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With The Roses - Her Best Secret 2

1950s Natasha Romanoff x fem!reader

Summary: Natasha and R are having an affair. - they get to spend a night together

Note: I wrote this after watching Mother's Instinct with Anne Hathway and Jessica Chastain. I needed to make it gay. I don't know what this is truly but it's here.

Warnings: Smut and fluff and angst - there's a bit of panic =)

w/c: 7k

The sun was high, and the air was humid as you walked down the street toward your neighbor's house. Claire was having a girl's day with your mother, and Sam and Steve were away on one of their fishing trips. The house felt too big and quiet, so your feet naturally led you to Natasha’s. The sight that greeted you stopped you in your tracks. There she was, Natasha Romanoff, tending to her rose garden in the front yard, utterly absorbed in her work. She was sporting a crisp white blouse tucked into her black slacks. A sun visor perched on her head as she leaned down to inspect a blooming rose. She snipped away at the stems with small pruning shears.

You didn't call out to her immediately, enjoying the rare moment of seeing her so at peace. Her hair was tied back into a neat bun, with a few loose strands sticking to the nape of her neck with sweat. She hummed softly, a tune you couldn't quite place, as she moved to the next bush.

"Staring's rude, you know," She finally said, without even turning around.

"Well, I'm just enjoying the view," You said without thinking. Natasha smirked, though you couldn't see her face. "The roses are beautiful."

Natasha straightened up, turning to face you with an amused expression. Her cheeks were flushed, likely from the heat, and a faint sheen of sweat was on her brow. Even in the humid air, she looked as effortlessly composed as ever.

“They are,” she agreed, arching an eyebrow. “Though I have a feeling that’s not all you were looking at.”

You felt your face heat up, and you tried to play it off with a laugh. “Guilty as charged. But really, the roses are stunning.”

She smirked, her green eyes sparkling in the sunlight. “Nice save.”

You stepped closer, leaning slightly against her yard's white picket fence. “You’ve got quite the green thumb, huh? I don’t know how you keep them alive in this heat.”

Natasha shrugged, slipping off her gloves and tossing them into her wicker basket. “Patience. A little care goes a long way.” Her gaze flicked over to you. “Kind of like friendships.”

You tilted your head, smiling softly. “Is that your subtle way of telling me I don’t visit enough?”

She chuckled, pulling the sun visor off her head and running a hand over her hair. “Maybe. But you’re here now, and I’ll take what I can get.”

“Well, I was feeling lonely,” you admitted, looking down at your feet for a moment before glancing back up at her. “Claire’s with my mother today. They've gone down to do a little shopping and to get tea."

Natasha’s expression softened. She gestured toward her house with a nod of her head. “Come on inside. I just made some lemonade. The perfect excuse to take a break from this heat.”

She turned and headed toward the front porch. You followed behind her, admiring the way her slacks hugged her shapely legs and backside. Your mind drifted to the first time you had seen her in her pants. You had been unable to stop your eyes from trailing over her body, her curves barely contained by her tight clothes. Natasha was a modern woman. She was everything you wished you could be. Not too long ago, you couldn't tell whether you wanted to be with her or be her.

In the kitchen, Natasha handed you a glass of lemonade, the ice clinking as it settled. You murmured a quiet “thanks” before taking a sip. The tartness was perfectly balanced with sweetness, and it helped you cool down. Natasha leaned against the counter, her gaze casually following yours as you scanned the room.

It was quiet there too. Your attention snagged on the stack of books on the table. The covers were worn, and the spines creased from countless reads. Titles like East of Eden by John Steinbeck, Peyton Place by Grace Metalious, and The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger caught your eye.

“You read a lot,” you said, gesturing toward the books as you set your glass on a coaster.

Natasha followed your gaze and smiled. “Guilty as charged. It’s how I unwind.”

You picked up East of Eden, running your fingers over the aged cover. “These are good choices. Heavy, but good.”

“I like a story that makes me think,” she said, tilting her head slightly. “But I also like a little drama. Something juicy enough to make me forget about the world for a while.”

“Peyton Place fits that bill,” you quipped, flipping through its pages.

Natasha chuckled, her voice warm and rich. “It does. Small-town secrets and scandal? What’s not to love?”

You glanced up, catching her watching you with a soft smile. Her red hair was coming loose from the bun, a few strands framing her face. Her tight white blouse clung to her form, and you could not resist letting your gaze linger for a moment longer than it should.

Natasha noticed—of course, she saw—but she didn’t say anything. Instead, she walked over, brushing past you to pick up another book from the pile. Her perfume lingered, a mix of roses and something earthy, grounding.

“You should borrow one,” she offered, holding the book out to you. “Unless you’re more of a magazine person.”

You smirked, taking the book from her hands. “I think I can handle a real novel, thank you very much.”

Natasha held up her hands in surrender, chuckling. "Alright, I’ll behave."

You glanced at the book she’d handed you, The Sun Also Rises by Ernest Hemingway. Your fingers traced the embossed title on the cover, appreciating the texture of the paper.

"What a striking title," you murmured. "You do have an eye for fine books, Nat."

She smiled, her green eyes sparkling. "It’s a favorite of mine. You’d enjoy it, I think."

"How’s little Claire-bear?" Natasha asked, shifting the conversation with ease.

"She’s quite the spitfire," you replied, unable to hold back a smile. "Though she’s been picking up words, I’d rather she didn’t. I told her I’d wash her mouth with soap if she tried them again."

Natasha chuckled, her laugh as soft as the breeze. "Children do have a way of testing boundaries. I imagine Sam isn’t much help with discipline."

You rolled your eyes, though your tone was fond. "He’s utterly hopeless. She’s got him wrapped around her little finger. ‘Daddy’s Little Girl’ and all that."

"Well," Natasha said, raising a brow, "it sounds like you’ve your hands full."

You hesitated, tracing the condensation on your lemonade glass. "I’ve been glancing at the classifieds lately," you admitted your voice a touch hesitant.

Natasha leaned forward slightly. "Oh? Are you considering a position somewhere?"

"Yes, though Sam doesn’t see the point. He keeps saying we’re managing fine, but it’s not about the money. I just... I feel as though I need something of my own."

Natasha frowned, her lips pressing together briefly. "And what’s his argument, exactly?"

You sighed. "It’s still the 1950s, Nat. No matter how modern things are becoming, people expect women to keep the house running while their husbands provide. It’s not as though I don’t understand it—it’s just..."

"It’s just not what you want," Natasha finished for you gently.

You nodded, the tension easing slightly under her understanding gaze.

"You deserve more," Natasha said firmly. "If there’s one thing I know, it’s that a woman who follows her heart is never truly out of step with the times."

You chuckled, her words both comforting and inspiring. "Thanks, Nat. You always know what to say."

"Anytime," she replied with a warm smile. "If Sam needs a nudge in the right direction, just say the word."

"Do I seem ungrateful?" You questioned. "Sam provides well; he is good to me, and I have everything a woman could ask for."

"Except the right to choose for yourself," Natasha remarked.

"Yes," you sighed. "I can't explain it, but something is missing. Like a piece of myself that I've yet to find."

Natasha hummed, her eyes scanning over your features. You held her gaze for a moment before shifting the conversation.

"You know," you began, tilting your head, "you never talk about you and Steve."

Natasha’s brows lifted slightly, caught off guard by your remark. She recovered quickly, though, leaning back in her chair with a shrug. "There’s not much to say."

"Nat," you said pointedly, giving her a look. "That’s not true, and you know it. You’re always checking in on me, listening to my endless rants, offering advice, but you never let me return the favor."

Natasha’s lips curved into a faint smile, though it didn’t quite reach her eyes. "I don’t mean to keep things from you. It’s just complicated."

"That’s not an excuse," you countered gently. "You’re my friend, Nat. I care about you, just like you care about me. Why not let me in for once?"

She hesitated, her fingers brushing against the rim of her glass. "Steve’s a good man," she said finally, her voice measured. "But sometimes... sometimes I wonder if being with me is best for him."

You frowned, your heart aching at the vulnerability in her tone. "Why would you think that? Anyone would be lucky to have you."

Natasha let out a soft laugh, though it was filled with bitterness. "I’m not exactly the ideal woman, am I? I’ve got too many rough edges and too much baggage. Steve deserves someone uncomplicated, someone who fits neatly into his world. Someone feminine. I'm not a homemaker. I can't cook but a few dishes. The roses are the only thing I can keep alive."

The silence that followed was thick with unspoken words. Natasha shifted, the weight of the conversation settling between you both. She looked down at her glass, her fingers tapping lightly against the rim. Her lips parted as if she was about to say something but quickly closed again, unsure of how to continue.

"He's lucky to have you as a wife," you said, trying to break the tension. "You're smart, witty, and a great listener. You've got the sharpest tongue and a killer sense of style. Steve couldn't have asked for a better match."

"It's not the same," she insisted, her eyes meeting yours. "He doesn't need someone like me. He needs a woman to run a household and keep his parents happy. Someone who doesn't enjoy sex with women."

You blinked, startled by the last bit. Natasha was staring at you, her expression guarded. You felt the sudden urge to reach out and reassure her, but you didn't know how.

"I'm not sure what you mean," you said carefully. "Are you saying that you and Steve don't—"

"No," Natasha interrupted. "I'm not saying that. But our sex life is... complicated. I enjoy sex with him, but I also enjoy sex with other women. It's not something he can understand."

Your cheeks flushed as her words sunk in. The air seemed to crackle between you both, charged with tension. Natasha was still watching you, waiting for your reaction. You didn't know what to say. You'd never given much thought to other women before her.

"The postman is here," Natasha said, suddenly standing and heading to the window. It was her way of pulling away from the conversation. She tended to do that a lot. "Let's see if we've gotten anything interesting today."

She didn't wait for your reply before stepping outside, the screen door shutting behind her. You watched her walk down the front steps, her posture perfectly poised. She spoke to the postman briefly before heading back toward the house, a stack of envelopes in hand. You stood, clearing your throat as she came inside.

"Let's see," Natasha murmured, sorting through the mail. "Bills, bills, more bills... oh, and this must be the latest copy of Vogue."

She pulled out a magazine, its cover featuring a stunning model wearing an elegant evening gown. You glanced at the cover, admiring the sleek design.

"Looks like I'm not the only one who loves fashion," you teased, giving her a knowing smile. She stacked the mail on the foyer table.

"There's nothing wrong with wanting to look good," Natasha said, a faint smile curving her lips.

You hesitated, the words spilling from your lips. "Do you want to go out?"

Natasha raised a brow, surprised by your suggestion. "Like a date?"

"Yeah," you said, shrugging. "We could get a bite to eat or go dancing."

"Oh, honey," Natasha said with a soft chuckle, leaning against the table's edge as she folded her arms. "You know it can’t be a date."

"I know," you said quickly, feeling a slight flush creep up your cheeks. "I didn’t mean it like that. I just thought..." You trailed off, fumbling for the words. "Well, I just thought maybe we could spend some time together. But if it’s too much, forget I said anything."

Natasha’s smile softened, her green eyes warm. "Now, don’t go putting words in my mouth," she said lightly. "I didn’t say no. I just think stepping out together might turn a few heads. Folks around here love a bit of gossip."

"True enough," you said with a small laugh, nodding in agreement. "The neighborhood grapevine’s quicker than a telephone line."

"Exactly," Natasha said, her tone playful but with a hint of caution. She paused for a moment, tilting her head thoughtfully. "But who says we can’t make a night of it here? I’ve got a good bottle of wine in the kitchen and more records than I can count. No need for all the hullabaloo."

You raised a brow, your lips curving into a smile. "So, you’d rather keep me hidden in your house than be seen with me in public?"

Natasha smirked, grabbing the stack of mail and heading toward the kitchen. "Something like that. Besides, I think you’d enjoy the songs I’ve been spinning lately."

"Oh, now I’m curious," you teased, following her. "What kind of tunes are we talking about?"

"Only the best," Natasha replied, glancing over her shoulder with a twinkle in her eye. "But you’ll have to stick around to find out."

"Fair enough," you said, feeling a warmth spread through you. Spending a quiet evening with Natasha, just the two of you, felt more inviting than any night out.

********

Hours later, you found yourself back at Natasha’s house, taking note of the sun setting as your cue. You’d taken your time getting ready, selecting an outfit that was comfortable and flattering. It wasn’t overly fussy—Natasha would never expect that—but you wanted to look your best for her.

You’d even dabbed on your favorite shade of lipstick, which always made you feel more confident. And for good measure, you pinned your hair up, remembering how Natasha once mentioned how much she liked the style on you. Her words had stayed with you, playing on repeat in the quieter corners of your mind.

As you climbed the steps to her porch, the soft glow of light spilling through the windows made the house feel welcoming, almost magical in the dusk. You smoothed your skirt one last time and knocked, your heart picking up a rhythm that felt both ridiculous and exhilarating.

When the door opened, Natasha stood in a simple yet elegant outfit—a soft sweater and slacks that looked effortlessly chic. She gave you a once-over, her lips curving into a small, approving smile.

"You clean up nice," she said, stepping aside to let you in.

"You don’t look so bad yourself," you quipped, though your tone betrayed how much you meant it.

The house smelled faintly of roses, and the faint crackle of a record player filled the air with a familiar melody. Natasha led you into the living room, where a small table had been set with two glasses and the bottle of wine she’d mentioned earlier.

"You didn’t have to go to so much trouble," you said, taking it all in.

"It’s not trouble," she replied, her voice warm. "I just figured if we��re staying in, we might as well make it nice."

You couldn’t help but smile at that, feeling a little flutter in your chest. Natasha always had a way of making the simplest moments feel extraordinary.

"Here," she said, holding up the bottle. "I think it's best to start with a toast."

She poured the wine, and you each took a glass, clinking them together before taking a sip. The wine was smooth and rich, warming your throat as you swallowed.

"Good choice," you murmured, admiring the deep red color.

"Only the best," she repeated, a mischievous glint in her eye.

"So," you said, glancing around the room. "What song did you have in mind?"

"Ah," Natasha said, nodding. "Let me put on the record, and you'll see."

She crossed the room, and as the music began to play, your eyes widened.

"Oh, I love this one," you exclaimed. "Billie Holiday is a gem!"

Natasha smiled, the look in her eyes softening as the music filled the room. "She's a favorite of mine. This particular song always reminds me of a dear friend. A girl, actually. We used to dance together when we were younger."

Her voice was full of affection, and you imagined a young Natasha swept up in the arms of a girl, their bodies pressed close as they moved together to the music. You swallowed, trying to ignore the pang of jealousy in your belly.

"Did she mean a lot to you?" You asked, trying to keep your tone casual.

Natasha laughed, her eyes sparkling. "We had some fun times. Truthfully, she was always a bit too wild for my taste."

"Oh," You nodded.

"Are you jealous?"

"No," you said, shaking your head. "Just surprised.”

Natasha grinned, her lips parting slightly as if she was going to say something, but instead, she walked over and held out her hand.

"Dance with me."

You stared at her, surprised. You didn't know what to say, and your heart was racing.

"Dance with me," Natasha repeated, her voice softer now.

Slowly, you took her hand, feeling the warmth of her skin against yours. She drew you close, wrapping her arm around your waist, and you followed her lead. Your bodies swayed to the music, the rhythm guiding you both. You and Natasha had never danced this close before. You'd never had this moment of intimacy with her. All of your meetings before this were guided by hurriedness and practicality. There was always a purpose—a reason—for your time together, whether it was helping with her garden, sharing a quick cup of coffee, or catching up about your families. But this moment was different. There was no rush, no task to complete, no excuse to look away.

The world outside her cozy living room slowly faded, leaving just the two of you. Natasha’s hand rested firmly but tenderly against the small of your back, her touch grounding you in a way you hadn’t expected.

"You’re a natural," she murmured, her breath brushing against your ear.

You let out a soft laugh, a little embarrassed but unable to tear your gaze away from her. "I’m just following your lead."

Her lips twitched into a faint smile that softened her typically sharp features. "You make it look effortless."

You couldn’t tell if she was talking about the dancing or something else entirely, but the weight of her words wrapped around you just the same. The space between you was almost nonexistent now, and you were hyper-aware of every place her body met yours—the press of her breasts against yours, the warmth of her breath, the brush of her thighs against yours. You knew it was wrong to feel this way, but you couldn’t deny how good it felt.

You couldn’t deny how much you wanted her.

