#she is literally in a box this time
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The Arcane fandom, especially on TikTok is never beating the allegations because why, now, some fans act like it's too inconceivable to imagine that Ambessa was, not only, pregnant twice but gave birth twice as well? And their reasoning for this is "She looks like the type to get a man pregnant instead" or "She's too tough for that, I just can't see someone like her going through that." There are layers to these statements because, for one, just because someone, especially a woman, is a dominant force doesn't mean that they can't get/don't want to become pregnant (do you believe overtly dominant men can't be fathers?) It's also very weird because the undertones of misogyny and misogynoir and the overt masculinization of black women are there because, not only are they viewing pregnancy and giving birth, in general, to be viewed as something "weak" (even though it's grueling hours of labor that results in tearing the body apart, sometimes even death) but also attempts to strip Ambessa of her nuance. Yes, she is strong and very dominant, but she also deeply loved her children, who she birthed, and when one was taken away from her it changed her deeply. It's very gross to view a character like her in this way because it also reflects how you view dominant women in real life, pregnancy, and childbirth as a whole. Like how are you going to praise Arcane for having such a wide and diverse ensemble of female characters, but then have misogynistic takes like this? Make it make sense.
#arcane#ambessa medarda#arcane ambessa#anti arcane#anti arcane fandom#bc if i said the “she gets a man pregnant bc she's girlboss” also plays into misogynistic tropes bc it not only#devoids female characters of their nuances but also frames pregnancy as something “weak” or those who go thru it as “lesser than” but always#pressing the pregnancy in question on male characters who they either ignore (so they only view pregnancy for breeding and nothing else) or#infantilize (so you only view pregnancy as happening to someone who is submissive?) there's layers to this#and bringing it back to the masculinization of black women especially dark skin women people are already viewed as#existing outside the stereotypical lens of “femininity” and that in turn includes pregnancy and childbirth (which is viewed#thru a stereotypical lens as well) and bc people already don't view black women to fit the first box they definitely don't for the other#especially if she matches ambessa's body type &/or personality#even tho a big part of ambessa's character is literally her being a mom!#and don't get me started on how some of you view mother characters as anything outside of motherhood in general#(but a part of that is also bc the media doesn't give them much at times either but fandom still gets it's lashing too!)#like lets analyze: why do you think female characters who are “too tough” can't be pregnant as well? why do you think they can't be mothers?#why do you think they are “too tough” to give birth? is it bc u subconsciously view it as a weakness?#why do you think black women especially those like ambessa can't give birth & be mothers? is it bc you have biased views towards motherhood#where it's stereotypically “feminine” (yte) and black women don't fit that mold in your mind?#like i could go on!#(if i also said back to the girlboss & get men pregnant thing how a lot of it carries undertones of misogyny as well id be wrong but-)#some of yall did the same thing with mel & continue to do so when those pregnancy rumors were coming out#masc women can give and want to give birth while still being who they are (it literally happens in real life) so why people act surprised?#tw pregnancy mention#tw childbirth mention#fandom racism#fandom misogyny
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it was just going to be a few warmup doodles but then she infected the rest of the page like the ever eternal and spreading spores. hod!!! hod. hod :)
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#hod#hod lobcorp#lobotomy corp spoilers#I GUESS i almost forgot i drew her box form#lobcorp spoilers#and michelle actually. ..#both very tiny. itty bitty. microscopic#other sephirah there too as normal. i cant have her alone. and Angelina as well on the top patting her#i have a hard time fully capturing her for some reason. in my mind. maybe its because is the disconnected period!!! mentally#she genuinely wishes to care and be kind yet theres a dissonance with what she does..? or how it ends up being taken or what she does to en#up bringing those actions into reality. she can be forceful? wanting to have employees attend therapy sessions and meetings for suppression#tactics. which i think is also something the safety team is incharge of iirc. so that means shes doing way more that what she needs to on#her job as a sephirah. just for the sake of employees#she really does care as shes one of the only to Directly attempt to change their circumstances and quality of life and health#sure chesed doesnt punish employees when they dont do their work assigned or stress them out with work#but he doesnt actively push to attempt to make changes to aid employees besides the research perks which is to the manager#yesod IS right next to her and does also genuinely care but when it comes to employees hes distant at best when it comes to them and the#way he tries to protect them is by enforcing rules but he doesnt really create or attempt to help them like hod does#yesod is sort of a passive? way of doing it. yes he doesn make a push to enforce said rules but he doesnt make new ones. just follows what#is already there in place. hod tries to make new ways and not just for the safety of people like how yesod's has them physically fine and#not letting them over a certain threshold of mental corruption but she tries to have a program to Directly Address such a thing#its born out of care but the genuine worry of being a good person and her naivety ends up having it do more harm than good#sure there may be some employees that actually like and find it useful but so many are just accepting to their fate of Dying to where#her care seems pointless. shes a sephirah and to them a literal metal box why would they go ahead and feel bad for what an 'ai' is feeling#as she is interrupting their free time in the company#which is rude. and shit. iirc the counseling is compulsory but people go because shes a sephirah and their superior. the thought was there#but again it comes off wrong and ends up not working because shes their superior in the end#EEK!!! yeah... hod. the hod. there is WAY more but i can't fit it all here and i already typed enough
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OC-Tober Day 3: Old OC
Blank is my oldest OC that I still use (first made around 2017), but the oldest OC of mine (that I'm aware of) is this Pichu/Pikachu with a Sylveon ribbon from around 2013/14. I never drew her as an Raichu, so I took the chance to finally give her the final stage of her evolution a decade later.
