#she has the patience of a SAINT.

[intertexts]

been helping our admin w/ inventory stuff for the fall also (tons of big heavy boxes that need to go all over the place etc) & it's literally such a nightmare i think i would actually kill my self if that was my job

[luchaaa]

came to my attention by @senchee that revali would talk with his hands and i... totally agree yeah he would. anyways he would probably smack everyone at some point (but after the first time, never daruk. never.)

[duusheen]

Businesswoman

[thefirstknife]

The thing about the final lore tab is that, besides the fact that I'm devastated in ways I can't put into words, the way Saint was affected by this whole thing is unique.

This is obviously primarily Osiris' trauma that we can't really properly comprehend, but Osiris wasn't fully conscious for most of it. It fell to Saint to wait, and hope, that Osiris would be brought back and that he would wake up. There was no certainty for him there. And even before that, he watched "Osiris" being strange and distant and acting weird but obviously nobody could even begin to speculate that the person he interacted with wasn't Osiris at all, so the trauma went from there, from learning that he lost Sagira, then to the shock of Osiris being kidnapped and then the quest to bring him back and then him being brought back in a coma and then the 9 long months of waiting until he woke up.

The state of constant anxiety he experienced for almost 2 years total is nervewracking and gutwrenching. I don't think we can fully understand the impact of that on someone. And the best, or worst, thing is that Saint is infinitely patient. He is infinitely emotional and merciful and opts to be the better person and to wait and wait and wait. And hope that it can be fixed.

Except it can't. It can't be fixed. And not only can it not be fixed, but there will never be justice for it. It's impossible. There isn't a way to truly punish Savathun for what she's done. There is no relief or catharsis for Saint. While Osiris can mostly move on, Osiris did not really have to go through what Saint had to go through. Their traumas are different and Saint's is the type that no one can really understand and there is nothing he can do about it.

A younger Saint would've killed Immaru and then Savathun, 100%. But now he can't, because he isn't that person anymore. And yet, the grief and trauma remain and he has no outlet for them and nothing that can be done to enact any sort of justice. So he settles for pure rage, letting himself essentially vent that anger out, but still leave everyone alive. And there's really no true release here. He got a brief satisfaction of killing Savathun over and over, but at the end of the day, she will walk away and nothing will change and there will be no fix.

Which is why he comes back and just cries. As he said, this wasn't for Osiris, it was for him. It was his outlet for anger and nothing else. After that, there's nothing else left to do but cry. No one can really help him carry the burden of what he's gone through and besides: he's a Titan. He's the one carrying other people's burdens. Which just added to the trauma because for so long he's only cared for others, mostly for Osiris, and never really let himself fully grieve or talk about it. Saint never really processed the horrifying ordeal of constant concern for his loved one, then the realisation that his loved one isn't even with him, then the desperate search and then waiting for months and months for the hope that his loved one might wake up. Then Osiris is awake and we're forced to play allies with the person who traumatised both of them in an incomprehensibly terrifying way. Saint had no other way of attempting to make his peace with the situation.

Year of processing grief. I'm in shambles.

[specialagentartemis]

I do have Sevika character thoughts though, and I'm really interested in where season 1 leaves her. Sevika is loyal to Silco, but doesn't like Jinx. She's frustrated with Silco giving Jinx such leeway to do What Ever Violence she wants, and compromising his ideals for Jinx, and letting her make trouble for everyone and not doing anything to rein her in. The chem-barons weren't able to convince her to betray Silco for that, but the fact that she's near boiling over with frustration over this state of affairs was obvious to them!

Sevika believes in Silco's goals and grudgingly tolerates Jinx for that. Jinx doesn't seem to believe in much of anything except getting to face the world that hurt her and hurt it back. And now Silco is dead, and Jinx is throwing away any semblance of politics to launch a rocket at the Piltover Council, and I cannot imagine that Sevika will have any loyalty to Jinx at all. I'm hype for a season 2 power struggle between them for the remains of Silco's grip over the Undercity.

