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me and my friends did a live dub of all the dialogue while my friend played shut up hour one and the very first appearance of starlo was just him and his entire crew singing the iCarly theme song.
i was voicing starlo. i have him a deep voice with a heavy âHwatâ western accent. i had to sing the iCarly theme song.
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from the homumiko mines
#dgs#tgaa#dgs spoilers#tgaa spoilers#homumiko#idk why mikotoba is taller in the kiss. hes on his tiptoes#the first one is inspired by the moment when sholmes puts his hands on ryu's neck so he can feel how cold they are from blood loss lol#anyway i continue to be deeply fascinated with early years homumiko#i feel like my view of their relationship is more slowburn than most#like. they were both not at their best when they met and i can very much see a scenario where they start living together w/out necessarily#liking each other#the last one in based on a line in 1-5 where gregson (?) says that after an hour of blood loss even sholmes piped down or something#which makes me think he would not shut up beforehand. and i think he'd say some stuff He Really Shouldn't Have#but susato wrote it off as delirium + she was too worried abt her dad and messing with the crime scene#que like 5 months later her going .........ohhhhhh#thats not how you write que i think. anyway
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day one of exploring tomarang its cute okayyyyyyy
#soju shut up#my biggest gripe is its so small??? so we're just gonna pretend san my is the downtown#combining my two loves of gameplay 1. family and 2. clubbing#yes i made a whole family + decorated her apartment even tho ill abandon this in like. an hour#but i wuv my lil rave girls i wanna build them a festival lot
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I HAVEN'T FORGOTTEN ABOUT REN'S BIRTHDAY!!! I PROMISE!!!!! There's been a lot of rain recently n half of my house is flooded now lol
#Woke up to a broken window and an indoor pool the day before Valentines đ /hj#Everything is fine / I'm fine though!! /gen#I just need some time to sort out some irl stuff + move my belongings#I'll queue up some posts in the meantime!#Also also I'm turning off asks for a bit because my inbox is full + I don't think newer folks are reading da pinned post đ /lh /nm#to be tagged later#<- no laptop + mobile hours we die like Olivia in day 2 when you [REVOKED INFORMATION]#Shut up sai tag I miss you dearly đ#I'll also throw this into da queue why not lol#I noticed Tumblr doesn't publish 3 posts at once anymore?? rip đ#1 post every 15/20 minutes is so annoying now#Ok I'm done rambling shgjsdghds
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my ass is not getting into heaven with these pink haired pete wentz pictures on my computer dawg đ¤Ł
#sorry if ive been psycho posting for the last few hours#<- actually i have noooo idea what ive been posting maybe i made 3 whole posts but it feels like a lot#was supposed to be working on my resume but ive just been on flickr the whole day#now im on smugmug which.. didnt know people actually use that site#feels like a photospam website. the quantity of pictures from 1 show is more than i see ever#which i guess flickr is like a portfolio thing and smugmug is for posting on your silly blog spot yadda yadda who cares#do you sometimes feel like you can/have to talk constantly and you notice that youre being annoying but you cant stop it from happening#like yesterday i noticed i was just starting a convo every 3 seconds and annoying everyone else. im like that dumb fairy from loz#hey look at this hey did you know hey do you ever think about hey hey hey. like shut the fuck up bitch damn
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WE'RE GETTING EVICTED FROM OUR APARTMENT.
#ok yeah not the best news to suddenly reappear on after almost a month of radio silence#but a shit ton has been happening lately its fucking wild#i had to call the ambulance for my mom :[ DW she's ok !!! just some stomach problems#i went to the club the like last last week ish ?? it was.. okay i wish my friends werent super self concious#abt dancing bc damn it was kinda boring.... almost just stood there for 5 ish hours#got plastered the other day at a friends house too#and we stayed up and watched the whole entire cars franchise and this is probably my biggest hear me out yet...#lightning mcqueen.#LIKE NOT THE FUCKING CAR OK LIKE IF HE WERE A REAL GUY HE WOULD B HOT#......yes its owen wilsons voice yeah ok i get it yeah. shut. shut it. SHUT UP.#anyway cars 1 is a classic a masterpiece muah muah cars 2 is abysmal and cars 3 is pretty good#ALSO I MISSED LESBIAN VISIBILITY WEEK I AM DEVASTATED WHAT DO I DO I FAILED YOU LESBIANS IM SO SORRY........#the karmic debt from me missing it will curse me somehow..........#anyway yeah we r getting evicted i think idk so were apartment hunting and its so difficult everything is so expensive :']]]]#landlords r actually the spawn of satan#thats it for the update ill doodle smthn maybe i dunno zzzz#frambling...?