#box art#OC-Tober#my ocs#Blank Slate#Paige Pichu#OC tober#She literally pre-datse Alolan Raichu's existence so if she was drawn as a Raichu it wouldn't have been that.#but thats the benefit of time passing !#sometime in the future i'd like to redraw some of my older art including a lot of pieces with her in it#i inserted her into a bunch of non-pokemon art a lot
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so. um. that new sound euphonium episode, huh
#the second she came on my screen i immediately paused and started keysmashing into my therapy box chamber (long story)#she is so!!!!!!!!#literally what the fuck. what the fuck!!!#who signed off on this. i need to put them in my will#whoever created pantsuit natsuki with skull earrings is going to receive my entire manga collection#she is so cute!!! what da hell#fellow eupho lesbians.... i give you this gift. bc we are in trying times#they really said “we're putting the gays through a lot this season so lets give them one W at least”#everyone say thank you kyoani!!!!#sound! euphonium#hibike! euphonium
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i swear my stepdad is so illogical AND stubborn it hurts
#okay so strap in coz this is a wild ride#tl;dr we have been without heat and warm water for years and i mean literal years#because he refuses to pay off some debt he built up with the company#because he feels unfairly treated (let's not get into this. it absolutely makes no sense) by the company#so instead of doing the logical step of growing some balls and admitting he made a mistake and paying off his shit#he's been looking for a new supplier all over but the deal IS#that he's been doing this with a couple of places before and people are hesitant to even make him any offers#and you'd think that learning about THAT at least now he'd be like. idk willing to just pay off his debt and be done with it#but you'd be WRONG#now he's looking to just have our entire heating system replaced for the teeny tiny price of 25000 bucks#mind you his debt isn't even a THIRD of that#and obviously he can't afford those 25000 bucks#so what's his next step now you might wonder?#well good thing you asked. his next step is going off on ME for not paying towards the new heating he wants#and now that that's not working for him guess what he did next?#that's right. he bought shit expensive 'space heaters' that are pretty much just small little boxes that you plug into an outlet#and he swears up and down that they're going to heat up our house (it's negative degrees outside)#(it's obviously not working)#and genuinely. all i can think of is how much money he shoved into trying to macgyver this house into a house with warm water and heating#and how he blew off ten thousands of bucks he got paid when he retired within the span of two weeks#when this debt could have been paid off ten times over by now#so now you might be thinking. okay tiago. why don't you move out#good question you see. my mom is disabled and reliant on someone who cares for her#something that he can't won't and shouldn't do because the last time he sorta kinda tried she almost died and we had to call an ambulance#she wouldn't eat a thing if i weren't there to cook. the house would fall into disrepair if i wouldn't do maintenance all around#i've set up (functioning) heat in some areas she occupies and i've gotten a boiler going so she at least has warm water#i'm paying off their bills to make sure he doesn't skip on paying any others. i'm buying groceries for them because again they wouldn't get#any for themselves#and finally. i've offered to pay off his debt so that we can finally live like normal fucking people do#and guess what. guess WHAT. he just got mad at me for not adding money to that 25000 bucks pool for that new fancy heating he wants
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proud to say that while I would've absolutely preferred to see another one of the s1 contestants who didn't make s2 in iii instead of box, I have literally never hated her or the people that voted for her in the s3 fan favorite poll. infact I thank those people, because while s2 had some foreshadowing, the II18 reveal wouldn't have been as potent without everything we got in s3. holy shit
#box being fished out of the water. “oh box who taught you how to swim?”. box being on THE SINKERS.#lifering claiming to have saved her life even though she is LITERALLY DEAD. tragedy at 60 feet. the list goes on#her exit interview was literally what reminded me that her name was written on her inside#if you count it somehow the immunity bow she gets in the III finale hinting at her being a girl. I guess#I love box. I love her a lot now. shoutout to mutual gmod for calling her being alive all along before the finale#really excited to see more box content in the future I hope we see her interact with the mansion ghosts. especially bow#bow “the forgotten” and box “dead the whole time but no one noticed” could have some interesting interactions I think#plus we know they've already like. seen each other#inanimate insanity#ii spoilers#ii 18 spoilers#mossball.txt#ii box
