#shut up Slex

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aw shit, birthday time :3c

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(( Ayooo I’m officially active on my personal @koalasprite if anyone wants to vibe with me there! ))

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02:02 AM: Forgive Me, For I Have Sinned

Interior (Budget, Budget, Phone Cam Lang At Gimbal Gamit)  Car (Panawid Sa Plot Twists Kuno, Bebe)  Static Playing On The Background (Establish Mong Wala Na Silang Paki Sa Mundo Kuno Kasi Pa-Artsy Tayo)  Hazard Lights On Because Tabing-highway Life Is Real (Indie Daw, Pero Low Budget Prod na Bukang-buka Bokeh) Sedated South After Midnight (Murakami, Baby!) Hulaan mo na lang kung girl, boy, bakla, tomboy, butiki, baboy para may input ka naman sa kwento (Gender Fluidity Para Sa Pagbabago, Mga Gago)  Not for the faint-hearted. I was actually cringing when I penned this. Had to stop at times kasi sumasakit ulo, puso at kaibuturan ko. Kathang-isip lang ito na may halong reality bites the dusk. Oo, dusk. Love ko takipsilim e. Saka ‘yung gender fluidity ni F. Mercury. Hahahahaha. Again, read at your own risk. Bawal judgers. Alis. Pwe. Layas.  02: Game ka na ha? Ang greatest sin ko is I killed someone.  20: Grabe. Akala ko matinde na ‘yung kasalanan ko. Tangina naman. Baba na ba kita dito? Legit na natatakot na ako sa’yo ngayon.  02: Kasi kakakilala pa lang natin o kasi hindi mo inakala na may darker side than your dark side ako?  20: Serial killer ka ba? Rapist ka ba? Ano ba ‘to?  02: Ayan ka e. Overactive na naman imagination mo.  20: Shit. I remember now.  02: Na?  20: ‘Yung mga serial killers hindi mo sila mahahalatang serial killers sila. ‘Yung demeanor nila very calm and collected.  02: Just like me? Sabi mo nga ‘di ba? Bakit I seem like a good-natured stranger turned new found friend turned carpool buddy.  20: Jusko naman. Hindi ko naman pinangarap na maging ganito kamatayan ko. Sabi ko lang matindeng staged suicide na enough para makamit ng pamilya ko ‘yung insurance ko.  02: See? Ginusto mo ito e. Ginusto mong maging nasa scene of the crime na ito.  20: Too much Netflix and chill na ‘to. Netflix OG ha? Hindi CSI or mga SOCO. Damn. Plot is way thicker than I envisioned.  02: Suicidal ka talaga. I can not believe my luck. Dapat by this time... 20: Sinisipa na kita? I am kicking you out my car? Sigaw na ako ng sigaw ng tulong? Minumura na kita?  02: Yes. As the typical storyline goes ika nga.  20: Just in case you missed it...  02: Atypical ka nga pala.  20: Correction.  02: Politically incorrect na naman ako?  20: Not your basic, definitely not your average atypical breed.  02: You worship modifiers talaga. Iba rin.  20: Kung papatayin mo ako, might as well make it poetic.  02: Ah, cinematic pa rin ang peg kahit ganito na kaseryoso ang usapan.  20: So, ano na nga? Nalilihis tayo sa kwentong umaatikabo e.  02: Pati ba naman dito, you easily get bored? You are unbelievable.  20: I am in the same manner that I am not.  02: Contradictions and paradigm shifts. Only you.  20: Are you patronizing me?  02: Hindi. Fan lang.  20: Shit. Lakas maka-John Lennon assisination nito. Lorddeeee, whyyy?  02: Baliw ka talaga.  20: Ganito kasi ‘yan. Lahat ng tao may saltik. The world is just to proud to admit na baliw tayong lahat. All for the love of the game na and ending din naman ay dead end. Dead. Gone. Expired. Forgotten.  02: Legit bang you are in love with the idea of meeting death?  20: Let me put it this way. I have seen death in real life twice. I saw my lola naghihinanglo in broad daylight and my mom from the time na mag-weaken siya hanggang sa mag-give up lahat ng systems niya and eventually mag-expire. I even slept with her for solid 8 hours and had the gall to check her heartbeat one last time. Top that nicely with how I tried drowning myself in one of my trips and crashing my car for the first time then total wreck agad. I survived naman to tell the tale, so, I guess, I am not romanticizing death. I am but befriending it so I can understand and eventually, embrace it fully.  02: And the Miss Universe 2018 goes to...  20: Hindi naman kasi ako nag-I, thank you, pero, yes, dapat ganyan takada ng Miss Universe Q&A provided na mas may bearing na kasi dapat sa criteria ‘yung sagot kesa sa pag-rampa.  02: Daming hanash. Vaklang twoooooo!  20: So, ayun nga. Sinong napatay mo?  02: ‘Yung sarili ko.  20: Suicidal ka rin pala?  02: Gulat ka?  20: It is out of your character. Way out of your character.  02: Looks do not just deceive. Looks could kill.  20: Jusko. Serial killer ka nga. Can we skip the rapist part?  02: Kasi virgin ka pa?  20: Sige. Dukdok mo pa. Pakshit. Magkakatotoo rin ata ‘yung fearless forecast ko na I will die a virgin like my lolas na matatandang dalaga. Lorrrddeee, whyyy?  02: Pafall ka kaya.  20: Wow. May banat na ganu? Shit. May naka-something ba akong gusto akong balikan?  02: Ay. GGSS.  20: Gago. What I mean balikan is not balikan na kami na talaga or kami na ulit. Balikan na gantihan. Ctrl + Alt + Del kaya ako 5ever.  02: Iba ka rin talaga, ano? Legit pa-peak and pa-fall.  20: So, ano nga? May gusto bang balikan ako? Damn this conspiracy theory.  02: Hindi ka naman masamang tao.  20: Life and love and the world is never ever fair.  02: #HugotNation. Eto na. Babaha na.  20: Please. Kung magko-confess ka tapos papatayin mo ako, tapusin na natin ito. I deserve an explanation -an honest, in-your-ass-na-lalabas-sa-esophagus kind of explanation.  02: Hinay lang. I killed myself. Over and over again.  