#showing there's no ty without livvy and no livvy without ty

[garvalhaminho]

sometimes i truly am doing fine and then i remember ty and livvy had never spent a day apart ......

[livvyofthelake]

even in a different life you still would’ve been mine, we would’ve been timeless

so essentially what this is is a sort of love letter to my favorite guys ever, kit herondale and ty blackthorn of cassandra clare’s shadowhunter chronicles fame. and how basically a) they’re sort of tied together by fate and destiny and would always find their way back to each other, and b) i specifically just like them so much that i see them in nearly everything… this is what happens to you when you happen to be 15 and get really obsessed with some characters who are also 15 btw.

[perpetualprocrastinationisme]

Is Ty in Denial Over Livvy?

Artist: Charlie Bowater

I think it's worth noting that what Ty is currently experiencing re: Livvy is not grief but denial. - Cassie Answering Asks on Tumblr

I think this really points to what one of the biggest points of tension in the TWP series is going to be: the denial that Ty might be in over Livvy. This is how Cassie answered a question about why Kit left without saying goodbye to the Blackthorns in QOAAD. But is Ty really in denial? That's what I'm trying to ascertain by analyzing the passages below.

PS. If you do find a ghost, treat it kindly. I don’t think all ghosts mind being ghosts, as long as people are nice to them.

So this is how Ty ended a letter to Emma and Julian in SOBH. I feel like this shows us that to Ty, the real reason that someone may not like being a ghost is that they're ignored and not treated well. So the answer to the issue with Livvy is just to treat her the best he possibly can, to always be there for her. (Also, just to say this, Ty is one of the most sincerely kind characters in the whole TSC universe if you really examine scenes that include him. So, I also just think this quote stems from who Ty is at heart). But is simply treating Livvy well enough? Does that meet her needs? We see Livvy's perspective in GOTSM here:

There was so little to feel. For months now she had been less than a shadow at Ty's heels. Oh, why couldn't Livvy do the same? Why was she the only one who could not return and take up her life again?

While I do think that being kind to ghosts like Livvy or Rupert is important, the primary injustice here is that Livvy gets to be almost human, just without the parts that make life most worth living. Here we see that she continuously feels this sense of unfairness, why does everybody else get to live their lives except for her? Why is there so little for her to feel?

Here's another of Ty's perspectives on Livvy's resurrection:

She said a lot of reassuring things. But it still gave me a cold feeling, which I think is my body telling my brain that I’m afraid. If Julian and Emma found out about Livvy, they wouldn’t just be angry. They’d feel like they had to do something, like lay her to rest. People don’t think ghosts can be happy, but Livvy is happy. She helps me with work and she tells me advice for Anush (he has a crush on Rayan’s sister Nasha) and when we’re alone we play games or I read to her. She can’t do everything but why would being all the way dead be better? Everyone calls it “rest” but no one really knows, do they?

I feel like with Ty we consistently see this idea that Livvy being a ghost is better than nothing. In QOAAD when Kit tells him that he doesn't think Livvy would want to be resurrected Ty tells him that he doesn't think Livvy would want to be dead either. To me, this isn't rooted in Ty selfishly wanting Livvy back. On the contrary, I feel like Ty sees it this way because Livvy has always been there for him, making life better. So, for Ty, what if this is his way of making Livvy's life better? After all, wouldn't being a ghost that can still see be on Earth be better than the nothingness of death? Here's another of Livvy's perspectives to compare it to:

The sun was rising, and she tried to feel its warmth - something other than its brightness. To warm herself. What she would have given to feel that wet velvet crust of the top layer of sand under her feet, to feel the cold grittiness of the sand underneath change in temperature as the warmth of her human feet soaked away. To scream herself hoarse, knowing that no one would hear over the roar of the surf. She squatted and tried with ever particle of herself to pick up a piece of beach glass. But it was a useless endeavor. She had no more effect on the world than a fragment of dream.

I believe this scene really showcases one of the two worst parts about Livvy becoming a ghost: her ability to take action. When looking at Livvy's character in the first two books it is evident that she wants to take care of people and be able to have an effect on people. In Lord of Shadows we see her say this:

"I realized something," she said. "I want to be like you, Jules. Not this second, not right now, but someday. I want to take care of people, other Shadowhunters, people who need me. I want to run an Institute."

And I do realize that Livvy can still help people and have a powerful effect on the world as a ghost, I mean she's already found useful information about the Cohort and TWP isn't even here yet. She's just not able to help people in the way I think she feels called to do. Livvy very much seems like a hands-on, people's person. As a ghost she can't be that. She can't run an Institute, she can't even pick things up. You can very much see that she feels useless in GOTSM. But I think we see the thing she struggles with the most in these excerpts:

You can see ghosts but you cannot see me. Not when I come to sit by you while you sleep. Not when I am in the movements of the shadows across the lawn, or the twitch of a curtain. You cannot hear me, even though I am speaking to you because I have things I need to tell you.

It was wonderful to see how settled in Helen and Aline were, but it was also all extremely unfair, Livvy felt. Everyone else got to come home. Mark. Helen. Even Ty would come home someday. But she would never truly be home again.

Family is the most important thing to all of the Blackthorns, it seems like they base almost all of their actions around each other. I think what tortures Livvy is being able to see this family she loves so much but never being able to interact with them again except for Ty. Never getting to be a big and little sister. It's a vital part of Livvy's life that she has lost for the time being.

I want to say this though, I think it may be easy to look at all of these scenes and immediately say that Ty is in denial about Livvy's true situation and feelings, but I don't think that is true. Look at this scene:

Ty said, "I'm so sorry, Livvy." "For what?" she said. "For doing this to you," he said.

I think Ty realizes what all Livvy is missing, for the most part. I think it also really hurts him. He just feels that what she does have is better than what she could have in death.

All of these scenes also beg this question, would Livvy feel like this if she figures out the ins and outs of being a ghost or if she could show herself to her entire family? Like, when she actually sees the power she has for good in her current state as a ghost? I ask because of this scene:

"Oh, Ty," she said. "I would have done it for you. It isn't a thing that should be done, but I would have done it anyway. And so we would be in just the same mess we're in now. Besides, I think I'm getting the hand of this ghost thing."

Conclusion: I feel like Ty may have been in denial in the beginning but I don't think he is anymore. I also think that Livvy will have an easier time as a ghost as things progress in TWP. I also feel like Livvy has the potential to be a huge force for good, a protector, in TWP and I sincerely hope that happens. However, I do think this will be a major point of tension between Ty and other characters in TWP, especially Kit. I feel that many of them, especially the older Blackthorn siblings, will want to help Livvy be released into the afterlife instead of staying as a ghost. I think the finale of the entire series will reveal the fate of Livvy: whether she can stay as a ghost, has to be released into the afterlife, or gets to come back fully human.

Edit: By not being in denial, I mean that I think Ty understands that he did wrong and regrets resurrecting Livvy. The issue is that he doesn’t regret it enough to talk to Magnus or one of his siblings to try to either release Livvy or bring her back fully. To figure out the best way forward with Livvy, is what I guess I’m trying to say. And also, while I think Livvy could be a force for good and could acclimate to being a ghost, I also think there’s just as good a chance that she could go into one of her more volatile states. This would lead to some really awful stuff happening and could even be the crux of Ty and Kit’s plot in TWP.

Also, sorry for the ridiculously long post, it felt kind of like a really poorly written essay. I hope it was coherent and that you enjoyed it though :) Here's some beautiful Kit and Ty art for the road.

Artist: @camisala01-art

[inkedbydave]

What do you love about Kit and Ty? Not just as a couple but as individual characters? 😋

FINALLY I GET TO TALK ABOUT MY FAVORITE GAYS YAAAY

Honestly, I can't even put it into words how much I love them both as a pairing and as individuals.

Kit is the human equivalent of "I’m fine" when he’s very much not fine. Raised in a world of cons and secrets, he’s the guy who can charm his way out of trouble but will still think everyone secretly hates him. Kit hides his soft heart behind sarcasm and quick comebacks, and if he doesn’t trust anyone, it’s only because life has taught him not to. Which is one of the most interesting character traits and dynamics I love reading about honestly. Add in the fact that he’s a Herondale (with all the drama that comes with that) and has faerie powers he didn’t ask for, and you get a guy who just wants to nap and feel okay for once but instead keeps getting dragged into world-ending chaos. Keep in mind that we are talking about the same guy who spent most of his life playing videogames in his father's basement and now suddenly the future of the world is on his shoulders. He’s street smart and witty but has a huge heart made out of gold. And he is sooooo selfless, I just know he would sacrifice anything to protect Tessa, Jem and Mina. Also Ty of course and his whole family, too. He is just made of contradictions and that's what makes him so interesting. He is extremely loyal and loving but extremely careful with showing it. AND HE IS THE SWEETEST OLDER BROTHER EVER. Like have you seen how he treats Mina??? HE IS SO SWEET AND CUTE I CAN'T

Kit is one of those characters who grabs you because of how much he feels like a real person underneath all the charm and sarcasm. I love how he pretends he doesn’t care about anything when, in reality, he cares so much it hurts him. He’s so deeply shaped by his past—being raised by a father who kept him at arm’s length, losing his mother, and growing up in a world where trust was a dangerous luxury. But what gets me is how, even with all of that, Kit still has this raw, untapped capacity for love and loyalty. He doesn’t think he’s a good person, but he is, he’s someone who wants to belong so badly but doesn’t know how to let himself. Watching him wrestle with his identity (whether it’s as a Herondale, the First Heir, or just Kit) is heartbreaking and fascinating because you can see the potential for him to grow into something amazing.

Ty, on the other hand, is a goddamn genius. He operates on logic, precision, and a level of focus that could probably stop wars if applied correctly. He would never do something without reason or without thinking it through. And the fact that he is so closed off just adds to his magic. Emotions? Complicated. Social norms? Optional. But that doesn’t mean Ty doesn’t feel things deeply, he just channels his grief, love, and everything else into hyperfocusing on solving mysteries and building cool gadgets. He’s blunt, fiercely loyal, and unshakably determined, which makes him amazing at solving problems but hilariously bad at figuring out his own feelings. He’d rather face a demon than have a heartfelt conversation, but underneath it all, Ty cares more than he’ll ever admit. And imo he is the most interesting character of all of TDA, all of fiction honestly.

Ty is incredible in such a different way. I love how unapologetically himself he is. Ty doesn’t try to fit into the mold the world expects of him. He embraces his differences and uses them as his strengths. His intelligence and focus are unmatched, but what I love most is how deeply he feels things, even if he doesn’t express them the way people might expect. He’s quiet but not emotionless, he loves his family with every fiber of his being, and his grief for Livvy shows just how much the people he cares about mean to him. What I admire about Ty is how his way of loving and protecting people is so steadfast, even when it’s messy or misguided. He’s someone who is so uniquely himself that you can’t help but root for him, even when he’s making mistakes.

