#sidenote: my heart has been acting up more lately and its bothering me a bit ._. i still havent been able to see a decent cardiologist. | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

vanillabat99 · 1 year ago

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I've been trying a "nightmare rescripting" exercise my therapist wrote out for me, and I'm not sure if it's been helping much. It's hard to follow the instructions without getting stressed out due to The Horrors invading my pleasant imagery ._. I've had a couple bad nightmares and a couple normal nights this week, so it's not much different than usual.

I will stick with it for another week and see if there's any changes, but I'm losing hope. I don't really have any ideas on what else we could try. Maybe this is just something I have to accept ._.

#ive been sleeping in a call with my partner lately and it helps to know that someone is there.#i had a really bad one the other day that made me feel so gross ._.#im not so afraid i cant sleep but i am apprehensive about going to sleep.#im worried i will have another one and i really really dont want to experience that. theres only so much srcubbing i can do.#sidenote: my heart has been acting up more lately and its bothering me a bit ._. i still havent been able to see a decent cardiologist.#also my insurance lapsed so i have to pay for my therapy and my medications :( idk if im gonna get back on insurance or not.#sorry for being negative. it is 4:30am and i cant sleep. its too hot. and my head hurts. ._.#batty blogging #text

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