As the song ended, you remained close, neither willing to break the spell.

"This is nice," Natasha muttered. "Being here with you like this."

You hummed in agreement, her words sending a shiver down your spine.

"I can't believe you've been here this long and I haven't kissed you," She said.

"Natasha," you whispered.

"What is it?" She asked.

"Kiss me."

She didn't need to be told twice.

Her lips met yours, her kiss tender and firm, and you melted into her. It was unlike any other kiss you'd experienced, and you wanted more. You parted your lips, deepening the kiss, and she responded in kind, her tongue meeting yours in a slow, languid rhythm.

You were lost in the sensation, the taste of her, the scent of her perfume, the softness of her skin. You couldn't think straight. Your whole body was buzzing with desire, and the only thing you could focus on was her.

"You always taste so sweet,"

"Mmm, it's just my lipstick," you said with a soft laugh.

"It's more than that," she countered, her fingers tracing the curve of your jaw. "It's you."

Her words made your heart skip a beat, and you could feel yourself getting flushed.

"Nat," You murmured.

"Yes?" She asked, her gaze locking with yours.

"I love being here with you.”

Her expression shifted, a mix of emotions playing across her face. Surprise, desire, and something else, something softer. Somehow, she figured that’s not what you were going to say.

"I love being here with you too.”

And with that, she captured your lips in another searing kiss. You both knew there was no turning back now. You were each other's, and nothing could ever change that.

"We haven’t had dinner," She whispered. "I cooked for you. Um, brisket. It's in the oven."

"It's perfect," you breathed, the two of you stumbling to the couch. "Everything's perfect."

"Well," Natasha said, her eyes dancing with amusement. "I wouldn't go that far."

"Take a compliment," you replied, a playful edge in your voice.

She smiled, leaning in to capture your lips once more. As the kisses grew heated, her hands began exploring your body, her touch igniting a fire within you. You were burning up with need; she was the only thing to quench the flames.

You couldn't resist reaching for her, pulling her close as your kisses became desperate and hungry. The heat between you was undeniable, and you were both lost in the moment.

"Can I touch you here?" Natasha asked as her hand raised to rest along your breast. It was an interesting question, considering she'd touched you in far worse places. You nodded.

She was careful and gentle, as if afraid to scare you away.

"Don't stop," You said, breathless, as she cupped your breast and rolled your nipple between her fingers.

You could feel yourself getting wet, the ache between your legs growing more intense. Natasha was relentless, her touch firm but tender, and you were drowning in the sensations.

"Please, Nat," you begged, not sure what exactly you were asking for, but you needed her more than anything.

"Shhh," She cooed. "Let me take care of you."

She began kissing down your neck, her tongue tracing the line of your collarbone. You gasped, your body responding to her touch as if it was made for her.

"I'm glad you wore a dress tonight," She said, her voice low and husky. "It makes things so much easier."

Before you could respond, she was lifting your skirt, exposing your thighs. She traced a path with her fingers, slowly making her way up. She took note of your lack of stockings and garter.

"Oh, no undergarments?" She teased. "You naughty thing."

Your face was hot as she slid her hand between your legs, her fingers teasing at your entrance. You couldn't hold back a moan, the pleasure too intense.

"Is this okay?" She asked, her touch light and deliberate.

"Yes," You gasped, your hips rocking against her hand.

She bit her lip, watching your facial expressions and chest heaving.

"I want to try something," She bit her lip. "If you're okay with it."

"Anything," You moaned.

She smiled and removed her fingers, placing them in her mouth. You could only stare, transfixed, as she licked them clean.

"You taste even sweeter down here," she said, her tone full of mischief. She dropped to her knees and, without another word, buried her face between your legs.

"Oh," you whimpered, feeling her tongue lick a long stripe over your sex. She hummed against your skin, sending vibrations through you.

"You like that?" She asked, looking up at you with hooded eyes.

"Yes," You breathed, barely able to form the word. Based on your responses, she could tell this was your first experience with a person's mouth there.

She was unrelenting, her tongue finding every spot that made you cry out and then some. The sounds coming from her were positively sinful, and they only added to the pleasure building within you. You were lost in the feeling, unable to do anything but let go and surrender to the waves of ecstasy crashing over you.

Your orgasm hit you hard, and you cried out, gripping the cushions beneath you. Natasha's grip tightened on your thighs as she helped you ride out the aftershocks.

"How was that?" She asked, a self-satisfied grin on her face.

You could only stare at her, completely speechless.

"That good, huh?" She chuckled, licking her lips.

"More," You demanded, your voice hoarse.

Natasha was happy to oblige until a distinct smell came into the air.

"Something's burning," You said, alarmed.

"Shit," Natasha exclaimed, leaping up and running toward the kitchen.

You followed her, quickly taking the pan out of the oven and opening a window.

"Damn it," Natasha cursed, looking down at the charred brisket. "I was so distracted, I forgot about dinner."

"It's alright," You reassured her. "The important thing is that we're together."

She smiled, the expression warming her features. "I couldn't agree more."

"We should eat something," You said.

"I'm not sure there's anything edible left," she joked.

"I can make some sandwiches," you suggested, not wanting the night to end. You looked over at Natasha's face. Her lipstick was smudged, and her hair was a mess. You couldn't help but giggle at the sight.

"What?" Natasha asked, looking at you.

"Nothing," you said, grinning. You reached across you to wipe her mouth. "Was it enjoyable for you to do that? It seemed awfully one-sided."

Natasha blushed. "I enjoyed it."

You gave her a coy look, feeling brave.

"Do you want me to... um... return the favor?"

Natasha swallowed hard, her gaze locked on yours. You could see the desire burning in her eyes. She leaned forward to kiss you, but you hesitated.

"What?"

"Is it proper for us to kiss after?" You asked. "I mean, you did just..."

Natasha grinned, shaking her head. "Nothing about what we did is proper. "

"Then why do we bother doing it?" You asked.

"Because it's fun," Natasha replied, her voice low and seductive. "And because I'm selfish. I want to see how far we can go before the neighbors start to gossip."

You couldn't help but laugh at that, your heart racing at her boldness. You leaned in and kissed her, the taste of you on her lips sending a thrill through you.

"To the bedroom," She said, standing and pulling you with her.

"But what about the sandwiches?"

"Screw the sandwiches," Natasha said, her expression dark with desire. "I want to fuck you."

You felt a flush spread across your cheeks, and a rush of heat flooded your core.

"Then take me," you breathed, wanting her more than anything.

The two of you made your way to her room, an unfamiliar room. You'd never been in her bedroom before. There was no reason to be, considering. She was a very private person. But now, you were both ready to take this relationship to the next level.

Once inside, she wasted no time in pulling you close, her hands exploring your body as she kissed you deeply. You could feel her urgency, her need, and it fueled your own.

"Let me undress you," she murmured, her breath warm against your ear.

"Natasha, let me spoil you," you insisted, wanting to repay the favor. "You deserve."

She didn't protest this time. Instead, she simply nodded, a small smile curving her lips. You stepped back, allowing her to watch as you slowly stripped off your dress.

"Beautiful," she breathed, her gaze lingering on your bare breasts.

You blushed, feeling self-conscious under her scrutiny.

"Don't be shy," she said, her tone soothing. "You're perfect."

You couldn't help but smile at her praise, and you were suddenly filled with renewed confidence.

You stepped toward her, reaching for the hem of her sweater. You lifted it slowly, exposing her smooth skin.

She wasn't wearing a bra, and her breasts were just as perfect as the rest of her. You couldn't resist running your hands over them, feeling her nipples harden beneath your touch.

"You're amazing," you whispered, kissing her.

She responded eagerly, her lips parting to allow your tongue entrance.

The kiss quickly heated, and you pushed her back toward the bed. You both fell onto the soft sheets, your bodies tangled together.

Natasha was the one to break the kiss, her green eyes dark with lust.

"I want to do what you did to me in the den," You blushed. "I've never done that before. Will you show me how you like it?"

Natasha was more than happy to oblige. She lifted to remove her pants and underwear. Then, she laid back and spread her legs, allowing you to get a good look at her.

She was glistening with arousal, and the sight was almost enough to make you come right then and there.

"Go ahead," she encouraged, her voice low and husky. "Taste me."

You bit your lip, leaning in and pressing against her center. It was a simple kiss, one that garnered a weak expression. She was being patient with you. Her scent was intoxicating. Musky and uniquely her.

"Again," She urged gently. "But, harder."

You did as she said, putting more pressure behind the kiss. You could feel her body tense, her breathing growing heavier.

"More," she pleaded. "Use your tongue."

You obeyed, flicking your tongue against her, causing her to moan softly.

"Oh, fuck," she gasped, her hips bucking against your mouth.

"Is that okay?" You asked, worried you were doing something wrong.

"More than okay," she assured you, her hand resting on your head. "Just keep going." She directed your head where she wanted it, and you happily complied.

"Yes," she groaned, her grip tightening. "Just like that."

Her sounds were intoxicating, and you found yourself getting more and more turned on by her reactions. Recalling where her tongue had taken you, you decided to try something new.

You puckered your lips and suckled the sensitive bud there, earning a loud moan from Natasha.

"That's it," she gasped, her back arching off the bed. "Keep going."

You continued the motion, alternating between sucking and flicking your tongue. Her taste was addictive, and you couldn't get enough of it.

"I'm close," she warned, her voice strained. "Don't stop."

You picked up the pace, wanting to bring her to the edge. You could feel her body tensing, her breathing becoming ragged. You appreciated the fact that she could tell you how she felt, as this form of sex was not a common practice.

Suddenly, her body went rigid, and a cry tore from her lips. Her release was intense, her muscles clenching and releasing in waves.

You kept going, wanting to draw out her pleasure for as long as possible. She was breathtaking like this, lost in the throes of ecstasy. You'd never seen anything so beautiful.

As her body finally began to relax, you slowed your movements, bringing her down from her high. You rested your head against her thigh and waited for her.

"Come here," she said, her voice shaky.

You crawled up her body, meeting her lips in a deep kiss.

"That was incredible," she murmured, a lazy smile across her face. "Not bad for your first time."

"I had a good teacher," you replied, returning her smile. You slipped under the sheets.

"And a very willing student," she teased.

You settled into her arms, both of you content and satisfied.

"Sex with you is," You began.

"Incredible?" She smirked.

"It is, but also... it's just so easy," you explained. "Being with you is like breathing."

Natasha didn't speak but drew you closer, kissing gently on your temple.

"I'm learning so much," You continued. "Thank you for letting me explore with you."

Natasha's expression softened, and she leaned in to kiss you, slow and tender.

"You're welcome," she whispered, her voice full of affection."Why do you do that?" She questioned.

"Do what?" You asked, unsure what she was referring to.

"Hide from me," She said, her gaze trailing over your bare skin. "There's no need. Not here."

You swallowed, not knowing how to respond.

"I've had a child," You answered. "My body isn't as..."

"It's perfect," She interrupted. "Just like the rest of you."

She was right, you decided. Why should you hide from her? After all, she had seen you in all your naked glory. It was only fair that you returned the favor.

Slowly, you emerged from beneath the sheets, letting her look her fill.

"Beautiful," she murmured, her eyes filled with desire. "Absolutely beautiful."

"Come here," She instructed, holding out her arms.

You obliged, crawling into her embrace. Her lips met yours, and the kiss quickly grew heated.

You found yourself straddling her, her hands exploring your body, and the ache between your legs intensified. You wanted her, needed her.

"Please," you whispered, desperate for her touch.

"Tell me what you want," she said, her voice low and husky.

"You," you replied, unable to articulate more than that.

"Then you shall have me," she said, rolling the two of you so she was on top.

"How would you like to come this time?" She asked, her hands cupping your breasts.

"Whatever you want," You answered, eager to give yourself to her.

She chuckled, her lips curling into a devilish grin. "Then we're in for a long night."

And with that, she proceeded to show you exactly how many times a woman could orgasm in a single night.

By the end, you were utterly spent, your body exhausted and sated. You lay against the pillows, your eyes closed, trying to catch your breath.

Natasha was curled around you, her body pressed against yours, her head resting on your shoulder.

"I could stay here forever," She said, her voice sleepy.

"Me too," You agreed, your own eyes heavy. "I should probably go home soon."

"What if you didn't?" She suggested, her fingers tracing idle patterns on your skin.

"What do you mean?" You asked, confused.

"What if you stayed here with me?" She elaborated, her words slow and deliberate.

"It's risky," You sighed. "If anyone found out—"

"I know," She interrupted, her tone soft. "But we've been doing a good job keeping this a secret. No one suspects anything. Besides, I can't bear the thought of not having you by my side tonight."

You considered her words, your heart pounding in your chest. It was true; the two of you had been careful. And, you had to admit, spending the night in her arms was tempting.

"Okay," You finally said, making up your mind. "I'll stay."

Natasha's smile lit up her face, and she kissed you, her lips warm and soft.

"Good," she said, her eyes sparkling. "Because I can't get enough of you."

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You stood by the armchair, slipping back into your heels quickly. The soft sound of your dress fabric brushing against your legs filled the quiet room. Natasha sat on the edge of the sofa, still in her robe, nursing a cup of coffee that smelled rich and inviting.

"Leaving so soon?" she asked, her tone casual but her eyes sharp, observing every movement you made.

You gave her a fleeting smile, smoothing out the creases in your dress. "Claire’s coming home soon. She spent the night with my mother, but you know how she gets—she’s practically attached to my hip.”

"Mm," Natasha hummed, sipping her coffee.

"They’ll be back soon, too," you said, avoiding her gaze as you adjusted your earring. The rush in your movements betrayed the careful calm in your voice.

Natasha set her cup down, leaning forward slightly. "You’re in a hurry," she noted, her voice softer now, almost teasing but edged with something more. "Do you regret our night together?"

You froze for a split second, feeling her words settle uncomfortably in the air. You knew you shouldn’t feel guilty. You hadn’t done anything wrong—or had you? Shaking off the thought, you reached for your purse.

"I just don’t want to raise any questions," you said, your tone light. "It’s nothing."

Natasha’s voice followed you, stopping you in your tracks. "Do you think about it?"

You turned to face her, her words catching you off guard. "Think about what?"

Her green eyes stayed on yours, steady and unflinching. "What it would’ve been like if things were different. If we were different."

You blinked, caught in her gaze, the question hanging in the air. "Natasha," you began, trying to find the words. "I—"

"It's alright," she said, her lips quirking up. "I understand. We have our responsibilities. And, besides, some things can't be changed, no matter how hard we wish they could."

Her words cut through you, and you felt a wave of sadness.

"I'm sorry," You sighed. "I enjoyed my night with you. I really did."

"I know," She reassured. "So did I. We should do it again sometime." She opened her arms for a hug.

"I would love that," You answered. She breathed in your scent, smelling herself all over your body, and hummed.

"The idea of him touching you makes me crazy," she murmured. "But I also love smelling my scent on you. I bet he wouldn't be able to do a quarter of what I did to you last night."

It's the first time you've heard her be so possessive. Your breath caught in your throat at her words.

"It's only fair," She continued. "You should have let me mark you."

You felt a surge of arousal course through you at her words but also a flicker of unease. It was dangerous territory, the two of you getting so attached.

"We have to be careful," You warned, though it was the last thing you wanted. "Someone could find out."

"Would it be so bad if they did?" Natasha knew she was being reckless, but she didn't care. All she cared about was you. She nuzzled her nose into your neck.

"Natasha," You protested, your resolve weakening. "We can't."

"Yes, we can," She said, her voice low and seductive. "Just think about it, being with me every day, sharing our lives."

It was tempting, but you knew it was impossible. "It would never work," You said, trying to sound firm, but the words came out sad.

Natasha’s brows furrowed as she pulled back slightly, her piercing gaze locking onto yours. "Why wouldn’t it work?" she challenged, her voice steady, though there was a hint of frustration beneath it.

"Because it’s not just about us," you admitted, your hands trembling as you stepped away, needing space to think clearly. "I’m scared, Natasha. Scared of what this... of what you make me feel."

"Scared?" Natasha repeated, her tone sharp now, almost incredulous. "What’s there to be scared of? Isn’t it scarier to stay in something that doesn’t make you happy?"

You shook your head, your voice cracking as you tried to explain. "It’s not that simple. I love Sam. He’s a good man. And I don’t want to hurt him—or Steve."

Her jaw tightened, and for a moment, she looked away, exhaling deeply. "You should have thought about that before," she said quietly, her words cutting like a knife.