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I personally enjoy that Vegeta's vanity lives on in the fact that you won't catch him dead in SSJ3
#I stan a shallow diva#I want him to freak out seeing himself in Ego SO BAD#I have a dream comic of him not wanting to transform into Ego in front of his wife because Goku calls it his 'freaky face' form#and now he's like 'i can't do it if my wife thinks I'm ugly for one (1) second I Will Die and refuse to be wished back'#goku like 'yOU CAN'T CALL YOUR FORM '''ULTRA EGO'''' AND THEN BE INSECURE ABOUT IT?!?!'#just imagine mid-battle Goku yelling at Bulma like 'BULMA TELL YOUR MAN HE'S PRETTY SO HE'LL FIGHT' and her like 'WHAT??'#Bulma like 'Vegeta just transform I'm sure it's not that bad'#Goku '(laughing) It's pretty bad!!!'#Vegeta '(ready to Expire) sHUT UP!!!'#everyone just being So dumb in the middle of a serious battle#i live for that shit put it in my veins#dbtag#silly hours
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My book still isn't here. Every day it says it will arrive today, and every night it says tomorrow. So I'm beating the shit out of bill till he gives me my book.
#i bought my copy within the hour that the book was anounced way back when.#WHERE MY BOOK BILL#GIVE ME MY BOOK!#every day i have to wait i will draw another image of me attacking this triangle.#book of bill#gravity falls#bill cipher#miiverse#bill#violence#my art#artists on tumblr#shit post#outfit is based off of what im wearing rn... vest: +20 to gender +1 to protectionâ baggy pants: +1 to health restorationâ bare feet: +1 to#sure footednessâ pocket knife: +20 to attack#i used to rp with a firend on miiverse and we whould puppet around our own bill cipher for our rps. he was like our reluctant baby sitter#who wished harm apon us but insteed was forced to play with us insteed cuz we controlled him. i haved drawn him on miiverse since it shut#down. part of this was really nistolgic. but also really fucking funny. think charicter hated our guts and hasent seen us for like 10 years#and then i show up all gown up and start attacking him with my sword.#but also this is the same bill that became inkling bill so not really. still funny tho.
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Mischa Barton on Entertainment Tonight in 2003
#mischa barton#marissa cooper#theocedit#the oc#blondesource#dailytvwomen#dailywomen#femaledaily#00sedit#usercallie#safflowerseason#addys-beth#*#season 1#1x13#bts#2003#one day i will get this entire hour in higher quality and i will never shut up about it#same with ***
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I need to rant about Ivan guys guys I neeed to rant about Ivan (<--- keeps trying to write fics of him but Never finishes him) like God this man is so gay and so in love it genuinely hurts it Hurts and I am Injured by it and the imagrey is Sooo Good (and Yes this is probably me just parroting stuff Everyone has already said before but shut up it's my turn now!! (aka please I've been holding in these thoughts for Months now I must let them out of their cage before one of them Dies)) [Edit I am Not fucking proofreading this I spent 2 hours on it if there is a mistake you Imagined it </3]
Just like,
You can see it in the way he sees the stars in Till. His own hopes for freedom and the only real light in this world that he lost sight of in Till. He is the hope and wish for freedom that he has shut away and repressed and it makes him fall So Hard
Or how you only really see that red in his eyes (after. Almost Dying) when he's with or singing/thinking about how Till has Inspired him, like a fire has been lit inside him. A fire lit in the darkness. . hmm...
even at the end of the song, where he knows full well that he absolutely Crushed his opponent and also knows full well that Till is his next one. I'm sick. I'm so sick.
Or like. When he frees Till and everything is just Engulfed in that red now. How Till has that same fire in his eyes, he and Ivan are on the same page now. They see that same hope for freedom and they both share it. They're running towards the light (like the sky's lighter there, more on that in a sec), hell, the corners of the right side of the screen are literally tinted in LIGHT GREEN. Till's color. God dammit the whole scene is tinted in red and green. They are literally Complementary Colors. I'mmm soooooooo (God these scenes are soo pretty too I was genuinely Stunned when I first saw this)
DID YOU EVEN NOTICE I ONLY NOTICED NOW the Stars are fucking green. You can see it better in some of the Later Images but they are Literally Green because Ivan sees the stars in Till and uuuughsdfbshb
OR LIKE WHEN TILL TURNS BACK?? AND. And that red is no longer in his eyes and before The Realization hits Ivan his eyes are just Glowing with red. Because he was just Filled with that hope. Freedom was, potentially, Right There
Did you guys even notice in that like. 5 frames in the half-second animation of Till turning away he's totally engulfed in his shade of green. Like of Course. That's such a Till thing to do because of Course he's running back he never actually liked Ivan that way in the first place.
And also the lighting of the sky Flips. Because the light has always been with Till. And Ivan's left in the darkness. In the. Haha. Ha. Black Sorrow. Aha *sits down cries*
And Again with this mf's stupid eyes how they revert to just black because that hope's been stripped away again, how it's even reflected in his present self singing as he reminisces on it. Fucking. Ivan's Expression when Till runs away.T here's so fucking much like the irony. Like did he even see Till hesitate or did he just see him turn and run away.