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briefly scrolled though the bigbang subreddit like recommended and - true, it definitely is active! which is fun. one of the first things i saw is that someone got into listening gd bc they knew him from the shoe world 😭😭 i mean that's just amazing lmao
#i just randomly felt like being a little more active in the fandom again but reddit seems too overwhelming?#so im just checking if tumblr truly is dead#i havent been active obviously but now that something is happening im curious again#my husband said yday that im not a fangirl anymore#and i was like sweety.... there just hasnt been anything to fangirl over lol#we listen to home sweet home#my baby loves it. especially the live from MAMA bc she loves to dance to it#so im excited for new music#wanna know sth?#i went through my ✨memory box✨ over the weekend#i have all my flights and concert tickets and stuff#alllll my bigbang stuff. everything#i have all the cd/dvd bundles#and i NEVER WATCHED THEM#they are literally untouched#also years ago i ordered the limited edition gdragon flower? road? thing?#i dont even remember but i literally paid hundreds for it and now i took it out like#lmao i never even used the mug#remember? the one with his handprint?#anyways i made some lemon ginger tea in it lmao#and also... years ago when i went to the concerts and bought the dvds to remember them#i told myself i will watch them some day when im at home with a baby#well... girl... nows the time lol#look at me rambling! lol i guess i miss sharing my shit on here#thanks for listening. and scene
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Oh man, I binged the first 20 episodes of The Princess's Jewels a few days ago after watching a few review videos on it because I had to see just how bad it actually was, and I've decided to talk more about it here.
For the entire spite-fueled four hours of reading, i kept stopping to take screenshots to send them to @the-navistar-carol and then talk about how stupid a lot of the plot points were. I jokingly called Ariana a jellyfish based on her hairstyle, and the nickname stuck after Gen said "yeah and she's like an actual jellyfish by how the trick you into getting closer because they're so pretty before paralyzing you with their stingers."
I'm putting this under a read more because, as normal, I write a lot.
We all know Jellyfish sucks, but what gets me the most is the wasted potential of the guys (among other things). They are all so! Interesting! And they befall the same fate as female harem members in that their backgrounds and personalities all get set to the wayside in favor of fawning over the MC. They all come from unique, diverse backgrounds that don't get touched up on at all. For example:
Why did Efrit wear a mask all the time when his older brother didn't? Why did he say that "he finally found the woman he was going to reveal his face to" to Abal after he met Jellyfish? Is it some kind of cultural thing for the soldiers and warriors of Xek to wear masks until they fall in love? That would explain why his brother has his face revealed, cuz he's not a warrior! Why is the second prince in charge of the country's army and not the king himself? Why did he STAY the general of the army after he fucked off to another kingdom to become the lover of a foreign state?
Why was Haun Baek taken in by the royal family? The flashback of the queen giving him a new name implies to me that he may have been a slave of some kind, which puts a lot of perspective on why so many people were against his rise to power and disliked him. He was mentioned to be a general and head of the security division of the king, but as far as chapter 21 goes, this has never been brought up again. He's the Harem Pretty Boy who does all the work in high society for Jellyfish.
Speaking of fighting -- when did Jellyfish get a thigh tattoo to summon her sword? What's the backstory behind that? It probably has something to do with the 'swordmaster' thing (which is ANOTHER thing) but when did she get it? Why was she even allowed to learn swordfighting if she came from a seemingly implied patriarchal society? More importantly -- why was everyone okay with this? Why is it only the off-screen "evil old advisors" that hate her doing this.
Are these evil old advisors in the room with us right now?