"I know," you replied, guilt heavy in your chest. "And maybe... maybe that’s why we need to cool down. This—whatever this is—it’s too much, Nat. It’s moving too fast, and I... I could lose Claire."

Natasha blinked, clearly taken aback. "Lose Claire?" she repeated, her voice filled with disbelief. "That’s ridiculous. Sam would never take her away from you."

"You don’t understand," you said, your voice rising as panic bubbled. "You can’t understand because you don’t have children. You don’t know what it’s like to have your entire life revolve around them, to know that one wrong move could take them away from you."

The words hung in the air, heavy and biting. Natasha’s face hardened a flicker of hurt, crossing her features before she masked it. "You think I wouldn’t understand?" she asked, her voice quieter now but no less intense.

"I didn’t mean it like that," you said quickly, regret pooling in your stomach.

"But you did," she countered, stepping closer, her gaze uncompromising. "You think because I don’t have children because I can’t have children, that I wouldn’t understand what it means to love someone so much it scares you?"

You froze, her words hitting you like a punch to the gut. "Natasha, I—"

"Don’t," she interrupted, her voice thick with emotion. "You’re scared, fine. But don’t you dare stand there and tell me I don’t understand love? That’s the one thing I do understand."

The room fell silent. Natasha’s breathing was steady but labored, as though she was holding back everything she wanted to say.

"I’m sorry," you whispered, your voice breaking. "I didn’t mean to hurt you. I’m just... I’m trying to do the right thing."

She let out a bitter laugh, shaking her head. "The right thing? For who? For Sam? For Steve? When do you start doing the right thing for yourself?" Natasha sniffled. "You're right." She said. "You should go home and prepare for Sam."

"Natasha," you started, but she held up her hand.

You stood there, conflicted, unsure of how to proceed when she moved towards you. For a moment, it seemed like she was going to say something more, but instead, she reached out, cupping your cheek with a tenderness that surprised you.

"You're a good friend," She murmured. She placed a final kiss on your lips before pulling back. "I suppose you can see your way out."

She turned and walked down the hall, leaving you alone.

You stared after her, feeling the ache in your chest grow, and tried to ignore the sense of loss that was settling in.

You told yourself that you were doing the right thing, even as tears spilled down your cheeks. It was the right thing.

And yet, as you walked out the door and headed home, you couldn't help but feel like a part of you had stayed behind.

#natasha romanoff #black reader #natasha x reader #black widow x reader #black widow x female reader #natasha romanov #natasha x you #smut #angst #fluff and angst

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shoukokus · 19 days ago

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hello!!! it's my first time requesting so is it alright if I can request the reader who was raised and trained to be a black widow from marvel

gn reader pls, idk if u have seen or watched marvel so if you want further details lmk!! but the one detail I want u to include (as angst ofc) is that black widows do ANYTHING for information since they are professional spies and assassins. (they are taken when they are like really young btw so like black widows, they don't got a childhood).

I gotchu, and I wrote this with an already established relationship with them in mind!

Riddle Rosehearts

Riddle is shocked, to say the least, if not a little saddened

It was like his own childhood turned up a thousand notches. At least his mother never made him kill someone

He knows that, in a new world, you have no reason to continue that life and wants more than anything to give you a new start

Frankly he doesn't want to know what you've had to do in the past, that was another life and world ago

You can truly bond with him based on wild childhood expectations and lack of a normal experience

He'll be there every step of the way to make you feel okay again, you don't need to be a Widow anymore

Leona Kingscholar

Immediately tells you never to talk about it again, but not for the reason you may think

He's royalty. How would that look if everyone figured out his significant other was an assassin?? You'd be put on trial, and your whole relationship would be undermined

He knows you aren't here to hurt him, or get information, or even get money. He knows it because he knows you. The you that had been trying so hard to fit in Twisted Wonderland, be normal

Doesn't ever want you to have to use those skills again, but he's not going to discourage it, if that makes sense? It gives him some peace that you aren't helpless

Isn't going to judge you either, he knows how shady high society can be

If you ever have to be a Widow again, just make sure he's in on it, okay?

Azul Ashengrotto

Has frankly no idea what to do when he finds out

Is this marketable?? Can you make money like this? Wait no, he quickly feels bad about thinking that, but he doesn't know what else to think of it

Just sits you down and asks you to explain everything, and listens very quietly

You tell him that you had to do things in your previous world, things you aren't proud of, that haunt you

After telling him about your childhood, or lack thereof, he brings you into a suffocatingly tight hug

You don't have to worry about any of that anymore, he's going to take care of you from now on

Kalim Al-Asim

Similar to Leona, Kalim says that it needs to be kept secret

Look, he's a ray of sunshine and generally unconcerned, but he's had his fair share of assassins. He knows what they do and what they're about

No, he isn't worried about your past, but some people around him might be

But you're the one he wants around the most!

Kalim isn't really going to understand anything you tell him, just the big picture, so if you're looking for some comfort about specific things like not having a childhood, you'll have to tell him. You just need love!

You have his support for a lifetime, and anything you need will be yours as you find new footing

Vil Schoenheit

Vil is very rarely left shocked, but here he is

What on EARTH do you mean you were a trained assassin?

After the initial bomb drop, he sits you down to talk like Azul, and allows you to just say everything you wanted to say

It's certainly... jarring to learn about it, but he's strangely calm. I mean, if you had wanted to kill him or take something from him, you would have done it by now right?

He does very briefly wonder if you were after something, but as he looks into your eyes, full of unshed tears and shear hurt... those thoughts stop

You wanted to begin anew, but could no longer keep the past from your lover, and he could work with that

Idia Shroud

Idia kind of wonders if you're like a cool movie character, then realizes you're being serious. This ACTUALLY happened to you

Honestly though? After hearing everything, the full truth, he doesn't feel any differently about you

His family has been doing the underworld's dirty work for some time. HE'S done things he wants to take back

Idia's only real concern is if you still feel the same way about him, that it wasn't just an act...

When you assure him that nothing you've done in Twisted Wonderland has been as a Widow, the relief is visible on his face

You share a tight, warm hug as you both agree to move forward together in peace and honesty

Malleus Draconia

At first, I don't think he'd think much of it. I mean, his country had gone through wars and espionage

It was like that for you, he guesses

Then he starts to see how it affects you. Your mannerisms, your habits, and your fears. It cuts him deeply

You must have had a terribly lonely life like he did, right? Not knowing warmth until you met other people, kind people

He just wants to hold you and never let go after those thoughts crossed his mind. You don't have to do anything you don't want to do anymore, and he isn't concerned about you doing that to him

As his significant other, anything like that will be taken care of for you, not by you

#twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x reader #riddle rosehearts #riddle rosehearts x reader #azul ashengrotto #azul ashengrotto x reader #leona kingscholar #leona kingscholar x reader #kalim al asim #kalim al asim x reader #vil schoenheit #vil schoenheit x reader #idia shroud #idia shroud x reader #malleus draconia #malleus draconia x reader #headcanons

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cecilyv · 3 months ago

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New Fic: In a Yellow Wood (9-1-1, buck/tommy)

@liminalmemories21 and I already wrote a break-up/make-up and a version of the “I’m your first, not your last” fight, so this is our newest version of a fix-it fic. Complete with baby, because, sure, why not?

It’s been three years since the break-up when Tommy saves a family and it upends his life.

He’s paying more attention to explaining what the various levers and controls do than he is to what’s going on in the hangar and his head whips around when he hears a familiar voice saying. “Kam, the whole point of leaving my kid with you was to not take him to work.”

9.8k, read on AO3

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The call comes in early in his shift — family on a boat in distress. The Coast Guard’s heading there already, going to tow the boat back to shore, but there’s a storm kicking up fast and they want the civilians back on dry land before anything gets hairier than it already is.

It’s not routine, because there are never really routine calls, but it’s uneventful. He hovers the bird over the sailboat, holds it as steady as he can against the winds that are already starting to whip around them. He can see why the Coast Guard wants them moved shore-side like an hour ago. Signals Lucy with a nod and a thumbs up that he’s set and lets her do her thing. First up is the wife with a baby strapped tightly to her. Then a kid — he’s not great with ages but maybe five or six; more fascinated by the helicopter than he is scared. His mom’s got her hands full, trying to calm the baby who’s decided it’s time to wriggle around and keep the kid from unbuckling his harness and exploring, but despite the situation she’s got a smile on her face and seems more cheerfully resigned to her offspring’s curiosity than worried about it. Lucy comes up one more time with the husband, taps her coms to let him know that they’re all strapped in and he angles the bird back to base.

They land and he shakes the husband’s hand, and the wife’s, and then offers to show the kid the helicopter while the husband sorts out whatever paperwork he needs to do, and figures out how to get them all back to their car at the marina without any car seats. The mom’s checking on the baby, who seems unphased by the moves from the sailboat to helicopter to hangar, while she has half an eye on Tommy with her older son, nodding thanks at him when he lets the kid climb in and around and poke buttons and flip switches. He can’t hurt anything.

He’s paying more attention to explaining what the various levers and controls do than he is to what’s going on in the hangar and his head whips around when he hears a familiar voice saying, “Kam, the whole point of leaving my kid with you was to not take him to work.”

He stares out of the helicopter windshield in shock as Evan (Buck, he corrects himself — he gave up the right to call him anything else), wearing his LAFD t-shirt tucked tightly into his pants, walks across the hangar floor. His hair is sheared short, curls gone, but he’s laughing and shaking his head, as he cups one of his big hands against the baby’s back and peers down into the wrap, clearly checking to make sure he’s in one piece.

The woman — Kam, apparently — is laughing with him. “He was fine. I nearly shit my pants, but he just blew a bubble.” She looks up at him. “Like father, like son, I guess.” Nods over at the kid in Tommy’s bird. “Both of them apparently.”

(continue on AO3)

#buck/tommy #fixit fic here we come #future fic #kid fic #Mitchell Daniel Buckley

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drdemonprince · 7 months ago

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I am always clutching to my idealized reality firmly with both fists. Whenever my hair looks good in a photograph, I immediately get to stressing about the fact that my hair has already grown some imperceptible amount since when the image was captured. Then I cut it, hoping to restore it to its former perfection — and my head gets completely mangled by my clippers and shears. I deny myself my favorite foods and drinks sometimes, knowing that the meal will too quickly be over. The moment someone begins to love me is when I start picturing them dead. Many late-realized Autistics develop relational patterns that therapists label codependent, controlling, or Borderline. I wonder how much of our supposedly dysfunctional attachment can be attributed to our desire for constancy, and our attempts to impose stability on a reality that forever shifts. For Autistics, most social interactions are mystifying and seem to play out on their own, largely beyond our control. Possible rejection hides in every corner, much of it unforeseeable to us. Doesn’t it make sense we’d try to control what we can? When a partner remarks that he’d like to get a bigger mattress, I want to chop off the sides of the bed to force our bodies closer. I want to hiss at every new person that enters the friend group to scare them off. Though all my queer loved ones are enlightened polyamorists, whenever someone I love starts texting someone new I fantasize about slipping away with their phone in the night, unlocking it, finding the new contact, and blocking the threat into oblivion. I don’t do any of this, of course. But in my selfish, rotted heart, I want to be like Hannibal Lecter, drugging his patients and hypnotically conditioning Clarice to be in love with him. When I learned that Jeffrey Dahmer drilled holes into his lovers’ heads and filled the cavities with hot water and bleach to keep them from abandoning him, I could kind of understand it. And I hated myself for it. I don’t actually have the stomach to be violent. My war with reality happens only inside. Besides, I know that if I were actually to try and control another person’s life, it would just send them running away. I learned that the dozens of times that I completed boyfriends’ homework for them, paid their rent, wrote cover letters for friends’ job applications, and inserted myself into fights that weren’t mine. I have tried to pull at others’ strings to keep them all happy and around me, but it only ever sent them running away, sad tangles of threads left round my fingers. People like me must be why Autistics have a reputation for being cold-hearted, unfeeling, and unable to recognize the interiority of anyone else. I’m an anarchist in principle and a lover of my own freedom, so I would never wish to impose my will onto another person. I am terrified of the urges for control and permanence that lurk inside me. I’m afraid of where they might take me, and so I never give voice to them — In fact, I rarely give voice to any of my desires at all. I let people do what they will without ever voicing my opinion. That’s the only way to truly avoid becoming the Dahmer in my mind. My method of control is to ask nothing, and give everything, hoping that one day another person will notice and choose to be devoted to me. But even then, they’d change on me. It’s in the nature of all living things.

I wrote about the Autistic fear of change, where it comes from, how it affects our relationships, and the many ways that we attempt to cope with change, both for good and for ill. It is free to read or have narrated to you on my Substack.

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bitterbutblue · 6 months ago

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the person you're calling has turned into an ethereal...

let my last thought be you ☆ zzz x fem!reader

characters : Ellen Joe (platonic), Anby Demara, Grace Howard, Zhu Yuan

~ LMAOO U TURN INTO AN ETHEREAL AND ITS THEIR FAULT LMAOOOO.. also i wrote this for my fav artist yurieater69.. hi yurieater69.. <33

warning for zhu yuan's- INACCURATE POLICE TALK. PLEASEEEE IM A UNI STUDENT IDK ABOUT COPS ~

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let me see tomorrow ☆ platonic!ellen joe x reader

This was supposed to be one of their easiest missions yet. There wasn't even supposed to be any weapons drawn, for fuck's sake. Lycaon sent in you and her for a reason- an in and out hollows mission. You were her closest... coworker? Could she call you a friend? She would like to call you a friend. You were around her age, but you always managed to somehow balance this odd job and your school work flawlessly- something she deeply envied. You never seemed tired, always at the top of your game. For the longest time she despised you, until you two were sent on this mission.

Just the two of you.

And she realised there was much more to you than just perfection. Of course, perfection is only an idealistic dream but to her you were perfection. Your moments of weakness she found herself overlooking because she had already idealised you in her head. It was really only two hours, yet she found herself regretting not talking to you earlier.

But now, Ellen can only watch in horror, unable to move, staring in horror as you collapse to the ground. She finally manages to move, pushing herself off the ground, dashing towards you.

"Hey, hey, stay with me."

Cool, calm, collected. That's how a maid from Victoria' Housekeeping should be acting but as each second ticks by she can feel herself losing her calm. You lunge at her, fear swallowing your every move and thought as you grab onto her collar.

"Ellen, Ellen I don't wanna turn- Ellen please-"

You both knew it was too late but you were panicking, tears falling before you even know it because you can just feel yourself falling down that abyss. All she can do is watch. She doesn't know what to do, she doesn't know you well. Should she hold you? Should she grab your hand and run? She can feel her own panic surfacing, eyes darting all over the place. Her head feels light, breathing shallow as she tries to calm herself because this isn't about her. This isn't about her.

"Ellen, call Lycaon, Rina, please, Ellen-"

Your begging is all she can hears and she's never heard you sound like this. So afraid, frantic, desperate. Your usual put together self now thrown away as you scramble to keep yourself together.

"Ellen, I'm scared. Ellen, please-"

Her instincts take over, rushing over to you. She holds you in an awkward embrace, collapsing to her knees as she pulls you in close.

"It's okay."

The words sound awkward coming out of her, and she can hear how choked her own voice is. She's scared, she has no right to be but she's scared. She doesn't want to lose you.

"I want my mom, I'm scared. I don't wanna turn, Ellen-"

The last thing you hear is her heartbeat and the last thing she hears is your cries before you go limp. And it's only a matter of time until you start moving again so she grabs her weapon as fast as she can. She doesn't even realise she's crying until she moves to stab her shears through your now-ethereal body. She doesn't even realise she's sobbing and her chest hurts until she hears Lycaon's voice calling out to her. The puzzle pieces click in his head when he sees your weapon lying on the ground and the usually stoic and emotionless Ellen Joe on her knees, tears flowing silently as she lets out choked cries of apologies.

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love me one last time ☆ anby demara x reader

When she fell in love with you, Anby swore to herself she would always put your safety over her own because to her, you were more than the world itself. Working with her in the Cunning Hares is and always will be a danger, and she knows she can't let her emotions get the best of it all. But you always saw it differently. You always wore the softest smile around Anby, one that had her usual stoicism fading into an embarrassed and shy smile. You were her exception, and that was the problem.

