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My love, mine all mine | OB87 x Reader

pairing . . . ollie bearman x barca!femeni!reader
summary . . . After Ollie gets a sudden interest in the Barca Femeni team, fans connect the dots and reach the conclusion that he has a crush on you. So when they start tagging you on his posts, he has no choice but to confess and ask you out
request . . . no!!
word count . . . N/A
warnings . . . none!
faceclaim . . . sydney schertenleib and girls from pin!
alexavia yaps . . . guys idk why the fic is lowkey ass 💔🥀 hope yall enjoyed tho bc i'm gonna die for like another 2 weeks. requests open currently for oneshot req (for the mini fic series)

olliebearman
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olliebearman photodump from yesterday! congrats to the fcbfemeni team for winning and great job to yourusername on getting potm!
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username1 ollie is a culer ?!?!
username2 that food looks so good im salivating
username3 HES SO PRETTYYYY
username4 holy fuck he watches women's football?? yourusername we found you a match
username5 gorgeous
username6 stop i checked the girl he mentioned shes so pretty
username7 js checked and my GOD shes stunning
username8 OLLIE???
username9 i cant wait to see the y/n match updates bc i know for a fact this man will tag her in all his upcoming posts like yourusername at least follow him
kimi.antonelli why the sudden interest in the barcelona women's team
olliebearman i've been a fan since i was 4.
kimi.antonelli "kimi why'd no one tell me to watch women's football before" sent yesterday at 10:13 pm
olliebearman ...
pepemartiofficial ollie got exposed for lying 😂
olliebearman SHUT UP pepe
kimi.antonelli next thing we know he's buying match tickets and travelling to spain
isackhadjar the thing is i think he did do it
kimi.antonelli did you, ollie?
olliebearman i'd rather stay quiet
kimi.antonelli oh my god he did it
username10 how does it feel to have a chance, oliver
username11 their conversations are so funny im sobbing
username12 the rookies always have me tearing up from laughing
username13 screaming crying throwing up yourusername i'm begging you look at this
username14 im giggling at their comments
username15 i need more football content ASAP
username16 can y/n or wtv fight
gabrielbortoleto_ i heard ollie was being a loverboy
olliebearman who told you that ??
kimi.antonelli me
olliebearman of course it was you
gabrielbortoleto_ she's out of your league bro
olliebearman no one asked you gabi
isackhadjar he isn't lying
olliebearman all of you shut up and click off this post
kimi.antonelli someone's in a mood
username17 HELPP KIMI AND OLLIE I LOVE YOU
username18 man im itching to get people to ship them yourusername please look at this
username19 im never shutting about this for like another 18 centuries like my goat y/n x my goat ollie this is a grand event in history
username20 watch her ignore him like she did with that other guy i forgot his name
username21 do you mean hector
username20 yeah i think so
username22 poor hector catching strays 😭
username23 man doesn't even know people are making fun of him
username24 whos ollie im here for y/n
username25 hes a f1 racer for haas f1 team
username26 some random racer idk hes not important y/n is
username27 dislike people like yall
username28 oh to be in a relationship with him
pepemartiofficial if only you were catalonian and personally knew her...
olliebearman .
olliebearman do you know how annoying you are
isackhadjar pepe you should show him that picture of you two at your parents' house eating arroz con leche
kimi.antonelli LMFAO
olliebearman this is what i get for being nice
olliebearman btw i know that didn't happen you're just trying to have a go at me
isackhadjar worked didn't it?
pepemartiofficial i should ask y/n to take a picture of me at my parents' house eating arroz con leche
gabrielbortoleto_ ollie would probably rage and start crying
kimi.antonelli or he'll have a fussy tantrum like a toddler
olliebearman ALL OF YOU GET OUT
username29 i need to know when where shes going to be so i can attach myself to her and fight off ollie
username30 DIED. DECEASED. GONE. ROTTING.
NEW NOTIFICATION: olliebearman has started following you !
NEW NOTIFICATION: kimi.antonelli, isackhadjar and gabrielbortoleto_ have started following you !
NEW NOTIFICATION: username187, username9181 and 165K others have started following you !

yourusername
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yourusername day out in my favourite city
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username30 y/n you have me on my KNEES
username31 what id pay to be whoever is dating her
alexiaputellas nina bonita Comment liked by creator
yourusername ahh gracias alexia <3 you're prettier
alexiaputellas all you hermosa
username32 OKAY OKAY I SEE THE VISION
username33 shes so pretty omgggg
username34 idk if i want to be y/n or be with y/n
username35 holy shit shes so gorgeous
username36 came here for ollie stayed for y/n
yourbsf woah youre so hot
yourusername youre hotter
yourbsf nahhh youre way hotter
yourbsf but yk who is hotter than all of us
yourusername oh god not again
yourbsf i texted you the name 😈
yourusername i was expecting it
yourbsf when will you text him
yourusername never
yourusername and don't even try to convince me
yourbsf someday y/n, you two will be out together in love and you'll be thanking me
yourusername no
yourbsf yes
yourusername sigh i deserve better friends
yourbsf reminder that i'm the one who showed you his pictures
yourusername yeah yeah i said he's cute
yourbsf you better think so
username37 man i love them
username38 HELP THE DATING LORE IS INSANE
username39 did yourbsf just expose them or
username40 i feel like im intruding reading the comments between them
pepemartiofficial sooo you know who he is
yourusername i do because SOMEONE forced me to look at his pictures
yourbsf ey ey ey don't involve me in this
yourusername i'm glad you know it's you since i didn't mention names
pepemartiofficial next time we meet i'm giving you both a run down on everything
yourusername good that you told me so i don't meet up with you
yourbsf see pepe? this is what i told you about
pepemartiofficial y/n you're too stubborn give him a chance
yourusername over my dead body
yourbsf guess we'll have to kill her, won't we, pepemartiofficial
pepemartiofficial guess so
yourusername i can't believe i'm best friends with both of you
username41 Y/N IS THIS A SOFT LAUNCH???
username42 THE PICS??? HELLO??? EXCLUSIVE SUBSCRIPTION??? EXCUSE ME??? HOWS SHE SO PRETYY??
username43 how is she so good looking
username44 the face card is INSANE
username45 I NEED HER SO BADLY UGHHHHHHH
username46 STOP where is that juice stand at the end i'm salivating
username47 need me some juice like that
username48 who tf is ollie and why'd he like before me
username49 some rando who thinks he has a chance
username50 bro thinks he's hector 💀
username51 if my gf aint like this ion want her
olliebearman you're very gorgeous
pepemartiofficial damn no reply no like no acknoledgement
olliebearman close that mouth before i close it for you
pepemartiofficial okay bro no need to throw a tantrum 😭
username52 the way she ignored him HELPPPP
username53 y/n yourusername give this young man a chance
username54 so um whens the wedding
username55 when will she acknowledge him more like
username56 yourbsf fans living the life we knew about this before all of you
username57 im sighing dreamily at these pictures
username58 THE PICS.
username59 giggling blushing and kicking my feet
username60 when will y/n post more y/n sigh
NEW NOTIFICATION: olliebearman has liked 29 of your posts and 45 highlights !
NEW NOTIFICATION: olliebearman has added you to their close friends !

olliebearman
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olliebearman iconic. Tagged: fcbfemeni, yourusername
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username61 Y/N LET HIM HIT HES A PROPER SIMP yourusername
username62 people DIED (i'm people)
username63 THE LOOK OF LOVE
username64 THE RUSH OF BLOOD
username65 THE SHES WITH ME IS THE GALLIC SHURG
username66 he and y/n is not a want its a NEED
username67 GIRL COME HERE yourusername
username68 i just KNOW their kids will be BEAUTIFUL
username69 face card never declined
username70 and never will
kimi.antonelli so you're a big football guy now aren't you
pepemartiofficial bet he watches all matches
gabrielbortoleto_ probably analyses the plays
isackhadjar he 100% studies positions and strategies
kimi.antonelli i'll bet my life savings that he memorised every players' jersey number, name, age, ethnicity and country of birth
olliebearman what did i do to you all
olliebearman what is this modern day torture
username72 Y/N PLEASE NOTICE HIM yourusername
username73 y/n x ollie
username74 the otp fr
username75 the lack of the y/n is starting to concern me
username76 fr like WHERE IS SHEEE
pepemartiofficial hey yourusername i think someone likes you
olliebearman SHUT UP
pepemartiofficial jeez chillax
username77 sobbing i feel bad for ollie
yourbsf please please please notice him y/n i know you know who he is yourusername yourusername yourusername yourusername yourusername yourusername yourusername
olliebearman not you too
username78 i could feel the hurt in ollie's words
username79 theyre more chaotic than we thought oh my god
username80 everyone said lets spam mention y/n so she notices him and i love it
pepemartiofficial clock is ticking and so is our patience
pepemartiofficial come one oliver make your move
olliebearman josep maria marti i'm going to murder you
yourbsf he pulled the full name
pepemartiofficial im sorry pls dont kill me
yourbsf he wont just because you're the mutual friend 😂
olliebearman i'm literally right here
yourbsf do you think i care
olliebearman oh wow
pepemartiofficial ollie got humbled lmfao
username81 deleting all my socials after this but yourusername come here
username82 they are SOULMATES vro yourusername
username83 HSHSHSH NOT EVERYONE MENTIONING HER AFTER EVERY COMMENT LMFAOOOOOO yourusername
username84 Y/N WYAAAA yourusername
username85 legit romance book vibes yourusername
username86 imagine being this in love yourusername
yourbsf to think this all started with pepe's birthday
pepemartiofficial it's crazy
yourbsf and now ollie is in love
username87 VISCA BARCA !!!!!!!! yourusername
username88 i am JEALOUS, ENVIOUS, GREEN. but oh well yourusername
username89 i mean they were bound to meet sooner or later bc of pepe being a mutual friend yourusername
username90 they ARE the main characters yourusername
username91 FRR like everyone else is just a side character yourusername
username92 alexa play 'that should be me' by justin bieber yourusername
gabrielbortoleto_ when will you make your move
olliebearman never with you as my friends
kimi.antonelli stay single and miserable then xx
pepemartiofficial yeah we all have gfs
gabrielbortoleto_ except isack but he doesn't count
olliebearman YOU DON'T NEED TO REMIND ME I'M AWARE
username93 dont make his heart break yourusername
username94 STOP I CANT WAIT TO SEE HER IN THE PADDOCK yourusername
username95 if they dont get together then love isnt real yourusername
kimi.antonelli this is your last chance to make your move oliver
olliebearman PLEASE STOP
pepemartiofficial is he okay
gabrielbortoleto_ prolly not
isackhadjar he'll survive
username96 i just know they'll be each other's ride or dies yourusername
username97 where to buy a ollie asking for a friend
username98 if i could id just take over one of their bodies to experience this love yourusername
username99 im waiting for the fics yourusername
username100 straight out of romeo and juliet yourusername
isackhadjar when's the move loverboy?
olliebearman i'm begging you all please stop
kimi.antonelli i think we drove him crazy
pepemartiofficial he deserves it no one told him to publicly announce his little boy crush

INSTAGRAM TEXTS BETWEEN YOU AND @olliebearman
olliebearman: hi y/n! i'm ollie, nice to meet you!
yourusername: i know who you are ollie
yourusername: pepe wouldn't leave me alone
yourusername: nice to meet you too though
olliebearman: sorry about my friends being annoying
olliebearman: and all the fans tagging you
yourusername: don't worry about it, it was fun to watch while it lasted
olliebearman: yeah i just wanted to tell you something
olliebearman: all these comments pressured me to do it
yourusername: you don't have to say anything you don't want to, ollie
olliebearman: it's alright, i want to get it off my shoulders
olliebearman: and make everyone stop annoying me about it
yourusername: what's up then?
yourusername: is it something to do with pepe or my bsf
olliebearman: no no
olliebearman: it's actually got to do someting with you
yourusername: oh?
olliebearman: yeah
olliebearman: please don't block me or ignore me after i tell you
yourusername: don't worry
yourusername: i won't
yourusername: now continue i'm really curious
olliebearman: alright... here goes nothing
olliebearman: i really like you y/n
olliebearman: i have for a while actually
olliebearman: ever since that time pepe introduced us last year
yourusername: that's really sweet ollie
olliebearman: i've made it awkward haven't i??
yourusername: no no no
yourusername: you're really cute tbh
yourusername: and i did have a teensy tiny crush on you since we last met too
olliebearman: oh wow
olliebearman: this turned out so much better than i expected
olliebearman: i'm so glad you like me back
yourusername: dw about it
yourusername: seeing you like this is cute
olliebearman: so y/n i have a question
yourusername: yeah?
olliebearman: would you like to go out with me?
yourusername: i'd love to <3
olliebearman: great!! you're free next weekend right?
yourusername: yeah! i am
olliebearman: then you can come to the spanish gp!
olliebearman: you can stay in the haas garage (my side)
olliebearman: if it's alright for you i'll ask my team to send you the details
yourusername: oh my god ollie i've always wanted to watch an f1 race
yourusername: tysm for inviting me
yourusername: and i hope you get a good result in the race
olliebearman: i will
olliebearman: for you
NEW NOTIFICATION: olliebearman has mentioned you in their close friends story !


yourusername
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yourusername spanish gp done so i'm headed to italy and oh btw olliebearman and me are dating
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username101 cue the yourbsf meltdown in...
username102 3...
username101 2...
username102 1...
yourbsf Y/N YOU DIDN'T TELL ME ABOUT THIS
yourbsf A BOY????
yourbsf YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND??
yourbsf A RACER BOY????
yourbsf THE BOY YOU SAID YOU WOULDN'T DATE OVER YOUR DEAD BODY?
yourbsf YOU DISGRACE
yourbsf TRAITOR
yourusername are you done?
yourbsf NO
yourusername dont say it then
username103 dont know if i should be shocked or unsurpirsed
username104 both
kimi.antonelli congrats y/n!! so happy for both of you
yourusername thank you kimi !!
olliebearman thank you!! glad you're being nice for ONCE
username105 KIMI BEING THE SUPPORTIVE YOUNGER BROTHER FIGURE MY HEARTTTTT
username106 i just know damn well yourbsf is on the verge of tears
username107 SHES SO GORGEOUS I CANT
username108 my parents 🙏🙏
username109 PARASOCIAL RELATIONSHIP FRRRR
pepemartioffical congratulations!!
olliebearman thank YOU for introducing us
pepemartofficial im finally credited for my efforts
olliebearman nvm
yourusername thank you pepe ❤
gabrielbortoleto_ ohhhso youre the girl he was spamming the gc always talking about
olliebearman GABRIEL
yourusername im flattered please tell me more
gabrielbortoleto_ will do whenever we meet 😊 congrats by the way!
yourusername thank you gabriel!!
username110 my dream couple frrrr
username111 GOALS OMG
username112 its true love if THE y/n posted a soft launch for him
username113 racer boy and footballer girl, couldnt have been better
username114 BEST LOVE STORY FRRR
username115 if my future bf isnt like ollie i dont want him
username116 can ollie fight honest question
username117 dropping that so casually is max aura
username118 y/n is creative i wouldnt have thought of that
username119 waiting for ollie at her football matches
username120 spanish royalty ong
olliebearman i love you so much, mi cielo
yourusername i love you more, my london boy
olliebearman love you more than anything, my barcelona girl
yourusername 🫶❤
olliebearman ❤❤
username121 STOPP MY HEART CANT TAKE THIS
username122 this has me sobbing and i dont even know them
username123 NOOOO IM CRYING THIS SO SWEET
username124 IKR???
username125 THEY HAVE NO RIGHT BEING THIS CUTE
username126 the kiss after the race omg i died watching it
username127 i feel like im intruding or something
username128 my mother and father
username129 OUR*
username130 CUTIESSS AHHH
isackhadjar cutest couple i know, wishing you all the best
olliebearman thank you isack
username131 FUCK OFF THIS POST IS MAKING ME SO EMOTIONAL
username132 this is so romantic and for what
username133 THE CAPTION
username134 y/ns caption is killing me
username135 ISYG BAJJHSSYHSUJKKIUHBHNJWMK
username136 I JUST CAME BACK FROM SUMMER CAMP WTF??? IS THIS HOW I FIND OUT THEYRE TOEGTHER???
username137 screaming crying throwing up
username138 killing myself
username139 wait for me
username140 they should get a reality show
username141 meow
username142 THEM>>>>>>>>>>
username143 sign here to get this into a romance movie
username144 SIGNEDDDD
username145 signed and asking my whole family to sign
username146 lets make this an actual petition
username147 so like when will it be my turn
username148 greatest love story of this centruy
username149 no lies said
username150 my kind of love

olliebearman
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olliebearman got the girl of my dreams so i'm gonna brag about it forever Tagged: yourusername
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yourusername i love you forever, ollie. my one and only london boy.
olliebearman i love you to eternity, y/n. my one and only barcelona girl
yourusername forever and always
olliebearman till the end
yourusername i love you
olliebearman i love you too
username151 oh jolly this is so beautiful
username152 THE AESTHETIC ATE UPPPPPP
username153 y/n + ollie in italy together??
username154 thats adorable omgggg
username155 sigh im in love with them
username156 your honour i love them
yourusername this is cute but not as cute as you
olliebearman MY LOVE STOP THIS IS TOO SWEET
yourusername YOU DESERVE WAY MORE THAN THIS MY BEAUTIFUL BOY
olliebearman I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
yourusername I LOVE YOU MORE
username157 why are they communacting in caps??
username158 i have no idea but let them be
username159 oh to be rich
username160 living vicarously through them
username161 sigh i wish i was y/n
username162 oh so hes getting brave with it
username163 OLLIE GIVE US Y/N CONTENT !!!!!!!!!
username164 REAL
username165 oh?
username166 to be hot and have a hot boyfriend is the LIFE
yourbsf okay oliver we get that you have biceps don't choke my bsf with them
olliebearman what if she's into it
yourusername ....
yourusername i'm literally right here
olliebearman are you then?
yourusername not answering that question for more than 2 million people to see
yourbsf smart decision dm me the answer
yourusername YOU DONT NEED TO KNOW
pepemartiofficial i bet she is
yourusername is pepe okay??
yourbsf is he ever
yourusername true
olliebearman but actually are you into it
yourusername .
yourusername i have the right to remain silent
username167 this is the meaning of winging it
username168 boy said "you made fun of me and i did it so i'll rub it in your faces"
username169 now i understand why he was so head over heels for her
username170 we NEED to know about what went on in italy
username171 YES OMG
username172 id sell my left kidney to know
username173 THE AESHETIC. MOTHER Y/N ATEEE (i know ollie posted them but y/n clearly had a say in the photos)
kimi.antonelli these pictures are risky
olliebearman okay?
pepemartiofficial hes feeling scandalous
olliebearman pepe can you shut up
pepemartiofficial no
olliebearman figured
username174 on my fucking knees for them
yourusernameyou look so cute omgg
olliebearman you're cuter
yourusername impossible
olliebearman i put the possible in impossible
yourusername can't even defend you on that
username175 didnt expect them to be so cheesy
username176 id die and come back just to experience these photos
username177 our king is gaining fame dni
username178 is it bad that im making heart eyes at them
username179 totally not, i too am making heart eyes at y/n l/n and ollie bearman
username180 my beloved barcelona girl and her london boy

yourusername has posted three new stories !
caption 1: back to BCN // caption 2: don't tell loverboy abt this // caption 3: 🤍🤍
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to be continued....?

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ME AND MY HUSBAND (QUINN HUGHES)
summary: while doing press for your new movie, you call quinn your husband despite now being married.
warnings: y/n mentioned :/
an: thank you for all the support on my sidney crosby fic!! also this is a completely random movie that i came up with so yeah lol

“Is that a Sofia Coppola pin?” You pointed to the lanyard the woman, Lucy, who was going to interview you and your co-star, Ralph Fiennes, had around her neck.
“Yes! She’s my favorite director.” Lucy mentioned before the interview started.
“Mine is Spike Jonze. . .” You said quietly as Lucy gasped dramatically. “But I love Sofia as well. My husband and I watched ‘Lost In Translation’ two weeks ago and then we started ‘The Virgin Suicides’ but I believe we got halfway before he fell asleep.”
It came out of your mouth so naturally. Ralph knew whenever you said ‘my husband’ you weren’t actually talking about your husband, but rather your boyfriend of many years. Quinn had met Ralph on your first day of filming and teased that he wanted to see a ring on your finger as soon as possible, as if he was your dad.
Lucy heard you mention your husband, but didn’t want to push you to talk about your ‘marriage’. She was here to talk about your new movie.
But some people took the video clip and started their own theories.
‘Did quinn and y/n break up?’
‘She moved on too quickly if they did break up’
‘NOOOO MY WIFE IS MARRIED TO A MAN’
‘So when the fuck did they get married?😭’
It didn’t take long for you or Quinn to hear about the internet’s theories about your relationship. You found some of the comments funny.
“Listen to this one . . You’re telling me quinn and y/n got married and not one photo was leaked by either of his brothers?” You laughed as you showed Quinn the tweet on your phone.
“That would be such a Luke move.” Quinn chuckled.
“You think Luke would leak our wedding on social media? That screams Jack!” You reply.
“No, it’s definitely Luke.” He corrected.
“Babe, I love you but you’re so wrong. Jack would do it.”
“Jack would do what?”
Quinn and you turned towards the new voice, which was Jack, Luke right behind him with a bag of snacks.
“You would leak our wedding pictures on social media.” You say casually as you get up from the couch and walk towards the kitchen of the lake house to get a water bottle.
“Me? That sounds like Lukey boy over here.” Jack poked Luke’s side as he walked into the kitchen as well.
“That’s what I said!” Quinn yelled from the couch.
“Well you’re both wrong because it wouldn’t be me, it would be Jack.” Luke corrected. He then started passing out snacks to you and his brothers. You gave a quick ‘thank you’ to Luke when he gave you your favorite chips.
“Wait, why are we talking about wedding stuff? Are you two actually married and forgot to invite us?” Jack wondered, hopping on top of the kitchen counter.
“No, we were just looking at tweets. Ever since I said my husband, the internet thinks we actually got married,” You explain. “Which people who are still dating do all the time!”
“Yeah except you two are like the internet’s favorite couple. You’re like princess diana and her husband.” Luke spoke.
“Her husband? You mean Prince Charles?” You couldn’t help but giggle at his choice of words.
“Yeah that guy.”
“You do know he cheated on Diana, right? And when he was asked if him and Diana were in love, he said ‘whatever in love means’, and—”
“Okay! So I chose the wrong guy to compare Quinn to, sorry!” Luke held his hand up in defense. “But my point still stands, you’re princess Diana so obviously it’s going to be a big deal if you keep saying my husband when you talk about Quinn.”
“Firstly, thank you for calling me the people’s princess, Lukey, that was really kind of you,” You smiled. “Secondly, I’m practicing for when I’m actually married. Quinn isn’t getting rid of me that easily.” You said as you walked back to the couch.
“If I ever say ‘let’s break up’ that isn’t me.” Quinn grabbed you by your waist and placed you on his lap.
“Disgusting,” Jack started to gag loudly as Quinn layed you down properly on the couch. “Oh come on! People sit there!” He had enough of the scene that was going on in front of him so he and Luke exited the kitchen quickly.
“Maybe we should get married, you know, finally make you my wife. I did promise you in chemistry class that i was going to marry you. Remember?” Quinn flipped you over so now you were on top of him, laying your head on his chest.
“Yeah. You even promised we would have red velvet cake even though you think it’s just chocolate cake dyed red.” Red velvet cake is your favorite. While Quinn thinks it’s just chocolate cake in disguise, teenage Quinn promised red velvet at your wedding.
“And our cake will be red velvet.” Quinn kissed the top of your head.
“I’m so excited for our day.” It didn’t take long for you to fall asleep in Quinn’s arms. Thankfully you didn’t feel the small box in Quinn’s pocket.
#mazzy’s works ੈ✩‧₊˚#quinn hughes#quinn hughes x reader#quinn hughes imagine#quinn hughes one shot#quinn hughes fanfiction#quinn hughes fic#qh43#nhl one shot#nhl x reader#nhl imagine#nhl fic
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answering for my own gg dr (as that’s the dr i’m most into atm hehe!):
1. my headphones, my lip balm and any form of sunscreen or setting spray. i like to listen to music pretty much all the time n feel good, so i need these items on me regardless of where i’m going lol
2. any ethel cain song. alike this reality, i’m a big daughter of cain in my dr too, and my fans are VERY aware of this fact haha. but in my gg dr i’m strangely - or, not so strangely cuz i go on about it and play it every live - associated with artificial love by exo! bro even non-fans know me from this song LMFAO
3. i love love to write! whether it’s lyrics for any upcoming songs or drafts for potential songs for other artists, it’s writing stories or journaling. fun fact, writing was actually the reason i’m an idol n in my current situation as a gg member. i went over for lessons after i finished school in england, and ended up in auditions lolllll. i also crochet and paint!
4. hmm.. i don’t really have any favourites. but my members n i visited busan one summer when we all had a week off. best trip ever. it was heaven and the weather didn’t disappoint either. we ate good food and rested - so i’d say even though it wasn’t a holiday, it comes very close to the ideal example for me.
5. i’m an idol!!! so i sing and dance and entertain and get to do it all with my girls. there are five of us, four born in 2001 (including me) and our maknae was born a month - though in another year - after the second youngest in 2002. i really enjoy it - sometimes it’s hard and i defo have moments of questioning my life choices, but i wouldn’t give it up for the world.
6. my youngie. ateez’s wooyoung. most of my friends are idols too - we don’t have much choice LOL, we’re so busy we don’t often see ppl outside of our work environment - but i consider woo as my closest ride-or-die friend. it helps we’re in the same company so we ALWAYS end up passing each other in the hallways or i just see him in general. i love that man he’s super funny n loves crazy hard, like wears his heart on his sleeve kind of crazy. but i would die for him end of
7. defo a night person. bro those days when schedules r SUPER early fucking SUUUCK. we’re up for like 4am - sometimes earlier - but you bet i will be in our car falling asleep. but do i wake up before we get to the shooting site??? yes i do. baddie shit. but no i am awful in the mornings gah DAMN 😭😭😭
8. i’m very similar in this reality, but i LOVE cats. hence why my entire group is literally based around the concept of felines. theyre so cute and the purring????? take me to HEAVEN! we have a few cats in our dorm room (which are cared for btw…) but you wouldn’t believe how hard i had to work to get these higher up mfs to allow us that privilege. lost A LOT of my dignity but was it worth it? 100%. love my furry friends!!
9. now. look. i have my days which i’m both, and i have my days i’m one or the other. but according to the 16 personalities quiz they had me take to put on my k profile, i’m apparently an enfj-t. so do with that what you will 🩷 . but around my crush???? ho i’m an introvert. sorry, i meant INTROVERT. i am like a little mouse i let him do all the talking LOLLLL
10. yes! i have one little sister called naciri. she was born in 2012 and surprisingly her and wooyoung’s little brother kyungmin get along well, despite their age differences. i dunno when that happened or HOW it happened… but i’m not complaining.
11. uh… i actually cannot describe this one. my fashion sense depends on the day n the mood. usually i tend to lean for baggier clothes, especially on days when it’s more humid. but honestly it’s a mix n match of many different styles and whatever feels best to me when i wake up HAH
12. hmm. i don’t know if i have one. maybe just any nostalgic childhood films? i dunno yo 😭
13. oh lawwwd. here she goes. so… yes i do have a crush. bro this is so EMBARRASSING. ok so basically when i came to korea to start training, the trainees would eventually bump into the ateez boys as the building is not as big as fuckin hybe and obviously the boys want to meet new people joining the company. but whatever. so i met yunho and bro he’s so FINEEEEEE. i literally had to bite my tongue to stop myself from blushing - he was so tall and sweet and bubbly. so i… kinda… fell for him.
we never interacted tho really. he was super busy with comebacks and schedules / tour so when i did see him i was internally like oh my god oh my god oh my god oh my god. LMFAO. i genuinely love that man. but will i ever confess?? idk. wooyoung knows tho so no doubt he’ll find out eventually. pls pray for me the day that happens…
14. i’m a virgo!! earth signs on tawwp
15. any savoury korean snack. they’re super yummy and light to just settle cravings. food in korea is so sweet 😭😭😭 even the savoury food like bread is sweet. so whenever you come across something savoury… bro you savour that shit no pun intended
16. ON GOD YES. we’re always in a damn car or plane or any transportation device depending on where we’re going. for mvs we tend to travel overseas for shooting, so we became very familiar with the airport hahaha. but i scripted that earth is safe / healthy and public transport doesn’t affect the planet in anyway… so i can actually enjoy travelling. but yes, we travel a LOT.
17. i can play the piano and a little guitar. i mainly use the computer / mixing, so i haven’t had much practice but trust 🤞🏼 i will get better.
18. i have a few. obviously my members - but they’re more like family to me than friends, so i don’t really count them as they’re bordering sisters than a friendship (we passed that years agoooo). but my wooyoung is #1. that’s my soulmate. i’m super close with yeonjun of txt and theo of p1h, but chanty of lapillus and nvee of black swan too. i’m super picky with friends so it’s just a random combo of ppl 😭
19. i scripted i’m not a picky eater, so there’s nothing really i won’t eat. i’m just not particularly a fan of seafood. love meat, but seafood… doesn’t do it for me i’m afraid.
20. my name is navara lee. i was born and raised in england and ‘lee’ is a pretty popular name (both first n last) here. just so happens to be a korean last name as well… which made things a lot easier regarding pronunciation :)
21. i have less of a sweet tooth in korea than i do when i’m back home. everything in korea is sweet as fuck so i often don’t find myself wanting anything sweet - but when i’m back home???? i’m in the chocolate aisle ALL THE TIME. dude, english chocolate is just… goated
22. hmm.. vara is the main one. hence why it’s my stage name and the name i go by now. when someone calls me navara i’m like… am i in trouble? what did i do? but i do find it endearing when ppl call me my full name i wont lie :’) navi is a big one too. dunno how that’s spelt but that’s how they say it so
23. when ppl assume things without the facts to back up their claim. like? god forbid ppl make eye contact with someone else and suddenly there are dating rumours flying around?? the amount of dating scandals i’ve been in because i’m social and a yapper is INSANE. i’ve been in them with the ateez boys too. but they’re never yunho… like youse r doing after the wrong guy!!!!!
24. we have cats in our dorm but they’re not really mine. my members n i all collectively own them n picked them out together so. i dont know where to stand with that one
25. honestly… both. i’m difficult i know, i’m sorry! i just love to party but i also love to sit in and watch a film. again, depends on my mood. i’ve walked out of parties before to go home, but i’ve also walked out of my dorm to go partying. it be your own state of mind 🤷🏻♀️
hope u enjoyed reading!
QUESTIONS TO ANSWER AS YOUR 𝒟R 𝒮ELF ✸

ib this post from @zaddizu & heavily ib premiumbitch ★
#1. what are 3 items you can’t live without?
#2. favorite song?
#3. what are your hobbies?
#4. favorite holiday?
#5. what do you do for a living?
#6. who is someone you always hangout with?
#7. are you a night person or a morning person?
#8. favorite animal?
#9. introvert or extrovert?
#10. do you have siblings?
#11. how do you dress?
#12. favorite movie / tv show?
#13. do you have a crush / significant other?
#14. what’s your zodiac sign?
#15. what’s your favorite snack?
#16. do you travel a lot?
#17. do you play instruments?
#18. who is your best friend?
#19. least favorite food?
#20. what’s your name?
#21. do you have a sweet tooth?
#22. nicknames your family or friends call you?
#23. what is something that annoys you?
#24. do you have a pet?
#25. do you prefer going out or staying at home?
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ᰔ Arcane Modern Au: 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚘𝚗𝚜
—Sevika, pt1
Just some random and silly shit cause this woman is way more hilarious than she seems to me

She doesn’t trust banks. She always has cash on her. She has a credit card but won’t use it and she’ll only buy things in store. Online ? She’ll ask you to order it for her after she hands you money in cash for the price of what she needs on the website so you won’t actually pay for it yourself.
You like using voice assistants like ChatGPT, Siri or Alexa bc it’s like way faster and easy ? Well, she doesn’t. She doesn’t trust this shi either. She thinks -no, she’s convinced- they’re spying on her. But this bitch so lazy to look things up on google she’ll ask you questions instead like you have every answer she needs. And you answer every time, after looking up on google yourself.
She does own a smart speaker but only uses it to play exactly three albums on repeat—
She’s banned from most casino she’s been to. She won’t say why.
Now every time you drive past a casino, Sevika puts her hoodie up and slouches in the seat like they’re being tailed by the FBI??? You’ll never know why and it’s SCARY
Labubus are the ugliest plushies she’s ever seen in her entire life. When you tell her proudly your new one is a limited edition and people pay hundreds for these, she’s SCANDALIZED.
One time you put your labubu on her pillow at night as a joke and just stood in the hallway like: “I’m not sleeping with that shit breathing in the room.” She swears it can blink when you’re not in the same room.
Her apartment is in an industrial style with brick walls and black furnitures, a few very realistic plastic plants cause “she doesn’t take responsibility”. One of em has a name, she talks to it sometimes when no one’s looking. She accidentally made it aesthetic and when you tell her she just rolls her eyes.
She also has a really comfortable couch in any case the bed is too far away when she comes home drunk at 2AM. She calls it a second bed.
If you don’t remind her to drink water she’ll run on black coffee and energy drinks if not alcohol.
She does actually give a fuck about clothes. Girl walks around like she just rolled out of bed and into a knife fight but everything she wears is suspiciously coordinated. Her wardrobe has a color palette, she has diff kind of boots, and she loves layering her clothes— like shirts over tanks, hoodies under jackets. She would call it all a “coincidence”.
That’s all for today that was hilarious I’ll soon make an other part cause I have others ideas 😭
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girlie literally anything juju.. i feel like it’s been so slow recently 😭
honestly just like lovesick ju, like i’m talkin sick to my stomach sweet. like she thinks she’s so nonchalant i swear but she’s really just in love
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i understand you baby omg:( i apologize for how late i got to this ask, but i’m here now! the following requests i have are actually juju reqs so i’ll see how fast i can get those out hehe. lovesick ju… nonnie, i love those words together. let me give you my thoughts on that:
sol tots . . .
thinking about a juju so lovesick you lowkey can’t help but find it funny. i mean, not that she’d realize she’s lovesick. she loves you, don’t get her wrong, but in her own words: she’s just not with that sappy stuff. she’s nonchalant. completely and utterly NOT fucking with that ‘loudly inlove couple’ shit. “I just don’t get them, you know,” she’d rant to you, her head in your lap as she snuggled into her little blanket. “like, why you trying so hard to show people you’re inlove?? like… just drop that—” she’d continue, before scooching in closer so she can put her face in your tummy. “I don’t think couples try hard when they’re inlove, honey,” you murmur, looking down at her to find her already looking up at you with big eyes that say ‘imlisteningtoyoubutlikenottoanyofthewordsyousay’.
she’s in denial, and you understand that, but it’s funny that she thinks shes nonchalant, especially in moments like… now. you’re out and about, it’s a homegame, and juju’s the talk of the court. By out and about, you mean you’re currently in juju’s lap. by juju being the talk of the court, you mean that everyone’s talking about how she hasn’t stood up for a good hour despite you trying to get up. Her bun is done, her lashes are fabulous, she looks good and she’s prepared but she just… isn’t standing up. she isn’t even on her own phone. her chin is resting on your shoulder and she is watching you scroll through tiktoks. you’ve been trying, every once in a while, to get up. “there are too many eyes,” you try to tell her— “I thought you weren’t with that sappy stuff”. she blinks. then she pulls you in tighter. “this isn’t sappy. i’m literally just holding you. stop trying to escape.”
“juju, you have warmups in thirty minutes.”
“oh my goodness, you’re right.” She says, completely uninterested, still looking at your phone screen.
“you can’t be going out on the court with numb legs.” you try.
“oh my goodness. you’re right.” she says, again. actively not listening.
“juju—” you sigh, exasperated. at your tone, juju’s eyes widen slightly and she frowns—as if any sign of frustration from you is a sign of failure for her.
“are you mad at me? i’m sorry.” she’s quiet this time, snuggling deeper into your shoulder. “i’m sooorry…”
“juju, I’m not mad. you just need to prepare.”
“but you haven’t called me it yet. i need you to call me it for luck.” she murmurs. you raise an eyebrow because in no world do you recall ever calling juju anything that brings her luck. or, atleast not intentionally.
“call you what, juju?” At the repetition of her name, she recoils and that frown turns into a pout and she says, in a tone that is genuinely fearful, “oh my god, bro, are you mad at me?”
“what, no? ju, why would I be mad—“
her grip on you gets tighter.
“you ain’t call me baby yet!”
a pause.
“what?”
“baby.”
“no, I know what you just said but… what?”
“what?” she repeats.
“you think … i’m mad at you because I haven’t called you baby?” You clarified, and she nodded slowly with your words, her hands around your waist caging you impossibly tighter. she was so cute, so sweet, and so ridiculous you immediately softened up.
“baby…” you cooed, placing a hand on her cheek, to which she immediately melted into.
“mhmmm….” juju hummed, eyes fluttering closed as she leaned into you even more, her body instantly relaxing. she immediately slumped into you, and you couldn’t help but go ‘awww’ at her current state. thirty minutes before warmups, and you were in judea ‘juju’ watkins’ lap being used as a makeshift stuffy for an impromptu nap that unfortunately, you couldn’t let her have. “baby, you need to get ready for warm ups.” You whispered, leaning in close— resting the back of your head against her shoulder as she whined. “noooo….”
“yeeessss…”
“noooo…”
“yeeeessss….”
“noooo…”
“….noooo—“
“yesss…. wait—” upon falling for your trick, juju closed her mouth immediately—her pout coming back tenfold.
“exactly, baby. yes.” you grinned victoriously, watching as she looked up at you with the dreaded puppy eyes of defeat.
at that, juju just shook her head. “i don’t wanna.”
“why not, baby?”
“I haven’t gotten my kisses yet.” judea watkins, one of the most influential women of basketball, said. “It’s not worth it if I don’t get my kisses.” she explained, before puckering her lips up and leaning in. you laughed, your eyes crinkling at the sides as hers furrowed—you dodged her kiss!!!!
“you’re such a sappy little shit.” you giggled, shoulders shaking as she gasped, defending herself amidst your giggling, “i’m not! no, shut up— i am not! just give me my kiss, bro!”
so yeah, thinking about how juju is definitely lovesick.
and how it shows without her even realizing.
even without her begging for your kisses, her love for you showed in the way she looked to you for approval before every decision because there was no other opinion as valuable in the way yours was. her love for you shows in the way she looks for you first in every room, and how she always finds you so fast because you’re all she sees most of the time. her love for you is in the quiet, in the silence that comes when the two of you are together because you just need to look up at her to understand what she wants of you—and her love for you is in every time she swipes her card for something you so much as look at because, and i quote: ‘you are not walking ‘round without a reminder you’re spoken for’.
juju’s love sick, sitting in that illness with no complaints; infact, she’s drunk in it. drunk in you. she’s drowning in you.
she does not want to be pulled out.
@likelysobbing.
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Studbudz. One Mic. No Boundaries
Natisha Hiedeman x Fem!Reader