Like the irony that the guy who's always breaking the rules and fighting and defying and clearly hating living in a world like this won't run away with him, who has always been passive and obeying the rules and just accepting captivity and has been repressing his desire for freedom is so Bitter and Awful but also he always Knew this would happen what the Hell was he thinking this was such a stupid idea like
this man gets No Breaks No Breaks Ever oh yeah btw they're facing off against each other in a literal Death Match. That they might've had a Chance of avoiding if they ran away. Ahah. Hh *sob*
Also this art brings me so much Joy as much as it hurts me on a visceral level like. Ivan Always has his eyes on Till but it goes from a fond smile. Like So Fond flat out lovestruck affectionate gaze because he loves this man and loves spending time with him to a grimace once they're on stage. How Till never really changes or really Has Changed, and that's why Ivan loves him as much as he is resentful towards him. How that's what brought them here, to the stage. How Ivan changed for Till and Because of Till but still Till is like a god damn immovable object with how he stubbornly sticks to his ways. There's such resentment but isn't he himself also stubborn for always sticking to Till anyways? Hell, he's singing all about him in Round 3 and loses control over his own emotions and expressions during it I'mmm Guhhh
Also the first image is titled Observation while the second one is titled Decision(? I think). Like mf What are you deciding. What happened Last Time you decided to do something I'm going to punt you into the next planet
Speaking of observing,
Just. How Ivan's Always Observing. I saw one person point out he's like a background character and it's like he sees himself as one too. He is a passive observer in his Own Life. How he watches all the other children in Anakt garden play. How his childhood leading him to Anakt Garden just kind of. Happens around him while he watches indifferently.
How he's always trailing behind Till. Or how he tends to just. Observe quietly and is portrayed as such.
Not to mention how he doesn't appear in the memories of Anyone else's rounds, not even Till's, even when he literally (temporarily) freed him from the city. He doesn't even appear At All in Luka's round even though we get a clear shot of Till getting his hopes and dreams shattered (though it Does parallel another shot of him from Round 2)
And then the One Times he tries to take action. Or start something. It gets rejected and he's resigned to just. Trailing behind again. Because of Course he'll always follow after Till. And of Course he's fucking bitter about it and bitter about himself because he Knew this would happen and Till is Always looking at someone else and that Never Changes but. He just thought for a moment that he could change something. Man.
Oh I forgot to talk about the competitions themselves huh? Wellll, (and I'll Attempt to keep it brief because I've been writing this post for Much too long but)
Till spends his first round singing completely devotedly to Mizi. Hell, his song wasn't even in the program, it's likely- no, almost definitely something he wrote entirely for her, and Ivan has no part in it, just watches bitterly as he passes out after his, er, stunt at the end
And continues to be passed out for almost the entirety of Ivan's song
Oh but he woke up for the emotional/musical climax at least, going over Ivan's most important memory of them together, that's cool at least right?! Surely Till felt something from that
Maybe they can talk something out, or at least acknowledge their relationship in Some way. Maybe Ivan could at least be seen by Till-
Aaand Till's Actual love interest Supposedly gets shot and now he probably thinks she's dead. His attention is turned to her once again, like it's always been from the start. He never really changes huh?
Better luck next time Ivan--
Just. This mf Never Wins and it makes me Laugh as much as it makes me So Sad
Gets hopes and dreams and future crushed by aliens (standard stuff). Sold off in an auction. Put in prestigious singing school and up to that point he hasn't really cared about Anything and has simply been going through the motions.
Meets boy that basically embodies the freedom and hope he used to have. Falls badly in love. Boy loves someone else. Tries to free him and give him the thing he'd surely want most. Rejected. Back to school you go loser.
Oh btw this school is to train you for a competition to the death. Btw you're facing off against that boy you love in the semi-finals of said death competition. And you might kill him or he'll kill you. Because you didn't run away when you had the chance.
Also he didn't sing or think about you at all during his round. In fact I'm pretty sure he wrote a whole ass song that wasn't even registered in the Alien Queue or whatever for someone else. Also he probably has hardly looked at you. Also he was unconscious for almost the entirety of your song. Except for the part where you lost control of your emotions.
Oh but that doesn't matter now because now he thinks the person He likes was just killed. So he's kiiinda gonna be distracted by that. And that might fuck up your round with him. Sorry man
This was Originally a rant about how much I love Black Sorrow's imagery and the portrayal of Ivan's love because this man clearly has Complex Emotions and then Kinda derailed into me just ranting about how many L's he's being handed before getting the executioner's blade. Uhhhhh oops. Congrats on sticking to the end though?
I just love Ivan very much. He is So Bitter and so Horribly In Love and looks up to and is inspired by Till So Much and I wish people explored him on a deeper level/more personally.
