#she speaks! | OOC tag

[inejqhafa]

the scene where anthony tells kate that he wants to go to India so that their child knows their history and that he does too is so important especially for brown girls who are so often told to focus on integrating into their new households and forget their family once they get married. it really shows how much he values all parts of kate’s identity and who she is beyond just being viscountess, a wife, a future mother, etc. and then kate’s reaction of being fully and completely overwhelmed because she could never have imagined that he would be the one to bring it up, let alone being there for the birth makes me so emotional 😭

[dandeyrain]

there's something really frustrating that happens in the fandom when discussing anya, particularly when discussing her personality. in-game, she's portrayed as neurotic and sort of helpless, but also ultimately kind and forgiving, and fandom very much takes that as the unfiltered and unedited truth of her — to the point that people get angry or call it OOC when fanart or fic has anya being violent or even just kind of mean to either her rapist or her rapist's best friend who's covering for him (or, at absolute best, willfully ignoring straightforward evidence that his violent bestie has been violent to the only woman on the crew). anya is mean to curly in some art and the fandom crows "she's not like that! she's sweet and nice and powerless! she isn't gonna take agency! she loves everyone and gives everyone grace! you're mischaracterizing her!!"

but like. how are you characterizing her? we only ever see anya through two men's eyes, and one of those men is her rapist, and the other is the rapist's bestie, and neither of these men take anya seriously at least in some major ways, so how they view anya should absolutely be called into question. but even if we take their views of anya as 100% real and correct representations of how she acts on the tulpar, like...she is the only woman on a ship full of men that includes, again, HER RAPIST AND HER RAPIST'S BFF. she outright says that she knows curly won't help her when it matters — "i knew you wouldn't give me the gun to defend myself" — and even of the two men remaining, one is a kid and one is also wildly rude and dismissive to her (though i think in actuality swansea means it less). she is trapped here, aware that at least one member of the crew is capable of horrible violence towards her and that another member of the crew refuses to take that threat seriously. anya has every reason in the world to make sure that the men see her as dependent on them and polite and forgiving and incapable of anger, because if they see her as a threat they will hurt her.

it's wild to see the fandom correctly identify that anya is fawning with jimmy, pretending to like him more than she does, in order to keep herself safe — and then refuse to consider that she might be putting on a front for curly as well. everything we see about anya from curly has to be 100% real, because curly's a Good Man and Anya Trusts Him. it's impossible that she might be hiding anger or hurt from him. but i would argue that it's JUST as possible that anya is putting on a front of a nonthreatening sweet endlessly empathetic trusting nice girl and hiding other feelings. women are ALWAYS pretending to be nonthreatening and sweet and endlessly empathetic and trusting to the men who hurt them to avoid further harm.

let's look at what she actually does — she doesn't just let but outright ASKS jimmy to give curly his painkillers, knowing that jimmy will hurt him very similarly to how jimmy hurt her. is that kind? does that not suggest that she feels, if not outright anger at curly, at least a willingness to abdicate her responsibility as the nurse to care for him and put him in harm's way for her own sake? she kills herself by downing the last of curly's pain meds, freeing herself at the expense of curly's continued agony — if she truly wanted to help him, couldn't she have taken him with her and saved them both from jimmy? i think you can absolutely read these actions as benign, but it's also a valid reading to say "maybe these actions are indicative of anger or capacity for cruelty that she simply doesn't verbally express for whatever reason (like keeping men from hurting her)."

like, if you want to read her as 100% angelic and kind and sweet and incapable of anger or violence towards jimmy/curly/the rest of the crew, that's fine! my personal read is that it's a little of column a, a little of column b. but it's also worth considering that anya has every reason to put up a false front to these men. it's worth considering that we see anya through the eyes of men who don't take her seriously. and it's worth remembering that for a lot of women, it's a hell of a lot safer to let the men around you believe you're sweet and fragile and helpless than it is to let them know you hope they rot.

[raddogakito]

happy birthday, lil bro.

eh- akiyama?

[wandercr]

pov: ur me everyday and honey wants to go outside

[pacificanorthwestisthebest]

Rather busy shift at that hobble called Greasy's diner. Had to fight a raccoon while taking out trash. Absolutely lame.