Yet this time it was all her fault. She led you guys the wrong way, deeper and deeper into the hollows while thinking you were on your way out. You told her it's okay, you told her that you trusted her no matter what and she just wanted to believe that but the sinking feeling in her gut had her growing more and more worried over time.

You play off how you feel something going wrong, because you wanted to trust her so badly but something was definitely not right. And your theories came true when you feel yourself growing dizzy and weak. Anby catches on, growing more and more panicked when you suddenly stumble and fall to the ground.

"Don't worry- I'll call for someone, I'll-"

"Anby?"

Your voice is so quiet, so hoarse. Her heart drops when she looks into your eyes because she sees it too now and she feels like throwing up. This can't be happening.

Was this... her fault?

"Just stay close."

You were hunched over, her kneeling next to you and she hated feeling so helpless. She hated knowing that right now it was happening all over again, she's losing someone and it's her fault.

"Don't talk like you're dying." She hisses out angrily, scrambling to help you up onto your feet but you refuse to budge.

"Anby please."

You sound tired, drained. If she listens carefully she can hear the hint of fear you are so desperately trying to hide from her.

"Just stay close."

You knew what was happening- you weren't stupid.

"It's not your fault."

Anby didn't register the tears falling until she feels your hand reach up to wipe away the stray tears that are falling from her eyes.

"I'm sorry."

She's never heard herself sound so vulnerable and afraid. The sound of her own voice has her shocked.

"It was bound to happen."

She hated how casual you sounded about it all, how you tried to swallow back the tremor in your voice.

"No it fucking wasn't." She's lost control now. She snaps at you despite the fact that she knows she shouldn't be doing that but she can't help it because she's so scared. "I could've gotten us out, I shouldn't have been..."

She trails off when she sees the look in your eyes. Even now it's still soft and loving and she wants to hold you forever. Instead she pulls you in for a hug. Tight, but gentle. Your hearts are beating against one another, like a perfectly tuned macine.

"It's okay. I'm still me."

She's breaking down now. She can feel how hard you're fighting to stay in this body for just a second longer.

"I love you, Anby."

She can feel herself shaking and trembling, swallowing back her sobs as she whispers out the last words you'll hear- right before piercing her blade through your still-human chest. You slump over, head in her shoulder, a ghost of a smile on your face as she sobs into your still body.

"I love you."

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let us love for another day more ☆ grace howard x reader

Perhaps it was time to put it all to rest. Maybe she had taken it too far this time. You had warned her not to get to carried away at night with her experiments and she keeps brushing you off, promising to be home soon... soon... soon.

You grew sick of waiting for her, so one night you decide to venture off to Belobog Industries on your own. She's been spending too much time with her robots (or her children, as she likes to call them) and staying out this late in New Eridu is always unsafe. So you drive to her, but on your way there you find yourself lost. The surroundings grow unfamiliar, and you feel a cold chill down your spine when you realise your situation.

You've fallen into a hollow.

Grace realises far too late that you're not picking up her calls, and that her messages aren't going through. She panics as soon as she realises, calling Koleda in a frantic rush. They woke Phaethon up at 1 in the morning (frankly, both of them we're still awake so was it really waking them up?). She follows the Bangboo into the hollow, Koleda tailing her.

"Seriously, sis, why didn't you just let her know you would be home soon?"

"Not the time, Koleda."

Koleda pauses when she hears her name slip out of Grace's lips. No pet name, no 'sis' or 'sweet pea'. 'Koleda'. Grace is scared. Her usual, lighthearted self now replaced with a pale, worried and shaky demeanour that has Koleda growing anxious too.

"She's okay, seriously."

"GRACE-!"

The Phaethon's panicked voice causes her to jump, she turns around, quickly identifying the source of the sound. Her heart drops at the sight.

The Bangboo is crouched next to this figure, who is slumped over next to their car. Grace could recognise that figure from fucking anywhere because that's you. That's her fucking wife. A pang of guilt hits her so hard she almost stumbles. She rushes towards you, picking up your limp body in her arms.

"Darling, baby, can you hear me? Are you okay?"

Your eyes fluttered open, breathing shallow as you looked up. A ghost of a smile forms on your face.

"Grace.. I made dinner for us.. at home.."

Your voice was weak, shaky and she can feel her throat closing up as she blinks back tears.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry baby-"

"Can you take me home?"

Koleda just stands to the side awkwardly, watching as Grace pulls your limp body close to her.

"Yes, let's go home, darling."

Grace knows the situation. Koleda knows the situation. Fuck, even Phaethon knows the situation. You're not making it home.

"I feel weird."

"I know, baby."

Grace pulls you onto her lap, your head resting against her chest as you struggle to breath properly. Ethereal matter is no joke, and Grace knows it too but right now she can't care that they're in a hollow with limited time. All she can think about is you.

"It's gonna be okay, just look at me?"

She can't even have it in her to remain calm, her words come out through her tears as she holds you closer. You can feel her regret through her actions, and you can feel her tears dripping down her face and onto the top of your head as she hugs you close.

"Grace... I wanna go home."

She breaks down now, sobbing messily as her cries echo through the night. She tells you false promises, tells you that you guys are going home. She tells you she will prepare a warm bath for you, and you guys can go to bed together, and sleep in the next day. She tells you it will be alright, and that she will make you breakfast tomorrow. You let out a content sigh, before closing your eyes.

Koleda takes this opportunity, watching you right as you turned to an Ethereal, and strikes it down. Grace can only watch as the rest of you fades from her arms into the air, hugging herself- as if clutching the remains of you to her heart.

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my mistakes haunt my nights ☆ zhu yuan x reader

The day she became the captain of N.E.P.S. was essentially the day she devoted her life to protecting you and people like you. Each night she would come home with a grateful smile that she could come home to you. You spend the rest of the evening cooking dinner together, laughing, talking about whatever case she had going on that day and whatever stupid thing your boss had told you to do during work.

Zhu Yuan put you first. She always had put you first.

So the one time she doesn't, it comes back to get her.

The unpredictability of New Eridu meant that anyone could fall into a hollow any day. Zhu Yuan knew that, so did you. And you trusted that if it were to ever happen, she would find you. And she promised she would. And like predicted, You and other civilians had fallen into a hollow one day. And Zhu Yuan intends to fulfil her promise.

It was just a rescuse mission, save those who have fallen in hollows. The civilians they were after had already been saved, yet they kept mentioning 'someone who ran off'. Zhu Yuan clicks her tongue in annoyance.

"Another one who ran off?"

"Captain?"

She quickly picks up the walkie talkie. They had managed to get the first group out, leaving her and Qingyi trying to find the others.

"Yes?"

"W-we found the others, but..."

"What?"

"We're north of where you are now, you need to come, fast. It's- it's your wife, we think she's-"

She runs. She runs before he even finishes his sentence. She hears the fear in his voice and that fear is what they can't have on field because that fear is what breaks them. Qingyi follows her, right at her tail as they finally find the group of PUBSEC officers that stand with their guns pointed up.

"Captain, she's-"

"PUT THEM DOWN."

She feels her heart dropping when she sees the sight in front of her. You were curled up into a ball, looking pale and sickly and so scared of all the officers that had their guns pointed at you. Your eyes widened when you noticed Zhu Yuan.

"Zhu Yuan- please, they won't let me leave..."

Zhu Yuan's heart stutters in her chest as she approaches you slowly, dropping onto her knees in front of you. She can feel the tears pricking at her eyes because she knows she's too late. She's encountered innocent civilians turning into Ethereals, she learned to predict when it was too late and when there was still time left to save them but this.

"I just wanted to see you at work." You croaked out weakly, holding onto her jacket.

Never has she ever let people see her cry, or have her fellow officers see her in a moment of weakness but she can't hold back this time. She takes in a shaky breath, feeling her tears fall from her eyes as she takes off her glove, before putting a hand to your cheek. You sigh at the skin to skin contact, leaning into her touch and that simple act has her letting out a pained sob.

"I'm sorry, baby-"

She wasn't fast enough. If she had come earlier, you wouldn't have ran to try to help the civilians. Curse you- curse you and your stupidly kind heart and your need to help everyone. Zhu Yuan just wants you to be selfish for once because if you're selfish then you would've still been here, smiling with the intention to go home.

"Are you going to kill me, Zhu Yuan?"

The fear in your voice is evident and Zhu Yuan shuts her eyes tight, taking in a deep breath as she pulls your head onto her lap. She moves a hand, gently stroking your hair. She feels the softness thread between her fingers, and you feel her tears drip onto your cheek.

"I just- wanted to see you."

You were shaking now, gripping onto her hand as if it's a life raft that could ground you, take you home.

"I don't want to die."

Zhu Yuan screws her eyes shut, biting down on her lip to prevent another sob from escaping but she can't stop her shoulders from quaking.

"Please..."

"I love you."

The words flow out of her, unstoppable. She knows this is the last time she can talk to you.

"I'm sorry I wasn't fast enough. I'm sorry, baby, I love you. I love you..."

"Zhu Yuan-"

Your words are hoarse and choked, your grip on Zhu Yuan's arm is so tight. She can feel your nails digging into her skin but she can't care about that in the moment.

"I don't want to die... please..."

"I love you-" she cries, moving to hold your hand tight "I love you, I'm sorry, I love you-"

And she can only watch in horror as you let out a sharp gasp, body freezing up as your eyes widened. And Qingyi steps in, firing a shot right through your head- right before you turned.

Officers could only stand and watch- another successful case, majority of the civilians rescued.

But at what cost?

She couldn't stop herself- she let out a scream, grabbing onto your body and holding it close as she sobbed out meaningless apologies that only fade into the night sky.

Zhu Yuan returned to an dark and empty home, cold and harsh. She takes off her jacket, now stained in your blood, and just stares at it. She stares, and stares, before her knees finally give out as she breaks into loud wails and sobs. She clutches the jacket close, it's the last of you she can hold onto. But also a painful reminder of why it's all she has left.

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#zzz #zenless zone zero #zenless zone zero fic #zzzero #ellen joe x reader #anby demara x reader #grace howard x reader #zhu yuan x reader #zzz thoughts #zzz x reader #zzz angst #no happy ending guys #ellen joe #anby demara #grace howard #zhu yuan

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vickytaa · 3 months ago

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"Happy anniversary"

"Hey, sweetie," Chris said, entering your sheared room. You grab something on your desk quickly and hide it on your back. "Chriss!" you said excited and stood up to give him a quick kiss. "What are you hiding, honey?" Chris said as soon as you stepped back a little bit just to see him. His blue eyes were locked on yours, just like he could read your mind. "What?" You said trying to play dumb.

Chris looked at you. He knew you were acting. You both stared at each other for a couple of seconds until you decided to break the silence, "So.. how was your day?" "Long day. Do you mind if we do our anniversary date tomorrow? I'm really tired, " He said with puppy eyes. You've been super excited to go to the lacy restaurant with your boyfriend, but you didn't mind staying at home today at all. You nodded and sat again on your chair without turning around, just to make sure he wouldn't see what you were hiding.

You looked normal, but inside, you were screaming and dying to give him the surprise.

He slowly began to walk towards you with a wide grin on his face and grabbed both of your wrists from behind your back. "No, wait!" You said. He grabbed the paper, looked at you, and then again at the paper. "What's on this paper?" He asked while you bite your bottom lip just to contain your smile. You didn't answer, so he took the letter out of the envelope and started reading it. You were looking at him, watching every reaction to your letter. You've never written something to anyone because for you, it's something intimate, very special, and full of love. That's why, for your one year anniversary, you wrote a letter for Chris, talking about your feelings for him, the things he does and you love, some memories about both of you, and the way he shined in your dark life, and he appeared in the right time. He was the love of your life.

Chris's eyes started to tear as he reached the end of the letter. He was the one who always told you how much he loved you, not like you, you've always loved him and really tried to show him that, but sometimes you weren't so good at that. So, expressing your feelings and telling him how much you loved him was really important for him.

When he finished, he looked at you with tears rolling down his face, with an ear to ear smile. You stand up and pull him close by the neck. He wrapped your waist and gave you a gentle kiss, full of happiness and love.

Then, you moved away just a bit to stare at him. The gratitude reflected in his eyes was everything for you.

"I love you, Chris, happy one year anniversary," you said with a warm, soft tone and a shy smile.

"I love you more, happy anniversary, love"

𓆩♡𓆪

#matt sturniolo #sturniolo triplets #chris sturniolo #christopher sturniolo #matt sturniolo x reader #sturniolo #the sturniolos #chris x reader #christopher owen sturniolo #nick sturniolo #christopher x reader #i love chris #chris x y/n #sturniolotriplets #matthew bernard sturniolo #nicolas sturniolo

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pinkanonwrites · 8 months ago

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The Immensity of Vacancy

Energon Universe Jetfire/Human Reader, +1200 words

Just a little bittersweet something I wrote after the last issue of the Skybound comics came out. Jetfire my sweet, you did not deserve your fate.

ENERGON UNIVERSE COMIC SPOILERS AHEAD.

It was curious how even the most harrowing of circumstance could, with enough time and enough patience, shear down its jagged edges until it became something nearly palatable.

Not comfortable. Primus, no, never comfortable. But palatable.

Stars no longer graced Jetfire’s curious optics, all light snuffed in favor of an inky nothingness soothed only by memory. There could be no ache of stasis lock when the freedom of movement had been ripped from his frame entirely, left to the whims of his fellow Cybertronians. The breems of silence would stretch into cycles, tuning his remaining audials ever finer upon the low thrum of Teletraan, the rattle-step of Autobots passing through corridors below.

Perhaps that was why he could always hear you coming.

Your footsteps didn't boom or echo like those of Optimus Prime, never accompanied with the screech of tires like Arcee or Cliffjumper. Instead came the soft tink tink tink of tiny, booted feet against the resonant floor, the jangle of metallic jibbitz swinging from a clip on your belt. ‘Keys’ you had called them, though they were nothing like the data-keys or passcodes more familiar to him. ‘One for my car, one for my house, one for the back door at work.’ Primitive, but undeniably clever.

You always paused in the doorway of the hangar when you approached, a brief instance of silence. Perhaps you were waiting for a transformation from him, a flourish of panels shifting and plates fluttering into place to reveal his root mode, his towering form compared to your own tiny one. You knew as well as he did that idea was an impossibility, but you paused nonetheless.

“Hey. Are you awake?”

Jetfire spent much time in recharge nowadays, the only respite from the insurmountable emptiness that surrounded him that remained in his control. It was another consistency from you, willing to let him rest for untold lengths of time, as if your own presence was not wildly preferred.

“Yes. For quite a while now.”

You let out a soft, sad sounding hum. “I’m sorry I couldn't get here earlier.”

“That's alright. I’m sure you have much of your own work to attend to.”

“Maybe, but it's not really anything exciting.” He could hear the shuffle and thunk of your backpack hitting the metal landing bay, the pull of the zipper. When you settled in your spot on the floor and leaned back against his landing gear, heat radiated through the space where your back pressed to his cool plating. “Work, mostly. Had a late shift last night, so I ran to the library this morning instead. The librarian actually recognized me.”

“Is that a bad thing?”

“No, I just didn't expect it. I never went there until recently, anyway. Guess now that I’m going in a couple days a week I’m becoming a regular. Imagine that.”

Jetfire let out a soft hum. “We’ll never be wanting for reading material then.”

You seemed to hesitate for a moment as you removed something from your bag, the flutter of paper against your fingertips tickling his audials.

“I brought a new book. ‘The War Of The Worlds’. It’s an old sci-fi classic.” You softly fanned through the pages again. ��It’s about, um… It’s about aliens. That come to take over Earth. It was probably a stupid choice, we can read something different if you want.”

He could understand your hesitation. Though Jetfire had not spent long interacting with the local lifeforms of your planet, he’d heard more than enough from the other Autobots about the occurrences at the power plant; The terror, the violence. The story of a hostile occupation from beings infinitely more powerful and dangerous than the planet’s inhabitants could strike offensive if presented in the wrong way, to the wrong bot. And yet…

“I would like to hear it.”

He couldn’t help that part of himself that yearned to understand. To learn. How often would he get the chance to hear the perspective of another species, better yet from the species themselves? Considering his current state, likely never again.

“Are you sure? It doesn’t have to be this, I brought other books. To Kill A Mockingbird, Treasure Island, maybe some Shakespeare-?”

“No, I… I want to hear it. I’d like to understand.”

