you is all i ask.

A minute before it’s too late.

28/09/2022

Giving’s giving. Taking back’s stealing.

You gave me your heart. You can’t take it back. Please. I’m sorry. I swear I’ll take care of it this time.

29/09/2022

I feel like I'm losing her. Slowly losing her, but already so much. We almost don't even talk anymore. A quick "hi." "Hi"? How come our relationship shrank to a "hi" after everything we've lived together? We were best friends. I don't even know if i can call her a best friend anymore. Best friends talk to each other. Are honest with their feelings. The thing is, im lost. A part of me wants to "get her back", talk to her, take news, make sure we don't lose contact. But also, what if after all, she seems so much happier without me. And she deserves to move on from me. I’m not exactly sure if that what she wants. But anyway, i can't just go see her when she's hanging with someone else.

She is probably doing so much better without me in her life. She ate a donut at lunch the other day. A chocolate donut. She probably never would've done that if i was still in her life. A is so much better for her, a better friend, better listener, better influence. They have so many common interests. They spend all their time together. I can't just see her and talk to her, it would feel like im trying to take her back. When A is obviously so much better for her. I wish she could forget me. But i don't even know how, she feels herself and even if she wants to forget me. A part of me, of course, doesn't really want to. But an other knows it would be the best for her. And she deserves the best. So i don't know. Im lost. Do i try to maintain contact with her? Or cutting her out for her own good, even if that's maybe not even what she would like. I can't decide for her, but if judge she's better without me, I can? I don't know. What if she's sad? What is she thinks I'm the one who's moving on from her? I won't ever, but is it best if she believes that? I don't mind being replaced by [****], but will she take good care of her? Will she notice if she relapses? She is a good person, but Im scared she wouldn't know how to help her.

After all, anyone would be better for her than me.

05/10/2022

Running into you

Running into you

In the hallway

But your eyes seem

to avoid mine.

Noticing you

From far away

But you never seem

To notice me back.

It feels like you’re a ghost

Glimpsing your presence but

Then it vanishes again.

Whenever we cross paths

It’s like I don’t exist, maybe

I’m also a ghost to you, then

We’re both ghosts of our pasts

We don’t seem to be ready to face

06/10/2022

I was in your arms

We were sitting on the ground

Your scarf covering our knees

My head on your shoulder

Planning a future full of promises

We weren’t fine

But we were together.

08/10/2022

I see you drifting

away from me

Like I’m on a life ring

Floating in the sea

You’re the riverbank, slowly

Fading as I’m carried away

Until you become imperceptible

The horizon I can no longer reach.

14/10/2022

Warm clothes

Feel like warm hugs

Like those you used to give me

15/10/2022

I know she saw it

That I’m holding their hand

I like it, because that’s my way

To say to her that I moved on.

I don’t her to be sad

But oh, maybe just a bit

Just a bit, because my heart Shattered in pieces, too.

05/11/2022

I open up my window

the late night cold air.

I breathe in slowly

I see a lit window

I wonder if that’s yours

I wonder

If you’re thinking of me, too

05/11/2022

Cuddling on the mattress

Your body so hot against mine

Lost in your arms under the sheets

Where nothing can harm us

I want this moment to last forever

I don’t want to open my eyes

Because this is only place where I can still hold you,

In my memories.

05/11/2022

Just know that I’m totally over you, even though

I created a playlist of all the song that reminded of you

I keep in a box every little note we exchanged

I sleep in the sweatshirt you offered me

I write poems about memories together I don’t want to forget

I put a picture of us as my wallpaper

I check if you are online when I play to « our » game

I think of you every time I have to make a wish

I cry at night alone because I miss your presence in my life

I created on my phone an album of all the pictures of you in my gallery

I draw dozens of portraits of you in my sketchbook

I can’t skate anymore because it brings back just so much memories of us

I wonder if you are thinking of me like I’m thinking of you

I am currently writting this when it’s fucking late at night and I should be sleeping.

27/11/2022

I would.

I would sit next to your grave and talk to you for hours

I would let you cry on my shoulder even after you’d tell me you hate me

I would listen to you crying the whole night on the phone until I’m sure you are okay

I would fade away if you wanted me to

I would tell you everything you would want to know

I would say no at my wedding if you bursted into the church to stop the ceremony

I would listen to you talk for hours even if it’s to say nothing important

I would fight to live if you wanted me to

I would break up with my partner if you wanted to date me

I would forgive you if you broke every bone of my body

I would answer any of your calls and texts at any time

I would never leave if you wanted me to stay

I would never live if you wanted me to die

02/12/2022

We were supposed to

Explore Sumeru’s lands

Find the treasures on the Minecraft map

Cosplay for the first time

Go to conventions

Travel around the world and discover cultures

Do camping

Go to a skatepark

To a picnic date

Become artists

Create a video game

Go out in awesome outfits

We never did. We never will.

30/12/2023

I don’t want to look at her

Because I know that if I do

I’ll fall in love all over again.

01/01/2023

[my pages-long letter of apology.]

[We talked and, even though she didn't really want our friendship back and hasn't forgiven me for ignoring her, we're on good terms.

Before since were ruined.]

[goth-oatmilk-latte]

is there a story behind meeting new Mr oatmilk that you want to share w the class?<3 (ps he sounds like a well deserved upgrade)

sure!! so btw he took the photos of me at the cemetery/my current pfp!!

him and i have actually known each other for probably like 6 years or so. when we first met, he was married and we didnt really talk we just had a lot of mutual friends bc we like the same music and go to a lot of the same shows and we would just see each other in passing. he ended up telling me he was intrigued by me bc i had done a photoshoot and my pfp when we met was me holding a butcher knife in a wednesday addams outfit, and he said he knew i had to be an interesting person from that alone. he is quite shy though. we would also see each other places but never really said more than hi to one another. he got divorced in 2020, we talked a little then, but not really. then he dated his now most current ex, more or less bc she basically cornered him into a relationship while he was just getting over his divorce and homegirl needed a place to stay. hes told me he regrets it and said he literally should have kept trying with me bc being shy with me would have been a hell of a lot better than how things worked out for the 2.5 years of abuse she put him through. (his words)

last year we started talking a lot bc he was posting a lot of concerning stuff to his insta private story and so i kind of talked him thru his abusive relationship he was currently in and he mentioned he really needed a close friend. we ended up becoming gym partners for a bit before both our now exs went batshit over it and our friendship as a whole. and we stopped talking for a bit...and then we would talk a little here and there. and we both mutually agreed we were both in shit relationships.