What I love about Kit and Ty together is how they bring out sides of each other that no one else does. Kit is one of the few people who truly understands Ty without expecting him to change, and Ty, in turn, gives Kit this anchor, a sense of being seen and valued in a way Kit’s never really had before. They’re so different, but it works because they complement each other. Kit’s emotional intuition and Ty’s logical mind shouldn’t mesh, but they do in this really beautiful, natural way. I love how their relationship is full of these tiny, quiet moments of understanding, how Kit knows when to push Ty and when to give him space, and how Ty just gets Kit without needing everything spelled out. But what really makes them special is that they challenge each other to grow. Kit helps Ty open up to the world, and Ty shows Kit that he doesn’t have to be alone. There’s so much potential for healing and love between them, and watching that unfold is one of the most compelling things about their story.

They complete eachother in the best way ever, they're like 2 halves of a whole. Like the sun and moon.

Oh man, I'm not happy with this but i can't word it any better I just have way too many emotions about these two it's so hard wording them in the right way😔

[tycarstairs]

ready to fight for my life for ty blackthorn when twp is released because the way people are already infantilizing and patronizing him bc he’s autistic is so….

no one asked for this but i’ve seen a lot of people have weird takes on his autism so as an autistic woman i need to clear some things up ok 😭 so buckle up, this is gonna be a long one (seriously, it’s long)

the main arguments i’ve seen are: (i’m paraphrasing here btw)

“ty didn’t cry when livvy died but he did cry when kit said he wished he’d never known him so it’s clear that he does love kit.”

and

“ty clearly loves kit because he cried when they argued and it’s hard for autistic people to cry.”

and

“ty gets on my nerves because he didn’t react at all when kit told him he loved him”

like. i do get what you’re saying (with the first one. not the second one, that’s a stereotype, and also not the third one bc that’s just weird), because it does show that ty cares but like. obviously? all his actions before that showed that he cared too.

saying “he cried when him and kit fought but not when livvy died” just comes off as acting like he’s more upset about kit leaving and insulting him than he is about kit dying and that just rubs me the wrong way.

i know this is not common knowledge but autistic people often have delayed processing, especially when we’re grieving because it can be so overstimulating and even when we do grieve, it’s not gonna look the same as when an allistic person grieves.

so, delayed processing:

delayed processing in autism is where you are recording/aknowledge events as they happen, however that information is stored elsewhere in the brain and isn't taken in.

once the brain is ready or has capacity the information is suddenly taken in. this could be hours, weeks, days or even months later.

an example (from justkeepstimming_ on instagram):

An autistic person whose mother died at quite a young age. At the time, when his father was grieving, it did not appear the autistic son was upset.

However, one year after his mother's death, he suddenly processed that she was gone (permanently) and only then started the grieving process.

that example is pretty much exactly what happened with ty in qoaad.

partly, ty didn’t cry when livvy died because he didn’t accept that she was dead. he was so sure that he was gonna bring her back and for a long time, he probably didn’t even consider the fact that he might fail.

after livvy dies, kit says this:

“Everyone had been terrified. Ty would fall apart, they’d thought. Kit remembered Julian standing over Ty as he slept, one hand stroking his brother’s hair, and he’d been praying—Kit didn’t even know Shadowhunters prayed, but Julian definitely had been. Ty would crumble in a world without his sister, they’d all thought; he’d fall away to ashes just like Livvy’s body.”

if ty were allistic, he probably would have reacted like this immediately. and he does react like this eventually when his brain fully processes that the ritual didn’t work, that livvy is actually not coming back:

“Livvy!” Ty didn’t scream the word so much as it was ripped from him; he curled up, hugging himself, as if desperate to keep his body from shattering apart.”

this is when ty actually processes that his sister is gone. so saying, “ty didn’t cry when his sister died but he cried when him and kit fought” as if it’s some really romantic thing that he was sadder about kit leaving than livvy dying (which is not true) is just iffy because it’s such a stereotype and a misconception that autistic people don’t seem to care at all when people die, and way too many people from this fandom are feeding into that so much.

and ty does show is grieving throughout qoaad but because it’s not in the allistic way, a lot of readers don’t recognize it.

(i was actually so positively surprised to see that cassandra clare, an allistic woman, wrote the grieving process for an autistic character—and everything else about being autistic tbh—so well but it gives me so much hope for twp)

for example, autistic people (this is obviously not all autistic people as all autistic people are different but i'm just listing the signs i've seen in ty in qoaad) when they're grieving might show their grief gradually in more subtle ways by hurting themselves, emotionally or physically, which ty does do:

"The only person he was unkind to, Kit thought, was himself."

and we also see in gotsm that ty is continuously punishing himself because he is still grieving. livvy is simultaneously there and dead, and ty has to live with both the grief of her death and the guilt of her being stuck as a ghost.

there's also the fact that kit observes that ty starts keeping secrets and doing things alone, which is also common when trying to process emotions that haven’t fully caught up yet:

“In the past days, though, since Julian and Emma had woken up, Ty had been harder to find. If he was working on something, he hadn’t included Kit in it—a thought that hurt with surprising intensity.”

like. ty is pulling away because he is trying to process everything that’s happening. him excluding kit is very likely a symptom of some kind of delayed grief because it’s very unlike him to exclude kit from anything, as we can see when he says multiple times outright that he doesn’t want to do things without kit.

just because it’s more subtle than breaking down into tears doesn’t mean that he doesn’t feel it at all. it’s more likely that he simply feels too much and is shutting down because of it.

and of course his grief is gonna be subtle when he hasn’t even accepted and processed the fact that she’s dead yet.

and yes, he cried when kit told him he wished he’d never met him but that is so different because there was no room for denial. kit told him that word for word, the processing wasn’t delayed this time because there wasn’t really that much to process.

ty truly believed right away that his only friend wished he had never known him, and when livvy died he didn’t accept that she was dead. those things are different and pitting them against each other is weird.

so, onto the second argument/misconception i’ve seen that:

“ty clearly loves kit because he cried when they argued and it’s hard for autistic people to cry.”

this is a misconception stemming from the stereotype that autistic people are emotionless. yes, some autistic people might have a harder time crying because of shutdowns etc. but generalizing it to it’s hard for autistic people to cry is just wrong, especially because this has never been implied about ty in the text.

in fact, it’s the opposite:

“Ty heard everything twice as loud and fast as everyone else. The headphones and the music, Kit sensed, were a buffer: They deadened not just other noises, but also feelings that would otherwise be too intense. They protected him from hurt.

He couldn’t help but wonder what it would be like to live so intensely, to feel things so much, to have the world sway into and out of too-bright colors and too-bright noises. When every sound and feeling was jacked up to eleven, it only made sense to calm yourself by concentrating all your energy on something small that you could master—a mass of pipe cleaners to unravel, the pebbled surface of a glass between your fingers.”

so implying that it’s harder for ty to either cry or feel sad is just wrong. kit notes that “every sound and feeling was jacked up to eleven”, and this includes ty’s grief. him not crying when livvy died has nothing to do with how much he may or may not be feeling and everything to do with how delayed his processing was.

and the third complaint of ty is frustrating because he didn’t react when kit told him he loved him.

first of all, i don’t know if it’s my autistic ass not understanding allistic people but is it not normal to be in shock when someone tells you they love you in the middle of a necromancy ritual???

and second of all, this scene from city of heavenly fire where julian says “i know it’s hard to understand, ty, but we love you” like it’s supposed to explain their actions and ty reacts like this:

Ty looked at him blankly. He knew what “I love you” meant, and he knew it was good, but he didn’t understand why it was an explanation for anything.”

ty looking at kit blankly in surprise in qoaad is not him “not reacting”, it’s him trying to process 1) what that has to do with anything and 2) why that would be an explanation or an argument as to why ty should stop the ritual.

(it is probably also partly because ty thought kit had feelings for livvy at this point but that’s just speculation so i won’t get into it now)

to kit, this was probably his way of saying that because he loves him, ty can stop the ritual and kit will help him with the aftermath.

to ty, kit’s confession made no sense in that moment because why would kit loving him mean that he should stop the ritual? and this was most likely also the moment when his grief was really starting to kick in, so that just adds to it.

yeah idk if anyone made it to the end but as you can tell, i have a lot to say and i’m tired of people romanticizing ty’s grief.

[d4rkshad0w]

ok so tlkof Ty is asking Kit for help

Ty starts explaining what’s happening and through the explanation Kit is getting angry and at the end Ty says ‘but you can’t tell anyone about the mission they can’t know’ and Kit knows that he’s going to end up helping Ty but he said ‘I can’t. I’m sorry I can’t keep any more secrets. I’ve been lying about Livvy for the last three years and i’ve been lying about being— i’m sorry i can’t, this is too much. after what happened you just show up at my doorstep three years later after no contact and ask for my help’ and then Ty cuts in with ‘please, look i’m sorry i didn’t reach out. you left without saying goodbye, i thought you didn’t want anything to do with me but please just this and then i’m out of your life if you want me. but you’re the only one who can help me please. for livvy.’ and then Kit folds and agrees

[thechangeling]

The Seasons Change Part 2

Tiberius: Fall

I meant to most this earlier but life happened. However, technically the end of November is still fall so we're good. If you're wondering what this series is about exactly, I recommend checking part 1 where I posted an explanation.

This is for Rory, my fellow fall lover.

There’s a certain ease in Ty’s breathing, a lightness in his chest in fall. As soon as it begins to get darker earlier, and the leaves change colour and begin to fall from the trees, he instantly feels freer, more at peace.

 Fall is sacred. It always has been. From the smell of the rain on the dying leaves, to drinking tea with cinnamon on the steps of the institute, to the anticipation surrounding halloween, he and Livvy’s favorite holiday. They used to love going to the pumpkin patch to pick one out to display in front of the institute. Helen used to argue it was pointless, seeing as there would be no trick or treaters coming to their door, but she eventually relented. Their mother used to take them when they were little, until she was too sick to take them anywhere, and Andrew Blackthorn made it very clear how he thought halloween was a ridiculous concept. Mundanes dressed up as what they thought were fake creatures and monsters, whilst they were completely and utterly oblivious to the real downworlders and demons living amongst them, and to the shadowhunters that kept them safe. 

So Helen had been responsible for taking Julian, the twins, Emma and Drusilla to the pumpkin patch for a few years, until she was banished to Wrangel island and Julian took over for her. Livvy loved stomping around in the mud with her big rubber boots, and had even started a few mud fights with Drusilla over the years. However they both knew that throwing mud at Ty was absolutely prohibited. He hated the feeling of it on his skin. But he enjoyed watching his sisters running around madly chucking dirt at each other’s faces. It was fairly entertaining.

When Ty was younger he would always feel badly for all the deformed and rotting pumpkins and try and bring them home, much to his siblings horror and displeasure. Julian would patiently explain to him that they had to pick a pumpkin that they could reasonably carve without it falling apart on them or running out of space. As if Ty simply wasn’t aware of that. He was. He just hated the idea of all those lone rejected pumpkins being left there to rot because nobody wanted them, because they were too broken to be loved. 

Maybe there was a metaphor in there somewhere. He wasn’t an idiot. 

They hadn’t celebrated Halloween properly until after they lost their father, Helen, and Mark, and Julian had allowed them to be exposed to more mundane media, movies and tv shows which had brought on Drusilla’s horror movie obsession. Their parents had discouraged them from eating candy as they argued it was too unhealthy for shadowhunters, and they forbad them from trick-or-treating. Julian wasn’t thrilled about the idea of them trick-or-treating, but he did buy them candy from the grocery store, and allowed them to dress up in Halloween costumes every year. Ty wasn’t as enthusiastic about the dressing up part, but Livvy absolutely loved it so he had tolerated it for her. There were so many situations where that was the case. 