Why are Nell and his family werewolves? Where did their magic recorder ability come from? This was just seemingly a power that he had that came out of nowhere when they were looking into Benela and her family. From the videos I had assumed he was a poor family that rose into dukedom after the war, but apparently they've always been? Dukes? And the other advisors still see the family as a threat? On one hand I can see where they're coming from, but on the other I don't think the comic is portraying them as "threats" the way I think they are. Nell and his family are seemingly treated like they were commoners who suddenly rose into nobility, rather than pre-existing nobility that fell onto hard times.
I want to know more about Jade and the fact that he's from a holy house from an entirely different country -- i cannot believe Ariana got away with that btw. Like im not even touching the gross overreach of power that is her demanding a noble not of her kingdom to be castrated, but more so on the fact that she practically coerced and stole a descendant of a saint and faced?? No backlash from this? None whatsoever? The gods and the people just let her get away with it because oh, it's an honor for this snobby empirical princess to come in and steal one of their chosen saintly descendants all because his dad pissed her off?
Like I agree that the dad was a scumbag, but Ariana calling him out on it is like the pot calling the kettle black.
Also, I wish Benela and her family were a bigger threat than TJP claims they are. Like, this is apparently the emperor's favored concubine who stole the love of the emperor away from the empress and successfully murdered the crown prince without getting caught. She's apparently some master manipulator but Jellyfish faces no trouble thwarting her at every turn. So what is it? Is she a master manipulator or is she a dunce? Or is the emperor just an idiot who doesn't care about his sons because with the way he treats them, you'd think they were bastard children.
The banquet "queen heel syndrome" scene gets me especially so because that was a good fucking plan!
Benela's plan to reveal and shine a light on Jellyfish's harem and how it was negatively impacting her image and high society was a good plan! That was brilliant! Because it had basis of truth in it. I don't know if the queen heel syndrome thing was a false rumor, or something she deliberately fabricated -- the comic never actually goes out of it's way to disprove it. In fact, I'd argue the QHS thing is *backed* by it, because just a few chapters prior when we first meet Benela, there's a side comment made by a noble woman about how her daughter was chasing after some man she was infatuated with.
But what I do know is that Jellyfish has been disgraceful towards her fiancé and that she has been indulging in her harem. By all accounts, by the implied societal standards of Arbezela or Azkaban, Jellyfish is being a whore. I am not one for mindlessly slut-shaming, but sometimes slut-shaming IS okay if it has a narrative purpose. And it does here. And Jellyfish doesnt even disprove any of their arguments, in fact she does a 1st grade level deflection and instead goes right for insulting Bavilo's lack of marriage prospects, which wasn't what they were talking about at all.
I'd applaud the deflection if it wasn't Ariana doing it, and if it wasn't such a serious and valid accusation that Benela and her family were making.In any other manhwa, this would have worked. This would have damaged Ariana's reputation, and it should've had some actual consequences to it. Instead they completely skip over this plot because the author knows that Ariana has no defense, she can't talk or excuse her way out because regardless of the truth behind the Queen Heel Syndrome, the fact remains what she is doing is inherently shameful.
Like! I am so mad that their scheme didn't work, because it! Was! A! Good scheme! All the best lies have some part of the truth in it, and Ariana should not have been able to weasel herself out of that so easily. In fact, the fact that she did just makes the emperor look like an even bigger incompetent.
Wanna know how this ended? It ended with the emperor blowing up at Bavilo because Bavilo said that he "could make it to the top on his own without the help of talented subordinates" and the emperor perceived that as a slight against him because, apparently, Bavilo was claiming to be heir to the throne? When nowhere in that sentence did Bavilo even so much as say or imply such a thing?
and also--- WHY is it such a bad thing that he's claiming to be vying for the heir seat? It's empty! The Emperor hasn't announced a new successor yet, of course Bavilo would say he wanted to be the crown prince. Nothing that Bavilo said was insulting towards anyone, and was actually quite admirable.
What gets me too is that right after this chapter, the empress claims that the princes are "illegitimate children" because they're the sons of concubines, and that if they were chosen for the role of "carrier of the light" people would question their parentage-- ???
First of all, not at all how concubines work. Concubines are a legitimate role in a harem structure and quite literally their job is to produce more heirs for the throne as back-ups in case something happens to the Heir Apparent. Like that's literally their job. They are official members of the royal palace, to claim that their children aren't legitimate is to claim that they're merely mistresses, not concubines. This was both an insult to the concubines AND the emperor.
Like my god I do not have the time to go into all of the plot holes of this webtoon. I haven't even gone into the total lack of consequences Ariana experiences both politically and socially, and how all of the interesting conflict happens off screen, nor the blatant racism and misogyny present throughout the webtoon, NOR the absolute SHIT worldbuilding.