around may, he texted me and told me him and his ex finally broke it off after months of him trying (long story) but he still wanted to at least be my friend again bc he missed me a lot. and i told him i was also dealing with more or less trying to leave my fiance. this is actually around the time i found the flashdrive full of nudes from other women ex mr oatmilk was keeping from me. and i finally left mr oatmilk after he tried to go thru my phone while i was in the shower, which prompted an argument about why it didnt matter who i was friends with bc he couldnt stop entertaining other women and i even pulled out the flashdrive and was like yeah im done.

so me and new mr oatmilk started hanging out more. he would go on walks with me after work. or we would go back to being gym buddies. or we would grab dinner. go to a bookstore. i helped him pick out stuff for his new apartment.

i asked him if he wanted to go see the cure with me at the end of last month and he surprised me by paying for a 2 night hotel stay for us instead of us just driving 2 hrs. and thats also when we went to the cemetery to walk around bc he knew id like it. thats pretty much when we decided we were actually an item.

i helped him move into a new apartment last weekend. and tonight im surprising him with making him dinner. ive pretty much stayed over since he moved in, which is funny bc he got a smaller bed than he would normally get bc he originally told me he didnt wanna feel lonely since it's just him...but he has only spent like one night alone since living there lol.

whats really fucked up tho is his ex is always trying to instigate with me...from doxing me in a bar bathroom, to literally driving by his new place to see if i am there. and shes friends with my ex now too. she's harassed me via text and social media, too. but it's fine, i dont usually engage. which pisses her off.

him and i are happy 🥰 hes honestly lovely.

[livingwithlosingyou]

Living with Losing You - 11/24/2022

Today was a busy day! It was YOUR day <3. I know you were with me. 

Happy Thanksgiving. This was your favorite holiday, for various reasons. You would always tell me about how you and your mom would cook Thanksgiving dinner together. I knew today was going to be a hard day. The first thing I did was text your parents actually. I wish you were here, so badly. Let’s dive into the day though. 

I woke up early because I did a 5k with Marissa. I got to do it free through her work which was cool! I ran into some old friends there, and Aaron who I coach with. I didn’t exactly get the time that I was wanting, but I also was not mad about it. I got hella boxed in and I was probably only going like 75-80% of what I could have so. That’s a good sign! It was funny though because after the race, I went back for Marissa and technically finished twice so I got two medals. I will say it was a little hard to be in that area because I have kind of been avoiding it since you died. We used to go on dates to the zoo, balboa park, etc. I miss you, wildly. 

After the race we went to PS and grabbed breakfast then chatted for little. Then, I went to drop off Sadie, pick up what I needed rom a few stores, then rushed home to start cooking. I ended up making your famous blackberry pie (I have renamed it the “Jake n’ Bake Blackberry pie”, and then the two sides we made together in 2020 when we went to my family’s thanksgiving. Last year, you were in sober living / it was a unique situation, so I saw you briefly. 

Thanksgiving dinner was at Court and Cailee’s new house. It was nice to see everyone. I had some really good conversation with a few people surrounding grief. One analogy that was said is it’s like planning a big trip to go somewhere (Italy for example) and you prepare, pack, etc. Then you land in Ohio and you’re expected to just be okay with it and figure it out. My life has been Ohio (no offense Ohio lol). I’m trying, and that’s all I can do. Continue to give myself grace. There was also a bunch of super yummy food! SO much food. While I was saddened that I didn’t get to spend it with you, I think that I made the most of it. I definitely cried. It was not easy. One thing I did to distract myself was play with my brother’s kids and build the paper turkey that was on the table for them. No shame. 

When I got home I definitely had second dinner and just relaxed, watched some shows, and packed for the trip tomorrow. State!!! I am pretty excited to be back up there. 

I am going to post some pictures from the festivities today. I MISS YOU. ugh. It physically hurts. It doesn’t get easier, especially with these holidays. I am not even sure how I am going to feel about Christmas.....

I love you, James. 

Rest in Peace, James Burton Nichols

10/1/1993 - 7/16/2022

[raid3r-r4bbit]

Reblogging with some close ups and old pictures I could find.

I have Sawyers shoes irl, but they're not painted anymore cause I had to repair them (I used to wear them literally every day) and painted over the already ruined paint job. But they are the demonia men's v creepers, I have the pair with the spikey buckle. I love spikes and hardware, can you tell?

I couldn't find any of *Aylix (I fuckin misspelled that gd) or Shelby, but I have some of Casper, the (not so friendly) ghost (wow creative, I was.) Which was the more edgy phase of jolt. (I figured it was too much ghosts and I wanted an excuse to draw aylix again cause like... look at him,.)

This is kho'ti around maybe 2017, 2018? Who then split into;

Kho'ti the teifling (was later turned into a 10ft blue alien and then back into a tiefling, but blue this time)

And sawyer, who looks more moody in this post than he actually was. (I'm like 99.9% that pose was traced. I'm sorry, I don't do that anymore :^])

Interestingly enough, sawyer and cas were supposed to be "together". Not really dating but definitely not friends.

This is casper; he is painted on my coffin shaped weed box as well, he went from having white hair, to blue hair, to green, then back to blue but with white, and then white. And he was an edgy bitch, but he was and is my edgy bitch.

First is from 2020 which feels like a million years ago ngl, and the last (i fuckin hate this picture btw) is from 2021. I feel very proud of my improvements thank you ehehehe.

There was a lot of stuff before and in between. I have most of my sketchbooks from '19 and on,' but only a handful from '17-'18. (We were living with relatives at the time, and our stuff was in storage, but it flooded, and I lost pretty much 90% of my belongings, and then I got kicked out in 2019(? Someone fact check me?) So my dad threw away a shit ton of my things, mostly books and stuff :^) thanks for that) but otherwise I'd have way more to show you, unfortunately, most of this stuff is lost to everything but my own memory and old insta posts.