You hesitated further still, as if you were waiting for Jetfire to change his mind. Then you let out a small, huffy noise, like you were trying to clear your vents. Jetfire recognized the sound to be what you’d called a “sniffle”. Paper shuffled, you let out a low, steadying sigh, and began to read.

“No one would have believed in the last years of the nineteenth century that this world was being watched keenly and closely by intelligences greater than man’s and yet as mortal as his own…”

You were a delightful narrator, though you’d often brush off Jetfire’s compliments as to the former. ‘You should hear David Attenborough!’ you’d reply, though Jetfire had no idea who this apparent man was. Your cadence and accent would adjust slightly when switching characters, like you were putting on a play. The first descriptions of the alien conquerors were read with a faux suspense, as if you could scare the Cybertronian with narration alone. And yet, when you came upon the paragraph describing the first human deaths, there did your energy began to falter. You shifted against his landing gear, swallowing thickly as you described the heat ray that jumped from man to man, ‘...as if each man were suddenly and momentarily turned to fire.’ Your hesitance didn’t seem to stem from the words themselves, but the context in who you were reading them to. Did the recent Decepticon attack on the hospital strike as close to home mentally as it did physically?

You paused again at the end of the chapter. Usually here Jetfire would have rattled off the questions he’d saved while you were reading, foreign concepts and names of unknown locations and the intricacies of human interaction that he didn’t quite comprehend. But he found himself in silence here as well. Not stunned, not scared, merely… contemplative.

“Sorry. It’s not too late to read something else, you know. Treasure Island’s still on the docket.” You murmured, fingers tapping absentmindedly along the book’s spine.

“There’s no need to apologize. Already it’s a fascinating tale.” He paused for a moment, mulling over his words. The question he was about to ask seemed painfully obvious. Yet, he couldn’t find it in himself to leave it unsaid. “Are all humans this afraid of… aliens?”

‘Will all humans be this afraid of us?’ He did not ask.

“I think…” You hummed, head thunking back against his landing gear plating. “I think that most humans are afraid of the unknown. The idea that there’s something out there we can’t understand. We don’t like being reminded that we aren’t actually in control. That at any point in time we could die.”

Jetfire thought back to Cybertron- the expeditions failed, the cities razed, the lives lost- and he understood the sentiment exactly.

“Would it comfort you to know that the experience isn’t uniquely human?”

You barked out a short laugh. “A little, actually.”

Jetfire had spent so much of his life in the cold. The cold of space. The cold of the ice. The cold of the silent, empty hangar. But here, in this moment, with your body pressed to his plating, your voice filling the blackness, he felt inexplicably warm.

“I’d still like to hear more, if you would continue.”

Though Jetfire could not see your smile, it was more than enough to hear it in your voice.

“Sure thing, big guy.”

#transformers #transformers x reader #x reader #jetfire #skyfire #tf skyfire #tf jetfire #energon universe #tf skybound #tf eu jetfire #jetfire x reader #my writing #maccadam

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gnabnahc317cb97 · 2 months ago

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President of the AV club

Seungmin x female reader

Warnings: 18+ ONLY! MDNI! Strong language/swearing, S2L, professor reader/college student Seungmin (they're close in age), biting/marking, protected piv sex, oral (m & f), deep throating/face fucking (very little), pet names (pretty, beautiful, Seungmin calls reader professor), semi public sex (in an empty classroom), big dick Seungmin, tit fucking (Seungmin is borderline obsessed with your boobs), spit play (a little), cum shot, cum eating (very little).

Word count: 8.9k

You were having the worst case of the Mondays ever! It started when you realized you had shrunk your favorite suit. Then when you checked your laundry, you realized it was the only suit you had that was actually clean and dry at that moment, so you HAD to wear it. It fit-ish but was almost uncomfortably tight on you, especially the skirt which was already form fitting to begin with. After that your car service didn’t show up and you had to take the bus, which you missed, so you were running behind and late for work, which you were sure your boss would have something to say about.

When you finally did get to work sure enough, you ran into the head of your department who admonished you for your tardiness. Afterwords you hurried to the teacher’s lounge area to get your morning coffee. When you grabbed your mug to go you burnt your hand and managed to spill that hot coffee all over the incredibly snug suit jacket you had on.

Sure, you burned yourself but that was the least of your problems. If you took off the stained jacket it would leave you in a pretty shear white blouse. You were an art history professor at a prestigious college. It was very conservative, you needed to dress and look a certain way and the top was way more see through than you had initially realized. The coffee stain on the cream-colored blazer was unsightly, not to mention it was very uncomfortable. You decided you would wear it out but once you got to your class, you’d take the jacket off.

Luckily today you were going to be showing slides in class so you’d be at the back of the room behind the students in the dark. You hoped whatever god was listening would let up and let you get through the day without anyone noticing your lace bra showing through your shirt or anything else fucking up. It was as if the god’s heard your plea and took your criticism personally. Now, because you had even dared to think it, that was in no way, under any circumstances, allowed to happen for you.

You did manage to get to your class room without being stabbed or getting struck by lightning though. You walked in and tossed your now, completely, ruined jacket aside then started setting up for the day. You laid out work packets on the desks, wrote any pertinent notes on the board to be copied down, and turned on the slide projector to get it ready... and turned on the slide projector to get it ready... and turned ON-

“What the fuck!” You cursed to yourself out loud. This wasn’t happening to you right now. The contraption you used to show your slides was ancient but it usually worked for you without much of a hassle. You spent thirty infuriating minutes trying every trick you knew to fix it before you got frustrated and gave up.

Fuck it, you would just call IT to come fix it. It could be their problem. After another thirty minutes you finally got through to someone on the phone. The gruff man you spoke with told you technically those projectors aren’t an IT issue but they did have a guy they could call that could probably fix it. It would be a while before he could get there though.

You pinched the bridge of your nose and sighed, fighting off the headache that was forming. Just great. You’d have to cancel morning classes last minute and wait around. There went your morning. You told the man if he could make the call you would be grateful and thanked him for his help. Once you were off the phone you sent out the email to your students saying both morning classes were cancelled and that afternoon classes were pending.

The department head would be pissed if you cancelled all your classes for the day without advanced notice, regardless of whatever technical difficulties you may be having. So you hoped the guy showed up and got it fixed in time for your afternoon classes, for the sake of your own sanity. You sat down at your desk and put in your ear buds. You pulled up Spotify and turned on one of your classical playlists to listen to while you graded papers and outlined lesson plans, ready to wait god knows how long for this IT guy to show up.

After about an hour you managed to stop looking at the clock every five minutes and got lost in your work. Before you knew it another hour had passed and you wondered if the grumpy guy you spoke to even called the other guy. You debated calling again to make sure but he did tell you it would be a while. So, not wanting to be a nuisance, you turned your music back up and continued working.

You had just gotten completely sucked into your work again when you felt someone gently tap your shoulder. You jumped and screamed as your hand flew to your chest, covering your racing heart. You looked over and you saw a really cute guy, probably around your age, holding up his hands in surrender. He looked like the type of guy that wrote love poems on a typewriter and collected classic novels and vinyl records.

He had on a pair of worn-down loafers, brown corduroys, and had layered a blue bowling shirt and a vintage looking patterned sweater over a loose white t-shirt. He had on a big pair of wire frame glasses that were slightly tinted yellow, probably to block blue light you assumed. They didn’t block his pretty brown eyes though or cover up how beautiful he was. When you finally made eye contact his kind brown eyes were big and apologetic. You took out your ear buds.

“I’m so sorry I didn’t mean to startle you miss. I knocked and said hello but you didn’t hear me I guess.” He pointed at the ear buds in your hands.

“Oh no it’s fine. Morning classes have been cancelled. How can I help you?” You smiled warmly at him. He liked it. You were an extremely beautiful woman, he thought you had the prettiest smile and when he looked down he just happened to notice how sheer your shirt was. He did he couldn’t help but think that he’d like to see more of you. He reigned his thoughts in and managed to smile back at you.

“Oh, no, I’m not in your class. I’m here to help you I think actually.” You were glad to hear he wasn’t one of your students because there sure were a few things you would let him help you with. He wasn’t a gym bro or flashy or cocky like the other assholes that typically gravitated towards you.

He had a thin frame and was beautiful in a kind of mysterious way. He seemed to have a confidence about him that didn’t come across as arrogance and he spoke politely. ‘Yeah he could definitely get it’ you thought to yourself. After a second the cogs started moving in your head again and you realized who he was.

“Oh you must be the guy from IT!” He smiled, flashing teeth that were so perfect you wondered if he’d had braces as a kid and extended his hand to shake yours.

“I’m Kim Seungmin and you're Mrs. y/l/n is that right?” You nodded.

“Well... not Mrs, professor, but please just call me y/n.” He smiled brightly at you again, his pretty eyes scrunching up, very happy to hear you weren’t married. He wondered if you had a boyfriend. He rubbed the back of his neck nervously.

“Okay. Y/n. Well y/n... I’m technically not a part of IT. I’m actually just the president of the schools AV club. None of the IT guys know how to work on these old projectors though and they know I nerd out on old tech like that so they always end up calling me when one goes on the fritz. I’m really sorry to have kept you waiting so long. I had a class that I couldn’t miss and it was on the other side of campus...” Your heart sank a little when you realized he might not be your student but he was a student at the college. Of course he was! With the way your day was going, of course he was. Student and faculty fraternizing was STRICKTLY prohibited and was grounds for immediate suspension pending a school board hearing for formal termination.

“Anyway, I hope I didn’t waste too much of your morning.” He wasn’t just pretty he was also incredibly nice. You tried shifting your thoughts away from how disappointed you were that a nice, cute guy like him was off limits to you.

“Oh no! It’s okay, really. You’re using your personal time to help so I appreciate it. I mean I had to cancel my morning classes but I was able to catch up on some work while I waited so it’s not a big deal. I’m just hoping you can get it fixed in time for afternoon classes so my boss doesn’t flip his top.” He nodded then scanned the room until he spotted the projector at the back of the class. He pointed at it.

“This is the one yea?” He started walking up the steps towards the projector and you stood to follow. He crouched down and started tinkering with it, opening the side, pulling out pieces, troubleshooting the issue.

“Yea that’s it. I tried all the things I usually do when it gives me fits and the fucking thing just won’t work.” It wasn’t until Seungmin looked up at you surprised, laughing loudly that you realized what you had said. It just slipped out when you remembered your earlier frustration with the contraption.

“Oh shit!” You slapped your hand over your mouth to shut yourself up. You moved your hand away from your face a little, embarrassed.

“I mean whoops! I’m so sorry I shouldn’t have said that. It wasn’t appropriate.” Seungmin shook his head, still snickering a little at you for blushing because you said a swear word.

“I’m a big boy professor, you’re allowed to cuss in front of me.” That sentence shouldn’t have made you want to press your thighs together but the way the words left his lips made your knees a little weak. ‘STUDENT!’ You yelled at yourself. ‘He’s a student!’

Seungmin went back to figuring out what the issue with your projector was and you hovered as if you could do anything to help. He pulled a little canvas tool pouch from his back pocket and unrolled it, grabbing a surprisingly small screw driver to adjust something on one of the pieces he had removed to see if it helped.

Seungmin glanced up at you watching him a moment and when he did, he noticed the light coming from behind you made it so he could see right through your shirt. He’d noticed before was pretty sheer but now, with the light, he could see your pretty lace bra perfectly through your shirt.

He felt his dick start twitching to life in his pants and fumbled the canvas pouch on his lap, dropping and scattering his tools on the floor. He started gathering them back up and hoped you didn’t notice how red his ears were turning. Even though it was difficult in your extra tight skirt you crouched down and started to help him pick up the tools. Seungmin watched the curve of your full ass when you bent down. Then quickly looked away and continued picking up his tools.

“Oh you don-” Seungmin choked on his words when he looked up again. The way you were leaned over now, grabbing tools from the floor, he could see right down your blouse. He could see the curve of your collar bones, the way your full breasts spilled from the top of your bra. He could see the valley between them and couldn’t help but imagine how soft that skin was and how good it would feel on his cock as he fucked your big tits.

“Seungmin?” When Seungmin heard your sweet voice say his name he snapped out of it and saw that you were holding the tools you had picked up out for him to take.

“OH! You really didn’t... I mean I could have gotten... I mean... uh... thank you.” You smiled at him again, that pretty fucking smile. Seungmin cleared his throat grabbing the tools and turned his attention back to the broken projector.

You leaned over him watching again, trying to see what he did so the next time it happened you knew how to fix it yourself. When you got in closer Seungmin could smell your perfume and his dick, which had only been a minor issue before was becoming a BIGGER one but before he could panic about it, he thought he noticed something odd with a part of the projector he hadn’t removed.

“Oh!” Seungmin took a little pen light from his shirt pocket and shined it into the opening, confirming what he thought he had seen.

“Yep that’s the problem right there!” You leaned in even closer than you were before and when Seungmin turned his head he was caught off guard by your proximity and how close your face was to his. He couldn’t help but notice how pouty your lips were.

“What?” You asked as you leaned in even closer, a few strands of hair falling into your face as you tried to see what he saw. He wanted to push the stray hairs away and kiss you. What would you do if he did.

“I can’t see it.” Seungmin snapped out of it and shook the thought from his head, turning his attention back to the machine. He shined the light into the open side of the projector for you and took his little screw driver pointing at the part inside.

“See this.” He glanced over at you again to see if you could see. You cutely scrunched your face and looked closer. You did see it.

“Mhmm.” You hummed and slightly nodded as you zeroed in on the part he was pointing at.

“See that jagged piece?” You nodded, mhmm-ing again, focused on what Seungmin was teaching you about the machine in front of you while he struggled to take his eyes off you.

“Well, that’s not supposed to be jagged like that. There was a piece there that’s broken off, it’s probably in the bottom of it somewhere. This thing is from the 80’s so after a lot of wear and tear parts like these just break for no real reason.” You sighed heavily and sat up straight. You didn’t realize how closely you had leaned into Seungmin’s space as you were looking at the projector and bumped into him when you did. He lost his balance being in his crouching position and fell back on his ass.

“Oh my god! I’m so sorry!” He laughed and held up his hand signaling to you that it was okay.

“I’m fine, no harm done. Really! I’ve taken worse spills after a drunken night with my buddies.” You extended your hand to help him up. He accepted your hand but didn’t actually allow you to pull him up. Once he was standing in front of you again your eyes locked and it was like time froze. He was so beautiful. You were absolutely stunning. Your hands lingered as you stood there. Seungmin ran his thumb over the back of your hand and then you remembered where you were.

You had to keep it together, ‘he is a student’ you reminded yourself again. ‘You will lose your job!’ You quickly pulled your hand away taking a step back to create a little space between the two of you. His musky cologne was making your head feel swimmy.

You started stammering, trying to get the thoughts in your head to come out as words that an educated woman, such as yourself, would put together. You directed your attention back to the projector, hoping if you weren’t looking into those gorgeous brown eyes you would be able to form words.

“S-s-so... um... you can fix it?” When you pulled away like you did Seungmin hoped he hadn’t made you uncomfortable touching your hand like that. He wasn’t even thinking when he did it. He cleared his throat finding it a bit difficult to speak himself.

“Oh! Uh... well... yea I can fix it...” You were about to rejoice that at least one thing in your shitty day, no matter how minute, was about to go right until Seungmin finished his thought.

“But...” Your shoulders immediately slumped.

“But?” Seungmin knew this wasn’t going to be news that pleased you and he wished he could give you good news so he could see your pretty smile come back.

“But, it’s a part I’ll have to order from a specialty shop. It’ll probably take a couple days to get here.” You wrapped one of your arms around your midsection and pressed your fingers into your eyes, sighing deeply. Your headache from before was making a reappearance.

“I’m going to have to cancel all my classes for today. Damn it! The department head is gonna chew my ass out.” You were so upset you didn’t even care that you just cussed in front of Seungmin again. He tried to be reassuring.

“Well as soon the part shows up I can come fix it for you right away. I’m sorry I know that doesn’t really help you with classes today.” You looked at him and gave him a weak smile, not like the one he’d hoped to put on your face at all. He felt bad.

“Thanks Seungmin, you did what you could. I appreciate you wasting your free time to try and help.” You walked back down by your desk feeling defeated by the day and it was barely lunch. Seungmin followed you down and stood behind you, putting a hand on your shoulder and gently squeezing, trying to comfort you.

“You didn’t waste my time. It was no problem at all y/n. Really. Maybe I could talk to your department head and explain...” You shook your head.