I wish I saw more deep looks at Ivan/Till, there's clearly Complicated Things going on there. Hell, we don't even know what Till's pov on the whole thing is aside from that One scene of him hesitating before running away from Ivan. As much as I love fluffy interpretations of them, I (did I mention that I'm an angst addict btw. Could You Tell) wish all their Complexities could be acknowledged. Like how Ivan Clearly puts Till on such a spotlight and it is Such a downfall for him through and through and he Kinda knows it but also What Else does he Have and he really looks up to him Sooo Much (just. Look at them in that official art of them in Anakt Garden !!!) and deep down just wants to run away from this horrible place and wants to run with Till, the Light of his life the fire in the darkness the fucking stars the universe his black sorrow just. Oh My God I need to end this post already I was supposed to be studying but spent those 2 hours Writing instead
But anyways yeah uuhhh long story short? This guy is a gay loser. He tries to look sooo cool and smooth but he is suuuch a gay lovestruck loser and his rose tinted glasses are so thick he can't see shit (I'm pretty sure I quoted that from something (but also no genuinely when I first got into alnst after just watching the first 3 rounds videos and saw Ivan in official art I was So Surprised like "Oh he's actually That kind of mf that tries to look Cool and Hot but is actually just Pathetic and Sad and Gay I thought he was Just Sad and Gay")) he's probably also touchstarved as hell idk and his love is doomed by the narrative (unless Hyuna saves his and Till's asses. Buuut we'll see </333)
Love ya Ivan keep taking L's <3333 mwah
#alien stage#alnst#ivan alien stage#till alien stage#ivantill#tillvan#character analysis#oh my god i spent like 2 hours onthis#i was supposed to be studyinnnggg#and now i need to go to sleep like asap#god damn you ivan#this is karma. but fr this guy just Keeps Losing it's so sad and funny#number 1 homosexual loser <3#i love this stupid little gay man with his dumb red eyes and his stupid tiny fang#dumbass /affectionate#touchstarved dumbass#okay i need to shut up now#thank you for humoring me alnst fandom
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i think part of the reason people are so hateful about fat people is because theyre not fat, even though they put little to no effort into their diet and daily activity levels. even if they dont live healthy lifestyles and theyre not trying to, and theyre still a "normal" weight. and because theyre ignorant and resistant to learning about how peoples bodily functions vary wildly, anyone who is fat must have brought it upon themselves by being extra lazy or extra glutinous and if they were normal they wouldnt be fat and its soooo easy to not be fat because look at them theyre not fat. which is so fucking stupid because so many people complain about how skinny people exist without "earning" how skinny they are, theyre literally just like that even if they eat tons of food because they're trying desperately not to be skinny. but the opposite cant be true for fat people apparently. fatness is always a direct consequence of abnormal habits apparently.
#e.txt#tw fatphobia mention#i know people assume skinny people eat nothing all the time too but every skinny ass mf i meet is like omg i can eat so much and not gain#anything teehee#and i see so many skinny ppl will flood comments of fat positive ANYTHING talking about how they hate being skinny so much and eat so much#to try to gain weight but its not working#like skinny ppl wont shut up about how hard it can be to gain weight but god forbid a fat person suggest its hard to loose weight bc then#theyre just being lazy.#ppl will tell me i should eat less to lose weight meanwhile im living off an orange and a cup of nuts for brunch#and 1/2 salmon filet a cup of rice and veggies for dinner#and i walk 8 hours a day 3 times a week.#if i eat less i will get nauseous i will get dizzy i will get a migraine and i will be a bitch#yes obviously this is a personal grievance but like am i wrong?#rant#probably less than a cup of rice even i make a cup and then split it in half with my partner and sometimes dont even finish it
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took advantage of what may apparently be the last quiet qsmp night for a WHILE to watch through some day 1 vods, since i didn't hop on the train until mid april. holy SHIT there is gold in those metaphorical hills. one day i gotta make a compilation fr but it is so tedious the way i get clips.
anyway here's a collection of highlights:
#qsmp#block game brainrot#shut up vic#for those of you who might not have time to watch a million hours of livestreams lol#a few day 1 gems i haven't seen mentioned recently#can MAYBE find time stamps for those if requested#i was watching phil bad and foolish though i jumped around i didn't watch straight through#i have some time but i don't have 'catch up on qsmp' time#OTHERWISE MAYBE I'D WRITE THE GODDAMN SLIMERIANA TIME LOOP AU GRRRRRRRRR#my brain goes nuts over it constantly but grr grrrr grrrr i didn't see flippa live bc she was DEAD WHEN I ARRIVED#AND I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR MANY VODS SCREAMS.#AND!!! I DON'T!!!!! SPEAK SPANISH!!!!!!!!#anyway lol if anybody knows fast convenient ways to clip vods either on youtube or twitch but mostly youtube lmk#(and by clip i mean 'get video files' idk how clipping works on twitch bc literally qsmp is the only reason i'm on twitch)#anyway it's 4 am enjoy these unhinged tags goodnight đ´#bbh may have fixed his sleep schedule (allegedly) but balance must be restored to the universe apparently lol#long tags
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Watching critical role but starting at campaign one so everytime i get a cr post it's like dodging a fucking bullet
#yes i know I'm 8 years late shut up#i got introduced to it by the vox machina show#and I've wanted to get into DnD for a WHILE#and now because i have work i have 9 hours every day to watch in the background#and I'm loving it so much#I'm so excited for every episode#AND excited for campaigns 2 and 3#but yeah#i would live post about it but#1- it's at work so i cant very well just stop everytime smtg cool happens#2- I'm already halfway through the campaign#3- i barely use this place anyways#though i should more often#anyways#critical role#maybe?#if you made it this far#ily
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tommyâs 50 year old ass definitely says âwell we didnât HAVE autism when i was a kidâ and in the same breath shows you his wall of special plates that you may NOT fucking touch evan!! they are for ADMIRING ONLY!!