And then of course there was their birthday. 

Ty used to love it. It was his and Livvy’s day, the symbol of the fact that they came into this world together, that they were connected in ways that none of their other siblings were. He used to love the process of giving Livvy her gift and watching her face brighten with a gleeful smile, no matter what it was. Because the gift was from him.

That would never happen again. 

Livvy thankfully was still with him, as he had managed to bring her back in ghost form, but they would never be able to celebrate their birthday together in the same way. She would never age, but he would. 

So Ty had resolved to simply ignore it. Just like he had ignored halloween. He wasn’t allowed home until the winter break anyways. 

He was currently sitting by his window, picking the white paint off the surrounding windowsill and watching the rain pour down outside. His headphones were blasting Ethel Cain’s Preacher’s Daughter for what was possibly the 50th time now, but he didn’t want to miss any potential details. Livvy was quietly floating in the background, just out of the corner of his eye. She most likely had sensed that he wanted peace and quiet even if he wasn’t sleeping, which was true. She had always been impeccable at interpreting his moods. Part of being twins, he supposed. 

Ty was also distinctly ignoring the fact that today was November 18th. From now on, it was just like any other day. Livvy had attempted to change his mind multiple times, even resorting to pleading, but Ty wouldn’t concede.

 How could it be his birthday if it wasn’t Livvy’s? 

Ty checked his clock. It was 2 in the morning. He should really try to get some sleep, even if he had been unsuccessful so far tonight. This wasn’t unusual for him lately since he was attempting to spend the next month sober at Livvy’s request. After he had very nearly arrived late to an exam, hungover after a night of binge drinking he had reluctantly agreed to a small bout of sobriety, at least until he had gotten through his midterms. Livvy had been wanting him to give up drinking all together for months now, but that was impossible. His current insomnia was proof of that, among other things. 

He considered reading some more of the book Dru had lent him. She had convinced him to join the makeshift book club she and her friend Thais had started, with the promise of reading mystery novels. Ty was grateful, seeing as he wasn’t certain he could stomach reading the romance novels they had been giggling over during the summer every time they talked on the phone or over video chat. They had thankfully moved onto horror novels in October for the Halloween season, but Ty still gravitated towards mysteries. 

However, this one was currently proving lackluster. Ty had already guessed the ending within the first few chapters and now the rest of the novel was unfortunately feeling like a slog. 

Oh well, it was better than nothing. He wasn’t actually in the mood to re-read Sherlock Holmes. It would simply bring up too many uncomfortable and conflicting memories and emotions. He slid down off the windowsill and picked up the book off his neatly organized wooden nightstand. There was an alarm clock with a stack of books he was planning to read beside it, organized by priority from top to bottom. His phone sat on the other side of his alarm clock, closest to the wall so it could be charged. He let the music continue to play through his wireless headphones as he rearranged himself into a comfortable but practical reading position, which was a feat in and of itself. Livvy gave him a small smile, which he returned.

Just when Ty had managed to settle and pick up where he had left off in the story, there was a frantic knock on his door. 

“Ty are you awake?” Anush’s voice carried through the door. “I’m sorry, but we need you. It’s sort of an emergency.” 

Ty bit back the urge to groan, and shut his book. “Yes, what is it?” 

Anush took that as a sign to open the door and rush in. He was in his pajamas and he looked as if he was not fully awake. “Sorry I know it’s late,” he lowered his voice slightly. “But I was on my way to the bathroom and that werewolf girl, you know the one who's helping us with the case? She’s sort of..freaking out.” 

This time Ty made no effort to contain his long sigh. Alyssa Reyes was the girl in question, and the case was the murder of one of the werewolves of her pack, which Maia had requested the Scholomance’s involvement in, given the obscure details of the situation. It was meant to just be the graduated Centurions involved in the investigation, but Ty had requested specifically to be included in the investigation as a way to demonstrate his knowledge, and receive practical experience in a real life setting. He was already receiving high marks in all his classes but it never hurt to aim higher and work harder, especially when Ty found the material engaging. 

Your liver would disagree, Livvy had argued. 

Ty paid her no mind. School wasn’t the reason he drank, not in the least. 

Ty strained his sleep-addled brain for a way to phrase what he was about to say without potentially offending Anush, but quite frankly he was too exhausted and exasperated to care. 

“Why are you telling me this? Why not just wake Professor Fell and tell him to contact the New York pack?” Ty ran his fingers through his hair, fingers tugging on the slight waves. 

Anush looked a little sheepish. “I don’t think he would appreciate being woken up in the middle of the night and I don’t particularly feel like dealing with an angry warlock. Besides I figured this is more your area of expertise anyway.” 

Ty furrowed his brows in confusion. “Why? I barely know her. And I can’t stand her.” This last part was probably unnecessary to mention, however, it was true. Ty was at the end of his rope when it came to dealing with Alyssa. She was a brat, she was temperamental and aggressive, sometimes bordering on rude, and she gave off the impression that she was always uncomfortable and annoyed by everyone around her, but always insisted that she was fine. 

Anush let out a snort. “Yeah well, despite that. I think when you see her you’ll get why I wanted your help.” He rubbed his face in exhaustion. “Just, please Ty? Please come with me?” 

He shot a quick look over at Livvy, trying not to appear too obvious and alert Anush that something was amiss. She shrugged. 

“You should probably go. I can wait here. It’s fine.” 

Ty sighed. Well it wasn’t like he was sleeping anyways. 

XXXX

Almost instantly as he and Anush made their way down the dark corridors, using the flashlight on Ty’s phone to illuminate their path, he could hear the sounds of what was causing Anush’s concern. Broken gasping sobs that began to grow louder and louder as they approached the end of the hallway. Ty had the urge to slip his headphones over his ears to block the sound, but he suspected it wouldn’t be helpful for dealing with the situation. As they rounded several corners and finally approached what appeared to be their destination, an abandoned classroom that was no longer used, he could hear a loud thumping sound accompanying the sobs. Ty wanted to check Anush’s face for any indication to what he was meant to be interpreting from this situation, but it was impossible to see in the pitch black. 

Seeing no point in delaying, Ty pulled the door to the study open and was met with a flood of light, and a sight that genuinely brought a chill to his blood. The room looked like a bomb had gone off. Desks and bookshelves were overturned, the ground was littered with books, loose papers, pencils and broken glass. He realized in horror that the source of said broken glass was one of the windows which now had a hole in it. 

And in the middle of the disaster, almost as if she was the centerpiece of an abstract art exhibit, was Alyssa Reyes curled up into a ball on the floor. She was slowly banging her head back against the wall almost rhythmically and digging her fingernails into her forehead, pulling at the roots of her hair.

“Holy fuck,” Ty whispered, unable to conjure any other words at the moment. 

“Yeah, I was hoping you would know what to do since it looks like she’s having a meltdown.” Anush replied softly.

Ty shook his head slowly in disbelief. “I’ve never destroyed a room like this before.” 

It was true that he had wrecked some havoc in the midst of meltdowns as a child, especially when his father was killed. He even used to bash his head back against the wall just as Alyssa was now. Helen and Mark, and later Julian would put their jackets or pillows behind his head in an effort to cushion the blows. Eventually as he matured they had realized he needed to redirect the stimuli somewhere else, either by applying pressure around him or by giving his things to stim with. Although they hadn’t known what it was at the time. And Ty was too young to explain it.

At this moment Alyssa seemed to become aware of their presence and her dark brown eyes narrowed in wild fury, fresh tears pouring from them. 

“Fuck you” she sputtered out, her breath hitching. “Get out.” 

Ty tried not to take her aggression personally , seeing as he could often be combative and irrational when he was having a meltdown. However, it was difficult to be sympathetic when most of Alyssa’s day-to-day behavior wasn’t any better. 

“I’m here to help you!” Ty protested, slowly moving towards her. He noticed that she had stopped hitting her head and appeared to now be putting all her energy towards pulling out her hair and yelling at him. 

She let out a garbled sound that was impossible for Ty to decipher and shook her head. “Bullshit,” she sobbed. “You don’t care about me. You don’t care about her. We’re not even people to you.” She wiped her eyes frantically, but it was futile as a fresh batch of tears formed.  “Just an assignment, or a way for you to like, get your fucking deploma in what ever the fuck this is! She’s dead, but nobody cares! We just get picked off and it means nothing!” 

So this was about the dead werewolf. Niyah was her name, Ty recalled. And he could see why she felt that way. But that didn’t mean he didn’t care.

He slowly fell to his knees in front of her. “You mean something,” he said carefully. “Everyone means something. This matters to me.” He reached for her hands slowly. “Please.” 

Alyssa shook her head again and slapped his hand away. “No! You don’t understand.” She began scratching at her arms, dragging her long nails across her light brown skin. 

She was right. He didn’t understand. Not exactly. But he was used to this feeling. 

“What don’t I understand, Alyssa?” 

She let out a watery scoff. “Everything. Everything’s so wrong. This world is fucked. And I can’t handle it anymore. I can’t handle the suffering, the injustice, the fucking noise. Like, it’s all so much, it’s so heavy and I feel everything! I feel all of it and I can’t shut it off.” She rested her head against her knees and rubbed her forehead against the material of her jeans. “And I hate you! I hate everyone all the time and I don’t know how to stop!”

Ty didn’t know what to say to that. He wasn’t notoriously the best at comforting people. But he wanted to try. Something about this girl falling apart in front of him made him want to try and reach for her, even if she would just slap his hand away and snarl. 

He turned to Anush who was still awkwardly waiting in the doorway. 

“Can you go to my room and get my stuffed bumblebee? It should be on my bed.”

Anush nodded almost eagerly. Perhaps he was grateful to be given something else to do. 

Ty turned back to face Alyssa who was still resting her head on her knees and curled in on herself in a protective ball, hair falling around her face like a dark obsidian vail. 

“I promise you I’m going to figure out who killed the member of your pack. It won’t bring her back, but it will hopefully bring you some closure.” 

Alyssa raised her head at that, her eyes red and swollen and strangely unexpressive. 

“People make promises all the time. They pretty much never keep them.” 

Ty shook his head furiously. “I keep my promises. I assure you. I know what it feels like to be deceived. To be let down. But I will do everything in my power not to let that happen.”

And he meant it. When Ty decided he was going to do something, he didn’t change his mind. He didn’t back down, and he certainly didn’t let the desperate words of some boy persuade him otherwise. 

He mentally shoved that final thought back down where it belonged. Far away out of reach.

“Why?” Alyssa’s voice sounded hoarse and drained of life. “Why do you care?” 

Ty shrugged. “Because I do.”

Alyssa rolled her eyes. “That’s not a fucking answer.” 

“Well it’s the only one I have, and it’s the truth.” 

He heard the sound of Anush’s steps rushing back towards the open-doored classroom, but he kept his gaze on Alyssa. She wasn’t making eye contact with him which wasn’t a surprise, and he was grateful. But she was staring at his face pensively. 

“I just can’t take anymore disappointment right now,” she said softly. Ty wanted to ask her what she meant by that but Anush cleared his throat, signaling his arrival.

