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I love the ii contestants choosing their real names thing because I do think that fan and test tube would pick their common fanon names (like finn and tessa), but I think that trophy would pick some dumb shit jock name. "Okay so ive done some thinking, and I watched a horror movie. And that movie was inspirational. Im going to call myself jason." and the others are like "I mean sure, thomas was right there but jason works too."
#inanimate insanity#ii#ii spoilers#technically#ii trophy#or should i say ii jason#trophy inanimate insanity#osc#silver's mental breakdown
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Seeing this at 12:00. At night. Exactly. The universe does not want me visible, but I am here, universe! Know my name, despite all else! I am visible! I am known!!
I AM BISEXUAL!!!!!!!!!
Fact: Today (September 23rd) is bisexuality awareness day. Be aware of bisexuals. They are dangerous.
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I WAS RIGHT SILVER IS THE KNIGHT OF DAWN’S SON AND HE WAS BORN IN THE PAST AND MOST DEFINITELY IN CURSED SLEEP AAAAAAAA
I’m gonna throw up
He used to be blonde but it changed to Silver with Lilia’s blessing 😭😭
#twst#twst spoilers#twisted wonderland#twst chapter 7#twst silver#i’m losing my MIND#and so is Silver he’s having a mental breakdown cause his life was a lie#edit- just found out he got a blessing from lilia that changed his hair
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I just want to fold them up in paper and keep them in my breast pocket
#i draw her different every. time. how!!#anyway the priest's collar came to me in a dream#as these things often do#as i was drawing i was imagining a “harrow and nona identical relations” au#gideon and pyrrha shoving them together for those awkward distant cousin photos you had to take at holidays#pov you're a 17 year old silver bullet who can meet a lyctor in battle amid insomnia and mental breakdown#and you are faced with incontrovertible evidence of your own babyness#meanwhile nona is skittish around harrow but camilla is holding a brand new 2b pencil over the camera to reward her if she stays and smiles#they're just!!! babies!!!!!!! and bombs!!!!! :((((#the locked tomb#the locked tomb fanart#tlt fanart#tlt spoilers#the locked tomb spoilers#nona the ninth spoilers#nona the ninth#nona palona#harrowhark nonagesimus
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ITS OVER GUYS TWST JP CAFUNE MADE AN ARRANGEMENT FOR THE LULLABY SONG AND IT REALLY SOUNDS LIKE ONCE UPON A DREAM NOW IT SOUNDS SO DREAMY AND HAPPY AADHAHDUWUFEU
i am crode... Melenor and Lilia singing that lullaby to their children... in duet... I have no thoughts anymore 😭😭💔💔✨✨
The lullaby has mainly tone of safety. You notice how its mainly sung when the baby is in a distressed state? (Before Meleanor left TamagoMalleus, when Silver was crying).
Understandable that This arrangement makes me think that nothing bad ever happened 😭💞💖✨
Please give it a listen, the scenarios playing in my head hurts man 😭😭💔💔💔✨✨✨
#twst#twisted wonderland#disney twisted wonderland#twistedwonderland#lilia vanrouge#twst meleanor draconia#meleanor draconia#twst lilia#I FEEL LIKE SILVER RN#I CAN NEVER ESCAPE THE MENTAL BREAKDOWNS FROM THIS BOOK#AND DIASOMNIA STANS JUST AMPLIFIES IT UP 😭✨✨#Youtube
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Now accepting Twitter refugees! Did the bird app die in your hands as the walls around it crumble? Did you see its buyer-- Mr Musk-- as you left? Did you see him lose all that money? 200 billion dollars, was it? Welcome to Tumblr. Welcome to your new home.
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on my way home
Summary: Quinn gets a late-night text to pick the reader up from a friend's apartment. Set shortly after they moved out together.
Tags: Drug use, angst, blood mention. Nobody is having a good time here.
Read it on AO3 or read it below :)
Quinn drives to the apartment without the radio on. The roads are empty, the streetlights lit up in a long line of sickly-yellow spotlights just for her. It makes sense; it’s four thirty-six in the morning on a Wednesday. Everyone else is tucked away in bed.
Not her, though. Even before getting the four twenty-two text, she’d been awake, folded up on the couch watching late-night infomercials. Her phone had been held loosely in her hand and when it’d buzzed, she’d almost dropped it in her haste to see if it was an ‘on my way home’ message from you.