#tommy kinard#9-1-1#if you get him talking about helicopters then you need to know that he will not shut the fuck up for hours#and thereâs a good chance youâve already heard this fact#but he doesnât remember that so heâs going to tell you again.#just to make sure you know
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Bringer of Demise
[FIRST PART] [AO3]
I'll be honest, I wasn't that confident with the first chapter (probably because it's been a while since I sat down to write something) but I like this one much more. The angst is definitely helping lol
Here's chapter 2: Like a House Fire
âSimon-â Soap jumps as the door slams behind him. Ghost grunts, walking further into his room to sit at the desk, reports now laying forgotten. Not that they need them anymore, with Novikovâs arrival.
Soap takes a sit in front of him, the bed creaking when he leans forward to look in Ghostâs dark eyes. âTalk to me, mo chridhe.â
Ghost slides the mask off his face, and throws it on the desk with so much force some papers fly and land behind it. Soap waits as he stares at the wall for a minute or two, lost in whatever dreadful memory the Doctor brought forward.
âNovikov was the one that tested me. When they brought me back from Mexico.â he starts, voice carefully monotone. âWent through regular shit at first. How long I can use Limbo before I have to stop. What happens if someone shoots at it from the outside. See if sound travels, if comms work.â
Soap holds his tongue, ignores the questions that float to his mind about the process. Itâs more important for him to listen to Simon.
âDidnât really have a problem with those. Expected them, really.â Simon shakes his head, bitterness bleeding into his voice, âit started going wrong when Shepherd came into the picture.â
At the mention of that name, Soapâs jaw clenches. General fucking Shepherd, the man behind Gravesâ leash. Ran like a coward after his dog died, still off grid even after Laswell got the go-ahead from CIA to start a search for him. Soap remembers the few meetings he was in, how Shepherd would address Ghost. Spoke to him as if Limbo wasnât tearing itself apart because of his orders.
Ghost never told him much about the bawbag, Soap never asking. Felt wrong, with how little he willingly gives Ghost about his own past.
âWhat did he do?â he asks, a little hesitant to hear the answer.
âNovikov wasnât pushing me hard enough, according to him. Because he was afraid of what my powers would do to me or to others, or for a different reason, I didnât bother finding out. Donât know if the Doc tried to resist. It doesnât matter.â Simon lets out a mirthless laugh, âyou know the rest.â
Soap nods. âYe think⌠he will do it again? Push ye toâŚâ
âIâm not worried about me, Johnny.â He leans closer to Soap, and it dawns on him that Simonâs not as angry as he is terrified, âthereâs nothing new Novikov can tell me to use Limbo on that would break it like last time. But you⌠they never found your limits, have they?â
â... You know they didnât need to.â
âI donât think that ever satisfied Novikov, or the higher-ups.â Soap frowns, Simonâs voice lowering to an almost whisper, âI think they were just as tied up in red tape as you.â
He doesnât respond to that. He doesnât think he needs to, they both know Simon is right.
Soapâs memories of that time period are⌠muddy at best. And it wasnât because of the shot he received to the head, the day he died.
In the weeks following it, Soap felt like everyone that knew what happened there was walking on eggshells around him. Not many knew, they tried to sweep it under the rug immediately to avoid an international incident, but those that didâŚ
When Soap refused to use his powers on field, his Captain was irritated. Said heâd go to the higher-ups, get him written for insubordination.
The very next day, the Captain took him to the side and asked him to tell him. Fuck the higher-ups when it comes to his own personal curiosity, eh?
Soap refused, obviously. The Captain let it go, eventually, but Soap always wondered if he was trying to send him into impossible situations to see just how much destruction he can survive.
âIâm not going to let him do anything to you, love.â Simonâs voice makes him refocus on the present, âNovikov tells you to jump, you ask me how high.â
Soap scoffs fondly, the anger that has bubbled up in his chest subsiding, âtheyâre gonna write ye up, LT.â
âDonât care. They wonât boot me out anyway.â he answers smugly, scarred lips quirking up in a way that makes Soap want to explode the rest of the world, if only to keep him safe.
He returns the smile, âsound awfully certain of yerself. Should I ask Price if the power went to yer head?â
Simon huffs, âjust the facts, Johnny. Not only Iâm legally dead, they wouldnât want someone like me strolling around civvies in case I go off and send a couple hundred to Limbo.â
âSometimes I forget just how much off yer heid you are, Simon Riley.â
âTakes one to know one, and all that.â Simon moves to get up, when something pulls at his leg.
A few dark hands started petting at their boots, so gently they didnât notice. Soap smiles, leaning down to return the favor with his left hand.
âLook, we made yer friends worried.â the hands wrap around his fingers, chasing the little white flames.
Simon shakes his boot, loosening the residents of the voidâs hands, âyou know thatâs not how that works.â
âWell, they react to our emotions, you never know!â he turns back to the hands, âdonât listen to him, heâs just grouchy âcause Iâm not holdinâ his hand.â
Heâs happy to continue playing with Simonâs âfriendsâ until a shrill sound cuts through the air. Soap watches Simon grab his phone from his pocket.
âItâs Rudy.â he taps his phone and sits down next to Soap, âRodolfo?â
âFantasma. Is Soap with you?â Rudy greets, voice hurried.
Soap takes Simonâs wrist and brings the phone closer, âaye, whatâs wrong?â
âAll of our revenants were woken up by our Reapers, I⌠I assume it happened to yours as well.â
Christ, must be later than midnight in Mexico right now. Getting dragged into your Reaperâs realm in the middle of sleeping⌠canât be fun.