[the-fluffiest-trainer]

[A video is attached, filmed by Arden. She hangs back with the camera as Fluttershy walks up the stairs in front of the Anistar City sundial. Professor Sycamore and the kids – Shauna, Calem, Trevor, and Tierno – are already waiting there for her.]

Fluttershy, you made it! And this must be… Arden, was it? Fully evolved now, congratulations to you both on training well.

[One orange-furred hand briefly passes in front of the camera as Arden waves.]

Sðanks! Hellü aga'n, Mrovessor!

[Professor Sycamore's jaw drops and for a moment he simply gapes at her, unable to process what he just heard.]

Thank you for arranging a gathering here, it's nice to see everyone again.

Yeah, it's nice you could join us! We all got to Anistar a while ago and have already challenged the gym here once, though Trevor and I need another go at it.

You'll get it next time, Shauna! Sorry it took me a while to catch up. My friend Twilight has had some… problems, lately. Also I met another Faller! From somewhere I've never heard of, which was cool. Scary, but cool.

Another? Well, that is interesting! Perhaps they might pass by my place in Lumiose some time.

In any case, what I wanted to talk with you all about: the Anistar sundial! This mysterious crystal has towered over the city for as long as anyone has recorded, even to the time of the ancient kings. Every day at sunset, when the light shines just right, the rings begin to turn and the sunlight is transformed into a glittering haze across the town. A light which is remarkably similar to the energy released when a pokemon evolves!

What does that mean?

Excellent question, Trevor! It means there could be a connection – after all, no one knows quite where the Anistar sundial came from. Some even claim it's from space! Now, Fluttershy, if you would... touch your mega ring to the crystal.

[Fluttershy is not wearing the mega ring, and has to dig through her saddlebags to find it.]

First, actually, this reminds me of something I've meant to do for a while now. Calem, at the tower in Shalour City, we had a battle to see who would get this mega ring from the guru there. The battle went in my favor, but... I've never really made use of it. I haven't needed mega evolution – there's only one battle I can recall where it really would have made a difference, an unofficial dark-type gym in Lumiose, and I completely forgot I had the ring on me and it ended with a draw.

What I mean is, I think you should have this. I know you wanted it, and it's not fair of me to keep the ring when I'm not using it.

[Fluttershy crosses the plaza and gives the mega ring to a somewhat stunned Calem.]

Oh, and this mega stone too. Absolite, I think it was called?

I... if you're sure? You really–

I mean it. The ring is yours. Now, let's see if the Professor is onto something here!

[Fluttershy returns to where she'd been standing, as Calem reaches over to touch the mega ring to the Anistar sundial. The gem set into the ring glows and is briefly surrounded by a cloud of pinkish sparkles, and in Calem's other hand the absolite stone also begins to faintly emit a pulsing light.]

Incredible... there is a connection! I suspect the mega ring has absorbed some kind of power from the sundial, something which this crystal shares with mega stones. It will take further study, of course, but in the meantime... look! That glow could be used to locate and identify other mega stones. Though perhaps only while the sundial is active in the sunset...? Much testing to do, eh, Calem?

I can't wait to hear all about how you use mega evolution in your battles from now on!

You bet I will! Just don't expect me to hold back the next time we have a spar, okay?

Of course! I'd suggest we have a friendly match right now, but there's actually some things I'd like to talk to the Professor about, while we're here face to face again.

[Calem nods, and he and the other kids head down the stairs together back into Anistar City. Fluttershy and the Professor remain behind, both looking out over the river behind the sundial crystal.]

[The video ends abruptly, likely cut from the start of a longer section of continuous footage.]

[shilo-sumac]

Hi been a minute how are you doing lately?

@psyonicscream

hey!!!!!!! im happy to hear from you! :D

all the pokemon are great which is good news! and ive been okay too i think, as okay as im capable of being at least! actually havent had any dizzy spells in a while even if im exerting myself which is a good sign right?

seeing you reminded me i really want to get pictures of all the eevee but they are so fast at this age, all pictures are blurs of brown.

anyways, how have you been, friend? havent been keeping up with too many blogs recently, wifi on the island is being annoying and whenever its up im too busy to do more than a few posts of my own

[taughtcruelty]

i love her so much :(((. she was so worried about robby showing up at the dojo. ( ft. my tory's canonical red lips, because she Absolutely Loves wearing red lipsticks <3 ).