“Here.” He held out the bumblebee plushie to Ty. If he seemed confused by Ty asking for it, Ty couldn’t tell. 

Ty bit his lip as he fidgeted with one of the bumblebees wings. “I thought you might want to hold onto this for a minute,” he told Alyssa. It used to help me a lot when I was younger when I had meltdowns. It still comforts me to hold sometimes.” He hoped he didn’t sound ridiculous. “I don’t want you to keep hurting yourself.” He gestured to her arms.

Alyssa was silent for a moment and Ty began to worry he had made a severe miscalculation, but then she slowly reached for the bumblebee, pulling it into her arms and squeezing tight. 

“What’s their name?’ 

“Oh. I actually never named them,” Ty admitted. For some reason he had never considered naming the stuffed insect, even when he was a child.

Alyssa looked at him incredulously. “Seriously?”

“Uh..” Anush chimed in. “Sorry to interrupt but i’m pretty exhausted. So, Ty if you don’t need me I'm gonna go.” 

Ty felt a pang of guilt at the realization that he had almost forgotten about Anush. “Yeah I should be alright. Thank you for getting me.”

And he meant it, strangely. Not that he usually made a habit out of saying things he didn’t mean, but it was strange how he wasn’t bothered by Alyssa’s presence anymore. 

Anush took his leave and had the sense to close the door on his way out. 

Alyssa piped up soon afterwards. “Sorry. I didn’t mean to be a problem.”

Ty bristled at her wording. “You’re not a problem.” 

Alyssa sighed. “I mean, I don’t know. Sometimes it feels like it. Or everything else is, you know?” 

Ty’s heart sank. Yes. Yes he knew. 

“Like, my mom is on my case about school and my future and I can’t tell her about any of this stuff, and I’m trying to settle into my pack but I never fit in anywhere and I still feel so alone you know? And then there was this girl who was nice to me at least but then she was fucking murdered, and I just want things not to suck for once!” Alyssa gestured animatedly as she spoke. “I don’t know, do you ever feel like everything’s just too hard? Like what’s the point in trying?”

Ty swallowed hard as a memory came to him. Something ought to be easy for once. Everything can’t always be hard all the time. 

“I don’t know.” He replied honestly. He knew that wasn’t what he was supposed to say. He was supposed to say you keep going for your family, for making the world a better place, solving mysteries or watching good movies or whatever people cared about. 

But he didn’t say any of those things. 

“What should we call the bumblebee then?” 

Alyssa smiled faintly. “I think his name should be Theodore.” 

Ty snorted. “Oh so it’s a he is it?”

“Yup.”

“And why Theodore?”

Alyssa shrugged. “I don’t know. I didn’t wanna go for something obvious like Bumble, and I think he kinda looks like a Theodore.” 

Ty couldn’t help but smile. “Alright then.” 

They sat in a comfortable silence for a while. Ty almost considered putting Preacher’s Daughter back on but he figured that might be considered rude. But then again Alyssa might not care. 

“Sorry I was a bitch to you earlier by the way,” said Alyssa, fiddling with her hair. “I can be like that sometimes. It’s not personal. I mean.. Usually.” 

Ty bit his lip to fight a laugh escaping his mouth. “It’s ok. I didn’t realize you were autistic.” He paused. “Hang on, that came out wrong.” 

Alyssa giggled. 

“What I mean to say is, I didn’t realize how you were struggling. I should have been more sympathetic. I’m sorry.” 

Alyssa sighed, rearranging Theodore in her lap. “It’s fine. Most people usually assume the worst from me. You’re kinda lucky people know you’re autistic just by looking. They don’t assume you’re just weird or an asshole.”

Ty shook his head. “Not shadowhunters. Most of us don’t know about autism. And most people do just assume the worst.” 

Alyssa bit her lip. “Sorry. At least it doesn’t seem to have affected your standing in this place much, I mean. Shit.” She gestured vaguely in his direction. “You’re like their golden prodigy or whatever. Like congrats Ty, you won academia for whatever the fuck that’s worth.” 

Ty can’t tell if she’s being sarcastic or making a joke, but either way the words leave a pit in his stomach. His gaze fell to the floor to offer an aura of protection. 

“Maybe. But, I’m not ok.” It’s scary to admit even though in theory it shouldn’t be. Not after everything Alyssa has already confessed and cried over. But it’s still difficult. “I think everyone always assumes I am. Or they assume if I’m not ok it means I need to be saved. But-” he paused. “I don’t know what I need.” He realized he was fidgeting with his fingers in his lap. “This is a different kind of not ok.”

“What do you mean?” Alyssa asked. Her voice sounded different then it had before in a way that was hard for Ty to pinpoint. Tired maybe. 

“I don’t know. I’m not just overwhelmed because the noise or lights are too much, or because my tag is making me want to rip my skin off. I’m not only sad because I've been rejected or because I've lost someone. Maybe sadness is part of it, but I don’t really know how I feel.” Ty swallowed. “I just know it isn’t right.” 

Ty surprisingly found himself wishing he could tell Alyssa about Livvy, and how she was here, but also not and how he worried about her. How she felt so far away now, not just physically in a material way but inside of him as well. Before he could always feel her right there in his chest, always making her presence known but now? It was like she was slipping away somehow. 

And then there was Kit.

No he definitely wasn’t mentioning Kit. 

“I just feel heavy,” he confessed, finally raising his gaze to her torso where she had her arms loosely wrapped around Theodore. 

 And drinking was really the only thing that made it feel better. 

Alyssa’s body shook slightly with her chuckle. “Yeah I think that’s just life.” 

Ty dug his fingernails into his palms.

 “Life is bullshit.” 

Alyssa was quiet for a moment. Ty peaked his gaze up at her face to check on her. Alyssa was staring at him without an obvious expression on her face. Ty couldn’t say for certain but she looked almost pensive. Or perhaps it was nothing. 

Then she smiled softly. It was the tiniest hint of lips curling upwards, but Ty caught it and felt strangely victorious. 

“What is it?”

Alyssa shook her head softly, “Oh, no. It’s just something I remembered. It’s nothing.” 

Ty was intrigued, but he didn’t want to pry. Alyssa would tell him if she wanted to. 

“Are you tired?” He asked. He wasn’t personally but he knew everyone else normally didn’t operate the same way he did. 

Alyssa’s face screwed up in contemplation for a minute. “Oh. I don’t even know anymore. I guess, yeah. But I don’t wanna go to sleep yet.” 

“Oh.”

“You can if you want!” She held Theodore out to him, and you can have your bumblebee back, sorry.” 

Ty shook his head. “No, you can keep him for a bit longer.” He almost made a mental note to get her one of her own for christmas if she celebrated, or her birthday, but that might seem too forward. They still technically didn’t know each other very well and Ty wasn’t sure what level of relationship you needed to reach with someone in order for it to be appropriate to give someone gifts. 

“I actually might stay up with you for a little longer, if that’s alright.”

“Oh,” Alyssa smiled faintly again and Ty tried to contain his growing excitement. “Sure. I could use some help cleaning this mess up anyways. Sorry, by the way.” 

Ty smirked for a second before he managed to bite it down. “No, it's fine. I can help you.” He pulled himself to his feet, ignoring his tired muscles groaning in protest. 

With the two of them sweeping glass, (thankfully there was a broom and dustpan in the closet) sorting, and picking up everything Alyssa had knocked over or thrown, it didn’t take long to mostly return the classroom to its former glory. The one glaring issue was of course, the giant hole in the window. Ty would have to speak to Professor Fell about it tomorrow and hope Alyssa wouldn’t be in too much trouble. 

Once they were done, Ty finally collapsed back into a comfortable position on the floor and rested his back against the wall. He was itching to return to listening to Ethel Cain, so he pushed his headphones back over his ears and pressed play on the album. He watched Alyssa lower herself down beside him with a sigh as the first few notes of Sun Bleached Flies began to fill his ears. 

Alyssa stimmed with Theodore’s wings for a bit before she looked up at his face again, studying him. 

“Ty, can you hear me?”

He nodded. 

Alyssa scoffed. Handy autism superpower huh? I never got it, so, sucks to be me I guess.” 

Ty didn’t know what to say to that. He wasn’t sure if Alyssa was looking for sympathy or not. The song continued to play in his headphones, lyrics softly registering in the back of his mind.

“Anyways, I just wanted to thank you for everything, and for what you said about Niyah, if you meant it.”

“I did mean it,” Ty said forcefully. 

Alyssa stared at him, silent for a moment. Ty almost considered asking her if she was ok or if she was falling asleep with her eyes open somehow before she finally nodded. 

“Ok.” 

It was then that Ty was struck by a certain lyric as it played. He had listened to this song dozens of times before but now something felt different. Something hit him differently. 

God loves you, but not enough to save you.

So baby girl, good luck taking care of yourself.

He stared at Alyssa’s face, meters from his own. He was close enough now to notice the circles under her eyes and the tears in the skin of her lips from constant gnawing, worry lines embedded deep within her forehead. 

People make promises all the time.

I just want things to not suck for once. 

He had misjudged Alyssa. And now he found himself, not only feeling the absence of the ire and resentment he had previously harbored towards her, but experiencing something very different now when he looked at Alyssa Reyes. 

And Ty was intimately familiar with this feeling. He felt it when Mark would lash out in distress and Helen looked so helpless. Every time he saw Julian exhausted, having to shoulder the weight of taking care of the family at such a young age, he felt it when he saw Tavvy cry or when Dru looked so defeated. He felt it when Livvy was stabbed. 

He felt it when Kit curled in on himself, when he wouldn’t talk, wouldn’t explain. And then he just lashed out and left. 

But in the end, if I bend under the weight that they gave me, you know this heart would break and fall twice as hard.

He didn’t know what to do with it. Not the growing feeling of warmth in his chest that had ended so badly last time, and not Alyssa’s pain. He didn’t know how to help. If there was something concrete he could solve like the murder of her packmate, or figuring out how to resurrect his sister from the dead then that was simpler. 

But this?

Human connection was complicated. Frightening. Turbulent. Rarely ended well for him. It was why he was doing his best to keep Anush at a distance. They were friendly, and Ty was fond of him, but exploring that led down a potentially dangerous road. 

Alyssa made a little noise that startled him out of his deep contemplation as she leaned back against Theodore, propping him between her head and the wall and using him as a pillow. Her eyes fluttered closed as her body sagged. 

She was going to have such a sore neck when she woke up. 

Oh well. Ty didn’t have the heart to move her. She actually looked quite peaceful. 

Against his better judgement he took off his hoodie and balled it up on the floor to use as a pillow, laying down gingerly next to Alyssa. 

Ty tried not to worry about how dirty the floor was. 

That was a problem for tomorrow. 