She pulls up outside of James’ apartment building, her beaten-up sedan looking right at home in front of it. The air is cool and the world outside is almost as silent as her car had been. This far into the city, there are no birds, no buzzing cicadas, no ponds to be populated with the growls and croaks of frogs, to echo through the night like the fading din of a church bell. She is so very far away from home. Not home, actually, not anymore, and that’s a good thing.
Quinn’s buzzed into the building and then takes the stairs two at a time, one hand on the rail to keep herself steady and the other keeping her cardigan wrapped securely around herself. Once outside of apartment 303, she knocks and waits.
The door open and light spills out onto her, bright like the first rays of dawn cracking over the skyline.
“Come in, Quinnie,” James says, ushering her in. His pupils are huge, black pools swallowing blue. His jaw ticks. “Sorry for texting you so late. You weren’t asleep, were you?”
“It’s okay,” she says. “I was up anyway.”
Her nose wrinkles as she tip-toes into his apartment. The place smells like old alcohol and older smoke, the kind that gets embedded in the carpets and stains the drywall yellow. He’s got incense burning on his coffee table, which just adds to the whole unpleasant affair, rather than covering anything up.
She doesn’t like James; hadn’t in high school, even when you’d done your best to make everyone get along. She likes him even less now. She’s not sure if you’re the bad influence on him or if it’s the other way around, or if you’re both just as bad as each other.
She doesn’t like the other people in his apartment, either. Ollie is splashed like watered-down paint over the couch, her eyelids closed. Her fingers twitch as Quinn passes by, but she doesn’t otherwise react.
“Hey, it’s carrot top,” says Buck, the other occupant of the room, his beady eyes trained on the television. “Thank the stars. Clean up in aisle seven, otherwise known as James’ bathroom.”
Mortification burns in her belly, and she wraps her cardigan around herself tighter.
“Shut up,” James says, flipping Buck the bird. He turns back to Quinn and does his best impression of an apologetic look. “But he’s kinda right. Your girl’s a bit of a mess.”
James takes her to the bathroom. The door is open, ceiling light pale yellow and fan humming. You’re kneeling on the grimy tile, between the wall and the toilet. You look barely awake.
“Quinn,” you say. Your voice is thick, like your nose is blocked. Which it is, Quinn guesses, going by the blood on the lower half of your face. Your nose – it doesn’t look broken, she thinks, but what does she know?
“Had a bit of a run-in with the edge of the table, didn’t we?” says James. He looks at her again, still apologetic. His handsome face looks wan beneath the stark bathroom light. “She, ah, went a little too hard and then added alcohol to the mix.”
“’M fine,” you slur, then promptly lean back over the toilet to wretch. Nothing comes out, which bodes poorly for you.
She kneels down next to you, the floor cold through the thin fabric of her pyjama pants. She brushes your sweaty hair away from your forehead and strokes your back with long, gentle brushes, until the gagging subsides. Your whole body shakes and she can feel the individual nodes of your spine through your skin.
“Should I take her to -.”
“No hospitals,” you say. You look at her with glazed, teary eyes. “No hospitals.”
“Okay,” she says.
You sigh and then close your eyes, leaning against her. Your skin burns. She gathers a wad of toilet paper and presses it under your nose, holding it there.
“You gonna be right to get her home?” James asks. He sniffs and rubs at his nose.
“I’ll be fine,” she says. What else can she say? There is no other option.
“Listen, babe…” James sighs. He steps out of the bathroom and beckons her to join him. She’s loath to leave you alone – she hates to think how long it’s been already, how long you’ve been by yourself, so sick, so lost to yourself – but she follows him all the same.
James shuts the door. “I don’t think – Look. This is awkward, but she can’t come around here anymore, okay? We’ve all talked about it. It’s nothing personal, but no one likes to see her like this. Kinda puts a damper on the whole evening, you know?”
She stares at him. Something fizzles in her chest, a cold, numbing ache. It makes her fingertips tingle. “You’ve known each other for years. She’s your friend.”
“Yeah, of course she is! We’ve always had fun together. It’s just. Well.” He clears his throat.
“She’s not fun anymore.” Her voice rings in her ears.
“Exactly,” James says, satisfied. “You get it. No hard feelings, right?”
You have known James forever. Known all of them for years. You would die for these people.