MASTERLIST | MORE | Part 1, Part 2, Part 3
Summary: Back home. Back on stream. But this time, it’s Court who invites you, claiming she wants to host a “very legitimate and highly professional” interview segment. Lies.
Genre:Comedy, WLW, stud x stud, livestream chaos, playful sexual tension, fake professionalism
Warnings: Suggestive content, strong flirtation, unhinged questions, dominant switch dynamics, reader getting bullied (lovingly), Court instigating at Olympic level, T encouraging it quietly
Word Count ~ 1.5k

Stream starts smooth. Camera on. Lights vibin. T’s got on some chill grey sweats and a white tee, hair fresh and sharp like she just got lined up 3 hours ago. She sitting back in the chair, sipping something icy. Not saying much.
Court as usual look like she up to no good.
“Alright y’all, today we got a very professional, totally unprovocative stream. Special guest in the building,” she says, pointing the camera toward me.
I raise an eyebrow. “Why I feel like I just walked into a trap?” T grins. That calm, smug, dangerous grin like she been waiting to watch me get set up.
“Nah nah,” Court says, trying to play innocent. “This a journalistic interview. I’m askin hard-hitting questions.” I glance at the chat.
“Last stream still trending on TikTok”
“HELP”
“T is smirking like she KNOWS she the problem”
“I want what they have but I’m scared of it too”
Court claps her hands. “So first question. Who freakier?” T actually chokes. Not a cough. A choke.
“Bro,” I say, deadpan.
“It’s for the fans,” Court says, fake serious. “They deserve to know.”
I blink at the camera. “Well it’s not me. I’m shy.”
T laughs behind her cup. Quiet. Knowing.
“She lyin,” she mutters.
Court’s eyes go wide. “EXCUSE ME??”
T sits up a little. “She lyin. She bold on stream but—”
I cut her off. “Don’t you dare.”
T tilts her head. “Don’t I dare, what?”
Court is slapping the desk. “Y’all are so unserious. Y’all really be play-fighting in public then doing demon time behind closed doors.”
I hold up a hand. “Listen. Im not freaky..but im damn sure not a bottom.”
“nah cause that was unprovoked”
“she said that with her chest 😭”
“T just blinkin slow like prove it then”
“WHO THE TOP THEN???”
I side-eye T. “Tell em.”
T lifts her chin, licks her lips once like I’m lying. “We don’t do labels.”
Court walks off camera screaming. I cover my face. “Bro I’m logging off.”
I point at T, still flustered. “You see her? This is proper light skin behavior. The ultimate light skin. Blue eyes. Pretty ass smirk. Always actin chill like she don’t be causing permanent damage.”
T shrugs like it’s true. Like she been told that before.
Court leans into the camera. “She said ’the ultimate light skin’ like she a rare Pokémon card.”
I sigh. “She is. I pulled the rarest one. Limited edition. Don’t even drop til next year.”
T starts smirking again, then softly says, “I’m keepin that.”
I pause. “Huh?”
She shrugs, all calm. “The way you talk about me. I’m keepin that.”
“My chest hurt”
“They not just in love—they in danger”
“Court is the only thing keeping them from fucking each other on live”
Court clears her throat. “Next question.”
I give her the side eye. “Please make it smart.”
She puts on a fake news anchor voice. “Who more likely to go to jail?” Me and T both point at each other.
T says, “She too impulsive.”
I say, “She too calm. She the one they find smilin in mugshots like she earned it.”
Court nods. “Both of y’all are a danger. If y’all ever jumped somebody? That’s a lawsuit. Easy.”
I lean forward toward the mic. “Tag-team your girl. Stay safe.”
T laughs again—quiet, pleased. She’s been watching me this whole time like she’s entertained and turned on. Like this is foreplay to her. That soft lil stare, the relaxed posture, but the way her hand rests on my leg under the desk?
Yeah. She got me. And she knows she got me.
Court don’t miss it either. She eyes us, sighs. “I feel like the only reason y’all not kissing right now is cause Twitch would flag it as a hazard.”
I sit back, cross my arms. “We chillin.”
“Y’all so tense it’s romantic”
“What does ‘for now’ MEAN.”
“Court is babysitting lesbians with tension stronger than my ex’s lies”

The “interview” finally wraps up. Court talking about “thank you for coming” like she ain’t just grilled me about who’s freakier and who eat more snacks in bed.
I fake stretch, standing up, brushing lint off my hoodie. “That was a real journalistic masterpiece, Court. Pulitizer’s on the way.”
She snorts. “Next time bring a lawyer.”
T’s still sitting, leaned back in her chair, hoodie collar loose, looking up at me like I’m dinner and she not on camera. And that’s her problem. She got the nerve to be glowing. Blue eyes doing that sparkle thing. Bottom lip just there. All soft and tempting.
I pause. Eyes on her. Walk up.
“You look good today,” I say casually, as if I ain’t been mentally biting her this whole time.
She squints up at me like, “You just now noticing?”
I laugh. “Nah. I just wanted to be respectful for five seconds.”
Then I bend down, grip her jaw all soft, thumb on her chin, and tilt her head just slightly.
Court: “AYO—” Quick peck. Just one. Sweet. Clean. Just a little heat behind it.
“Alright, y’all,” I say to the camera. “Be easy.” T watches me walk toward the door. Still hasn’t moved.
But then—before I’m fully gone—I double back. Come right back in with a bag of sour straws I clearly raided from the kitchen. Pop one in my mouth and lean against the frame. “You need anything, baby?”
T eyes the bag. “Yeah. A piece of that.”
I smirk. “You the type to get cavities. So no.”
Court SCREAMS.
T: “Wow.”
I blow her a kiss. “Love you.”
Court, still on: “This is marriage.”

The stream’s still going. Courtney’s in full “conspiracy theory auntie” mode, talking about moon landings and whether dreams mean we astral project when we sleep.
T? Gone. Disappeared after saying she had to “check on something real quick.” Camera’s still up, chat still hot, but her chair’s empty and she ain’t said a word since.
I’m in her bed. Leg propped up. Bag of her sour straws on my chest. Hoodie half unzipped and rolled into the blanket like I live there. Which… I basically do.
I hear the door creak open real soft and look up.
She walks in, quiet. Fresh fade, teeth peeking out in a small smile like she tryna hide it. Hoodie sleeves pushed up. Her whole aura giving, “You gon behave or make me act up?” But she don’t say nothing at first. Just stands there.
I smirk. “T.”
She raises a brow, leans against the wall like she didn’t just sneak off mid-stream for me.
“Come here.”
She shakes her head. “Nah.”
“Bae. Come on.”
She crosses her arms. “I ain’t doin all that.”
I sit up more, pat the space beside me. “Who gon know? Stream can’t see you.”
“I’ll know.”
“Girl, you in your own house,” I laugh, tossing a sour straw at her that misses completely. “And I’m in your bed. Rubbin my legs together like a damn cricket. You really gon stand there?”
She looks up like she’s praying for strength. Then back at me.
“You just want me to come over so you can touch my no no square”
“Girl shut up I’m just tryna cuddle, and we Grown. ” I say, lying like a sinner in church.
She laughs once under her breath, but she don’t move. So I try again. Real soft this time. Just enough to crack her.
“Come on… I had to be good all stream. Can’t even look at you too long without twitch actin up. I just wanna lay with you.”
Her head drops. Shoulders drop. She walks over slow like I just summoned her. And when she gets close, she doesn’t sit on me. She just kneels by the edge of the bed, arms folded over the mattress, chin resting on her arms.
I brush her hairline with my thumb. “You so fine it don’t make no sense.” She closes her eyes for a second. Smiling now.
“You lucky I like you,” she says, low. “Cause I really left Court hanging.”
I chuckle, leaning closer, lips near her ear. “You like me a lot.”
“Mmhmm.”
“You gone let me…or what?”
She still doesn’t answer. Just tilts her head and kisses my shoulder—slow, like she ain’t in no rush. Then my neck. Then the corner of my mouth.
But she still kneeling. Still acting like she not allowed to fully fold. I sigh, dragging a hand down her cheek. “So you just gon love me from the floor like a Disney villain?”
She smiles against my skin. “I’m tryna be respectful.”
I kiss her back, real light. “And I’m tryna be irresponsible. Come here, baby.”
Finally, finally, she climbs in—next to me, not on me, but close enough that our legs tangle. Her fingers find the hem of my hoodie. Her other hand slides behind my head. The kiss we share now? Quiet. Intentional. Nothing for the cameras. Just us.
Just married vibes in a house full of secrets.
Court’s voice echoes faintly from the living room:
“I think T ran away, y’all. She got snatched off stream. Pray for her.”
We both laugh into each other’s mouths.
T whispers, “Let her pray.” And pulls me closer.

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𝙉𝙀𝙀𝘿 𝙏𝙊 𝙆𝙉𝙊𝙒 ― 𝑗. 𝑗𝑎𝑒ℎ𝑦𝑢𝑛
summary: after you tell a lie, there's no turning back, y/n doesn't know what to do now that she told the whole frat that she slept with the best boxer in college: jung jaehyun.
pairing: college boxer!jaehyun x student afab!reader
genre: strangers to friends w/ benefits to lovers, smut, angst (y/n is such a fool), college life.
wc: 27,4k
warnings: this fic is slightly inspired in manhwa peach sorbet. humor, cursing, breeding kink, fingering, blowjob, kissing, sex scenes in a nutshell💀, smoking, alcohol.
part ii here.
playlist: ✧ need to know ; doja cat ✧ tio ; zayn ✧ entertainer ; zayn ✧ common ; zayn ✧ rear view ; zayn ✧ you wish you knew ; zayn ✧ swim ; chase atlantic
notes: i hope you enjoy it and sorry for my bad english T-T english isn't my first language so pls forgive me if i had some grammar errors bc i'm still learning😁🙏 and yeah i love zayn 😭

“being a virgin in high school isn’t a big deal, y/n” that’s what your friend, kang saeran said, at that moment she was a virgin as well, but once both of you graduated, she slept with her boyfriend. damn liar. you thought because nowadays you were in your sophomore year in college and still nothing of action.
yeah, you had some boyfriends in the past, but never took the next step and had sex, maybe because you were afraid or because you thought that you wanted to be a virgin until you got married to the man you loved… how wrong you were.
none of your childhood friends went to the same college as you. that feels like starting from zero again. as a birthday present, your parents rented a small room for you close to the college, so you can become more independent and have your own space and avoid all the troubles with the roomies at the college sorority.
at some point, you were excited, because you started to imagine all the privacy you would have and that meant one thing; have sex whenever you like. but the sad reality was other, you were always busy with school tasks and barely had time to hang out with friends, also add that you just went on some dates but nothing else. It’s like men weren’t interested in you in a sexual way, even in a romantic way. but, come on! you were pretty, funny, and have great music taste, what the hell is wrong with them then?
“when did you lose your virginity, y/n?” you almost choked with your bubble tea when jinsol asked that without any filter, as if it were anything at all, maybe it was for her, but you… damn, you were a fucking virgin as hell.
“perhaps she’s a virgin” jungeun mutters and giggled, you gave her a dirty look.
“shut up, and nope, i’m not a virgin.” you lied, staring at your friend with confidence in your eyes, you thought your performance was too good because both girls looked at you expectantly for you to continue with your revelation. “was with my ex-boyfriend from high school, we had sex after the graduation party, on the couch at his parents' house” jinsol frowned and jungeun couldn't help but let out a laugh, although she tried to cover her mouth when jinsol nudged her, sorry, she said biting her lips as if she was avoiding at all costs not to laugh at you.
“wow… too much information if i can tell…” it was what jinsol said, on the inside, you were dying of shame, why should you have stuck your tongue out and said that? besides, you were unintentionally exposing how kang saeran lost her virginity. at least they didn't know her, so the ethics can be screwed if they want to.
“well… it’s the first time i've told you this so… i’m sorry if it sounds weird to you”
“it did” jungeun mocked of you once again.
“bitch, you’re starting to piss me off” you pointed your finger at jungeun in a threatening manner, maybe you were getting defensive, but you had to protect your secret from now on. "why don't you tell us how you lost your virginity?"
since then, you and your friends have talked little to nothing about her active sex life at the moment. now and then, jungeun tells them that she will go on a date with some random dude on tinder and won't return to the sorority until the next day. she doesn't care about the sanctions she receives. jinsol is a beauty in the social science department and most of the guys have a huge crush on her, however, she recently started dating qian kun, an exchange boy in the music department, while you, well, you are in good health and doing well in your studies.
summer days are coming and that means summer vacations, you could return to your parent’s house or maybe apply for a job near the college. today was friday and your first class started at 9:30 am, it's still early so you decided to make a little stop at Starbucks on your way to the college. you ordered the usual; iced mocha. you took a seat near the window while checking your instagram feed, behind you were sitting some girls from the same department as you, you recognized one of them as park sooyoung, one of the college goddesses, she was barely wearing makeup and still looked too beautiful, her lips were pigmented in a strong red that stood out with her milky skin. she was laughing with her friends, you didn't avoid paying attention to the other's conversation when you heard the word sex.
“is he really as good as they said? i heard he can last up to five rounds in bed”
“it was spectacular, have you heard that phrase that says “he would makes you see stars”? well, it was like that” sooyoung covered both cheeks realizing the blush that was appearing on her face. the other girls squealed and congratulated her.
“i heard about a rumor going around the frat that said that if you sleep with him, it’s 100% sure you’ll cum within five minutes” they squealed again and sooyoung kept nodding.
what you didn’t understand was, who the fuck are they talking about? thousands of images came to your mind, trying to give shape to the man they were describing, how prominent or spectacular he must be to have such abilities as if he were a god or something.
“i’m telling you girls, having sex with the leader of the boxing club was the best thing i could have done, besides, i would like to go out on a date with him, he’s not only good in bed, he’s also very attractive, at least i want to see him once again” that was what sooyoung said with a smile on her face, everything about her seemed to glow, is that the result of a good fuck?
you thought about the boxing club- you didn’t even know there was a boxing club at the college, to begin with, let alone know who the leader is, but he must be someone good-looking as the rumors said. you didn’t give the matter any more thought and headed to the college, straight to your first class.
but your mind wouldn’t leave you alone and started to imagine all the possible faces and bodies that could be assimilated by someone handsome knows how to fuck and who, undoubtedly, must have a good body because he’s a boxer. you wish for a moment you hadn’t listened to that conversation that had nothing to do with you. oh, you did. in the end, you would regret it, because that night, your friends would invite you to a frat party to celebrate the arrival of summer and when you had too much alcohol in your system, the others decided it was a great idea to play “truth or dare” with an empty soju bottle that was there.
it was the turn of taeyong from the psychology department to turn the bottle, at this point you felt too dizzy, however, you knew how to hide it very well, next to you was jinsol, who was muttering something that you couldn’t understand well, maybe she was saying you to go to sleep or go to the restroom to vomit.
you opened your eyes in surprise when the tip of the bottle pointed at you, taeyong’s corners rose wickedly, and everyone was waiting expectantly for his question, you knew he would say something stupid as was common, something silly to make fun of you. but, even in this state, you weren’t going to allow it.
“who was the last person you had sex with?” that felt like a bucket of cold water on you, everyone laughed at the question, as direct and blatant as lee taeyong.
“what kind of question is that, hyung? we were asking about our kinks” jungwoo tapped taeyong’s shoulder in a friendly manner as if he could feel the tension in the air from the question.
and the thing is, you hadn’t done anything wrong to taeyong to make him dislike you like that, you just refused to go on a date with him because he wasn’t your type and he kept bragging about how he had slept with all the girls in the department.
“what’s wrong? you won’t answer? of course! your only last time must have been when you lost your virginity on your in-laws’ couch, or so jungeun said” taeyong let out a cruel-sounding laugh, everyone was completely silent, he was starting to cross the line.
you quickly looked at jungeun, the only one capable of telling taeyong that, she was choking on her beer when taeyong revealed that. “i swear i didn’t tell him everything!” was her only excuse as she wiped it off the beer with the back of her hand. the feeling of disappointment and humiliation was starting to rise in your chest.
the others tried to defuse the heated moment, taeyong looked at you with victory in his eyes, as if he had achieved his goal. but you were too stubborn to leave it at that, so you firmly answered his question:
“since you are so interested to know, i slept with…” your mind was not thinking clearly, you barely knew how to formulate an understandable sentence, you looked around and felt that long minutes passed, and taeyong staring at you coldly with his jaw clenched and arms crossed over his chest denoting the annoyance.
“a member of the… boxing club” damn you and your damn obsession with using someone else’s testimonials to pass them off as your own.
everyone’s eyes widened, what you had said was unheard of, and the questions of who it is were not long in coming.
your gaze inadvertently fell on jungwoo, who was snacking on some of the fries on his left side. “jung…” you barely mumbled.
“jung?!” minkyung shouted out of nowhere as if she had hit the person you were talking about, but you just were inventing everything, wasn’t it? “you’re talking about jung Jaehyun?! oh my god, that man is so hot! you were keeping that secret well, y/n!” now all the girls were screaming around you, except jungeun and jinsol, who were looking at you dumbfounded. jinsol reacted quickly and congratulated you, although she didn’t know why she was doing it.
jung… who?
“are you… serious?” taeyong asked in a low voice, incredulous at your words. but when you nodded firmly, he licked his lips, thinking about how he could take more advantage of this situation. “well since you are so close to jaehyun, why don’t we invite him?” everyone innocently supported taeyong’s plan, as if they wanted to bring a couple together, but taeyong’s intentions were different. you bit your lips, holding in the anger that this motherfucker was provoking in you.
“do whatever you want, lee” when taeyong started to type jaehyun’s number on his phone, your heart started to race, you began to sweat and you didn’t know if it was the effects of alcohol or if you were just going to pass out from anxiety. taeyong had a nice conversation on the phone, it seemed that jaehyun was training and didn’t want to leave it just for a stupid party, as he said.
“come on, bro! we have a special guest here, i’m sure you want to see her” everyone started cheering. the line was silent until jaehyun said he would be here soon. fuck, he was just making things difficult.
the minutes went on forever and internally you wished he wouldn’t come through, but you could not chicken out, now you had to face thing as it was, also you had to figure out how you would keep your reputation after this, the most difficult thing was that you didn’t know jaehyun’s personality, apparently he is close to taeyong, what if he is just like him? you would certainly be done.
you heard the guests shouting as they announced jaehyun’s arrival, and you barely heard a deep voice complaining about making him come to a party in the middle of the night, you swallowed hard, and suddenly, the descriptions given by the girls at starbucks started to run through your head again.
god damn.
you were in big trouble.
no.
in a huge problem.
you were sitting on the ground when the huge figure of jung jaehyun landed in front of you, he frowned when you looked up to see him, god damn, his face was so beautiful, or maybe you were too drunk, but you looked into his dark eyes and you almost swore you were reflected in them.
his hair was falling over his face, he was wearing a loose sleeveless shirt showing his worked arms, his skin shone a bit, it must be the sweat from the training he was doing, underneath he only had black shorts revealing his strong legs, shit, you began to feel hot on your face from looking at him intensely.
damn, when you said you fucked someone from the boxing club you didn't expect they would bring a real person here just because you threw in a random name.
"hyung! why didn't you tell us that it was you who took away y/n's purity!” lee donghyuck put his arm around jaehyun's neck, but he didn't flinch. he just looked at you out of the corner of his eye, trying to understand what was going on, but without being too obvious.
"shut up haechan! didn't you hear that taeyong said that y/n lost her virginity a long time ago?" donghyuck was pushed by heejin, causing jaehyun to wriggle out of his grasp.
you could only close your eyes and swallow your shame, shit, how you wish you weren't there right now.
"why did you never tell us about this, y/n!" minkyung nudged you, very cheerful in her drunken state, but she only managed to plunge you further into embarrassment. the worst thing was that jaehyun looked annoyed with each passing minute.
"i didn't know you had high standards, y/n, it's amazing to know that jaehyun gave you a chance in his bed" when taeyong said that, something in you snapped, any hope of pride gone.
“h-hey jaehyun, I thought we'd never see each other again…” you said, completely nervous and shaking.
“must be a coincidence, y/n”
jaehyun gave you a smile that managed to send a chill through your whole body, even more so because of the tone he used when he said your name as if he had tasted it from his mouth before letting it out.
without warning, jaehyun wrapped you in his arms in a warm hug and it denoted a lot of confidence, but your body was rigid, you could barely react. the others yelled obscenities like go get to a room, but you only paid attention to what jaehyun whispered in your ear.
"okay, you will ask everyone to excuse you, but you have to leave with me, did you get it?"
as an automatic reaction you nodded, and once jaehyun separated from you his aura changed completely, now he smiled and his eyes turned half moons, two tender dimples appeared on his cheeks and you could look at his face for the first time with a dazzling smile from him.
“okay guys, thanks for inviting me, but i have to go, jaehyun will walk me home-”
"wow, you guys are going to fuck!" minhyung yelled out of nowhere, jinsol gave him a death glare and he gulped, realizing his mistake. "oh, I mean, they'll just walk home, yeah," he cleared his throat and scratched the back of his neck.
in an act of trust, you took jahyun's hand and intertwined it with yours, although the boy's body tensed, he hid it quite well, both of you left the building and the walk became awkward, neither of you was able to say anything while you moved away from the gaze of others, but you didn’t let go of each other's hands either. before going out into the dark, you noticed how jaehyun's knuckles were worn, and bruised with recent reddish wounds.
you led the way home without saying a word, the route was usually seven minutes, but this time you felt that your home was ten miles from the fraternity. once in front of the door of your home, you swallowed saliva, preparing yourself mentally and physically for the reverence in search of forgiveness from you and all the next generations.
“did you say that... you and I met and that... we had sex?” the slowness of his words was painful and humiliating, you stopped your walk, but you weren't able to turn to face jaehyun.
“please forgive me, i was too drunk, i know it's not an excuse, but at that moment... i just said the first thing that came to my mind, i didn't expect that there was someone with the name jung in the boxing club. i'm sorry, i got you involved in this lie, but if my friends and the whole frat find out i lied i’m all done, the truth is… i'm still a virgin, i've never slept with anyone and-...” you started talking so fast that jaehyun could barely understand everything you said, he chuckled because your speech was so random jaehyun didn't know how to feel right now, maybe used or just like a idiot that ruined your lie for being called jung and join the boxing club.
jaehyun was silent for a few moments, however, that was not uncomfortable, it was more like he understood your situation, even though you had dragged him into your lies, he listened to you carefully.
“if you want, i’ll say it didn’t happen” jaehyun whispered, bright darkness appeared in his eyes and his lips curved up in a strange smirk, he took a hand out of his pockets and brought it closer to your face, slowly caressing your cheek with his thumb, you didn't know if it was you or him who was burning in the heat. “but where’s the fun in that?”
the softness with which he caressed your cheek was intoxicating, due to the closeness you could smell his cologne and a faint of sweat, but it wasn't a bad thing for you in those moments, it felt so raw and intimate, god, you were in front of a real man. instinctively, you brought your face closer to him, tilting your head to try to reach him and you even stood on your toes, this only made jaehyun giggle, who saw it as something cute of you, there was no doubt that you were completely virgin.
with parted lips you asked for jaehyun to kiss you, so desperate for his touch and wondering what his saliva tastes like, your thoughts were rising as you felt jaehyun's breath on your face. and as if jaehyun read your thoughts, he kissed you slowly, you could only move your head to give him better access, your hands ended up on his chest where they squeezed his shirt hard and jaehyun's other hand landed on your neck, pushing you towards him.
his kiss increased when without warning, jaehyun pushed his tongue into your mouth, first licking your lower lip and then going all the way in, at first you were surprised, but it didn't take long for you to reciprocate and keep up with him. a heat was present in your crotch, and hot gasps left your mouth that was barely silenced by jung jaehyun's wild and intoxicating kisses.
god, you didn't want to stop, but the lack of oxygen was present in both of you, managing to separate for a few moments, jaehyun stared at you and you did too, it was as if his eyes were calling you to keep kissing him and how obedient a girl you were, you pushed your lips to his again, this time leading the rhythm and placing your arms around his neck, stroking with your fingertips the fade of his hair and the tips of his ears.
this time you felt jaehyun's hands slightly climb up your hips until they slipped under your blouse, you gasped at the contact of his cold hands touching your warm skin, at this moment you were letting yourself be carried away by hormones, you were not thinking correctly with your head, but you didn't care, you wanted to rub yourself against jaehyun's body to relieve the burning sensation in your crotch.
suddenly, the sound of a call coming in made you jump. jaehyun patted his front pocket and took his cell phone out, it was none other than lee taeyong, you rolled your eyes without jaehyun seeing you and he took the call.
"we're in front of her house, yah... calm down, i'm about to go back to the frat, we won't do anything tonight..." his words made your heart skip a beat, your cheeks turned redder than you thought they were already after the hot kissing session. jaehyun was going along with your lie and that was so... sneaky.
"i have to go, i don't want to have another penalty for leaving the rooms late" jaehyun took a deep breath and put both hands in his pockets as he watched you slowly search for the keys. you were kind of disappointed that it all ended like this tonight, being interrupted by that motherfucker.
"okay then, see you around...?" he said, with some doubt in his voice, you looked up and noticed a sparkle in his eyes. hope. as if it were a romantic movie, you dropped everything you had in your hands and you kiss his lips, a short and pure kiss, but full of feelings and desire, jaehyun could barely flinch because you quickly separated, when you turned embarrassed, a smile already decorated her reddish lips.
"thank you jaehyun"
"why do you thank me?"
"just because of everything..." you smile shyly, alcohol does have a strong effect on you. "see you later" you assured and that made jaehyun feel safe. your word was everything. soon you would see each other again.

a week later, you hadn't seen jaehyun near the college, even though you didn't want to be so obvious looking around for him, you always kept an eye on the crowd when you were walking around campus.
finally, the only thing you know about him is that he belongs to the boxing club, nothing else.
also, you don't know where the boxing club is.
would it be weird for you to ask for the location?
the uncomfortable questions from the people who attended the party that friday were all around you but ceased on tuesday when that topic was no longer new.
jinsol recommended you not see jaehyun anymore, when you questioned her why she simply said "there are many rumors around him, i don't want that to involve you" even though you tried to understand her, the word rumors, were very ambiguous; what other rumors will exist around Jung Jaehyun besides the ones you heard in the cafeteria?
otherwise, jungeun sent you a lot of messages apologizing to you for telling taeyong about your "closeness" and that she didn't expect you to have fucked jaehyun. well, it was a lie, but only he and you knew that.
you stopped thinking about everything that had happened in the last few days and focused on the strong pain you felt in your neck, it must be the stress, you thought. although the summer vacations were approaching and with it the end of the semester, you felt a bit pressured with the exams and final deliveries, yesterday you did nothing but study and now these were the results. you fondled the painful part and let out a small moan.
taking classes on saturdays, having body pain and the extreme heat was the perfect recipe to alter your mood, even though you were wearing a light button-down shirt and shorts you felt the sticky feeling on your skin beginning to upset you.
you decided to stop at starbuck's to buy something cold, as soon as you arrived at the establishment the air system greeted you, thank heavens the place was not so crowded and there were some empty tables, you thought if it would be a good idea to sit down for a bit to check the essay you were about to submit next week.
"hello welcome, may i take your order?"
"hi, i'd like a venti ice americano, please-"
"two venti ice americano, please."
you were interrupted when someone taller than you, perched on your right. it was none other than jung jaehyun, smiling warmly at the cafe worker with those beautiful dimples, you were dumbfounded, the woman typed the computer and confirmed the order, jaehyun in one brisk movement, pulled out the cash ready to pay for you.
"my treat, okay?" he said, how was it possible that he did everything so naturally? you could barely say anything, you merely mumbled a slight thank you, but he looked so comfortable around you that you didn't know what to do.
when your coffees were delivered, you sat down at a table in the back. strangely, you felt like a girl on her first date of a lifetime, your heart was pounding hard against your chest and your hands were sweating, no matter how hard you tried to wipe them against the fabric of your shorts it wasn't enough.
"thanks for the coffee, jaehyun" was all you managed to say, he squeaked and took a sip of his coffee.
"it's nothing" he shrugged his shoulders downplaying it, he shook his hair and you noticed light beads of sweat, surely he came from training or something. also, you saw that the wounds from his fists were still there, but not only that… the veins on his arm and hands were too marked, that image was so hot. you had never had any fixation with people's hands, but seeing jaehyun's hands made you change your mind and you couldn't think of them touching you, around your neck or on your… "y/n?" you jumped in place when you heard him call out to you. "are you okay? it seems your mind is occupied with something else" he recited as if he could read your thoughts, you swallowed saliva and quickly denied.
"it's not that, it's just… i'm a little stressed from school these days, i've barely been able to rest properly" your hand caressed the back of your neck, massaging it lightly. jaehyun's eyes carefully followed your every move without you noticing.
"i can tell, I've heard that the finance department is very strict and stern, isn't it?" wait a minute, how does he know which department you belong to? hearing that threw you off a bit and you couldn't help but ask him.
"how do you know I'm in the finance department?" jaehyun smiled as if he had been caught.
"well, i've heard a lot about you."
it only took a second for your face to change color. what could he have heard about you? you wanted to ask, but your throat closed up in that moment. you felt your body tremble from the thoughts growing in your mind. why was jaehyun suddenly so interested in you? was it because of the lie, perhaps? jaehyun might have noticed the change in your expression and let out a small laugh. that was all it took for all the embarrassment to drain from your body, making the atmosphere lighter and allowing your muscles to relax. without meaning to, you smiled too.
you realized how easy it was to talk to him. despite his attractive appearance, anyone would think he would be the typical arrogant guy for being part of a sports club and sleeping with many girls, but jung jaehyun was the complete opposite.
you kept bumping into things as your drink slowly dwindled, leaving only the ice cubes in sight. even though the conversation flowed naturally, you both knew you were skirting around the main issue, avoiding the heart of the matter. if only you hadn't been interrupted yesterday—what would have happened? would jaehyun have slept with you? so many questions, and a mix of fear about knowing the answers.
"do you mind if I walk you home? It's getting late" jaehyun suggested, swirling his glass in the air, causing the ice cubes to clink from side to side. you glanced at your own glass, now empty. you had both lost track of time. when jaehyun stood up, a strange feeling hit your stomach, and without thinking, you bit your lip. your house was close by, so you decided to play it cool and go along with whatever random topic he’d start talking about next.
on the way home, you couldn't stop thinking about what to do. would it be too cold to just walk inside and act like nothing’s happening? would it be too much to ask him to come inside with you? would he think you're too easy? you weren’t sure of the answers to the flood of questions swirling in your mind, but one thing was certain—you both felt the sexual tension. even when your shoulders brushed against each other, you could feel electricity shoot through your body with every tiny touch. jaehyun seemed calm, or at least that’s the image he was trying to project.
once you stood in front of your apartment door, jaehyun spoke: "I really enjoyed the conversation. rest well, y/n" jaehyun slipped his hands into his pockets and gave you a small, lopsided smile. "I hope next time we meet, you don’t act like a stranger." you parted your lips, searching for the right words. his face seemed like it was waiting for something more.
are you waiting for something more? you thought. it was hard to say goodbye now, and without hesitating, you said:
"hey, jaehyun, it’s saturday and it’s still early. why don’t you come in?" you rubbed your arm, trying to calm yourself, as your heart raced a mile a minute. the seconds you waited for his response felt like years. jaehyun's smile widened, and he nodded.
you opened the door and felt the warmth of your home welcoming you, while inside, your mind was spinning. I invited him. I actually did it. in reality, it was the first time you had brought a guy over—someone of the opposite sex, someone you were interested in.
and you were interested in him in the most sexual way possible.
"thanks for inviting me" jaehyun said with a grateful smile, showing off his adorable dimples. you weren’t sure if it was the whole situation, but even that innocent gesture sent a wave of heat through your body, especially between your legs. quickly, you took off your hoodie and tied your hair into a ponytail.
"it's been really hot today. do you mind if I take a quick shower?" you asked, waving your hands as if trying to cool yourself down. jaehyun raised an eyebrow, curious.
"go ahead, I’ll wait," he said, sitting down on the small sofa in your living room. you could feel two things pulsing: your heart and your vagina.
suddenly, the mood shifted, as your movements became a bit clumsy—like when you accidentally kicked the edge of the dining table, causing you to curse under your breath. when jaehyun moved closer to help, you quickly pushed his chest away. "I’m fine!" you repeated, not looking him in the eye.
"if it feels awkward, wouldn’t it be better if I leave?" jaehyun's voice was calm, trying to understand you. it was more than obvious that you were feeling uneasy about everything that had happened between the two of you, and he understood why the situation suddenly felt weird.
"n-no!" you quickly said, looking at him with concern. jaehyun stepped a little closer. "you don’t want to... do that?" your cheeks turned pink, and your gaze dropped to your feet, feeling truly embarrassed. jaehyun let out a small chuckle, realizing that, in fact, you were a complete virgin, acting like a high school girl.
"what’s so funny?" your cheeks puffed up, feeling both embarrassed and a little annoyed at the thought that jaehyun might be making fun of you.
"nothing, you’re just really cute,’ he said, lifting your chin to lock eyes with you. you could see the confidence in his gaze while you were a bundle of nerves and anxiety. "you’re really beautiful, y/n" his free hand now took yours, which was smaller than his, and that only turned jaehyun on even more. slowly, he walked back to the sofa and sat down, leaving you standing in front of him, your chest right in his view. "in any case, there’s no need to shower... you’re going to sweat again anyway." your face flushed even more, fully grasping the double meaning of his words, but your body jolted slightly as you felt jaehyun’s warm hands slide under your shirt, moving up to reveal your breasts, pushing your bra out of the way. you had to admit, the sight of jaehyun massaging your breasts was undeniably hot.
you were lost in his soft and exciting touch that you didn't notice when jaehyun caught your left nipple between his lips, the hot and wet sensation of his tongue making you gasp. the man's hands slid over your waist, pulling you closer to him, you were so fucking horny.
a new sensation made you jump as jaehyun grabbed the other nipple with his fingertips, rubbing it. you felt wetter and wetter, weaker and weaker, and if it weren't for jaehyun's strong arm holding you, you might have fallen at any moment.
you don't know how much time passed, but jaehyun switched to your other nipple, and you could see how the left one was shining with saliva and swollen... an image that made you even wetter and feel incredibly hot.
"let's go to bed" in an instant, he pulled your soft flesh out of his mouth, looking at you with lust-filled eyes, his lips swollen and shiny with saliva. though you were a little dizzy with excitement, you hadn’t realized how far things had gone. you were about to head to your bed—then what would happen?
before you knew it, you were already lying on your bed with jaehyun on top of you. you watched as he took off his shirt, revealing his well-toned body, worthy of someone who belonged to the boxing club. he tossed the shirt somewhere in the room and leaned down to kiss your lips with hunger and desire. obscene sounds escaped from his mouth, gasps and moans filling the room.
jaehyun's fingers reached your panties, pulling them aside to finally touch your most intimate place, and you opened your eyes in surprise.
‘it's really wet down here,’ he said with a smile on his face, slowly caressing you. his fingers slid over your flesh, from your clitoris to your labia. why did it feel so good? despite the intense sensation, you felt embarrassed, covering your face with both hands. ‘are you sure you've never done this before?’ jaehyun asked with a grin, as his fingers stroked you up and down."
“I told you that I have never—AGH!’ you couldn’t even finish the sentence because something entered your body. jaehyun had inserted one of his long fingers, which quickly began to move in and out. it was your first time, and the sensation was strange and a little painful; your face contorted and your body stiffened. you were so tight that it hurt, but soon your moans turned into pleasurable groans. was this the power of jung jaehyun that all the girls talked about? the feeling of someone else doing it was truly different; you would never have reached this level of excitement on your own. jaehyun added another finger, and the wet sounds echoed even more in the room. without warning, a knot formed in your stomach, and you knew something was about to happen, so you quickly grabbed jaehyun’s wrist, trying to stop him. “w-wait, ah! I f-feel... I feel something coming...’” as soon as you finished the sentence, a clear stream shot out, soaking the pink sheets of your bed. you let out a sweet moan that made jaehyun doubly hard. you closed your eyes, recovering from the incredible orgasm you had just experienced. when you opened them, you saw jaehyun’s proud expression and a large puddle in your crotch—again, the wet sheets. “but what the—! I just washed them this week!” you almost started crying because washing sheets is the worst. jaehyun just giggled. before you knew it, he was unzipping his pants and...
what he released from between his legs was not something ordinary. come on, you had never seen one in person, but this was nothing like what you had seen in porn pages or the images that strangers sent to your message inbox. this was simply huge in every sense of the word. how was it possible that it could fit inside you? the tip was pink, and veins started from the base of his abdomen, wrapping around it. it looked quite hard, and you could barely appreciate it before he began to roll a condom over it. where had he gotten it? who knows, but you couldn't stop thinking about the size. “what’s wrong, y/n?” obviously, your reaction had thrilled him, feeding his ego. “do you think it won’t fit?” one corner of his lips curled into a sly smile.
"are you challenging me? of course, bring it on!’ you said, feeling confident because y/n wasn't just any girl; you were a competitive girl, and this was nothing. you knew it would hurt at first, yes, but your hunger for sex was stronger, and you were sure that soon you would have that chunk of meat buried deep in your wet pussy.
"I like confident girls" jaehyun said, leaning his face closer to yours and licking his lips with lust as he took your legs, positioning himself between them. once he was nestled between you, he ran his hands over your captivating body. first, he gently took your shoulders, caressing them from top to bottom, then he traced his warm tongue along your neck, sending shivers throughout your body—especially in your swollen pussy. afterward, he massaged your breasts, which weren’t particularly big, and sometimes you felt insecure about that. however, seeing how perfectly they fit in jaehyun's hands made you feel so sexy. did jaehyun think the same?
how was it possible for him to be so good at this? his touch quickly left you weak and dizzy. was it because he had had a lot of sex before? that was clear; he was handsome, had a great body, and above all, he was well-endowed down there. no girl could resist.
"I’m going to put it in" he leaned closer to your face, and you felt his warm breath. that’s when you realized that what was about to enter you was something big, hard, and thick. maybe you shouldn’t have challenged him like that. perhaps just a little, you were starting to fear that the process would be too painful.
you clung to his arms as he slowly slid inside you. he caressed your cheek and whispered, "relax, don’t tense your body too much"
it was easy for him to say that, as he wasn’t the one being penetrated. however, he was incredibly gentle, even when he was fully inside you, your body stiffened. your head tilted back as you breathed quickly, trying to adjust to what had been inserted into you for the first time. "I won’t move until you feel ready, okay?" his nose brushed against yours in a compassionate gesture, and even that filled your heart. small tears gathered at the corners of your eyes, and it was jaehyun who gently wiped them away. "you’re doing so well, y/n."
despite the pain that ran through your body, your mind was focused on the pleasure that the situation was giving you: jaehyun’s naked body on top of you, jaehyun inside you, jaehyun with a blush on his face, jaehyun having sex with you. it was the only thing you could think about, and it only made you wetter. little by little, the pain faded, and suddenly you were begging him in a voice that betrayed your surrender, asking jaehyun to move.
then, the hard and fast thrusts came without hesitation. you could only focus on how your breasts bounced and how barely you could hold back your gasps of pleasure. jaehyun looked satisfied, seeing the sheer thrill on your face. you couldn’t think straight; you could barely keep your eyes open, and you weren’t sure how much longer you’d last, as you were getting wetter with each movement.
‘wow, you’re really soaked,’ jaehyun commented with a grin on his face, almost as if he were mocking your state. you didn’t even care; instead, you pulled him closer, clinging tightly to his body.
suddenly, your phone started ringing—someone was calling you. it was so unexpected, and jaehyun seemed to care about it as he paused and asked, ‘you should probably answer that.’ but before he could even reach for the phone, you grabbed his hand and guided it to your breast, whispering softly, ‘don’t stop, please,’ while biting your lip. you were close, you could feel it, and whoever was calling could go to hell right now.
this made jaehyun even more turned on. for a moment, he didn’t know how to react, but as your legs wrapped around him again, he could only smirk, proud of his bedroom skills, enough to have the ex-virgin begging him not to stop. he knew you were enchanting, but he didn’t know just how much. so, he grabbed your waist, lifting it to penetrate you deeper and faster. this technique made your moans even louder, filled with pure excitement. combined with the sounds of skin slapping, the creak of the bed, and jaehyun’s gasps, it all created a unique melody in the room.
“oh, i'm going to cum...” jaehyun warned as his movements became harder against your body, you felt the pounding hit hard against your hips and how his fingers were marked on your waist painfully, but all this combined only brought you closer to climax too and from one moment to the next you were untying the knot in your stomach through a sweet orgasm, giving a squeal as a result. jaehyun took off the full condom and looked at you on the bed, trying to catch your breath, your legs quivering with pleasure and your nipples still erect. there was no choice but to take another condom. “ready for round two?” he whispered in your ear.
although, you were processing how good your first time having sex had been, you didn't think you were completely ready for a second round, however, you couldn't resist against jaehyun, and without thinking, you ended up sweaty and exhausted after 4 more rounds.

