#sleepymostardraws

[sleepybradipo]

fighting…

I'm ALIVE, somehow... I had to redo my portfolio to take it to the Angulemme festival and I was absent because of this heheh, but now I am back!

[sleepymonstar]

~art nouveau pieces

[sleepybradipo]

As always, it's a pleasure. I love realizing your ideas.

💙💙🫂🫂

“I was held in chains but now I’m free…”

“Hey, little train! Wait for me! I once was blind but now I see. Have you left a seat for me? Is that such a stretch of the imagination?” (“O Children” by Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds)

I feel obligated to set up a trigger warning on this post, since I’m mentioning thoughts of suicidal ideation in my text. If you’re feeling uncomfortable with this topic, please feel free to ignore the following four paragraphs and skip right to my praise for the incredibly talented artist of this comic strip.

As already mentioned in some of my latest posts, I’ve commissioned some of my favourite artists here on tumblr for a special project of mine: My afterlife project.

I’m suffering from multiple autoimmune disorders, which probably have paved the way for this bitch of a disease, ME/CFS (myalgic encephalomyelitis/chronic fatigue syndrome), two years ago. Sure, my life already wasn’t the easiest before, but since then, it came to a standstill. More and more, I lost my abilities, my social life, my place in the society…and surely even my participation in my own family. My days are mostly spent in bed all day and night, surrounded only by darkness and solitude.

Patients with severe ME/CFS might die earlier than expected, due to multiple organ failure and - yes, I have to admit, that this reason is, indeed, undeniably relatable (and alluring) to me - suicide. With each passing day, that I’m doomed to “live” with these confines of my personal hell… imprisoned within myself without any chance to escape… death appears to be a welcoming friend, who’s only awaiting to pull me into a tight embrace. For me, it’s like it’s written in the following poem (“Joy in Death”) of Emily Dickinson…it will be good news and maybe even a relief…not just for me.

I know, I can’t leave, yet… and that I have to stay as long as endurable - at least for my children’s sake - but… yeah, BUT��� but, damn, I’m tired. My personal limits are set… my lines are drawn… my responsibilities are cleared and both of my closest friends are informed about my pathetic little wishes (please, play that goddamn song for me!). I’m prepared. But for now, I have to stay…. to fight a little longer… to be a mom, even though my kids only see me for a few minutes each day… a mere shadow of the mother, they used to know. It’s a fucking shame!

For this particular part of my afterlife project, I’ve commissioned my sweet friend @sleepybradipo, who will always be my first choice to draw my vision of the young Severus in his own uniquely tender art style, which I’m so weak for.

In my imagination, I will be able to choose, how my eternal life will look like. Finally, I’ll be with Severus! We’ll meet at the age of 11 years and eventually spend the rest of our lives side by side...growing old together. Severus and Jukes will finally get the life, they’ve always deserved to have. I’ve started to show sections of this existence by Severus’ side in some of my other posts, which belong to this project. It may sound strange and pathetic (obviously), but this is all, that I'm wishing for. I want to come home to him.

For this artwork, I asked @sleepybradipo to make the process of “renewing” visible…almost like some kind of resurrection! Jules is stripping off her old, exhausted self, only to be 11 years old again…happily running towards the 11 years old Severus, who’s waiting for her.

Ivano, at first, I felt guilty for my request for this commission. I’m constantly afraid of becoming a burden to others with my ridiculously morbid thoughts and ideas. But you, my dear friend, made me feel seen with your kindness and compassion. Your understanding of my fantasy and the way, you’ve realised it in this mesmerising piece of art, are absolutely breathtaking! I don’t know, how I could possibly show enough gratitude to express, what your art is doing to my black little heart. It’s like a bandage…a soothing balm… a comforting embrace. Thank you for everything, Ivano.

🖤Severus & Julia🖤

🖤Sevy & Jules🖤

PS: I have to apologise for my repetive use of terms in my writing this time. The lack of coherence might be caused by my current “crashing” condition and a weird cocktail of different medications. I’ll try better next time, but it was important for me, to show this heart-wrenching composition of art as soon as possible. Your work needs to be seen, Ivano!

[sleepybradipo]

Hi! Saw you need ideas so how about Sev giving Harry his first plushie?

First Plushie...

Ahhhh, I made it!!! @ravenite-void Thank you for this lovely idea. It took me a while to finish it because of work but here it is!

[sleepybradipo]

bad dreams...

AHHH, I STARTED DRAWING ALMOST EVERY DAYYYEAH!

[sleepybradipo]

a bit of severitus, little harry.

AHHHHH I LOVE THE IDEA OF SEVERUS WHO IS HARRY'S FATHER! (not biological)

[sleepybradipo]

young Severus teaching his son...

i need ideas...im tired.

[sleepybradipo]

severus has something to say...

a bit of a quick drawing to "celebrate" Valentine's Day.

How would you respond to the young Potions Master?

[sleepybradipo]

A quick sketch. He robbed the library.

[sleepybradipo]

Contemplation

Something quick to pass the time...ahhhhh he so PRETTYYY!

[sleepybradipo]

FABULOUSNESS AND SPARKLES!!!

[sleepybradipo]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEV!!

EH EH! I was the only one missing to wish our Sev a happy birthday! Better late than never! This character helped me out of a bad period and it was necessary for me to make a dedicated drawing for him. Thank you. Anyway, I finished this drawing 5 minutes ago… I finished it very quickly. And my hands hurt…

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[sleepybradipo]

old memories

In one of the few quiet moments at Spinner's End — and Tobias was was away from home — Eileen took out her old kit for potions and battered books and taught her son the art of potions.

[sleepybradipo]

Jealousy…who will he be looking at? (Pt. 1)

Ahh, I am resurrected!

Work is killing me but next week I should finish ahahah, at least they won't renew my contract... we'll see.

[sleepybradipo]

the young potion master

old drawing I finished today, I have so many to finish… Anyway!

the flowers used are some that make up the 'Draught of Living Death': Asphodel, Valerian, and Wormwood leaves. References kindly taken from medieval illustrations.

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[sleepybradipo]

AHHHHHHHHH, I LUV HIM SO MUCH!!!

smol severus.