Halloween is my favorite holiday, and it makes me very sentimental and nostalgic, so I'd be sorry, but I'm not. Happy Halloween, lmao.

Ps don't look at Sawyers face upside down pls it's so bad I couldn't make it look right upside down without it being REALLY wonky right side up okay thx

They themselves but their old versions :^D

Rikki as Shelby Faust, a ghost turned reaper, with a love for ballet and all things girly;

Keres as Kho'ti, a shy but friendly teifling warlock;

Jolt as Alex Moore, a moody cyberpunk merc;

And Bux as Sawyer Kelly (I never changed his name) A poltergeist who died chained up in fire.

[hstylesloverr]

PINK VENOM.

dad!harry x singer!reader

the series masterlist.

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yourinstagram a good wife only cooks for her husband.

bellahadid But since you don't have one yet, I guess it doesn't matter 🙈

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bellahadid I GAVE YOU ALL OF THIS ALICE

harrystyles Seriously stop.

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Ask Answers: January 28th, 2021 (Part 2)

Here we’ve got asks that aren’t to ask a question but are just really nice messages. Thank you all for sending us such kind comments ;v;. It’s seriously heartwarming to see so many people having good experiences with the game. I don’t even know what to say to such sweet responses.

We’ll keep doing our best and thank you again to each and every one of you for giving Our Life a chance ❤!

Hello! I've been following this account and have been following the development of 'Our Life' for a few months now, and I just wanted to say thank you for all your hard work and dedication you have put into the game. It astonishes me how much choice you have during the sequence of Our Life and am excited to play the full version now, I am downloading it as I write this message. I've had a great time seeing the demo transition into to the full game and just wanted to write two words. Thank you.

Anhhhhffbgdfbhujk!!! Congratulations on the release, I’m playing the game right now! Thank you all for your hard work and I can’t wait for the Step 3 DLC to come out, I’ll probably wait for the Step 3 DLC to come out to experience everything, but until then, I still have a lot to play. Thank you once again!

finished my first playthrough just now. it just felt so wholesome ??? 100/10 would do it again. i laughed. i cried. i got angry. i felt second-hand embrassment— i got so into it i was left in literal tears after getting my first ending. the art, the storyline, the music, and COVE HOLDEN– UGH IT WAS LITERAL PERFECTION ❤ THE WAIT WAS WORTH IT. THANK YOU FOR MAKING SUCH AN AMAZING GAME 🥺😭 this made my 2020 better, i can't wait for step 4 in 2021 ❤❤

So I was following you guys on itchio for years and uhh did I stay up til 6 am on a school night to finish the game? Yes. Did I sob my eyes out during step 3 as a 20 year old having doubts about life and adulthood? Absolutely. I can't form proper sentences right now due to lack of sleep but just wanted to say thank you for making it. I honestly feel lighter and I feel like it changed my views on future to be more optimistic... I can't wait to replay it! Thanks again!

I love how Our Life turned out!! I keep replaying it and can't stop squeaking and giggling!! Thank You for creating it ♥

okay i have actually fallen in love with cove and cannot WAIT to marry him 😭

Hi! I played through 'Our Life' yesterday and  I just wanna say how refreshing it was to be able to have Cove be 'high initiative' and also have so many opportunities to initiate affection from the player character! As a pretty flirtatious/affectionate person myself, I notice that a lot of VNs don't give players that agency, and affection can be kinda 'carrot on a stick' if that makes sense. You guys did an awesome job! I look forward to seeing if there are more of those moments in Step 3 & 4 :)

I have to say I was pleasantly surprised by the option to choose Cove's level of initiative in step 3! As much I love the option to choose I personally enjoy have the romanced character take the lead without my input so when I got to step 3 and had to option to make it so that Cove initiated affection without as much input from me I was really happy! You guys seriously added so much freedom in terms of choices, it's almost baffling that the only thing you have to pay for is optional DLC!

I absolutely loved everything about the game and I really want congratulate the team for making the game such a satisfying experience.

I look forward to step 4

❤️❤️❤️❤️

* and sorry for my bad English

Just finished my first play through and I loved it! I've been looking forward to the game and it definitely was worth the wait. Thank you all for your hard work and can't wait for the extra dlc!

Till then, hope you guys gets some well deserved rest🤗

Love you guys, thank you so much for your hard work. :)

Ok, so I just finished Our Life and, wow. I have never cried at a video game before, ever. Thank you so, so much! Its one of my favorites.

this isn't a question, but i just wanted to say how much i enjoyed our life 🥺 i've been patiently looking forward to the full game for a few months now, and i couldn't be happier with it! i've only played through it once so far but the outcomes of the choices i made were all so soft and wholesome 💗 i can tell that everyone who was involved really worked hard and you all did an incredible job! i can't wait to see what else is in store 👍

i’d just like to say how addictive our life is!!! i constantly played it during quarantine and now playing the full release is so amazing to me!! i love that i’m still discovering dialogue bits with different personalities and actions!!! i have to admit that i’ve been wishing the day to pass faster all day during school so i could go home and play again. mentally i’m not the healthiest and our life being released has boosted it up so much, thank you for creating such an amazing game!!!!!