Tiberius Nero Blackthorn (and Livia Blackthorn)

Born November 18th 1997

Scorpio Sun, Capricorn Rising, and Virgo Moon

"Scorpios are difficult to get to know, and impossible to forget"

-Unknown

Tagging @the-bee-graveyard @grrrl-help @petalsofaflower-shutupthomas @littlx-songbxrd @arangiajoan @spooky-drusilla @wagner-felll

[straightbaittournament]

only the option with the LEAST votes will be eliminated. propaganda under the cut (and more always welcome!):

jean-luc picard and beverly crusher:

They have a number of romantic moments throughout the TNG series from arguably the first but DEFINITELY the second episode. but they only get together (briefly before divorcing) in an alternate timeline episode which is also the season finale. Also they have a kid together in Picard but are still not allowed to be together She was married to his best friend and he was in love with her but wouldn’t say anything because he wouldn’t want to damage his bestie’s marriage and then his friend died and they met again years later and shared a lot of romantic and sexual tension for years. He openly admitted (under mind reading) that he had loved her since his bestie was alive but felt he couldn’t act on it. In an alternate future they got married. In the canon future they got together and broke up repeatedly because trauma makes relationships hard sometimes and they have a kid together who is named after the aforementioned bestie. An episode forcing them to share thoughts makes him openly admit that he loves her and has loved her for years even when she was married to his best friend.

kit herondale and livvy blackthorn:

They were literally straight bait. So Kit, Livvy and Livvy’s twin brother Ty were a trio with their own side plots in TDA. And well. We literally meet Kit when Ty breaks into his house and puts a knife to his throat and Kit gets distracted by Ty’s eyes. Then later Kit and Livvy have a few moments and kiss once. Then Livvy dies. There are some necromancy shenanigans. Kit confesses his love to Ty then immediately flees the country. Like Kit/Ty was clearly endgame from the start but Livvy and Kit just made out once.

galo and aina (submitted as lio and galo):

Iirc, the whole time the audience was set up to believe that Galo will get together with a teammate named Aina (i might be completely wrong but i think she showed romantic interest in him). That's what usually happens, anyways. However, studio trigger turned that premise on its head with Galo's budding relationship with Lio. In order to save Lio, Galo kissed him. They kissed.

jeff winger and britta perry:

the show starts off with jeff creating the study group so that he can get with britta, they serve essentially as narrative foils, with jeff not caring about people and britta caring too much about people, they nearly get married on THREE (3) separate occasions, they're secret friends with benefits for an entire season but break up when the group finds out, they're the only two people from the core group left in greendale when the show ends; but in the end they make jeff's "true love interest" the girl who was half his age when the show started (36/18)...

angel and cordelia chase:

They met as characters on Buffy the Vampire Slayer, but their dynamic doesn't take off until the Angel spinoff Because the showrunners of Angel didn't go in with the idea of putting these two together, the characters' friendship was allowed to develop organically without the assumption of romance, which then made the realization of their feelings for each other more satisfying. Unfortunately the shadow of Bangel (Buffy x Angel) still held over Angel's character, so I think it was a hard sell at the time and didn't gain a lot of popularity in the years since. Both these two characters grew alongside each other, supported each other, and despite knowing that they loved each other, let each other go to pursue their destinies. A really underrated het pairing!

matthew and mary crawley:

They spend multiple seasons full of tension to get their happy ever after. There are so many tropes used between these two. They finally get their shit together and get married, and then have a beautiful child together. Matthew is so happy about his child being born that he doesn't pay attention to the road and fucking DIES IN A CAR CRASH. And that's how their story ends. It makes me so livid every time I think about it lol they really killed him off like that right after and I mean RIGHT AFTER his child is born. It's so foul and every man that they set Mary up with after that doesn't feel nearly the same

keiichi maebara and rena ryugu:

Fluffy harem romcom twists into yandere horror, but then twists again into a story of friendship triumphing over everything. Really holds for any pairing with Keiichi, but the rooftop battle in part 6 is just too good. A recent manga spinoff has them married to total randos, so their respective sons can have the same kind of relationship.

raleigh beckett and mako mori:

Literally everything about the writing of Pacific Rim make it seem like they're setting up for a romance between these two and then they just. Don't. Despite this, "drift compatable" was one of the most popular AUs for couples after the film came out for a hot minute because of how romantic they made the concept seem. *gestures to the entire movie* seriously (note: "drift compatible" essentially describes an in-universe quality of the relationship between raleigh and mako, meaning this quality was so romantic that it would be implemented for other ships in au fanfics)

kagome higurashi and inuyasha from inuyasha:

Long time until they get together, with teasing moments

bow and glimmer:

They didn’t get together until the VERY END of the whole show and even then it was a little ambiguous (was it a BFF “I love you?” 🤷🏼‍♀️)

good luck everybody! now go vote!

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thoughts on the dark artifacts trilogy ending

(basically this is my rant on why Julian is the parent of his siblings and always will be)

I don't see it. I just don't see how Julian would leave his siblings, his children behind just so he would live a happily ever after with Emma. They're part of his happy ending. Family is everything to him.

He would never leave them behind. Ty needs his support now more than ever after everything that happened with Livvy and Kit. Dru I understand cause she needs space to figure out who she is but he needs to be there for her those crucial moments. And he could never walk away from Tavvy. Julian is the closest thing that Tavvy have as a parent, he is his child for all senses and purposes.

Nothing against Helen and Mark, but is totally different for them. Helen is just a stranger for them for the most part, and I get her as leader to this institute that makes sense. And as much Mark got know them again, he's not ready to be the person who takes care of his siblings is too much for him after the hunt and everything.

I'm not against Julian having a happy ending with Emma is not that, it's the part that Julian would be happier without his sibilinas there, they are everything they have known for the last five years, and I don't think he's ready to say goodbye to that part of his life and go back to five years ago when he was just their brother.

There are multiple times in the books when they show how Julian is literally their dad but I think we really see it in QOAAD after Livvy death, when first response of Ty, Dru and Tavvy after Livvy died is to such Julian for comfort (I also think this apply for Emma and how she would still worry for the children and she's still a support for them as she has been for the last five years.). We also see how even do Mark has been back for a while he's still not sure how to act around his siblings and he's not sure what they need. We see so much of this in the scene where Mark and Helen have to see Tavvy and tell that Livvy has died, they don't know how to act and Tavvy doesn't completely see them as family, cause he does know them yet.

And I simply don't see Julian giving up control. He needs it too much. it means he has control over his family safety and that's everything to him.

He is the guy that says I would let the world burn if that means many family lives.

[ave-atque-vale-herondale]

also (same anon as before) tell me how you felt about qoaad!! any predictions for twp?

if you haven’t, i recommend reading the novella books:

- the bane chronicles is fun especially if you like magnus.

- tftsa was so cute i loved her (read nothing but shadows before you read tlh)!!

- ghosts of the shadow market is definitely super important for world building for tlh and twp, so i strongly recommend reading it before them (it could be a little boring at times, i admit. but jessa is adorable). read cast long shadows and every exquisite thing before you read tlh. the rest is a lot of world building for kit’s background and jessa.

- OH OH also read the tec series if you haven’t (it follows malec) and i think it’ll eventually connect to twp.

- i believe cassie has these short stories about the tlh cast set before chain of gold. i remember reading them every month on her newsletter before the book came out. i think you can find them on her website? they’re not super important but they do get referenced once in a while in tlh

you probably know all of this and i probably mansplained (can you do that if you’re a girl?) everything 😭 but it’s better to be safe than sorry!! i hope you had fun reading everything and def let me know if you have any questions!

I'm gonna do my best to answer this in a comprehensive manner (let's see how long that lasts lol). You're my fave! (feel free to pop into my messages if you ever wanna chat or anything)

Okay I'm gonna start by saying that I had a strange relationship w TDA. I mentioned some of this in my initial post but I'm just gonna go through everything for continuity sake, if you will. Last summer I intended to finish the 3 series before my semester started. I got through all of TMI and TID but finished only LM and 150-ish pages of LoS. I waited till this summer to pick back up. I remember feeling bitter when I started LM because it was strange to have a modern-set book that didn't focus on my fave TMI gang (I watched the CoB movie religiously when I was younger and, before I knew better, watched the show weekly). It took me a while for Emma to grow on me and I initially had a hard time keeping track of all of the Blackthorns because there were so many of them. What kept me going were all of the connections to Mr. Poe (yes, I just called him that. deal with it.) I've started rambling so let me summarize this portion by saying that TDA didn't snatch me up until mid-LoS. okay, onward.

QoAaD was so reminiscent of CoHF and I loved it very much. WARNING SPOILERS FOR ANYONE WHO MAY READ THIS FOR SOME UNGODLY REASON. I appreciate the importance of the Thule portion and know the book would be shit without it, but, despite it still being fantastical, the apocalyptic vibe was not my fave. It was nice to get Livvy back for a bit (can I just say how shocking it was to have her death right after Robert? cause I feel like cc v rarely kills important characters so I thought Robert was fulfilling the death requirement yk?) and I LOVE to hate Sebastian. I'm gonna say something crazy here. I love Kit and Kieran more than I love a majority of the Blackthorns. Kit has been my fave character from this trilogy and I am not ashamed to admit it. The entire Ty Livvy spell shit was crazy because I completely felt Kit and wasn't angry at him for not outright saying that it was a bad idea, especially given the situation. I just can't believe cc had me expecting them to be fully in love with each other by then end, ONLY FOR THEM TO NOT EVEN BE ON SPEAKING TERMS (yes I know I need to be up to date w SoBH, I just need business day or two to marinate in my TDA emotions). The battle was epic, Julien's meeting was genius, Kieran is a great king, and the Malec wedding nearly had me sobbing. I'm gonna stop here w my thoughts on QoAaD cause it's getting out of hand. I am so sorry I am typing you up a full essay.

Predictions:

watch cc give us a 3rd plot that gets crazy because of some questionable heavenly fire incident (I mean, technically all three series plots that I've read have involved it if you count Jace's affect on Jem).

I'm super worried about a main character death because I think it would shatter me but it's also probably necessary? idk I dont wanna think about it

I also feel like something crazy is gonna happen to Aline and Helen because although they were literally exiled, nothing too traumatic happened to them in the main line of the story that the reader got to directly experience

not a prediction but truly me BEGGING ON MY KNEES for Jace and Kit content. I need them to be drama Herondales together. Also, Jace literally told him to come to him for personal advice so Jace helping Kit deal w his relationship w/feelings for Ty would be ideal (I really don't know how that would happen but let a person dream)

Final Segment:

Don't worry about mansplaining, youre good bae. I'm in the loop but I'm also not at the same time, if that makes any sense at all (there goes my promise of writing in a comprehensive manner). The only reason I haven't purchased the novellas is solely because it's more efficient for me to purchase a box set of a trilogy. (I do have the Codex and The Denizens of the Downworld books though). CC has done her best to make her world make sense but that woman writes up a storm and no matter what I'm always behind lol.

[faithless-hoaxx]

I think the most interesting part about Ty as a character is that everything we know about him we learned from another character's perspective. Considering Kit isn't even a reliable narrator when it comes to himself, I don't think his depiction of Ty is something that shouldn't be questioned thoroughly. His experience of love went through two extremes: An incredible deprivation of it, and then having it thrust into his hands via the Blackthorn twins and the Carstairs-Gray. I don't think he knows moderation when it comes to his opinions of others and their opinions of him. Johnny Rook didn't love him (he did, but not in any way Kit understood or felt), his mom didn't love him (she didn't, she just wasn't alive to show it), therefore Ty can't love him because otherwise he would've chosen him

It's all a very linear way of thinking because Kit's experiences are all kinda unhealthy, and I really do think it has to be explored in twp because this man is Not Healthy. His attachment to being loved is Not Healthy.