“Right.” Quinn swallows the chill down. It feels like swallowing nails, or a tooth. Sharp. Like it’ll bore through her insides and cut her open.
“Great. I’ll help you get her into the car.”
Getting you downstairs is a process. It’s a two-person job, so James comes down to the car with her, making sure that you don’t tumble down the stairs. Once you’re at the car he passes you over to Quinn and you collapse into her, hugging her tightly, your face buried into the crook of her shoulder. Your blood is sticky on her neck.
“Sorry,” you say, the point of your nose cold against her skin. “Sorry, sorry.”
“It’s okay, you’re okay,” she soothes, running a hand over your hair. She needs to unpick her fingers from the tangles.
You mumble something into her neck. For a moment, she thinks you’re going to vomit again and wonders if she should redirect you to the gutter, but then you sigh, thin and high. “Are you mad at me?” you ask, voice like a kicked dog.
“No. No, of course not. C’mon, get in the car, I’ll get you home and into bed, and we’ll have a look at your nose.”
You tumble into the car and it takes you a few tries to get your seatbelt to click.
“One more thing, Quinnie,” says James. He stares at you, curled up in the passenger seat. “Has she told you about Jesse?”
“I think so?” She hates that it sounds like a question. Hates that she knows so little about your comings-and-goings that she can’t keep track of all of your friends now. “Um, you all met him at Rendezvous a few months back, right?”
“Yeah, that’s right.” James rubs at the back of his neck, then looks around, almost covertly. For an absurd moment, Quinn feels like she’s part of some cheesy spy movie, alone in an empty street save the streetlights. “Look, you didn’t hear it from me, but the dude’s bad news. He’s into some shady shit and he really likes your girl.”
“She wouldn’t cheat on me,” Quinn snaps, the words whip-quick and firm with her resolve.
James screws up his face. “That’s not what I mean. ‘M just saying that – I don’t know if he just deals or something else, but he’s not a nice guy. I saw him –.” He cuts himself off and then sighs again. “It doesn’t matter. Just try and keep him away from her, yeah? Just some friendly advice.”
“Okay, thanks,” she says, feeling queasy. She’s met Jesse, only once, and he hadn’t made much of an impression. Just another one of your friends who circle like sharks around you, all wandering hands and hungry eyes. “I’ll keep that in mind.”
James leaves and then it’s just you and her, the way it should be.
Quinn gets in and starts the car. The sound of the engine rouses you from whatever stupor you’d been in – you blink blearily at her, wiping a flake of dried blood away from your nose.
“Hey,” you say, voice still thick.
“Hey,” she replies. Her tone is flat, even to her own ears. She starts the car, ignoring the way her hands shake as she changes gears.
“I’m sorry,” you say again after a few minutes of driving. You’ve opened your window and have been staring into the inky night with almost preternatural stillness.
“I know.”
There’s a moment of quiet. Quinn wonders if she should put some music on, if having something to focus on will make you feel less sick.
“What are you thinking about?” you ask. The wind from the open window makes your voice sound like it’s coming through a poorly tuned radio.
“I’m thinking that you could’ve died tonight,” she says, and it’s not what she’d been thinking at all, but now that she’s spoken the words aloud the thought consumes her. You could’ve died tonight. So easily. Blow to the head, an overdose, drowning in your own vomit.
And you didn’t, but you could very well die tomorrow. And if not tomorrow, the day after that. So on, so forth. How many more texts is she going to wait up for? How many more times will you come home to her?
“I’m okay. I’m alive, see?” You grab her hand with your clammy one, ripping it from the steering wheel, and bring it up to your throat. Your pulse jumps against her feeble grip.
You’re right; you feel so very alive and there is so little keeping your blood where it should be, just a thin layer of skin.
She tears her hand away and places it back on the steering wheel. The road ahead is dark and she needs to focus.
From the corner of her eye, she watches you wipe at your crimson face with the palm of your hand and for the first time in her life, she doesn’t look at you and find you beautiful. She can’t metamorphose the gore and the sadness and the shadows under your eyes into something enthralling. There’s nothing poetic about this. There is only blood.
#silver string#quinn lawson#the electrician#Quinn/Reader#on my way home#i wrote this post mental breakdown to excise the Bad Feelings so please excuse how fucking emo this is lol
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How would Terry react if the reason why beloved doesn’t want kids is not because they don’t necessarily want any but more so of the way he acts. They’re not sure how he would treat any possible children of theirs and just from the way he treats other people and even physically hurting beloved in some cases. They just don’t see Terry stable enough for that type of responsibility.