Hey, I just wanna say I played our life two times and it still give me the same feelings. I was really looking forward to this game before it came out and I kept on replaying the demo. This game is such an amazing experience and I feel so happy playing it. I am not really a person good with words unfortunately but I do honestly love this more than anything in the world. Thank you for making it and I hope that you will continue to make more games like our life. This game really makes me happy and I can't thank you enough

Just wanted to say that Our Life really made me feel seen as an 18 year old trans man who's been struggling with change as of late and I can't thank you guys enough for it. I just finished the main story and currently released DLC's and gosh, I can really only say... woah. Just, woah. The messages are somehow exactly what I needed to hear right now, and they brought me a lot of comfort in this really weird and confusing time in my life. Can't wait to see what comes next in this lovely story <3

I am honestly in love with Our Life. The graphics, the soundtrack its just *chef's kiss* It was so worth the wait for it. I can't wait for step 4. Keep up the good work GB Patch!

good people i have just finished Our Life and let me say, it was beautiful. rarely have such non-fantastical moments (and even some fantastical moments) brought me to tears like this game has, and i don't even have the dlc (yet). i don't know how you did it but it felt like i was playing a slice of life anime. i had waited with baited breath to play this since i played the demo and my expectations were not just met but surpassed. from the bottom of my heart thank you for this game

I found the game by chance and I am so so glad I did. It’s so inclusive and made me feel so incredibly seen. Seeing that my gender identity and sexuality were possible just meant the absolute world to me. I’ve never seen something like this and it just made me so incredibly happy. Thank you for the absolutely amazing game and I can’t wait to see what’s next.

Hello! I downloaded Our life earlier this week and I'm only now getting the chance to play it (Very busy and stressful week) I'm so excited to play and I wanna say thank you for making this adorable game!

I just finished my first playthrough of Our Life and I can't even express how much I love it. Cove is absolutely precious and has killed me several times, and the art and soundtrack is beautiful. I love all the small different choices. I'm very interested in the Derek and Baxter DLCs and the rest, can't wait!!!!!!

thank you for "Our Life Beginnings & Always" it has to be one of the best visual novels i ever have played and i just dont want it to end (i know it will, but damn it! i want to have a wedding night, have children and die of old age with cole! XD) when i play it it always makes me tear up (in a good way) and i am most definetly going to buy all the dlc that you make! thank you for this lovely game and all the work that went into it! (ps: i also loved "lake of voices" )

You guys are incredibly talented and im very proud of you all! You've really outdone yourselves w/ OL and i cant wait to see whats next to come for you all :)

i really love that you can be trans in Our Life! not a lot of games do that so i just wanted to say thank you!

Guuyyss!! I just wanna say! Thank you sm for the headscarf option in the MC creator! I especially loved that little detail where MC quickly slips the headscarf on before greeting Cove, I've never felt so immersed :'D Not that the rest of the game wasn't immersive btw, but since I wear my hijab most of the time that little addition really felt like something I would do! So thank you for that <3

I've been watching "Our Life: Beginnings & Always" development for quite some time, and I gotta say its wild to see it finally release. Its so unique in the way relationships work- even character creation. I've cried multiple times over this game while playing. I can't thank y'all enough for a game with these kind of mechanics, and representation. its rare I get to feel im really playing as myself in games like these. Everyones outdone themselves. this'll certainly be one I keep coming back to.

I've been following the development of Our Life from way back when the first demo dropped and it still blows my mind how many choices and customizations there are (love that update for the MC's bedroom btw!) and the fact that the game remembers them - it really feels like your very own coming of age story! I was so immersed I cried at the end :') Can't believe I experienced this game for free lol. I can't wait for future DLCs and Step 4! Good luck with all your upcoming projects dev team!!

Just wanted to say I love Our Life and I'm thankful it exists. Thank you so much! I love the little world you created and all the people in it. Especially Cove! This game makes me so happy!

Just poping in to say hi and that ilu guys ^^, remember to take care of yourselves!

Hi!! I just wanna thank you for creating such an amazing game. Our Life is one of the few dating sims I’ve found that let’s me be a male mc, it’s really hard to find dating sims that let me be gay. Our Life is my new favorite dating sim to just sit down and playthrough whenever I’m having a bad day so I just wanted to let y’all know how much I appreciate all you’ve done. 🤍

Fan from australia here

Just wanted to reach out and let you know how important this game has been to me. I came across it at a really rough time ( that I’m still going through ) and it’s been one of the things that’s driven me to get up and out of bed sometimes.

This game and cove both hold a very special place in my heart and I can’t wait to see more of him in the DLC and Step 4

Much love ♥️

I know this isnt exactly the main focus of the game, but i really love how we can customise the mc personality wise! This is the first time i've played a game like this where the mc actually does and says exactly what I would do and say in certain situations and its such a breath of fresh air!! It's also so cool how the other characters can pick up on it!!

Cove Holden saved 2020 (my 2020 anyways) I would die for him

Sorry for this being out of the blue, but after playing through Our Life I wanted to thank you for the experience. I don’t know if I’ve ever played a game that has made me cry happy tears TWICE lol. It’s beautiful, scenic, inclusive, and absolutely amazing..have a great rest of 2020 and I honestly cannot wait for the rest of it :,) (ps. The ending song is stuck in my head)

I think you guys might've ruined visual novels for me forever. I'm not sure I'll be able to play another without comparing it to Our Life and I know if I do that I'll be disappointed every time because of how amazing it is. I bought the DLCs before playing the base game it's one of the best impulsive purchases I've ever made

Thank you so much for making our life! It's my favorite visual novel ever and I just can't articulate how much being able to just be honest with my responses instead of going for whatever would make the love interest happy means to me? I reccomended it to evry friend I have that plays visual novels because this is the best one I've ever played!

Just wanted to say that I absolutely adore this game! The childhood friends tropes is my favorite thing and this game delivers! Cove is the sweetest thing, infact all the boys are good boys. Super excited for all upcoming dlcs!

Hi, I just want to thank you for making such an amazing game like Our Life. Tbh, I was following the game’s development for a while, but me and my family moved away from my childhood town just a few days before release, so I really connected to this game. You all did amazing!

hey just wanted to know that i completely loved ol: b&a and it was so good and love cove more than i’ve liked any fictional character, it’s now my comfort media. thank you so much

hi i just wanna say i really enjoyed all of the representation in our life b&a! there were characters with a lot of different body shapes, pic characters, lgbtq+ characters, and you get to choose your own pronouns and sexuality!!! so tysm!!