I honestly don't think Ty changed the way Kit thinks he did. Like, Kit knew him for a month, and during that month he looked at him with rose-colored lenses. Julian babies Ty without realizing it, and so does Emma, so their opinions can't really speak for Ty as a character but he's always been ambitious. Dru finds him cool and competent, and Livvy says he "needs people." No one with that level of desperation would do anything half-way, and considering Ty is Julian Blackthorn's brother, it's really not surprising he's ambitious. He was always going to bring Livvy back, but he wanted Kit to be a part of it because he trusted Kit

And then Kit left.

And I think Ty's got every reason to be pissed off because Kit never even explained himself. And if Ty is the only one who needs to be forgiven in TWP I will throw my book out the window.

Also, though, consider this: A Ty that needs to forgive himself more than he needs Kit to forgive him. Or, he needs Kit to forgive him for him to forgive himself. Because ahem once again, Ty needs people. He doesn't do casual love or relationships. He invested a lot of himself into Kit and Livvy, and both of them are gone, and they're both linked to him, and he tried to make both of them stay but nada. This thought is poorly articulated but you get what I'm tryna say

“You made yourself a different person than the one I loved” – on Kit’s letter, his projections & idea of Ty

aka where i try to make sense of kit’s letter in the context of who ty was to him. basically i think that understanding that kit may not have had an accurate image of ty in his head helps to contextualise why kit believes the things he does, regardless of whether they’re fair to ty or not. it makes more sense reading lines like:

“in all the world, kit had never met anyone he believed to be so incapable of evil”

“all his energy had gone into ty, all his devotion and hopes for the future”

because you can see so clearly how much kit was projecting onto ty. ty, more than a friend—or whatever you might call it—was also the personification of this new world and all it meant for kit. kit saw him as this overwhelming force of good, beautiful as an angel, someone who not only wouldn’t do evil but was “incapable” of it.

so you can kind of see why everything was lost for kit once ty went through with the necromancy: because by doing so he was breaking the image kit had of him. of ty as a saviour of sorts from kit’s previous life, the person who convinced him to stay, who made kit feel like he was really a part of something, something magical and exclusive that not everyone got to be.

further evidenced by other lines:

“he had been too fixated on losing ty to tell him what he needed to hear” -> kit knows he should have told ty much sooner how he really felt about the situation. kit knows he deflected and in various ways lied to ty about trying to bring livvy back. but kit had wanted to stay by ty’s side, stay included in ty’s plans, more than his desire to tell ty the truth that he hated the idea.

“you made yourself a different person than the one i loved” -> ty as a person being shaped by kit’s projections of all his hopes and dreams, the face of this new world kit was drawn into, the first person he really got close to after he was pulled from one world to another, the person who convinced him to stay.

was the “person [kit] loved” an accurate reflection of who ty really was, flaws and all? unlikely. and the image of ty in kit’s head didn’t allow room for the real ty’s complicated, overwhelming grief, either, and the ways he would try to cope with it: and i believe this is part of why kit was so shocked by what happened and why he’s still so angry at ty. because ty proved to him that he wasn’t what kit believed him to be, and so all of kit’s hopes for his new life came crumbling down.

do i think it’s fair to ty? no, i don’t. but i think both can be true: that kit is upset and had gone through a traumatic situation, and has valid feelings about it while also understanding that he had a very skewed perception of ty that wasn’t fair to him.

mostly i think we need more room for understanding ty’s feelings*. how it must have felt to lose his twin sister in a horrifying way, devised a plan that (to him) seemed completely reasonable** only to have his best friend switch up on him last minute, tell ty he loved him mid-ritual, later say he wished he’d never met ty and basically tell ty that he was selfish and then on top of that leave without saying goodbye.

i also stand by my belief that “how long do you think it will take you to forgive me” is something both ty and kit could/should be asking each other, not just one way around. i honestly don’t understand why both kit and ty would think only kit needs to forgive ty and not both ways. mostly i just don’t think the narrative that ty’s the only one who needs forgiving is very fair, or makes much sense with their characterisation + the context + what actually happened.

in sum, when kit says “you made yourself a different person than the one i loved”, the person he’s referring to is an idealised version of ty whom he had projected all his hopes and dreams for the future onto, and by going through with the necromancy ty completely shattered kit’s understanding of him. this is consistent with other lines in his letter: “you wanted that more than you wanted me”, “when you brought livvy back, you changed yourself” (did ty really change? or did he just prove to be different from kit’s idea of him? genuine question), and perhaps most strongly evidenced by this line: “i don’t know the person you are now. you took yourself away from me. i can’t forgive that.” i don’t understand why he can’t forgive ty for not being the person kit thought he was, nor how on earth ty was supposed to know this, but i digress.

* i hope this is addressed in TWP because between TDA and now, we’ve had FAR more insight into kit’s thought processes than ty’s and as such we’re only really seeing one side of the situation.

** i also think part of the glaring misunderstanding between kit and ty can be understood from their respective backgrounds. obviously for kit, growing up away from the shadowhunter world, something like necromancy is completely out of the question. the way it would be for you or me. but ty grew up in a world where bringing people back to life was something that could and had actually happened. so it’s a far crazier, more impossible idea to kit than it would’ve been to ty.

[m0rgrugyn]

TSC incorrect quotes but it's things my friends have said

Thank you to @cosmoshunger for telling me who these quotes would fit and also for saying dumb shit for me to put into this post

Bat: Fuck anteaters man

Bat: Metaphorically

Bat: Unless you're into that

Cecily: My ears are better than yours

Cecily: They're so good that i can hear ringing when no one else can

Jules: What are you guys doing tomorrow?

Mark: Drugs

Livvy: Dying

Emma: Arson

Dru: Murder

Magnus: Can I commission you to draw me a new face

Magnus: Just asking

Magnus: Big G-money in the sky could never

Clary: I think it’s time to put you in a home

Kit: If this keeps up I'm jumping off the cadillac

Anna: It's hot girl summer and I'm not a girl so I'm compensating by being twice as hot

Ty: Say nasus without the na

Dru: Nasussy baka

Gabriel: I was dead set on going to Cambridge for like six years

Gabriel: The rest i wanted to go to Oxford

Gabriel: Now I'm a disappointment

Julian: One day you're gonna make me so mad I jump off the pier

Mark: Call that pier pressure

Clary: Stretchers...

Clary: Wish they could make me taller

Mark: What if i just showed up to school in crocs

Mark: What would you do

Kieran: Been there done that got dress coded

Matthew: Today i woke up and decided to be a disappointment

Alastair: Today I woke up and disappointment

Anna: Fuck me if i care

Anna: Or if I don't ;)

Elias: Why have kids when you can have vodka

Emma: Life has me by the throat and it's terrifying but a little bit sexy

Simon: Global warming and I’m still cold

Jace: Not very good at it then

James: Poison is the new water

Matthew: Would you like some bitter almond tea with that

Bonus

Lord Montgomery: Rip to your BDSM novels but I'm different

[hinge]

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[jemdeserveslove]

You guys, I just finished Ghosts of the Shadow Market ✨

I bring here, not a review (it was a 5/5), but just some random thoughts (it's kinda of long,so bear with me) and, obviously, there are spoilers. First thing, was I supposed to cry as much as I did? I was WAILING (I blame my period 🤡) But, yeah, I cried a lot 😂

Matthew's story?? Did not see that coming. I cried and I felt so bad for everyone. I'm not sure what I expect of him in The Last Hours now, except for saddness (and style)

Anna Lightwood is a fucking icon. I love her 🥺 and it was such a sweet scene when Cecily and Gabriel gave her "man's clothing" (almost cried in this one as well)

EVERY SCENE THAT INVOLVES JEM AND WILL MAKES ME CRY MY HEART OUT 😭 so, no comments, just thank you Cassandra for the power of those scenes and of this relationship

I love whenever Catarina shows up, cause I love her sm that I can't even explain and same with Lily and Raphael (I felt blessed by their presence)

Tessa and Jem in the 1940s was something I never knew I needed, like, Jem was dying and he was all "I can't die without seeing Tessa one last time!" and Tessa was like "YOU CAN'T DIE!" and I was just " I KNOW HE'S NOT GONNA DIE, BUT OMG 😭" They endded up having those discussions about death and stuff, because Will died not that long ago, so it was a very touching moment for me

I love whenever we get to read about members of The Circle, like Céline this time, because we get to know why they were with Valentine and what Valentine had over them to manipulate them and I just think it's amazing that Cassandra goes over this in her books

Reading about little Jace was great, but there was that one part he said something like "my father used to joke that if I wasn't good enough he had another Jonathan" and I was like SIR???? 😶

MALEC BEING PARENTS 🥰🥰🥰🥰 and, like, Max and Rafe are so cuteeeee too, it's a great family

We got Ty and Livvy, and ya'll, this story was a wild ride for me, like, I didn't expect it (especially, because, it didn't have a lot of Jem in it) I just felt really bad in this one, cause, Ty really needs to deal with his grief and guilty and I'm really excited for it, but I know it's gonna be sad

TESSA, JEM, KIT AND MINA 🥰 AAAAAAAAA WHAT A FAMILY! I was so happy for them, cause Tessa and Jem finally got to be together and now they have a daughter, but then they also have Kit now and he seems so happy to be there with them and OMG when Jem told Kit that he loved him I FELT THAT IN MY SOUL 😭 and it's just so beautiful to see Kit and Tessa doing the whole "movie and book" thing, Jem is gonna help Kit with his training (the boy needs it) and Kit and Mina are so cuteeee! I was really happy for them

WE HAD "EVIL" JACE aka JANUS'S POV and I really didn't see that coming, like, I expected Ash's pov, but not his 🤷‍♀️ and, yeah, he needs help, which brought that deja vu, cause, when I was reading TMI, I was always saying "Jace needs some help and some therapy", so I guess some things never change. I felt this empathy towards him, you know? Just felt really bad for him. At the end he just threatened everyone indirectly, he threatened "the new King" aka Kieran, the "descendent of ... " aka Kit and they're just involved with pretty much all the characters in a way, so yeah, I expect some big issues coming from him 🙂

[the-bee-graveyard]

@the-bee-graveyard’s master list

You can find all my works at @/beetective_holmes on AO3. I appreciate feedback if you have a second!

Links to all of my works are available under the 'keep reading', organized by piece of media:

The Maze Runner

All For The Game

The Shadowhunter Chronicles (The Dark Artifices, The Wicked Powers, The Last Hours)

Stranger Things

Arcane

The Owl House

Scream

Yellowjackets

Enjoy!