[sharpest-point]

uuuuugh i hate my braaaain i hate how i think anyone not in my friend group suckssss I want to make more friendsssss but my stupid brain doesn’t let me I don’t know why im like this ughh

[aceparagoned]

In reference to this post I made about a couple of weeks ago, I'd like to go further into depth of how Hikaru's Crux was studied. In this headcanon, please be mindful of the following content warnings: child abuse, torture in a medical setting, and the ethics surrounding human experimentation in the name of "science."

When Hikaru was born and her Crux was discovered, scientists were intrigued on how this particular human could have developed another organ in the womb when her own mother, Katsumi, didn't have one. During Katsumi's entire pregnancy, the additional organ was discovered during routine ultrasounds, but there were discussions into the ethics of testing on an unborn fetus that could lead to Katsumi possibly miscarrying. Not just that, but Tamotsu, Hikaru's father, objected to the point of practically almost getting arrested for threatening to hurt the scientists that wanted to experiment on his wife and unborn daughter.

So, they held off until Hikaru was born so as to carry out their experiments when the Crux was fully developed.

This wasn't met without a great deal of resistance from not just Katsumi, but Hikaru's father, Tamotsu. The both of them vehemently argued to not test their daughter at all, thinking that she deserved so much more than being nothing more than something to gawk at because of being born with something else that no one else, at the time, possessed. For at least five years, Hikaru was able to grow up in a happy family until she was voluntarily given up to participate in the PIPE's training program in an attempt to turn the tides of war. They only gave her up on the promise that no experiments would be carried out on her because of her Crux.

The PIPE, desperate to continue living instead of losing the war against the Gnocem, promised they did. However, promises can be broken and it's one of the PIPE's horrible secrets that they've kept under lock and key this entire time.

See, after Hikaru had been given up by her parents, things were okay for a time. She was properly cared for, treated with respect, and told that things were going to be okay. That was, until, the same scientists who were intrigued when she was still in her mother's womb arrived and brokered a deal with the PIPE: they can test on her all they wanted if it'd produced the results they were looking for and that was to be humanity's weapon in the fight against the Gnocem. The deal was agreed upon and this is where things had taken a turn for the worst for Hikaru, who still was a child at this point.

At first, the experimentation wasn't that bad. Just a few shots and blood tests, really. But when that didn't reveal anything regarding the capabilities of Hikaru's Crux, they had to get "creative" with their testing and by being "creative", they resorted to procedures where sights like these [CW: needles in image] were unfortunately common practice with Hikaru strapped to a cold, metal surgical table and pleading for them to stop hurting her and that she was sorry for whatever she did to deserve this punishment.

Sadly, her pleas fell on deaf ears because it went so much further than just injecting her with multiple drugs. They wanted to see how she'd be able to heal and how much pain she could withstand. So, they went through with not just stabbing and lacerating her, but full on maiming by shooting her through her hands and feet. Again, her cries for mercy went ignored. However, these extreme methods of testing her endurance and pain tolerance finally paid off during her training regimen that she was still expected to go through. They ultimately made her stronger, and in their eyes fortunately able to withstand much more in terms of increased training.

Yet, no one thought about how she was still just a child. During these experiments and training, they slowly whittled away the bright and happy girl that started on this because she was promised that she was gonna be a hero and save the day! How could a child resist that? The PIPE and the scientists kept on saying that this was all in the name of making her a hero, like they promised she'd be.

Was being a hero worth all this pain and misery, though? That was one of Hikaru's many thoughts while she was in her room, quietly sobbing into her pillow at night until she finally was able to sleep, having passed out from the pain and discomfort she was in. Hikaru also learned that no matter how many times she cried or apologized, they'd still carry out the experiments on her, so eventually she'd just lie there and take it, trying to not make a single noise for fear that it'd only ramp up the experiments' intensity on her.

And the way that she was rewarded for this? They simply gave her treats, which were one of her only comforts. She couldn't contact her parents to tell them what was going on and the reports that they received told them that Hikaru was being well taken care of and was happy. Nothing was wrong in their eyes, even as they kept on forgetting the most important aspect of this whole matter: Hikaru was still a child. Yet, if it produced results such as giving them little victories here and there on the war, so be it — they would continue this extreme training regimen and keep on lying to her parents that she was being treated the way that they had promised. To this day, they still don't know what sort of hell their own daughter has been through and Hikaru doesn't want to upset them by telling them the truth, either, because of how these experiments gave them the stability that they have today.