This isn't a question, I just wanted to say that Our Life is incredible. Ever since I finished it, I've been looking for other visual novels to play so I don't play OL so often that I start memorizing the lines before all the DLC comes out, but I keep coming back to it. It's really one of a kind, I think you all ruined other visual novels for me because I haven't enjoyed another VN like I have this one since I read it ❤.

i think our life b&a is the first game where i felt like cove loved me, not the character i play as which is really nice for someone with kinda low self esteem so THANK YOU

I’ve been playing Our Life practically nonstop since yesterday. I just want everyone who worked on it to know how much the LGBTQ inclusivity means to me. As a closeted trans ace guy in an unsupportive household, I can’t emphasize how much of a comfort this game has been to me. Everything about it is so wholesome and heartfelt. I’m excited to see what other games you make in the future 💙

- A demibiromantic ace transgender man who may or may not have cried over the option to be myself in a game for the first time ever

Csn i just say i really appreciate how you handled MC deciding to use they/them at different stages. Mainly because alot of games don't pay much attention to the body the mc was assigned at birth if they player chooses nonbinary like it does with male/female. And it was just nice to be able to play an mc who just thought gender was kinda 'meh' for them but still felt good about the body they were born with (like myself). I guesd it boils down I'm really appreciative of the hard work it must've taken for you to make all those options possible & still have them matter.

I just wanted to thank you all for Our Life. My mental health hasn't been in a good place recently and it has become my favorite form of escapism/way to cheer up. It's idyllic setting and fantastic characters are such a good way to wind down, I love it. Also, I've been dreading 2021 due to classes starting and general stress, but the DLC and your next project have given me something to actually look forward to :). I'm so excited for them and now I actually have a reason to be happy that it's 2021. Sorry if this message is a bit weird, I just wanted to thank the team for their hard work and for creating something so incredible <3

I've gotta say this is one of the most repayable games I've ever played, if not the most. Usually after i do a playthrough or two of a game i have to wait awhile before playing again otherwise it feels stale. But i haven't had that problem with our life because of the sheer ammount of player agency. Everyone who works on tbe game should feel incredibly proud of themselves because you've created something amazing.

I just wanted to say thank you for Our Life. I'm sure you get this a lot, but it really pulled me out of a mentally tough spot in my life. So thank you.

who needs therapy when you have our life: beginnings and always? haha no but seriously this game is my comfort game, and even though i can’t join your patreon at the moment please know i am always supporting you and i am so excited to see everything you have in store! everyone who works on the games is so so talented

All DLCs have nice content. 😡😡

And I love them all!!💗💗💗💖💖💖💕💕💕

[lsmu]

14 Days of Winter - From Minjeong

I guess Hajoon-Oppa calls you 'Journal-nim'. Kekeke... So sweet.

How do I write this?

Oh... Hang on...

Kim Minjeong Journal Entry Sunday, 26-12-2020. 06.13 AM West End, Apartment, London, UK

Did I write it wrongly? Oh well... :)

Journal-nim.

Thank you for being Hajoon-Oppa's friend these past fourteen days. I... He left you on the kitchen table, so when I went out earlier I found you. Sorry, I guess I shouldn't be that nosy, but I had just spent the past couple of hours reading everything he had written here these past two weeks, and...

Gosh. He wrote a lot, didn't he? He wrote everything that happened. He even wrote about last night. :) (Shy...)

I am the luckiest girl in the world.

He's still asleep, looking so cute. Gosh. It was the first time I woke up with someone by my side on the bed. I woke up at four, I think, and I found myself crying, knowing that today is going to be the last I'm going to see him for God knows how long...

So...

Journal-nim... Forgive me. Can I write a little something for the love of my life in you? I hope you don't mind... :)

Hajoon-Oppa. When you open this book again later today... I might already be flying back to Seoul. I...

I just want to say thank you for these past fourteen days. I couldn't imagine spending my quarantine with anyone else but you.

Thank you for keeping me happy. Even when I felt like shit, you're still able to make me smile again.

Thank you for showing me London. I promise I'll come back here again one day to explore more of this beautiful city with you.

Thank you for believing in me. And... Thank you for loving me.

I'm not good with words. Not as good as you.

I just want you to know that I love you. I'm going to wait for you back in Korea. Please find me when you're home. I'll wait for you... No matter how long.

Here's hoping the pandemic will end soon, so you can return to my arms again.

I love you, my Summer, Your Winter💙 김민정

PS: Journal-nim, please take good care of Oppa, okay? I trust you.

[trekwithigor]

Trek With Igor

Hello Everyone,

Thank you for joining me on this crazy adventure. My name is Igor, I live in Toronto and I am 32 years old. When the Covid-19 Pandemic hit in March of 2020 I was terminated from my job.

There is alot of backstory there, but I was a Hospitality Professional at the top of his game. I was a General Manager for one of the finest Italian Restaurants in Downtown Toronto and then I had transitioned to work at Cafe Landwer, also as a General Manager in Training. When the pandemic hit I went to work back in Real Estate, and there is also a long story there as well that I won't get into right now.

But where does Trek With Igor start? So I love Star Trek Obviously. I watched the tv shows, I have seen the movies, I have played all the games and I actively play Star Trek Online. But thats not something that you can show to people. Noone cares what your online model looks like, or who your online character is.

Well maybe they do? But can I whip it out and show my bosses at work...No they're gonna think I am detached from reality and living in the future. So this is where my friend Henry served as my inspiration. He had moved out of Toronto, to Nova Scotia and he had started to do some amateur Lego Collecting and Modeling.

You Can check out his Instagram here :

But he models Star Wars Lego collectibles, and he does a fantastic job. He was the one who told me that Star Trek never licensed with Lego, and that I will have a hard time finding any sets that are ready to go. So instead he recommened that I find a site that has instructions, and then order the parts separately. So I did some research thanks to Pinterest and some blogs, and stumbled upon KY-E bricks.

I ordered the instructions, and they come in all the necessary and different formats. XML, CS, and IO files. The packages also came with a whole bunch of images etc. Overrall, these are HANDS DOWN the BEST Star Trek Lego models out there. ( I will post a comparison of the KY-E Bricks Constitution Model, and the one that my BF ordered as a set)

I then uploaded the instructions to Bricklink, (well first Re-Brickable) and then setup the carts and ordered them. I have an entire tips and tricks thing that I have figure out already on how to make sure that I am sourcing the cheapest parts. I also try to order from Canadian stores, and as local as possible.