#ariana de secramise#i cannot BELIEVE i remembered her full name right off the top of my head#the princess's jewels#the princess jewels#haun baek#efrit karsia#jade meldea#anti the princess's jewels#nell phantom#i love you haun baek my man you deserve more screen time and depth beyond 'pretty asian boy stereotype'. ur fight with ariana was so cool#nell phantom you deserve better than a girl who immediately forces you to wear a collar and publicly kissed you in front of a crowd#efrit karsia you are so cool i wish i got to learn more about why you wear a mask and why you are the way that you are#jade meldea you're the only fucking sane man in that goddamn harem you go boo escape the jewel box. gotta love his intense disgust for 🪼#raymond amber i dont actually have any thoughts on you i didnt even realize you had a first name for six chapters. thats also because you'r#literally the only person in the harem called by a 'jewel' name rather than your actual name. why did she call you LEMON?#ur last name is literally amber there that's a jewel name right there.#if i was benela i would've used the emperor's favor for ariana against her bc the man literally coddles her to death. i'd feed into his#delusions about Ariana being his sweet delicate princess who needs to be protected and how oh so mad the other nobles are at ariana for#corrupting their daughters. and dear emperor wouldn't it be better for ariana to stay in the palace for a while? send her jewels back to#their kingdoms until the rumors about ariana's lecherous personality dies down? and bc the emperor is a fucking idiot he'd fall for it#hook line and damn sinker. boom. ariana's been cut off at the knees bc her harem was doing all the hard work for her and now she actually#has to make an effort into doing things HERSELF and also change her dad's mind about her bc he sees her as nothing more than a delicate and#hapless maiden who needs to be protected by daddy's big strong arms.#like no wonder you cant just ask to be the emperor ariana. your dad doesn't see you as a capable adult.#starry's spite reads
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thinking about the Lady again and she actually is the Character Ever.
Starting off with her design. How ridiculously simple it is, right? Her yukata is plain brown and has a single layer, her wig (and yes, I am positive what she wears is not her hair but a wig soley because of how easily it comes undone... that kind of hairstyle is meant to STICK when done with actual hair) has no decorations befitting a woman of her powerful status and her mask is nothing but... empty. You could mistake her for a mannequin and you wouldn't even be wrong. It's by design, after all: she is as insanely important, as a figure, as she is anonymous as a person.
But then, it's with amusement that you note that that boring, unexpressive mask is called the "Rascal's mask" when unlocked. It's such an oddly affectionate nickname stemming from a person so utterly despicable. And then you notice her hair. Her long, black hair that should be hidden under her wig, as the hairstyle goes, but are instead hanging out freely. Not very traditional at all, right? You could almost read it as a small act of defiance of... something. Now, what that thing is, I doubt even she knows. Maybe it's just her way to seek individuality without having to step into zones she does not want to touch.
And then, of course, the lack of shoes. It's not uncommon for people to wear slippers in the house - especially for the Japanese - but she just... doesn't. In that small, small way, she is similar to Six - and every other child in the Maw running around barefoot. Except she's above running, of course. She's got the privilege of floating like a ghost so that she may never touch the ground.
(The only time when this rule is broken is when she fights Six, poetically enough. You can see her visibly step back.)
These strange little things are the first things that push you to wonder about her as a person. Not the title, not the Lady of the Maw: the individual behind the mask. Who is that person? What is she like? Is there a way to answer these questions? I think yes, if you know where to look - but is it worth to ask these questions considering what she does?
That depends on you. Me personally, I think there is narrative worth to be found in what she has to hide. Her foil, Six, finds value in the aspects of herself she does not hide: she is very unapologetic in her selfhood. The Lady isn't, for the most part.
(I wonder if that would make her envious of her younger counterpart in a different context?)
Frankly, looking back on her choice of attire, the fact that her personal bedroom is barely decorated is not surprising. She only has the essentials: a bed, the vase with the key, a few pictures of importance (of people long forgotten, herself included no doubt) and... an ungodly amount of misplaced clothes all over her quarters. All the same yukata, repeated over and over, maniacally folded and arranged in towers, but never where they're supposed to be.
A bedroom is the reflection of yourself. Of your inner world. The fact hers looks so barebones is quite telling about who she is. Or isn't. She herself may have some trouble trying to figure that one out.
I think that, in a vacuum, it's easy to assume that the reason she's so displeased by her reflection is soley out of vanity. That is definitely part of it, but I don't think that's all there is. Because after seeing the mannequins that all look just like her, the four women in the picture who also wear her same exact clothes... and that hidden quote.