As Hikaru grew up and became more powerful (along with being broken down and molded back into what the PIPE wanted of her), the experiments eventually ceased altogether, but this gave her a lasting fear of anything medical because of the hell she was put through. As previously mentioned, Hikaru is very critical of others tending to her injuries that she sustains in fights since she'd rather be the one to patch herself up because she doesn't trust anyone else to do it. Those in the medbay only admonish her for getting hurt for the umpteenth time and don't have any sympathy for her, no matter how grievous the injury really is. So, she'll often be by herself, dressing her own wounds while trying to stifle her sounds of discomfort however possible. This behavior of hers is still prevalent to this day because of how deep seated her own fear of anything medical is concerned — all because the PIPE saw her as nothing more than a weapon instead of a human being.

As far as anyone's concerned, the PIPE is heralded as this pillar of strength and hope, but no one publicly knows just what it took to get there. It's still classified information that only those who are higher up the food chain are privy to and have sworn to never reveal to the public the atrocities they committed to attain the semblance of peace that they have today. Anyone who tries to speak up about the human rights abuses they committed is silenced, never to be seen nor heard from again.

To Watanabe and others, the PIPE is nothing more than a shining beacon of peace and prosperity in the world and nothing shall ever taint that pristine image that they've cultivated for themselves all these years.

[kaerinio]

thinking about the number of times dany wakes up with terrible nightmares ( or dream visions ) . . . and, yes, someone is in the bed with her, and she wants so badly to wake them up and talk and have some sort of distraction from the worry, but she fears that they may think she's being ridiculous?? anyways, all this to say that if dany trusts you fully, she will wake you up to talk about the dreams . . . and to seek comfort.

[dreamsofalife]

((Actually u know what, you guys get to hear me infodump about Ophelia.

Ophelia Liddell is my School for Vampires oc; she teaches theater and literature to the kids at the vampire school and is basically undead Victorian Miss Frizzle.

She doesn't know who her biological family was or what they were like; something happened to them when she was very young, leaving her to be adopted by a family of humans who, despite basically despising everything about her, kept her alive through trial and error, lying to family and friends, and routinely reminding her that her very nature was an affront to God. Still, their time and effort went fully into turning their frizzy-haired, wild little monster child into a human being.

At 19, she was betrothed to a man named Nathaniel, who was wonderful at first and who Ophelia adored for caring for her despite her being so weird. But upon growing closer to her and her family and learning exactly what she was, he vowed to "rid the world of that creature and rip out its black heart." Nathaniel waited until the night before their wedding to catch Ophelia alone and try to cut out her heart with a silver dagger.

Ophelia fought tooth and nail, and just barely survived...at the cost of Nathaniel's life, any and all love from her family, and not being hunted like an animal. She was on her own, cast out into the wilderness surrounding her former hometown until being descended upon and nearly devoured by a gaggle of vampires. She was recognized as one of them and invited to stay with their group at a safe location where she could be among her own.

It was like a light inside switched on and she realized that she wasn't alone anymore. What she was had a name and a history, one she dedicated nearly a century to studying and becoming a teacher, so that anyone who ever felt lost or disconnected from her history like she did could finally feel whole.))

[listenupcupcakes]

https://youtu.be/ys6efgjsROs?si=2vynpPDJh0k1NhUb

Here's the cursed vid :)

(Also stardew valleyyy!! I need to play that again oml)

(Ooc) Omg that was amazing-

At least Demo is self aware enough to know something bad’ll happen lol

[stahl-konigin]

heeheeee

bladie and jing liu feeding off each other makes my brain chemicals do the happy thing]

[segnisacfessis]

OOC ; i wish i could say i'm gonna be active today but i'm feeling really depressed today so i don't think i'm gonna be active. having a lot of irl problems with someone who's supposed to be my best friend and idk if i can really do anything sad today.

[ramshacklestar]

I know it's just a glitch but the idea of him forgetting about the training camp and seeing this in the game.

I laughed for a good bit.