it had been two weeks since that night with jaehyun—two long, chaotic weeks where everything seemed to fall apart piece by piece. a fire had broken out in an apartment two floors above yours, thick smoke swallowing the hallways, alarms screaming through the building. even though your place hadn't been damaged, the inspectors had evacuated everyone to assess the structure. you'd bounced from couch to couch, staying with friends for a night or two at most, but their living situations were tight—shared sorority houses, cramped apartments, boyfriends already occupying the only free space. now, you sat alone on a bench across from the university, phone in hand, scrolling aimlessly through your contacts, desperate for someone, anyone, to call. going back to your mother’s place wasn’t an option—you knew the arguments would start the second you walked through the door. you craved your independence, even if it meant being homeless for a few days. the problem was, you didn’t have the money for a hotel. not even close.
you look at jaehyun's contact for a second, you stop to think if it would be a good idea to call him, I mean, you barely know each other, you slept together once, would that be enough of an excuse for him to let you live with him for a while?
you don’t know what to expect when he answers. you’re clutching your phone like it might slip out of your hand from how fast your pulse is racing. and now, with your apartment unlivable, your options reduced to zero, you’re doing the last thing you wanted—calling him.
it rings. once. twice.
then you hear his voice, smooth and casual like nothing’s changed.
“hey. y/n?”
you swallow thickly, your voice trembling despite how much you try to sound fine.
“hi. i know it’s… late. and random. and maybe you don’t want to hear from me, but i didn’t know who else to call.”
there’s a pause, but it’s not uncomfortable. it’s quiet, like he’s listening closely.
“what’s wrong?”
you sigh, eyes stinging as the reality settles deeper into your chest.
“there was a fire in my building. the apartment above mine is completely destroyed, and the structure’s unsafe. they told me i can’t stay there. i don’t really… have anywhere to go right now.”
another pause. this one longer. you brace yourself for something like damn, that sucks or hope you figure it out.
instead, he says softly, “i’m at the pool hall with a couple of friends. you can come. we’ll talk here.”
you don’t know what to say to that, so you just whisper, “okay. send me the location.”
you arrive about thirty minutes later. the place is half-lit, old wooden floors scuffed from years of dragging chairs and boots, the smell of beer and smoke embedded into the walls. the second you step in, you spot him—jaehyun, in a black t-shirt that clings to his shoulders and jeans that do too much justice to his thighs. he’s bent over a table, lining up a shot, lips parted slightly in concentration. he looks good. too good.
when he notices you, his face relaxes. his body straightens. no hesitation.
he waves you over. “you made it.”
you nod, offering a small smile. “hi.”
“guys, this is y/n,” he says, turning to the two men beside him. ��yuta, taeyong.”
they both greet you, yuta with a mischievous glint in his eye and taeyong with something a little softer. polite, but unmistakably curious.
“nice to meet you,” yuta says, and you catch his eyes flicker down your outfit—tight jeans, fitted top, just casual enough to not scream i dressed up for someone, but still enough to make their jaws subtly tighten.
jaehyun sees it. you feel it in the way he stands a little closer to you.
“chill,” he tells them, easy but pointed. “she’s way out of your league.”
they laugh, pretending like they weren’t staring, and jaehyun turns back to you.
“want a beer?”
“sure.”
he brings one for you without asking what kind. cold glass touches your palm, and his fingers brush yours just a second longer than necessary. he doesn’t mention the call again. doesn’t ask you anything serious. just hands you a stick and nods at the table.
“you play?”
“twice. maybe. terribly.”
he grins. “that’s more than most.”
you play a few turns. he’s good. effortlessly good. you’re not, but you’re trying. then your turn comes up again, and you bend over to line up your shot. you don’t realize how far you’re leaning until you feel it—the air shifts. someone’s watching.
you glance sideways. yuta’s not even trying to hide the way he’s looking.
jaehyun clears his throat, sharp.
“dude. seriously?”
yuta looks away like a scolded child, taeyong biting back a smile.
jaehyun’s voice is low now, just for you. “you might want to bend less, unless you want to start a war.”
you raise a brow, playfully. “they’re just looking.”
“yeah, and i don’t like it.”
he walks around the table, stops behind you. “want help?”
you nod, and he steps close. closer than he needs to. his front presses lightly against your back, firm and warm. he leans down, guiding your arms, his chest flush to you, his breath skating along the shell of your ear.
“hit the green. angle it toward the corner pocket. trust me, you’ll nail it.”
but you’re not listening. not really. not when his hand slides just a little too far down your arm, or when his hips nudge forward, enough to feel him. he’s doing it on purpose. there’s no way he isn’t.
you shift, bump your elbow lightly into his ribs. “you’re kind of all over me. i can’t focus like that.”
he chuckles, stepping back with both hands raised. “my bad. force of habit.”
you shoot. the ball sinks clean.
his voice lights up. “see? you are good.”
you smile despite yourself. “maybe you’re not a terrible coach.”
he high-fives you, fingers curling briefly around yours, and for a while, the game continues. laughter. teasing. another round of beers. the weight between you two loosens just a bit—but never disappears.
eventually, it’s time to leave. the guys stretch and yawn, pretending they aren’t already planning their next stop.
“we were thinking of hitting that new bar on third,” yuta says.
“nah,” jaehyun replies instantly, grabbing his jacket. “i’m taking y/n home.”
taeyong raises a brow but doesn’t argue. “alright. catch you later.”
once outside, the air feels cooler. quieter. you walk in silence for a few blocks, your body relaxing more than you expected. and then he says it.
“so… what happened exactly?”
you exhale, the weight returning. “the apartment above mine caught fire. no one got hurt, but they say the building’s not safe. i can’t go back until it’s inspected and fixed. and all my friends live with their boyfriends, or in places too cramped to take someone in.”
he nods slowly, not pushing.
“you can stay with me,” he says after a beat. “just… not tonight.”
you look up at him, confused. “why not?”
he scratches the back of his neck, a little embarrassed.
“my roommate kicked me out for the night. his girlfriend’s coming over, and well… you know.”
you do. you laugh a little, half amused, half exhausted. “so that’s why you were out?”
“yeah. didn’t feel like hearing them fuck through the wall.”
you both fall silent, until he looks to the right. neon lights spill across the sidewalk in pinks and reds. your eyes follow his line of sight.
a motel.
he glances back at you, one brow lifted. “wanna crash there for tonight? i’ll get you a room.”
you don’t even hesitate.
“yes. please.”
he smiles, soft and genuine this time. “come on, then.”
and for the first time that night, you feel like you might actually sleep without everything collapsing around you.
the motel room was small and stuffy, the thick summer air clinging to your skin the moment you stepped inside. the door clicked shut behind you, and jaehyun immediately moved to the wall-mounted control, turning on the air conditioner with a low hum that filled the silence. still, it was warm, your skin damp with sweat and exhaustion. you sat on the edge of the bed, waving a hand lazily in front of your face as you tried to cool off, your other hand pushing your hair away from your neck.
“fuck, it’s hot,” you muttered, fingers fumbling with your hair, searching for a hair tie that wasn’t there.
“here,” jaehyun said, tossing something onto the bed beside you. it was a small plastic bag, printed with the motel’s name in red cursive. you opened it, expecting maybe a water bottle or a towel, but instead found a collection of travel-sized soaps, a tiny bottle of shampoo, a mint, two condoms in gold wrappers… and a hair tie. your fingers brushed over it before you looked up at him with a raised brow.
“you know this place too well.”
he scoffed, smirking as he leaned against the wall, arms crossed over his chest. “maybe you’re just the one who doesn’t know anything.”
his voice held a mocking edge, teasing you like he always did, like he hadn’t fucked you stupid on your own bed two weeks ago and left without so much as a real goodbye.
you reached into the plastic bag and pulled out the small collection of motel goodies, letting your fingers slide over the items until they wrapped around the foil square. it crinkled softly between your fingertips as you held it up, raising your brows as your eyes flicked to him.
“do these even fit you?” you asked, tone playful but low, teasing.
he huffed a quiet laugh, pushing his tongue to the inside of his cheek as he stepped closer, arms still crossed over his chest.
“not really,” he said. “those are standard size. they don’t fit me right.”
you rolled your eyes, even as your cheeks burned with something you didn’t want to name. reaching back, you tied your hair up with the elastic, then stood up to stretch, pretending not to care that he was watching you.
jaehyun checked his phone and sighed. “i should go. the guys are probably already at the next bar.”
your chest tightened, confusion blooming low and sour in your stomach. you blinked. “you’re leaving?”
“wasn’t the plan to crash here just for you?” he teased, but there was something unreadable in his eyes.
you hesitated, lips parting. you didn’t want to ask him to stay. you didn’t want to sound needy. but the thought of him walking out again, of sleeping alone in a motel bed you hadn’t paid for, filled you with a sudden ache.
“it’s hot as hell out there,” you said, stepping closer. “you should shower. you’ll feel better.”
he arched a brow. “i showered before going out.”
“so what?” you shrugged, fingers toying with the hem of your shirt. “i think you should shower again.”
he stared at you for a beat, eyes darkening as the realization clicked into place. “ah,” he murmured, tilting his head. “so that’s what this is.”
your body moved before you could think—crawling up onto the bed, slow and deliberate, your eyes never leaving his. he didn’t move, just watched as you reached him, rising on your knees to press your palms to his chest. his shirt was soft and damp against your fingers. you tilted your face up to his, lips barely brushing his collarbone.
“don’t go,” you whispered. “you’re already here… might as well make it worth it.”
his hand slid to the back of your head, fingers tangling in your hair, lips ghosting over your temple as he muttered, low and sinful, “you’re playing a dangerous game, baby.”
your heart skipped a beat. you weren’t even trying to hide the way your gaze dropped to the bulge in his pants. his words shouldn’t have made your thighs press together like that, shouldn’t have sent that deep, pulsing warmth down your spine, but fuck—he was so casual about it, so sure of himself, it made your breath hitch. he was already hard. you could see it now. and he hadn’t even touched you yet.
you let the condom fall onto the bed as your hand drifted slowly to the front of his pants, fingers hovering before you made contact. the heat radiating through the fabric was almost unbearable, and when you finally palmed him through it, his jaw flexed. your voice came out soft, a little shaky, but full of intent.
“can i see it?”
his eyes darkened immediately, and he didn’t say anything for a moment, just watched you with that unreadable expression that made your stomach twist. then he nodded, slow and sure, backing up and letting himself fall onto the bed. he pulled his shirt off in one swift motion and laid back, propping his hands behind his head, the muscles of his arms flexing, chest rising and falling in a steady rhythm that made your mouth go dry.
“go ahead,” he murmured, “since you’re so curious.”
his pants were already unbuttoned, boxers peeking out from the waistband. your gaze dropped to the heavy outline straining against the fabric, your fingers trembling slightly as you reached for him. it was your first time doing this—your first time touching a guy like this—and you felt nervous, eager, clumsy all at once. you tugged his pants lower until they pooled around his thighs, revealing the thick bulge beneath his briefs.
when you finally pushed those down too, your eyes widened slightly. your hand wrapped around him, a little too firm, and you felt him twitch under your touch.
“not so rough,” he said, his voice low, half-laughing, half-breathless. “be gentle.”
you nodded, swallowing hard, adjusting your grip, your thumb brushing along the tip. the weight and warmth of him in your palm was foreign and overwhelming. your head dipped forward and you kissed him there, soft and uncertain. he sucked in a breath, his abs tightening, his hand still behind his head but his knuckles whitening with the way he gripped the pillow.
you let your tongue trace slowly along the underside, tasting him, feeling him throb with every slow movement. then you wrapped your lips around the head and began to take him in, your hand stroking what you couldn’t fit just yet.
he made a sound—a sharp breath, a curse under his breath—and when you looked up, his face was flushed, his eyes half-lidded with something between shock and desperation.
“am i doing it right?” you asked, pulling back slightly, your lips glossy, your voice soft and unsure.
“fuck, yes,” he groaned, his head falling back against the pillow. “you’re gonna kill me if you keep looking at me like that.”
his hips bucked slightly, involuntary, and you took him deeper this time, slowly, carefully, adjusting to the rhythm, feeling the way his thighs tensed beneath your touch. his breathing grew heavier, his abs flexing with every flick of your tongue, every soft suck, every messy, eager movement. he reached down, fingers threading into your hair, not to guide you, just to anchor himself, as if grounding his sanity with the feeling of you.
“shit, baby—” he moaned, his voice rough now, desperate. “just like that. don’t stop.”
you didn’t. you hollowed your cheeks and moved faster, more confident now, loving the way he twitched on your tongue, the way his composure was crumbling second by second. his fingers tightened in your hair and his thighs trembled slightly.
“fuck, i’m close—” he gasped.
you kept going, feeling his release building, tasting the salty pre-come on your tongue, and when he finally came with a low, strangled groan, hips jerking, voice broken and raw—he said your name like a plea.
you swallowed, slow and deliberate, licking your lips as you looked up at him. he looked dazed, ruined, beautiful. his chest was heaving, sweat on his brow, his skin flushed.
“jesus,” he whispered, a half-laugh escaping his lips as he finally let go of your hair. “where the hell did you learn to do that?”
you just smiled, your lips still tingling, proud of yourself, of how undone he looked—like you were the only one who had ever touched him like that.
you crawled back up the bed, breath still shallow from everything you had just done, and started peeling your clothes off one by one. your fingers fumbled slightly from how needy you felt, pulling your shirt over your head, tossing it aside without care, followed by your bra, panties, everything that separated your burning skin from his. his eyes were on you the entire time—hungry, intense, reverent. he didn’t say anything, just licked his lips and let his gaze roam across your body like he was starving for it.
“i want to ride you,” you said, voice low, thick with want.
his mouth parted slightly, surprise flickering in his eyes, before he leaned over to grab something from his wallet on the nightstand. “wait,” he murmured, pulling out a foil wrapper—different from the motel ones. thicker, black, and unmistakably his. “these are the ones that actually fit.”
you watched him tear the wrapper open and roll it on effortlessly, his movements confident but still urgent, like he’d been holding himself back just for you. when he was ready, he laid back again, arms slightly outstretched, his eyes locked on yours.
“come here,” he said. “you can ride me now.”
you bit your lip and moved quickly, like you couldn’t bear to wait another second. and you really couldn’t—you’d been on edge for days. the stress, the instability, not knowing where you’d sleep, all of it had pressed down on you like a weight you couldn’t shake. but when you were with him, everything slowed. everything made sense. and right now, you just needed to feel him, to get lost in him.
you straddled his hips, your knees on either side of his thighs, palms pressing against his firm chest. his hands found your waist, warm and steady, as you guided yourself over him. he was so hard, so thick, and as you slowly lowered yourself onto him, you gasped—half from the stretch, half from the overwhelming feeling of finally, finally being this close. his cock filled you inch by inch, making your walls clench around him involuntarily, your breath hitching as you adjusted.
“fuck, you’re tight,” he groaned, brows furrowed, his fingers digging into your skin like he was barely holding on.
your eyes fluttered shut as you took him deeper, until your hips met his and your thighs were trembling from the intensity. you rested your hands on his abs, taking a moment to breathe through it, to feel him throbbing inside you.
“you okay?” he asked, voice softer now, thumb brushing along your hip.
you nodded, leaning down to kiss him, slow and messy. then you began to move—shallow at first, testing the pace, but soon you were rolling your hips, finding a rhythm that made your body light up with fire. every movement dragged delicious friction along your walls, and the way he filled you, stretched you, made you moan softly, needily.
his hands slid up to your breasts, thumbs circling your nipples until they peaked, sensitive and aching. he cupped them both, lifting himself slightly to suck one into his mouth. his tongue was hot and wet, swirling around the sensitive nub while his other hand played with the other breast, squeezing, pinching gently, making your hips grind harder against him.
“god, you feel so good,” he murmured against your skin, lips still wrapped around your nipple, his voice sending vibrations through your chest.
your fingers tangled in his hair, pulling slightly as you rode him faster now, the slap of your skin meeting his echoing in the cheap motel room. your breath came in short, ragged gasps, your body trembling as the pleasure built. he sucked harder on your breast, then switched to the other, moaning into you like he was addicted to the taste of your skin.
“jaehyun—” you whimpered, grinding down harder, desperate for release. “i’m close…”
“don’t stop,” he said, breathless, one hand sliding down between your bodies to rub tight, fast circles against your clit. “cum for me, baby. let me feel it.”
you cried out, body shaking as the orgasm ripped through you, thighs quivering, cunt pulsing around him in waves that felt endless. he grunted beneath you, lost in the way you clenched around him, hips thrusting up as he chased his own high, until with a deep moan and your name on his lips, he came too—hard, twitching inside you, eyes clenched shut, body taut with release.
you collapsed on top of him, breath tangled with his, both of you sweaty, shaky, completely undone.
after a moment of recovery, limbs tangled and skin damp with sweat, jaehyun pulled you close and pressed a soft kiss against your shoulder.
“we should shower,” he murmured against your skin, his voice low and husky. “it’s hot as hell in here.”
you hummed in agreement, letting him guide you out of the bed. your legs felt like jelly, sore and shaky, but his arm stayed around your waist, grounding you. the bathroom light was harsh, flickering slightly like everything else in that old motel, but the water came out warm and steady. steam quickly filled the small space.
you stepped into the shower first, sighing as the water hit your back, washing away the sweat and lingering stickiness. jaehyun stepped in behind you, his body pressing up against yours, his arms wrapping loosely around your waist. the moment should’ve been calm, domestic, but his hands couldn’t help but wander.
his lips brushed your neck, wet and slow, while his fingers slid up your stomach to cup your breasts again. “couldn’t stop thinking about these,” he whispered, licking a droplet of water from your shoulder.
you tilted your head, letting him kiss you deeper. your back arched instinctively, pressing into him, and you felt his cock hardening against the curve of your ass. “again?” you teased breathlessly.
“you’re too fucking hot not to,” he said, voice rough, before turning you around so your back was against the cold tile. his mouth claimed yours, tongue exploring like he hadn’t just come not long ago. he lifted one of your legs, hooking it over his hip, and the tip of his cock rubbed against your folds, teasing.
you gasped as he slipped inside again—this time slower, deeper, the water pouring down your bodies as he began to move. the shower was tight, cramped, but that only made it hotter. the sound of skin on skin was drowned by the water, but you could hear him panting in your ear, could feel the way his mouth latched onto your nipple again, his thrusts picking up pace.
you held onto him, fingers digging into his shoulders, your moans muffled against his neck. it was messy, rushed, passionate. and when you came again, clenching around him, he followed quickly, holding you tight as he spilled inside the condom once more, both of you trembling under the hot spray.
after the shower, you dried off, still breathless, your legs wobbling every time you moved. you collapsed into bed with a sigh, pulling the thin sheet over your body. jaehyun lay beside you for a few minutes, stroking your hair, until sleep started to pull you under.
when you woke up, sunlight was leaking through the curtains, weak and golden. the bed beside you was empty. you blinked against the brightness, groaning at the soreness in your thighs and hips. everything hurt deliciously. you reached for your phone on the nightstand, and saw a message waiting from jaehyun.
had to leave early. training. don’t worry about time, i extended the checkout. i’ll call you when i’m done and take you to my place. there’s food for you on the table. eat, baby.
you sat up, rubbing your eyes and looking around. on the small glass table near the window sat a paper bag from starbucks. you got up, curious, and opened it to find a warm cheese sandwich and your favorite coffee. it made you smile—something about the quiet thoughtfulness of it, after such a dirty night, made your chest feel warm.
later that day, you were sitting on the grass outside campus with your friends—jungeun, jinsol, and sooyoung. the sun was soft and the air carried the scent of spring. they were all staring at you like a pack of wolves, eyes gleaming with barely-concealed curiosity.
“so…” jungeun started, tilting her head, “are you going to keep avoiding our questions, or are you finally going to spill?”
“you kept your secret very well” jinsol added with a smirk. “you disappeared overnight and came back all smiley and glowing. bitch, don’t lie.”
you looked away, sipping your iced tea and trying to play it cool. “we’ve just been hanging out… it’s nothing serious.”
“nothing serious my ass,” sooyoung said, lying on her back and shielding her eyes from the sun. “ you think we don't remember how you got when he arrived at the party?”
you blushed furiously, heart pounding, but tried to keep your tone steady. “i’m not giving you the details. and definitely not about that.”
jinsol groaned. “come on. we just want to know one thing.”
“is his dick as perfect as we imagine?” jungeun whispered dramatically, making everyone laugh.
you covered your face with your hands. “i’m not talking about his dick.”
“that’s not a no,” sooyoung chimed in.
you tried not to laugh, cheeks burning. “we’ve only gone out a couple times. that’s all.”
jinsol leaned in closer. “i think it’s only a matter of time before you two become official. honestly, he seems like he really likes you.”
but sooyoung shook her head. “nah. not yet. she hasn’t gotten over dong sicheng.”
that name hit you like a soft, invisible bruise. you looked down at your drink, lips pressed together.
“he was just… a phase,” you muttered.
sooyoung arched a brow. “a phase you’ve been stuck on for like a year.”
“he never liked me like that anyway,” you said, trying to keep the bitterness out of your voice. “i was just his art buddy. his therapist. his background character.”
“yeah, well,” jungeun said gently, “maybe jaehyun’s your plot twist.”
you didn’t reply. but for a moment, you let yourself imagine that possibility. and it didn’t feel so far-fetched.
“actually,” jungeun chimed in, casually tossing a piece of grass into the air, “i heard something about sicheng.”
your head snapped in her direction before you could stop yourself. your heart skipped and thumped oddly in your chest.
“yeah?” you tried to sound indifferent, but the way your voice wavered betrayed you.
“mhm,” she said, glancing at the others. “one of the girls from the art department told me he’s coming back this semester. apparently he finally sorted out his exchange paperwork.”
“guess you’ll be bumping into him again,” sooyoung said, nudging your shoulder with a teasing smirk. “don’t go falling all over him again. please use your brain this time.”
“i didn’t—” you started, but then just sighed. “i know.”
jinsol gave you a knowing look. “well, i hope you don’t fuck it up with jaehyun over some old fantasy. like… jaehyun’s not just hot. he’s actually a good guy.”
sooyoung snorted. “a hot guy with a career path and muscle definition that could resurrect me.”
“he’s not just hot,” jungeun added, more serious. “he’s crazy talented. my brother’s obsessed with local sports and he says jaehyun’s a legend around here. three-time regional boxing champ. undefeated.”
you blinked. “wait, really?”
“mmhmm,” she said. “he’s been competing for like three years straight. he’s got insane discipline. trains daily, eats clean, sleeps early unless he’s too busy fucking you apparently—ow!” she laughed when you slapped her thigh in protest.
but your mind was already conjuring images… jaehyun in the ring, sweat dripping from his brow, his jaw set with sharp focus. his body gleaming under the lights—broad shoulders, cut arms, those tight abs tensing as he dodges, lunges, throws a punch. bruises on his ribs, a scratch near his lip, blood maybe on the edge of his gloves. heat rises to your cheeks as the image lingers—his body slightly damaged but so undeniably alive and powerful, all for something he loves.
he wasn’t just hot. he was dedicated. passionate. and god, he looked good doing it.
sooyoung sighed dramatically beside you. “i want a boyfriend like that. good body. good face. and a dick that ruins lives.”
“jesus christ,” jinsol muttered, snorting into her drink.
“what?” sooyoung shrugged. “i’m just saying. it’s the dream.”
you shook your head, cheeks flushed. “he’s not my boyfriend.”
they all stared at you.
“yet,” jungeun said, grinning.
you looked down at your phone, pretending to be unbothered, but the way your stomach flipped said otherwise.
not your boyfriend. not officially.
but the way he touched you. the way he looked at you like you mattered—like he saw more than just sex.
it made you wonder.
what if he could be?

at sunset, you’re waiting just outside the university gym, sitting on the edge of a planter box as the warm, golden light spills across the campus. the air still holds a trace of the day’s heat, but it's softened now, carried gently by the evening breeze. your phone buzzes in your lap, but you ignore it, eyes focused on the gym entrance.
jaehyun walks out a moment later, his presence like gravity pulling your attention. he’s wearing a fitted black t-shirt that clings slightly to his damp skin, khaki shorts that show off his toned legs, and worn white sneakers. his training bag is slung over one shoulder, and droplets of water still trail from the ends of his freshly washed hair. he must’ve taken a quick shower after practice. his smile is soft, those signature dimples showing as he spots you.
“you ready to head to the apartment?” he asks, stopping in front of you. his voice is calm, smooth, like there's no rush.
“yeah, but… before that, i want to take you out to eat,” you say as you stand, brushing your hands over your clothes.
his brows raise slightly in surprise. “why?”
you shift your weight from one foot to the other. “i just… it’s a thank you. for taking me to the motel, for getting me food, for extending the time. and now you’re letting me stay at your place, so…” you trail off, cheeks heating up.
he tilts his head, eyes searching yours. “you don’t have to do that. it wasn’t a big deal.”
you bite your lip and shrug. “well, it is to me. no guy’s ever treated me like that before, so… i thought it’d be important.”
that seems to catch him off guard. he stares at you for a second longer, then nods. “alright. i’ll let you treat me. but don’t expect me to be easy to impress,” he teases, the corners of his mouth lifting.
you smile, relieved. “what’s your favorite food?”
he thinks for a second, then frowns. “i don’t really have one. i’ve been on a strict diet lately since i’ve got more tournaments coming up.”
your jaw drops slightly. “what do you mean you don’t have a favorite food? come on.”
he chuckles. “i’m serious. everything’s been about protein, greens, hydration… it’s been pretty boring.”
“that’s tragic,” you say with mock seriousness. “you’re in your twenties and you’re telling me you don’t even crave ramen or tteokbokki?”
“okay, fine,” he laughs. “i haven’t had kimbap in forever. does that count?”
you grin. “perfect. i know this place that makes really good kimbap.”
a little while later, you’re both seated at a small table in a cozy street-side diner. the kimbap comes out quickly, warm and fresh, and jaehyun’s eyes light up when he takes the first bite.
“this is really good,” he says with a satisfied sigh.
“you look happy,” you tease, watching the way he leans back in his seat, finally relaxed.
he nods, swallowing. “i am. i’ve got a big fight coming up—i’ll be up against a nationally ranked fighter. if i win, i’ll qualify for the majors.”
your eyes widen. “that’s huge! jaehyun, oh my god, congratulations!”
he rubs the back of his neck, clearly flustered by your excitement. “thanks… i’m trying not to jinx it.”
“you’re gonna crush it. you’re so disciplined and talented—seriously, it’s inspiring.” you smile at him, and it’s completely honest.
he goes quiet for a second, then looks down with a tiny smile of his own. he’s blushing. the tough, cocky boxer—blushing.
“you’re really bad at taking compliments, huh?” you say, laughing gently.
“maybe,” he replies with a grin, nudging your foot under the table. “but i don’t mind it when it’s you.”
you finish eating with that warm, playful tension between you, the kind that always seems to build whenever you’re with him.
you're walking beside jaehyun along the crowded sidewalk, the sun already sinking low, casting an orange glow on the buildings around you. he’s telling you something about a professor at the university who never shows up on time, and you’re half-listening, half-distracted by the soft drip of water from his hair. he smells faintly of soap and cologne, clean and warm. you smile at the way his voice hums, deep and casual.
but then, suddenly—
“jaehyun!” a bright, feminine voice cuts through the air.
before you can even turn, there’s a girl jumping on him—literally throwing her arms around his neck. you blink, startled, and take a step back. jaehyun catches her easily, like it’s nothing, one of his hands settling on her waist, holding her with casual familiarity. his smile grows wider, those pretty dimples showing instantly.
“noona, what are you doing here?” he asks, clearly happy to see her.
“i came to visit some friends,” she says sweetly, brushing her shiny, curled hair behind her ear. her eyes flick down his body like she’s assessing him. “you’ve gotten taller… or maybe just your shoulders?” she teases, reaching out to squeeze his bicep without hesitation.
you feel something twist in your chest. it’s hot and petty, and you know it, but still—you don’t like the way she’s touching him. you don’t like how close they are. how… familiar they are.
is she his girlfriend?
the thought hits you like a slap. no. no way. that would be cruel—after what you and jaehyun did… after he held you and kissed you and let you ride him like you were the only girl in the world.
the girl finally looks at you. her face lights up with surprise and a sly sparkle in her eyes. she's polished—makeup flawless, glossed lips, expensive jewelry. everything about her screams elegance. you suddenly feel plain in comparison.
“oh?” she says, eyeing you. “are you jaehyun’s girlfriend?”
your stomach drops. but at the same time, some part of you feels… relieved. so she isn't his girlfriend.
“ah… she’s…” jaehyun starts slowly, glancing at you, voice uncertain. “she’s my friend.”
“nice to meet you!” she chirps, stepping forward and taking both your hands enthusiastically. “i’m miyeon, jaehyun’s childhood friend.”
“a-ah… i’m y/n. nice to meet you too,” you say, barely holding your voice steady.
miyeon turns back to him with a soft pout. “jaehyun, you should bring y/n to our store sometime. you haven’t visited in so long.”
“i will. soon,” he says, his tone easy, but not committed. she beams and clings to his arm again, pressing against him in a way that makes your skin burn.
after a bit more small talk, she waves goodbye, and you and jaehyun continue walking. you’re quiet. so is he.
the train ride is short, but quiet too. you’re still chewing on the jealousy simmering low in your stomach. you don’t say a word until you’re back on the street again, just a few blocks from his apartment.
“jaehyun,” you say suddenly, stopping in your tracks.
he turns to face you, brows lifted.
you stand still for a second, then open your arms slightly—awkwardly. as if you’re asking for a hug.
he doesn’t hesitate.
jaehyun steps into you and wraps his arms around your body, holding you close. you melt into his chest.
“are you copying my noona?” he teases softly against your hair.
you shake your head lightly, but your cheeks are burning.
he leans back just enough to look into your eyes. “now i really can’t wait to get home,” he says with a grin and a very obvious double meaning.
you scoff and push him back a little, pretending to be annoyed—but you’re not. not really.
jaehyun unlocks the front door with one hand, still carrying his gym bag over his shoulder. he nudges the door open with his foot, letting you step in first. the place smells faintly of laundry detergent and cedarwood. it’s clean but lived-in, with a few scattered training wraps on the floor and a row of protein bottles lined up neatly on a shelf.
“make yourself at home,” he says, dropping his bag with a dull thud. “my roommate, junhoe, isn’t here. he’s probably off fucking his girl somewhere.”
you chuckle, still standing in the entryway.
jaehyun walks ahead, opening a side door. “this is the study,” he says, gesturing. it’s a small room, barely wide enough to fit a desk and some shelves, but there’s a window with good light and it smells like old books. “i can clean it up and maybe get a futon or something in here if you’re staying.”
you nod slowly, looking around, but your eyes keep drifting back to him. he’s leaned in the doorway now, watching you with that lazy, unreadable gaze, the same one he used to look at you that night at the motel—right before you climbed into his lap.
“there’s an extra mattress in my room,” he adds casually, but his mouth quirks up in a smirk that gives him away. “wanna see?”
you raise a brow. “you’re so subtle, jaehyun.”
he laughs, voice low and warm, and then turns on his heel. you follow him down the short hallway to his bedroom. the lights are dimmed, his bed already made, a dark gray comforter spread out neatly. he gestures toward the corner, where a folded mattress leans against the wall. “see? told you.”
but you’re not looking at the mattress.
you’re looking at him.
at the way the veins in his arms stretch as he runs a hand through his damp hair. at the way his shirt clings to the firm lines of his torso. at the faint red bruise just below his jaw—probably from sparring, but it looks like something you'd want to kiss.
“do you want to shower first?” he asks, turning back to you.
you shake your head. "i already showered earlier.”
“true,” he says, stepping closer. “but that was to wash off the sweat.”
“and this one would be to…”
he’s right in front of you now. inches away. his voice drops to a whisper.
“to get dirty again.”
you don’t move. you just look at him, look at the slight twitch in his jaw, the way his eyes flick to your lips. then you reach out, grab the hem of his shirt, and lift it over his head in one slow, steady motion.
jaehyun breathes in sharp and deep as your fingers skim his chest. his body is insane—broad shoulders, thick arms, chest hard as stone and wrapped in smooth golden skin. faint bruises pepper his ribs, evidence of training, and you drag your hands over one without thinking.
“you’re really something else,” you murmur.
“so are you,” he says hoarsely, fingers already at the waistband of your jeans.
clothes come off fast after that.
you fall together onto the mattress, his mouth hungry on yours. he kisses you like he’s starving, hands exploring, groping, dragging down your back. he moans against your lips when you grind your hips down on his thigh, searching for friction.
then he flips you over.
pins your wrists above your head with one hand, the other tracing down your stomach, between your legs.
“still wet,” he murmurs. “even though i haven’t touched you in hours.”
“shut up,” you pant, arching your back.
he chuckles and lowers his head. his mouth finds your neck, your collarbone, your breasts—licking, sucking, biting just enough to leave a mark. you cry out when his fingers finally slide between your folds, slick and slow.
“shit, baby,” he whispers. “you feel so fucking good.”
“then stop teasing me,” you groan.
he smirks. “as you wish.”
and then he’s inside you.
thick. hot. stretching you open all over again.
your back bows. his name spills from your lips like a prayer.
he moves slow at first—deep, careful strokes that make you shudder. but then he picks up the pace. harder. faster. his skin slaps against yours, your breath hitching with every thrust. the bed creaks. his grip bruises your hips. and you love it.
“jaehyun—f-fuck—”
“you like that?” he growls, voice wrecked. “you like being fucked like this? like a real good girl?”
you nod, crying out as your orgasm builds.
“i’m close,” you moan, nails digging into his back.
“come for me, baby,” he pants, kissing your lips hard. “i wanna feel you come around me.”
and you do.
it hits you fast, hard, white-hot.
your whole body trembles. he follows right after, gasping your name, burying himself deep inside you with one final thrust.
you lay there for a while, tangled together, sweat cooling on your skin.
his arms wrapped around you.
his lips brushing your forehead.
jaehyun is quiet for a long time after he comes, his chest rising and falling against yours as he tries to steady his breathing.
the room is dim, but you can feel the heat radiating off his body, the way his arms tighten around you, protective and gentle. he nuzzles into your neck, his lips brushing the damp skin there, not in a sexual way this time—more like he's grounding himself in your presence. you lie there, tangled up in sheets and each other, the only sound being the soft hum of the ceiling fan and your hearts calming down in sync.
he eventually pulls away just enough to look at you, eyes hooded but soft, and his fingers trace down the side of your face, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. “are you okay?” he whispers, voice a little raspy, a little concerned.
you nod, smiling faintly, and reach up to cup his cheek. “yeah. just... full. in every way.”
his lips quirk into a crooked smile and he kisses your forehead. “good.” he stands, stretching just a bit before grabbing a clean towel from a nearby shelf. he wipes you down carefully, not rushing, not skipping a beat. he doesn’t say much during it, but the way he handles you—like you’re something delicate, like this moment matters—says everything you need to hear. afterward, he throws the towel into a laundry basket, slips on a pair of loose sweatpants, and pulls a t-shirt over his head. he brings you one of his shirts, big and worn and soft, and you slip it on before curling back into his bed. he climbs in beside you and pulls the blanket over both of you, spooning you close, one hand resting low on your belly, thumb tracing circles into your skin.
you're just starting to doze off in his arms when the front door creaks open and you both hear the familiar thump of sneakers being kicked off.
“yo,” comes a male voice from the hall. jaehyun groans softly and pulls back just enough to peek out from under the blanket.
“junhoe,” he mutters.
a few seconds later, a tall guy with sharp eyes and dyed ash-blond hair pops his head into the room. he freezes when he sees you in bed, cheeks flushing slightly, but he raises a hand in greeting anyway.
“ah... so you finally brought someone home. what’s up?” he says with a knowing smirk.
“shut up,” jaehyun groans.
you sit up slowly, pulling the blanket around yourself as you nod politely. “hi…”
“nice to meet you,” junhoe says. “don’t worry, i’m cool with it. just—maybe not when my girlfriend comes over. she gets… ideas.”
“no problem,” jaehyun replies casually. “i already told her about the study room.”
junhoe raises an eyebrow. “you’re letting her stay here?”
jaehyun just shrugs with that same smirk. “i don’t mind.”
junhoe glances between the two of you and chuckles. “cool. well, i'm grabbing some food and crashing. welcome to the apartment.”
he disappears down the hall and jaehyun flops back down next to you, draping his arm over your waist again. “that went better than i expected.”
“he seems nice,” you murmur, cheek resting against his chest.
jaehyun hums in agreement, and the two of you drift off again—safe, warm, and maybe just a little too comfortable in each other’s arms.