âAffirm.â Ghost says, âI assume yours asked about Fate and Lumity?â
âYes.â thereâs someone talking in the background, and Soap realizes itâs Alejandro, giving out orders, âsome of our revenants chose Fate. Weâre in the process of reprimanding them, but⌠Itâs more important that I tell you what we gathered.â
Simon and Soap share a look. Anything would be helpful at this point.
Rudy continues, âthe ones that chose Fate didnât give us much. Apparently their Reaper just left, only saying they chose right. It is mine that explained the most.â
âYou did say your Reaper was chattyâŚâ Simon mutters.
âIt is.â Rudy sighs, âmy Reaper didnât get mad when I chose you. It said it was expecting it.â
Rudyâs Reaper⌠Reaper of Matter⌠is on Lumityâs side?
âThe Reapers are⌠in a state of disorder.â he pauses, mulling over the words. â... My Reaper said this hasnât happened since before the age of revenants.â
âDid it say whatâs Fateâs goal in all this?â Simon asks.
âNo. I donât think it knows.â Rudy begins talking in Spanish to someone on the other side, far too fast for Soap to understand. â-JabĂłn y Fantasma?â
They can hear some rustling before Alejandroâs voice comes through, âHermanos! You landed us in a real shitshow this time around, eh?â
Soap smiles sheepishly, âgood teh hear ye, Ale. Sorry about the mess.â
âAll good. Well- for now.â Alejandro hums, âI have a feeling that is due to change at any point.â
âYe said itâŚâ
Rudy turns the phone back to him, as he says, âwhatever it is, you can call us. Weâll continue to update you.â
âAppreciated, hermano,â Ghost answers, âsame goes for us.â
âDonât be strangers. Weâll talk later.â Ghost and Soap say their goodbyes as Rudy hangs up.
So the Reapers themselves donât quite know what Fate is planning⌠he didnât think it was possible, but Soap is even more unsettled. Reapers are volatile as it is, though before they couldâve trusted them to not meddle in their âboring human affairsâ.
A Reaper even Reapers canât foresee⌠how can they prepare against something like that?
Soap eventually returned to his own barrack, long after daylight faded. Sleep evaded him for most of the night, burning moths fluttering around his cot as he tosses and turns, flames occasionally charring his blanket.
When morning finally comes, he finds himself in the revenant training grounds along with Ghost. Anxiousness drips down his spine as they wait for the Doctor and his assistants.
Ghost knocks their boots together, and Soap calms. Heâs not going through this alone, unlike any other revenant.
He begins to hope Novikov has simply forgotten about them when the man is late. Unfortunately, he doesnât. Almost 20 minutes after the tests were supposed to start, the man comes hurrying down the training grounds, the papers in his hands miraculously not flying away in the gentle breeze.
âSergeant! Lieutenant! I apologize for the delay.â Novikov calls when he gets close enough, somewhat out of breath, âyesterdayâs incident had us sifting through reports all night, as you can imagine.â
The Doctor pauses to take another deep breath, and flips through the folder he brought, âas Iâm sure you understand, this will not be a standard revenant test. I will not be redoing your basic tests, Lieutenant. As for you, SergeantâŚâ
Novikov turns his bespectacled grey eyes to him, and gives him a small smile, âI understand that I will not be able to test your limits here, but the records of the Verdansk incident are enough.â
Soapâs back straightens, and he canât help but growl, âye know about it?!â
He can count on two hands the amount of living people that know the whole truth behind his Reaping, and about half of them are in the 141.
âLaswell has allowed me access to the files. Iâve known about the incident beforehand, of course, theorized Konchar had-â
âDonât ye dare say that fuckinâ name.â he snarls, flames flickering within his clenched fists. It doesnât stop the stream of blurry memories, of melting skin beneath his fingertips-
Soap forcibly exhales, coercing his flames to die down.
Novikov doesnât seem offended by the interruption. On the contrary, he looks⌠intrigued.
âIâd like to test the difference between your hands, to start. I have only been made aware of the changes in flame color, and the markings, of course.â
Soap glances at Ghost, who gives him a nod.
âWhat do ye need me to do, Doctor?â
âThis is most intriguing⌠the flesh of your left hand is cooler than your right, but the flames are considerably warmerâŚâ
Soap feels the ground between his fingers crumble to ash. So far, The tests are quite⌠boring, if heâs honest.
Heâs had his own morbid fascination with his own powers, for a while. Wondering how it compares to other explosive compounds, trying to run the numbers to find the closest approximate. He thought, if he could find an equation, he could control his powers better.
Soap gave up on it soon after. Didnât have enough data to work with, and generating more meant using his powers, and wellâŚ
Novikov lifts his pen, âvery good, Sergeant.â steaminâ Jesus, heâs not 5, is he gonna give him a sticker next? âNow, Lieutenant, remove any clothing on your right arm, if you will.â
Ghost, who up until now stood motionless in his best imitation of a statue, stares at Novikov for a long moment, before slowly removing his glove and tucking it into his belt. He steps closer to Soap, rolling his sleeve to reveal pale, scarred skin.