I think he takes severe insult to it, won't lie.
Not because he isn't aware of his, lets call them, darker proclivities (in fact, he gleefully embraces them, more often than not) but simply because all the lowlives, neglectful, unworthy, incompetent, down and dirty punk nobodies of the world are out here breeding, usually, without a single critique attached to their rights to do so (or a single care in general), but it is only him who gets a whole analysis of his character and all his virtues and flaws shoved in his face before the very opportunity for him to even attempt to form a legacy is discussed as valid. If this is an older Terry, Johnny Lawrence might immediately come to his mind as a bit of a sore spot, surrounded with a brood of children he'll, as Terry sees it, undoubtedly fuck up one way or another, and yet nobody will peep a word about it. In fact, Terry envisions golden boy Lawrence, congratulated by everyone like he just invented sliced wonder bread and yet the guy couldn't even be bothered with his own son's prom night or the fifteen years of his upbringing that came before that. Backyard barbeques with friends, baby showers and celebratory pats on the back following suit. But, Terry? Terry, for all his accomplishments, talents, achievements, successes, wealth, status, strength, worldliness and polish is seen as too unstable to try, even by his own significant other? If that isn't a reason for bombastic levels of ire --- I don't know what is.
Now, this conclusion will reek of classicism on Terry Silver's behalf, yes.
He is convinced he's somewhere high up, in fact, he knows he is, and is as such, privy to special privileges, and that most people are somewhere down there, somewhere beneath him. And yet they're still considered better potential parents!? Seriously!? Bullshit, he calls it. The very fact that beloved sees him, as, lets say, damaged, volatile and, most importantly, from Terry's point of view, too weak for parenting is like a direct slap in the face and serves to question his authority and even his quality. Like they view him as somehow inadequate. Unworthy. Out of control. And Terry might be caught between a desperate, feverish stalemate to prove his devotion by any means necessary (and most importantly, prove them wrong and make them regret those words) and and seek revenge. Namely, to avenge himself. Take control of the situation. Take matters into his own hands. What might proceed from here on out might range into some steep territories involving very dubious consent. Or no consent at all. Pick your poison. Beloved takes him unstable? Okay. Alright. Cute. What one pours into their cup is ultimately what they'll drink.
Words like that aren't for free, though.
Words that beloved imparted towards his ability and even sanity.
He'll show them just how fucking unstable he can be, if they want.
To quote Shakespeare, he's determined to prove a villain.
Replacing their contraceptives for fertility drugs, pinning holes in condoms, lying, scheming, seducing, intimidating, coercing, brainwashing, playing with their perceptions, putting them under house arrest and pretty much holding them hostage once they inevitably do fall pregnant, bribing off private doctors and gynecologists to help along with his machinations in case it ever comes down it, trespassing all boundaries, cumming inside of beloved (trickery abound) and gaslighting them to believe that no, in fact, that's just their imagination doing numbers on them or straight up pinning them down, taking them and telling them what his end goal is, if push comes to shove. That he'll keep fucking them and taking them whenever and however he wants until they pay dearly for what they said to him. They think he acts bad!? They think he's dangerous!? Deadly!? Oh, he's all that and more, in fact. And he tried to be so nice. Really. He did. But if beloved already has this raw perception of him as a person, he might as well embrace it and make all their worst predictions come true, because he feels he's given every reason under the sun for it.
Deep and profound irony is, Terry Silver genuinely might've been more mellow if beloved never said a word about this. But words will cost you and once they're out of your mouth, you can't put them back inside. You can just bear the brunt of the consequences and the fallout they cause.
#terry silver#kk3#cobra kai#tw; dark#tw; dubious consent#tw; nonconsensual#tw; tampering with contraceptives#tw; mental breakdown#tw; rape#tw; forced pregnancy#tw; gaslighting#terry silver x reader#terry silver x beloved
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Okay but jumping on the Annie Brady train, how about Kennedy Egan!! Has a nice ring to it 😭🤍🙌🏻
ME:
KENNEDY EGAN.