This quote, which is from Alice in Wonderland. Specifically from a conversation in which Alice expresses how she doesn't recognise herself anymore because of how many times she grew big and small during the course of the day. She is not the same person she was before entering Wonderland.
I find the way she clings to the dolls and the music box to be much more... sombre when keeping this in mind. In a way, that scene is reminiscent of Monster Six clinging to her music box in the chaos of the Tower; an attempt to attach to something safe. For the Lady, it's even more personal. Those are her toys. Her song. No one can take them from her and claim them as theirs. These materialistic tomes are physical proof of her identity. She likes dolls, and she likes to sing that song from her music box. Surely, that much is something.
But a ceramic toy and an old music box are not really enough to placate the inner turmoil. Hence the broken mirrors, the hidden statues... the hung down portraits with their eyes scratched out - from times of the past. There is a person looking back in the mirror which she does not recognise. That can't be her, right?
It isn't. The reflection is but a faux image of her outward appearence. The inside, however... much like this concept art shows, she is melting away. Rapidly decaying no matter how much she tries to stick to her youth.
Because at the end of the day, that's what she's doing, no? The toys, the music box, her appearence... all of it, just to cling a bit more to the person she used to be. Point being that I doubt even she remembers what she used to be.
You'd think a person like this would be inclined to feel at least some sympathy for all the lost children wandering the Nowhere. A sense of kinship, perhaps, or even just... basic human compassion. She has proved to have very human emotions, after all. This is where she proves you wrong. Whenever you think she's stepped the lowest, she always goes lower.
In her humanity, she is brutal. Relentless, ruthless. She offers no sympathy to anyone and has no empathy to spare either. She is very much aware of what's going on under her roof: she not only allows the Maw to continue being the way it is in spite of having the power to change things, but she actively engages in its despicable practices. She has petrified children in her quarters, as well as their ashes - of which the use is unclear - and then she is responsible for the Nome population and exploitation being so large and so eerily heavy. She's twisted necks, broken bones, murdered innocents.
The Shadow Children are, to me, one her greatest offenses. I don't think they serve any particular purpose other than... being there because she wanted to make them. Children ripped away from their life because of her whims. Not even in death can they rest because she can get her hands on their souls. They're nameless, forgotten shadows with blank masks: they're just like their creator, in that way. Ripped of all individuality and devoid of everything.
Everything she sees, the Lady devours. Not a creature is safe from her shadows and her wrath, especially if they come and actively intrude in her activities. She's twice as aggressive if the Maw is at stake.
The Lady's personal bedroom has another motif piece which I did not previously mention: the Maw wallpaper. While Roger and the Chefs have wallpapers that portray them with her, the Lady... does not. She only has the Maw. She's not part of that picture.
The Lady can't let the Maw change its ways. She is the Maw. The Maw must survive: so must she. To change the Maw would mean challenging herself enough to bring about a change; to her, who does nothing but lament what she lost, that would be too much effort. Too outside of the comfortable zone where she can survive in peace. Miserable, but unbothered.
... For the most part. Until Six comes around.
#the lady#carols.txt#ln meta#{dude i dont even know where i was going with this#if it seems like this post comes from a place of love it does#not at her as a person but like as a character. i find her so interesting and i feel oddly tender about her writing#usually when this happens its because i see pieces of the person i could have been in a character (like scaramouche for example)#but this time its from the completely opposite perspective#i am a person with a very clear idea of who i am. i know what my identity is and i am not afraid to express it#so witnessing a character with such a confused identity is both alien and fascinating to me#i wanted to focus more on her atrocities and how capitalism is what changes a person but its... 2 am and i am sick rn#i spent an hour literally vomiting my ramblings on this post#as a person and what she stands for i despise her. as a character i wish to put her in a security blanket and see how she gets out#this post feels terribly personal for some reason. like whatever . shes not even allat#im lying she literally IS allat#idk i love well written female characters who feel like people and dont fit in a specific convenctional box. sue me#< goes for six too#not opening *that* can of worms rn but. yeah}#little nightmares
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I wish cats were like dogs where you could take them to a cat park or kitty daycare or on a playdate and let them run around with other hyper energetic kittens for several hours and then you bring them back home and they're so played out that they're just chill the rest of the day. Astrid is in her preteen phase now and she has the most violent destructive zoomies of any cat I've ever seen. Our older male cat can't keep up with her when she really wants to play and neither can we. I just played with her until she flopped from exhaustion TWICE a few hours ago and she's already jetting around at near light speed knocking shit off every horizontal surface and doing kickflips off of us with her claws out again