The Maze Runner: 

The Fine Line: Newt and Teresa both survive the destruction of the last city and are brought to the safe haven with all their friends. Newt is welcomed back with open arms, and most people learn to forgive Teresa, all but the one person she wants to forgive her the most. (Newtmas, Brendresa, side Bengalho and Soniet) (7/7)

You’ll Thank Me Later: Thomas ends up coaching his little brother’s football team and develops a crush on a fellow coach (Newtmas)

You’re Not Him: The “your not her” scene from the scorch trials but make it gay and Newtmas (Newtmas)

Oh Dear Diary: Newt kept a journal and now in the safe haven some nosy people have discovered it. Alternative summary: Minho, Gally, and Brenda need to mind their own business (Frypan did warn them) (Newtmas)

I Want You To Understand: Role reversal of the conversation that happened in The Scorch Trials, Thomas explains his reasons behind betraying WICKED to Teresa. Set right before Thomas is sent into the maze. (Teresa Agnes)

Why Does Everybody Love You?: Teresa has been in love with her childhood best friend Thomas since forever. When he starts showing interest in his classmate Brenda she comes up with a plot to win his love back. In the process of this both she and Brenda realize Thomas is not interested in either of them, but his roommate Newt, and start plotting to get them together. They may or may not fall in love in the process but telling you that would be a spoiler so I’ve said nothing. (Brendresa) (1/?)

All For The Game:

Feel LIke I Belong:  Jeremy and Jean go on a drive and sing together. Just some Jerejean fluff. I still suck at summaries. (Jerejean)

And My Love Is Yours: Jerejean Week Day One: Smile/Laugh (Jerejean)

And That’s Not Fake: Jerejean Week Day Three: AU/Anniversary. Young Royals AU. Jeremy gets high and confessions are made. (Jerejean)

The Dark Artifices/The Wicked Powers:

Windows: Ty has been in love with their next door neighbor for years and Livvy has made it her mission to get them together (Kitty)

The Perfect One For You Is Me: Livvy has great taste in music and women but her family doesn’t seem to appreciate it (Or Livvy’s singing music at three in the morning while having an inner monologue and the rest of the Blackthorn’s do not appreciate it.) (Livvy Blackthorn)

Friends Don’t Do The Things We Did: Kit gets dragged back to LA for a New Years party and is reminded of his undying feelings for one Tiberius Nero Blackthorn (Kitty)

Playground Fight: Kit cleans up Ty after he gets into a fight but not really. Ty cleans himself up after a fight and Kit keeps him company. (Kitty)

You’re Doing Great Out There Without Me, Baby: Dru introduces Ty to this thing called Instagram and he does some good old fashioned Instagram stalking (Kitty, Kit x Mari)

I’d Die Without You: The Blackthorn's get together after Ty announces he wants to introduce them to his significant other, but wait, they know this guy. (Kitty)

It Could Be Love: An aspiring centurion meets the mysterious Ty Blackthorn during their joint time at the scholomance and eventually develops feelings towards him, but wait, what's that necklace he wears around his neck, no not his dead sisters locket, the other one? (Kitty)

Maybe You Could Love Me Like You Used To: After Ty's left assumed dead in the fountain, a one Kit Rook saves him with his magical fairy problems. He's spent the rest of his time since looking for the rest of his living siblings, especially his twin sister, Livvy. But what happens when he finds her? What happens when she's different? (Kitty, Livvy centric)

It Doesn’t Hurt Me: Stranger Things AU, Ty has a lot of unresolved trauma, and unfortunately for him Vecna recognizes that before anyone else (Kit/Ty)

It Killed You Just The Same: Ty can't handle his very conflicting feelings for Kit but he can't exactly talk to anyone about it, because he hasn't exactly come out to anyone in his family. (Kit/Ty)

To Float Around And Ghost My Friends: Another Ty Blackthorn has a meltdown and thinks about his dead sister and his first love who probably hates him now. (Kit/Ty, Ty and Helen) (2/2)

Something In The Orange Tells Me We’re Not Done: Ty returns to Blackthorn Hall after he hears about Mina's kidnapping and once again reunites with Kit.

Jesus Christ I’m So Blue All The Time: The five stages of grief told through the members of the Blackthorn Family (The Blackthorn’s) (5/5)

You’re Probably With That Blonde Boy: Kit and Ty's relationship, told from the perspective of Ty's roommate at the scholomance. (Kit/Ty)

Rory and Fae’s Kitty Masterlist: where you can find all of mine and @thechangeling’s headcanons

The Last Hours:

I Like Your Hair: Just a short fic where Cordelia finds out about Lucie using necromancy to try to bring Jesse back, but Lucie has other plans for how that conversation is going to go. (Lucelia)

I Slipped And Said Something Sort Of Like Your Name: Alastair, stressed about Cordelia running off to Paris, planning a funeral, his mother's soon childbirth, and his not-dying love for Thomas Lightwood, may or may not let something slip about said not-dying love to Sona. (Thomastair)

Stranger Things:

You Can Think That You’re In Love When You’re Really Just In Pain: Dustin Henderson's view of his best friends crush on other best friend, and not to mention his best friend has a girlfriend who is the other best friend's sort of stepsister. (Byler)

We Were Driving In Your Car: Will and Mike go for a drive, and Mike realizes some things (Byler)

You’re Oblivious To My Feelings And That’s Fine: Will comes to Family Video ranting about his crush to Robin and Steve and accidentally slips their identity. Steve and Robin makes it their business to get them together, like good parents. (Byler)

I’m Trying To Hate You: Basically it's Will's angsty monologue on how everyone loves Mike, but no one's going to love Mike like he does. Yeah I can't write summaries. I honestly don't know what this is. (Byler, Mileven)

Tell Me What You’re Doing With That Other Guy: Mike and Max are really touchy, and the only problem with that is Max's boyfriend thinks that there might be something more going on. (Lumax, Byler)

It Would Be A Hundred Times Easier If We Were Young Again: Eleven sees something she shouldn't have and thinks about some things. Spring Break Exchange 2022 (Elmax, Byler)

Something Bad Is About To Happen To Me: I kept talking about how badly I wanted Mike to get vecna'd so I decided to suck it up and write it myself. This is how season 4 should have gone I take no criticism who are The Duffer Brothers. (Byler)

I Need To Purge My Urges: "I'm Trying To Hate You" by it's from Mike's POV. The people who loved Mike Wheeler simply didn't know enough about him. If they did, they would hate him. (Byler)

This House Don’t Feel Like Home: Christmas at the Wheeler House goes down hill fast when Mike says a few things he regrets. (Byler) (2/2)

Just To See A 1980s Horror Film: What if Steve and Robin met when he was cleaning the graffiti off the movie theatre. The prompts "Alternate meeting" and "1983" for Stobin Month. (Platonic Stobin)

I Belong With You (You Belong With Me): Steve's babysat Dustin for the past five years. Steve always babysits for Dustin. So who's this girl? OR Claudia hires both Steve and Robin to babysit the party. Prompts "Alternate First Meeting" (I really love this one for some reason) and "Babysitting" for Stobin month (Platonic Stobin)

What’s Your Favourite Scary Movie?: My rendition of Robin and Steve as Ghostface. Prompts "90s" and "Confessions" for Stobin Month (Platonic Stobin)

You Can Come Home To Me When You’re Ready: What if the vines suffocated Steve in season 4 but Nancy and Robin made it out alive? Prompt "Worms" for Platonic Stobin Month. (Platonic Stobin)

It Was A Bad Idea: When Robin showed up to her normal shift at the movie theatre, she did not to expect to find herself standing on Jonathan Byers' porch with Steve "The Hair" Harrington OR Robin goes back to the Byers' house with Steve and fights the demogorgon with him, Jonathan, and Nancy. Prompts "Monster/Ghost Hunting" and "Alternate Meeting" for Platonic Stobin Month (Platonic Stobin)

We’ll Go Crazy Together, Right?: Follow high school student El Hopper and her group of friends in the fictional town of Hawkins, Indiana, who become the targets of a mysterious killer in a Halloween costume known as Ghostface. Stranger Things Scream AU (Byler/Lumax/Platonic Stobin) (5/?)

I’m Really Not That Into Guys: During a movie night with Robin, Steve has something important to tell her. Inspired by "1980's Horror Film" By Wallows. (Platonic Stobin)

I’ll Be Home For Christmas: For a lack of a better option, Steve is forced to bring Robin home for Christmas as his fake girlfriend.(Platonic Stobin, background Steddie)

There’s No Place Like Home For The Holidays: Joyce becomes more excited for the holidays then ever when Will announces that he'll be bringing a partner home for Christmas this year. (Byler, Joyce and Will bonding)

We Don't Have To Talk About It: Ted leaves the Wheeler family, but not before he and Mike can put off the one conversation they'd been putting off having for years. Inspired by the Dawson's Creek episode, "...That is the Question" (Wheeler Family, background Byler)

Arcane:

How Beautiful: The short little Jayvik Kit/ty AU that no one asked for because I’m an emotional wreck. You don’t need to understand shadow hunter lore to enjoy the fic but it probably would be useful. (Jayvik)

The Owl House:

I Should Love You And I Swear I Do: Hunter thinks he has a crush on Willow Park. Thinks. He's also never had a friend before. (Platonic Lunter, Platonic Huntlow)

Underneath This Skin There’s A Human: The Darius and Hunter reunion we all deserved and for some reason never got. (Hunter)

Scream

If I Can’t Have You Baby: What happened after Sam and Richie ran out of the living room (Tamber)

I Wanna Hear One Song Without Thinking Of You: Tara's cleaning out her room preparing for her and Sam's move to New York and she finds a bunch of Amber's old stuff and remembers a lot of good times that don't feel so good anymore. (Tamber)

Yellowjackets

I Was The Man Still In Love With You: While in the hospital, Lottie receives an unexpected visitor. (Lottienat)

No Longer A Danger To Herself Or Others: Natalie picks Lottie up from the mental hospital (Lottienat)

[kit-herondale-carstairs]

TDA Characters on TikTok

Julian: doesn’t post very often because he is a father but when he does it is always him painting or drawing something with lofi music or him sharing a tidbit about one of the children or other family members (Kieran, Cristina, Diana, Emma and Aline included and always with their explicit permission). 

- He’s very popular without even trying and most assume he is a young single father (which isn’t wrong).

-  Mostly finds himself on cottagecore or parent side of tiktok. 

- doesn’t understand all the thirsty comments he gets because “I don’t even show my face, Emma, why would they think I’m attractive?” but always shares them with Emma because they make her laugh.

Emma: Does it for the girls and the gays, that’s it. Posts nearly every day and page is generally a mixture of self defense videos, vintage makeup/dress tutorials, and videos slamming the patriarchy but also always does the latest dancing videos and other trends.

- always tries to get others to join in on her trend videos, mostly joined by Mark and Cristina when she can rope her in.

- Nearly broke tiktok when she got Julian to do the “You could have been nicer to me” trend because NO ONE KNEW THEY WERE DATING  AND EVEN THOUGH THEY COULDN’T SEE HIS FACE EVERYONE RECOGNIZED HIS VOICE AND HE WAS SO SWEET WHEN HE OFFERED TO TAKE HER TO HER FAVORITE THRIFT STORE AND BUY HER SOME DRESSES AFTER HE PUT THE “BABY” DOWN FOR HIS NAP. 

- - everyone knows the “baby” is actually at least seven but no one ever said his name because he’s too young so everyone collectively knows him as “the baby”

- solidly on gay tiktok even though she’s straight. 

Mark: Daily blogs. Everyone thinks he’s shit posting because it’s all wild things like standing in a middle of a circle of flowers and talking about “this pixie named Aelia lives here and she’s a BITCH”. Often shows videos of him cooking or baking wild concoctions that range from “Okay, I’d try that” to “this is why God has abandoned us”. 