“No it’s fine, I’ll deal with him. It’s just...” You were over this day. You could feel your resolve begin to crumble. You covered your face and took a deep breath, willing yourself not to cry right here in front of a stranger, a student. No matter how kind he had been.

“This day has just been the worst from the start.” Your last words came out a little choked and you could no longer fight off the tears that welled in your eyes. Your bottom lip started trembling and Seungmin heard the quiver in your voice as you started to cry.

He gripped your shoulder making you turn and face him. Your hand was still blocking your face. He gently grabbed your wrist and pull it away. When he saw the tears quietly streaking your beautiful face he wished so badly that he could help. He would do anything in his power so you didn’t cry.

“OH! OH! Hey! Nonono! Y/n don't cry...” He didn’t hesitate to pull you into a hug, wrapping his arms around you tightly. It’s the only thing he could think to do. As soon as you were in his arms you broke down. You threw your arms around his neck, buried your face in his shoulder and just let it all out. All the frustrations from the day just came pouring out of you. You rested your head against Seungmin’s chest, surrounded by his warmth, breathing him in, holding tightly as you continued to cry.

“It’ll be okay, it’s okay, alright? We’ll figure it out.” He rubbed his hands back and forth across your back trying to soothe you. After a moment you seemed to start to calm down a little. Your head was still rested on Seungmin’s chest so he couldn’t see your face to know for sure if you had stopped crying. So he just held you, listening to your little gasps and sniffles as you tried to get a hold of yourself completely.

Once you got it together you realized how you were clinging to Seungmin. He had you wrapped in his arms as he slightly swayed. You lifted your head, not looking at him, embarrassed for crying like you had. You wiped at your nose and tried to put a little space between you and Seungmin but he wouldn’t let you take much.

“I’m so sorry! I... I don’t know what came over me... I...” Seungmin tilted his head down a bit making you look him in the eyes. When your eyes locked, for the second time that day, you felt a sense of calm wash over you and everything seemed to stand still again.

“Hey it’s okay, don’t be sorry.” Seungmin’s hand gently cupped your face and he wiped a stray tear from your cheek with his thumb. You couldn’t help closing your eyes and leaning into the warmth of his hand. It was suddenly just the two of you floating in nothingness, everything else had fallen away.

Seungmin’s eyes scanned over your tear-stained face and the thought he’d had before about kissing you returned. He leaned in closer. He knew he shouldn’t but he couldn’t stop himself. He leaned down the rest of the way and kissed you.

Your lips were salty from your tears and that broke Seungmin’s heart. When you didn’t pull away he moved his lips against yours with more purpose. He tried to deepen the kiss further and your heart started racing, a fresh surge of adrenaline setting alarm bells off in your head. When you realized what you were doing you quickly broke the kiss and pushed Seungmin back a little, successfully putting space between you this time.

“Waitwaitwait! We can’t do this Seungmin.” Seungmin didn’t want to hear that. He wanted you in his arms again. He wanted his lips pressed against your soft lips again. He tried to pull you close but you wouldn’t allow him. He shook his head not understanding.

“Why not? Why can’t we? We’re both adults. We can kiss who we like... and I like you.” Your heart fluttered when he said that and he pulled you towards him again. This time you didn’t fight it and let him. He leaned in to kiss you again and you pressed the tips of your fingers against his lips stopping him

“I could lose my job Seungmin. I like you too, but adults or not, teachers aren’t supposed to get romantically involved with the students. It’s in our contract.” You explained the gravity of the situation plainly but you still didn’t try to escape his embrace again either.

“Why do they need to know? We don’t have to tell them a damn thing. It's not like we have to formally announce a courtship. It’s as easy as you like me and I like you, so we keep it between me and you. Besides I graduate in a couple months. Is there anything in your contract about not dating alumni?” You were surprised to hear him use that word.

“Dating?” You asked and Seungmin laughed a little nodding.

“Yes. Dating. What did you think I was after?” You shook your head not sure if you should answer that.

“I don’t know I guess... sex.” Seungmin cocked his eyebrow at you.

“I mean... you’re drop dead gorgeous and I would love to have sex with you, don’t get me wrong, but I’m not a creep. It’s not all I’m after from you.” You stood there a moment mulling what he said over in your head.

“There isn’t.” You finally said. Seungmin tilted his head confused.

“Anything about dating alum in my contract, there isn’t anything.” Seungmin smiled and started leaning in closer.

“Sooooo....” He pulled the 90/10 move and stopped just in front of your face. You stared into his beautiful soft brown eyes still hesitant. Then some part of you, the part that was over the shitty day you had been having decided FUCK IT! You deserved for one damn thing to go your way today.

You gripped the lapels of Seungmin’s bowling shirt and crashed your lips into his, kissing him hungrily. His hands cupped your face and he opened his mouth deepening the kiss. His tongue teased and danced with yours. He was a really good kisser.

His hands found their way to your hips sliding down to your full ass, which he squeezed over your tight skirt. You threaded your fingers through his careless hair, your make out session heating up quickly. Seungmin backed you up against your desk and pressed his hips into yours. When he did you could feel his hard on press against you. You pulled back gasping for air.

“Seungmin!” You said surprised. He laughed at your reaction.

“What? I said it wasn’t all I was looking for but DID also say I would LOVE to fuck you didn’t I?” His words went straight to your pussy and you pressed your thighs together. Seungmin leaned in and started to kiss your neck and knead your ass with both hands as he pressed his growing erection against you harder.

“I don’t think that’s exactly how you put it...” Your words came out breathy and Seungmin hummed as he sucked a mark on you just low enough for your collar to hide. He kissed your lips again. He was so passionate when he kissed you it made you light headed. Seungmin’s hands gripped at the sides of your skirt and started to inch the snug material up. You stopped him again.

“This isn’t the best place to be doing this if we’re trying to not get caught Seungmin and I haven’t cancelled my afternoon classes yet, anyone could walk in at any time...” He kissed you silencing your concerns and then pulled away.

“Well why don’t we make sure that doesn’t happen then Professor?” Another wave of arousal flooded your body hearing him call you that. Seungmin started slowly backing away from you and you instantly missed the warmth of his body against yours.

“Send your email.” He nodded towards the laptop on your desk as he walked over to your classroom door. You leaned over your desk and opened your laptop as Seungmin pulled the privacy shade on the door down and locked it, then clicked off the lights. The two emergency lights that always stayed on were the only thing lighting the room now.

First you sent an email to your boss about cancelling classes instead of calling, deciding you would take the ass chewing later then you pulled up your student email list. Seungmin came walking up behind you as you were bent over the desk typing. His hands gently gripped your shoulders and slid down your back before he grabbed on to your hips, leaning over you to push your hair aside and kiss the back of your neck. You smelled like heaven.

When Seungmin leaned over you could feel his hard cock pressing against your ass. He pulled the collar of your blouse down and grazed his teeth against the newly exposed skin on your shoulder. His hands ran back down your body and he gripped the tight fabric of your skirt, inching it up again. He was really making getting the email cancelling class typed very difficult.

“Seungmin...” You protested as he started to suck on the fleshy part of your ear, gently tugging at it with his teeth, rutting against you. Your skirt was hiked up so high now that your thighs were exposed and your ass was barely covered. Seungmin reached around between your legs and started to rub your pussy over your panties. You jumped surprised.

“Seungmin! If you don’t stop I’m never gonna get this composed and sent.” He laughed, his lips still pressed against your skin as he teased you more through your wet panties.

“Sorry. You’re just so fucking sexy bent over a desk typing emails.” You laughed shaking your head.

“Well try and contain yourself a moment please.” You went back to typing up the email as Seungmin continued to grope you from behind.

“And if I don’t? Are you gonna send me to the office professor?” He asked playfully. You looked back at him and rolled your eyes.

“No, but maybe I’ll get out the paddle and spank you.” Seungmin gripped your hips tight and groaned.

“Don’t fucking tease me baby.” He started kissing and sucking on your neck again riled up by your words. Somehow you managed to get your email finished and sent. You closed your lap top and turned around still pinned to your desk by Seungmin.

He kissed down your neck and chest lifting you onto your desk, trying to laying you back on your work. Your skirt was bunched almost all the way up, your legs wrapped around his slim body. You tried to speak but he kissed your lips so eagerly as he dry humped you, you had difficulty getting words out.

“Seun- Seung- min n- n-ot here. m- my pap- papers m-my com- com-puter.” He pulled away breathless.

“W-where?” You sat up, Seungmin still trapped between your legs. When you looked over his shoulder your eyes locked on your storage closet where you kept textbooks, extra supplies, art prints, and other various things.

“In there. It locks. Extra layer of protection, just to be safe.” Seungmin kissed you and grabbed you by your hips, ready to drag you off the desk to the closet but your words reminded you of a very important question that popped into your head. You stopped him.

“Wait. Speaking of protection... do you have a condom?” Seungmin froze like a deer in headlights.

“Uh... no...” You raised your eyebrow at him.

“You’re a college student and you don’t carry protection with you?” Seungmin raised his hands in defense.

“I do when I think I’m getting laid! It’s not like I normally get lucky when I’m called to fix the outdated equipment around the school.” He had a valid point but still, he was kicking himself. Was he really about to give himself the worst case of blue balls because he didn’t just always keep a condom in his pocket?

“You don’t maybe have one?” He asked hopeful. You sighed and shook your head at him incredulously.

“Help me down.” You held out your hand and Seungmin helped you off your desk. You pulled your skirt back down and crouched, reaching under your desk. You pulled out your purse and rummaged around in the bag for a second before fishing out one of the condoms you had thrown in there when you went out with your friends the weekend before last. You stood up holding it between two fingers and handed it to him.

“Here.” Seungmin grabbed the condom then grabbed your face with both hands and kissed you hard.

“FUCKING THANK YOU!” You laughed, rolling your eyes and shaking your head. Seungmin stuck the condom in his pocket, grabbed both of your hands and started backing towards the closet, pulling you with him.

“I should have said I didn’t have one and taught you a lesson.” Seungmin smirked at you.

“I think we can come up with a much better lesson for you to teach me instead professor.” You bit your lip at the thought of all the lessons you’d love to teach him. Seungmin opened the door to the storage closet and held it, letting you walk in first, watching your plump ass in that tight fucking skirt. You grabbed the chain to the light that hung over head and pulled it, turning it on. Seungmin pulled the door closed and locked it. After he did, in the time it takes a humming bird’s wings to flap, he was on you.

He kissed you and yanked up your skirt again as he backed you up against the wall. Once he had your skirt around your waist he reached into your panties and grabbed your ass with both hands squeezing. You moaned out into the kiss when he started grinding his hips into yours, rutting his hard on against your clothed cunt.

Seungmin kissed and licked his way down your neck and chest until he reached the buttons of your blouse. His hands left your ass and before you knew what was happening, he gripped your blouse and ripped it open, sending buttons flying all over the closet, exposing your pretty lace bra that he’d gotten a decent glimpse of earlier. Now that your shirt was open he could make out your hard nipples through the sheer white lace and his mouth watered.

“SEUNGMIN! WHAT THE FU-” He interrupted your complaint by kissing you as he grabbed both of your breasts over your bra and squeezed, pushing them together. He peppered kisses across the tops of your big breasts that couldn’t be contained by the dainty bra you had on. When he pulled away for a breath he apologized.

“Shhh shh keep it down. I’m sorry! Sorry, I swear I’ll find every button and take it to my tailor to have them put back on. I just... fuck!” He growled into your neck before kissing his way down further, sucking another mark on the soft skin of one of your breasts.

“That’s one of my favorite shirts damn it and I can’t just walk out of here topless Seungmin!” You scolded him. He shooshed you again, kissing you as he pushed the silky fabric off your shoulders and let it fall to the floor.

“I’ll leave you my sweater, it’s fine, it’s fine.” He sweety kissed your cheek nuzzling against it, his warm breath fanning across your neck as he continued to grope your body. You let out an exasperated sigh.

“Every single fucking button Kim Seungmin!” Seungmin nodded smiling.

“SWEAR! Every single one!” He started nibbling at your shoulder as he pulled the straps of your bra down. He slid it down your body and left it hanging around your waist along with your skirt that had been pushed up. He looked down at your exposed breasts and grabbed them both, squeezing and pushing them up and together.

“You’ve got fucking PERFECT tits!” He squeeze one harder, leaned down and started sucking on your nipple before licking his way over to the other and sucking on it as well. You ran your fingers through his hair and gripped it tightly when he bit down on that nipple hard.

“SssssSeungmin fuck!” Seungmin was ravenous. He played with your tits and kissed his way down your body until he was kneeling in front of you. He hooked his finger into the gusset of your wet panties, that were also white lace, and pulled them to the side, getting an up close view of your glistening cunt.

“Fuck professor you have such a pretty pussy.” Seungmin ran his fingers through your wet slit, teasing you before parting your lips and licking through your folds. You gripped his hair and he took one second to pull away from you enough to take off his glasses and set them aside, then he hiked one of your legs over his shoulder and started licking your pussy like it was melty ice cream and your juices were dripping down the cone.

“Oh my fucking god Seungmin.... yes...” You breathed out. He leaned back a second again, looking up at you as he stuck his ring and middle fingers into his mouth wetting them then pushing them into you. He wrapped his lips around your clit and started to suck on it harshly. You let go of his hair and slapped both your hands over your mouth trying to keep it down. He hummed and growled and shook his head between your legs, aggressively eating your cunt as he finger fucked you open. You pulled your hands far enough away from your face to speak.

“I’m... gonna... cum.” The words came out as gasps. Seungmin stopped eating you out and stood up. He pushed his fingers into your pussy deep, his hand flush with your body, his palm pressed against your clit, his other two fingers pushing against your asshole roughly as he kept fucking you with his fingers hard, using his whole hand to push them deeper. He didn’t pull out, just finger fucked you deeper and deeper, the sound his hand fapping against your sloppy wet pussy filling the closet as your tight cunt sucked in Seungmin’s fingers.

When your orgasm hit you your eyes rolled back in your head. You gripped the wrist of his hand that was finger fucking you and slapped your other hand over your mouth and nose. You threw your head back and choked out a muffled scream into your hand as you came. Seungmin didn’t stop pumping his fingers into your cunt. He kept going, deep and hard prolonging your orgasm.

He fingered you through your climax as your juices ran from you, coating the insides of your thighs. Seungmin pulled his fingers out and licked your cum from them. You rested your head against the wall as you were trying to recover from the earth-shattering orgasm he’d just given you.

“Come here.” He pushed your stray hairs away from your face, cupping it with both hands and kissing you deeply. You kissed him back tasting yourself on his lips. He pressed you firmly against the wall, his hips grinding into yours. You could feel his hard clothed cock press into your sensitive pussy. You put your hands against his chest and gently pushed making him take a step back then, placing your hands on his shoulders you led him to turn so his back was against the wall now.

“Your turn.” You said seductively. You ran your hands under his button up pushing it and his sweater off his shoulders and onto the floor. Seungmin kicked them aside. You started working at the button and zipper of his pants and he whipped off his t-shirt quickly as you did. You reached into his pants and underwear and kissed him as your soft hand palmed his throbbing cock.

“You’re so hard baby.” You pulled your hand out and spit in it then reached back into Seungmin’s pants and wrapped your fingers around his shaft. You kissed him again as you started jacking him off. Every now and then he would let out a breathy moan into your mouth as you messily made out and stroked his cock faster.

You stopped and pulled your hand out of his pants before threading your fingers through the hair at the nape of Seungmin’s neck. You gave him one more good long kiss then started tracing your fingertips down his soft skin as you got on your knees in front of him.

His dick twitched in his pants seeing you look up at him like that. You grabbed the waist band of his pants and briefs with both hands and slid them down his legs. When you got a look at what he’d been hiding in his pants you were pleasantly surprised. You knew he wouldn’t be small, feeling it pressed against you, but you didn’t expect that. Seungmin might have had a thin frame but what he lacked in physic he made up for in cock. He was fucking big!

“Wow, so fucking big and pretty too.” You spit on it and jerked him off a little spreading your spit along his shaft, getting it good and wet to try and make it easier to take into your mouth.

“T-thank you professor.” You gripped his cock firmly with one hand and braced against his hip with the other then wrapped your lips around the tip of his dick, gently sucking on it. Seungmin hissed.