#😭#i love her but shes killing me#shes also started trying to shred every piece of paper she sees including tissues and toilet paper and etc#shes been knocking over all our small trashcans and pulling the bags out to climb inside of them#(she loves climbing inside plastic bags and its terrifying)#and shredding all the tissues that were previously in those bags in the process#she pulled the toilet paper off the roll the other day. shes been attacking our rugs and dragging them around the floor#today after i thwarted her from getting into shit on trixies desk several times#she discovered that shes big enough to jump onto the high shelf on TOP of trixies desk and knocked over a little cactus#dirt all over the carpet. cactus destroyed. (luckily she seems fine tho)#i KNOW shes acting up bc she needs to play more but man how are we supposed to keep up with this 😭#she has the energy of a thousand lesser kittens#like literally ive raised dozens of kittens throughout my life. some i even bottle raised from newborns#and i swear i have NEVER had one that's as rambunctious as she is#there's only one that even comes CLOSE and astrid still totally eclipses her#astrid could run LAPS around lizard. probably literally#rambling#(disclaimer the stuff i said about dogs is mainly from my experience pet sitting my regular clients high energy big dogs#i mainly had low-mid energy small dogs growing up so i never really had to worry about this before lol)#edit: i forgot this is actually the second plant she's knocked off a shelf and destroyed the last couple weeks#first one was luckily over hard floor and not carpet tho#edit 2: specified older male cat above only bc our older female cat won't even try#she's terrorized by astrids zoomies more than we are#edit 3: forgot to mention wrt the tissue thing that while i was gone for literally One Hour the other day#she tore all the tissues out of a tissue box and then got her head stuck in there 😭#my gf came home to find shredded tissues all over the place and astrid banging around the apartment trying to get the box off her head#this child WORRIES ME
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#neopets#neotag#neolodge#my art#my oc#my pets#lewis#cyvny#kyohvu#they are absolutely doing a jazz cover of some video game music i just know it#also i wanted to give it like school concert vibes#did you guys have those#we had like several every year#i remember always liking the jazz band's pieces but also thinking they went on like. way too long#also im literally just now realizing lewis' collar doesnt make any sense. oh well zzzz#after this they went to wendy's and got two four for four deals and split them#and got in a fight over whether lord kass could beat jhudora 1v1#kyohvu said OBVI kass would win#lewis insisted nuh uh jhudora is obviously way more powerful#kyohvu said uhhh well if jhudoras so fuckin powerful then why does she need me to go get her damn illusen lunch boxes all the time#cyvny is like eyes emoji eating his fries and wondering if theyre all going to kiss later#(they will)
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Stars aligned and actually did some office organising and cleaning, and unearthed THIS from the depths of a box. I was absolutely CONVINCED she'd either been lost or thrown out between my big move back home and the last really big office cleanout.
She's a bit scuffed (the sealant I used was not MSC but some random art one I had on hand, I think I was 17ish or something and getting all the kit to work with that was out of the question - think that's part of why her lips have ended up so goopy/sticky) but actually more decent than I remember? G1 Draculara re-rooted with Mohair I dyed myself by boiling it in water and vinegar, added food colouring (vinegar helps dyes bond to the organic material). She's probably over 10 years old! It'll be nice to have a physical comparison with my current work, when I finally get started.
#kerytalk#my dolls#custom doll#monster high#lol kind of don't wanna put this in actual tags but I need to tag for my blog so this is getting the bare minimum#honestly surprised she doesn't look WAY WORSE considering it's been like a literal decade and the only sealant was just a random one#also me cleaning is like a big thing. That's how it is with the auDHD#I was searching for her last month and this entire time she was just sitting in a box on the floor I happened to not check for some reason
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someone: why do you wear so much jewellery every day??
me, a sentimental bitch who's never let go of anything that reminds me of my favourite people:
#every single day i wear:#bracelet with my girlfriend's initial on it (she has one of mine)#sunflower ring that reminds me of her#doctor who necklace that i was wearing the day we got together and have Not taken off since#one of a matching set of heart bracelets i bought us for valentines day#ring i bought the day i met one of my tumblr friends irl that i keep on a necklace bc it stretched and doesnt fit anymore#bracelet my nan gave me#bracelet i have matching with one of my best friends#i am nothing if not a sentimental bitch#i literally still have an ask in my ask box from last year just because it was the first time one of my friends interacted with my blog#sarah's random thoughts#♡#mutuals my beloved
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I did read the recent chapter, sorry for the bad question- I was worried I might’ve been misreading or missing some of it- so (no spoilers!) I was hoping to go over it. Sorry, again. I didn’t phrase it very well, and one of the things I was questioning was like. Them bringing up how willing he was to go to the library, how he brought up drowning-
I wanted to check to see if my conclusion I reached with them thinking he was possibly suicidal was just. Me misreading it. Badly.