- Does dancing videos with Emma all the time and often acts as the “creeper” in her self defense videos. 

- Caused a meltdown on tiktok when he casually mentioned his “partners” and started creating videos to raise awareness for polyamory. 

- Revealed Julian was his brother when he posted a video of Julian yelling at him for a solid minute because “the baby is covered in honey, why is the baby covered in honey, Mark? We don’t let the baby bathe in honey even if he really wants to Mark -” 

- solidly on cooking and gay tiktok, often takes a sharp left into “crackhead” tiktok

Kieran: Posts videos of cats he finds and rates them. The lowest ever was a 9.5/10 because “she bit me fairly hard but I scared her and I deserved it for trying to pet her without permission”. 

- does not do any trends or reveal much personal information. 

- Was always considered wholesome until he (on a dare from Dru) posted a video joking about choking a bossy sub that rounded up on kinktok. 

-- everyone went through a brief freak out trying to figure out if he had a partner but it was never solved. 

--- No one noticed that Mark posted a video joking about how “one of his partners was absolutely in the doghouse” accompanied by someone sitting in a cardboard ‘doghouse’ around the exact same time. 

- solidly on animal tiktok but occasionally veers into kinktok with more (less explicit) dom/sub humor. 

Cristina: Does not have her own tiktok but often appears in videos with Emma and occasionally shows up in Mark’s. 

- Absolute sweetheart always, even when she is demonstrating a self defense move with Emma, and is always commended for trying Mark’s foods. 

-- especially commended when trying the foods while, offscreen, their other partner yells about “Hell food” 

- is flattered with all the comments begging her to start her own tiktok but doesn’t feel like she has the time to fully commit to one properly. 

Livvy: (She’s alive, don’t @ me) Does absolutely all the new trends and also does various acting POVs 

- her soulmate POVs are most popular but she also is known for dueting act-along POVS with other popular creators

- also occasionally posts videos rating the best male actors/superheroes and once got into a long drawn out back to back war with someone on whether or not Captain America really had “America’s ass” 

- had a very popular multiple-part series about being a girl in the MCU dating the various Avengers but ended it abruptly after Endgame because “Natasha Romanoff deserved better and it hurts too much”

-she used to post occasional videos where she laments on being the “only single person in the family” but she started getting some very creepy duets and comments from actual adults so she told Julian and they both agreed it would be better for her to stop them

-- Julian did take the time to duet the people being inappropriate and explained very clearly that their actions were wrong and directed towards a LITERAL CHILD and shamed multiple accounts into flat out deleting

Ty: Posts literally whatever interests him. Has two animal series - one where he shares facts about his favorite kinds of animals and one where he showcases various animals he’s found in the tidepools or around the house. 

- has done several video series of rescuing animals and has at least one where Julian could be heard lecturing him on trying to raise wild animals in his bedroom again 

-- tiktok freaked out because this happened right around the same time as Julian calling out all the creeps on Livvy’s tiktok and no one knew that the twins he talked about were them  

- also does videos about his favorite literary works - notably Sherlock Holmes - and true crime/mystery videos 

-- he always makes sure to carefully put in warnings for anything remotely violent or triggering and has never had a single video taken down for violating the rules even when he did a multiple part series on the Black Dahlia and how her crime was ‘absolutely solved but because the man who did it was rich and white, he got away with it and probably also killed at least two other women, one of whom was killed in the Philippines” 

-  sometimes does twin videos with Livvy because she likes them and it makes her happy. 

Dru: Queen of witch/horror/true crime tiktok. 

- got in trouble with Julian for showing actual runes in videos but everyone just thought they were for the aesthetic so it was fine

- most popular videos is a series where she rates horror movies on how they do on the bechdel test 

- sometimes duets Ty’s or Livvy’s videos just to drag them (with love) 

- Has a very popular series on “women who snapped” and is known for almost rarely during part 2s (and therefore having to speak very very fast) 

- also complains constantly because her videos will get taken down even if they aren’t that violent and includes clips from far worse videos from male creators to point out the double standard

- occasionally dives into tiktok drama just to dabble and then sits on the sidelines and watches it happen

-- 100% built a balloon arch to flex on That Balloon Girl 

- solidly on witchtok and horrortok

Kit: King of petty/messy tiktok who also posts random videos about crime and occasional blogs

- switches from either sharing no information to borderline oversharing childhood trauma

- shares videos on borderline illegal ways to get back at exfriends/expartners/exfamily members/general enemies 

-- putting fish in people’s vents, subscribing them to magazines under various similar names, sending them glitter in the mail, opening their oreos and taking out the middle of all of them, putting baby locks on their cabinets and in the outlets they can’t see (like under the bed so they can’t get plug in their cellphone charger at night), etc. 

- is always eating some sort of snack, no matter what he is doing

- also posts videos about personal safety like what locks will actually keep people out and what ones are easy to break into

--caused several minor freakouts when he casually mentioned his father taught him how to do it

- occasionally posts videos with an adorable toddler and a young couple who he refers to as “mom and dad” even though they look at MOST five years older than him and he often makes parental abandonment jokes/comments

- no idea where he lives because he speaks in an American accent and talks constantly about American/California life but everything around him looks very British 

- absolutely dives head first into every tiktok drama and will go for the throat for anyone who makes ableist/sexist/racist/homophobic comments without hesitation

-- his drags are legendarily savage and he has caused numerous problematic accounts to just straight up disappear

- duets videos from Livvy, Dru, Mark, Emma and Julian ( with lots of savage drags) but no one knows how he knows them because he is absolutely somewhere in the UK and all of them are based in California/US

-- he also notably NEVER duets Ty

--- the mystery is finally solved when Kit does a livestream and reveals that he met all of them because he was briefly living with them before getting placed with his family, the young couple who actually are his mom and dad 

---- he is very vague about the living situation but everyone assumes he was a foster child 

- he once caused a mass freakout on Tiktok (that actually spilled over to twitter and buzzfeed) when he announced he was going back to the US to visit friends and then posted a video with the caption “when you see your boyfriend in person for the first time in MONTHS but he’s too distracted by some wet 🐱” 

-- the video panned out from Kit’s unamused face to Ty gently rubbing a tiny wet kitten  with a soft cotton towel 

[immortal-enemies]

Livvy couldn't say that being a ghost was nice. It was alright most of the time. An in-between 'meh'. She liked that she could look over her family, that she could search for Irene when she disappeared. What she didn't like though was that she couldn't talk to her family, that whenever she found Irene, the lynx couldn't see her most of the time.

But, Ty could see her, could talk to her. It was enough. It had to be enough. He was her twin, her other half. She knew him inside out. His mannerisms, his peeves, how he had a glutton for knowledge, how he was curious about everything.

She knew how he thought about things. And he knew the same for her.

So, that was why, she didn't need him to tell her what he was thinking when she saw him looking at himself in the mirror. He was just standing there staring at himself. Seeing how much he had changed.

'I look so different,' he said.

Livvy had to agree. He had changed. He had grown taller by a few inches. His shoulders were a little broader, his collarbones just a little more defined. The panes of his cheekboneswere elegant, his jaw sharp. His hair looked curlier and his eyes more striking and intimidating. The heron necklace on his chest looked delicate and ethereal, just like the boy who had given it to him.

But the thing that made him look the most different was the lack of emotion in his eyes. His eyes were distant. Always thinking ahead. Not not - feeling emotion, just — not showing it.

Livvy wished she could stop him from thinking so ahead, tell him to stop and enjoy life in the present.

But she couldn't. Because it wasn't her job to tell him that. She couldn't tell him the joys of life, not if she herself was dead.

Before she could reply, a knock sounded on the door and she started. She looked to see Dru standing in the doorway.

'Ty,' she said, 'I think you have some mail from the Scholomance. You should check it out.'

Ty nodded. Livvy saw Dru open her mouth, then close it. Livvy wondered if Dru had noticed the distantness in Ty's eyes .

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When they reached the Dining Room, Livvy was met with a beautiful sight. She had forgotten today was pancake day. There were pancakes of different flavours, plain vanilla, chocolate, banana and oats, lining the table with different syrups and toppings like, maple syrup, chocolate sauce, whipped cream, different berries and fresh fruits.

Livvy couldn't eat. She missed eating (obviously), but she didn't think about it that often. But, looking at Julian's handmade breakfast now, it made her heart and her stomach ache.

She saw Emma showing Julian a letter and a few photographs. Curious, she went toward them.

She saw the letter first, in Julian's hand. She didn't read what was in it, she just saw the last few lines.

Love,

Jem and Tessa Carstairs

(P. S: Kit and Mina have sent their love in a different way, look at the photos)

She did look at photos and the package that had come with the letter.

The photo was taken in a classical looking kitchen. It was way too huge for a family of four, but in the photo it was being completely used. There were pots and packets on the counter, a tray of cupcake molds, silicone chocolate molds and all that stuff. Mina was sitting on the counter, her mouth stained with eating too many chocolates, Tessa was behind the figure standing in the middle, looking like she was chastising him.

And in the center was Kit. He had also changed, more so than Ty. His shoulders had become way broader than they were before, and his biceps were flexed as he was holding a bowl full of chocolate batter and whisking it. His skin had darkened, making the mole below his left eye more visible. It was a candid shot, and he was in the middle of laughing, his head thrown back, his eyes crinkling with mirth.

She looked up from the photo to see Ty coming. Saw his eyes run up and down the photo, saw his eyes tighten and his mouth flatten as he looked at the boy. Not from anger, but from sadness and sorrow and loneliness. She couldn't do anything but watch as Ty took his pancakes and slipped out of the room, without looking at the other photos or the package full of sweets, somehow most of them being Ty's favorites.

She could tell him that Kit hadn't forgotten him. Hadn't left him. That when she had seen Kit after almost six months, the first question Kit had asked was whether Ty was okay or not. That he had given Ty the only thing he had of his mother. Hadn't thought twice about it.

But she didn't. Because it wasn't her job. Because Kit was just as much as her brother as Ty was and she wouldn't reveal his secret.

So, she let Ty think that Kit had left him. Had grown tired of him and left him. She let Ty think that Kit didn't love him.

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Sorry if this is way too long, I didn't want it to be, but this hc just came to me that Jem writes Emma letters throughout the years and sends photos of Tessa, Mina and Kit doing shenanigans. And one day, when Ty is back in LA, a letter, some photos and package comes from Jem and yeah.. Anyway I totally think Kit would learn how to cook from Tessa and Jem, and them send the two of them on weekend dates and cook food for Mina.

BRO IT WASN'T TOO LONG I WANTED IT TO C O N T I N U E-

THIS WAS SO GOOD STOP-

Something that's kinda random that caught my eye was how in the first paragraph, you said like, two things that she liked (watching over her family and she liked to look for Irene) then named the downsides of those two things. Idk why it just was something I loved so much.

Also- She couldn't tell him the joys of life, not if she herself was dead. Was absolutely beautiful I just- there are no words.

I also like how Livvy didn't tell Ty something that wasn't her secret to tell. That was very nice to read for a change 😸

And, one last thing, "delicate and ethereal" is how we shall describe Kit from now on thx 😌

Overall, I completely support this and am honored that you gave me the ask 😄 tysm this was amazing ♥️

Also so sorry that this took so long to answer oops-