y’all i gotta say, these names are really clicking and doing something for me (proceeds to SOB) I LOVE THIS FOR THEM. FOREVER THO. kennedy egan stopppppp, she’ll be mrs egan and i will love that for her 😭😭😭
y’all have me so emotional about the SB girlies right now. i am. not. okay. 😭 (they just deserve happy lives after the war more than anything 🥺)
kennedy egan has such a nice ring to it toooooo omg 😭
#between annie brady and kennedy egan i WILL have a breakdown and then a mental thought process session about this later#i am LOVING THIS SO MUCH#ITS JUST !!!!!!!#it makes me so happy for their postwar lives after all this#i’m obsessed#AGHHHHH#annie x brady#kennedy x bucky#annie bradshaw#kennedy farley#masters of the air#silver bullets#mota writings#IMAGINE KENNEDY AND BUCKY AS PARENTS LMAOOOO#imagine them convincing their son and/or daughter to like their respective baseball teams and their child chooses a completely#DIFFERENT TEAM#WHEEZING#kennedy would def be the cool mom tho like …. omg#and bucky would be serving (insert chris hemsworth meme of him and his kids) exactly that#y’all are giving me such good ideas omg thank u 😭😭😭
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?? what's going on with goldie right now?????
I hate you. I really hate you.
#goldhandeddog#(interacting with my own rp blog so more people pay attention to him lol. pathetic)#silver's mental breakdown#gold/silv/bronze lore#<- SCREAMS WHAT IS THAT
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Full offense but I think if you, as a hairstylist who claims to specialize in “vivid color”, receive the inspo photo on the left and deliver the dye job on the right, you deserve to have your license fully revoked
#currently having a full mental breakdown about having paid for the WORST DYE JOB I have ever gotten in my LIFE#and that includes the poorly thought out summer where I tried to go silver#I am BEGGINGGGG white people to stop thinking they can just do the same shit to POC that they do for themselves#also this is AFTER she fucked up the dye job once already and I had to go back to her#because she didn’t think my hair needed foils#anyway. I am doing my best to chalk it up to a bad experience and a lesson learned#but the amount I paid for this only to have to fix it myself in my bathroom makes me want to vomit#im learning that other people fucking up my appearance and aesthetic is one of my biggest triggers#vent#personal
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life series hc: lifers still have bits of their soulbounds from double life
scar still has marks on his back where small unusable wings started growing, and finds feathers growing on his skin everynow and then.
bigb's hair still sticks up just a little like dog ears and he catches far off sounds more than he should.
jimmy still finds his head overheating, though he doesn't feel ill.
etho still sees his white hair tint green in the right lighting, one of joel's eyes is still red at its edges.
pearl and scott have the marks from the explosion on their torsos. despite time, despite the scars being faded, they're still there.
#apologies if i got any pairs wrong lol. i have terrible memory#im so cringe kajfjdjhfjd#double life#life series#traffic life#trafficblr#traffic smp#traffic series#🚦#silver's mental breakdown#<- for my later suffering
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Anyway I’m hella depressed and only getting worse
#it’s actually getting to the point where i’m losing it#had a mental breakdown two days ago and a stress fever last night#my room is a mess — but i can’t even try to pick it up#haven’t eaten in a day or so bc i can’t even bring myself to get food much less eat it#at least i showered two days ago but even then i’m dying out here#tw vent#vent tw#vent in tags#vent post#silver and golden words
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sleeping is hard when your chest feels bad
#ventposting#solution: tell jpn teacher i am having a mental breakdown#silver lining: i learn how to say mental breakdown in japanese#the moral to be learned this time is#blah blah kaiki line#dont go to class 👍
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I really love how the old comics are like here's our hero having a straight up mental breakdown and oh no they've murdered some other hero's gf and destroyed some super important thingy and has become a bit of a villain oh nooooooo!!!!!!! But then they're like five comics later never mind he's actually super chill and just ignore that he murdered like some random lady
#this is about losh i fuckin love the old losh comics i will defend silver age with my life they make me so happy#how many times dose someone have a mental breakdown in losh for real i love it not a single character is mentally stable#maybe irma but even then#Chuck's pretty alright too you know asides from drinking fuckin mystery science koolaid in the lab#i love chuck he's just thirsty lemme take swig from beaker NOTHING WILL HAPPEN FROM THAT#best fucking character#the legion really has just some of the best characters dc has made i wish they didn't sleep on em
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Oh lord he is suffering
#twst#twst spoilers#twisted wonderland#twst chapter 7#twst silver#that SCREAM was so painful#i love mental breakdowns
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