a few days later, you’re at campus, carrying a stack of large framed canvases and a bundle of messy supplies balanced precariously in your arms. you’re on your way to return everything to the storage room after a long morning in the art studio, still wearing a paint-stained hoodie and some old jeans. your focus is on not dropping anything when suddenly, someone rounds the corner at the same time as you—and crashes right into you.
“whoa—shit, sorry!” says a familiar voice as the both of you stumble. your brushes clatter to the ground, but strong arms steady you, grabbing your shoulders gently.
you look up—and your breath catches.
dong sicheng.
he’s smiling, wide and bright, and for a second you almost forget how to speak. his hair is longer now, a little shaggier, his features more defined. he’s still beautiful, unfairly so, but the braces he used to have are gone, replaced by a dazzling, smooth smile. he’s wearing a soft beige sweater and dark slacks, looking expensive in that effortless way he always did. he bends down immediately, helping you pick up your supplies.
“y/n?” he says, looking genuinely happy. “wow—it’s really you”.
“i thought you were on a break?” your voice barely left your mouth.
“i was. but i came back early,” he replies, smiling.
you forcing a smile even though something tugs hard at your chest. “and you… you look great, sicheng.”
he blushes a little, brushing some hair behind his ear. “so do you,” he says, kind as ever. “it’s really good to see you.”
you nod, trying not to let your emotions show. because what are you supposed to say? i missed you. i thought about you more than i should’ve. i wondered what might’ve happened if i’d just said something back then.
but you never did.
and now he’s here, standing in front of you with that same kind warmth in his eyes, and you feel it—nostalgia, longing, something bittersweet blooming in your chest.
you chat for a while, catching up on classes and schedules, and he insists on helping you carry the rest of your things to the storage room. you smile and joke like nothing's off. like you’re not thinking about all the things you never said. because what would be the point now?
still, as he walks beside you, close and careful not to bump your paintings again, you can’t help but glance over at him—at the smile, at the way the sun catches the curve of his jaw.
and you wonder if part of your heart still belongs to him. just a little.
after helping you carry the last of your things to the storage room, sicheng stretches his arms with a quiet sigh and then turns to you with that soft little smile you remember all too well. “hey,” he says, voice gentle, “do you have time for a coffee? i don’t have class until later and… it’d be nice to talk more.”
you hesitate only a second before nodding. “sure. i’d like that.”
you end up at a small café just off campus, tucked between an old bookstore and a flower shop. it’s quiet, the kind of place that smells like roasted beans and cinnamon, with soft music playing through slightly scratchy speakers. you sit by the window, sunlight pouring in and making his hair glow like spun gold. he leans forward on the table, hands wrapped around a cup of matcha, listening to you as you ramble a little about your classes, your projects, the endless deadlines. it feels easy. too easy. almost like the last year never happened.
eventually, curiosity gets the best of you. you glance at him between sips of your drink, then lower your cup and ask, trying to sound casual, “have you been seeing anyone lately?”
he blinks, surprised for a moment. then that smile returns—slow, knowing, maybe even a little amused. “no,” he says. “this year’s been… intense. i’ve been at the dance academy full time, and trying to sort out all the paperwork to get back here took everything out of me.” he shrugs, rolling his cup between his palms. “didn’t leave much space for dating.”
you nod, trying to hide how fast your heart is beating.
“besides,” he adds, his gaze locking onto yours, “there was no one in china who really caught my attention.”
his words hit you in the chest, knocking the air out of your lungs in a way that doesn’t hurt but leaves you speechless. it’s not just what he says—it’s the way he says it, the way his eyes hold yours like he’s daring you to admit something, like he’s just waiting for you to fall into the trap he’s carefully set with his smile and his calm.
you clear your throat. “well… me neither,” you say softly. “no dating. i’ve been really focused on school and, i guess… there’s no one who really stands out to me either.”
he raises his eyebrows a little, his lips curling as if to say “really?” but he doesn’t push. instead, he changes the subject with a soft laugh. “i need to cut my hair soon. i’ve been meaning to, but with everything going on i haven’t had time to rest, let alone make an appointment.”
you hum in agreement, letting your eyes drift over his face, the softness in his features, the way his lashes catch the light.
“but i’m really glad we got to catch up today,” he says, brushing a thumb over the rim of his cup. “i missed this. i missed talking to you. i hope we get to take some classes together this term—maybe even work on a project again. like the old days.”
your heart skips. not in a dramatic, crashing way, but in a quiet flutter that you try not to show on your face. you smile instead, nodding, and say, “yeah. me too.”
the walk back to jaehyun’s place is a blur. your body’s moving through the city, but your mind’s still in that café, replaying the way sicheng looked at you, the calm certainty in his voice, the not-so-innocent way he said there was no one who caught his eye. you keep wondering—was he just being nice? was he flirting? was it real? it shouldn’t matter, not after everything with jaehyun, not when you’ve already crossed that line with someone else… but your heart doesn’t care about timing, or logic, or consequences. it only knows the warm ache of “what if.”
you don’t even realize you’ve arrived until you hear jaehyun’s voice calling out from inside the apartment. “y/n? you’re back?”
you step in, taking off your shoes as the door closes behind you, and he appears from the hallway looking a little flushed, a rag in his hand and a faint sheen of sweat on his neck. “i was just cleaning the studio for you,” he says, waving toward the small room down the hall. “it’s not huge, but with the light in there and some organizing, it’ll be perfect.”
you walk in behind him, noticing how he’s already cleared space in the corner, set up a small table for your supplies, even propped one of your canvases against the wall. on the floor, there’s a mattress laid out neatly with a pillow and blanket, and he turns to you a little sheepishly, scratching the back of his neck.
“i, uh… i don’t have a bed frame for the extra mattress yet,” he says. “but don’t worry, i’m not gonna make you sleep like that. not when you're my guest.” he gestures toward his bedroom. “so, you’ll sleep with me. i mean—not like with me,” he adds quickly, ears turning red, “just, you know… in my room, you can have the bed if you want. i don’t mind sleeping here.”
you shake your head immediately. “i don’t want to take your space. it’s your room.”
but he just smiles at you, warm and sincere, and steps a little closer. “hey. you’re not taking anything. i want you to be comfortable here. i want you to feel like this is your space too, even if it’s temporary.” he looks at you for a long second, and then adds softly, “having you here… it already makes this place feel a little more like home.”
and just like that, something in your chest tightens—not painfully, but deep. a pull of affection, of something dangerous and familiar. you swallow hard, nodding, and whisper, “thank you, jaehyun.”
he grins, brushing his shoulder lightly against yours before walking off to put away the cleaning supplies, leaving you standing in the doorway of your new studio, heart full of too many things at once.
later that night, after unpacking the essentials and arranging a few of your supplies in the corner, you finally let yourself take a shower. the heat is unbearable—sticky and heavy, like it’s pressing against your skin—and jaehyun’s bathroom fills with steam almost immediately. you linger under the cold stream, letting it cool your body, calm your thoughts, and ease some of the tension still wound tightly in your chest after everything with sicheng.
you dry off and change into the lightest clothes you brought for sleeping: an old, thin cotton shirt and a pair of soft, loose shorts. no bra. it’s too hot, and your skin still feels tender from the shower. you gather your damp hair in a loose bun and step out into the hallway barefoot, following the quiet hum of a fan.
you find jaehyun in the studio—his new temporary bedroom for as long as you're staying. he’s sitting on the floor, legs stretched out in front of him, leaning back on his hands with a small oscillating fan blowing directly at his face. his black sleeveless shirt clings to his chest and shoulders, damp from sweat. the fabric is tight, showing off the sharp lines of his arms and torso, and the light gray sweatpants hanging low on his hips do nothing to distract from the way he looks: hot, flushed, and visibly uncomfortable.
you pause at the doorway, arms folded loosely across your chest, and tilt your head. “you look like you’re suffering.”
he turns to you, blinking slowly, his eyes dragging down your frame. you watch him swallow before giving you a small smile, breathless and sheepish. “yeah, the fan’s not doing much. this room is like an oven.”
you glance toward the hallway, then back at him. “you should sleep in your room. it’s cooler in there, and the a/c works. seriously, jaehyun, this heat could make you sick.”
he shakes his head, lifting a hand to wipe sweat from his neck. “i want you to be comfortable. you’re my guest, and that room’s yours now. i’ll be fine.”
you sigh, stepping further inside and lowering yourself beside him onto the mattress, knees brushing. “you’re being stubborn.”
“maybe,” he says softly, then adds with a smirk, “but you look cozy.”
you shrug, glancing down at your own body without thinking. the thin shirt clings to the curve of your chest, damp in places from residual heat and humidity. when you look back at him, his gaze has dropped—locked onto your chest, pupils darkening as his lips part just slightly.
his hand shifts, subtle and tentative, reaching as if to graze the side of your breast with the back of his fingers.
your reaction is immediate—you swat his hand away with a light slap, not harsh but firm enough to snap him out of it.
“don’t,” you say, voice low, a touch breathless. “they hurt.”
he blinks, confused. “they hurt?”
you nod, rubbing your arms. “since that night. i don’t know why. my nipples have been… sensitive. sore.”
he looks up at you again, something like guilt flickering across his face, mixed with an almost embarrassing curiosity. “shit. i didn’t know. i didn’t mean to—”
“i know,” you interrupt gently. “but i mean it. they’re really sensitive. it’s not just a little sore—it’s like… they get too sensitive to touch. even clothes feel like too much sometimes.”
the fan whirs between you, filling the silence with soft mechanical noise. his shoulder brushes yours as you sit side by side on the mattress, skin still too warm, hearts beating louder than they should.
then, softly, he leans closer. “can we… do it quietly?”
his voice is almost a whisper, barely audible above the fan, like he’s afraid of breaking the tension between you.
you turn to him with wide eyes. “jaehyun…”
he watches your face, eager but trying to be patient. “junhoe’s already asleep. he won’t hear a thing,” he murmurs. “and it’s not like he doesn’t know what we’ve been doing.”
you hesitate, biting your lip. “still, it wouldn’t be… appropriate.”
he smiles a little, tilting his head as he murmurs, “maybe not. but that’s never stopped us before.”
he shifts slightly, and that’s when you see it— the prominent bulge straining against the front of his sweatpants, thick and pressing insistently against the fabric.
your breath catches. your lips part unconsciously, tongue darting out to wet them as you swallow, hard.
your body betrays your logic—heat coils low in your stomach, and your thighs instinctively press together.
“…maybe,” you murmur, glancing away as if that could tame the look in his eyes, “we can be quiet…”
jaehyun doesn’t need more than that.
he leans in, hand cupping the back of your neck as he kisses you deeply, hot and hungry and slow. your mouths move together in perfect rhythm, muffled moans swallowed into each other as his fingers slip beneath the hem of your shirt. his palms are warm—calloused in places—and they glide up your ribs, dragging goosebumps in their wake until his thumbs brush beneath your breasts, avoiding your nipples carefully, remembering your earlier words.
you arch into him, knees parting as he presses you down onto the mattress, his body heavy and hot above yours. his sweatpants are tugged down just enough to free himself, and he groans softly against your neck as you reach down, wrap your hand around his length, guiding him to your entrance.
the stretch is slow, agonizingly deep. your breath hitches, nails curling into his back as your thighs lock around his waist.
“fuck,” he whispers, teeth grazing your ear. “so wet for me already.”
you hush him with a kiss, the angle messy and desperate. each roll of his hips is slow, controlled, but the pressure builds so fast you’re gasping into his mouth, fingers fisting the sheet beside you as you fight to stay quiet. his hand snakes between your bodies, fingers circling your clit with just enough pressure to have your body trembling beneath him.
he fucks you through it—deep, slow thrusts that have you clenching around him as you come, mouth open in a silent moan, your body arching into his until you feel like you're floating.
he follows soon after, muffling his own release into your shoulder, breathing ragged, his arms wrapped tightly around you like he never wants to let go.
afterwards, he doesn't move for a while—just rests his forehead against yours, his weight a comforting pressure, your bodies still joined, slick with heat and sweat and something much more tender.
“still too hot?” you whisper, brushing his damp hair back.
he chuckles softly, kissing your cheek. “worth it.”
the morning sun filters through the soft curtains, warming the kitchen tiles beneath your bare feet. you’re already awake, hair loosely tied, moving about quietly in the oversized shirt you changed out of earlier and a casual, short dress—something comfortable and light for the heat. the apartment is still drowsy, silent except for the sound of the pan sizzling and the gentle clinking of utensils as you prepare breakfast.
jaehyun appears behind you, shirtless, with messy hair and sleep still heavy in his eyes. he blinks, confused for a second, before a small smile pulls at his lips. “you’re already up?”
you glance over your shoulder and smile. “yeah. figured it was the least i could do. i’m taking over your space, after all.” you point to the neatly arranged plates on the counter. “i made something special for you—salmon, asparagus with a bit of lemon zest, egg whites with spinach, and some avocado toast. something clean, for your athlete diet.”
he flushes a little, eyes dropping to the food, then back to you. “you didn’t have to—”
“i wanted to.”
he doesn’t answer. instead, he steps closer, so close you feel the heat of his body behind you. his hands find your waist first, then glide up slowly, until his palms cup your breasts. his touch is careful, slow, fingers massaging softly, like he’s remembering what you told him about how sore they’ve been since you had sex. you exhale sharply, feeling the pull in your belly again.
“jaehyun…” you murmur, shifting slightly. “stop. junhoe could see.”
he leans in, presses a soft kiss to the shell of your ear. “he won’t be up for hours.”
but just then, a loud voice echoes down the hall. junhoe’s speaking—no, arguing—on the phone. you both freeze. his tone is annoyed, sharp, like he’s trying not to yell.
you push jaehyun back quickly, and he moves just in time to avoid suspicion as junhoe enters the kitchen. his expression shifts the moment he sees you—his frown smoothing into a smile.
“damn,” he says, sniffing the air. “you’re really making this place smell like home. i might need to learn your seasoning secrets.”
you laugh lightly, cheeks a bit pink, and he drops into a chair like the argument never happened. jaehyun joins you near the counter, acting casual, though you can still feel the ghost of his touch on your skin, the ache it left behind.
later, you're sitting in your morning class, a warm cup of coffee on the table beside your sketchpad. it’s quiet, the soft hum of discussion and charcoal against paper filling the room. you’re halfway through shading the curve of a collarbone when a familiar presence draws your gaze toward the door.
sicheng steps in.
his hair is shorter now—freshly cut, the soft brown strands falling over his forehead in a boyish fringe that makes him look impossibly youthful. there's no trace of the braces he used to wear, and his smile is just as warm, just as bright, but somehow… more refined. he’s dressed simply—black jeans, white oversized tee, sneakers still a little scuffed from dance practice. a tote bag hangs off his shoulder, half full of sketchbooks and folded dance clothes.
he notices you instantly, that same spark lighting his eyes. he waves, then walks over to take the seat beside yours like no time has passed. you smile back, but there’s something soft and bittersweet curled in your chest.
it’s strange—how seeing him again stirs all the memories like dust floating in sunlight.
jaehyun is like heat. sharp angles, smoldering glances, quiet control and intensity. he walks like the world bends for him, and he touches you like he owns your skin.
but sicheng is something else entirely.
his presence is gentle. like water, like a breeze, always moving around you instead of through you. he’s soft-spoken, thoughtful, and so expressive through movement—dance or drawing, it doesn’t matter. you don’t have to guess with sicheng. he always let you see him.
you find yourself watching him while he sketches beside you, his brow furrowed slightly in concentration, tongue peeking out at the corner of his mouth. you wonder if he meant it—what he said yesterday. that no one caught his eye in china. that he was too busy. that he was happy to be back with you.
and yet... you feel a pull in two directions.
your heart remembers how sicheng made you feel—safe, understood, like you were seen. but your body still aches for jaehyun, for the way he touches you, the way he whispers your name like it’s the only thing that matters.
you stare down at your drawing, your pencil hovering just above the page, and wonder how long you can keep walking this tightrope between nostalgia and desire.
the late afternoon light painted soft gold across the pavement as you and sicheng stepped out of the lecture hall, laughter low and easy between the two of you. your sketchbooks were tucked under your arm, the scent of coffee still lingering on your clothes. he said something about the way your shading had improved, and you smiled—genuinely, openly. it felt warm. safe. like home, if home had a heartbeat.
and then you felt it.
the heat of a gaze that wasn’t his.
jaehyun was across the courtyard, leaning against his car, arms crossed over his chest, black hoodie pulled over his head even in the heat. but his eyes—sharp, unrelenting—were fixed on you. or maybe on the way you looked at sicheng, as if he were something sacred, something carved out of soft marble and light.
your smile faltered for half a second. long enough.
jaehyun's brow furrowed, jaw tightening like it was holding back words he didn’t dare speak in public.
you said goodbye to sicheng shortly after, heart already twisting with the weight of what was coming.
the apartment door hadn’t even closed behind you before the silence turned heavy.
“so that’s him?” jaehyun asked from the kitchen, voice flat, almost too casual.
you paused, setting your bag down slowly. “what are you talking about?”
“the guy you were making heart eyes at all afternoon,” he said, turning around. “looked like you were about to drop to your knees and worship him.”
you rolled your eyes, your tone turning defensive. “don’t start.”
he took a step closer, eyes dark. “you really think i wouldn’t notice the way you looked at him? like he was the only person in the fucking world?”
you scoffed, crossing your arms. “and what if i did look at him like that? it’s not like you and i are anything.”
the silence after that was deafening.
you saw it—how his expression dropped, like you’d just pulled the rug out from under him. his shoulders tensed, breath hitching.
“so that’s all this is to you?” he asked, voice barely above a whisper. “just... physical?”
you swallowed hard. the answer was on your tongue before you could stop it. “yeah. i thought we were just... blowing off steam. relieving stress.”
jaehyun looked at you like you’d just shattered something sacred. his hand dragged through his hair, a humorless chuckle slipping past his lips as he stared at the floor.
“fuck. i was really out here thinking we were building something,” he muttered. “that maybe... maybe this could be real.”
“jaehyun—”
“do you like him?” he interrupted, voice sharp now. “that guy. do you like him?”
you hesitated.
then nodded.
“yeah,” you said, voice soft but steady. “i think i do.”
he exhaled slowly, like he was trying not to explode. “right.”
you took a shaky breath, your own emotions catching up with you, fingers tightening around the hem of your dress. “maybe it’s better if we stop... whatever this is.”
his head snapped up.
“what?”
“i mean it,” you said. “you’re... you’re rough when we do it, jaehyun. even after i told you my breasts were sore, you still—” your voice cracked. “you kept touching them. like you didn’t listen. like you didn’t care.”
his face twisted in something between guilt and regret. “i didn’t mean to hurt you—i thought you liked it rough.”
“that doesn’t mean you can ignore me when i say something hurts,” you whispered.
he nodded, lips pressed into a line. “i’m sorry,” he said, stepping back. “i didn’t... i never wanted to make you feel like that.”
you stayed still as he grabbed his keys and water bottle from the table, slinging his gym bag over his shoulder.
“i’ve got training,” he said, not looking at you.
then, almost too fast to register, the door slammed shut behind him.
the echo of it left a hollow ache in your chest.
you stood there, alone in the quiet apartment, heart caught somewhere between anger and guilt. you hadn’t meant to hurt him, but the truth needed to be said.
still... it didn’t stop the sting that came with seeing him walk away like that.
and even though you’d been the one to draw the line, the silence he left behind wrapped around you like a second skin, suffocating in all the places he used to touch.
the gym was almost empty.
just the steady thump of fists against heavy bags and the distant hum of a playlist echoing through the padded walls. jaehyun stood alone in one of the back corners, shirt already soaked with sweat, jaw clenched so tightly his temples ached.
he'd been there for nearly an hour. hitting. dodging. repeating.
trying to erase the memory of your voice.
"you’re rough... even after i told you it hurt..."
the words played in loops in his head, louder than the music, louder than his own grunts as he threw punch after punch into the worn leather bag in front of him. his knuckles burned, taped up but raw underneath, wrists aching from the impact. but he didn’t stop.
"maybe it’s better if we stop."
he hit harder.
"you’re not listening."
harder.
"you don’t care."
his chest heaved with every breath, muscles tight, adrenaline pumping like poison in his veins.
"fuck," he growled under his breath, sweat dripping down his temple.
what the hell did you mean he didn’t care?
he did. too much, probably. that was the problem. he'd been trying so hard to show you, to express it in the only language he knew—touch, closeness, giving you his bed, making room for you in his world. but it hadn’t been enough. or maybe it had all been wrong.
and the worst part? he knew he wasn’t bad at this.
he’d never been the guy to leave girls unsatisfied. the girls he’d been with before? breathless, sore, obsessed. they texted him days later, months later, wanting more.
but you—you had made him feel like maybe none of that mattered.
maybe it wasn’t about the moves or the technique or how long he could make you scream.
maybe it was him.
his fists collided with the bag again, this time with a loud crack as one of the seams split slightly.
he didn’t even blink. just kept going.
“fuck,” he spat again, this time louder.
why wasn’t he enough?
why did it hurt so much to see you look at that other guy—sicheng—like he was art? like he was peace? like he was something soft and safe and deserving?
he hit again. again.
his mind raced.
did you think sicheng would be better in bed too?
gentler, sweeter, more “attentive”?
did you imagine him when you touched yourself now?
did you even think of jaehyun at all?
his vision blurred for a second, and before he could stop himself, he released a brutal, full-force punch with both hands—
CRACK.
the bag snapped off its chain and slammed into the floor with a dull, heavy thud.
jaehyun stood there, chest rising and falling rapidly, staring down at the busted bag like it was somehow your face, or maybe his own shame.
blood dripped from a busted knuckle. he didn’t feel it.
all he could hear was the echo of your voice, and the unbearable quiet that had come after you said goodbye.

the rain hadn’t stopped all evening.
you sat curled on the couch, blanket over your legs, scrolling aimlessly on your phone but not really seeing anything. you kept glancing at the window, hoping to hear the elevator ding, or footsteps in the hallway. nothing. just the sound of the storm, the wind howling against the glass, the relentless rhythm of the water beating down.
where is he?
you chewed on your lip, guilt twisting inside your stomach. he said he had training... but that was hours ago.
you hated that you still cared. hated that even after everything you said earlier, you were still worried. still thinking about him.
and then—click.
the front door creaked open.
your head snapped up. footsteps. wet ones.
you got up quickly, padding toward the small hallway, and then you heard it—a cough. rough and dry, followed by another one.
you peeked out.
there he was.
jaehyun stood in the entrance, completely drenched. soaked hair dripping over his forehead, shirt clinging to his body like second skin—completely see-through. every line of muscle beneath visible, his chest heaving slightly from the cold. his shorts were stuck to his thighs, sneakers squishing quietly against the tiles. he looked like a fucking painting. tragic. stunning. broken.
you inhaled sharply.
“you’re soaked,” you said, barely above a whisper.
he looked up at you, blinking water from his lashes. his eyes were tired. dark. unreadable.
you rushed to his room and grabbed the first towel you could find, returning quickly and holding it out for him.
he took it silently, rubbing at his hair with a few quick motions. droplets still clung to his jaw, his collarbones, sliding slowly down his neck, disappearing beneath the curve of his chest.
you stood there, frozen, watching him.
watching the muscles shift beneath his wet shirt as he patted himself dry. your eyes couldn’t help it—traveling from the hollow of his throat, down the sculpted lines of his torso, tracing the trail of water that disappeared into his waistband.
his gaze lifted suddenly, sharp and accusing.
why the fuck is she looking at me like that? like she wants to eat me alive... when she’s the one who ended it.
he didn’t say it. but you saw it. written all over his face.
your throat tightened. “oh— you should take a shower... before you catch a cold.”
his jaw ticked. he looked like he wanted to say something, but didn’t.
“yeah,” he muttered. and then, after drying his hands enough not to leave puddles, he walked past you, disappearing into the bathroom.
you stood there, heart racing, the scent of rain and sweat still lingering in the air.
later, when the water had stopped running and you heard his door creak open again, you knocked gently on the wall of his room.
he was sitting on his bed in loose shorts and a hoodie, towel around his neck, hair still damp.
“can we talk?” you asked.
he didn’t look at you, just nodded.
you sat down beside him. the silence stretched long.
“i’m going back the day after tomorrow,” you said softly. “they wrapped up the research earlier than expected.”
he nodded again. “that’s good.”
you felt the ache in your chest grow. heavy and stupid.
“i just wanted to say... thank you,” you continued, voice a little unsteady. “for letting me stay. for everything. i know things got complicated but... you didn’t have to be so generous. and still, you were.”
jaehyun looked at you then, something unreadable in his eyes.
“it was nothing,” he said. then after a pause, added, “i really did enjoy having you here.”
you blinked.
having you here.
did he mean sharing space? or sharing bodies? or something in between?
you didn’t ask. you couldn’t.
because suddenly, the idea of leaving felt like dragging a blade through your own chest.
but you smiled anyway. and nodded.
"me too..."
that night, the apartment was quiet—too quiet, except for the constant hum of the fan coming from the studio. It was the only sign that jaehyun was still there, locked away in that room like he wanted to disappear into the heat and noise.
you stood in the kitchen, stirring the last touches of the dinner you had prepared. the scent of garlic and herbs filled the air, but your appetite was gone. all you could think about was how everything was coming to an end. that in just two days, you’d be gone. back to your place. back to your normal life.
without him.
the thought squeezed your chest.
why did we let it end like this?
but maybe it was for the best. things were getting complicated… you were starting to feel something, and not just for jaehyun. sicheng’s soft smile haunted your thoughts more than it should. and it felt wrong. it felt like you were betraying someone, and you didn’t even know who anymore.
you walked toward the studio and gently knocked on the door.
"jaehyun," you said softly. "dinner’s ready."
a moment passed before you heard his voice, rough but calm. "i’m not eating dinner. i’m cutting it three weeks before the tournament."
you frowned. "three weeks? that’s hardcore."
"it helps me stay in weight class," he answered. "and sharp."
"you’re really impressive," you said honestly. "so disciplined… i don’t think i could sleep on an empty stomach."
you heard the lightest chuckle from inside. it made your lips curve, a warmth blooming in your chest.
"i was thinking," you added. "it’s getting really hot in there. why don’t you sleep in your room tonight?"
silence.
then his voice, slower this time: "i don’t want to make you uncomfortable. not after earlier."
"it doesn’t make me uncomfortable," you admitted, a little too fast. "what makes me feel worse is knowing you're locked in there, sweating your ass off just to keep distance from me."
more silence.
later that night, you watched him drag the extra mattress into the room. he didn’t say much. neither did you. he just placed it gently on the floor and started setting it up like it was the most normal thing in the world.
you crawled into your bed and faced the wall, but you could feel him there. his presence, his breath, his energy.
he was trying to give you space.
and it hurt.
was he doing this because you asked him to? or because he really didn’t want to be close anymore?
you closed your eyes, but sleep didn’t come.
not with your body still remembering the feel of his mouth.
not with your heart aching like this.
the room was still, humid with tension. jaehyun's mattress lay across from your bed, a quiet symbol of the space now between you. you could hear his breathing, steady and calm, and for a moment you wondered if he was already asleep.
you weren’t.
your skin was hot, your thoughts restless. every little thing about the day had only stirred the ache further. the weight of goodbye, the ghost of his mouth on yours, the memory of his body—
"jaehyun?" you whispered.
there was a pause. then, his voice, low and a little raspy: "yeah?"
you hesitated, fingers curling into the bedsheet. "can you… kiss me? just once more?"
a breath caught in his throat. "what?"
"just one last time," you whispered again, barely audible. “before i leave.”
he didn’t answer, not with words. you heard the rustle of his blanket, the shift of his weight. then he stood, walking across the room and sitting beside you. in the dark, you felt his hand brush your cheek. you leaned into it.
his kiss came soft, uncertain at first. lips barely moving. a farewell. a memory in the making.
then it deepened—sweet, aching, slow. his tongue gently parted your lips, as if savoring the moment. like he didn’t want to let it go. you moaned softly against his mouth, hands sliding up his shoulders, fingertips grazing the curve of his neck.
his hands followed the lines of your body, but he didn’t push—just held you, like he wanted to memorize how you felt under his fingertips.
you guided one of his hands downward, over your ribs, across your stomach, lower, until his palm was between your thighs, pressed over your heat.
he froze, breath stalling.
"you're wet," he whispered, stunned. his forehead touched yours. "can i kiss you there?"
your thighs shifted, your core pulsing beneath his touch. and even though the rational part of you screamed don’t, your lips whispered something else— "yes... please."
he didn’t hesitate. slowly, he slid down the bed, pushing the covers aside, placing soft kisses on your inner thighs as his hands gently separated them. your legs trembled as he settled between them, breath ghosting over your already soaked folds. you were burning. aching. breathless with anticipation.
"you’re so fucking sweet," he murmured, lips brushing just above your clit. "i’ll be gentle this time. promise."
his tongue met your heat like he’d been dying for this. slow, deliberate licks, tracing you open, savoring your taste like a man starved. his mouth wrapped around your clit and sucked softly, making your hips jerk against him, a gasp torn from your lips. you slapped a hand over your mouth to stay quiet—junhoe was still in the apartment—but your body refused to obey.
"baby..." he whispered, licking a stripe down your slit. "you said this was the last time... but how am i supposed to let go of this?"
you whimpered as his fingers joined the party, slipping two inside you with sinful precision. they moved in rhythm with his mouth, hitting that sweet spot over and over, your thighs shaking around his head.
you were going to come. embarrassingly fast. "fuck, j-jaehyun—" "i got you," he mumbled, voice deep and thick against your core. "just let go. i want to feel you fall apart for me one last time."
your body obeyed his words before your mind could catch up. the orgasm rolled over you like a wave—deep, warm, toe-curling. you bucked against his mouth, clenching around his fingers, moaning into the pillow to muffle your cries.
when you finally stilled, breath ragged, skin damp with sweat, he kissed your inner thigh again. gentle. reverent.
he crawled back up, resting beside you, lips swollen, eyes dark but soft.
you looked at him. flushed, breathless, wrecked by his mouth, and yet aching for more.
"that wasn’t just a kiss," you whispered.
"no," he said, brushing your hair off your face. "it was me showing you that i fucking meant it. all of it."

the next day, you were in class, sitting beside sicheng. the room smelled like linseed oil and graphite, the mellow scent of the arts building you’d come to love. your hands moved across the canvas, sketching lines with soft, deliberate strokes—though your mind was far from focused.
he leaned over you, reaching for a box of charcoals, and your hands brushed. just a moment. just fingertips. but it sent a shiver up your spine. later, as you both reached for the same jar of solvent, your elbows bumped, and you felt his warm breath near your cheek. again, it seemed like a coincidence, but every little contact made your stomach tighten.
you tried to concentrate, to breathe through the rising heat in your chest, but your thoughts kept pulling you back to last night. to Jaehyun. to the weight of his body. the sound of his voice when he was between your thighs. the way your name left his lips like a prayer and a plea.
you hadn’t even realized you’d been staring into nothing until sicheng turned slightly, studying your expression.
"you're distracted," he said softly, his voice like silk. “you’ve redrawn the same line five times.”
you gave a small, dry laugh and shook your head. “i guess i’m just… tired.”
he tilted his head, that same calm, unreadable smile dancing on his lips. “that’s not the look of someone who’s just tired. that’s the look of someone who keeps thinking about someone else.”
your heart skipped. his gaze was gentle, but piercing. he saw right through you.
you lowered your head, hiding the flush that rose to your cheeks. “i don’t want to talk about it,” you whispered with a sad smile.
he didn’t push. he just nodded. “okay,” he said simply. “but you should come tomorrow night. the dance club has a small showcase. nothing formal. just movement and music. might help you get out of your head for a while.”
you nodded slowly. he lifted a hand and gently placed it on your forehead, checking your temperature.
“no fever,” he murmured. “but something’s definitely burning in there.”
you almost melted from that touch, so full of care. that was sicheng—soft-spoken, graceful, thoughtful. so different from jaehyun, whose touch burned like wildfire and left you gasping.
sicheng’s energy was gentle rain.
jaehyun’s was summer lightning.
when you got back to the apartment, the day had started to fade. you were packing up your things—your sketchbooks, your clothes, the small souvenirs you’d collected during your stay. junhoe was outside, laughing with his girlfriend. jaehyun was still at training. he had warned you it would be intense this week, but told you to call him if you needed anything.
even after everything, he was still… good to you.
you ate alone. showered. and the silence of the apartment began to settle in your bones. it wasn’t just the heat that made your skin feel flushed—it was something deeper. more primal. your thighs rubbed together with a soft friction as you walked around your room, and the sensation only made things worse.
lying in bed, your mind betrayed you. you thought of his voice, his mouth, his hands on you. the way he’d whispered your name while he kissed down your body.
you shouldn't. you shouldn't. but your body ached. your fingers slipped under your shorts, brushing over sensitive skin. your breath caught. then deepened.
you moaned softly, barely biting down the sound. "jaehyun..." you whimpered his name like a secret, hips twitching, your core wet and throbbing from the memory.
you were too far gone to hear the knock at the door. too caught in the heat building between your thighs to register the voice on the other side.
“y/n?” jaehyun’s voice came again, more firm. “i’m coming in.”
you didn’t hear him.
so he opened the door.
and froze.
you were sprawled on the bed, your body arched, your fingers deep inside, glistening with your own need. you were panting, whispering his name in broken sighs, eyes shut tight.
his jaw clenched. his chest rose and fell rapidly as he stood there, rain still dripping from his hair. he hadn't even changed out of his workout clothes yet.
you opened your eyes.
and saw him.
the heat rushed to your face, but your body didn’t stop. not yet.
he stared at you like he couldn’t breathe.
you licked your lips, chest heaving.
“close the door,” you said softly, voice trembling, not from shame—but from desire.
jaehyun stood frozen for a heartbeat, rainwater dripping from his hair onto his shoulders, again, dark patches spreading across his shirt where sweat met humidity. his eyes devoured you—spread open, soaked with need, your fingers still buried in your pussy, slick and glistening under the dim light of your bedside lamp.
he moved.
the door clicked shut behind him.
you watched the muscles in his arms flex as his hand remained on the knob for just a second longer, as if trying to convince himself to stay on that side of the threshold. but it was too late. he had already seen you. already heard the way you moaned his name like a hunger. there was no turning back now.
he took one step, then another, until he was standing at the edge of the bed.
your fingers stilled, but didn’t leave your core. you kept your eyes on him, testing him. daring him.
“i couldn’t stop thinking about you,” you whispered, throat dry. “about your mouth... your hands…”
his breath hitched.
then, as if that snapped the leash he’d been holding all day, he moved. fast.
he dropped to his knees at the edge of the bed, his large hands sliding under your thighs, pulling you to the edge like you weighed nothing. his eyes locked with yours—dark, intense, but still seeking permission.
you nodded.
“say it,” he rasped, his lips barely touching the inside of your thigh. “tell me i can taste you.”
“please,” you breathed. “i need your mouth on me… now.”
he groaned like a starving man given his first taste, and then he was on you.
his tongue swept over your folds in one slow, deliberate lick that made your entire body shudder. his grip on your thighs tightened, spreading you further, anchoring you against the mattress. he licked you again, then again, teasing the edges of your clit before finally sucking it between his lips and giving it the attention you were dying for.
you cried out, your back arching, one hand flying to his hair, gripping it as you rolled your hips into his face. he moaned against you, the vibration shooting up your spine like lightning.
“f-fuck, jae,” you gasped, legs already trembling.
he hummed in response, pulling you closer, burying his face deeper between your thighs. his tongue flicked, circled, then flattened against your clit in slow, rhythmic pressure that made your stomach twist in the best way.
and then—one finger slid inside you. then another.
you clenched around him with a moan that echoed off the walls.
he fucked you with his fingers as his tongue worked your clit like he knew every nerve ending in your body. it was too much. it wasn’t enough. your moans got louder, needier, your hips grinding into his mouth.
you were so close.
“i’m gonna—jaehyun, i—!”
he sucked hard, curling his fingers just right—
and you shattered.
your thighs clamped around his head, your scream muffled by your own palm as your orgasm tore through you like a wave crashing, your body convulsing in pleasure as you rode his mouth, unable to stop the way you trembled.
he held you through it, slow and patient, licking you gently, easing you down with soft kisses and slow fingers until your body finally collapsed against the bed, boneless and buzzing.
when he finally pulled back, his mouth was glistening with you. his chest rose and fell in heavy breaths, his eyes dark and wild.
and then, he leaned up and whispered against your lips—
“your turn to taste me.”

