#shipper brain is a helluva drug

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[manicali]

Hi, My name is Manic

I love to do art, mostly my own OCs. I am quite bad at it.

About me: She/He/Him/Her pronouns (please not they) Genderfluid and AroAce. (Demirose, but whatever) I am so deeply annoying.

Taken by my lovely boyfriend : @aapaadaap <3

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Twisted Daydreams. Isekai type shit.

Last Reign of the Sol King: Fantasy politics

Envy’s Angel: I attempt to write Romance

Free Therapy: I don’t even know anymore y’all T-T

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Synopses for all my stories: to understand what I’m talking about

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TRIGGER WARNINGS FOR MY BLOG!!

I mention a lot of darker topics like suicide and self harm in my stories, so watch out for that. Also a LOT of violence, sharp objects, and graphic murders. I write dark shit, and talk about it as well. Lots of swearing. Drugs and poisons are one of my interests so I talk about that a lot. Mentions of abuse also, for my characters. Im also a shippy guy (sorry :( ) so if romance repulsed possibly not the best blog to hang out on. Same for sex repulsed, while this blog is STRICTLY no nsfw, suggestive jokes are sometimes present.

Current Interests: Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss, Radioapple shipper to the death. Gravity Falls, I love it so much. Danganrompa kinda. Mother Mother is my LIFEBLOOD. Started watching Dan and Phil. Bungo Stray Dogs has my heart (mostly cause Dazai)

#1 Simp for Gym Leader Piers and Hazbin hotel Rosie <3

And fuck it, Dazai from bsd. I think he’s killed hundreds of my brain cells by existing (or not existing I guess)

Love my mutuals @wyfy-meltdown @speakofthedebbie and @helluvaandhazbinarelife <3 gonna update and add all the super cool moots I have eventually

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Manic makes jokes: Usually memes I threw together on the bus when Im miserable. If you get triggered easy block this tag completely these jokes are mostly dark

[quickreaver]

Emptying my brain...

Recently, there was quite a kerfuffle in the SPN fandom, over the realization that several self-proclaimed “BNFs” had been Mean Girling fellow fans into hating on certain other fans and certain other members of the cast of SPN. Thoughts have been percolating around in my head about this for a bit. Here goes... There has already been some discussions of warning about how cult-like these tactics seem: the initial lovebombing, indoctrination, evolving into intimidation and threats if people don't fall in line. The hunger to belong and smug feeling of group-think is a helluva drug. The fear of losing favor and being ousted from the silo is also a helluva withdrawal. I wonder if there's a reason all these manipulative personalities, every one of them, have been from the Destiel quarter of the SPN family. Is it sheer numbers? Or does it begin with the selling of the ship as this monumental slow-burn greatest love story ever told (even though the show's actual canon does very little to support this fable)? The relationship between Dean and Cas has been romanticized to a legendary degree, and the fanon has become the preferred telling of the tale, replete with lengthy subtextual navel-gazing over lamps and fictional beer brands and artfully staged gif sets on tumblr. Every whiff of the show has been recontextualized to point to Destiel. A stroll through any given list of Destiel All-Time Fave Fics is chock full of AUs and characters that feel more like Any Two White Guys than the actual characters from SPN.

Maybe this primes D/C shippers to be more susceptible to grift, to believe anyone with charisma and confidence and leadership aspirations, who promises the fruition of some manner of Destiel endgame. Which, okay. I totally get how deeply we often feel about our fandoms and the dynamics, how we project onto the characters and idealize the ships as more than the show intended.

It'd be fine... if fans then didn't feel the need to evangelize for the ship and punish those who got in the way. Some groups have been actively attacking the cast and parts of our fandom for years, as well as making actual bank off it all. Under the guise of inclusion and camaraderie, they dangle paying admission into their sacred inner circles like worms on hooks. They took, and are continuing to take, money to offer glimpses behind the doors of their Patreons or special levels of their Discords, where those lucky customers would theoretically be honored with friendship (parasocial, much?), and gifted with the potential of supposed insider info, and/or proximity to the cast and crew at conventions. In return, that same congregation would be used as a tool to attack and discredit the parts of the SPN milieu that the grand poobahs dislike. They would be asked to buy their merch, to keep their secrets, to send hate mail to each other in order to place the blame on “the other side”, try to get competing fans (or even TV shows) canceled, carry the torches of hate, and the list goes on. I don't know where this is going exactly, but there's a difference between bickering over which ship has the best blorbos or whose fave is the most girlboss, and actively trying to generate a lemming-like mass of obedience, enough to impact the IRL health and well-being of other people. Fandom can rally to accomplish such good feats (and lord knows the companies and studios that own our favorite franchises have figured this out), but every coin has two sides. Just, be aware of which one you're on, I guess.