20: Lahat naman tayo ‘di ba?  02: I killed myself over and over again. Pero ‘yung rurok ng high sa tagumpay ng pagpatay e noong may napatay na akong iba. Because I went overboard over the idea of chasing death, nadawit best friend ko. Actually, ex ko siya. Nawitness ko paano siya namatay right in front of me and because of me.  20: So, you are indeed a serial killer na specializing with people you have romantic feelings for? Ganun? Too mainstream pero go on.  02: Gusto mo talaga ng details? Hindi ka natatakot?  20: Look, since I Netflix and chill with intet, ingat lang. Baka I have a camcorder cleverly concealed here. And baka naka-alert ka na sa mga pulis. See that ronda pulis? Baka inaantay lang nila mag-busina ako, then dakipin ka na nila. Teritoryo ko’to, just in case you don’t remember.  02: Ay. Palovean hanggang walang hanggan. Nakaka-pressure lalo. Nakaka-challenge.  20: I know. Sabi ko sa’yo e. Game all the way for wickedly twisted plots and plot thickeners.  02: Pero virgin ka pa rin kahit game na game.  20: O tapos?  02: Tapusin na nga natin ito. For once, allow me to share this darkest side of me.  20: Okay. Proceed. Handa na ako.  02: Roadtrip ‘yun. We were so basag and bangag. We were literally Puff the Magic Dragon levels sa SLEX. 180 ang takbo. Wala pang barilan ng sasakyan and it was 02:02 AM. Windows down. Fog everywhere sa kotse. We are having the time of our lives. Speakers blasting Nirvana’s You Know You’re Right, so alam na talaga. Hindi ako marunong mag-drive pa ng todo, but part of the dare was to let me drive ng not below 160 just for the kick of it. Just for the high. Just for the danger, the romance and the adventure. I was being caressed and at the brink of coming, then it happened. We hit a barrier na walang reflector. It was a concrete barrier na napadpad sa gitna ng kawalan. I heard a thundering screech then bilang na bilang ko ‘yung apat na ikot ng sedan niya. Apat na ikot. Bumaliktad ‘yung sasakyan. Buhay ako kasi naka-seatbelt. Nakita ko siya. Nakatingin lang siya sa akin. Hinanap ko ‘yung seatbelt kasi ‘yung adrenaline ko pumalo. Sinapak ako ng fight, fight, fight mentality ko. Wala siyang seatbelt. Kaya pala bloodbath levels siya. Syempre, hindi ko ‘yun narealize agad, until sinabi niya na sorry and thank you. Gusto niya kasi talaga ng epic na suicide. Gusto talaga niyang itawid ko siya sa kabilang side. Mahal na mahal ko siya. ‘Yung ako na non-negotiable na mag-violate ng batas trapiko and all laws of the land, sinantabi ko. Para sa kanya. Sinagad ko, kasi mahal ko siya. (10 solid minutes na pause comes in, tapos single hikbi)  20: So, napatay mo siya?  02: Hindi pero oo.  20: Hindi pa tapos?  02: Akala ko mahal na mahal ko siya, pero narealize ko after, sobrang toxic pala namin. Sobrang toxic namin to the point na niloko namin ‘yung buong mundo at lalo ‘yung sarili naman sa ngalan ng excuse na in the name of love.  20: You learned it. You earned it. The super hardcore way. And I think, that’s what’s important.  02: She survived but I did not know I killed the baby she was carrying.  20: Fuck. Tangina. Tangina. Tangina talaga.  02: I know. Saksak puso at kaluluwa.  20: Lampas hardcore. Hindi ko na yata kaya.  02: Sabi mo gusto mo ng plot twists and super plot thickeners ‘di ba?  20: Tangina lang.  02: Sinadya niyang patayin ‘yung bata. Bonus na lang na mamatay siya. Alam niya kasing iiwan ko na talaga siya. And ang naisip niya para balikan ako at parusahan ako at siya na rin e i-stage ‘yung suicide niya. Hindi lang ako gago. Sobrang nabulag ako sa idea na mahal na mahal ko siya.  20: Hence, the killer line na you killed yourself over and over again.  02: Alam mo, nagle-let go na ako ngayon paunti-unti, finally. Kaya eto, bayad-utang mode. Kaya ambait ko na.  20: Dapat sinagad mo na. Quitter ka pala e. Dapat naging serial monogamist ka na. Ang taas na ng threshold mo sa BS e. Iba. Solid gold levels. Ay, no. Titanium levels ang life skills. 02: Ay. Sinong baliw talaga?  20: I did not kill anybody na wala silang memo at wala akong memo. Sorry.  02: Shut up na ako.  20: I think not. In 3, 2, 1...  02: Tanginang pag-ibig ‘yan.  20: Sorry, but that is not love. It’s toxic shit cleverly concealed in the name of love lang talaga.  02: Alam mo na ngayon bakit sobrang lumanay ko na?  20: Sedation is next to ungodliness. My goodness.  02: Kaya everytime you affirm that I am doing something good, something nice, napapatigil ako ‘di ba?  20: Tapos lakas mo maka-contrabulate. 02: Lahat ng kahalayan at kahayupan sa mundo, natawid ko with flying colors. May standing ovation pa lahat ng demonyo at may tsunami levels ng iyak ng mga anghel at santo pari santa santitas and santa santitos.  20: Kabog na kabog ako.  02: Check na check tapos virgin ka pa. O ha?  20: So, nakulong ka ba?  02: Pinaghahanap ako ng batas.  20: Tangina. Pugante. So, ganito ba talaga ‘yun? Kayosi lang kita a. Lorddeee, why? Bakit naiwan ko lighter ko that time. Bakit?  02: Batas ng Diyos. Syempre, hindi ilalabas ng pamilya niya ‘yun. They are high profile. Baka mawala ang dynasty streak nila.  20: Jusko. SOCO na MMK. Baka maging Korina Sanchez na ‘yung next twist a. Eww talaga mainstream.  02: Baliw.  20: I told you. I am your above average atypical being.  02: Hindi ka takot sa akin?  20: Nope.  02: Hindi mo ko niju-judge?  20: Nope.  02: Talaga ba? O ng ti-trip ka na naman? Morally upright virgin ka e.  20: Ah. Ganun ba?  02: What do you mean? What’s up your sleeve?  20: It’s 03:03 AM na. Let me tell you something, too.  02: Ano ‘yun?  20: I killed someone, too.  02: Weh. Hindi nga.  20: I did.  02: I do not believe you.  20: Game ka na sa kwento ko?  