the next morning came quicker than you'd hoped. the sun barely kissed the windows when you were already up, heart still aching with confusion, with memories—tender and hot—that clung to your skin like ghostly hands. you got dressed in something simple, but lovely. not for anyone in particular, or so you told yourself… but deep down, you knew better. for him. maybe.
the chinese classical dance showcase was held in the university’s small theater, adorned with flowing red curtains and warm lighting that gave the place a soft, enchanted glow. there was a hush in the room as people took their seats, the air filled with anticipation and the faint notes of traditional instruments.
and then, when the lights dimmed and the curtain pulled open—he appeared.
sicheng.
draped in silk that flowed with every precise, delicate movement, his presence on stage was otherworldly. ethereal. like he didn’t belong to the same world as the rest of you. he moved with an elegance that stole your breath—arms extended in slow, sinuous arcs, his fingers painting invisible poems in the air. each leap, each spin, was poetry, full of grace and intention. time bent around him. for the minutes he danced, there was no past, no tomorrow. only him.
you were spellbound. your chest tightened with something sweet and dangerous. why does he have this effect on me?
sicheng twirled in the air as if he were defying gravity itself, his silhouette floating with a grace that felt unreal. his hair moved with the rhythm of his body, the folds of his costume danced like soft waves around him. every muscle seemed to flow with pure, clean, almost sacred intention.
your eyes followed him in a trance... but then, a blink—and the image of his body was replaced by another. more solid. more earthly. more raw...
the room was silent, save for the ragged breathing between you. the light was dim, just a small lamp casting a warm glow over the sheets. jaehyun had you pinned against them, his hair still damp, his eyes lit up. he had just made you come with his mouth, his tongue. and now... now he was looking at you with a wicked grin, a drop of sweat trailing down his temple.
“now it’s your turn to taste me,” he said in a low, husky voice, his fingers brushing your cheeks before guiding your face down.
you settled between his legs and took him into your mouth, savoring the heat and weight of his erection, feeling his body tighten with every move of your lips. your fingers traced along his thighs as you let him slide deeper, eager, hungry. he moaned your name, one hand tangled in your hair, the other caressing your neck, your shoulder... his hips trembling beneath your attention.
when he finally came in your mouth, you swallowed it all, never breaking eye contact, as if that moment was a statement. of desire. of surrender. of something you weren't sure was just sex anymore.
a sudden wave of applause jolted you back to the present.
the lights on the stage had changed. sicheng was now bowing, his chest rising and falling gently as he caught his breath, his lips parted in a serene smile. his fellow dancers joined him, their elegant costumes glowing under the soft stage lights, but you couldn’t focus on anyone else. just him. the way a drop of sweat trailed along his jawline, how the fabric of his outfit clung to his body in all the right places. ethereal, beautiful, almost not real.
your cheeks were burning. not just from the warmth of the theater.
you’d just spent the last few minutes with your mind between jaehyun’s thighs.
clapping like the rest, you tried to mask your daze, but your pulse was racing. your lips tingled with memory. and yet… your eyes were on sicheng, on his grace, his soft composure, the quiet elegance that contrasted everything about last night.
he caught your gaze then—just for a second. he smiled. gentle. curious. and maybe, just maybe, a little bashful.
your hands shook a little as you held the floral arrangement you brought of white lilies and soft lavender stems, carefully wrapped in pale gold paper. you hadn't planned to bring flowers. it had been a sudden impulse at a corner stand on your way to the venue. but now, looking at his glowing face and flushed cheeks, it felt like the right choice, not until you saw him step off the stage, cheeks flushed from the exertion, his hair slightly damp with sweat.
you approached, heart hammering, and when you handed him the bouquet, his eyes widened. “for me?” he asked softly, voice like velvet.
you nodded, suddenly shy. “you were… incredible.”
a faint pink spread across his cheeks. around him, a few of his dance friends whistled and nudged each other, muttering playful comments under their breath.
“damn, sicheng. didn’t know you had a secret admirer.”
“who’s this pretty girl, huh?”
he smiled awkwardly and turned to you. “don’t listen to them,” he said quietly, taking the flowers with both hands like they were something fragile. precious. “but… thank you. really.”
you smiled back, heart fluttering wildly. you didn’t know what any of this meant yet. but you knew one thing: for those minutes watching him dance, the only person in your mind was him.
or maybe not...
his friends were still teasing him behind their hands, but in that moment, it felt like you and him were in your own little world.
a quiet pause stretched between you.
then—
“want to go for a walk?” he asked softly. “i still feel like i’m floating. and maybe i need help grounding myself.”
you smiled, heart stuttering in your chest.
“yeah… i think i need that too.”
sicheng walked up to you with his face softly lit by the park’s lanterns, the same ones now catching on the edges of the petals he held between his fingers—the small bouquet you'd given him after the performance. his steps were slow, careful, as if he didn’t want to disturb the fragile stillness between you.
"thanks for coming," he said, his voice quiet, almost like a breath.
you nodded, still caught in the afterglow of watching him move on stage. the way his body floated, controlled yet weightless, like he wasn’t bound by the rules of gravity. you hadn’t expected it to affect you like this. but it had. deeply.
"it was beautiful, sicheng… really. i couldn’t take my eyes off you," you said, almost absentmindedly. your fingers fidgeted with the sleeve of your coat, as if trying to hold on to something more solid than your drifting emotions.
he smiled, just slightly, but didn’t look away.
"you were like a feather in the wind… so light. So fluid. i didn’t know you could move like that."
you kept talking, caught in the spell of the moment. and then, before you realized it, the words slipped out.
"that's why I liked you so much…"
silence.
sicheng blinked, tilting his head like he wasn’t sure he’d heard you right.
"you liked me?"
your breath hitched, panic fluttering in your chest. "i—i mean… i used to. in the past. it was just a little crush," you rushed, trying to backtrack. "it doesn’t matter anymore."
sicheng watched you carefully, his expression unreadable. "so… do you still like me?"
you hesitated. "no!" you said too quickly, too sharply. then softer, almost afraid of the weight your own voice carried. "no..."
but his eyes stayed on yours, gentle but questioning. you sighed.
"maybe. i mean, a little. i think… the feelings are coming back. but i know you don’t feel the same way, and that’s okay. you don’t have to worry or feel pressured or anything like that, sicheng. i just hope this doesn’t change anything between us. i'd hate to make you uncomfortable. and if you want me to stay away, i will. just… please, don’t be upset."
you looked down, cheeks burning, heart pounding in your ears. you’d said too much, or maybe not enough. you couldn’t tell.
sicheng stood there for a moment, as if processing your words. the soft rustle of leaves in the breeze was the only sound between you, a small, peaceful distance that felt so wide in the silence. he stepped a little closer, his eyes soft but intense, and then he spoke, his voice steady and calm, but there was a hint of vulnerability in it.
"don’t worry," he said with a gentle smile, his hand reaching out to lightly touch your arm, offering comfort. "i won’t be upset. i’m not going to ask you to stay away. i'm your friend, and that won’t change because of this."
He paused for a beat, looking at you as if searching for something in your eyes, something more than just the words you’d said. He wanted to make sure you were okay.
"but…" he continued, his voice dropping a bit, "i can't pretend i don't care about you. i think i always have, even if i never said it before. it’s just… it’s complicated now, and i don’t want you to feel pressured either. so, let’s just take it slow, okay? we don’t need to rush anything."
sicheng's expression softened even further, and for a moment, it was like the world around you two disappeared. his smile wasn’t just comforting, it was full of understanding.
you were standing so close to him now, your heart beating loudly in your chest. the air between you was thick with unspoken words, with tension you couldn’t ignore. you hesitated, staring into his eyes, wondering if you were truly ready for what you were about to ask.
“now that you know… can you do me a favor?” the words came out quieter than you intended, the weight of them settling heavily in the air.
sicheng blinked, his eyes narrowing in thought as he processed your request. “a favor? what do you mean?”
your gaze flickered away from his, your voice catching in your throat. you weren’t sure if you could bring yourself to say it aloud. but the urge was too strong, the need inside of you too overwhelming. you exhaled slowly, almost in defeat.
“can i kiss you?”
his eyes widened, the shock registering in the brief silence that followed. for a moment, it felt like the world had stopped. his breath caught in his throat, and you saw the uncertainty flicker across his features.
“you want to... kiss me?” he asked, his voice almost a whisper, like he couldn’t believe what he was hearing.
you nodded, barely able to meet his gaze. "yes... i just... i need to know. i need to know how it feels, how your lips taste. it's... it's been eating at me, this feeling. maybe... maybe it’s just to push this feeling away. i don’t know."
he stood frozen for a moment, his expression a mix of shock and something you couldn’t place. he looked at you for a long, lingering second, his eyes searching yours as if to see if you were being serious. then, he seemed to shake himself from the stupor and scratched the back of his neck, nervous and unsure.
“i… i didn’t think you’d say that,” he muttered, voice a little rough, the words tangled in his throat.
he lowered his gaze for a brief moment, his hand nervously brushing his cheek. “i’m not sure what to think. but…” he trailed off, and when he met your eyes again, there was something unreadable in his gaze. “okay. but… make it quick.”
you felt your heart beat faster at his words, the rush of anticipation and fear flooding through you. you didn’t know if you were making the right choice, but the craving was too strong, and there was no turning back now.
you took a step forward, the movement slow, deliberate. you could feel the tension in your own body, the nervous energy that seemed to hum through the air. his body was stiff, unsure, but he didn’t pull away. he waited.
with shaky hands, you placed them on his shoulders, feeling his muscles tense under your touch. his breath hitched, and you swore you could hear the thumping of your own heart. you leaned in slowly, your lips brushing against his for a split second. It was a soft, tentative touch, like testing the waters. But the moment your lips met, something shifted.
the kiss wasn’t just a kiss. it was a question. it was an answer. you were both asking for something, craving something that neither of you could fully understand.
you pulled back slightly, looking into his eyes, searching for any hint of what he was feeling. but before you could even process his reaction, he leaned in again, his lips meeting yours with more urgency this time. his hand moved to your back, pulling you closer. the kiss deepened, and everything around you seemed to blur, the world fading away except for the heat between you two.
the kiss was no longer short, no longer just a way to silence the burning question. it was desperate, as if you both needed more, as if this was something that had been building for so long that it couldn’t be contained any longer. his hands roamed up your back, fingers digging into your skin, pulling you even closer. you felt the heat rise in you, the growing need to touch, to feel, to be lost in him.
his lips moved against yours with a purpose, his body pressing into yours as if there was no room for anything but the two of you. the kiss continued, each second stretching into eternity, each touch, each brush of skin against skin, sending sparks through your body.
but then, reality hit. you pulled back, gasping for air, your chest rising and falling rapidly. his breathing was heavy as well, his eyes wide, lips still tingling from the kiss. you couldn’t stop the rush of emotions flooding through you—desire, confusion, fear.
“i… i shouldn’t have done that,” you whispered, your voice shaky.
sicheng didn’t say anything immediately. he looked at you, his expression unreadable, like he was trying to piece together everything that had just happened. the silence stretched on, heavy between you. his hand brushed over his mouth, as if he were still feeling the sensation of your lips on his.
you couldn’t look him in the eye, the weight of your actions crashing down on you. the tension between you was unbearable now, and you didn’t know what would come next.
then, in the distance, you heard footsteps. jaehyun. he had finished his workout and was walking out of the gym, just as you and sicheng stood frozen in the aftermath of what had just transpired. jaehyun’s eyes caught yours and sicheng’s, and in that moment, you saw the flash of recognition in his gaze. he froze in place, staring at you both, the confusion and pain clear on his face.
his chest tightened as he processed the sight before him, and in an instant, something inside him seemed to break. all the thoughts, all the moments he had imagined between the two of you seemed to shatter. it was like a cruel slap to the face, reality crashing down on him, and he turned away, the pain settling into his chest, knowing that everything had just changed.
the sound of your footsteps felt heavier than they should have as they echoed through the empty apartment. you were packing your things, moving with mechanical precision, but your mind couldn’t escape the haunting image of last night. the kiss. sicheng. his hands. your heart pounding in your chest like it might explode.
everything about it was vivid. the heat of his body, the intensity in his eyes, the way he touched you... and now, as you stood there, surrounded by your things, you felt lost. something inside you had snapped, and you couldn’t figure out why. you didn’t understand what you had just done.
you had run. you hadn’t even thought about it. you ran from sicheng, from the confusion, from the storm of emotions swirling inside you. you ignored his calls, not because you didn’t care, but because you couldn’t explain something you didn’t even understand yourself. you felt terrible—empty.
you paused, feeling your body shake, your hands trembling. you bent over slightly, resting your hands on your knees, trying to steady yourself. the nausea in your stomach was unbearable, like it was rising from deep within you. it wasn’t the kiss, it wasn’t what had happened between you and sicheng—it was something deeper. something didn’t feel right. It felt wrong. simply wrong.
and then you remembered. the night before. the night you had been with jaehyun. you had been in his arms, lost in him, and it had felt real. sincere. everything about it had been intense, wild, and raw. but now, with sicheng, you felt nothing but emptiness. a hollow sensation that gnawed at you from the inside. why didn’t you feel the same way with jaehyun? why did everything feel so deliriously good with him? why had it felt like it was right, like you belonged there? now, you couldn’t shake the feeling that you had just made a mistake.
you sank down onto the floor, your back against the wall, and buried your face in your hands. the dizziness didn’t fade. the weight of your thoughts was suffocating. you needed to breathe. you needed to calm down.
but how could you calm down when you didn’t know what you were feeling? you had been with jaehyun—everything had felt so right with him, so raw and real. and now… now it all seemed confusing. you had never felt this conflicted before.
you didn’t know if you could trust your feelings anymore.
and then you heard it—the silence, the absence of his presence. jaehyun. he hadn’t come home. you hadn’t heard from him all day. no messages. no calls. nothing.
he had left first. and you hadn’t even had the chance to reach him. you had tried, but it was impossible. the way he looked at you—the hurt in his eyes, the disappointment. you could feel it still. he had seen you, had seen the two of you together, and something in his expression had shattered. he didn’t want to see you anymore. not after what you’d done.
your stomach churned again. the truth was that you didn’t want to be in this mess, but here you were, trapped in a web of confusion, unable to untangle the feelings inside you.
you couldn’t go back. you couldn’t change what had happened with jaehyun or with sicheng.
and yet, here you were. lost in the aftermath.
jaehyun’s footsteps were heavy as he walked down the darkened streets, each step taking him farther from the image that had been seared into his mind. he had tried to push it away, tried to shake off the sting of seeing you and sicheng together, but the moment kept replaying in his head.
he hadn’t returned to the apartment. no, he couldn’t. not after what he had seen. not after the raw, aching pain that twisted in his chest when he saw you, your lips pressed against his. the image of sicheng’s hands on your body, his lips moving with yours, had made his stomach churn with a mix of anger and hurt. he hadn’t expected it—he hadn’t prepared for the jealousy that hit him like a punch to the gut.
his thoughts were scattered as he wandered aimlessly. he ended up at taeyong’s place, needing a distraction, anything to stop the storm of emotions that had overtaken him. he let himself in, muttering a brief greeting before collapsing on the couch. taeyong was there, of course, with a drink in hand, silently observing him. jaehyun didn’t speak at first, just grabbed the glass taeyong offered him and took a long sip, feeling the burn of alcohol slide down his throat. it was the only thing that seemed to calm the fire inside him.
“you look like you’ve seen a ghost,” taeyong remarked, his voice laced with concern.
jaehyun let out a bitter laugh. "no, it's worse. i saw something i wasn’t supposed to see."
taeyong raised an eyebrow but didn’t push him further. jaehyun didn’t need to explain. taeyong always understood. he leaned back into the couch, his mind replaying the scene—your face, the way you kissed sicheng, like you belonged to him. jaehyun felt a tightness in his chest. he didn’t know why it hurt so much. he wasn’t even sure where he stood with you anymore. you had been so distant recently, and yet, seeing you with him, it felt like a betrayal.
it wasn’t that he hadn’t seen this coming—he had. he just hadn’t expected it to hit him this hard. and now, every drink he took seemed to make him forget for a moment, but the feeling always returned. the hurt. the confusion. the jealousy.
jaehyun’s fingers tightened around the glass, his mind swirling with thoughts of you. why didn’t you tell me? his chest ached, but he didn’t want to confront you—not yet. he wasn’t ready to face whatever was happening between you two.
he didn’t know if he was angry, heartbroken, or just lost. all he knew was that he couldn’t shake the image of you and sicheng together, and it felt like something inside him had snapped.
“damn it,” jaehyun muttered under his breath, taking another sip, his gaze distant.
the days passed slowly, like honey sliding down glass—thick, heavy, and impossible to stop.
you left the apartment the very next morning. you didn’t wait for jaehyun to return. maybe you were too ashamed. or maybe… you were afraid of what his silence truly meant. returning to your own place felt like stepping backward into a version of yourself you had outgrown. everything was still the same, but everything felt different.
unpacking was painful. every folded shirt, every book you placed back on the shelf carried the weight of disappointment. guilt clung to you like damp clothes. you had betrayed something you hadn’t even fully understood yet. something tender. something real. something that had bloomed quietly between you and jaehyun… and now was ruined.
yes, you were the one who ended it. you had been the one to say "we shouldn't" back when things got too deep. you told him not to catch feelings. and still—you had let him back in the same way he’d always slipped through the cracks in your walls. and now, after everything, there was nothing.
no calls.
no texts.
no late-night knocks on your door.
even though he knew exactly where you lived.
nothing.
you cried for the first few days. not because he hadn’t come, but because you didn’t know what you wanted him to do anymore. you were angry with yourself—for wanting him despite it all. for needing his arms when you had no right to ask for them. sicheng had kept his distance too. and you? you let him. maybe that was for the best.
your friends tried to distract you—girls’ nights, coffee dates, random gossip and karaoke—but they didn’t know. not really. they assumed you had fallen for sicheng again, that he’d rejected you for good this time. and you didn’t correct them. it wasn’t entirely a lie, but it wasn’t the whole truth either.
two weeks passed. fourteen days without a word from him. and you were slowly starting to accept it.
until—
it was a thursday afternoon when your paths finally crossed again.
you were at the university gym, dropping off some flyers for the art department's spring showcase. you weren’t expecting to see anyone. especially not him.
but there he was.
inside the training room, under the harsh fluorescent lights, gloves on, sweat clinging to his shirt. jaehyun. focused. sharp. fierce. every punch he threw looked like it carried a piece of the storm inside him. his coach barked something, and jaehyun adjusted his stance, but his movements were tight. frustrated.
you froze outside the glass doors, unsure if you should move or melt into the floor. but then he noticed you.
his eyes caught yours.
and for a moment, everything stopped.
he didn’t look angry. he didn’t look cold. he looked tired.
he stepped out of the ring, pulled off his gloves, and walked toward you slowly, wiping his face with a towel. you swallowed, nerves curling in your stomach like fists.
“hey,” you said, your voice barely audible.
he didn’t answer right away. Just stood there, chest rising and falling, eyes scanning you like he didn’t know whether to breathe you in or let you go again.
“i wasn’t sure i’d ever see you again,” he finally said, his voice low.
“i didn’t think you’d want to,” you replied. you bit your lip. “you didn’t come. or call. i thought that was your answer.”
he looked down, exhaled slowly, then met your gaze again. “i couldn’t.”
his voice cracked just a little. “i tried... every day. but i couldn’t look at you and not remember…”
you stepped forward, just slightly. “I know, i know it was... awful.”
“no,” he interrupted. “you don’t understand. i didn’t stay away because i hate you. i stayed away because i didn’t know how to stop wanting you even after everything.”
silence stretched between you. the hallway suddenly felt too quiet.
“i ruined it,” you whispered.
jaehyun shook his head. “maybe. maybe not.”
another pause.
“i have a fight in three days,” he added, softer. “it’s my biggest match yet. national-level. i’ve been training harder than ever. but… it hasn’t helped.”
you frowned. “why?”
“because you’re still here,” he said, placing his hand over his chest. “and i can’t punch that away.”
tears pricked your eyes, and your breath caught in your throat.
“i’m not asking for anything,” you said quietly. “i just… i missed you.”
his gaze softened. “me too.”
then, slowly, he reached for your hand, curling his fingers around yours like he wasn’t sure if this was a mistake. like touching you might hurt—but not touching you hurt more.
“you coming to watch me fight?” he asked, with the faintest of smirks. “or do i have to win without you in the crowd?”
you let out a soft laugh, choking on emotion. “i’ll be there.”
“good.” he gave your hand a gentle squeeze. “because i want to win with you watching. not for you. just… with you there.”
and for the first time in two weeks, your heart didn’t feel like it was splitting open. it just felt full.
the crowd was louder than you expected. people packed the stands, their voices rising in a chorus of cheers, whistles, and anxious calls. the atmosphere in the arena pulsed with energy, but all you could hear was your own heartbeat.
and jaehyun’s name being called.
you were sitting near the front, just behind his coach, surrounded by other athletes, trainers, and curious fans. the lights dimmed slightly as the announcer’s voice echoed across the arena.
“coming to the ring now… jung jaehyun!”
you stood without realizing, eyes wide as he stepped into the spotlight. his robe slid off his shoulders, revealing the toned body you already knew too well, but now wrapped in determination. his jaw was clenched, his eyes locked forward. he looked powerful, composed—like a storm waiting to be unleashed.
but when his eyes scanned the crowd…
he found you.
for a split second, his expression shifted. just a flicker of softness in the middle of all that steel. and that was just for you.
you felt it deep inside—something warm, something alive again.
the bell rang.
the first round started fast.
his opponent was no amateur—he moved with precision, like a shadow in motion. jaehyun didn’t hesitate. he dodged, countered, landed a jab. then another. you gripped the edge of your seat, body tense with every strike. he was holding his own. no—he was winning.
but then the second round came, and it got messier.
the other boxer caught him hard—right hook to the ribs, then a left jab to the cheek that made jaehyun stumble. gasps filled the room, and your heart dropped into your stomach.
he got back up.
you rose from your seat, whispering his name under your breath like a prayer. come on, jaehyun… come on.
and he did. like a man possessed.
round three was war. each punch carried purpose, rage, and focus. his muscles burned, but he didn’t stop. he pushed through the pain, through the exhaustion, through whatever was still bleeding inside him. because you were watching.
he could feel you watching.
in the final seconds of the round, he landed a brutal uppercut that knocked his opponent clean off his feet. the crowd erupted. the bell rang.
and he won.
you didn’t realize you were crying until someone nudged you, telling you it was over. that he’d done it.
but all you could think was—he’s going to look for me.
and he did.
still breathless, sweat clinging to him like a second skin, jaehyun left the ring and walked straight toward you. no interviews. no press. no team celebration.
just you.
he reached you in two long strides, grabbed your face with both hands, and kissed you so fiercely you forgot how to breathe. the world fell away. no one else mattered.
when he finally pulled back, his forehead resting against yours, he whispered:
“i needed you there. i fought better because of you.”
your voice cracked as you whispered back, “i’ve always been with you.”
and in that moment—under the lights, in front of everyone, after all the silence and all the mistakes—he smiled.
because no matter how broken it had felt…
you were here.
and maybe, just maybe, you were going to be okay.
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📩 Reader Request: Reader has been working for the bengals since Joe got drafted. She can be a social media admin, public relations liaison or even a physical therapist. She’s been in love with him but it is unrequited while he was with Olivia and when they break up she thought that she had a chance but he starts seeing the influencer but please make it a happy ending. Angst as fuck but happy ending. I want to see this girl yearning for fucking years before she gets him and I want him to realize that she is the love of his life.