âNow, with your left arm of course, I want you to attempt to explode the Lieutenantâs arm.â
Soap notices the assistant with the heat-sensitive camera aim it at Ghost, âitâs not gonna do anything to him, Doc.â
âThen there shouldnât be any problem demonstrating it.â Novikov doesnât look up from his papers. Bawbag.
Ghost offers him his arm silently. Soap knows it wonât do anything to him, they bear marks to prove it.
Soap takes the arm. White flames wrap harmlessly around it. He focuses his powers to his left hand, the air around them distorting.
It feels fundamentally wrong to try and hurt Simon. His breathing picks up, fingers twitching as the flames climb higher and higher.
â-itâs as if theyâre trying to reach equilibrium. The flesh cools the flames, the flames heat it in return-â
Ghost doesnât react, not that Soap can see with his vision tunneling on their joined limbs. The fire burns, searing, scorching, mutilating-
â-You may stop now, Sergeant-â
He canât hurt him, how could he ever dare hurt him? Why isnât anyone stopping this?
Like a bystander watching a house fire, Soap is helpless in front of the flames. He can almost smell the bubbling flesh from here, the melting of everything in the face of unending ruin-
â-ohnny. Enough.â
Soap jumps, the world rushing back to his senses. He turns his head shakily, to see Novikovâs gaze boring into him.
âAhâm not- I canât-â he mumbles, words barely forming on his lips, âGhost-â
âYouâre alright, Johnny.â Ghostâs smooth voice is steady as ever, but his eyes betray him, âitâs over.â
Novikov affirms, âWe got all we needed, Sergeant.â
Ghost lifts his hand towards him, and Soap barely suppresses a flinch as it trails down his bicep. âYouâre alright.â he repeats.
Soap nods, feeling like a bampot all at once. Of course Ghost is fine. They already knew this, he told Novikov as much not 10 minutes ago.
Stupid, stupid, fucking stupid. Soap grits his teeth, âwhatâs next, Doctor?â
Novikov takes a while to answer, and Soap avoids Ghostâs perceptive gaze as they wait, âI have received approval for Limbo, Lieutenant. Iâd like to see the changes it went through first-hand.â
â... Understood. We will need to put some distance between us.â Ghost grunts.
The Doctor waves his hand, ânaturally. Youâre familiar with your limits, Iâll leave it to your judgement.â
Soap feels Ghost urge him to move, and they begin walking.
âJohnny-â
âAye.â Soap huffs, âsorry, LT.â
âWhat for?â Ghost hums, âyou did nothing wrong.â
He doesnât answer to that. If Ghost didnât see his fuck-up, heâd rather not bring it up.
âIf you need to stop at any point-â
Maybe heâs easier to read than he thought, âAhâm solid, Simon.â
âYou froze there. Donât think you can hide it.â or maybe Ghost knows him too well by now.
They come to a stop, facing one another. Soap bites the inside of his cheek, âIâm- Iâll be fine as long as Ah donât have to repeat that.â
âYou wonât.â Ghost assures him, âready for Limbo?â
If thereâs a place to find peace of mind, itâs the void, âaye. Been a while since we paid our friends a visit, hm?â
Ghost chuckles, âonly youâd call them that.â He raises his voice, shouting to Novikov, âLimbo out in five!â
The Doctor gives them a thumbs-up, so Ghost closes his eyes.
Entering Limbo never got less jarring. Soap gets used to it faster if he expects it, but the shift from the colorful, lively world to the still void is an odd one.
Still, once he gets accustomed to it, he canât help but smile. As weird as it is to say, he missed this place.
Limboâs victims are docile, chasing after bright moths with no sense of urgency. Like shooting stars, they paint the dark skies of Limbo with radiant yellows and oranges.
This might be the only good thing Soapâs powers have ever done.
He catches Ghost staring at him, his eyes a glowing white, âwhat?â he asks with a small grin.
âBetter?â
âAye.â
âSergeant!â Novikov shouts, though it sounds muffled as it enters Limbo from the other side, âtry to explode something!â
Soap frowns, âis he talkinâ about yer friends?â
Ghost mutters, clearly unhappy with the disturbance, âdonât know.â
âWhat do you want âim to test it on?!â Ghost shouts back.
âAny material will do! I assume youâre standing on something, correct?â
Soap looks down, at the solid black ground. âWhat is this made of, anyway?â
The way Ghost hums back tells him âfuck if I knowâ. He crouches down, placing both hands on it. The texture is almost like a glass pane, except his fingers canât get a grip on it no matter how much he tries.
Before he can hesitate, Soap flexes his fingers.
Nothing happens.
âHuh.â he tilts his head, âsuppose it makes sense.â
âHow so?â Ghost kneels beside him, sliding a finger over the undamaged surface.
âMy powers have to come into contact with a material to explode.â Soap shrugs, getting back on his feet, âvoidâs made of nothing, no?â
âHm.â Ghost casts another look around Limbo, and blinks.
Soap catches himself before his knees buckle from the rush of color and noise back into the world. Ghost hooks an arm under his shoulder as a precaution, but he assures him heâs stable.
âAbsolutely outstanding! This is the first time you couldnât explode something, is that correct, Sergeant?â Novikov half-jogs to them.