[katherinehoughtoncastle47]

6.21 - LAW & BOARDER

[birdstooth]

This is a really silly doodle that fits in with what is now an ongoing saga I guess 🤷‍♀️

(1) phantom obedience training, (2) positive reinforcement

EDIT: omg I forgot I wasn’t supposed to post this until the POLL finished 😭😭😭

far too many NOTES below the cut 🎶

As part of his ongoing efforts to be“good” Erik is learning doing his income taxes this year!

(Like he definitely 100% does every year! Multiple times even, just for fun!! And bc he is very extremely skilled!!!)

idk if they had income tax at that time tbh… but I feel like it would come up if Christine encouraged him go legit and negotiate a salary with the opera managers haha

Also Erik would prob be really excited about it, like “omg we are doing our income taxes together, like a HUSBAND and WIFE would!! 😍😍😍”

In my mind he gets unreasonably giddy imagining all the domestic activities that “normal spouses” might do together eg:

“we are brushing our teeth at the same sink, like a HUSBAND and WIFE!”

“She is tidying the inside of the lair house like a WIFE, while I am outside lighting the 300 candles that float on the lake like a HUSBAND!”

“My WIFE is making dinner while I do the HUSBAND task of drowning intruders feeding the siren!”

[tell-them-the-north-remembers]

Cersei murdered several of Robert's bastards (some in their cradles) and sold one of the mothers into slavery but sure, Cat is evil for not wanting Jon to sit with them at a feast. What a horrible woman for... just trying to ignore the bastard her husband brought to their home and said would be raised here with their own children 14 years ago???

[tenebriism]

fragmented-tales : Twilight would build a house for their family if she stayed in Hyrule, let's be real-

She has very... PARTICULAR and HIGH standards, Twi. Are you certain you want to stress yourself out with such an impossible task?

[unsiredtribrid]

Freya randomly telling Keelin she can’t marry her because she realized she can’t have kids two hours before their wedding? DHDJJFJ

[theoldandnewfirm]

What hurts me most about 'Later Never Comes' is that it's not just Scrooge being greedy and uncaring, it's about him processing trauma in a toxic way. He was scarred for life by his father being put away and all the pressures of keeping his family alive falling on him. He hordes money hoping to feel safe, and secure, to not be afraid of that pressure again. He think's if he gets enough, he'll be okay. He won't feel it, and Isabelle knows this. He has to accept he's going to feel it, he's going to be afraid, and she can help him get through it it. But he's so scared of that that he chooses his unhealthy coping mechanism over her and it's not all his fault and that kills me.

You nailed it.

And honestly, I think it wouldn't have been as bad if Jen had lived. She was probably the one person who truly understood him and could have recognized, and encouraged him to curb, thoughts and behaviors stemming from their misfortune.

But with her gone, there's no one left who relates to him. Isabel may have helped him through the visceral aspects of his grief, but (presumably) having faced no hardship in her own life I don't think she would have been equipped to counsel him about the dangers of his coping mechanisms in a way that resonated with him.

Which leads to the situation you described: Isabel offering him a lifeline but him not trusting it/her enough to accept it. So, she cuts the rope.

[vicompte-de-latarteaucoing]

No one :

Not a single soul :

My aunt at midnight :

Translation : «Latest news : Nasir returns his broom ; Blake learns to shine his shoes and Mortimer learns to make tea.»

[tinknevertalks]

What the hell? Scully has a, "I just knew," and Mulder poo-poos her, but he, "just knew," Sidney was a past life and...? Ugh.

At least Scully's there going lambasting Mulder for not telling Skinner he thought Sidney was a past life.

But damn, the double standard this man has.

[squeezysreservoirofcookies]

Spy's pullout game is HORRENDOUS

[kitramune]

It is once again time to post this pic of my rabbit

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

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