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December 2024 - Joe's Home
Joe stared at his phone, Y/N's last text still unanswered from three days ago. It had been about the upcoming playoff content strategy—completely professional, the kind of message that used to lead to longer conversations but now just sat there, marked as read.
The house felt different with Ellie visiting for the week. She'd been understanding about his game preparation, setting up her work station in the guest room to film content while he focused on film study. Her schedule was flexible enough that she could work from anywhere, which made these longer visits possible.
"How's the playoff prep going?" Ellie asked, appearing in the doorway of his media room with a bottle of water. She was dressed for one of her morning routine videos—athleisure that looked effortless but Joe knew was carefully chosen.
"Good," Joe said, pausing the defensive film he'd been studying. "Ravens are going to be tough, but we're ready."
Ellie nodded, though Joe could tell she was already mentally moving on to her next task. She supported his career without needing to understand the specifics, which was actually refreshing after years of people wanting detailed breakdowns of every play call.
"I'm going to film some content about supporting someone during playoff season," she said, settling her coffee on his desk. "Nothing with you in it, obviously. Just my perspective on the intensity of this time of year."
Joe appreciated that she understood his boundaries about appearing in her content. Their relationship was public now, but he kept his participation in her social media to a minimum. She got great engagement from her football girlfriend content without needing him to perform for her camera.
"That'll be good," Joe said. "Your followers seem to like the behind-the-scenes stuff."
"They do," Ellie agreed, already moving toward the door. "I'll be quiet while you finish up."
After she left, Joe returned to his film study, but found his attention drifting. The house was peaceful—Ellie working in her space, him working in his. It was comfortable, uncomplicated.
So why did he keep thinking about Y/N's unanswered text?
He pulled up his phone again, looking at the text thread with Y/N. His message about playoff content strategy from three days ago was still there, marked as read but unanswered. A simple work question that would have gotten an immediate response a year ago. Now, radio silence.
Joe set his phone aside, telling himself he was reading too much into it. Y/N was busy, playoffs were intense, everyone was focused. The slight distance he'd been sensing was probably just professional efficiency under pressure.
But something nagged at him as he tried to refocus on film. Y/N had been different since Thanksgiving, since news of his relationship with Ellie had become public. Not unprofessional—never that. But contained in a way that felt deliberate.
Ellie was upstairs in the guest room, probably filming content about playoff season or her morning routine. She was good at what she did, professional in her content creation, understanding about the demands of his schedule.
It was exactly what he needed right now—someone who supported his career without adding complications or demanding emotional energy he didn't have to spare.
Joe returned to his film study, pushing aside the nagging feeling that something had shifted in his world without him noticing when or why.
* * *
December 2024 - Three Days Later
Joe's phone buzzed with a team notification as he finished his morning workout. Group message from Y/N about updated practice schedules for the week. Professional, efficient, sent to the entire offensive unit.
He'd noticed she'd been handling most communications through group messages lately rather than direct texts. Made sense from an organizational standpoint, but it felt impersonal compared to their usual dynamic.
Ellie was in the kitchen when he came upstairs, phone propped on the counter as she filmed herself making what she called her "playoff week smoothie"—something green and instagram-worthy that she'd promote for one of her wellness sponsors.
"Morning, babe," she said, glancing up from her filming setup. "How was the workout?"
"Good," Joe said, grabbing water from the fridge. "Feeling ready for practice today."
"That's great," Ellie replied, returning her attention to the camera. "As I was saying, maintaining routine during high-stress periods is so important for mental health..."
Joe listened with half attention as Ellie wrapped up her content, marveling at how naturally she could shift between conversation with him and her professional presenter voice. She'd built an impressive following by being authentic about her life while still maintaining the polish that brands wanted to work with.
After she finished filming, Ellie settled beside him at the counter. "I'm thinking of flying back to LA tomorrow instead of Thursday. Give you more space to focus before the game."
Joe felt a flash of something—relief? guilt?—at the suggestion. "You don't have to do that. This is your routine too now."
"I know," Ellie said, bumping his shoulder gently. "But I can tell when you need full game mode. I've got meetings I could move up anyway."
The considerate gesture was typical Ellie—understanding his needs without making him feel guilty for having them. She'd adapted to the rhythms of his career without trying to change them or demanding more attention than he could give during intense periods.
"If you're sure," Joe said. "I appreciate how flexible you are with all this."
"It's part of dating you," Ellie replied matter-of-factly. "I knew what I was signing up for."
Later, as Joe drove to the facility, he found himself thinking about Ellie's easy acceptance of his career demands. She never pushed for more time or attention than he could give, never made him feel guilty for being unavailable during crucial weeks.
It was exactly what he should want—a partner who understood professional obligations and didn't create additional stress during already intense periods.
But arriving at the facility, Joe felt that familiar anticipation about seeing Y/N that he'd been trying to ignore. Not for any specific reason—just the comfortable rhythm of their collaboration, the way she understood the nuances of game preparation in ways that made his media obligations feel manageable rather than burdensome.
Walking through the halls, Joe realized he was looking forward to their usual pre-practice check-in about content needs, about his comfort level with different interview approaches, about the small collaborative details that made working with her effortless.
He just hoped whatever distance he'd been sensing lately was temporary, a function of playoff stress rather than something more permanent.
The thought that Y/N might be pulling back deliberately—Joe didn’t like that thought.
* * *
Three weeks after Y/N's return from Louisville
Joe had been watching Y/N for weeks now, cataloging the subtle changes in her behavior like he studied defensive formations. The way she'd started taking different routes through the facility. How she'd position herself in meetings to avoid direct eye contact. The careful timing of her arrivals and departures to minimize their overlap.
It wasn't random. It was strategic. And Joe was tired of pretending he didn't notice.
He found her outside the edit room, tablet in hand, completely absorbed in reviewing footage. For a moment, Joe just watched her work—the focused intensity that had always characterized her approach to everything, the way she'd unconsciously tuck her hair behind her ear when concentrating.
"Coffee this week?" The question came out more loaded than he'd intended, but Joe was past caring about subtlety. "We haven't really caught up since you got back from Louisville."
Y/N didn't look up from her tablet, her attention seemingly fixed on whatever footage she was reviewing. "Crazy schedule right now. Maybe next time."
The deflection came easily. Joe realized this wasn’t the first time she’d used that exact response.
"That's what you said last week," he said, letting frustration color his voice. "And the week before."
"End of season push," Y/N replied without missing a beat. "You know how it is."
Joe studied her face, noting the careful way she kept her eyes on the screen, the slight tension in her shoulders that suggested she was working to maintain composure. This wasn't busy—this was avoidance.
"Y/N." He let her name hang in the air, dropping his voice to get her attention. "I know something's going on. This isn't just about workload."
For a split second, Y/N's mask slipped. Joe caught the flicker of something—vulnerability, maybe, or recognition that he'd seen through her careful performance. But it was gone quickly, replaced by that same professional neutrality.
"Nothing's going on," she said, finally looking up with a smile that belonged in a press conference. "Just managing workflow. Speaking of which, I need to get these edits to the team."
The polite dismissal stung worse than anger would have. This was how Y/N dealt with difficult players, with media members she didn’t trust. Professional courtesy wrapped around steel boundaries.
Joe decided to abandon subtlety entirely.
"You've been avoiding me since Louisville," he said, not letting her step away. "Since the Ellie thing hit the news."
Y/N went very still, and Joe felt a grim satisfaction that he'd finally cut through her careful deflections. Her heart rate had picked up—he could see it in the slight acceleration of her breathing.
"I'm not avoiding anyone," she replied, but her voice had lost some of its steadiness. "I'm re-prioritizing assignments based on team needs."
Joe’s eyes narrowed. That was bullshit and they both knew it.
"If you say so," he said, stepping aside to let her pass. But he wasn't done. "We'll talk again soon."
Joe watched her walk away. She was trying to look unaffected, but he could tell his words had hit home.
He knew Y/N well enough to see through the professional act. She was protecting herself from something.
From what? From him?
Joe knew what was wrong. Deep down, he knew why Y/N's behavior had shifted right after news of his relationship with Ellie broke. The timing wasn't coincidental.
He'd been telling himself it was about professionalism, about Y/N maintaining appropriate boundaries. But that was bullshit. Joe thought about their easy conversations over the years, the way Y/N had been present for his most vulnerable moments during recovery, the connection that had been building between them before he'd gotten scared and chosen Ellie instead.
Because that's what he'd done, wasn't it? Chosen the safe option when what he felt for Y/N had started to feel too real, too complicated. He'd seen the way she looked at him sometimes, felt the charge in the air between them, and instead of dealing with it, he'd found someone else.
Y/N wasn't just maintaining professional distance. She was protecting herself from the guy who'd basically told her she wasn't worth the risk. The guy who'd picked someone else when things started to feel real.
He'd known this was coming. Had maybe even known it when he'd started dating Ellie in the first place.
* * *
Staff Meeting
Joe sat through the first half of the playoff media strategy meeting barely paying attention, watching Y/N instead. She'd positioned herself at the opposite end of the conference table, as far from him as possible. She ran through coverage plans and platform strategies like she always did, completely professional, completely competent.
But when she started assigning responsibilities, Joe's attention sharpened.
"Tyler will continue handling quarterback coverage," Y/N said, her tone suggesting this was a foregone conclusion. "We want consistency through the playoff run."
Joe's jaw tightened. Four years of working together, and she was just going to reassign him like it was nothing? Like he didn't get a say?
"I want Y/N for the post-game segment," he said, interrupting whatever conversation was happening around him. "We have a system."
The words came out sharper than he'd meant them to, but he didn't care anymore. She was cutting him out completely, and he wasn't going to just sit there and take it.
Y/N looked right at him. "Tyler's been doing your segments for weeks. We need to keep things consistent for playoffs."
She was missing the point entirely. This wasn't about Tyler. This was about her avoiding him.
"Y/N knows my cues better," Joe pressed, maintaining eye contact despite her obvious discomfort. "It makes more sense."
He watched her face, looking for something—anything—that showed this was hard for her too. Nothing.
"Tyler's done an excellent job," she replied smoothly. "And I'll be overseeing all content production. The current assignments stand."
The way she shut him down, in front of everyone—it stung. The finality in her voice, how she wouldn't even consider what he wanted, felt like she was dismissing everything they'd built together over four years. Joe noticed the room had gone quiet, people looking between them like they could sense something was off.
After the meeting broke up, Joe hung back, hoping to catch Y/N alone. But she was already packing up her stuff, moving with that practiced efficiency that meant she'd planned her escape before the meeting even started.
So this was how it was going to be. Y/N's distance wasn't about workload or being busy with playoffs. It was personal. She was actively tearing down everything they'd worked to build together, systematically dismantling four years of collaboration like it had never mattered at all.
As Joe watched Y/N leave the conference room without a backward glance, he felt the pieces finally click into place. This wasn't just about professional boundaries or protecting their working relationship.
Y/N had feelings for him. Had probably had them for longer than he'd realized.
And his relationship with Ellie had forced her to choose between her job and her heart. She'd chosen her job, built walls to keep herself safe, and now she was systematically dismantling everything they'd shared to protect what was left.
The recognition hit him like a punch to the gut. He'd been so focused on his own fear of complications that he'd completely missed what was happening right in front of him.
Joe thought about their friendship, about the easy conversations and mutual trust that had developed over years of working together. He thought about Y/N's presence during his recovery, her understanding during his most vulnerable moments, the way she'd made him feel seen and supported when everything else felt uncertain.
All those moments during his recovery, the easy conversations, the way she'd look at him sometimes—it hadn't been just professional support.
* * *
Later that day
Joe was reviewing game film when Sam's voice in the hallway caught his attention. Y/N's name made him pause the video.
"...different since she got back from Louisville," he heard someone say. Probably one of the other media staff.
Joe muted his laptop, focusing on the conversation outside his door.
"Right after the Ellie news broke," Sam's voice confirmed. "I'm worried about her."
There it was. Confirmation of what he'd already known but hadn't wanted to face. Y/N's behavior wasn't about workload or professionalism. It was about him and Ellie.
Joe sat back in his chair. Y/N had been dealing with this for weeks, keeping everything together at work while handling whatever she felt about his relationship. And he'd just gone about his business, completely clueless.
He thought about Ellie—easy, uncomplicated, safe. No messy history, no complicated feelings. Exactly what he'd thought he wanted.
But now, thinking about Y/N's careful distance and what it actually meant, Joe wondered if he'd chosen the wrong thing entirely. Chosen comfort over connection.
* * *
January 2025 - Bengals Facility
Joe had been looking for this chance for weeks. Playoffs were chaotic enough that Y/N couldn't avoid him as easily, and he'd been watching her patterns, waiting for the right moment.
He spotted her in the main corridor with her clipboard, directing her team like she always did. Even from here, he could see how she'd positioned herself near the exits. Probably already planning her escape if she saw him coming.
Joe hung back in the weight room doorway, tablet in hand so he'd look like he had a reason to be there. When Y/N's team scattered and she headed for the edit bay—exactly where he'd figured she'd go—he stepped out.
"Y/N."
He watched her stop dead, saw her shoulders go rigid before she turned around. That split second told him everything—being around him was work for her now.
"Joe," she replied, her tone hitting that perfect note of polite professionalism that had become her default with him. "Something you need?"
Joe stepped closer, noting how Y/N's grip tightened slightly on her clipboard. "Just wanted to confirm the gameday shoot schedule. Tyler sent it over, but there's a conflict with the offensive meeting."
It was a legitimate concern, but Joe's real motivation was simpler: he wanted to see if Y/N would handle this personally or continue delegating everything through Tyler.
"I can have him adjust it," Y/N replied, already reaching for her phone. "We're flexible."
The immediate deflection was exactly what he'd expected. Thirty seconds of conversation, and she was already looking for Tyler to handle it instead.
"You could adjust it," Joe pressed, keeping his voice casual despite his growing frustration. "You've been handling the playoff schedule for four seasons."
He watched her face. Nothing. She gave him absolutely nothing.
"Tyler's got it covered," she said simply.
Joe's jaw tightened. Four years, and now she wanted to manage him through Tyler like he was some difficult rookie.
"Sure," he said, not bothering to hide his frustration. "If that's how you want to play it."
Silence. Y/N wouldn't even look at him directly, her shoulders tense like she was bracing for something.
Up close, he could see how tired she looked. Not playoff tired. Something else entirely.
"How was Louisville?" The question slipped out before Joe could stop it, his genuine concern overriding his strategic approach to this conversation.
Something flickered across Y/N's expression—surprise, maybe, that he'd asked something personal.
"Good," she answered, then seemed to catch herself being too brief. "Nice to be home for the holidays."
Joe nodded, filing away her admission that Louisville still felt like home after years in Cincinnati. "Your brothers seemed happy to have you back. Saw Matt's post."
He'd been following her family on social media since their second year working together, though he'd never mentioned it directly. Matt's Instagram story from Christmas had shown Y/N laughing with her nieces, looking more relaxed than Joe had seen her in months.
"Family time is always good," Y/N said, glancing at her watch with the kind of deliberate gesture that meant she was planning her exit.
Joe didn't move aside, using his physical presence to keep her engaged despite her obvious desire to escape. "You know," he said, dropping his voice slightly, "this whole distance thing doesn't actually work if everyone notices it."
For just a second, her guard dropped—he saw the alarm in her eyes before she caught herself.
"I'm not sure what you mean," she said, but Joe caught the slight acceleration in her breathing.
Time to abandon subtlety entirely.
"Ja'maar asked me yesterday what happened between us," Joe continued, maintaining eye contact despite Y/N's obvious discomfort. "Says the whole team has noticed you don't work with me directly anymore."
It was true, and he wanted her to know that people had noticed.
"I work with the entire team," Y/N countered, but Joe heard the slight defensiveness beneath her smooth response. "Staff adjustments happen all the time."
"Not like this," Joe said quietly, letting his voice carry the weight of four years of collaboration. "Not after four years."
He saw Y/N's composure start to crack under his direct challenge, watched her mask begin to slip as she realized he wasn't going to accept her deflections.
"Is there a point to this conversation, Joe?" she asked, her voice taking on an edge he rarely heard from her. "Because I really do have a deadline."
The slight desperation in her question told Joe he was finally getting through her defenses. She was feeling cornered, which meant she was feeling something beyond professional indifference.
"The point is," Joe said, letting his own frustration show, "whatever's going on with you, people are noticing. And they're asking me about it, as if I have answers." He paused, studying her face. "Which I don't, because someone won't actually talk to me."
The accusation hung between them, more direct than any conversation they'd had in months. Joe watched Y/N process his words, saw her square her shoulders as she prepared to deflect again.
"There's nothing to talk about," she insisted, but her voice had lost some of its steadiness. "And frankly, if players are gossiping instead of focusing on playoff prep, that's concerning."
Joe almost smiled at her attempt to turn the conversation back to work. Even cornered, Y/N's instinct was to protect team focus and professional boundaries.
"Always deflecting," he said, finally stepping aside to let her pass. But he wasn't done. "Good luck with the edit, Y/N."
As she started to walk away, Joe felt a moment of desperation. Y/N was slipping away from him in ways he was only beginning to understand, and his window for addressing it was closing.
"For what it's worth," he called after her, the admission coming out more vulnerable than he'd intended, "I miss working with you."
Y/N didn't turn around, but her steps hitched for just a second before she kept walking. He'd gotten to her.
Standing alone in the hallway, Joe finally let himself admit what he'd been avoiding. Y/N had feelings for him. Real feelings. The kind that made normal conversation feel dangerous, that required her to build walls just to get through the day.
He thought about Ellie—easy, uncomplicated, safe. Then he thought about Y/N's careful composure, the way she'd looked when he said he missed working with her.
Maybe he'd been choosing the wrong thing all along. Choosing easy over what actually mattered.
The thought scared the hell out of him. Because if Y/N felt something for him, and if he was finally being honest about what he felt for her, then his nice, controlled life was about to get a lot more complicated.
* * *
Late January 2025 - Bengals Facility
The locker room felt empty, drained of all the energy that had carried them through the playoffs. Joe went through his post-season routine on autopilot—packing gear, saying goodbye to teammates, trying to process that their season was over.
Y/N was there with her camera, documenting everything like she always did. For months, she'd managed to avoid him, but in the cramped locker room, she couldn't stay completely out of his way. Joe found himself watching her work, seeing how she moved to get her shots while still keeping her distance from him.
"That's it for me," Ja'maar said, slinging his bag over his shoulder. "See you in a few months, man."
Joe nodded, clasping his teammate's hand. "Get some rest. We'll be back."
As players headed out, Joe realized this might be his last shot to talk to Y/N before the offseason. They'd be on different coasts for months, and ending things with nothing but work talk felt wrong after everything they'd been through.
She was by the exit with her camera bag, ready to leave. Sam was with her, and Joe could hear Tyler mentioning Y/N's name from across the room, though he couldn't make out what they were saying.
"Tyler handled Burrow's exit interview," Tyler was saying to someone. "Went pretty well, got some good content."
Joe felt that familiar frustration. Even today, on the last day of the season, she'd had Tyler handle his exit interview. No final conversation, no acknowledgment of what they'd been through together this year.
He walked over as they finished packing up. Y/N went rigid the second she saw him coming.
"Exit interviews done?" he asked, addressing both women but looking at Y/N.
"Just wrapping up," Sam replied when Y/N didn't immediately respond. "Tyler said yours went well."
Joe nodded, then decided to abandon subtlety. "Tyler's good," he said, meeting Y/N's eyes. "Different perspective."
The emphasis was intentional. Tyler was fine, but it wasn't the same, and they both knew it.
"Heading out already?" Y/N asked, her tone carefully neutral as she finally acknowledged him directly.
"Flight to California tonight," Joe confirmed, watching her face for any reaction to the mention of where Ellie was based. "Offseason training starts next week."
Something crossed her face when he mentioned California. Like she'd been expecting it.
"Have a good offseason," Y/N said, and the polite dismissal hit him hard. After four years of everything they'd been through together, she was talking to him like he was just another player heading out the door.
Joe looked at her face, hoping for something—anything. But she gave him nothing. Complete professional courtesy, like they were strangers.
"You too, Y/N," he said finally, accepting defeat. He glanced at Sam. "Both of you."
As he walked away, Joe felt everything they weren't saying hanging in the air. No mention of their history, nothing about what they'd built together over four years. Like their partnership had been just another work assignment.
Y/N was letting him leave without a fight, without even trying to make it personal. The message was clear: whatever they'd had was done. Finished with the season.
* * *
That Evening - Airport
Joe sat in the airport departure lounge, flight delayed, staring at Y/N's contact on his phone. His finger hovered over the keyboard but he couldn't figure out what to say.
The whole day felt off, and it wasn't about losing in the playoffs. Seasons ended. That was football. But the way things had gone with Y/N felt wrong somehow.
He kept thinking about Tyler's exit interview. Fine, but basic. Y/N would have asked better questions, dug deeper into what he was thinking, what he'd learned. Tyler had just hit the obvious stuff—stats, team performance, surface-level bullshit.
Joe started typing before he could talk himself out of it:
Wish you'd done my exit interview. Tyler didn't ask the right questions.
He hit send before he could reconsider, then immediately regretted it. Now he sounded desperate, reaching out when she was clearly trying to get away from him. Which he was, but she didn't need to know that.
The response came faster than he'd expected:
Safe travels. Good luck with offseason training.
Joe stared at the message. Even over text, she was keeping him at arm's length.
Still shutting me out. At least you're consistent.
The words came out harsher than he'd intended, but Joe was tired of this shit, tired of being treated like a stranger after everything they'd shared.
Not shutting you out. Just refocusing priorities.
The response felt like a door slamming shut.
Whatever you need to tell yourself.
Joe typed the words quickly, letting his frustration show. If Y/N wanted to pretend they'd never been more than player and media staff, fine. But he wasn't going to play along.
Have a good offseason, Joe.
Joe stared at the text thread. This might be it for months. By the time he got back for OTAs, she'd have had half a year to build those walls even higher.
He was losing her. Not just as a colleague, but as someone who actually mattered to him. It felt like losing something he couldn't replace.
Sitting in that terminal, waiting for a flight to California and a girlfriend who felt more like a comfortable routine than anything real, Joe realized he'd been fucking up for months.
Y/N had been protecting herself from feelings he'd been too scared to deal with. Ellie was safe, easy, but also empty in ways he couldn't ignore anymore.
His phone buzzed. Ellie, asking about his flight, talking about dinner plans and some content opportunity. Joe typed back the right responses, said the right things about being excited to see her.
But his head was still stuck on Y/N's final message, on the distance she'd kept all season, on how he'd chosen easy over everything that actually mattered.
Maybe it was too late to fix this. Maybe some mistakes couldn't be undone.
As they called his flight, Joe grabbed his stuff and headed toward months in California that felt more like punishment than vacation.
* * *
February 2025 - Los Angeles
Joe stepped off the plane at LAX into Southern California warmth, completely different from the Cincinnati winter he'd left behind. Ellie was waiting at baggage claim, looking perfect despite the early hour, all bright smiles and energy.
"There's my playoff warrior," she said, pulling him in for a kiss that felt like it was meant for the people watching. Who the hell talked like that?
"Good to see you," Joe replied, meaning it even as he noted the small audience that had gathered to watch their reunion.
The drive to Ellie's Venice Beach apartment was filled with her updates about modeling gigs, brand partnerships, and the projects she had lined up. Her enthusiasm was infectious, but Joe found himself only half-listening, his mind still processing the abrupt end to the season and the unresolved tension he'd left behind in Cincinnati.
"I thought we could do that couples workout class tomorrow," Ellie was saying as they pulled into her building's parking garage. "Well, I'd film some content there. You could just work out normally while I get my shots."
Joe nodded, appreciating that she understood his boundaries about appearing in her content. "Sounds good. I need to get back into a routine anyway."
Ellie's apartment was exactly what Joe had expected—bright, airy, filled with ring lights and camera equipment strategically placed but not overwhelming. They'd always stayed at hotels when he visited LA, or she'd come to Cincinnati, so this was his first time seeing her actual space. Her refrigerator was stocked with sponsored products, her bathroom counter arranged with skincare items that would appear in her content.
"I know it looks like a lot," Ellie said, noticing his survey of the space. "But I try to keep the work stuff contained. Most of my filming happens when you're training anyway."
"I get it," Joe said, and he did. He understood the business of personal branding, appreciated that Ellie respected his privacy while building her own career.
* * *
March 2025 - Malibu Training Facility
Six weeks in, Joe had his routine down. Morning workouts in Malibu, afternoons with his QB coach working on mechanics, evenings where Ellie edited content while he recovered or watched film.
The training was solid—some of the best he'd ever had access to. But he felt like he was just going through the motions, checking boxes without any real drive behind it.
"You seem distracted today," Liam, his QB coach, observed as they wrapped up a throwing session. "Mechanics are solid, but your head's somewhere else."
Joe toweled off, considering how to respond. "Just thinking about team stuff. Wonder how the new rookies will integrate."
It wasn't entirely true. Joe was thinking about the team, but specifically about whether Y/N was at the combine in Indianapolis, whether she was interviewing prospects, whether she was still maintaining the distance that had defined their final months of the season.
That evening, Joe sat in Ellie's living room while she filmed her post-workout routine in the kitchen, ring light positioned to catch the golden hour coming through her windows. He could hear her talking to her phone about nutrition and recovery, her voice taking on the polished cadence she used for content.
When she finished, she settled beside him on the couch, immediately shifting back to her natural speaking voice.
"Good session today?" she asked, curling up against his side.
"Yeah, making progress," Joe replied, though he wasn't sure what progress actually meant when he felt so disconnected from his usual drive.
"I got some great shots at the gym this morning," Ellie said, scrolling through her phone. "The lighting was perfect. My followers love the behind-the-scenes training stuff, even without you in it."
Joe appreciated that she never pushed him to be in her content. But watching her review footage from their morning—her perfectly curated version of what they'd done—made him think about Y/N. How Y/N captured real moments instead of manufacturing them.
Joe remembered their first real conversation, at a charity event in LA during his second year. Ellie had been working the event, but during a break, she'd sat beside him and asked, "Do you ever get tired of being 'Joe Burrow' all the time?"
The question had surprised him. Most people wanted more of the public version, not less. But Ellie had seemed genuinely curious about the person behind the image.
"Sometimes," he'd admitted. "It's a lot of pressure to be that composed all the time."
"I get it," she'd said simply. "Different industry, same thing. Sometimes I just want to eat pizza and watch Netflix without thinking about how it affects my brand."
That conversation had led to late-night texting, to private dinners, to the relief of being with someone who understood the weight of public expectations. Ellie had offered him something he desperately needed then—acceptance without demands for deeper emotional access.
But now, watching her create content about their relationship while he struggled to feel anything genuine, Joe realized that what had once felt like relief now felt like avoidance. Ellie deserved someone who wanted to know all of her, not just the parts that felt safe.
* * *
April 2025 - Venice Beach
Two months in, things with Ellie had become comfortable but empty. They looked good together, supported each other's work, but it all felt like going through the motions.
"I'm thinking about staying until June," Joe said one night while Ellie edited content on her laptop. "Push back going home."
Ellie looked up, pleased. "That would be great. I have that campaign shooting in May that would be perfect timing."
Joe nodded, though he wasn't really sure why he wanted to stay. The training was incredible—better than anything he could get back home. But that wasn't really the reason.
Maybe he was just avoiding whatever was waiting for him in Ohio. Y/N, the mess he'd made of things, the fact that all his choices were finally catching up with him.
"You seem different lately," Ellie observed, closing her laptop and giving him her full attention. "More... distant, I guess. Everything okay?"
Joe looked at her—beautiful, successful, uncomplicated Ellie who asked direct questions without demanding complicated answers.
"Just thinking about the season ahead," he said. "Whether the team's going to gel, whether we can make another run."
It was partly true, but not the whole story. Joe was thinking about the team, but specifically about Y/N and whether the distance she'd created would continue into the new season.
"You miss it," Ellie said, and it wasn't a question. "The competition, the guys, the whole Cincinnati thing."
She was right, but not completely. Joe did miss football, but more than that, he missed feeling like someone actually got him.
Ellie was perfect for what she was—supportive, successful, understanding. But perfect wasn't the same as real.
As they settled into another night of working side by side—her editing content, him watching film—Joe realized he was counting down days to go back to Cincinnati. Not because he was excited about it, but because he was tired of hiding out here.
He'd picked the safe choice, but safe was starting to feel like settling. And with OTAs coming up, he'd have to face everything he'd been avoiding—including the fact that this wasn't really his life. It was just the life he thought he was supposed to want.
* * *
Mid-April 2025 - Bengals Facility
Joe pushed through his third set of bench presses, sweat building despite the early morning hour. The Bengals weight room felt different after months in California—smaller, more familiar, charged with the specific energy that came from shared purpose rather than individual training.
He'd returned to Cincinnati a week earlier than planned, unable to manufacture more reasons to delay his return. The conversation with his QB coach about getting back into team rhythm had been the final excuse he needed to leave LA, though privately Joe knew he was running toward something as much as away from it.
"Looking strong, man," the strength coach said as Joe racked the weight. "California training paid off."
"Thanks," Joe replied, toweling off. The physical improvements were real—he felt sharp, powerful, ready for the demands of another season. But the mental side remained complicated in ways that had nothing to do with football preparation.
As he gathered his water bottle and prepared to head to the next station, Joe heard familiar voices in the hallway. His pulse quickened automatically, though he tried to convince himself it was just general facility energy.
But when the weight room door swung open and he stepped into the corridor, still talking to the strength coach about next week's program, Joe's attention immediately locked onto Y/N walking down the hall.
She looked different. Not just the shorter hair, though that was striking too. Something else—more confident, maybe. More self-contained. Like the time apart had changed her in ways he couldn't put his finger on.
Their eyes met before either of them could look away. Joe felt that familiar jolt, then remembered how they'd left things—polite, distant, unfinished.
"Y/N," he said, keeping his voice neutral despite the way his heart rate had picked up.
"Joe," she replied, maintaining her stride. "Welcome back."
The greeting was perfectly appropriate and told him absolutely nothing.
"Thanks," Joe said, then found himself pushing against her careful boundaries. "Heard you've been busy while I was gone."
He'd heard things, picked up information through various channels. Y/N dating, taking vacations, apparently thriving in his absence. He hated knowing that, and he knew exactly why.
"Just the usual pre-draft chaos," Y/N replied with practiced ease. "How was California?"
The question was polite, professional, revealing nothing about whether she cared about his answer. Joe felt a flash of frustration at her careful neutrality.
"Productive," he said, though even as he said it, Joe realized how hollow the months in LA felt in retrospect. "Good to be back though."
The admission surprised him with its honesty. He was glad to be back, not just for football but for reasons he wasn't ready to examine.
An awkward silence stretched between them. Joe became aware of the strength coach hovering nearby, clearly sensing tension he didn't understand. The man muttered something about paperwork and disappeared, leaving Joe and Y/N alone in the hallway.
"I should get to my meeting," Y/N said, the efficiency in her voice suggesting she was looking for an exit from this conversation.
"Right," Joe agreed, but instead of letting her go, he found himself studying her face with new attention.
The haircut wasn't just different—it was intentional. Sharper, more sophisticated. Like she'd decided to become someone new while he was gone.
"You cut your hair," he said, the observation slipping out before he could stop it.
Y/N looked genuinely surprised by the personal comment. "Yes. Before my trip."
"It looks good," Joe said, meaning it. The cut suited her, highlighted features he'd somehow never noticed before despite working closely with her for years.
"Thanks," Y/N replied, and Joe caught something uncertain in her expression, like she wasn't sure how to respond to personal observation from him.
Joe felt an urge to say more, to push past the polite surface conversation and address the months of distance between them. But standing in the hallway with Y/N clearly wanting to escape, he realized this wasn't the time or place.
"Good luck with your meeting," he said finally, stepping aside.
"Thanks," Y/N said, then added with what felt like genuine warmth, "Good to have you back."
As she walked away, Joe stood there processing what had just happened. Y/N had been polite, professional—everything she should be. But it felt managed, like she was handling him instead of just talking to him.
This wasn't the same person he'd left behind in January. She'd changed while he was gone, found her footing without him. And honestly? She seemed better for it.
He'd spent months in California thinking about her, missing what they'd had, wondering if she was struggling too. Apparently not. She'd moved on while he'd been stuck in the same place, still thinking about what they'd lost.
The professional distance didn't feel like protection anymore. It felt like she genuinely didn't care.
That should have been freeing. If Y/N was over whatever had been between them, they could go back to working together without all the complications.
But walking back through the facility, Joe realized he didn't want that freedom. Not if it meant losing something he'd never properly valued in the first place.
* * *
Late April 2025 - Bengals Facility
Joe had been waiting for this chance since he got back to Cincinnati. Y/N was working with him directly again instead of sending Tyler, which he'd hoped meant she was finally loosening up. But today had felt like working with a stranger—technically perfect but completely cold.
As Y/N packed up her equipment, Joe didn't want the session to end. This was the most time they'd spent together since January, and he wasn't ready to go back to avoiding each other in the hallways.
"New workflow seems to be working well," he said, watching her organize cables with practiced movements. "Though Tyler's approach is different from yours."
It was a casual observation, but Joe was fishing for something—any sign that Y/N missed their old collaborative dynamic.
"Everyone has their own style," Y/N replied without looking up. "He's been doing great work with the quarterback content."
"He has," Joe agreed, then decided to push slightly. "But it's good to have you back in the mix too."
Y/N finally met his gaze, her expression perfectly controlled. "Just filling in today since he's covering the offensive line segments."
Joe felt his stomach drop. "Right. Just filling in."
"I heard you've been dating," he said suddenly, the words coming out before he could stop them.
Y/N's hands fumbled slightly with her lens cap—the first crack in her composure he'd seen all day. "Cincinnati's a small town."
Joe felt something uncomfortable twist in his chest at her casual confirmation. "Tee mentioned something. Said you were... exploring options."
The idea of Y/N with other men, building connections with people who didn't carry the complicated history between them, bothered the fuck out of Joe.
"Just getting out there," Y/N replied, her tone carefully neutral. "Nothing serious."
"Good," Joe said, though the word felt like swallowing glass. "That's... good."
Y/N snapped her camera bag closed with more force than necessary, clearly done with this conversation.
"Well, I should get this footage to editing," she said, standing with the kind of brisk efficiency that meant she was planning her escape. "Draft content won't produce itself."
Joe felt desperation rise in his chest. Y/N was about to walk away, and he had no idea when he'd get another opportunity for honest conversation.
"Y/N," he said, his voice stopping her before she could reach the door. "Are we okay?"
The question was more direct than anything he'd asked her in months, born from Joe's growing recognition that their professional relationship had become a careful performance rather than genuine collaboration.
"We're fine," Y/N said automatically. "Why wouldn't we be?"
The deflection was so practiced it felt insulting. Joe decided to abandon diplomatic phrasing entirely.
"Because this is the first real conversation we've had in months that wasn't strictly about work," he said, meeting her eyes directly. "Because you've been actively avoiding me since November. You created that buffer system, delegated all my media to Tyler, and now you're back from vacation with a new haircut and a new approach, and I feel like I'm constantly a step behind whatever's happening."
Joe watched Y/N's control slip for just a second. For the first time in months, he was getting to her.
"I needed some perspective," Y/N said after a moment, her words chosen with obvious care. "The buffer system was about creating professional clarity. And yes, the vacation helped me realize some things needed to change. But that's not about you, Joe. It's about me figuring out who I am beyond this job."
The explanation made sense but felt like bullshit. Y/N was holding something back, and they both knew it.
"And dating random guys is part of that?" The question escaped before Joe could stop it, revealing more of his reaction than he'd intended.
Y/N's expression shifted, something sharp entering her eyes. "Who I date isn't really your concern, is it? Just like your relationship with Ellie isn't mine."
The mention of Ellie hit Joe like a physical blow. He'd been so focused on understanding Y/N's distance that he'd temporarily forgotten the context that had created it—his relationship with someone else, his choice to pursue safety instead of the complicated feelings that existed between them.
"That's not—" Joe started, then stopped, recognizing he had no right to question Y/N's dating life when he was with Ellie. "It's different."
"Is it?" Y/N challenged, reaching for the door handle. "Look, Joe, we work together. We've always worked well together professionally. I'd like to keep it that way. Anything beyond that just... complicates things unnecessarily."
The dismissal stung worse than anger would have. Y/N was reducing four years of collaboration, trust, and growing connection to simple professional obligation.
"So that's it?" Joe asked, feeling something desperate rise in his chest. "We go back to player and media staff? Pretend the last four years never happened?"
"Not pretend they never happened," Y/N said, her voice gentler but no less final. "Just acknowledge that professional boundaries exist for a reason. And I'm finally respecting them."
Before Joe could respond, Y/N was gone, leaving him alone with everything they hadn't said.
Joe slumped in his chair. Y/N hadn't just kept her distance—she'd chosen it. Whatever had been between them, she was done with it.
And honestly? Good for her. She was protecting herself, building a life that didn't depend on some guy who'd picked someone else. She was dating, moving forward, doing what she should do.
But sitting in that empty room, Joe realized he'd been hoping she was as stuck as he was. That their connection mattered to her the way it had started to matter to him.
Instead, she'd figured out how to be happy without him. Had become someone who didn't need whatever complicated mess they'd had.
He thought about Ellie back in California, building content around a relationship that felt more fake every day. About choosing safe over real, easy over everything that actually mattered.
Maybe Y/N was right to cut him out. Maybe he'd lost the right to complicate her life the moment he'd decided she wasn't worth the risk.
* * *
May 2025 - Bengals Facility
Joe sat through the weekly planning meeting barely listening to talk about rookie features and season ticket promotions. His attention was on Y/N at the far end of the table, as far from him as she could get while still doing her job.
Their interactions over the past few weeks had become workable but hollow. Y/N was everything she should be—professional, competent, polite. But whatever they'd had before felt like ancient history now.
"We need quarterback content for the season ticket promo," Kayla announced, and Joe felt his attention sharpen. "Y/N, can you handle that shoot, or do you want Tyler to take it?"
Joe watched Y/N's face, hoping for some sign that she might prefer to work with him directly rather than continue the delegation system she'd established.
"Tyler's already scheduled for rookie breakout features that day," Y/N said, her eyes on her notes rather than on him. "I can handle the quarterback segment."
The clinical phrasing hit Joe wrong. "Quarterback segment." Not "Joe's shoot" or even "the promo content"—just a generic position description that could apply to anyone.
"Perfect," Kayla said, making a note. "Joe, that work for your schedule?"
"Whatever works for the team," Joe replied, though privately he wondered if Y/N understood how her linguistic distance affected him.
As the meeting dispersed, Joe lingered, organizing his materials slowly while waiting for the room to clear. He needed to address this pattern before it became completely entrenched.
"You don't have to keep doing that, you know," he said once they were alone.
Y/N looked up with carefully neutral curiosity. "Doing what?"
Joe studied her face, noting the slight tension around her eyes that suggested she knew exactly what he meant. "Referring to me like I'm just a position on the team. 'Quarterback segment.' 'Quarterback content.' Like you can't even say my name."
Y/N's composure flickered for just a moment before reasserting itself. "It's not intentional. Just professional shorthand."
"It's distance," Joe corrected, keeping his voice low but letting his frustration show. "And I get why you needed it before. But I thought after your vacation, after you said you wanted normal professional interactions, that maybe we'd at least be back to... I don't know, acknowledging we know each other?"
Joe watched Y/N process his words, saw something shift in her expression. For the first time in months, she looked genuinely affected by his perspective rather than simply managing it.
"You're right," she said quietly, and Joe felt a spark of hope at the admission. "I'm sorry."
The apology was simple but felt significant. Joe's expression softened, encouraged by this crack in Y/N's professional armor.
"I miss how we used to talk," he said, the words coming out more vulnerable than he'd intended. "Not about content. Just... you and me."
The admission hung between them, loaded with memories of easier times when their connection had felt natural rather than carefully managed. Joe watched Y/N's face, looking for any sign that she missed it too.
"I've been drawing a line," Y/N said after a moment, her voice carrying something that sounded like regret. "Maybe I've drawn it too sharply."
Joe felt his heart rate pick up at her acknowledgment. This was the most honest she'd been with him since his return from California. Maybe they could find their way back to something resembling their old dynamic.
His phone buzzed against the conference table, interrupting the moment. Joe glanced at it automatically, seeing Ellie's name and a message about her travel schedule.
The reminder of his girlfriend hit like cold water, immediately recontextualizing everything about his conversation with Y/N. Here he was, pushing for more personal connection with another woman while in a relationship, crossing lines he had no right to cross.
"Ellie's back from New York tomorrow," he said, the words feeling heavy as he spoke them.
Joe watched Y/N's expression shift, saw her carefully rebuilt walls snap back into place. The moment of softness disappeared, replaced by the professional distance he'd been trying to bridge.
"That's nice," Y/N replied, her tone perfectly neutral. "I'm sure you've missed her."
The polite response felt like a door closing. Y/N was reminding them both of the reality that made their connection inappropriate, however significant it might feel.
Joe nodded, though the truth was more complicated than missing Ellie. He'd been counting days until his return to Cincinnati, thinking about Y/N more than his girlfriend, questioning choices he'd made months ago.
"See you at the promo shoot," he said, accepting the boundary Y/N was reestablishing.
As Joe left the conference room, he felt torn between what was right and what he wanted. Y/N was smart to keep her distance—he was with someone else, had no business pushing for more.
But walking through the facility, thinking about how she'd softened for just a second before catching herself, Joe knew his feelings for her had only gotten stronger.
That should have been good news. Finally knowing what he wanted. But it also meant facing how badly he'd screwed everything up.
Ellie would be back tomorrow, expecting things to be the same between them. But Joe wasn't the same person who'd chosen easy over real, who'd been too scared to risk anything that mattered.
* * *
That Evening - Joe's Home
Joe sat in his living room staring at Ellie's texts about dinner plans. The house felt too big, too quiet, nothing like the spaces that actually felt like home.
He kept thinking about Y/N admitting she'd been drawing lines too sharply, about that moment when something real had passed between them before his phone had ruined it.
California had been comfortable with Ellie—training while she made content, evenings working side by side without really connecting. Exactly what he'd thought he wanted. Uncomplicated, safe, empty.
But now, thinking about Y/N and how she'd looked when he said he missed their conversations, Joe knew he'd been choosing wrong all along.
He was with someone who fit his life perfectly but didn't make him feel anything real. While the person who actually mattered was building walls to protect herself from him.
Joe typed back to Ellie about dinner, all the right words about being excited to see her. But his mind was stuck on Y/N, on whether her distance was protection or genuine indifference.
Maybe it was time to stop living the life he thought he was supposed to want and start going after what he actually needed.
* * *
June 2025 - Team Charity Event
Joe adjusted his bow tie one final time as the car pulled up to the hotel ballroom. These charity events were part of his professional obligations—smile for donors, represent the organization well, raise money for causes that mattered. But tonight felt different, weighted with the knowledge that Y/N would be working the event.
Ellie looked stunning beside him in her red gown, every inch the perfect partner for a public appearance. She'd flown in from New York specifically for this event, understanding how important team functions were for his image.
"You look amazing," Joe said, meaning it as they walked toward the entrance.
"Thank you," Ellie smiled, automatically adjusting her posture as cameras began flashing. "This is such a beautiful venue. Perfect for content, but I know tonight isn't about that."
Joe appreciated her awareness of boundaries. Ellie understood when to be his girlfriend and when to be his professional partner, never pushing for attention that might detract from the team's mission.
But as they entered the ballroom, Joe found himself scanning the room not for donors or teammates, but for Y/N. He spotted her moving efficiently around the perimeter, camera in hand, documenting the event with the professional competence that had defined her work for years.
She looked different tonight—elegant in a way he'd never seen at work. Black dress, hair sleek and styled back. She moved through the crowd with that quiet confidence, doing her job while most people didn't even notice her.
"Joe Burrow!" A major sponsor approached with enthusiastic energy. "Great to see you. How's the off-season preparation going?"
Joe shifted into public mode, engaging with practiced charm while part of his attention tracked Y/N's movement through the room. She was working methodically, capturing moments that would become the official story of the evening.
For an hour, Joe did what he was supposed to do—photos with donors, small talk about the team, all the standard stuff. But he kept tracking Y/N around the room, watching her work while staying out of his way.
When they finally sat down for dinner, Joe realized she'd have to come to their table for photos. The thought made his pulse pick up.
"Joe Burrow's table is next," he heard someone say, presumably through Y/N's earpiece.
Y/N approached their table with camera ready, her expression professionally pleasant. "Evening, everyone. Time for the official table photo."
Their eyes met immediately, and Joe felt that familiar jolt of connection before he carefully arranged his features into an appropriate smile. This was exactly the kind of interaction they'd been navigating for months—professional necessity complicated by unresolved personal tension.
"Y/N," Joe acknowledged. "Didn't realize you'd be shooting tonight."
"Last-minute call," she replied smoothly. "We needed a few extra hands."
Before Joe could extend the conversation, Ellie turned toward Y/N with genuine warmth.
"You must be Y/N," she said, extending her hand. "Joe's told me so much about you. I've seen your work—it's amazing."
Joe watched this with mixed feelings. Ellie's enthusiasm was real—she'd actually brought up Y/N before, had complimented her work. But seeing them together just highlighted how weird his situation had become.
"Thanks," Y/N replied, shaking Ellie's hand with professional composure. "I appreciate that."
Joe caught Y/N's surprise at the compliment, saw her trying to figure out Ellie's friendliness. Part of him wanted to explain why he'd talked about Y/N at all, but surrounded by all these people, with Ellie's hand on his arm, there was no way to say what he really meant.
But surrounded by sponsors and teammates, with Ellie's hand resting on his arm, those explanations felt impossible.
"Actually, I'm capturing candids tonight," Y/N said, raising her camera. "So everyone just continue your conversations naturally. Pretend I'm not even here."
As Y/N worked around their table, Joe tried to catch her eye, tried to say something without words. But she treated him like everyone else, completely professional.
"Perfect, thank you everyone," Y/N said after capturing several shots. "Enjoy your evening."
As she prepared to move to the next table, Ellie touched her arm lightly. "I hope we get to talk more later. Joe says you have the best stories about the team."
Joe watched Y/N's reaction—polite but careful, managing Ellie's friendliness while maintaining appropriate boundaries.
"Maybe next time," Y/N replied. "I've got quite a few tables left to photograph."
The whole thing left Joe feeling off-balance. Ellie's interest in Y/N just made it clearer how split his life had become—the girlfriend who knew his public face, and the woman who actually knew him.
* * *
Later - Hotel Terrace
Joe stepped onto the terrace, needing air and space to process the evening's unexpected tensions. He'd excused himself from the table conversation, ostensibly to take a business call, but really to escape the careful performance that public events required.
He found Y/N at the railing, looking out at the city lights, her camera hanging idle at her side.
"Taking a break?" he asked, moving to stand beside her.
Y/N turned, and Joe caught something unguarded in her expression before her professional mask reasserted itself. "Just a quick breather. Lots of photos still to get."
Joe studied her profile in the dim lighting, noting the tension in her shoulders that suggested she was working to maintain composure. Being around him still affected her, despite months of careful distance.
"Your buffer system has evolved, I see," he said, unable to resist pushing against her boundaries.
"What do you mean?" Y/N asked, confusion flickering across her features.
"You're actually speaking to me at public events now," Joe replied, letting some of his frustration show. "That's progress from January."
Y/N's response was careful, measured. "I'm trying to be more normal about everything. Like I said when I got back from vacation—appropriate professional boundaries, not complete avoidance."
"That why you practically sprinted away from our table?"
"I have other tables to shoot."
Joe turned to face her directly, tired of the careful dance they'd been performing for months. "Come on. We haven't had a real conversation in months. And I'm supposed to pretend that's normal?"
He watched Y/N's composure start to crack, saw something raw flash across her features before she responded.
"Maybe you're not supposed to pretend. Maybe you're supposed to notice."
The challenge in her voice caught Joe off guard. "What's that supposed to mean?"
Y/N turned to face him fully, and Joe saw years of suppressed emotion finally breaking through her professional control.
"It means one day we're grabbing lunch and spending time together outside of work, and the next I find out you have a girlfriend because someone broke into your house."
The words knocked the wind out of him. He'd known Y/N had been hurt by how she'd learned about Ellie, but he'd never really understood what that had cost her.
"That's not how I meant for you to find out—" he started.
"But that's how I did," Y/N cut him off, her voice rising with months of contained pain. "And then I had to walk into a boardroom full of execs and help manage the media fallout. I had to craft a strategy, prep your talking points, anticipate questions—all while pretending like I wasn't finding out in real time that you'd been lying by omission for half a year."
Joe felt sick as Y/N spelled out what he'd put her through. She'd done her job, protected him, kept everything together while he'd basically lied to her face for months.
"It wasn't lying—" he began weakly.
"It was hiding," Y/N snapped, and Joe saw tears threatening at the corners of her eyes. "You hid her. Not just from the world, but from me."
Joe's jaw clenched as the truth of her accusation settled. He had hidden Ellie from Y/N specifically, had known instinctively that their connection was something he needed to protect his relationship from.
"You didn't owe me the details," Y/N continued, her voice shaking slightly. "But you knew what we were. What it felt like. You showed up in my life every day. You let it mean something. And when it stopped meaning something to you, you didn't have the decency to say a word."
Each sentence felt like an indictment Joe couldn't defend against. Y/N was right—he'd been a coward, choosing the easy path of avoidance rather than the difficult conversation that honesty would have required.
"I didn't mean to hurt you," Joe said quietly, the inadequacy of the words obvious even to him.
"But you did," Y/N replied, and Joe heard four years of suppressed pain in her voice. "Not by being with her. By making me feel like I never mattered in the first place."
The accusation cut deeper than anything else she'd said. Joe stepped forward, something desperate rising in his chest.
"You mattered," he said, his voice low but intense. "You still matter."
"Not enough," Y/N replied, and Joe saw the hurt that had been driving her distance for months. "Not enough to be honest with."
Before Joe could find words to respond, before he could explain that his dishonesty had been about protecting himself rather than dismissing her, Ellie's voice cut through the tension.
"There you are!"
Joe's heart sank as Ellie appeared on the terrace, beautiful and smiling and completely unaware of what she'd just interrupted.
"I've been looking everywhere for you, babe," she continued cheerfully. "They're about to do the team recognition on stage, and the owner specifically asked for you to join them."
Joe felt trapped between his public obligations and this moment of raw honesty with Y/N. His expression must have revealed his conflict, because he caught Y/N watching him with something like resignation.
"I'll be right there," he managed, his voice carefully controlled.
Ellie looked between them, clearly sensing tension but misreading its cause. "I'm not interrupting work talk, am I? I can tell them you'll be a minute."
"No interruption," Y/N said quickly, and Joe watched her professional mask snap back into place. "I was just about to head back in myself. I still have the owner's table to photograph."
Joe watched this transformation with something like grief. Y/N was protecting them both, maintaining the careful boundaries that kept their professional relationship functional.
Ellie smiled at Y/N with genuine warmth. "Your photos have been amazing tonight. I peeked at some on the photographer's display earlier—you have a gift for capturing genuine moments."
"Thank you," Y/N managed, and Joe caught the complicated emotions crossing her face at Ellie's sincere compliment. "That's very kind."
Joe couldn't let the conversation end like this, with everything still unresolved between them.
"Ellie, can you give us just a minute?" he asked. "We weren't quite finished."
Ellie looked surprised but nodded. "Sure. I'll tell them you're on your way."
But before Joe could say anything more, Y/N raised her camera between them like a shield.
"I think we are," she said firmly. "You should go. They're waiting for you."
As Joe walked away with Ellie, her hand slipping naturally into his, he felt the weight of everything left unsaid. Y/N had finally told him how much his choices had hurt her, had laid bare the emotional cost of his cowardice.
But she'd also made it clear that understanding her pain didn't change their reality. Joe was with Ellie, publicly and proudly, and whatever feelings existed between him and Y/N would remain unspoken and unacknowledged.
Walking back into the ballroom, Joe felt like he was returning to a performance of his own life. Smiling for cameras, accepting congratulations, playing the role of successful quarterback with perfect girlfriend.
But his mind stayed fixed on Y/N's words, on the hurt in her voice when she'd said he'd made her feel like she never mattered.
* * *
June 2025 - Bengals Facility
Joe sat through the morning film session barely paying attention, still thinking about the charity gala two weeks ago. Y/N's words kept playing in his head—how she'd said he made her feel like she never mattered, how she'd looked when Ellie showed up.
Since then, things had gotten even more formal between them. Not avoidance exactly, but something colder. Like she genuinely didn't care anymore.
"Burrow, you need those Raiders breakdowns from last season," the offensive coordinator said as they wrapped up. "Study how they disguised their coverage on third downs."
Joe nodded, already dreading the process. What used to be a quick conversation with Y/N was now a formal request through Tyler.
He found Tyler in the hallway. "Can you get me the Raiders breakdowns? Third-down packages specifically."
"Sure thing," Tyler replied. "Y/N will know where those are. I'll have her pull them."
Another reminder that he and Y/N couldn't even handle simple work requests directly anymore.
* * *
Cafeteria - Same Day
Joe grabbed lunch with Ja'maar and Tee, settling into their usual table while they debated the upcoming rookie development program. But his attention was immediately drawn to Y/N sitting across the cafeteria with Sam, their conversation looking relaxed and genuine in ways Joe's interactions with Y/N no longer were.
"You listening, man?" Ja'Maar asked, following Joe's gaze. "Oh. The Y/N situation."
Joe's attention snapped back to his teammates. "What?"
"Whatever's going on with you two," Higgins said, keeping his voice low. "It's been weird for months. You know that, right?"
Joe felt heat rise in his neck. "Nothing's going on. We work together."
"Used to work together," Ja'Maar corrected. "Now you work around each other. There's a difference. And everyone's noticed, by the way."
Joe wanted to deny it, but his teammates weren't wrong. The easy collaboration that had once defined his relationship with Y/N had been replaced by careful professional choreography that everyone seemed to notice.
"It's fine," Joe said, returning his attention to his food. "Just different workflow now."
But even as he said it, Joe found his gaze drifting back to Y/N's table. She was laughing at something Sam had said, looking genuinely happy in a way that made Joe's chest tighten with something he didn't want to examine.
As lunch wound down, Joe watched Y/N and Sam gather their things, noting how Y/N's posture shifted slightly as they approached his table. Not nervous, exactly, but more controlled, like she was managing her reactions.
"Y/N," Joe called out as they walked by. "Tyler said you'd pull those Raiders breakdowns for me?"
Y/N turned with a professional smile that revealed nothing. "He did. I've got staff pulling them. Should be in your inbox by this afternoon."
"Appreciate it," Joe said, recognizing the finality in her tone.
Something flickered in Y/N's eyes, like she realized how weird this had all become. But she just nodded and kept walking.
Ja'maar and Tee exchanged looks.
"Definitely nothing going on," Higgins muttered.
Joe didn't respond. There wasn't much to say.
* * *
That Evening - Joe's Home
Joe's phone buzzed with a text from Ellie as he reviewed the Raiders footage. She wanted to visit next week, maybe do some couples workout content.
Miss you. Can't wait to see you next week. Think we could do that couples workout content I mentioned?
Joe stared at the message. A perfectly reasonable request from his girlfriend. But all he could think about was how Y/N had handled his footage request—efficient, professional, completely detached.
He typed back something appropriate about looking forward to seeing Ellie, but the words felt empty.
The Raiders footage was perfectly organized, exactly what he'd asked for. Y/N's team had delivered as always. No personal touch, no acknowledgment of their history, just competent work.
Maybe that's all they'd ever really had.
* * *
July 2025 - Training Camp Preparation
Joe had agreed to give Ellie a tour of the facility before training camp officially began, though he'd underestimated how complicated it would feel to have her in his professional space. She was enthusiastic about everything—the weight room, the meeting rooms, the state-of-the-art equipment—asking questions that showed genuine interest in his world.
"This is incredible," Ellie said as they walked through the hallways. "I had no idea it was this extensive."
"It's pretty comprehensive," Joe agreed, though part of his attention was tracking familiar sounds and movements, unconsciously mapping Y/N's potential location in the building.
When they reached the cafeteria, Joe spotted Y/N immediately. She sat with Sam near the windows, laughing at something with the kind of natural ease he rarely saw from her anymore. The sight of her genuinely relaxed hit him harder than expected—a reminder of what their interactions used to look like before everything became careful and measured.
"Oh, there's Y/N!" Ellie said, following his gaze. "I should say hello."
Before Joe could suggest otherwise, Ellie was already calling out across the room. "Y/N! How are you?"
Joe watched Y/N's face transform in real-time—from natural laughter to polite professionalism in seconds. The shift was so smooth it was almost invisible, but Joe had been studying Y/N's expressions for five years. He knew the difference.
"I'm good, thanks," Y/N replied, standing as they approached. "Nice to see you again."
"You too," Ellie smiled warmly. "Joe's been showing me around before everyone arrives for camp. This place is amazing."
"It is," Y/N agreed, her tone perfectly light and professional. "Enjoy the tour."
Joe felt the need to fill the silence, to justify Y/N's presence in the conversation somehow. "Y/N's been here since my rookie year," he said to Ellie. "She's documented pretty much every major moment of my NFL career."
The words came out more pointed than he'd intended, carrying weight that felt almost territorial. Y/N's response was swift and deflating.
"The whole media team has," she corrected gently. "It's been a collaborative effort."
She was minimizing their connection, reducing five years of shared moments to generic teamwork. The dismissal stung more than it should have, and Joe found himself pushing back before he could stop himself.
"Not the rehab," he said, his gaze direct. "That was all you."
The moment the words left his mouth, Joe knew he'd crossed a line. Those rehabilitation sessions had been intimate—not romantically, but in the way that pain and vulnerability create connection. Hours of documenting his lowest moments, his frustrations, his small victories. Bringing that up in front of Ellie was claiming ownership of something that wasn't his to claim anymore.
Y/N's composure flickered for just a second before she recovered. "Well, that's what made it such compelling content. Your journey back."
Ellie looked between them, clearly sensing undercurrents she didn't understand. "Joe mentioned how much those documentary pieces meant to fans. Your work really connected people to his recovery."
"That was the goal," Y/N replied. "Glad it resonated." She glanced at her watch with practiced efficiency. "I should get back. Content review meeting in fifteen. Nice seeing you both."
As Y/N walked away with Sam, Joe felt Ellie's curious gaze on him.
"She seems really professional," Ellie observed. "You two work well together."
"Yeah," Joe said, though the word felt hollow. "She's good at what she does."
They continued the tour, but Joe's mind remained fixed on the cafeteria interaction. Why had he mentioned the rehab work? Why had he felt the need to establish that connection in front of Ellie? And why did Y/N's careful deflection feel like a rejection of their entire history?
His phone buzzed as they finished touring the weight room. A text from Ellie to someone—he could see her typing on her phone.
"Just reaching out to Y/N about those charity photos," she explained. "You mentioned she might have some good shots for my portfolio."
Joe's stomach tightened. He had mentioned that, casually, during their drive to the facility. But now it felt like another complication, another way his two worlds were intersecting in ways he hadn't anticipated.
"You don't need to go through her specifically," Joe said. "Any of the media staff can handle that."
"Too late," Ellie smiled, showing him her phone. "Already sent. She seems sweet—I'm sure she won't mind."
Joe stared at the text thread, recognizing the gulf between what Ellie thought she was seeing and what was actually happening. Y/N would agree to help because it was professional courtesy, not because she was "sweet" or happy to do anything involving Ellie.
But explaining that would require explaining why the situation was complicated, which would mean acknowledging feelings he'd spent over a year trying to suppress.
Twenty minutes later, as they wrapped up the tour, Joe's discomfort had crystallized into something that demanded action. He'd been inappropriate in the cafeteria, had put Y/N in an uncomfortable position, had claimed a connection that wasn't his to claim anymore.
"I need to handle something quick," he told Ellie as they reached the parking lot. "Work stuff. Five minutes?"
"Of course," Ellie said easily. "I'll wait in the car."
Joe found himself walking toward Y/N's office before he'd fully decided to go there. The cafeteria encounter had left him unsettled—his inappropriate reference to their private sessions, Y/N's polite but distant responses, the careful way she'd maintained professional boundaries even when he'd essentially ambushed her with personal history.
He paused outside her door, watching her work. She looked focused, unbothered by what had just happened. That steady composure that used to comfort him now felt like a wall he couldn't cross.
"Got a minute?" he asked, stepping into the doorframe.
Y/N looked up, her expression shifting to professional attention. "Of course."
Joe entered but didn't sit, staying near the door. Too much distance felt wrong, but getting too close felt presumptuous. "I wanted to apologize if that was awkward. Ellie wanting to see the facility was... unexpected."
"It's fine," Y/N said smoothly, and Joe heard the practiced ease in her voice. "She's always welcome here. She is your girlfriend."
The matter-of-fact way she said girlfriend hit harder than he'd expected. No emotion, no hesitation—just acknowledgment of reality. It should have been reassuring. Instead, it felt like a door closing.
"She mentioned asking about photos," Joe continued, feeling like he was navigating terrain he no longer understood. "You don't need to handle that personally. Any of the staff can pull those."
"I already told her I would," Y/N replied. "It's not a problem."
Of course you did. Y/N would never go back on a professional commitment, even if it meant spending time on something that might be uncomfortable. Joe studied her face, looking for any sign of the person who used to share inside jokes with him during long filming sessions.
"You've changed since your vacation," he said, the observation slipping out before he could stop it.
Y/N's eyebrows lifted slightly. "Have I?"
"Yes," Joe said, committing to the honesty. "More confident. More... definitive about boundaries."
Something shifted in her expression—not surprise, but perhaps appreciation that he'd noticed. "I gained some perspective. About what I need professionally."
Professionally. The word felt loaded with subtext. Joe felt himself standing at the edge of a conversation they'd never had directly, one that could either clarify everything or destroy what remained of their working relationship.
"Just professionally?" The question escaped before his rational mind could intervene.
Y/N met his gaze steadily, and Joe saw the exact moment she chose not to give him the opening he was fishing for. "That's what matters here. We work together. Everything else is secondary."
The gentle but firm redirection felt like a hand pushing him back from a line he shouldn't have approached. Joe nodded slowly, recognizing both the wisdom and the finality in her response.
"If that's what you need."
"It is."
Joe turned to leave, then felt the weight of something unsaid for too long. He paused, looking back at her.
"For what it's worth, I should have told you about Ellie directly. Before it became public like that. You deserved that much."
The words hung in the air between them. It wasn't everything he owed her, but it was the one concrete failing he could acknowledge without opening emotional territory that would complicate both their lives.
"Thank you for saying that," Y/N replied, and Joe heard genuine appreciation in her voice.
Walking back toward the parking lot, Joe felt the strange sensation of having both gained and lost something in the same conversation. Y/N had accepted his apology with grace, had shown him exactly where the new boundaries lay, had demonstrated the kind of professional maturity that made her invaluable to the organization.
She'd also made it clear that whatever personal connection they'd once shared was permanently in the past. No anger, no drama—just a careful, definitive reset that protected them both.
Joe should have felt relieved. Instead, he felt the hollow recognition that he'd just had what might be their last genuinely honest conversation. From here forward, everything between them would be filtered through professional necessity and careful emotional distance.
Back in the car, Ellie was scrolling through her phone, smiling at something on the screen.
"Y/N already responded about the photos," she said as Joe settled into the driver's seat. "She's so professional. You're lucky to have someone that organized on your team."
"Yeah," Joe replied, starting the engine. "She's good at what she does."
But driving away from the facility, Joe couldn't shake the feeling that he'd lost something irreplaceable through his own emotional cowardice. Y/N had offered him friendship when he was too afraid to pursue something deeper. When he'd chosen safety with Ellie instead, Y/N had adapted with characteristic grace, maintaining their professional relationship while protecting herself from further hurt.
Now she was moving forward while Joe remained stuck in the recognition of what he'd given up. Ellie was beautiful, uncomplicated, and genuinely caring. She should have been everything he wanted.
But thinking about Y/N's composed professionalism and the easy laughter he'd witnessed from across the cafeteria, Joe knew that should wasn't the same as was.
He'd made his choice months ago, had prioritized emotional safety over authentic connection. Y/N had accepted that choice and moved on with her life and career.
The problem was that Joe was starting to realize his choice had been wrong. And by the time he'd gained that clarity, it was already too late to change course without devastating multiple lives in the process.
* * *
September 2025 - Regular Season Begins
The season opener against Pittsburgh had everything Joe loved about football—intensity, precision, the satisfaction of executing under pressure. The 40-yard touchdown to Higgins in the third quarter had been particularly clean, the kind of throw that reminded him why he'd chosen this profession.
But even in the middle of game action, Joe found himself tracking Y/N's movements along the sideline. She worked with the same professional efficiency she'd always shown, directing her team while capturing content herself. When he'd thrown the touchdown, his first instinct had been to find her reaction among the crowd of cameras and staff.
She'd been there, doing her job, but the easy shared celebration they might have had a year ago was gone. Instead, their eyes had met briefly during his jog toward the tunnel at halftime—a moment of mutual recognition, professional acknowledgment, nothing more.
It should have been enough. It had to be enough.
After the 24-17 win, Joe handled his postgame interviews with the usual measured responses, discussed the offensive line's protection and the receivers' route-running. But part of his attention remained on the media activity around him, aware of Y/N coordinating coverage without directly involving herself in his interviews.
The buffer system she'd implemented was working exactly as intended. Joe respected the professionalism of it, even as he missed the collaborative relationship they'd once shared.
His phone buzzed as he changed out of his uniform. Ja'Maar asking about team celebration drinks.
Heading home, Joe replied. Good win though.
You sure? Team's in a good mood. Y/N's crew killed it with the content today.
Joe stared at the text, the casual mention of Y/N hitting harder than it should have. Rain check. See you at practice.
Joe was leaving through the players' entrance when he spotted Y/N in the hallway, walking toward the exit with her equipment bag. The facility was mostly empty now, the post-game energy settling into quiet.
"Heading out?" he asked, falling into step beside her.
"Yeah," Y/N replied. "Just finished content wrap-up."
"Good game coverage," Joe said, meaning it. "Saw the touchdown sequence. Perfect timing on the sideline reaction."
"Thanks," Y/N said, and Joe caught something in her voice—surprise that he'd noticed her work specifically. "Clean game from the offense. Especially that third quarter drive."
Joe nodded, wanting to continue the conversation but unsure how to navigate the careful boundaries they'd established. "Team celebrating?"
"Meeting them now," Y/N confirmed. "Sundry and Vice, I think."
"Tell everyone good work," Joe said, then found himself adding, "Your boundary system's working well."
The observation was too direct, too honest about how much he'd been thinking about the walls she'd built between them. But it had been months of careful professional distance, and something about the successful game, the natural flow of their brief conversation, made him want to acknowledge what had developed.
"It seems to be," Y/N agreed carefully.
Joe felt himself standing at the edge of honesty again, the same place he'd been in her office months ago. This time, he stepped closer to the line.
"I don't like it," he said quietly, "but I respect it."
The admission hung between them—his first direct acknowledgment that the professional distance cost him something personal. Y/N's expression shifted slightly, surprise and maybe something else flickering across her face.
Before she could respond, his phone rang. Joe glanced at it—Ellie's name on the screen. The timing felt like the universe intervening, reminding him why Y/N's boundaries existed in the first place.
He looked back at Y/N, seeing understanding in her eyes. She knew who was calling without him saying anything.
"Should take this," he said. "Have a good night, Y/N."
"You too, Joe."
Walking to his car, Joe answered Ellie's call.
"Congratulations on the win!" Ellie's voice was warm and genuinely excited. "I watched the highlights online. That touchdown throw was incredible."
"Thanks," Joe said, settling into his car while watching Y/N walk to hers in his peripheral vision. "How was your day in LA?"
"Amazing," Ellie launched into a detailed account of her photo shoot, the creative direction, the other influencers she'd worked with. Joe listened with divided attention, making appropriate responses while his mind remained fixed on his conversation with Y/N.
"I was thinking," Ellie continued, "maybe I could come to Cincinnati for the next home game? Actually watch you play instead of just seeing highlights?"
"That would be great," Joe replied, though something in him resisted the idea. Having Ellie at the stadium would make their relationship more visible, would require navigation of her inevitable interactions with Y/N.
"Perfect," Ellie said. "I'll check my schedule and book something. Oh, and thank you again for connecting me with Y/N. She sent those charity event photos and they're gorgeous. She really does have an amazing eye."
Joe felt his chest tighten at the mention of Y/N. "She's good at what she does."
"She seems really sweet," Ellie continued. "I was thinking maybe the three of us could grab dinner when I visit? I'd love to get to know your colleagues better."
The suggestion made Joe's hands grip the steering wheel tighter. The idea of a casual dinner with Y/N and Ellie felt like emotional torture disguised as normal socializing.
"We'll see," Joe said carefully. "Y/N keeps pretty busy during the season."
"Of course," Ellie agreed easily. "Just a thought. I know how close you are with your team."
After hanging up, Joe sat in the facility parking lot as it emptied around him. The conversation with Ellie had been pleasant, supportive, exactly what he should have wanted from his girlfriend after a successful game.
Instead, he found himself thinking about Y/N's measured professionalism, the brief moment of honesty they'd shared in the hallway, the way she'd handled his admission about not liking but respecting her boundaries.
He'd told her the truth, and she'd accepted it with the same grace she brought to everything else. No drama, no demand for explanation, just acknowledgment of reality.
But as Joe finally drove home through downtown Cincinnati, past the bars where his teammates were celebrating, he couldn't shake the feeling that something had shifted tonight. Not dramatically, but subtly—like a door that had been cracked open just enough to let in light.
He didn't know what Y/N had been thinking during their hallway conversation, whether his honesty had surprised her or simply confirmed what she already knew about his feelings. But for the first time in months, they'd spoken to each other as more than just colleagues managing professional boundaries.
* * *
Late September 2025 - Exploring Options
Joe learned about Y/N's Giants opportunity the way he learned about most facility rumors—through Jake's casual mention during a quarterback meeting, delivered with the kind of off-hand certainty that suggested everyone already knew.
"Weird about Y/N maybe leaving for New York," Jake had said, reviewing route concepts on his tablet. "Gonna be strange if she goes. She's been here since your rookie year, right?"
Joe's pen had stopped moving across his playbook. "What about New York?"
Jake looked up, surprised. "The Giants thing? VP position or something. Thought you'd know—aren't you two always coordinating on media stuff?"
"We work together," Joe replied carefully, though his mind was already racing. "Haven't heard anything about New York."
"Huh. Maybe it's just rumors then. You know how this place gets."
But Joe knew it wasn't just rumors. Jake didn't spread bullshit, and he'd been too specific about the VP thing. Y/N was actually thinking about leaving. Leaving Cincinnati.
Leaving him.
The thought knocked him sideways, cutting through the careful routine he'd been living with. Over the past few months, Joe had grown comfortable with their new dynamic—respectful, functional, emotionally safe. He'd told himself that the boundaries Y/N had established were healthy, that their working relationship was better for being clearly defined.
But the possibility of Y/N leaving entirely forced him to confront how much he'd been taking her continued presence for granted.
That evening, Joe sat in his house, trying to focus on game film but finding his mind wandering to what Jake had said. He pulled out his phone, thinking about texting Y/N directly, asking about the rumors. But what right did he have to that information? They weren't friends who shared personal updates anymore. They were colleagues who maintained professional boundaries.
His phone buzzed with a text from Ellie, something about her flight plans for the upcoming home game. Joe read it without really processing the words, his attention still fixed on the possibility that Y/N might be planning to leave Cincinnati.
The realization hit him with uncomfortable clarity: he was more invested in Y/N's career decisions than in his girlfriend's travel plans. More concerned about Y/N potentially leaving Cincinnati than about Ellie coming to visit.
That recognition forced Joe to confront something he'd been avoiding for months. His relationship with Ellie, while pleasant and uncomplicated, had become more obligation than choice. He cared about her genuinely, appreciated her kindness and support, but he didn't feel excited about her presence the way he felt anxious about Y/N's potential absence.
Joe spent the evening researching the Giants' organizational structure and recent content initiatives. He told himself it was professional curiosity, wanting to understand what opportunity Y/N might be considering.
But really, he was trying to gauge whether New York represented something he couldn't compete with. Not that he was competing—he'd made his choice months ago. But the thought of Y/N building a new life in a different city, working with different players, creating content that didn't include him at all, felt like losing something essential.
The next morning, Joe arrived at the facility early, hoping to catch Y/N before her day filled with meetings. He found her in one of the editing bays, reviewing game footage with that focused intensity that had always impressed him.
"Morning," he said, stepping into the doorway.
Y/N looked up, professional smile in place. "Hey. You're here early."
"Wanted to get ahead of the week," Joe replied, then decided to be direct. "Jake mentioned something about a New York opportunity yesterday. Giants?"
Something flickered across Y/N's expression—surprise, maybe annoyance that rumors were spreading. "Nothing's decided," she said carefully.
"But it's real? The opportunity?"
Y/N set down her stylus, turning to face him fully. "It's something I'm considering. VP of Content Strategy position."
Joe felt something close to panic, though he tried to keep it from showing. "Big move."
"It would be," Y/N agreed. "Major market, significant creative control."
"Is this about the buffer system? About creating distance?" The question slipped out before he could stop it, revealing more of his concerns than he'd intended.
Y/N's expression sharpened. "My professional decisions aren't about you, Joe."
The response was firm, definitive, and both relieving and devastating. Relieving because it meant his complicated feelings weren't driving her away. Devastating because it confirmed that he wasn't a factor in her decision-making at all.
"Right," Joe said, trying to recover. "Of course not. It's just... you've built so much here. Five years of work."
"And there's opportunity to build something new," Y/N replied. "That's how careers work. Growth, advancement, new challenges."
Joe nodded, recognizing the wisdom in her approach even as it felt like a personal rejection. "And there's nothing keeping you here? Nothing worth staying for?"
The question was as close as Joe could come to acknowledging what he couldn't say directly. That he needed her presence in ways that went beyond professional collaboration. That the thought of her leaving felt like losing an essential part of his support system.
Y/N studied his face for a moment. "I've built a life here," she said carefully. "That matters. But so does professional growth."
The answer was appropriately professional, but Joe caught something in her expression—a flicker of recognition that suggested she understood the subtext of his question even if she couldn't acknowledge it directly.
"Well," Joe said, backing toward the door. "I hope whatever you decide works out."
"Thanks," Y/N replied, already turning back to her work. "I'm sure it will."
Walking away from that conversation, Joe realized he was facing a crisis he'd created through his own emotional avoidance. He'd chosen safety with Ellie over the risk of pursuing something real with Y/N. Now Y/N was moving forward with her life and career while Joe remained trapped in a relationship that felt increasingly hollow.
But what could he do? Breaking up with Ellie to chase Y/N as she was planning to leave for New York would be both cruel and pointless. Y/N had already demonstrated that she could build a life that didn't revolve around him. She deserved better than to be someone's backup plan or consolation prize.
That evening, Joe sat in his house, Ellie's latest text about visiting for the Ravens game still unanswered on his phone. He thought about their last conversation, her enthusiasm about meeting his colleagues, her suggestion of dinner with Y/N.
The image of that dinner—Ellie chatting brightly while Y/N maintained professional politeness, Joe caught between his girlfriend and the woman he'd been too afraid to pursue—felt like a special kind of torture. Especially now, knowing Y/N might leave Cincinnati entirely.
Joe finally responded to Ellie's text with vague agreement about her visit, though his heart wasn't in the planning. His attention remained fixed on the recognition that he was about to lose something irreplaceable through his own emotional cowardice.
Y/N would visit New York, would probably be impressed by their facilities and vision, would make a decision based on what was best for her career. And Joe would remain in Cincinnati, playing football at the highest level while feeling increasingly disconnected from everything that made success meaningful.
He'd had his chance to be honest about his feelings, to take the risk that might have led to something real. Instead, he'd chosen comfort and safety, and now that choice was leading to exactly the kind of loss he'd been trying to avoid.
Some regrets, Joe was learning, couldn't be fixed by better decision-making in the future. They could only be carried, carefully contained, while watching what might have been disappear into someone else's new beginning.
* * *
Early October 2025 - Before the Visit
The week before Y/N's trip to New York dragged by. Joe went through his usual routine—film study, practice, media obligations—but he couldn't focus, too aware of Y/N moving around the facility.
During Tuesday's media availability, Joe watched Y/N coordinate with her team from across the room. She looked confident, in control, like someone who belonged in a VP role for a major market team.
The thought made him feel sick.
"Earth to Joe," Ja"Maar said, snapping his fingers in front of Joe's face as they walked to the parking garage after practice. "You've been spacing out all week. What's going on?"
Joe refocused on his teammate. "Just thinking through game plan stuff."
"Bullshit," Ja'Maar replied bluntly. "This is about Y/N leaving, isn't it?"
The directness caught Joe off guard. "What makes you say that?"
"Because you've been tracking her movements all week like you're afraid she's going to disappear," Ja'Maar observed. "And because everyone knows you two have some kind of complicated history, even if nobody talks about it directly."
Joe felt heat rise in his neck. "We work together. Have for five years. It'll be an adjustment if she leaves."
"Uh-huh," Ja'Maar said, clearly unconvinced. "Look, I don't know what the deal is between you two, and it's none of my business. But if you've got something to say to her before she potentially moves across the country, maybe now's the time."
"It's not that simple," Joe replied, though even as he said it, he wondered if it was actually simpler than he was making it.
"It never is," he agreed. "But sometimes complicated is better than regret."
That evening, Joe found himself at the facility later than necessary, ostensibly reviewing additional film but really hoping to cross paths with Y/N. He'd heard through the staff grapevine that she was working late, finalizing content plans before her New York trip.
He found her in her office, surrounded by multiple monitors and notebooks, laptop open to what looked like presentation slides. She glanced up when he knocked on her door frame.
"Working late," Joe observed, stepping into the office when she gestured him in.
"Trying to get ahead before I'm out of town," Y/N replied, saving her work. "Don't want to leave the team scrambling while I'm gone."
Joe noted the careful way she'd phrased it—"while I'm gone," not "if I don't come back." Either diplomatic language or a decision already made that she wasn't ready to announce.
"Mind if I ask what you're expecting from the visit?" he said, settling into the chair across from her desk.
Y/N leaned back, considering her response. "Honestly? I'm trying to approach it with an open mind. The opportunity is substantial, but I want to understand the culture, the vision, what I'd actually be walking into."
"And if it's everything they're promising?"
"Then I'll have a difficult decision to make," she said simply.
Joe studied her expression, looking for any sign of what she was thinking beyond the careful professionalism. "What would make it difficult? I mean, from the outside, it seems like a clear career advancement."
Y/N was quiet for a moment, her fingers absently straightening papers on her desk. "Five years is a long time to build something. To develop relationships, understand a culture, create work that feels meaningful. Starting over somewhere else, even with better title and compensation, means giving up what I've built here."
"But?"
"But maybe that's what growth requires sometimes," she finished. "Maybe staying in your comfort zone, even when it's working, prevents you from discovering what else is possible."
The words hit Joe harder than she probably intended. He heard in them a philosophy he'd been too afraid to apply to his own life—the recognition that comfort could be its own trap, that fear of losing what you had could prevent you from gaining what you actually needed.
"That's a mature way to look at it," he said, meaning it even as it made his own choices feel increasingly cowardly.
"I'm trying to be," Y/N replied. "This industry doesn't give you many chances at opportunities like this. It would be foolish not to explore it seriously."
Joe nodded, recognizing the wisdom in her approach while hating what it might mean for his own life. "Well, for what it's worth, I hope they roll out the red carpet for you. You deserve to see what you're worth in a major market."
Something shifted in Y/N's expression at his words—surprise, maybe, or appreciation for his support despite his personal investment in her staying.
"Thank you," she said, and Joe caught a warmth in her voice that had been absent from their interactions for months. "That means more than you probably realize."
The moment stretched between them, loaded with recognition of their shared history and mutual respect despite the complications that had driven them apart. Joe felt the urge to say more, to acknowledge what her leaving would mean to him personally, to finally be honest about feelings he'd been suppressing for over a year.
But before he could find the words, Y/N's phone buzzed with what looked like a work emergency. The moment passed, replaced by the familiar rhythm of professional obligations and careful boundaries.
"I should let you get back to it," Joe said, standing. "Good luck in New York. I hope you get everything you're looking for."
"Thanks, Joe. I appreciate that."
As he walked back to his car, Joe replayed their conversation, noting how easily they'd fallen into genuine dialogue when the stakes felt clear. Y/N was preparing for a major career decision, and Joe was supporting her choice even though it might mean losing her presence in his professional life.
It felt both mature and devastating—the kind of selfless support you offered someone you cared about deeply, even when their success might mean your own loss.
Joe thought about Ja'Maar's earlier observation about regret versus complication. Maybe his teammate was right. Maybe the complicated conversation was better than watching Y/N leave without ever being honest about what she meant to him.
But sitting in his car in the empty parking lot, thinking about Ellie's upcoming visit and Y/N's pending trip to New York, Joe couldn't find the courage to risk everything for a conversation that might change nothing.
Some opportunities, once missed, couldn't be recovered. Joe was starting to understand that he might be living through one of those moments—watching something essential slip away because he'd been too afraid to reach for it when it was still possible.
The recognition felt like a weight settling in his chest, heavy and permanent. By the time Y/N returned from New York, Joe suspected his chance for honesty would have passed entirely, leaving him with nothing but the careful professional relationship they'd built and the knowledge of what he'd been too afraid to pursue.
* * *
Late October 2025 - The Breaking Point
Joe stood frozen in Y/N's empty office after she walked out, her words echoing in the sudden silence. The conversation had gone worse than he'd imagined possible, and he'd imagined it going pretty badly.
You don't get to jerk me around like this again.
The accusation cut deep, forcing him to confront the truth he'd been avoiding. From Y/N's perspective, his timing wasn't just bad—it was selfish. Cruel, even. Coming to her now, after years of emotional distance, just as she was ready to leave for something better.
Joe slumped into the chair Y/N had vacated, running his hands through his hair. He'd thought breaking up with Ellie would clear the air, would show Y/N that he was finally ready to be honest. Instead, it had backfired completely.
Y/N wasn't waiting for him anymore. And showing up now, claiming feelings he'd been too scared to acknowledge when it mattered, probably looked like manipulation rather than honesty.
His phone buzzed with a text from Ellie: Hope you're doing okay. Thank you for being honest with me. I knew something was off.
The message made Joe feel sick with guilt. Breaking up with Ellie had been the right thing to do—she deserved someone who could love her completely—but the conversation had been brutal. She'd handled it with more grace than he'd deserved, acknowledging that she'd sensed his emotional distance even if she hadn't understood its cause.
I'm sorry, he'd told her during their difficult conversation the night before. You deserve so much better than someone who can't be fully present.
It's Y/N, isn't it? Ellie had asked, her voice sad but not surprised. I could tell when we were at the facility. The way you looked at her.
Joe had confirmed it, hating himself for the hurt in Ellie's eyes even as he knew honesty was overdue. She'd cried, asked questions he'd answered as gently as possible, then packed her things with dignity that made him feel even worse about what he'd put her through.
Now, sitting in Y/N's office, Joe realized he'd hurt two people he cared about and probably gained nothing in the process. Y/N was more resolved than ever to leave for New York, and Ellie was nursing heartbreak she'd done nothing to deserve.
Joe's phone rang. Ja'Maar's name on the screen.
"How'd it go?" his teammate asked without preamble.
"Badly," Joe replied, staring at Y/N's empty desk. "Really fucking badly."
"What happened?"
Joe gave him the abbreviated version—the breakup with Ellie, the confrontation with Y/N, her accusation that his timing was manipulative rather than romantic.
"Shit, man," Ja'Maar said when Joe finished. "She's not wrong, though. About the timing."
"I know," Joe admitted. "But what was I supposed to do? Let her leave without saying anything?"
"Maybe," Ja'Maar said bluntly. "Maybe that would have been kinder than dropping this on her when she's trying to make the biggest career decision of her life."
The words stung because they were true. Joe had convinced himself that honesty was the right choice, but honesty motivated by self-interest rather than Y/N's wellbeing wasn't necessarily noble.
"So what now?" Joe asked.
"Now you live with the consequences," Ja'Maar replied. "You made your choices for years, and Y/N made hers. She doesn't owe you anything just because you finally figured out what you want."
After hanging up, Joe remained in Y/N's office, surrounded by evidence of her competence and dedication. Awards on the walls, thank-you notes from players, carefully organized files that spoke to five years of building something meaningful with the Bengals.
He thought about their first meeting during his rookie photoshoot, how Y/N had caught that fumbled football with ease and thrown it back to him with perfect spiral. She'd been impressive from day one, but Joe had been too focused on his own career to really see her potential.
Over the years, he'd watched her grow from a junior media coordinator to someone essential to the organization's identity. She'd documented his lowest moments during injury recovery, had been present for his biggest triumphs, had somehow become woven into every significant moment of his NFL career.
But Joe realized with painful clarity that Y/N had also built her own story during those five years. She'd earned promotions, developed innovative content strategies, gained recognition throughout the league. Her career wasn't just about documenting his journey—it was about creating her own.
The Giants opportunity wasn't Y/N running away from complicated feelings. It was her running toward something she'd earned through years of exceptional work. Joe's feelings were just unfortunate timing, not a reason for her to stay.
That recognition was both humbling and devastating. Joe had spent so long thinking about what Y/N meant to his career, his recovery, his daily life that he'd failed to consider what she needed for her own growth and happiness.
Maybe the most loving thing he could do now was support her decision, whatever it was, without adding more pressure or guilt. Let her choose New York if that's what would make her happy, even if it meant losing her presence from his life entirely.
Joe's phone buzzed with another text, this one from Y/N: I need you to know that conversation doesn't change my timeline. I'm still considering all factors. Please respect whatever I decide.
The message was characteristically professional, but Joe caught the underlying plea for space. Y/N was asking him not to complicate her decision-making process any further.
I will, he replied. And Y/N? You were right about my timing. I'm sorry.
He waited, hoping for a response that would suggest forgiveness or understanding. But none came.
Walking back to his car, Joe felt the weight of recognition settling over him. He'd spent months choosing emotional safety over authentic risk, then panicked when the consequences of those choices became clear. Y/N had every right to prioritize her career over his suddenly declared feelings.
But that didn't make losing her hurt any less.
Joe thought about the upcoming weeks—Y/N's final meetings with the Giants, her decision about New York, the possibility that their last real conversation had been an argument in her office. The idea that she might leave Cincinnati with anger or disappointment as her final impression of him felt unbearable.
Yet maybe that was the price of his years of emotional avoidance. Some opportunities, once missed, couldn't be recovered. Some honesty, when it came too late, caused more harm than continued silence would have.
Joe had finally found the courage to tell Y/N how he felt. Unfortunately, he'd found it at exactly the moment when she'd moved beyond needing to hear it.
* * *
Joe had walked into the leadership meeting with his usual focus, prepared to discuss winter content strategy and playoff scenarios. It was routine, the kind of organizational planning that happened every October. He'd expected updates on draft preparation, maybe some discussion about facility improvements during the offseason.
He hadn't expected to learn about Y/N's potential departure like this.
"As some of you may have heard, Y/N is considering an opportunity with another organization," Kayla said casually, as if she wasn't announcing the end of Joe's world. "We're in discussions about retention, but we also need contingency planning in case she accepts this new role."
The room went quiet, and Joe felt his chest tighten. Everyone was looking at Y/N, who maintained her perfect professional composure despite what had to be an uncomfortable moment. But Joe was looking at the bigger picture—Y/N might leave, and he was finding out about it in a fucking leadership meeting like some random staff member.
"Nothing's been decided yet," Y/N said calmly, and Joe heard the measured control in her voice. "I'm weighing options carefully, and regardless of my decision, I'm committed to ensuring a smooth transition if that becomes necessary."
Smooth transition. Like five years of building something together—professionally, personally, emotionally—could be smoothly transitioned to someone else. Like she was replaceable.
Joe tried to focus on the rest of the meeting, but his mind was spinning. When had she decided to explore other opportunities? How long had she been interviewing? Why hadn't she mentioned it during their coffee conversation or their brief exchange before her New York trip?
Then the answer hit him with sickening clarity: because it wasn't his business anymore. They weren't friends who shared personal updates. They were colleagues who maintained professional boundaries, boundaries he'd helped create through his emotional cowardice.
As the meeting wrapped up, Joe watched Y/N gathering her materials efficiently, preparing to leave as if she hadn't just casually mentioned potentially abandoning everything they'd built together. The unfairness of it—that she could consider leaving while he was supposed to just accept it professionally—made his composure start to crack.
She was almost to the door when something inside him snapped.
"So that's it?" The words came out louder than he'd intended, but he was past caring about discretion. "Everyone just finds out in a meeting that you might be gone next month?"
Y/N turned slowly, and Joe could see her calculating the optics of this public confrontation. "This isn't the place, Joe."
But when was the place? When had she planned to have this conversation with him specifically? When she was already packed and heading to New York?
"When is the place?" Joe pressed, aware that people were watching but unable to stop himself. "After you've already accepted? After you're already gone?"
"I haven't made any decisions yet," Y/N replied with that maddening professional calm. "And this is a professional matter I'm handling appropriately."
Appropriately. The word hit him wrong, the implication that his reaction was inappropriate while her potential departure was just good career management.
"Is it?" Joe challenged, taking a step closer. "Because it feels like you're making a major decision that affects a lot of people here without any real conversation."
"I've had those conversations with the appropriate leadership," Y/N countered, and Joe caught the slight edge in her voice. "With Kayla, with the content team. My career decisions don't require facility-wide consultation."
The dismissal stung. He wasn't asking for facility-wide consultation—he was asking why someone he'd worked closely with for five years, someone he'd shared countless conversations and moments with, someone he'd fallen in love with, was planning to leave without a word to him personally.
"So we just lose the person who's built our entire content strategy for five years, and that's supposed to be fine?" Joe heard the challenge in his own voice, recognized he was crossing lines but unable to care.
Y/N's professional mask slipped slightly, her frustration finally showing. "Why do you care so much?" she asked, the question more pointed than anything she'd said to him in months. "Why does this matter to you specifically?"
The question hung between them, loaded with everything they'd never said directly. Joe was acutely aware of their audience, of Kayla and Sam and other staff members watching this exchange with barely concealed interest. He was also aware that his answer could change everything—could destroy the careful professional relationship they'd maintained, could complicate her decision, could expose feelings he'd kept hidden for over a year.
But looking at Y/N, at the possibility of her walking away forever, Joe found he was past caring about complications.
"Because some things should matter more than titles and market size," he said, his voice quieter but no less intense. "Some connections are worth more than whatever the Giants are offering."
The word hung in the air—connections—and Joe saw Y/N's eyes widen slightly at the implication. He'd just publicly acknowledged that this was about more than professional courtesy, more than workflow continuity.
Before either of them could say anything else, Kayla stepped forward with diplomatic intervention. "Let's table this discussion. Y/N hasn't made her decision yet, and we'll have appropriate transition conversations when and if that becomes necessary."
Joe held Y/N's gaze for a moment longer, seeing surprise and something else—uncertainty?—in her expression. Then he turned and walked out, his control finally completely shattered.
In the hallway, Joe leaned against the wall, trying to process what had just happened. He'd publicly confronted Y/N about a personal matter, had essentially announced to the leadership team that her potential departure affected him more than professionally appropriate.
His phone was in his hand before he'd consciously decided to text her:
Joe: I'm sorry. That was out of line. Can we talk? For real this time.
He sent it immediately, then waited, staring at the screen. When her response came, it felt like a door closing:
Y/N: Not a good time. Need to focus on work.
Joe typed quickly:
Joe: I understand. But we need to talk before you decide. Please.
Then he waited again, but no response came.
Walking toward the parking lot, Joe felt the weight of what he'd just done. He'd destroyed months of careful professional distance in about five minutes of emotional honesty. He'd made Y/N's career decision about his feelings, had put her in an impossible position by making their complications public.
But he couldn't bring himself to regret it entirely. Because Y/N was considering leaving, and she hadn't told him personally, and the thought of her disappearing from his life without one honest conversation felt unbearable.
His phone buzzed with a text from Ellie about dinner plans, and Joe stared at it with the growing certainty that his entire life was built on lies he was tired of living.
Joe's phone buzzed again. Ja'Maar: Heard about the meeting today. You good?
Been better, Joe replied.
Want to talk about it?
Joe considered the offer. Ja'Maar was discreet, trustworthy, and had already figured out that Joe's interest in Y/N went beyond professional courtesy. Maybe external perspective would help.
Yeah. Your place?
An hour later, Joe sat on Ja'Maar's couch with a beer he wasn't really drinking, trying to explain a situation that felt impossible to articulate.
"So let me get this straight," Ja'Maar said after listening to Joe's halting explanation. "You've been in love with Y/N for over a year, but you're dating Ellie because it felt safer. Now Y/N's about to leave for New York, and you publicly freaked out about it in a leadership meeting."
"That's the summary, yeah," Joe confirmed, feeling even worse hearing it laid out so simply.
"And what exactly is your plan here?" Ja'Maar asked. "Because from where I'm sitting, it looks like you're about to lose both of them."
Joe set his beer down, running his hands through his hair. "I don't have a plan. That's the problem."
"Okay, let's think through this," Ja'Maar said, settling into problem-solving mode. "First question: what do you actually want?"
The answer came without hesitation. "Y/N. I want Y/N."
"And what about Ellie?"
Joe felt guilt wash over him. "Ellie's great. She's kind, supportive, uncomplicated. Everything I should want. But I don't love her. Not the way I love Y/N." The admission felt both relieving and terrible.
Ja'Maar nodded thoughtfully. "So you're staying with someone you don't love to avoid pursuing someone you do love. Because?"
"Because Y/N deserves better than being someone's consolation prize," Joe said. "Because breaking up with Ellie to chase Y/N as she's leaving for New York would be cruel to everyone involved. Because I had my chance and I chose safety instead."
"Maybe," Ja'Maar agreed. "But you're assuming Y/N's feelings haven't changed, that she's moved on completely. What if she hasn't?"
Joe thought about their coffee shop conversation, the carefully maintained professional distance, Y/N's composed reaction to his emotional outburst today. "She's handled everything with complete professionalism. If she had feelings, she's clearly over them."
"Or she's protecting herself from exactly this situation," Ja'Maar suggested. "From wanting something she thinks she can't have."
The possibility hadn't occurred to Joe. He'd assumed Y/N's professional boundaries meant emotional distance, but maybe they meant the opposite—maybe she was working harder to maintain control precisely because the feelings were still there.
"Even if that's true," Joe said, "the timing is terrible. She's got a major career opportunity waiting for her. She shouldn't base that decision on some guy who's been too afraid to be honest about his feelings."
"So be honest now," Ja'Maar said simply. "Before she decides. Give her all the information, let her make the choice with everything on the table."
"And Ellie?"
Ja'Maar's expression grew serious. "Joe, you can't keep stringing along someone who deserves better while pining for someone else. It's not fair to anyone."
Joe knew his teammate was right. His relationship with Ellie had become fundamentally dishonest, sustained by emotional cowardice rather than genuine commitment.
"Y/N's not answering my calls," Joe said. "After today's disaster, she's probably done with complicated conversations."
"Then you'll have to find another way," Ja'Maar replied. "Because in two weeks, she might be gone. And if you let her leave without being honest, you'll spend the rest of your life wondering what might have happened."
Driving home, Joe thought about Ja'Maar's advice. Being honest with Y/N meant risking everything—his professional relationship with her, his comfortable routine with Ellie, the carefully constructed life he'd built around emotional safety.
But not being honest meant accepting that he'd let fear dictate the most important choice of his life. That he'd let Y/N leave without ever giving her the chance to choose him, really choose him, with full knowledge of what he felt.
* * *
Three Days Later
The facility felt different without Y/N's regular presence. She'd been working remotely more often, only appearing for essential meetings, clearly maintaining distance after their confrontation. Joe found himself hyperaware of her absence, noting the times when she would normally be reviewing content or coordinating with her team.
He'd kept his promise not to pressure her, hadn't sent additional texts or attempted further conversations. But the waiting was killing him. In less than a week, Y/N would need to give the Giants her final answer, and Joe had no idea which way she was leaning.
"You look like shit," Ja'Maar observed as they wrapped up Wednesday practice.
"Thanks," Joe replied dryly. "That's exactly what I needed to hear."
"I'm serious, man. When's the last time you fuckin' slept?"
Joe couldn't remember. Since his conversation with Y/N, he'd been existing on caffeine and restless energy, his mind cycling through scenarios and regrets whenever he tried to rest.
"She's probably going to take it," Joe said, voicing the fear that had been growing stronger each day. "The Giants offer. Why wouldn't she? It's everything she's worked for professionally."
"Maybe," Ja'Maar agreed. "Or maybe she values what she's built here more than you think."
"Even after I fucked everything up with my timing?"
Ja'Maar considered this. "You know what your problem is? You think this is all about you. Y/N's decision, her feelings, her career—you keep making it about how it affects Joe Burrow."
The observation stung because it was accurate. "So what should I do?"
"Nothing," Ja'Maar said firmly. "Let her make her choice without your emotional baggage influencing it. If she stays, great. If she goes, you deal with it and learn from how you handled this."
Joe nodded, recognizing the wisdom even as every instinct urged him to do something, anything, to influence Y/N's decision in his favor.
That evening, Joe sat in his house scrolling through social media, where speculation about Y/N's potential departure had somehow leaked despite the organization's attempts at discretion. Fans were posting about losing "the best content coordinator in the NFL," sharing favorite videos and posts from her tenure with the team.
One comment thread particularly caught his attention: She made Burrow seem like a real person, not just a celebrity. Hope she stays.
The observation hit home. Y/N had protected his humanity while managing his public image, had found ways to show his personality without exploiting his vulnerability. She'd been more than just a media coordinator—she'd been a guardian of his authentic self in a world that constantly pressured him to perform.
Joe thought about all the moments Y/N had captured over five years, the injury recovery sessions that could have been exploitative but instead showed genuine determination, the community events that revealed his care for Cincinnati, the team interactions that demonstrated his leadership without making it seem forced.
She'd helped him become the person he wanted to be publicly while never making him feel managed or packaged. And now she was considering leaving to build something new, something that didn't depend on understanding Joe Burrow's complexities.
His phone rang. His mother's name on the screen.
"How are you holding up?" she asked without preamble.
Joe shouldn't have been surprised that his parents had heard about Y/N's potential departure. News traveled fast in NFL circles, especially when it involved key personnel.
"Been better," Joe admitted. "How much do you know?"
"Enough to know you're probably beating yourself up over timing and choices," his mother replied with characteristic directness. "Want to talk about it?"
Joe found himself explaining the situation—his relationship with Ellie, his feelings for Y/N, the disastrous conversation in her office. His mother listened without judgment, asking clarifying questions but not offering immediate advice.
"You know," she said when he finished, "sometimes the most loving thing you can do is want someone's happiness more than you want them in your life."
The words hit Joe like a revelation. He'd been so focused on his own loss, his own regret, that he hadn't fully considered what would actually make Y/N happiest in the long run.
"The Giants opportunity is exactly what she's earned," he said slowly. "Even if it means losing her."
"And if supporting her decision is the last gift you can give her," his mother continued gently, "then maybe that's how you show her what she's meant to you all these years."
* * *
Early November 2025 - The Offer
Joe tried to keep his normal routine after Y/N got back from New York, but he couldn't focus. His mind kept wandering to what the Giants had offered her, whether she'd already decided.
Around the facility, she kept things strictly professional—polite nods, brief work exchanges, nothing that acknowledged what had happened between them.
Ja'Marr noticed his distraction during Wednesday's practice.
"You missed that read completely," his teammate said as they reviewed route concepts. "Thompson was wide open on the comeback."
"I saw it," Joe replied, though they both knew he hadn't.
"Where's your head at, man?"
Joe glanced toward the facility windows. "Probably where it shouldn't be."
That evening, Joe sat in his house, staring at his phone. His mother had texted: How are you holding up? Any word on her decision?
Still waiting, Joe replied. Not well.
Remember what we talked about. Sometimes loving someone means wanting their happiness more than their presence.
Joe read the message twice. If Y/N's happiness was in New York, then supporting that choice was how he could prove his feelings were genuine rather than selfish.
But the thought of losing her forever—not just romantically, but from his daily life entirely—felt like losing something he couldn't replace.
* * *
Mid-November 2025
By the middle of November, Joe felt like he was going crazy. Y/N's deadline was coming up, and he had no idea what she was thinking. She gave him nothing—no hints, no clues, nothing.
After another sleepless night, Joe got to the facility early, hoping to see Y/N before his day started. But her office was empty, computer off.
"She's in the edit bay," Sam mentioned, appearing beside him in the hallway. "Been there since early this morning. Finalizing content transitions in case she needs to hand things over."
"That sounds... definitive," Joe managed.
Sam studied his expression. "Maybe. Or maybe just responsible. Y/N always has contingency plans."
Joe spent the day distracted, going through the motions of practice and meetings while his mind remained fixed on Y/N's absence. By evening, he couldn't stand it anymore. He needed to see her, to try once more to have an honest conversation before she made her final decision.
The edit bay was one of the few rooms still lit when Joe arrived back at the facility that night. Through the window, he could see Y/N working alone, surrounded by monitors and notebooks, completely focused on her screen.
Joe stood outside for several minutes, gathering courage for what might be their last private conversation. Everything he'd been too afraid to say for five years needed to be said now, before it was too late.
When he finally knocked and entered, Y/N's immediate tension was obvious. But Joe was beyond caring about professional boundaries or appropriate timing. This was his last chance.
Their conversation escalated quickly, five years of suppressed emotion finally breaking free. When Y/N accused him of not seeing her for years, of only noticing her now that she was leaving, Joe felt something crack inside his chest.
"It's mattered to me for five years!" she'd shouted, and Joe realized with devastating clarity how much pain he'd caused through his emotional cowardice.
But when she admitted that what existed between them had always mattered, something shifted. Hope and desperation combined into action before Joe could think it through.
He kissed her.
Not gentle or tentative—urgent, desperate, like he was trying to communicate everything he'd been too afraid to say. Years of restraint broke open all at once, and when Y/N kissed him back with equal intensity, Joe felt like he was finally home.
Her hands gripping his shirt, her body pressed against his, the soft sounds she made when he kissed her neck—it was everything Joe had imagined and more. The connection that had existed between them for years finally had physical expression, and it was overwhelming in its intensity.
When Kayla's call interrupted them, Joe felt the real world crashing back with brutal clarity. As Y/N answered professionally, her voice steady despite their disheveled appearance, Joe marveled at her composure while struggling to regain his own.
"That was real," he'd told her afterward, needing her to understand that his feelings weren't just about fear of losing her. "Everything I've said, everything I feel for you—it's real."
The vulnerability of that admission, spoken in the aftermath of their first kiss, felt like jumping off a cliff. But Y/N needed to know that his declaration wasn't just desperation or poor timing—it was the truth he'd been carrying for years.
When she said she needed time to think clearly, Joe forced himself to step back despite every instinct urging him to hold her, to kiss her again, to try to convince her through touch rather than words.
"Take all the time you need," he'd said, meaning it even as it felt like agreeing to his own torture.
Walking away from Y/N in that edit bay, her lips still swollen from his kisses, was one of the hardest things Joe had ever done. But his mother's words echoed in his mind: sometimes loving someone meant wanting their happiness more than their presence.
If Y/N needed space to make the right decision for her life, Joe would give it to her. Even if that decision broke his heart.
But as he drove home through the dark Cincinnati streets, Joe allowed himself to hope that their kiss had changed something fundamental. That Y/N now understood his feelings weren't just about timing or fear of loss, but about love he'd been too afraid to acknowledge.
One week remained. Seven days for Y/N to decide between New York and Cincinnati, between career advancement and whatever they might build together.
Joe had finally been completely honest. Now all he could do was wait, and hope that honesty hadn't come too late to matter.
The recognition that he might lose both Y/N's presence and her respect—that she might leave thinking poorly of his character and timing—was almost unbearable. But at least she would leave knowing the truth about how he felt.
* * *
The Day After
Joe woke up the next morning with the taste of Y/N still on his lips and the memory of her hands in his hair. But in daylight, doubt crept in. Had kissing her been right, or just more shitty timing?
He'd promised to give her space, but he was dying to know where they stood. Had their kiss changed anything for her, or just made everything worse?
At the facility, Joe went through his routine on autopilot, trying not to look toward Y/N's office. When Sam mentioned Y/N was working remotely again, Joe felt relief and disappointment��glad he didn't have to see her today, but also desperate to gauge her reaction to what had happened.
His phone buzzed with a text from Ja'Marr: You look like you either got hit by a truck or got laid. Which is it?
Joe almost laughed despite his anxiety. Neither. Something in between.
That sounds ominous. We good?
Ask me in a week.
Honestly, Joe had no idea if they were good. He'd finally taken Ja'Marr's advice, been completely honest about his feelings. But Y/N's response was still a mystery, her decision about New York still hanging over everything.
For the first time in years, Joe had no control over something that mattered this much. All he could do was wait and hope Y/N would make whatever choice would make her happy.
Even if it killed him.
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I usually do not send requests, but your writing is just so amazing that I just can't resist 😭
Shy reader and Enzo, where the reader has a Praise kink? And he absolutely loves it and just keeps on praising her and telling her how much of a good girl she is?
[Anyways I love you a lot!!! 🫶🏻🤍]
omg i love you a lot too 💕
Shy and Sweet
Lorenzo Berkshire x F!Reader
Warnings: Unprotected sex, oral sex(male receiving)