âUh⌠Aye?â
The Doctorâs eyes gleam with wonder, âIncredible! If only there were more Revenants of Destruction in this base, I would be able to test if this is a result of a relation between your Reapers, or a consequence of your powers mixing⌠Alas, this is not the purpose of my visit.âÂ
Novikovâs assistants are absorbed with the testing equipment they brought, some looking like set pieces of a low budget sci-fi movie to Soap. Heâd love to nick one to take apart, but the shiteâs probably so delicate even his fingertips would burn and destroy them.
âNow, for the next test, Iâd like you to-â a shrill noise cuts Novikov off, and Ghost pulls out his phone.
Soap pouts when Ghost answers. Why does no one ever call him?
âAffirm. Weâll be there in fifteen.â Ghost ends the call, âwe need to go to a meeting with Laswell.â
Novikovâs eyes dim, âah, I see⌠I suppose we can continue this afterwards.â
âYouâre invited too, Doctor.â Ghost grunts, making both Soap and Novikov swing around in surprise.
When Laswell finally shows up on screen, she seems different from what Soap remembered.
Dark eye bags, pale, hair more grey in some places. He almost didnât recognize her, and looking around the room tells him the rest of the team thinks the same.
The rest, except Price, âhow are you, Kate?â
Laswell sighs, more hair falling off her tight bun. âLetâs get to work, John.â
As she brings up several images on screen, Price reports in their mind, âsomeone attacked Laswell and her wife in their home two months ago. She got off with minor injuries, but her wife⌠her concussion was severe enough that she barely talks most days.â
âDid they catch the fucker that did it?â Soap thinks back. If they didnât, heâd gladly volunteer to put the bastard six feet under. He owes Laswell that much.
Price stops him from continuing to plan a revenge, âKate killed him, son. Sheâs trained for field work, an everyday burglar doesnât stand a chance against her. Now focus up.â
Soap huffs, âyes sir.â
â-we found signs of Shepherdâs work around Urzikstan. Supposedly, heâs working with one of the resistance groups there.â blurry satellite images pop up on screen, convoys and remote buildings hidden between green hills.
Gaz frowns, âeither he suddenly grew a moral compass, or thereâs a catch.â
Laswell nods, âitâs possible itâs a false lead, but with recent clashes between Urzik forces and the Russians, Iâd like you to personally investigate it.â
âWeâll get it done, Laswell.â Price says, his authoritative voice on full blast.
âNo one I trust more than you.â Laswell smiles, in a way Soap has never seen. âNow, obviously as you all are grounded, I wouldnât just send you on what could potentially lead to nothingâŚâ
She begins talking to Novikov, âweâre working on tracking the missing revenants Graves and Shepherd trafficked.â
The Doctor nods, adjusting the frankly huge glasses on his nose bridge, âmany of them belong to rarer kinds of Reapers. If they were to fall into the wrong handsâŚâ
âWe canât allow that to happen.â Ghost finishes sternly.
âCommander Karim has been working to find them, but thereâs so much she can do while also fending off Russians.â the screen switches to a compilation of names and passport photos, each listing both a date of birth and Reaping. âThis is your official reason to be sent to Urzikstan, boys. Whatever intel Graves has left behind him regarding the revenantsâ location, we need it.â
âWhen are we up?â Price asks.
â1600.â
Gaz whistles, âbrassâ knickers are all twisted up, huh.â
âMiss Laswell, if I may.â Novikov pipes up, âI have yet to finish the renewed revenant test of Sergeant MacTavish and Lieutenant Ghost. I will not be able to give you an accurate recommendation before that.â
The fuckâs he talking about?
âI understand, Doctor, but itâs out of my control.â Laswell exhales, âthis is why I invited you to this meeting. Based on what you do know, what is your verdict?â
The entire room swivels to stare at the Doctor. Novikov scrambles to flip through the papers in his hands, before speaking with an air of defeat.
âConsidering my current understanding of Lumity, and the state of Sergeant MacTavish and Lieutenant Ghost⌠I recommend that until further testing, they should be separated as much as possible on field, if their powers are to be used.â
⌠What?
#call of duty modern warfare 2#cod mw2#cod ghost#cod soap#cod gaz#cod price#john soap mactavish#simon ghost riley#kyle gaz garrick#john price#kate laswell#stanislav novikov#revenant au#call of duty fic#call of duty fanfic#call of duty modern warfare#cod fic#cod fanfic#ghostsoap#soapghost#ghoap#soap love you got so much repressed trauma its unreal <3#you dont know how fun it is to finally write his perspective on what happened in part 1 and before#part 1 didnt really dive into what happened to soap bc it was a mystery most of the fic... but now... >:)#first chapter felt a little slow for me but this pace feels better#part 1's pace was really fast and i have slowed down since but i still like to be quick#which is weird when i think about it bc i can ramble for hours on the lore of this#anyway the last part wouldve been expected if you read novikov's side story but ohh boy how will the boys react to that...#also found out about novikov's self-consistency principle today and its completely unrelated to the fic but its an interesting take on time#-paradoxes and the fact i had to separate this sentence into two tags tells me i need to shut up lol
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