“Sssfuck yes, suck on it beautiful.” You started bobbing your head taking more of him each time then sucked hard as you pulled off. You spit on his cock again and started stroking him fast before putting him back in your mouth, moving up and down his dick. You took him deep, gagged and pulled off, your spit stringing from your lips and his cock.

“That felt so fucking good baby, can you do more?” You wiped the spit off your chin. Seungmin ran his fingers through your hair moving it away from your face so he could see better as you tried. His tip hit the back of your throat and you gagged again pulling away. You took a deep breath and put him back into your mouth.

You gagged on him again but this time you didn’t pull away, instead you bobbed your head and started fucking your own throat with Seungmin’s big dick. His grip on your hair tightened. He closed his eyes and threw his head back moaning, enjoying the feeling of your warm mouth around his cock, your throat tightening around his tip every time it hit the back. You pulled away taking a big gasping breath and jacked him off with both hands.

“Your so fucking good at that professor, teach me how good you suck cock baby.” You spit on his dick and started blowing him again. To say that you were enthusiastic would be an understatement. You would suck on him hard then deep throat him and gag before bobbing up and down his cock and doing it all over again. Seungmin fisted your hair into a ponytail at the back of your head and gently started thrusting into your mouth.

“Ohhhhh fuck yes like that baby yes.” You braced your hands on Seungmin’s hips again so he didn’t go too deep, letting him thrust into your mouth and fuck your face.

“Look up at me let me see your pretty face while I fuck it.” You looked up at Seungmin and watched the look on his face as he continued thrusting into your mouth.

“God you are so fucking pretty like that!” Seungmin pulled out and helped you up off your knees. He grabbed the condom you gave him from his pants on the floor and tore open the foil packet. He took it out pinched the tip and rolled it down his thick cock. Seungmin grabbed you by your skirt pulling you close and kissed you.

“Take off your panties, turn around and bend over for me beautiful.” You made quick work of your underwear, tossing them and then put your hands against the wall bracing yourself as you spread your legs and bent over, exposing your creamy pussy from the back.

“Look at that. My professor has such a pretty fucking pussy. So wet for me.” Seungmin ran his fingers up and down your slit spreading your slick. He got behind you and lined up his cock with your pussy, rubbing his tip through your folds teasing you a little.

You arched your back and stuck your ass out more. Seungmin had no intentions on actually teasing you. He ran a hand over the swell of your ass and gripped your hip then he pressed his tip against your hole and slowly sank into you. When his big dick slipped into you, you let out a little whine.

“Doing so good for me gorgeous, so fucking pretty with my big cock inside you.” He pushed in deeper and this time your whine turned into a choked moan.

“So good so good, just a little more baby, almost there.” He praised you. You pressed your hands into the wall nodding and Seungmin pushed the last of his length into you.

“FFFFFfffuckuhhh...” You bit your lip and stifled your moan.

“BIG fucking cock! God damn...” Was all you could manage to say. Seungmin leaned over you and you could feel his thick cock move inside you. He grabbed one of your big tits and played with it as he reached between your legs and teased your clit while you got adjusted to having him inside you. After a minute he pulled out and gave you a deep thrust.

“Seungmin!” One of your hands flew to your mouth, the other still holding you up against the wall.

“Shhh... I know. Feels good?” You nodded not willing to risk moving your hand from your mouth just yet. Seungmin’s big cock started sliding in and out of you slowly as he continued playing with one of your breasts and your clit. Once he got going good he pulled you upright from the wall. His chest pressed up against your back. His cock was buried even deeper inside your cunt in this position. He wrapped his arms around your perfect body gripping on to one of your tits again as he reached back between your legs to continue playing with your pussy. You shoved your fist into your mouth to keep quiet as he gave you his cock deep in this position, rolling his hips, grinding against you more than thrusting.

“Want you to cum on my cock, wanna feel your legs shaking you cum so hard on my big fucking dick. You can do it, cum for me professor.” Seungmin played with your clit more and his thrusts got harder. You pulled your fist from your mouth.

“I’m gonna cum so fucking hard Seungmin don’t stop fucking me deep like that. I’m gonna cum...” You were panting and moaning. He stopped playing with your clit gripping and squeezing both of your breasts now. Your back was completely flush against Seungmin’s chest as he gave it to your hard and deep from the back.

You braced against the wall with one hand pushing yourself back onto him as he fucked into you as if he could go any deeper. You could feel your impending orgasm approaching and you reached back with your free hand gripping the hair at Seungmin’s nape tightly as you came hard on his cock.

“FFFUUSEUN-” You started to scream out, unable to control the level of your voice and one of Seungmin’s big hands left one of your tits and clamped over your mouth as he fucked you harder through your orgasm.

“Shhh shhh shh don’t want anyone to hear you creaming all over my big cock in this closet professor.” Your eyes rolled back and you kept screaming into his hand as your juices dripped down your legs and Seungmin’s cock. He kept railing you deep until your pussy stopped convulsing around his cock and your legs started shaking making your knees give out. Seungmin moved his hand away from your mouth so you could breathe easier. He stopped thrusting and helped hold you up as your legs wobbled like Bambi on ice, his dick still buried balls deep inside you. You were panting absolutely out of breath, stray hairs sticking to your red, sweaty face.

Seungmin helped you brace yourself against the wall so you didn’t just collapse when he let go then pulled his cock out of you. You laid against the wall, your face resting on its cool surface. Seungmin gently gripped your elbow making you turn to face him. When you did you leaned against the wall again, head back, eyes closed, still working on catching your breath.

“You okay?” You nodded as Seungmin pushed the sweaty strands of hair away from your face.

“I-I’m good, t-that that was FUCKING amazing!” Seungmin laughed a little before leaning in to kiss you.

“I’m very glad you thought so professor, does that mean I get a passing grade.” You laughed breathless.

“I don’t think I’ve ever cum so hard in my life! A++ and I’m granting you bonus points for your EXCELENT oral exam. Consider yourself teacher’s pet!” Seungmin caged you in his arms against the wall and kissed you.

“Yea? What does teacher’s pet get for getting such good marks?” You opened your eyes and looked at him smiling.

“What does he want?” Seungmin grabbed your breasts with both hands again, squishing and squeezing, pushing them up and together before toying with your nipples then doing it all again as if they were his new favorite toy.

“I wanna fuck these and cum all over them.” He said pushing your tits together harder.

“Yea? That’s what you want?” Seungmin nodded eagerly licking his lips.

“FUCK yes! I would kill to fuck these big perfect tits and cover them in my cum. Can I? Please?” You didn’t see why not. You nodded.

“Fucking really!?” He’d only been imagining fucking your tits since meeting you practically.

“Yea want you to cum all over my tits Seungmin.” He almost jumped for joy. He looked around the storage closet really quick and saw a wooden desk chair. He grabbed it and dragged it over for you to sit on. You sat your ass down on the cool wooden seat and Seungmin stood in front of you. He pulled the condom off and set it aside to throw away later. He gripped his cock and stroked it a few times.

You tilted your head down and let a big wad of spit drip from your mouth down the valley of your breasts. Seungmin immediately started smearing it up and down with the tip of his dick, getting the space between your tits slippery and wet.

He pressed his cock against your sternum and you pushed your tits up around his shaft. He started thrusting slowly, the tip of his dick disappearing between your breasts then popping back up, getting redder each time. Seungmin leaned over, spit on his tip and started fucking your big tits faster. He was breathless and panting ass he humped your chest.

“So good, so fucking good, perfect fucking titties, big and soft, squeeze my cock just right, fucking perfect. Squeeze them tighter please please tighter baby.” He started getting more excited and fucked your tits faster. You spit on your tits and squeezed them together tighter for him like he asked. You tilted your head down and stuck out your tongue so that when the tip of Seungmin’s cock peeked out from between your breasts you could lick it.

“Oh my fucking god! Yes lick it! Push your tits together harder. Fuck!” You pushed them together more. Seungmin spit on your tits again and held onto your shoulders as he fucked your big tits faster, his cock making a wet squelching sound every thrust. He had trouble keeping his rhythm as his climax approached.

“I’m gonna cum, fuck fuck fuck, I’m gonna cum baby.” He fucked your big tits faster and started to cum. You kept your breasts squeezed around his cock tightly as he did. Seungmin’s thrusts slowed down as streaks of his cum shot across your chest and neck pooling around his cock trapped between your tits.

He gave a few more slow thrusts, working all of his cum out, riding the last of his orgasm, enjoying the slippery feeling of smearing his cum between your tits. You let go of your breasts and Seungmin took a step back. He enjoyed the sight of his big load dripping down your chest and smeared all over your tits as he tried to catch his breath. You tsked him.

“Well you made a mess.” You playfully scolded him. He huffed out a laugh as he continued to catch his breath post nut.

“Sorry about that professor.” He winked at you smiling then looked around and found his t-shirt. He grabbed it and started wiping his cum off your chest and breasts with it. After he got you cleaned up as best he could you both searched around for your scattered articles of clothing.

Seungmin slipped into his underwear and pants then helped you pull your tight skirt back down. You pulled your bra up stuffing your big breasts back into the lacey cups and fixing the straps on your shoulders. Seungmin found his blue button up shirt and his sweater then separated them, putting on the blue shirt and buttoning it up.

After, he grabbed the sweater holding it open so you could put it on. You turned around and he buttoned it up for you as well. Seungmin thought you looked really fucking cute in his clothes. You started searching around the closet again.

“What are you looking for?” You lifted your exploded blouse looking under it.

“My panties.” Seungmin smirked reaching into his pants pocket, pulling them out and revealing them.

“Oh you mean these?” He twirled them around on his finger and when you tried to snatch them away he gripped them tightly in his fist and held them up out of your reach.

“Aht aht! I think I earned these professor.” He put them to his face and sniffed them. You tried to snatch them from him again unsuccessfully.

“Give me my panties Seungmin.” You said sternly.

“Or what? Are you going to give me detention?” He stuffed them back into his pocket laughing. You picked up your blouse and threw it at his face.

“Fine keep them but you still have to find all my buttons and fix my fucking shirt!” Seungmin pulled you close wrapping his arms around you giving you a big wet kiss on the cheek. You pushed at his chest feigning irritation although the smile on your face was a dead giveaway he was already forgiven. He squeezed you tightly.

“Whatever you say professor.”

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charminglyantiquated · 3 months ago

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Nautilus update! I’ve written more in-depth about all of this on the gofundme page and our social media, so I won’t get into the nitty gritty detail here as well, but I wanted to share the news here, for anyone wondering how things are going! Under a cut because it’s long, but tl:dr is we're moving forward, and we'll be okay.

Good news first: The owner of another local sailing company had put one of their boats up for sale the same week as the accident, and after the surveyors told us to expect the worst, he got in touch. She’s now ours, and we’ll be sailing again next summer! We were lucky enough to work on her in the past, and her previous owner wanted has told us he’d initially meant to offer her to us at the end of this season. With a working boat, we can keep our company going, which in turn means we have a means of making money that still allows us the flexibility to work on repairs, and deal with matters in the shipyard as they arise. (The marina also had a multi-year wait for commercial boats, so we were worried about what would happen if we had to bow out for a few years!) We're extraordinarily lucky and so, so grateful - this literally would not have been possible without the fundraiser, and the safety net it gave us, and the way our whole community has supported us. Without exaggeration, it changed our lives. I will never be able to fully express how grateful I am.

Nautilus is written off as a loss, which we've been expecting. They offered us the chance to buy her as salvage, which we obviously accepted. So insurance wrote us a payout for what she’s insured for, plus reimbursement for getting her hauled and towed, less the value of her as salvage. Because she’s a loss, we have to pay off the loan that we took out this spring to buy her. After that's done, we'll have enough left over from the payout check to launch the new boat next spring (insurance/marina fees/haul and tow) which in turn leaves us free to use the proceeds of the fundraiser to make a start on repairs this winter! In the meantime our insurance is pursuing subrogation: essentially (as I understand it) after paying us out of their pocket, they are going after the other insurance for reimbursement. If we do see any lost income, it would be through this process, but we’ve been told several times it will take months - we don’t know if that means ‘december’ or ‘next august’, and don’t know how much, so we’re crossing our fingers but not making any plans around it. The crisis point was these last two months, and honestly the fundraiser got us through it - now we have our feet under us again, it would definitely be welcome but our stability and livelihood isn't hanging on it, so we can afford to wait.

Repairs - rough estimate from the survey is $83k, but half of that is labor costs. We can do much of the labor ourselves, which should lower it a bit. There are obviously areas where we'll need experts (welding!!), but we have the skills for a lot of what has to be done. Right now we’re getting the boats covered for cold weather, picking up some odd jobs around the shipyard, and clearing room in the woodshop to build a new main mast - that’s the project this winter! We are also going to start tearing up the teak deck to access the damaged fiberglass below, and figure out what, if anything, can be salvaged from the wreck of the mast/rigging (the jib furler sheared in half, but the sail itself made it out with only four small, easily patched punctures! Which is frankly a miracle, given how it was literally jammed through the mast). Anything that seems sound will be checked over by an expert, and a lot of it might still be too stressed to safely use, but after months of looking at the wreck of the thing, it’s honestly just a relief to be able to go through and start taking pieces apart.

Tl:dr is we’re going to be okay. Money is tight, we’re living with family and working 6 days a week, but we’ll be on the water sailing again in May, our company will survive, and we’re hoping to have Nautilus fixed in two or three years. Just wanted to share that with you all; I'm really glad to finally have some good news to offer. It's not easy but it's better, and we're going to get through it, pretty much 100% because of everyone who has been so kind to us both. Thank you all so, so much for every single kind word and share and donation. I am never going to be able to say how much it has meant to me, and what a difference it has made. I won’t be posting much more about it on here now that we're back on our feet, but if anyone wants to keep updated, detailed news about Nautilus repairs will go on the gofundme page, and our instagram will have lighter posts about both boats, repairs, and the 2025 season.

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Hi, love you’re writing! I was wondering if you were open to a Sebastian request… there’s a HC that the reason his hair is always so chaotic is due to Solomon taking sheep shears to his head, and I was wondering if you could use that to do a small fluff, possibly revealing a crush, between Sebastian and MC, in which he’s received another Solomon haircut and is feeling really self conscious about it, so MC assures him it’s not so bad/he’s still handsome

I'm not even kidding, I saw this request and immediately had to do it because I love it so much - I recently went to Universal (Islands of Adventure) and saw the Hogwarts castle and Hogsmeade... I may have cried a little. Summary: The request Pairing: Sebastian Sallow x MC (No pronouns used) Warnings: Uncle Solomon (there, I said it), angst, fluff, food mentioned, use of 'MC', honestly just real fluffy fluff which I feel like we don't have a lot of. Wrote this in one sitting so most definitely typos. If you're on a computer, the pictures might be formatted weirdly. Contains (Or Lacks): No specific house mentioned. The main plot of the game still happened, but Sebastian's side quest did not. Which means Solomon's alive, but Anne is not cured. Set in summer.

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The summer sun was always a lovely feeling after the long and cold winters that occurred in the Scottish Highlands. You could admit the snow was pretty, but the way the warmth engulfed you as your journey took you through fields of flowers, across crystal clear water streams, all whist surrounds by tall mountains that were accented with green. Green was everywhere - green grass, green trees, green bushes, and everything so forth. Each breath you took filled you with peace.

Then there you were.

Feldcroft.

It was only a month and a half ago since you last saw your best friend, Sebastian. The end of your 6th year left you torn. Why? Because ever since you and him met in 5th year, you couldn't deny the spark that ignited when your eyes first met his. It was almost as if Merlin himself wrote in the stars that the two of you would find each other one day. And thank Merlin you did. He was there for you during your fight in the Goblin War, he was there for you in the search to find all the answers that led to more questions, and he was there for you when you lost Professor Fig. But, there were lows that came with it.

You couldn't help him. Over the last two school years, you've tried and failed to have found a cure for his twin sister Anne. You both now knew Rookwood was behind the cruelty and not a goblin, but what good did it do when you were too blinded by the fight to have forgotten to force the answers Sebastian so desperately needed out of him? At least, that's what you tell yourself. Sebastian had to have told you a million times not to blame yourself, but you couldn't follow through. The only way to fix things was to find a cure for Anne.

You clutched the handle of your trunk as your eyes caught the all too familiar well of Feldcroft.

"Off on another adventure?"

You turned your head with a raised eyebrow toward Ignatia Wildsmith. With a chuckle, you continued forward.

"Ah! MC, good to see you again!" Bernard Ndiaye, the Feldcroft shopkeeper, called out.