They do amazing Lego Designs of all types of Sci-Fi and fantasy. I downloaded the Enterprise parts list, because I really wanted to start my collection by Building the NX-01 Enterprise. Jonathan Archer and his crew were my coming of age crew. They are the ones I watched as a teen every week explore what happens when you first step out into the stars.

I know the series itself was maligned, and I can see where the short falls were. Much like the original series, it grew to be loved by a small percentage of individuals. I wanted to be just like Jonathan Archer playing with my model of the NX-01. and I did it and I am very happy with the fact that I did it.

Now when I speak of my love and affection for Star Trek, I can show people the physical product of that labour of love. I will share images of my models, and I will also take better pictures of them in the future. I get to feel like a kid for a few minutes when I sit down with the LEGO. It gives me hope for my future, cause doing the modelling and dreaming of it and organizing myself, helped me out of the darkest times in the pandemic.

At first I started an Instagram Page, but I realized that its better to blog and then share to the world. I want to thank you for joining me on this journey. This started as a hobby to give me some hope for the future, and I hope you can get inspired to do something of your own!

PS: I will also post the costs associated with Each Model, and you will see how its super affordable to do!

[atinydise]

2020

❦ Genre: Fluff.

❦ Pairing: Yeosang.

❦ Word count: 758.

❦ A/N: Day 4 of “Ateez New Year Writings, Edition 2021” 🦋. PS: It’s SUCKS so bad :)

You lighted up the last candle on the table. “I can’t believe we are out of electricity for the New Year’s Eve.” You sighed, putting down the lighter. “It’s the same for the whole town Y/N.” Said Yeosang, sitting cross-legged on the floor. “Yes, but it sucks. I mean people can’t do parties anymore.” You pouted. “At least it’s quieter. No loud bumps or stomping upstairs.” “What a Grandpa.” You drank into the lemonade he brought you earlier. “Don’t forget the neighbors living downstairs, can hear 16 feet running everywhere.” “They never complained.” He shrugged. “Should we start?” You almost drooled over the tone of food on the table. “No.” He slapped your hand before you could grab a piece of pizza. “Tell me first what you are grateful for 2020.” You sneered at him, “2020? That might be the worst year ever.” “Come on...” he rolled his eyes. “Everyone is saying that, but I’m pretty sure there are positive things that happened.” “Well... maybe that I managed to pass my year?” Yeosang raised a brow, “yeah congrats, but... that’s all?” “Hum...” you looked around, trying to spot any objects or items that could help you to remember. Before giving up and rush on the food, your eyes stopped on the couch. A positive memory instantly popped in your mind.

“Oh true!” You snapped. “Even though you had a full schedule, we spent the lockdown together.” You smiled. “It was way funnier than spending it alone.” “Hum that’s actually a good one.” Admitted Yeosang. “Do you remember when we watched The Lords of Rings for soooo long that when Seonghwa opened the curtain, the sun was up?” You chuckled. “Yeah, we really went too far this day.” He smiled a bit. You really spent the best months with Yeosang or even the members. You cheered each other up every time someone was feeling down. “And you? What are you grateful for?” Your friend chocked with his drink, not expecting you to reverse the question. “Wait a minute, I know this expression Kang Yeosang.” You rushed to kneel next to him. Your face was at least 20 centimeters away from his. “Red cheeks... shaky lips... dilated pupils...” you enumerated. “What is her name?” “H-her name? What are you talking about?” He tried to grab a piece of pizza. “Her or his. It’s obvious that you have a crush on someone.” “Non-sense...” he sighed. "I don't have time for that." “Tell me her or his name.” You rested your chin on his shoulder, using your best puppy eyes. “Y/N...” He gulped because of the sudden proximity. “Or at least just a hint.” You begged knowing that he wouldn’t give up easily. “I’m grateful that I’ve spent almost my entire 2020 with this person.” He only replied. "That's all I'm going to say." “Argh. You are no fun.” “Let’s just eat.” He changed the subject and pointed at the food. You went back to your sat back on the floor, still confused. “Can you describe her in one word?” “Y/N...” “Just one! Come on, I’m practically begging you and I HATE that.” Yeosang sighed. The last thing he wanted was you to be upset. The private moment that you were sharing was already better than what he hoped for the last 2020's hours. “Okay only one and after can we eat?” “Yes sir!” You clapped enthusiastically. “Okay...” he took a deep breath. You were really anticipating his answer. “Lockdown.” “Lockdown?” You repeated dumbly. Yeosang nodded, taking a bite of pizza. “Who it can be? You spent the lockdown with me and-” A big silence settled between your friend and you. You didn't want to jump conclusion so you just waited for him to say something. “Seems like you got it.” He concluded when he saw the expression on your face. “Do- do you have a crush on me?” You asked straight. Your hand was right on your chest, trying to reduce your heartbeat. “We should eat because it’s becoming cold.” Said Yeosang, changing the subject once again. This time, you only nodded and grabbed the piece of pizza he was handing you. You were completely confused, but happy at the same time. During this lockdown, you took a while to suppress the feelings you had for Yeosang, but finally you had a chance to win his heart. You thought that this New Year's Eve would be boring considering the electric circumstances, but it was probably the best you ever had. "We will start this conversation tomorrow." You mumbled. "Y/N." Grunted Yeosang.

[haechanplsacceptmylove]

Dear 2020

2020 was honestly full of sad and happy surprises and incidents. Some of us might have experienced very bad things this year, and some might be thankful to this year and the surprises it had. For me this year had and did positive and negative consequences for my future, but i definitely, DEFINITELY learnt a LOT from it. I mostly learnt how people change no matter who they are and how close they are and i found positive in negative. I lost many friends and broke many relationships and disappointed and got disappointed in people.

But most importantly, i gained many new friends, whom i love and who love me back as much. Those people, precious people were my reason to keep going. Even when i once disbelieved in friendships, they made me believe that not all bones break. I learnt that only fake bones break, whether it will be now or later.