(Paki abangan ‘yung 03:03 AM. Inspired ito ng mga too millennial songs na pinarinig sa akin ng mga ex-teammates ko. Pero super pabebe lang nung kanila since puro heartbreak, hook up hang ups, no labels, atbp ‘yung takada ng mga kanta.) 

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KIKUO CONCERT TONIGHTTTT HYPEHYPEHYPE

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fandoms may come and go, but by god I will always RT good prųssia art! that is my best boy of FOURTEEN FUCKING YEARS- cringe be damned!! 😤

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in my 25 years on this godforsaken earth I’ve known no greater suffering than 90% of my fav character’s fanart depicting a ship I’ve hated for like 10+ years

(if not the common runner up is one I hate even MORE but thankfully this one isn’t very popular in the western fandom)

bonus: the art is almost always amazing

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happy lesbian visibility week from your favorite pink dyke! ✨∠( ᐛ 」∠)＿

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happy birthday!!! 🤗

Aw sorry, I totally missed this- Thank you!! I had a great birthday! 💖 ‧⁺◟( ᵒ̴̶̷̥́ ·̫ ᵒ̴̶̷̣̥̀ )

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all I want for lesbian day of visibility is not have to hear t•ë•r•f•š whining like the spineless bitches they are- they aren’t invited to the big dyke kegger ☺️ Die mad, cowards

anyway happy lesbian day to my fellow gorgeous lesbians 🏳️‍🌈💖💋

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Man I was the most active on here from like 2012➡️2017ish and. man it’s wild how many names/urls I still recognize as like decade long mutuals/people I follow lol

Even if you changed your name/url & we don’t talk anymore, I hope everyone’s been doing good! 👋💖

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guess who’s back

(back again)

Slex is back

warn the feds