You smiled and walked up to him. "Hello, Bernard. Doing well?"

"As good as one can be," he answered. "What brings you to town?"

"Oh, I'm just visiting a friend," you replied, vaguely. "Sebastian," you added.

"Ah... young Sallow. I've seen quite a bit of him recently."

"Hm?" You gave him a questionable look.

"He's been helping the folks around here with some labor. He's been a great help to me, keeping my shop tidy and stocked!"

"Sounds like Sebastian," you laugh.

He echoed your laughter. "I shouldn't have been surprised of your arrival, he's been talking about you."

"Has he?" You perked.

"Oh yes... all good things, of course." He grinned, smugly.

You furrowed your eyebrows at him in suspicion. "I'll take your work for it..." you dragged in amusement. "Well, I should probably be going, they are expecting me."

"Yes! Yes! Don't let me keep them waiting." He waved you off as he takes a sip of his tea.

You smiled and waved goodbye. You walked away toward the Sallows' house which you deemed as the most whimsical looking one out of Feldcroft, but maybe you were biased. You sighed as you took in the house. It was small, but beautiful. You took note of the new elements that have appeared since the last time you were here. A few new plants, a few new fruits and vegetables in their garden, even a new painted wood sign that claimed their residency. Everything looked perfectly tended to.

You raise your fist to knock, but before your knuckles could touch the door you heard what sounded like a grunt coming from behind the house. You froze in attempt to make it easier to hear. Your eyebrows furrowed when you heard yet another one. You took a step back from the door and set down your luggage. Your curiosity led your feet around the house, eyes bouncing around to spot the source of the sound.

You stopped over by the training dummies when you heard another sound, louder than had been before. You turned your head rather abruptly knowing you had finally found your conclusion but that backfired when you felt your knees nearly give out on you.

Oh.

Your face flushed when your attention was suddenly drawn to none other than your best friend. Your best friend that you fancied like mad, right here in front of you, skin glistening from sweat, breathing heavily with the occasional grunt as he moved large trunks of wood. Your eyes widened the more you continued to gawk at him, you didn't even notice that your jaw had dropped a little at the sight of him.

He stood up straight and lifted his hat a little to wipe the sweat off his forehead. He let out a long sigh of exhaustion and let his head hang low for a moment before shaking it off and turning his body to where you stood. You swore you saw his soul leave his body when he was smacked in the face by your presence.

He jumped and grasped his chest with a gasp. "Merlin MC, don't do that to me! How long were you standing there?" he scolded.

Your brain didn't process his scolding. You smiled and walked with vigor up to him. Without a word you threw your arms around your neck and pulled him into an embrace. He stiffened for a second before hugging you back

"I missed you," you said.

He wouldn't have admit it in that moment, but hearing your voice after haven't heard it in a while made his stomach flutter. A smile made its way onto his face. "I missed you too."

You pulled away, but not too far as you scanned his face for any changes. He did the same.

"You've grown," you pointed out.

"Have I?" He smirked.

"At least an inch." You narrowed her eyes. "And you got a new freckle... right... there." You poked his cheek.

He jokingly slapped your hand away. "I see you haven't change one bit," he teased.

You rolled your eyes. You raised a hand to block your eyes from the sun. "Merlin Sebastian, how are you wearing a hat right now in this weather?"

You didn't mention it, but you saw the way his cheeks turned a light shade of red.

"Where's your luggage?" he asked.

"At the front." You jutted your head in the direction.

"C'mon, let's get you settled then." He placed a hand at the small of your back and guided you to the front of the house. He grabbed your luggage and brought it inside, holding the door open for you.

The first thing you saw was Anne. She was standing there with a weak smile on her face. She had gotten a lot thinner since last summer when you saw her, and the dark circles under her eyes were more noticeable. It was a jab to your heart seeing her this way, knowing you couldn't control it.

"MC!" she exclaimed, happily.

"Anne!" You opened your arms and hugged the girl.

"How've you been?" she asked, moving so she could look at you as she spoke.

"I've been good - busy - but good." You hesitated at first, but asked, "And you? How have you been feeling?"

"Some days are worse than others, but today has been good. Probably because I knew you'd be here today." You laughed together. "Uncle has gone out to go get supplies for supper tonight, he should be back soon."

Sebastian behind you muttered something incoherently.

Anne looked at him. "Something on your mind?"

He glanced up from the palm of his hand which he had been absentmindedly tracing. He formed his lips into a tight line. "Nope. Nothing at all... I'll be outside if you girls need anything." He was quick to leave.

You grew a little confused at his rushed exit. "Is there anything I should be aware of?"

Anne scoffed a little. "Oh, it's - it's nothing, it's silly." She brought you to sit at the dining table with her. "He's just a little snippy because Solomon gave him a haircut," she explained.

You didn't know whether to laugh or not. "What?"

Anne shook her head a little. "Ever since we were young, after our parents died, every summer Uncle Solomon will give Sebastian a haircut if he thinks it's gotten too long to do labor with."

You grimaced at the thought of that man giving you a haircut and began to felt sympathy for Sebastian the more you thought about it. "Oh..."

"Solomon recently thought it had gotten too long... I have never seen Sebastian fight it more than he did this time. Honestly, I think it had something to do with you coming so soon."

You frowned. "I'd never make fun of him if that's what he thought."

"He knows that, it's just..."

You tilted your head. "It's just... what?"

She leaned in a little. "It's just that he wants to look his best when he's around you."

"Why should that matter?"

She looked a little taken aback. "My Merlin, do you really not know?"

"Know what?"

"You don't!" she exasperated.

"Don't know what?" You were starting to get a little desperate.

Anne looked around as if to make sure no one was listening. "Be honest with me here... do you fancy my brother?"

You nearly choked out your saliva as you gasped in shock. "What?! No! Me?! No!" You avoided her eye contact as well as her wide grin.

"Oh my gods! You do!" She began to laugh as if it was hysterical. "I knew it!" She slapped the table. "And Sebastian told me you didn't think of him that way..." She shook her head. "I should've listened to Ominis." She began to ramble off about you, Sebastian, and Ominis.

"What are you talking about?"

"You can't tell him I told you, but sister to sister you have to know... that my brother - my twin - is totally in love with you."

You blinked a few times as you attempt to process this information. "What?"

"Now before you start asking - "

"Has he told you that?! Since when?! Why has he never told me?!" you blurted.

"He - "

Suddenly, the door swung open. Heavy footsteps treaded in, the wooden floors creaked underneath the new weight. You turned your head and was met with Solomon whose facial expression hadn't changed since the last time you saw him. A deep scowl.

"You're here early," he grumbled.

Your eyes glimpsed at the grandfather clock in their house. You weren't early, in fact you were actually a little late, but there was no way you would correct him. So, instead, you gave a sweet smile. "I had anticipated some interruption during my travels, but lucky for me none came."

He gave a stiff nod and shuffled his way to the kitchen. "Hope you like Shepard's pie."

Even if you didn't, you would never admit it. "Love it!" You eyed Anne who was holding back a giggle.

"Where's that boy?" he asked, unpacking the produce and meat.

"He's outside, working in the back," Anne answered.

He glared. It wasn't directed toward Anne, but it still managed to make you two cower a little. "No manners that boy has! Invites a guest over and then - " The rest of it was mumbled as he stormed out of the house.

You and Anne could hear muffled shouting.

You turned to Anne. "Anne, about Sebastian - " You were interrupted this time by the door. However, Solomon was now accompanied by Sebastian.

So, that's why he's wearing a hat. You thought to yourself.

Solomon shoved his toward the table where you and Anne sat at. He huffed and sat down beside you.

Anne glanced between the two of you with a sly smile. "So, MC... you said you've been busy, doing what exactly?"

"I've been helping Mr. Weekes at Spintwitches Sporting Needs, he has some new ideas for broom upgrades that I've been assisting him with."

"Sebastian told me you were a good flyer, better than Imelda from what he's told me."

Sebastian had seemed to've perked up. "She's the best on the team."

You breathily scoffed. "That's pushing it a little."

"Nonsense, people think you're gonna get chosen for captain in this new year," he said.

"Don't let Imelda hear that, it'd be over her dead body would I get that position," you half-heartedly joke.

"Anything else you've been doing?" Anne inquired, resting her chin against her knuckles.

"I've been helping Mr. Hill with modeling clothes, helping Sirona at the Three Broom Sticks - cleaning and whatnot, helping J. Pippins with potion deliveries, of course running my own shop - "

"Have you been taking breaks?" Sebastian asked.

You frowned a little at his look of concern. "Of course I have been taking breaks, I''m taking one right now, being here." You could tell that didn't ease him. "It's a busy season, but I've been managing."

"But, you've been drinking enough water, right? Eating enough? Sleeping enough?"

Anne could relate this back to the 'he's in love with you' claim, but you could relate it back to the two of them. He's had to care for Anne for a while now and witnessed her downfall, it's to no surprise he'd be protective over your health and making sure you're okay.

"Yes, Sebastian," you assured.

Solomon was cutting carrots (why is that funny to imagine?), when he grumbled to himself about something. He set his knife down shook his head. "Boy! What did I say about wearing hats indoors?"

You eyed Sebastian's expression. It flickered with embarrassment.

"I am not taking off this hat," he argued.

Solomon crossed his arms and stared down Sebastian. "And why is that?"

Sebastian's lip trembled a little. "W-Well, because - " He sighed in defeat, he didn't want to argue in front of you. That was an embarrassment in itself as he learned the more he thought about the day you first met Anne. "Yes, sir."

Solomon went back to cooking. You didn't know whether to watch or not as Sebastian slowly took off his hat. His eyes casted down in shame. Some of his hair was matted down from the sweat while the rest of it had it's own mind. You had never really seen his natural hair, always tamed with gel. This was the first time you had seen the chaos that was Sebastian's hair, and oh how Solomon did not understand it.

Sebastian ran a hand through it, but it only seemed to have stirred it more. The shorter layers sticking out a little, some parts wavy, some parts straight. The longer layers uneven. You deep down hoped that one day it'd be you who'd give his hair the treatment it deserved, because you knew how much Sebastian cared about it.

"I'm just going to step away for a moment - " Sebastian started.

"No, I need your hand in the kitchen," Solomon countered.

Sebastian shut his eyes. His nostrils flared ever-so-slightly as he breathed in sharply. He stood up and walked to the kitchen.

"Due to the arguing, Solomon did haste the cutting process," Anne explained in a hushed tone

"What does he use for it?" You scooted closer toward her so Sebastian nor Solomon heard.

"Sheep shears." Anne cringed at the thought. "I've been fortunate enough to have never experienced it, Sebastian on the other hand..." she paused. "In our second year, Solomon cut it right before the start of first term, and let's just say... it ended him up with an awful nickname."

"Oh, poor Sebastian..." You sympathized.

"After that he learned how to style his hair and built a new reputation for himself, but I know it haunts him every time this season comes around. I think he's just scared you'll somehow lose interest in him all together if you see him - well... this way..."

You frown and looked at Sebastian whose energy drained in the last hour.

"I don't think that's possible," you whisper, unknowingly.

Anne grabbed your hand that laid on the table. "Maybe it's time to tell him that."

You bit your lip. Your nerves grew the more you thought about such a conversation between you and Sebastian. Where you'd reveal the feelings you've contained since the day you met him. Yes, when you met him, you thought he was attractive, but then you got to know him and suddenly he was beautiful. Inside and out, and that's what scared you.

Were you enough for someone beautiful?

You know Anne said he liked you back, but what if it was all a big misunderstanding? It wouldn't have been the first time.

Could you afford to get your heartbroken by Sebastian?

You think not. Which is why when you got your plate of food, you managed to build up no appetite. You pushed around the potato meat and vegetables until it was nothing but a pile of mush. You could feel the heat of Sebastian's gaze burn into you, but you did you best to avoid it. Eventually, Anne allowed the awkward silence to take over until everyone was done with dinner.

Sebastian stood up. "I'm gonna go get some air," he announced before leaving.

You watched him carefully as he left.

Anne picked at her fingernails. "I'm gonna go help Uncle with the rhubarb pie," she said, slowly, as if hinting toward something. "If you know... you wanna... talk." She eyed the door.

You picked it up her cues rather easily. "Yeah," you breathed. "Yeah, maybe that's for the best." You cleared your throat as the both of you stood.

Anne could read by your stance how nervous you were. She grasped your upper arm. and gave it a comforting squeeze. "Hey, believe me when I tell you that you have nothing to worry about. I know my brother better than anyone and I know... you're everything to him."

You could've argued against that, but chose to bite your tongue and nod. She smiled and gave your upper arm one more squeeze. She walked past you to the kitchen. You sighed and glanced at the door. After what felt like a lifetime you took the first step toward exiting the house until you felt the cool breeze against your face. You ventured out a little and turned your head to your right. It was where you two met up the day you first came to Feldcroft all that time ago, before you met Anne, before him and Solomon got into that fight, and before you told Sebastian all about the keepers.

You walked up the steps and to him where he was leaning against the railing. His back was still turned to you which prompted you to rest against the railing next to him. The two of you wallow in the silence.

"I'm sorry," he said, breaking the silence.

"What for?"

"For being distance."

"It's okay - "

"It's not okay..." He groaned a little. "It's stupid." He shook his head.

"What is? I can tell you, whatever it is, it is not stupid if it's affecting you this much." You knew what it was, but for you to truly understand, you needed to hear his feelings on it.

He shakily sighed. "I know you've noticed, how could you not notice?" He tugged at a strand of his hair which stuck up and out of place. "I swear he treats me as though I'm still a child."

"Sebastian..."

"Don't even lie and tell me it doesn't look bad."

"Could you look at me, please?" He hesitates but does so. "Here..." You stand upright, guiding him to do the same. Cautiously, you began to run your fingers through his hair. You don't verbally mention the way he shuddered immediately when doing so, or when he sighs again, this time of content. You smile, and continue to use your fingers to carefully style his hair. "This is the first time you've ever let me do this."

"Is it really?" He sounded absent. You noticed he had close his eyes and was now leaning into your touch a little more than before. "I've been missing out..."

"Just give me the word and I'll do this at any time for you." You smiled even though he couldn't see it.

"Careful... I think I'd tell you to never stop at some point."

You chuckle but don't respond. You finish by brushing his bangs to the side. Your eyes flickered all around his face. You were so close, you could've counted every freckle, every eyelash, every scar and imperfection that was perfection simply because it was him. Without another thought, your fingers dragged to trace the side of his face down to his jawline. During that, his eyes slowly opened. Your hand didn't leave his face as his eyes bored into yours.

Have they always looked at you that way?

"Have I told you lately that no matter what... you're beautiful... to me?" you stammered.

His breath hitched in his throat. "No," he breathed. "But, then again, I've been doing a terrible job reminding you that as well."

"We ought to really work on that together then, hm?"

He lifted up a hand and pushed your hair back behind your ear. "Yeah..."

"Sebastian?"

"Yes?"

"Kiss me."

You could only describe the moment as the stars having finally aligned. He wasted no time placing his lips against yours. There was no barrier of friendship keeping him from doing the thing he's been wanting to do for so long. You both have well crossed that safe line and now there was so turning back. Sebastian pulled you closer as he deepened the kiss. He wanted to make up for all the time he let go by without making you his. And he really wanted you to be his as much as he wanted to be yours. He wanted to memorize the feeling of your lips against his, your body pressed to his body, the tickle of your hair of his face, the feeling of your fingers in his hair. All that he wanted to consume was you.

The two of you pulled away to catch your breath. You both laughed and leaned into each other as you processed the moment as it was really happening.

You sighed, happily. "You know, your uncle is going to be wondering where we went."

"I honestly could care less about that right now." He couldn't stop smiling. He goes to lean in again but is interrupted by someone clearing their throat.

"As much as I'd love for you guys to continue your moment, I was ordered to tell you that the pie is ready," Anne said with an amused glint in her eye. "I'd also like to mention that I told you so, to both of you." She spun on her heel and began to slowly walk away.

You and Sebastian watched Anne walk away with wide eyes. Sebastian intertwined your fingers with his. "I guess we do have all of summer to spend time with each other."

"I'd like to think it wouldn't end just there," you tease as the you both start to walk back to the house.

"Don't you worry, you're gonna be stuck with me for life. Bad haircuts and all." He nudges you, playfully.

A perfect life.

Your eyes soften. "Lucky me," you whisper.

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