I'm very thankful for my friends and family and everyone who supported me through the good and the bad this year, and i hope they stay in my life for the many next years too❤️

❤️🎊Happy New Year🎊❤️

PS. THIS YEAR WENT BY SO FAST WHATSKSKSKDKDKD

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

Hi, Rachel! I was wondering if you’ve written anything that you’re especially proud of recently. It doesn’t have to have been published. Love your YouTube videos! :)

First, thank you for sending this question! <3 I've been going through a hard time lately with finals season and missing home, so this is just a really nice message to receive!

I have written a couple things I'm really proud of! I guess this isn't technically recent, but last semester I polished up my short story Phantom State (used to be Phantom Limbs in D Minor then just Phantom Limbs and now it's Phantom State) and it's my favourite short story I've ever written, I think. For some backstory, PS was one of the very first short stories I wrote. I started it in grade 12, and it took me a very long time to actually complete a first draft (a year) which is a long time for someone who usually drafts my stories in one sitting. I actually vlogged this process HERE! While I was happy to complete the draft, the story was so far from being finished, haha. That draft was such a pieced-together mess of the year it took to write it, though the foundation of the story was there. Flash forward to working on the story with CPs, etc, I thought the draft was in a good place, and submitted it to a couple magazines before re-reading it last summer and just not liking it.

I decided to workshop it for my fiction workshop this year and I’m so happy I did because it really forced me to edit the story before I submitted it. SO MUCH labour went into bringing the draft into workshop, even though the changes were small (the smaller changes I find can be the most difficult). I’m forever going to keep my prof’s editorial letter for this story, lol, it means a lot to me. Idk, working on something for so many years on so many drafts (which is unusual for my short fiction process) and then FINALLY finishing it was such a magnificent feat. This story took me from age 17-20 to complete! My magnum opus, lol. The characters, especially our narrator, Linda, mean a lot to me. I don’t usually feel attached to my short fiction characters at all, but Linda feels like my baby! I was thinking of adapting this story into a novel for that reason.

In other news, I WROTE A REAL NOVEL OPENING!!!! I hate to say the Fostered books don’t feel like real novels, and absolutely not to discredit my own work because my work is great in those books, I just haven’t written a non-Fostered novel opening since, I think I’m Disappointed (omg)?? Anyway, if any of y’all were here for The Sun Only Drowns Us hype that happened in April 2020 before the project intimidated me so badly that I fled into writing Feeding Habits out of fear (lmfao), then y’all know what this book is about! Here’s the summary (it might be a bit outdated):

The summer the sun turns poisonous, 15-year-old Eva commits to living off-the-grid with her neighbour Lillian Radoccia and her children, Charlie, Vera, and Jack. Lillian is convinced the sun is an evil, poisonous force that drives people to their ultimate deaths, so to protect herself and her family, she swaps her bustling life in a small British Columbia town, for a secluded life on a desolate island. They settle at a remote cabin where they only live at night, which Eva is thrilled about at first, having come from an emotionally absent household, though she quickly realizes something is not right when Lillian’s only daughter, Vera, turns up dead shortly after her sixteenth birthday. Coupled with Lillian’s increasingly peculiar relationship with eldest son, Charlie, Eva’s new life as an honorary Radoccia child begins having more consequences than benefits.

I never finished the novel opening back then because I got so intimidated by the retrospective timeline where the narrator dips back in time during flashbacks. I am honestly short-storied out right now, and really felt nauseated by the idea of having to write another short story for workshop (literally nauseated, like I can’t do short fiction for another couple months lol!), so I chose to do a novel opening for my second submission this term as a change. I discovered the sort of apparated pieces of this opening and absolutely fell in love with the writing (2020 Rachel was SO GOOD at detail!!!) and the characters all over again. I’m very happy I never finished the opening back in 2020, because truthfully, I was not skilled enough to play with the timeline back then, which the chapter needed. 2022 Rachel was legit STRUGGLING through figuring out the timeline myself, and I think I finally fixed it?? I know there’s a writing vlog where I talk about this struggle... I can’t remember which one but oh god, I was so thrilled to have finished the chapter! Honestly, this is the biggest thing in my writing career that has happened in a very long time, because I’m debilitated by novel openings. They terrify me so much to the point where I cannot write (y’all don’t even know--I actually restarted writing the opening of Houses With Teeth for this workshop, another book I fear-quit, but then also fear-quit that LOL), so I was so relieved that this opening worked out.

I want to make a video reading some of the writing I’m really proud of recently (unfortunately no short fiction or poems that I want to get published but lots of novel stuff) so this ask also comes at the perfect time!

Anyway, this was fun! If anyone wants to learn more about these projects or want to read some excerpts, lmk...!!!

[dsignnasaurus]

2021

It has been almost a year since my last personal post.

2021 went by so fast.... which is a good thing. 

Compared to last years’ shit show of losing my dream job and a global pandemic that resulted to losing my father; 2021 was a a lot better. its not where I want to be but it kept me on track with life. I was able to get a job in a big tech company which helped me save some money since I lost almost all my savings due to being unemployed in the pandemic.

In regards to my mental health, I wouldn’t say that I am as happy as my design role reveal post, but this experience has helped me wake up in the morning and be productive with my time(even though the job it self is starting to get BOOOOORINGGGG). I still struggle with creative block but I am slowly getting back into designing by taking small freelance work.

Currently, along side tech job, I am working  campaign branding design for a relative. Even though the pay is no bueno and the political content is also no bueno, I am still pushing through to push myself of a “designer’s mindset” and hopefully help me get another full time design job.

So overall I’m okay. still hopeful that things will just get even better from here on out.  Fingers crossed that my next update about life is all good news.

Thank you for reading!

*PS to the person who wrote me, in regards to my last post about 2020... Thank you so much! you don’t know how much that meant to me I really appreciate it!