While the temptation to ask about their direct thoughts because I’m nosy is there- I had not intended it, or asking for spoilers. Once again I am sorry.
oh nonono no worries, you did nothing wrong, i was mostly just confused hahah your question does make sense with that in mind!
as for their thoughts then, with no spoilers, guizhong did have like a flash of a thought that he might be because y'know xiao did say the man offered to literally kill himself. but she was more like wait what? is he-? no. no that makes no sense, i've never gotten the vibes- but then again you never know, do you? and then xiao did say no, he didn't think he was. so ultimately neither came out that convo thinking zhongli was suicidal, but they DID take away that he's oddly apathetic about his mortality what with the library and the 'casual about his own drowning' situation. so like-
i wouldn't say they think he's suicidal? more like they're pretty sure he's not, but at the same time, if he isn't, then what the fuck is going on there like why is he so unbothered. so they're more like... confused, on how he treats his mortality like it's any other random topic
they're basically in shock about zhongli's 'when the door opens its time to leave' mentality lmao
as for the other things, on the childe situation none of them actually think he was married to the man, guizhong just said that as a joke. they're just wondering if it's possible he might've known him before, and maybe even liked him back then, too
and for qiqi, they've got no clue. xiao might know zhongli didn't know what a phone or a motorbike was called, and while that does raise some questions in his mind, zhongli did also say he was a machine tester and he does also not seem to (outwardly) struggle with any tech. so xiao (and the others) don't know that he's not from a modern reality, hence xiao thinking zhongli might've seen a photo of qiqi. i mean photos do exist in teyvat but y'know what i mean.
#zhongli himself isn't suicidal for the record he's just apathetic#he's lived for so long that he's kind of reached a point where everything that happens is met with an#it is what it is#from him#including his literal death#even moreso considering that while yes he hadn't actually planned to kick the bucket for rea#he did plan out the whole fake death and retirement only after he'd made sure everything would be fine in his 'absence'#the test was just to make absolute certain and bc the tsaritsa happened to come up to him asking if he'd ever consider trading the gnosis#like i think if she hadn't been on the hunt for it then zhongli would've faked his death without the test#i don't think he would've allowed anything in the archon quest to happen if he wasn't 99.99% (or even 100%) sure that everyone would be fin#that he wasn't going to actually die was because. well#he's not suicidal#so#but yeah!#again you did nothing wrong so there's no need to apologize! i was genuinely just confused about what the ask was even for#the odd dilemma of not wanting to assume ppl in my ask box have perfect reading comprehension#while at the same time not wanting to assume they have no reading comprehension#so i have to be like. ...what are you asking me my dude hahah#anyway#ily <3 <3 <3
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Do you use neopronouns irl? If so, whats that like? Asking as a fellow neo user who tells people otherwise irl to avoid harrassment
It depends. Usually if someone asks I'll say I use any pronouns (which isn't untrue, but I do have preferences) to avoid having to spend time explaining neopronouns out loud to people with very little understanding of how neopronouns work.
In queerer spaces, I'll say I use any but have preferences if people want to know, or I'll just say I like ze/hir if it's obvious that people already know how to use that. So I pretty much only tell people irl if I'm sure they either already understand my pronouns or would be able to learn them easily. I simply do not trust squares with my pronouns
#the one time I told someone I preferred it/its#she tried literally once and then asked if she could use they/them because it's easier#so for me it's easier to just go ''you decide''#m.#ask box
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what is it abt getting into an argument w yr mother that instantly makes you suicidal .
#oh my fucking god i misunderstood something and made a face bc i was confused and then we were yelling. hell world#im like. angela we aren't taking the box cutter out. grow the fuck up#literally went from talking abt the weather to screaming at each other over something she fucking made up. i want to die so bad sometimes#so many incidents r like. what did i do tell me what i did. no i did not fucking mean it like that. and now you don't believe me cool#so so so often she just gets mad at me bc she doesn't like my expression or tone of voice but i don't mean it Like That i i never do i just#i have never been able to project any negative emotion ever including like. neutral confusion. nothing#'you're in your room all the time' yeah because i somehow fuck up every other time i talk to you and im tired of crying every three days
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