Enzo knew you were always shy. Super shy. But so sweet. And he noticed how flustered you'd get if someone complimented you or your work.
So when he finally managed to get you into his bed, he used that against you.
He told you how pretty you looked sucking his dick, finding the way you averted your eyes amusing. He told you how good you were and how good your mouth and tongue felt, and he didn't miss the way you shifted, pressing your thighs together. He would bet every dollar he had that you were soaked and your panties were ruined.
And he definitely knew he won that bet when he forced you up and pushed you onto the bed, wedging himself between your legs. He definitely didn't miss that wet spot on your panties. All soaked just from a few praises, not even touching you yet.
The praise didn't stop when he got you undressed and sank his cock into you. No, it got worse. The words were slipping from his mouth before he could even think, telling you how wet and tight you were, how good your pussy felt, how nice you moaned his name. And, Merlin, he loved how you somehow got wetter, soaking his dick, and how your pussy clenched from his words.
He thought you were so adorable, all flushed and embarrassed, refusing to meet his eyes, but seemed entranced by the way his dick fucked into you. That shouldn't have made him harder, shouldn't have made him want to fuck his cum deep inside you.
He refused to cum before you, almost desperate to see you come undone. His words were strained as he practically begged you to cum around his cock. His fingers found your clit as he told you to be good and cum for him. Come on, he knows you can be so good for him. Honestly, if you weren't close already, that alone still could've sent you over the edge, and it did. And the praises never stopped, he had to tell you how good you were for him, how good you felt cumming around him.
The only thing that stopped him was when he finally came, stuttering on his words before he just moaned, filling you up with his cum.
Merlin, if you kept getting that soaked from his words, he might never shut up around you just to get you like this again.
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Oh my blonde sailor, YOUR ASS IS MINE 😈😈
Luna had to act as a spy to take out the other scientists, thankfully, she wants alone cuz we were there with her 😋
While Luna has the “cool gal” attitude, we’re with the “idgaf” attitude, except we actually don’t give a fuck. sunshine with moody type friendship 🤭
We’re literally like “Thats my problem because..? Oh ew Luna don’t tell me you’re actually falling for that—“
Senku in ‘charming’ mode just did NOT work with us, we genuinely cringed 😭🙏 senku noticed that so instead he had Ryusui try to charm us while he was busy with Luna. Tbh that didn’t work either, it actually backfired cuz we ended up charming Ryusui ourselves on accident
Cuz we’re just that hot 💪😍
anyways, while Luna was being Senku’s nurse cuz, he got shot shot, we had helped with repairing the plane. Apparently Ryusui is lowkey into us covered in motor oil and dust cuz he is just sitting next to us 24/7, not even doing anything to help besides snapping his fingers for Francois to get us some water and snacks
Like heart eyes type shit 🤭 I love Ryusui being a yearner
Oil, Dust, and Desire