[rosesvioletshardy]

life as we know it headcanons - ben hardy *quarantine edition*

i decided to make this because i’m bored and i really liked writing this story and i think this is what would happen if they were in quarantine during coronavirus

**ps i recommend reading the story first but you don’t have to if you don’t want

# of words: 718

warnings: fluff, implied smut

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When it first struck

they disinfected everything because they got a 4 year old and that’s prime time for germs 

especially if charlie is at nursery school at this point

y/n closes her shops down for those 2 weeks to be careful but still pays her employees because she cares

they do some shopping (not hoarding like people in the states) to make sure they have enough 

charlie gets bored easily because she misses her friends and her teacher but ben and y/n try their best to make sure that she still learning and can deal with it

a lot of cooking and baking ensures 

charlie also doesn’t have a problem with face masks though and likes wearing them whenever they went out even if under 11′s don’t have to wear masks but she chooses too and ben and y/n are fine with that

whenever ben is on zoom chats with rami, joe, and gwilym, she always wants to talk because she loves her uncles

y/n is baking and cooking more than usual and has to send some to jack and melissa (who now moved to England and live near them) because sometimes it’s too much

when she opens back up her stores, she bakes treats and takes them to the hospital along with coffee since they are the ones who do most and are taking care of everyone effected (affected? idk those words still confuse me and i’m 20)

when she went back to work, she felt a sense of relief knowing that she would only have to deal with delivery drivers and not certain kinds of customers

they figure out ways for charlie to be entertained and ben definitely lets her do his nails and makeup badly as long as she’s happy

he tries his best to teach her things they teach at school while y/n is at work and sometimes they 

he starts reenact scenes from movies for her and they put on plays 

y/n enjoys them even if they are something that charlie made up at the top of her 4 year mind

a lot of blanket forts 

ben learns how to get better at cooking so when y/n comes she doesn’t have to go through the trouble

when she allows people to start coming into the store, it became too much for her to the point where she had a breakdown after arguing with customers that they had to wear a mask, that ben lets her rest and makes dinner for all three of them and they all cuddle on the couch

now onto their wedding

okay so they got engaged christmas day 2018

but they decided to have it in 2020 because they didn’t know how busy ben was going to be

so 2020 comes around and the pandemic strikes

they originally thought about doing it around September/October because nice weather

when the lockdown was insured,, they didn’t know what they were going to do since they didn’t know how long it was going to be so they decided to have it over zoom after lockdown was lifted because ben and y/n are stubborn but still wanted to be safe

jack was their minister but since it wasn’t going to be *fully* legal, they kept their original wedding date incase England could get it under control maybe

they limited the amount of people meaning it was them, charlie, jack, and melissa

then they had everyone else on zoom since they also wanted their friends there and witness it

joe even brought out cardy b for the call session which they thought was funny 

it was a lovely small backyard wedding

jack and melissa took charlie for the week so y/n and ben could have some ~a l o n e t i m e ~

they honestly don’t remember the last time they got to be alone and have a proper night “out”

they did not know what to do at first because they didn’t get a break from charlie since she was always their main concern

they did some adult things

they’re favorite thing so far was actually getting to sleep in and not being woken up by a hyperactive four year old or alarms for work

they made the best of it as much as they could for one week

[justzawe]

Top 5 iconic moments on this blog in 2020

Using the word “iconic” loosely, let’s look back on the memorable moments that brought us together and tore us apart in 2020

5.) The fucking foot debate

This is by far, the weirdest conversation I’ve had on this blog. Back in February, Zawe left Atlanta and went to New York. During her stay, she posted this picture on her Instagram stories:

Seems pretty innocuous, no? Surely no need for drama or debate, right? THINK AGAIN. This pic actually started a debate between my anons on whether the feet in this pic were from two different people or Zawe alone. A debate that got pretty heated at one point, so I had to tell everyone to stfu. It’s not that serious, y’all.

ps: that’s totally just Zawe’s feet

4.) Finding out Zawe was in Atlanta, based on a damn SCULPTURE

My DMs on here can be wild. The things people are able to find out, truly amaze me. How are some of y’all not working for the CIA? Anyways, someone had found out where Hiddles was staying at in Atlanta, based on a couch he had in a IG live he did this summer. So naturally when Zawe posted a video of herself, it was only a matter of time before folks were able to connect the dots between the sculpture in her video and the decor in Tom’s place. This of course angered the haters because it was evidence of Zawe being with Tom in Atlanta, so I found it hilarious. We love art.

3) The fact that I was able to find Zawe fan meetings TWICE

You guys, this was seriously a needle in the haystack situation. I randomly hit someone’s IG stories and it was a dude that ran into Zawe in Atlanta. Haters had been in denial that she was there, they refused to believe AtlantaFilming saying Tom had arrived with his girlfriend. So obviously I yelled when I saw that pic. It still blows my mind that I was so lucky to find that. Then it happened again this fall, when a fan ran into Zawe and Bobby in London. Who’s doing it like me? Nobody 💅🏽

2.) The vet video

Bobby decided to shake the table on the 4th of July, and ate some raisins. Hiddles being a good doggy daddy, took him to the vet, and one of the vet techs provided us with a short video. Now, it’s obvious to me and anyone else with eyes and common sense, that the woman in the video with Tom, is Zawe. But of course, Tom’s fandom has a chronic issue with accepting reality, so they fought me and my sensible anons tooth and nail over this. Some even going as far as to say it was a white woman, or that if it was Zawe, then Bobby hates her. Even to this day, some don’t believe it was her. Pobrecitas

1.) AtlantaFilming comes through

YOU GUYS, this day.....fucking CHAOS. I don’t think I’ve ever gotten so many asks on here on one day since then. On January 10th, AtlantaFilming (a pap) tweeted that Tom had arrived in Atlanta the day before, with his GIRLFRIEND. Shit immediately hit the fan in the Hiddleston fandom, and us here in our little corner were yelling and were pretty positive it was Zawe. We were in the middle of discussing all this, when Zawe decided to start following people in Atlanta on her IG. Not just any people, but party planning people, even one specifically for weddings. The shit that ensued after was so fucking funny. The glee, the meltdowns, the hate asks. It was disturbing and amazing. Only a surprise wedding could top it. Definitely the highlight of my tumblr experience in 2020.

I hope everyone enjoyed all my mess on here this year. I know this was the shittiest time, and if my blog put a smile on your face for even a second, I feel proud of this space. I look forward to more shenanigans on here in 2021! Happy New Years! 🎊