The midday sun was relentless, pouring heat over the makeshift airfield. Sweat clung to your skin like second nature now, the acrid sting of motor oil staining your clothes and fingers. You knelt beside the half-assembled cockpit, wrench in hand, humming something tuneless and vulgar under your breath.
"God, you’re gross," Luna gagged playfully behind you. "Is that grease or actual blood on your shirt?"
You didn’t look up. "Dunno. Guess I’ll find out when it starts smelling weird."
She sighed in that exaggerated way only she could, flipping her hair off her shoulder. "You’re disgusting. But like... in a hot way. Ugh, I hate that."
"Thanks, babe. That’s what I aim for," you said sweetly, finally glancing up — just in time to see him again.
Ryusui Nanami.
Blonde, brilliant, brooding in broad daylight with a glint in his eye and absolutely no reason to be here except, clearly, to watch you sweat.
He leaned casually against a crate of steel bolts, arms folded, white shirt half-unbuttoned like some pirate prince risen from the dirt. His gaze didn’t waver. Didn’t blink. Didn't even pretend to be subtle.
You narrowed your eyes at him. "Do you plan on helping, or are you just here to pretend you’re not staring at my ass?"
A beat. Then—
"My dear, it’s far too late for pretending."
Luna choked on her water in the background. You didn't even blink.
"Cool. That’s your problem, not mine."
Ryusui grinned, but it had that desperate edge — the kind of smile someone makes when they’re trying to be charming, but internally they’re already spiraling. You returned to the engine, twisting the wrench with extra force just to make the muscles in your arms flex. You felt his gaze drop like a hammer.
God, this was almost too easy.
A few days earlier…
"You’re sure I can’t charm her?" Senku’s eyes narrowed as he sipped his coffee, voice coated in sarcastic doubt.
"I’m telling you, dude, she cringed when you winked," Luna hissed, sitting beside you and buffing her nails. "I thought she was gonna combust. Like, it physically hurt her."
"It did," you added dryly, flipping through blueprints. "Never do that again. You looked like an overconfident worm."
Senku huffed and walked off, muttering something about lost causes.
Enter Ryusui.
"Ah, so I’ve been sent in as backup," he declared with a grand flourish, cape trailing behind him despite the lack of wind.
You squinted. "Don’t you have, like, a thousand more important things to do?"
"I have one thing to do." He leaned in. Too close. "Win you over."
You stared. Slowly, dramatically, you cringed again — full-body flinch. "Oh god. Even worse than Senku."
"Impossible," Ryusui breathed. And then, despite himself — he laughed.
Not his rehearsed, dazzling-laugh-for-the-crowd kind. But a sharp, disbelieving chuckle that slipped out like something genuine. Something real. His eyes softened.
You didn’t notice. You were already gone.
Present
“You know,” Luna whispered later that night, perched beside the campfire with a mug of whatever passed for cocoa in the Stone World, “I think Ryusui has a thing for you.”
You snorted. "No shit. He's been watching me like I'm the last glass of champagne in a dry country."
"But like, it's... weirdly emotional. He's not being gross about it."
You shrugged, stirring the fire with a stick. “Maybe he likes suffering. I'm not exactly girlfriend material.”
“He doesn’t want a girlfriend.” She smirked. “He wants a goddess.”
“That’s his problem,” you muttered — but your heart skipped anyway.
Two weeks later…
You were elbow-deep in wiring when you felt it — the shift in the air. No footsteps, no noise. Just the smell of that expensive cologne he had Francois make out of wildflowers and whatever the hell smelled rich.
You didn’t look up. "If you're going to keep watching me like a tragic poet, at least pass me the torque wrench."
It was in your hand instantly.
"You should rest," Ryusui said softly, sitting beside you on the wing of the plane, cross-legged and pristine. "Francois can take over—"
"Francois would rather die than touch this mess mid-repair," you muttered. "Besides. I like fixing things."
"Even broken people?"
That made you pause.
"Only if they admit they’re broken."
Ryusui was quiet for a long time.
Then: “...Touché.”
You glanced over — and caught it. The way his gaze flicked to your face, then down to your hands, callused and dirty. The way he was gripping his knees a little tighter. The way he kept not saying something.
"Spit it out," you said, not unkindly.
He exhaled. “I think you’re the most incredible woman I’ve ever met.”
"Gross."
"And I say that as someone who used to have women line up outside my penthouse."
"I bet they regretted it."
Ryusui laughed again. But this time it wasn’t charming. It was full-on feral. He buried his face in his hand and groaned.
“God, you’re infuriating.”
You smirked. “Hot, though.”
He looked up. "So hot," he whispered, like it hurt.
That night…
Ryusui couldn’t sleep.
He stared at the stars above, listening to the hum of generators and the occasional burst of laughter from where Chrome and Gen were probably playing dumb games.
Then he heard your laugh — muffled and low, near the tool shed.
He followed it like a man possessed.
You were sitting with Luna, sipping something cold, legs stretched out, face smeared with oil and dirt and looking like you’d been dragged through hell.
You’d never looked more divine.
Luna caught sight of him and whispered, “Stalker alert,” then dipped.
You didn’t look up when he sat beside you.
“I should be resting,” he said. “But I keep thinking about you.”
You raised a brow. “Dude. That’s not healthy.”
“I know,” he admitted, then turned to you. “You’re not like anyone I’ve ever met. You’re fearless. Smart. Gorgeous. And you couldn’t care less about me — which makes me want you more.”
You stared at him for a long time.
Then: “You’re right.”
"...About?"
“All of it.”
Ryusui blinked. “Wait. You—?”
You leaned in. “You’re fun to tease. And you make good snacks. Also, watching you pine is... kinda hot.”
He looked like he might combust. His mouth opened, but nothing came out.
You smirked. “That’s my problem because…?”
He whispered, “Because I’m falling in love with you.”
Silence. For a long moment, you didn’t say anything.
Then you smiled.
“Gross.”
And kissed him anyway.
Later…
Francois found the two of you passed out near the plane the next morning — you snoring, Ryusui holding your grease-stained hand with literal hearts in his eyes.
“Disgusting,” Luna said. “But like. In a hot way.”
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Oh Baby, You Part 56 - Again, Again
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note: I'm literally so sorry 😭

Mingyu exhales as he looks at his phone, then lets his hand fall to his knee. Orion, at the bottom of the slide, turns to him with his arms in the air. “Again, Uncle Gyu! Again!”
Uncle Gyu.
It’s not the first time that name has made him feel things, not in the least, but lately, it’s like every utterance of uncle digs some hole in his chest deeper and deeper. His heart sinks in that hole, and he’s not sure where it’s going. Somewhere dangerous, surely, if Minseo’s assumptions are correct.
She’s rarely wrong when it comes to him. That’s why he barely talked about the scandal with her when it first broke out — both she and Mingyu’s mother are much too good at reading him.
So then why would he come here today, and with Orion in his arms, no less?
When he asked you if he could watch Orion today, he kept telling himself it wasn’t for any specific reason, and yet…
Here he is.
Orion scrambles up the playground, but this time, Mingyu sits with Orion between his extended legs. He slides down with the gleeful boy, and once they reach the bottom, he scoops him up into his arms. Orion giggles uncontrollably, which makes Mingyu unable to resist giving him one strong toss into the air.
“Again, Uncle Gyu! Again!”
Mingyu smiles, but he chances one look to the side and sees Minseo sitting at the picnic site. Her arms are crossed, and she looks both annoyed at the fact that he left her last message without a response, and confused at the drop of Mingyu’s expression.
“Is something wrong, dear?” his mother asks as he walks up to them both.
Too perceptive by far.
She goes to feed Orion half of a grape, and when Mingyu doesn’t answer her question, she looks up at him. “Mingyu?”
“Mom.” He swallows. Holds Orion a little tighter. “Minseo… I have to tell you something.”
=
You collapse to the gym floor, cringing at the thought of what else has touched it, but unable to do anything except lie there.
Appearing in your line of sight, Jihoon bends over you. “You okay there?”
Chan shows up too, his hair dripping with sweat — which narrowly misses you, thank god.
You let out the roughest groan of your life. “Neither of you told me beating you up for an hour would make me feel like I was beat up for eight.”
While Chan holds his hand out to help you up, Jihoon shows off another one of his stupid smirks. “You’re out of shape, MT.”
“I don’t need you to tell me that.” You pout with your eyes scrunched shut, refusing to pull yourself up. Chan uselessly drags your lifeless body across the gym floor. “Nooooo…” you whine, “...I’m gonna lie here for the rest of eternity. I’m gonna melt through the floorboards if I have to move another muscle.”
Jihoon snorts. “Dunno if Wonwoo’s into goo.”
“Is anyone into goo?” you retort with a grimace.
After dropping you next to the pile of everyone’s stuff, Chan shrugs. “There’s a kink for everything. I bet Wonwoo would still love goo you.”
“That settles it, then.” You starfish on the floor, then peek one eye open at him. “You really think so?”
“That there’s a kink for everything?”
“No— Chan— Wonwoo.”
Jihoon sits down on a random piece of equipment, hunched over his phone. He doesn’t look at you while he says, “If you’re doing that thing moms do where they feel less attractive after having kids, then you’re dumb.”
“Obviously that’d be stupid.” You pout and cross your arms, glaring Jihoon down even though his eyes are glued to his phone screen. “I didn’t actually give birth.”
“Not just that.” Jihoon meets your eyes, and your chest suddenly goes tight. His face holds so much regret that it steals your breath. “I can’t know what it must’ve felt like for you, but MT… I swear, Wonwoo didn’t let you go just like that. He… in his heart—” Jihoon grimaces. Seems he’s better at the gushy stuff when it’s set to music. “He didn’t want to believe any of it. But the evidence… and when I— fuck. Look. He loves you okay? I know he told you that already, but…”
Sitting up, you pull your knees close to your chest. “...But what?”
Jihoon exhales, looks away, then glances at Chan, who shares his grim expression now. Your brows furrow as your eyes flit between them both.
“But what, Jihoon?”
He meets your eyes again. “I feel like you’re afraid to believe it.”
“Afraid…?” You hug your legs even tighter. “I… Is…” A sigh escapes you as you deflate, and Chan crouches down next to you to put a hand on your shoulder. Your next inhale trembles. “Is that so wrong? I mean, what if— what if I believe it, and then…”
Jihoon bites the inside of his cheek, jaw stretching. He knows.
“I believed he’d trust me back then. Or, I guess, I had that hope. And— and—”
“You’re scared to hope now because it might hurt you even more if things go badly?” Chan offers, his thumb rubbing little comforting circles on your shoulder.
With a pronounced sniffle, you pout at him. “No need to nutshell it so succinctly.”
Chan just gives you a smile, and you can’t help returning it. Deciding you don’t want to wallow anymore, you rub your eyes and get to your feet. “Hey, Jihoon,” you say after clearing your throat. “Wanna meet the little boy you’ve been buying all those gifts for?”
Although surprised for a second, Jihoon breathes out on a smile of pure gratitude. “I’d love to.”
=
As Jihoon pulls up in front of Mingyu’s house, Chan having left for home in his own car, your expression sours.
You know it’s only the afternoon, and there really shouldn’t be any lights on in the first place, but the entire house seems… empty. Even from the outside.
“So this is where Mr Geomsoft lives, huh?” Jihoon muses as he gets out of the driver’s seat and joins you on the lavish front walkway, unaware of the sinking feeling in your chest.
Please. Fuck, please no more surprises. Not again.
Trying to remain calm, (Because panicking might jinx things to be even worse, right? Right?) you push your finger on the touch sensor doorbell.
And nothing.
You try again, and again, and eight or nine more times before Jihoon stops you with his hand physically blocking yours.
“Call him,” he says, no nonsense, concern mixed with determination written into his features, and you oddly wish you had this guy on your side during every other freakout you’ve had so far.
Three missed calls in, and you switch to a different strategy.
“Hello?” Jeonghan answers after only one ring. “Is something going on?”
“That’s what I was hoping to ask you. Did something happen? Mingyu’s not home.”
“He’s in, ah… what was that town called again…”
You blink. “He’s out of town?”
“Yes, visiting his mother and sister for the weekend.” Jeonghan seems to sense your shock, wherever he is. “Why? What is it?”
Completely lost, you meet Jihoon’s concerned gaze once again. He has his arms crossed, listening to everything, and his jaw clenches. Without a word, he gently leads you back to his car, and after he deposits you next to the passenger’s side door, he takes your phone.
“Jeonghan, right? I need you to tell me exactly where Mingyu is. Now.”

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Ragatha appreciation post from the ep 5 trailer bc the Jax simps are doing it so why not me? ;3
First off:

THE DRESS??!! HER EXPRESSION?!! HER POSE?!! HER EVERYTHINGGGGG???!!! 😩🖤✨ Baddie spotted idc what ppl think :)
Next we have:
THE SILLINESS THAT RADIATES FROM THIS GIF AJDJAKDJKSDH 😭🥺🤲‼️ Also when watching the trailer with twin I spoke my mind and said this part is lowkey hot— JUST HEAR ME OUT KAY 🥵😔 Idk why maybe it’s how focused she is? And well she’s just silli like that 🤭💕 We know u requested the softball adventure Raggie 😏🏳️🌈
Then:

GIRL WHAT IS GOING ON AJHDJSDJSKS 💀 she’s so fucking stupid I love her— 🥹😅
Furthermore:
LAUGHING OUT LOUD AJDBKAJD SHES SO SILLIES GAHHHH 😭🫂🩷 I love her moments of stuttering/imperfection/slip ups haha, she tries so hard to be perfect and while I get that it can be annoying it works on me ajdbksjsjsksjd my shaylaaaaa 🥺👉👈
And last but not certainly least:

Idk her face here is just really cute (as always!) She looks so concerned aww 🥺🫂 Also love the hand clutched to the chest (?) I wonder what’s going on here poor bb 😞💖
Honorable mentions:
☆ I love her voice in general but in the trailer I love how confused she sounds lmao, it’s so cute ☺️💙 Amanda served fr ʅ(◞‿◟)ʃ ˚✧₊⁎⁺˳✧༚
☆ Love the way she is animated esp with how bouncy her hair is ajdhjsjdksjs 🥺💞 I love seeing the animators give each character unique features like that (ex. How everyone���s walks and runs are different).
୭₊˚ ۶ৎ Thanks for reading ✿ ·˚ ₊
#saw someone earlier talking abt how it feels like Jax is being talked abt too much and I’m not stopping ppl from simping but#GOD I COULDNT AGREE MORE#I’m so excited for “Ragata” to shine lol XD#that spelling mistake was so funny#Tbf it was Caine’s not Jax’s#the way ik what it’s referencing too…I’m cooked aren’t I chat#Sarah would call her that for funsies :3#(and to see her confused yet cutely endearing reaction lol—)#the amazing digital circus#tadc#tadc ragatha#ragatha#tadc oc#tadc sarah#<-brief mention in my tags lmao#infodump#appreciation post#ragatha my beloved#tadc episode 5#tadc ep 5#blue’s queues#<-also when this posts it’s gonna be Father’s Day ^u^#so happy Father’s Day to those who celebrate 🙌🌅#my dad just wants Egg McMuffins and spend some time at the bike park ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧#lol I should really stop getting sidetracked anbdmsdnksks#k bye ✌︎
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A lil ramble about this kink I’d thought I’d post here!!
Mannn I never get how normies can casually say/do the most insane hot things about this kink known to man and just casually go on about their day and not think anything of it 💀
Examples:
There’s a meme that made by someone who (at least I really think….?) doesn’t have this kink and it goes like “*points at your pussy* ‘Are you gonna finish that?’ *tummy growls really loud*” Damnnn loll
Also my friend is in a (normie) discord server and some one said “Stomach rumbling” “I’m so greedy” Holy shitt
And here’s a story actually: So I have a friend that does some questionable things but at the same time is also the most normal person to ever exist and also pretty naive in a way. Well one time we were at a fair in line and she is complaining about how hungry she is (which I try to ignore :,D), then OUT OF NOWHERE she puts my hand on her stomach and I CAN FEEL IT growling violently……. I fucking just froze there lol
AND THATS NOT THE END OF IT EITHER!!! Basically was with a group of friends at a frozen yogurt place and I saw her do that to another friend of mine but asked her to lean in close to see if she can hear her stomach and then with another friend she said something and like said “feel my stomach” And that friend put her hand there and the fair friend like put her hand on top of the hand and pressed down 😭 The friend that felt it said “yeah your definitely hungry” ………. Ok girl wtf 😭💀
Another example is that person I’m talking to, if I went back and screenshotted every time he said “grrowll” it would probably be like 20+ times.. and also the abs pics and videos.. I have a fuck ton of em now! Also we hung out kinda recently and at one point during cuddling he rubbed my stomach for like 15 minutes 😳 AND when he would do that sometimes he would like curl his fingers in and it would kinda go into my navel like aaaa!’sbd!hdjd1!1!&):&8 It was amazing but I was like 0_0 inside the whole time lmaoo. Also he def has a thing for my waist (and waists in general) and loves how soft it is whehe
And like when people (especially on tiktok) do that thing when they put their phone on thier stomach and listen to the noises.. think it was even a small trend for a bit too
Also!! this goes out to directors of shows/movies with scenes and even episodes that are (ofc not knowingly) centered about this kink, like I have a feeling that there has to be like some fetishists in the writing/animating room yk cuz damnn some of the things they can come up with is absolutely insane
So yeah I cannottt wrap my head around how people can just say/do those things 😭
I don’t think I’ve ever said that I’m hungry to ANYONE (to be fair tho I’ve never felt actual hunger but still). And there like specific words that relate to the fetish that I can’t say like:
hungry/hunger
even have kind of a hard time saying “noises” or “sound” for some reason
any onomatopoeia for like stummy noises (can’t even say growl in any sort of context lol) +all words for stomach (can say these to people in the community ONLY TEXTING and rarely text “stummy” to normies like one time I told someone stumy hurty because I haven’t eaten the whole day lmaoo
#Hopefully y’all understand what I mean I’m bad at explaining things#hunger kink#stomach growling#tummy kink#tummy noises#stomach noises
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I love 13 and Yasmin so much. 13 was so scared to love Yasmin. So scared to open up. Just as she started considering it, just as she started opening her hearts to the idea, she fucking regenerated 😭
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Audio Drama Sunday - 15th June ✨
What a week of listening!
🌲 @hellofromthehallowoods (193) No, no, nope. Mr Spiderfingers is way too scary for me. While I do love the addition of a genuinely terrifying character, I wish it wasn’t quite so tied to my phobias! I had a terrible gut feeling what was going to happen in the second story as soon as I realised the Mendies were going to meet up. Bern 😭 I have missed our gay elders so much this season and I’m so glad that they arrived just in time to put a stop to the violence. The thought of her being frail enough to need a wheelchair while accounting how she used to kill hallowoods fauna makes me desperately sad. Please! I don’t want to lose another one of the S1 faves. Oh, Olivier, also 😭 Maybe I was just emotional this week, but her pleas not to get whipped away from the fight again really got to me.
🧳 Travelling Light @monstrousproductions (48) Speaking of getting emotional. This ep gave me some BIG feelings. The multi-cultural new year’s celebration was so gorgeous and imaginative (and finding out it was all Óli’s doing for The Traveller - stop it, my poor heart). And that *scene*. GOD. I know that yearning is infinitely more delicious than them both explaining their feelings and being done with it but, at what cost? It also hurt hearing the Traveller get confirmation of the community they’ve found in Clanagh just as they leave but, also, only getting that confirmation because they’re leaving?? I am very excited to be travelling ‘light’ (someone needs to nick that case so it’s true) again!
🍎 @notquitedeadpod (XLIX) Oooh, Alfie. There’s so much hurt wrapped into the revelations of this episode. Hearing him rationalise his childhood/adolescent pain from an adult’s perspective makes me want to scream. No, honey, it was their responsibility to look after you always, no matter what else was going on ☹️ Also, I loved this line which is so NQD: ‘No, no I don’t know how many people you’ve killed and I don’t fucking care. Do you want to fuck me or not?’
🧋 @hinaypod (58.1-59) Oooooh, the Hen and Eda story was SO CUTE 😭🏳️⚧️ I loved it so much. I’m finally getting to grips with who the various men are from the most recent stories (I think). I don’t know why, but I always thought it was a house fire that got Billy Boy? Very exciting to be learning more about it! I also hope we get to find out more about the Donner family gift!!!
🔎 @224bbaker The season 2 Q+A made me giggle so much. What a fantastic cast and great questions!! Delightful to hear a full length version of The Tunnel of Brotherly Love as well. Now you’ve said it, the Bowie/Brit Pop combination really shines through.
🔮 @spiritboxradio (1.40) What a Good S1 finale! So much was tied up so satisfyingly, while leaving a good few mysteries to chew on as we go forward! I low key love the Inconveniences and I hope we get them back in the future. It’s verryyy interesting to consider the sacrifices Sam might have to make in order to ascend to his full title in the future (flower boy, I am side-eyeing you, sir) !!
💬 @clinical-space-podcast (3) Me: huh, I thought this show was queer. Aja: I HATE HER I HATE HER I HATE HER Me: oh, haha. Also, I’m so intrigued by the parental issues going on here. I love a good broken family!!
🥊 @killjamxxx (06-07) Okay , Bellamy, you sneaky lil small-printer!! I see you! Oh I’m SO glad that we’re not losing Mara as a POV this season, she’s such a cool character (and her VA has such a nice voice, so sue me). Maybe I’m going crazy, but do Dirge and Roger have history?? I’m not sure I buy that Roger’s insider knowledge of trying to target and oust Faustina is enough for Dirge to stop a meeting for him. Idk! Also, those twins are scary as fuck (pun intended). I’ve started listening to Killjam when I work out because it gives me hope that maybe I could have thighs like Faustina one day 🥺
🦋 I thoroughly enjoyed the @remnantspod Q+A even though I did forget to ask my Qs 😅 Hearing the switch to Sir voice was actually wild!! Definitely precipitating some kind of auditory Fregoli syndrome or something. I understand how voice acting works in theory but like . . . that was astounding. So excited that it will be returning so soon!
🛸 The Strange Case of Starship Iris (3.00.25) TCOSI is back!!!! So wonderful to hear from Arkady again and I loved and needed a recap, but it was such a natural in-universe way to do one. I’m so excited for this season! Let’s get these characters back together ASAP, please!
I am SO excited for the release of @levianpod tomorrow! The expectations are high, but I’m certain they will be met! 🌊
#audio drama sunday#audiodramasunday#podcast recs#hfth spoilers#travelling light#remnants pod#not quite dead#nqd spoilers#hi nay spoilers#tscosi#fawx & stallion#killjam xxx#clinical space
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S4E15&16
FUCKKKKK FUCK
THSI WAS SO SAD BUT ALSO??? WHY DID WE BARELY SEE WILSON W AMBER BEFORE THEY KILLED HER OFF?? There was like 2 episode centred around them I wish we got to know them better as a couple😢😢😢😢
Seeing Wilson break down was just sososo tragic poor guy :( and him stroking ambers hair as she passed oh theyre so sweet
HOUSE. BEING THE UNINTENTIONALCAUSE OF HER DEATH.. OUH I rly hope they explore this more in season 5
I loved house’s head being house trying to get all his memories back it was a good build up to the real climax of the finale. CHASE HYPNOTISIGN HOUSE oh that did things for me he’s so real…talking in a low calm voice brother you can’t do this to me
ALSO CHASE LOOKED REALLY NICE IN THE DARK BLUE SCRUBS I COULDNT FOCUSSS sorry to make this abt chase😢😭😭😭
But yes these were deeply tragic episodes and im nervous abt how this will effect poor Wilson going into season 5 :(
IM NOT OFFICIALLY HALFWAY THROUGH THE SHOW?? I think???
Starting a thread of me livetumblring house so dont read if u dont want spoilers
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